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anxious-chaos-art · 7 months ago

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Devices quit murdering the quality of my art challenge

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bunnihearted · 20 days ago

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#so i have an appt. to the psychiatric department for personality disorders tmrw...#and like i tried sending a self referral to them last year lmao #and they only said that heyyy you're doing amazing sweetie you are high functioning 🖕🏻🖕🏻🖕🏻🖕🏻🖕🏻#then i've ben to the health care center and since they think they cant treat me bc it's too severe they've sent referrals to other places #which have all declined me... so they also sent one to the psychiatric who sent a referral to this pd department #who that time also said that they can't accept me #so the therapist at the health care center like idk exactly but she sent a report on how they didnt handl my case properly #which made them call on me for an evalutation appt.#but i have 0 hopes. i honestly think the entire psych care is fucking lame and bullshit #i highly doubt they're even equipped to treat personality disorders #& even if they are theire budgetis getting cut bc ppl love having rightists ruling the government .... which means no funds for healthcare #anyway. PLUS it's a man.... -_- which reducuses my chances of being taken seriously even more...#i also hate talking to male therapists/psychiatrists... no fucking thanks. but i have to </3 #i just really dont wanna go. like im gonna have to put energy into trying to argue for my right for treatment. w ppl who should inferstand #UNDERSTAND* i hate typing on my ipad ffs. they should understand my personality disorders..#bit health care proffessionals are horrible ppl and dont give a fuck abt their patients lol. so they're only condescending and rude 🤢🤮#i hate being in these environments bc everyone treats u like shit. the receptionists are so fkn rude and almost outright mean and insulting #the doctors and therapists and psychiatrists are all bullies who look down on u and make u feel small and worthless #so im really dreading it... but im also at my wit's end. i am missing out on my entire life. im desperate for help #even if i wholeheartedly believe that these worthless wastes of space wont give me any treatment i'll still need to go and try #then ig i'll just have to keep pestering the healthcare system. i might wventually even have to start going to the psych. ER so they put #that on my records and like idk. that costs money tho. plus from everyone i've heard from...#being at a psych ER esp when your situation isnt dire is awful and hell #my cousin who had been ther after a sui attempt had said that it 'scared him straight'#and that it was so terrible that he did everything to get back home as soon as possible and do whatever to never end up there again #so yuh... i'd rather not!#i was supposed to (my own decision) to write a list with ALL my symptoms and bring and be like LOOK MONGREL!!!#but since i suffer from avpd...... i havent. i procrastinated and now it's too late whoopsie. i'll just have to wing it fuckkkk 🥴#ofc it also has to be 8.45 .. so early in the morning for me im so mad ahhhhh i dont wanna go i am throwing up and screaming #but atp i'd have to pay $35 myself for not going so that will motivate me enough to force myself to go

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ayyponine · 4 months ago

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not to be a milennial but harry potter and the prisoner of azkaban really is that bitch....

#mom wanted to rewatch the movies so we've been going thru them <3 #talk about a movie thats just like. grief. i turn into the jamie lee curtis halloween trauma supercut #SORRY..... the visuals are peak like that IS the hp vibe to ME and i am BLOWN AWAY this movie was made in 2004 it feels ahead of its time #the first two are so whimsical and magical enrapturing and this movie is like. a well worn cardigan. this feels 2011 cozycore to me #sorry but the introduction of lupin becoming a comforting trusted guardian type of figure AND the dementors representing hollow depression #this 13 yr old whos been kept in the dark on so many things being extra vulnerable prey to them bc of the severe trauma #but getting lessons on how to withstand that creeping dread.. through happy memories... still bonding w lupin increasngly ouagh...#the grief between them both over james and lily. also btw ofc defense against the dark arts being fighting yr fears through laughter. aaaaaa #and then sirius. black. im. i know we meme on the twelve years of it! in azkaban! but as a bitch whos now closer to those characters in age #and can appreciate and understand them obv more than i could when i was. a tween. that just hits like ok shit. VALID #so valid and real to see the child of your friends you knew at that age but who DIED and then see the friend who betrayed them #to see like the best of BOTH of them mirrored and living on in him and be like yknow what???? you WILL be protected frm that same fate #hoooo the briefest moment where harry might hope things will turn out okay. w sirius' name being cleared and peter having to explain himself #and sirius being like hey i get it if you want to stay w your family that is fine but. if you wanna move in w me...#(harry relaying this to hermione later as well. dreaming of a place fr just the two of them somewhere in the countryside #somewhere..... sirius might see the sky..... bc he thinks he would like that after all those years locked up do not even touch me rn.......)#only fr everything to turn to shit two friends fighting w deadly force. the chance to set this right slipping off into the night.#a million dementors descending relentlessly until utter exhaustion and certain death. some strange salvation? fight for a second chance?#but then still havign to say goodbye when they only just GOT this. and everything still being so. god. and lupin having to leave as well.#the thought of sirius also WANTING that guardian type connection but being forced to live in 1. a cave barely living more freely than before #2. then being confined to the stuffy somber abusive home he ran away from as a teen w that portrait still up there and everything.. bitch...#oh man the way i KNOW when we get to ootp (my favourite) its gonna leave me blasted into a million little pieces #the way i know shit like the knowing wink the entirety of the wall tapestry room scene and of course nice one james is gonna DESTROY me..#dont even talk to me abt that dark turn at the end of gof and how everything after gets soooo. god. w everything just getting destroyed and.#i cant even think abt it i cant even talk about it. wah #i dont care btw that they aged those guys up undermining how insanely young these people died. perfect casting fr the remaining marauders ok

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monachopism · 5 months ago

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am i autistic or am i just paranoid. level: impossible

#seeing a friend of mine for the first time in 2 years but it was at a 9hr work training and i barely talked to him the whole time #so i text our gc multiple times bc im excited #but everyones drained from the day #so am i being a good loving kind person or am i being annoying as hell #my brain says the first one and my gut says the second #i also might have a big fat crush on this man (he is unfairly attractive and kind and funny and TALL)#so i may be overreacting bc of that #i just missed him and now my big fat crush on him is bigger and fatter than ever #at the end of our first summer he hugged me tight and told me he loved me (platonically)#then he asked if i was coming back and i said yes without any hesitation #and then he didnt come back #so ive been going on 2 years of stewing in this fucking crush soup and now im just #tumblr is the only place where i can talk abt this no one important in my life can know this #no one #i just really like him #and i wanna be around him all the time #and i wanna sit with him and talk to him and laugh with him #and help him with stuff #and i have not had an actual crush on someone since my sophomore and junior year of high school #which was 4 and 5 years ago at this point #this guy also kept staring at me from across the room and everytime i would glace in his direction he would look away #and every time i would get a glimpse of him at training i could physically feel the butterflies #hell #every time i even thought about the fact that we were in the same general area i would get butterflies #this never happens to me and its such a weird feeling #would you be so kind by dodie is the anthem of the hour rn #and i know there's a huge part of me that thinks i am unlovable bc of how i look #and ive never had anyone love me or even like me enough to initiate any kind of anything #ive been on one date in my life #never been kissed never had sex

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girls-and-honey · 8 months ago

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#okay so random tag post even though it's been ages #me thinks the current place i work is actually decent a la accepting-queer-ppl so?? miiiiight. consider actually putting my #pronouns in my email signature (which hardly gets used but shh) but like. the actual ones not the society/people assume anyway ones #idk i attended a virtual tech focused event for trans dov (yes early but they didn't want to put the event on sun) and you know when #everyone is just sharing their stories and experiences and it's just like... an overwhelming sense of community? anyway that #and since it was hosted by a professional org the topics were all workplace focused and mayhaps that's something i'm thinking abt for #this year. at least within our pride group I might be ready? wild bc for a long time tumblr has been the only place I feel comfy being 100%#myself. but hearing real people's stories makes me feel like that kind of community would be nice to have elsewhere too #and the whole looking to others also turns around into the leading by example thing bc then we had some breakout groups at the end for #networking which is not my favorite but! i did my intro and said I use she/her for work but will use she/they for this group and #then the next person said he/him at work but for this group he/they so that made me wonder if it was bc of me saying so first?#which if it was is kind of like oh. the way I'm looking for those people for me.. I can also be that for someone else #anyway this sounds dumb typed out but irl/professional me has always separated out queer identity so it's new to me #i'm allowed to be giddy okay. just a little. as a treat (is tumblr still using 'as a treat' i really hope so)#oh shit is this what gender euphoria feels like #alright that's it for now i think #gah emotions and whatnot #missed you all btw i'll start actually being online again soon #personal

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palms-upturned · 6 months ago

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#meg talks #feeling really down and frustrated #ever since i caught covid over the new year ive just been doing so badly #it’s now halfway through may and not only am i having all sorts of weird new pain problems #to the point where i dragged myself to the er yesterday bc my usual meds didn’t do shit for me and i spent seven hours writhing in pain #but also mentally im just. constantly tapped out #before covid i was able to keep up w news and work on research projects and write multiple image descriptions every day and read books #and keep up w friends all while working full time #like even if i was in bed p much whenever i wasn’t at work i could still read and write and carry conversations #now it’s like i can only handle all of these things in small doses before my brain just shuts off #im still keeping up w news and describing what i can and working on my research projects and trying to make connections #but i feel so slow abt everything i do #it’s driving me up the wall #ive been trying for days to get through this one academic paper that’s rlly not even that long #and i just can’t do it. not for long anyway i have to read in small bursts #and then having to take muscle relaxants for these fucking spasms that make me really drowsy and sleep the whole day away…#idk. it might not even be abt covid i might be reading too much into it but it’s just pissing me off. thinking abt how nobody masks anymore #and how every time there’s a covid outbreak i won’t be able to properly protect myself or my brothers from it #bc of this fuckass job #idk im just tired and upset

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c0rpsedemon · 9 months ago

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oh yeah. the reason why i decided to reread tbhk (and thus it was able to hit me like a truck this time around) was actually not bc of mitsukou going canon but actually bc i maybe accidentally started a tbhk book club w my kids at work and wanted to check the contents of it justttt in case before i put the books in their hands

#tl;dr i have this one 4th grade boy who's a total weeb and knows that i'm the only one in this town who's more into japanese media than him #so he pesters me abt it every time he sees me. and the thing abt this kid is that he gets bored easily and if he does he turns into a #complete menace. now a couple weeks ago. he shows up at the program w one piece volume one and spends the entire time he's there peacefully #reading and not causing any problems on purpose. my coworker owen (the one who climbed onto the roof) and i were shocked and in awe of how #peaceful he was being and came to the conclusion that he NEEDS to have a manga volume in his hands at all times. few minutes later.#he finishes reading and isn't bored yet so he decides to go talk to me abt manga. specifically he starts pestering me abt what shonen i've #read despite the fact that i am a shoujo reader and told him that. but he knows i've read kuroshitsuji bc he previously asked me abt what #the worst anime i've ever watched is and i will never not take an excuse to drag the adaptation. and he figures that if i've read kuro i've #probably read more. and so i mention tbhk and he asks more abt it bc of the name involving toilets and him being a 4th grade boy so i give #brief overview and he wants to read it. and i come up with a scheme to make him peaceful AND to give him something to talk to me abt which #isn't 'i know you've read more shonen manga' 'let me gacha on your phone' or 'i saw an ad for rent a gf. thought it was lame. and now want #you to tell me how it sucks bc i assume you know everything abt every animanga ever' (<does unfortunately know too much abt rent a gf bc i'#a bit of a nosy bastard and watched the mother's basement video). so i offered to bring it in bc i own physicals of the whole series and of #as previously mentioned. gave it a quick reread in advance just in case. and got hit by it. hard. i love you tbhk almost as much as i love #when ppl get into things through me. honestly i think getting to live vicariously through him might be one of the main reasons it got me #this time around and not as much the first time (still loved it the first time though). flash forward a little while. one of the 3rd grade #girls is like. really into reading. and also macabre things. like ghosts. and she has two books from the school library. and has had the #same two books from the school library for over a week. she reads quickly and finished them both in under a day and is now bored out of her #mind rereading them. she asks to read the books i've been letting the other kid read. now there are two of them #romeo.txt

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phagodyke · 2 months ago

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ah shit only just realised its september now.... lets hope the rest of this month isn't like this.....

#just med shit innit. gonna force myself up at my usual work time even tho i have the day off bc I need to be in my routine or ill lose it #i am. very tired and very sad. and thats ok generally im ok ive been keeping myself so busy for weeks and weeks #and im glad im going out n doing shit often n meeting new ppl n trying to focus more on hobbies n get more on the life balance #but whenever i have a moment to stop i still get so sad. ik exactly why theyre all just old aches n wounds i dont want to wallow in them!!#lately its been well under control i only usually have one actual bad day a week and sometimes its not even a whole day #and the rest im.just busy and i dont know if im just avoiding things and its not satisfying being busy bc im still missing out needs #but i cant fulfil them so might as well stay busy and not think about it!!#and its okay its all okay im just so sad right now :-( but im going to sleep soon and then ill be busy tmr so i dont have to think abt it #i wanna ventpost abt it but also i dont rly want to bc findinf the words to talk abt the things distressing me involves thinking abt it #which will just.make me feel worse. and it wont resolve anything bc its all mostly outside of my control anyway just hurts innit #but im trying hard to make my life bigger than it was before even if its still shallow and not quite enough at least it covers more space #yeah yeah we all want to feel genuine connection and wanted and loved but life doesnt often work out like that so.#hands in your pockets player keep it moving. im goiny to brush my teeth and then rly need to go to bed zzzzz #.diaries #hope everyone else had a nice weekend i had a pretty good saturday at least. and played a lot of videogames today so could be worse #very glad i dont have work tomorrow as well thank u past me for booking it off ahh..

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nomairuins · 3 months ago

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i just fucking hate having ptsd all of it. so many stupid fucking things send me into fucking hysterics it sucks and i hate it and i dont want itttt anymore i dont want it.

#i literally like. i didnt tell u guys bc it was embarassing #but i had to hype myself up to eat a fucking orange the other day. like i was shaking and crying and i nearly threw up.#bc it fucking reminded me of All that and also bc its one of the only foods i got to eat outside ofm my one meal a day #while i was living there. bc my coworker gave me oranges sometimes #and one time she gave me a whole bag of cuties which was wonderful of her i miss her #but i pretty much like. bc during m-f i had a meal at work #and i could get something from the vending machine if i needed to #but on the weekends i had to either order food (which would always make me insanely nauseous bc of. the money stuff. yk) or just eat #what i had in my room bc i couldnt use the kitchen bc the roommates would be mad at me #and they might kick me out and id be actually fucked. its so crazy looking back that i genuinely the entire time i fucking lived there even #b4 the breakup the entire time i was in terror that theyd evict me. bc i wouldnt have been able to do anything abt it #i mean thats why i didnt like. leave him after he . and stuff. both bc i thought i didnt deserve anything better and bc i was terrified #theyd evict me and i wouldnt have any way to get home. it was terrifying #but ya. so for a couple weeks i rationed myself One orange per day lol. and on weekends that was all i was able to eat rly #idk. i hate ptsd. basicalllyyyy is the gist of ittt. and i keep thinking abt random fucking things they did to me #me when they jokingly tell me to starve myself when i literally have a fucking eating disorder. and when i told The Only Person i knew in #that fucking house abt it he told me i was being dramatic and i was just being greedy and etc. and then later when i got off work today i #saw on their fucking whiteboard in the kitchen i wasnt supposed to use Eat more <3 as one of their goals. while i went to sit in the garage #for the weekend eating a single fucking orange a day. god #idk. ive gotten better with eating i still have the scale but i ws able to go months without using it until the medical call the other week #and i havent used it since but. everytime i think abt all that itmakes me want to go back to it. i cant tho everyone would notice #i do still eat a wholee lot less than i did b4 washington but idk. idont remember if i even ate today i probably should but i dont feel #hungry but i cant even fucking trust that bc i Starved myself for so fucking long im too good at ignoring hunger. and i never was super in #touch with my body but im constantly numb now. idk.#ed ment #a2t #i ws gonna say more but it ws tmi + tag limit anyway. its just insane that my fucking ed wouldnt have happened if it werent for him and it #graduated i wouldnt have been isolatedinever wouldve had an ed. like 50% of my ptsd would be Gone if i just hadnt joined that discord. lol

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bismuthburnsblue · 4 months ago

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fitting on my flora bodice tonight! heres an image of her so you have a reference for what were going for!! (and so tumblr doesnt make the fitting image a thumbnaillll)

ive made an initial mockup from my pattern (s9653, got from a magazine!), heres the things i changed before i got to the actual fittings:

sized down from the "recommended" size (i ALWAYS find commercial patterns have way too much wearing ease for me)(i did mock it up to the guide size, but... no)

added allowance for a zip in the back (since im going to be shortening the button stand to fit the design, i figured the easiest way to make this wearable is with a zip. even if i wasnt, honestly- i kinda hate doing that many buttons)

and heres what that looks like! (im aware its a tiny bit tight around the bust, thats from my vagueing the size down, ill do that Properly when i transfer to paper) honestly im pretty happy with this- theres no fitting issues that i didnt expect from this pattern, which is a minor miracle with me & commercial patterns

now our next set of tasks is making the actual wanted changes!!! im going to add more shaping to the princess seam lines (at the waist on the front and back to make it actually nip in there, and above the bust on the front) and the notching for the button stand. i think thats all i want to do, but ill check again, maybe with collar and sleeve on, this time! (no point adding those when im making major changes)

(i know im also going to have to figure out the sleeve situation, but thats a later problem, i think!)

i should be able to get this all done tonight, ill catch you guys for an update a little later!!

#im trying to decide what colour fabric to get. i dont think i want something toooooo orange #im wondering if i should lean pastel or rusty. both are good! pastel probably a little more flora. rust maybe more wearable in my wardrobe #(outside of cosplay)#if you have an opinion on pastel/rust lmk! fabric shopping is tomorrow #i also might. MIGHT. make a petticoat too. i dream of broderie anglaise hems peeking out from skirts #its been a goal for a while. now may be the time. but only if there IS time #i should also tell you to ignore the dodge ass button stand. its just representing the width ok i prommy its fineeee #also also (god this is worse than main. idk if anyone even reads the tags i write so much) enjoy ur serving of tum #shes a rare treat for yall. im trying to be more open abt Having A Body; yknow? sewing kinda requires it honestly #you just dont get the same visual on my mannequin #so! tum. and a picture that isnt super posed. wow yall better b nice to me #sewing

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exopelagic · 5 months ago

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i said i wouldn’t do it this time but it’s 3am and mods asleep. boy

#welcome to another episode of Luke is insane abt hockey boy!#this time featuring a guy who is actually this time almost (ALMOST) confirmed to be queer #the almost is partly me being insane because I don’t trust anything anymore #but like. there are only so many reasons you wear pride converse. that is not ally behaviour #it just threw me this time I think bc I’d been like no. heterosexual. bc I think I became aware of him when he joined the real hockey team #because the OTHER problem is that the whole time I’d been thinking he was cute as hell (bc he is) and simultaneously being like no. bad.#anyway this meant that I have actually talked to him a bunch without overthinking it this term which honestly has been very cool #not like a whole lot but we’ve played together a decent amount and hopefully will keep doing that #and yesterday discovered hes recommending other people talk to me abt goalieing which is insane to me bc I am truly not that good #but apparently I made an impression!#anyway it does not help that this guy has gotten incredibly good at hockey in the past few months #idk man I make bad decisions (I say as if this was a decision) bc it is now the end of term once again <3 #which means absolutely nothing can or will happen until after summer. which isn’t an issue #I’m just frustrated by my tendency to realise these things right before I’m about to not see the guy for X period of time #I also desperately need to stop crushing on hockey boys I swear but in my defence that is the main way I meet people #I think I’m cursed actually. that would explain many things #anyway he also has exams until next Tuesday which means he’ll be at hockey next week but idk abt this week which is devastating #i just wanna have talk to the guy more honestly to see how that goes bc we’ve not rlly talked individually for an extended time yknow.#in other words we have not had A Conversation it’s been groups or like quicker exchanges #he’s kinda quiet but i can’t quite tell which way yknow. I know he’s Watching basically all the time. and he is slightly awkward #which is also kinda cute. he gets a lil rambly when he talks abt hockey and I wanna push that button more #i. topsy if you’re reading this you’re gonna laugh so hard I just realised. he’s captain of the team now.#which sidenote is INSANE bc he started playing with them THIS YEAR #but oh my god. okay.#anyway. I need to start complimenting guys more for multiple reasons but also #1. he dresses very cool 2. he caught me looking at his shirt last week without saying anything (BEFORE I caught the rainbow converse)#i compliment women on their clothes and jewellery and hair and shit all the time but I do not with men bc. I mean do I need to explain.#but this is so unfair I am haunted by existence of boy and here we are once again. posting on tumblr with the possibility of seeing him lik #two more times before summer. might be three or four depending on what he comes to #luke.txt

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bunnihearted · 4 months ago

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#it hurts but it is natural and im not oversensitive and im allowed to feel this way #the future i had envisioned and hoped for and believed in was just.. suddenly gone and im allowed to mourn the loss #because for an entire year i've been wanting this. and imagining it and thought of ways it could be real #and i didnt base my feelings only on imagination but on his words and him saying that we should figure out whatever was between us #and in the way we talked and what we shared and how he did start treating me as 'his girl'#which i also do not think was irresponsible nor am i upset by that. bc i wasnt 100% present bc of my avpd stuff #but it was so amazing and he was so amazing and i'd been having feelings for him for half a year before and then i only fell more and more #im trying to be as non specific as possible bc like i can only talk abt *me*.. but there were just sm other things and circumstances #so it got less and less intense.. and i wanted to give him space and patience and not push smth on him and be insensitive #then i told him abt being in love w him and wanting to be there for him w his struggles and working it out together #and im embarrassed af but i had honestly thought... that would be met well and with reciprocity...#(i understand that feelings cant be forced & im not upset or feel betrayed i just felt v sad bc i was so sure he would want me to be his gf #but i got neither a clear rejection nor much of what he was thinking abt me and what was between us. mostly just that it wasnt a good timin #so again i wanted to respect that and not keep push it. even if i tried bringing it up sometimes it never got anywhere and it didnt feel #right to just keep and keep on doing it. then there were times when i /felt/ rejection and got more hope based on interactions #truly i've been walking around for a year believing that this was smth that would come true if only we could talk #and i've been waiting and hoping and loving. and i've really been thinking of it as a real future #i even tried telling him a few months ago that if he wants me he can have all of me but he told me to stop so i did #and now i've learned that none of my devotion or hope was returned... i've been in this waiting room all alone all this time #i thought i was patient bc of all the other things but he couldnt give me a chance but he did for someone else and that just hurts #idk it hurts bc this love and connection meant so much to me and i wanted to do anything to make it work #and when u realize all of a sudden that it was only u who felt that and that future u so badly thought would happen isnt real #.... i feel extremely lost and despairing. plus it just is how i feel but i've only been this connected to him #honestly it might sound weird how i can feel this much for someone i've never met irl but he has been my only hope and comfort #for the past years he hs been my only comfort and the only thing making me feel good and ok and hopeful.... so it hurts it hurts it hurts!!

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arolesbianism · 1 year ago

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Ok so I need to rework my Wendy skilltree concept because klei heard ppl complain abt the combat and went alright then time to completely rework combat but very slowly one update at a time so no one realizes until we straight up give Willow spells

#rat rambles #starve posting #this is abt the new dst beta btw willow and wigfrid are getting skill trees #now I have complicated feelings on parts of their skill trees but this is a beta so Im fully expected attempted improvements at least #<- this is mostly abt the beefalo stuff on wigfrid's since it just feels. so out of place with the rest of her skill tree #but burnie desperately needs better buffs especially since youre required to take a lot of them for the lunar and shadow branches #I also have some complicated feelings on the direction theyre taking the comabt but at the same time it is a necessary change #but at the same time one thats only necessary because of them deciding to take a more boss heavy approach to game progression #basically this is their attemtp to get out of a whole they dug themsleves in #which means that as time goes on dst is becoming less and less of a survival game #which some ppl might like but its still a bit disappointing for a game that caught my interest because of the survival elements #its not terrible tho it just means that the devs have decided upon a new direction for their game to give it more heavy story elements #most of my main issues have come from how clumsy the change has been and how it very much means we're losing the original feel of the game #but original don't starve still exists so its not like I think its the end of the world that theyre differenciating the two more #anyways since the devs are clearly trying to make actual combat classes a thing within dst I think this completely recontextualises things #as in I have to throw all of my past predictions and expectations out the window and look over everyone again taking thin into account #since now theyve shown that theyre fully willing to make completely new mechanics for these skill trees including straight up magic #which reminds me god I hope they dont give wendy spells or some shit #I really really REALLY want wendy's skilltree to mostly focus on abby buffs and sisturn buffs #because if they dont thatll just completely fuck over wendy's whole playstyle and I desperately dont want abby to become obsolete #I also need them to give the sisturn actually good buffs like for the love of god pls its only worth anything in super early game #at Least make the boosted abby regen a worldwide buff it wouldn't even be worth using most the time still but itd be Something #also god Im so scared for walter skill tree. please have it not fall into the same trap as his base kit of being too all over the place #the wigfrid beefalo branch is what makes me worried since thats a very concept over function thing already #same with like. most of wormwoods skill trees #tbf they fixed at lot of the weird wormwood stuff and hopefully they'll fix the weird wigfrid stuff too #most of willow's problems just come from the bernie skills being too weak which is especially funny cause previously burnie was the only #notable stength willow has pre tree #I mean tbf burnie has always been the weaker support between him and abby (imo) so its not like hes been like amazing anyways #but willow is just such a nothing character that burnie is basically why you use her

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lipstickontheglass1985 · 2 years ago

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me x the stained library bathroom mirror. twice for size. hi

#we finally got actual spring weather which made me go ham obv so. heres me in Certified Spring Outfit #ik the posing is a bit awkward but thats cuz i was trying to cover as much of my face as possible with the phone 😭 sorry #also now that i think abt it this might have been the only time this week i havent worn all/almost all black 💀#i also had such a cute outfit on wednesday but i didnt manage to take any pics 😭 guess i just gotta wear it again and take pics this time #thots #jules dot jpg

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demonophilia · 1 year ago

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also you can tell i need to have sex bc i literally get a little bit horny everytime i write a post and put #mine on it im like . omg... twirls hair ... did you say im yourss.... even though im the one saying it. im just saying i wrote this post. but im like mineee hehehehehehrfudhrufbeidnfjgj like girl it is a 4 letter word calm down.

#sry i literally feel like pavlovs dogs. I legit cant say that me and my ex talked abt pavlov dueing sex sm that now i have a pavlovian #response to discussions of pavlovian responses. humiliating.#i also cant call myself a dog lest . sighhhh i need to get laid #ive been thinking once i get my own place i might look into finding a professional dom just so i cn likee. experiment a bit more #but also im like aughhghh bc im so inexperienced like. i had incredibly mediocre sex maybe 5 times max. and i was miserable the entire time #and b4 that it was just like years of sex roleplay. so i know like #the kinks i like In depth but i dont actually know anything abt like. actual sex. bc the only actual sex i had i genuinely felt horrible #the entire time bc i was pressured into domming and like. Blahblah sry 4 traumadumping #anyways.#mine #like why did i literally. Oh my god. i need to be owned so bad its fucking diabolical

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theghostofwilburtheworm · 1 year ago

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does anyone remember that time someone posted a video of them filming their tv and getting a weird garfield commercial that said something like 'garfield were is the furniture, garfield were is the food'' and then it ended with a black screen with the date 1/6/18, and people said it was a hack or something, anyway idk if it even was real but i suddenly started thinking about it and i remember it scared me sooo much that that i stopped watching cartoon network for like 3 months cuz i was scared of the cursed garfield lol

#now that i think abt it i think it was only like latam cartoon that it happened tho it might have also happened on anglo cartoon?? maybe #idk anyway i remember cartoon latam got hacked a couple of times for realsies near 2018-2019 so it might have been a real hack #or maybe just a hoax idk #gh0ost txt

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