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hey blog its me kylie :) its been a while. i wanted to give a life update and post all the cute photos my lovely friends and i have taken. tumblr is being stupid and won't let me upload all my shit so for now i'll post about a particularly chill yet eventful night

me pointing to my new TOOTH GEM that mallory gave me!

later in the night, i misgendered mallory's cat as a joke and SHE got her payback...

me after mallory fixed me up. great work!

see you soon

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hi blog...

its me kylie :P

the past week has been full of intense self discovery, and that is because MY BOYFRIEND IS OUT OF TOWN.

i know what youre thinking.

kylie, how have you survived that long without your boyfriend?

the truth is, i underwent some major changes in order to survive the last nine days i've gone without seeing him.

i am living at his house while he's gone. yes i'm here to take care of the dogs/house but i am also here to combat the impending doom/feeling he's going to forget about me while he's gone. sensing a fear of abandonment? then i just go lay in his bed and remind myself he's not going to randomly start hating me while on vacation!

i started reading again. i've been reading Mosfegh's "My Year of Rest and Relaxation" after months of putting it off. i know i'm late to the trend but i haven't read a book in years and i have to catch up somehow.

picking up housewife duties. i've been tending to the garden (aka watering the plants once a day) which has given me a great sense of duty. i've also been washing my dishes, which i also do at home but for some reason doing it at someone else's house makes me feel domestic

became a chicken whisperer

restarted animal crossing on my switch after dreading it for weeks. having to restart your island is so annoying!

buying starbucks matcha every day. normally i don't do this bc starbucks matcha tastes like fish. for some reason i havent been able to stop buying it ever since my bf left and i refuse to start my day until i've driven to the nearby starbucks and spent $7 on my shitty starbucks strawberry matcha latte

starting this blog lolz!

finally bought myself a new journal. i've only written in it once and i spent the majority of my journal time decorating it with lace and diamond stickers

got back into painting but every painting i do pisses me off and i put them into a discard pile

discovered maybe i dont like painting as much as i thought.

in all seriousness, being in a secure relationship where ur not getting cheated on is swag and i never thought i would be able to go this long away from my s/o without have a mental breakdown but its been surprisingly easy! still miss him tho obvi 🎀

anyways ill be back soon baiiii

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intro post haiii :P

helloooo! i'm Kylie

my big three is virgo sun, cancer moon (emotional ik) and sag rising and im an enfp

my fav things are girl nights, matcha, my bf, spending money quickly and my PUPPY!!!

i think im gonna treat this blog as a public diary so it should be fun lolz

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sick ramble

hello, im sick, and i feel like im going insane. im currently watching sex and the city while trying to ward off a fever and ignoring the fact that i'm supposed to be at work in 7 hours. definitely gonna call out LOLZ!!! lately ive been feeling very thirsty for male attention. i'm not sure why because i have legitimate crushes on a few girls. i think i keep going for men who are bad for me bc i know theyll give me instant gratification. today i took a big swig of dayquil and about 10 minutes later i realized i took way too much. i had to turn around mid-drive and go home and pass out on the couch. i woke up and it was already dark outside and i had missed any potential plans to hang out. i felt really upset and was forced to confront the fact that i can't stand being alone with myself. or maybe i just can't stand being at home. every day i wake up, eat, and immediately leave the house and don't come home until about 1am. it feels like im constantly running from something, maybe just being alone with my thoughts?

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breakup toolkit

hi klonni bib, its kylie

a little over three months ago i went thru.... A BREAKUP

its been really shitty, not as much anymore but some days are still hard

i really did love him and still do but i eventually realized i needed to move on, not necessarily onto someone else but just something else. this post is kinda more for myself but i present to you the BREAKUP TOOLKIT for anyone who needs it

let yourself cry, but don't reach out to them when you're in "emotion mind" as my therapist calls it, even tho when you let yourself cry and be sad youll probably want to text them

stop thinking about how to win them back or what you could have done for a different end result. its over for now and if youre meant to be together itll happen evenutally. focus on urself for now

take selfies, nothing compares to the sexy post-cry puffy eyes swollen lips selfie, plus u can look back at them later and laugh at how sad you were and appreciate that youre less sad now

avoid sad music for the first few weeks or maybe months. you have enough valid reasons to be sad dont make it worse

do listen to misandrist music (Fiona Apple's When the Pawn has helped me a lot, recommended to me by sophia)

dive back into a hobby you used to fill your time with when you were single

read a book or two (i'm ready everything i know about love, also recommended to me by sophia, and omg it helps so much)

hang out with your friends and celebrate that youll never have to decide between a party with your bf and his friends or watching a movie with the girls (ur bf's friends will never be as nice as your actual friends anyway)

give them their stuff back, stop holding onto that one CD he lent you so you have a reason to see him and return the CD because lord knows youre gonna leave feeling even more disappointed and it's just gonna reopen the wound

avoid places you guys used to hang out especially when he decides to still hang out there everyday

dont go on dating apps for the first few months, no one on hinge is going to be similar enough to your ex to help you get over them and it'll probably just make u want your ex even more

journal, but only when you feel like it. going thru a breakup is a grieving process and sometimes those feelings cant really be expressed in words and thats okay

find a new cafe that youre less likely to see your ex at

get a good vibrator if u dont already have

instead of trying to find someone to replace your ex, look for attractive people the opposite sex of your ex

get the haircut youve been thinking about

document every time you look sexy

remember your previous breakups (if applicable) and remind yourself of how you were able to get over it, and you will be able to get over this one as well

take it day by day

most importantly confide in your friends or whatevrr support system you have it helps 1000000%

this is all i can think of for now but i hope it helps anyone who might stumble across it :)