#also pearce's voice is so nice

[halohalona]

No, cause I love this interview. It was so insightful. Alex asked very interesting questions that I've never heard being asked, and coincidentally questions I also had. Pearce's answers were so in depth and deep (??) I'm not sure how to describe it but he definitely answered a lot of questions I had. I recommend you watch this.

Plus learned that his favorite video game is The Last of Us.

[bogusbyron]

Show notes from my double show day on 8th august 2024. 2nd show was largely very similar so any extra notes i took on that show are added onto the emds of the relevant scenes. Enjoy!!!

(Ignore the amount of times i mention jordan)

1) Stew snapping the book shut in the prologue real sharp will always make me giggle

2) fun little stolen time pause before stew delivers "do not forget me", makes it short and snappy (SHOW 2: stew threw the yellow slip so jvj would have to go collect it.)

3) valvert stare-down before javert's exit. Okay

4)  at this point i wrote "can't find harry. Worried" because i was scanning the ensemble for harry lake and he WASNT THERE mad as hell

5) verry good low note on "dirt beaneath" in the prologue .. milan❤ (SHOW 2: in that little bit when he steals the coin from the child they messed that the hell up girl you caught jackshit)

6) understudy bishop! Every other time ive been it was Adam Pearce . I think i prefer him but the u/s had a really nice rich voicr which i fw , not quite as deep as adam but i liked him. He was a lot more stern & firm as bishop, with bits like "remember this"  and "passion" being quite harsh.

7) valjean wincing when the bishop helps him stand (SHOW 2: when talking to the policeman after the robbery, valjean shakes his head at the bishop who then nods back at him. Heartbreakinf ohmy gyat)

8) "my life was a war" line being half-spoken, in a very distressed manner... quite liked that. Also he sobbed a bit after "allow this man" which got me in the feels.. let valjean cry 2024 (SHOW 2: harsh on "hate" in I had come to hate the world)

9) higher note on  "god above" which scratched the brain

10) jesus christ milan can hold a note . The whole "eye for an eye" crescendo drives me batty and milan does not disappoint

11) swallowed before "he told me that i have a soul" not sure if that was intentional like at all but considering his nervous delivery on future lines like "ill escape now" i thought it fitting

12) ENSEMBLE TIME🗣 tom is so hard NOT to spot, ginger ass hair. And also during At The End Of The Day he was hunched and staggering dramatically which made me giggle. Also bonnie langford spotted leftmost factory woman. Not important but i saw her. Also jordan was one of the workers and he cheers on the fight between fantine and the other woman but as soon as he sees valjean comes down the stairs he hurriedly goes back to looking busy writing at the desk. Again i giggled .

13) idk if its just me being stupid but katie's wig lookee different to how i remember it last time did she get a new one. ⁉️⁉️

14) "when i was young and unafraid" almost spoken.  Ate🗣

15) THE BRASS ON THE  I DREAMED A DREAM CRESCENDO UUUUGGGHHHHHHHHHH I ALWAUS GET GOOSEBUMPS ON "SHAME" UEGGGGHHH  goosebumps also on "i had a dream life would be"  katie's voice ao good ans clear ill go nuts

16)  i think jordan was the first  dude in lovely ladies  and he also got his arse  tapped by one of them so that was fun . It was harry lake last time but he really got his arse slapped like he stumbled offstage and everything

16) the woman with the hat in lovely ladies i forgot her actress' name but i LOVED her voice . I gotta know if she understudies anyone cause wowzer.

17) bambatabois was pissed as hell he was screaming his head off like a toddler

18) here i wrote "JORDAN POLICEMAN ON DA STAIRS🔥🔥🔥" handwrote the fire emojis and everything. He was playing one of the policemen and he climbed the stairs. I liked that

19) little fantine sob after javert says "i have heard such protestations" which BROKE my heart ohmy gah. Also katie always  eats the crescendo on "you let your foreman send me away"  that whole bit drives me crazy the music and strings bruh ohmy

20) javert's "monsieur le maire"  very curt and sharp almost a hiss which i dont think ive delivered like that before ? Looove snappy javert

21) like when i saw stew & milan on the 14th they have homo moment at the cart when javert holds valjeans bicep for far too long and his voice even goes up higher on "a memory stirs" as he stares into his eyes for Way too long

22) low note on "comes to court" which scratched the brain

23) valjean snatching his coat from javert LMFOAOAOO

24) his whole mini-monologue was so funny cause he was REALLY pronouncing his "k"s so it was just like  traCK🗣ed him down through thICK🗣 and thin. And to maK🗣e the matter certain theres the brand upon his sK🗣in. He will bend. He will breaK🗣 this time there is no mistaK🗣e

25) slight pauses between the last "i am damned" in who am i like  I. Am. Damned

26) i feel like milan is a lot more determined and deliberate and sure of himself as compared to chris' much softer and "mature"? valjean. Which i find interesting

27) katie somehow so good at singing even when "frail"  helloooooooo shes actually cracked  Get out

28) valjean so soft with fantine though  godbless she makes my heart ache. He had her face against her cheek which i thought sweet

29) CONFRONTATION SLIDE  HIIIIIIIT🗣🗣🗣🗣🗣 GO STEWART

30) Valjean scoffing before "men like you can never change" made me giggle hes so sick of his shit

31) gay as fuck fight. Will never get over stewart's insane gagging coughing and whimpering when hes thrown to the ground after being strangled. What the hell. I have a slur to say (SHOW 2: as javert was knelt down in front of valjean (🧐), when he pulled back his fist to fight back it looked like he was about to punch valjean in the balls but luckily valjean knocked him oit before he could do this)

32) BONNIE LANGFORD🗣🗣🗣🗣🗣 shes really witchy as mme thenardier kind of obsessed. I like her a lot . Her naturally high pitched voice creates a very interestinf tone when singing as mme thenardier which i LOOOOVE

33) when cosette asks her not to be sent out alone she kind of like steps back almost like shes afraid of cosette . Dont know whether this was fear or her being taken aback that cosette would reply but still made me laugh

34) JOOOOORDDAAAAAANN🗣🗣🗣 FUCK YALL KNOW ABOUT THE DUDE IN THE RED JACKET , hes the one who shouts  "over here landlord" or some shir and "this place has gone to hell" before the song properly starts. The WHOLE song he was such a delight to watch, hes so camp and did the gayest of walks and dances and whatever the fuck , ohmy god he was so funny . If anyone goes to see the show soon and jordans ensemble please watch our for him in master of the house, tall bloke in the hat and red jacket. You cant miss him hes camp as hell. Im obsessed with him deeply and i wish i couldve watched master of the house on repeat PURELY so i could see the bloke in the red jacket. (SHOW 2: he did a kind of silly gay walk in which he did the wallace (like from wallace and gromit) hands) Here are some doodles i did of him:

35) tom was on as thenardier BTW (ginger thenardier gang) i like the way he shakes his epaulettes on "content to be". I loved tom & bonnie's rapport as the thenardiers too, so good . Tomardier on top . They were dancing together and shit during the  chorus they were fun. Apparently thenardier put mme thenardier in a headlock at some point as well which is funny

36) bonnie did a little r roll on "regular voltaire". Not impoerant at all but i liked it. Also did a low note on "master and a half" which i also liked

37) kept the bit where mme thenardier says "where the fu" before realising valjean is there . And the bit where she sprays perfume up her skirt. Always a good gag (cause like i get it)

38) bonnie's pretending to be worriwd abt cosette was so good . Her comedy acting genuinely endearing and im hype

39) tom, like last time i saw him, goes really high pitched on "like our own, monsieur" which is SO funny god i love tomardier

40) on "treacherous people about" they kind of advance on valjean but then immediately cower away when he stands up to challenge them LMFAOAO

41) marius appears. Jac yarrow has a  GREAT voice , but Is he better than harry lake ? 🤫 maybe im just biased . Harrius sweep

42) jordan as claquesous (which is the only character of his that gets a name) is so funny . Hes swinging around his little corner of the set a lot . Swinging from the beams and shit. I do not  blame him id do the same

43) Ok first of all yaz eponine was AMAZING  her "ITS JAVERT!" is so chilling. Shes awesome godbless WHAT  a voice. Javert also keeping it curt and snappy and hissing "square"  in Another brawl in the square. Hilarious

44) i love the way tomardier tries to escape being held by the policemen on "HE'S ---! THE ONE YOU SHOULD  ARREST!" it always makes me laugh. Also voice crack on "chest" in Brand upon his chest. The way he and bonnie strut offstage after being freed is SO funny

45) OK TIME FOR THE STARS INFLECTION NOTES.  Sharp & curt on "there" which i dont usually hear. Soft on "fugitive". Pronounced "god" like  god-uh which was funny. Soft on "yield". Slight stolen time hold on "mine" ("is the way of the lord" as a result came out sharper). Soft on "scarce" rather than the usual hiss i hear. Dribbling a bit . Growled on "returns". VERY clear note on "bars". Sounded a bit like he struggled with "then" on Until then, but delivered as usual on the final Stars. Hoo boy go stew (2ND SHOW: only one i got was "exasperated "Always"" on  And is always the same. I cannot remember what i meant by this but usually my inflection notes are somewhat accurate so let ur imaginaton run wild)

46) for some reason i noted how gavroche had really long eyelashes. I have no idea if i was just seeing things or what but yeah

47) jac has really solid vibrato honestly . His voice is GREAT . I will refrain from comparing him to harry cause i think we all know how much i like him already . But i have things to say .

48) JORDAN UNNAMED STUDENT NO1 WITH THE GLASSES 😭😭😭😭😭😭 half moon glasses he ate that. Cafe scene started off with him arguing with enjolras which i thought funny. He seemed really prim and bitchy with i loooved, dont ask me what anyone else was doing for this scene cause my eyes did not leave him

49) grantaire shouting *YOU* talk of battles to be  won  while pointinf at enjolras made me giggle

50) jordan scoffing off to the side @ grantaire  as he starts playing catch with his bottle. Im obsessed with him. Maybe id be a les amis fan if he was there. Also he's the one who chimes in "OUR WORLD !🗣" so whatever

51) grantaire spinning around across the stage on "red" during marius' verse

52) jordan did NOT need to stand on that  chair at the red & black crescendo girl you are tall Enough

53) enjolras did a silly little "HA-HA!!" I think after "blaze in their eyes"

54) jordan helping move the big staircase setpiece during do you hear the people sing... hashtag stagehands represent BIG UP STAGE MANAGEMENT🗣🗣🗣🗣🗣🗣🗣🗣🗣💥

55) Lulu may not have my favourite voice ever but she is cute as  cosette i cannot  lie she does little toe bounces every now and then i like that .

56) milan had a little stray loose hair that fell over his face and i couldnt take my eyes off it

57) jac quite harsh on the "burst" in She has burst like the music which was fire. Spit yo shit marius

58) yaz has SUCH  powerful voice it was always so shocking everytime she sang GET HER ON PRINCIPAL NEEOOOWWW!!!!!!

59) marius did a little awkward ass wave to cosette after she comes out on the balcony to see her, like he just lifts his hand up a little, DIDNT EVEN SMILE? just ✋😦 looking slightly startled. So good. He also did a deep ass bow to her when she comes down which made me giggle

60) so jordan had like, a stick  as a weapon as claquesous in the attack on rue plumet and as he runs onstage he kinda fumbled with it. Whether this was intentional or not i dont know but regardless yes i laughed. (2ND SHOW: thenardier tries to get up onto the balcony twice, instead of the usual once. The first time, claquesous gets down on hands and knees like a stool. Thenardier steps on him and claquesous immediately collapses under the weight.)

61) i dont seem to remember this happening in other shows  does thenardier always hit eponine after "you'll scream alright"? Or am i insane. Because he did this show (2ND SHOW: marius blows a kiss through the fence to cosette before he runs off.)

62) YAZ DURING ONE DAY MORE BEUHHHH ohmy days.... so sosososoop good so strong... djavan also as usual strong, the way his voice always rips through the theatre is just amazing godbless (2ND SHOW: bonnie sticking her leg up in the air as she's carted off.)

63) JAVERT IN UNIFORM.......... WHERE THE FUCK IS BAKER BOY.......

ACT 2

64) Grantaire was kinda creeping up behind enjolras for whatever reason at some point. Was funny as hell

65) MILAN  LIKE PAUSES AND PULLS A FACE WHEN HES READING THE LETTER FROM MARIUS TO COSETTE BEFORE HE READS THE WORD "LOVE" WHICH REALLY MADE THE THEATRE GIGGLE 

66) Yaz was so delightfully gentle as Eponine i liked it . Made her powerful voice a lot more standout for me . As for on my own inflection: short on "silver" in Shines like silver. The string pickup as it builds up to the crescendo on "and i know its only in my mind" is always insane ohhumy gyat. Harsh on "the trees" in the trees are bare and everywhere. Harsh and almost spoken on the final "without me". The last crescendo was utterly gorgeous . Yaz eat yuor heart out❤

67) on jod theres usually fog for the barricade reveal. No fog this show. Disappointing..  i love fog

68) army general's bit .. as usual harsh on "you" which i like but i think he skipped a beat . Didmt note where but i remember there being a missed beat and it was a bit fast (2ND SHOW: this might have been for the 2nd attack but regardless, when theyre shouted to get down, jordan's student who was way downstage (audience) left he almost fell over when he went to kneel down . Very clumsy job there boss. Obsessed)

69) stew's baker boy matches jordan's now... last time i saw stew he was in brown. Hes in the green/red now ‼️⁉️

70) yaz's eponine seemed content to submit herseld and die in marius' arms which was so heartbreaking . The key up. Also voice break on "her name was" which made me want to punch a wall

71) gavroche hands marius eponines hat :-(((((

72) i think milan was struggling to get off the barricade he almost stumbled and had to be helped down ajdhdifhd

73) javert just kinda admitting defeat and slumping to his knees with a haunted look in his eyes ❤ getting his lapels grabbed until "youre free" will always fuck hard as well. Theway hes grabbing onto valjeans wrists though I KNOW WHAT YOU ARE (2ND SHOW: during drink with me milan and jordan were off to the side next to each other chatting away. Jvj starts to chug whatevers in his cup. Jordan goes to take the cup from him but jvj turns away so that he cant take it. Jvj alcoholism era. Additionally jvj puts his arm around jordan's character just before the final battle.... ouff... Here are some sketches i did of them:)

73) milan's vocal range is sooogood. His whole Bring Him Home just scrumptious. Plus the crescendo on the strings UGGHHHHHHH. It SOUNDED like he struggled a tad on that final "him" but Home came out GREAT ... godbless

74) final attack. I noticed jordan's student wedged away in the crevice to the (audience) left and everytime hed fire his gun hed turn away and scrunch his face up. Obsessed. I did NOT see where he died though. This tells me he did not actually die and hes alive and well❤

75) javert kissing the cross over gavroche 😔😔😔😔😔😔😔 (i THINK valjean does this too earlier? Possibly he did this in the 2nd show)

76) tomardier holding the dead body's jaw and making it say "breath away from hell" in a stupid voice". He also did a silly posh voice on "thankyou sir im in your debt". "And god in his heaven" almost spoken i think. I alsofind it funny how he kicked over marius' body and stepped up on his arse

77) Javert seemed to almost miss & run past valjean ans marius LMFAAOOO i had a little giggle.

78) Jvj looking so sick of javert will never not be funny hes sooooo fucking done

79) I very much liked the slight distant stare like a moment of reflection before he sings "take him valjean!" adds a little to that bit i think. Yum. Thanks stewart

80) Soliloquy inflections.  "Who is this man/what sort of devil is he" GROWLED rather thsn the usual scream he does . Liked it i cant lie. He was quite shaky especially on "caught in a trap" which was LAAAVELY...... spat "back" in Gave me back my life . Harsh  on "mocked" which is always delightful to hear, a classic . Absolutely delectable tone shift  and becoming quite weak and almost croaky for "how can i now allow this man". He was even hoarse for "gave me freedom", and weak on "die as well". As per the Stewart Clarke Special there was a tremendous glob of spit escaping him on "sins"  in Shall his sins be forgiven . Absolutely delightful voice crack on "begin to doubt". Another glob of spit in "lost in shadow".  SUPER shaky "i am reaching". Yet another glob of spit on "stars are black". Low note on "escape now". And, as per, hit that shit (2ND SHOW: voice crack on "he" in "devil is he". Whimpered "gave me my life". Snarled "it was his right". Another glob of spit on "sins" like the first show. Whimpered "and must i now". Another glob of spit for "escape now".)

81) anyway , empty chairs time. Quite short on "on and on". Lovely and rich delivery of "never came" (thats a hard note to hit comfortably!).. again jac's vibrato was very notable to me !!!!! He delivered "phantom shadows" very upset like a half-sob. The following "empty chairs" very harsh. SHOUTED "don't ask me".

82) i liked his distant & haunted stare during every day ughhh mawius...

83) lulu as usual hitting those insane notes Go girl!!!

84) i really liked milan's acting during the confession - i personally preferred chris' performance but both absolutely stellar. His expressions were wonderfully desperate

85) i think someone (djavan?) almost missed their cue as ome of the servants during the wedding i saw them jogging onstage to help with the table LMFAOAOOO

86) if you didnt know already, bonnie langford does the splits when she curtsies when she appears. She also seems more interested in the drinks djavan servant has to offer than the plan to scam marius . She keeps trying to set thenardier right and then tiptoes off to take a swig of wine. Giggled

87) when marius tells them to go away thenardier turns around and says "for god's sake" LMFOAOAOAO

88) after thenadier is punched by marius (does his classic 270° spin) he falls over and gets stuck on his back, flailing around like a tortoise while mme thenardier cackles like a witch

89) they do the littlw pointy toe gay dance together hashtag true love (2ND SHOW: tomardier blowing a kiss at the lord.)

90) milan during the epilogue always heartbreaking he is wonderfully frail. Absolutely lovely  gentle low notes . He was almost sobbing on "on this page" which made me want to start killing. Sniffed before "its a story". Very shaky voice on "to my keeping". ... suicide tomorroeeeeee

BONUS) since i had nothing more to note down in the epilogue i drafted the next chapter of my fanfiction.

[thethirdromana]

Servalan's costumes, rated

I was supposed to be going out and doing fun things like bouldering tonight, but it's pouring with rain, so instead I'm staying in and looking at Blake's 7 screengrabs.

Screengrabs from here (they prefer their images copied, not linked) and record of what Servalan wears when from here.

As seen in Seek-Locate-Destroy.

We begin the list with what is - delightfully, amazingly - a relatively understated costume by Servalan standards. I guess it's the shorter sleeves over longer sleeves (a consistent Blake's 7 design choice, I guess that's just what fashion is like in the Grim Future) that gives the sense that this might be Dress Down Friday in the offices of the Federation. Almost dowdy in comparison with what's to come. Let's keep our powder dry for now. 5/10.

As seen in Project Avalon.

What amazes me about this costume is how silly it looks in screengrab form - seriously, take a moment to really look at Servalan's tiny head emerging turtle-like from the enormous quantity of furs - and yet, in motion, Jacqueline Pearce completely pulls it off. It's ridiculous, of course it is, but not for one moment do you doubt that this is the kind of thing that Servalan would choose to wear and feel comfortable in. It also gets an extra point or two for how the opening of the coat is tailored to the collar of the dress she wears underneath. 6/10.

As seen in Project Avalon and Deliverance.

There's a fun process that happens when you look at lots of Servalan's costumes (bearing in mind that I've preloaded all the images!) where you start to look at something like this and think, yeah, that looks normal enough, I could wear something like that to the office. And then you step back and go, no the fuck I couldn't, and you admire everyone involved in the process that brought us here. Love the beading and ruching, love the way that big collar actually looks quite comfortable, love the way that Jacqueline Pearce is lounging in it. 9/10.

As seen in Orac.

Trousers? On Servalan? Not sure how I feel about that, and I get the impression nor is she. On anyone else the coordination of white gloves and shiny white knee-high boots would be noteworthy, on Servalan it's just a Tuesday. Bit bland to be honest. 4/10.

As seen in Weapon.

There's an image limit to deal with, so I'm sacrificing at least one further fluffy overcoat thing in order to show more photos of this magnificent costume, and I make no apologies for that. Look at this swan-queen spun-sugar exposed-midriff confection of delight. Just when you think you've absorbed it all you notice the fishnet sleeves and the floor-length cape. Maybe it would be worth submitting to just a little bit of remorselessly evil oppression for the opportunity to float around all day dressed like this. 100/10.

As seen in Pressure Point.

It takes quite an outfit for you not to really notice the Sexy Stormtrooper vibe of the Mutoids in the background. And so Servalan is delivering quite an outfit here. What a jacket, what a hat. Ladies Day at Ascot never looked so good. 9/10.

As also seen in Pressure Point.

This is one of those beaded lizards that we all made when we were eight, right? I feel like I should like this: it's flattering, it's a bit weird, it's a nice dress with 25cm or more of a sparkly gecko giving it jazz hands across Servalan's chest, but somehow it's just not coming together for me. Maybe it's the lack of a massive collar. 5/10.

As seen in Trial and Voice from the Past.

No. Absolutely not. The nadir of Servalan outfits, from the weird double-breasted bodice, which I can only describe as military meets straitjacket, to the terrible combination of off-grey stockings and shiny silver shoes. Even Jacqueline Pearce is struggling to make this look good. 0/10.

As seen in Gambit.

From the nadir to very nearly the zenith. This is only one of two times that Servalan wears an outfit that isn't black or white and wow, does she make it count. The red! The glitter! The big frill thing that looks like the kind of adaptation a lizard might use to warn off predators! Also, not to get too pervy, but I think this has to get extra points for whatever machinations are preventing her boobs from making a bid from freedom from the astonishingly low neckline. 12/10.

As seen in The Keeper.

It's another big fluffy robe! But a different one from the previous big fluffy robe! I like to think she might be hiding snacks under there. 7/10.

As seen in Star One and Aftermath.

This is... a normal dress. Could be an understated bridal gown, plausibly a cocktail dress, but I could imagine both having this in my wardrobe and actually wearing it, and I'm not sure how I feel about that. It's just not what Servalan's costumes are for, you know? Obviously she looks great but where's the pizzazz, where's the oomph, where's the collar that could take someone's eye out? 6/10.

As seen in Aftermath and Powerplay.

This is technically Dayna's dress, but Servalan wears it for two whole episodes, so it counts. Which is a pity because it's just so drab. It shouldn't be! It has a funky triangle neckline, only one sleeve, and a ribbon arm wrap on the sleeveless side like she's heading off to a festival with hippies. Unfortunately the colour scheme brings to mind nothing so much as a faded bus seat and the smock-like cut is deeply unflattering. 2/10.

As seen in Volcano.

Things I like about this: for once Servalan gets to cover both shoulders, her arms and her cleavage. Jacqueline Pearce must have been so warm! It looks comfortable and practical. And dull, but I suppose it must be a lot of pressure on a Supreme Commander to look fabulous all the time. 4/10.

As seen in The Harvest of Kairos.

Fun fact, of all of Servalan's outfits this is actually the closest to something that I used to have in my wardrobe. Mine was navy blue on one side and stripey on the other, and the stripey side emerged into a similar enormous... sleeve... thing?? I never wore it to my day job, but you know, perhaps I should have done. These are the kinds of things that Servalan inspires us towards. 8/10.

As seen in Children of Auron.

And just like that, Servalan changes her colour scheme. Black, of course, looks just as good on her as white did, and I can't decide which I like better. What makes this outfit is the detailing: the collar, the little decorative slashes like a Tudor nobleman would use to show off his undershirt. 6/10.

As seen in Rumours of Death.

I just spent ages scrolling through red carpet photos to try to find the celebrity who I swear recently wore almost this exact outfit. And I can't find them. But never mind! This ticks so many boxes for me: it looks everso pretty, it seems wearable, and the floofy sleeve feels like it reflects plausible fashion trends of the Blake's 7 universe. 9/10.

As seen in Moloch.

Whereas this is not working for me. This is, thank goodness, Servalan's only foray into full-on 80s shoulders (unlike poor Avon, whose costumes suffered from this for the whole of series D) and I do not like it. The wide shoulders, made to look wider by the silver detailing, just serve to make the rest of her look small. And no one should make Servalan look small. 3/10.

As seen in Death-Watch.

Just a normal LBD, innit. 5/10.

As also seen in Death-Watch.

This is the same dress underneath with a semitransparent beaded cardi over the top. It should be fun and vaguely goth, but instead it reminds me of nothing so much as the kind of thing you throw on when you're worried you're showing too much skin for a funeral. Amazing how it makes her look about 10 years older too. I miss the days of the massive collars. 2/10.

As seen in Terminal.

For someone who is confidently writing a series of posts about costume design choices, I know exceptionally little about costume, and as a result I don't actually know what this is made of. Is it leather? Some kind of matt-looking PVC? It's a solid costume choice, anyway; I'm starting to think that the mark of a good Servalan outfit is how much difficulty I have with the image description. In this instance, I have no idea what the thing on her shoulder is and I love it. I also love that this is the 80s and therefore she's allowed to be on TV with a normal human belly. 8/10.

As seen in Traitor.

MAGNIFICENT SHOWSTOPPING ICONIC. She looks like a sexy raven and she's having such a great time. The way the points of her eyeliner match the points of her hair! This is the kind of thing that drives people to cosplay. I don't think I would get a buzzcut and dye my hair solely to get this look just right, but I'm also not ruling it out. 20/10

As seen in Animals.

It's so disappointing when you get an outfit spot on and then it's in the wash, and all you can manage from what's available in your wardrobe is an half-hearted replica. That seems to be what's happened to Servalan here. Sorry, Supreme Commander, but sexy raven lightning doesn't strike twice. 6/10.

As seen in Assassin.

Later on she wears a sort of lacy cardi over it, but I have an image limit and I'd only be repeating what I said for Death-Watch, so we're going to skip that one.

This is another normal dress. It's a perfectly fine normal dress; it's hard to see from the photo, but I like the fabric belt, and those are undeniably good earrings. Still, it's not exactly strange enough for a Servalan costume, and I feel for Jacqueline Pearce having to do this whole episode without a bra. 7/10

As seen in Games.

Just as I am running out of ideas for commentary, I feel like the Blake's 7 costume designers were running out of ideas for outfits. This feels like it has a bunch of disparate ideas thrown at it - polka dots! fluff! peephole thing! - but the vibe is of a reality TV show fashion challenge where they have a box of stuff and 20 mins to turn it into a dress. 4/10.

As seen in Sand.

This is a floor-length dress, but it's best in close-ups: it's the detail that matters. It looks pretty, comfortable, and quite soft. It's a nice costume, but is it really a Servalan costume? It doesn't scream command like some of the others on this list. 5/10.

As seen in Orbit.

Don't worry about what I cut to be able to include two photos again, because this is worth it. From the front it's good but not great (though I'm glad she gets a bit more boob support in this one!) but from the back? Superb. She's wearing the splendid earrings from Assassin again, but here they also reflect the detailing on the back of the dress - oh, it's just a delight. A very creditable note to end on. 9/10.

[alexanderpearce]

ooh i would absolutely love a media rec list from you (im a different anon but 👀)

omg u flatter me.. here are some pieces of media that i really love that i consider to be somewhat lesser known outside of my circles.. i do have lots of favourites not mentioned here that are far more mainstream (my favourite book ever is, embarrassingly, still The Secret History) but it's nice to shine a light on the more niche. i'll add content warnings but they're not comprehensive because i am just going by memory. im also not tagging gore because To be honest with me that's a given.

books and plays

Hypnerotomachia Poliphili (1499) by Anonymous/Francesco Colonna; very strange book where the author (who is actually revealed in an acrostic poem in Latin made by the first letter of each chapter) clearly has a sexual fetish for buildings and architecture. cw misogyny.

Seneca's Phaedra (1st century AD); i live here. Seneca's tragedy about doomed fatal diseased love. sorry i don't have a translation to recommend but you will be able to read mine one day i promise. cw pseudo-incest, misogyny.

The Pepsi-Cola Addict (1982) by June Alison Gibbons; vanity-published in the 1980s and only existing in five libraries around the world (until i suppose its republishing this or last year), this is a fascinating and very weird little book, and the story behind it too is very sad and interesting. i have a pdf if anyone wants it. cw predatory relationships, incest references, suicide.

The Doloriad (2022) by Missouri Williams; strange and swirling little debut set in a post-apocalyptic future, some really incredible prose. cw incest.

Geek Love (1989) by Katherine Dunne; What if the mother of sideshow freaks was purposefully consuming poisons and alcohols and cetera while pregnant to engineer her kids to be attractions Would that be fucked up for what. cw incest and the ableism inherent in the sideshow "freaks" scene.

Equus (1973) by Peter Shaffer; just read this fucking play man (or watch the 1977 movie!). cw animal death

movies

Repo! The Genetic Opera (2008) dir. Darren Lynn Bousman; sorry not sorry but this is my favourite movie ever. i've seen it 17 times. complete garbage trashy 2000s comedy-horror-gore-musical. insane cast. literal genius.

Caligula (1979) dir. Tinto Brass; Do you want to watch a two and a half hour long porno filled with torture and gorgeous costumes and conversations on power. well do i have the movie for you. cw rape, incest, i know i said i wouldnt tag gore but this one does have explicit penis mutilation so.

Van Diemen's Land (2009) dir. Jonathan auf der Heide; a pretty good movie adaptation of alexander pearce's first descent into cannibalism!! my main real criticism is that they desaturated the gorgeous green and vibrant west coast to grey doomy fakeness. cw beautiful gay love

Żywot Mateusza (1968) dir. Witold Leszczyński; incredible little Polish movie set in a rural village, on youtube with english subtitles.

May (2002) dir. Lucky Mckee; literally the most relatable movie of all time to me. socially awkward (super autistic) girl has trouble with love, you won't Believe what happens next

The Lair of the White Worm (1988) dir. Ken Russell; peter capaldi and hugh grant's earth shattering gay love story... super campy phallic lesbic homoerotic vampiric wyrmesque weirdo horror. peter capaldi wears a kilt and plays the bagpipes. you MUST watch this movie.

Ravenous (1999) dir. Antonia Bird; can cannibalism represent manifest destiny AND homosexuality? find out now!

And Then There Were None (2015) dir. Craig Viveiros; Agatha Christie could only dream of writing Burn Gorman's gay homophobic character in this. transcends the book hundredfold and if you disagree you genuinely have shit taste.

albums

At Least For Now by Benjamin Clementine; just listen to this right now i mean it this shit is fucking phenomenal. incredible voice and lyrics and piano and strings.

Stygian Bough Volume I by Aerial Ruin and Bell Witch; gorgeous atmospheric doomy metal

Ludevo by Ifi Ude; Polish folk with a modern twist as well as influences from Ude's Nigerian background, songs about death and drunkenness and love and ancient pinewoods

Songs About Teeth and To The Dark Tower by Cake Bake Betty; the vibe you have created is so freaky and awesome

Juniverbrecher by The Indelicates; something something brexit punch and judy isn't englishness awful etc etc. seriously underrated.

Bath Time by Maija Sofia; super atmospheric devastating album with lots of songs focusing on specific female figures throughout history. her recent album is also great.

honourable mention to The Thick of It (2005-2012) which if you follow my sideblog you will know ive been spiralling into depravity over for months now. you may ask, if you compare my posts to what the show is actually like, What on earth is she talking about and to that i have nothing to say

[persephoneflowerpetals]

Meet Despoina: Goddess of Winter

(Avatar made in The Sims 4 with custom content)

Despoina is the Goddess of Winter, the youngest daughter of Demeter

She was born in December

She used to be close to Persephone when they were younger, but grew apart when they became adults

She has a prissy personality when it comes to Persephone and is very snarky and passive aggressive with her

She’s actually really nice once you get to know her, but if she doesn’t like you then she’ll treat you like she treats her sister

Her friend group mainly consists of Psyche, Eros, and Hebe

She constantly tries to “one up” Persephone by doing impressive things and making beautiful scenery during winter to get the approval of her mother and the other gods

She also likes to talk herself up with other gods making herself sound better than her sister, so in most conversations she’s usually talking about herself

She’s known to be brutal with her winters if the mortals don’t appreciate her enough or give her enough offerings

She also tries to make it hard on her older sister by bringing tons of snow and ice during winter so Persephone has to work harder and take longer bringing spring to Earth

She HATES being compared to Persephone

Her favorite animals are snow leopards, snowy owls, and arctic foxes

Her symbol is a snowflake

Voice Claim Headcanon: Lindsay Pearce

[thebumblecee]

If the horrors allow it: could you maybe share your favourite Owen&TK moments per season? That would be spectacular!

In this instance the horrors are my tumblr for not telling me I have notification for a week and me going into a depression spiral soon after.

Hi I’m back to being annoying I’m so sorry anon.

I can ABSOLUTELY do that.

Season one has a rich array of Owen and TK moments that I just love.

Right from the start Owen breaking down TK’s door because he knows there’s something wrong with his boy. The roof top conversation? Owen packing up his entire life to get TK somewhere safe UGH what an opening episode.

From season one I also love the conversation over Buttercup. “It’s not about the dog.” conversation. TK feeling safe enough to voice his fears and worries to his dad and Owen reassuring him he’s valid.

Again the season one finale with the X Ambassadors Unsteady playing over the top when Owen pulls him out of the water. TEARS EVERY TIME.

Season two, for me has to be the rescue he does with his dad where TK steps up because Pearce doesn’t want to and realises he wants to be a paramedic and the fall out from that after where they talk about TK leaning to work for Tommy. I think it’s lovely, well done, Owen is watching TK become his own person before his eyes and yeah !!! love love love.

Season three: “the baby that’s still a baby or the baby that’s a grown man and smirking at me.” That’s Owen’s baby and TK’s little sway kills me.

Season four: dad of the groomzilla Owen gave me life. He wanted to be the best for TK he could. I love it. He’s so over the top with it. His child is getting married and EVERYONE is going to know about it. 10/10 no notes.

I miss early season interactions between them (and between the gang as a whole tbh) but I think they have such a nice, non-toxic, caring father & son relationship that is refreshing to see and also one of the main reasons I started watching the show

[one0p1nk]

Hey! BEAUTIFUL PERSON AWARD! Once you are given this award you’re supposed to paste it in the asks of 8 people who deserve it. If you break the chain nothing happens, but it's sweet to know someone thinks you’re beautiful inside and out. 💞💕

// goodness- that many people??? I don’t have the exact energy to make this a chain loop DJDMDNDN I won’t do this in order, because I love my moots equally :D Also, I have many other moots- so all I can do is mention the first 8 that I have first in mind oof- I simply have so many words to say to each of them because that would be fair and would make up the fact I’m not sending this to 8blogs/ih

if anyone else happen to send the same chain, I’ll just do a part two/hj So let’s see,,,

Yami, my lovely beloved Angelfish bestie artist partner-in-crime mafia world co-creator with silly but wonderful ideas of their OCs that I love to read about with a great passion <333/ih

Four, I will never forget the Floyd kinnie bestie that comes in and out every once in a while just to check on us- also threaten us with twst pics if we don’t take a break especially on Yami FJFJFJF I love you/p and your artistic skills and scrunkles you offer for us to cherish 🥺♥️

Nakki, the other Floyd kinnie/ih yet is the big bro I feel comfortable to talk with,,, Everything is just all fun and good vibes when we hang out and I hope that stays that way djdjjd <3🌸

Beth, she is such a sweetheart,,, I like helping her in Minecraft- having to talk to her about AUs and ships is soft vibes,,, She’s now our mafia group’s cookie supplier and I have no regrets about that/ih/pos 🥺💕

Klai, they always give me this mix of “hehe so silly and fun” and “oh gosh what to do with this problematic gremlin” Floyd kinnie djdjjddj- don’t blame me, nonetheless, ily/p bestie, even if it’ll take ages for me to comprehend certain parts of your humor- yet, they’re so understanding with my autistic tendencies everything doesn’t seem to be so awkward when talking with them 😭🥺✨/ih

Tae, they’re so nice to me and I’ll forgive their wrong-doings they ever have/ih(well I’m not sure about their spouse forgiving them tho/ih),,, one reason why they’re somehow in the mafia group (yeah Angelfish, we should start raising some standards for the growing group we have/ih) ily/p the same, and I’m hoping you’re always happy everyday <3

Kory, ily/p and your scrunkles (and you might be tired of the many times I keep apologizing for missing Law’s bandanna- the event was just life-changing and I took that personally since I adore him- 😔) Having talks with you about ships make me giggle like a dork you have no idea- well, you kinda do know in an extent I would lose track of time(adhd moment??? I probably have unfortunately/ih) you’re a wonderful peep I somehow ever met, idk if it was such a great coincidence that we happen to meet jfjfjfjf

Besides feeling so indebted to my bestie Mandi- I’m just sobbing softly the times she helped me while I was kinda having a boomer tech moment😭🥺😔/ih, especially when it comes to Ai voices,,, I always love hearing about Pearce 🥺💕🌸 as we share the same passion for his majestic chest fur✨/ih I love Amanda just the same- this strong woman is scary, not like this silly of a man like Laurence minds about that :D♥️/ih

[ramblingdisaster73]

4x05 Thoughts

So we were right saying O’Brien’s nephew was the bomber – yay

Oh, murder – nice little head shot for the nice hiker dude.

There goes Owen with his celebrity references – he always talks about movies or celebrities – especially when trying to talk someone into something or when he is in a position he is actually inexperienced in – (ex: 3x12 Stakeout & whatever one he used this season already)

I love Mateo

Paul’s face at Owen’s “You would look smokin hot on my bobber” was priceless.

I love that they ALL think that the complaint is one – against Owen & two – from Pearce.

She has a beautiful voice

The interview montage was great

“Bam Bam” Nancy Gillian

I think Nancy and Mateo now share a brain cell – they were so similar to each other in the interviews

“Do we know each other” – pinged all the ‘this is Paul’s love interest’ bells – INSTANTLY

I like TK saying “He would never do something stupid like that again” – it was the again part – immediately followed by Paul’s “Did he do something stupid again?” in the most resigned voice.

I understand the whole it not being right to call the lady crazy – and an apology is a pretty reasonable request – the rest – NOT AT ALL

I love Captain Owen Strand – the man that backs his crew – supports their decisions – this is the Owen I can get behind – this is where he excels.

I didn’t think the mother appeared inebriated, but I wasn’t totally sure on what was going on – I have had similar things happen to me with my migraines – so I thought it would be something neurological.

The temporary relief that Cap wasn’t in trouble – followed by Marjan telling them she was – they all did that so damn well.

Marjan and Owen always kill their scenes together – they do truly have so many similarities (I think she is more like him than TK is, and I think that Owen sees that too)

So, the only one that knew that the dude came to the firehouse was Marj, who is now conveniently gone – hmmm

Fucking stalker Honor Dogs Bomber dude

This dude is already a better stalker than Sadie was

I do feel like he has some real hesitation on what he is doing – like he is being forced.

Or he is a pretty good actor and is selling the hesitation to me really well.

I love that they handled Grace getting personally involved in a case VERY differently than the OG one did with Maddie.

I like that a central theme in this show overall (intentional or not) is that we should follow or at least listen to our instincts & to look further into something that we question.

Was one of the tests for casting the main characters a wide range in facial expressions – no matter the situation? Because this cast kills them all.

Owen showed a lot of growth – he didn’t punch the bearded fuckwad in the HR office

Seriously though – how is he not in jail? Such an accurate representation of the United States judicial system.

I hate him – like more than I did Billy at the end of Season 2.

He is abusive right? Like the red flags could fill a football field.

His ‘wife’ looks so uncomfortable

I love Marjan

I hate fuckhead beard face & his wife

Fuuck their gofundme – you lost your shit because you quite literally lost your shit

I LOVE that Marj talks to Paul, Mateo, & Nancy about this

I love Nancy immediately supporting her

I also think it’s hilarious that they are at Owen & Mateo’s house

Grace being so distracted, but replying was so great

She almost got herself out of it

I love them so much

Charlie is adorable

Ever the supportive husband

“A big scary man”

“I thought you’d be old.”

The twins are great – nice to see them teaming up on Mom

Tommy saying what we all were “Why aren’t you calling 911?”

I love seeing Grace lose her shit – not be in control

Interesting – in 4x04 we saw Carlos “Control Freak” Reyes lose all control, now in 4x05 we see Grace “calm & cool” Ryder lose all control in the field instead of at her desk – and both played it so well

I am with Judd & the kid on coconut in candy bars

I love the Tommy & Grace relationship

It feels real, organic and relatable

I like that Tommy tells Grace how much she does help – how important her role is in the whole first responders world.

So as soon as I saw bomber stalker in the apartment, I knew it would burn or blow – just didn’t expect it to be in the very next scene.

It’s so fucking horrible that two greedy grifting douchebags made her doubt her instincts to much

So, did Owen see the bomber stalker or not? It looked like he did, but??

So punching is better than talking?

I love that Paul went to file a report against the department

I love that she knew Paul pre-transition

I enjoy how observant he is.

I hate it when you know someone from somewhere, but can’t figure out where the hell you know them from

I love the support that Paul and Marjan have for each other

The FD chief is a dick – also I am pretty sure any suit filed by those idiots would be thrown out due to their own actions.

“Please wish her luck with whatever she decides” Asha to Paul – Paul – ‘yeah, I already know what she will be doing”

I am so happy Marjan stuck to her personal morals.

Owen’s reactions while watching the video were great

I agree with Marjan

I can’t wait to see what her journey brings

Just wonder if it will be until 4x09 til we see her again?

He wanted to sell it so bad to Clarke, but tries to talk Marj out of it.

The goodbye for now scene is beautiful

TK looks amazing in that sweater

Mateo will be such a helicopter dad

I am happy that I was wrong with Marjan getting hurt due to Owen’s involvement with the Honor Dogs/FBI – they really had me wondering all the way til the end credits.

You do NOT need to buy another bike – unless it is a bicycle or maybe even a unicycle if you want to be challenged. Not too many criminal organizations in the unicycle community

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My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

The struggles of trying to play Augustus Sinclair in Akinator:

Akinator: Is your character bad?

Me:

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#4

Do you think that in the present day in the Bioshock universe, Kevin Perjurer makes Defunctland videos about Andrew Ryan?

Also, new headcanon: in this case, the series Easter eggs video on Yesterworld doesn’t exist, but the Inside a Mind video on the Bioshock 2 marketing ARG does (but makes no mention to the fact that that it’s an ARG because it’s canon to that universe).

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#3

I’m sorry, but the lighting here makes it look like this is saying “Lamp is the Way.”

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#2

OK, with Outlast Trials coming out this year, I gotta get this out of the way before I forget:

All the trailers out (and the Steam description) confirmed this is a prequel about Murkoff’s collab with the CIA during MKUltra. Whether or not this will actually be a Walrider origin story is yet to be seen, but it’d be nice.

I’m pretty sure in the second Trials BTS video, they mentioned Coyle is gonna do some gross sexual shit. (I’m having flashbacks to Eddie Gluskin and all the off-screen stuff from Knoth and Loutermilch.)

Stuff I’m hoping to see:

Shawn Baichoo returning as one of the player characters.

Marcel Jeannin coming back to voice a younger Dr. Wernicke, even if it’s a late-game surprise cameo.

Recurring voice actors like Andreas Apergis, Carlo Mestroni, and Graham Cuthberson coming back, even if they voice background characters.

A weirdly sexual face lick a la Andrew the Scientist or Val.

Someone already said it, but someone gets crucified.

Going back to the MKUltra stuff, are we gonna get more references to the Mount Massive notes about Misses Pearce and Jackson? Probably not, but it’d be a nice throwback.

I was gonna say I wanted to see another moment where we get separated from our video camera like Miles and Blake did, but based on all the promo images… since the cameras are gonna be implanted into the player characters, that would be hard. So maybe the parts where the characters get separated would be a take on that?

In part 2 of the anniversary Q&A, JT Petty vaguely mentioned that the Murkoff Account comics leading up to Outlast 2 were the first set of prequel comics, so… Outlast Trials prequel comics when?

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[alchemist-of-chaos]

realizing you're in love

warnings: none

characters: Vyn Richter, Artem Wind, Marius Von Hagen, Luke Pearce

VYN

vyn was a man full of elegance. his every move, every word was like silky velvet, enveloping anyone that had the pleasure of his attention in the feeling of comfort. you were sure that flowers would bloom if he willed them so.

a man full of knowledge, his interests seeming to span over endless topics that never run out of things to tell. he was full of experiences, full of stories.

he captivated you and anytime you talked, you felt as if you captivated him as well. you were sure that it was a skill he had, making everyone feel important in his presence. making them feel confident and comfortable, like their words meant something.

it was in one of those conversations that you noticed the subtle curve of his lips, the little glint in his eyes as he observed you talking to him. you stuttered as you noticed, his lips forming a full smile at the action.

oh no, he really did captivate you.

ARTEM

spending time with artem has become a routine that you truly cherished. in your otherwise monotone life, you looked forward to your meetings, work seeming oh so interesting when you two worked on it together.

and you thought that he felt the same, you really did. he has always been the one waiting for you to come, coffee in hand that he had bought for both of you as you fell in conversation naturally. it flowed like a calm river, slow and steady.

despite the regularity of those meetings, it never failed to make you feel a weird excitement in your stomach. everytime the two of you confirmed your plans, you couldn't fight the smile tugging on your lips.

now you've found yourself waiting, scrolling through your feed to pass time. you weren't at your ususal meeting space as this time, he let you pick a place yourself. as a voice calls out to you you turn, quickly finding him in the crowd as he smiled, lifting his hand in greeting. you felt butterflies at seeing his smile-

ah. you felt butterflies.

MARIUS

he did it again. your relationship with marius was never boring and seeing him always came with a story to tell your friends about after.

he loved surprising you. whether it was an elaborate gift costum made just for you or just simply popping up at your place of work for a few minutes of conversation. his presence was a welcome one and you found yourself spending more and more time with him.

you loved the way he challenged you. he always supported you, that he did, but he also loved playing devils advocate, challenging your opinions and making you explain yourself. it felt nice to see that your opinion mattered.

and yet again, you two butted heads as you threw subtle taunts at each other. he was oh so cocky and you rolled your eyes yet again, amused by his antics. he smirked in response making you smile in reflex. it was nice seeing him smile.

it was even nicer to fall for him.

LUKE

hanging out with luke was never boring. he was full of ideas, always a fun activity ready for you to do. from visiting museums, having fun at amusement parks to laying on a fluffy comforter, counting the stars in the constellations before you.

luke loved the time you two spent together. you could tell, as the effort he put into it was more than noticeable. a warm feeling spread in your chest everytime you watched the pure happiness in his face as you two spent your days together.

it was all so natural. you two were like birds of a feather, smiling childishly as you laughed running through the pouring rain barefoot, as you two lost track of time while on yet another picnic.

you loved being with him. relished in the feeling of safety, the unearthly calm that spread in your veins as you leaned your head on his shoulder, both tired from your todays antics. his hand landed softly on your head, gently brushing through your hair as he leaned on you as well.

your heart skipped a beat.

[lavynrose]

can i request for headcanons for what the boys would do if their s/o ever gets jealous? hahaha thanks!!!

ToT men when you get jealous pt. 1

headcanons + scenario

character/s: Vyn Richter, Luke Pearce, gn!reader

warnings: not proofread, two suggestive lines

notes: if you want more of jealous reader you can check out this fic, Luke's part specifically.

these are pre-relationship hcs btw, also aaaa thank you so much for 370 follows! my brain is fried from uni, so Artem and Marius' version may take a while!

as always, comments and rbs would be awesome <3

masterlist

Luke Pearce

LOVE OF MY LIFE

Saying that at the start of every luke hc just because

Anyways, luke is a cutie, i just know that he's got a bazillion of people getting in line to have him for themselves

And unfortunately for you, you're one of those people

One downside of being his childhood friend is that, there are some people that would constantly approach you first, and try to get on your good side just so you can introduce them to Luke

People who like him tend to see you as a wingperson of sorts

Having to always give them his cellphone number, and on your highschool days they would even ask you to deliver love letters to him

Imagine how tired you are???

But here's the thing, no matter how many people you have introduced to him, he never seems interested

I wonder why

That's one of the main reasons why you rarely ever get jealous of his suitors because Luke doesn't seem to reciprocate any of their advances

So, imagine what you felt one day, when he suddenly did?

"It's a hairclip!" an overjoyed voice rang through your ears. You sank lower from where you're sitting, as if it will help you become invisible and perhaps escape this situation that you and Luke got yourselves into.

You let out an audible sigh of relief. The item that you dropped inside the box was a keychain, and you're glad it hasn't been picked out yet. The night is still young however, and dread began to sit in your stomach as you pictured the image of your item dangling from the hands of the host in your head, ready to shove you inside a room to kiss heaven-knows who.

"Why did we agree to play this game again?" Luke murmured beside you with pout, breaking you out of your thoughts of wanting to form an escape plan.

You two were sitting with your legs crossed, you can feel the cool temperature of the floor even through your clothes. You felt his knees bump to yours when he shifted closer, "I mean, I adore our former classmates and all, but this game," He whispered out of other people's earshot, followed by a scratch on his head, "I honestly don't know."

You rest your elbows on your knees and put your hands on your cheeks, "I'm asking myself the same thing..." you groaned, dreadfully anticipating the item to be announced next.

You and Luke were invited by an old classmate over for a reunion party, they claimed it'll be a nice opportunity to rekindle old bonds.

Which would be nice by the way, only if it hadn't been done this way.

After some catching up with their lives earlier, the party host began telling everyone to drop their favorite items in a box. After everything was all set up, they announced that seven minutes in heaven is going to be commenced, and pairs are going to be decided by which item is picked. You can clearly recall the coil settling in stomach when you imagine the things that would transpire.

"But i guess this it's alright! I think 7 minutes in heaven is pretty interesting. Whoever came up with that just wants to have some fun." He beamed a closed eyed smile.

"Fun?" you snorted, "Oh, Luke. Don't tell me you want to get your first kiss tonight?" your hands fly to your mouth and fake gasped, "Are you that touch-starved?" you were snickering at him, but a pang slaps in your heart at the thought of another person kissing your long time crush.

He looked away with pink dusting his cheeks, "it's not that Y/N. It's just that this is our former classmate's party. I wouldn't wanna spoil it." His chestnut eyes went back to your teasing ones, "but to answer your question. No. I'm not planning anything. We can participate in the game without kissing, right?" He questioned before turning his attention back to the host.

You fiddled with your shoelaces as you let out a hum of agreement, turning towards the host as well whose hands were now wandering inside the box, contemplating which item to pick next.

You wanted to tell Luke that this game would be 100x more fun if, only if, he was secured to be your partner.

Because quite frankly, You don't want to kiss anyone but him.

"Next..."

Your ears perked up from the host's voice, you held your breath, your heart started to race as you focused your eyes on the box, hoping silently.

Please don't let it be Luke's.

The host took a breath and opened her mouth, "It's a camera!" Your heart dropped at her gleeful words.

You and Luke slowly turned your heads to look at each other almost in a comical way, shock forming on both of your features.

You turned your head left and right to scan the room and search whoever the owner of the hairclip was.

"Should I?" He glanced at you with a worried look in his eyes. You wonder why was he so worried, it's not like you're dating or anything.

You flashed him a reassuring smile, "We don't want them calling us party poopers." you fiddled with your fingers, "Also, if I ever got picked some time later I'm also going to participate you know!" you stuck your tongue at him.

He chuckled, and trailed off a quiet, "Yeah."

"To the owner of the hairclip and camera, please come forward!" The host announced with playfulness lacing her tone, flashing a big grin to everyone.

Luke shot a look at you, and you smiled while nodding, "go get your first kiss." you chuckled. You were amazed that it was possible for you to say those words aloud without frowning.

Of course you didn't mean that.

Luke stood up, his eyes scanning the room in search for his partner, who then revealed themself from the sitting crowd.

It was Jess, and you could only gulp when you remembered who she was back in high school.

She was your number one client when talking about your famous reputation as a wingperson back then. She would strike up a conversation with you everyday to ask random things about Luke, she was consistent even though Luke kept turning her down, and she only stopped when you graduated.

She's wearing pretty revealing clothes, cleavage coming out of her tank top, her skin smooth as porcelain as she skipped over to Luke's direction.

She's stunning.

Jess put her hands on Luke's shoulders, pressing her body to his, "Long time no see." she began batting her eyelashes at Luke and you can only scream internally from how badly you wanted to be in her place.

Seeing this unfold in front of your eyes, you were already dying inside from jealousy.

You couldn't imagine what you would feel if they took a step further than this. Like kissing or making out. You couldn't handle it, not even in your imagination.

You were going to follow them there.

The two made their way to the house's walk in closet, you were sure Jess was going to do whatever it takes to get close with Luke. You waited for a solid minute before making your move.

Glancing cautiously at the host to avoid getting caught, you began to walk your way to follow Luke and the girl. You let out a sigh of relief when nobody noticed you walked out of the door.

As you walked down the hallway, your heart was racing as you thought to yourself, Am I really doing this!?

You were now in front of the closet's door. No turning back.

Poking your head inside the room, you deliberately took steps in a form of tiptoes, and your eyes adjusted to the dim light of the walk-in closet.

You flinched when you heard a thud, and you could hear Luke's voice yelling, "Hey!"

Your careful steps turned into frenzied brisk towards the source of the noise, and you could only stare when you saw two bodies on the floor, Jess on top of Luke, already dipping down to give him a kiss.

"I can please you tonight, let me." She said in the sultriest voice you've heard your entire life, that you were sure every man was going to give in to her advances.

Luke put his hands on Jess' shoulder, "Please get off me." but the girl just persisted, rubbing her body against Luke desperately.

She leaned closer to his ear, "I want you," She moaned as she continued grinding on him, "I'm very good in bed, I promise."

You were going to vomit at the scene happening before you.

Luke pushed her away with enough force to seperate the two of them, "Well, I don't want yo-" He was cut off when his eyes caught sight of your gaping form.

"Y/N!" He stood up and made his way over to you, eyes meeting yours in panic, "This isn't what you think it is!"

"I didn't say anything..." You choked out.

He sighed, "Y/N, it's a misunderstanding. She pinned me down, I was going to push her away, I swear." He furrowed his brows, "Wait," He noticed the unshed tears in your eyes, making his heart break, "Are you jealous?" He blinked.

You looked away, "Yes. I am. What now?" You would be surprised at your confession if not for the jealous feelings brewing inside you.

He took your hand in his, "Why?" He then rubbed comforting circles, the heat giving you comfort.

"Im in love with you, Luke." The words you held in back for so long were finally out, "I didn't want to make things awkward between us so I never told you anything." This was a huge confession, but you felt more relieved than anything, glad that you already let him know how you feel.

He was just staring at you in silence, and you hurriedly searched ideas on how to break the awkward ice, "The game is still ongoing," you glanced at Jess who's now looking dejected on the floor, "Keep playing with her."

"What if," His hand moved up to your cheek, "I wanted to play with you instead?"

"What?" your mouth gaped.

Before you could even think, he placed his other hand on your waist to pull you closer, your chests bumped, and his lips landed on your parted ones.

Warmth engulfed you, and you closed your eyes from the tingles that went up to your spine. You felt your knees buckle beneath you, you were going to fall if not for the strong arms supporting you.

Luke pulled away, "Ah," he licked his lips, "I finally got my first kiss." He whispered with a grin.

"Luke, wha-" You didn't know what to think, your long-time crush just kissed you, and you getting dizzy from the drunken feeling of the kiss doesn't help.

"Ugh!" You and Luke turned your heads to look at Jess, who's now stomping out of the room.

Luke turned his attention to you, "I'm in love with you, too."

Vyn Richter

Would realize immediately if you're being jealous

He finds it endearing that the person he likes could possibly feel the same about him?

Anyways, you two have been friends for a while now, and you would always come with him to anywhere, be it vacation, or work related outings, he would always invite you to come with him "as good friends"

Ugh, please date already

With his mysterious charms, it's inevitable that there are people who would approach vyn with romantic intentions in mind

I MEAN WHO WOULDN'T WANT THIS SEXY MEGANE, CARD READING PROFESSOR WITH A PSYCHOLOGY DEGREE

But most of the time he just turns them down

So you've never really felt jealous with anyone before because as far as you're concerned, there's nobody that close to vyn as you

Are you sure about that?

"Do you like kids, Y/N?" Vyn tilted his head to the sky, squinting his eyes at the bright light, and he felt the sunny breeze drag on his hair like a soothing caress.

You kicked a stone from the sidewalk as you strolled, "Depends," you look over at him, admiring the dispersing sunlight on his silver locks. If it's with you, then it's fine. You wanted to say out loud.

Heat rose to your cheeks at the silly thoughts and you shooed them away as you continued, "Um, some are cute, some are plain annoying," your eyes move to look at down at the stone path, "but they're not that bad I guess."

He puts a fist to cover his mouth and chuckled, the sound creating butterflies on your stomach as his voice reached your ears, "Your opinion on kids is understandable," He shook his head with a smile, "They can be quite a handful."

You were about to open your mouth to agree when your eyes caught a sign plastered in a pastel colored house, labeled Mia's daycare.

The both of you stopped in your tracks, "Is this the place?" You peeked on the windows to see silhouettes of bodies running about through the soft blue color of the curtains, "My patience is ready." you readied yourself for the chaos about to ensue.

Vyn dialled something on his phone, before putting it on his ear, "We're here." He told the person at the end of the line.

After a few moments, the door of the daycare spilled a woman out, about the same age as Vyn, her beaming grin blinding like the sunshine cascading down from the sky.

You took her appearance in, slim figure clad in a teacher uniform, blouse and skirt hugging her curves right. Her make up gives her a certain glow paired with the soft yellow rays of lights coming from above. To top it off, a cute smile.

She's gorgeous.

You stood there awkwardly as the two old friends began to acknowledge each other. An uncomfortable feeling settling in your stomach.

"Vyn! It's nice to see you again." She stretched her hand out to take Vyn's and he did the same, "This is the daycare center I've been managing." Her honey-laced voice was soothing to say the least, but you felt uneasy as you eyed their connected hands, you looked away.

"It suits your style," Vyn's eyes scanned the building to observe, "This seems like the good environment for the kids, you know your stuff." He flashed her a soft smile, and you fought back the urge to frown.

Vyn approached you one day to invite you to Mia's daycare, he had told you that Mia was a close friend from when they were classmates back at the university. She needed help with making the kids not cause so much ruckus so she seeked advice from a friend that knows how to handle the kids.

She must trust Vyn so much if he's the one that came to her mind in this situation, and you recalled the soft look in Vyn's eyes as he talked about reuniting with his friend.

You felt a pang in your heart.

Mia seemed to notice your presence, her head whipping in your direction, "So you brought a companion!" Her smile seem to grew wider, she glanced briefly at Vyn, then back to you, "It's nice to meet you." She reached out her hand and you took it, giving it a squeeze, "Vyn here has told me a lot about you. Like, a lot." She winked.

"Oh," You looked away from embarassment of her implications, Vyn told her a lot about you? "Nice to meet you too." you beamed at her, your eyes meeting her welcoming ones, she seems nice.

"Come in! Makes yourselves comfortable." Mia gestured the both of you to the door, she walked over and opened it with a click.

The door opens, and from one look, you already know how chaotic this day is going to be. Some of the kids were running around and playing with each other, some were bickering. The more reserved ones however, were quietly sitting at their desks, doodling stuff. Some girls were formed in a circle talking about who knows what, some others were eating, chocolate smearing their faces.

The scent of sweets permeated the air. The sound of laughter and quarelling rang on your ears. The colorful alphabet plastered across the walls greeted you as you begin to walk inside, animal drawings that were framed reminded you so much of your childhood.

From the nostalgic feeling the daycare gives off, you already felt at ease.

Vyn's eyes flickered on your form that's looking fondly at the drawings, You were spacing out, he noted.

Of course he'd notice, he pays attention to everything that you do, after all.

He scooted beside you, his hands making it's way to the small of your back to bring your attention to the kids that were now staring at the two of you with curious eyes, "Let's introduce ourselves."

You blushed at the heat of his palm on your back, and it made you hyper-aware of his presence, "Alright."

"Chaotic, right?" Mia smiled awkwardly, but you can tell from the look in her eyes that she's fond of her students, even though they're a bunch of troublemakers.

"Teacher, who's that?" a girl in pigtails ran over and asked with enthusiasm as she stared at Vyn.

"He's so handsome!" Another girl joined in, her eyes sparkling, and because of the attention you were receiving, everyone in the class began to surround you two.

A kid wearing jumpers tugged on Mia's blouse, "Is he your boyfriend?"

You gaped at the kid. Now, where did he get that idea?

"You got it wro-" Mia started to cross her arms and shook her head in an attempt to beat the children's allegations.

"Everyone," A raven-haired boy screamed, his voice echoing throughout the walls, "Teacher Mia has a boyfriend!" He announced.

Both you and Vyn's reactions were just "???" as everyone screamed with excitement.

You shook your head as they began to bombard Vyn questions, and when you said annoying kids, this was what you meant.

You try to fight back the bubbling feelings of jealousy in your chest and focused your attention on the sweets instead, grabbing some for yourself as a distraction.

Vyn opened his mouth to speak, "Everyone, please calm down." you expected the kids to just continue with their chaos but surprisingly, they went quiet and listened to Vyn.

Huh. You blinked. His charms really works wonders even in impossible situations. Even on stubborn children.

"We're here to have fun with everyone. Do you have any games you'd like to play?" He asked in the most calming voice as possible, to calm the kids down.

"I have an idea!" the same kid that made a boyfriend announcement to the whole class shouted, "Let's play house!" He suggested, proud of himself when he heard the others squeal in agreement.

You gulped and looked at Vyn, you already have an idea of where this is going.

"Sure. You decide the roles." Vyn smiled at them, and they all looked at him with huge grins on their faces.

"You be the dad! Miss Mia will be the mom!" the same kid from before pointed at the both of them with delight.

Hearing those words, you face palmed internally. Of course, they met Vyn once and they're already shipping him with their teacher.

I mean, they do look good together... You admit. You pictured them hand in hand, taking care of the kids together.

Maybe you really should just lock your feelings away for good...

Shaking away your thoughts, you looked over to the kids and they haven't payed attention to you yet ever since you came in. You just stood there, unnoticed.

Vyn took notice of this and he spoke, "That's fine and all, but shouldn't you guys give this lovely lady here a role as well?" You felt his hands snake on your waist to pull you to his chest, the proximity making your mind short circuit and face hot, "I very much prefer if she takes the role of my wife, you know." You didn't know it was possible for red cheeks to get redder when you realized what he just meant.

The kids groaned, "No! Teacher should be your wife!" an assertive one scoffed.

"Yeah, you two would make a lovely couple!" Another one agreed.

The children began arguing how it would make so much more sense if Mia was paired with Vyn, "I'm sorry you two..." Mia sighed and shot the both of you an apologetic look.

"It's all right." You pulled away from Vyn, still in the middle of calming your racing heart, "I'll be the maid or whatever."

He chuckled and gazed at your face intently, "If you say so." With that, the three of you sat with the kids on the carpeted floor.

The game started. At first, everything was going smoothly, the kids just asked their mom and dad to feed them, as it was already lunchtime.

You were peacefully eating as well when a familiar voice reached your ears, "Mr. Vyn, please feed miss Mia!" the same boy from before pleaded.

The food that you were swallowing began to block and clot your throat from hearing those words, making you cough. Everyone turned to you because of the noises you're making, "Don't mind me!" You forced a smile.

Vyn chuckled, you don't know if it's because of the kid's suggestion or your reaction, as you hurriedly gulped water to aid yourself.

"Sure." you widened your eyes when you heard Vyn's words, "Say ahh." Vyn held Mia's chin as she opened her mouth to receive the sweet dumpling.

You looked away, suddenly the texture and colors of the floor were interesting to you. The pink pastel meshed flawlessly with the sky blue carpet, it was eye-candy.

After admiring the soft hues of the floor, you looked up to see Vyn and Mia laughing at each other's dumpling stuffed cheeks, "We look like pandas." She snickered and poked at Vyn's cheeks.

What's so funny about that? You rolled your eyes, and turned your attention back on the floor, sulking.

Unbeknowst to you, Vyn and Mia's eyes were now on your form, sharing knowing smiles.

After some time, you actually got along with the kids really well, you helped them doodle stuff and even blew bubbles for them, they weren't as condenscending as before. Maybe they were only like that earlier because they didn't want another person to be with their teacher's boyfriend.

They're that fond of their teacher, you couldn't blame them, Mia is a lovely lady.

It's actually fun playing with the kids, you try to convince yourself that you're not distracting yourself from the lovey-dovey couple in front of you, as the little students kept asking them to do coupley things.

"You know I've been thinking," a girl with a chocolate smear on her face asked, "I want to see you two kiss." She declared so nonchalantly, as if it's the most casual thing a 4 year old can say ever.

You swiftly turned your head from the source of the voice and glared at the kid, but you faltered when you saw the raw innocence gleaming in her eyes.

Just... Why? You sighed.

Kids! They're mischievous and innocent at the same time!

"I won't eat my munchies if you don't kiss!" she added with a scoff.

"That's right!" The girl beside her pouted, "As the mommy and daddy, you should kiss!"

Hearing the word kiss, all the other kids began to surround Vyn and Mia with interest.

You were panicking, you desperately looked into Vyn's eyes to tell him silently, don't. You just stared at him while flapping your arms around to signal a no.

Vyn felt your eyes on him, his golden hues flickered on yours, they glimmered with amusement when he took in your expression. You just sat there stiff, blinking.

Then he smirked, there was a playful glint visible in his orbs as he turned back to the child and nodded, "As you wish."

WHAT.

You eyes almost jumped out of your sockets and you almost choked on your food for the second time today.

Mia eyed Vyn and you didn't notice how she looked at you the same playful look Vyn had gave you earlier.

"Kiss my cheeks, then, Dr. Richter." Mia scooted closer to him, their thighs touching, and your heart broke at the thought of Vyn's soft lips pecking her cheek.

Vyn was leaning close now, the moment he pulled Mia by the shoulders, you held your breath.

Before you could even think, "Stop!" you blurted out, voice resonating inside the whole daycare. You felt like that one character in a movie where they abruptly push the doors of the cathedral to stop a wedding from happening. It was quite the sight you pulled.

Everyone turned their heads on you, and you can feel the kids' eyes burning holes in your form.

Heat rose to your cheeks in embarassment as you looked at the kids one by one, all of them glaring at you.

"What's wrong, Y/N?" Vyn questioned, a smile on his lips.

"Uhh," You cleared your throat and shifted in your sitting position, "Isn't it. A bit inappropriate to kiss in front of the kids?" There's nothing inherently sexual about it, sure, but you had to come up with an excuse instead of revealing your real intentions.

"Is that really the reason? It's a harmless kiss on the cheeks." He then made his way to your side, "Don't tell me, you want to be kissed instead?"

You gulped from the pressure as everyone waited for an answer, "Yes." There's no going out of this, "You caught me..." you scratched your cheeks.

Vyn was silent for a few moments, you were starting to get unnerved and nobody was saying a thing.

"I'm so-" before you could finish, Vyn grabbed your hands onto his, the contact making your cheeks flush.

"She's actually my girlfriend now, everyone." He held your hands high, showing it to the kids, "She's your mom from now on. I won't take no as an answer." Your mind went frenzy, and your mouth gaped at his announcement, I'm his girlfriend now!?

Mia chuckled beside you two, "He's right!"

The kids looked at each other with amused expressions, then trained their eyes on you again, "Fine. She gave me tips on how to draw. I guess it's alright." a brunette crossed her arms with a pout.

"Me too," A soft voice chimed in, "She told me that board games are fun even when most of my friends say it's boring." The little kid smiled gratefully at you.

You bashfully rubbed your neck, "Thank you guys, I had fun playing with you as well. Everyone was nice." They seem to take pride in your compliment as they all huffed in agreement, some even flashed a bright, sunny grin at you.

Vyn squeezed your connected hands, "I'll make sure to shower you with kisses later, sweetheart." He ruffled your soft locks, butterflies fluttering in your stomach at his words, an uncontrollable smile forming on your expression.

"I can't wait."

do not repost © lavynrose 09/11/21

[vyn-ugh]

“Should I even pick one?”

charachters:  artem wing, marius von hagen, vyn richter, luke pearce, celestine and kiki

words count: 1273

warnings: mention of alcohol, a little swearing, not proofread

little note: hi! this is my first time posting anything in years! especially it’s the fisrt time publishing something in english and about the ToT boys. I don’t know if this is the start of a little fanfic, something I want to carry on or what. I just wanted to share something in a while.  polyam is gonna be the main theme, since it’s something I’ve struggled with in a bit to let people around me accept me for this. so I want to put out how it really hurts and it’s not all about fun. it’s still love in the end, which involves different people so yey more hurting. anyway I hope you’ll like it! there’s gonna be at least a second part for this. ily all!

Celestine and Kiki have invited you to drink something after work, to celebrate a hard case you were able to close after months of working on it. You received a little help from Artem, but the majority of the credit was yours to take. You were already wasted, when the two girls decided to have a little fun with you. “Vyn” you say, without hesitation. “Sorry, I mean, “dr. Richter”” you mimic the quotation marks with your fingers. The two girls look at each other confused, while you take another drink in your hands. They study your face, not able to comprehend what you just stated.

“Wait” Celestine finally speaks “so, from all the boys, you’d go out with dr. Richter? Without giving it a second thought?” she asks. You’re the one confused now, what’s happening? I mean, it’s not like you can really hide when you like someone. “Have you seen me around him or what?” you point out. “Yes, but I’ve also seen you around Mr. Wing!” she exclaims, throwing her hands in the air. “What?!” shouts Kiki this time, smacking her friend’s arm. “I thought you were thinking about Mr. Von Hagen!”

Your eyes wide shut, trying to hide from the conversation behind a glass of wine. You wished you could have blamed the redness in your cheeks to what you were drinking, but it was clear to the girls in front of you something was off. Celestine snatches the glass from your hands: “Look me in the eyes, now”. You’ve never seen her frowning at any of you girls in all your days at the firm, so you just choose to listen to her. “Are you sure about dr. Richter, miss?”.

You take a deep breath. “Well, it is hard” you murmur, supporting your head between your hands trying like this to cool off your cheeks. “They’re all nice…” you start, “and smart, charming, handsome” your brain continues lost in thoughts. But you can’t really say it out loud. The point is: you really like them all, it’s so obvious, but it’s not fair to like them all. “I mean, one day you’ll have to choose!” Celestine voices your thoughts. 

“Do I?”

“You can’t just go out with all of them, you know that right?”

You feel a little glimpse of sadness in your chest gripping into your heart. “Can’t I?” you ask yourself, this time. “It’s not like any of them asked me out yet, so there’s nothing to choose between. That’s what I meant, Celestine”. You looked at each other, your believes clashing in a series of glances across the table. Kiki felt your anger growing, and decided to put an end to the discussion: “We still have all night ahead, why don’t we move to the karaoke?”.

You take the last sip of wine from the glass Celestine took away, without moving your gaze from her hard eyes. 

“Why don’t you think about your love life, instead of mine?” Kiki moves between you two, glaring at you: 

“Hey, you need to watch your words”. 

Celestine doesn’t say a thing, and just walks away after getting her purse and jacket from the chair next to yours. “To think I was helping Artem getting you, it was a big ass mistake”. What?

Stumbling on your feet, trying to get balanced on your heels, you reach for her hand stopping her from moving forward. “You’re helping Artem doing what?”. She moves her arms away from your reach: “I don’t owe you any further explanation”.

The Uber you called drove you safely at the karaoke. You and Celestine kindly agreed to Kiki’s wish to end the discussion at the bar, in order to keep the night alive. When out of the car, you look at the sign of the building: it was the same karaoke where Luke took you and the NXX team for a night out. In a flash, you check all the cars parked down the sidewalk and you seem to have spotted one familiar, when Kiki drags you inside. “Come on, no more drinking for you” she exhales, giving you another small push to make you enter the building.

The line is still long, but many are there just for a drink and not to get a table and a chance to get to sing. Celestine is whispering something to your ear, when you can’t actually listen to her: you’ve eyed a table, in the corner of the karaoke bar, where four well-known faces are seated. “They’re all here” you say, without asking your friend what she was trying to say. You haven’t moved your eyes from them, looking all happy together, drinking something; that’s when the two girls next to you follow the line of your glance, and both murmur unhesitatingly and unreservedly: “Shit”.

“We can go away” Kiki offers, walking away from the queue.

“We definitely have to” you say.

Celestine and Kiki have already moved from where you were all standing, but your eyes can’t stay away from them. “Why would they go out without me?” you whisper, a little offended.  Your impulsive anger drives your feet along the floor, pointing at them: they’re all sitting there, and you’re missing, why is that? Did you do something to make them angry at you? Or maybe it’s just a boy’s night out. No, they’re not even that close. You stop in front of the table, without knowing what to say anymore; there could be many reasons they’re out without you, and you confronting them about it could be a little weird.

“Hey!” Luke is the first one to see you, and all the heads move in your direction. Your heart jumps in your chest, looking at him walking up to you. “We thought you were out with the girls, we’re all here to…bond”

“Like real men do” Marius adds, after saluting you with a beer in his hand.

“Yeah…”

Everything looks so uncomfortable right now, to the way they’re talking to each other, to the way they’re staring at you in complete silence. You look at every single one of them, in some kind of greeting, but you’re too confused to speak. “Where are Kiki and Celestine?” Artem asks, pushing away his drink to walk to you. Luke holds your arm, supporting what he’s saying “Yea, where are your friends? Am I wrong or I’ve seen them walking out?”

“I don’t know” you whisper.

You put yourself in this tragic position, yet you want to run away from it. Bits of your latest conversation with Celestine come up into your mind, making you feel flushed: with them right in front of you, you know you would never be able to choose. But is it really that bad? Many people have fun without committing, why should it be any different for you? Then you remember what Celestine said was doing with and for Artem, and you feel crumble at his touch.

“Do you want me to bring you home?”

Yes, that was it, that was his car. “What about us?” Marius whines, jokingly. You look at him with half a smile on your face, when he invites you to sit next to him dragging a chair from an empty table behind him. “I should see where my friends went” you start explaining, trying to get yourself out of this situation. Shivers on your body from the touch of both Artem and Luke’s hands. Vyn finally speaks up, shaking his head “I’ll do that for you, take a seat” he offers again the same spot Marius was pointing at.

“Alright” you say, surrendering to their sweet help.

second part here!

[marleneoftheopera]

1400 Followers Audio Gifts!

To thank you all for following me, being so wonderful, and just surviving a pandemic, here are some gifts from me!

I know I originally said I was going to do 10, but I got a good amount of requests and wanted to add in a few extra favorite audios of mine too. So you get 20! Sorry if I did not post your request; there were many!

If any need to be taken down, do let me know!

Here is the link to all of the audios, cast info is below!

https://www.mediafire.com/folder/a3xda9hu7mu3u/Gifts

The Phantom of the Opera

Michael Crawford, Rebecca Caine, Steve Barton October 10, 1987; London Listed as being Michael Crawford and Steve Barton's last before heading to New York to start rehearsals for Broadway. Beautiful soundboard audio. This is the complete version; there has previously been an incomplete one traded out. 

Eiji Akutagawa, Kyoko Suzuki, Kanji Ishimaru September 22, 1991; Osaka Always here for Japanese love.

Hans Peter Janssens, Susanne Duwe, Michael Shawn Lewis, An Lauwreins, William Lynn Dixon, Marc Meersman, Arnst van Looy, Stephanie Tscheppe June 2, 2000; Antwerp, Belgium Final show in Belgium. Very nice cast all around.

Hugh Panaro, Adrienne McEwan, John Cudia, Patricia Phillips, Jeff Keller, George Lee Andrews, Marilyn Caskey, Larry Wayne Morbitt, Heather McFadden June 16, 2003; Broadway Hugh in his second Broadway run. Adrienne has become a favorite of mine and I think she never gets the credit she deserves, especially having been in the show for so long.

Hugh Panaro, Susan Owen (u/s), Kyle Barisich February 20, 2012; Broadway A lovely audio. Susan has such a sweet, light quality to her voice.

Hugh Panaro, Samantha Hill, Kyle Barisich, Michele McConnell, Greg Mills (u/s), Tim Jerome, Nathan Patrick Morgan (u/s), Carly Blake Sebouhian (u/s) April 6, 2013; Broadway More Hugh. You can never have enough Hugh.

Peter Joback, Emmi Christensson, Anton Zetterholm, Karolina Andresson, Glenn Kjellberg, Rolf Lydhal, Sindre Postholm, Sanna Martin, Tehilla Blad, David Ingham, Samuel Jarrick, Martin Kagemark, John Martin Bengtsson February 1, 2017; Stockholm I loved this production so much.

Ben Forster, Celinde Schoenmaker, Nadim Naaman, Charlotte Vaughan (u/s, last Carlotta show), Sion Lloyd, Mark Oxtoby, Paul Ettore Tabone, Joanna Strand (u/s, last Madame Giry show), Daisy Hulbert August 31, 2017; London A few days before cast change. One of my favorite audios as of late.

Fred Johanson, Hanna Liina Vosa, John Martin Bengtsson, Hanna Leena Haapamaki, Dardan Bakraqi, David Lundqvist, Anders Wangdhal, Lana Zuzic, Gisela Sjostedt, Lars Hijertner, Marco Stella, Tobja Halsell, Peter Loguin January 26, 2018; Gotheborg From the non-replica production. With John as Raoul this time!

Scott Davies, Kelly Mathieson, Jeremy Taylor, Lara Martins, Sean Lloyd, Mark Oxtoby, Jacinta Mulcahy May 31, 2018; London This is labeled as having Ben Lewis, but if you listen it’s really Scott.

Tomas Ambt Kofod, Sibylle Glosted, Christian Lund, Martin Loft (u/s), Monsieur André, Anna Vaupel (u/s), Rasmus Jupin, Elisabeth Halling, Imogen-Lily Ash, Jesper Paasch, Kim Hammelsvang, Paul Frederiksen, Paul Frederiksen (u/s), Mia Karlsson (u/s) February 13, 2019; Copenhagen Compared to other audios, you can tell that Sibylle has really settled in the role and improved wonderfully. She sounds absolutely divine. An absolutely gorgeous cast.

Jonathan Roxmouth, Meghan Picerno, Matt Leisy September 3, 2019; Tel Aviv One of Meghan's last shows on the World Tour before she joined the Broadway company. Jonathan and Meghan sound particularly stunning on here, they keep getting better which is insane because they are already so good.

Tim Howar, Amy Manford (alt), Jeremy Taylor, Ross Dawes, Alan Vicary, Kimberly Blake, Paul Ettore Tabone, Jacinta Mulcahy, Georgia Ware September 7, 2019; London Amy Manford's last show, the last matinee for the 2018/19 cast. Just to be clear, this audio is different from the other that is NFT. Pretty nice quality too!

Love Never Dies

Ramin Karimloo, Sierra Boggess, Joseph Millson, Liz Robertson, Summer Strallen, Niahm Perry, Adam Pearce, Jami Reid-Quarrell June 2, 2010; London A gift for all my Rierra/LND London fans out there.

Tomas Ambt Kofod, Louise Fribo, Christian Berg, Oscar Diez January 18, 2013; Copenhagen, Denmark This is an overlooked and gorgeous production. Also, after 'Love Never Dies' someone in the audience shouts "wow" and I think that captures it perfectly.

Evita

Emma Kingston (Eva), Ramin Karimloo (Che), Robert Finlayson (Peron), Anton Luiting (Magaldi), Isabella Jane (Mistress) July 4, 2018; Tokyo Emma as Eva and Ramin as Che. Some great casting there.

Anastasia

Annakathrin Naderer (u/s Anya), Thomas Hohler (Dimitry), Thorsten Tinney (Vlad), Mark Roy Luykx (u/s Gleb), Theresa Holter (Young Anastasia), Patricia Nessy (Lily Malevsky-Malevitch), Masha Karrell (Dowager Empress Maria), Katja Hentschel (u/s Tsarina Alexandra), Kirill Zolygin (Tsar Nicholas II/Count Ipolitov), Helena Thordal Christenson (Olga Romanov), Alexandra Yoana-Alexandrovna (u/s Tatiana Romanov/Dunya), Laura Robinson (u/s Maria Romanov/Marfa), Mariana Hidemi (Anastasia, age 17/Paulina) August 10, 2019; Stuttgart I have yet to listen to this one yet, but I always love spreading love for foreign productions of shows.

Les Miserables

Kyle Jean-Baptiste (u/s Valjean), Earl Carpenter (Javert), Erika Henningsen (Fantine), Chris McCarrell (Marius), Samantha Hill (Cosette), Brennyn Lark (Eponine), Max Quinlan (u/s Enjolras), Gavin Lee (Monsieur Thenardier), and Rachel Izen (Madame Thenardier) August 13, 2015; Broadway A really great cast and Kyle deserves to be heard. He was brilliant and it is such a shame he passed so early on in his life.

John Owen-Jones (Jean Valjean), Michael Ball (Javert), Carrie Hope Fletcher (Fantine), Matt Lucas (Thenardier), Katy Secombe (Thenardier), Bradley Jaden (Enjolras), Craig Mather (Marius u/s), Shan Ako (Eponine), Lily Kerhoas (Cosette) Earl Carpenter (Bishop/Bamatabois) October 16, 2019; Staged Concert, Gielguld Theatre Gorgeous.

Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat

Sheridan Smith (Narrator), Jason Donovan (Pharaoh), Jac Yarrow (Joseph), Femi Akinfolarin (Brother), Casey  Al-Shaqsy (Wife), J.R. Ballantyne (Brother), Thalia Burt (Wife), Richard Carson (Reuben), Michael Cortez (Guard), Vanessa Fisher (Wife), Matt Krzan (Guard), Kelsie-Rae Marshall (Wife), Emily Ann Potter (Wife), Georgina Parkinson (Wife), Michael Pickering (Simeon), Harriet Samuel-Gray (Wife), Carl Spencer (Brother), Joshua Steel (Brother), Jack Wilcox (Brother), Blythe Jandoo (s/w Wife), Hannah Taylor (s/w Wife) July 17, 2019; London Jason coming back to the show as Pharaoh this time!

[morganaspendragonss]

turning page

After TK saves a patient’s life on a call, Tommy has a proposal for him.

i saw the promo photos for 2.06 and the summary for 2.07 and uhhh this happened? thanks to @immortalstrand and @laelipoo for poking me to do this and to @221tardisimpala for looking it over for me!

ao3 | 1.6k | season 2 speculation

“You handled yourself well out there today.”

TK jumps and swears, the new voice breaking him from his focus on his chores. He turns around, scowling, only for his eyes to blow wide as he spots Captain Vega watching him, her mouth twitching in amusement.

“Captain Vega,” he stammers. “Sorry, I didn’t realise it was you.”

She smiles and waves him off. “No, it was my fault for not giving you any warning. Though, as far as heart attacks go, it’s not a bad place to have one.”

He laughs awkwardly, and they trail off into an uncomfortable silence. TK scuffs the floor with his boot, not wanting to offend her by going back to work, but also not quite sure if the conversation is over. Fortunately, she quickly takes pity on him.

“I just wanted to say, thanks for stepping in earlier,” she says. “You did well.”

TK shrugs, tamping down the pride he feels at her words. “I was just doing my job.”

“I’d say you were doing a fair bit more than ‘just your job’.” Her eyebrows are raised and she takes a sip of her coffee, looking at him appraisingly. “Look, it’s no secret that I’ve had my...misgivings about Pearce. And after what happened today… Well, let’s just say that young woman is lucky you were there to help.”

“Anyone would have done the same,” TK deflects, though he’s not entirely sure why. “Marjan, or Paul, or…”

He trails off, flushing under her gaze. Captain Vega isn’t particularly intimidating, but there’s a distinct weight to this conversation that extends beyond simple praise. Not that the praise isn’t nice, but TK can tell it’s not what she came here to say, not truly. 

He clears his throat. “I’m sure Pearce will get there,” he offers. “But he’s only on trial, right? You’ll be able to find someone good if he, you know. Doesn’t.”

She levels him with a pointed gaze. “I think I already have.”

“Oh.” TK nods slowly. He’s got no idea why she’s telling him any of this; it seems more like a conversation for his dad, or literally anyone else that isn’t him. He tells her as much, surprised when she laughs and shakes her head. “What am I missing?”

She moves closer, TK inexplicably feeling more and more nervous with each passing second.

“You, TK,” she says, and his eyes widen. “I’m asking if you’d like to take the post.”

“Oh,” he repeats. “I, um. I -”

“You don’t have to give me an answer right away,” she interrupts. “I’d prefer it if you didn’t, actually. Take your time; you know where to find me.”

With a nod and an encouraging smile, Captain Vega turns to walk away. She gets as far as the staircase when TK calls after her, the question burning in his chest.

“Can I ask you something?” 

At her nod, TK hesitates a moment, biting his lip. “Why me?”

The question seems to surprise her. “Why not you?”

“I’m not the only one with medic training,” he points out. “And I’m sure you’ve had plenty of other applicants.”

“That’s all true,” Captain Vega accedes, walking back over to him. “But you are the best field medic we’ve got. You’re already integrated with the team; it’ll be a much easier adjustment than bringing someone entirely new in. And…” She hesitates, then places a hand on his arm. “I hope I’m not overstepping the line here, but I have to ask. Being a firefighter - who are you doing it for?”

TK shifts uncomfortably, his eyes flicking up to his dad’s office. It’s not an unfamiliar question - even though he decided to stay after the shooting, it’s been sitting at the back of his mind ever since, constantly niggling at him - but he hadn’t expected it, especially not from Captain Vega. She pats his arm sympathetically, then steps away, smiling gently.

“I’ll leave you to think about it,” she says. “I think you could do some really great work with us, TK, but if you truly don’t want the position, I won’t push. Let me know, okay?”

“I will.”

When she walks away this time, TK lets her go, staring after her retreating back long after she’s out of sight. He replays the conversation in his head, mind reeling at the implications of becoming a paramedic. It’s not an option he’s considered before, always too set on being a firefighter to think about anything else. And yet… Now that Captain Vega’s laid it out for him, it makes a frightening amount of sense. He could do it; he knows he could. 

Does he want to, though?

He doesn’t get time to think on it further as, for the second time in fifteen minutes, someone tries to give him a heart attack.

“What did Captain Vega want?” Marjan asks from behind him. 

Once he’s got his racing heart back under control, TK turns, shrugging. “Nothing. She was just thanking me for that call earlier.”

“Uh huh,” she says. “And that’s got you looking so constipated?”

“Shut up.” He scowls; Marjan grins. “Haven’t you got chores to do?”

“Haven’t you?” But she’s moving past him, playfully punching his shoulder as she goes. “Let us know if you ever feel like talking about what’s really eating you.”

“Yeah.”

*

TK chews on his nail, his other hand tapping an erratic rhythm on Carlos’s counter. He hasn’t been able to stop thinking about Captain Vega’s proposal, and the more he does so, the more he wonders about actually taking her up on it. 

From the sink, Carlos clears his throat. TK looks up, confused by the pointed look on his face.

“What?”

Carlos huffs a laugh. “First the pacing, now this. What’s going on?”

“It’s nothing,” he says on reflex. Then, at Carlos’s raised eyebrows, “Okay, it’s something.”

Carlos abandons the cooking, coming over to lean on the counter opposite TK. “Wanna talk about it?”

“We had a call today,” he starts. “There was a pretty serious medical situation, and the new paramedic we’ve got on trial - Pearce - was supposed to be helping Captain Vega. He choked. I had to step in and get the patient stabilised so she could be transported to hospital.”

“Good job you were there, then,” Carlos puts in, a small smile on his face.

TK returns it. “That’s what Captain Vega said,” he continues. “She came up to me near the end of shift, thanked me, and… She offered me the position, Carlos.”

“As paramedic?”

At TK’s nod, Carlos’s face breaks out into a huge grin. “That’s amazing!” His smile falters when TK meets his eyes, doubt written all over his face. “Unless… You don’t want it?”

TK shrugs hopelessly. “I have no idea. I think maybe I do? I just… Being a firefighter is all I’ve ever known. It’s not that taking this would mean I couldn’t do it anymore, I’m pretty sure I could work both sides, and I’d still be with the same team. Pretty much nothing would change, but right now, it feels like everything would. Do you know what I mean?”

He looks at Carlos desperately, grateful for the understanding he sees in his face. Carlos reaches across the counter and takes his hands.

“I do,” he says quietly. “But it also sounds like you have your answer.”

TK hesitates, then nods slowly, a small smile on his lips. Carlos is right - he knows exactly what he wants.

*

A few days later, he’s standing outside his dad’s office, nerves roiling in his stomach. His dad looks up before he can knock, looking startled at the sight of TK at the door.

“TK?”

He smiles awkwardly. “You got a minute, Cap?”

His dad looks up sharply, clearly noting the use of his title, but nods, gesturing to the seat opposite. “What’s up?” he asks when TK’s seated.

He purses his lips, twisting his hands in his lap. “Captain Vega spoke to me the other day,” he says. “I don’t know if she mentioned anything to you?”

His dad shakes his head, and TK nods. He focuses his gaze on the desk, not quite able to meet his dad’s eyes. “It was about the paramedic position.”

A silence falls between them, dragging out long enough for TK to dare to look up. He’s just in time to see the understanding dawn on his dad’s face.

“I see,” he says, voice carefully measured. “And what did you tell her?”

“Nothing yet,” TK replies. “But…”

“You want to say yes.”

“It’s not that I don’t love being a firefighter,” he says hurriedly. “I just. I think this could be good for me, you know? And I wouldn’t be going anywhere, and -”

“TK,” his dad cuts in. TK flushes and clears his throat, swallowing reflexively. His dad smiles encouragingly. “I told you before - whatever you choose, I’ll stand by you. Is this what you want?”

He nods. “Yeah.”

His dad sits back in his chair, holding his hands up. “Then what are you still doing talking to me?”

TK’s mouth drops open in surprise - he’s not sure why, but he’d expected more of a fight. A relieved laugh bubbles up in his chest, but he pushes it down as both he and his dad rise from their seats. They hug, TK briefly closing his eyes.

“Thanks, Dad,” he murmurs. His dad claps him on the back, eyes shining with pride when they separate. 

“Go on,” he says. “Tommy’s in her office.”

TK spares one glance backward as he leaves, feeling a hundred pounds lighter. He can hear the rest of the team chatting and laughing in the kitchen, and there’s a slight pang in his chest at the thought of breaking the news to them. 

But, as Captain Vega welcomes him into her office with a smile, TK knows that he’s making the right decision.

[actualbird]

almonds r just like a little tear drop. a long wrinkly brown tear drop. just think of like if mixed nuts cried next time. rooting for you king here to support you uncoditoonally. unconditionally. got it

kjbJBDKFJGS THANK U, ANON. both for the support and for the wonderful image youve painted for me....last night after my blundering failure, i did indeed google what almonds look like and ur description is wonderful.

luke pearce opening screen voice: Tears Of Nuts.

also after i regaled the story to my girlfriend over chat, she kindly gave me tips on how to make a salad OmO. which is so nice on her part and incredibly pathetic on mine kBSKJGFKSD

[omnivorousshipper]

De-aged Fic

Part 2

Owen frowned as he watched the group of adults crowded around each other on the other side of the room. He kicked his feet as they dangled off the table he was sitting on

Next to him was the nice lady, Letty, who had brought him here. She held his hand but was also watching the other adults talking

Owen didn't know what was going on. He had woken up, soaking wet and Letty picking him up. She had been nice to him and smiled as she wrapped her jacket around him

Now, he was in a strange place surrounded by strangers

Deckard was going to be really mad at him

And so was da

Even thinking of his father, Owen felt a shiver go down his back. He was going to get a spanking if his da knew about what was happening

Hopefully Deckard would come up with a lie for him

The longer Owen sat there, the harder it was to keep his tears at bay

He doesn't want to admit it, but he was scared

A lot of the adults were yelling, especially the really big and tall men

Owen didn't like yelling. It reminded him too much of his da

But he kept his back straight and blinked away his tears. He would get into even more trouble if he blubbered like a baby

Instead, Owen scooted closer to Letty and pressed into her side. Without being prompted, she wrapped her arm around his shoulders. He relaxed just a little

"Let?" He asked quietly, using the nickname she had told him

"Yeah, Oh?"

He smiled a little as she used his own nickname without him telling her to

"I'm hungry."

His stomach had been grumbling and aching since he woke up, but he had been too scared to bring any attention to it

Letty looked down at him and smiled

"What do you want to eat?"

Owen frowned more

"Deck's food?" He asked hopefully, looking up at her hopefully. But felt himself deflate when her smile dropped

"I'm sorry, sweetheart, but Deck's not here. He asked me to look after you." She said softly. "How about a burger and chips?"

"Where's Deck?" He asked, ignoring her question

"He's busy doing an important mission with your mom."

"Why didn't they take me?" Owen whined

"Don't worry, sweety. They'll take you next time when you're a bit older."

Owen pouted at that. It wasn't fair!

He wanted to scream and cry for Deckard but he knew it was useless. The last time he had done that, his da had locked him in a closet

Sniffling, Owen nodded at her explanation

"Can I have ice cream too?" He whispered

"Of course." Letty smiled down at him. She easily slid off the table and helped him down. Hand firmly in his, she called out to the other adults. "Owen and I are going out to get dinner."

The biggest and tallest man stepped away from the other adults

"He's not leaving." He snapped

Owen couldn't help his full body flinch and hid behind Letty's legs. Keeping his eyes firmly on the ground, Owen hoped he wouldn't be punished

"He's hungry." Letty argued back. "You don't expect me to starve a kid do you?"

Owen squeezed her hand at the sound of anger in her voice. Tears pricked at his eyes. He didn't want to get Letty in trouble just because he was hungry. He had already done that to Hattie once

"I'm not hungry anymore." He mumbled up to Letty. "We don't have to leave."

Eyes still on his fidgeting feet, Owen didn't see the shocked faces the adults had. Nor did he see Luke's shoulders drop and the hand he scrubbed down his face

"Parker, Pearce, go with them." He sighed

"Now, that, I can do." Roman said excitedly. "Come on, kid. Let's go stuff our faces."

Owen's head snapped up at the cheery voice of one of the adults. The man had a large, friendly smile on his face as he walked up to him and Letty. Shying away from the man, Owen looked up at Letty for confirmation

Was of ok to go with them?

"Come on, Oh." Letty smiled down at him

Nodding, Owen pressed himself to Letty's side as she led him towards the elevator. The two men following close behind them