#also that amasai description is on point

[takonei]

TUMBLR JUST FUCKING PLEASE NOTIFY ME WHEN IM TAGGED IN STUFF I WAS THIS CLOSE TO IGNORE THIS MASTERPIECE

Holy shit to be fair I thought about doing one of these but didn’t have original jokes. But here it comes on a silver platter! How convenient!

Allow me to add a few others.

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Kirutaro: You are a firm believer in the inherent eroticism of people who could kill you instantly.

Amameno: Your ideal relationship dynamic is strong, wise, not-so-innocent and small, pure, wholesome bean.

Iroumota: You believe there is nothing stronger in the world than two bros protecting a smaller bro.

Iruguji: Your ideal relationship dynamic is teen mom/teen dad.

Yumenaga: You ship characters with their killer and you are homosexual.

Shinsai: You are a firm believer in the inherent eroticism of therapist and patient. Also you just want good things for Kiyo. And really, who wouldn’t?

Saimeno: Whenever you watch a slice of life anime, you have a more than average appreciation for the little sister character. Also you are heterosexual.

Kaimugi: Your ideal relationship is jock/nerd.

Kirumugi: Your ideal relationship is goth/nerd.

Kirumota: Your ideal relationship is goth/jock and you are heterosexual.

Tojosaioumenomota: you are the kind of friend who takes jokes way too far, but not in a hurtful way. You just can't let a single typo go without making something out of it. You know who you are, prick.

Any ship involving Rantaro: You saw canon and decided to throw it in the trashcan.

What your favourite Beta!AU ship says about you

Sorry in advance Kagz I needed to do this Beta!AU belongs to @kagazuly! Check it out, it’s really cool And all the jokes are based on Eldena Doubleca5t’s videos

Tojosai - You hypothetically want a girlfriend who can kick your ass, but really you just want to be bridal carried.

Saimota - Your ideal relationship dynamic is “TWO BROOOS CHILLIN’ IN A HOT TUUUUUB FIVE FEET APART ‘CUS THEY’RE NOT GAY-”

Kaemaki - Your top priorities are keeping things gay and keeping things canon. 

Oumeno -  All you want is a universe where everyone is alive and nothing bad EVER happened.  E  V  E  R

Amasai - Your ideal date involves getting pinned up against the wall by your sworn enemy as they place the tip of their sword just underneath your chin and use it to tilt your head up a little.

Rantaro/Ryoma - You are a firm believer in the inherent eroticism of shared trauma.

Rantaro/Kiyo - This is just the same joke as Amasai, but with even MORE angst.

Oumasai - You are a firm believer in the inherent eroticism of needing therapy.

Kiyo/Tsumugi - You are a firm believer in the inherent eroticism of being done with this entire class’ shit.

Gonta/Tenko - Your ideal relationship dynamic is chaotic smol and quiet reserved big.

Rantaro/Miu - You just wanted good things for Miu. And really, who wouldn’t?

Shuichi/Miu - I’m not saying you wanna fuck moms, but you might wanna fuck mother figures.

Miu/Ouma - You don’t necessarily want Miu to get with Ouma, you just want Miu to ADOPT Ouma.

Miu/Himiko - This is just the same joke as the last one but with Himiko instead.

Saimatsu - WHAT DO YOU MEAN THIS ISN’T V3!?!?!?

(sorry this was all the jokes I could come up with sdsdsds)

[julia-bunncat]

My thoughts about Rantaro's family 🧭

A while ago, I was answering a question from an anon who wanted to know about my Amasai headcanons. There I mentioned that the hcs, concerning Shuichi’s relationship with the Rantaro sisters — it's a separate conversation, requiring clarification… And here! It’s time to talk about it! :-p

Most likely, there will be several parts — just keep this in mind 📌

I’ll start by saying that… actually… With Rantaro's canon (which we will learn from his FTE), I've had a VERY tough time..^^" I’m !warning! you right now that the headcanons I’ve listed here will contradict almost everything FTE says. That’s why they are HEADcanons basically, so I hope you understand 😌

You and I both know that Rantaro actually has 12 sisters

❗️BUT❗️ I find it unimaginably absurd that he has lost ALL OF THEM all over the world. Just… H O W?!? With this state of affairs, it’s no wonder why Rantaro is so triggered when people are trying to ask him about it and why he actually thinks he’s Useless Big Brother. Of course, the loss of all sisters may be Tragedy’s fault, because we've been shown more than once how the Ultimates families were kidnapped. Given the fact that Rantaro's memory has been erased several times — no wonder he can think as he thinks in FTE… But honestly, even that idea doesn’t sit well with me. SOOO In my DRV3 timeline (let’s call it that) Rantaro lost only ONE sister! It may not be as romantic in the context of Amasai, because Shuichi won’t have to spend his whole life trying to help him with searching xD But, be sure, I have a good substitute for everything..~

2. The next change concerns the degree of kinship between Rantaro and his sisters, let's say :^ As far as we know, most of them are step-sisters.

In that case, we have at least two scenarios, given that Rantaro CERTAINLY has a father because he mentions him. The first, Amami’s own mother is dead, so, some time after her death, the father married another woman (or two) who already had a number of daughters. Second, Rantaro’s parents are divorced without any tragic context, after which happens a string of Amami-father's marriages to divorced / widowed women, again left alone with their daughters. BUT…. Don’t you think that’s a very lucky-strange coincidence..? 😅Even though Rantaro’s mother may have ALSO found a man with a couple of daughters after the divorce, the number of marriages to get the number 12 must still be large enough. DR likes to confuse and twist things, but for me, it’s always beyond common sense 😵 That’s why I thought it would be easier if all Rantaro's sisters were blood to him ;) YEAH-YEAH, now it's physiologically insane… And I appreciate the meaning of the phrase: «Family is not just the same blood». Really. But I have my reasons for this headcanon, believe me 🙏

3. The last point is more difficult to justify — I already feel a huge misunderstanding 😬 Without any preface, apart from 12 sisters, I'm headcanon two more brothers for Rantaro. Why? It’s just a concept that was very hard to abandon as I really liked these OC's. So, now Rantaro’s mother had 15 children to give birth. Have mercy on me, ahah !!

In this post there will not be a description of everyone, but, however, I hope that I can justify myself a little by giving you a list with names, Birthdays and even ages for July 2018! Why this particular date — I will explain when it comes to hcs about my OTPs ~

Rantaro's parents:

Father — Nakatsu Amami. His name [なかつ] or [仲ツ] means "meadiator", because he’s also an Ultimate and, accordingly, a pretty successful travel agent! In other words, his agency is the "third party" between a tourist and travels ~ Born 27 May 1972 [Gemini]; by July 2018 he's 46 y.o.

Mother — Chirusaki Amami. Her name [ちるさき] or [生咲] means "bloom life" when 咲 it's "bloom" and 生 it's "life". This name also refers to her activities (owner of a huge fruit plantation), and ironically resonates with the fact that she gave birth to 15 children :'D Born 17 June 1976 [Gemini]; by July 2018 she's 42 y.o. Maiden name is Asano [淺野] — means "shallow field" (but I can’t vouch for correct pronunciation).

Children:

『𝟏』 Rantaro Amami in July 2018 — 18 years and 9 months. Born on 3 October 1999 [Libra] 『𝟐』 Motoe Amami in July 2018 — 17 years and 9 months. Born on 13 October 2000 [Libra] 『𝟑』 Kasono Amami — 16 years and 8 months. Born on 24 November 2001 [Sagittarius] 『𝟒』 Takasuke Amami — 15 years и 5 months. Born on 6 February 2003 [Aquarius] 『𝟓』 Meiki Amami — 14 years and 2 months. Born on 15 May 2004 [Taurus] 『𝟔』—『𝟕』 Benika and Beniyo Amami — they’ll be 13 years old. Born on 29 July 2005 [Leo] 『𝟖』 Shika Amami — 11 years and 8 months. Born on 10 November 2006 [Scorpio] 『𝟗』 Minari Amami — 10 years and 4 months. Born on 7 March 2008 [Pisces] 『𝟏𝟎』 Asanatsu Amami — 8 years and 10 months. Born on 9 September 2009 [Virgo] 『𝟏𝟏』 Tabiki Amami — 7 years and 7 months. Born on 28 December 2010 [Capricorn] 『𝟏𝟐』 Kiku Amami — 6 years old. Born on 16 July 2012 [Cancer] 『𝟏𝟑』 Yawame Amami — 4 years and 10 months. Born on 17 September 2013 [Virgo] 『𝟏𝟒』 Harutsuna Amami — 3 years и 7 monts. Born on 5 December 2014[Sagittarius] 『𝟏𝟓』 Naomo Amami — she was born sometime in April-May 2017, so in July she is only 1 year and 2-3 months [Taurus]

Name meanings:

Motoe [基江] or [もとえ] — "fundamentals bay". Kasono [香苑] or [かその] — "incense garden". Takasuke [高助] or [たかすけ] — "high help". Meiki [明吉] or [メイき] — "bright good luck". Benika [紅花] / [べにカ] — "crimson flower" and Beniyo [紅代] / [べによ] — "crimson era". Shika [志賀] or [しか] — "female deer" / "gentle deer". Minari [果熟] or [みなり] — "fruit + mellow" Asanatsu [朝夏] or [あさなつ] — "morning + summer" Tabiki [旅子] or [たびき] — "travel + child" Kiku [菊利] or [キクリ] — "chrysanthemum + benefit"; full name Kikuri Yawame [柔目] / [やわめ] — "tender eye" Harutsuna [春緑] / [はるつな] — "springtime green" Naomo [真木] / [なおも] — "true tree"

I’m not sure the names are correct because I’ve been taking information from a public source ^^" But I think you can see that most of them were based on plant-natural themes, since 1) Rantaro's name contains a hieroglyph with the meaning of "orchid"; 2) their mother is a plantation owner xD The more "abstract" names directly describe the character’s image, but I will already talk about it in the next part! (and also and I’ll be sure to show you the appearance of siblings)✨ As always, I am open to conversation and questions! 🤗

[toxicpineapple]

my (personal favourite) writings from 2019

I don’t have anything for January because I guess I didn’t write/didn’t post anything then? At any rate, here are my favourite writings from every month of 2019.

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February:

https://archiveofourown.org/works/17764769/chapters/41916899 : “To Give Life Meaning”, a 5+1 things Hinanami fic I wrote over the course of several days, mostly at night. The honourific situation with this one is messy and there are the beginnings of a lot of good lines? Like I know what I was trying to say. But it’s not the kind of thing that I would be happy posting nowadays. (Ignore the fact that it says it was completed in September of this year; I went through nine months later and separated the different sections into chapters so that it would be easier to read. I wrote and published all of it back in February.) This was the second Danganronpa fic I ever wrote.

Content warnings: Contains talk of suicide, and mentions of being suicidal. Generally in the past tense. Nobody is proactive in this fic.

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March:

https://archiveofourown.org/works/18232343 : “Hold his hand”, the very first Amasai one-shot I ever wrote. I got the idea for this one late at night thinking about how Shuichi would react if his mom died. I was actually going to write this with Ryoma comforting him, or Kiyo maybe, but I ended up doing Rantaro because I watched all of his FTEs with Shuichi and was like… I do like this green man. Anyway, I’m glad I did, because if I hadn’t I don’t know if the Amasai series would… even exist. That’s really weird to think about.

Content warnings: Minor character death on the part of Shuichi’s mother. The focus of the piece isn’t her dying (as it is in fact from Rantaro’s perspective) so much as it is the conflicting emotions that it stirs up for Shuichi, but it’s still, y’know, someone’s mother dying. Anyway, read with caution.

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April:

https://archiveofourown.org/works/18468478 : “Does it matter?”, a late-night fic where Aoi is conflicted about her sexuality and calls Makoto to talk about it. I wrote a lot of one-shots in April (I actually surprised myself going through them haha) but this one is my favourite because it touches on things that I don’t see addressed a lot. Makoto and Aoi are good friends. 10/10.

Content warnings: Internalised homophobia. It hasn’t triggered anybody that I know of because it’s mostly just Makoto giving advice and Aoi coming to the conclusion that she really likes Sakura in a not-so-platonic way, but y’know.

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May:

https://archiveofourown.org/works/18776947 : “Shuichi thinks too much”, another installment in the Amasai drabbles series, and… wow. I literally only posted Amasai in the month of May. This one is my favourite (of the ones I posted in May, obviously) because it’s the one where Shuichi realises that Rantaro is claustrophobic and then they have a messy first kiss in the wake of Rantaro’s panic attack. I like fics where Character A kisses Character B and B has to be like… slow down partner… ur panicking. I also just like milking Rantaro angst so it’s a win-win. I go back and read this one periodically :)

Content warnings: Panic attacks, claustrophobia. Shuichi is exhausted in this fic haha but at least he has his shit together enough to know exactly what he’s feeling through the whole thing.

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June:

https://archiveofourown.org/works/19210423 : “Quiet Moments”, an introspective drabble/character study in which Peko thinks about how much she loves Ibuki. Damn, I love Pekobuki. I haven’t written nearly enough for them. I wrote a lot of things in June (including an Undertale one-shot which was a strong contender for this spot just because this list is dominated by Danganronpa stuff) but this one is my favourite because it was just me… rambling about how much I love Ibuki… and projecting onto Peko. Which I do every time I write this pairing, but I didn’t make this list to call myself out, so yeah I’m just going to move on.

Content warnings: Peko briefly mentions that Fuyuhiko had to get an appendectomy within the piece, but it’s nothing intense.

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July:

https://archiveofourown.org/works/19974424 : “Take his soul with a kiss”, a Grim Reaper AU in which Maki is Death and Kaito is a guy with the audacity to tell her to wait a week before grabbing her soul. I’ve finally hit the part of this summer where I was eating one meal a day and spending the rest of my time on my laptop writing fic. 14k words a day, babey! I wrote all my favourite pieces in July (Shuichi’s love hotel, the one where Rantaro pierces Shuichi’s ears, the domestic Hinanami, the one where Shuichi has a breakdown and everyone comforts him, that one where Shuichi is mean to Kokichi and then apologises) but this one definitely deserves to be here because it’s my favourite. I like Momoharu/Kaimaki/Harukaito (idk what y’all call it man) so, uh. Yeah.

Content warnings: Death is talked about a lot but I don’t want to spoil anything about the ending by saying shit so I’ll just??? It’s a Grim Reaper AU, procede with caution. Oh, and Kaito has a lung disease.

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August:

https://archiveofourown.org/works/20442290/chapters/48499868 : “Causation and Correlation”, another 5+1 things fic (I have a good chunk of them) where Kyoko can hear death and so she goes around saving people. Also, in the end of the fic, someone saves her. It’s a cute fic and I love writing Kyoko so obviously this one is my favourite. (The one where Kokichi has parents and the Kaemugi fic I wrote that month are ones I really like too… this isn’t easy for me gamers ;w;) This is one of those fics where I was feeling extremely confident about my writing abilities the whole time I wrote it, and I’m still really proud of it.

Content warnings: Again, uh, death? Attempted murder, near-drowning, sickness, head injuries, and also attempted suicide. (Nobody dies in this fic, though.) Kyoko has her work cut out for her in this one.

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September:

https://archiveofourown.org/works/20577251 : “Cigarette smoke”, a vaguely nonsensical Saimota piece I wrote where Kaito breaks down and Shuichi comforts him. I’ve only written Saimota twice and both times it’s been Kaito angst because you guys, you just, you don’t address his sadness at all unless it’s in Oumota (and we all know how I feel about Oumota). I should start referring to September as “the month of angst fics I wrote in the middle of the night” because that’s exactly what all of it was. This one wasn’t a vent fic, but there were a lot of them. September is also the month I started doing Amami week, so there’s a lot of that, too.

Content warnings: Kaito really… berates himself in this one. His internal dialogue is hard for me to read in this one because he’s super hard on himself. He also has a meltdown and starts hyperventilating at one point (and the way I write breakdowns is always super descriptive) so please make sure you’re happy and healthy before reading.

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October:

https://archiveofourown.org/works/21195527 : “In the forever sense of the term”, what is probably my favourite Amasai fic at this moment, where Shuichi and Rantaro are forced to address Shuichi’s abandonment issues, and also there’s crying. A lot of it. From Shuichi mainly but a little bit from Rantaro too. I was surprised at how many fics I wrote in October because I was mostly focusing on Inktober I should think? I wrote a lot of original works in Inktober (though I ended up falling off the wagon at the end due to burnout) and it was a really fun experience! I think it strengthened my skills as a writer. Anyway this one is cathartic as hell.

Content warnings: The self loathing is strong with this one. It’s one of many mental breakdown fics that I’ve written this year. And there’s obviously the abandonment issues thing. Yikes.

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November:

https://archiveofourown.org/works/21399748 : “One hundred and twenty six tiles on the ceiling”, where Himiko ends up bailing on plans she made with everyone to hang out and instead stays at home, stewing in self deprecation, until Ryoma shows up, and then everyone else comes to take care of her. Another one of those ones where everyone is there for someone after a breakdown. I like this one because Himiko is my baby and most of the angst the fandom puts out for her is centered around Tenko and Angie, which sucks because I headcanon her as having depression. Like, depression that is entirely unrelated to the people she knows kind of depression. I didn’t write a lot in November because I had a relapse, but I like this one anyway.

Content warnings: Depressive episode, disassociating, suicidal ideation, all the ugly things that come with depression. This isn’t a pretty fic. I don’t write depression as something that’s pretty or poetic because it’s not. It fucking sucks and that’s just how things are going to be.

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December:

https://archiveofourown.org/works/21976864/chapters/52442179 : “An Ode to Yellow Carnations”, a 5+1 things fic where Tsumugi is a florist and Kaede takes different people to her shop until eventually she goes by herself. Is anyone surprised to see this one here? I wrote it for Tumblr’s Danganronpa Secret Santa Gift Exchange 2019 and went waaaay overboard with it. Which is probably why I like it so much. It took me ten days to actually complete, and I’ll frame it like I was diligently writing the whole time, but anyone who knows me knows that I never do things in that way. In truth I switched ideas for the fic four different times and then wrote half of it all in one night when I was hit with a surge of inspiration. I was really nervous that the person I wrote it for would hate it since it’s so long, lol. (Hi Alerane, I love you.) Anyway, I’m gonna think of December of this year as the month where I spent a really long time on a bunch of fics and then posted them all at once.

Content warnings: Very minor character death, mentions of alcohol use (nothing egregious, just recreational use on an outing with friends and all the characters are of age), also Kaede doesn’t go outside in this fic.

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I’m going to try and get out one more fic before the year ends. To be honest I wasn’t expecting to have updated Search by now so I’ve been kind of sitting around wondering what I should write. Maybe I should just start on the Aki chapter, but I’m kind of putting that off because writing those chapters takes a lot of energy and Aki’s is probably going to double Tsubaki’s in length. (Which is great, since Tsubaki’s was already a monster of a chapter on its own.) I’ve had a really great year for writing, y’all. I’ve made lots of friends and learned a whole lot about myself, and my writing style, and the characters I’m trying to portray.

I didn’t include any long-term multi-chapters in this list, like The Best Lies or my Fanganronpa (rip… I swear I’ll pick it back up again soon, I love those characters) but if you want to track my progress as a writer without reading eleven different fics, I’d really recommend reading one of those, because you can see it happening as the chapters go on. There’s so much that I’d probably write differently from where I am now as a writer, because that’s just how things work. Life is like that. You do things a certain way in the moment, and then later, you wish you could’ve done them differently. It’s impossible to live your life without regrets, or things that you’d like to do over again.

But for what it’s worth, I’m really happy that I don’t have to. Thank you guys so much for sticking with me this year. It hasn’t been the best, but it’s been all that it’s been capable of being.

Here’s to a new decade.