#also maddie idk if you are at all interested since we usually just talk about deanlena but just in case!

[sergeantpixie]

tell me about whichever WIP isn't about elena gilbert if you can

Anon I know you're trying to be mean but a) I have no shame about how many Elena verses I have, that's my Girl, and b) I am so delighted to be able to talk about the one verse on that list that has nothing to do with Elena Gilbert, that's why I put it there! So thank you!

"I am willing to take more hurt if it's from you" is a project I've been working on for so long and I'm finally making some real progress on it which feels amazing! It's my Alison DiLaurentis/Aria Montgomery (Pretty Little Liars) fic that is supposed to be as canon based as possible, just using the subtext between the two characters to create a story where Alison and Aria were secretly hooking up before Alison disappeared.

Instead of giving you the full pitch on why they make sense as a ship (and why they are basically canon, or at least Alison having feelings for Aria is) I'll just refer to a post where I went off in the tags about them because it says pretty much everything I would say about it here: this post.

In summary: When Alison asked Aria if she knew why she picked her, the answer is: Ali's obsessed with Aria.

The premise of the story would be Alison and Aria's relationship being Rosewood's best kept secret, then when the liars discover Alison has been alive all this time, Aria feels compelled to confess what happened between them all those years ago in order to get ahead of Alison and prevent her from using that to alienate her from the other girls. (Alison is still Alison, I have no interest in changing that.) It's the girls' reaction to that as well as an exploration of Aria and Alison as characters. And maybe Ezra really is A but that might just be implied we'll see.

Between Jake, Ezra, and her first love’s girl-Jesus resurrection, Aria’s love life has never been more complicated, and that’s like, really saying something.

the tiniest excerpt :)

@randomestfandoms

[after-nine-at-the-oasis]

Oop! Ahhh a lawyer :D

Dang I was hoping they'd show us who it is lol, like a case we recognize xD

Ah hello lady :) who are you?

Oh cool ocd :))

Ope in the rain?? Hmm I don't remember this xDD when was it lol

Or maybe it is one we've never seen! Idk lol

OPE LOL she's his lawyer now I guess xDD

Oohhh nooo, "how inexperienced"? I bet she's never had a case before xD

YUP XDD

Well yk like been in court

Uhhh ohhh

Ohh amputated his hand o.o!! Interesting 😳👀👀

Oh there's her name and like a special over layer voice too lol

OHHH WAIT RIGHT

SHE'S THE GOOD LAWYER ISN'T SHE :OOOO

FROM THAT SPINOFF!!!

O H H H

Okay!!!

Ah yeah there's another lady :D

That lady from the beginning

Ope yeah!!! The Good Lawyer :DD

OOFGH THE DRAMA

This is so exciting :DD

OOOFGH I bet this is gonna be good :DDD!!!

Wow!! That's crazy :DD!!

That's the last of my last thoughts, now it's time for the. . .

REVIEW

I loved this episode!! I thought it was great :D. We didn't get much interaction between the cases, but to be fair, we usually don't lol :D. We did get a bit though, so that's always nice :)). But the little group scenes we did get were really great :D. Plus some duos we don't always see - ESPECIALLY considering some (one - person/duo) of them haven't been here for 5 seasons XD. It was great having Kalu back lol, and I really liked all of the storylines :). And, slightly different in this case (just by my meaning), the patients were cool too :). When I said storylines a second ago I was talking about the characters' personal storylines, but I'm not always/usually doing that lol. Anyway, great episode!! Really sad for that one plot though DD':. Still, great (not exactly despite that bc it was great too lol but yk :) ).

Now, time for the individual parts!!

Quick bit: Jerome 🥰🥰, love you hun, miss you 😭 <33, excited to see you again soon :)) (hopefully xD). And also nothing better happen to him and Asher lol.

Lim! We didn't see much of her this episode, but she was great for what she was in :DD. I'm so sorry she had to go through that when she was younger <33. And then at the end, she hired Kalu :DD!! And was smart about it too lol :)), finding him a spot. Then of course, her scene eitht he girls at the end :')). Well not Lea but yk lol. Them all having dinner together was so cute 😭😭❤️, AND supporting Morgan? We love to see it 🥰🥰🥰 :')). Them :'DD. But yeah, Lim specifically offering to do it :'). Not that Jordan wouldn't, but this is a section about Lim lol. Also, we didn't see Lim do much of her job medicine wise like hands on, but she helped with Morgan and Jordan's case and she hired Kalu lol, so, she was as always amazing at her job :). Anyway, she's great, love her :DD.

Perez :). Another person we didn't see much, but again, he was great for what we did :)). Did his job well, and seeing him try to help Park out a little while also kind of being deer in the headlights sometimes lol was sweet :). Also him trying to guess who Joe was to Park XDDD. Hilarious lol, I love him <333. But yeah, he was amazing this episode 🥰🥰. I hope the NA is working out for him btw :'D.

Andrews! Too bad he didn't get the donation xD. But lol, he was great this episode. Honestly, I think his level of anger level at Kalu was pretty good - it's been years, lol, he's at least partially over it xD. But I'm glad they could still work together :). And of course, Andrews was great at his job this episode 🥰. I'm definitely excited to see how it goes in the future with him since Kalu's around! Like I said, I think where he was at was good, but I do think they should talk at some point. Also, by the way, I started this paragraph on Sunday (Monday morning?), so it may be a bit short from here on out lol - I'm on a time crunch xD. Anyway! I love him ❤️❤️.

Glassman :)). I'm really glad he could be there for Lea :'DD. He helped her feel better about herself, and her fears, and he found her a way to keep a bit of her 'old' life :')). Amazing 😭😭❤️. Also, again, I love me some Maddie stories :')). The amount of we've been getting lately is just lovely :DD. - wait. Glassman better not die any time soon xD. Anyway, I really loved his scenes with Lea, they were so cute and sweet :'DD. And I'm sure he was great at his job this episode lol - I don't think we saw it xD. But, nonetheless :). He was great :)). I love him <333.

Morgan! I felt so bad for her this episode :'((. Seeing that look the others gave her when they were talking about having an abortion? 😭. But also, seeing them support her at the end of the episode was so :'))). I love them all so much <333. Anyway, Morgan was great at her job this week :'D. It was definitely a tough one, but they all got through it <33. Also, Morgan's conversation with Park was a slay moment xD. I love her :') ❤️❤️.

Asher! Again my man with his tea-seeking tendencies lol xD. But, even though we didn't see too much of him this episode, he was great in what we did see :). He was great at his job, obviously, but it was also fun seeing someone interact with Kalu who never knew him :D! But also. Not that I don't trust Asher. But he better not like Kalu 😒. Or at least not for long and obviously not do anything about it. I trust Asher, I don't trust the writers xD. He better have been just looking for tea lol. Anyway, he was great, and funny as per usual lol xD. I love him 🥰🥰.

Jordan :)). Her case was so sad this episode :'((. I mean obviously it was Morgan's too but yk lol. I'm glad they honored her wishes and tried to save the baby, but I'm also glad they eventually convinced her to let her go. Jordan's conversation with her was so 😭😭. Just, heartbreaking </33. But I'm so glad she managed to do it <3. No one deserves to be put in that situation (the patient I mean, but also them as doctors), but they went through the whole thing with respect and grace. Also I loved them all being there and supporting her for the baptism :'). And of course, that ending scene with the girls was great <33. So yeah :D. Jordan was amazing at her job this episode 🥰🥰. I love her <33.

Shaun! It was really nice seeing him try to help Lea :)). I am glad they found a compromise :D. Also, it was super cool seeing him interact with Kalu again!! I'm interested to be seeing more of that in the future :DD. Anyway, yeah, Shaun was great this episode 🥰🥰. He was of course amazing at his job. Speaking of, I'm SUPER interested in how everything's going to go down next week! I believe this is the introduction (based on context, and just that I don't think it's already running lol) of The Good Lawyer, and it'll certainly be cool :D. But I say speaking of because of the malpractice suit - that's gonna be interesting to sort out!! Anyway, it looks really good :D. But yeah! I love him ❤️❤️❤️.

Lea :)! I'm really happy she managed to find a compromise :D. Kind of, keep a piece of her "old life" with her :')). And her scenes with Glassman were so cute 😭😭. But I just think it was really nice with showing a) that you can have mixed feelings, and b) that just because you have kids does not mean you have to change every bit of your life completely and never look back. You can still have your identity :)). Anyway, I'm super glad she got her cool car 🥰🥰. And I'm sure she was great at her job this episode, lol. I love her :DDD.

Park! I don't always go in importance/plot/idk significance to me order, but I decided to put him at the end in vaguely that (ish) :). Not often he goes last! Cool :)). Anyways, I loved him this episode!! It's not often we get to see Park ANGRY (and I use caps for emphasis), but we did this episode and it was super cool :)). Like, that boxing scene? OOGH, the drama!!! Anyway, he was awesome :DD. He was also great at his job :))! And honestly, for his sake, I'm glad he managed to forgive Joe :'). He deserved that <33. I just think it helped him gain some peace 🥰🥰. Also his conversation with Morgan was great :)). He really did need somebody who wasn't afraid to say anything lol. But, yeah <33. I love him ❤️❤️🥰.

Overall, I really enjoyed this episode! I thought it was great :D. The cases were cool and interesting, and there was an abundance of great character moments!! A bunch of emotions swirling around, but also some funny bits :D! And a pretty evenly spread focus, for the most part. And of course, this episode seems like it'll be pretty influential! Kalu is coming back to St Bon's :DD!! That's big news!! I think it'll be really cool having him back 🥰🥰. Looks like I'll have to start doing a Kalu section, lol! I would say again, but it'll be for the first time since I wasn't liveblogging back then xD. And I didn't watch it live anyway, I think I started in 2019 or 2020 lol. Anyway! Still, it'll be super interesting to see ehow everything works out :DD. Like, how it all ends up being from now on. Idk if he's gonna stay around, but it's cool for now! I'm really excited to see what happens :D. And, of course, for the introduction of The Good Lawyer!!! It looks awesome :DD. The episode, and the show/character/concept (both I guess?) as a whole :)). Super excited for that too 🥰🥰. But, back to now, this episode had a ton of great moments. And it was really good in general, not just in moments :)).

So yeah! I loved this episode, I thought it was really great. I'm definitely excited for the next one! This has been my review of. . .

The Good Doctor, Season 6, Episode 15: Old Friends

I really enjoyed it! I'm nervous for the next one, but I'm super excited as well. I'll be back next week with my review of. . .

The Good Doctor, Season 6, Episode 16: The Good Lawyer

See you then!

[imquitelost]

My season 2 rewrite

For me, the issue with this season was SL's obsession with big reveals, which he usually does well. Examples on this season being, Fezco/Lexi storyline being dropped for episodes to get the reveal that they had been talking the entire time, the Custer and Fezco scene jabbed right on episode 4 (if I'm not mistaken) for no reason other than to get the retroactive reveal that he's working with the cops on epipode 6, the Cassie/Nate storyline being (in my opinion) draged on so Rue can reveal it out of nowhere on episode 5. And, on top of that, this season seemed also sabotaged by his biases on characters he clearly deems more interesting (Cassie, Nate, Cal) over characters and storylines that are just as, if not more, rich and interesting but weren't dived into quite as much (Fez, Ash, Lexi)

On a sidenote I also think he is obsessed with subversions like with the Jacob's gun on multiple ocations, the entirety of Cal's storyline and the Laurie storyline, even though if, again, he mostly does well

Below, what I think would've made the season better:

Reveal Cassie/Nate to Maddie on episode 3. Do the Howard house drama (except Cassie doesn't leave) and the Fez/Lexi couch scene on episode 4 and leave the Cal stuff as a minor B plot or a C plot (and still can do the Cal/Cassie sad parallel dance), and in turn give some attention to Rue/Jules/Elliot and give some insight to Jules head (either have her say that she never had so much fun before, that she loves them, giving way to why she was so oblivious about Rue or show how disconnected she feels from Rue so leaving her in the middle of the road makes more sense, idk). When they leave Rue she calls Fezco to pick her up and she sees him get a text from Lexi about how nice seeing him was, or a "next time we should whatch this other movie" but says nothing about it

Now, on episode 5 the Nate/Cassie storyline was useful for Rue to make a distraction and leave so, instead of have her see Nate and Cassie early she already knows something up with Fez and Lexi. So, in this version Lexi is more involved in the intervention scene. Cassie opens the door, Lexi is not there yet (Rue: "Her bike's in the front" Cassie shrugs) (that's why Fezco wasn't home, he was driving Lex back)

When Rue comes back downstairs Lexi jus got there and is trying to do the intervention Rue, so Rue retaliates with "How long have you been fucking Fezco?" Or something more personal like "How's that gonna help your boyfriend's business?" (but less corny bc that line I wrote sucks) and maybe she throws it in Fezco's face when he's kicking her out like "You're gonna do the same to Lexi? Uh? Gonna fucking hook her up on some shit and then kick her out?" Or smth like that, like, trying to hurt him but then goes too far and tries to take it back as he pushes her through the door

Episode 6 keeps all the same and in replacement of Howard house mess and the Fexi couch scene, we get the new Howard's house mess (now Cassie leaves) and some new Fexi scene of them dealing with aftermath of Rue, talking Lexi's relationship with drugs, their relationship (which is still not officially romantic), or something about that. And maybe, like, a line of dialogue between Ash and Lexi

Episode 7 and 8 are all the same (except Cassie throws a line or two about Fez at Lexi) but now Fez dressing up to see Lexi feels more earned, the tension about Custer and that whole thing feels more important since we spent more time with Fez and Ash (and are more invested in Fexi), and the death of Ashtray and arrest of Fez also feel more important to the story becasue they were more involved in it. (I mean Fez is a fan favorite so you already have audience investment but the narrative can't ride on that alone)

[goodnightevan]

ADJSJS BUCKS “ IM FINE IM NOT THE ONE WHO GOT SHOT”

LIKE SIR

SURE IT WASNT YOU WHO GOT SHOT BUT IT WAS UR HUSBAND UR ALLOWED TO NOT BE OKAY

OH GOD NO BUCK DONT THROW YOURSELF INTO DANGER JUST CAUSE YOU DONT WANT TO THINK ABOUT HOW SCARED YOU ARE

NO WAIT IS THAT THE SNIPER

BUCK HOW CAN YOU JUST SEE THAT AND NOT TELL ANYONE

OH MY GOD NO HE BLAMES HIMSELF FOR WHAT HAPPENED

IM CRYING

ikr??? Buck not being okay AT ALL to the point where he blames himself so much that he thinks it would've been best if it was him instead of Eddie and he wanted to get shot by the sniper. I just alsjsjshehehe Buck bby let me hug you.

WAIT NO TAYLOR WTF

WHYD YOU KISS HIM HIS HUSBANDS IN THE HOSPITAL

SHDJSNS NOW SHES LEAVING

YAY EDDIE'S AWAKE

'his husbands in the hospital' alajsjsh 😂😅 and seriously! Like Taylor I get this is an emotional time and Buck could've gotten shot again but now is not the time to kiss Buck. I'm still not over the timing of Eddie waking up right when Taylor kissed him. Eddie's Jealous Ho senses were tingling and had to wake up immediately and talk to the Buck 😂😂

yo wait i just realized this is the first time i’ve seen ana since he got shot kinda sus how the “love interest” has been absent 👀

Very sus indeed. Like Ana said one line this entire episode. Hell we didn't even see Eddie wake up to her or her reaction to him getting shot (both of which we saw with Ali when Buck's leg got crushed). All we saw was her sitting at Eddie's bedside one time, then when Buck arrives, she literally stepped aside so that Buck and Eddie can fully see each other and reunite (I'm sensing a symbolism here). My sister described her as an ornament and she basically was. Interesting how the love interest is a bg character that doesn't have one-on-one moments with Eddie while Buck's entire arc this ep was pretty much what usually a love interest's role is when something like this happens 👀🤔

OH MY GID NO BOBBY

BOBBY GOT SHOT

I WAS NOT PREPARED FOR THIS

Bobby getting hurt too was so hard. But I just LOVED how Buck and Athena worked together (along with everyone else) to save Bobby. Mother and son working together to go save the dad. AND WHEN ATHENA LITERALLY WALKED THROUGH FIRE. Aksjshsjsj these two are SUCH goals I swear.

OH MY GOD MADDIE MY LOVE

IM SO WORRIED ABOUT HER

I know my poor Maddie. But I'm so freaking happy that she asked for help. That scene and this entire sl in general is so incredibly important. This is a giant step in a better direction for her and I'm so yet again so freaking glad that she has Chimney in her life. Hope things get better for them.

OH MY GOD ITS THIS SCENE

OH MY GOD THE WAY THEY TRUST EACH OTHER

“ NO ONE WILL EVER FIGHT FOR MY SON AS HARD AS YOU”

IM SCREAMING

“YOU ACT LIKE YOURE EXPENDABLE BUT YOURE WRONG”

I'M SCREAMING RIGHT THERE WITH YOU. It's officially been a week (crying about it) and I'm STILL screaming about this scene. Will I ever stop? Absolutely not. The way they trust each other indeed. Like good luck Ana and Taylor or anyone else who wants to date them bc Buck and Eddie sure as hell aren't gonna trust anyone more than they trust each other, which includes their SO's. Can't wait for them to realize what's wrong with this picture and actually do something about it. But yeah this scene will forever make me feral I can't even. (It's like the emotional version of The Kitchen Scene™ if tho that one had emotional moments but still).

OH MY GOD AND HEN AND KAREN SEEING NIA AND HER MOM

THE PICNIC

listen I am SOOO freaking happy that we saw Nia again and her being happy but still remembering Hen and Karen and Denny. And then her mom.thanking them. And the picnic asdfghjkllsha. I cried ngl.

THE WELCOME HOME PARTY

Ah the welcome home party. Where we see Eddie reunite with his everyone, but especially Christopher as the camera focuses on the father and son and then pans to Buck smiling brightly at them. Like they're girlfriends are literally RIGHT THERE and yet we focus on the Buckley Diaz family. Ajajsssksjsh. That entire moment warmed my heart.

WAIT OH MY GOD ALBERTS A FIREFIGHTER

"FIREFIGHTER HAN"

AGDJAKMSKSJ

right??? like earlier this episode when Albert picked up Hen's phone my mind immediately went "hmmm I wonder if Albert will be a firefighter next season" but then I completely forgot about that thought and then that ending scene came I aksjsjshssksjs I was so freaking happy I can't even (also Ravi the Probie was there in that scene which made me really happy bc I really love him). Seeing the 118 firefam being there to support Firefighter Albert just alwjakajshshshs *clenches heart*

OH MY GOD AND THE SUPPORT NOTICE FOR PEOPLE WITH POSTPARTUM DEPRESSION

THIS SHOW REALLY IS DOING A LOT TO BRING ATTENTION TO LOTS OF SERIOUS THINGS AND THAT IS SO AMAZING

I know right?? ngl I'm in awe with how many important and serious things they bring up that need to be talked about. Especially something like Postpartum which is incredibly important to talk about and show but rarely is. Along with everything else they talk about which is either rarely shown or not at all (like Hen's story with the medical racism and prejudices or the conversation that Athena and Hen had about that missing girl). One of the many, many reasons why Iove this show so damn much.

IM CRYING WHY IS IT OVER

I'M CRYING RIGHT THERE WITH YOU. Tonight was the first night without a new episode and I'm a mess. idk how I'm gonna handle this summer hiatus until s5. I'm probably gonna do a rewatch lol.

Anyways, sorry this is late and I hope it's okay that I put the rest of the asks together. But I'm freaking glad you finished the show and loved it so much too! It truly is *chef's kiss*

[jmblyajones]

Euphoria: The Trials and Tribulations of Trying to Pee While Depressed (1X7)

1. Cassie/Lexie’s dad can GET IT

2. Lexie was reaaaally going through it during puberty 😂 still love her ♥️

3. Of course we gotta have the pervy ass uncles that definitely need to share a cell with the Jacobs

4. I had a feeling the car crash scene was the dad but I thought he would’ve died. I think it is very interesting and very to theme that majority of these characters have some sort of addiction

5. I think it’s very telling with Cassie/Lexie’s dad with how he was the handsome guy everyone liked then turned drug addict

6. Extreme close up of Cassie’s eye crying was an amazing shot

7. I CANT BELIEVE RUE IS WATCHING LOVE ISLAND!!! I literally have tabs open ready to watch it after Euphoria 😂😂

8. Okay so I’m waiting for Lexie to get her shine... like they need to show her off in s2 like sis did not come to play games!!

9. I’m feeling this whole detective Rue/Lexie duo out here solving shit and putting pieces together lol (BROO RUE PUT THAT TYLER SHIT TOGETHER WITH THE QUICKNESS, that shit went way OVER my head 🤣🤣)

10. Soo Jules likes Nate... I know Nate likes Jules like deep down. (Which in the conversation about femininity makes sense. Nate is oozing (toxic) masculinity so I can see why being with him might seem like she’s more feminine bc of the girls he usually goes for

11. BRO I totally didn’t piece together that THAT Daniel was Daniel Daniel! Kat’s boo from 6 grade 🥴 (I know that asshole lying when he said he didn’t remember them together 😒

12. So Kat’s a cunt because she’s not at Maddy’s beck and call every time Maddy and Nate break up? Girl bye tf

13. Okay honest opinion, do y’all like the tangents Rue goes on about random shit? Like bladders and peeing?

14. Rue’s mama got a type 😎

15. Rue and Gia need to have a serious talk

16. Fez is such a good listener 😂 “Trust me Rue, she not gonna gossip”

- I wonder how old Fez is compared to Rue only because he’s referring to her as “kid”

- Okay I was wondering when the camera was gonna focus on grandma for a visual but I was NOT expecting tig ole bitties front and center

18. Y’all got me FUCKED UP with those damn talking pill bottles

19. “Children are fucking scary” lmao they aren’t Chuckie Dolls dude. Okay I saw some people coming at McKay for his reaction. Uhhh I think he can’t force Cassie to do anything but I don’t think it was wrong for McKay to express that he wasn’t ready to be a dad. I think it is wrong that the guy’s opinion has to be immediately shut down if it isn’t 1000% in favor of what the girl wants. Being a father will affect him too if Cassie decides to keep it

20. Kat talking to a fucking black screen huffing and puffing in some type of audio modifier was SKETCHY AS HELL! That whole screen creeped me the fuck OUT! I know a lot of people think it’s Nate but nah fam I don’t think so, HOWEVER I do believe that it is someone she knows. So many things wrong with this. 1st off the screen is pitch black so you don’t know what the other person looks like or if they are filming you. 2nd their voice is modified which should also tell you that it could be someone you know 3rd. Y’all notice how she was taking orders from him? He was telling HER to take HER clothes off

(PS. Did y’all catch what he said at the end that scared the hell outta Kat to shut her computer?)

21. Jules’s imagination is dominating Nate hmmm. There is just too much toxic shit involved like yikes. I do think aside from cat fishing Jules, Nate was being real and true about his feelings and the things that he said to her. Now I definitely think Nate deserves JAIL but that’s just what I notice

22. I love Fez riding for his friend! I just think Fez shot himself in the foot because he didn’t know the entirety of the crazy fucked up shit Nate was doing and just put himself in the lions den threatening Nate. You knooow I think Fez and Ashtray could’ve hid the drugs under his grandma? Or something idk. All those damn pills there is no way they flush it all down. You know maybe Fez could go to jail because of a gun related charge? Drugs would be tooo easy! I know Rue mentioned it so it could be a possibility?

Trailer predictions: I think Rue will catch Gia doing drugs and tell their mom and Gia will DENY DENY DENY and blame it on Rue’s addiction issues. I think papa Jacobs is going to find out about Nate looking at his self porn stash and confront him and Nate’s sexuality will be questioned. I think since Nate messes with Fez’s hustle Fez will get payback. Cassie will get an abortion. Rue will confront Nate at homecoming? Someone is gonna fucking die! I know that (we I don’t but I wanna feel confident about this)! Gosh Ethan might find out about Kat and webcaming. Kat’s secret creep-like admirer will be revealed!!

[staboteur]

What canon ship are you talking about? And which ocs did/do you ship with?

//my canon ship weakness is eng/iespy haha although medi/cspy also has a place in my heart if it’s done right. Rene’s very picky about canon characters tho lmao like if they aren’t a specific portrayal of a specific canon character he just isn’t interested in an extended long term ship, like sure, sometimes he might be interested briefly or he might think they’re attractive, but ultimately he craves both the physical attraction and a deep emotional bond which... is understandably difficult to come by with the canons of this fandom

//as for ocs, I currently have three ships in the works (as in, they’ve been roughly plotted and are currently in the “if René mun can get off his ass and fucking reply to people things may actually get done” phase). I won’t tag them so I don’t spam their notifs, but meetthethiefa and I have been planning something for years but the mun took a long hiatus for a few years and we’re just getting the ship going again. Another one is between René and Maddy (from frauline-kritzkrieg) which is gonna be an AU a ship (considering their canon age gap and also considering we’re planning for yandere!rene, we decided an AU would be best for this situation). And I also have vague nebulous plans with Marius (merkissescanhealyou), but I’m mostly approaching it as a “we’ll see where this goes” thing.

//there have also been more ships than I can count going back over the years tbh but the most memorable was Rene’s first ship (when I first started the blog) with Amadeo, but this was like,,, 3 ish years ago. There have been others in between that didn’t make as much of an impression bc I struggled with Rene’s muse for awhile after amadeo left

//honestly, there just weren’t many canons who 1, stuck around and 2, have chemistry with rene. If platonic ships count, I think the only one was Jay (unflappable-red, who has since moved fandoms), who was a canon divergent red engie... and I think i had something planned with another engie but the mun and I talked about it privately and it didn’t work out the way we wanted it to, so we dropped it. Same with a couple of canon medics I’ve interacted with, which, like, I get it yknow? Rene’s relationship demands are really specific and usually, canon mercs can’t fill that super specific niche.

//ofc I can’t talk about all this without mentioning Alois. Like... my primary ship partner is and always will be @not-so-solemn-vows (the mun and I have written together privately for around 4 years now, but I have a few fics with René and Alois on my AO3). They’ve been around *forever* and Alois is an enormous part of Rene’s character whether it’s an AU or not (bc I believe in that multiverse multiship stuff). Obviously mun chemistry plays a huge part in this, since the mun and I are very good friends and we’ve stuck together whether we’re talking about René and Alois or not, but the muse chemistry is just,, idk it’s irreplaceable, and it sorta occupies its own niche in my overarching “muse wishlist” for René I guess?? Idk how to describe it but I cannot imagine René the way he is today existing without Alois’s influence

//also yeah I know a lot of the older ships that date back more than a year ago usually feature a large age gap of some kind, and it’s bc I was much younger when they started (and it would be disingenuous of me now to call it quits). I also used to put Rene’s age at 41, rather than 48, but I didn’t check my math until later and had to age him up so he’d be old enough to fit parts of his backstory.

//oh and how could I forget will! And Marina!! Two of my ocs!!! Will and René dated in the 40s, and marina and René dated in the 50s. Those were the only two super serious relationships René had in his past.

[thecorteztwins]

what are some under used marvel female characters youd love to see in the rpc?

HMMMOkay, so I’m trying to think OBJECTIVELY here and not just rattle off the female characters that I personally like, and more “I’m surprised that there’s not more blogs for this character, whether or not I personally am a fan” ....because I missed the “you’d love to see in the RPC” bit because I’m dumb, and then I wrote this whole list without regards for that part. So this came out as less “female characters I personally want” (who would all be stupidly obscure and irrelevant anyway) and more “female characters I think the RPC should give some more love to, whether I personally am into them or not”:Definitely ALL the girls in the New Mutants and Generation X! I see a fair few blogs for Magik and Jubilee, but I really don’t see any for the others. I get why Magik is going to be more popular---she’s in more stuff, she’s currently much more relevant in the comics, and her backstory is so goddamn compelling---but that doesn’t mean the others shouldn’t have ANY blogs out there. Wolfsbane, Magma, Karma, and Moonstar are all extremely complex and compelling characters with their own struggles and triumphs too, and I think they deserve just as much love. Likewise, I get why Jubilee will naturally get more blogs than Husk, Monet, and Penance (depending if you count Penny as a separate character or not...) due to her being in more stuff, having bigger arcs, etc. But it still surprises there’s NO blogs around for those ladies! I know there was that Monet blog awhile ago, and @badmusesdoitwell had an Amara that’s now part of their multimuse, as well as a Rahne, but that’s still nowhere near enough love in the RPC for these Junior X-Ladies, in my opinion. Speaking of Generation X, I’m also a bit surprised no one has picked Cordelia Frost up, given that we’ve got plenty of background canon for her via Emma’s history yet Cordelia herself has LOTS of room to go nuts with headcanons, like it’s just the perfect opportunity! And I’m sure lots of Emma blogs, of which there are MANY, would love their little sister around for some family threads. Fuck, I would pick her up myself if I were more into Emma and the Frost family as a whole. She’s hardly the most relevant, recent, or even interesting character around, she’s done very little and shown up very briefly, but the fact she’s related to Emma Frost makes me think SOMEONE would have an interest in her.Madelyne Pryor, for sure. Like, I love Maddy, but it’s not just my favoritism talking here. I think she’s pretty decently well-known in the comics fandom, and she’s a tragic villain, which usually pulls people in big-time. She’s got a grudge against the good guys, and it’s actually more legitimate than most, which I’d think would also attract people, since a lot of villains fans like to blame the good guys no matter what and THEY’D ACTUALLY HAVE A GOOD ARGUMENT HERE? Plus she has very strong connections to other, more popular canons, with a ton of fodder for angst and drama threads, which people just LOVE. I have seen a few Maddy blogs pop up in the past, and I always get so excited, but they never seem to last very long :CDr. Moira MacTaggert deserves ALL the love and respect in the world/fandom! She’s been a staunch supporter of mutants since day one, she’s a total badass, she’s super smart, she calls Xavier out on his shit ALL THE TIME, she’s the survivor of an abusive husband, she had to make terrible choices about her son that no mother should ever have to and then live with the consequences of those choices, and SHE GOES AFTER A KELPIE WITH A GODDAMN MACHINE GUN! She’s been a part of the X-Men comics for such a long time, and is very significant in them, it really surprises me that I’ve never seen a blog for her besides just ONE and it was for the XMCU sexy American CIA agent Moira, who is NOT Moira in my book and NEVER WILL BE. Speaking of, Moira will ALWAYS be human to me, I think making her a mutant all along REALLY undermines a big part of her character as just an unyielding mutant ally. Though I think her being human, combined with being an older female who isn’t anyone’s love interest (unless she’s, gasp, getting in the way of CHERIK aka the ultimate fandom sin how dare she the harlot -.-), is probably WHY she’s so damn ignored -.-Frenzy hasn’t been in THE most recent stuff, but she’s still been relevant recent enough that I think one or two blogs around would have happened if she weren’t black. Yeah, I hate to be THIS person, but any black character who isn’t Storm doesn’t get love, for all that the RPC likes to yell about being diverse and progressive. Remember all the Captain America and Iron Man and Hulk and Quicksilver blogs that popped up after their movies? Yeah I saw like ONE T’challa blog after Black Panther came out. Then again, I’ve yet to see blogs for Pixie or Firestar either, who are white, and I feel like they both were fairly interesting and well-known in fandom? Same for the Academy X girls like Sofia Mantega, Mercury, and Wallflower. Luna Maximoff FOR SURE. It SHOCKS me I haven’t see more than a couple short-lived blogs around for her, just given her family connections. Now, I don’t think a character deserves love just because of who they’re related to---in fact it annoys me when a characters gets a ton of attention and it’s very obviously just for that---but Luna has SO MUCH going on? The problems between her parents, her mother being absent so much, her father exposing her to the Mists, dealing with her powers, being a child of two very different worlds and cultures, it just goes on and on. Luna has had to grow up so fast, she’s such a strange and stoic child as a result, and though her situation is very fantastical, having to be the mature one at an early age because all the adults in your life won’t be is something a lot of people have to cope with and I think would find relatable; I especially love how she lives in this world where there’s no bad guys, like neither Crystal nor Pietro were the villains in her situation, just hurting messed up people, which she also recognized in Magneto and maybe also even Maximus . And there’s so much that could be explored with her too that hasn’t been in canon yet---for instance, her choice to identify with her Inhuman heritage and why that is, and the journey of identifying with your heritage but also looking at the horrible things in their history, I think that’s a story that a LOT of people from MANY backgrounds can relate to. It surprises and frustrates me that both writers and fandom don’t really seem to care about her or remember she exists; one the only two blogs I ever saw for her seriously got someone asking them “why would you make such a weird OC” like SERIOUSLY! Luna needs more love, big time. Any female Avenger that’s not Wanda or Natasha. I don’t read Avengers, I’m just an X-Men fan, but I know they exist and they shouldn’t have to be in a movie to get love. Ditto for She-Hulk, I’m not a Hulk reader but I know she’s a prominent character who has been around a long time and has a very developed personality and stories of her own, yet I’ve only ever seen her on @getreadytosmash‘s multi. I’ve also never really read Alpha Flight, but its main ladies ---Snowbird, Aurora, Vindicator---all seem awesome in their own different ways. Alpha Flight isn’t very popular to begin with, of course, so I don’t expect them to have as many blogs as, say, major X-ladies, but I think one apiece or so would be very justified.KWANNON!! I actually get why we didn’t have any blogs for her BEFORE now, because we knew NOTHING about her, she was just a very tragic prop for Betsty’s body-swap plot and a way to give her insta-ninja-skills, but now she’s come back and has HER OWN NEW SERIES in which we’re finally learning who she is and her background, I hope to see a blog or two around for her eventually!Destiny aka Irene Adler. Like. Do I even need to explain WHY? I think people just don’t want to play an OLD woman, especially one whose primary/only ship is going to be with another woman.Maaaaybe Clea Strange? I don’t know shit about her, never read Dr. Strange, but like, people make blogs for Sigyn literally just because she’s Loki’s wife, and Clea at least seems to like...DO stuff? IDK, not sure on this on, but figured I’d make an honorable mention.Siryn, Boom Boom, and Dr. Cecilia Reyes are all X-Ladies that I really don’t know much about. Like I know basic things like their powers but I don’t know their story arcs and such. But as with Clea and the Avengers ladies and She-Hulk, I just have a HUNCH there’s a lot there getting ignored by fans.Silhouette Chord is a longtime member of The New Warriors, and, like Alpha Flight, New Warriors doesn’t really have a fanbase on Tumblr to speak of, so it’s not surprising to me she’s not got any love here. And even within the pages of her own comics, she’s generally pushed aside, underused, and underdeveloped compared to the other characters, generally more a prop for her boyfriend’s stories than anything else. But she DOES have a personality, a REALLY cool backstory, and she’s like...look, the RPC claims to love diversity and representation and all that, right? Silhouette is a mixed-race WOC (half Black, half Cambodian, and I have NEVER seen another Marvel character of Cambodian heritage who wasn’t connected to her) who is also very visibly physically disabled, her legs are completely paralyzed and she is never without her braces/crutches, yet she still fights PHYSICALLY (something very rare for physically disabled characters, they usually are more like Oracle or Prof X) and is depicted in a sexual relationship, and there’s never any kind of fuss or angst about it or anything treating her as delicate or less than or anything like that. She’s just completely adjusted to it in a way that’s very rare in media. And like I said, she’s not a flat character, I’m not saying she should be more popular just for ticking off the diversity boxes, she manages to be really intriguing to me despite how little focus the writers give her, and I think that she and the other New Warrior girls (Firestar and Namorita) have a lot to offer the RPC. But I have to give a special shoutout to Sil since she’s my fave, as the neglected ones alway are.Meggan Puceanu is probably most familiar to folks here as Kurt’s love interest in Age of X, but she’s been around since the 80s. She’s a longtime member of Excalibur, and she’s just...fascinating. She’s a Romanichal mutant (though often hinted to have magical/mystical heritage too, perhaps fairy like Pixie) who has empathic, elemental, and shapeshifting capabilities. However, her empathic and shapeshifting tend to overlap, so she changes her form (and her mind) according to the feelings, fears, and desires of others. So for instance, there’s this one time where a group of men are checking her out, and she feels that “They love me...I want...to love them in return!” and she morphs into this sexxed-up version of hersef on the spot. This isn’t played for kinkiness or laughs either; Meggan’s identity struggles are a HUGE part of her character. She has no idea who she is because her powers make her reflect and respond to the feelings of others around her, internally and externally. She doesn’t even know what she actually really LOOKS like because of this; her powers were present since birth, causing her to grow fur instantly as an infant due to it being winter. This caused her parents to keep her locked up in the camper trailer, where she was raised alone with the TV (she’s also illiterate, which causes her to feel dumb a lot) and as more and more people around her spread rumors about the monstrous child inside, she psychically absorbed those beliefs and her physical form changed to reflect them, making her more and more monstrous as she got older. She didn’t know she was a shapeshifter, she just really thought she was a hideous monster. And even when she found out the truth, she STILL didn’t know what she really looked like, as the beautiful form she took on (basically Pamela Anderson with elf ears) was to please her boyfriend Captain Britain (whom she is really unhealthily dependent on starting out because of her situation)Meggan is insecure, she doesn’t know who she is, she has to cling to a man in order to have anything because no one else has ever loved her, she easily becomes jealous of other women near him, she gets made fun of for being a bimbo and she often feels she is because she can’t read or understand “clever words” due to her isolated upbringing...and she gets through this! She develops! She becomes STRONGER and she becomes SECURE and she gains CONTROL of her powers and SHE KICKS ASS and she FORMS AN IDENTITY!  And then Meggan SACRIFICED HER LIFE to buy time for Captain Britain, Psylocke, and Rachel Summers to repair the tear in reality caused by House of M. She ends up lost between dimensions and TRAPPED IN HELL, where she uses her empathy to rally the lesser demons against THE LORDS OF HELL ITSELF and wages a war IN HELL for which her demon followers dub her “Gloriana” and she forms a sanctuary there called “Elysium” where souls can escape torment!  AND THEN SHE FINDS HER WAY HOME!THIS WOMAN KICKED ASS IN HELL AND WON!! Like she just goes through SUCH an arc, and I admit I have not read it myself yet, she’s on my list of characters to read EVERYTHING on and I’m still only familiar with her very insecure Excalibur days (which I love a lot, I just feel so much for Meggan and her struggles, I think she’s very much a reflection of a LOT of real-world issues, ranging from mental illnesses to just EXISTING as a woman) but I already have a ton of feelings about her and I think she’s more than prominent and accomplished enough to merit more attention in the RPC. And this is less of an “actually has reasons the RPC should love her” character, because really there’s no reason they should, she’s not prominent or relevant or or anything, but more an interesting “did you know”---did you know there was a “young female Wolverine clone” in the comics BEFORE Laura Kinney? Avery Connor! She pre-dates Laura by a year and has a VERY similar story, yet she never took off in popularity and very few people know her. You can read about her HERE on my Marvel blog. Again, would not say there’s actually any reason she’s earned love from the RPC like, say, Meggan or Luna, but I just thought I’d toss that in as a tidbit for the Logan family fans, as I know there are many.(Also, cheating because these are dudes, but: I’m not a Banshee fan but I am surprised I’ve never seen a blog for him, nor for Sunfire. Or for 616 Pyro. Or...)

[gettin-bi-bi-bi]

1. I feel bad because well it’s hard to explain. I want to date a woman and also a man but I don’t want to date at the same time (I’m not against polyamory don’t get me wrong. Just probably not for me) anyway I also want to commit in a relationship. Like I don’t want to enter a relationship not committing or anything. Like idk if it sounds weird but at least once in my life I want to date a woman and at least once I want to date a man. So I’m so conflicted.

2. Of course I’ve never dated anyone and no one has ever show any sign of wanting to date me. I don’t want to be lonely forever. I’m sorry if I seem a bad person. Once I meet ‘the one’ as they say I probably won’t even be as worried or think about it maybe.

3. I still feel I probably have something internalised because I feel like I can’t be happy unless I marry a guy (I know that’s not true) and I sometimes feel ashamed for liking women. I don’t feel those things as much lately as I used to. It’s just I feel I can’t talk about it in person to anyone. so I feel bad about that.

I’m sorry you don’t have anyone to talk to in person, anon. You don’t seem like a bad person at all! And we’re always here if you need us! 😊

I want to start with a disclaimer that I have virtually no gender preference in my sexual and romantic attraction, and this perspective may color my response here. If Maddie, Max, or any of our followers have preferences leading to a different perspective or experience than me and would like to add anything, please do!

Okay, here we go. So, you do seem to have some contradictive desires! That must be frustrating. First, I imagine you must have some picture in your head about what it’s like to date a man vs what it’s like to date a woman. I want to first expel the idea that there are inherent, guaranteed differences between the two (particularly if your romantic attraction doesn’t lean in any specific direction). Obviously there are general trends, socialization leading men to generally express less emotion and women to express more, for example. But there are no guarantees and people can always surprise you. The person I dated who was the most concerned with talking about our feelings and emotions, for example, was the only straight man I’ve had a relationship with.

That said, many people have preferences, which exist for a reason, and I completely understand the need to experiment and explore your sexuality and romantic identity. What may help you is to separate the concept of “dating” from “relationships”. While you certainly wouldn’t want to enter into a relationship with the expectation of breaking up, you don’t have to commit or be exclusive right away. This isn’t so much polyamory as it is regular dating and getting to know people before making a commitment.

I’d recommend going on a few first or second dates with people of different genders. Get some food, catch a movie, go for a walk, whatever seems like a fun thing to do with them. It takes time to even know if you want to commit to a specific person, and there’s nothing wrong with having casual romantic outings before you decide. Of course you might want to be up front with this either in online dating profiles or when asking someone out or saying yes to a date. If not the first date (at which point I don’t think it’s reasonable for anyone to expect exclusivity from you anyway), then the second. Just so no one’s feelings are hurt by misunderstandings.

As you get to know people, hopefully you’ll feel that a certain someone is a good fit, and you can move forward from there. I think you’re right that once you meet someone you like (whether you feel right away that they’re “the One” or not), your concerns about their gender will seem less relevant. You might fall for someone who is neither man nor woman, too.

Since you mention having trouble finding people you’d like to date or people who’d like to date you, you might want to start with an online dating service like OKCupid. I will warn you that if you list yourself as bisexual, you’re likely to get some couples asking you to join them for a threesome. You can put in your bio that you’re not interested in this, and OKCupid will actually let you block straight people from viewing your profile, which cuts down on the amount of straight couples trying to spice up their sex lives or whatever. But other than that, online dating is a good way of dipping your toe in and taking some of the anxiety out of asking people out (the worst that will usually happen is that they’ll say no, and that’s okay; but I understand not wanting to start there if you’re inexperienced).

Lastly, it definitely sounds like you have some internalised biphobia there, but you seem to be aware of it, which is good! There is absolutely nothing wrong with your attraction to any gender and there’s nothing wrong with having preferences or not having preferences, as long as you’re true to yourself. It may take you some time to be certain of what is true, as you continue to shed those harmful ideas (and good work, coming as far as you have!), and that’s fine. Everyone has their journey. 🌈

I hope this helps, and if you have any other questions, or need me to clarify anything, let us know!

KC

[minigoblinnn]

Hello! Long Time No See

Hello everyone idk how many people will see this because I don’t have a lot of followers but that’s okay. HI! I haven’t used this account in almost three years I think. I’m pretty sure the last time I used this was possibly my freshman year of high school and I am now going to be a senior in September. So the world has kind of gone to shit recently but I had some soul searching while stuck in my house for over 3 months and realized that I needed to try to find what makes me happy. So bc we have all the time in the world rn bc 1. quarantine and 2. school is over, I thought I would try to revisit things that I used to love from freshman year and before. Yes I am 17 and I am no longer a hardcore stan like I was in middle school but it’s been a little refreshing trying to find myself again. If you’ve made it this far on this post thank you so much! This is more of a revamp of myself bc I realized over quarantine that I haven’t been truly happy in almost 3 years so whoops. 

Anyways this is gonna be sort of like a long rant but if you end up reading to the end I really appreciate it I hope I don’t bore you!

1. A major thing I had to come to terms with during quarantine was that I am indeed depressed. For the past 3 years I have been shoving down my inner struggles really deep within myself and never officially addressed it. As I’m sure many others who struggle with mental health have had to deal with the same difficulties of being stuck at home, it was a very shitty experience that I had to endure. I think a lot that attributed to it was the pressure of school and the rapid change of being in school one day to having a complete flip was also a major adjustment. As someone who has major control issues and hates very big change all at once this was very overwhelming for me as I’m sure it was for many of you. With this, I also realized I never prioritized myself before quarantine. I never talked about my struggles with friends and I was very irritable around late April/early May when it came to a specific friend. I previously had a major breakdown in school bc I was super anxious over losing this friendship back in February so that was also affecting my mental health extremely. Since my birthday in May, I have since slowly learned to prioritize myself and to face my struggles instead of avoiding the problem like I usually do. I now have a therapist that I talk to weekly over the phone and also with school ending it has released a lot of pressure that I had on me before. I still haven’t really discussed it all yet but I am the type that doesn’t like talking about me in that way or discussing myself in a vulnerable way but I hope I will slowly learn to improve on that. School wise, let’s just say the 4th marking period was an extremely ugly one. My sleep is something that is on and off. I am constantly exhausted but I cannot sleep so I’m trying different methods to try to fix my sleep but that is a uphill battle. I am currently writing this at 4:39 am so if that gives you any indication there you go.

2. Since there hasn’t been anything else to do and I don’t have my license yet, I have been getting back into things I used to enjoy freshman year and prior as I stated above. On my journey of trying to find any ounce of happiness again, I have been re-watching and revisiting things I used to “fangirl” over such as tv shows, youtubers, etc. 

Shows I have re-visitied include: The Vampire Diaries, Teen Wolf, Reign, Avatar: The Last Airbender, I finally watched Shadowhunters all the way through and not just the first season

Youtubers: Maddi Bragg (she recently rejoined youtube so...), I also have re-watched Dan and Phil Games, specifically the sims series bc I used to love it. 

And bc I re-watched Shadowhunters I re-watched the Mortal Instruments: City Of Bones movie that is on Netflix and before I get bashed I used to love that movie bc I personally think it is more of what I envisioned of what the books come to life would look like minus the ending...I also really like Jamie Campbell Bower and Lily Collins so personal bias but Malec on the tv show are immaculate. Controversial topic I know. And just earlier last night ig I finished reading City of Bones and I’m gonna re-read the entire TMI series and re-read/finish TID series. 

3. Along with revisiting things I have sort of slowly reinvented myself ig. I cut my hair right after my birthday so before it was about right past my chest and I cut it to roughly above my shoulders and I re-dyed my hair black bc I cannot be a ginger. My music taste has also slightly put more alt music and indie groups. Everyday I find new bands such as Meet me @ the altar, 100 gecs, and I recently got into $uicideBoy$...but honestly I get good music recommendations from tiktok so ofc. Also with the current climate in the US I have been a lot more outspoken when it comes to politics and my activism. I have a pretty conservative republican father who listens to fox news for however long I can remember. And after the 2016 election, I never really tried to argue/debate my father about Trump and everything but I also was not super informed in politics. But now I am absolutely never silence. I have gotten in plenty of arguments mostly with my mother about my activism. I have also gotten into painting political statement paintings after I painted my BLM protests signs. I have put these paintings around my room but my mom does not like them but I don’t care. So I am definitely wayyyyy more vocal when it comes to social issues and politics and I am not afraid to back down. I think before I didn’t speak up bc I didn’t want to argue with my father bc he would shut me down immediately when I tried to say anything against trump. But now I don’t care. Bc everything he stands for goes against me and my existence so I will not be silent as much as my parents want to. They don’t understand that I have always had these opinions, I just never expressed them as much until now bc I didn’t know how to properly express it. That I am super proud of.

4. Another thing I sort of realized ig was that I can now fully say I am definitely pansexual. Bro even typing that is like wow. Okay okay back story. So freshman year I told my two best friends at the time that I believed I was pan bc I’ve always thought that but I was never comfortable enough to say I was apart of the lgbtq+ community bc idk I just don’t feel like I have a right to? Bc after freshman year I slowly moved to other best friends and with them and my family I have always referenced to only being interested in men and ig I instilled this norm that I could only talk about liking men in front of them and my friends so I never felt comfortable addressing it. I still always had that thought in my head and especially in recent months I have been turned off from guys in general besides maybe 4, all who are actors or Kurtis Conner lowkey. So I’m not really looking to date anytime soon so it doesn’t really matter but I just don’t see me dating a guy. I think about it for about 2 seconds and then I snap back to reality. But yeah I made a pan flag painting and put it in my room and my parents have no idea what it is so they won’t even question me. But I don’t feel comfortable addressing it to my friends or my family, oh definitely not. I’ve put it on my second tiktok account but I don’t let my best friends ig see it so yeah i will probably never tell them until college. I’m sure most of them won’t care but again, I never really addressed personal things about myself with them unless it’s like my depression where I couldn’t hide it anymore but anyways that’s just how I am.

So things I’ve learned since being stuck at home for 3 months: I’m depressed, I’m pan, I’m a leftist/left-leaning, and I will no longer just say I will beat someone up but I will actually do it not that I haven’t already but that’s not important. But anyways, idk how often I will use this but this is an update. I might delete some old posts based on me now and everything but yeah I will hopefully use this to update on the things I revisit! Hope everyone is doing mostly well! If you read all of this thank you thank you thank you! Sending virtual hugs and kisses!

sorry for any errors, I recently put on these long acrylics and I’m using my laptop and I haven’t had long nails in a while so bear with me :)

[survivetashirojima]

Episode #1- “This cast...this cast...this cast.“ -Timmy

who’s ready to get atomic up in this bitch?

okay so, first impressions(Aka First night vibes) Brien- you seem cool JG - KALOKAIRI BUDS Dylan - I have played 2 games with you, what up bud! Stephen - the third of the many Kalokairi Kevin - haven't played with you before, but im excited to Andrew- Heyo, you hosted me, im super excited to your playing style. Jacob- I've been in VL's with you but never played. Timmy- yet another Kalokairi buddy Jay? - you seem really cool. Joanna- I can't wait to play with you Julia- Montenegro gal! please don't vote me out first this time. Madison- i feel like we are going to confused for eachother alot. Pat- I want to get to know you better Tom- I have feelings about you, but I can't tell if they are good or bad yet Veni- BRO you don't know how happy i am to see you Ricky- I have a good feeling about you dude. Kenny- i can't wait to play with you! and to vibe check myself? STRESSED. this twist gave me a panic attack. we are good now. i am already freaking out about keeping my grade up (since i'm already failing a class) and challege is tonight and i have no time to do it. FUCK.

Day 2: still alone lost in the vast wilderness. No civilization in sight... the gods have forsaken me.... someone please send help... wait what is that I see? A camp? PEOPLE???? ITS BEEN SO LONG!!! Jkjk the hosts added the wrong person so I got added in like 2 hours after the actual start which isnt terrible Bc now i can just pretend I’m a pitiful little soul. Also like 1/3of the cast is people I’ve played with before but I haven’t even touched skype in like a year and a half so I have no idea any of them anymore!!! I hope we can all be friends again since from what I can remember, we were all on pretty good terms. My reaction to the “twist” is, it’s amazing. It fits my play style much more. Who needs idols? I rarely ever went to search for one and I was fine? Maybe... oof... also the whole everyone is in one tribe thing is really cool. More the merrier. It’s just really annoying Bc Skype is a pos. Anyways so far so good and I’m loving the people that are in the cast so far. Amazing cast and even more amazing hosts. I love all of them

okay so. first game back since surgery. olivia and lukas, love those bitches, but i was like i'm a working woman now so do you think that my work will interfere too much? and they were like nah, and i was like okay, so naturally, the first (live) challenge starts right in the middle of my shift. and this one tribe thing, wacky. this is gonna be one comeback game (if i get voted out first i am going to get surgery again and then never come back ever) (jk) (...kinda)

I wanna win immunity 😭😭😭

This cast...this cast...this cast. So i know like 90% of these people. I'm currently hosting 4 of them...was hosting 5. It's a very strong cast which is great, but it also means that anyone can go at any time. I'm just gonna talk about them in order of the cast reveal. Brien: I've never spoken to him and have still yet to. He's one of the people in ihos but he's quiet there. Andrew: another ihos person who I haven't spoken to. I've seen him around for years but we've never played a game together. Or at least have never been on the same tribe. Madison: big titty queen. I love her with all my heart and I have no idea what is going to happen with her. She messy but amazing so who knows. She did meet JG and Jacob in person a few weeks ago so they are all close, so i do need to keep an eye out for all of them, even though I am close with them. Ricky: another ihos, and he is friends with Andrew. I doubt he's going to work with me so that is concerning. But it's early so who knows. I'm already getting bored of typing things about everyone. Kevin: no idea, but he seems nice. Madeleine: A true queen and a sweetheart. Julia: no comment. Pat: i've seen him win 2 games that i have played with him. He is quiet but dangerous and I need to watch out for him in time, but for now he will be a good ally. Stephen: king, but does tend to go early. Idk where he will stand this game but we're already in an alliance together. Vi: haven't seen her in over a year, kind person. Dylan: cracked Kenny: no idea Joanna: scary legend who will go hard, but has been very quiet thus far. I wonder who quit right before the start of the game. Jacob: we never talk, but as of now he is who i have been talking to the most and I really do trust him. I am hoping this game is different for us and that we will actually work together. I'm excited to see what happens. Thomas: can't wait for him to strike out JG: King, who also is close with a few people, but i do trust him, but he can be a snake. Jay: It's been a minute since he's played. Not sure how to feel.

I GOT A POINT WOOOHOOOOOOOOO ONLY MISSED THE FIRST HALF OF THIS CHALLENGE

So. Uh. I got -3 points. I’m so talented.  It’s okay though. I pretty sure I’ll be voted out first so it doesn’t matter how low of a score I get. I’m just trying to bribe everyone else with cute animal pictures DX even if people hate me, maybe they’ll keep me just for more cute animals.

Update: I lost another 5 points. Let me die already... at this point I don’t even need to piss off everyone else to lose. I’ll probably get like -500 points and automatically get kicked out of the game for being bad

-22 baby. I petition for the hosts to change the chat name from Tashirojima Challenge chat to Challenge chat. What the fuck. I keep reading it as the main chat Bc tashirojima seems like a tribe name. AT THIS RATE MY JEST OF -50 POINTS IS ACTUALLY GONNA COME TRUE!!!! AHHHHHH WHAT ALLIANCES I CANT EVEN FOLLOWRULES LET ALONE FIGURE OUT HOW TO WIN PEOPLE OVER TO MY SIDE ahhhhhHhhhhHhHHHHHH

Night 2 Vibe Check! (Featuring a quite drunk Maddie!) Andrew- haven’t talked to you much, but I want talk to you more! Ricky- you seem cool, we haven’t Talked yet today Tom- smooth Dylan, damn you and your fast phone Kevin- you are a freaking challenge beast! JG- I missed talking with you, I’m glad we are again Stephen- I hope you feel better soon! Jacob- you are good at challenge (This is where I stopped and started the next morning when I was sober) Jay- you’re cool! I like you Julia- imma take you to the end sister. Love you! You make me feel safe In this game Pat- I can’t quite get a read on you yet Vi- I can’t believe they added the wrong person! You are really cool! Love ya! Brien- you are really nice! Timmy- I am super excited that we are playing together again! Joanna- I’m sorry I keep forgetting your here! Kenny- you seem really cool but I need to get to know you better Madison- I don’t think we’ve talked yet, but I want to. And how I’m feeling, well I just lost immunity, so I don’t feel safe, I’m interested to see how this goes, this season is definitely interesting!

Hey out there! Long time no see! To be honest, I don't really have the first idea at what I'm doing. I kinda missed the first day and a half because I was working and then immediately went out with friends, but I think I'm making up for it! I'm starting to chat one-on-one with people, no strategy talk yet though. Which could be real dangerous since I don't have immunity, but there are people that just...haven't talked at all, as far as I can tell at least. Luckily I have a few prior connections in Madison, Joanna, and Andrew. I know Pat and Ricky too but I'm iffy on how they feel about me. I'm pretty sure I ghosted Pat's game earlier this year, SORRY PAT! I got busy and then I felt too embarrassed to show back up D: and I've just never been too sure about if Ricky likes me or not. But other than that I've talked a bit to Madeleine and Vi and I love them both, messy challenge chat icons. I totally missed some messages from Brien, Jacob, and Kevin though, but I've messaged them all back now so hopefully they don't hold that against me. Tribal isn't until tomorrow, so I assume that's when the real scrambling will begin. I just don't know when to jump into alliance talks, I don't want to play too hard too fast. But then I again, I want the chance to play at all.

Idk why Vi was so hard pressed on me not getting immunity. First it seemed like a joke, then they..... were really into it.

Interesting notes from within the first few days: Me/Jacob/JG recently met irl so that's cute Ricky/Andrew I think met a few months ago or something Brien and Pat are both from Philly hmmmm Everyone and their mother works retail in this game so we all suffer together or not at all Day 2 i got an alliance with Jacob and Timmy so that's cute but I'll probably be out first because let's face it I'm a threatening human and i ain't afraid to pull a machete on these kiddos.

Night 3 tea spill!* *has been cancelled due to emotions

So far I’m loling brien, and Vi. Madeline is kind of annoying if I’m honest. BUT we’re all in an alliance. I have a few familiar faces, Jay, Madison, Joanna, so I’m excited to see what happens this season

https://youtu.be/-_5c-vMFG9E

Quick Cast Assessment Time: Brien: we're in ihos spain together and we talk on and off but apparently ricky was like omg look at this ihos crew and brien was like whos andrew so i think thats where we're at rn. might work with him might not who knows Dylan: biiiig dylan fan personally and i know he can be sketch in games so i wanna be on his good side so he doesnt fuck me over right away Jacob: cool dude but ticking time bomb and idk if i can work with him but maybe i can work with him by proxy of ricky.......if he shows even one sign of being a bad ally he's literally out of this game Jay: furry back back back again and him and i usually work well together so im hoping something can come from that JG: i like him personally but hes just one of those people that exudes almost constant sketchiness which idk if thats necessarily his fault lmao and yeah idk i have to keep an eye on him Joanna: nice girl! wanna get to know her better for sure. i neglected to message her up until today when she actually messaged me first so whoops Julia: absolute crackhead who doesnt like me for funsies bc shes a troll but i think more and more people are hopefully seeing her mentally unhinged troll thing as tired lately and i really dont want her to last very long Kenny: i havent talked to him yet but hes a cool dude that i played literally one game with like two years ago so idk maybe we can reconnect Kevin: so i think he probably literally talks to everyone in the exact same fake nice gay man way so i have to be mindful that its prob just not me that hes overly nice to bc i know he can be intense and i know he can be good at these games so hes one im gonna try to keep close but also be willing to cut at any time Maddie: literal love of my fucking life who i want to work with closely in this game bc i know shes loyal and i know she can have my back if she trusts me enough Madison: nnnnnnn i mean i called her stupid in a diary room from bb gilmore over the summer which i think prompted her to leave our reunion chat so not the best start there. also i think her and jacob are up each others asses ever since they met irl so love that for me Pat: i just know hes mildly attractive Ricky: absolute number one ally who i trust with my entire coochie and the goal is to hopefully subtly run this entire game together Stephen: a nice man! we havent played together in a while and we worked together in that one game so maybe we can reconnect maybe idk Timmy: havent had the best personal experiences with him attacking my friends in vls.........idk i just find him annoying lmao is that mean Tom: hopefully going home tonight! Vi: i literally dont know if this is even a real person like i know she got goated in her first main series game for being the actual worst and then we brought her back for seychelles where she was one of the worst players ive ever seen so maybe she'll just disappear one day so i dont have to deal with her

I’m only voting tom cause that’s the only vote I’ve been told. It’s probably wrong but we’ll see

First off: https://drive.google.com/file/d/10IWN3bqYXYdJ232wG5fUhPmnDee8SP2i/view?usp=drivesdk damn thing finally loaded Second: God Vi gets on my nerves. Intentionally. I need to remember to just not talk to her or she’ll manipulate the view point to make me seem bad. She can’t play survivor to save her life but she’s god can she fuck up someone elses game. I look forward to voting her out.  

CASUALTIES:

EPISODE 1 CAST ASSESSMENT:

PART 1:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jztyauZhcBY&list=PLB-4yJ0EHce-bxHQVmQVdrV6tx36_6Jly&index=5&t=0s

PART 2:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DjoFbmrLSTc&list=PLB-4yJ0EHce-bxHQVmQVdrV6tx36_6Jly&index=5