#also please PLEASE let us see Beckett again

[newtafterdark]

Hi, hello, I feel so normal about the "Bloodlines 2" trailer that happened a couple of hours ago, but to which I literally just woke up to!

For one, I am glad to see the project still kicking against all odds. Do I believe it will come out at the end of next year as promised though? I am hopeful, but after the development hell it was in, I am not trusting that just yet.

I am going to be as transparent about my thoughts as I can possibly be when I say this - I am sure that every single person who was part of making this thing a reality, from years ago until now, poured their heartblood into it. I am genuinely so thankful for them and send my love and appreciation out to all of them.

But I know in my heart of hearts that it will be just as clunky and wonky as Bloodlines 1. And that's GOOD! Yes, I could be the kinda guy who only wants a perfect game - but I am Bloodlines fan. I thrive between janky combat, bad pathing and broken puzzles. Genuinely, I am just glad that despite all odds this thing, that so many people wanted to make on the gamedev side of things for decades, is finally happening.

And I can not wait to come up with my personal fella to walk through Seattle's streets in those long-awaited nights. 🦇

[randomgentlefolk]

CPC CHAPTER 158

With each chapter updated, the more I sob to my cat (while wearing my plaid clothes of course)

Also this post is going to be long because I love psychology so much.

Tw: mentions of un-aliving oneself

Lorzanna fighting alongside each other....... that is the most badass way to say "we're girlfriends"

Lorena using the chains as whips and Suzanna doing fencing style!! THEM. I NEED MORE OF THEM.

Medic Syrah! It's like one of those I things I never know I want until I get it.

Aww Orson and Monika holding the portcullis together <3 they're so strong???

Frederick telling Syrah step by step on how to do first aid <3

Also, Frederick using his strategy skill!! He can finally show his talent for Leland to see >:D or, uh, not really since Leland is not currently in the room but ANYWAY

Beckett..Beckett, Beckett, Beckett.... Man got snitched and I'm having second hand embarrassment 💀💀 well he won't be Pastel Top 1 guard but at least he can be with Maria. Oh yeah finally!! He knows who the real Maria is!! I hope he won't forget when he's back conscious tho.

Fellas, let's give appreciation to our guard homies Horace and Old guard (he still needs a name)

Also may I just say Maria looks GORGEOUS in this panel?? HER HER HER??? Also her starting to wonder why Frederick is against the Plaid kingdom?? IT'S ALL COMING TOGETHER Y'ALL.

I went from "Lance!! :D" to "Lance :'(" because damn...DAMN??? Bro tbh I'm relieved the gala foreshadowing is him getting hit on the head and not gettint CHOPPED but on the other hand DAMN. The commander did NOT have to do that DAMN. The blunt head trauma??? What if he hit head when he fell?? "So he won't hurt himself" my foot BRUH. I just checked again and HE HIT HIS HEAD. Bro is gonna get a concussion.

Also his face is still bleeding out. In case someone, uh, forgot.

Go Lorena and Suzie go help him! I know what he did was horrible but he's trying!!

Confrontation Time Yayyy...

Blaine. Blaine bro. Stop. Just. Okay there is a lot of childhood issues to be unpacked here. But you know what before talking to him before telling him what he should do maybe we should all just. Let him relax, for awhile. I mean ngl he looks awful, and I'm not trying to be mean here but he and Frederick clearly needs professional help. But let's unpack them one by one. Let's start with the pianist.

(Disclamier: I am not a professional. I am simply telling you my opinion in this post)

Holy shit. Someone give him a break. Give him lots of sleep. Anything to make this boy relax. Let me just say this right away, golden child syndrome. I'm blaming all of these shit on Leland. Y'all our lesson today is: don't put too much pressure on a child, don't compare your children to each other, and accept your child however they are. Please y'all this has happen too much. A child is smart and they achieves lots of things, then makes that their only reason of living, the only reason they are loved. That's horrible. In Blaine's case, I think he feels as if those achievements, those trophies, are a way to validate his life. It's like he cannot fail because if he fails automatically he disappoints everyone including himself.

We know that he has been 'thriving' since he was child. Let's say approximately since he was uhh 9 years old? That would be 12 years of intense hardwork hell sugarcoated by the paradise of 'winning'. Once again, not exactly the best childhood ever. Not to mention, does he even have any friends? We have never seen him mention any. So we can say that he doesn't have any support outside of him being 'perfect' (well, until Maria at least, but that was pretty short-lived :')

At this point I won't even be surprised if the reason he has been doing self care is only so that he looks good as a model and so that people love him.

Man, he needs intense reality check. Also I'm like 99% sure he definitely doesn't want to kill Frederick. The event of him and Lance beating the shit out of the bullies still live in my head rent free. Bro is VERY confused with his life right now and needs help.

Let's move on to the youngest now

Right of the bat I'm going to say:

Scapegoat child, self esteem issues, possibility of depression, and uh we're gonna have to add this now... possibility of being suicidal. Alright.

What is a scapegoat child? A scapegoat child is the child who is pretty much blamed for everything and takes attention of the center of the problem, if that makes sense. As far as I know, this is the child who recognize the actual problems in the family, and is the one to break the cycle of abuse. These children are the opposite of the golden child. And you know what it makes sense that both of them are in the same household. If there is a golden child to praise and give attention to, then there is the scapegoat who is blamed and left out. That is what Frederick is in his family.

Self esteem issues. This boy has been told he is pathetic, weak, useless, and all of those words for his entire life, to the point he actually believe that those words are his entire personality.

Now, I'm not gonna straight up say he is suicidal, though we have an evidence in the panel here. But if we look at the past chapters, he doesn't exactly actively try to die. Those moments where he fell of the Pastel hills are accidents. But we can also say that the suicidal thoughts just came recently. Especially considering what is happening lately. Being trapped in a deep hole with little to no socialization can really do some things to you...even if you're an introvert. We are social creatures. As much as we say we hate chatting with people, we also don't want to be alone with no social communication our entire life now, do we?

Anyway, I'm going to suggest this, there is a chance that Frederick probably has what is called passive suicidal ideation. He doesn't actively try to die, but he wouldn't care if he die. But I'm a little conflicted on this one. Maybe someone else who is better at this field of study can help me?

We can also assume that Frederick told Blaine to kill him out of desperation. There are lots of possibilities that I hope Lambcat will explore more in the future.

Also his coping mechanism of escaping reality is something to watch out for since he has shown signs of not being able to differentiate between reality and fantasy

Now, I just want to say that there is a chance that I'm heavily wrong here. But I'm just stating my opinion and I'm not trying to offend anyone. If there is something wrong in what I wrote please do tell me.

Okay, let's move on to the next scene now—

NAH BLAINE SWINGING THAT SWORD 💀💀 Bro is clearly so stressed istg. C'mon Blaine the curse tattoo doesn't look THAT bad. It looks aight if you ask me. I would even say it's unique.

Yeahhh! What Whitney said! Lmao I'm so sorry but this scene reminds me of Steven Universe and Spinel. Whitney just wanna talk it out :') he has changed so much from his old self.

YOOOO ALL THE ELDEST SIBLINGS ARE GIVING BLAINE A REALITY CHECK. Maria, Whitney, Calpernia. Snap outta it Blaine please.

"I'd like to cut in" Goals. I do also want to start my battle by saying a pun. I can't wait for Prez vs Blaine!! It's going to be sick.

THE MAIDS. HOLY MOLY (haha get it?). Of course they also have weapons. It makes sense considering how protective Jack is! Also

Was. Was the cleaver not enough? Lol 💀

I am even more hyped for Leland vs The maids!

Well, that's it for now. That was a long ass post lmao. I'm gonna go back to class.

Mono out! (But still in to hear your thoughts)

[newtonsheffield]

Dr Sharma will use all tools at her disposal to get an answer out of Dr Bridgerton!!

Perhaps a radiologist, Dr Beckett?

Dr Beckett, is actually another anaesthetist, she does oblige her friend in doing an ultrasound going against Anthony’s explicit instructions in the email he sent to the entire staff.

“Sophie, please, I will do anything.”

“You see, Kate,” Sophie sighed, “I have this little email, subject line: My wife is a trickster in the body of Aphrodite.”

Kate groaned, “I will do whatever you want!”

Sophie narrowed her eyes, “Anything?”

Kate paused, “Well now I’m worried it might be something weird from your tone.”

“It’s not…” Sophie sighed, “I want a date with Anthony’s hot brother.”

Kate paused again, “Which one is the hot one to you?”

“Let’s start with the one who’s not 17.” Sophie tutted, “also I’m obviously talking about Ben, the sexy pastry chef.”

“Done.” Kate said quickly before backtracking, “Did I just pimp out my brother in law for an ultrasound on my baby?”

“Eh, we flirted at your birthday anyway.”

“Did you?”

“More on that later.” Sophie tutted.

And now here she is, with her best friend tutting at her.

“Are you sure it’s a girl?”

Sophie sighed, “Honestly Kate, No. I’m working with a first year medicine textbook.”

“Jesus Christ!”

“Oh Ladies, how the mighty are fallen.” Both of them spun towards Anthony’s voice rolling their eyes at his smug smile as he leaned against the doorframe, is little puppy dog tie perfectly straight. “Two highly trained professionals and a textbook?”

“We’re managing perfectly well!” Kate said petulantly, “be gone with you.”

“You’re not managing very well.” Anthony mused, “You’re looking at the kidney. See you at dinner, babe.”

“You are infuriating!” Kate called after him as the door closed shutting out his chuckling as he made his way down the hall. “That man!”

“I’m still getting my date right?”

“Yes, Sophie, fine! I can see you never cared about besting Anthony.”

“It wasn’t super high up my priority list this morning, no.”

[mayasdeluca]

Now that we know when station 19 is going to be back i wanna know some of your thoughts on some things non-marina related.

Like

-do you think andy and sullivan will get back together or they set more on him and ross (i personally don’t care about either i just want to hear other peoples thoughts)

-will we get to see ross be more of a chief or is she just stuck being sullivans girlfriend

-will we get to see vic doing more with crisis one or is her storyline going to be focused on the theo/kate drama and will that girls fire camp she started ever be seen again or was that a one and done

-will ben go one more calls this season or will he be regulated to desk duty, the clinic, crisis one like last season

-will we see beckett again (i don’t think he’ll be a regular but i could see him showing up for an episode)

-will eli and travis last or will they pull another “you are not my dead husband and i can’t love you like that”

-with dixon being dead could emmet possibly pop back in

-etc.

I think in general it's going to be interesting how many characters they actually have this season because I remember seeing an article about Grey's possible reducing some characters to recurring because they have so many season regulars and they wouldn't all be able to have a storyline in a 10 episode season. They hinted that it could possibly affect Station 19 as well but who knows. Honestly with a 10 episode season I personally don't think that Beckett, Kate or Eli should get a minute of screentime. But knowing this show and the way they love to spend time on useless things, they will. They're also bringing in that new guy that's part of the Union that's most likely getting involved with Andy, so another new character that will be taking up time.

It seems like the writers really love Sullivan and Ross so as long as they intend to keep Ross on the show I think they're going to stay together. It's just going to be another season of Andy with some irrelevant person and it not working out in the long run and then Sullivan and Ross doing who knows what. Sullivan is probably going to realize he does still want to be with her after she nearly died but I don't know how they're going to do that with both of them not wanting to give up their careers because I really can't see them having Sullivan actually give it up for Ross...but maybe he will.

I really hope we get to see more of Ross as the Chief and being fair with everyone (yes, that includes Maya 😐) because she has so much potential but when she's dragged down by Sullivan or being used to prop Andy up, she's not of interest to me whatsoever.

If Vic's storyline is centered around the Theo/Kate drama that Jack also knows about and ends up being involved in, I'm going to lose it. She deserves so much better than that. I really hope they will finally let her shine with Crisis One and give her other things besides being dragged down by deadweight Theo...that man shouldn't even be on the show anymore either he wasn't needed to begin with and now that he's not with Vic anymore he's truly just taking up space. They completely destroyed his character that was barely interesting to begin with, now he's just unbearable and annoying to watch. I can't think of much worse than Vic's storyline being tied to 3 of the most boring characters. (Theo/Kate/Jack) Please give her something else.

I think Ben will still stick to being around the station and not doing anything too dangerous because of Pru but I'm curious what else they'll do with him...I guess it also depends how big of a part the clinic will have in this season...hopefully still a decent amount so we get to see Carina being a doctor more but we'll see.

There's no way Eli and Travis are going to last, they do the same thing with Travis and love interests all the time and it's annoying. I can't imagine this being any different. I do think it's interesting that Lachlan reposted the video Station made about coming back though. I could have seen them doing something with Emmett coming back and dealing with Dixon's death if it was a regular length season but again, do we really need to spend time on that when it's only 10 episodes? Unless they are going to do some type of Eli/Travis/Emmett love triangle thing...who knows. But how many times are they going to bring Emmett back only to then have him leave?

I think it's also pretty obvious that Jack is going to live but I wonder how dramatic they're going to make it and how long he'll be out of fire duty and all of that. Of course he probably won't remember the Theo/Kate hookup until later on in the season to make it last longer but once again they never have any clue what to do with this man except have him involved in other people's storylines and it's tiresome.

Also they better not have Vic stupidly take Theo back and give him another chance only for him to act all guilty about being with Kate and this be a secret the whole time that eventually gets revealed...she deserves so much better than that man and there's no world in which she should try again with him.

[lizardrosen]

I'll Board Him Presently

Part Three of my ongoing Viscount's Men series, about the Bridgerton siblings performing Hamlet. This covers the first half of 2.2: Hamlet's antic disposition up to the entrance of the Players (Part One, Part Two)

tagging @glintglimmergleam and @avocado-moon

Anthony doesn’t think Eloise should go to university, but his Hamlet thinks her Ophelia should get to go study wherever she pleases. It’s something he has in common with Benedict’s Laertes, and with Benedict himself for that matter. (Hamlet would say one of the few things they share; Laertes would say one of the many things). They’re both in awe of her “most ingenious wit” and the more Hamlet observes the corruption of this place he’s always taken for granted, the more he thinks it’s no place for her.

Hamlet also shares Laertes’s irritation with Polonius, which is both less personal and less tempered by love, and now that he’s pretending to be insane he can say whatever he wants as obnoxiously as he can manage, and no one will stop him. When he tells Polonius, “Let her not walk in the sun,” he’s mocking his policy of keeping her locked away because it’s obvious that he’s the one behind Ophelia refusing Hamlet’s letters.

Hasn’t he learned by now that she’ll find a way to do what she wants, with or without his permission. Hamlet’s also playing a game with himself to see how silly he can get Polonius to act to try to humor the prince, and the answer is “quite a bit, actually.” The asides justifying his near-nonsense as wiser than his years is even better than Hamlet could have planned.

“Will you walk out of the air, my lord?” “Into my grave?” is a sincere question, he’s really asking if that’s where he’s headed, and “except my life, except my life, except my life” starts out joking but then he thinks about how hard and how easy it is to take a life, and if someone kills him first he won’t have to kill anyone. It could almost transition straight into To Be Or Not To Be, but even though Anthony is fairly open to different character interpretations, he’s a purist when it comes to rearranging scenes, so instead he’s greeted by Rosencrantz and Guildenstern, of young days brought up with him.

Tom Stoppard hasn’t come along yet, and neither has Samuel Beckett’s Waiting for Godot which inspired him, or the world wars which inspired that, so Ros and Guil don’t have the existential terror of being written characters with no context but each other, or the double-edged sword of fate and probability. What they do have is Gregory, who’s quite used to playing small roles that move the plot along and are forgotten again, and he gives them enough of an inner life to make them interesting to perform and to watch.

As far as he’s concerned, it’s just saying the quiet part loud that the king and queen have summoned them from nowhere to learn as friends what royalty cannot, and even though he’s destined to die offstage, Horatio’s horrified reaction to Hamlet’s casual slaughter is memorial enough for him.

So here they are, wearing a hat he can turn around on his head to show and R or a G depending who he is for each line. Sometimes he changes his name with a flourishing bow, hat in hand, but if the dialogue’s quick enough he’ll just reach up to spin it around. He’s also got enough energy to move around quickly and appear to be in two places enough, if you suspend your disbelief a little.

Anthony agrees that Hamlet hasn’t seen them for several years, almost a decade, which is of course an unfathomable amount of time for Gregory. They were schoolfellows, but not at Wittenberg. Hamlet hasn’t talked about his life to his parents for so long that these two were the only ones Gertrude knew for sure he’d ever been friends with and knew where they were living so she could send for them. And clearly they don’t know Hamlet very well because if they did they’d be trying to hide incredulous snickers at “Sure I am two men there are not living to whom he more adheres,” because ma’am, Horatio is right there.

Still, she’s not that far off the mark, Hamlet does remember them fondly and becomes a younger, more carefree version of himself — “Then you live about her waist, or in the middle of her favours?” “Faith, her privates, we,” becomes a tickle fight.

When Hamlet asks why his friends have been sent to prison he’s not testing them or doubting their motivations, not yet. It’s just self-evident to him that Denmark a prison and no one would come here willingly, but he thinks it’s bad luck and not a plot that brought him here, so he’s a little jealous that they’re such strangers to Elsinore that they don’t feel trapped by it.

Ros jumps on the chance to steer their talk to ambition and shadows and dreams, and Guil follows his lead because that seems a likely reason for him to be acting so strangely. Hamlet takes note of the abrupt change but is more interested, for the moment, in chasing down the shadow of a dream, but he’s observing them more closely after that, and after intentionally muddling the imagery of who’s following whom, the kings or the beggars, he abruptly changes their direction again — “Shall we to the court? For by my fay I cannot reason!” — and they’re too quick to wait upon him. This is when he really starts feeding his own suspicion with little tests and needling questions.

Gregory doesn’t play them as nervous or guilty when Hamlet questions them more in particular, or even sly when they’re trying to figure him out — they’re just innocently doing the task they’ve been given, so they have no idea how much danger they’re in, and they’re confused why it’s so important whether they were sent for or not, but there’s no hasty consultation for them to get their story straight, and no awkward regret before Guildenstern answers, “My lord, we were sent for.”

Hamlet’s almost relieved that this was relatively easy, but then he gets suspicious of the feeling of relief, and weary of his own suspicions, and he figures they’ll come up with something to tell the king and queen no matter what, so if he at least gives them something true that doesn’t touch on Claudius he’ll be that much safer.

And maybe he hopes they’ll understand how he’s feeling, and he’s disappointed but not very surprised when Rosencrantz makes it into a joke. Why should he have hoped for them to be other than they are? Ros fumbles for an explanation and comes up with the players, so Hamlet switches his attentions to finding out everything about them.

[johnbly]

4, 8, 22? Please and thank you!

4. dialogue i'm proud of: yeah yeah the boat purgatory fic (souls at sea) we all know it. but it always takes a bit more effort to write potc dialogue and the relationship between these two means a lot to me so

“Why are you being so calm about this?” James asks. Swann’s smile is sad. “We’re both dead. What point is there in holding a grudge, even if I would want to?” “But to act as if I’m not the reason you are dead –” “Even if Beckett didn’t have the heart, or if I didn’t ask questions about it, I am sure he would have found some other reason to have me killed.” Swann lets that sink in, then adds, “I don’t want to go where these boats are taking us with a heavy heart.”

8. that hurt my own feelings to write: hmmm i'm going to go on a bit of a throwback here to the start of my fe3h days, when i wrote an edelgard and hubert pov fic for the end of azure moon (our paths end here). i don't make a habit of writing favorite characters dying so.

To her confusion, her cheeks are wet to the touch. Tears must have slipped out without her realizing. She can’t remember the last time she’d cried. She wipes them away, embarrassed. What would Hubert have said, seeing her like this when there’s still work to be done? Still, her eyes well up again, and this time she notices. Edelgard allows them to fall for just a minute more. Yes, there’s still work to be done, but she cannot proceed pretending that his loss isn’t a terrible blow. To the Empire, though also to her personally. She allows herself to grieve for this moment, for her closest advisor, her oldest companion. Her friend. 

22. that is blisfully self-indulgent: this guy is still a wip but it's the no dialogue james first impression of ships thing (tentatively titled "at first glance"). if you think i wanted to write this in part to gush about the interceptor you would be correct

James runs a hand over the rail. He’s not been on a brand-new ship in many years, but even if he’d been the Interceptor’s fifth captain instead of her first, she’d still be the most beautiful ship he’s ever seen by far. And to think she’s his.

excerpt ask game!

[booksnstuff58]

Book review: Scifi

As I said in my last post, I finished two books fairly close together. This was the second one I read.

The book I'm talking about today is

Loch Ness Leap by Sandy Schofield

So, this one's a little different than the books I normally read and review. I will occasionally read scifi or dystopian, but most of the time I read romance and fantasy. I wanted to read this one because it is based off of one of my absolute favorite shows, Quantum Leap!

If you've never watched Quantum Leap, don't know what it's about, here's the intro:

“Theorizing that one could time travel within his own lifetime, Doctor Sam Beckett stepped into the Quantum Leap accelerator and vanished... He awoke to find himself trapped in the past, facing mirror images that were not his own, and driven by an unknown force to change history for the better. His only guide on this journey is Al, an observer from his own time, who appears in the form of a hologram that only Sam can see and hear. And so Doctor Beckett finds himself leaping from life to life, striving to put right what once went wrong, and hoping each time that his next leap will be the leap home…”

Oh, I love it! The original one. I refuse to watch the remake. I refuse to let them ruin it.

Anyway, I HIGHLY recommend the show, it's beautiful and so much fun, and I've rewatched it like twelve times and it never gets old! The original one. The one with Scott Bakula and Dean Stockwell, not the new mess they're making.

So because of my obsession with that gorgeous show, I found me a book. Really, if I'm remembering correctly, my sister found it at the Goodwill and handed it to me which I then obviously bought. And yes, I'm aware that's bad grammar, it's just fun to use bad grammar sometimes!

Here's the blurb:

Sam Beckett leaps into the body of Dr. Donald Harding, a theoretical physicist, who has come to Loch Ness where his son is trying to prove the existence of the fabled Nessie and where Sam encounters a strangely familiar young woman who holds the key to Sam's own future.

And here's what I think:

Ok, so first of all, I don't really care about the Loch Ness monster, so this would not have been my first choice of Quantum Leap books, but this was the one we found at the Goodwill, so this is the one I had.

It was... okay. I will admit, I was a little disappointed with it. I love Quantum Leap and have actually written a few flash fiction which I am really pleased with. I feel like the characters could have been written a little better. There were times I could hear Sam's voice in my head while I was reading, but I couldn't really hear Al saying anything he said in the book. Which made me sad.

Also, one of my favorite parts of the show is the interaction between Sam and Al, but there was very little of that in this book, which also disappointed me.

I couldn't find any triggers, other than a rocky relationship between a father and son, but I'm not sure that really qualifies. There were maybe a few mild swears, but I don't remember if there actually were any or not.

So, in short, I read it. Wasn't the biggest fan. I would rather watch the show. My recommendation would be to watch the show. Seriously. You should watch it. It's so good. I wouldn't necessarily recommend Loch Ness Leap. If I find more books based off the show, I'll let you know how they are, but based off of my experience with this one, I wouldn't expect much.

I'll be back with more book reviews soon! I think I said in my last post that I'm working on two books again, which is true. I'm not sure how I feel about them just yet, but I'll let you know!

[soul-wanderer]

06x10//Even Better Than the Real Thing - weekly recap

alrighty-o, this week’s episode has been simultaneously bad and good and exciting and boring, so let’s get to it

- the training has felt a little repetitive, given the fact that we had a similar situation when Andy and Maya were running for captain, so I felt very little excitement for that. Nevertheless, it’s easy to see that they needed a scenario where Beckett could screw up to further this plot - I just wish they had been more creative about it

- it took exactly 0.0002 seconds to figure out that Cooper was gonna die, that’s how creative the writers were with this storyline. Seriously, don’t excessively and obviously focus on one random character and give him a “heartfelt” backstory and expect us to believe he’s gonna make it out of this alive. And tbh, they did not do a very good job at evoking empathy for this character, so...bye, Cooper. Was nice to meet you.

- 19 helping the probie from 88? Is he gonna switch stations? Predictions?

- all in all, that plot was just...meh. Again, they needed it to move along with Beckett’s story, but they could at least have gotten creative about it.

- the lasagna scene was great. No, for real, it was cute, nuff said.

- I am still feeling slightly indifferent about Jack’s current storyline. Maybe it’s the writing, maybe it’s the acting, but a potted plant has a similar range of emotions at this point.

- Maya. Sweet, sweet Maya. The writers really just dropped that bathroom scene on us and expected us to be okay. I’m still cautious about this arc, but that moment between was beautiful. As a side note: It was so adorably obvious that they were both excited to have a scene together again and it was showing in their interactions. This is the kind of chemistry I am here for - impromptu tear wiping included

- Eli being a creep in Andy’s apartment. But also, him almost screwing up Travis’ interviews until he stepped back and let him do his thing. And then, for a split second, I remembered that it felt like Eli was meant to get together with Travis and it could have been beautiful, just like that small moment between them in this episode, but no. Can’t ever have anything nice on this show, I suppose.

- THEO. MY GOD, THEO. Protect that man at all costs. My god. His death glare. His anger. My goodness, his anger. It’s all so brilliant. We don’t deserve him, but man, do we need him. I don’t care if I am biased, and I’d personally like to thank Carlos Miranda for showing up week after week after week. That man can do no wrong, I said what I said.

- Travis going back to the station. I kinda loved that small moment.

- The final scene was awful. I am angry. Just...why? What’s even worse is the fact that possibly the greatest quote of the episode came from the british dude:

“A strong stance is worth more in a leader than a mild peacekeeper. You are not a mild peacekeeper. You're strong, Andy. Stronger than any person I've ever met.”

- I just wish Andy would have heard that from her family/friends/colleagues, truly.

Preview:

- Apparently Maya is already back to active duty next week - what the heck? I guess her having been suicidal and reckless and unstable af is all but forgotten now?

- Please, please put an end to Beckett’s storyline. Please. Thank you.

[takeeachdayonebookatatime]

Why did you elbow me? 127

Achilles Castle part 32

Kate: pov I found out my Captain had been the 3rd cop and had killed Bob Armen in that alley. The hitman Bracken hired wanted me or my Captain's family but my Captain Roy wouldn't let that happen so he sacrificed himself killing all of the bad guys. Simon says wow that is so shocking i'm so sorry for your loss but what does this have to do with what's on your shirt, i mention i'm getting there it's all connected. Let's just say I had no idea while at my Captain's funeral that the worst moment of my life was about to happen. I was a detective at the time. Bracken must have found out what happened and that I was still alive. Lanie finishes the story for me.

Lanie: pov Kate was giving the eulogy at the moment we had no idea something bad was about to happen. I heard Castle who was standing near her scream, he tried to shove her out of the way but it was too late. He had seen the reflection of something in the distance. Kate was already hit in the left chest by a sniper rifle. I'm a Medical examiner and saved her life by keeping her alive until the medics arrived, since her chest trauma was so severe. In the ambulance she literally died. They had to use the paddles on her to bring her back to life. I did chest compression the whole way to the trauma OR since she crashed on the way into the Er. Her boyfriend at the time, cardiac surgeon Josh, had to treat her since he was on shift. He had to insert a chest tube since her left lung had collapsed due to the severe bleeding in Kate's chest. He had to start on her emergency thoracotomy surgery because she was dying, since she was bleeding into her chest cavity constricting her heart. The bullet hit her left inferior pulmonary vein which Josh sewed up. Another Surgeon named Dr Kovacs came to take over. She had no blood in the area since she was bleeding into her heart called a cardiac tampon the surgeon had to cut some of Kate's pericardium to let the blood out the bullet also hit her left ventricle she then started to go into ventricular tachycardia which then quickly turned into ventricular fibrillation. She went into cardiac arrest. They had to use the internal paddles on Kate and manually massage her heart to get it beating again. Then she flatlined in the Or. Thankfully they were able to bring her back to life, she is now a homicide Captain.

Castle: pov Lanie also mentions Kate has PTSD from the incident. Very loud noises like fireworks and thunder bother her. The band tells the crowd in line to give a round of applause for Captain Kate Beckett who sacrificed her life so we could be safe. Everyone starts cheering. Simon says to me you're a writer, my mom loves your books why did you kill off Derek storm. He asks how I got injured, I explain how. He asks if he can FaceTime his mom because she is a huge Niki Heat fan. Simon tells his mom he has a huge surprise for her, he panes the camera in my direction. That is when his mom starts to get all excited, once she sees Kate she gets even more excited. After our pictures are taken with the band we head to our seats Lanie explains to the security guard near our seats that Kate has a heart condition. Once she explains everything I sit in our seats. Kate will get the aisle seat. She and Lanie are headed for popcorn and water.

Kate: pov the concert is about to start the lights are dimming. The security guard is asking me to come to the front. Oh no please don't bring me on stage. Castle is starting to film on his phone. The band walks out saying they have an announcement. They meet an amazing fan backstage, can everyone stand up for Captain Kate Beckett, a homicide Captain out of the 12th precinct who survived a bullet to the heart a few years ago. I'm asked to come on stage. Lanie who went up with me is telling the 2 guards where to lift me up from. I'm so embarrassed, Simon mentions that the confetti cannons will be turned off for tonight's concert. I get the honor of announcing the Band. This is Captain Kate Becket and you're at Duran Duran. Thankfully I'm only up there for a few minutes. The guards help me down and back to my seat, back in my seat the band starts the first song.

Lanie: pov Castle is telling Kate he got that all on film. Her being brought up on stage. The popcorn tastes great. I tell Kate to be careful. I don't want her choking on it. Hungry like the wolf starts playing and the crowd is singing along loudly. A few songs later during Girl on film some people in the front row start dancing. Kate even got to hear "what are the chances". The last few songs are playing. Once the concert is over I make sure we have all of our stuff. The security guard tells Kate thank you for your service. Castle stops to buy some souvenirs from the concert. A few people come up to Kate saying, you are the girl they brought up on stage. I just wanted to say thank you for your service. After asking a few questions Kate explains to them what caused her heart condition. I can tell they are speechless. One of them says that is awful. I can't believe that happened to you.

Castle: pov after buying a few souvenirs we head to the car, I can tell Kate had so much fun tonight. It's going to be hard getting out of the venue. We are finally out of the venue and are now stuck in bad traffic. The cars are barely moving. Did an accident just happen up ahead? It sounded like one, we might be here for a while. To be continued. ………

[castle-dominion]

Teehee c2x19

I love her & her little science experiment. I learned all about spatter patterns when I first got into Sherlock.  Aw, that’s what growing up is like. Or you can say “I need to come in late to help my daughter” “I’ll be Fine without you!” *smashes tomato*

You should have gotten norman jessop to open the lock : (

I like how esposito is physically on beckett’s side but then moves to castle’s. Physicality representing the conversation.

I PAUSED THE VIDEO TO WRITE THAT LAST PARAGRAPH BUT OMG I WAS NOT EXPECTING TO HEAR THAT AS SOON AS I PLAYED IT AGAIN: RC: Eat, pray, love. *talks about his deductions & conjectures,* Someone who wouldn’t be satisfied with just a casual relationship. KB: & who’s to say that’s not his? RC & JE: *give her a look* KR walks in. Voice cracking slightly: Oh I love that book JE & RC: *look at each other* JE: *holds up his hand to say “forget it” to castle*

RC: They Have Dinosaurs There That’s pretty much the best part about living where I live. We have a GREAT dinosaur museum just a couple hours away with a decent camping spot & badlands & hoodoos (not the religion) & coal & fossils & it’s just so cool. 

Castle that is not your hat!? Why are you touching things that shouldn’t be touched & yanking on things that shouldn’t be yanked? (also the captions should totally have said that there were birds cawing & thunder crashing.) GIRL WHAT ARE YOU DOING? GLASS SHATTERING???

Of course it’s a curse. Ok bestie.  I mean speaking from an indigenous perspective, we knew things that were scientific but hadn’t been explained yet. Sage is one of our sacred medicines & science has proven it to be antimicrobial. You will be cursed with illness after opening the tomb because who knows what kinds of bacteria & microbes & pathogens & moulds are in there that could get you sick? I am Not excited for this episode. Probably going to be good old racism, at the very least some non-explicit racism. 

Ancient is such a debated word. https://www.tiktok.com/@diamond_dog74?lang=en has a video on how the word “ancient” is used. It’s like that saying, brits think 100 miles is a long way & americans think 100 years is a long time. https://www.tiktok.com/@diamond_dog74/video/7221754726608538926?is_from_webapp=1&sender_device=pc&web_id=7229405114166281733 is the video I was actually thinking of. I think. See this is why it takes me three hours to watch a 45 minute episode

Holy crap I’m only at the second intro.

The boys definitely discussed it. They said “let’s pretend we’re getting dead ends because of castle’s curse it’ll be hilarious” The movement is so good. Ryan pointing as Esposito talks.

I love a good familial superstition.  JE: Yeah, my abuela always said, “La mala suerte viene de tres en tres” (I have castle paused right now & from my background in french I’d say it means “the harm follows comes of three in three” aka “curses come in triplets”) (Wait he translated: bad luck always comes in threes. Mala suerte probs is bad luck then. Suerte does not mean “follow” as I thought.)

I said, we’re not celebrities, We spark & fade, they die by threes.

Not excited. Please no heavy racism, even if you must have eurocentrism. (Which you already have had.)

Why are the vikings romanticized & their human sacrifice ignored but the native americans demonized & it’s the only thing people talk about? 

Ryan: Can I drive? Esposito: No <3

*throws up a bit in my mouth*

Cacaw Te is so right. The deal was with a government not with the people who actually belong to the land & culture & tomb.

JE: We hit the jackpot with the girlfriend photos. KB: ...He was sleeping with a mummy? JE, nodding: Yeah *stops* --What?

Karma is not within your current lifetime. 

They just got bomb disposal to.. make a flash bang in the coffee machine? RC: I’m not cleaning this up! RC a second later: ... I’d better clean this up

Stonehenge was just some people doing a ton of unnecessary work & deja vu is your brain short circuiting for a second. Isn’t it?

Macbeth is only bad if you say the name in a theater.  Hey we do the same thing at school! In my line cooking class we have a loop; a wall separates the prep area from the line. If someone says “it seems like a slow day” then you need to walk a lap around the line to break the jinx.

They’re so cute. KR: He pulled the surveillance video, revealing this shining example of thuggery. KB: Any idea who he is? KR: *takes a deep breath & big smile* *turns to esposito* KR: Do you want to? JE: No bro, you caught it KR: You sure? JE: Yeah it’s yours, go ahead KB & me: You know, whenever you guys are done being cute.

KB: Come on Castle, let’s go RC, probably because of what happened during the bdsm episode: Can I drive? KB: Are you kidding? You’re cursed!

I FORGOT ABOUT THIS PART! WITH THE DOG!  I can’t believe they are still pranking him! Wait nvm it was just a normal dog. It looked like a police dog tho. This is why I keep a safetypin on my at all times if I can help it. Always able to sort-of-kind-of fix your pants after being attacked by a dog.

I love how some random cop whistles as she passes castle with his pants ripped open. Wait is she checking him out?

Wait it was a police dog nvm.

(”gypsy” is a slur btw)

Rewatching the scene with montgomery because it’s good. I mean you’re irish, the amount of curses & folklore? & then you, didn’t your abuela tell you not to mess with curses?

RC: Fill me in, spare no detail KR: Well in some cultures, instead of burning-- RC: Fast forward a little bit

Ugh acab & like girl are you sure you won’t damage anything?

KR: We have a k-9 unit coming in to help RC: *looks around frantically*

*Elecator stops* *Things go bad* *Elevator shifts & creaks* RC: What am I supposed to do if the elevator falls, jump in the air? No! Lay on the ground! (in the next scene) Ding *Elevator opens to castle starfishing facedown on the elevator floor*

& then the facial expressions of the cops behind him once he gets out

RC: & if her boyfriends get frisky you can shoot them

I love CT’s science stuff. Super interesting. & I like how he explains but rushes it to keep their attention

I love a good mortitian undertaker mortuary expert coroner whatever you call em.

Ruh roh.

[fancoloredglasses]

Quantum Leap (An Enterprising approach to time travel)

(Thanks to Time Travel Nexus)

[All images are owned by Universal. Please don’t sue me or alter my past...though if you did, how would I know?] 

Yep, we’re discussing time travel again. As longtime readers would know I’ve covered time travel twice before. However, this time I’m covering an entire series devoted to time travel and its consequences (both good and bad)

This takes place in the far-flung future of...1995 (the reason for the year will become apparent soon) about a project known as Quantum Leap. The reason none of us heard of Project Quantum Leap is because it was a secret government project headed by...

...Dr. Sam Beckett (played by Scott Bakula, who went on to play Capt. Archer on Enterprise), a physicist theorizing that time travel was possible, but only if one traveled withing their own lifetime (meaning he couldn’t go further back than his birth)

However, the government was about to pull all funding unless it achieved actual results, so Sam decided to perform a test Leap before the Project was ready! The test was successful...sorta.

The person he sees in the mirror (and the one everyone else sees) isn’t him! The Leap switches his body with someone who belongs in that time, but somehow the “aura” of the person remains, allowing Sam to assume the identity of the person he Leaped into. What’s worse, the initial Leap scrambled Sam’s synapses, so he has some very large holes in his memory (though his knowledge remained, which is good since he has 6 PhDs and a working knowledge of a number of martial arts)

Sam likely would have no clue what he was doing if not for...

...his best friend, Admiral Al Calavicci. Thanks to a neural link set up by the Project between Sam and Al prior to the initial Leap, Al is able to communicate was Sam as a hologram invisible to everyone else (though it’s been established that children, dogs, and people who are convenient to the plot can somehow see and hear Al as well)

The theory (which was confirmed by the end of the series) was that some invisible hand was placing Sam where he needed to be to correct bad things that have happened (usually involving someone close to the person Sam Leaps into dying).

Due to the Project’s computer (code-named “Ziggy”) having access to every record and news story that happened during Sam’s lifetime (this was written pre-internet, so it’s on Ziggy’s hard drive instead of Ziggy merely using Google), Sam’s assistant (and Ziggy’s programmer) “Gushie” (who the hell named the supporting cast?!), Al is able to tell Sam what he’s likely there to fix and help guide him to succeed.

There is no rhyme or reason to what sort of people Sam Leaps into. A small sampling of who Sam has Leaped into include...

...a test pilot

...professional athletes

...a professional wrestler

...a psych ward patient

...a rock singer

...a Death Row inmate

...multiple women

...a pregnant woman

(Thanks to A PERFECT LIFE MOMENT)

...and Lee Harvey Oswald!

At the end of each episode, Sam leaps from the body he’s currently inhabiting and we see a brief glimpse of what Sam’s next identity will be by previewing the opening scene from the next episode (usually ending with Sam saying “Oh boy...”)

Technically, the show is science fiction. However, with the exception of Al and Ziggy it isn’t very sci-fi (though Al does have some fairly trippy outfits!) and half the fun is watching the banter between Sam and Al (as well as Sam awkwardly try to assume his newest identity before Al can show up to clue him in)

A new series started last year that is a sequel to the original series with a new team. I’ve been watching and enjoying it, and wondering when we’re gonna see a cameo featuring Sam Beckett.

If you would like to watch the series, it is currently airing on SyFy. You may also see it on NBC.com if you have cable/satellite (or Peacock if you have a subscription) If you would like to see an episode reviewed, let me know!

[reveluving]

the prettiest of them all

summary: What better way to use a closet mirror, conveniently placed beside the bed than to see you writhe in his arms?

pairing: damien nazario x f!mc (written as ‘you’, no name usage)

warnings: mature/smut (minor DNI!)

a/n: couldn’t just leave our man Nazario out after writing for Beckett, so please enjoy this fic with our favourite private investigator! ‘you’ can be yourself or your OC! and don’t forget to leave some sugar! ᐠ( ᐛ )ᐟ

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disclaimer! this is a submission for:

‘CFWC Naughty & Nice’ by @choicesficwriterscreations​ with the prompts (Naughty); “I can’t move.” “That’s the idea.”

‘Picktober: Choices October Challenge’ by @choicesmonthlychallenge​ using the prompts (Kinktober); Biting & Mirrors.

» smut includes; dirty mind, biting obv, fingering, soft!Damien.

'The single piece of furniture, plus your scandalous moans playing in his head on a loop continuously taunting him.' ;

It was hard for Damien to believe that it's been six months since the end of the whole Eros incident. Though he has yet to sleep without waking up in a cold sweat every once in a while, he was definitely getting better by the day.

Plus, with you in his arms at every step of the way, he'd say he's doing pretty good!

Time flies when you're with the right person— as cliché as it sounds, the statement had resonated with him the moment he knew he wanted to be more than just your friend. He remembered Nadia offering him to hang out with the three of you as a thank-you for dealing with her stalker problem. He also remembered having second thoughts about it, considering how he's always ever avoided making friends with his clients. Yet, somehow, it was the need to see you again that pushed him to say yes.

No matter how hard he tried to deny his own feelings, he knew he had no chance of winning, and he'd often thank the universe for it.

So, getting the opportunity to enjoy an entire week in Hawaii with you, especially after a slew of misfortunes and just plain stress in the office, was like dying a hero.

Not that he'd call himself a hero.

Then again, he couldn't say that in front of you. Don't ever say that, you'd probably admonish him, but not out of anger.

Oh, you. Wonderful, wonderful you. Just an embodiment of pure love and hope.

He hasn't moved from his spot ever since he reluctantly let you leave the bed, glancing between the window and the bathroom. He was conflicted between watching the picturesque sunset and seeing you walking to and fro in the bathroom sink as you did your makeup.

You and Damien had just woken up, having been forced to follow Nadia and Steve to visit the local attractions at the crack of dawn. Sloane, Khaan and Hayden's presence made the activity bearable, considering it wasn't just you and Damien in that ten hour-torture. But what could he do? Nadia was the one paying for the trip, so Damien knew better than to bitch and whine about her itinerary.

Plus, Nadia knew he didn't hate it, as long as you were around, you knew your ways of distracting him.

He covered his eyes with one arm, the cloud-like pillow and your humming nearly lulled him back to sleep, only to raise his head at your soft 'fuck!'.

Something about the noise you made immediately had eyes landing on the closet mirror next to him. The single piece of furniture, plus your scandalous moans playing in his head on a loop continuously taunting him.

Fuck it.

And just like, he shot out of bed, unwilling to ignore what he had been wanting to do the second he got here.

Seeing you meticulously work on your lashes, he was nice enough to knock on the door, your expression shifting from extreme focus to a wide grin.

“Morning, handsome,” You joked and yet, you continued with perfecting your wing, “We should be getting ready, Nadia's been torturing my phone for like, 30 minutes now.”

As if on cue, the 'ding!' coming from your phone only supported your explanation, the 17th message from none other than Mrs Park herself.

Damien answered you with a hum, leaning against the door frame and watching you with his sharp eyes. He took in your current appearance; Dazzling and downright luscious, dressed to the nines, despite the lack of clothing covering you up. A naughty little vixen. A single taste of you and his self-restraints will immediately snap.

“Damien?” You didn’t look back at him, despite his lack of response, only for you to freeze up when he came up to you ever so slowly. The way he approached you with such a look made you feel like a prey, a thought that you couldn’t help yourself as you rubbed your thighs together.

He must’ve noticed it, chuckling as he stood behind you, his erection barely hiding behind his briefs as he pinned you against the counter.

“What are you doing?” You finally met his eyes in the mirror, giving him a nervous giggle.

“Just… appreciating.”

“Yeah? Well, do you mind if you…” You motioned him to step back with your free hand, “Move back a little?”

“Now, why would I do that?” His voice got deeper as if your question had offended him despite the mischief in his tone. You only thought of putting the brush down when he placed both of his hands on either side of you, trapping you between his hard chest and the counter.

“I… I can’t move.” The prominent bulge was impossible to ignore, especially when he began rolling his hips into your backside. You choked out a gasp, the mascara was long forgotten as it dropped to the floor, hints of ink smearing the marble top when it slipped out of your fingers.

“That’s the idea.”

He didn't give you the time to process and dragged you out to the bedroom, carrying you via bridal style. Your demands to put you down were as effective as a Pomeranian yapping at its owner, with Damien's chest reverberating with laughter against you.

Surprisingly, instead of placing you down on the bed as you expected, he sat on the edge of the bed, which faced the unexplainably long mirror. Damien knew he got you exactly where he wanted the second he heard your breath hitching, and he knew it wasn’t only because he had you on his lap.

It was the first thing you noticed when you checked in, the placement and sheer size of it drove your mind to run wild. It didn’t last long, though, for you were forced to snap out of it when Damien came in seconds later. But you should’ve known better than to think he didn’t notice, too focused on the idea of being ravished in front of it to see the smug on his face. You lied when he asked if you were okay, answering him ever so softly without meeting his gaze before running off to the bathroom ‘to change into your bikini’ despite forgetting to grab your swimwear out of your luggage.

Since then, his imagination, too, became anything but appropriate, though if he wasn’t being honest, he would’ve thought about it regardless. But the real problem was finding the right time for it. Since the very first day, he had you bouncing on his cock in the luxurious bathtub and has gone down on you in the sauna but not once have the two of you used the bed. Whether it was because you were too tired or too comfortable in the sheets, and in Damien’s arms no less, it didn’t matter anymore, because he was going to change that.

To hell with Nadia’s plans tonight, he had other priorities.

The way his warm breath tickled your neck as he perched his chin on your shoulder, his calloused hands running up and down your hips before settling them on your top. He grazed his teeth across your neck, easily finding the sweet spot that sent shivers down your spine. He didn’t spare you a second before biting into the soft skin, huffing out in amusement when you choked out a gasp, writhing in his arms, and he didn’t just do it once.

He didn’t want just one hickey on your pretty neck, after all.

He fondled your breasts, feeling your nipples tighten under the material. He dragged the top down, the material folding under your breasts and accentuating your assets. His mouth was dying to latch onto your nipples, but he was already too entranced by the current view in front of him. That didn’t mean who wouldn’t do it later.

He never said he’d be done with it after one round.

And the second his fingers brushed against your sensitive bud, he knew you were done for.

The way his fingers pumped in and out of your pussy had you squirming in his lap, his lips unconsciously parting with yours as he watched your face contort in pleasure. He didn’t even bother removing your panties, opting to move the offending material aside before easing in his thick, middle finger. The more he curled his fingers into you, the more you soaked both his briefs, down to the bedsheets. Not that he gave a shit anyway. In fact, it was exactly what he wanted to see, the same way he wanted to hear that delicious squelching.

Your head rolled back, resting it against his shoulder as he leaned in and whispered.

“Open your eyes, mi vida,” You whined, both from the nickname and how his voice went so far as to make you tighten around his fingers. He growled at the sensation, but managed to keep it together before continuing, “Look at yourself in the mirror and see how gorgeous you are.”

You tried to, you really did, but with the way rolled his hips against yours, it was almost impossible to even open your eyes, let alone keep your head up.

So, he helped you out.

His other hand moved from your waist, his fingers sliding from the valley of your breasts, tits now hard from when he rolled them just moments ago, before holding you by the jaw. It was nowhere near rough, but enough to help you look up.

If it wasn’t for Damien, you would’ve looked away just as quickly, your body growing hotter than you thought was possible at the sight; your skin glowing from the sheen of sweat and dim light coming from the bathroom, his thick fingers thrusting in and out of your tight hole and those blown out pupils of his as he watched you, right before his eyes met yours, now far less innocent of a situation then your brief conversation in the bathroom earlier.

“Cancel our plans,” You didn’t even know what he was talking about at first, not especially when he turned your head to look at him, hair disheveled and looking feral, “I want you to see how beautiful you cum in the mirror. Over and over again.”

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[kim-poce]

Full House 32 - Neglect

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CW: pet whump, neglect, starvation, implied self harm (not sleep and eat), caretaker new master, institutionalized slavery.

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Neglect is a kind of abuse.

Eri knows that, he knows that very well, he saw victims of abuse back in the army, the ones who enlisted so they could go away from home, Eri was also running away back then, but running away from a rich household with caring parents was completely different, seemly worthless and stupif when compared, it took him a long time to stop comparing, to let the fact that different people have different problems sink in.

The ‘pets’ were abused in many ways, both before and after being brought, some of them must have suffered even before being a pet, and Eri wanted them to just experience good things from now on.

Neglect is a kind of abuse so Eri tried to spent as much time with the pets as their personal space allowed, but at some point it got… hard, he doesn’t blame the boys from being wary, hateful even, to him, they have all the reason and a bit more not to trust him, but…

But the work was increasing, the tasks hoarding up, the time was short and the looks on the pets’ face was so… so bad, Eri wasn’t used to being looked like that, he wasn’t used to being hated, he was often too tired of pushing himself into trying to talk with the boys just to be greets with hate and fear, so he… took a break?

The boys were doing fine enough, he told himself, they follow the rules about eating and sleeping a little better now, so Eri told himself that focusing on the other work for a week or so would be fine. He was so wrong.

“Can you come home here right now?” Eri said desperately on the phone, as soon as Beckett picked up, it was ten in the morning, on a normal weekday, but he was selfish enough to wish Beckett would get out of work and go there.

“Sorry man, I have patients until two, I’m on a ten minutes break. What happened? The little boy got worse?” Beckett said, there were sounds of something being scribbled down on a paper followed by keyboard sound.

“No, not him it was…” Eri looked down at the so slim Beige on the bed, he looked more fragile than ever, and different from when Eri first met him, this time it was his fault. “Can you go as soon as you can? I’ll pay as much as you want just…” Beige started to move restless in his sleep. “Please come, I’ll text you the code of the door. Okay?”

Please say okay, please please please plea-

“Sure,” Becket said after a little pause. “We talk better when I get there than, see you later. Take care.”

“Thanks.”

Water. “Be-” Eri paused, the person who usually helps him on caring for the others is Beige, Beige can’t help now, Beige needs help. “I’ll go bring water and… cook? No…” I don’t know of any receipts good for starving people, I should know, I should've looked it up as soon as I got here.

Eri walked to the kitchen, taking water and an apple, maybe a bit of fruit is easy enough for a start, he doesn’t know when Beige last ate, so he assumed it was long ago.

“Hey, hey, wake up,” Eri called softly, slowly feeding water to the sick pet. “It’s okay,” it’s definitely not. “I’m here now,” I shouldn’t have left to begin with.

Beige’s eyes opened, the first expression of his face upon his Eri was dread, and Eri tried to swallow the bitter feeling that that caused. The pet tried to protest, but he wasn’t strong enough to finish any sentence.

“Please eat a bit now,” Eri said, feeding him some apple on the spoon as one does to little toothless babies.

For a while it was just that, no words were spoken, what could Eri even say? ‘Why did you do that?’ would sound like scolding, ‘why didn't you tell me?’ would make it seem like Beige isn’t allowed any secrets.

“Please, Beige, don’t ever skip meals again, okay?” Eri ordered finally, it —he hoped— was the safest way to say this sentence.

Beige fearfully nodded and opened his mouth to speak but Eri just put the spoon in his mouth again, he knew what he was going to say, he didn’t want to hear it. And he knew why Beige had done this; it was Eri’s fault.

Neglect is a kind of abuse.

Eri knows that very well and yet he told himself the pets would be fine on their own, the six men are all his responsibility and god-fucking property and yet he pretended it would be fine to leave them alone.

He wanted to believe that they don’t truly need him, but they do. From the moment Eri signed these papers these people are his responsibility, and this responsibility won’t go away just because he wants it to, it won’t go away with the months or a few years. Eri didn’t want to admit that for the predictable future he would need to always walk on eggshells in his own house.

“S-sorry,” Beige said, tearing up. “I’m- I’m useless.”

“You are not,” Eri said, patting the boy’s head. Beige could only accept that he is worth something if he is useful, so Eri had no choice but to say he is useful. “I never thought of you as useless,  in truth you are always there for me, right? You are the most useful pet of all.” He was careful not to pause, pauses would be openings to misunderstandings, so it doesn't matter if the words were bitter or not, he said them naturally and gently, and hoped the boy would calm down.

Eri kept feeding him, he was small, fragile, so skinny, the dark circles on his face were huge, did he even sleep this week at all? Did he faint from hunger or did the exhaustion take the better of him? What did Eri do to make him neglect himself so much? Was it something he did or something he said? Was it his absence?

Neglect is a kind of abuse, so is Eri any better than his parents, or the trainers in the facilities? The longer he failed the more like them he felt.

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[sherbet-shark]

Music Prompt list Twst Ver.

[Ft. Sherbet’s Spotify playlist]

As a celebration of my over 160 followers open this! This event will be going from May 31st to June 15th PT time. This is roughly a 2 week timeframe. I will answer all of the requests both prompt and normal on the day of June 15th and later due to my family and I going on vacation. I will prioritize the reqs that are easier to answer but again no promises.

Do not hassle me to answer your requests as again I am on vacation.

I wanted to try something out and give my followers something, so I came up with this after getting inspired by a friend. Yes, I listen to country and a lot of early 2000s and 2010’s music. It’s a nice nostalgic trip. This is just scratching the surface of my playlist tbh asdjkl

Rules: You send me the emoji and number attached to the song list lyric line(s) you want to request, plus a twisted boy. The “//” means it can be a two-in-one deal, or if you wish, you can specify which line you want and if there are two people in the line, as I’ve outlined, request another boy too! But the same overall rules apply to my general rules, which are here. I may use these lines as dialogue or as part of a story. You may only request a limit of two prompt lines per request.

Also, to note, there is a flirty section I will write kissing and holds, but that is as far I will go. Also!! Just because there are pronouns in the below lyrics, it doesn’t mean anything.”

╰┈➤ Example of req: “1.🌸 “I wanna dance in the dark and never stop. We’re gonna light up the night” + 10.💧 “Time to face the music. I’m no longer your muse” for Kalim, please thank you!

╰┈➤ Example of req w/two characters: “ Can I please request Ace and Mc for 🌸 10. “Ay, no! He’d never go out with a skank like that. Please tell me your joking.” Character B: “Okay! Just wanted to see what you’d say.”

Key:

🌸- Fluff

💧- Angst

💋- flirtatious

~🌸 - Fluff song section~

1. “I wanna dance in the dark by, and never stop. We’re gonna light up the night.” Dancing in the Dark by Rhianna

2. “If you’re tossing and you’re turnin’ and you just can’t fall asleep, I’ll sing a song beside you and if you ever forget how much you mean to me.” Count on me by Bruno Mars

3. “Those three words are said too much they’re not enough.” Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol

4. “Show me how you justify Telling all your lies like second nature. Listen, mark your words, One day (one day) You will pay(you will pay). Karma’s gonna come collect your debt.” Sheep in wolf’s clothing by Set it off ft. William Beckett

5. “Thank you to the one who caused her heart to break. I’m thanking you for givin’ me a soul to save. Thank you to the one who let her get away.” One by Lewis Capaldi

6. “Out of the lions den I don’t have to pretend (and it’s too late) The story’s over now, the end. I wish I knew then, what I know now.” Wide Awake by Katy Perry

7. “Sorry for coming through the window. Dreadful etiquette I know.” [Character B] “GET OUT OF MY HOUSE.” Yo girl by Heathers the musical

8. “Yeah, boy. You shine and you can’t even help it. Yeah, boy your eyes can make the moon jealous.” Yeah boy by Kelsea Ballerini

9. “How long have you known about it? Did you know from the start?” Every note by Mystery Skulls

10. “Ay no! He’d never go out with a skank like that. Please tell me your joking.” [Character B]“Okay! Just wanted to see what you’d say.” // “No me diga!” No me Diga by In the heights Musical cast

11. “We were made for each other, out here forever. I know we were, yeah yeah.” // “I love the things that you do.” When you’re gone by Avril Lavigne

12. “I’d walk to you if I had no other way. Our friends would all make fun of us. And we’ll just laugh along because we know that none of them have felt this way.” Hey there Delilah by Plain White Tees

13. “Livin’ on a Prayer, take my hand, we’ll make it. I swear Woah- oh!”Livin’ on a Prayer by Bon Jovi

14. “Je danse sous use pluie d’étoiles, Tu es ce que j’attendais. C’est ça, l’amour.”-> “I dance under a star shower (or starry sky) You are the one I’ve been waiting for. This is love.” C’est ça l’amour by Luce & Mathieu Boogaerts

15. “I will not ask you where you come from. I will not ask you, neither should you. Honey just put your sweet lips on my lips.” Like real People do by Hoizer

16. “Say you will, Marry me. Mhhhm.” Marry me by Train

17. “At least out loud I won’t say I’m in love.” I won’t say I’m in love by Susan Egan

18. “We took the floor and she said Don’t you dare look back, keep your eyes on me. I said you’re holding back.” Shut up and dance with me by Walk the Moon

19. “These guys don’t appreciate that I’m broke. [Character B] “Riffraf, Street rat, Scoundrel!“ -First Character- “Just a little snack guys.” One jump ahead by Brad Kane and Disney

20. “It’ll do magic believe it or not. Bibbidi-bobbidi-boo.” Bibbidi-bobbidi-boo by Verna Felton

~💧 - Angst song section~

1. “A little, but I’m hoping it might kick start me and my broken heart.” Me and My Broken heart by Rixton

2. Can’t wait to hear what they call me, Call me names and makeup all these stories, I would kill for a life that ain’t boring.” // “I’m a lot of things but not sorry.” Psycho Mia Rodriguez

3. “I wanna make you feel wanted and call you mine, Wanna hold your hand forever and never let you forget it, I wanna make you feel wanted.” Wanted by Hunter Hayes

4. “Before you go. Was there something I could’ve said to make your heartbeat better?” Before you go by Lewis Capaldi

5. “I can’t be what you want me to be. Believe me this one time.” Bad Liar by Imagine Dragons

6. “When you’re fast asleep, in dreams you will lose your heartaches. Whatever you wish for, you keep. Have faith in your dreams.” A dream is a wish you heart makes by Ilene Woods and Cinderella’s Mice Chorus

7. “We’re like fire and gasoline. I’m no good for you, you’re no good for me. We only bring each other tears and sorrow.” // “I'm not gonna break down and call you up. When my heart cries out for you.” Tomorrow by Chris Young

8. “Is she the one that I couldn’t be for you? Is she the one? Mhm. hate you’re the one, that I’ll never get over, that I wanna get closer to.” I wanna know by NOTD ft. Bea Miller

9. “When you can learn to live without it and go along not thinkin’ about it I’ll tell you something.” The bare necessities by Phil Harris and Bruce Reitherman

10. “Time to face the music I’m no longer your muse. In another life, I’d be your girl.” // “We keep all our promises, be us against the world.” The one that got away acoustic version by Katy Perry

11. “I forgot to say out loud. How beautiful you really are to me.” // “When did I become this obnoxious?” Please don’t leave me by p!nk

12. “I’ll wear my black suit, black tie hide in the back. I’ll do a strong shot of whiskey straight out the flask.” // “I’ll try make it through without crying so nobody sees. Yeah, she’s gonna get married but she don’t wanna marry me.” Marry me by Thomas Rhett

13. “Love is just a tool. Too remind us who we are. And that we are not alone, when walking in the dark.” // “I hope someday we’ll sit down together and laugh with each other ‘Bout these days.” These days by Rudimental ft. Jess Glynne, Macklemore and Dan Caplen.

14. “Cause I don’t wanna fight no more. Even when the waves get rough, I don’t wanna see the day I don't wanna see the day we say we've had enough. And I don't wanna fight this war.” Battleships by Daughtry

15. “They don’t deserve you. I tried to scream but my head was underwater.” // “Could’ve been a nightmare but it felt like they were right there.” Everything I wanted by Bille Eilish

16. “This place isn’t much, but it was the one thing left I could call my own. Why couldn’t you leave it alone?” My home sweet home by the Goosebumps the musical cast

17. “I’ve got a tight grip on reality, but I can’t let go of what’s in-front of me here.” // “I know you’re leaving in the morning when you wake up. Leave me with some kind of proof it’s not a dream.” The only exception by Paramore

18. “I wished you the best of all this world could give and I told you when you left me there’s nothing to forgive.” Jealous by Labrinth

19. “It’s unfair that I still care and I wonder where you are tonight.” Should’ve Been Us by Tori Kelly

20. “Don’t go crying to your mama, cause you’re in the real world.  Ain’t it fun, ain’t fun baby you’re one of us.” // “See its easy to ignore trouble when you’re living in a bubble.” Ain’t it Fun by Paramore 

~💋 - Flirtatious song section~

1. “I’ll keep you my dirty little secret. Don’t tell anyone, or you’ll be just another regret.” Dirty Little Secret by All-American Rejects

2. “I think you’re fine you really blow my mind, Maybe someday you and me can run away, I just want you to know, I wanna be your Romeo.” Juliet by LMNT

3. “I know that you like me, no way no way, no, it’s not a secret.” // “I can see the way you look at me. And even when you look away, I know you think of me.” Girlfriend by Avril Lavigne

4. “Couldn’t answer if I wanted. Cause his lips are on my lips, and both my hands are on his body.” Funny by Zedd & Jasmine Thompson

5. “When you’re around, I feel so weightless and when we kiss, I can’t explain.” Paralyzed by Mystery Skulls

6. “Your hands on my hips and my kiss on your lips. Oh, I could do this for a long time.” Heartbeat Song by Kelly Clarkson

7. “I’ll try to picture me without you but I can’t.” Immortals by Fall Out Boy

8. “I’m falling deep into a pit of vipers. Over me over me and I can’t break free. Secrets run deep when you’re in a pit.” // “I use you no good, need to be in control.” Pit of Vipers by Simon Curtis

9. “When the jealousy’s strong, all I see is you. Is you, oh you (ooh).” You by Regard, Troye Sivan and Tate McRae

10. “One look and you’re mine keep your eyes on me. Cause when the stars align you might bring the beast out.” Beast by Mia Martina ft. Waka Flocka

11. “If you talk that talk, baby Better walk that walk baby.” // “Baby I’m sorry (not sorry).” Sorry not Sorry by Demi Lovato

12. “Girl, you’re the one I want to want me. If you want than you got me. There’s nothing I wouldn’t do just to get up next to you.” Want to Want me by Jason Derulo

13. “Smelling your pillows wishing And wishing I was there. (I was there.)” Beautiful Mistakes by Marron 5 and Megan thee Stallion

14. “Just don’t get attached to someone you could lose.” // “kiss him goodbye at the door, and leave him wantin’ more.” How to be a Heartbreaker by MARINA

15. “And maybe I should start confessin’. Confessin, yeah! Oh, I’ve been shakin’. I love it when you go crazy.” There’s Nothin’ Holdin’ Me Back by Shawn Mendes

16. “Like I’m the only one that you’ll ever love. Like I’m the only one who knows your heart.” Only girl in the world by Rhianna

17. “The only room with a view is a room with you in it.” 96,000 by In The Heights Cast

18. “Just admit it, sometimes being mean is what you are. Mean is easier than nice.” A cautionary tale by Barrett Wilbert Weed, Grey Henson and Original cast of Mean Girls

19. “I love you baby, and if it’s quite alright I need you baby to warm these lonely nights. I love you baby.” ily by Surf Mesa ft. Emilee

20. “I should’ve kissed you. Just like I wasn’t scared at all.” // “Now that I kissed you goodnight it’s a good night.” (Kissed you) Goodnight by Gloriana

[lololova]

Beyond the words - 47 reasons

Prompt: “Fic prompt I’m throwing out there: 47 Seconds arc - Beckett receives the DC job offer during the time Castle starts shutting her out.” Tweeted by @/bunysliper

Hope you enjoy it as much as I did writing it! Until next time, xxxx

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Kate Beckett looks down at her phone, still not sure if she should call or not. How is she supposed to make a decision like this? She thinks back to the conversation with the agent from F.B.I. who’d said she’d be a great addition to the bureau if she decided to make an appointment for a job interview. She thinks back to how badly she’d wanted to tell her partner but he’d been nowhere to be seen. She thinks back to the case and how he’d all of a sudden literally been nowhere to be found every time she wanted to discuss a new lead with him. She can’t stop thinking about the glances of - what? Hate? Disgust? - that he’s kept throwing at her the past week. And she can’t think of a reason why.

“It’s like he’s pulling away,” she’d told dr. Burke no more than a couple hours ago.

“What are you most afraid of Kate? That he won’t wait for you, or that he will?” he’d asked back and she’d held back a groan.

The therapist was of no use when it came to the talking about her partner. He never gave her a straight answer when she asked something. And today has been no different.

“Argh,” she groans as she once again puts away her phone. She wants to smash something, anything. But she also knows it won’t actually help.

One part of her just wants to make the call, do the interview, get the job, move and never look back ever again. But another part of her can’t even fathom the thought of leaving her partner to never see him again. Not when they were so close! Which brings her back to the constant thought screaming in her mind for the past week. WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED TO THEM?! Why has he pulled away? Why doesn’t he text her anymore? Why doesn’t he answer when she calls? Why is it killing her? You know why it kills you. She shrugs the voice away, tries to ignore it and pretends she didn’t hear it. But you did.

Kate feels the tears prickle her eyes as she picks up her phone once again. But instead of calling the DC-number she touches the screen until she has the photo of him covering the entire screen. It’s a photo she took not that long ago. She’d actually taken it without his knowledge, even though he’s staring at her she’d managed to take it without him figuring it was a photo she’d taken with her phone, and he just looked so relaxed and so in love with her that it made her sick to the stomach. He hasn’t been looking at her like that since their bomb case. What did she do?

Before she can do anything about it her cheeks are wet from the tears and she can’t stop the crying no matter how much she tries. Can’t stop feeling the pain of her heart aching inside her chest. It’s worse than she thought at first because suddenly it’s also hard to breathe. She tries taking deep, calming breaths, but she has a feeling it won’t help fully. What she needs is confirmation from her partner, any type of confirmation. She needs to know if he still loves her or if she’s screwed it up completely. Without thinking she’s calling his number, phone to ear as she hopes he’ll answer for once.

“Hi, you’ve reached Richard Castle. Sorry I can’t come to the phone right now but please, leave a message after the beep.” Beep.

Kate doesn’t know what to say, and so she just hangs up. Instead she goes to messages, and starts to type one out. Before she knows it she’s clicked “sent” and can see the message turn delivered before freezing. She actually sent it.

-Please give me a reason to stay in NY.-

To her surprise he answers within seconds.

-What do you mean?-

She takes a deep breath before typing out a reply. -They want me to do a job interview in DC. And right now I can’t see a reason to stay.-

She waits patiently, hoping he will answer soon.

-What makes you think I have a reason? You’ll do whatever you want anyway.-

Ouch. She sighs, thinking about all the conversations she’s had with dr. Burke about her partner. -You’re the only reason I want to stay.- She writes it and sends it before she can regret anything.

When he still hasn’t answered after ten minutes she feels disappointment in the pit of her belly. She lets her phone fall out of her hands before she sets her steps towards her bathroom. Once in there she starts to strip her clothes off. If she showers it won’t be as obvious that she’s crying. He doesn’t want her anymore and he can’t even find the words to say it.

“What are you most afraid of Kate? That he won’t wait for you, or that he will?”

That he won’t, she decides. Everything had been going so great and she knows it’s her fault it’s all falling apart but she can’t for the life of her figure out what she did. It’s killing her not knowing, but she has a feeling that even if she’d get the courage to ask him she wouldn’t get an answer. She’d just get an “We’re fine”.

Kate’s so focused on her thoughts, on trying to calm down her crying and take deep breaths, that she doesn’t hear her phone ring. She doesn’t hear the knocking later on either. It’s not until she’s walking out of the bathroom in only a towel wrapped around her body that she’s realizing she’s not alone. When she sets her foot inside the living room she lets go of a yelp when she sees her partner stand by her front door.

“I-sorry! S-sparekey,” he says as he clenches his eyes shut. “You didn’t answer,” he adds and she holds the towel a little bit tighter around her.

“What are you doing here, Castle?” she questions with a hoarse voice. She hopes he doesn’t figure out it’s because of her crying.

She observes him as he puts his hands over his eyes as if he’s making sure he won’t accidentally look at her.

“You can’t leave New York,” he says and she feels her pulse quicken.

Is he going to say what she’s hoped for during the last week?

“Why not?”

“You’re needed here, your dad is here, Ryan and Espo are here. How are they going to keep their jobs if you’re not there to help them keep the closing rate up? You already have forty-seven reasons to stay so why did you send that text to me? I don’t mean anything to you so why send those texts to me?”

She takes a step back, what makes him think she doesn’t care for him? Again, what did she do?!

“What are you talking about?” she asks, her voice raspy and she can hear the desperation herself.

He sighs and she can tell he’s about as irritated with her as she is with him. Maybe even more. “Call your dad and ask him what to do, you listen more to him than me anyway.” He starts to turn around and she sees his hands go down to reach for her apartment door again.

Oh no. She’s not going to let him get away that easily. Not when he’s the one to come to her apartment. She takes quick steps to put herself in front of him, and therefore in front of the door, blocking his way out. And she’s suddenly well aware of their height difference.

“What are you doing?” he asks and she sees his widened eyes flinch down to her chest before they focus on her eyes.

“What did I do?” she asks, emotion raw in her voice without her intention.

She’s standing here, right in front of him, literally open and naked. Completely vulnerable. With only a towel separating his eyes from seeing her body, her scar.

“Nothing, let…”

“No.” She stops him by putting one hand on his chest. “Don’t lie to me. Castle, I’m… sick and tired of this behavior! Rick, just tell me what I did to make you hate me so much!” she can’t stop the anger and frustration and pain from starting to spill from her eyes as she starts sobbing again. And here she thought she didn’t have any more tears.

She hides her face behind her hands, grateful she’d fastened the towel before she went out to the living room. Her knees start to give out and so she simply lets them, slowly moving down to a seated position on the floor. She’s not sure what she’s supposed to do, if she’s supposed to do anything else.

“Beckett?” she hears his hoarse voice ask before he clears his throat. “Kate, what… what’s going on?”

She shakes her head, she can’t form words anymore. She’s just focusing on her breathing and her attempts to stop the breakdown she’s feeling. Why is this happening right in front of him?

“Hey,” she feels his hands land on her shoulders, his thumbs electrifying against her naked skin. “Deep breaths, Kate, deep breaths,” he says in a slow soothing voice which she finally recognizes as his. The real him.

And so she does what he says, she starts taking deeper breaths to calm herself down. He keeps mumbling the mantra as she feels her body start to relax and find strength again. When she’s breathing normally again she feels his hands let go of her as he’s slumping down on the floor in front of her. She carefully looks through her lashes to glance at him.

“You okay?” he asks when his blue eyes meet hers.

She bites her lower lip before she shakes her head slightly. “No,” she tells him honestly. “One part of me wants to take that job interview to get away from you.”

He gulps. “And the other part?” he asks carefully.

She takes in a shaky breath. “One part of me… just wants… you.” She just whispers the last word, too scared to say it too loud. She’s still scared he’ll leave her and never talk to her again.

“I don’t think I can do this partnership anymore, if you only want me as a partner in crime I… I don’t think I can do it,” he tells her and she feels her insides clench.

“What do you mean? I don’t only want you at the precinct,” she whispers as she looks up at him.

He’s avoiding her eyes, concentrating on the fiddling of a piece of the rug that’s been crippled for months now.

“I heard you,” he confesses and she wrinkles her forehead. “In interrogation you told a suspect you remember everything from your shooting. You heard me telling you that I…” he sighs, “that I love you. And I assumed the reason you haven’t told me is because you don’t feel the same way. I can’t…”

Kate shakes her head violently. “No, that’s not… I was not ready to… hear it or deal with my feelings for you just yet.”

He looks up at her and she looks down as her hand runs through her hair, only to stay at her forehead, leaning against it.

“Your feelings?” he asks and she nods.

“I like you Castle,” she confesses. “I really like you. And the thought of losing you…” she has to stop to try and get the lump down her throat as she sniffs. “Just tell me now if it’s too late for us, because I can’t… I can’t…”

She feels her eyes tearing up again and isn’t able to stop them from going down her cheeks. She knows she won’t be able to talk without breaking down again.

“I still love you, I’ve tried not to but I do,” Castle confesses and Kate feels her heart skip a beat before her insides start to melt with relief.

Without missing another beat she crawls over to him and throws her arms around his neck in a hug. She’s surprised to find herself falling as he’s losing his balance, ending with Kate laying on top of him with his arms around the middle of her body.

“Sorry,” she mutters but doesn’t move away. In fact, she snuggles even closer with her head into his neck.

She hears him gulp as his hands don’t seem to know where to stay on her back. That’s when she realizes she’s still in her towel. Only her towel. She starts to roll off of him, carefully placing her hands to keep the towel from falling off. As soon as she’s off she’s sitting up, eyes on him as he, too, sits up.

“Sorry, I should probably go… get dressed,” she says with a blush exploding on her cheeks. “Will you stay?”

He nods without a word and she has a feeling it’s because he’s surprised about everything. She moves to stand and goes to her bedroom, quickly putting on some clothes, including some black yoga pants and a gray N.Y.P.D. shirt. She picks up the speed as her mind starts to wonder if he’ll actually stay or if he might’ve changed his mind and gone again without saying anything. What if he decides it was a bad idea coming here? The second her shirt is on she’s leaving her towel on the ground to go and find out if her partner is still here. When she returns to the living area she does find him in her kitchen, brewing coffee for the two of them. He looks up at her almost immediately, as if he can feel her coming into the room, or he just heard her.

“You stayed,” she breathes out in relief and he nods.

“I made coffee,” he says as he pours the black beverage into two cups. “Figured we could use some if we’re going to talk.”

“Yeah,” she says in a breath as she nods. “Good thinking.”

As she comes closer he holds out one of the cups for her to take and she accepts it with a smile and a thanks. Once he has his own cup in his hand she’s gesturing towards the couch and they both go there to sit down.

“So,” he says as she takes a sip of her coffee, “you’ve gotten a job offer in D.C.?”

She feels a blush come on. “It’s only an interview, but yeah,” she says.

“And you’re planning on…?” he asks and she looks at him with fear in her eyes.

“No,” she quickly says. “I want… I want to be with you, I want you. I don’t want to leave, I don’t want our partnership to fall apart.”

“I don’t want it to, either,” he says and she smiles. “But,” he says and her smile falters a bit, “does this mean you’re willing to give us a chance?”

She bites her lip as she looks down in her coffee for a second before he looks up again to meet his eyes. “Yes.”

“Good,” he mumbles as he takes another sip from his coffee but keeps his eyes set on hers.

She licks her lower lip and sees his eyes spark in that way they usually do when she flirts with him, or he observes her and she does those little extra teasing acts she does sometimes. Now that she knows he still loves her, she can’t help but feel the want to tease him even more. She pulls up her knees on the couch, setting her arms around them with her cup on top in order to take sips a bit now and then.

“So, do you want to stay for the night?” she asks, stretching her foot towards him to nudge his thigh with her toes.

His eyes widen a bit before they narrow with his lips turning into a smirk. His free hand, the one that doesn’t still hold his cup to his lips, sneaks down and lets his fingers run up and down her foot, making her shiver.

“If you allow me to, I will,” he promises in that deep voice he’s used so many times without even knowing the effect it has on her. He will soon.

She nods, taking the last sip of her coffee before setting the cup on her coffee table. His soon joins hers and she locks eyes with him as soon as his fingers climb from her foot to her knee along with his body growing closer to her. She sits up and meets his lips halfway, the kiss a lot more passionate than either of them had intended. Probably because of all the tension between them that went unanswered for so long. Too long. His hand on her leg doesn’t stop at her knee but keeps stroking its way up to the hem of her shirt where it continues to slide under to end up at her hip, his hand slightly touching her naked skin at the hem of her yoga pants. She gasps at the feel of his thumb stroking her skin and his mouth immediately takes advantage of her parting lips by letting his tongue find hers. As his taste fills her senses she finds herself moaning and one of her hands lands on his cheek, her fingertips moving into his hair as she holds him close. She deepens the kiss which makes him groan with her and she smiles at that, their lips pulling apart.

“Thank you for coming tonight,” she whispers against his lips, her fingers caressing his scalp.

He pulls slightly back in order to look at her and he smiles. She giggles when he kisses her nose carefully. “Always,” he says their promise to her and she feels such relief to hear it once again.

She runs her teeth on her lower lip again as she lets go of his cheek to reach for his hand, intertwining their fingers. “I’m staying,” she says and sees his eyes fill with relief of its own. “I can’t say it just yet but I really want you. Just you.”

“I understand,” he assures her and she nods.

“Good,” she mumbles before she stands up and pulls him with her. “What do you say we go to bed?”

He smirks, but it’s so much more than just a smirk. “Lead the way.”

And so she does. And she doesn’t regret sending that text, desperately needing a reason to stay. She didn’t need the 47 other reasons he suggested she had, she only needed one. Him. And looks like she got it.

The end

[little-mouse-adventures]

ok I'm gonna yell about The Fowl Twins Get What They Deserve a bit here cause I'm still riding that high of reading the book. since the rants will be old news to some of you and irrelevant to most of you, putting it all under the cut.

- First off, love love love how Artemis is the prime authority for the twins. Angeline and Tim who? It's always "I'll tattle to Artemis!" "We should ask Artemis for help!" "Please don't tell Artemis". Zero interest in involving their parents in their lives, it's great.

- and also legit? Like...who lets their twelve year old twin sons with a penchant for trouble go off to London alone? And then when you do call them - in the middle of the night - one parental figure sleeps through the whole thing? Did he just...not know Angeline was talking to Myles and she's keeping more secrets from him? Did he doze off in the middle of the call? Does he just not care about his kids well being? Especially since it apparently wasn't important enough to go see his twelve year old son do a massive presentation to a room full of people and get another doctorate? Way to support your kids, Fowl Parents. This is why they don't tell you things.

- Why are the twins still twelve? they were twelve in the first TFT book, and this apparently takes place two years later. why are they still twelve?!?!?!

- on the topic of the Fowl Family: Foxworth. ??!?!?!?

- hey babe wake up new headcanon just dropped: Foxworth is Tim's younger brother by like 10 years, so they aren't super close. Tim got the lions share of the Fowl guile and was raised to be the successor to his father, so was more deeply steeped in the criminal world. Because of this, his assigned Butler was killed at some unknown point before the start of the OG series, which is why said bodyguard is never mentioned. During the excursion to Russia, Tim calls up his younger brother - who is still a Fowl and still a criminal, if a petty one, and therefore still has a Butler bodyguard - and asks to borrow said bodyguard. It's the Major. Because Foxy wasn't as deep into the criminal world Major's job was much more chill and he and Foxy became much more like friends. Tim is still family though, and Foxy wants to impress his cool older brother, so off Major goes. And then dies. Foxy is heartbroken more at the loss of his bodyguard than brother, blames said brother for the loss of said bodyguard, and swears never to talk to Tim's family again, which is why he left his sister-in-law and young nephew to fend for themselves. This is only resolved when Artemis Jr confronts his uncle out of concern for Myles and Beckett and wants an additional support measure in place for his brothers while he goes off to Mars.

- what is with the body horror? Beckett looses a toe? and no one is concerned about this? and then the whole thing with Myles turning into a dwarf, and us all being subjected to pages upon pages of visceral description of what that looks like. I did not sign up for Animorphs here!

- On that note: Myles turns into a dwarf? He was nowhere near dwarfs! He was not possessed by a dwarf! I get it, ha-ha, the intellectual one is the subject of fart jokes, but COME ON.

- speaking of fairy races, lets get into the weird little cross-breeding program Eoin made. pixie-centaur hybrids? how does that even work? the relationship between - apparently- Julius Root and a human? (mentally calling that one a mistake in writing). But Minerva's kid??

- actually Minerva and her kid get a whole set of bullet points to themselves, because of their existence. Like...okay. Minerva is gonna be like..23-25 in this book. And her child is apparently old enough to understand spoken language and hold her breath and like unicorns, so she's gotta be like 3-5. So you're telling me genius child Minerva went up to her father and said "hey Daddy, I'm like 19 and pregnant with a cross-species baby that may or may not manifest magical powers at some point and is also going to be under constant surveillance from the fairy police unless I go into hiding for the rest of my life with her while I engage in criminal activity because her father got killed by an evil organization." wtf???

- Would explain why she's in the states saying "honey" instead of France saying "cherie" though, if her dad was like "y'know? I think I'm done."

- Numi is actually a super cute name, though. i do want to know what she looks like, and what her paternity is. Elf? Pixie? Sprite?? who knows! not us!

- Minerva tells Lazuli to say hi to No1, so they're still friends, which is good. She says to tell Artemis he owes her a favour, so they're still somewhat friends, which is good. No comment for Butler, someone she apparently became good friends with? (though if she has a small gun, I'd bet anything you care to name Butler gave it to her and taught her how to use it. It's possibly the same Beretta he offered Artemis at the end of TTP).

- Minerva hates the LEP! No kidding! everyone seems to hate the LEP!

- even Lazuli! who left it with less concern or heartbreak or difficulty than some people have to leave their favourite coffee shop when they move to a new city!

- on the topic of the LEP though: Holly is by-the-book? and a rules-follower? in the 7 years since the end of the OG series? Sure thing, mate, and Artemis has a side gig as a professional Elvis impersonator, complete with white sequined bell-bottoms and hip-gyrating dance moves.

- as for the straight up absurdity of plot: ghosts I can get behind. Horror ghosts i'm less keen on but that was resolved pretty quickly. Seaweed goblin clones and release hatches on human skulls are...a bit more out of the realm of believability.

- OH HEY AND THE GHOSTS: WHO IS AUTHORIZING A TWELVE YEAR OLD CHILD TO MARRY A GHOST? is it a legally binding marriage? no certificate was signed, no paperwork filed, i hope to god no consummation, but like...I'm just so confused as to how that was presented as a reasonable solution to the problem.

- And apparently the whole damn family of the Bleedham-Dryes were European criminals with an empire, how have we never heard of them before? Did Tim not invite them over for dinner at any point?

- I'm stoked at the tie-in of the sprite from the first book, that's cute. like that a lot. less fond of the Ho Chi Minh City restart. We did that already at the end of the OG series. Don't get me wrong, it was very well done here, possibly better than the last one. but still. let's spice things up a bit, yeah? or at least bring Nguyen back, too. Maybe reformed, and perhaps with his own illicit fairy bride and children, since that's apparently a thing that happens with concerning regularity.