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The Meet Cute - Law's Story - 16
Source for pic
The Great Pretender 16
Word Count: 4260
Tags For The Whole Story: Fem!Reader; Law is a soft dom; you have bratty tendencies (not all the time); voice kink; praise kink; cursing; very suggestive behaviour and innuendo from the start; sexual tension; teasing; so much flirting; romance; slow-burn; fluff; slight angst; mature audiences (though explicit NSFW moments will be properly tagged on the chapter); possessive Law; protective Law; soft Law; teasing Law; manipulative Doflamingo; inappropriate Doflamingo; fake relationship trope; only one-bed trope; reader has some anxiety issues; reader is a control freak and perfectionist; modern day AU; Mention of ex mentally abusive relationship;
Special Warning: English is not my first language, I apologise for any possible spelling or grammar mistakes.
Summary: After moving away from the hustle and bustle of Grand Line City to help your father around the property following a horse-riding accident - and in the hopes of healing your broken heart after your asshole ex-fiancĂ© cheated - you settle into the country calmness of the Calm Belt. You and Law (your father's doctor) start to build a flirty friendship because of your fatherâs procedure. So much so that when heâs invited to Baby 5âs wedding (his cousin), he asks you to be his date. His uncle Doflamingo - who is filthy rich - is very adamant on finding a suitable wife for him. Seeing as he wants to avoid that, he asks you to pretend to be his girlfriend for the weekend.
Notes: The angst arrives in full force! How about that!? Come on, you had to be expecting that! Also, I'm thinking about two chapters left (well, one and the epilogue), so we're almost at the end! PS: This song fits the chapter like a glove! *chef's kiss*
|Masterlist| | |Chapter 15|
The night is almost over. Just a few more dances before the guests send the newlyweds off to their honeymoon, and then you and Law can escape back into the safety of your room. Just one hour, tops. What could go wrong in an hour?
Even more so now that youâve finally confessed the three words that have been bothering you for a while. And they were reciprocated.
Youâre adamant about not letting go of Lawâs hand for the rest of the night. A feeling of dread still coils in the pit of your stomach, and you donât know exactly why, but youâre not about to let fate play a prank on you.
Except, fateâs got nothing on Donquixote Doflamingo.Â
âNephew, I need you. Itâs urgent.â Law groans, his hand tightening around yours, since this is clearly Doffy's last opportunity to feed some lie to Law and try to break you two apart. Youâre honestly tired of it all.Â
âTomorrow, Uncle. Iâm tired.â
âNow.â Doflamingoâs tone leaves no room for discussion, and Law clenches his jaw. Underneath it all, Law still respects his uncle. Youâre not quite sure why he still respects the man, heâs despicable, but you suspect itâs because he instilled in Law a deep-seated sense of family ties and loyalty. And Law wonât break free of his morals.Â
âGo. I have to freshen up anyway.â You whisper with a smile. Youâve confessed. He knows how you feel. Nothing will come between the two of you.Â
Law smiles at you, and with a last squeeze of your hand, he lets you go.Â
-*-
You purposefully take a while longer in the bathroom, fixing your makeup, your hair, and your dress. Unnecessary moves, really, since youâre about to leave to go to bed soon, and youâre actually craving that massage Law mentioned earlier.Â
That and⊠well, youâre craving Law. Period.
You exit the bathroom with a silly smile still plastered on your lips and almost bump into a chest. âOh, forgive me, Iâ... Ichiji.âÂ
Obviously.
âFancy seeing you here.â He begins.
âCut the crap.â You donât even let him say anything else, already pushing past him to return to the reception tent, but he halts you, a hand on your upper arm, and you seethe. âWhat did I tell you about touching me?â
He lets go of you immediately, taking a step back and sighing while passing a hand over his coiffed hair. âRight, sorry.â
Sorry?Â
You look behind you and around, trying to notice if something feels out of place. You might have entered a portal to some sort of alternate universe when you were in the bathroom because thereâs no way in hell Ichiji would ever apologise to you.
âWhat?â
âIâm sorry, Doll. For⊠wellâŠâ He sighs again, steps forward, and then back again. âFor cheating, for treating you like crap, for taking you for granted⊠I⊠well, I know now itâs too late, but seeing you happy with someone else made me realise what I lost and how I was the only one to blame.â
No, seriously, there has to have been a portal back there. Something, anything. This is not happening.Â
Your heart constricts in your chest. You lost count of how many times you dreamed about Ichiji asking for your forgiveness, to truly repent for what he put you through. But it happening here, in a place you'd never thought you'd meet him, and completely out of the blue?Â
What's his game?Â
âI don't think you need my forgiveness to move on. I know I don't need your apologies.â A heavy sigh parts your lips. âNot when you're delivering them far too late.â
You make another motion to pass through him, but he moves in front of you and whispers your name in a desperate plea. âI do need your forgiveness. I need closure.âÂ
What? You cock your eyebrow, your lips twisting down in a frown. âAfter all you've put me through forâ...â You wave your hands in the air. âIâm not even going to count the years we spent together. Just today is enough! After all the theatrics and the taunting, you expect me to believe you just want closure?â
The way he slumps his shoulders and downcasts his eyes reminds you of the first times you argued, back in the beginning of the relationship, when you actually believed his apologies, and your heart constricts some more at all the memories.Â
âYes, Doll. Just closure. I'm about to leave the party, and I know we won't meet again, unless it's by chance, and I don't want us to part on bad terms.â He takes a tentative step your way. âJust say you'll forgive me, please.â
You want him out of your sight, out of your mind, and completely out of your heart. You know you don't love him anymore, but you still hold memories and feelings of nostalgia, and when he's looking at you with puppy-dog eyes, you can't help but soften up a little bit. He does seem sorry.Â
âFine, Ichiji, fine. We can part ways on lighter terms. I don't completely forgive you for what you took from me or for how you made me feel, but I won't resent you for it anymore.â
He actually smiles at you. Not that conceited, smug smirk, but a genuine smile.Â
âThat's all I ask for, Doll.â
âGood. Goodbye.â
âWait, please.â Is that pain in his voice? Is he really sorry and repentant for everything? You donât say anything, but you donât move either, just waiting for what he wants to say. âCan I get one last hug?â
The face you make must have been something special to look at because he grimaces and chuckles softly, his hand passing through his hair again.Â
âA harmless hug? Please? Itâs just forâ...â
âClosure, right?â Should you? Heâs actually sounding human for once in all the time youâve known him, and he does seem sorry. Itâs just a hug goodbye. What harm can it bring? âFine. Make it quick.â
With a sigh, you let him bend down to envelop you in his arms, but then you actually smile. You donât feel anything. No rage, no pain, no hurt, no longing⊠itâs just a void. You know there used to be something there, but now youâre free.
Itâs a wonderful feeling, actually.Â
Until Ichijiâs hands cup your face, and he tilts your head to the side, doing the same to his and leaning in further, his lips inches away from yours. His taller frame engulfs you, and the lights are very dim near the bathroom. It almost looks as if youâre sharing a kiss.Â
âWhaâ...â
âI still win, Doll.â
A cold shiver runs down your spine as he shows you the same smug smile he always did, his canines almost glistening with glee. Youâre frozen in place. What does he mean?Â
And then he parts, leaving you open-mouthed, chest heaving, and cheeks flushed from trying to grasp what is going on. It doesnât take long for your eyes to adjust to two figures looming at the entrance of the hallway that leads to the bathrooms.Â
Doflamingo and⊠oh, no.
âLaw?â
Doffy is bent down, one arm around Lawâs shoulders, his lips moving fast as he mouths words into Lawâs ears. You can almost bet heâs spewing lies and deceptions about you, twisting everything to make Law doubt you. You know he has trouble trusting people, it would be so easy to make him doubt.
But what breaks you is Lawâs expression. His usually stoic face bears the signs of hurt, and heâs clenching his fists by his sides, jaw ticking, trying to contain his emotions and failing at it.Â
âLaw!â You try again, taking a step forward and see Doffy still speaking into Lawâs ear. Lies, all lies, for sure. Lawâs gaze falls on Ichiji and then back at you, and you realise that this was orchestrated. It has to have been orchestrated.Â
Ichiji holding you as if he were kissing you, Doffy bringing Law by the bathroom? It was their ultimate move.
âItâs not what you think, Law.â You take another step forward, and you can almost hear the shards of Lawâs flimsy trust being broken and shattered into pieces.Â
He shakes his head and takes a step back, hand flying over his head to tousle his hair. âI⊠I need some air.â Turning on his heel, he leaves you in a hurry, and you stifle a sob.Â
No, no, no.
You need to reach him, to speak with him and let him know what happened. That nothing actually happened! He canât possibly think you would betray him like this. Turning your wobbly steps into strides, you try to follow Lawâs retreating figure into the crowd, despair tugging at your insides, tears already threatening to fall.
And then youâre stopped by a strong hand on your arm. âWhere do you think youâre going, princesa?âÂ
An actual growl leaves your lips. âLet go, Doflamingo. I need to speak with Law.â Your tug does nothing to loosen his grip, and you seethe.Â
âThatâs where youâre wrong.â He tuts, his fiery eyes boring deep into yours. âYou wonât speak to my nephew. Not now, nor ever again. Youâll leave him alone to live his life and disappear.â
Shaking your head, you try again, but his grip is too strong. âHe needs to listen to me! Heâs going to be heartbroken. Itâs not what he thinks.â
âHeâll be fine. He has a family that loves him.â Doffyâs words sound melodic, but the melody is one of doom, not hope.Â
âOnly Cora loves him, clearly.â Your scoff comes accompanied by stubborn tears youâre trying to keep enclosed. âAll Iâve ever wanted from Law was love, all I have to give to him is love. Why do you want to take that away? Do you hate him that much?â
Doflamingo straightens his shoulders, and now he seems impossibly high. âOn the contrary, cariño. I love him dearly. And itâs because I love him that I need him to learn this lesson. I thought he had already learned it the hard way, but he didnât. Romantic love only brings weakness. It doesnât do him any kindness, and he needs to let that go. He needs to be strong and in control, not a fool in love.â
Finally, your harsh tug makes him release you, but his imposing figure is still blocking the way. You stamp your feet, much like a small child, and grit your teeth, anger making your eyes blaze red. âYou think that makes him stronger? Is that why you push the people that love him away?â
He shakes his head, those annoying tuts leaving his lips as he gives you a condescending look. âNot at all. Only those that do not.â
âThen you are a damned fool.â He growls at your disrespect, and you couldnât care less. He lost any small ounce of respect you mightâve still held for him when he pulled this stunt. âBecause if you hadnât interfered, I would still be by Lawâs side, and I love him!â
Doffyâs laugh comes in small waves, his eyes shining with amusement as he sizes you up with his fiery gaze. âAn admirable sentiment, mi querida, though I doubt it to be true.â You open your mouth, ready to be disrespectful again, but he reaches into his pocket and pulls out an all-too-familiar device: your tablet.Â
With a flick of his finger, he opens it to the spreadsheet you now know by heart: all of Lawâs likes and dislikes, every useful thing for your fake relationship, every piece of information you and Law gathered to make sure you were prepared for this event.Â
You canât help the stutter that leaves your lips, nor the red flushing your cheeks. âLaw⊠he.. Law knew about that.â Why does your voice sound so small? Is it because you were caught?
âIâm sure.â His demeanour contradicts his words. And then he hands you the tablet, a frown finally overtaking his mocking smile, and you almost shrink at how his aura suddenly feels very threatening. âYouâre done here. You will never speak to my nephew again.â
Tears sting your eyes, but you refuse to let them fall. Doflamingo canât win this, not after what you and Law went through. Not after realising heâs the love of your life.Â
âYou canât do that.â Your voice comes out as a mere trembling whisper. âYou canât pull strings and control Lawâs life as if heâs a puppet and youâre his puppeteer! He has a say in his own life!â You try to take a step forward, but he doesnât budge. âIâll tell him what happened, and heâll realise I never meant to hurt him. Just let me through!â
âYouâre done.â
âLaw has a right to make his own choices. You donât own him!â The pesky tears start to stain your cheeks, you feel impotent and useless.Â
âNot choices that will end up destroying him.â
âThe ones you are making for him might do just that.â Your voice finally breaks, and a ragged sob leaves your lips with the weight and the helplessness of it all. âHe is not your pawn! You canât manipulate him like this! Please⊠please! Let me speak to him! Youâll truly destroy him with thisâŠâ
Law placed his trust in you. After what heâs been through with Monet, you know it must not have been easy to let himself love and be loved. And Doflamingo manipulated you both to an extent that will come with dire consequences. Law will be broken, and so will you.
âI will face whatever consequences come from my actions with Law. He might be hurt for a while, but he will emerge stronger. He has done it once.â
âBut at what cost?â You whisper, too drained to fight back. With a shaky inhale, you straighten your shoulders as your hands grip the tablet for some sort of grounding. âIâll speak to him later, then. You canât keep us apart. You will not ruin what we have.â
Pushing past him, you take one full step before Doflamingoâs words freeze you in place.Â
âI would rethink that if I were you, querida.â Something in his voice halts your breathing as you look over your shoulder and find him grinning. âYour father is still recovering from surgery, right? Some businesses collapse pretty quickly when something like this happens⊠no one would look twice.â
What?
âIs that a threat?â Doffy certainly has the power to ruin your fatherâs horse business.Â
Waving his hands in the air in a dismissive manner, his smirk returns to his lips, more menacing this time. âOh no, no. I donât make threats⊠theyâre too amateurish.â His laugh fills your ears, and the same shiver as before courses through your veins. âItâs more of a prediction.â
Gathering strength and bravado you do not have, you square your shoulders and lift your chin. âMy father is strong, and he has my help. Weâll manage.â Turning your face forward, you will your feet to move again.
âHow brave. So what about Lawâs clinic?â Your breath stops so suddenly that you almost think you have a collapsed lung. He canât be serious. âI wonât be cryptic, cariño, hereâs the deal: if you speak to Law again, Iâll make sure his clinic tanks. And you know how much he loves that little place, with his friends and helping people.â He tsks and waves his hand dismissively. âI would much rather he dedicated himself to the company, so perhaps you would be doing me a favour. Law, on the other hand? Now that would devastate him.â
âPlease, donâtâŠâ You donât know what else to do. Doflamingo is too powerful, too influential. He will destroy Law either way and claim to be helping him while doing it. You feel trapped, what can you do? âPlease donât do that to him.â
âI donât want to. I do love him. But that depends on you.â Doflamingo sets one hand on your shoulder to turn you back to face him. âThereâs a car waiting for you outside with all your belongings. You will leave the party immediately with Ichiji, as it will help sell the ruse.âÂ
Your legs start to wobble as breath begins to catch in your throat again. Powerless. Completely stripped of any will. Thatâs how youâre feeling.Â
âYou will not speak with Law today, nor ever. Not even when you both go back to your boring little lives. Heâll think you abandoned him, which suits me, really. No one needs a gold digger.â
âIâm notâ...â
âI donât care!â Doflamingo leans in, and his breath fans your face. Heâs as angry as youâve ever seen anyone, and you can almost see the veins pulsating dangerously in his neck. âYouâre a distraction and a liability. Law doesnât need any of that.â
âEverybody needs loveâŠâ Is this your last hail Mary? Because itâs not a very strong one.
âNot the Donquixote family.â He steps back and motions Ichiji forward. âLeave. Donât speak to Law. Itâs simple, Iâm sure you can follow that, princesa.â He chuckles again while fixing his tie and suit. âOr elseâŠâÂ
The words he leaves unsaid are a weight on your soul. You canât think, you canât breathe, you can barely exist. All you know is that Law is somewhere, hurting, thinking you betrayed his trust.
And the fact that you will leave without any explanation will only cement that feeling.Â
You thought youâd been heartbroken before - exhibit A is currently walking by your side, leading you away from the party with a hand on your back that youâre too tired to swat away - but youâve never been hurt like this.
This pain is visceral. It burns, it blisters, it festers, and it destroys.Â
Youâre not actually sure youâll ever recover from this.Â
-*-
Law was taken away from you by Doflamingo yet again, and as his uncle drones on about business and about the imminent merger, all Law can think about is you in his arms and the peace you bring him.
âAre you listening to me, Law?â
âNo, Uncle, Iâm not. Itâs late, and Iâm tired.â He yawns for effect and shrugs. âIâm going to bed.â But before he can retreat, Doflamingo sighs and slings his hand over Lawâs shoulder.
âFine, Law. But first, Iâve made some assumptions during this weekend, and I need you to tell me if Iâm right or wrong.â Law sighs and nods. Agreeing with Doffy is the fastest way to get rid of him. He starts leading Law back into the party, and Law follows without giving it much thought.Â
âI know you and the little princesa were not a couple before this weekend. Iâm actually doubting that you are a couple at this moment⊠and my assumption is: you told her you didnât want to come to my daughterâs wedding without a date because I tend to introduce you to a lot of respectable young ladies you donât relate to. So, to avoid that, she offered to come as your date. Am I right?â
Law already knew Doffy had discovered that bit of your ruse, so he doesnât act surprised, he acts resigned.Â
âAlmost. I was the one who asked her.â Law grins. âThe ladies you introduce me to are not respectable. Half of the ones I met proposed to do very salacious things to me in very public places.â
Doffy grins back at him, and Law sighs while shaking his head.Â
âYou got that half-right, Doffy. Are you happy?â
âNot in the least. You see, Law, what I think is that the young lady realised the family you belonged to and decided to take advantage of that fact by seducing you. Is that a correct assumption?â
âFrankly, Uncle, Iâm growing tired of that subject. We have already proved to you that we care about each other deeply. And even if we didnât, we donât have to prove anything to you anymore. This is my choice, and you will not interfere in it.â
Doffy tilts his head and nods, a mysterious smile playing on his lips as he leads Law to the bathroom.Â
âFair enough. But⊠Nephew⊠do you truly believe she cares that much about you? Do you think she loves you?â A small chuckle escapes his lips. âI thought you were done with being naiveâŠâ
Law grits his teeth while his heart clenches in his chest. Doflamingoâs words always have a way of penetrating his skull and making him doubt everything. âShe loves me. I know that.â He didnât mean to sound so defensive, but then again, Doffy had no reason to attack him.Â
âI hope, for your sake, that you are right.â Doffy brings one hand to his chest and bows his head slightly. âI would hate to see you blindsided. Again.â His emphasis on the word âagainâ brings hurtful memories of Monet back to Lawâs mind, and he grunts.Â
âWeâre fine, Doffy. Thank you for your concern.â Law is about to turn and leave, but Doffy holds him by the shoulder and directs his gaze towards the dimly lit hallway of the bathroom.Â
âOh⊠would you look at that, thenâŠâ
Law instantly freezes, his brain showing him tricks. It has to be tricks. Thereâs no way thatâs you wrapped in Ichijiâs arms. Law can only see the back of Ichijiâs hulking frame, but thatâs your dress he sees peeking from the side, those are your hands holding his waist.
And now heâs cupping your cheeks, leaning⊠no.
A kiss?
Law shakes his head, denial, frustration, and⊠betrayal. Thatâs the word echoing in his head incessantly. Where once were your âI love youâsâ now stood that shadow of a word. Betrayal, betrayal, betrayalâŠ
âYou see, Law,â Doffy leans against Lawâs ear, his venomous tongue spewing hurtful words. Words that ring true, too close to Lawâs heart. Too at home with his pain. âSheâs no different from Monet, really⊠they both traded you, broke your trust.â
Lawâs throat is dry, and he feels little sweat beads trickling down his sideburns. The nails digging into the flesh of his hand cut little crescent indents, trying to ground him, trying to pull him back from the pitfall of despair heâs about to be sucked into.Â
âLove hurts, Nephew. Love tears and destroys. You can only trust your family or you should trust only yourself.â
Doffy keeps talking, but Ichiji breaks from you, and thereâs a mix of confusion and distress on your face as your eyes meet Lawâs. And then thereâs panic as you whisper his name.
This canât be happening. You wouldnât do this to him. Not you.
âLaw!âÂ
Your plea is clear, but he canât think straight. Itâs too much, itâs too painful.Â
âDon't believe her lies, Law. You know what you saw.â Doffy murmurs.Â
âI⊠I need some air.â Lawâs voice comes out as a mere whisper as he turns and disappears. The air suddenly feels rare, his chest too tight.Â
Thereâs not enough room in the world to harbour the size of this betrayal. Itâs too much.Â
-*-
The coolness of the outside air does nothing to soothe him. It still feels stifling, and the control is slipping away from his fingers. Running his hand through his hair in a desperate gesture only brings him more heartache.Â
Why?
Law keeps thinking about your pain and grief when you spoke about Ichiji. How could you return to the man who hurt you so?Â
Maybe you didnât.
No. Law knows what he saw. You were in Ichijiâs arms.
But he didnât see a kiss.
There was no mistaking it. He held your face andâ... and what? Could he have forced you? Were you held against your will? Law tries hard to unscramble his jumbled memories, but the pain in his chest is so heavy that he barely knows where to start.
He didnât see a kiss. Of that, heâs certain. Could he be overthinking it? What if it was nothing, or if he forced you? And instead of helping you or hearing your words, Law panicked? Hadnât he promised you not to listen to Doffyâs words?Â
Yet that was exactly what he did.Â
Fuck.
Did he get this all wrong? Law sighs and inhales deeply three times, trying to calm his ragged breaths and his uneven heart. He knows you. You wouldnât do that to him, let alone with a man who hurt you so deeply.
There has to be an explanation for what happened, and heâs ready to listen to it.
Turning around, Law returns to the party, hoping youâre still somewhere near so he can speak with you and listen to what you have to say, to what really happened, to the truth.
Heâs expecting to find you frantically looking for him, and his heart is already constricting from the anxiety you must be feeling. He shouldâve just stayed a while longer. You would have explained, and neither he nor you would have had to panic.Â
But what he wasnât expecting was to see you leaving the party. He wasnât expecting to see Ichijiâs hand resting against your lower back, silently guiding you through the remaining guests. He wasnât expecting to see you walking out with him.
Willingly.Â
So it was the truth.
Lawâs heart breaks completely, the full extent of your betrayal settling in, expanding, and commandeering all of his love for you. Doflamingo was right. It pains him to admit this, but he was.
Youâre a liar, and Law was foolish enough to trust you.
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Vicarious (Homelander x Female!Reader) pt. 7
a/n: shout out to my wonderful partner, who had to listen to me rant and rave about this fic.
Warnings: Explicit Smexual Content (we did it guys), Dubious Consent (whoops), Mention of Scars, Smoking, Good Old Fingerblasting, Reader is Still Plus Sized. Cross-Posted on AO3
Summary: And as such, the board is set, and the pawns are in place.
Vicarious Masterlist
The Instagram feed of your private account seems to taunt him, the orange ring around your profile picture almost begging him to tap it. He doesn't particularly care about the Vaught-curated, fake one, that posts smiling pictures of Fireball doing superhero training. He doesn't care about the hairspray commercial, or the short videos of you posing in the recording studio, where they make you sing some pop-rock swivel. He does enjoy the one short clip from an interview, where you praise him like there's no tomorrow, but it's a small flicker of interest in the sea of insignificant blabber.Â
No. What grabs his attention, what is the only notification he ever gets on his phone, is the private and intimate life of Smirnoff. Hidden under already ten times broken website coding, followed by a rather small group of your friends from different points of your existence. And oh, what an existence it is.
Another day off, once every week, and you've fled the Tower in the early hours of the morning. He can't exactly follow you out, despite wanting to do so, to an almost alarming degree. Homelander doesn't get days off. He doesn't have the luxury of normalcy, because by all means, he's not normal. His eyes follow you like a hawk, from the surveillance point of his penthouse, where he sees your retreating form greet the doorman.Â
It is quite disconcerting to him, as he takes in the way you interact with insignificant Vaught employees, after a month. The smiles, the borderline servile pleasantries, so unfitting to your role as a superhero, as his god-damned Sidekick. Once, he saw you pick up a note, which flew out of some worm's pile of documents, hand it to them with a bright expression. Like it's the most normal of occurrences, like you should be bending over for anyone other than himself.Â
He would've intervened. In that small moment, he would've crossed the floors of the Tower, grabbed you by that soft underarm and showed you, exactly, who you should reserve your politeness for. But, he wouldn't interrupt Madelyn's speech, no matter how much he wanted to, he was tied at the moment, and as the day went on, the incident slipped his mind.Â
Which he sorely regrets, as he peeks out his window, sensing through floors upon floors of noise-filled concrete and metal, that you're back. Â
He seeks out your newest story with ease, his fingers flying over the touch screen. Your account pops up, like it's done for the past month, the colorful ring around your profile picture calling to him like a siren from mythology he's never bothered to read.Â
The lights of New York never dim, and as he stands by the window, overlooking the nightlife of the city, he pauses, just for a moment. He wonders if you hate this place too. Not in the same way he does, that's for sure, but he's seen your house, your neighborhood. He's seen the way you flinch, whenever a particularly loud sound from the outside wriggles its way into the Tower. The way your nose scrunches at the fumes in the air, the way your eyebrows jump to your hairline, whenever you see a price tag on the water bottles stuck inside a vending machine. Even if you can afford them, even if you'll be able to afford them long after your contract is terminated.Â
Honestly, you should be on your knees, thanking him for dragging you into the real world. For taking you away from the insignificant, lazy life of the suburbs. He's also aware, that precisely because you should be grateful, you hate this situation. You're too damned proud, even if you try to conceal it. He's getting good at reading you.Â
First picture.
You're back at that disgusting, dirty food joint right outside the Tower. He can practically taste the unbearable amounts of sugar in your latte, and he frowns slightly at the whipped cream almost spilling over the sides of the glass. His tongue smacks against his pallet, imagining himself licking the artificial taste out of your mouth, letting the carbonation fizzle on his taste buds, until it turns into liquid, flowing from your lips into his throat.Â
In a staggering display of self-restraint, he swipes to the next photo.Â
"What the fuck is that" the black text says, accompanied by a horrified emoji, and he frowns, because honestly, he has no idea. He's looking at a very zoomed in photo of a bug, or... Some other alien creature. He grunts low in his throat and swipes.Â
There's a three hours gap between the insect photo, and the next one, and he brings the screen closer to his face.
It's a video. A short clip of you, splayed on the floor. Someone else is holding the camera, and despite his best efforts, he can feel a small pang of jealousy crawling up his spine.Â
Your cheeks are warm with exertion, your chest rising and falling in deep breaths, and he absentmindedly notices a very beaten up dog toy in your hand, traces of saliva still on it, as well as your fingers. A black, wet nose enters the picture, as the person filming zooms in on your face. You sputter, as the dog starts to lick your cheek, and the sound of your laughter fills his penthouse.
That same, rough noise you use around your friends. The loud cackling, that sounds simultaneously like nails on a chalkboard, and the greatest of symphonies. He wonders what he'll have to do, for you to laugh like that around him. He's funny, he knows he can be funny, he's the god-damned Homelander.Â
He's everything.Â
Homelander zeroes in on the way your chest shakes under a simple tank top, as your body convulses in bounds of laughter. And then suddenly, he freezes, all the heated, dangerous thoughts slipping out of his brain, as he notices something. He replays the video, once, twice, three times. Zooms in, tilts his head, tries to conjure up a clearer image from the amassing of pixels.
- Oh show me the way to the next whiskey bar - your voice carries through the metal-enforced walls of the tower, cutting through concrete and worming itself right into his ear.Â
He's standing outside the door to your rooms, his eyes following your form as you glide through the kitchen area, hips swaying under a flowy skirt. It's the same outfit you've worn in the story, and despite himself, Homelander starts to salivate, the muscles of his stomach tightening ever so slightly.Â
Your singing is, well, to be quite honest, not good. Which could've been anticipated, considering the amounts of auto tune they layered over your voice, in that horrendous song. It was clear you were not a singer, which you've mentioned, extensively, to Stillwell. She ignored it, of course. The small note in your files about taking part in a student rendition of a play twice in your life, and a teeny tiny mention of some band activity, was enough to set her unshakable resolve on truly milking the "rockstar" persona.Â
Still, it doesn't stop you from belting out the refrain like you're part of the band, your body swaying, as you hug the pillar of your kitchen area in a dramatic display.
-Â Oh moon of Alabama, we now must say goodbye...
 He watches like a hawk, through concrete and metal, his eyes burning at the corners, as he tries so hard to catch that elusive thing. That small flicker he's sure he's seen on his screen, just minutes ago, but to no avail. And he has to know. Why, he's not sure himself, but the need to make sure, to uncover another layer of your being is too strong to ignore, and with a huff of frustrated air, he finally makes up his mind.Â
The hard, demanding knock on your door startles you from your impromptu, private performance. Bare feet pad on the carpet, as you rush to the stereo system, turning the music down, before skipping towards the entrance to your room, curiosity and just a flicker of anxiety mixing within your gut.Â
By all means, today is the one day you shouldn't be disturbed, so whoever this was, must have a pretty important reason to stop by your anything but humble abode.Â
- Yeah? - that's the only word that you manage to say, as you open the door, before a flash of blue enters your vision.Â
You barely have the time to realize, who exactly is standing in front of you, before a gloved hand darts out in your direction, fingers gripping the cleavage of your top tightly. A strangled sound of surprise and outrage escapes your throat, as blonde mass of hair invades your vision.Â
Homelander kicks the door closed, as his hands tug mercilessly on the fabric of your shirt. Your arms flail in the air, before you have half the mind to grab his wrists, sputtering wildly, as you try (and fail) to free yourself from his hold.Â
- What the fuck are you doing? - your voice comes just a bit more on the panicked side, and you mentally scold yourself.
He doesn't seem to notice this slip-up, too occupied with whatever he's hoping to find in your bra. Your face burns red against your better judgement, as his free hand wrenches itself in between your breasts, all but scooping your flesh to the sides, until your sternum is more visible.Â
Finally, he blinks, freezing in his place, blue eyes staring at your skin so intensely, you're convinced he's going to burn another hole through you.Â
- What is that? - he asks, voice low and more dangerous, than you've ever heard up until this point.Â
You frown, confusion written clearly on your face, and in response, he jabs his gloved, red finger right at the center of your chest, your body swaying slightly from the impact.Â
-Â This. What the fuck is this? - he repeats, a note of impatience sneaking into his tone, and you tug your chin as far down as it can go, struggling to see, what exactly he's pointing at.Â
And then, like a flicker of genius, your mind catches up. With a huff of frustration, you finally take a sharp step back, letting the material of your top tear, a scrap of sad fabric dangling from his hand, as you throw him a look, that borders on annoyance.Â
- It's a scar - you try to keep your voice indifferent, try to deny him the satisfaction of your reaction, but goddamn, this is your day off, and he's acting insane.Â
He looks utterly out of place inside your room, although you can't imagine anyone, except maybe Ozzy Osbourne in his prime, fitting into this strange jumble of rock paraphernalia. You barely fit in here yourself, with your sweaters, and tops, and flowy skirts that flutter around your ankles. Still, seeing him here, in your space, fills you with a sense of discomfort. This is supposed to be your safe house, your one hiding spot in the hell site that is the Vaught Tower. A naive way of thinking, considering the man you wanted to hide from the most, could see and hear through walls, but still, you'll take an illusion if you can't have the real thing.Â
Homelander blinks a couple of times, you can see the muscles of his jaw moving under his skin in a way, you've come to recognize. He's thinking. It's never good when he's thinking. Your first month as his glorified sidekick is coming to an end, and you already know, nothing good, nothing kind, will ever come out of that brain of his.Â
- You... - his eyes flicker over your entire figure, from head to toe - Scar?
The note of incredulity in his voice makes you sigh, and you tug the torn fabric of your top upwards, just to try and shield yourself from his gaze. Slowly, he notices the scrap from your shirt still in his hand, and as he looks down at it, his fingers run absentmindedly over the fabric, the frayed ends sticking out. Your eyebrow twitches, when he pockets the material, but you decide not to comment. Not while you're still uncertain of his, well, everything at the moment.Â
- Of course I scar - you say slowly, trying to keep your voice calm - You burned a hole through me, remember?
Finally, that seems to snap him from whatever daze he's been in, and he regards you fully with a sharp jerk of his head.Â
- You said you heal faster - he points out, and you can see, the way his legs twitch, as if he's undecided whether he wants to close the distance between the both of you.Â
- Scars are a part of the healing process - you tell him, words sounding a bit rehearsed, a bit too much like a doctor reciting the same phrase to every patient.Â
The Doors continue to play, quietly cutting through the air, mixing with the sound of your quickened breathing. Somehow the once comforting music starts to feel more and more like a soundtrack from a horror movie.Â
You can't stand in place anymore, a nervous sort of buzzing entering your system like a tsunami wave, and against your every instinct, you turn your back to the predator inside your safehouse. Feet padding over the carpet, you find yourself at the window, cracking it open, and letting the cool, fumes-filled air of New York into the room. He's not even trying to be stealthy, as he comes closer, and when you turn to face him, you're met with a myriad of conflicting emotions running through his expression.Â
A childish sort of giddiness, at the prospect of marking your skin, of carving himself into the very essence of your flesh. And a deep disdain for such ordinary show of weakness, of humanity. You don't like either of the options, and your hands reach for the half-smoked pack of cigarettes at the nearby table.Â
- So you knew, you'll scar - he starts, his eyebrows raising - And you didn't think to mention it?
It wouldn't change a thing, and the both of you know it. You fish out a lighter out of your pocket.Â
- And you shot yourself in the fucking stomach - he continues, his tone growing lighter, like he doesn't believe the very real events, that transpired between the two of you - You can't be that stupid, I've seen a college mention somewhere in your files.Â
That makes you huff, as you take out one of the cigarettes with practiced ease, placing it between your lips, while looking at him utterly unamused.Â
- For English literature, not... - your hand flails in the air - Whatever... Borderline abusive, work interactions.Â
He scoffs at the statement, like it's a joke. Like you're not forced to second guess every little action around him. The lighter flicks to light, and suddenly his mouth splits into a smirk. Sharpened canines flash at you, a small shiver coils itself at the base of your spine.Â
- You know what they say about nerdy girls, right? - he quips, voice lowering into a strange sort of rumble, that would perhaps sound seductive, if it weren't him.
- I can guarantee you, I've heard every version of this...
- They don't know how to smoke - he cuts you off, jutting his chin out slightly in your direction, making you finally look down at what you're actually doing.Â
The cigarette is on fire. Literally.Â
You've lit the wrong end, and your nostrils fill with a biting scent of burning plastic, as the filter melts in the heat.Â
You sputter, free hand waving in the air in quickness, and the small, burning stick flies out of your mouth, and shoots across the room, until it hits the sink in your small kitchen area. Homelander's eyes crinkle at the sides, as he takes in that small display of your power. You run after it to the sound of Homelander's rumbling laughter, too mocking to laugh with him. Fortunately, you manage to drown the burning end in water, before the smoke detector goes off, and for a moment, you allow yourself to stand there, leaning heavily on the counter, watching the cigarette swim.Â
He slides into your kitchen like it's his playpen, towering over you with a smug expression, and you have to bite your lip, because fuck. That was, perhaps, actually funny.Â
And in the warm light, he looks less like your nightmare, and more like an all-american boy, you could've met at a college party. A shuddering breath leaves you, much too close to a laugh, and his lips pull back even more, into a boyish sort of a smile, that just barely makes your stomach flutter.Â
- Yeah... Okay - you concede, giving up ever so slightly in this strange situation, and you try to suppress another shiver, as his blue eyes suddenly seem much too sharp.Â
And then, he crosses his arms in front of his chest, the padding on his suit making his chest look almost ridiculously puffy, as he takes a deep breath, looking away from you in a manner that might be mistaken as, god forbid, shy.Â
- So - he starts, immediately putting you on high alert, even if there's a flicker of curiosity brewing inside your gut - How was your day off?
You blink up at him confused, before realizing, that he doesn't really care. His shoulders sag slightly, already bored with the conversation he started himself. And you want him out of here, so you mirror his stance, crossing your arms, and take a long breath.
- Good. - you attempt, and fail, to sound casual - Â I've been to....
The rest of the sentence is cut off by your strangled gasp, as your chin suddenly gets pushed up by a gloved hand. And then it's tongue, teeth and a whisper of lips, all but attacking you, poking, probing, demanding entry. Your arms flail once again, your nails dragging over the marble countertop, over the geometric patterns of his suit.
Homelander all but crushes your body against the kitchen counter, one of his hands coming up, roughly palming at your breast, fingers sinking into the soft material of the bra cup, into the even softer flesh. He drags the material down, until you spill out into his palm.Â
Is this the Maybe you've been thinking about? It doesn't feel like a Maybe.Â
Your mind races between all the possible exits from this situation, every single one falling short, when he finally grows tired of the barrier of your teeth. His other hand grabs your jaw tightly, pressing on the tissue until your mouth falls open on instinct. Like a fucking dog, that's being tricked into swallowing a tablet, his tongue slides into your mouth.Â
He groans, deep within his chest, as if this is some moment of immense relief, and you're stuck in limbo, undecided between gagging and reciprocating the kiss. Both options seem as likely, and that thought terrifies you to no end.Â
The decision is made for you, once again, as his knee slides between your shaky legs, brushing ever so slightly against the heat, that's been steadily growing, and god help you, it feels good.Â
A low, keening sound rips through your chest, your throat, and he swallows it like it's the only air he'll ever need, responding with a grunt of his own, his fingers tightening over your breast. His other hand slides down, over your ribs, your waist, until it settles on your hip, grabbing the flesh there with all his might, and pulling.
Pushing, and pulling, until your hips stutter into a steady grind against his knee.
You're convinced your blood has turned into living lava, undescribable warmth flooding your abdomen with every move, spilling into your cheeks, the tips of your fingers.Â
Finally, he detaches himself from your mouth, and as you gasp for air, your senses return to you in a cold wave. Despite the heat, the tingling, overtaking sensation building in your core, the tantalizing way he plays with your breast, your mind cools itself. Finding your voice comes easier than you would've anticipated, and you vow to explore this unexpected level-headedness at a later time.
Your hand finds his chin, nails biting into his impenetrable skin, forcing him to lock eyes with you. The dangerous, almost animalistic darkness within them, would've scared you, at any other time, but right now, all you feel is calmness. The sort of silence you'd experience in the very eye of the hurricane.Â
- Go to your room.
You almost don't recognize your voice, the low commanding tone that comes somewhere deep within, from some undiscovered part of yourself that seems to come out in his presence only. You're still undecided whether it's Fireball, Smirnoff, or this strange third thing. Perhaps it's all of them combined. Doesn't matter now, what matters is, he stops.
Everything comes to a screeching halt. The knee, the hands, even the song playing quietly on the stereo system. You're convinced he's turned into a statue in front of you, until he blinks. A feverish series, another tell of his running thoughts. His mouth falls open, traces of you cooling against his bottom lip. And then his jaw sets, along with his decision.
- No - your stomach drops - Give me something.
Confidence slips through your fingers like air, as the realization of just how much unprepared for this balance you really are. How you've bitten off so much more than you can chew, and there's no other way forward for you, than to choke on it.Â
- I... - your voice lodges itself firmly in your throat - I don't...
- You want to play this game? - his voice is low, hot breath fanning against the column of your throat - Play it right. Give me something.Â
You swallow hard, his eyes drifting to the movement, the pulse running rampant in your artery. This must be that elusive Maybe your friend talked about, but as you stare at him, eyes wide and uncertain, you suddenly feel like the weight of the world has been dropped on your shoulders, which were not meant to carry this burden. Still, in this eye of the hurricane, you make a decision, because there's nothing else to do, nowhere to turn, not really.Â
Your head nods on its own accord, spine stiff and cracking, and you can see a flicker of victory pass his features. Not in a way that would suggest relief. No. He knew from the start, there's no other way for this interaction to end.Â
And as such, his hands leave you, as he unclasps the velcro at the wrist of his right glove, the sound jarring in the thick tension between the two of you. Then, the loosened leather presses itself into your lips, resting at the border of your teeth.Â
- Bite - he says, low in his throat, and the hinges of your jaw creak as you sink your teeth into the hard material.Â
His hand slides out, elegant fingers, veins climbing the expanse of skin, and your breath hitches ever so slightly. Homelander doesn't waste time. The moment he's free of that one article of clothing, he reaches down, gathering your skirt up. You can feel the flowy material slide up your calves, your thighs, until it bunches up around his forearm. The pads of his fingers brush over the well worn cotton of your underwear, and your eyes flutter, a sign of betrayal from your own body.Â
He drinks in every reaction, every change, as he slowly, tugs your panties to the side. You can see those sharp canines flash in a borderline giddy smile, as he finally makes contact with your flesh.Â
- Would you look at that... - he quips, and you know very well, just how drenched you really are, just how tight the muscles of your stomach had been. - Aren't you just the perfect little Sidekick.
There's no time to answer him, as suddenly your walls flutter around his fingers, his thumb finding it's goal with an almost unbelievable ease. Your hips stutter, torn between pushing him closer, deeper, and pulling away. He hums in your ear, his mouth finding purchase behind your ear, where he sucks and bites, until you shiver. Your hands fly up, grabbing at the bronze eagles on his shoulders, nails scraping against the metal, as your mouth falls open. His other hand, which is currently not occupied with absolutely wrecking your nether regions, pushes into your mouth, thumb pressing against your tongue, leather running over your bottom teeth.Â
He tilts your head up, forces you to look at him, those once baby blue eyes are almost completely eaten by his dark irises, which are lapping at every twist of your eyebrows, every flutter of your eyelashes. Your breath hitches in your throat, as he pushes his fingers as far as they'll go, pressing up into you, the sounds becoming downright obscene. The pressure builds with an almost alarming speed, your thighs starting to shake from the exertion.Â
His head dips down, tongue sneakig from between his teeth, and he licks a long stripe between your breasts, mouth closing over the small, light scar. There, he sucks, until your back arches, until the skin becomes pink, then red.
And despite the fact, that situation is messed up beyond belief. Despite the fact, that hate burns low in your stomach, it's fire rising with every motion of his fingers, every press of his thumb...
You let go.
Your hand grabs at the back of his head, fingers digging into his skin, pushing him down to meet your open mouth. And you kiss him. Truly kiss him, pouring every hidden or otherwise emotion into the swirling of your tongue. You swallow the loud groan coming from deep within him, and let the pressure in your stomach snap like a rubber band. You've always been quiet, and today is not any different, as your body arches against him, hips moving in an uncoordinated stutter, riding his hand like your life depended on it.Â
You revel in the way his eyes widen in surprise almost more than your orgasm. The realization, that you've caught him off guard, setting your nerve endings on fire.Â
He recovers quickly, pulling away from the kiss, his mouth hanging open. Then, his hand rips itself out of you, before you have the time to stop spasming, coming up to his mouth, where he cleans his fingers, shoving them into his mouth. The noise he makes, when he tastes you for the first time, borders on pornographic, and with a freezing shiver running down your spine, you think he looks almost beautiful like this. If he was anyone else, he would be perfect.Â
Alas, he's himself, and you are what your life has made of you, so you force your breathing to level, until you're sure you're ready to speak.Â
- Go to your room - you repeat, a note of hoarseness sneaking into your tone, but his eyes flash nonetheless. -Â Now.Â
There's just a second of hesitation. An excruciating moment, where your heart nearly stops in your chest. And then, your skirt falls back into place, fluttering around your ankles, as the heat of his body leaves you. That hellish American flag billows after him, and now you're sure the stars and stripes are mocking you.Â
But he's gone.
 The door slams after him, and finally you're left alone, moisture cooling on the insides of your thighs in a way that makes your stomach twist. You can't think about it. You try to shove this entire situation into another box, hide it from sight, stomp on it like an annoying cockroach. Knees buckle under you, and the coolness of the kitchen floor is a jarring contrast to your burning skin.Â
On instinct, pushed by some invisible force, you reach up, fingers closing over the cigarette pack and the lighter, and this time, you light it correctly. It takes three puffs, until the smoke detector catches on, the water system coming to life, spraying the entirety of your room with cold water.Â
And you continue sitting there, on the floor, holding your wet cigarette between your teeth, letting the water cover everything, you included. It's okay. You can afford it.
You're a rock star.Â
#my writing#homelander#homelander x reader#homelander fanfiction#the boys amazon#homelander x you#gonna be a real f fest from here on
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By implying that children are too stupid and rude to learn about the world and learn how the world works and how to interact with others, you are casting responsibility away from the people who are responsible for that child's upbringing and placing the blame on the children (who don't have the autonomy given to them to be allowed to decide what they want) who can't help what they do and do not learn, often.
If the children aren't okay, then investigate why before turning to thought-terminating clichés of, "Well, the kids are just stupid and dumb and aren't even worth the effort because they're lazy!"
#youth liberation#i was really bothered when i saw this clip where this person was saying almost verbatim that...#...'kids [these days] are too STUPID and they're teachers are scared!'...#...why is the blame placed on the kids who have no control over school curriculum and what their home life is like or if they have money...#...it's because when you place the blame on the people with no power or control you don't have the responsibility to change circumstances..#...you essentially keep the status quo while simultaneously belittling a group of vulnerable people...#...and thus you feed into the cyclical nature of the broken education system#the kids these days AREN'T okay but it ISN'T THEIR FAULT...#...it's the fault of late-stage capitalism and poorly-funded education and a world that wasn't even built with them in mind...#...they had NO PART in the creation of the world which is hostile to their entire existence#don't mind the incorrect usage of their in the second tag i was so focused on how pissed i was#also remember how a good chunk of these kids lived through *checks notes* the fucking PANDEMIC LOCKDOWN#which was a clown show in terms of supporting kids and their parent/s#some places handled lockdown in the US better than others but holy fuck in my area at least it was a nightmare#what do you expect from parents who are now working full-time and teaching part/full-time and parenting full-time?#what support exactly are you expecting they recieved? because you'll likely find they got either a little or NONE#hilarious that i used the wrong their in a post subtweeting about education LOL#look i was focused on how PISSED i was lol cut me some slack here
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uhhh ray in a wheelchair cause iâm thinking about getting one for myself cause my cane is not enough
#➻ ray : visage  ⊠ rusted cracked & broken : but still standing ËËË#➻ ooc : artwork  ⊠ madness takes the paintbrush & sings ËËË#uh little vent in tags tw#( i havenât left my house since my birthday - and before that was only for doctor appointments in months )#( but i have used the scooter at walmart when i did go out and they made me so happy to be independent)#( as well as the wheelchair in the ER i could move without fear of falling )#( i really want to go outside so imma see about getting one ?? )#( probably just a cheap hospital one at a thrift store near me )#( idk if i wanna bother with in insurance ? )#( i am trying to get a walker through them and itâs taking forever to the point i need MORE )#( i am doing physical therapy which helps but also my legs are so weak i canât even go down my stairs on my own :/ )#( imma ask my PT therapist and my doctor but who knows ? )#( anyway vent over enjoy ray being a dumbass )
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OH RIGHT! I DREW MORE ROBOT. extra doodles under the cut
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#potatart#my ocs#original characters#robot art#robot oc#robots#etc#i wonder if i should tag this or sometbing because of the broken machine & oil & wires and stuff#if that bothers u my dear followers & mutuals pls let me know and i will tag it âą-âą#OK SORRY I FORGOT TO ADD SOME STUFF B4 POSTING#for context im thinking this characters name might be Seth or something like that#Nobody is not meaning harm (its the robot in question) it is just Tall and Scary and tbf seth is angry amd scared all the time.#especially of machines#but still i think its funny how even after being hit in the face with a baseball bat Nobody does not even register it#it just wants 2 make friends...why so cruel and mean#also Juniper is the same girl that was in the last robot doodle batch. i like to call her Juni :3#she loves robots very much#and the last doodle is just a general design for Nobody's model bc they are the odd one out of an entire. massed produced array#of identical robots#me whem the robot is sentient *explosion*
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Whatâre your favorite kh ships?
If I'm being honest... I really only true ship SoKai these days (my forever OTP). Mainly because I feel like that's the only one I can really ever see actually being canon (well, aside from Yozora and Nameless Star, and I also ship them: a lot of that for Versus XIII reasons. My heart won't let go). And, I mean, not that a ship needs to be canon for me to ship them. Not at all. But I'll admit that I've grown out of some of the KH ships a wee bit, as I've found more adult ones in other fandoms to get invested one.
That being said, the KH ships that I do still care about are:
SoKai
RokuShi
Namiku
RokuNami
Terqua (though it seem these days the kids call it Terrqua. Or Terraqua?)
Gulava
Skulmera
Playerlitzia
YozoraNameless Star
Xehaqus
AkuSai
SoRiKai
RiKai
Roxiri (though not in canon. More in fanon. More for crack, kind of, actually. And friendship first and foremost)
I'm warming up to Replinami some these days, because of the tragedy of it all.
I've also started to warm up to Rion a wee bit... that past Shanna thought she'd never see.
SoNami in CoM only.
I could do XionRoxasNaminé. NamiXI, too.
VenAqua slightly, but I'd always choose Terra and Aqua over it (but one thing about the Wayfinder Trio for me, if I'm being truthful, is that I prefer the three of them as friends before any romance with any of them. Part of me even really thinks all three of them are truly just meant to be friends.)
A lot of people ship Ven and Strelitzia for some reason. And I doubt it'll ever happen, tbh. Who knows if they'll ever even really get a chance to meet and be friends. But I do get why they think it'd be cute.
And while I don't know if I truly ship them anymore, a part of me will always have a soft spot for Ventus and Naminé. Because for some reason, I really used to ship this crack pairing, back in the day.
I also don't really know if I ship them... but despite what I said above, I do get the feeling that Nomura might be doing something with Lauriam/Marluxia and Elrena/Larxene.
#i used to LOVE vanaqua and vannami. and some of my heart probably always will for that reason (mainly the former). but for the most part i#think i'm over it#i also used to ship ephemer and ava a tiny bit. but i'd pick gulava any day#i also used to get into olette pairings. but tbh. i just can't really be bothered anymore#i also used to somewhat ship ira and invi because of that comment in back cover about them having to see each other less now so the others#wouldn't get the wrong idea (because taken out of context it sounds like they're dating). or aced and invi because they reminded me (and#everyone) of terra and aqua. but i was never really serious about those to begin with and have let them go. -shrugs-#really. at the end of the day. it's sokai. forever and always: sokai#asked and answered#and really the main ones for me are sokai rokushi namiku rokunami and terqua#but mostly sokai -i say. sounding like a broken record-#and while we're mentioning everything (because somehow that's what this post turned into) i used to be big on larxel (like khii days)#but not for many--MANY--years#wait. i do like gulava a lot too. and rikai. because riku and kairi--in whatever form they're in--don't get enough love#there's also a tiny bit of me that ot3s eraqusxehanortvor. xehaqus is the otp and they're perfect together: i know and agree with this#and yet they have an interesting dynamic with vor. i feel like before dark road started they were the SLIGHTEST bit of a trio. not truly#because xehanort and eraqus still spent way more time together but it was there a little bit#and it's interesting to me that eraqus. of all people. gets annoyed at vor snooping on them some at the beginning of dark road#before the game came out if you told me something like that would have happened i would have guessed it was xehanort. but nah. it's eraqus#and xehanort moreso telling him to chill and letting vor tag along (and the eraqus thing wasn't really serious. and more in good fun#because he DOES care about her). and then they're both DEVASTATED when she dies. and vor really cared about them#also a slight ot3 with xehanorteraqusurd because despite what i just said about vor it's URD they spend the most time with in dark road and#i like their dynamic with her too. -shrugs-#vanikai a smidge back in the day
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i was going to apologize for making him too young but iâve now learned heâs 27 in study in scarlet so we are ballin
#my art#sherlock holmes#even that i dont want to tag but the blog must stay organized.#do NOT message me . telling me i got something wrong. telling me this is not canon accurate. buddy hes not even accurate to my headcanon#small details i had fun adding:#waistcoat buttonhole fixed with spare red thread (probably by ms hudson) (or watson even. i know he can sew)#(sherlock can also sew but he cant be bothered to fix it)#white spots on his nails . maybe its vitamin deficiency maybe its me projecting#dirt on his hands face jacket everywhere. he stays clean but not pristine#scar and eyebrow slit. there was a hawk mishap. the hawk is fine however sherlock clearly not#acid stains and bandages on hand (CANONICAL) (FROM EXPERENTIMG WITH ACIDS AND CHEMICALS)#scar on back of hand. who knows maybe he was careless with a scalpel#and finally the tiniest stupidest one#burn (healing) on the upper lip. definitely went in to give something a sniff and got overeager. maybe even went in for a lick#oh hes also definitely broken his nose at least once.#to be clear this isnt me getting a new temporary hyperfix this is number one special interest that i just never post about#ok goodbye
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#also the 3 biggest things that bother me other than SA ofc are toys getting broken / destroyed unsanitary and body image#and i tag those bc i find them personally upsetting but barely any other people do so like... :/#i fucking hated the ''milk cat'' thing with the webkinz literally my personal hell and i hate that there wasnt even a way to blacklist it#it was so upsetting!!! i know content warnings are cheugy on ''cool'' tumblr and nobody is entitled to cater to everyones triggers#especially if theyre super niche or weird like mine. but it sucks sometimes :/
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im missing so many skins of my fav uuu (bewitching / majestic empress / coven / dawnbringer / star nemesis)
#i dont even know whats up with prestige skins but its not pretty enough to bother anyway#also dont @ me abt victorious morgana i got banned for two weeks back in the day bc i had a friend play my account to gold to get it lol#still mad abt it www#tbh though i feel nothing abt the new splash arts (i miss old exiled morgana picture..) hating s4kimichan style will do that to u#STILL ON PRINCIPLE. MY FAV I WANT SKINS#but also g3nshin has broken me so completely i dont think i will ever spend money on a game again :)#elia txts#league blogging#WHICH I GUESS IS A TAG NOW sorry
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Everytime i think of something clever, especially in the twists department of this fic, the ofmd ouat au. I'm like "oh. This is how it felt to write Once Upon A Time. No wonder they got carried away sometimes."
It's also destroying my sleep schedule. It's when I'm about to fall asleep that I get these ideas
@goatyoat read the tags, too. Don't worry about the first few tangents in there
#draft: ofmd ouat au#this fic is izzy's fault but im also really excited to write more edward#so much so that it might end with steddyhands#but im not sure#i like the idea of izzy with roach or lucius in this fic#cause that was the original idea#but idk#if i did a second season maybe izzy would get a love interest then#or ive been considering changing how the curse affects izzys memories of sam#so far ive been writing it so that curse izzy doesn't remember sam and then has to grieve all over again when the curse is broken#but maybe#sam will be hidden like belle was#and izzy remembers him as dead under the curse#if i do that they'll be reunited#cause the less times i kill off sam the happier i am#maybe i should write a new post about the different sam routes and ask the bellhands tag#i gotta find out if my main ouat mutual likes ofmd#cause im tempted to ask goaty about this stuff but he doesn't know ofmd stuff#goaty if you're reading this lmk if you're okay with me talking about this au with you if i can't find someone else#ive been mainly bothering my mom about it for now poor woman#this fic is taking over my brain help#idk what im saying it's almost time for my morning alarm to ring
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as a kid I would pray to die because I was told that children are free of sin and was so scared of being alive for the rapture that my mom would constantly tell me was going to happen in the near future
#whimsy whispers#ask to tag#religion cw#christianity cw#itâs also part of why I have no real hopes for the future because when Iâd tell my mom about my dreams for a better life she would tell me#not to bother because the world would end before I could achieve any of this#and at some point I just started hoping it would happen already so all the suffering would end and it never did happen and now Iâm broken#this woman actually destroyed me and I feel like Iâm broken beyond repair because of her wow
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Kind of a continuation of this post since I mention Cowgirl Peach having an expression that could fit Movie Peach, but also I didnât want to bring some drama from a year ago into said post.
Basically Iâm working on turning some of my posts into videos and my Peach comparison one is a prime contender for it once Showtime comes out, with a script already done (only missing the Showtime parts for obvious reasons). And working on that script made me think Iâd probably make an updated version of the comparison post bc there are a few things I felt werenât expressed well-enough, on top of forgetting a few things.
I also deleted the table post bc I wasnât satisfied with the table and it was put at the end of the comparison post anyways so itâs still on my blog in some way (the language in the table was a bit too salty + I pointed out things like backstory to highlight how different the two are but at the same time Movie Peach having a different backstory doesnât bother me in the slightest as this is a different continuity from the games).
So here I wanted to take a second to talk more about the body language situation and the whole âPeach can fightâ thing, as I feel like my comparison post didnât express my issues with those properly (2.9k words below).
For the body language, it actually took me a while to realize the issue, hence why in my comparison post I barely give examples and in my scenes rewrite I admit in the tags itâs more subjective than I thought. Thing is, I had this issue backwards, and itâs Mario Wonder that made me realize it due to Nintendo doubling down on how dainty Peach is in that game, along with the Showtime transformation trailer.
Thing is, itâs not that Movie Peach and Games Peach have two completely different body languages. In reality, Movie Peachâs body language can fit Games Peach on occasion (sports games, Showtime, Adventures Comic) but a lot of Games Peachâs body language doesnât fit Movie Peach at all due to how dainty, soft, regal and elegant Games Peach usually is, which are traits Movie Peach is almost entirely missing (I say âalmost entirelyâ due to her reactions during the DK fight).
This is why instances like Cowgirl Peach or her feisty attitude in the Adventures Comic are fitting for Games Peach (plus in the comic she still displays her daintiness a few times during the chapters where sheâs wearing Luigiâs clothes), meaning I could see Movie Peachâs body language fit her when sheâs in action. But at the same time, I am completely unable to imagine Movie Peach float around with a parasol, or being carried bridal style, or doing the same cheering animations as Games Peach in the sports games, or being a baker or a figure skater or a mermaid, or literally anything about Mario Wonder, because thatâs just not the kind of person that she is. So itâs not that their body language is fully separated, itâs that one fits the other but not vice-versa.
Itâs also worth noting that the vast majority of Movie Peachâs body language only fits Games Peach in very specific situations (again sports games, Showtime and Adventures Comic), the same way the vast majority of Games Peachâs body language only fits Movie Peach on like two small occasions (DK fight and fireflowers field).
This also speaks to the fact that Peach is a fleshed-out character who have done many various sports and other activities on top of her many adventures throughout the years, hence having a âwider rangeâ on that front. Movie Peach meanwhile is more of a one-note character whose whole thing is protecting her Toads and being curious about her past.
Itâs also the same deal with their voices. Showtime has Games Peach use a lower-pitched voice, but itâs literally the only game she ever used such a register (outside of maybe some obscure game I donât know about, or the 90s cartoons which I didnât watch so I donât even know how in-character she is in those). So while Games Peach is capable of sounding like Movie Peach, she only does so on very specific occasions. And on the other side of the coin Movie Peach never sounds like Games Peach (I say never having watched the movie in english đ). There might also be something to say about Games Peach only sounding like Movie Peach when sheâs acting, with that same game seemingly giving her her usual higher pitch when she isnât in costume.
Now admittedly I could still point out instances where Movie Peachâs body language bothers me from an adaptation standpoint, but at the same time I do feel like you could look up the sports games or even the Adventures Comic and find an example of Games Peach doing a similar thing.
I also realized that when thinking of the body language that bothers me, I sometimes actually mean the facial expressions more than anything else. Like Movie Peach declaring war with her fists in the air? I could see Peach do it to an extent. But that weird face she makes when the Toad interrupts her? Yeah no, it doesnât fit. Same when she badly lies to Mario, or when she prepares to fight the first Kong they meet, or telling Mario that Bowser would eat him, or other small moments like those.
But I think the reason why it bothers me is actually bc her facial structure is different, given all the examples I just gave are of Movie Peach having an exaggerated expression. Meanwhile it doesnât bother me when Adventures Comic Peach has exaggerated expressions, and Adventures Peach has a facial structure that's closer to the games. Plus, I remember when I first saw the movie being weirded out by the way her eyes look at times, so yeah, it might be due to her facial structure rather than the expressions themselves (hell when thinking about Adventures Peach looking like Games Peach, the first thing I think about are the way her eyes are drawn).
All this to say, there are legitimate complains about the body language but itâs less of a difference and more of a limitation on Movie Peachâs end.
As for the fighting, first of all yes all the abilities Movie Peach has are things Peach can do as well. I donât know if I explicitly said it in the comparison post, but yes, they have the same abilities. My post also mentioned the fighting situation being my biggest issue with Movie Peach, and that still stands, but again I think I expressed it pretty poorly.
First off, while Peach and Movie Peach have the same abilities, their relationship with fighting are different. This is what I mainly focused on in my post.
Movie Peach sees fighting as the one and only solution to her problems and has no hesitation starting or joining fights. Even when given the opportunity to solve the situation in a possibly calmer way with the wedding, she still decides to turn it into a fight. Sheâs also on the offensive, being at the front lines and doing the fighting herself.
As for Games Peach, while the mainline games and Showtime are proof that sheâs capable of fighting without hesitation, the RPGs also show that sheâs more than willing to take the peaceful option if there is one. That one cutscene in Smash Bros Brawl is an especially good example of that. She also doesnât mind sending others to do the fighting for her (Mario and Luigi series, the first Rabbids game where she initially asks Mario to deal with Junior before joining in later). And sheâs on the defensive in the RPGs, being the healer/support of the team rather than a hard-hitter.
Another difference between the two is the attacks they use. While, again, both have the same abilities, Movie Peach is a physical fighter exclusively, and even the ice flower scene focuses on her physical abilities which she pairs up with the power-up. Games Peach meanwhile is much more likely to use magic or unconventional weapons (parasol, frying pan, throwing furniture, Stellaâs ribbon, turnips etc), though power-ups are obviously also on the list. But also compare the way she uses the fire flower in Wonder to Movie Peach using the ice flower.
In fact, the only times Games Peach does some physical fighting are in Showtime, Smash and some sports games (unless you count jumping on enemies as physical fighting I guess). Also in Rabbids she uses a literal gun but the second game still gave her a parasol-shaped one, thus keeping in line with her usual unconventional weapons.
All-in-all, yes, Peach and Movie Peach have the same physical abilities, and if I did my job properly I didnât deny this in my comparison post. But the main difference between the two is how they approach fighting, both in their relationship with it (how willing they are to fight) and the weapons they use. Because of that, even if the characters are capable of the same feats, their fighting styles nonetheless make them feel like two completely different characters.
Btw I didnât mention the platforming and karting abilities being similar bc it doesnât bring anything new to the table. The thing with the fighting abilities is that itâs tied to personality to an extent (Movie being more aggressive while Games is more defensive), which isnât the case with the platforming and karting.
But there is a second issue, a much bigger one. In my comparison post, I mention at the end of the intelligence section how they traded off one of Peachâs strengths for another. But itâs actually much more than just one trait.
Thing is, Illumination was so desperate to make Movie Peach as cool and badass as possible that it came at the expanse of every other personality trait Games Peach has. The short runtime and lack of character development doesnât help either.
And THAT is the biggest issue with Movie Peach and her willingness to fight, and why she fails as an adaptation while games like the Rabbids ones, the platformers and Showtime are able to make Peach an action-heroine while still keeping her perfectly in character.
Every single personality difference between the two can be explained by either that desire to make her badass, or a lack of runtime (bc yes I do think some of those issues arenât directly related to the fighting stuff but instead lack of character development).
Seriously:
- Why is Movie Peach so willing to fight? Because sheâs a badass and badass people fight.
- Why does Movie Peach fight with her fists rather than magic? Because frilly pink parasols and heart-shaped magic are for silly little girls and sheâs a strong woman!
- Why isnât Movie Peach smart to a noticeable extent or quick-witted? Because sheâs badass, why thinking when she can already punch her issues away? In the situations she finds herself in, she doesnât need brain if she already has brawl.
Itâs also worth noting that quite a few instances of Games Peach being smart are tied to her inability to defend herself. In Paper Mario 64, she canât win against Bowser so instead she sneaks around. In the Adventures Comic, sheâs far too outnumbered and knows it, so she runs away and takes on-the-fly decisions to save herself. In Superstar Saga, she canât just refuse a political visit, plot or not, but canât face Cackletta either, so she devises a plan to remain safe.
But since Movie Peach doesnât have such weaknesses, she doesnât find herself in situations that need quick thinking. And when she kind of does, her plan is crazy dumb yet perfectly in character given how impulsive and fight-oriented she is (Toad sneaking the ice flower to begin with is ridiculous; she planned on taking a whole army by herself; she came back on her promise to Bowser thus giving him every right to hurt her people; she actually loses her power-up and the cages only gets saved thanks to Mario and DK showing up, who Movie Peach had no idea were coming; given her reaction she didnât know about the cages meaning she intended on using the ice flower regardless instead of accepting the wedding and sneaking off when Bowserâs guard is down).
- Why is Movie Peach sassy in a snarky way rather than a playful way likes Games Peach? Because sheâs a badass and thatâs how badass characters act.
- Why isnât Movie Peach particularly stubborn? Because sheâs badass meaning nobody questions her ideas, and the two times she has to argue (Cranky and Bowser) itâs reasonable for her to do so.
- Why is Movie Peach serious in a âshit is about to go downâ kind of way rather than a âI hope other people will be alright while I deal with thisâ kind of way like Games Peach? Because sheâs badass and badass people focus on the fight ahead.
- Why is Movie Peach confident to the point of smiling when fighting unlike Games Peach who looks more serious during fights (in the Showtime renders that have her smirk, she isnât currently fighting, outside of the Cowgirl one ironically enough; plus she has a serious face in the Kung Fu kick from the gameplay and both her Ninja and Mighty attacking render; pretty sure itâs a similar deal in the Rabbids games and Super Mario RPG)? Because thatâs how badass characters look when they fight.
- How come a lot of Games Peachâs body language doesnât fit Movie Peach? Because Movie Peach is a badass and badass characters shouldnât be soft and dainty. This also circles back to the Showtime box art change and how much I hate it.
- Why isnât Movie Peach kind to the same ridiculous extent that Games Peach is? Because we donât have enough time in the movie for it. Oh and sheâs a badass so she has to be snarky, even if it makes her less kind.
- Why doesnât Movie Peach have that temper Games Peach has at times? Because they didnât have time for it.
- Why is Movie Peach not a good diplomat? Ok tbh I have no idea for this one. Why did they make her suck at this, and why out of all the weaknesses they could have given her they decided to go with the one thing related to her status as a Princess???
Btw in my comparison post I said the issue wasnât the âstrong female characterâ stereotype in on itself and I still stand by that. It might make no sense but basically the issue isnât with the character archetype, itâs the way Illumination did everything to make Peach fit a specific archetype that she isnât, to the point of losing her core character in the process. It could have been another archetype than the strong female character one and the results would have been the same.
Finally, a small word about the few differences I forgot to mention in my comparison post:
1. Games Peach is an emotional person that can cry fairly easily, while Movie Peach isnât. Actually surprised I forgot that one when itâs literally present in that one concept art sheet that I brought up numerous times.
2. Movie Peach is only curious about the human world and instead of it being genuine curiosity for another culture, it feels like she mostly wants to know where she comes from, learning more about her past as a form of closure. Games Peach on the other hand is very curious about trying new things, discovering new places and meeting new people, like her travels in Odysseyâs post-game, her going to the theater in Showtime, many of the RPGs, or her reaction to the hotel when you talk to her at the beginning of Luigiâs Mansion 3.
3. Movie Peach doesnât have any hobbies, while Games Peach has an artistic side. She bakes and decorates her cakes, paints in that one series of pics showing game development, plus I believe her castle in 64 is an art gallery, and according to Showtime she has an interest for theater and is even a good actor.
And in regards to the list I made above, I would say the lack of curiosity and hobbies are due to the Movie not having the time for it, while her not being emotional is that desire to make her badass.
I also realized that they do have some traits in common, which are being brave, determined and adventurous. But the thing is, so is Mario, and Luigi after a pep talk, and Daisy, and the Toads, and Bowser, and Movie Mario, and Movie Luigi since he does follow his brother in his crazy ideas, and even Movie Bowser to an extent.
So while being brave and adventurous are very much traits that define their characters, the fact all the characters have it undermines its use when comparing the two. In other words, saying âGames Peach and Movie Peach are the same because theyâre braveâ is the same as saying âPeach, Mario and Bowser are all the same because theyâre braveâ. They need to have more traits in common than that, which they donât, and thatâs a problem.
I could even be an ass and point out that being adventurous is a pretty important trait for Games Peach in the RPGs, going hand-in-hand with her stubbornness. Meanwhile the movie really doesnât focus much on that part of her. Basically, Games Peach in the RPGs goes on adventures because she wants to, while Movie Peach goes on an adventure because she has to.
Hell you could say the same thing about the bravery, with some RPGs like Paper Mario 64 or Super Paper Mario having character point out how brave Peach is being for a princess that often needs help herself, while the movie focuses more on Peach being physically capable rather than brave when complimenting her.
(Oh and a bit unrelated but Iâd argue Movie Kamek is also incredibly OOC when compared to Games Kamek, as Games Kamek is a snarky little shit who knows heâs smarter than everyone else on top of having this tired dad energy who doesnât get paid enough for this shit, both of which Movie Kamek lacks in favor of making him a yes-man thatâs low-key in love with a Bowser that as a result Iâm hoping isnât his surrogate son; but one could argue that itâs due to how little screentime Movie Kamek had to really showcase his character, especially since he does show some snark in the scene where he tells the prisoners about their upcoming fate. And no, I donât intend on making a long-ass post about this. I really like Kamekâs character but I donât care enough to dissect his personality like I did for Peach)
#Super Mario#Flor talks#long post#not tagging anything else bc I don't want to bother people with old drama#(even though it will very likely show up in some tags due to the search system being broken)#this post is 100% me realizing new things and wanting to share it#plus if anybody else makes a video on the topic before mine it gives me proof that I'm not stealing ideas from anyone#since I'm going to mention my posts in the video#I also made a new table :3 ; but I'm keeping it to myself for now#(also I love how I make it sound as if I made a dozen posts bashing mo//vie Peach as an adaptation#when in reality I made like five; one of which I deleted#then again I started talking about it since the first trailers so it's been a while since I've had it in mind#and for some reason I feel very passionate about the topic; which could explain the language used)
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man last night i was trying to sleep and a scenario popped in my head. it started.. alright, just someone asking what they mean to me, and i was like "haha........ uh... a friend.... :)" and like all good right? then tell me why the fuck as soon as that happened all that appeared in my head later was eye horror i wasnt even asleep as to have a nightmare
#my posts#i think im still gonna tag it as#my dreams#its adjascent its late night thoughts but with way too many images for me to even think its relatively normal considering the subject#i plan on explaining the eye horror here in the tags so if you are reading this but dont want to see that.... be warned i guess?#still giving you a few tags#to just go away bc i dont want to bother anyone sdiufha#but i want it out of my head#like just so you can imagine how much i couldnt get it out last night either: since my phone is broken i remembered i have a journal#that ive neglected for over a year lmao#but i grabbed that and wrote about it a bit there and then i managed to sleep not that long afterwards. now its on my head again lmao#anyways so like. i had this person in mind in front of me and after that dialogue ended it sorta zoomed in on their eyes#and they were just.. filling with blood. as if they had a horrible accident and the blood was even pooling out of their eyes like tears#and then just. more and more and more yes with similar things happening to them#just.. eyes#idk eye horror just.. appears sometimes#in this exact way i once had something like teeth related and also like with just... pulsing flesh lmao idk man#anyways!
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Oh so I havenât been faking it
#had to watch some Movie with my family and after less than 30 mins I had broken skin on my finger and was still picking#couldnât look at the tv bc it was too loud and too bright and my sister was eating carrots right next to me and my mom was flipping through#a book on the other side of the room and my dad was breathing too loud and my brother was scratching and his skin is so dry#and my finger was bleeding and my head hurt and my clothes were too Clothes and it was just a lot#so now I get to go to my room and stay here until the Girl Trip tomorrow :/ which. weâre going to an antique shop so I have to go but itâs#also a Girl Trip and weâre driving my car but I wonât be driving and will 100% be in the back so Iâll get carsick and have to listen to my#mom and sister talk about whatever the fuck they want to talk about and I really donât wanna fucking do it bc theyâll judge me for what I#spend my money on and Iâll have to eat somewhere New and thatâs gonna be Hard#so itâs just a lot huh#sorry for the rant I didnât know it was bothering me that much#tw rant#tw vent#tw family#em rambles#ask to tag
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I KNEW YOU WERE TROUBLE part 2 (s.jy)
pairing: rich boy!jake x reader (f)
summary: after jakeâs betrayal, you tried try pick up the pieces of your broken heart by replacing him with heeseung, even if they never truly fitted back togetherâ not until your realised jakeâs heart was in worse shape.
warnings: sexual tension, angst, hurt/comfort, making out, kissing, smut (blowjob, missionary, doggy, riding, creampie, hair pulling, chocking), unprotected sex (donât be silly, wrap your willy!) fighting, alcohol consumption, usage of weed, curse words, pet names (baby, ma cherie), hyung line (minus jake) are actually a conspiracy for jakeyn. Imk if more. PROOFREAD â READ PART 1
published: 13th May 2024
wc: 6.8k
taglist: (permanent) @stolasisyourparent @jaeyunsbimbo @heelvsted @jwnghyuns @seunghancore (one shot) @anittamaxwynn @jvjsssnaa @slut4hee @kgneptun @nyxtwixx @laurradoesloveu @star4rin @capri-cuntz @eneyiri @samouryed @heyniki @ineedsomezzz @nanamomgmong @aishigrey @naurrjakeu @ak-aaa-li @sjakewrld @nikiswifiee @koralira-kira @daisycottage @yunhoswrldddd @smisworld @cloud-lyy @avaleyshin @soobinbunnie5 @ikeulims @tuituibzhe @starggukies @icywinter1999 [BOLDS COULD NOT BE TAGGED]
a/n: aight this actually turned out longer than i intended and did i really write smut while listening to windows down by big time rush? yes. having a keylock doesnât mean youâre poor btw (i also have a keylock). please REBLOG & LIKE to share! also lmk your thoughts by commenting đ tysm for loving this fic!
You stared yet again at the reflection in front of you. Tear stains had ruined your makeup, your mascara that claimed to be waterproof was now coating your cheeks until your chin.
You gripped the sink in anger, your knuckles turning white at the force.
A lot of curse words flashed in your mind, but none were strong enough to represent your current state.
How could you be so oblivious? You thought Jake and you had something, something that went beyond just two people who met at a frat party.
You felt it, inside your heart, the way it tickled every time you heard his sweet chuckle leave his lips, seeming like the only light in the darkness of life.
You took a deep breath, trying to gather all the shattered pieces of your heart, laying open there. If that was how it hurt, you sure as hell werenât going to give anyone else the key to access to it.
âWhatâs a pretty girl crying in the bathroom for?â A voice snapped you out of your trance. You raised your face and met a pair of known, dark eyes.
âHeeseung.â You breathed out, not even bothering to turn around. That moment almost felt like a deja vĂč, probably because that same bathroom was where your lips first met Jakeâs.
Trying to block out all the memories of that Australian man, you turned around and leaned back on the countertop.
âGlad you still remember my name.â He said, licking his bottom lip, âFound out your prince charming wasnât as innocent as you thought?â
You frowned at his words âHowâd you know?â And Heeseung just chuckled bitterly in response âI invited you to my party in hope of having you for myself.â
His eyes roamed all over your body âJust to find out you were at it with my best friend.â You rolled your eyes. âWe just made out, nothing more.â
If you thought Jake was bold, Heeseung was shameless. He was looking at you like you were a gazelle in the lionâs den, eyes scanning your body, probably imagining you without clothes.
âWell, heâs busy now.â You turned around and looked at yourself in the mirror, trying to clean the mascara stains on your face.
âWith Karina?â Heeseung nodded at himself, âShe was there before you.â
You turned around again, a deeply offended expression painting your features âExcuse me?â
Heeseung smirked, cleaning your cheeks with his own thumbs âYou really thought Sim Jake would fall in love with a mediocre girl?â He cooed âAw, poor you. Jake had always been greedy, he would never settle for someone who isnât from his own neighbourhood.â
âAnd why are you telling me this?â You asked warily, not fully believing the words leaving his mouth. You wanted to stay with your impression of the kind and playful Jake. Not the player, not the heartbreaker.
âBecause he isnât worth your tears, pretty.â Heeseungâs voice was husky and hoarse, you couldnât almost understand his words âBut I am, when Iâll fuck you so hard.â
You pushed his chest away, âDisgusting.â But Heeseung only laughed in response, âI was kidding.â
You rolled your eyes and stepped aside of him âIâm going home.â You were almost out of the door when his big hand wrapped around your waist, pulling you flush on his chest.
âOr, I have a better idea.â You raised a brow. âYou donât look like someone who has nice ideas.â
âJust trust me.â He wiggled his brows âI know youâre known for seducing and then leaving.â
You scowled âIf thatâs my reputation on your side of the town.â His fingers trailed your arm until they reached your shoulder, caressing the bare skin âIn my opinion, thatâs hot.â
âI donât remember asking.â You sighed, having heard his flattering already when he was courting you, a couple of weeks before.
âIâm saying, we go downstairs.â Heeseung bit his bottom lip, playing with the strap of your dress. âAnd we get a taste of each other, just let your mind drift off.â He said, lowering down to whisper in your ear.
You honestly werenât in the mood to make out with someone, let alone be in a room full of teenagers drunk off their titsâ But what could you do better to fix your broken heart?
âI hope you improved your kissing skills.â
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If stares could kill, then the ones Jake was giving you as you basically straddled Heeseung in the middle of his living room got you dead a few minutes before.
Your lips were attached, rarely pulling away, just enough to catch your breath while his hands were wrapped around your waist, holding you in place on his laps.
Jake was still with that pretty woman whose name you learnt was Karina. And in fact, she was deadly gorgeous, you almost didnât blame Jake for leaving you for her. But you were Y/N, nobody shouldâve dared to play with your heart that same cruel way Jake did.
âYou donât mind making out with me in front of him?â You asked on Heeseungâs lips, licking his bottom one âNah,â He cupped the back of your neck, pulling you closer âYou werenât a thing anyways, were you?â
Your heart stopped at his words, because in fact, you and Jake werenât anything. You had never been, it was foolish of you to even hope for it.
âNo, we werenât.â You replied in a whisper, âPerfect.â Heeseung resumed kissing you, more roughly this time.
Jake needed something stronger than the mild cup of beer in his hand to forget your presence in the room. Smashing his head on the wall seemed like a good option since not only did you attend the party but were also making out with his best friend.
He called it on himself, he knew nothing good would come with playing with you, but he couldnât erase all that he had done.
Trying to cancel the image of Heeseung with his hands all over you, he turned to the side to give his attention to the raven haired girl beside him âSo, whenâs your brother coming home from Paris again?â
Karina smiled at the mention âSunghoon is coming back in two days!â She informed him, âHe also wanted to invite you guys over.â
Jake beamed back at his other best friendâs older sister and nodded âThat sounds good, I havenât seen him in one month or so.â
Karina rolled her eyes âYeah, I came back as soon as work finished but he claimed he wanted to âsightseeâ the city before returning here.â
He smiled âLiving his best life, I see.â He patted her shoulder, the touch on her exposed skin only made him remember how your body felt when it was wrapped around his, kissing you all over.
He hoped he could have done more, to be with you longer so that he would have experienced having you laid down beneath him, in your whole essence and beauty. He wished he had a chance to do thatâ But the universe wasnât on his side.
You hadnât realised how much fun those rich kids could have. You thought they talked about horses and lake cottages in their free time but they actually were so much more than that!
Or maybe it was whatever Heeseung made you smoke that was altering your thoughts.
You were currently sitting on his laps, your back pressed against his chest as you took a drag out of the joint between your fingers.
You giggled at something one of Heeseungâs friends said, you weren't even sure why you were laughing but it sounded fun.
Heeseung caressed your back, trailing circles on your shoulder as he took a drag from his own joint âHaving fun, Y/N?â He asked and you nodded âMuch.â
âMhmh, I bet you are.â He smirked, âFirst time smoking weed?â
You nodded again âJake said I looked like I did it daily,â You chuckled âBut I never tried.â
âDid he?â He whispered, getting close to your neck, leaving kitten licks âYou talk a lot about him.â
âNo.â You frowned âI donât.â Heeseung chuckled and started sucking on your sensitive skin, making you let out a moan.
His big hand went to cover your mouth as he worked on your neck, sucking and biting enough to leave a hickey âYou talked about him the whole night, haven't you even realised?â
You widened your eyes at his statement. No, you hadnât realised, but when his name rolled out of your tongue it just sounded so right.
You just shook your head, unable to reply verbally since his hand was on your lips.
You closed your eyes, trying to block out any thought at the feeling of Heeseungâs lips on your neck and the weed clouding your mind.
âAre you mad?â A strict voice suddenly snapped you out of your state of trance as you felt yourself being ripped away from Heeseungâs grasp.
You opened your eyes just to find a very rather and deeply angry Jake standing in front of you, if he was in a cartoon youâd see his veins pulsing on his forehead.
âHeâs Jake!â You exclaimed happily to Heeseung, the effect of the amount of alcohol you drank and the intoxication from weed made you act hyper âI know.â Heeseung replied calmly.
Jake pulled you behind his back âWhat were you thinking? Making her smoke this shit?â
You frowned âItâs goodââ But Heeseung cut you âRelax man, we were just having fun.â
âThis is not having fun.â He took the joint from your hand and threw it to Heeseung âDonât get her into your addictions.â
Heeseung raised a brow, his expression remaining stoic âShe was willing.â Jake snapped back âSheâs drunk!â
He took a deep breath and pointed a threatening finger toward Heeseung âDo not pull this ever again.â He stated before taking your hand in his and dragging you out of the party.
Meanwhile, Heeseung smirked as he saw the two of you walk away; Maybe that was when his best friend would finally wake up and realise all the things he was losing.
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âHey!â You exclaimed, trying to pull away from his iron grip âYunjin is still inside.â Jake let out a small groan âIâll drive her home later.â
You pulled hard on his hand, making him stop right in front of his crimson car âLet me go.â
Jakeâs eyes were full of rage, you were almost scared at their intensity âAre you angry?â
âYes.â He stated, voice serious âAt me?â You asked, your voice was so soft and quiet it made his heart jump out of his ribcage âNo, not at you.â
Your eyes were red and bloodshot, your breath heavy âHow many did you smoke?â He asked, trying to contain his tone.
You gulped down, lowering your gaze âTwo.â Jake nodded and opened the door of his car, letting you in.
âIâm going to kill Heeseung somedays.â He mumbled, walking to the other side and entering the driver seat.
He started the engine and drove in silence, the late hours of the night not as lively as they usually were.
When you reached a stoplight, Jake opened a small bottle of water he had in his car and handed it to you âDrink, I want it all finished before we reach your house.â
You raised a brow, your mind was already puzzled and his actions only added to your confusion âWhy?â
âJust listen to me.â He dismissed your question and started driving again while you drank small sips from the bottle.
You soon reached your house, this time Jake parked his car unauthorisedly in front of it, exiting the car to open the door for you.
You looked up at him, your vulnerable state making him want to protect you even more. Damn Heeseung.
âI couldnât finish it allâŠâ You murmured, showing him only the half-empty bottle of water.
His eyes softened. âThatâs ok, at least you drank some.â You smiled up at him and stumbled a little as you tried to reach your house door.
Jake helped you, holding you up with his arms under your armpits âShoot, Y/N. Why did you drink so much?â He let out a huff, as he was basically supporting all your weight.
You leaned on the wall and handed Jake your purse, not really in the state to open the door.
âWhatâs the code?â He asked and looked at your door, just to realise there was no code to access inside it, your door still needed a key to be opened.
His stomach dropped, another mental check of how different your lives were âInside the purse.â You murmured.
Jake nodded and opened your purse, taking out the keys and opening the door, holding it open.
âYouâre mad at me?â You asked again, your eyes half-lidded and you could barely hold yourself upâ yet you were ever so pretty.
The moonlight shone on you, lighting up your skin, your hair falling down your face, messy but gorgeous. So dishevelled but so pretty.
âNo, Y/N. Iâm not mad at you.â He repeated, his tone sincere âThen⊠Then why you ignored me?â You asked, the pout on your lips only making him want to bite on them.
He gave you the purse back and pushed you a little so that you walked in âGo straight to bed, donât wake your parents up. You donât want them to see you like this.â
You nodded obediently and Jake caressed your cheek with his thumb before turning around. He stopped right in front of your door and smiled âIâm doing this for you, ma chĂ©rie.â And then closed the door.
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âHey man,â Jake greeted Sunghoon as he entered his house, giving him a high five, âGood to see you again.â
âYeah, glad to see you too.â Sunghoon nodded and closed the door behind his back.
âAm I the last one?â Jake asked, walking to the couch and sitting on it, bouncing a couple of times.
âNo,â A wild Jay appeared from the kitchen where he was cooking something for dinner, already busy since late afternoon. âHeeseung texted heâd be late.â
âAs always.â Sunghoon rolled his eyes and sat down beside him âI swear, he never changes.â
âJay told me you will take over your fatherâs company,â Sunghoon smiled, but it didnât quite reach his eyes âCongratulations.â
âYeah.â Jake laughed âThanks.â Awkward silent filled the room, the only sound being Jayâs pots as he cooked. Sunghoon eyed him up and down, leaning back on the couch and resting his head on his hand âHadnât you rebelled to your parents?â
âRumours fly.â He smiled forcefully âIt was just a silly thing. I actually realised I should make them proud after eveything they did for me.â
âAnd what exactly did they do for you, Jake?â Sunghoonâs voice was low, his gaze piercing.
Jake just cleared his throat and changed the topic âSo, how was Paris?â He asked âI know you booked a hotel near the Eiffel Tower. Bet it was awesome.â
Sunghoon tsked âIndeed. Iâll show you the picture if you want.â Jake answered positively when the doorbell rang.
âYou get the door, it must be Heeseung.â Sunghoon got up from the sofa and patted his pockets âIâll search for my phone.â
Jake got up as well and walked to the door, the doorbell rang again and he sighed âYeah, coming.â He opened it and widened his eyes when he saw another familiar figure beside Heeseung.
He took in the sight of you, wearing comfortable clothes, looking ever so dreamy.
His gaze fixed on the hickey Heeseung made you a couple of days before, now all dark and purplish. He gulped âWhat is she doing here?â
âI invited her.â Heeseung shrugged, stepping aside Jake and walking inside the house.
You were left with him, staring at each otherâs faces, acting as if both of your hearts werenât pounding âHowâs the after effect?â
There was no context but you knew what he meant âGood, Iâm a big woman. No joint can kill me.â You replied, walking beside him when no more words were exchanged. Truth to be told the next day you woke up with a throbbing headache, regretting all of your life choicesâ though the biggest one was the hickey on your neck.
âI thought you didnât want to hang out on this side of the town.â Jake spoke, his tone sounding mocking. You scowled âMaybe I changed my mind.â You walked faster toward the kitchen where everyone was gathered.
You got to know Jakeâs friend group. Aside from Heeseung and him, you had only seen Jay at the last party. You later found out Sunghoon was on a business trip in Paris which was why you hadnât seen him before, but even if you did he wasnât the happiest about your presence, so you thought you wouldnât have been friends.
Jay, on the other end, was sophisticated and kind, the two of them looking ever so the stereotype of rich kids.
Heeseung and Jake were rather normal, they couldâve passed as the kids from your neighbourhood if you didn't know their true identities.
âI brought some snacks.â Sunghoon announced, placing a sachet on the table. He took out all kinds of sweet things, but your eyes lit up at the sight of macaroons.
You had only seen their pictures and let your mind wander at what their taste would be like, but now they were in front of you, so you reached your hand and took one.
âYou like âem?â Heeseung asked, taking the chocolate flavoured one and eating it âIâve never tried them.â The whole table fell silent, all the boys stopping in their tracks.
âNever?â Jay questioned and you shook your head âThatâs a bummer though, I only bought four for the four of us.â Sunghoon was about to take the vanilla flavoured macaroon out of your hand when Jake slapped it away.
âI donât like them anyways, she can have mine.â Jay frowned at his friendâs words âYou love macarââ He was shushed by a biscuit placed in his mouth by Jake âI donât like them.â He repeated.
You bit on the small treat and your eyes formed hearts âItâs so good!â You said, munching on it. And you didnât know it, but Jakeâs heart skipped a beat at the sight of you so happy.
You continued to spend time with them, playfully beefing with Sunghoon as if you werenât an intruder in his house until they decided to go in the free time room to play billiard.
âBut I donât know how to play billiards.â You pouted, watching all the men gather around the pool table.
âThatâs ok, you can just watch.â Sunghoon dismissed you quickly, placing himself in front of you to posionate the balls inside the triangle.
You just scoffed and sat on the kitchen counter, crossing your arms on your chest.
You watched the game develop in front of your eyes, never truly understanding its rules. They were too useless and complicated and you stopped paying attention in the middle.
After what seemed like forever, where you had the time to walk around Sunghoonâs big house three times and even have a chat with his maids â cause apparently, rich kids could even afford maidens â you entered the kitchen again just to see it was empty.
You looked around, checking if anyone was there before following Sunghoonâs previous actions, placing the balls in the triangle to align them.
You didnât know what they found interesting in billiards, and trying to understand it wasnât going to get you killed.
You took the cue stick and positioned yourself, copying the boysâ postures.
Something mustâve gone wrong, though, because as you pushed the cue you embarrassingly missed it.
âYou are too far with your back.â The same voice that haunted your dreams spoke from behind you, making you flinch.
âChill, itâs just me.â Jake stated, munching on some chips âHeeseung wondered if you wanted something to eat.â
You smirked, leaning on the table âHeeseung or you?â Jake rolled his eyes but didnât deny your questioning.
He gulped down his food and stared at you âYou want to play pool?â
âI already said I donât know how to do that.â You repeated, glancing back at the untouched balls âI donât even understand the rules.â
âHere.â Jakeâs accent tickled your ears as he made you turn around with his hands on your hips âBend just a little.â You didnât know if his voice was really that low or if he was doing it just to tease youâ Whatever was his plan, you were down for it.
âMh? Like this?â You said with your most innocent voice, bending slightly more on the table, just enough to make your ass touch his front hips.
He let out a faint groan âYeah.â He tried not to show the effect you had on him and trailed his fingers along your arms until he reached the cue stick in your hands. Goosebumps formed on your skin at the contact.
âThen?â You asked, eager for him to touch you. âThen you place the cue like this.â He shifted your fingers so you could grip it the right way and turned his face, you could feel his breath on your skin and the tip of his nose poking your cheek.
There was also something else poking your ass cheeks, which was why you started moving, briefly. Just to tease him.
âTake the aim.â The combination of his voice and the proximity of your bodies made your mind hazy, making it hard for you to concentrate.
You just let him guide you âAnd⊠Shoot.â You pushed the cue between your fingers and finally, all the balls moved around the green table.
One went into the hole and you jumped happily âI did it!â You exclaimed, laughing âYou saw?â You asked, turning around.
Jake was staring at you with ever so deep eyes, full of emotions you didnât quite get but felt inside of you as well âI always see you.â
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You werenât sure why Heeseung invited you to yet another party, or the reason as to why you seemed to be the only girl at a boys hang out, but you werenât going to complain.
The hotel you guys were staying in was huge, apparently it belonged to Heeseungâs parents and you could have it all for yourself the whole night.
Wearing the best dress you owned you presented yourself at the location beside the raven haired man.
You greeted his friends group and noticed there were many other people, unlike you thought, all partying and dancing together.
It was very different from the ones he usually threw at his house, this one was huge and packed, there was almost no space to go through the crowd.
âAnd you said I couldnât bring Yunjin along.â You side eyed Heeseung, earning a shrug. âOne girl from the other side is already enough.â
You slapped lightly on his shoulder âRude.â Heeseung laughed and pushed your back a little. âGo have fun, I have guests to greet.â
Feeling like a mouse surrounded by cats, you made your way through the crowd, trying to ignore the thirsty stares you were receiving. Since that fateful night where you willingly let your heart out for Jake you had become more careful with your possible make outs.
As you turned your face to look at the big pool where people were swimming, you accidentally bumped someone's chest, which made you stumble backwards.
âSorry,â You murmured, about to walk away when a hand came around your wrist. It wasnât Jakeâs, the one you were used to, it was much rougher and tighter.
You glanced up just to notice a tall guy, probably high judging from his bloodshot eyes and twitching nose. Holy Moly.
That guy lowered to match your height, his hot and smelly breath made your nose scrunch in disgust âHey, gorgeous.â
Your whole body froze and your heart stopped beating for a few seconds âUh⊠Hi.â You laughed awkwardly, trying to remove your hand from his grip.
âYou bumped me by mistake?â He asked, getting dangerously close âOr did you want my attention. You didnât have to pull that act, my attention is all yours now.â His words were so slurred you could barely understand them.
âActually, it was a mistake.â You said and again tried to pull away from him, but the more you tried the more he got closer.
âDonât lie.â He whispered and wrapped one arm around your waist. You were trapped, your breath hitching.
âI truly am not.â You pushed his chest away, resulting in him only tightening his grip âCome on⊠Letâs have fun.â
âShe said it was a mistake.â A familiar voice with a thick accent, thicker than usual, commented, placing one hand on the guyâs shoulder.
The guy groaned and raised himself in all his height, turning around in slow motion â or maybe it was just your panicked vision playing tricks â toward Jake.
He stood in front of him, unfazed by how big and tall that guy was as he stared at him with a dark gaze.
âAnd who are you to interrupt us?â The guy asked, his voice too low for your own likings âHer guy.â Jake said as if it was the most obvious answer, raising a brow.
âSo, I suggest you walk the fuck away before I throw one punch on your nose and break it.â You had never seen Jake angry, you had a few fantasies about it, but you wouldâve never imagined him being so scary (and hot).
His whole aura was inky, arms crossed on his chest, showing his excessively veiny arms.
That guy was surely drunk but not enough to risk his own life. He raised his hands in a submissive manner and nodded âAlright, sorry man.â Jake tilted his head âItâs not me you have to apologise to.â
He took a moment to comprehend his words âOh.â He then turned to you and scratched the back of his neck âIâm sorry.â He didnât wait for your reply and just walked away.
Your eyes then met Jakeâs, filled with wrath âIââ You said but were met by his hand around your wrist, this time your body not repulsing it as that guyâs and he dragged you inside the hotel.
âJake, let go.â You tried to fight him but he was stronger, dragging you through the corridors until he reached what wouldâve been a storage room, full of pillows and sheets supplies âLet go, it hurts.â
Jake loosened his grip âYou really have trouble written on your forehead.â He snapped, his breath heavy as he paced around the room âI canât look away from you that youâre getting yourself into something bad.â
You frowned at his harsh words âThatâs not true.â Jake scowled âIs it not? You either get high or almostââ He couldnât bring himself to finish his sentence.
âWhy do you even care anyways?â You said back, brows knitted âYouâre the one who used me.â
Jake stopped in his tracks âUsed you?â He got closer to you.
âYes,â You stepped forward as well. âYou just used me, made me think you actually cared about me just to rebel against your parents.â
You gulped, your heart breaking again at the memory âNext thing I know, youâre ignoring me and smiling at a pretty girl.â
âDid you fuck her, Jake?â He was taken aback from your words, placing his hands on your shoulders. You shrugged him off, he still remained in your proximity without touching you.
âI think I lost something here, who was I smiling at?â You clicked your tongue, your hands on your waist as you got frustrated.
âThat girl, last Saturday.â You explained âDark hair, killer body, tall⊠Come on Jake, just admit it you wanted someone to fuck but I didnât and so you went with someone else.â
âThatâs really not what I did. I would never.â He blinked faintly âThat girl, sheâs Karina, Sunghoonâs sister.â He then added âI donât like her, not that way.â
You wanted to scowl at him, but his tone was so serious you found yourself asking â..What?â
âYouâre not the problem, Y/N.â Jake said, sighing âItâs me, itâs all my fault.â
You shook your head, confused. âWhatâ Jake, I donât understand.â
âI shouldnât have asked you to help me.â He backed up until his back hit the wall, running a frustrated hand in his hair âI exposed you to my parentsâ Iââ
You moved to him, taking his face in your hand âStop mumbling.â You ordered âTalk to me, whatâs wrong?â
Despite the way he treated you in the past week, your touch was still gentle and you worried about him. A spark of hope lit his heart up.
Jake nodded and took a deep breath âMy parents⊠they said that if I didnât break up with you theyâd make yours lose their job. Youâd lose your house⊠I couldnât do that, Y/N.â
He seemed as if he was slowly loosing his mind. You took in the sight of him, dark circles under his eyes, he looked paler wearing that white shirt. Just what on earth had he been doing?
âTheyâre powerful, with the amount of money they have they can easily buy your whole neighbourhood and evict you.â He gulped down âSo I am preparing to take over the company, to make them happy.â
Your eyes widened at his words, âThey threatened you?â You asked, removing your hands from his cheeks to stand properly.
Jake shrugged, âWe werenât together so technically I couldnât break up with you, but I could stay away if it meant youâd be safe.â He sighed softly, âI told you Iâm a bad bet since the first time we met.â
âNo,â You shook your head âYou arenât bad, your parents are.â
He scoffed, âAnd Iâm just like them.â
You fisted the collar of his shirt and brought his lips down to yours. He was shocked by your sudden action but he relaxed soon and closed his eyes, kissing you back.
âSay that again and your face will meet my fist.â You breathed out as you pulled away âYou donât get how brave you are? You were about to sacrifice your happiness to save my family⊠someone you met at a party.â
âYouâre not just someone I met at a party.â Jake whispered âIn just a couple of days you made my whole life better, you made me realise thereâs so much more than what I was used to.â
He placed one hand in your hair, caressing your scalp âI never meant to hurt you, baby.â
Your heart jumped as you heard his whisper, the pet name making your head spin âLater, I want you to explain everything to me everything.â You demanded.
Jake nodded âEverything you want, queen.â Your breath quickened âBut for nowâŠâ You trailed off and connected your lips again.
You kissed him, roughly and he did it back with the same intensity, having missed the taste of you, the scent of your perfume invading his nostrils, clouding his mind.
âLet me take you home,â He murmured between kisses âIn your bedroom.â
You shook your head, stumbling backward and bringing him with you âCanât wait.â
âYou sure about this?â He asked as you got out of the storage room, bodies still tangled âI could be bad, worse than you think.â
You wrapped your arms around his neck and brought him down on you âThen, I wanna find out.â
Jake let out a small groan and resumed kissing you, blindly reaching a doorknob and praying nobody was inside.
He dragged you in and locked the door behind your backs.
Jake pushed you against the wall as he undid the buttons of his shirt while you unbuckled his belt, your lips never leaving each other.
He discarded his shirt and helped you unzip his jeans, throwing all of them somewhere on the floor.
He then removed the straps of your dress, slowly kissing all the way down your neck to your almost exposed chest. He pulled away, enough to look at the now barely-visible hickey Heeseung did.
Jake let out a deep groan âYou donât know how much this drove me insane.â He commented, trailing his thumb over it
âYeah?â You asked âWere you jealous?â
âI wanted to rip his head off.â He said, kissing you again âWanted to cover your whole body with hickeys and my marks, just to let him know who you belong to.â
You nodded, âDo it,â You breathed out âMake me yours, Jake.â
He unconsciously bucked his hips to meet yours, his clothed bulge poking your pussy âFuck baby, you canât tell me that.â He whispered, attaching his lips on your neck again.
Jake lowered the dress until it rested on your hips, palming your breasts, growling at the feeling.
You gasped when his lips engulfed your nipple, twirling his tongue round it. Your hand went to grasp his hair while the other slowly lowered his boxers until his painful erection was free.
Jake helped you out of your dress and underwear until you were standing in front of each other naked. âIâll worship your body another time.â He murmured, trailing his fingers down your chest âFor now, I just want to fuck you rough.â
You smirked and shook your head, making Jake widen his eyes âYou donât want this? I can stop.â
âNo, I want it.â You stated, slowly sinking on your knees âI just need to show you my skills first.â
That was the hottest thing anyone couldâve done to Jake, his cock twitched in front of you. It was huge, veiny and hard, his mushroom tip looking ever so delicious.
âYou see, baby? This is what you do to me.â He pumped his shaft, brushing it on your lips.
âStick out that tongue for me.â You did as told and stuck your tongue out as Jake laid his cock on it, bucking his hips back and forth. The spongy and warm texture already making it leak with precum.
You played with his balls while you took him whole in your mouth, gagging when it hit the back of your throat. The filthy sounds filled the room as he took a hold of your head, fisting your hair in a makeshift ponytail while he thrusted inside your throat.
âSo good.â He panted, his head thrown back and brows knitted.
You twirled your tongue around his cock, pumping it with your hands where your lips couldnât reach âSucking my cock so well.â
Before you could even register, Jake pulled out and raised you from your armpits, placing you on the bed.
âI need to feel your pussy.â He stated, rubbing your clit with his thumb âWant to use a condom, baby?â He asked, âJust tell me.â
You shook your head, bringing him down onto you in a heated kiss âFuck me raw.â He moaned in the kiss and fisted his shaft again, gathering your juices, you got so wet even by just giving him a blow.
He slowly inserted himself in you, the stretch causing you to pant. You werenât a virgin but he was bigger than the ones you had before, so it took a moment for you to get used to it.
Jakeâs thrusts were nice and slow at first, his forehead resting on yours âI canât resist.â He breathed out, giving a deeper thrust âPlease, can I move?â
You nodded your head, trying to breathe steadily. Jake raised from you and spread your legs open while he moved inside you. You grasped your tits, palming them while maintaining eye contact with Jake.
âYou donât know how much I wanted this,â He groaned, pulling out just to spit on your hole to fill it again âPussy so tight can barely move.â
Your hand went down to rub circles on your clit, trying to make it wetter as his thrusts gained speed.
Jake slapped your hand and commanded âHands around your ankles.â And so you complied.
He leaned down and kissed you sloppily, his hips moving back and forth at a delicious rhythm. You moaned out loud.
Holding your head up to rest his forehead on it, your eyes still locked with the others as your body connected fanatically, Jake twitched inside of you and halted his movements.
âFuckk, almost came.â He chuckled, pulling out of you.
âWant to last longer than this.â He took your body and turned you around, you raised yourself on your arms and leaned your ass up.
âYou like being fucked in doggy, mh?â He spammed your ass âLooking so eager to be fucked dumb, you wonât think about anything but my cock in you.â
Jake pushed himself inside of you again, making you moan out his name âYes, thatâs me.â He groaned âSay it again.â
âJake.â You gasped, he fisted your hair, making you arch your back while he rutted your body âOh, Y/N.â He moaned as well.
Putting one hand around your neck, he squeezed it as he threw his own head back, lost in the pleasure your warm walls were giving you.
âFuck baby, Iâm not gonna last long.â He panted, stopping his movements to edge himself âJust fuck me.â You pleaded, frustrated by your own denied orgasm every time he stopped.
âSorry,â He chuckled, spanking your ass and leaning down to kiss the back of your shoulder âYou want to cum?â
You nodded, raising yourself to kiss him passionately as he slowly thrusted inside you âCan you ride me, baby? Pretty please?â
Jake looked so hot, messy bangs sticking to his forehead and heavy breath, you couldnât do anything but agree to everything he said.
You waited for him to lay down, his back pressed against the headboard of the bed as you straddled him.
You rubbed your wet folds on his hard-on, Jake reached for your tits and squeezed them âHave I ever told you youâre so fucking hot?â He asked.
You chuckled âNo, but I already know that.â You winked and raised yourself on your knees, slowly sinking down on his cock.
The stretch was still a little painful, but nothing compared to the pleasure his dick was giving you.
You moved on him, up and down at a slow but deep rhythm, feeling him all as he hit your cervix with each thrust.
Jake moved your hair out of your face, his lips attaching to your boob as if he was a toddler in desperate need of milk.
You moaned, your hands grasping his shoulders as you moved back and forth at a quick speed.
âOh yes.â He put his hands behind his head and watched as you rode him, your mouth agape, gasping for air while shaky moans escaped your lips âFeels good.â
Your legs started to shake and you could barely keep yourself up as you felt the knot in your stomach tighten âIâve got you.â Jake noticed and made you lay on his chest, his hands spreading your ass cheeks as he started rutting inside you, his pace so quick you didnât know it was possible.
Your pussy clenched around his cock, creaming him as you fell apart, your moans loud and whole body shaking.
Jake didnât stop, he chased his own orgasm which was so close.
âYou're just made to please me.â He panted, giving a few more thrusts âYou're made to squeeze every drop of cum from my cock.â His eyes rolled back with a low groan as he shot his load, his cock twitching until it emptied in you.
You both stayed there for a while, just trying to steady your breaths and calm your racing hearts.
Jake slowly traced your back with his fingers, a featherlight touch sending shivers all dove your spine.
He pulled out, his cum dripping down from your pussy to your thighs and bedsheets.
Jake helped you sit up and removed a few strands of hair that got stuck to your face âYou look gorgeous.â He whispered, earning a smile from you âAnd you did amazing.â
He cleaned you up and threw the dirty sheets on the floor âIâm sorry for whoever will have to clean them tomorrow.â You commented, grimacing.
âDonât worry about it,â He soothed, settling himself beside you and holding you on his chest, gently caressing your bare shoulder.
You looked up at him, resting your chin on his shoulder. âYou should start making choices for your own happiness, Jake.â You murmured
Jake let out a small sigh âIndeed, I should.â He pressed a kiss on your brow âI want to choose you, not my parents, not anyone else. Only you.â You smiled, âI only want you, too.â
âIâll find a way to fight my parents, I promise Iâll be stronger this time.â Your eyes softened at his words, you caressed his cheek and he leaned on your palm, melting âOh Jake, youâre the strongest person I know.â You confessed.
âReally?â He asked, looking like a lost boy, âReally.â You confirmed.
Suddenly, your stomach growled loudly. Jake glanced at his phone he had found in his forgotten jeans and put on the bedside table âItâs late night, ma chĂ©rie. Youâre hungry?â
You nodded, âI want steak.â Jake snorted at your joke âAnd I want a burger.â He said back.
âHanging out with a girl from the other side of the town changed you.â You smirked, nudging his shoulders
âYeah. For the better.â
THE END.
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YOUâVE GOT THE CURE (EVERYTHING I NEED) | B. KATSUKI.Â
âź tags ; gn + afab!reader, soft dom!reader, sub!bakaugou, developing relationships, mutual pining and ambiguous relationships, anal play (m!recieving), dry orgasms, p in v, unprotected sex, 18+
âź wc ; 6.7k
âź a/n ; an anon comission from a beloved mutual im posting. also just dropping in to say hello
âź synopsis ; katsuki is too fucking young to have erectile dysfunction, damn it.
âHey.âÂ
âHm?âÂ
The sound of your typing is especially loud in the empty office. Itâs a Saturday and neither of you are supposed to be clocked in, but when duty calls - itâs up to the two of you to answer.Â
â...Iâm going to tell you something. If you so much as fucking laugh I will kill you.â
You donât look up from your screen.
âWell thatâs one way to start a sentence. Iâll try not to laugh.â
Katsuki slams his hand on the desk.Â
âIâm being serious,â He says in a half-yell. You look up from the edge of your laptop unflinchingly with a displeased frown, shaking your head and throwing your hand up half-heartedly.Â
âFine, fine - I promise I wonât laugh. Can you stop being all ominous? You sound like Tokoyami.âÂ
âThereâs something wrong with me,âÂ
âWell yes,âÂ
âNot like that,â He hisses, taking a deep breath. He leans forward with his elbows on the table, hands clasped seriously as he covers his face. â...I think my fucking..thing..is broken.âÂ
Thereâs a loud noise like a muffled laugh but when Katsuki looks up your expression is completely blank. Your lips are pressed tight, eyes out of focus as you continue to type. Or pretend to. True to your word, you donât laugh but Katsuki still wants to fucking kill you.Â
âOh? What uhm,â You clear your throat, lips trembling as you try to keep yourself together. âWhat brought you to that conclusion?âÂ
He nearly snaps his pen in half.Â
âWhat do you fucking think?!âÂ
âHey. Calm down. Iâm doing my best not to laugh but you are not helping.âÂ
This is the sort of thing Katsuki would normally take to his grave. Not only is it genuinely humiliating, it is the sort of painful personal detail he wouldnât share with anyone even if he was fucking them. It wouldnât matter either, that his dick isnât working - if the other ways he relieved stress were.
Heâs got an average sex drive, sometimes lower but a high libido. Getting off is a physical response to a bodily need. Like eating food or taking a nap. Itâs just because itâs a physical need, it is noticeable when the need doesnât get met. He is painfully aware of it. Itâs been weeks and he thinks heâs starting to lose his mind. Worse? Heâs exhausted every human option trying to fix the problem himself, save for going to the dick doctor. His testosterone levels are fine, he gets check-ups more regularly than the average person. Given his reputation is at stake, heâd rather not get prescribed anything. Heâs bought ginseng and shitty vitamins and medicine he had to ship from overseas. Anything and everything.Â
Picking up viagra at the ripe age of twenty four would give him psychic damage he wonât recover from, this much Katsuki is sure of. So not that. But everything else, every natural remedy conceived - heâs tried.Â
âI donât know what to do anymore,â He says, pinching the bridge of his nose and willfully ignoring the sound of your strained huffing âI canât fucking getâŠ.it up and I donât know why. Iâve tried everything. Everything. Iâm going crazy,âÂ
âYou know, it really says something about our relationship that you can confide to me about these kinds of problems. Like Iâm so proud of us,âÂ
âShut up. Iâm already miserable enough without wanting to fucking tell you - but the only other option is Shitty Hair and Izuku. I refuse to buy a single goddamn pill for it, and I know if I go to a doctor theyâre gonna recommend it andââ He canât finish the thought. Itâs a little too sincere for the kind of conversation youâre having.Â
Youâre a tactless person, so of course - you donât bother with going along with the mood. Instead you smile like the evil bastard you are.Â
âAndâŠ?âÂ
âYou littleââ He sighs rubbing his palms over his hands âAnd because I can trust you to be the least horrible option.âÂ
âSo you acknowledge my valiant efforts as your underling and assistant and know youâd be nowhere without me?âÂ
âShut up.âÂ
âAw, youâre sweet,â You say, promptly ignoring him âBut yeah, I mean - no judgement. I would ask if youâve had anything major happen but I unfortunately already know thatâs not really the case.â
Yes. You, of all people, would know that no major changes have happened in Katsukiâs external life that would make it hard for his dick to function. You spend so much time together. Minus the time he spends working and catching villains in the world - youâre practically glued to his side. Youâre in charge of all of his affairs, his schedule, all other personal things. Katsuki is naturally neurotic, but you handle all of it with grace and care. You know everything about him, which is why he is asking you about this problem.Â
(Does it border on unprofessional? Of course it does. But your relationship to each other degraded that border a long time ago. Youâve already slept in his bed and met all of his friends. And kissed him, but thatâs irrelevant for now)Â
âI need solutions,â Katsuki offers, totally and utterly defeated by the situation at hand. âIâve done everything. Taken every goddamn herb, done every meditation. Nothing is working. Nothing. Iâm going to go fucking crazy.âÂ
âDo you think just sleeping with someone would help? I know you donât want to ask any of your friends, but maybe an escort? We can do it discreetly.âÂ
âFuck no. If it were that easy I wouldâve done it.âÂ
You pause. Katsuki can see the focus on your face and doesnât know if it makes him feel better or worse. After an elongated period of silence, you perk up a little. You lock eyes with him and Katsuki briefly regrets bringing the whole conversation up in the first place.Â
âHate to ask,â You say, though thereâs not enough embarrassment on your face to make anything of that statement. âBut uh, have you tried getting off with other things. Like something that isnât your dick.âÂ
He feels a flush creeping up his skin. âWhat the fuck are you talking about!â
âThis is an important question,â You emphasize, an expression so alarmingly calm Katsuki doesnât know if it makes him feel better or worse. âCause if the answer is no, then thatâs basically the best solution.âÂ
âHow the fuck is that the best solution? Are you insane?âÂ
âDonât be such a prude, Mr. Dynamight. Youâve bottomed before. Itâs not that different. Have you ever tried it on your own?âÂ
âI fucking hate you.â He replies, closing his eyes and frowning. âNo I havenât. Why the hell would I do something so embarrassing.âÂ
âI know youâre super anal retentive - no pun intended there actually, but can you relax a little? Itâs a good solution if nothing else is working. Your dick might be broken but an orgasm is an orgasm.âÂ
âRemind me to never ask you for shit again,âÂ
âIâd love that. Just keep me on payroll. Anyway,â You go back to typing. âI think that should be your first move,â
âHow theâare you seriously telling me I should go fuck myself to solve my problem?âÂ
You giggle. âWell it sounds bad when you put it like that. But I guess yeah. I can help pick out some sex toys, maybe, do a little research. If you donât want to do it in your apartment, there might be a love hotel,âÂ
A blush creeps up against the back of his neck. He covers his face with his hands.Â
âIâm begging you to shut the fuck up. Thereâs no,â Another wave of humiliation sets in âThereâs no way this is how Iâm going about this. Like. Fucking none.âÂ
âThe only other option is the good old fashioned doctors appointment, then. Which we can squeeze in over telehealth I think - since you got a check-up pretty recently. Want me to do that instead,âÂ
âFuck, no. I just,â He groans, feeling the stress make his eye twitch âFuck.âÂ
Thereâs a bit of silence and a little typing, like youâve decided to leave him to his thoughts. Which he doesnât blame you for, because all things fucking considered - thereâs not really any more options. Heâs a smart man and even he is fucking stumped. Heâs going to have to give into something, eventually. He knows that, but it doesnât make him feel any better.Â
As soon as he gets close to giving up, you sit up straighter and give a deep long sigh.Â
âHey,â You scratch the side of your face awkwardly. âDo you want me to help youâŠ.?âÂ
He stares at you. âWith what.âÂ
âWith your dick being broken,âÂ
âWhat?!âÂ
âDonât yell anymore, youâre giving me a headache,â You express, rubbing your temples. âLook. You need to get off, and youâre probably going to have to use your ass to do it. You donât want to do it by yourself, and you donât want to do it with a friend or escort. Youâd prefer not going to the doctor's office or taking any pills. Iâm offering - Iâm not really your friend per se and you trust me enough to ask about it.âÂ
He hates more than anything that you have a point.Â
âYou canât be fucking serious right now.â
âHey. If you want your dick to stay broken for a while until you figure it out, do you. Iâm just saying. Offering solutions is what you pay me for,âÂ
He pulls back a little.Â
â...Are you fine with that?âÂ
âOh banging you? Is that what youâre worried about?â He winces at the direct and crass way you speak. âI like you plenty and youâve got a pretty face. Iâm down if you are,âÂ
âI canât believe Iâm considering this.âÂ
âReally? I totally can,â You snicker, and he really, really considers firing you. âItâs not the first time weâve crossed boundaries with each other. Just consider it, okay? Before you actually blow a fuse.âÂ
He leans back in his chair and groans.Â
âFuck. Yeah, whatever.âÂ
__Â
Itâs another week before Katsuki takes you up on your offer.Â
Miraculous it took that long, given the amount he suffered stubbornly trying to fix the problem on his own. The lengths he went too are too embarrassing to even disclose or recount but it very quickly became clear that this was not an issue that was going to magically disappear - no matter how hard he tried.Â
Against his better judgment and after a long, cold shower trying to talk himself out of reality - Katsuki sent you a one line text.Â
Fine. Come Saturday.Â
The only thing he could say without dying of complete fucking shame. Heâs grateful thatâs the time you decided to have some tact.Â
(Not a lot, since the text back you sent was a peach emoji and a thumbs up. But whatever, heâll take what he can get.)Â
Itâs Saturday now, and heâs clean. All of him. Heâs clean, and just wearing his boxers - sitting on his couch. Youâll be here very soon, and he canât believe heâs saying this, but heâs nervous.Â
You did mention you were fine with it. He believes that because thereâs been long standing tension between you two for god knows how long heâs not entirely blind too. You sleep at his place sometimes and spend all day with him, and then there was that one time you two kissed (very sober) during New Years. You donât bring it up because you know he canât deal with it. Yet heâs comforted by the fact you at least want it (because youâve said so), and that youâre willing to do this despite the ambiguity in your relationship.Â
He knows that is inevitably going to come up today. But he really wants to fucking cum. And if itâs with you, then itâs fine. If his head was a little clearer, he would probably reject this whole thing based on his own emotional disparity. God fucking knows he is not in any place to deal with any of that. His heart barely gets by in the office and now you were going to fuck him.Â
Is he stupid?Â
Usually no, but because thereâs a soft dick and tight balls where his brain used to be, currently yes. Everything put together, itâs a recipe for disaster. He considers telling you to fuck off and forget all this happens.Â
But then he thinks about the prospect of your hands and your voice and itâs enough to at least get his heart pumping, though his dick still refuses to cooperate.
More than anything, he does trust you. Shitty, smug little fucker you can be sometimes - thereâs not a single person who goes out of their way for him. More than just your job, sometimes it feels like every little thing you do is for his sake. Everything you donât ask of him, every secret you keep. You push him where he needs to go and encourage him to take risks in his career without imposing on him.Â
He blushes again, laying on his couch. He was nervous before but itâs not any better. Maybe heâs not so much of a dumbass as he is a total fucking masochistic. Is the level of overthinking the shit Izuku goes through? No wonder heâs like that all the time.Â
He almost jumps out of his skin when he hears the doorbell ring.Â
He answers the door shirtless and finds you on the other side. You have a cardboard box and the most nonchalant expression heâs ever seen. Normally it would annoy him, but right now heâs kind of comforted by it. You look at him with a flat smile.Â
âHey sexy,â You say with no intonation. âCan I come in?âÂ
He gives you a look of disdain. âDonât ever say that shit to me again. But come in,âÂ
You laugh quietly as he steps aside. You donât have much with you other than the ominous box and your bag.Â
âYou look like youâve showered,â You say, taking your shoes off and putting on the house slippers he keeps for you. You donât even look at him as you go towards his bedroom upstairs. He follows you with mild (faux) annoyance.âWhat a shame.âÂ
âThe fuck is that supposed to mean?âÂ
âI wanted to get a little romantical and help you clean up but youâve taken that from me. Iâm a little hurt.âÂ
âYouâre such a dumbass. As if Iâd let you do that,âÂ
âDonât be such a spoilsport. Iâm gonna be playing in your ass today anyway.âÂ
âNot the same thing.âÂ
âTomato, to-mah-to,â You say with a wave of your hands. When you finally get upstairs, you look over your shoulder. Katsuki gets the message quickly enough, helping you with the door. You give him a little smile and let yourself in, dropping the box on the edge of his king sized mattress.Â
He stands in the doorway for a short while, glancing at you before coming in. You put your bag somewhere on the floor before getting back to the box youâve brought over. He can guess whatâs in it, but he stands with you to open it anyways.
Predictably, the thing is full of sex toys. The first question he wants to ask is how much you spent on all of it, but he bites his tongue.Â
You look at him and do a little jazz hands gesture. âTah-dah.âÂ
He gives you a displeased look, but youâre well used to this sort of thing from him. There isnât actually a whole lot in the box. The theatrics of you bring it upstairs were more likely just you fucking with him for the sake of the bit. He frowns. Typical.Â
You do have some new things in the box. A few expensive look gadgets, like a pair of quirk canceling handcuffs (decorated with leopard print fur) and something that looks like it goes around his neck. The sex toys that are in there are noticeably high quality. You definitely used his dime to pay for this.Â
âHandcuffs? Seriously?âÂ
âYouâre too much of a control freak and I like not having my hands blown to bits,â You say, shaking your head. âWe should establish some ground rules and stuff now.âÂ
âHaah? The fuck are you gonna do that we need rules.â
âIâm not just gonna jump scare you with dominating you. But that is what Iâm doing. What weâre doing.â You give him a more serious look, that makes him feel more shy than he cares to admit. âYou get what Iâm saying? You have to trust me a little, okay?âÂ
He makes a petulant face at you. âI already trust you dipshit,âÂ
âThis and that are different,â You say, shaking your head. He refrains from disagreeing with you a second time. Theyâre really not, but he has no desire to explain that. âIâm gonna touch you and be a little strict. Are you okay with that?âÂ
âI donât care.âÂ
âThatâs not an answer,âÂ
He grits. âI want to cum. And IâŠtrust you or whatever. I already agreed to this. If itâs pissing me off, Iâll just kick you offa me. Anyway, âs fine.âÂ
âIf you kick me Iâm suing you for battery. We can have a safeword. Iâm not going to duct tape your mouth and Iâm gonna talk you through most of it - but just incase.â You say. He pauses, taken aback by how⊠delicately youâre treating him. He doesnât know if he should be pissed about it or not. âAny word is fine. We can use the stoplight system too if you want.â
âStoplight?âÂ
âRed for stop, yellow for slow, green for go.âÂ
âThatâs fine. Easy to remember.âÂ
âOkay,â You nod to yourself, tucking the promise to memory before looking at him more seriously. âAre you okay with intimacy?âÂ
He stares at you.Â
âThe fuckâŠ?âÂ
âKissing and hand-holding and all that other stuff.âÂ
âIs it necessary?âÂ
âStrictly speaking, no,â You look at him knowingly this time. Heâs taken aback, but youâre always like this. You look through him, not at him. âAre you okay with it?âÂ
The implication is there. Do you want it? is the question that goes unasked. Too direct for his tastes. He feels heat spread through his body, rubbing the back of his neck sheepishly.Â
âYeahâŠâm fine with it.âÂ
Your smile is more genuine this time around. He turns away from you a little.Â
âOkay. Thatâs everything out of the way. Iâm gonna cuff your arms,â You say. It all feels a little sudden. He figures youâd mean business, but still - heâs not all that prepared. Heâs had a week to mentally prepared but that feels like nothing compared to now. Thereâs an authority to the way you talk now he isnât sure heâs going to get used too. âRepeat your safewords to me when you turn around.âÂ
He frowns but listens. He puts his hands together in front of him, waiting for you to cuff him, shyness making him hot.Â
âUh. Red for stop, yellow for slow down, green for go.âÂ
âGood boy,â You say so smoothly it almost rolls off of him. The cuffs go around his wrists, and Katsuki can feel the familiar sensation of losing his quirk. Now itâs just the both of you. âIâm expecting a little pushback, but generally - youâre to listen to me. Clear?âÂ
âGod, fuck - yeah clear,â Katsuki says, feeling ticklish all of a sudden. âAll this shitty foreplay is making me feel weird.âÂ
You wrap your arm around his midriff in a sudden movement, making him twitch. He can feel your cheek pressed against his chest as your hands hover over his waistband. He takes in a sharp inhale.Â
âItâs good that youâre feeling anything.â You say, breath just barely above a whisper. âGonna take this off,âÂ
He just nods, silently. Itâs still on soft, but something is happening in his gut at least. You help him take his boxers down. Youâve probably seen him naked before, more than once. You two being attached at the hip was no joke. This time thereâs this lingering anticipation thatâs there, and that changes things.Â
He steps out of his boxers. Heâs naked and youâre clothed and his head feels like itâs spinning. Your hand guides him to the edge of the bed. He sits and watches you, but you donât undress.Â
The first kiss (second kiss) that you exchange with Katsuki is pleasant. You bend down to do it. Itâs a chaste way to meet his lips, weirdly soothing while his stomach is starting to tie in knots. Itâs a little surprising how..comfortable it is. Your mouth is soft, your lips taste a little like chapstick and you smell nice. You pull away to kiss the corner of his mouth, trailing down his jaw.Â
Your thumbs draw over the shell of his ear, rubbing the lobe tender. Youâre so different. The contrast in your normal personality is a little too much for him to reconcile with easily, but you brush over these things well enough. He looks away when you meet his eyes.Â
âDo you wanna lay down or kneel?âÂ
His throat is tight. â...Donât care.âÂ
You laugh a little to yourself, another kiss. âLay down then. Itâd probably be easier if you put your ass up but knowing you, I doubt it.âÂ
He blushes, annoyed that heâs so obviously predictable to you.Â
The sheets are soft where he lays. You donât join him on the bed at first. He just waits there cuffed as you shuffle around for things - lubes and toys and pillows. When you do return to him, you pat his side and slide a pillow underneath his back. He quickly regrets laying down, because god the position is fucking exposing.Â
You get between his legs and settle there comfortably. A hand rests on his bare thigh, rubbing your thumb into smooth, muscled skin. His breath is hitched. You lean down and kiss his hip. Still no dice on the erection, but you donât seem discouraged.Â
You flip the lube open and let it pour onto your fingertips. Itâs pink lube. This is mildly irritating, but saying anything will feed into your satisfaction so Katsuki bites his tongue. He watches it as you warm it in your hands, patting his leg with your clean hand.Â
âLegs up,â You instruct. âAnd deep breath. Try not to tense.âÂ
âJust goinâ for it, huh?â
You donât reply to that, but you do smile.Â
Itâs not his first rodeo. His second or third, but certainly not his first - but heâs never had it done for a reason like this. There was an exchange prior, that someone was putting something in him for their pleasure too. This isnât for that. This is just for him, with your skilled hands and your oddly gentle tendencies that he doesnât see any other time. That proves to be too much, makes his belly feel honeyed with lust.Â
The warm, thick sensation of lubed fingers presses against the tight rim of muscle. He breathes and unclenches. Tries not to think too hard about anything. Heâs desperate, too desperate. At this point, itâs hard to be prideful. Your hands are noticeably daintier than the ones heâs had in him prior. ItâsâŠweirdly nice. Makes the process easier somehow. Heâs reminded that youâre just you, and that makes him more nervous.Â
âThatâs it, baby,â You hum, so soft itâs startling. The way the blood starts to rush in that familiar way nearly makes him sick. Oh, fuck. No way. âOh?âÂ
No way. No fucking way. No way thatâs what does him in.Â
You pause. He takes in a deep breath, ready to say anything to defend himself. Humiliation spreads through his whole body. He can feel how hard heâs starting to burn, like the blood in his body is struggling to keep up with the desire and pump of his heart. His chest and face start to flush a familiar rose as he grits his teeth and closes his eyes.Â
Weeks. Weeks and weeks of trying to figure this out. And it was you calling him baby, of all things, to get him at half-mast.Â
Heâs too afraid to open his eyes, but forces himself too. Heâs expecting a smug laugh or sarcastic jab but instead you just look surprised. You stare at him, unblinking. Heâs so startled he stares back.Â
âDo you wannaâŠkeep going?âÂ
He gets hard. Fuck.Â
âS-shit,â He says, wishing he could cover his face with his hands properly. âYeah,âÂ
He canât read your expression at all. Annoying. You donât brush over it though - but you donât force him to acknowledge it either. Maybe youâre just focused on the fact he finally has something to work with and donât want to ruin it by making him talk about his feelings.Â
âBaby,â You say again, smooth and deliberate. Thereâs that twitch again, something pooling in his gut. He starts to feel nervous. Youâre doing the same as before, stretching him and teasing the rim - getting him ready for something else. âYou like beinâ my baby, Katsuki?âÂ
He opens his mouth, only to close it again. He tries to choke some word about, telling you go fuck yourself - but he always ends up looking at your face. Your lashes on your cheek. Soft touches and even softer words. He stops knowing what he wants at some point.
âUgh,â His voice grows thicker. âDonât ask me that,âÂ
(If he were more apt at honesty, he could admit to you that he just wants you. In whatever way. Sometimes you get like this, when youâre not screwing around - and youâre so good to him that it hurts. He likes your sarcasm and dryness.Â
But he likes too when youâre this sweet on him too - even if that feels shameful as fuck. That feels like itâs crossing so many more lines that youâre usual self. He knows that better than anyone. It is crossing more lines than usual.Â
He canât help but think about it anyway.)
You laugh a little. His eyes go lidded as you continue to work him open. Itâs a slow process. You circle his hole with your thumb each time before pushing in. You get one finger in without effort. The second one takes a little more. Another heaved breath and unclenching of his muscles.Â
He hasnât felt the sensation of something entering him in so long. He canât remember when the last time was. Heâs antsy as you pump your fingers in and out, stretching him slowly. You find the bottle with your free hand, flicking it open with your teeth and pouring lube onto him directly before you keep going.Â
âThat feel okay?â You mumbles
âY-yeah. Feels fine,â He huffs, closing his eyes âFeelsâŠgood,âÂ
âItâll feel better soon. Just need to,â You curve the two fingers inside of him up. They search and search and search untilâ
There. Shit, there.Â
âOh, shit,â He gasps, arching himself up as you rub it. You smile at him, pleased. âFuck,âÂ
You whistle. Katsuki can feel his cock throb properly now, up at full attention. You donât touch him though. Your other hand grips his thigh for support as you focus your wrist and energy on curling your fingers against his prostate. His stomach flutters, waist tightening.
Heâs been fucked before, damn it, but this is different. This is controlled and concentrated. Your fingers are perfect in their motion, pinpoint pleasure making him break out into a feverishness. Youâre annoyingly good at this. His whole nervous system feels like itâs being unraveled so slowly. Pulled apart like the slices of a fruit, something for you to pick off and eat.
His head feels like itâs full of cotton, tongue too big for his mouth. Thoughts clouded and inhibition lowered. Real pleasure. He hasnât felt that in what has to be more than a month now. Itâs overwhelming. Heâs sensitive and muddy and acting stupidly - heâs well aware. Itâs an out of body experience being so unwound in general but this after everything is overstimulating.Â
God it feels good. How can anything feel this fucking good?Â
His breathing is erratic, heart pumping trying to keep up with it. Euphoric little pricks start at his abdomen and shoot off through his whole body. Like the splintering ends of a falling star.Â
Heâs never had any orgasm that feels like it needs every muscle in his body to pump through him. It starts in his center and spreads out, melts him slowly. Usually the feeling of needing to cum is passing - just building pleasure until the orgasm hits and the high relaxes. His cock is leaking now with every little press along his insides. Little white dribbles of pre-cum sliding down his shift all the way down to his ass. He doesnât want to think about how he looks, so he focuses on how it feels.Â
âFuck, that feels so good,â His voice almost gives. âShit, Iâm gonna cum if you donât slow down.â
âYou can cum if you want to, Katsuki,â As if to drive the point home by massaging his inner thigh, neglecting his cock âGuess youâre pretty sensitive inside, hm? Gonna make you cum like a girl,âÂ
His blush deepens..Â
âHaah, fuck - fuck Iâm not sensitive. Itâs just, hng. Been a while,âÂ
âDonât be a liar or I wonât let you cum,â You tease.Â
His eyes shoot wide, brows touching his hairline. âFuck, d-donât you dare. .âÂ
You have the nerve to laugh at him. All things considered, maybe youâve earned. âJust teasing. Iâm awful but not that awful. âÂ
âYouâre not awful, fuck - just really,â He throws his head back against the sheets. âNeed to cum, really need toââÂ
âGonna cum without even touching your cock,â You say, half-amused. He shudders when the realization dawns on him.âYouâre so sweet.âÂ
Heâs drooling. The strength goes out in his jaw as the feeling just builds and builds and builds. It goes on like itâll never topple.Â
When it does, it doesnât feel so much like a rope unsnapping as much as it feels like everything is being pulled from under him. Like the loss of gravity. His abdomen goes tight, the anticipation of it making it impossible to breathe. So close, so close, so close. His brain feels shut off, mindlessly humping along air to capitalize on everything. Youâre encouraging only eggs him on further. He lets out a garbled little noise, choking. His voice rasps as electricity flows through him.Â
And he cums, thereâs an orgasm - but nothing comes out. He cums so hard but his balls still feel so tight and full. It feels good but heâs still so fucking hard. It snaps him awake as his eyes open, and youâre staring at his cock a little awestruck.Â
âOh, poor baby,â You say - not exactly mocking him but not exactly being kind either. Katsuki stares at you lost and hazy. âA dry orgasm after all of that. Thatâs just cruel.Â
He heaves. âWhat theâŠ.how am I supposed to?âÂ
His dick aches. Fuck he almost wants to cry.Â
Your hand wraps around the base of his shaft in a sudden movement, making him hiss. He almost cusses you out. Sensitive, too sensitive. You put your thumb over the tip of his cock, more pre-cum leaking from it as you. You look mesmerized as it dribbles against your thumb
A long pause.Â
âHey,â Your expression is serious. âDo you wanna fuck me?âÂ
âWhat?âÂ
âIâm really turned on right now, shit. I was planning on just helping you but, you didnât cum yet and Iâm...,â Youâre looking at him so directly. His heart pounds. âYou can say no,âÂ
Of course he wants to fuck you. Thatâs what he wants to say. He doesnât know where heâd find the fucking gall.Â
â....âs sensitive,â He says instead, flushing with embarrassment. You brighten up. âJust⊠give me a minute,âÂ
âI will but first,â You rummage through your items and pull out a plug. His eyes widen. âItâll feel good, I promise.âÂ
He grumbles, but doesnât reject you. You have some kind of miracle in you - so he feels more inclined to just give in to whatever you say. You look eager to do it. He doesnât know how he feels about that.Â
Itâs easy enough to put the plug in when heâs already all soft. Heâs still sensitive and swollen. He hisses as the cool metal of the plug slides into softened hole, before settling. You give him a little tap on his which he glares at you for. Your only response is laughter.Â
Thereâs nothing to talk about while Katsuki watches you undress. You donât take it all off - just your bottoms. Itâs not that he has nothing on his mind. Just that⊠seeing you like that isnât making him any less hard. He just⊠looks at you. Dumbly. You slide your shorts off in one go and your underwear along with it, and youâre all on display.Â
Itâs pretty. Your pussy is really pretty. A horrifyingly embarrassing thing for him to think but itâs true. Thereâs a fine layer of hair on your mound that he likes. Youâre dripping wet like you said you were, and that doesnât make the situation any easier. You give him a little smug grin as you settle over his lap. He stares at you completely absent-minded, flushed.Â
âLike what you see?â You tease. Heâs too struck to lie to you.Â
âYeah,â He rasps. Heâs out of his mind right now. He blames it on his dick. âI wish I could take these fuckinâ cuffs off.âÂ
You look at him a little surprised. âYou donât like being cuffed and restrained?âÂ
His ears feel hot, heat prickling up his skin. âDidnât say that just,â He groans even trying to say it. â...Wanna touch you,âÂ
He trails off. You use your hand to turn his face back to you, cupping his jaw as you bend forward to kiss him. He stares at you wide-eyed, making a noise of surprise. This kiss is different from all the others. Deeper, with more feeling. He gets into it, lifting his head to kiss you back.Â
When you pull away, youâre all fluttered lashes and adoration.Â
âAfter I drain your dick dry,â You say with a confidence that astounds him. âIâll take them off and let you fuck me proper. But you have to tell me you want that, first. Do you wanna fuck me, baby?âÂ
âShit. Y-yeah,â He nods, feeling absolutely swept up in your pace.Â
âSay it.âÂ
âI wanna fuck you, dammit,â He stutters through the last of his sentence. âDonât make me beg, my dick is going to blow off if you keep torturing me.âÂ
You laugh good naturedly and he feels a little proud that he made you laugh. The thought that heâs beyond whipped wipes the smile off his face completely, but whatever.Â
You pull back, sitting up as you examine his cock. You hold it up to you, weighing your options.Â
âIâm too horny to open myself up. Iâm just gonna sit on it, âkay? Donât buck your hips up,âÂ
He opens his mouth to protest, but the words die in his mouth. The warm, wet heat of your cunt is immediately overstimulating. He groans so gutterally it startles him. Like itâs punched out of him. This is the only pressure his hard cock has gotten in months and itâs making him feel like heâs on fire.Â
You donât give him a chance to cover. You lean over him as you maneuver his cock to your entrance with all disregard for his sanity. You hiss as the tip finds the spot. Fuck youâre wet. Your insides are so soft, so sticky - but youâre still so damn tight.Â
As you promised you go slowly. It doesnât help him losing his mind. Worsened by the fact he can see you on top of him, all bated breaths and shaky moans. There must be a dull pain, but you only give him a smile as you get the first inch.Â
âYouâre big,â You say breathlessly. His cock twitches to life. âFeels fucking good. Shit, thatâs amazing. Haha, I can feel you so deep already.âÂ
âPlease stop talking, before I, haah,âÂ
âDonât cum yet,â You demand, lowering yourself further and further until youâve bottomed out. Katsuki feels fucking crazy. âLet me get my fill first.âÂ
âNgh, easier said than fucking done,âÂ
You just laugh. âTry your hardest, Mr. Hero. Show off your endurance, hm?âÂ
He groans as you start to move. You really donât regard him at all. You lean over him with one hand and use your other to tease and toy with your clit as you ride his cock with reckless abandon. The room is quick to fill with noise - the sound of skin slapping skin, the skin sticking where your hips meet his thighs.Â
 Youâre moaning in little broken waves. Heâs not going to last if he listens to you anymore.Â
Heâs biting the inside of his cheek trying not to cum, but you donât make it easy. Youâre riding him with so much force, using him. Your pussy is so tight itâs gripping him, sucking him dry. A vice-like grip, sticky and pliant over the hard curve of his cock. Everytime you bounce and throw your ass a little harder onto him, he can feel you. Feel himself and how deep he is. His hands tighten into fists where theyâre cuffed in front of him.Â
Heâs never been⊠used like this. But he doesnât hate it the way you disregard him to chase your own pleasure while being so generally mindful of his own. You take and take and take but you make it feel so good.Â
Itâs not helped by the plug in his ass, brushing against his prostate every single time you move. Makes him jolt. Every fiber and nerve in his body is wound as tight as it can possibly go. All of his strength, sanity, and focus he has left in him is trying not to cum, not to buck his hips up and rut into you like a stupid animal no matter how much he wants too.Â
He can feel you start to cum before you even tell him. Your walls pulse with need and your movement starts to get slower. The grip you have holding you up weakens slightly.Â
âGonna cum. Fuck baby, Iâm gonna cum,â You say with a pant. You open your eyes and look down on him âCum with me, okay? Donât hold it in,âÂ
The words alone trigger a reaction. But with everything else, itâs like Katsuki explodes. Weeks worth of tension in his body, in his muscles, in his everything  - burst at the seams. You cum and he follows you nearly in succession. The hard pulsing of your swollen cunt suck around him like a vice and he goes practically limp feeling his dick finally drain.Â
He cums and he canât stop cumming. Pumps out so much white hot seed his head starts to cloud. He fucks up into you, sloppy and dumb. Chasing his high as he pours every ounce of his load into your pussy without so much as a modicum of shame. A month of dryness overwritten by the most intense orgasm heâs ever had in his fucking life. He doesn't know how long he stays there, painting your walls with his spend. It just goes on forever, longer than heâs ever experienced.Â
He has his eyes closed as he goes limp. Fucking hell.Â
It takes him a while to go soft again. When he finally does and returns to consciousness, heâs still nestled inside you. You give him a smile when his eyes finally open, leaning forward to kiss his hairline.Â
âStill all there?âÂ
His voice is hoarse like heâs been screaming. âI feel like I fucking died,âÂ
You giggle.Â
âSo⊠no?âÂ
âKind of. Barely. What the fuck is up with you.â He says laying his head back, sweat dripping down his back. âShit.âÂ
âDid you like it?âÂ
He gives you an unimpressed look as you laugh.Â
âIâm glad.â You say softly. Youâre warm. God heâs down bad. âWe have a lot to talk about later. You should take a little break for now.âÂ
He nods in agreement to both things before pausing. âFor now..?âÂ
âYou thought we were done?â You say with a tilted head. He gapes. âI thought you knew I was more ruthless than that.âÂ
He groans.Â
âYouâre insane.âÂ
You chuckle, leaning down to kiss him.Â
âYou love me.âÂ
He lets you kiss him some more and doesnât bother denying it.Â
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