#also the three of them and that post thats like if youve never been in cahoots i feel sorry for u real cahoots will change ur life

[guinevereslancelot]

if they put abby and hoyt together that's just unrealistic. why would either of them go for eachother with calian right there

[propertyofwicked]

SMITTEN - LN

ln x reader, platonic!grid x reader SMAU

based on this request ✧ my inbox is open ✧

warnings: none, just a little swearing throughout - also she's a short one

masterlist the playlist

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yourusername 10 years ago today, i competed in my final karting race in order to pursue my dream career - and i would do it all over again, especially when i still get to spend my days with these losers

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maxverstappen1 losers?? i think you mean losers and three time world champion, no?

⤷ yourusername they're not mutually exclusive

charles_leclerc proud of everything you've achieved mon amour

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yourusername thank you mclaren for having me today! trying to get the drivers to sit down and answer my questions may have shaved a few years from my life but i had fun regardless!

check out the video on youtube now!

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mclaren thank you for babysitting! 🧡

⤷ yourusername id say anytime but the curly haired one kept asking "why" after every sentence :/

⤷ landonorris babysitting? nah, milf training comment has been deleted

⤷ landonorris ….why?

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⤷ username1 "lovely" 👀

username5 working hard or hardly working?

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oscarpiastri 🧡

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yourusername taking a break from being your favourite journalist to become the ultimate stray cat whisperer

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⤷ username5 i refuse to believe this is real

⤷ oscarpiastri pretty sure i just heard him meow honestly

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⤷ charles_leclerc lando please stop you're embarrassing youself

⤷ maxverstappen1 no charles, let him cook

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⤷ maxverstappen1 thats what im hoping for

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username8 she's so beautiful i dont know if i wanna be her or with her

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⤷ yourusername ma'am??? im 2 years older than you not 20

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yourusername test drive

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username3 test drive? THE CAR OR LANDO?

⤷ username12 that is not lando - surely???

charles_leclerc its june 24th.

⤷ pierregasly he's only gone and done it

⤷ charles_leclerc i fear i will never recover from this

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⤷ username3 this confirms it OH MY GOD

username7 what car do you drive?

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yourusername back to work, and back to mercedes for the first time in a while! keep your eyes peeled for some race week content coming your way!

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georgerussell63 right well that's just cruel y/n. please violate lewis JUST ONCE

⤷ yourusername lewis didn't have a habit of running me off the track repeatedly

⤷ georgerussell63 that was ONCE. 14 YEARS AGO.

⤷ yourusername that's a strange way of apologising

⤷ username14 sometimes i forget she used to kart with like half of the grid

⤷ username14 like girly out here interviewing her childhood friends every week

mercedesamgf1 i feel like we need context for the last image, y/n

⤷ yourusername there are some things you will never know, admin

landonorris come back to mclaren tf?

⤷ yourusername soon 🤫

username4 lewis actually took part in social content? don't give me false hope i beg of u

⤷ yourusername not only did he take part, but he served cunt whilst doing so

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⤷ yourusername probably for the best grandpa 💖

username15 sorry is everyone just ignoring lando being desperate in the comments?

⤷ yourusername if we ignore him, he'll go away

⤷ landonorris wrong. ill get worse! hope that helps x

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landonorris milf.

⤷ yourusername im not a mother??

⤷ landonorris *yet.

username3 wait how short is she? 'cos lando is not that tall i SWEAR

maxverstappen1 don't you mean...cougar?

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lilymhe that should be me holding ur hand

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⤷ landonorris devoured.

username15 does he not get bored of you asking him questions all the time?

⤷ yourusername not really, 'cos when i run out of work related questions i spiral into asking if he's mad at me every 20 minutes

⤷ username6 honestly so real for that

[gamblersdoll]

Hi!!! Can u do genya x super model! Fem Reader? :3

hi baby, yes!

cw: no nsfw, semi stalker genya? super model reader, love from afar.

‘shapeshifter.’

thats what your name was across the country, many countries at that. its what youve been called since you were a child, a child born with features no other had. you were a beautiful child, your eyes sparkled with joy and energy.

and as you grew older, millions grew so fond of you, sending you gifts and letters. praises, expressing love, confessions, the nitty gritty. youve ignored most of them, them all being the same thing that meant one thing: only fame, clout chasers.

yet, one stood out to you. the last name saying ‘shinaguzawa.’ he seemed like a sweetheart, expressing compassion and empathy. expressing concern for any mental health issues or just if you had a heavy strain on your heart. it only moved you, also excited you when you realized he was within your region.

yet, for genya’s end, he felt like such a stalker. it worried him, but hell— who wouldnt do this for you!? you were ethereal, always looking like a barbie dolly one day, and then a grim brat doll the next.

he loved how you expressed yourself, going to each one of your meet and greets with the three idiots and then muichiro. always lurking to see you up close, whipping his phone out and videoing you for just a couple of minutes.

this wasnt wrong, anyone would do this for their favorite model.

he loved how you always expressed how natural beauty was sexy, and he always agreed silently. yet, also never argued with how you also mentioned that any cosmetic changes to yourself wasnt a crime. he loved every word your perfect lips could spew, and oh god.. the media.

the twitter videos, that was a whole ‘nother story for him to keep to himself.

some people do tease him for having s username of ‘shapeshifterluvrboy’ and always being found in a shapeshifter video or photo. dont even mention him just gooning under your ‘Instagram’ posts that occur once every blue moon.

he knows this is perverse, he knows this is stalkerish when he knows your personal deetz, but again, he thinks to himself..

how could this possibly be wrong?

[horsegirlwarcrimes]

bury's tips to ACTUALLY combat writer's block

a lot of the time when you hear writers talk about writers block and what you can do to fight it, the advice that you hear is 'just write'

i took this to be true for a long time, and it's not the worst advice or whatever. at the end of the day anything you want to get done w writing does need to be solved by simply writing. but it took me until i was writing much more regularly to realize that actually thats nonsense

there are totally things you can do to help w writers block! ive been experiencing a bout of it recently, so i thought id share some tips partially to help out those who might read this, and partially to help myself out of that same slump

FEEDING THE MACHINE. in my experience, a lot of the time writers block is less of a blockage getting in the way of a flow of creativity and more like a machine running out of fuel. thoughts, ideas, and emotions CAN come from nowhere, but... usually they are coming from somewhere! i get my worst writers block when i am bored, under-stimulated, or stuck in my real life. try getting out into the world and doing something you don't usually do. this can be wild and exciting, or small and plain. take a different route home than usual, go for a drive somewhere cool, take yourself to a garden, bookstore, museum. if you're stuck at home try a new hobby; draw a weird picture, bake something, bird watch. this is really my top advice for myself at least, and something i have to remind myself when im despairing my own worth and dedication as a writer. you cant pour from an empty cup! you cant make something out of nothing! theres no point scraping yourself dry without trying to fill yourself back up.

FEEDING THE MACHINE... DIFFERENTLY. same principal applies here, but with what stories you are consuming. what actually got me to start writing and posting fic regularly was starting work in publishing that meant i was reading 1-2 books/manuscripts every day. they were often outside my usual reading genres, and sometimes i genuinely hated them... but they were food for the machine. the brain doesn't care if you like books about cows, the brain cares about variety and expanding its horizons. read something new and interesting! try a classic. try getting into queer classics you've never heard of if you're tired of old white men. read a murder mystery or a biography of a cool person or the history of the romance novel or frued's melancholia. try that new fantasy novel youve heard good things about. even if you only end up reading three chapters, thats still something new youre giving your brain. documentaries are also great for this if you're not feeling a new book; sit back and learn something.

CLEAN UP YOUR ENCLOSURE. humans feel yucky when we're in a yucky environment. cleaning is often exhausting and annoying and it sucks, but so is sitting in an environment that makes you feel bad. try clearing off your desk or table. set something nice you like nearby! choose a sunny spot to work in.

TALK YOUR IDEAS OUT. i really struggle with this one, because i dont like bothering people and im really embarrassed about my ideas, especially in the planning stage. it can really help though! try talking to yourself in the shower like you're being interviewed about your work. try going on some chat site, find a stranger to talk to, and infodump until they leave (or stay and you've made a new friend!). ask around for someone who wants to chat ideas; you can share yours, they can share theirs. if you have a loved one who would listen, ask if they would sit down for 45 minutes and let you talk.

LIMIT DISTRACTIONS. this one also sucks but yknow. turn on forest: stay focused. close discord. ask your dog politely to stop barking. get off tumblr and stop writing advice posts about writers block. turn on some ambient music and rain noises or chappell roan's red wine supernova on loop.

may add to this later as i think of others, but the point here is that writer's block isn't laziness and, even if you do in the end just need to write, there are ways to uplift yourself and make doing so more pleasant. these also dont fully apply to what i think the actual cause is of what we often call 'writer's block,' which is just exhaustion and lack of free time; i wouldn't consider that in itself writer's block. these tips are more for when you have that time, or you're making it, but you just cant seem to make it happen.

[rainbowstargazerlilies]

Mechs Ships Tournament: Shipping Round 5 Poll 2

Propaganda:

Arthur/Gwen/Lancelot:

that one post where its like theyre the us government but if it actually did whst it said it did. three different people of equal power keeping each other in check. also they aLMOST SAVED THE STATION WITH THE POWEROF LOVE [Pollrunner's note: post here]

POLYAMORY

I just love them a lot and blood and whiskey is so good and ”maybe just this once there could be a happy ending” makes me cry every time 

blood and whistey

the track where they decide

Polymechs:

They're inseparable they hate each other they would die for each other they actively enjoy killing each other ect ect ect

Look they're immortal and stuck in a spaceship you don't think they've hit all possible combinations over the years and settled into a weird comfortable vibe you can only get if youve murdered, been murdered, and had sex with every one (maybe minus nastya) of your friends?

immortal space pirats.... cuddle piles, romantic... not romanticm... poly mechs <3

(Points to every album) there thats my propaganda. But in all seriousness they are a group of immortals with nothing to do but sing and love each other in their own fucked up ways <3 

Chaotic little guys on a ship for a long time, the relationship web they got going on could rival the coven web

you cant tell me you would live with people for millions of years without it getting even a little gay.

Polygamy

when you spend millennia doing music and violence and shenanigans with the same 8 other people on a ship (and when the ship is technically another person), there's bound to be some group canoodling

i care them

they're everything to each other!!!

i refuse to pick

it’s polymechs!! what isn’t to love

Look at them.

how could you pick individual ships when they are so good together!! with the exception of nastya + jonny cos they are siblings your honour.

a lot of people have polymechs with her and aurora being monogamous but she canonically has queer orgies. on mechs tumblr account she describes herself as "The only one seemingly capable of a committed, responsible and fair relationship" so polymechs with all of relationships besides nastyaurora being on and off and everchanging is both the best polymechs and the most canon compliant polymechs to me

The idea that they're crewmates. You ask one of them what their relationship is with another and they say, "That's my crewmate". And then, maybe one of them meets someone on another ship, and they mention they don't have strong feelings about someone because, "they're only my crewmate" And they just cannot comprehend the idea of being crewmates with someone and not having strong feelings about them. They're immortal and half of them hate life, but even if that wasn't true, they'd die for any of the others a million times over. They've murdered billions of people on a whim, but even if that wasn't true, they'd murder anyone if it made one of their crewmate's lives a bit better. Remember how Tim blew up a moon for Bertie? He had only known Bertie for about 10 years. What would he do for people he had known for about 10 millennia? What would Ashes do for the people who would never betray them? What would Nastya do for the people who would always spend time with her and never die? What would Brian do for the people who would always forgive him for following his beliefs? What would Raphaella do for the people who are always willing to help her with her experiments? What would Ivy do for the people who'd always stay and tell their stories? What would the Toy Soldier do for the people who only ordered it to do what it wants to do and always lets it be involved? What would Jonny do for the people he could never permanently hurt? What would Marius do for his family? They all love each other more than anything, even if they don't have the words for it. (via @mchasmfiend)

Other Poll This Round Here :)

[bulbabutt]

I haven’t watched TFP, but I was curious about your tag mentioning the TFP hated women so much that it drove you crazy on your Arcee design post, so may I ask what you mean?

(And like, yeah, Transformers being misogynistic isn’t a big surprise, but I’m asking for the specific problems TFP has, rather than say TFA, which I’m more familiar with)

((Still really fucking pissed at TFA Arcee’s treatment too, btw))

OOF OKAY WELL LETS SEE HOW LONG THIS GETS

number 1: agreed on the animated arcee treatment. that show suffered from the blackarachnia versus arcee dichotomy of women, the good and the bad, on top of the using a womans tragic backstory to push forward a mans character motivation. they did it TWO TIMES, with BOTH their female characters. their characters dont end up being their own because their backstories both feed in to their respective male counterparts motivations (optimus and ratchet) and like...... while i LOVE animated they didnt do a very good job at all with the women (sari is more so a child character as a whole than a woman character, but also something something all 3 women are like biologically weird plot devices? so thats. hrm. also the oversexualization of sari when shes forcibly aged. also shes south asian and so the oversexualizing hits harder etc etc) basically its a whole can of worms but a good scene setter to talk about prime with.

so animated is cancelled because "the hub" network is making its own transformers show, but this ones written by the live action movie writers. uh oh. those arent written very well at all. i believe their intention was "you can write a movie but way longer and do more stuff" which isnt really... how that should work. anyway the way both minorities and women are represented by those bad movies is really bad, theyre very pro military anti minority conservative garbage that i genuinely think has warped a lot of young minds at the time and its a problem now. human women being objectified and placed as reward in the narrative and all that. robot women WE CANT DO ROBOT WOMEN THATS TOO CONFUSING!!!! oh ok you get one. ok she died. are you happy women? now a show written by them.

now on its surface, here we finally have a girl transformer in the main lineup, thats good! on its surface, arcee is a main character, a badass warrior. if youve been on my blog ive talked before about this weird mid 2000s switch up to making girl characters becoming less girly and more like. idk tomboyish? more cool and into guy stuff, that kind of comes about from the ALL MALE writing teams going "well we dont know how to write a girl/we dont wanna be sexist" but they dont actually know how to write women. so arcee's characterization is like. oh shes cold and serious and has a tragic past. its like a dude character, how do we write tragic backstories for dude characters? we fridge their women. so we just do that in reverse. what they did with her was give her TWO tragic backstories, one being that her "partner" cliffjumper dies and shes mad and wants revenge. and the other is that her "partner" tailgate dies and she wants revenge. basically her motivations allllll revolve around men. its not about what she goes through, its all about that she's a "woman scorned". its not even that it implies romance, the show never gives you a clear picture of what "partner" actually means in either context. this is topped off by pairing her with a teenage boy. in fairness, three of the transformers get paired off with a kid, but oh boy do a lot of problems arise from this specific pairing.

so number one: women being objectified is a problem in general, but it comes across worse when the woman can turn into a literal object and you dont think about the repercussions of that. jack darby sees a cool motorcycle parked and he just... he sits his ass down on it. it violates her personal space, and then he continues to use her body to show off to teenage girls. this is the basis of their relationship, that she looked like a cool vehicle he wanted so he claimed her. yes, he didnt know she was a person, but narratively we do. this will continue to be a thing over the series, arcee is jacks object now, he owns her and thus can use her to show off. what does arcee think of being used this way? not important. outside of her relationships with jack cliffjumper and tailgate, we dont really know a damn thing about arcee. its all about her traumas over MEN. be it romantic or platonic, the show cant tell the difference, because jacks MOM enters the picture like "you seem to be out late with some GIRL who is she" and thus there is beef between the two. because... you know women.

speaking of jacks mom: she should have been in the show as a regular paired off with ratchet. shes a nurse and hes an ambulance. are the writers stupid? its so fucking obvious. but no, she exists to have beef with arcee on behalf of being jacks mom. which makes it more clear that they're trying to say..... SOMETHING weird about jack and arcee.... aaaaaand then as a romantic interest for fowler. shes here because of her son and romance partner.

arcee is this cool warrior whos done all this stuff and is trying to keep the world safe and her people a secret, BUT JACKS MOM THINKS SHES IN THE GARAGE! so she better get back there for his sake! also shes so cool and level headed and doesnt want to drag race a punk kid who's making fun of jack BUT THEN HE SAID SHE WAS FAT SO NOW SHE CANT HELP BUT BE MAD! thats basically her personality as it stands throughout the show. oh she also makes fun of bulkhead for showing emotion one time. cuz like.... girls! being! sexist! to! show! theyre! cool!!!!

anyway. theres an issue with the writing of all the kids, cuz their plot relevance is really weak and felt super forced to keep them all in the story, many other versions of tf have done this better, but they basically force a relationship between characters and say "yep thats it thats the set up every child has their own pet robot, done and done"

one of these kids is MIKO. oh miko. in a world in which this show was good they would have combined the child characters and just had it be miko, because this poor girl is so disrespected by the narrative. she's presented as a "wild child" and thus paired off with bulkhead, whos a big bruiser who now has to act as her handler. she gets into trouble with the transformers a lot, like sneaking on missions and not taking the disguise part seriously. cuz like....shes stupid or something! haha isnt that funny! shes an exchange student from japan, she offhandedly says things about getting detention and things about her home stay parents being afraid of her. we get NO ELABORATION. we meet jacks mom, we see raf's family, THIS PART NEVER COMES UP AGAIN. miko clearly has no support system outside of the transformers, and she is often disrespected and made fun of by jack specifically and the narrative never makes him feel bad about it. each kid feels ownership over their robot, and the most change she ever gets to go through is having bulkhead almost die and so she's sad about it (also this is the only time she has a heart to heart with arcee. ABOUT A MALE CHARACTER) like if we could combine all the kids traits into one kid and have it be miko, a wild child whos good with computers and make june darby her home stay mom who eventually notices she keeps being missing that would make it way stronger of a character. also shes suffering from that alt asian girl colour streak syndrome, cuz she wouldnt be characterful enough if she wasnt also alt. if she didnt like punk music and monster trucks who would she be? the writers dont care.

and then for our LAST girl character we have blackarachnia I MEAN AIRACHNID. totally new character. uh. okay so you know how blackarachnia in animated was just like.... a succubus? which felt bad there? its worse here. shes a very one dimensional villain, which is fine, but they couldnt even keep her as being arcee's arch nemesis without literally redoing the same backstory they had just given her with cliffjumper. first they write cliffjumper as her partner and he's killed by starscream. then okay, arcee has an old nemesis from cybertron and thats airachnid what did she do? kill her PREVIOUS partner tailgate.

o_____O

you just....... you did it again? are you serious? they could only think of ONE way a woman would have any motivation and they just. did it two times. and they made that the basis of the whole beef, so even though this story could be the one to give you some toxic yuri ass relationship between these two women, it literally ends up being about men. AND THEN it's "shes gonna kill jack, arcees NEW partner"

do you see what im getting at? every woman revolves around men. they cant have motivations outside of men. they cant have any traits that make them interesting on their own. and even then, they dont know what to do with airachnid when she joins the decepticons so they just have megatron try to get her killed and she fucks off for a while, coming back to be turned into a LITERAL. LIIIIITERAL SUCCUBUS at the end. im not joking, they make her suck the energon out of men and shes on moon somewhere just doing that and thats how her story ends. like you can tell they casted a lot of bigger voice actors and had to get rid of them somehow but JESUS. double down on the issue with animated blackarachnia here ffs

aaaand. im pretty sure thats all the women. but yeah. none of them are well characterized, none of them have much agency if any at all. and on top of that, they are NOT allowed to be girly. arcee isnt pink PURELY because it would be weird to have a boy ride a pink motorcycle. arcee actually HATES pink (even though she is partially pink) and the writers literally make her say that. like why. just to show off "see shes not a GIRLY girl. shes just a girl"

like prime is bad for many reasons, like its depiction of disabled characters, turning bumblebee into raf's pet robot (who raf can magically understand without ANY explanation) without a care in the world for what he thinks or feels until he can speak again. like theres smalllll amounts of times he gets some good characterization, but for the most part he has no agency (see speed metal, an episode where jack asks RAF's permission to use bumblebee in a race, not bumblebee cuz he cant talk how could he have a choice). theres also weird characterization of bulkhead, which didnt really hit me until seeing him in RID alongside that grimlock, its only 2 black voiced characters who are very violent and clumsy and not very smart. uh. thats not good! there's also levels of homophobia to its depictions of starscream and knockout, things we can look back on now like "haha its camp" but at the time like. no they were writing it that way cuz its funny that they're queer. starscream being a complete fop IS the joke. calling him a "stiletto heeled freak" IS the joke. its a really bigoted show on top of just being written SUPER poorly. so you can all around TELL its written by the writers of the movies.

this got ramble-y but you activated my trap card, prime is the worst show because its presents itself as super cool and serious and dark while being written by bigoted idiots who couldnt write their way out of a wet paper back. "oh we ran out of money to pay this actor so we killed their character" THEN STOP MAKING BRAND NEW CHARACTERS MAKING YOUR TEAM DESIGN MODEL AND RIG THEM AND HIRING BRAND NEW PEOPLE TO PLAY THEM EVERY 2 EPISODES JUST TO HAVE THEM NARRATIVELY DO NOTHING AND THEN DIE!!! dumb. dumb show. dumb show so stupid. so stupid and it thinks its not stupid because its so so stupid. (doing the frankie from community bit cuz this is the way i calm myself down cuz the show makes me so mad because its so stupid lmfao)

[batw1nggg]

Is there a post you've made about why komaeda and mikan together is toxic or can you explain what you mean by the patient/doctor thing? I don't ship it I just also don't know why it would be bad

so i’ve gotten some good input from other anons before on why this doctor/patient dynamic is a terrible idea. komamiki can only be healthy if they gradually come to see each other as equals - if you’ve gone through mikan’s FTEs, youd see why mikan having a romantic partner medically dependent on her is. a recipe for disaster lol. ESPECIALLY since we are talking about pairing mikan with The terminally ill (x2! cancer and dementia!) character. he’d be so heavily reliant on her just for basic quality of life and it would become so ugly SO quick. mikan’s desire for control + komaeda’s belief in his inherent inferiority to the ultimates = bad bad bad bad.

also. just talking about doctor/patient dynamics in general. like this is a thing in the medical world that you Cannot operate on a loved one like imagine having to do an extremely intricate heart surgery on like your mom or something and you botch it like her own kid fucked her up for life thats Gonna Get Messy. and in therapy too im pretty sure it’s against the code to date a client because again. you shouldnt be dependent on a partner to heal. it’s just professionalism

point three. that is a gay man and a lesbian 👍 and also they kind of just straight up hate each other. you saw chapter 3 (‘oh ko but mikan was despaired thats why they hated each other’ no. she was sick of his bullshit.) in the anime he straight up knocks her to the ground to get to makoto. Theyre Beefing and not in the cool enemies to lovers tension way they just. Clash. personality wise

anyways I’ve said this before and i’ll say it again. the ugliness of their dynamic has the potential to be very interesting to explore (platonically. for me. see point three). there’s undeniably an understanding of each other’s minds between the two (after trial 3 when mikan’s like ‘you dont understand? is that because youve never been loved? i feel sorry for you’) theyre people who have both lived loveless lives, they see that in each other. and, in this case, mikan uses this understanding as a way to attack komaeda on a deeply personal level. because She Gets It too.

the issue is when shippers try to masquerade them as able to be healthy right off the bat and ignore all of these blaring red flags when examining these blaring red flags is. literally The thing that makes them interesting. it’s so watered down and Heterosexual its. ugh. Blehhhhh.

[the-holy-ghosted]

Putting on my sunglasses again wow hello another anon about Ghosted (2011)

Care to share your thoughts about what happens after the final scene like wow how do these characters spend the remainder of their sentences after such dramatic events. one really does have to wonder *points the microphone in your direction*

ok putting on my spoilers hat again but im not putting it under a cut. if you feel like watching ghosted then dont read this post. if you dont feel like watching ghosted then feel free to listen to my rambling madness

anyways i think that after the final events of the film where jack and paul """reconcile""" and it cuts off i think they do truly reconcile afterward. i dont think theres a bone in either of their bodies that is not enraged beyond belief over what the other has done to them but theres also no bone thats not wracked with guilt for what theyve done to the other in return. very deeply, they believe they owe each other. although it was jacks own fault for getting put in prison, i think paul very much does feel solely responsible for having ruined his whole family. (something something do we remember jacks "what do you know about it? what its like? to take someone's life and know that youve ruined so many others?" that he spat at clay.. i think paul knows very intimately) and he feels he owes jack what he can never give him. he owes him a son, for one thing. indirectly, he owes him a wife. he owes him a happy family he couldnt return to after doing so much time for a mistake that ended in the loss of a life and although it was pauls own fault for getting put in prison, for what its worth, what else did he have going for him? he had no stable family and no consistent friendships and paul was essentially forced to grow up impossibly fast and skip out on all the nice parts of growing up. having people who loved him. who wanted to take care of him. who knew him and who he didnt have to lie to. at the end of the day yes paul did it and it hurts jack more than he could ever tell him but hes so young... jacks already gotten his payback. god hes probably responsible for so much physical and mental damage and weeks upon weeks upon weeks of physical therapy that will get paul to a place that is funtional but nowhere near as capable as he was before. paul ruined his life but hes ruined pauls, too. in a way he owes it to him to take care of him for that. he owes paul some semblance of stability. and for jacks own sake, he needs to keep an eye on him and make sure he doesnt ruin anybody elses lives. to make sure nobody else hurts him.

in a nutshell i do think they stick very close together after their altercation. for the remainder of their sentences and to an extent once they get out, too. who else do they have, now? neither of them have anybody they want to see outside waiting for them. they have destroyed each others whole lives and they need to keep each other as close as possible because of it. theres no moving on from this whatsoever with what they know of each other and how theyve already bonded in the three months they were together. what can they do but stay that way? they will collect what they are owed from each other one way or another

... also this is only partially related but i do believe that for the entirety of jacks time in solitary confinement, he didnt know that paul was alive. he was fully convinced that he'd killed paul and was able to come to terms with that. i think it just adds a good layer of emotion on top of everything to think that hes only informed that pauls been asking for him, tha tpaul is alive, after hes let back in with the rest of the wing. he didnt prepare himself for this outcome and, as depicted in the scene, looks to donner in disbelief and then starts to cry before he even sits down next to paul. i think it would be good. i think it would hurt him real bad

[leave-your-body]

hiiii juno :)))) ive been getting really into mcr lately and with you being my Certified MCR Mutual tm i thought you could give me some recs maybe .............. so far I've only listened to the black parade and i really liked it :))))

HI ARI how have u been!!!!!!!!! i love u my king i hope u are Well.

now.. HEAVY BREATHING. Yes i will give u recs.. THANK YOU FOR THINKING OF ME this made me really really happy!!!! sorry if this is way too in depth btw unfortunately i cant be casual about Anything

so for recs, it really depends on what music u like!! i OBVIOUSLY recommend like, the entirety of three cheers for sweet revenge. its The mcr album imo (tho not my fav, but we'll get to that in a sec), like its the one that feels the most Them and there is not a single song i would skip. i recommend watching the music videos for these too (for this album, they have mvs for helena, the ghost of you and im not okay)

NOW. my FAV album is their first one. bullets is a MASTERPIECE and even tho Objectively i have to say its not their best one, in my heart it totally is. this is the album that got me hooked on them. im obsessed. OBSESSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! post-hardcore emo masterpiece... again this is a no skip album but like, more so than 3 cheers. i dont just listen to these songs i fucking Feel them. BUT that being said it depends on what kind of music u like!! for specific song recs, listen to vampires will never hurt u and skylines and turnstiles (<- this is the FIRST SONG gerard wrote for the band after 9/11... Wow), but my personal favs on that album are drowning lessons and demolition lovers and honey this mirror. Smiles

aside from that, youve already listened to black parade (the bsides are ALSO worth listening to, theres only 3: my way home is thru you, kill all yr friends, and heaven help us). danger days is their most hated album but i think those ppl just hate Joy and Whimsy and Fun. i recommend watching the music videos for na na na and sing bcuz they have a Storyline but thats a whole other post. and other than that i also rec listening to bulletproof heart, summertime and vampire money

LAST ONE I PROMISE. this is REQUIRED READING: listen to foundations of decay. their newest single..it changes lives i Promise. i say 'i must fix my heart' once a day at LEAST

AGAIN SORRY THIS WAS SO LONG!!! I HOPE U ENJOY MCR let me knwo what u think :) obviously dont feel pressured to listen to all of these or even any of them!! but thank u for giving me an excuse to talk about them haha. and if u need anything else mcr-related i unfortanetely know everything about them and am more than willing to help out. okay bye

[murdoc]

this is a weird post to make, but i dont really have many places to say it and i wanna share my thoughts Somewhere lol

so i found my dad after more than a decade of being out of contact with him (probably since 2010? at latest, very early 2011). or rather, after every few years of searching for a little while and coming up fruitless, he made a new facebook less than three weeks ago and i just happened to get Really lucky timing.

just before him i had also found my (former) step sister + mom, as well as my half sister (all sisters younger than me and previously i couldnt find), and.. its a strange experience to finally see people who used to be so close to you in your life show uo again, visibly older and doing their own thing.

its hard to explain.. its almost like youve woken up from a coma. you have memories and have had dreams of these people for years and years and during that time you never really realized that the image you have of them was one trapped in amber; even when youre cognizant of the passage of time, your mind just can't take into consideration the individualized process of aging, both physically and where the passage of time will take them and their relationships. you realize these people are now essentially strangers to you.

my (former) step mom has remarried again and has her own set of children (again), one of my step uncles ended up passing away, my step sister is no longer how i remembered her in 2007 from one of the few photos i have of her in my possession and is posting hippie white woman stuff on her feed, my half sister doesnt share my last name (paternal) anymore, nor her mother or new husband's, whom she is having a child with. i was able to figure out it was her because of the name and how she looks strikingly like her mom and has photos with my dad in them.

my dad himself has aged significantly since he's last shared a photo of himself anywhere. he used to always wear hats, but in a new photo he's got solid white hair despite being in his early 40s and is balding (HE did this to me..) and finally learned what glasses suit his face better LMAO. honestly, he looks better now than he ever did when i've seen him. which i think was one of the biggest shockers because god he looked so lame. this also gives me hope for myself B)

the thing i noticed the most though is how "normal" him and my half sisters turned out. granted, he was always so much more put together than my mother-- i'm sure thats why they didnt really like each other lmao. but, while im not sad about my life, even if it's definitely different than i assumed for my age, i can't help but wonder where i'd be if i had allowed myself to overcome the fear of my mother and went to go live with my dad like we had planned in 2008 or 2009.

however, just from how hard it has been to piece together the state of that side of my family, i don't think any speculation could even be remotely accurate. ive also never really been one to dwell on what could be anyway. at the end of the day i cant undo how horrific my childhood was, but i can make steps to grow from it and learn to love who i am and where i am now.. for how cheesy that sounds 😭

i am glad i finally got a bit of closure on this though. i knew my dad was still around somewhere, but not knowing anything beyond "he's alive" for so long left me with a lot of questions, now mostly answered. it's nice to know he seems to be doing good and that he's there for my younger sisters (not sure about my step sister, but i have an additional half sibling that i never met beyond a few times as a toddler and it seems she's fine too). i know that social media doesn't tell all and is usually finely curated to share the best moments, but i'm saying this in comparison to my mother who would never in a million years do what he seems to be doing.. down to having custody of his kids LMAO.

i don't think i'll ever reach out to any of them though. i know my dad still thinks of me once in a blue moon, as he's dedicated a birthday post to me some years ago on a now deleted profile, but if you can imagine.. i think my change in the last 13 years or so is a bit more drastic than just growing up. not to mention they have their own lives going on and it all seems just fine.

i guess if he ever does try to find me, he'll find out that my former step uncle (different one who is still alive) who teased him about only having girls was wrong LMAO. but i dont think he could ever find me unless he got in contact with my older sister who isn't doing too hot rn, or my mother.... and if it's my mom he goes through, i sure as hell hope he thinks finding his now son was worth it. i sure as hell wouldnt go through talking with my mom if i was him.

i dont think i ever made a post so long and detailed about my life on here??? if someone fsr actually read this... hi :) why did you do that? you are silly

[strawberryscentedsoap]

"can i.. save the wish? like for later. i dont want to use it now," asks kayce.

"i suppose you could. it is a lot to think about, i could see why youd want to save it. ill be here as long as the wish remains. whenever you decide, open the lamp. itll let me out," replies the genie.

and back into the lamp the genie went. kayce set the top back on it.

the lamp itself looked more like a teapot than your stereotypical "genie lamp". aladdins depiction wasnt very accurate. it was white ceramic, with gold detailing around the lid and around a printed image on one side. the image was of a forest. it was autumn, with half the leaves on the tree haven already fell. a faerie covered by a leaf sat on the ground, staring into her own reflection using a mirror she held. the spout of the pot was curled a bit downwards. the handle matched the gold detailing of the lid. gold brought together the whole autumn scene.

kayce stuffed the lamp/pot into her bag. it barely fit, with all the rope and knives and canned foods, and meds, and any other ridiculous item she would never have had it not been the apocalypse. she had been living this way for about a year now. laying low, finding safe people and sticking with them when she could. avoiding any military personel. staying far away from churches. not bothering to check if that person had a pulse anymore. raiding what was left of shops.

it was less apocalypse and more post-world war three. the only apocalyptic thing about the world now was the lack of civilisation. other than that, it was the same as before the bombings. there were still power-crazed politicians hiding out in the rich cities. still people who would hold you to gunpoint if you were different. still people who cared about the wrong things. she still didnt have a place to settle and breathe for a moment.

the only thing that was noticeably different to her was the lack of semi-sane people and she didnt have her apartment or job. she still "stole" things before the war.

it was all the same.

-

a couple months after the initial meeting of the genie, she was alone. she hadnt seen anyone for months. typically, this would be a good thing. no people trying to kill her. no one trying to convince her to turn to god (the religious freaks "sacrificed" people to try to stop the wars. it.. did not work. they just think it did or will or whatever). but there was also no one to tell her there was still a reaskn to not give up. no one to share her months old canned beans with. no one to look up at the sky with for a moment. no one to be a person with.

she opened the lamp.

the genie crawled out into her hand. it was a tiny little thing. looked like it could use an insect of some sort

to get around (but not an ant. probably something like a cicada or cricket or roach).

"i see youve decided. what is your wish?"

she hesitated. how do you tell a mythical being that you didnt actually follow their directions? at least it only had enough power for one more wish. surely it wouldnt waste its last little bit of magick on trying to curse her, if it could even do that.

"i, uh- i dont actually have one yet. i just needed a friend," she admitted. the genie quirked an eyebrow. "so, you wish for a friend?"

"no. i dont. i dont *want* a friend. i *need* a friend. its not a wish. not some extravagant item i could only have im my dreams. its a requirement."

it contemplated. "so, what do you want me to do?"

it was a long shot, but hopefully this worked. "is there a way you domt have to- yknow. go back in the teapot? couldnt you stay out here?"

the genie looked up at her. it had an extremely confused expression on its face.

"i mean. i suppose i could... do you wish for me to?"

kayce sighed, "no, i dont wish. if you dont want to or cant thats fine. it was a question and if youre not down, then you can go back."

it was quick to change its attitude. "no, no, no, no, no, no, no- i do- i want. i want to stay on the outside. outside is good."

she got it to break character. the genie really had no room to put the wall back up. the room was filled with rubble and couldnt be moved out of the way.

"great, then stay out here."

she reached into her jacket pocket, shuffling around a lighter and pocket knife to grab the bread she had been snacking on all day.

she offered some to the genie. "sorry, i dont really feel human pleasure. i get nothing from eating or drinking or drugs or falling from tall cliffs or stuff. my pleasure comes from playing with the magick. it settles.. things."

it showed no signs of wanting to elaborate. it was probably best not to ask anyways.

-

a year or two later, kayce didnt know. her sense of time has been screwed up since forever, the genie was sitting on top of the lamp staring at the stars. it didnt need sleep. it never got tired.

kayce had been having issues sleeping the past few nights. she thinks shes finally decided, but she doesnt known if itll work. she doesnt know if the genie can do it, or if itll even want to-

she turned over to face the lamp.

"is something bothering you?"

"no," she replied. it wasnt.. a lie. not the truth either, but it was all coming to light tonight anyways, she was sure of that much. she continued, "i just- i think i know what i want my wish to be."

the genie slouched into itself, dropping its chin into its hands. "what might that be?" its tone offered no information. no feeling, nothing to give away how it was feeling (she had learned that although it didnt feel pleasure, it could feel emotions, similar to humans, but less-so. there were some special genie-only emotions she had witnessed a couple times. that was a roller coaster. this time though, none of that was coming through).

"if its possible,

i wish,

for the two of us to be able to live together, happy, away from the harm. i want us to be able to be in a place completely free of the war and the suffering and all of it. im tired of it. its so draining, running all the time. but i still want you with me. i was terrified to ask this so hopefully its actually okay and you dont use all your magick and disappear.

please."

-

it turns out, the autumn setting on the lamp was a whole world. thats where the genie took them.

also turns out, the faerie was the genie. it was never a genie. it came out of the lamp (left its world for the human one) when humans opened the portal. the only reasom it granted wishes was it wanted to good for the world. it didnt realise how greedy and destructive and just- bad- humans were. until it met kayce.

or, until kayce found it.

thats why theyre here now. thats why, three years later, theyre happy.

kayce was the only human who wanted good for the both of them (no matter how many times she thought it was a bad idea because it felt selfish to ask that of the faerie).

when the last wish the faerie had enough power for was granted, the pot shattered. it was left in the field they were laying that night, under the stars. by now, maybe, it was washed away, or eroded, but layce never thought about it. she never thought about any of it.

maybe she shouldve.

but for once, she was happy, and so she didnt.

You’re living in a wasteland in a post-apocalyptic future when you stumble upon a magic lamp. The genie informs you there is only enough magic left for one wish. Choose wisely.

[one-sided-bbl]

breakup toolkit

hi klonni bib, its kylie

a little over three months ago i went thru.... A BREAKUP

its been really shitty, not as much anymore but some days are still hard

i really did love him and still do but i eventually realized i needed to move on, not necessarily onto someone else but just something else. this post is kinda more for myself but i present to you the BREAKUP TOOLKIT for anyone who needs it

let yourself cry, but don't reach out to them when you're in "emotion mind" as my therapist calls it, even tho when you let yourself cry and be sad youll probably want to text them

stop thinking about how to win them back or what you could have done for a different end result. its over for now and if youre meant to be together itll happen evenutally. focus on urself for now

take selfies, nothing compares to the sexy post-cry puffy eyes swollen lips selfie, plus u can look back at them later and laugh at how sad you were and appreciate that youre less sad now

avoid sad music for the first few weeks or maybe months. you have enough valid reasons to be sad dont make it worse

do listen to misandrist music (Fiona Apple's When the Pawn has helped me a lot, recommended to me by sophia)

dive back into a hobby you used to fill your time with when you were single

read a book or two (i'm ready everything i know about love, also recommended to me by sophia, and omg it helps so much)

hang out with your friends and celebrate that youll never have to decide between a party with your bf and his friends or watching a movie with the girls (ur bf's friends will never be as nice as your actual friends anyway)

give them their stuff back, stop holding onto that one CD he lent you so you have a reason to see him and return the CD because lord knows youre gonna leave feeling even more disappointed and it's just gonna reopen the wound

avoid places you guys used to hang out especially when he decides to still hang out there everyday

dont go on dating apps for the first few months, no one on hinge is going to be similar enough to your ex to help you get over them and it'll probably just make u want your ex even more

journal, but only when you feel like it. going thru a breakup is a grieving process and sometimes those feelings cant really be expressed in words and thats okay

find a new cafe that youre less likely to see your ex at

get a good vibrator if u dont already have

instead of trying to find someone to replace your ex, look for attractive people the opposite sex of your ex

get the haircut youve been thinking about

document every time you look sexy

remember your previous breakups (if applicable) and remind yourself of how you were able to get over it, and you will be able to get over this one as well

take it day by day

most importantly confide in your friends or whatevrr support system you have it helps 1000000%

this is all i can think of for now but i hope it helps anyone who might stumble across it :)

[shwarmii]

also last post i said my body was "likely-POTS-raddled" and like. that is very true BUT ALSO I WANNA VENT A LIL REAL QUICK

i get why i probably have undiagnosed POTS

i can't be outside in the sun/anywhere warm or hot for long without feeling nauseous and sick. meaning i might as well be agoraphobic with how little i go outside since i live in Southern California where our seasons are "hot" and "hotter" with a day or two of rain dispersed randomly. despite feeling like this, i only sweat sometimes, AND no matter what i do my circulation is so poor that i feel icy to the touch even though i feel like i am boiling. as a result, i have the a/c on always (to the point my mama has said i "live in a meat locker" lmao rip), tend to do errands late afternoon or evening, and prefer hanging out with friends into the night. a very frequent symptom of POTS is the body have an inability to regulate its internal temperature, resulting in heat making a lot of POTS patients feel nauseous. poor circulation is also common in POTS patients

while packing, i fainted about four times even though i was eating well-enough and whatnot, simply because i was bending up and down so often due (1) to these boxes i had to fill up and move about and, (2) instead of the usual "i sit for hours" stuff i do (due to chronic leg pain making walking/standing painful), i was taking breaks by sitting for a bit and then getting up. like i started to actually feel dizzy getting up/down even when i wasnt fainting (yet), like i could FEEL it almost happen. and when it would happen, it wasnt "oh, light black dots surrounding my vision with somewhat jelly-legs because i stood up too fast" that id get once in a while for my whole life (i forget if thats bc of low blood-sugat or low blood-pressure but still) but it was proper FULL BLACKNESS and my knees buckling all because i slowly stood up and took a step forward. i had to grab onto things to keep from hitting my head on the floor and got very lucky i didnt lose consciousness >> be unable to grab something and protect my head, bc i was risking getting a concussion from how i was Not Falling Safely (i never learned to fall safely, unfortunately). though a majority of POTS patients dont faint, it is a key-note symptom of the condition and usually happens when the person is going from sitting to standing and whatnot as their body disregulates and overracts to the movement

my medical practioners have gone "huh" and taken my heart-rate twice or three times bc it was "way too high". like. sometimes its been "a normal level of high, lots of people get a faster heart-rate bc going to the doctor makes them nervous" and thats my "normal" with them. but lately theyve been going "...okay let's do that again bc all youve done is walk over and sit down, i get youre severley anxious/have PTSD/have medical trauma but c'mon". apparently, it's common for POTS patients' heart-rate to disregulate and treat standing and walking over somewhere as rigorous exercise, which could explain my "way too high heart-rate"

and other symptoms (my chronic migraines, shakiness, chronic fatigue, brain fog, chronic memory loss, and so many more) and even masked-symptoms (i used to have a lot of shortness of breath so then i got REALLY GOOD at breath control very young to mitigate the issue, like to the point that singers in my life have complimented me on it and said its impressive (i cant sing well tho alas, its in my bucket list to take classes and develop the skill). but i still have trouble breathing after exertion of any kind, but i always have this memory of one P.E. teacher in my head forcing me to take a step back to regulate my breathing back, bc he once told us "Don't you ever stop breathing or hold it in or do shallow breaths when doing somrthing hard. Shit could kill you. Do you know how many old people die on the toliet because they held their breath as they tried to take a shit? Do you want that to be how you die? Your pants down, failing to take a shit? Breathe. Long and deep. Force it to happen. Don't you ever hold it in." lmao thanks, teach)

like

i gET IT. POTS IS LIKELY ONE OF MY (MANY) CONDITIONS

but also im not allowed to have POTS

because the only reason i already knew what POTS was when my friends started going "Hey. Hey, maybe you should look into POTS? Like, maybe ask your doctor about it?" (which she said i couldn't have it bc i dont faint (which i found out is untrue) and we have since discovered ACTUALLY I DO FAINT, i just dont bend up/down often and i also tend to stay seated for hours on end once i do sit) is because of tiktok. like. my fyp put me on POTS Tiktok and i stayed there for a few weeks bc a lot of POTS Tiktok is usually these women showing how their partner cares for them, that love and romance is possible while disabled, that their POTS didnt ruin their date but just meant the pair of them had to sit down on the floor for a while while their boyfriend helped raise their feet. very cute shit, it helped like a soothing balm on my internalized ableism ass' "nobody could ever wanna date me bc im sickly" heart. but yeah. so i was in that hub for several weeks and learned a lot of things about it via osmosis. but so many of these videos featured women fainting so i was like "lol not me" bc i hadnt started packing to move >> bent up/down a lot >> fainted several times yet. but yeah no i (jokingly) refuse to have POTS tho because then that shit means TIKTOK DIAGNOSED ME FIRST. ILLEGAL. NOT ALLOWED TO HAPPEN. NO. UNCONSTITUTIONAL BEHAVIOR. THAT ALGORITHM IS NOT ALLOWED TO HAVE DIAGNOSED ME FIRST, FUCK NO LMAO

[wazohoo]

hold on let me chronicle the crazy ass way i met my boyfriend rq:

- starts out with me being in highschool theatre. i was a bit of a slut (positive) and there were two boys who had crushes on me (this is important)

- one of them adds me to a discord (???) in order to win my affections (both of them are in this discord so im not sure what the plan was)

- the discord is basically split into two houses: one part is mostly theater kids from my highschool. the other, by some miracle, consists of boys from the local private school in our area*

*note: these two groups DESPISE one another. im not sure how the discord even worked to this day.

- the first guy introduces me to the private school boys, who are generally pretty cool and we get on pretty well

- one of the private school boys and i were chatting it up in dms, getting to know one another over our shared love or phantom of the paradise. he then asks me to a dance thats being hosted by their bougie ass school and offers to pay for dinner.

- i recognize “ah! this is a date type ordeal” and suddenly make the decision that while this dude is pretty cool, im way not into him like that, so i decline. he totally gets it and drops the subject

- a few days after this rejection i begin to regret turning him down, seeing as hes not a bad dude but more importantly after finding out the dinner would be at red lobster, and i can really fuck up some cheddar bay biscuits

- and suddenly, like an angel sent on high, one of my friends from the theatre company im in posts on her story what is, with lack of a better term, an advertisement for another boy our age on her instagram. now, this guy i recognize is in the aforementioned discord and also from the same private school as the first guy. however! the advertisement includes three things:

- his name and details

- the fact that he’s not a creep

- and the fact that he will pay for dinner

- so naturally, i slide up and ask for the deets. she gives them to me and a hit him up on discord. hes pretty awkward, seeing as we’ve literally never talked before, but we come to a mutual agreement that he needs a date and i need cheddar bay biscuits

- chaos ensues. my friends learn that im going on what is essentially a blind date with a rich private school boy and they are in shambles. my dating life is insane. the men are fuming. meanwhile, im picking out what dress will best cover the food baby i plan to have after eating about 17 cheddar bay biscuits.

- fast forward to the night in question. im looking great, i have a chin length bob, a tan velvet dress, and the ugliest fucking chunky velvet heels youve ever seen. the ensemble was truly a product of its time.

- as was tradition, all of the girls got ready at my house. one by one, their dates arrive (also private school boys.) one of the dates was the guy that first asked me to the dance. everyone arrives but one- my date.

- im checking the clock frantically, thinking “oh shit. ive been stood up” when suddenly a black honda civic rolls in. suddenly i am filled with dread as another teenage boy in a suit steps out. this is the most attractive man at the party, and holy shit, thats my date.

- now im panicking. the photos didnt do him justice. this guy was hot! i remember thinking “he didnt text like a hot guy? how is this possible” as hes walking in the door. his friends all greet him, and hes chatting with them until he walks over to me. we kind of mumble some greetings to eachother, both pretty awkward. the tension is palpable and everyone else is making fun of us until my mom walks in and demands pictures.

- we proceed to take what is, to this day, the funniest photo i have ever seen. there are two other couples on the group/ both of them are hugged up and clearly romantic in the photo. meanwhile me and the mystery man? a solid 5 feet apart. i wish i was kidding. it was like something out of a movie.

- after taking some horribly awkward photos we all move to get into our cars and head off to dinner. im sweating at this point. as i get into the mystery man’s car im panicking. my anxiety has set in- this outing is going to suck. it’s silent in the car for a good 30 seconds, only to be interrupted by

- “do you like music?” the question catches me off guard. what the fuck. ‘do you like music?’ what kind of question is that? i try to keep it together but suddenly im laughing. this would be extremely inappropriate- except now hes laughing too. i ask him what kind of question is that? and he replies i dont know, maybe you hate music. we’re laughing again

- several conversations happen in succession. we talk about the music. then we start talking about red lobster. this of course leads us to the song rock lobster, which he plays. we begin to talk about lobster economics and society under the sea. this is the strangest man ive met in my fucking life.

- we get to the red lobster and its an absolute blast. the food was terrible but the biscuits and the company are good. these are some of the funniest people ive ever met. i misjudged them, this table full of private school kids wasnt as bad as their reputation led me to believe.

- the dance goes equally well. me and the boy dont slow dance or anything but we knew it wasnt a ‘date’. i began to wish that it was. he wasnt a bad guy. one of the guys is wearing a pillows shirt under his suit. my guy was wearing a weezer shirt. pillows guy is breakdancing. the orderbs were fucking terrible. theres a photo booth. the whole thing is hosted in our local art museum and it is beautiful.

- were driving home, chronicling the wvents of the night. it was superb. as were driving back to my house he gets silent. were about to turn into my driveway when he blurts out “do you want to do this again?” i say yes. our first date is, keeping in theme, olive garden. we have been dating since.

[lunatic-fandom-space]

I was googling around bc I was looking for a particular fanfic and I found like three seperate reddit posts being like "uhm Why do people ship Sebastian and Ciel" and ??? Okay, listen, I realize that reddit is very different from tumblr especially in the way they talk and think about ships there but cmon. Come on. You cant find any reason why anyone would ship them? Like, I used to ship them in the past so maybe Im just more capable of empathizing with the Sebaciel girlies, it takes one to know one and all that but. Ughh idk man. I know this mostly stems from people being like "oguhgohugogu how could you POSSIBLY ship something with an AGE GAP like THAT" and, i dont know how to tell them that that some people just dont care about that. I do and it makes me a bit uncomfortable ngl but Im not gonna sit here and pretend like these two dont get a ton of moments that your average romantic ship enthusiast would kill for yknow

I mean come on. Sebastian will just carry Ciel around bridal style literally all the time and Ciel basically never complains unless someone points it out. The bit where Sebastian teaches Ciel the waltz. The Corset Scene. This doesnt have that much to do with their actual relationship, but Sebastian regularly takes on the role of Ciels teacher and a lot people have a bit of a kink for that. That moment towards the end of the circus arc where theres liquid trailing out of Ciels mouth bc he just vomited and hes panting and shit and Sebastian is grabbing and/or caressing his face being like "call my name~". That part where Sebastian gives him his ring back immediately followed by Ciel asking him to stay with him until he falls asleep. You know whats really popular right now, especially online? Couples where they like, love each other obviously but they also bicker and banter and LoWkEy HaTe EaChOtHeR UwU. yea. And thats all just the obvious palatable stuff I could come up with off the top of my head, dont even get me started on the sensuality in wanting to eat another persons soul

I dont really know what my point with this is tbh. I guess it was just me kinda ranting a little bc its annoying to me that some people cant see why Sebaciel was literally the most popular ship in the fandom even though its incredibly obvious if youve been on the fandom side of the internet for more than a month yknow. And again, I dont ship them either I just like, have eyes and some knowledge on what people on the internet like to ship. My personal opinion on Sebastian and Ciels relationship is that in order to actually properly assess it, you cant really put it in any of these boxes of romantic, platonic, familial because its more complicated than that and its more interesting and fun to just analyze them without putting labels like that on their realtionship (at least for me)

[spicy-tomato]

Hello can you do a post about maybe Swaggersouls when he thinks that the reader is bored of him. When she actually was only with zuckles on some party and he thought he was with someone else because she didn't answer the phone. (the battery died) some angst please also have a nice day.

okay lets go boys! this isnt nsfw but its long so im gonna do a keep reading cut. mentions of drug use and alcohol so be warned

You and swagger had been together for about a year now and with his revent streaming schedule it was getting harder and harder to spend time with him. That doesnt mean you dont love him, you just wished he would spend some time with you instead of you falling asleep in an empty bed while he streams. A few days ago you had been invited to a party with mason, so you decided why not? Maybe itll cheer you up after months of going to sleep alone and waking up to a still cold bed. You kept trying to tell swagger but he would just brush you off, so you said fuck it and went.

Zuckles

You here yet cunt?

You sigh and text him back a quick yes before walking in and spotting him. It wasnt a huge party but there were a good few people there, most drinking or smoking on the porch as you smiles and made your way through the crowd.

“Took you long enough! I set up some shots for us” you smile as he passes you a shot glass and you down it quickly. He drags you to the kitchen and sets up more shots. You and him down them quickly before grabbing some beers and moving to the smoke circle, passing the bong in a circle until someone tapped out.

“Thanks for inviting me mase, this is a nice break from whats happening” you sigh and drink more of you beer, finishing it off before standing up. “Do you want anything? Im gonna go grab another beer.” mason shakes his head and you head back to the kitchen and grab a beer before stopping and looking at the table. You see a few bottles of fancy liquor and decide to get some of those instead. Grabbing a cup you mix three of the bottles and drink some. It burns your throat and you gag a little before walking back, determined to finish it and get fucked up. With half the cup down, mason takes it from you with a worried look. “I think youve had enough of that, youre definitely not driving hand me your keys.” you sigh and hand him your bag, dropping your phone in the process to see 15 missed calls from swagger.

“Oh shit” you pick up your phone and rush to the bathroom to call him back.

“Where the fuck are you i was so worried are you okay?” he answers the phone with an anxious tone.

“Like you fucking care, you always choose yours streams over me.” you slur, tears forming in your eyes. Its like i dont exist to you anymore! Im so sick of falling asleep in an empty bed, only having bear there to cuddle. I go to bring you lunch and you tell me to set it on the desk and leave! I feel more like a maid than a partner now!” at this point you were almost sobbing.

“Where are you, im coming to get you.” you sniffle at his answer.

“Im not telling you, i tried to tell you for the past two days but you kept blowing me off, why should you care now?” your face is red and puffy at this point, not sure if youre crying from sadness or anger at this point. “At least mase cares enough to ask how im doing! He took my keys so i cant drive like this!”

“Thats where you are, ill be there in 30 minutes to get you and we can talk about this.” he hangs up and you break down in complete sobs, mason now banging on the door to check on you.

“Let me in, whats wrong?” you shakily unlock the door and he swings it open, grabbing you and pulling you into his chest. You tell him everything, how you feel more like a maid than a partner, how you always wake up without him, how he blows you off or acts like you dont exist, everything. He sighs and holds you closer, petting your hair and trying to calm you down. A slamming door can be heard as swagger gets there, moving quickly to the bathroom and shooting mason a glance that says for him to get out. He quickly stands up and leaves before swagger shuts the door and sits next to you.

“Let me explain...i felt like you were getting sick of me and got scared. I thought if i distanced myself it would hurt less when you ended it. I feel like i havent been enough for you over the past year and i thought you figured that out, that you were going to leave me. I never wanted to hurt you like this i just figured it would be easier for me if i did that.” he sighs and moves a hand to your cheek.

“Why didnt you just talk to me? Why just up and ignore me? I felt like a ghost in our own home” you wipe your eyes and look at him sadly.

“I dont know, i was scared of facing you and hearing you say it to my face. Please, just let me take you home and make it up to you. Let me take care of you through your hangover and take you to breakfast. Let me win you over like the first time again.” you sniffle and smile at him.

“Fine, but i wont be easy to impress this time.” he chuckles and helps you stand up, one arm around your waist to keep you upright as he leads you to the car.

“Ill shoot mason a text and tell him to drop your stuff by the apartment tomorrow.” you nod and step into the car, moving to hold his hand. He quickly accepts and starts a drive home. You start to fall asleep on the way back and once home, he picks you up, carrying you to the bedroom and laying you down softly before crawling up next to you. He moves the covers over the both of you before pulling you to his chest and kissing your head.

“I love you.”

“I love you too.” you mumble back half awake.

“Ill never hurt you again”