#also the og post flopped lol

[tudirkulosis]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PHOENIX WRIGHT!!!!!!

[carawith17as]

just noticed your fake "read more" button post has 2k notes. genuinely how the FUCK do you manage to post a banger every single time

idfk

army of 200 loyal followers

[cerealandchoccymilk]

Trigun Bookclub: Vash's Speech (FLOP EDITION...)

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so i wrote this entire thing over a span of a day and a half. and found out just as i was finishing it that the ultradeep™ vash lore analysis point i wanted to make is actually NOT in the og trigun. [here's my mental breakdown post lol]

but i spent so much time and energy on this that i cant just say whelp! and delete it... so i'm posting it anyways. the straight-up incorrect parts are crossed out and some post-realization notes are in red. theres also a few paragraphs of postscript commentary/rambling in purple at the end of the post.

read it if youre bored i guess. but take it all with a grain of salt.

in the future (once we get to trimax vash+knives interaction) i will write the version of this that my memory intended, with an actual conclusion that makes sense lol

Mini-entry this time because I got consumed by linguistics brain worms :P But I wanted to make sure I talked about Vash's speech and his usage of pronouns!

A bit of background before we get into the analysis:

Japanese pronouns are very different from English. As the Wikipedia page puts it, "The use of pronouns, especially when referring to oneself and speaking in the first person, vary between gender, formality, dialect and region where Japanese is spoken."

The styles of spoken Japanese in general are another can of worms.... They're similar worms so I'll be touching on them a little, but it's not that relevant yet.

In real life, people have multiple pronouns (and speech styles) that they switch between depending on the situation, like with friends and family, at work, in front of kids, etc. For example, I primarily use 俺 online (along with joke/slang pronouns for funsies like 漏れ or おれっち), 自分 or 僕 in public depending on the person, and 私 in closeted situations. My cis male JP-school classmate uses 俺 with friends/family, used to use 私 in class at first, and then transitioned to 僕 as he got more familiar with the teachers.

Although this sort of code-switching happens all the time IRL, it's way less frequently illustrated in fiction, both for consistency's sake and because fictional characters just don't care as much about status. That's why I thought what's going on with Vash is particularly interesting!

Details continued below...

--original readmore position--

Here are the connotations for the two first-person pronouns that Vash uses (pulled from Wikipedia):

ore/おれ/俺 - informal - males - Frequently used by men. Establishes a sense of "masculinity". Can be seen as rude depending on the context. Emphasises one's own status when used with peers and with those who are younger or of lesser status. Among close friends or family, its use conveys familiarity rather than "masculinity" or superiority. It was used also by women until the late Edo period and still is in some dialects. Also oi in Kyushu dialect.

boku/ぼく/僕 - formal/informal - males - Used by males of all ages; very often used by boys; can be used by females but then carries tomboyish or feminist connotations. Perceived as humble, but can also carry an undertone of "feeling young" when used by males of older age. Also used when casually giving deference; "servant" uses the same kanji (僕 shimobe). Can also be used as a second-person pronoun toward male children (English equivalent – "kid" or "squirt").

(the usage of boku as a 2pp is actually part of a different phenomenon--if you're interested in that kotolabo's video explains it better than i ever could (eng captions available))

And these are the notes for every time Vash has used a first-person pronoun in the span that I've analyzed so far, which is until Chapter #06. I'll be adding onto this in the future as my annotations continue. no need anymore. i skimmed the rest and found out that, aside from a childhood flashback, vash uses exclusively ore after chapter #05.

The first instance is in Chapter #02, when he cries in French.

「なぜ僕がこんな目にあうのママン　何も悪いことしてないのにみんなが僕を狙うよママン」（独り言） "Why do things like this keep happening to me, maman? I don't do anything bad, but everyone's always after me, maman!" (to himself)

Here he uses boku, the softer pronoun. However, because he's putting on a "helpless French boy" persona, this one actually doesn't say much about Vash (other than that he's being silly).

The second time is later in the same chapter, when surrounded by the women of April City.

「奴に…会うまでは！！　俺は立ち止まる訳にはいかないんだ！！」（主婦たち） "Until I see him again... I cannot afford to stop moving!" (Housewives)

This time he uses ore, the rougher and more masculine pronoun. The situation is very tense; he has several guns pointed at him. This is also the first instance we see the trauma and hurt Vash holds inside. Overall he's very desperate here. We can see in a bit that ore is his "default." He drops his usual polite/kind tone to be as sincere as he can with the women. I think he can't afford to code-switch and be polite because this is a very personal and emotional moment for him. This doesn't mean his tone is necessarily rude (in-universe!!! probably better not to talk to strangers like this IRL); he still uses relatively soft language.

The next two are in Chapter #04, both when he refuses the sandsteamer guy's job offers.

「やだやだやだやだ　僕は争いごと嫌いなの！！」（砂蒸気の人） "No, no, no, no! I don't like trouble!" (Sandsteamer guy)

「僕は客なの！！この車の警備態勢にはチョーー期待してるから ヨロシクね！！」（砂蒸気の人） "I am a passenger! I have great faith in your security, so I entrust everything to you, okay?" (Sandsteamer guy)

He uses boku here. As we'll see in future instances, this is the pronoun he uses in front of other people and is the one he chooses most frequently. He constantly avoids trouble, so he always uses soft language and the humbler pronoun. nope it was just out of politeness towards a stranger and trying to sound less assertive/more harmless(?) to get out of the situation

In the next page, Vash talks to himself during his piss break.

「…まったくもう　保険屋の2人組といい…　俺(おら)ァもっとひっそりとやってきたいのに」（独り言） "...Jeez! As if those two insurance girls weren't already enough... I was hoping for a nice, quiet trip." (to himself)

Although the pronunciation here is oraa, it's a reduced form of ore wa (wa is a grammatical particle). His tone here is sort of laid-back (and tired, as you can tell). Again, this is his default 1st-person pronoun.

A few moments later, on the last page of the chapter, he says,

「よく分かった　ツラかったろう！！大丈夫だ 僕にまかせな　悪い様にはしねえぜ！！」（カイト） "I understand. It must have been so hard! It's okay... I'll take care of you. I won't let anything bad happen to you again!" (to Kaito)

Here he switches back to boku. He does this in front of almost everyone, but this is especially the case because he's speaking to a child he wants to protect. Using the boku pronoun gives a softer, more approachable vibe.

In Chapter #05, he goes back to ore when he talks to Kaito about No Man's Land.

「時々考えるよ　この惑星に…来た事が本当に俺達にとって幸せな事なのか　ってね」（カイト） "I sometimes wonder... Was our arrival on this planet actually something for us to be happy about? ...Y'know?"

From here on Vash is more familiar with Kaito, enough to open up a bit about his true feelings about humanity. It is also partially Vash talking to himself. irrelevant/coincidence

In Chapter #06, Vash talks to himself in front of Kaito.

「間違いない！！俺にゃー死神か貧乏神が２ケタ以上ついてるんだ」（独り言・カイト） Overhaul: "Why do death and destruction always follow right behind me?!" Literal: "I swear, I have at least 2 digits’ worth of death-gods or poverty-gods haunting me!!"

He uses ore here again. At this point, he's pretty much completely familiar with Kaito, and considers him a friend/teammate. The speech here is very casual. Skimming through the later chapters, I was able to confirm that from Chapter #05 on, Vash uses exclusively ore.

wait

AAAND CUT! this is where my dumb ass realizes that vashs speech is different between trigun and trimax, and that the conclusion i planned on making was trimax-exclusive :) now forget everything you just read in this post past the wikipedia table screenshot because itll be completely irrelevant in less than a week!!

trimax vash uses boku 99% of the time and ore exclusively in front of knives as far as i can remember. i wanted to say stuff about how he is always wearing the kind persona as a mask and shows his true emotions (aka his sheer trauma and rage) in front of knives and knives only

but like. he really doesnt in og trigun. thats just him being kind to strangers??? and barely has any deep meaning to it. it doesnt mean the individual analyses are wrong but theyre definitely not making the point i was going to make at the end of this post and it just aint that deep.

very frustrated with myself rn... but the 2 good things i got out of this are 1) i wont have to write the pronoun explanation again and 2) i skimmed through all of trigun so future annotations might be faster/cost less spoons since i already have some things to write down in mind.

This will definitely get a part 2+ in the future, especially once we get to see Knives. the redo will just be a new single-part post. this stuff will most likely only become relevant once we see knives+vash interaction in trimax The Meryl speech analysis we mentioned in a past post is currently in the works, and will also be part of this speech series!

[jackienautism]

I just saw that post about your thoughts on the counselors and I'm curious, have there been any major changes since then?

i just skimmed the post youre talking abt (i write a lot huh) but honestly? i haven't had TOO many major changes since. JUST REALIZED ITS COMING UP TO AYEAR SINCE I POSTED IT IN MAY? THATS SO CRAZY TO ME WTF but anyway

nvm ill read through exactly what i said. the post is here btw

dylan: still pretty much the same opinion as back then LMAO i did have a more recent convo abt dylan (which def changed some thoughts abt him. esp related to his potential adhd and lack of a filter) but i stilll don't like him, sorry

nick: same thoughts as before honestly. i still think he doesn't deserve abi in the slightest. and his involvement w/ emma's dare still makes me very upset, ESP when the fanbase refuses to acknowledge his involvement in it lol. i dont doubt that racism comes into play w/ nick and his whole lack of a story and such, but i jut. i cant stand him

jacob: i take back the flip flop thing btw. i lowkey cant stand him. but to be honest:? ive gotten WAAAY less tolerant of male characters in general lately. and jacob is not exempt from this lol. i have yet to play TQ again (it's been quite a bit) but! maybe after we play tonight things will change. ill prob rb again if things do

ryan: HOWEVER. DO YOU KNOW /IS/ EXEMPT FROM MY "I HATE ALL MALE CHARACTERS" MINDSET? RYAN ERZAHLER. 100%. i love him lots and ppl r very mean to him fo r no reason. i talked abt this briefly in my angourie!cady post but just. when characters show certain autistic traits that YOU ALL cant deal w/ or understand, suddenly theyre a shitty person? they don't care abt their friends? theyre boring? KILLS YOU

max: he also is a pretty respectable guy to me i love you max. but as i said originally. i dont rly think abt him much

emma: she def had the biggest shift for me while playing the game for the first time!!!!! but in terms of like. if anything changed from when i wrote the original note? i dont rly think so tbh. reread waht i wrot eback then it rly makes it seem like i hate her 😭😭😭😭😭 I PROMISE I DONT..... I ACTUALLY LOVE HER SO MUCH...... SHE MEANS A LOT TO ME....... i just cant stand how she acts towards abi sometimes. def my biggest criticism of her. but at the same time. i understand WHY she acts the way she does. she means sooo muchto me. and esp seeing all your talk abt autistic emma? i just think that makes sooo much sense fo rher.and i LOVE it so much

kaitlyn: i dont even feel lik e going throuhg it all but. i feel like she may have gotten a little lower since i wrote that post? just bc i tjhink toooo many ppl think shes better than she actually is bc of her association w/ dylan? it pisses me off sooooo bad. and ive made posts abt this before but like. her character in general still aggravates me 😭 and i DO still stand by what i said in that og post. theres jsut... shes not that complex sorry guys. esp compared to EMILY? lLIKE. i know its unfair to compare the 2 but its pretty damn obvious that thye were going for another emily in kaitlyn lmao and they FAILED. MISERABLY

abi: oh.. abi oh abi i love you. i still hold her so close to me. she is so me for real (beats anyone up who says tjhat she's Them) i mean who said that

laura: LOVE U LAURA!!!!!!!!! i still dont have like TOO many in depth thouhgts abt her but just. know ever since i began roleplaying as her shes become THAT much more beloved and :] i love you girl

THAJK YOU FOR SENIDNG THIS IN!!!! AND SORRY FOR TAKING A BIT TO ANSWER

[six-paths-of-jeanmarco]

OGAE Second Chance Contest 2023 (My Top)

inspired by @residentraccoon's post and this one video yt keeps recommending me even tho I haven't enjoyed the lame karaoke party they also happened to host the contest at that much

1 OLLIE - Venom (Estonia) - best song that hasn't been sent to Eurovision this year imo 2 Ulrikke - Honestly (Norway) - they should've went with this one if they really wanted a safe choice for the win 3 Jann - Gladiator (Poland) 4 RODAN - Introvert Party Club (Czechia) - very biased about this one; I mean, come on, it's the ultimate introvert party anthem 5 Vicco - Nochentera (Spain) 6 Lazza - CENERE (Italy) - I'm still surprised they haven't sent Il bene nel male instead giving how obsessed the fandom was with it 7 Filip Baloš - Novi plan drugi san (Serbia) 8 Ruta Mur - So Low (Lithuania) 9 Chérine - Ça M’Ennuie Pas (Belgium) 10 Elsa Lila - Evita (Albania) 11 Marcus & Martinus - Air (Sweden) - overrated tbh, Six Feet Under is so much better 12 Andreea D Folclor Orchestra - Perinița mea (Romania) - typical Romanian wedding song and I happen to hate weddings but this grew on me way more than I want to admit lol; genuinely wondering if they would've flopped just as hard as D.G.T. or it would've been the most unexpected dark horse of the year, had it been sent to Eurovision instead 13 KUUMAA - Ylivoimainen (Finland) 14 Jerry Heil - When God Shut The Door (Ukraine) 15 Will Church - Hold On (Germany) 16 Ryan Hilli - In The Silence (Malta) 17 CONNOLLY - Midnight Summer Night (Ireland) - still weirded out by the moves she made in the middle of the performance; no seriously, was she feeling good or 18 Harmonija disonance - Nevera (Lei, lei) (Croatia) 19 SunStroke Project - Yummy Mommy (Moldova) - I like the beat and that's kinda it; very disappointing compared to their other entries and tbh Du-mă would've been a much better entry 20 Edmundo Inácio - A Festa (Portugal) 21 24.Avenija - You Said (Latvia) 22 Langi Seli og Skuggarnir - OK (Iceland) 23 EYJAA - I Was Gonna Marry Him (Denmark) - not a fan of the lyrics in the least, just wait for the guy to come back or go with him lmaooo; they should've sent Freedom instead imo

[livvyofthelake]

no one asked but i’m awake and i’m here and i’m annoyed about it so i will now give you all my thoughts on the new taylor stuff. first of all. ok fake fan moment (hardly my fault the album was not good and i didn’t feel like going out of my way (beyond spotify) to listen to one fucking song from it) but i have never heard hits different before. as of writing this post i still haven’t frankly i listened to like 30 seconds and then was like eh this sounds promising enough that i’ll remember to come back tomorrow and then i came here. so that’s that. secondly. snow on the beach featuring more lana del ray?? ok taylor working overtime to beat the misogyny allegations i see. it’s not working. why? because this was bad. it sounds bad. sorry lana. you two should never collab again that was awful. sorry. i’m not a Music Guy i’m just giving my opinion. and my opinion is that it sounded bad and was bad. and i LIKE the og snow on the beach. so you know i’m not just being a hater because i never liked the song. anyway. never listening to that version again peace and love. going to stream some of born to die tomorrow tho literally album of the summer every summer since 2012 fr…. ok thirdly. the big one. going to ramble maybe idk i haven’t decided. anyway. if all the tiktok swifite discourse about karma featuring ice spice wasn’t enough to annoy you, how about the fact that the song sounds bad? it’s not good. sorry ice spice, i understand north west is a huge fan of yours so i assume your career will survive. but girl you did not have to agree to be a half assed feature on this bitch’s hastily made deluxe deluxe version of her flop album…. girl i know you did it for publicity i get it i love that but damn you should have at least used your bargaining power in this situation for something that is like. good to listen to. you HAD that bargaining power….. and you let blondie do this to you? goddamn. and now to comment on The Discourse because why not i’m already here. ok. people saying this was planned ages ago because music doesn’t “just come together last minute it had to have been planned a while ago” blah blah. you are delusional. taylor did not know who ice spice was probably until her idiot fucking boyfriend said some racist ass shit about her. i’m not saying taylor is incapable of also supporting ice as an artist like i’m sure after she found out who she was she listened to her music and was like oh she’s good sorry my man said that lol. i assume they respect each other as artists in some capacity. however you literally need to understand that taylor featured her to make it look like her boyfriend’s shitty comments were water under the bridge (despite the fact he never apologized). and ice spice agreed because she knows that 1) the swifties that are being critical of taylor rn are going to support her and probably listen to her solo stuff. and 2) the swifties that aren’t being critical of her are also going to support her and maybe listen to her solo stuff. there is no version of this situation where ice spice loses, she agreed to this feature to grow her career, not because she necessarily forgave that guy for what he said, or because she thinks he and taylor are such good people, or because she really sees the situation as water under the bridge. it’s pr for her too she made a smart business decision. but she’s not taylor’s friend. also the idea that a feature on a song that already exists takes months to plan is ridiculous. babe they probably did this three weeks ago, this industry is not as fucking professional as they want you to think. anyway. that’s all. i should listen to hits different now. what direction do you think i’ll blorboify that one? i do wonder, no way to tell until i’ve actually heard the song. it’ll probably be about kit. most songs are these days i don’t really have much else going on. ok goodnight

[baekhvuns]

...i have indulged my mother in the obsession of bollywood. Because i kid you not, i'm writing this after watching veer zara, dil waale dulaniya le jaayenge (im not sure wut the title meant tho), jab we met and Hum Aapke Hain Koun..! (i copy pasted that-). And it makes sense why these two actors are so popular in india. I've heard about srk before but now...i get why he's mad famous. Also, my mother- She said that young srk gives loverboy vibes 😭😭😭but u gotta give me more reccs about tht actor in tht movie..badai ho. I saw his work and there was this movie name dream girl i'm not sure if i should watch it but it had a good amount of rating. Istg these bollywood movies are epitome of love. I figured though, they were quite old movies, imma look for more present time movies. But really tysm!! Oh and i found my new jam.

Alexa play pehla pyaar (IT MEANS FIRST LOVE GODDAMIT-)

ITS A PYRAMID SCHEME ATP FHWKFHWKD which is ur and ur mom’s favourite movie so far 🔫🔫 HE FUCKING DOES LOVERBOY ENERGY FHWKFHWK STOP HE DOES HES WHAT MADE ME A HOPLESS ROMANTIC srk is such. such a big deal that his name is a compliment, the way ppl line up to wish him birthday outside is house is like a holiday actually 🤚🏻🤚🏻 MAD no thank you for watching them!!

“dil waale dulaniya le jaayenge (im not sure wut the title meant tho)” it means the ones with the heart will take away the bride!

yes omg i will!! tho he only really got good films recently i wouldn’t rec the older ones bc they’d make no sense even to me and the rly recent ones have flopped bc he chooses the same concepts 🔫 so i wouldn’t rec those menfbwnfb,, tho here’s a few of my favourites by him!!

andhadhun (his acting in this is actually insane prob his highest rated movie) ‘blind’ guy accidentally stumbles upon a murder lol

bala (basically he’s bald and he fears he won’t get his dream girl super funny but also touches on the perception ppl treat male baldness w!)

shubh mangal saavdhan (a couple falls in love and gets married, but the groom discovers that he suffers from erectile dysfunction) + shubh mangal zyada (more) saavdhan (basically being gay in an indian household and it’s difficulties) (same cast as badhai ho!)

dream girl (yes, he fakes being a girl at a call center, but then 😭😭)

hawaizaada (1895, a man constructs india’s first unmanned airplane!)

for some present movies (most of them have been terrible) id rec the later half my OG movie post!

most specifically yjhd (2014) (begging pls watch 🤲🏻), darlings (2022), gangubai (2022) honestly one of the best ones that have been released based on a irl prostitutes life, if ur looking for a horror comedy then stree is perfect! raees (srk, gangster story w romance <3), bhool bhuliya (1 is so good but 2 is alright, it’s more recent), zmnd (im begging pt2, watch it 😭😭 based in spain), shershaah (war, biopic, everything is real, the actors tho got married recently hehe), ek villian (based of this korean movie but i prefer this one fbhcjc), mimi (2021) (basically a foreign in couple asks the mc to be their surrogate and it goes crazy) super lit! 3 idiots bc this is the STAPLE if ur looking for 2000’s romcoms,, id rec mere brother ki dhulhan (my brother’s bride)

[badtaktopheadcanons]

who are your favorite and least favorite musicarts design wise 🤔

oh my god, sorry I haven't posted here in forever;;

For the non-releasers, Blue Danube's flapper outfit absolutely slays. I love when they take a good gimmick like that and execute it well. The whole Holst Sisters (Jupiter, the unreleased Mars, and what I would theoretically expect to be the others) also playing off Sailor Moon is also cool but doesn't feel like it relies too heavily on SM which makes it cute but not stale. Sukeban Mars is also just.. the perfect concept for Mars within that gimmick?

For releasers, I love Tann's gladiator design, and when I first saw La Mer I was ecstatic because her dress looked like something I could actually see myself wanting to wear (which doesn't always have to be a top priority of designers but is always a nice touch). But many of the releasers have their strengths, even if they're a little needlessly sexualized (see: Schehe, Carmen, Walk). And 'butch' designs like Freeshooter, Don, and Bolero will always hold a place in my heart.

As for the least favorite/s:

Peergynt?? WHY DID THYE MAKE PEERGYNT LOOK LIKE THAT? based on her design alone I have no idea what her source is like which I think should be something we hold all of the designs to, ESPECIALLY incidental music or other pieces with a very clear cut "story" to them. I get that the buttons are a part of peer Gynt, but she looks more like a seamstress. There's just maybe more they could've done to incorporate parts of the original play imo? Or just make her 100% In the Hall of the Mountain King. I would've liked that.

OG Ode to Joy was also a flop imo. She looked like she spawned naked and just ripped her grandma's shower curtain off from its rings and was like "this is my clothing now." it looked like ass and I could not take her seriously with that grandma sheet ass dress.

months ago I planned on making an official review post of every music art design ever, so maybe I should get on that now that you've reminded me lol. I forgot how much I had to say on the matter.. thanks for asking btw!

[arikihalloween]

I've been summoned (mentionned) so here's my rant about it guys !

Based on my observations, there are three things to an AU

ArtStyle, Concept, Narrative

Generally speaking, Style and Narrative are the most important

A concept can only get one so far, and most of the time the concept will heavily rely on the other two

Narrative and Artstyle can work separately, though

A good narrative doesn't always need a good artstyle, and vice versa

What makes an AU popular is based on many variables, such as the og media, the kind of content the fandom gravitates toward, how close the AU is to canon and how well the artists understand the media, how good the style is, how likable the AU characters are made to be, the preexisting audience of the artists, how visible the fun you're having making it is, how much one interacts with the rest of the fandom

One thing to note is that the internet is unfair and judgy

It's unfortunate, but something we gotta work around with

A popular artist can post their AU, and their pre existing audience will immediatly respond to it and help spread it via reblogs and interactions or fanarts

A lesser known artist will have to seek interactions themselves and get their work out there as much as they can

Anyway, one must never forget that the root of an AU is the love for a media and having fun with concepts and art forms, weither it he art, comics, writing, singing, acting, voice acting

There are many ways to make an AU, so better have fun weither your work is seen or not !

The only way for an AU to fail if it's it was *made* to be popular

If you make stuff in hopes of getting popularity, it gets really obvious really fast, and people end up feeling it

The artist will burn themselves out too

TLDR : Popularity is basically a roulette, a game of luck. If u ain't already popular with a strong artstyle, u gotta work a lil harder and interact and put your work out there more for it to gain traction

Do it out of love or people will feel the bad vibes and it'll flop

Don't just throw concepts at a wall in hopes it sticks /j/lh

I want to emphasise that this is all how I view things

Ross's experience is very different from my own, I think we can all agree that Ross's art is awesome and has a vibe that people just like

As a much smaller artist who only ever had one popular AU (wttmv, which is not even mine it's actually Ross's i'm just a loreholder lol) and I can attest that just getting my work out there requires more work, more interacting, drawing fanarts and interactions with other creators, making connections while Ross can just throw a doodle in the void and it just works lmao

My experience is so different, and that's fine

Out of all the variables that make an AU work, often time artstyle and popularity are big factors, and yeah it sucks and it can be so unfair, but that's unfortunately how internet tends to be

I know so many artists that are hella underrated ! So always boost your friends when you can, help them get their work out there ! Share the love and creativity ! Make fanarts and headcanon and silly voice acting for them, and for yourself.

It's also why most big artist and 'popular' AU creators will tell you unanimously one thing about making AUs : Do it for the love of the work. Do what you like. Have fun.

Because that's how they started

The rest was just luck, connections, algorithm, and in no way a formula that'll always work

Trying to be popular will just burn you out

So you better just create for the sake of creating and putting your love for that media out there

And that was my long ass ramble about AU popularity, and I'm not sorry I say things bluntly

There are more than one way to get an AU to be 'popular' and it's such a vast subject because of the various fandoms and community

I'm all open for more thoughts and rambles on the matter, opinions and all

It's like salary, it's worth talking about openly /j

hey Ross, I'm asking every popular au creator this: what makes an au popular? how did dreamcaptor bill first gain popularity? just curious and do you have any tips for the smaller au creators

Ok- this has like been frying my brain, it's kind of hard to give a concrete answer because IT REALLY DEPENDS,

for me, anyway it kind of worked out a little better cuz I have enough of a following? [although not sure how many of those actively tune into me]

so there's that.. not really a wow explanation, ill be honest

other ways is just,

basically you just gotta work on you're concept and execution, if you're able to introduce your au in a eye catching way through story, character design and over all concept

yada yada,

[honestly, my friend ariki has a better in-depth way of explaining this but i'm giving you the summary]

some AUs just get really popular because of it's concept, people gravitate to it because they want to know more

while others are popular because of the artist, the reputation for either the art or storytelling

or you just learn of an artist and how good the art looks that makes the AU eye catching and you gain the interest to see more

It can also not be about the art, just the writing about the AU and how interesting it sounds

and the luck/blessing of the algorithm gods that it blesses your AU to be seen by the masses,

interacting with other AU creators also helps, ig

it's a lil weird for me, ngl- for explainin all of this cuz, I try to focus less on that.. not saying i dont think about it, but im tryna think of it less..?

and just focus on having fun with my aus, because I make AUs because i love the source material and i have ideas for alternate routes and just loud delusional ideas that I want to be real and so i make it

all i can say, is just have fun with your AU and less worry about gaining popularity over it idk??

im not sure if thats a sound advice because other people have different intentions for wanting to create an AU

[brianwashere]

Hi!!! Look at me! I’m writing an unofficial req lol. People seemed to literally eat this shit up and I got two reqs asking for a different ending so here’s the good ending! I’ll be tagging the two who asked for a different ending. If anyone asks for a different ending on any of my fics I suggest making it an official request so I’ll remember it better.

I wrote this on docs and it was my first time writing fanfic on docs (crazy, I know). And lemme tell you…this fic literally doubled in length. It went from 5 pages to 10. I also suggest going back and reading the whole fic if you’re coming from the bad one bcc I edited the wording to make it more understandable and easy to read.

Anywhosy, enjoy it! Stay chill, Stardogs!

@purplezombietumbler (this whole time I thought ur url was purplezombiehunter my shit just got rocked fr)

@kid303 (if u still want the other ending you requested just dm me lol)

Read the OG (bad ending) here

**I do not own any characters or part of the franchise from Daredevil**

 Pairing: Matt Murdock x son reader

 Genre: angst with a happy ending; family

 Summary: look at req on OG post

 Tw: teen death; unintentional overdosing; untreated mental illness; hospitals

A Beating Heart; a Fleeting Breath (good ending)

It had gotten bad.

 Really. Really. Bad.

 Your dad never seemed to notice the underlying problem. Only that you were out late and that your grades had slipped.

 Dad was “working overtime” again. He never told you what he was actually doing, but it was clear he was doing something else with his time.

 So here you were again. Standing in front of the mirror in the bathroom, hunched over the sink. You glanced at the cup of cheap whiskey you’d been sipping on for most of the night. Sighing, you fished the bottle of benzos out of your pocket and fumbled with the cap.

 You shook several onto your palm and set the bottle onto the kitchen sink. You thumbed the pills around in your hand. With another sigh, you raised your head into your mouth and tossed your head back.

 You grabbed the cup and downed the last of it.

 “Dear God.” You mumbled to yourself as you put the cap back on and wiped your face.

 You sluggishly made your way to the couch and collapsed on top of it.

 ‘Fuck, I’m tired.’ You thought as you tried to get comfortable.

 You took a deep breath. Well, you tried to. Suddenly you became aware of how heavy every part of your body felt. With as much strength as you could muster you flopped onto your back. You felt like a fish out of water, desperately trying to get air to your lungs.

 Tears filled your eyes with the realization you couldn’t breathe. You tried to move your arms, move your legs, do something. You couldn’t.

 You felt your eyelids grow heavy and as you went to take your last breath you had one final thought.

 ‘I never got to say bye to dad.’

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Matt never considered himself a very emotional man. Sure, some things certainly affected him; Foggy, Frank, his son.

 He smiled to himself at the thought of his son. He was his pride and enjoy. He may be going through a rough patch but Matt knew his son would make it through.

 ‘Murdock’s can take a beating.’ His father’s words echoed through his head.

 ‘Wonder what he’s up to tonight.’ Matt thought to himself.

 He focused his listening on trying and finding his son’s heartbeat. His smile faded slightly as he heard the elevated heartbeat of his son.

 Badum Badum Badum Badum Badum Badum Badum Badum—

 ‘He probably just went on a run or something.’ His mind supplied.

 He listened closer. His son’s heartbeat was settling down.

 Ba dum..Ba dum..Ba dum..Ba dum

 Matt let out a sigh he didn’t know he was holding in. Something didn’t feel right; his heart kept slowing down.

 Ba..dum…Ba..dum…Ba..dum…Ba..dum…

 Matt blinked desperately trying to strain his ears. His heart kept slowing.

 ‘No. No no no no no no no. NO.”

 Matt leaped up from his seat and ran out of his office door.

 Ba…dum…..Ba…dum…..Ba…dum…..

 Matt hadn’t realized he was crying until his tears hit his lips.

 ‘No, please God. Please.’

 His shoes slapped the concrete as he sped up the pace. He climbed a wall to get to the roof; he needed to get there faster.

 …ba….dum…….ba….dum…….ba….dum…….

 ‘Fuck. Please please, please. Hold on a little longer.’

 He jumped from roof to roof, desperate to reach you.

 …ba…..dum……………………….

 Matt stopped so suddenly he nearly toppled over. He gasped and clutched his chest, he willed himself forward.

 ‘There’s still hope. He’s not gone. Not yet.’

 He jumped to the apartment window and opened it while holding onto the ledge. In desperation, Matt broke the window to get in and stumbled over to kneel by you on the couch.

 His hands raced over your chest, resting on your face as he shook you.

 “Wake up, Kid! Wake the hell up!” He pleaded.

 He moved his hands to your chest and began doing CPR.

 “No no no, please please-” his voice broke and he let out a sob “please fight! Fight it, kid! PLEASE!”

 Then he heard it; the faintest beat of a heart. He kept doing it with his left hand as he dialed 911 with his right. An operator answered.

 “911 what’s your emergency–?”

 “My son! His heart is barely beating! I need an ambulance now!” Matt yelled as he put the phone on speaker and resumed CPR.

 “Sir, I need you to calm down. What’s your name?” The operator asked calmly.

 “Matt Murdock!” He unintentionally shouted.

 “Ok sir, we’re sending over an ambulance now.”

  ⋆﹥━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━﹤⋆

74 hours. 47 hours in emergency care and 27 in the hospital; not once did your father leave your side. 

 Someone new came to visit every day. First, it was Foggy, then Karen, then Frank. All of them encouraged him to go home and sleep and offered to stay the night for him, even though they knew he wouldn't. He slept in the chairs, if he slept at all. Matt wasn’t ashamed to cry. He cried more in those 74 hours than he had in his life put together. He prayed too. It was more like screaming at God, but if that made him listen, then goddammit, Matt would scream till his lungs bled.

 He felt a lot of things: fear, anxiety, worry. The thing he felt above all was guilt. How could he not see the signs? Why couldn’t he have done something?

 Matt snapped out of his thoughts when he heard you shift in your bed. You let out a noise of discomfort as your eyes barely opened. Then you saw your dad; your eyes watered. Your dad was here. You were safe.

 Matt shot out of his chair and felt around till he grasped your hand and held it tightly in his. He turned and yelled toward the door.

 “We need a nurse in here!” His voice was hoarse but loud.

 Within a minute a nurse was at your side.

 “What is your last name.” The nurse questioned.

 You took a large gasp of air.

 “Murdock.”

 “Can you tell me what month it is?” They

 You swallowed and worked on forming the syllables; it felt like a cheese grater in your throat.

 “November.” You croaked out.

 “Ok, good. Do you know where you are?” They asked.

 You nodded.

 “The hospital.” You gulped through the ventilator.

 “His level is consciousness is a 5. We’ll have to run a few more tests on him before he’s deemed fit for discharge.” The nurse informed Matt.

 Matt visibly lit up and relaxed into his seat. You were ok, you were going to be ok. The nurse helped remove the ventilator from your face and left the room.

 “Dad, I'm sorry–” Your father cut you off before you could get any more words out.

 “No, I'm sorry. I pushed too hard and didn’t notice you were drowning.” His voice was cracking. “Just, tell me next time, ok?”

 You nodded before bursting into tears. 

 “O-ok…it’s just that you’re so busy all the time and you have some much stress already I thought it’d be better to just keep it a secret. I didn’t mean to overdose, I swear.” You sobbed.

Matt took a sharp breath.

 “Let’s make an agreement,” Tears were streaming down his face too. “no more secrets.”

You quickly nodded.

 “No more secrets.”

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-Bonus-

 “Can you tell me what you do every night? I know you’re not working overtime.” You stared at him, he didn’t have his glasses on.

 He was clearly contemplating whether or not he should tell you.

 “You really wanna know?” He asked quietly.

 You nodded slowly. Your father sighed before leaning over to whisper in your ear while bringing his hand to prevent anyone from being able to read his lips.

 “I’m Daredevil.” He said quickly before sitting back in his chair.

 You stopped. Gears started turning in your mind. 

 ‘There’s no way, right?’

 “B-but–” You cut yourself off with a sharp laugh “you’re literally blind!”

 “Shh! Cameras,” Matt scolded lightly.

 You looked around the room. 

 ‘How’d he know there were cameras?’ 

 You blinked rapidly trying to piece together your dad being a vigilante. 

 ‘That would explain all the injuries.’ 

 “Huh.” Was all you could muster as you processed this information.

 Matt was biting the nail on his thumb with anxiety.

 “Wait! But you're like 80!” You exclaimed jokingly.

 Matt huffed out a laugh.

 “I’ll have you know I’m only 35.” He smiled.

 “Same thing, practically got one foot in the grave.” You giggled.

 Matt rolled his eyes and ruffled your hair. You grinned and for the first time in a while, you felt genuinely ok.

[awigglycultist]

Spacebaby

Maybe you've been around since the beginning. Maybe you've seen a few posts talking about spacebaby and you're confused. Either way doesn't matter, I'm kinda actually making this post for myself and cause I randomly felt like it more than anything. So, here's an explanation of wtf Spacebaby is:

It started with this post of mine. Innocent and stupid was I to what would happen in the future from one simple post. And just as importantly: one simple reblog from @melchron. this. (well the link actually leads to the rbs after where Mel explains what they were talking about bc that explanation feels important).

Now if you look the rbs on that post you'll see... Me and Mel kinda went crazy. We realized that my post would mean that Starkid exists in the Flop Stoppers universe and therefore so would TCB. Then we decided what SK & TCB production's would be like the Flop Stoppers universe, or as we named it, the Spacebaby universe.

Starkid was renamed to Spacebaby and Tin Can Brothers to Metal Jar Siblings. HMB would ofc be Holy Musical Dete¢tive Da®k. In universe the Harry Potter books would be about Larry Cotta and his adventures at Pigfarts, a the joke that Spacebaby came up with was Hogwarts.

It was also realized that since Flop Stoppers is connected to Wayward Guide, Solve It Squad and Spies Are Forever, that would mean in the Spacebaby universe, those are real things that actually happened. So obviously, this means that those productions in universe would have to be different too. Which I explain in this rb of the og post

*Side note that I don't think I ever put in any post but I've had the idea in the back of mind ever since, the government is after MJS for getting too close to the truth

Now jumping forward for a minute. TCBoB just came out and although there's no references to any of the above productions TCB did make it sound like it's part of the tcbcu. So it's been decided that TCBoB also really exists in the Spacebaby world and so of course all of the musicals mentioned in TCBoB (such as Matrix the musical ofc), like the parody movies seen in the background of Flop Stoppers, all exist. (post here)

Okay now going back: at one point me and Jamdolin found out that Detective Dark was actually and issue of Batman, so ofc now there is an issue of DD called Batman.

Then. There were the dark times. When the TCBoB kickstarter announcement videos came out. You can see it started here (also see rbs on that post for more name suggestions). And also here.

There's also this which frankly I don't know how to shorten and it's not super long so just read it jdbfbf

Also as you can see from all of this we... Cannot exactly fully decide on names for them. Names of actors or of characters. Lol

*Another side note: when I watched Movies Musicals & Me it was decided that there is another universe called the Moonshoes universe where MM&M is real and all of the musicals in it do to

Anyways so I think that's about it? Now you know all about the Spacebaby/Flop Stoppers Universe!

[minka-g]

content creator appreciation!! list five favourite sets/art/fic you've made and send this ask to five other content creators! 💕

(Spreading some love and self appreciation to amazing content creators! If 5 overwhelms you, choose one, or three! Whatever suits you)

Hmmm, this was hard, in part because I’m generally pretty negative these days, and also because it made me really ruthlessly think about things. Lol.

So, my five favourite creations, in no particular order:

The Price of Spring – aka, the turbulent ‘prostitute fic with a difference’ that I always wanted to read, so I had to write it myself. I love the premise, and I love how it all came together, and the deep dive I took into the psyche of the POV character. It was a real trip and, bonus points, it rocked fandom pretty hard.

The Wind Will Carry Us – aka, the Stucky soulmate fic that is probably one of the most beautifully written things I’ve ever done. The storyline is okay, but its the prose and the language and syntax I used that sets it high in my mind. I also really enjoyed reading about the basis of the myth I used, and its made me realise that I have a huge thing for darker fairy tales. Sadly, its probably the biggest fic flop in all my Stucky stuff.

End of All Days – aka THE Stucky fic, and if you’re reading this post, then I’m sure you know all the stories about researching while travelling and the lengths I went to in order for this fic to work. It’s the story I always wanted to tell, and the one I do kinda wish I’d reserved for attempted publication. I love Bucky in this.

The Heart of My Own (burn it down low) – aka one of the easiest, quickest fics I ever wrote. I knocked it over in a couple of days, and I really just lost myself to the feel and mood of the whole thing. I can’t read the title without thinking of the song, and I can’t hear the song without thinking of Bucky driving up that forest driveway and seeing Steve’s house. As always, it was great to play around with a fairy tale, myth vibe, as well. It also made me feel like a real part of fandom given that it got some art made for it. That was amazing.

A Dirty Carnival – aka the OG long 1980’s yakuza crime fic. It’s not the best prose and I was pretty young, but it is the fic that really got me started writing novel length, researched stories. I learned a lot from working on this, from the use of engaging language and creative syntax, how to properly structure a story (beginning, end and middle) and how to wave in false defeats and heroes rise structures, which, let’s be honest, isn’t something often adhered to in fanfic.

So I think that’s it.

Honourable mention to Silent Words (Game of Thrones) for being my favourite of all the old, easy one-shots I used to do, and Middle Earth Hustle (Lord of the Rings) for being that crazy idea I’m still in love with but will just never finish.

[oshimacore]

(just putting it out there that im using this blog bc i can and want to also bc i wanna have a queer and mogai blog separate from main so i can avoid any hate anons there lol. anyways hi)

my dni which ill also put on my og posts:

dni if exclusionist/anti mogai/anti microlabels/anti neopronouns/anti xenogenders, m-spec exclusionist, anti mspec gay/lesbian, aspec exclusionist, kink/ddlg/nsfw ageplay, sysmed/anti endogenic systems, anti self diagnosis/ableist/fakeclaimer, flop/cringe accounts, proana/thinspo/fatphobe, gatekeep butch/femme/futch, anti “toothpaste flag”, against people reclaiming queer, proship/anti-anti

[ikdrama]

≫❥ hi, hope everyone's doing good. so um i've been inactive on tumblr for a long time for many reasons; whether it was 'cause of losing interests, life getting in the way, etc. i neglected this blog and kept leaving and coming back. i've been on this platform for years now and kept switching between other platforms for the times i've been mia on here. i've tried out instagram, then came back to tumblr, but switched again. i changed between interests—from photo editing to gif making to graphic design to video editing and now back to using photoshop again for making gifs, hopefully. for topics from kdramas to kpop to western back to kdramas, etc.

≫❥ however, i feel like tumblr still holds a space in my heart closer to home unlike instagram. perhaps because it's where i initially started out that i grew more attached to this platform. also maybe i'm getting older and most people on here are the og ones, they're more at the same age range as me, unlike instagram. age has never been an issue to me, i have friends who are much younger than me and those who are older (but mostly young ones) and they all are very dear to me. but i guess i just needed some friends with a closer age range too.

≫❥ i have made some lovely friends on here and i'm forever grateful for those sweet times. however, over the years when i abruptly left tumblr, i had also lost touch with them. so, i might have no friends left on here which saddens me a little but that's all on me and it's okay, i can always try getting in touch with them again, right ? but i'd love to make new friends and reunite with my old ones, so please feel free to message me anytime you wanna be friends, my dms and askbox are always open <3 (doubt anyone's reading this at all lol but it's worth the try i guess heh).

≫❥ anyways, what i'm saying is, i'm coming back this time for real, or at least try making a better effort into taking good care of this blog. i used to be a content maker (mostly creating gifs) but stopped at some point and only rb posts now. frankly, over the time dramas would have a less impact on me, i wouldn't be as much interested in them as before and switched interests but then again came back to them, just now i'm not up-to-date with the on-air ones, i would watch a drama that i find being interested in, so it's random and inconsistent, i don't watch a lot of dramas like i used to (surely my list of watched dramas became quite poor too oof). but i do watch some every once in a while when i find the time and am in the mood for it. my personal favorite genres nowadays are thriller/action/fantasy/comedy dramas with slight romance (teenage romance makes me cringe now when watching those, idk maybe i'm just getting old lol).

≫❥ but another reason to why i stopped creating content was also because i was too focused on whether my post reaches a wider range of audience ? i would get scared it wouldn't get much attention compared to the time and effort i would give into working on my original content. surely, this would bring the content creator down but at the end of the day i chose to be here because i find joy in making the content i wish the world to see and it's still okay if the whole world wouldn't see it as long as i shared it on my blog and me myself am satisfied with what i'm posting. this applied to all the platforms i would use as a content creator. so, one day i just stopped looking at the numbers. and my mind was much more at ease. now every time a post of mine blows up or it would get more recognition than usual, it would make me happy inside and i would be grateful but on the other hand if it would flop, i wouldn't care anyway and still be okay. and why is that ? well, that's because life comes in the way. other things happening irl outside of social media would keep my mind busier than having myself wasting my time by sulking over some digital numbers online. and i guess that's when one's perspective on wanting to gain more recognition on social media changes.

≫❥ anyways, i went a little off topic there heh. so, my blog would mostly consist of the dramas i've already watched or the ones on my watch list or if i find a pretty gifset, i'd rb it too :) i'm rambling on for too long now, oh god, my apologies (i mean i doubt anyone's reading this but that's fine, it's like more for me to get this off my chest).

≫❥ i guess with this post i'm trying to announce that i'll be back to this blog being more active with rb posts and i will also start making content again, but this time it'll be mostly different from the content i've been making so far. my usual content would be creating simple gifsets of scenes/dialogues but i've come across so many artistic and beautiful gifsets that i'd like to give it a try. also since i'm not up-to-date with on-air dramas, making gifsets of the dialogues and scenes from those dramas wouldn't happen—by the time i'd start those dramas people would have made gifsets of the scenes already anyway. this would mean for that kind of content i would give in a much greater effort into making the gifs looking more artistic/aesthetic and that's why i'd post less of my original work. but i'll still try to keep the blog active by rb other people's posts in q of course. however, right now my life is a little bit of a mess, i'm standing on a thin line between education and career, so i'd need some more time to sort this mess out first and then i'll change things up with my blog. i'm excited to come back though; this blog is still getting love from people even at times when it was completely dead and it's still growing which surprises me a lot and i am truly thankful for each of your support. i feel like i don't deserve this, i've been a terrible owner. but i'm willing to change that once i get my life atm together hahah.

≫❥ though i'm not sure how tumblr works now with the changes over the years, i'll just do me and somehow try and revive this blog again. i come back on here because i feel content browsing my dashboard seeing all these beautiful posts on here and i truly wish to come back to being a content maker like these wonderful artists too.

≫❥ ngl, i miss getting on/off anon asks in my askbox (although i wouldn't get that many but it still made me smile every time i received one no matter what it was about as long as it wasn't offensive <3). i missed talking to my friends and people on here. i missed rb ask game posts and get excited whenever someone reacted to it. i miss posting original content and reading other users' tags and them fangirling about a certain topic. i missed the times when i was interactive with my followers/mutuals. i miss the old times on tumblr. when i would have friends on here and a community that was warm and supportive. i wish to experience all of that again.

≫❥ lastly, thank you for listening (if you're still here, doubt so though hah) and so sorry you had to read through this all, i rambled on too much i guess oof. but if you're reading this please know that you're an amazing person. hope we could become friendsʕっ•́ᴥ•̀ʔっ~♡

。.❁stay beautiful:·ﾟ*

·☾ﾟir。

[biteinsane]

Hey I‘m not here much right now

DON/T REB/OG

Sorry bout that. As you can probably guess with everything going on, its kind of just going...?

And I keep flip flopping between things and its probably gonna be like that for the rest of this year that I actually had

So many plans for that kind of...got ruined. Just gonna save up for things for next year cause I wanted to go to so many cons this year.

AND I have the animal crossing game and been playing that everyday for like a month now. I want to have the best island and since I don’t believe in time travel, its taking a very very long time. I’m kind of proud of my mess.

you can also see my focus has turned to Critrole. yep sorry bout that. dnd is fun and I want to focus on that and my own OCs like a nerd. and pirates and pirate dnd and everything inbetween all that. I can’t even focus on my own interests for more than a day right now.

I am arting tho which is fun just a lot of arting that’s not good for posting right now just a lot of self-indulgent stuff some I’ll share and others keep between me and whatever god I need to fight. makes it sound like I am drawing saucy stuff lol I am not just a lot of soft and spoiler stuff for OCs

I’m just here every once in awhile. More active on insta and twitter

The good thing is, other than some serious stuff for coping with stress, I am mostly drawing silly things.

DON/T REB/OG

~Mo

[seraanith]

Post 500!

So, like.. once I get through my queue of comms, I have some stuff planned for this sideblog. I’ll reply to those long overdue threads I have if y’all friends/mutuals are still up for them! I also have these things planned in mind:

Starting up the lyric comic for Aaronix’s introduction

Working on the human au profiles for my muses that are currently listed up on this sideblog

Continue making silly comics featuring my darkin, friends’/mutuals’ darkin, and, of course, the canon darkin.

atm I have this really awesome eldritch monster girl adopt that I got recently! Been flip-flopping between where to put her. A friend suggested voidborn, but like.. her colors don’t Match with the void and, ngl, I’m not in the mood for nitpickers lol I’ve mostly been leaning on having that as the final design for that one lady, the one from the darkin twins I spoke of some time ago. I know I have a lot of darkin OCs by now lol but, if anything, I’d just not put her on this blog. She’ll make appearances in the comics I draw, but that’s about it. Tho, this is if I decide to make her a darkin. Still need to think on that

Oh, and idk if any of y’all recall I was working on a frog darkin design. Well, more-so that her ascended form is a frog. I finally got a design for her that I’m 100% satisfied with! I’ll probably post that some time soon, once I’ve put more work into the details [and decide on a color palette].

I also am trying to save some money to buy some clip studio paint brushes and commission artists for some art of my darkin~ Mainly lewd stuff of Seraa with some of her ships [mostly the main/OG ship lol]. 

So.. there’s these updates!