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embroid-away · 2 years ago
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What If: Captain America Were Revived Today? #44 (April 1983) by Peter B. Gillis and Sal Buscema; Original Image by John Romita Sr.
In this What If? Marvel tale, Captain America is unfrozen in 1983 rather than the 1960s. Without the leadership of Steve Rogers, The Avengers disband. Meanwhile, a Captain America imposter, who calls himself a "real American," has decided to use his newfound influential media status to publicly support a National Identity Card to "deal with illegal aliens,” to suggest that members of civil rights groups "ought to think seriously as to whether or not their actions contribute to the strengthening of communist enemies," and declare that if those groups tear the country apart with protests, martial law is justified "for the peace to find a solution.”
Neighborhoods with large black populations (e.g., Harlem) are walled off and forced into poverty, and one character even mentions that Jewish people are being “put back into camps.” The right-wing politicians make sure that things like this aren’t shown on television, keeping the majority of the American public ignorant of the horrors committed with their indifferent support. The public are simultaneously told that with some sacrifices, America can be free once again. The fake Captain America confronts a group of peaceful protestors, and he is shot by a sniper (in what reads like an inside job), allowing the police to have “reason” to attack the protestors. The imposter does not die and instead uses the attack to provide more reason for the violent crackdown against protesting groups.
When the true Captain America is unfrozen, he is horrified to see what America has become, especially with his emblem stamped all over it. He immediately seeks out the resistance forces (who clearly represent the Black Panther Party) and joins their cause, stating that "the wrongs [he's] seen will take much more than one man to right -- but [he's] got a name to clear, a costume to unsoil-- and a country to die for!!"
By the time Steve joins them, the resistance only has one chance left to stop the American downfall: a political convention where the "America First" party will be able to secure its support to sweep the national elections and allow them "to return America to the pure and great nation [the] forefathers envisioned."
The resistance strikes just as the convention begins. The Captain America imposter is no match in a fight against the true Captain America -- especially against a Steve Rogers who's fucking pissed. ("Get up so I can knock you down!!")
With the imposter knocked unconscious, Captain America addresses the convention crowd, warning that an America that does not represent all its people does not deserve to exist at all; that liberty can be "as easily snuffed out [in America] as in Nazi Germany" and "as a people, we are no different from them."
The crowd realizes that the man speaking before them is the true Captain America and cheers. Captain America holds his hand up and silences them, stating that he will not allow them the chance to simply replace one idol with another. He alone can’t undo the horrible damage, and he pleads that there’s still a chance for the people to “find America once again.”
Fascism doesn’t change its tune, just its singers.
A 2021 Marvel Trumps Hate ( @marveltrumpshate ) commission, completed on 22-count aida cloth with embroidery floss and watercolors on a 9" diameter bamboo hoop.
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queen-of-the-avengers · 3 months ago
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A First For Everything
Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Female!Reader x Steve Rogers (no stucky)
Word Count: ~3.5k
Warnings: fluff
Summary: Steve Rogers. Thoughtful, considerate, and loving. He makes you feel safe and wanted. Bucky Barnes. Passionate, adventurous, and dangerous. He makes you feel alive and free. You think you can only choose one, but what happens when they offer to share you?
Squares Filled: image of bucky and steve from the comic (2021) for @buckybarnesbingo
Author’s Note: any and all comments are greatly appreciated <3
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You don’t have a lot of money but you love reading so you spend a lot of time at your local library to read all the books you can’t get otherwise. They have a checkout system that allows you to take home up to five books. If you want more, you’ll return what you read and the cycle continues. You’ve been so often that the librarians know you by name. They often allow you to take home an extra book knowing you’ll return it in the same condition you got it at.
“Hey, Marie,” you greet when you walk in.
“Y/N, dear, how was your weekend?”
“Spent my nose in all the books I borrowed last week. I am here to return them and get five more.”
“I wouldn’t be opposed if you wanted to sneak a sixth in there,” she smiles.
“We’ll see,” you chuckle.
She takes the books and you head to the section you’ve been obsessing over for the last few months. There are three books you had your eye on last week hoping that they’re here now. You turn the corner and see a tall blond man browsing the same section you’re going to. He’s looking at the shelf that contains one of the books you’re interested in. You could ask him to move but you’re mesmerized by this man’s physique. He’s tall and very muscular with short blonde hair and a clean-shaven face.
“Can I help you?”
You’re brought back to reality when you hear his velvety smooth voice.
“No, sorry. I just, um, need a book from that shelf.”
“Oh, sorry. Here.” He moves to the left and allows you to step into his space to grab the book on the very top shelf. Your fingers touch the edge of the shelf but you can’t reach the book. This is so embarrassing. “Do you need help?”
“Yeah. It’s the pink book right there.”
“It’s a good book. I’ve read it five times. I love this book.” He grabs the book and hands it to you with a smile. He even has a gorgeous smile with perfect white teeth. “I’m Steve.”
“Y/N. It’s nice to meet you.”
“Are you new around here or have you lived here long?”
“I’ve lived here nearly a year. I like to come here and read as much as I can.”
“That’s cool. My roommate and I just moved out here. We’re trying to venture out and look for fun things to do.”
“Well, I don’t know what you’re into but there is a concert venue downtown that holds small concerts from bands that aren’t really well known. It has a bar and it’s a good way to listen to some new music. There’s also a farmer’s market on the opposite side of town that has delicious food. I like to go there.”
“Seems like you know your way around town.”
“Yeah, I do. I like to do new things every week and just get out of my apartment.”
“Think you might want to show me around?” You blush at his offer and he chuckles. “You’re incredibly beautiful and I’d love to take you out if you let me. I just don’t know much around here so I think I need a tour guide.”
“I can be your tour guide if you want,” you grin. “The beaches here are pretty nice, especially at night.”
“Good to know,” he smiles.
You hand him your phone so he can put his number in, and you call it so that he has your number. You part ways and grab the other books you’ve had your eyes on before heading back home. Tomorrow can’t come fast enough, it’s all you can think about. Steve says he’ll be over at seven to take you out, and you start getting ready two hours before the date. You take an “everything” shower, dry and curl your hair, get dressed in the perfect dress and shoes, do your makeup, accessorize, and spray your best perfume. You’re ready with ten minutes to spare, and Steve is knocking on your door before you know it.
“Wow, you look amazing,” Steve smiles.
“Thank you. You clean up nice, too.”
He leads you to your car and opens the passenger door for you. You’re not sure what kind of date he’s taking you on but you’re excited to see what he researched. For someone who doesn’t know the area, it’ll be interesting to see what he thinks is worth going to. Steve drives to the coastline and finds a parking spot right next to the beach. You love the beach and often come here to either read your books or enjoy time in the sun. You don’t normally come here after the sun has gone down so it’s nice to see the beach free of people.
“I never come here at night. It’s nice,” you grin.
There is an ice cream shop that’s open late to give people a reason to stay in the area, and Steve leads you over to it.
“What’s your favorite flavor?”
“Either strawberry or mint chocolate chip. Surprise me.”
Steve gets ice cream for both of you, and you two eat it while walking along the shore of the beach. You two take your shoes off to allow the water to wash over your feet whenever it splashes onto shore.
“So, tell me a little bit about you.”
“Well, I live alone. I have a degree in psychology. I own three dogs and two cats so it’s never quiet inside my house. I love reading. I think I spent more time inside the library where we met than anywhere else. If they let animals inside, I’d bring all my dogs with me. What about you?”
“I live with my childhood best friend. I never went to college but I did graduate college. We have one cat that’s mostly my roommate’s but I think she loves me more. I’m more outgoing than my roommate and love to go out and meet new people.”
Talking to Steve is easy. You’re not big on being social but there is something about Steve that brings you comfort. He’s safe and you can see yourself falling for him quickly.
“Despite coming here all the time, I have never had this ice cream before. This is delicious,” you grin and take another bite.
“You got a little something…”
“Where?” you gasp and wipe your mouth with the back of your hand.
“Here.”
Steve scoops some of his ice cream and touches the cold treat to your nose. You gasp and look at him with wide eyes.
“You did not just do that.”
“I did,” Steven grins.
You don’t even think about what to do next. You take a scoop of your ice cream and shove it into his face, watching as it drops from his face onto the sand. You and Steve are at a standstill with a tense silence between you. He jerks toward you and you take off running away from him with a squeal. He catches you easily and threatens you by moving his ice cream-covered mouth toward your cheek.
“No! That’s gross,” you laugh and cringe away from him.
Steve licks his lips and lets you go with a chuckle. You like how easy it is with Steve. Being the gentleman Steve is, he walked you to your front door when he dropped you off at home.
“I had a great time with you,” you smile.
“Me too. I hope we can do this again.”
“I’m sure I can fit you in.”
You think Steve is going to kiss you when he leans in but he bypasses your lips and kisses your cheek. You go to bed that night with a smile on your face and your head filled with thoughts of Steve. The next day, you head out to the gym early so you can start your day refreshed and energized. There aren’t a lot of people at the gym but you’re good at tuning everything out when you’re in your workout. You start with a light walk on the treadmill to get your blood pumping before moving to the weights.
You use the weight machine where you sit down on the small bench and grab the handlebars that you’ll pull toward yourself. You’ve never used this machine before but you’re doing it now because you want to at least try something new. It might work better for you. You set the weights to the amount you can pull before sitting down. You complete one rep when you feel someone tapping on your shoulder.
You look behind you to see a gorgeous man. Tall, dark hair, a sharp jawline, bright blue eyes, muscles for days, and tattoos inked down his arms. You can tell that ink is on his torso because it disappears underneath the collar of his shirt. He waves a hand in front of his face and you snap out of the trance.
“I’m sorry, can I help you?” you ask after taking out your AirPod.
“I don’t want to be that guy or a creep but I noticed your posture when using this machine. I don’t want to see you hurt yourself. Can I give you some tips?” You open your mouth to respond and he quickly speaks again. “Feel free to tell me to fuck off. I just… I know a bit or two about gym injuries.”
“Oh, okay. Yeah. What am I doing wrong?”
The man straddles the bench right behind you but stays far enough away from you so you don’t feel his skin. However, you feel the heat radiating from his body. It’s enough to make your head spin.
“Can I touch you?” he asks.
“Yeah,” you whisper.
He puts his hands on your hips and moves slightly closer to you. The heat increases and your heart beats faster.
“You want to keep your back straight. The point of this machine is to work your arms. Pull down the handlebar.” You keep your back straight when you pull it down because you’re afraid of leaning back into his body. He cups both of your elbows as you lower your arms and stops you from going further down. “You want to keep your elbows at a ninety-degree angle. Try again.”
The man takes his hands away from your arms but lets them rest on your hips. You do it again and you can feel him nod behind you.
“Good girl.”
Butterflies erupt in your stomach at those two words. You’re not even sure if you heard him correctly, he spoke so softly.
“Thank you for your help.”
“No problem.” The man stands making you wish he was pressed against you still. “I’m Bucky.”
“Y/N.”
“Again, I’m not that guy or anything but are you single?”
“Yes,” you giggle.
You and Steve went on one date so you don’t count that as you two being in an exclusive relationship.
“Would you be opposed to me taking you out on a date?”
“No.”
Bucky takes out his phone and opens the phone app so you can give him your number. After you put it in, he calls you so that you have his number.
“I hope you’re free Friday night.”
“I just so happen to be free that day.”
“Great. I’ll pick you up at six. Wear something you don’t mind getting a bit of dirt on.”
“Okay.”
Bucky leaves your side to continue his workout but you can’t continue. All you can think about is Bucky and the feeling you got when you felt him behind you. Friday is only two days away but it feels like a week has passed before it’s finally here. You and Steve have been talking about going on another date. Yes, you told him that you had a date with another man but he didn’t seem all that worried since you two aren’t exclusive. The second you decide that you are, you’ll break it off with Bucky. The same goes for Steve if you and Bucky decide to be a thing.
It’s nearing six when you tie the pink bow into your hair. You’re wearing jeans and a frilly pink shirt, and you’ve done your hair in a half updo with a pink bow. You swipe lipgloss onto your lips when you hear the unmistakable sound of a motorcycle. You look out the window and see Bucky roll into your neighborhood on a sleek black bike. You meet him outside just as he takes off his helmet.
“Damn, I thought you were beautiful in gym clothes and all sweaty. You’re gorgeous now.”
Bucky’s wearing a tight black shirt and jeans that fit him snugly.
“Thank you,” you blush.
“Have you ever ridden a bike before?”
“Once or twice.”
“Then come here, Doll.” You walk over to Bucky and he is careful when he slides the second helmet onto your head, careful to not mess up your hair too much. He straps it into place and helps you onto the back of his bike before climbing on himself. “Hold on tight.”
You wrap your arms around his waist and sit very close to him. Even through his leather jacket, you can feel his muscles flex whenever you touch them. Bucky takes you out of town and to the old Jasper property. Jasper used to be a thriving farmer once upon a time but lost his house after he died. He didn’t have any family to leave it to so the city took possession of it. It now stands as a property kids love to explore, trash, and do whatever else they want to do with it. The city does nothing because they either don’t care or don’t have enough money to put security there.
Bucky pulls into the farm and parks next to an array of bikes. There is commotion coming from the back of the property and the sound of bikes revving their engines.
“What is going on here?” you ask Bucky when you get your helmet off.
“Dirt bike racing,” he grins. “I usually race but this time, I’m happy to watch.”
“Because of me?”
“Well, I can’t be looking like a fool in front of you if I lose,” he chuckles.
You two head to the back of the property and find seats up high to be able to see everything. The bikers slowly drive around the track to get used to it right before the race.
“I’ve never been to one of these things before.”
“Oh, Doll, you don’t know what you’re missing.”
The race begins and all the bikers start it by giving it their all. Bucky cheers his friend who is in first place, and you watch with wide eyes, scared to look away even for a second. The race consists of thirty laps around the place but it feels like they’re doing it in five. They go so fast around the curves, jump over the ramps expertly, and gain a lot of cheers whenever their favorites get closer to first place.
Bucky tries to explain the logistics of it all but you’re too enthralled to listen to him. It’s nice to do this with Bucky because you love the thrill of racing whether that be cars or bikes. Bucky stands up and cheers when his friend finishes in first followed by two of his other friends in second and third. The winner gets a cash prize put together by both the audience and the crew members responsible for the race.
“So, how was your first bike race?” Bucky asks when he walks you back to his bike.
“That was amazing! You do that sort of thing?”
“Yeah. There’s nothing like feeling nothing but the rumble of your bike on a racetrack. Everything else disappears and it feels like you’re the only one on the track. Sure, we do races for fun but the serious ones are the best.”
“I’d like to see you race sometime.”
“I can arrange that,” he grins. Bucky takes the long way back to your house to give you more time pressed up against him. Like Steve, he walks you to your front door. “Can I take you out again?”
“Yes,” you smile.
Bucky glances down to your lips and decides to just go for it. He grabs the sides of your face and pulls you in for a kiss that makes your head dizzy. He dances around the idea of using tongue, and you open your mouth to allow him in. He slides his tongue in and explores what you’ve given him before pulling away.
“I’ll talk to you later, Doll.”
“Okay,” you mutter, still in a haze from his kiss.
Bucky waits for you to get inside your house before leaving. You rest your back against your door and bite your lip in thought. You had such a great time with Steve but you also loved your time with Bucky. Two men. How will you ever decide between them? You get ready for bed and fall asleep with thoughts of Bucky and Steve.
The next morning, you’re woken up by your phone ringing. You pop your head up and reach for your phone with one eye closed and the other squinted nearly shut. Both eyes pop wide open when you see Steve’s name on your phone. You sit up in bed and smooth down your hair as if he can see what you look like over a phone call. You cough to clear your throat so it’s not so obvious that you’ve been sleeping seconds before.
“Hello?” you answer.
“Hey, Y/N. Are you busy tonight?”
“No. What’s up?”
“My roommate is going to be out of town tonight and I was wondering for our second date, I can cook for you.”
“At your place?”
“Yeah. I totally understand if you don’t want to come over and go somewhere public, but--”
“Steve, it’s okay. I’d be happy to let you cook for me.”
“Okay, good,” he breathes in relief. “I’ll text you my address. How about you come over at six?”
“I’ll be there.”
After saying goodbye, Steve hangs up and looks at his roommate who is sitting in the living room cleaning bike parts he got from Facebook Marketplace.
“What have I told you about cleaning your shit in here?”
“To do it because you love it,” Bucky grins.
“You’re going to be out by six, right? My date is coming over then.”
“Yeah, I heard you.”
Bucky continues to clean while Steve gets ready for his date with you. Afterward, both men decide to kill time to watch whatever it is that’s on Netflix. Bucky looks at the time and sees it’s nearly six. He gets up and grabs his jacket on his way to the front door.
“Where are you going?”
“Out, remember?”
“British Bake-Off is next,” Steve says with the remote in hand.
“I’m leaving and you have your date. It’s almost six.”
“Shit, you’re right.” Steve looks at his friend who grabs his motorcycle keys. “You don’t want to take a shower first? Wash your hair, maybe?”
“I’m fine, Dad,” Bucky rolls his eyes. He opens the door right when you’re about to knock, and your eyes widen when you see it’s Bucky and not Steve at the door. “Doll?”
“Bucky? What… What are you doing here?”
Steve pops his head out from behind his friend and smiles when he sees you.
“Hey, Y/N, come in. This is my roommate, Bucky. He was just leaving.”
Bucky doesn’t say a word and opens the door wider so you can walk in. Of course, it’ll be your luck that the two best guys you’ve ever dated just so happen to be roommates. Steve isn’t freaking out so Bucky must not have talked about you or not mentioned you by name.
“You’re dating her? She’s your date?” Bucky whispers at Steve but you hear.
“Yeah, why?”
“Dude, she’s the girl I took to the bike race.”
“Wait, what?”
“Look, I didn’t know you two were roommates.” Both men look at you. “I should go, right? This is something I don’t want to come between. I don’t want to ruin your friendship and before you say anything, it will if we continue to let this happen. Yeah, I should go.”
Neither man moves from the front door so you’re stuck here while they stare at each other like in some macho standoff. They have a wordless conversation only spoken through their eyes. It feels like hours before Bucky finally speaks.
“We’re not going to make you choose but I still want to date you.”
“So do I,” Steve says right after.
“Both of you want to date me?”
Bucky shrugs and looks at his friend who has the same expression on his face.
“You wouldn’t be the first thing we’ve shared.”
“You obviously don’t have to choose right now, and if you’ll let me, I’d love to cook for you still.”
Two men? Two gorgeous men? You had such a fun time with Steve and Bucky, and if they’re willing to share you, who are you to say you can’t do the same? You’ve never done something like this before but there’s a first for everything, right?
“Fuck it. I’m in if you are.”
Bucky and Steve grin mischievously, ideas already running through their heads. This is either going to be the best thing to happen to you or the worst mistake of your life. It is sure fun to find out, though.
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dc418writes · 2 months ago
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talk so sweet when you’re doing bad things
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✨Pairing✨: inmate!softdark!Steve Rogersxpsychiatrist!black!reader
Summary🪄: Your pining isn’t in vain
🚨: 18+ NO MINORS!, oral (m!receiving), unprotected happy adult times (please be safe out there guys and girls!), language, obsessive like behavior, implied stalking, mention of masturbation (f!receiving)
A/N🎤: ✨HAPPY SPOOKY SEASON🎃!!✨ this is my submission to the Horny Hoes Hootenanny hosted by @sweater-daddiesdumbdork and @yenzys-lucky-charm and I hope you guys like what I came up with☺️! Also please support the other works for this event and even submit your own if you feel inclined💕!
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Dialogue Prompt: “Don’t act all innocent when we both know where your mouth just was”
Tropes/Situational Prompt: the villain/monster has feelings (or thots) for you
You didn’t have to hear a name to know which escaped inmate the news anchors were currently talking about.
“Blonde white male, blue eyes, 6’3, considered highly dangerous.”
You knew him very well having had him as a patient for about a year now. Pretty much the same amount of time his hulking body - yet soft features - has plagued your dreams and hidden fantasies. That first night it happened, your imagination vividly playing in your resting mind how his thick fingers would touch you just right to have you writhing and moaning for more, you were…flustered.
It wasn’t the first time - and probably wouldn’t be the last - that a patient made a surprise appearance in one of your dreams. Details and analysis from earlier sessions still fresh in your subconscious and lingering into your resting state. It was how you felt afterwards though, that told you this instance was far different. You desperately - and a little shamefully - wished you could sink back into that erotic dreamland when you awoke throbbing and needy from the scenes now branded in your memory. Sometimes you even found yourself daydreaming about his muscular, tattooed arms wrapped tightly around you. His soft lips gently pecking along your face before journeying down your heated body to where you wanted him most. That dark beard scratching and tickling your inner thighs until it ultimately became soaked.
Although that hidden primal urge wanted differently, every day after you expertly maintained your professionalism during your sessions with him. Carefully dissecting his words and explanations to make sure he wasn’t a danger to himself or others - well, no more than what other people already believed that is.
However one day, something shifted.
Gone was his reserved attitude - clearly deciding whether to fully trust you - and instead, a man who seemed…one step ahead. Dare you say a little smug. Admittedly, this new aura had a familiar warmth spreading along your lower abdomen causing your thighs to squeeze together as you slightly shifted in your seat.
“So, how are you today Mr. Rogers?,” you asked turning to a fresh sheet of paper in your spiral notebook.
He sighs, briefly widening his thick legs as he gets comfortable. His tattooed hand scratching along his bearded jaw. “Good as I can be. And I think we’ve known each other long enough that you can call me Steve.”
“Is that what you would prefer?”
For the first time, a hint of a smirk paints his pink lips thinking of a few names he’d prefer you call him. It’s unknown to you though as your hand moves along the page scribbling notes. “Makes things more comfortable right?”
Finally you look up from your writing to meet an intensity in his sea like eyes you’ve never experienced. You can’t look away though as you feel yourself slowly become flustered. “Are you not comfortable during our sessions..Steve?”
He pauses for a moment simply letting his eyes roam along your features - as if analyzing you for a change - before leaning forward with elbows on his knees. “What’re you writing?”
“Just observations. Notes for your file.”
“We can’t make our own notes?”
“Um..of course. I would actually suggest journaling as a way to manage your emotions; your thoughts. Keeping up with other suggestions from our sessions you might find helpful.”
“And my own observations,” he adds leaning back in his chair. “Like you.”
“What exactly do you mean ‘like me’?”
“Like how you seem…different. Bothered maybe.” You subtly try to calm your increasing pulse as he crosses his arms across his chest. His muscles straining against the white tee that have you near dripping already. Swirls of black ink forming various pictures and cursive words on his arms teasingly persuading you to kiss each one.
There’s no way he could tell was there?
“Thank you for inquiring, but this session is about you Steve,” you answer closing the notebook in your lap. “And as a warning, that question is ina-,”
“Must be tiring though. Always doing for others, yet no one there for you.” Steve’s tongue peeks out ever so gently wetting his lips. “No one to take care of you.”
“I’m an adult. I care for myself.”
“My point exactly.” Steve’s head just barely tilts while his vice drops an octave lower. “We both know everyone shouldn’t do everything alone.”
“I think we’re done here,” you quickly respond so he couldn’t go farther and crumble your resolve. “Have a good day Mr. Rogers.”
There’s a slight mischievous tilt to his lips as he stands. Cords of muscles moving under his shirt with such a subtle movement. His hands clasp in front of him turning to walk towards the door where a guard always waited to escort him back to his cell, and you can’t help but silently admire the expanse of his backside. From his broad shoulders to his thick thighs, the sight causes that pulse between your legs to start again.
“You too” is all he says once he’s near the door, but his earlier words leave a lasting impression throughout your day. You can’t seem to focus on your other clients constantly thinking of his deep voice, his pink lips, the intense way he looked at you that wasn’t uncomfortable but made you feel seen.
That night was the fastest you’ve ever came - squeezing and clutching around the rubber toy inside you so hard you genuinely thought there’d be an indentation when you finally pulled it from your messy core.
Something also snapped in you, wanting - needing - to know if Steve was just as good as you fantasized. That’s admittedly how your arrangement began, first sweet talking the guard into taking his lunch earlier after overhearing his child was sick. “He hasn’t had any violent acts in a little over a year. His file can attest that he’s currently not a danger. I’ll be fine, your kid needs you.” Reluctantly, he followed your suggestion but would of course try to be back in time for transport.
“You call if anything goes left, alright? Remember your panic button,” the man, maybe 10 years older, states peering dead center into your pupils so you’d know he was serious and he’d know you were listening. A quick nod sends him on his way to retrieve Steve; leaving you to mentally prepare yourself for what was to come.
A smirk tugs on his lips once the door closes behind him. His deep blue eyes raking up and down your seated body; appreciating the black, knee-length pencil skirt you chose to wear rather than your typical slacks. “Good afternoon Steve.”
“Afternoon,” he replies slightly tilting his head forward in greeting. “Since we’re still meeting, I take it what I said wasn’t all that bad. That you might’ve even agreed with me..”
Fast forward, your secret rendezvouses were still going strong. You on your knees for him just as you were that first day gladly bobbing up and down his throbbing length. Your hand not clutching his thigh twisting and rubbing what you couldn’t reach.
“This is how you act a week without me huh?,” he smirks with his larger hand clutching the back of your neck. When you peer up at him through wet lashes - moaning as you nod your head - he nearly comes undone cursing under his breath as the veins in his neck distend in that way you love so much.
Just as you feel him twitch in your mouth, he’s quick to pull you off causing you to gasp for breath as he maneuvers you to your feet. Turning you so your back would hit the wall as he hurriedly pushes your dress up over your hips. As usual, he’s met with your bare center glistening and ready for him.
“Fuck..need to be inside you,” Steve whispers against your lips before claiming your mouth as he’s done plenty times before. His tongue easily dominating yours only makes you wetter and thighs feel sticky.
“Steve please,” you pout. “Fill me up.” His hand grips under your knee simultaneously lifting and spreading you so he could slide in. His member thick, red, and leaking when he pulls down his orange pants. Luckily Steve wasn’t in the teasing mood, roughly entering your needy hole and making you loudly moan before his mouth was covering yours again.
“You’re gonna get us caught sweetheart,” he chuckles kissing along your jaw and neck. “Then again, maybe that’s what you want.” His pace begins to quicken as your hands clutch his shoulders and fingernails dig into his skin causing him to groan. “Want someone to see how good I make you feel? How deep you take me?”
“Steve,” you whine letting your head fall back against the wall. The slapping of his hips against yours nearly drowning out your panting and whimpers. “S’close.”
“I know, I know. God you’re so pretty like this, all blissed out and dumb.” He practically growls into your chest trying to hold on for longer, but he knows he’ll be gone soon the way you squeeze around him so tight. Even after all these months of meetings.
His free hand moves between you to circle your nearly raw nub as he switches between kisses and nips along your breast making you arch and tears prick the corners of your eyes feeling that addicting wave overtake you. “Ste-..I-…plea-,”
“Give it to me, cmon.” It wasn’t long after your release crashed into you that Steve was following, burying his face in your neck as he kept his moans and whimpers low. His hand massages your achy thigh while he pecks along the column of your throat in an effort to calm you down.
“My pretty girl. Did so good for me.” You couldn’t help but giggle feeling your cheeks heat at his words.
“T-Thank you Steve.”
How so much can change in the matter of hours.
-
Sat on your couch, knees pressed against your chest, all you can do is listen as the man rummages in your fridge and pantry trying to find whatever it was he wanted. The television playing a game show you’d usually be interested in, but now can’t even hear it with the pounding in your ears. Your heart still thudding since first leaving your bedroom to investigate the noise you heard and finding him in your living room.
“Figured you’d want some,” he states placing the cup of peppermint tea on the table in front of you. How he knew, you didn’t have the stomach to think about let alone how he knew where you lived in the first place.
“Y-You shouldn’t be here,” you whisper as he sits on the opposite end of the couch. Your first words to him tonight.
Steve just lowly chuckles. “Don’t act all innocent when we both know where your mouth just was.”
“That still doesn’t give-,”
“Then why leave your key?,” he counters. “Of all our sessions I didn’t even know you had them. Yet today there it was.”
You didn’t purposely leave your key. Already in a rush when you arrived that morning, you just left it out rather than placing it in your wallet like usual. It wasn’t until you were in your car on the way home that you remembered it shining against the hardwood off to the side. According to protocol, you should’ve notified someone but you figured you could just get it the next morning and use your spare in the meantime.
In retrospect, you realize Steve must’ve seen and swiped it when you weren’t looking. Probably when you were cleaning yourself up and righting your dress.
“The key was just out Steve,” you carefully try to explain seeing the confusion in his features. “I didn’t leave it on purpose.”
“So now this is all my fault?”
“No it’s no one’s fault-,”
His sudden movement - standing to pace along the expanse of your bay window - startles you to stand yourself and ready to run if needed. “Can’t you see I did this for us?!”
“I-I know Steve, but-,”
“No,” he darkly chuckles shaking his head as he steps closer. “No don’t even try. This is real and we both know it!”
You quickly wipe away the tear falling from your eye trying to stay calm; hoping you could turn the situation around. That feeling entirely fleets watching him pull out his notebook and flip through the dated pages smudged with something…shiny.
“I saved these just in case you tried to deny it. Make it seem like I was the crazy one.”
Cautiously, you close the gap between you. Luckily he lets you hold his hand when you reach out towards him. “Y-You’re not crazy and I’m not denying anything Steve.” His frustration shifts to a soft smile gazing into your brown eyes. “We need to get you back to your cell though. You don’t wanna ruin all your progress right?”
Somehow you steady yourself not to flinch when his hand rises to caress your soft cheek. His thumb lowering to trace your plump lips he loved so much.
Love. He loved you. And if his mother taught him anything, you do any and everything for those you love.
“I can’t do that. You need someone to take care of you like only I can. You didn’t even check your windows before you went to bed sweetheart.” You can’t fight the tears now fully letting them flow as your future vanishes before your eyes.
“Hey it’s okay, I’m here now,” he coos. Those arms you once fantasized about now burning against your skin for a different reason. “No one’s separating us again.”
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xcaptain-winterx · 2 years ago
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Requests are open you say? How about Steve Rogers having a huge crush on the new recruit (reader) and being very awkward in trying to pursue her
Be a man
Steve Rogers x reader
summary: above
warnings: fluff, awkwardness, shy Steve, cum
a/n: English is not my first language, meaning you will probably find a lot of misspelling etc.
Part 2
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Steven Grant Rogers also known as the hero Captain America. Fought against Hydra and their leader Red Skull, his brainwashed best friend, Ultron, his own team and even Thanos. You would think that Americas golden boy is unstoppable, that nothing can stop him.
You’re wrong.
See, Steve has years of experience in fighting due to the fact that he’s over a hundred years old and fought in World War Two. The only thing he doesn’t know about, or to be more specific, doesn’t have any experience with, is the opposite sex. Steve has never been on a date or had a real first kiss. Ok, yeah, he kissed Peggy and Natasha once, but that meant nothing. God, he’s still a virgin.
To sum it up, Steve is an awkward bean around women. He doesn’t always show it obviously, but ask him something not work related with a flirty smile, and he starts to sweats like a polar bear in the desert.
Steve always thought that he was going to be able to talk to ‘the girl’ once he saw her, that he will have no problem to communicate with her.
He thought wrong.
Steve is in the training room, punching the punching bag until it falls off again. He was supposed to be training with Sam, but he hasn’t shown up. So far, Sam always showed up or at least texted him if something came in between and he couldn’t make it. Steve stops hitting the punching bag and goes over to the bench where his phone is laying. He picks it up and swipes it open, seeing that he didn’t receive any text message from Sam.
It’s not normal for Sam to be late, so Steve decides that he’s going to look for Sam. He puts his phone in his pocket and walks out of the gym, in the direction of the living area.
As he walks down the hallway Bucky crosses his path, “Hey pal, have you seen Sam”, Steve asks.
“No, but I can imagine he’s talking to the new recruits, telling them something about teamwork makes the dream work, or some other shit”, Bucky says, mimicking Sam’s voice.
Steve’s brows furrow; what new recruits? Steve heard nothing about new recruits. “I don’t know anything about new recruits?”
“Transferred from a SHIELD base in Germany, I think. Sam will probably force us to introduce us to them”, Bucky says. Steve knows that it’s hard for Bucky to talk or communicate with new and many people at once, but he knows that he’s trying his best. Since he began going to therapy, his old self made more and more of an appearance, and Bucky feels a lot better in general even though it’s hard sometimes. He’s proud of Bucky. He’s trying his best.
“Better we do it now than later. Come on, Buck”, Steve says, patting his shoulder, and pulling him with him.
Bucky lets out a chuckle, “Ok”.
Both super soldiers walk towards the meeting rooms, thinking they might be there when Bucky suddenly stops walking. Steve looks at Bucky, silently questioning why he stopped. Bucky reads Steve’s facial expression before pointing towards the end of the hallway, “found him”.
Steve follows Buckys finger and sees Sam. Sam is not alone, he’s with a woman. A beautiful woman. A goddess.
Bucky sees Steve’s face heating up. “You good, pal?” he asks with a teasing voice. Steve doesn’t answer him, to lost in the woman’s beauty next to Sam. Bucky snaps his fingers in front of Steve’s face, trying to get him back to reality, but it doesn’t work.
Lost in thoughts, or to be more specific the woman, Steve doesn’t see how Sam noticed them too, and is calling them over.
“Steve!”
Steve comes back to reality when Sam calls him for the third time. Bucky laughs at Steve’s confused puppy stare, looking like he just woke up from a coma without any knowledge of what happened before. It gets worse as they see how Sam and the woman are now walking towards them. Bucky feels Steve panicking next to him. “Hey Steve, calm down, ok?” Bucky whispers to him.
“Mhm”, Steve answers, not being able to form any words. Sam and the Woman getting closer and closer to them.
“Remember, we just introduce ourselves” Bucky tries to calm him down, his own anxiety leaving and instead focusing on helping his friend, “You can do this. Just remember to think and talk at the same time, and don’t just stare at her”. If his friend wasn’t looking like a dead fish Bucky would’ve really enjoyed this moment. Him helping his friend talk to a woman like he did back in the 40s, but nothing about Steve’s current problem is funny. Well, maybe the fact that he for real looks like a dead fish.
“Ok” Steve says.
“Ok”
“Ok”
“You can do this, Steve”
“Ok”
And the woman gets closer and closer.
Steve begins to murmur what he wants to say, making Bucky look nervously at him.
The woman and Sam are now almost completely by them as Steve suddenly says, “I need to finish the mission report”, before sprinting the other direction.
“Hey, why did Steve-“ Sam can’t finish because Bucky is already sprinting after Steve, leaving him and the woman utterly confused. “BUCKY!”
Sam puts his hands on his hips, “normally they are not like this, ok? They probably just remembered to take their anti-aging cream”. He turns to you, “Super soldiers, you know”.
You smile as Sam claps your shoulders and says, “how about I show you the training room?”. You nod, letting him lead you to the training room.
Meanwhile, Steve is sprinting towards his room, looking like a gazelle who’s running away from a predator. Steve thought he could talk to her, but no.
Once he reaches his room, he locks the door, and then just stands there, staring at the locked door; what just happened? He begins to hyperventilate like how his pre serum self did when he had an asthma attack. The room feels like it’s shrinking. Steve feels small and scared. Just the sight of the woman made him with a snap of a finger feel like his weak 40s self before the serum. Back when no one liked him.
While Steve is having a panic attack, Bucky is running towards Steve’s room. Bucky started running after him some seconds after he sprinted away, and normally Bucky would’ve caught up to him, but Steve’s panic and the super soldier serum made it a bit difficult. Luckily, Bucky knows Steve like no one else and knows that he’s hiding in his room.
“Steve?” Bucky asks, knocking on the door. “You good, pal? Can I come in?”. He waits, but no answer comes, so he tries opening the door but it’s locked.
Bucky sighs, “Steve, let me in”.
On the other side, Steve is debating if he should let his best friend in. His debating goes too long for Bucky though because the next thing Steve hears is Bucky saying ‘Friday unlock the door’, and the door opens.
Bucky walks in, seeing a teared eyed Steve who’s breathing fast and heavy. Bucky strikes over to him and pulls him slowly down to the floor, sitting face to face with each other. He takes his hand and puts it on his heart, “Steve, hey. Focus on me. Focus on my heartbeat. You feel mine?” Bucky says, putting his other hand on Steve’s heart, feeling how his heart is still beating fast. “Steve, focus on my heartbeat”.
Steve looks at his friend and tries to focus on his heart. He closes his eyes, only trying to listen to Bucky’s heartbeat. “Yeah, I feel it”.
Bucky gives him a smile, “ok, good”.
They sit in silent for a few minutes, Steve’s heart beating now slower and his breaths coming out normally.
Bucky waits until Steve’s heartbeat is fully back to normal before asking “better?”.
Steve nods, “I didn’t think we would have had to use that method on me”, he says chuckling.
This calming method showed Bucky’s therapist, Steve. She told him that it would help Bucky calm down when he’s having a panic attack, and it did in fact help. The night after she explained it to him, Bucky woke up from a nightmare and started to panic. Steve’s room is right next to him, so he heard his friend’s panic. He tried the method that night and it worked perfectly. It took some while until Bucky calmed down, but it was way faster than without the method, and Bucky was able to fall asleep again after.
To other people, this method may look a bit weird, but it calms his best friend down, so who cares? It’s also no surprise that Steve is the only one allowed to do this method. Sam once tried it and Bucky punched him in his face when he put his hand on his chest. Sam left the room angrily and annoyed with a broken bloody nose. Bucky punched him with his metal arm. He thought Sam was in danger that second and in a state of danger he uses his metal arm. Bucky apologized to Sam though, and he truly felt bad and sorry. Sam instantly forgave him though, he knows it wasn’t his intention.
At least not in that situation.
Bucky even ‘baked’ Sam some brownies. Well, more like bought some Brownies and said he baked them. Sam knew he didn’t, but said nothing and just enjoyed eating some good, tasteless brownies with a smile on his face.
“Well, we didn’t think you would ever run away from a girl”.
Steve sighs, “Yeah. Back then, they would run away from me. Now it’s me running away”
“Why did you?”
Steve shakes his head. “I don’t know. I got scared I guess?”.
When Steve looks at Bucky again, he comes to face with a blank stare. It kinda reminds him of Bucky’s winter soldier stare. If they weren’t having an emotional and serious conversation, Steve would’ve been actually concerned that something happened that made Bucky go into Winter Soldier mindset.
Bucky scares Steve when he suddenly jumps up, “You know what” he pulls Steve up, almost making him fall over “You will have that girl”.
“Huh?” he asks, confused.
“Or just someone”.
He doesn’t like the thought of Bucky helping him. Bucky was a true player back then, a gentleman, but a player.
“I help you talk to women. I can do that. I did that a hundred years ago” he stops when he realizes “fucking hell, that’s a long time ago”.
Steve scowls, “Language, Buck”.
“Sorry”.
“I get that you’re trying to help me, and I appreciate that” Steve takes a deep breath before continuing, “but I can’t”
“Why?” Bucky asks crossing his arms, standing like an angry parent.
“I just can’t, ok? Also, colleges are not allowed to be in a romantic relationship”.
“Then look for someone else. There’s this woman named Leah. She works at my favorite sushi place and I heard-“
“I don’t want someone else!”
Bucky raises an eyebrow, a teasing grin on his face. “Ohhhh, so you want her. Ok, Steven. I see you”. He winks at Steve as he groans.
“I didn’t say that. I just-ugh, I like her, but-there’s not gonna be anything between us” he tries to give his best friend a reassuring smile, but knowingly fails. “You can ask Leah out”, Steve tries changing the topic.
“No, she’s not my type”.
Bucky knows that Steve won’t stop having a crush on the new recruit. It took Steve a hundred years to get over Peggy. He was still in love with her even after being unfrozen. Now imagine he’s thinking about the new recruit until he dies. Bucky doesn’t want that. God, he was honestly happy when Peggy passed. That woman was like a snake slithering her way into his friends heart only to poison it. He didn’t like her from the second she interrupted Steve and his conversation. Dumb Bitch.
He wants his friend to be happy. He wants to be an uncle. He hopes Steve will get himself together and talk to her.
“Ok. Whatever you say”, Bucky says, patting him on his shoulder. They continue talking, but this time about what movie they are going to watch for their ‘we need to learn about cinematic history’ movie night. While talking, Bucky’s mind continues to wander back to their original conversation, and about the fact that Steve doesn’t want some dating teaching from him. In all honesty, he’s slightly hurt by that.
He could still help him somehow, though.
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It’s been a week now since he saw the new recruit and he’s been trying to avoid any situation that could lead to him seeing her. Steve knows it sounds silly, but he’s scared of her. Scared of seeing her. Scared of her seeing him. He hasn’t been training for a week. Steve knows the chances are high that she will be there. The only sort of trying he did this week was going for a run. Alone.
Sam noticed a change in Steve. Everybody did. Steve was never a huge extrovert and now he’s such an introvert. He doesn’t even eat with them anymore because she could be there, or just walk past them eating.
Today he needs to be brave, though. Bucky asked him to train together because he’s the only good match for him. Bucky told him that winning against Sam slowly starts to get boring, and that Steve needs to train again. Cardio is good, but Steve needs to do more.
After trying to convince Bucky that they can also train outside or anywhere else than the training room, he knew from Bucky’s reaction that it’s not gonna happen. So now he’s on his way to meet Bucky in the training room.
To say Steve is nervous is an understatement, he’s almost shitting his pants.
Bucky assured him they would have the room for themselves and Steve just hopes that that’s true.
Steve walks into the gym and surprisingly sees no one. No Bucky. Steve was already late because he was nervous, so it confuses him why Bucky isn’t here. He looks at the clock on the wall and sees that he’s sixteen minutes late, meaning Bucky is to late too.
“Maybe he’s still asleep”, Steve tells himself. Technically, he would be happy that Bucky is able to sleep, but it’s the first time since a week that he’s training and last time, Sam already didn’t come.
He is just about to go to Bucky’s room when he hears a soft voice.
“Well, it’s only seven in the morning”.
Steve turns around and freezes.
It’s the woman
Oh, no no no no no
“Every normal person would be asleep at this time”.
Steve is unable to speak, he’s just staring at her. Not even blinking, just staring.
She looks at him with a smile, waiting for an answer, or just something.
When Steve realizes that she’s waiting for an answer, he clears his throat. “Yeah, uhm-I uh, I mean he likes to sleep-uh- he can’t sleep that much and-uhm yeah. He normally only uhm-sleeps with me- Wait not like that-uh I mean, he just likes to sleep with me-no. He uhm, he sleeps better with-me-uhm because I’m a good sleep partner- no, I just-uhm. IM NOT GAY”.
Steve looks at her with wide eyes. He knows he just made a fool of himself, so he tries to save himself.
Tries.
“There’s obviously nothing wrong with liking-uhm men, but I’m not like that. Yeah, uhm I hate men- wait not hate men, I like them, but platonic like ha ha. I like woman. But I’m not a relationship-I uhm”, he doesn’t want to look like he is desperate for a relationship. She could think that he’s trying to ‘hit on her’. He believes that what it’s called, but you can never trust Tony. “I’m not into relationship- uhm, the romantic, uh, kind-just the other kind”
Now she looks at him with wide eyes. The only other non-relationship kind she can think of is the sexual one. She can’t believe that Captain Rogers, the golden boy, is such a man. The worst part is that Steve doesn’t understand what he just said and instead looks at her with a nervous smile. Poor boy thought it sounded more like normal relationship, platonic kind. It didn’t, though.
“You do you, I guess” she says, feeling incredibly uncomfortable. She didn’t think her first time meeting Captain America would be like this.
Steve sees that she’s not comfortable or at least confused by what he’s saying. Maybe she doesn’t like his answer.
So he continues to try to fix this conversation.
“I uhm I would like a relationship-with someone-uh I want to-“ he can’t say dancing, that sounds boring. He needs to come up with something that everyone does these days. Something that she would probably like “do Netflix and chill”.
Steve needs to get better at telling when he can trust Tony and when not.
“Oh, uhm” she doesn’t know what to say “that’s nice I guess”.
Right now, Steve would rather fight against HYDRA than talk to her. He can feel how he’s sweating. And if that already isn’t bad enough, he starts to really look at her. Oh boy.
She’s wearing tight black leggings with a matching black sport bra. She must’ve been already training for a while because he sees some drops of sweat on her chest area, running to her cleavage. Steve is directly looking at her cleavage, not taking his eyes off it.
He doesn’t notice that he’s looking at it, well, that he’s so obviously looking at it.
She puts her left hand on her right shoulder, acting like she’s massaging it, and not like she’s trying to cover her chest.
Steve’s eyes move to hers, and it only takes three seconds until realization hits him.
“Shit!” he screams, making her jump “oh, I’m sorry I didn’t want to scare you-I uhm, and I didn’t want to stare at your you know-chest. Not because they are not pretty, they are-NO Uhmmm, they uh. It’s just”.
Steve stops talking when the door opens and Bucky walks in with a smile on his face “Language, Steve. Good morning you two”. At least someone is having one.
“Morning”, she says, smiling at his best friend before walking away to lift some weight. Deep down they are both happy that Bucky saved them from the awkward situation, though, Steve is also sad because he wanted to talk to her, to have a chance, but he failed.
Bucky smiles after her, then turns to Steve. “Hey Steve, how are you?”
“You knew, didn’t you” Steve almost spats, his voice echoing throughout the training room. He turns around and sees how she is looking at them.
He quickly turns back around, facing Bucky, who just gives him an innocent smile. “What do you mean Steve?”. Bucky knows that Steve can’t say anything about that, due to the fact that she can hear everything they are saying.
Steve glares at him, grinding his teeth. “That you would be late”, he lies.
“Yeah”.
Steve wants to scream, but he can’t “why didn’t you tell me?” he asks, his veins showing.
“I texted you, Punk”, Bucky says as he walks over to get a punching bag.
Steve frowns; Bucky didn’t text him. He pulls out his phone.
Love❤️‍🔥- I’ll be a bit late
Send one minute ago
Steve cringes as he sees the name Tony and Sam saved Bucky on his phone. He would rather want Punk with that heart. Platonic style. He doesn’t know how to change it, though.
“Didn’t you see my message?” Bucky gives him a fake questioning expression. A teasing one.
“I must have missed it”, Steve says in a monotone voice “I mean it says you send it a minute ago. Bucky”.
“Oh, you know. The signal is quite bad here”
Steve closes his eyes and takes a deep breath. “Yeah, Bucky. You would’ve thought that Tony would’ve already handled it”.
Bucky snickers “Yeah”.
“Yeah”.
Bucky walks with the bag over his shoulder towards a hook to hang the bag on. He turns to look at Steve, a grin on his face when his eyes move to look behind Steve.
“Hey, how about you help her, Steve~”, Bucky says loudly.
Steve follows his eyes and sees how the recruit is struggling with moving some weights out of her way, so she can put the bench there to do some bench presses.
She looks at them and gives them a shy smile. “That would be kinda nice”.
Steve looks back at Bucky, panic in his eyes. Bucky gives him a big smile that says ‘yes’.
It’s time, it’s time to shine, Steve. He can do that, he can easily lift that.
‘Ok, Steve. Pull your ass cheeks together and help her’ he thinks to himself as he walks towards her. He stops in front of her, getting lost in her eyes for a second. This time he snaps back quickly though and moves the weights away.
“Thank you, Captain Rogers”, she says, his back still towards her.
“Mhm” he can’t bring out a single word. Instead of turning back to her, he sorts the weights, so she doesn’t see him blushing. “You-You’re welcome”.
He hears her getting on the bench and takes that as his cue to leave.
“Hey, Steve!”
Please, don’t Bucky.
“You should help her. Stay behind her to make sure that her arms don’t give in”
Steve doesn’t turn around this time. He can hear how she doesn’t lift any weight, meaning she is looking at them.
“Yeah, I uhm would, but- mission reports. I need to finish the mission report”, Steve lies “important stuff you know. Not like helping her isn’t important, but yeah. Avenger stuff is important….”.
It’s that second that Bucky realizes that Steve is the worst person in admitting his crush he ever met. The best friend he is, he needs to help him. “Oh, I already did them for you”.
Great, now Steve’s lie is a lie. Thank you, Bucky.
“No, I don’t think you did”, he tries to save himself “They were on my desk this morning, unfinished”
Good job, Steve.
“I did them this morning. We were on the same mission, Steve. Only one of us needs to do them” Bucky says, punching the bag “I send you a message”.
“No, you didn’t-“ he looks at his phone to see a message from Bucky.
Love❤️‍🔥-already did the mission report.
Send a minute ago.
Bucky knows Steve like the back of his hand. He knew what excuses he would use to try to flee the scene. A laugh almost leaves his mouth as he sees the face Steve is making. God, he missed teasing him.
“I thought you were asleep”.
“No, I wanted to finish it. You’ve been quite stressed the past week, and I wanted to lift some weight of your shoulders”.
“Thanks, James”.
The tension between them is noticeable. So noticeable that the recruit is more uncomfortable than when she was alone with Steve.
She gets their attention when she walks past them to grab her water bottle. “Have fun training”
“You already leaving?” Steve asks disappointed, sad that she’s leaving.
“Yeah, I’ve already been training before you both came. Also, I need to find Sam. He promised to show me the rest of the compound. I only saw half of the facility so far and don’t want to get lost at some point”, she says. So far she didn’t get lost because the most important areas were already introduced to her, but it’s better to know the whole compound. “Bye” she waves them before opening the door and walking through it.
No one says anything until the door closes. Bucky is the first to break the silence, “wow”.
“I know you did that on purpose!”
“I was trying to make you talk to her” he grabs his shoulder “I just want to help you. She’s a beautiful woman-“
“Hey!”
“See” Bucky says, “you’re jealous when I just say that she’s pretty. You have a crush on that girl, Steve”.
Steve sighs in defeat. “Ok, maybe”.
“I KNEW IT” Bucky screams, jumping like a little kid on Christmas morning “FUCK YES, STEVE”
“Language”
He stops jumping and looks at him. “You will get that girl. I promise” Bucky looks like he’s about to cry “oh my god, you’re all grown up”.
Steve lets out a slight laugh. It’s almost ridiculous how happy Bucky is that there’s a girl that he kinda likes. It reminds him of how they talked about their futures when they were little. They talked about carriers and family, and how they will be called uncle Steve and uncle Bucky by their best friends kids.
“Are you crying?” he asks, seeing Bucky wipe his eye.
“Pfff, no”.
Oh, he’s definitely crying.
“Calm down, Bucky. Just because I like her doesn’t mean that she likes me”.
“Yeah, because you’re just an Avenger, the symbol of America, a super soldier, owner of America’s ass-“
“Ok, I get it”. Steve isn’t dumb, he knows that people know him, that he’s quite famous; god he sounds like Tony. All this doesn’t make him the most liked person in the world, though, and not everyone fall for him. Not just because he has blond hair and some women like dark hair, or he is to old schooled and doesn’t know every new show on Netflix, or women are not into him because they hate male genitals and prefer women’s….parts. The shield only shows what he shows the world and not the people he cares about. He doesn’t show his emotional side with all his flaws.
“You like her, right” Bucky asks, knowing the answer.
“Yes, of course, but-“
“Then you will go to her and tell her that”. Bucky claps his hands. “You will tell her how much you like her. You will take her dancing and to the movies. Understand?”
“Yes, Sargent” Steve smiles.
“I know she’s the one. You will propose to her at sunset and give me some nephews and nieces”. Steve laughs at Bucky’s hyper fixation about his crush. Both of them are acting like two teenage girls.
“A uncle to Steve Jr’s and….uhm…what’s her name again”
“……”
“………..”
“……………”
“………you don’t know her name?”
“no, not really”. Well, that’s awkward.
“Oh my god, Steve”, Bucky is regretting his decision to help his friend “how about we start with you introducing yourself?”
“Bucky, please don’t do anything stupid”, Steve pleads. He doesn’t want Bucky to give him to much pressure. The thought of Bucky trapping them in a closet scares him, or him basically throwing him against her.
Bucky just looks at him confused. “You will do something stupid. I’m here to prevent that from happening”.
“Promise?”
“Promise” Bucky says showing Steve his hands “I swear on Sam’s life”.
Steve smile slowly falls and Bucky corrects himself “ok, I swear on uhm, your life”.
“I guess that’s ok”
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Since then Bucky’s been on the mission ‘get a sister-in-law’, with no luck though. He thought being a wingman would be easier, but it’s not. Definitely not. Or he has just a bad person that he needs to help.
So far Steve had like four times eye contact, spoke two sentences in two conversations. The one sentence only being two words.
The best try so far was when Steve was in the kitchen, reading the newspaper, when she came and asked him if he could move a bit so she can get to the fridge, and Steve said ‘yes’. He said something, made eye contact, didn’t walk away and didn’t stutter. He didn’t even sweat! Steve did this on his own without him and for that he needs an applause.
And the worst try was when he was ‘forced’ to train with her.
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“You can do this Steve”, Bucky whispers to Steve before giving him a pat on the shoulder and pushing him towards the mat.
Steve still hasn’t introduced himself yet, so Bucky thought it would be a good opportunity to see the skills of the new recruits and to train with them. Surprisingly, Steve is now sparring against his crush, the woman they still don’t know the name of.
Steve walks on the mat, giving a quick look over his shoulder to see Bucky giving him a thumbs up.
He takes a deep breath before saying, “Ok, come at me”.
To say he’s impressed is an understatement. He’s fascinated by her skills, by the way she moves with such grace. Instead of directly coming at him and trying to punch him, she moves around him. She does that the whole time, dodging every single move of him while he tries to land a hit on her, well, more like pinch her. He wouldn’t hurt her. Ever.
At some point Steve finally manages to get a hold of her, but she is quicker and kicks his one leg away and then uses his arms to lift her up and wrap her legs around his neck, bringing him down. Steve is now on the mat with her legs around his neck, her directly hovering over his face. Steve doesn’t know why, but he’s not complaining about this position.
He gets himself back together and uses his legs to his lower back of the mat and makes a roll, so now she’s on the mat, with him in between her legs.
Steve can be lucky that most of the recruits are already doing their own thing because this is not a professional normal work position. Sam, who just walked in, stopped next to Bucky when he sees the scene. He looks at Bucky and sees how he’s directly looking at where Steve’s face is.
“Stop doing your creepy eye thing”, Sam tells him, but Bucky simply ignores him. Sam is about to say something when he hears a loud slam, and sees her on top of Steve, straddling his hips “oh”.
This scene doesn’t last long though because Steve flips them around, now straddling her hips and pinning her arms above her head. She tries to move around under him, successfully. Her back towards and is about to use her knees to make him fall off. Steve thinks quicker though and flips them again. Her back against his chest and his back against the floor. He wraps his legs around each of her legs, making her unable to move them, while he wraps his arms around her neck, taking her in a headlock. She tries to wiggle away, but can’t.
She taps his arm, signaling him that he won. Steve lets her go, softly lifting her arm to help her up, and then getting up after her.
“Everything ok?” he asks, wanting to make sure that he didn’t hurt her in some kind. That would definitely make admitting his feelings harder.
“Yes”, she smiles at him, panting slightly, “thank you, Captain Rogers, for training with me”. The smile she gives him is a true, generous smile. Steve doesn’t see how Sam and Bucky are exchanging scared looks.
“Y-You don’t need to tank me”, Steve says. Now it’s the time to introduce himself; he can do it. He takes a deep breath before continuing. “And you can call me S-“
He gets pulled away by Bucky, forcefully getting pushed against his chest. Steve looks Bucky confused into his eyes as Bucky pulls him with him behind the corner, out of sight of her, with Sam walking next to them. All the way to behind the corner Bucky keeps Steve against him, while Sam blogs other from seeing Steve’s side.
“What are you doing? I was just about to introduce myself”
Sam looks at him with wide eyes. “Yeah, something else was also about to introduce himself” and points to Steve’s crotch.
Steve looks down and sees what Sam is talking about.
For the first time, the golden boy is having a boner. A huge one. The serum really did make everything bigger.
“Oh, no no no no” Steve goes.
“Hey, it’s ok” Bucky tries calming him down “it’s uhm normal”
“Yeah, you know how many boners I had in my life”, Sam continues.
“See, even Sam thinks so. Did you ever notice how often I had when we were out with some girls, or just when I was thinking about one”, Bucky continues, Sam nodding his head the whole time. Both giving Steve a smirk. “You have them everywhere. In the shower, during work, in bed, I even had them when we had a sleepover”.
“Oh my god” Steve hates talking about that. He doesn’t know what’s worst, talking about women things or about men and their boners. “I had it in front of her, in front of everyone” he cries out.
Sam pats his shoulder. “No one saw it”
“You did!”.
“Because we watched both of you”, Sam assures him. “The others did their own thing, and she looked in your eyes, man. Not what’s below Captain America’s waist”
“Maybe she felt it though”, Bucky says.
“Bucky!”
“Your not helping, man”, Sam shrugs and looks down “ok, maybe she did because you know, it’s not small”
“See, Wilson! You agree”
Steve had never been this embarrassed in his entire life. He covers his erection with his hands, but it only makes it more obvious. He’s trying to cover his boner while his two best friends are talking about his penis size and how often they get a boner. He wants to dig himself a grave.
“Guys!” Steve whisper screams, getting their attention back. “I need to get rid of it”.
“Of your giant boner?”
“Yeas, Sam. What else is there to get rid of?” Steve says. Bucky slaps Sam on the back of his head, with no context at all. “What was that for, Bucky?”
He shrugs “I know you would like to do that, but are too nice to actually do it”. Steve just wanted to have a nice day where he maybe finally managed to speak to the woman of his dreams, but no, everything had to go like shit. “What do I do?”.
Sam and Bucky look at each other before letting out an obvious loud breath of air. They turn to Steve. “Well, you could try to calm down” Sam says, and Bucky continues “or you could, you know, help yourself out”.
“No!” Steve doesn’t even want to imagine helping himself out. The simple thought disgusts him and he feels an incredible feeling of shame.
Steve shakes his head at them. “Tell me something, that helps uhm, the problem”.
“Remember when your mom caught us looking through her drawers and spanked you”.
“….”
“….”
“….”
“Are you getting harder?” Sam asks, looking at his now slightly bigger boner.
“N-no” Steve pushes with all might on his boner to get it down “s-say something else”. He begs his friends for help.
Bucky looks hopeless “I don’t know what to say to get her off of your mind”. Steve wants to say something when Sam holds up his hands.
“Hold up, her off of your mind” he says looking at Steve, “so it wasn’t just because you got a bit close to her”. The smirk on his face is huge, a teasing one.
Steve groans out of frustration and pain.
“You know, I could see you together”, Sam goes, giving him a thump up.
“I know, but he’s too afraid to ask her. He couldn’t even introduce himself”.
“You didn’t introduce yourself to y/n?”
Steve looks at him and repeats her name softly. Y/n. Your name sound like an angel, a page out of the Bible that you worship and say as a pray. He would do that. Say your name like it’s a holy prayer. He wants to say your name again again and again. Whispering your name in your ear as you slowly share a kiss.
“Shit” Bucky says. He thought that Steve’s boner couldn’t get any bigger, but he was wrong. So wrong. It’s now almost twice as big as before. “Sam, why did you say that?!”
“I didn’t know this was going to happen! I just said her name. I didn’t think he would get hard because of a name”.
“Well, he did!”
They hear people coming into the training room. A lot by the sound of their talking. At least fifteen entered the room. Now you add them three, plus y/n and plus the seven recruits that were already in here. That makes twenty-six people. Two, Sam and Bucky, already saw Steve’s boner.
“Guys!” Steve screams “what do I do?!”, hiding more in the corner.
“Obviously getting her out of your head doesn’t work”.
“How about you stay in front of me while I walk out”.
Both shake their head “they would see you though and stare at you. Also, there are too many. You wouldn’t make it out unnoticed”.
“What if I wait until they leave”.
“Steve, they will eventually walk to this corner when they get more weights, and then see you”
Steve looks hopeless. “Bring me some pants that- I don’t know, doesn’t show my you know”.
“Steve…nothing can hide that boner”, Sam says “there is only one option”.
“What?”
“you could…help yourself out, Steve”
“No”
“Steve, please”
“No”
“Pal, listen-“
“No, Bucky. I can’t do that. I can’t just touch my…member…and..bring myself pleasure”, Steve hates talking about it. “How am I even suppose to do it?!”
“You take your dick in your hand and hold it tight, then you start to move your hand up and down. Personally, I would advise you to do it fast but-“
“I meant where!” he covers his ears trying to forget what Bucky just said. Though he learned something new. “I can’t just do it here, it would..spill”
Sam looks around until he sees something that could help “take this to collect your sperms”. He shows Steve an empty probably by someone forgotten water bottle.
“But-“ Steve knows that this is the only way and that he should accept it, but he doesn’t want to “fine”.
“I wait around the corner so no one walks over here, while Bucky makes sure you don’t get a heart attack” Sam says, winking before walking around the corner. Bucky gives Steve a slight smile before turning around. He doesn’t need to see his best friend Masturbate.
Surprisingly, Steve isn’t that loud. Sam only heard him once or twice a bit louder. One time he was screaming Bucky’s name because he turned around for a second.
Sam walks over to them when Bucky gives him a thump up. Steve is sitting on the floor, panting heavenly. Next to him, a completely full to the top water bottle. Or more like cum bottle.
“Congratulations on your first orgasm, Steve”
They are on their way out now, happy that Steve doesn’t have a big gun in his pants anymore.
“Hey, Sam”
Fuck
“Hey, Y/n” Sam smiles, while Steve panics. He’s drenched in sweat and is holding a bottle of his own cum.
You smile at Bucky and Steve too. You look at Steve and see how he looks like he’s in pain and completely drenched. “Are you ok, Captain Rogers?”.
Bucky and Sam quickly cover him up. “Oh yeah, he’s fine, he just-“
“Is hungry!”
“Uhm yeah and you know how you can get sick when you didn’t eat”
“Yeah ya get really sick”
You stare at them for a second, trying to process what they said. “Oh, maybe you should drink your shake then, Captain Rogers”, and point to his ‘shake’, and give him a smile.
“I-“
Bucky stops Steve. “Yeah no, he will just get something from the kitchen, you know?”.
“Bucky’s right, uhm I don’t think that would be such a smart idea to drink the shake. Hah ha” Steve says awkwardly.
Your smile falls. “Oh, yeah sure. I just thought that would help. We don’t want you passing out”.
Was his answer mean, is what Steve thinks. He doesn’t want you to think he just didn’t drink the ‘shake’ because you said that. Steves heart pains as he sees your reaction; you looked so sad. It obviously isn’t that big of a deal. Surely you forget about it later, but what if you don’t? You don’t forget that he didn’t want to drink the ‘shake’. What if you think you’re dumb for asking that? He thinks for a second, a long second, a second that will change everything.
“You’re right”, and opens the cap.
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steve-language-rogers · 7 months ago
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Should Have Known Better
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A pool day with the Avengers causes Steve to figure out your secret. Hurt/comfort. Steve Rogers x f!reader. Steve being so sweet and protective and perfect. Set sometime when all the Avengers (including Bucky) are happy and living in the tower together. Reader is also an Avenger. Oneshot. 3.6k.
Tw: Reader is being abused by an unspecified male someone close to her. Dissociation. Bruises. Anxiety. Please take care of yourself if this content may trigger you.
A/N: This is my first fic and has been in my notes a LONG time. Wrote it for myself when I was going through something tough and figured there might be others who could use a lil fictional man comfort.
18+ only. Minors DNI. I do not consent to my work being translated, reposted, put on other platforms, or stolen.
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You should have known better.
Some snide remark you make with a mischievous look at Tony about being a little rusty after his bad dive into the water would come back to bite you in the ass. He's the king of snide remarks, and no insults, no matter how playful, go unpunished. Most of the time, you took his teasing as a sign that he liked you. Today, the consequences of his taunting were much more than you bargained for.
August in Manhattan was scorching, so the team was lounging at the Tower's rooftop pool for a rare day of relaxation. You used to love swimming, but you chose to stay dry in your coverup for a reason–a good reason.
However, Tony could never have known this. A few drinks later and, "You know what makes iron rust faster, Y/N, water!" The next thing you knew you were pushed from the edge of the pool straight into the water.
Gasps of disbelief and giggles filled the air from the team, alongside a lightly chastising, "Tony!" from Steve. When you got your head back to the surface, you shrieked at him with indignation, a smiling tugging on your lips as you pulled yourself back onto the edge. Thankfully, it had all happened too fast and the water made too much of a splash for them to have seen your skin when you went under.
"You'll pay for that when you're least expecting it, Stark," you warned, stamping your soaked feet inside.
"Y/N, where are you going?" asked Natasha., smiling You paused in the doorway.
"To dry off..." you say with a laugh, said as if it was obvious.
"Why don't you just take your coverup off and dry off in your bathing suit out here?" Bucky offered.
"Uhh...I don't want to get sunburned," you explained lamely.
"Sugar, there's an umbrella five feet away from you," said Sam.
"C'mon, no one's gonna judge you if your six pack isn't a defined as Thor's." Tony joked. Thor wiggled his eyebrows at Bruce, who shook his head in exasperation.
"Guys, just let her go," Steve defended.
Your response rushes out of your mouth and you shift your weight from foot to foot, "I'd really rather just dry this off inside quickly. I'll be right back." You turn and continue into the room, and turn to close the door after you, only to be stopped by Steve.
"Right behind you!" he called out, "I just have to grab something quickly," he smiled.
You held the door open for him and gazed up at his sweet expression, hoping he couldn't see how your eyes sparkle for him. "You didn't have run, Steve. I would've waited for you."
"Well," he tilts his head shyly, "I know, but I didn't want to hold you up," he says. "I know you didn't want to get wet today and I'm sure you're uncomfortable." Ugh, why did he always have to be so conscientious?
"Plus," he whispers, leaning close to your ear, "you're dripping all over Tony's expensive hardwood." He meets your eyes with a teasing gaze and nudges your elbow before heading down the hall.
You walk as quickly as you can to the closest bathroom, trying your best not to drip all over the place. Since you're wearing a bathing suit under your coverup, you don't bother to close the door as you strip off the garment and start drying it with a hair dryer.
You should have known better.
The loud whir of the dryer prevents you from hearing Steve's footsteps as he returns. "Y/N?" he calls. You don't notice him approaching until he right on the other side of the doorway. "You can wear this if you wan–what the fuck?"
Shit! You slam the bathroom door shut but it's too late. You know he's already seen the purple and yellow bruises covering most of your ribcage and abdomen.
In typical protective Cap fashion, the door instantly yanks back open as he storms in. Does Steve respect his teammates privacy more than any of the other Avengers? Yes. But his concern for their safety always takes precedence over privacy.
His eyes are wide, his brows are furrowed, and his mouth is hanging open. His whole body is tensed and you can see that Cap quickly replaced easygoing Steve the moment he caught sight of you.
"What the fuck happened to you, Y/N? Why are you covered in bruises like you've been beaten to shit?!" You squeeze your eyes shut and turn your face away from him. He's sounds mad. In a different situation, you'd have the wherewithal to know that he's just scared for you.
After recognizing your fear, he takes a deep breath to calm himself and softens his voice. His eyes are trained on you, desperately searching for a hint as to what's going on. Stepping closer to you and placing his hand gently on your arm, he asks again, "Y/N, what happened to cause all of these bruises?" His anger has dissipated from his words, but the question hold just as much authority as anytime Cap speaks.
"Steve, please" you whimper, trying to back away from the intensity of his gaze. "Please don't worry about it, it's nothing," you beg. You're staring at the marble counter, the tiled wall, even the damn wet coverup that started all of this as you attempt to avoid his gaze.
It's completely futile, as always when Steve is concerned about you and won't relent. "Y/N," he holds your jaw lightly, forcing you to face him, "I need you to tell me how you got those bruises."
The statement is final. You know he knows that they're not from a mission (he reads every report to make sure no one has gotten injured) and that he's not going to believe they're from some clumsy accident (he's had too many bruises himself and can tell what kind of marks a targeted attack leaves).
You can't tell him the truth. You close your eyes again to avoid his gaze, "It's fine Steve, they're almost healed," you say to try to deflect the question. He still doesn't let up.
"Y/N, did someone do this to you?" he asks, already half-sure of the answer. Your silence confirms his suspicions. He lowers his voice as soft as it can go, knowing what the next question will do to you. "Did someone close to you do this to you?" he asks.
Your eyes pop open involuntarily. You feel trapped and screwed because he knows–how did he know?
The instant he sees terror in your gaze, his heart breaks for you. How could he not have known? You're frozen in shock, reactionless. He moves his hand to the back of your head, caressing your hair and bringing your face into his chest. His other arm wraps around your back, soothingly rubbing circles on it as he hugs you into him. "Oh, Y/N..." is all he can say for a moment, his voice wavering with the pain he feels for you and the guilt he feels for not seeing the signs sooner.
Tears stream down your cheeks but your face is frozen still in worry. You couldn't break down sobbing now to save your life if you needed to. It felt like your emotions just shut off completely. All you could do was hyperfocus on what you needed to do to keep yourself safe in that moment. Which was ridiculous, considering you were with Steve who had never, ever hurt you before. For some reason, danger still felt imminent.
Steve pulled back, cradling your face in his hands, brows furrowed with worry and eyes the slightest bit glossy. "You're safe now sweetheart. We're gonna keep you safe. I'm gonna keep you safe."
You nod because your brain tells you it's the right response. You're not sure if you're actually hearing anything he's saying. You register the feeling of his thumb, swiping across your cheek. He must see the glazed over look on your face. You think he calls your name a couple times and the next few minutes are blurry. You're breathing, breathing deeply and slowly with him. He's guiding you back to yourself.
You blink a couple of times as your awareness sharpens back into focus. "With me again sweetheart?" Steve asks, thumb still caressing your cheek. It's bad, he knows that. You need to see a professional right away, but he needs you conscious and present in your body first. "Y/N, I'm so sorry that this has happened to you. I'm never going to let it happen again. But right now, we really need to get you to a doctor."
You're shaking your head violently halfway through his sentence. "No, no I don't need a doctor," you say instinctively.
"Sweetheart, I've seen bruises like this before and we need to make sure that nothing is broken," he says. "I can call in Bruce, or Helen, if you'd like. No one else on the team has to know if you don't want them to. But we need to make sure you're okay."
"Okay?" you ask, confused. "He's going to know, he always says I can't go to a doctor or the hospital, that they won't even treat me because nothing is wrong and he'll be so mad if I do it, I promised not to." The look in your eyes is wild, but you're speaking in sentences again and Steve takes this as a good sign. What you're saying is an entirely different story. But if he wants to help you, he can only take it one step at a time.
"He's never going to find out, I promise. Okay? You're not even going to leave the building, just downstairs in the medbay. No paperwork, no records, nothing. I'll stay with you if you want." You don't look convinced. "I promise he'll never know, alright? Do you trust me when I say that?" he asks, hoping to appeal to your rational side.
"Steve, I–I... he always finds out everything I try to keep from him. Why would this time be any different?" you're desperate and terrified, and Steve wants to rip that guy's throat out for everything he's done to make you like this.
"Sweetheart, because this time you have a team of superheroes and spies who are behind you," Steve says with a small smile.
This is what gets through to you. Your gaze flickers between his eyes, and your brows are still taught with fear. Slowly, however, you nod your head and say, "Okay Steve."
Relief floods his face as he pulls you back in for a gentle hug. "It's gonna be alright," he promises. You want to believe him so badly.
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Thank you for reading! Comments & reblogs are always appreciated. If I can help anyone feel comforted by this, I'll have done my job<3
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numberonestuckyshipper · 11 months ago
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I love the Howling Commandos so much, they’re so underrated if you ask me, especially the awesome dynamic they 100% had. I imagine all of them in very specific ways, some things are based off of fics I’ve read, some of it is just me.
Steve Rogers: Steve is the youngest of them all, he’s also the least experienced one and he hasn’t been part of the group nearly as long as the others considering he came into the picture after Kreischberg. He’s really fun to talk to and he’s as much of a little shit as the others are, being the leader of their group he’s in charge of tacking care of talking to superiors and shit, and he often ignores direct orders to do what he thinks is a better option, he also lets his team get away with things regular soldiers wouldn’t be allowed to do and they love him for it. He often gets yelled at by Bucky after doing stupid shit, the other Howlies often jokingly refer to him as “Dad” when it’s just them.
Bucky Barnes: Bucky has the others’ immense respect from the start, because he’s protective and caring as much as he hates to admit it. He is the only one who has negative amount of problems yelling at Steve after he did some stupid shit, he was the most scarred by Kreischberg but never lets it show. He loves music and always has a song stuck in his head and has fun pissing the others off by butchering the songs when it’s safe to be loud. He trusts Steve more than he probably should and goes with his plans, though he often forces him to modify them and cut down the crap. His protectiveness and strictness when Steve’s being a dumbass gets the others to nickname him “Mom” when they’re in private. He ‘hates’ it.
Dum Dum Dugan: Dum Dum was Bucky’s closest friend after Steve, he has a stupid sense of humor and says way too many dad jokes than is good for his teammates’ mental health. He’s always the first to jump at the opportunity to get his hands on some alcohol (no one complains about that) and he and Jim are the primary clowns of the group. He loves to tease the others, especially “Mom” and “Dad”.
Jim Morita: Jim is the one in charge of their immediate medical problems and small tech involved stuff, like Dugan, he has a shit sense of humor and they often get into battles of who can out dad-joke the other.
Gabe Jones: like Dum Dum, Gabe has known Bucky since before Azzano, and is the one in charge of languages, he speaks French and German more fluently than the others do and in the beginning he was usually in charge of dealing with Jacques’ bullshit.
Monty Falsworth: Monty is the only official member of the Howlies who isn’t broke (he is often teased about it). He could be considered the most sane of the Howlies (though not by far) he is the most experienced of the group to talk about strategy and often helps Steve and helps Bucky knock some reason into the little shit. They like to tease him for living up to every British stereotype and is often asked to ‘translate’ what Peggy says. He has a sister named Jaqueline who is a spy for the SOE.
Jacques Dernier: Jacques was a member of the French resistance, he’s from Marseille and is fully fluent in English but refuses to speak it. He understands everything the others tell him but speaks to them in French and lets them deal with it, after over a year of dealing with him all of the Howlies are more or less fluent in French. They call him a fucking pyromaniac because of his love of explosives and his talent with them. He also has a shit sense of humor that rivals with Dum Dum and Jim and is probably the most batshit crazy member of the team (though the others are pretty close behind him).
Howard Stark is considered an honorary member of the Howlies idc about any contradiction: rule n°1 when it comes to Howard Stark; don’t leave him alone with Jacques Dernier. They will set something on fire or worse. He and Monty are often laughed at for having money and they tease back by talking about rich people problems in front of the others. He is called a lot of names by the Howlies such as things like “Gadget”, “Engineer”, “Civilian”, “Civy” and things among those lines making fun of him not technically being a part of the military. He is involved in a lot of the Howlies’ inside jokes including the “Mom” and “Dad” thing.
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ozwriterchick · 21 days ago
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Back to Us - Chapter 5
Summary: Y/n wakes after an accident to her Avengers team-mates. But something isn't quite right and only Steve and Tony can see it.
Characters/Relationships: Steve Rogers x Reader; Tony Stark; Natasha Romanoff; Other Avengers Characters
Content warnings: Mentions of an accident (no details yet); If I missed any, let me know
A/N: If you want to be tagged, let me know.
Not beta'd so any mistakes are my own. I don't write smut, but there are allusions to smut in my stories.
Back to Us Masterlist
Dividers by @firefly-graphics
Word count: 1094 (approx.)
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As you slept you dreamt not only of you and Cap, but also of the Romania mission that was your last known memory.
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** Flashback to the Romania mission **
You, Bucky, Nat and Cap are heading into the Hydra facility in Romania to look for the hostages that you’d been told were there.
“Ok, let’s spread out” Steve said, assigning tasks to each of you. “Y/n, you go with Bucky to the East side, Nat and I will take the West side.”
“Got it Cap” you responded.
“Stay on comms, we don’t know where the hostages are, or if there are any Hydra people left in there.”
You and Bucky looked at each other and nodded to Cap, heading towards the East side of the facility. 
Out of the corner of your eye you see a Hydra agent and yell to let Bucky know.  He follows the agent and takes him out and then 4 more Hydra uniforms emerge from the shadows.
On Comms “Cap, we have 5 Hydra on this side of the building, Bucky’s already taken one of them out, we’re going after the other 4, then we’ll head inside” you tell him.
“Ok Y/n” Steve answers “Stay safe.  We haven’t found anything yet.”
You and Bucky take care of the other 4 Hydras quickly and then head inside the building to meet up with Nat and Cap.
They join you and Nat lets you all know “The west side of the building is completely clear.  No Hydra, No hostages.”
Steve takes a moment to think things through, before assigning the next lot of tasks.  “Ok Bucky, take Y/n and check the lower floors, Nat and I will go up and see if we can flush these buttholes out”
“Language Cap” you smirk at him.
“I’m never going to live that down am I?” Steve replies, shaking his head.
“Nope” you laugh. “Come on Buck, let’s go find these hostages”
You go through the first and second floors and arrive at the 3rd floor down in no time.  You bust into a room to see a row of cells against the far wall with a hostage in each, chained to the wall.  You let the others know on comms so they can come down and help with the hostage extraction.
The hostages had all been released and were mostly out of the building when suddenly there was a flash and a beeping and you see a bomb.  You yell to Bucky & Nat to get out with the last of the hostages and you look to Cap as the bomb counts down.
“Don’t worry Y/n” Steve says. “You’re safe with me.”
You nod to him and just before the countdown ends he covers the two of you with his shield, which dampens most of the impact from the explosion.
You wait until the rubble settles, then you take stock of yourself and realise that you’re ok, and so is Steve.  “Come on Cap, let’s get out of here before something else falls on us.”
“I agree Y/n” and with that you both run out of the building, helping the last of the hostages into the Quinjet with the others and head back to the compound.
** Flashback ends **
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Present Day
You wake from your dream all sweaty and breathing heavily.  When you spoke to the doctor, your memory ended as you arrived on the 3rd floor where the hostages were.  You’re happy that you have unlocked even a small part of your lost memories.
You realise you must have yelled in your sleep as suddenly your room door bursts open and Steve is there, filling the doorway with his large frame and a worried look on his face.
“Are you ok Y/n?” he asks “I heard you yelling”
“Yeah, I’m sorry, I’m fine.  I just unlocked part of a missing memory.  I remembered what happened at the Hydra facility in Romania on that mission, previously I only remembered part of it, now I remember all of it up until we left.”
Steve moves to sit on the bed beside you and you are suddenly very aware that you’re both in your sleep attire and there’s very little space between the 2 of you.
He holds his arms out and you crawl into his lap and into what you intuitively feel is a safe space.
“Well, that’s a good thing that you’re starting to unlock these memories.” He encouraged you. “Sometimes it happens slowly, other times once you unlock one thing, the rest come tumbling out.  Just know that I’m here for you, to keep you safe and help you get back to you.”
You feel yourself falling back to sleep, snuggling into his warmth.
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You wake in the morning to the sensation of a heavy male arm around your waist and a body pressed up against your back.
“Good morning Buttercup.  Did you sleep alright after your dream?” Steve asked
“I did Steve.” You began. “Umm, quick question though.  Did I ask you to stay last night?”
“Well, not in so many words, but you fell asleep on my lap and when I tried to leave, you wouldn’t let me.  So I just lay with you, but you wouldn’t let go, even when you were in a dead sleep, so I went with it.  I’m sorry if it made you uncomfortable, but it was nice.”
You yawn and stretch your body, turning to face him, saying mischievously “Well, you’re free now Captain.”
“If you want me to be Y/n,” he says with a glint in his eye. “Or…”
“Or??” you query.
“We could have that shower that you offered me yesterday.”
“Oh really Cap?” He rolls you over so you are on top of him and you can tell he’s feeling good so you kiss him and jump out of bed, running towards the bathroom, with him following you.
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A while later you realise that he’s not going to be able to leave your room without being seen by someone, particularly at this time of the morning.
“Ok Rogers, here’s the plan.  I’ll head out the door, if there’s nobody around I’ll knock twice after I close the door to let you know and you can leave as well.  Ok?”
“Oh, so you’re stealing my job know Y/n?  Since when do you make plans?”
“Since I don’t know what’s happening here and I don’t want to have to answer any questions.  You know I hate that Tony knows and I really don’t want anyone else to know right now.”
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buckets-and-trees · 2 years ago
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Congrats again on 300 my love ❤️❤️ so you may already know which AU I’m going to be requesting, because it’s my favourite story of yours (so far) and that is Fire Burning from a Cedar Tree!! This story made my heart ache and if you have the inspiration for it I’d love love love to see more!! I don’t want to restrict your imagination by being too specific, but literally anything with those two and I would die of happiness 💙💙
Em, I squealed when you dropped this into my box for the request fest! Partly because I adore you. Partly because you know I also really adore Fire Burning from a Cedar Tree. And partly I squealed out of terror because...I was worried I wouldn't be able to do any kind of follow up to this fic justice. But I took a deep breath and let that go and decided to just let whatever happen happen. I was also a little worried because when I wrote Cedar Tree, it felt very finished, so I didn't have any leftover thoughts to pick up and play around with, so I literally took that first week to just think about them and their story. And then... a lot of scenes started to emerge - stuff before and after Cedar Tree, stuff that was just them, stuff with the people around them.
This is where I landed for now. It's not the same as Cedar Tree - first thing being that it's told from Steve's perspective instead of the reader's - but I'm thinking it will make sense in their overall narrative.
This it the end of their honeymoon, a few weeks before Cedar Tree.
Title: The Thrill of Knowing How Alone We Are Characters/Pairings: King!Steve Rogers x female!Queen!Reader, brief Sam and Bucky Word Count: 1.2k Summary: The final night and morning of King Steven's royal honeymoon.
Content/Warnings: smut: vaginal intercourse/penetration
Additional Notes: The third offering to celebrate 300 followers with the request fest! While this depicts events before Fire Burning from a Cedar Tree, it does not stand alone and should be read AFTER reading the original piece. Song title inspiration from Better Love by Hozier, which is one of the songs on my original Cedar Tree writing playlist. A/N 2: This still is pretty arbitrary, but although I knew the original was a historical royal AU setting, I basically closed my eyes and pointed when I ended up saying it was medieval. I debated between medieval or Georgian/regency vibe, but NOW it's decidedly Georgian, which will be more relevant if/as I share more of their story in the future.
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It’s as he’s on his back, staring at the ceiling, that Steve realizes he’s already deciphered the difference between how it sounds when you’re asleep, when you’re awake, and when you’re somewhere in between. He didn’t expect that.
He expected a lot of things after taking you as his queen, but there were so many small things that make sense, but he simply hadn’t thought of, like this – knowing so quickly the sounds of your breathing.
Ten days and in some ways he knew so much more about you than he knew about anyone else but himself – more than he’d known about his parents, than Bucky whom he’d grown up with and trusted else as his closest friend and advisor, more than his general Sam who he trusted with the security of his kingdom and his own life.
The betrothal, the brief period of engagement, the wedding, and the wedding feast had all been very public and formal. The moment the two of you had entered the royal carriage to make the journey to his small palace in the lake country for the honeymoon, everything was suddenly private and intimate. It was the first time Steve had truly been alone with you, and the first moments alone would have been awkward – he certainly hadn’t thought about that moment until suddenly the two of you were there alone – but you had clearly thought of the circumstance in advance and had been prepared to make easy conversation. While the first few minutes had been an effort to make conversation, they swiftly did progress to easy conversation. The topics had been largely trivial and unimportant, but the words were not stilted.
After a late and quick supper upon arrival, the two of you had retired to the royal bedchamber. Steve had expected a dutiful consummation, and duty may have called for the deed, but the execution had unexpectedly run deeper, warmer, with the undertones of the fledgling familiarity built over the few hours alone earlier. Each day the familiarity grew, and though there could have perhaps been moments that could have allowed each of you two part naturally, you both drew each other into extending conversations, going on walks or rides or visiting a new area of the palace together, continuing formally in the first few days until it became merely natural and the two of you forgot altogether the idea of spending much of the time apart.
Now he understood the nostalgia with which many referred to the honeymoon. It was a pity it was coming to an end. Two weeks ago, you were little more than strangers to be wed and fulfill your royal duties. Here on this final night, he could not think of it ending. Tomorrow he would go back to being the king again.
He sighed and turned his head to look at you. He wanted to reach for you, pull you closer, touch you, but the touching wouldn’t be enough, and he’d said sensibly that the two of you should retire early specifically so he could sleep and be well rested for his early departure. He hadn’t thought you warming his bed would be torture. He thought that it would be soothing and help him sleep. But this was worse, and the longer he listened, the less it seemed sleep would ever come to him. But he would not leave or send you away, it was the last night he would have this kind of closeness afforded to him with ease. He also didn’t want to disturb you if you were perhaps close to dropping off to sleep. Nearness was enough, even if it meant no sleep.
Suddenly you shifted, rolling to lie on your back, and you let out a long sigh of your own.
“Sleep alluding you, my queen?”
“As it seems to be alluding you, my king. I know the time is only slipping away until you’re required to wake and depart. Is my restless state keeping you awake?”
Steve laughed. “Perhaps, but not in the way you think.”
He rolled up on his elbow and places a hand on your hip, drawing circles there with his fingers.
“Perhaps I can beckon sleep for both of us in…other ways.”
His hand moved up to cup your breast. He gave a squeeze and brushed his thumb over your nipple, the thin fabric of your night shift barely there. You whimpered his name, arching slightly into his palm.
“Yes?” he pressed.
“Yes,” you pleaded.
While he reached down to pull up the hem of your nightdress, your hands went quickly to free his growing desire for you. Quickly he shifted his body over yours, nestling between your eagerly parting legs. He smiled as he guided his cock to your heated folds, happy to find you were already wet. He looked up to your face, and you bit your lip before reaching your hands up to his jaw and drawing him down to meet your lips. Steve devoured you with his kiss as he plunged into you, and you gave yourself up to him completely until you were both exhausted and sleep finally overtook you.
When one of his esquires woke him in the pre-dawn glow, he suppressed a groan of agitation. It is not the kind of king he has ever wanted to portray to his subjects. He will always be a dignified king. He was diligent in making sure you were tucked in with propriety before falling asleep himself, but he looks over to make sure your modesty is preserved this morning now with someone else in the room. He wants to kiss you goodbye, and while part of him wants nothing more than to wake you, see your eyes look up at him before he leaves, he refrains from doing anything more than brushing the hair off and away from your face with only the lightest caress. It would be silly to wake you for any more sentimentality. The honeymoon is truly over, and he only feels this consuming tie because of the unique circumstances of here and now. When you are both back in the capitol, it will be more normal and less sentimental. He will be himself again.
Downstairs in the hall there were simple foods ready for him to break his fast, and Lord Barnes and General Wilson were both waiting and ready to receive their king. Barnes would accompany him to Stark’s kingdom, but Wilson was there to escort the queen back to the castle.
“Guard her with your life,” Steve commanded.
Wilson gave a slight bow. “Yes, my king.”
Steve turns to look at Barnes only to find a smirk on the man’s face. “What is so amusing at this hour?”
“You gave that order as if he hasn’t been in your service for years.”
“She is the queen,” Steve reminded them.
“I will afford her the same safety and security that I have for your majesty since given the responsibility of this position.”
Steve shook his head, “You should afford her more than you do me.”
Without hesitation, he responded, “It will be done.”
Steve strode out of the foyer and Barnes fell in just one step behind him. “We need not rush away from the palace so soon. The official royal business of Stark’s expo does not require you so immediately.”
“This was the plan,” Steve retorted, “why would we alter course?”
“The sooner we leave, the sooner we can return to your queen,” he agreed.
“The sooner we can return to my kingdom, Lord Barnes.”
“Yes, your majesty.”
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bluekat12345 · 9 months ago
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He's my son, not yours! Part 1
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This is based on a Transformers Rescue Bots crossover with Avengers: Earth's Mightiest Heroes created by the brilliant @gelu-the-babosa-multiversal, check them out for more! This particular story is based on a discussion we've been having recently, hope you enjoy!
After meeting the Rescue Bots, Charlie never thought his and his kids' lives couldn't get more...exciting. They already had their hands full of between rogue or malfunctioning technology, a colorful collection of criminals, and of course, civilians who needed rescuing.
But then the Avengers, Earth's mightiest heroes, showed up at Griffin Rock.
They had temporary stationed themselves in a small base and their boss, Nick Fury, who had actually aided Optimus in introducing the bots to Charlie in the first place, didn't give Chief much information on why they were, just that hopefully it wouldn't negatively impact the island.
So far, things to be fine, they were aware of the bots, so that was nice, and they seemed to get along with the Burns and the Greenes.
One of them in particular, Captain America, especially left an impression on Cody. The boy always seemed to want to be around him, always had stars in his eyes at the sight of the war hero, and the captain always seemed more than ready to give the boy the attention he wanted. It was amazing how well the bonded in the short amount of time they've known each other.
It wasn't long until most people started calling him the Captain's kid. Steve nor Cody seemed to be mind though. In fact, it's been rumored that Captain America actually loves it when hearing Cody being called his kid.
If Charlie didn't know any better, he would've thought the captain was trying to be a second father to Cody.
"Hey, Cap!" Tony, AKA Iron Man, exclaimed. "Your sidekick's here!"
"My what?" Captain American, also known as Steve Rogers, asked in confusion.
"Captain America!" Cody's voice echoed through the base. Steve smiled as he saw the young boy run towards.
"Cody!" The captain greeted. "It's great to see you again. What brings you back here?"
"Cody wanted to see you again." His father, Chief Burns responded. "And Fury wanted to speak with the bots and the rest of the team about something. Is it okay if Cody stays with you until it's over?"
Steve nodded with a smile. "Of course, Chief Burns. I don't mind at all."
The police chief smiled back. "Thank you, Captain. Shouldn't take too long." Then he faced his son. "Be on your best behavior, Cody."
"I promise, Dad!" Cody, promised. Then Chief walked off to wherever the meeting was being held.
"Hey, kid." Tony called out. "Wanna join in a little experiment I'm working on? I can guarantee it'll be more exciting than whatever Cap can do." Steve rolled his eyes, recognizing the teasing tone in Stark's voice. Tony already knew what Cody's answer would be.
"Thanks, Mr. Stark, but I'll stay with Captain Rogers." Cody replied. "We're going to-"
"No need to hear the detail's, kid." Tony interrupted. Steven frowned at the interruption, but Cody didn't seem to mind. "Just go have fun and don't give the old man a hard time."
"Let's go, Cody." Steve declared, then he led Cody away before Stark could say anything else.
"Are we still going to work on your motorcycle?" Cody asked eagerly.
Steve smiled and nodded. "Indeed, son. Your dad ever have you help him with car maintenance?"
"A little bit, at first." Cody admitted. "When we had time, he let me help with his old police car. But then the bots joined us, so we don't do that kind of thing anymore. But we do help wash the bots when they're in vehicle mode."
Steve nodded. Admittedly, he was still caught off guard about the idea of sentient vehicles from another planet, but after meeting the bots and hearing about the from Cody and the rest of his family, he could see they were good bots who did their duties as rescue workers well.
"Well, consider this as a way to brush up on those skills." Cap declared. "Then the next time you show your father, he'll know you haven't forgotten what he taught you, and maybe even learned something new."
Cody smiled at the idea. "Yes, sir!"
Fortunately, for the Burns family, the meeting didn't take too long, it was mostly about if they saw anything unusual, at least more unusual than they normally would see, and what they needed to do if they did.
The moment it ended; the older kids wanted to stick around the base a little longer, hoping to hang out with the Avengers for a bit. Unfortunately, they needed to get home as soon as possible.
"Its just still a bit unfair that Cody gets to hang around here, while we can't." Kade grumbled.
Charlie rolled his eyes. "I'm sorry, but today isn't a good day, we have work to do back at home. I promise you can hang around here when there's time."
"Hey, where is Cody?" Graham asked.
"I left him with Captain America while we were at the meeting." Charlie replied. Kade let out a quick annoyed huff, only to be quickly silenced by an elbow in the arm by Dani. "You three head back home. I'll meet you all after I get Cody."
The three did as they were told, leaving the base as Charlie went to look for Cody.
Fortunately, it didn't take long for him to find his son. He was still with Captain America, but the boy was sitting on the captain's motorcycle, revving it up while Steve watched with a smile.
"You've got some competition, Chief." Iron Man's voice popped up out of nowhere.
"What are you taking about?" Charlie asked.
Tony then pointed at Cody and Steve, and both men watched as two blonds laughed about something and Steve ruffling Cody's hair.
"If you're not careful, Cap could take your place as Cody's dad." Tony declared with a teasing grin. "People around here are already saying he's Cap's kid."
Chief Burns rolled his eyes. "I think I'll be fine."
Stark shrugged. "Don't say I didn't warn you." Then he shouted. "Hey, Cap! Time to give the kid back!"
The two blonds looked towards Charlie and Tony. Cody smiled, got off the bike, and rushed to his Dad. "Hey, Dad. How was the meeting?"
Charlie shrugged. "Nothing major happened. You didn't give Captain Rogers any trouble?"
"None at all." Steve replied with a grin as he joined the group. "You've got a well-behaved young man here." He added as he ruffled Cody's hair again. "And a clever one as well. You ought to be proud of this one."
Chief Burns smiled. "Trust me, I am." Then he said to Cody. "Why don't you head outside to meet Chase. I'll join you shortly."
The boy nodded. "Okay, Dad." Then waved to the Captain. "Thanks again, Captain Rogers!" Then he ran off outside.
"Keep up the good work, son." Captain America replied before walking off as well.
"It's already happening." Tony quietly teased.
Charlie rolled his eyes before leaving to join Cody. He knew Tony was teasing, but it was starting to get on his nerves a bit. There was nothing to worry about. Despite the nickname as Captain Roger's kid, Chief Burns knew everyone knew Cody was his son, not Steve's.
Hope you enjoyed reading! Nothing dramatic yet, I want to try to build up to it, but the seeds have been planted, I assure you. Hopefully, you won't have to wait long for the next part to be posted. Wish me luck!
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avengerscompound · 1 year ago
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The Recruit - 36. You
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The Recruit - An Avengers Fanfiction
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Buy me a ☕ Character Pairing: Clint Barton x Bucky Barnes x Sharon Carter x Steve Rogers x Natasha Romanoff x Sam Wilson x F!Reader
Word Count: 3665
Warnings: smut (seven person bisexual orgy, oral sex, vaginal sex, anal sex, double vaginal penetration)
Synopsis:  When Sam Wilson is set up on a blind date, he doesn’t expect anything to come from it.  He is already in a relationship after all, and not just with one other person, but a whole group of them. You never expected to end up working for the Avengers let alone be dating six of them at the same time.  Now you’re balancing a new job, a new romance, new friends, and a secret that could destroy a lot of lives if it got out.  It’s a tricky balance to get right at the best of times, but when something happens to Steve Rogers it’s up to the people who love him most to get him back.
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36. You
Getting to know Steve Rogers again was much easier than the first time around.  The thing was, in the version of Steve you had known, he was still in there.  It was just that before everything had been so extreme.  You’d had to walk on eggshells around him, not sure if saying or doing something would set off his anger or his sex drive.
Now those extremes were smoothed off.  He could still be very serious.  He could still give you a look that made you feel like a kid who had just gotten in trouble with their father, but you weren’t scared that you were going to ignite something dangerous in him.  More than that, when he was very serious or not playing around with you or the others, you felt safe to tease him about it.
Where his extremes had been smoothed off in one direction, there were parts of him that had been suppressed by the thing that was in him.  He was sweeter now.  More tender.  He had a quick wit and an adorable playful side.  You went very quickly from being hesitant and unsure if this was going to work, to well and truly in love with the man.
The others were right all along.  It was really hard not to love Steve Rogers.
There was a lot more going on in your life than just getting to know Steve.  For starters, you now had a new job as a full Avengers Agent.  You were a combat field agent, which meant that if the Avengers were called out to fight, you were usually right there along with them.  There were also smaller skirmishes that you could be called out to, things that didn’t need a Hulk or Iron Man, you’d be there.  Thankfully that kind of thing wasn’t an everyday occurrence, and you could go a week or more with nothing happening, but there had been things.  Sam and Bucky had taken a group out to deal with a group of domestic terrorists threatening to release a virus.  Natasha had word of the Red Room being up and running again, and you and a group of agents went to break that up.  Clint had taken a few people in to arrest people selling alien weapons to collectors in an illegal auction in the city.  The biggest sting you were part of in those early months was the one where the Avengers had found the H.Y.D.R.A. base where Steve had been headed the day he’d run.  There was more of that Black sludge in bulletproof glass cases.  It turned out to be some kind of alien creature that formed a symbiotic relationship with other lifeforms but altered their thoughts to be more feral and primal.  H.Y.D.R.A. had somehow reprogrammed their thoughts the way it had done to Bucky all those years ago. The creatures were now totally loyal to the organization.
Being a full agent meant you didn’t see all your old recruit friends as much.  Collins was in IT, Qadira worked in the infirmary (though she’d come out to the field on rotation with the other medics), and Jacqui was held back for more of the bigger superhero events. It was strange for them not all to be there, but you all made time for weekly drinks at Valhalla, and when something else came up with any of them, like weekend barbeques, drag shows, or parties, there was always an invitation for you.
Then there was the whole going public thing.  The group didn’t make any announcements.  No questions were answered outside of no comment, or not answering questions about personal lives.  So it wasn’t so much about going public, it was about not hiding.
It meant there was a lot of speculation about what was going on with the group when you all started going out together.  There were rumors about different pairings, about cheating, about break ups and make-ups. Occasionally there were fans in comments on articles that suggested the theory that maybe there was some level of polyamory going on, and on one of the more liberal press sites they mentioned the rumor about polyamory with some accompanying photos of different members of your polycule being publicly affectionate with each other as possible evidence.  But even that article was passed off as a joke.  A public wink with a cheeky ‘oh maybe, are they…?’ With a very clear, probably not but good for them if they are at the end.
So far the whole group had not gone out together on a date.  There had been pairs, and a couple of trios, and once Steve, Bucky, Sharon, and Natasha had stopped at a diner after dealing with something downtown, and had ended up in the gossip columns talking about their double date, but logistics and time had meant that all seven of you hadn’t been able to go anywhere all together.
Tonight, that had all changed.  A booking had been made and the group had gone out to do that one date that Steve had been waiting all these years to do.  You had all gone dancing.
It was the same club you had gone to with Sharon what felt like a whole lifetime ago now.  Everyone had dressed up.  Clint wore a three-piece suit in purple with a long gothic-looking jacket.  Sharon wore a white aline halter neck dress, with an asymmetrical skirt that had white tulle layered over the white satin.  Sam wore a very tailored red suit that hugged his silhouette.  The jacket had a wide blue satin collar and he’d worn a white band collar shirt under it.  Bucky wore head-to-toe black that came complete with suspenders and a fedora. Natasha wore a black capped sleeve, a line dress, with a peekaboo panel in dark red.  Steve had a real gangster look, in his dark blue three-piece suit with red pinstripes.  You were also in an a-line dress - blue with white polka dots and black neckline, halter strap, and sash around your waist.  Everyone had gone all out for the date, and the result was amazing.
You’d all eaten together, and then danced, pairing off and staying close to each other.  Given there was an odd number of you, pairing up meant there was a leftover.  At the start of the night, that meant that three people would sit out while four danced.  As the night progressed and drinks were had, everyone's inhibitions dropped and all seven of you danced at once, the extra person always being absorbed into one of the other pairs.
It was fun and frantic and it kept your heart rate up.  When Steve led you onto the dance floor, the song changed to a slow jazz number.  You wrapped your arms around his neck and he put his hands on your hips, and the two of you just started to sway with the song.  “Tonight has been so fun,” you said as you looked up into his eyes.
He smiled back down at you, his blue eyes soft and shimmering in the low lights of the dancefloor.  “It has been.  I’m so glad I waited to do this with all of you.”
You leaned your head against his shoulder for a moment, just enjoying the moment with him.  He wrapped his arms around you a little tighter, pressing his lips to your temple.  “Happy?” he asked.
You pulled back to look back up at him.  “I am so happy. I know what led to getting here wasn’t great, but I think even before I got here, some of the others wanted to stop hiding the relationship.  And now we’re not, I feel so much better.  I’m so excited to introduce you all to my family and friends outside the tower.  I love that we can do this.  What about you?”
Steve took a deep breath and hummed happily.  “I am happy.  I know we have detractors and people who think they get a say about who we get to love.  But I don’t care about what they say.  And you know what?  For every person who has said we’re sick or wrong, there have been two that are happy for us, or glad to see themselves represented by people like us.  And I love being able to go out with you all.  I do hate the attention we get, but I know that would happen no matter if I was monogamous or not.  I am really happy.”
You reached up and caressed his cheek.  Your heart felt full and you could feel his love and happiness radiating off of him. You hadn’t said those three little words to Steve yet. Now was the time. “I love you, Steve.”
He smiled and leaned in, resting his forehead against yours.  “I love you too.”
He kissed you, and you melted into it, pressing your whole body against his, letting yourself sink into the moment as the music washed over you.  He pulled back, just a little and brought his lips to your ear.  “I think it might be time to go home,” he whispered.
You grinned back at him. “I think you might be right,” you agreed.
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It didn’t take too much to convince the rest of the group it was time to go home.  By the time you were back, anticipation was high.  As soon as the door closed behind you at Steve's apartment everyone started shedding their clothes.  They were left like a trail of breadcrumbs to the bedroom, each of you kissing and grabbing at each other on the way down the hall.
When you passed through the door, Sharon grabbed your hand and spun you into her arms.  Both of you were already down to your panties, and your breasts pushed up against each other.  She kissed you deeply and you moved with her as if you were dancing.  Around you, there was much of the same happening.  Clint was kissing Natasha as Bucky moved in closer behind her and kissed her neck, and Steve and Sam were kissing frantically and backed her toward the bed. 
You climbed up on the mattress and Sharon climbed up after you. You were mirroring each other.  When you pushed your thigh between her legs, she pushed hers between yours.  When you started to grind on her, she did the same to you.  When her fingers slipped into your panties and began to circle your clit, you pushed your hand into her panties.
The whole time the two of you kissed.  You had no idea what the others were doing, except that they were close to you because anytime they moved, it made the bed dip on either side of you.  Your whole attention was on Sharon.  The way her body felt against yours.  The way her fingers ran over your clit and pushed inside you.  The way her cunt clenched around your fingers and dripped down your wrist.  Your pulse raced and you felt so hot, it was like a wildfire had been set under your skin, burning you up from the inside out.
Her fingers pushed against your g-spot, dragging over it, as her thumb rubbed circles on your clit, and as it did, you did the same to her.  Closer and closer, she pulled you to the edge, and from the sound of her breathy moans, and the flutter of her cunt, you knew you were doing the same to her.  Almost as one, your orgasms hit, and the two of you cry out and shudder against each other.
You continued to kiss as your orgasms passed.  Gradually Sharon pulled back and grinned at you.  “Come on, let’s go see what everyone else is doing.”
Bucky and Clint were currently on their knees and kissing each other like they had something to prove.  While Natasha, Steve, and Sam were tangled together.  Sharon moved over to the group of three, as you crawled over to Bucky and Clint.
“Hey, beautiful,” Bucky said as you approached them.  “Want to be the meat in our sandwich?”
You laughed and pushed your panties down, and tossed them to the side. “Oh boy, when you put it like that, how can I resist?”
Clint started laughing and took your hand, laying back on the bed and guiding you on top of him.  You straddled his waist and he grabbed his cock and held it up as you sank onto it, both of you moaning as he filled you.  Bucky grabbed the lube from the side table and lubed up his cock.  On either side of you, Sharon was now pushing Sam on his back and climbing on top of him, while Natasha had gotten on all fours and Steve was fucking her from behind.  Clint pulled you down tight against him and the two of you began to kiss.  A moment later, the head of Bucky’s cock was pressed up against your entrance beside Clint’s, and he started to push in.
There was a sting and burn as he breached you, and you cried out and bucked your hips.
“You okay, honey?” Bucky asked.  He stopped pushing forward and began to rub your clit.  Right away, warmth started to coil through you, making that burn in your entrance go from pain to pleasure.
You nodded emphatically.  “Yes.  Keep going.  Fill me up.”
Bucky pushed in, stretching you out and filling you, and you mewled loudly.  When he was fully seated inside you, both men just stayed still, letting you adjust to the size of them.  You took the moment to glance around at the others, Sharon’s tits were bouncing rhythmically as she rode Sam, and Steve’s face was set in pure bliss while he thrust into Natasha from behind.
Seeing them all lost in their own pleasure set yours off more, and you moaned and clenched around Clint and Bucky’s cocks.  They both began to fuck you, their hips moving counter to each other, so when one pulled out, the other thrust in.  It was intense and it sent a hot current surging through your core.  It became hard to focus on anything else besides the two men.  You were vaguely aware of the other four, but what you could take in, only sent you spiralling to the edge even faster.  Bucky began to rub your clit and Clint leaned up and pulled one of your nipples into his mouth.
You couldn’t hold it together.  You arched back against Bucky, keening as your nails dug into Clint’s shoulders.  Bucky pinched your clit and it sent you rocketing over the edge, crying out as you came, your cunt squeezing tight around both men's cocks. 
Bucky thrust forward gritting his teeth and groaning as he tried to hold himself together, and Clint’s hips stuttered.  “Shit,” he gasped.  “Nearly took me over with you.”
You laughed breathlessly as your orgasm passed through you.  “Trying to hold out ‘til the end?”
“You know it, honey,” he said.
Bucky pulled out of you, and you slid off from the top of Clint and the two of you just lay there for a moment, catching your breath.
The others had taken their cue from you, breaking their pairs and moving to create new ones.  You crawled over to Natasha and she reached out to you, pulling you into a deep kiss.  Sam moved up behind you, running his hands up your back and kissing your shoulder. When you broke the kiss with Natasha and leaned back to kiss Sam, she lay back, spreading her legs in front of you.  Natasha played with her clit as she watched you and Sam kissing.  He kissed you deeply and tenderly.  You could taste Sharon’s cunt on his lips and you tried to suck off every last drop of her.
He pulled back and smiled at you.  “I think Natasha might want something from you.”
You laughed and stole one last kiss before dropping down between her legs.  She lifted her hips to meet you and grabbed your hair, pulling you down to her cunt.  “That’s a girl,” she praised.  “Get to work.”
You laughed and licked a stripe up her cunt, the tart, musky flavor of her arousal coating your tongue.  You both moaned and as you swirled your tongue around, tasting as much of her as you could, Sam pressed the head of his cock to your entrance and sunk into you.
In the position you were in, you had no idea what was going on around you.  You could barely even hear their moans with your head pinned between Natasha’s thighs.  You licked and sucked at Natasha’s cunt and Sam thrust into you from behind.  His hips snapped hard and fast, jolting you forward each time your bodies came together.
You were already so on the edge, that even just the hard slap of Sam’s hips as she shoved inside you was enough for your next orgasm to start to build.  Your cunt tingled and heat spread out through you, making your toes curl.  The worry that you’d end up coming far too fast, so you doubled down, focusing completely on Natasha.
You pulled her clit between your lips and suckled on it, as you shoved two of your fingers inside her.  She was so wet already that every time you thrust them in and out of her, it made a wet squelch.  You fucked her quickly with your fingers, your elbow pistoning as you shoved into her hard and fast.
The sounds she made were loud and animalistic and she started to hump your face and pull your hair.  It brought you even closer to the edge and you began to clench around Sam’s cock, your legs trembling.  It was hard to hold it together, and you decided the only thing you could do was try and bring Natasha on as fast as you could.
You curled your fingers and dug them into Natasha’s g-spot, and began to just hammer your fingertips against it as hard as you could as you sucked greedily on her clit.  At the same time, Sam started rubbing your clit.
It happened almost simultaneously.  Natasha’s cunt clenched around your fingers, she arched up off the bed, and her legs clamped around your head as she came, crying out loudly.  At the same time, your whole body seized up and you jerked forward as your own orgasm tore through you.  Sam kept thrusting but it became more erratic.
When Sam finally pulled out of you, you and Natasha just collapsed there, tangled together, breathing heavily.  Her fingers ran through your hair, and Sam rubbed your hip.  “You okay?” he asked.
“Mm-hmm,” you hummed.
The bed dipped on the side of you, and you looked up to see Steve looking down at you.  “You have one more in you?” he asked, holding out his hand to you.
You hummed and took his hand, letting him pull you up.  “Yeah.  I think I can do one more.”
He guided you up and sat back, crossing his legs lotus style.  You climbed into his lap and as you lowered yourself down, he guided his cock into you.  Even as large as he was, you were so wet and so turned on that he slid into you easily.  You moaned and wrapped your arms and legs around his waist.  His arms wrapped around you and one hand slid up to the back of your skull, pulling you into a deep kiss.  You moaned into his lips rocking your hips with him.
Around you, the others had split up again. Bucky was on his back holding onto Sam’s hips as the man rode him, his cock bouncing and slapping against Bucky’s stomach.  Natasha was on her back as Clint fucked her and Sharon rode her face.
You pulled back from the kiss and looked down into Steve’s eyes.  “This is the first time we’ve been together when it was just you,” you said in a breathless half-moan.
“And it’s the first time it’s been all seven of us,” he added.  “We better make it good.”
You smiled at him and cradled his cheeks.  “It’s already good.”
He kissed you again, passionately, his head tilted and his tongue dancing with yours.  You matched the passion and moved your hips with his.  It was so different than with the others, or even with him before.  The way Steve was with you was sensual and tender, but passionate and heated.  You weren’t being fucked, you were making love, and as you were brought closer and closer to your release, you started to feel overwhelmed with that feeling.  Your hands scrambled at his hair, curling in it and smoothing over it.  “Steve, I love you,” you babbled.  “I love you, Steve.”
“I love you too,” he replied breathlessly, holding your hips and snapping his up into you.
Your orgasm built, winding its way through you like vines around each of your muscles.  It peaked, and one after another they pulled tight, making you arch back in his arms as your orgasm took hold of you.  Steve wasn’t too far behind you, he bucked up hard as your cunt clenched around his cock, and he emptied inside you. 
You wrapped your hands around him and nuzzled into his cheek, your emotions feeling overwhelmed.  He held you close and pressed his lips to your temple. “It’s okay, honey.  I’ve got you.  I love you so much.”
Gradually, as everyone finished around you, the whole group squeezed themselves into the bed. You were feeling so much, and all of it was good.  You were happy, in love, and your future looked bright.  You’d managed to balance work, relationships, family, and friends.  There was no way of knowing what the future would hold, but there was one thing this year had taught you, you weren’t alone, and with all these people that loved you, you could face anything.
~ END ~
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joel miller; you wouldn't say you were the jealous type – Ellie would say you are –, you're just a woman knowing what's hers and not liking it when other women try to flirt with it knowing exactly what they're doing.
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joel miller; you never had a family, but Ellie and Joel make up for it. Add to that a potential brother in law who treats you like his own sister. (potential pregnancy)
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allandoflimbo · 2 years ago
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Pairings: Popular Girl!Reader x Outkast!Bucky
Explicit Content - Smut - NO MINORS
Summary:
Bucky Barnes is the quiet boy who gets picked on.
The Reader and her friends run with the popular crowd at Stark High.
As the Winter Ball approaches, she is partnered with Bucky Barnes for a class project. They grow close in an inadvertently secret friendship, which later turns into love.
Only catch is…she’s Steve Roger’s ex girlfriend, and before she was partnered up with Bucky, her friends had planned to use and turn Bucky into Stark High’s new it boy to try and get back at Steve; a disgusting bet.
Another catch: She’s a figure skater at the town’s arena every Tuesday and Thursday nights. Bucky works part time at the rink resurfacing the ice. The other doesn’t know.
Modern AU High School fic - later goes into adulthood.
M A S T E R P A G E - FULL SERIES
Warnings: This story will have a lot of angst, a lot of fluff, a lot of cursing, and a lot of sex. Oral, praise kink, body worship, overstimulation, etc. you know me. There will also be loss of virginity in this.
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YOU'RE walking after him, but he's not stopping.
Not until you touch his arm from behind.
He spins around to face you, making you stumble slightly.
Bucky is two things right now: furious and embarrassed.
"Stop trying to be nice to me." He says slowly but on edge.
You can literally see the frustration in his eyes.
"What?"
He takes a step closer to you.
"This whole facade. Just because I'm your class partner, it does not mean we need to get along. You also don't get to change your mind about being nice after being so mean to me for so long. Just because you have a change of heart one day? Your pity on trying to get a good grade to get into whatever stupid prestigious school you want to get into does not change the fact that you are, and will always be, a bully," you could feel your eyes filling with tears as he went on, "Your sudden kindness does not erase your past. You can't convince me that there is one genuine nice piece of you in there. Everything you do is for a gain."
Your bottom lip trembled, and he almost regretted his words. Almost. They had been building up inside of him for so long, for so many years. While they might've been cruel and maybe made him no better than you, he had felt them for so long.
"You know nothing about me." You say.
"I know that you aren't a nice person," he says simply. And he's right, "Do you think it's kind the way your little friends have been treating me? Still treat me?"
"Again, I'm very sorry about that." He doesn't respond to your apology and you find yourself taking a step closer to him, your voice softening, "They shouldn't have done that since you arrived here to the states—"
"I've been in the same school as you since fourth grade!" He shouts so loudly that some of the people outside the restaurant turn to look at you. You watch him as he breathes hard, guilt consuming you, "That's how oblivious you are and how self conceited." You swallow the tight knot in your throat, "First of all, Princess," he snarls the word like an insult, "you reap what you sow and you are who you accompany yourself with. You've been the same girl for as long as I've known you. With your little preppy friends and your money and all your pep and school popularity; I know girls like you. Don't try to sit there and differentiate yourself from the people you call your friends, especially when you still call them your friends. You still stand there and let it happen." You're both silent as he stops. Your arms are crossed over you chest and your eyes are down at the sidewalk, "You embarrassed me the other day, not them. And whether it was purposeful or not I still can't decide." Your gaze drifts back up to see him walking away from you, but he turns around one last time, his eyes darting you up and down, "Also, I'm not from Europe, I moved from New York City," he tilts his head, "eight years ago. So that right there should be more than enough proof to show the kind of girl you are. I don't need your fake apology and I don't need this that you are offering."
You stare at your hands, at lost for words.
"Bucky—"
"We are study parents and that's it. After these next two months, I never have to see you or any of your little clique ever again."
You swallow hard, that knot in your throat painful as ever.
"You keep saying you are, you are, you are, but the truth is, Bucky, you know nothing about me."
"Just like you know nothing about me."
"Exactly." You both stare at each other after your reply.
"We don't need to know anymore than what we think we know. It doesn't matter anymore. I spent either years being hurt by all of you. I can handle a few more months until we are out of here." He says.
You don't know what to say anymore. It was like trying to pull teeth to get him to listen to you, to get anyone to listen to you. You don't know why you bothered. He was right.
Eight years and you never said a word to him? Were you that oblivious? You weren't in the same classes, that's for sure, but even then in the same school. You both always went to larger schools if what he says is true. It's completely possible for you to not have ever noticed him walking around, but yet he noticed you. Your friends noticed him. They picked on him and bullied him viciously.
Were you that oblivious? That naive?
Were you that blinded by everything going so well for you before your brother's death?
Was that your wakeup call?
You don't have the energy to listen anymore to the words you know are so true.
You've known them for the last few months. Him saying them to you, was just a tough pill to swallow.
You tug on the sleeves of your shirt. You quickly wipe under your eyes and cross your arms.
"Do your parents know I've been at your home while we've been alone?" There's something about his tone. Such a simple and random question.
"Yes." You answer simply, "They know. Why?" He watches you as you speak.
He never expected you to be like this. Princess and all, friends with a bunch of cruel people, he always expected you to be snark back just as fast as he was a few minutes ago.
He nods.
"I'm surprised your parents let us up there alone. Unless that's something they are used to?" His question offends you.
He's glad because he doesn't think he can have this chance ever again to make up the hurt he's felt for so long. He doesn't care that it makes him a hypocrite for the next few minutes.
"Excuse me?" Your tone is dark.
"They probably gave up on that a while ago, huh?"
He wasn't implying anything sexual, but more so that your parents gave you a lot of liberty. Now he realizes how he sounds.
"What? Excuse me, no. That's not—no." you quickly move towards him to stop him from leaving and he raises a brow at you, "I invited you into my room to study. And that's it. That's all they expect of me and they trust me enough. Even if that weren't the case, it's quite offensive that you would think I would invite you in there for that. That whole comment is offensive. I would never do that."
If there was anything that sounded like physical rejection to his ears, that was it.
"That's not what I was insinuating."
"You're insinuating that I'm a slut, slut-shaming me, and assuming that the only reason I brought you there was for something other than studying."
"Trust me. I know for a fact that I'm not attractive enough for that," there's something about his tone and the way he looks at you that breaks your heart. Oh that wasn't it at all. "I wasn't even talking about me. I was talking about your parents and how I'm shocked they allowed this is all. You don't have to keep reminding me constantly about how ugly and unwanted I am."
You're stunned at his comment and also confused. He was putting words in your mouth.
"I never said that." You whisper, shaking your head back and forth. He was giving you whiplash. He really was just throwing it at you one after the other, "I was simply talking about the comment itself, not you."
He stares at you for a few seconds longer and you both don't know what to make of your responses to the other.
"Just leave me alone. All of you."
He turns to go home and this time you don't stop him.
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Steve gets up from his seat as soon as he sees you walk through the door. You both arranged to meet at you favorite little Italian place.
"Hey," he gives you a side hug that you mutually return, "thanks again for agreeing to come."
"Yeah, it's a good idea we talk." You say, taking your seat across from him.
The waitress comes over and you both order some fries and a burger.
Steve smiles at you after he takes a sip of his Coke.
"So," you say, dabbing your lips with a napkin, "you and Peggy." You clear your throat as you watch his face drop, "how long had you guys been talking before that night?"
You prepare yourself for his response.
"We saw each other here and there for about two months. In the hallway at school, sometimes picking up food at Jacks. I swear, I never did anything with her during those two months and neither did I think about it. But we became close friends and then that day you saw us, I'm telling you the truth when I say it literally just happened."
You believe Stevie. He's been nothing but your best friend for the last few years. You knew the kind of guy he was, and you knew he was telling the truth. Still, it hurt. You really had thought he was the one. Maybe it's tied to your naiveness before the last year, but a part of you did believe in soulmates and high school sweethearts. You thought he was it.
You tell him this.
"I know. I feel the same way."
"But?" You ask, knowing that there was more for him to say, especially based off his comment from the other day.
"It was wrong what I did, I know that, but you know I'm also not one to do something like that for no reason."
"You like her, I get that." You say, thanking the waitress as she placed the fries between the both of you, "so you'll stay with her."
"I still care about you. I don't want this to end badly."
"You're my best friend," you say it as an affirmation, "as a girl, has my respect for you gone down a little for what you did? Naturally, yes. Of course it did. But you're still my friend. We've been through a lot together. It's just, is she okay with it? What you asked me the other day. About prom."
"She is." Steve nods, taking one of his own fries.
"Okay. That's that. I really don't see what else we need to talk about."
"Maybe about how good these fries are." He says.
You chuckle.
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You're shocked at how well your conversation with Steve went. He hugs you outside the diner and you both make your separate ways.
Your parents had the night shift again tonight so you wanted to be home early enough to cook yourself a bite to eat.
You decide to stop by Whole Foods real quick to grab some vegetables that you were low on. After so much practice, it doesn't take you longer than twenty minutes to find and pay for everything you need. It's as you're stepping out onto the sidewalk that you see him,
Bucky is coming down the opposite way, and his arms is hooked with an older woman's. They're both smiling and talking. You notice her pulling an oxygen tank next to her.
Your eyes go back up to Bucky's and your eyes meet.
His smiles falls off his face.
As you're approaching him even closer, even though you have no choice because it's your way to your car, you wonder what you should say.
Hi?
Maybe a wave?
Hey?
Hello?
Just A smile?
It's a little smile that you offer him and the lady, who you can only assume is his mother, and shockingly he smiles back. But it doesn't reach his eyes; it's forced.
A breath leaves your lungs.
"Isn't that Y/N L/N?" Bucky's mom asks.
Bucky clears his throat and nods.
"Yeah, she's my study partner for Psych for that project I told you about."
"My god she's grown." She says with a little laughter in her tone. Bucky doesn't respond, "I remember when you had the biggest crush on her when you were kids."
"Mom." Bucky says sharply, she turns to look at him, that same smirk on her face he's grown to recognize so well.
That was years ago. He definitely did not feel that way anymore.
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Monday came quickly. That's what happens when you keep yourself busy.
You're turning the hallway to where your locker is when you see Bucky at his own locker, some feet farther down.
You take in a deep breath and straighten your back to make yourself feel taller.
You also tighten your arms around your pale blue notebook, as if that would do anything.
When you approach him, he looks at you a little at lost for what to do.
First, he looks surprised, then he looks confused.
You offer him a small smile.
He sighs and continues to grab his things for his first few classes.
You sigh too.
"Bucky," you notice the way his jaw tightens, "I wanted to apologize." He doesn't respond, "For everything." This time his movements stall for a second. He pulls out the last of the things he needs and then closes his locker.
He looks at you, frowning.
"Look, I don't need your pity." He says it slow and calculating.
You let out an exasperated sigh.
"It's not out of pity. I really am sorry for everything. I'm sorry my so called friends treated you horribly and that I stood by it without realizing. And I'm sorry that I was in my own little world for so long that I never noticed you," he closes his eyes and then his eyes drift down, "I'm sorry I ruined your shoes, okay? It wasn't on purpose. I really was trying to go up to you to apologize like I am now."
"Why is my acceptance of your apology so important to you?"
You look at him confused for a second and then shake your head. As if the answer was obvious.
"Why? Because you're a person with feelings, and it bothers me that I've contributed somehow to making you feel a certain way."
Something happens to him at your words. His face softens and so does his whole posture. He brings his books to his side and looks at you. He says your name for the first time and it makes something inside of you ignite. He had never said your name before to you. It's always been nauseatingly Stark High Princess.
"I—I went through something half a year ago that changed my life. That opened my eyes. I'm seeing what I never saw before, and hell you can continue to call me ignorant for it, but I don't want to be that anymore."
He looks briefly over your shoulder and then gives you a tight nod.
"Okay."
"Okay?"
"Apology slightly accepted," A small smile fills your face and he tries to ignore it as best he can to stay focused, "We'll continue the next two months as is. But I have to get to homeroom now." He adds quietly, eyes meeting again.
"I'll take it for now." You say.
He nods.
He walks past you and you make your own way around.
You don't see him turn around one last time to look at you, a deep frown on his face.
He believes you a little. He decides he'll accept your apology, but he'll remain on guard. You'll be his partner for the next two months. You'll act civil around each other now.
To a certain degree, at least.
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garycxjk · 7 months ago
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The John Walker effect, and why the premise is flawed
So for those who haven't seen Falcon and the Winter Soldier, John Walker is a character who was picked to pick up the mantle of Captain America, and to make a long story short, he killed a man and got stripped of that title.
Now there's a lot more to it than just that, but I want to break it down. The thing is, there's a thing called the John Walker Effect that's been named after this character. Basically it's when media is trying to portray a character as an antagonist, but they actually feel more like a protagonist.
The mantle
So, here's the thing about John Walker. People think John Walker was right, that... Okay, I need to explain the story a bit more.
At some point, John Walker, feeling inadequate, because a bunch of terrorists with the Super Soldier serum were beating his ass, started to inject himself with the Super Soldier serum, one that was just lying around. At some point, his best friend got killed by one of the terrorists, and in retaliation, he chased another terrorist, and publicly killed him execution style. After that, a public trial took place, and he was fired from his job as Captain America.
And this is where it gets interesting. Marvel fans believe that John Walker was right and that the protagonists, Sam Wilson and Bucky Barnes, were wrong.
I'm here to tell you that both John and Sam and Bucky were right.
You see, throughout the series, Sam and Bucky were being antagonistic towards John. John had been trying the entire series to be a helpful ally to Sam and Bucky by trying to be a good Captain America. This is the first point where people point out that John was wronged.
However, and I keep saying this, but media illiteracy is ever more present even here. The reason Sam and Bucky were against John in the first place was because of John's stance towards the mantle. You see, neither Sam nor Bucky want to wear the Captain America mantle, as it comes with a burden.
The thing is, Steve Rogers also didn't exactly want to wear the mantle, it was just forced on him. In fact, by Infinity War, not once did he refer to himself as Captain America, primarily because he also felt like he didn't deserve the mantle at all.
You see, the mantle comes with a burden. It is a representation of America as a whole. Captain America's weapon isn't a gun, it's a shield. It's to protect the people, not kill them, not suppress them. The shield in general stands for defense, not offense.
It's not that Steve doesn't kill, he just doesn't needlessly kill.
Was John Walker's kill needless? No, most definitely not. But I'll leave that part for later.
Too eager
As said, throughout the series, Sam and Bucky were rather dismissive and often outright antagonistic towards John, with John trying to be a good partner. He was eager to work with Sam and Bucky, maybe even too eager at that.
You see, here's the thing. Steve was Sam and Bucky's best friend, he wasn't just their co-worker. They didn't admire him, they didn't worship him, they were genuine friends.
It's like, when a friend leaves the band because he found a wife and a well paying job, and some talented kid jumps in and pretends to be, like, hey, I'm here to help you guys out. No, you will never be a replacement, so don't act like one.
John didn't try to become his own Captain America, he tried to be Steve Rogers, and that's what pissed Sam and Bucky off. John wasn't a hero at that point, he was just a soldier hired by the US government, a mascot.
That's what pissed Sam and Bucky off. It wasn't that John replaced a hero, John tried to replace their friends, in every single way. John was that kid who couldn't read the room. And sure, Sam and Bucky could have phrased it better, but they also had their own issues to deal with.
The kill
So let's discuss the elephant in the room. The kill, or rather, the execution, because face it, it was a public execution.
So, at some point, John's best friend Lemar Hoskins, also known as Battlestar, got killed, John, naturally, went mad, and at some point chased one of the terrorists. After beating him down, the man held up his hands as if to surrender. John however responded by just using his shield to kill him.
Was the kill warranted? I mean, yeah, it was a Super Soldier powered individual. However, the way he was killed? Not cool. You see, to the random bystander, it just looked like Captain America was brutalizing a person who just surrendered.
In the aftermath, Sam and Bucky wrestled the shield out of his hands, because he just tainted the Captain America image, and the US government denounced his actions, stripping away his Captain America title, because he just tainted the Captain America brand.
And that's the thing. It's all about image and brand. Yes, Captain America kills, but he never executes. He kills to protect, he doesn't kill in retaliation. What people saw was a retaliation kill.
"I did it well"
So, I may have implied that John Walker was in the wrong every step of the way, however, I want to bring to you something that's important, to show you that John Walker was right to be angry.
During the trial, the government tried to put all the blame on John, however, John rightfully says:
"I only did what you asked of me, what you told me to be and train me to do! And I did it. And I did it well."
Here's the thing. John Walker wasn't just selected. He was selected from the best of the best, within the US army. He was literally trained to do what he did.
However, when things went South, when things didn't go the way they expected, they dropped him. Why? Because of public opinion. Not just of the US citizens, or rather, not of the US citizens, and I'll get back to that in a second, but of that of the rest of the world. Even in the MCU, the US doesn't exactly have a great standing. Things like Sokovia didn't exactly help with their image. So to see an American brutalize a seemingly random person outside of US soil isn't a great look, especially if they don't know the full picture.
John Walker wasn't a moral issue. He was a PR issue.
You can even see it in the next episode, where about half of the US population stood behind John. You see, even in-universe, people agreed with him.
John isn't a protagonist...
But let's back up for a minute. Let's create a series from John's point of view. If you look at it, the basic premise would then be, a guy is trying to become Captain America, or rather, trying to replace him. Because that's what his entire story arc has been.
In no way did he try to establish a new relationship with Sam or Bucky. He just asserted himself as Captain America, and expected that, because he was Captain America, he earned the right to have their cooperation. But he wasn't Steve. He wasn't their friend. Not once did he try to look at it from their point of view, how they felt.
After that, when he got his ass handed to him by the Dora Milaje, he essentially got desperate enough to actually go for the Super Soldier serum.
And this is where another character comes into play. Helmut Zemo. Let me write down what he has to say about Karli Morgenthau and the Super Soldier serum.
Zemo: "The desire to become a super human cannot be separated from supremacist ideals. Anyone with that serum is inherently on that path. She will not stop, she will escalate, until you kill her. Or she kills you."
Bucky: "Maybe you're wrong, Zemo. The serum never corrupted Steve."
Zemo: "Touché. But there has never been another Steve Rogers, has there?"
By actively going for that serum, John has put himself on a dangerous path. He wanted to become stronger, he wanted to become the next Steve Rogers. However, the serum never corrupted Steve because of what the serum does, aside from making you stronger.
It basically amplifies your best and worst traits. Steve's trait was his desire to protect people, first and foremost, no matter the consequences. It's what led to Civil War. In his unfaltering conviction, he caused the Avengers to break up, instead of trying to find a middle road. The same goes to Peggy Carter. She too hasn't been corrupted by the super soldier serum, at least not in the What If...? series.
John's strongest trait was his will to be stronger, to be as strong as Captain America. Sure, he did have the feeling of plight to save people, but they were overshadowed by his desires. It's essentially what corrupted him, or, well, I wouldn't exactly say corrupted.
... Yet
By the end, John is no longer Captain America, however, he did feel the need to prove himself, so he set out to take down Karli. However, when people's lives were at stake, he had the choice, either go for the prize, or stop and help people.
It's at this moment that he actually earned the respect of Sam, as he actually did the one heroic thing. He set aside his personal desires to help people, because that's what heroes do.
And that's the thing. John shouldn't be Captain America, because it comes with a burden. You have to set your pride aside and be there for the people, you need to stand behind your principles. The Captain America brand actually stands in the way of John's principles, which is to eliminate threats by any means possible, whereas Captain America stands for protecting first, eliminating second.
It's also why Sam has to take the mantle, not because he wants to, but because he has to. Where Steve stood for the old America, Sam stands for the new. It's a world post-Endgame, one after the Blip. Sam needs to be the shield that protects America.
John, however, has to fulfill a different role, to be the gun, because quite often, you just can't protect the world with just a shield.
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booksandabeer · 2 years ago
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Hi. First of all, you’re amazing and you’re doing God’s work for us. Second, could you please recommend me some time-travel fics? I think I already read a few well known ones, and was wondering if there’s more? Also, it’s usually both or Bucky who time-travels, is there fics where Steve goes alone instead?
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Hello Stranger!
Thanks for the ask and your very kind words. I live to serve! 😉
Now. The first thing I need to do here, is to point you towards this excellent rec list by @voylitscope There are a lot of very good fics on it and I strongly recommend you check it out.
I also want to apologize again for the long wait. I had a busy week and when I finally sat down to put together this list, I realized fairly quickly that almost 90% of it was comprised of some sort of EG-Fix-It fics. Just the idea of writing up my thoughts on all of them felt exhausting and saddening to me, so I scrapped the whole thing and started over. So without further ado, here are 7 fics featuring timey-wimey stuff that I have read and very much enjoyed and 3 more that I've yet to read, but can't wait to get to because they look amazing:
sun peeking through the sky series by dontcallmebree | M, 16K (2 Parts)
Author's summary: Steve clears his throat, curling his hands into fists to hide them. “Alright, say I believe you. Hell, you’re here. So what?”
Scott pins him with an unshakable stare, alive and unyielding. He never realized Scott could be so intense. Sam was the one who knew Scott better, but then again, Sam was always the better one of the two of them. “Look, the place I was in—the quantum realm—it messes with time, it lets you go back.”
Steve wants to throw him out.
A post-IW, twice-over canon divergent series. In the first part, Scott and the Ant Fam (or what's left of it post-Snap) burst into a heavily depressed Steve's existence and slowly turn it into something resembling a life again, and together they hatch a plan to save the world. What that plan entails? I'm not going to spoil it here, but let's just say it's much more clever and original, not to mention more logical and emotionally satisfying than anything that happened in EG. It's a quietly humorous, suspenseful, heartbreaking, and at times brutally tender series about finding and accepting second chances when you least expect them.
To Live It Again Is Past All Endeavor by trinityofone | T, 21 K
Author's summary: Time travel bodyswap! Present-day Steve and Bucky wake up back in their old bodies in 1938, while past Steve and Bucky wake in a future where they're both built like comic book heroes and Bucky's got what he thinks is a swell future robot arm. Adventures are had, and the ethics of time travel are debated. Also, everyone trash talks Willem de Kooning.
A story that really drives home some hard emotional truths while never entirely losing its light touch. Accompany Steve and Bucky as they travel into the future AND the past, and discover their once and future selves. I call this fic "the clairvoyant one" because it features Steve and Bucky contemplating staying in the past and a subsequent discussion of the ethics and purpose of time travel that had me frantically scroll back up and check that, yes, this fic was indeed written all the way back in 2014. I then proceeded to lose my mind a little bit because it is such an eerily specific and accurate rebuttal to Steve's EG ending that I'm more than half convinced the author has clairvoyant abilities.
Where All Roads Lead by DrowningByDegrees | E, 46K
Author's summary: When Steve Rogers inadvertently touches a relic in the course of a mission gone sideways during WWII, he’s catapulted seventy years into the future. Before he's even sure where he's ended up, his search for help puts him in contact with Bucky Barnes, a historian and college professor who has built a career around studying Captain America. With Bucky's help, Steve means to find out how exactly he ended up in 2017, and solve the bigger mystery of how to get home. There's just one problem. The closer they get to their goal, the less certain Steve is that he wants to go home.
A Shrunkyclunks AU where Steve accidentally time travels straight from WW2 to the 21st Century. It's funny and heartbreaking, well-written and cleverly plotted. Also features beautiful art by alby_mangroves that not only beautifully augments the story, but actually is a part of it, too.
The Restoration Artist by superheroresin | E, 109K
Author's summary: As a conservator of rare oil paintings for The Met, Steve Rogers thinks of himself part scientist, part archaeologist, but hardly an artist in his own right. Only when he’s faced with the daunting task of restoring a frozen painting from a recently unearthed Nazi art hoard does he start to feel his passion for the craft return. Before he has a chance to understand what that means, Steve is transported to the 1940’s, where he meets both The Winter Soldier himself, and his own destiny.
A Shrinkyclinks AU in which art conservator Steve travels through time to save Bucky... who has been trapped in a painting...? Mystery! Romance! Art Talk! I practically inhaled this thing in one go, despite the length. This is a really lovely story, full of clever ideas and twist and turns that will keep you guessing. And on top of that you'll learn a whole lot about art restoration! What's not to love?
the world on fire by burlesquecomposer | M, 62K
Author’s summary: Steve loves old vinyl records, doodles on his files, and cannot remember a time that he didn't serve the TVA. And that suits him just fine—that is, until stray variant Bucky Barnes, fresh out of HYDRA's grasp, drops into his time theater and makes Steve question everything he believes in.
A really well written fic that has time travel and variants and alternate timelines and parallel universes and... you get it. A whole lot of timey wimey stuff, but the author keeps track of it all and ties up everything beautifully in the end. A super fun premise, clever plotting, wonderful characterizations, and a firm grasp on the SteveBucky dynamic in every incarnation/iteration/variation. It's a really lovely fic and I think it deserves a lot more love and attention.
On the Cover of Dawn by adeepeningdig | T, 6K
Author's summary: “Listen,” Bucky says again, and pads to Steve, book still in hand. “I’d sell my soul for that/fawn/of a boy night walker/to sound of the ‘ud & flute playing/who saw the glass in my hand said/“drink the wine from between my lips.” He kisses Steve then, insistent, tongue sweeping into his mouth, body to body. Steve buckles beneath it. Two stories. One poem.
I'm cheating a little with this one... maybe. To be perfectly honest, I don't really know what's going on here even after I read this several times. Is it time travel? An alternate universe? Reincarnation? None of it at all? The thing is, I'm not sure the reader is meant to definitively know or understand what exactly is happening, and ultimately, it doesn't really matter. What does matter is the poignancy, the beautiful, at times lyrical language, and the reassurance that Steve and Bucky will find and love each other in every possible universe and incarnation. Also features one of my favorite George Barnes scenes ever.
From Tralfamadore, With Love by newsbypostcard | E, 106K | Part 1 in From Tralfamadore series
Author's summary: In 2018, Steve, Sam, and Bucky embark on a mission to explore a Hydra-owned warehouse when a kid with mutant powers sends Steve 18 years into the future. Steve's just as in love with Bucky as he was when he left, but for Bucky it's been a long 18 years. As he gets used to life in 2036 and the flaws in Bucky's idyllic life expose themselves, Steve also has to manage a suspiciously ubiquitous security force, a Brotherhood of Mutants, and old competing loyalties among his aged friends. There's a Bucky in 2018 waiting for him to come home, but if he does that, it means leaving this Bucky behind for a third, unforgivable time. How can he choose?
Yes yes, I recced this not too long ago, I know. But there is simply no way in hell that I'm going to put together a time travel rec list and NOT include this fic. The summary is pretty self-explanatory, and I really don't want to reveal anymore than that. Much of the tension and emotional drama in this fic comes from not knowing what's going to happen, and from desperately guessing at how on earth the author is going to solve Steve's impossible dilemma. I loved the way the author explored the relationship of a Steve and a Bucky who have been separated for two seconds and 18 years, respectively. Also, possibly the best use of a Fleetwood Mac song in fanfic ever.
🕰 +3 To Reads:
Savage God by PottersPink | M, 36K
Author's summary: Past, present, future, Steve knows Bucky Barnes. It’s why he recognized him when he found him in that alley in April of 1942, even though Bucky was older, stronger, wearier; he called himself The Asset, and had a metal fucking arm. The Asset was only with Steve in 1942 for a few days, but it’s enough to change the course of Steve’s life forever.
Seventy years later, Steve wakes up in the twenty-first century, and he doesn’t know whether to be heartbroken or hopeful when some of the things Bucky revealed to him in 1942 start falling into place.
Every You, Every Me by Starshot | E, 48K
Author's summary: Desperate to follow when Bucky ships out to war in 1943, Steve volunteers for Project Rebirth, an experimental program meant to turn him into the world’s first super-soldier. Instead it fails, leaving him with a condition dubbed “Chrono-Impairment” which sees him travelling uncontrollably through time, to random points in both his and Bucky’s lives.
But with Bucky brainwashed into working for HYDRA, and Steve living life on the run, torn between his own time and Bucky’s, will they ever find the happy ending they so desperately desire? (AKA the Stucky AU based on the book, "The Time Traveler’s Wife" by Audrey Niffenegger)
a day in the life by powerfulowl (StuckyFlangst) E, 20K
Author's summary: Steve wakes to the sound of someone moving about in the kitchen below him. He lies for a few moments, trying to recall—a dream?
He looks over at the nightstand and there is a piece of card propped up there. He reaches out to take it.
You are Captain America. You are Steve Rogers. It is 1956. You are married to Peggy Rogers, nee Carter. You live in New Jersey. Sometimes you have trouble remembering.
Steve Rogers wakes up on Tuesday October 30 1956, and doesn't seem to remember his life that well. Why does every day feel so familiar? And why does he keep getting visited by tall, dark, handsome men who remind him of Bucky?
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mrs-johansson · 2 years ago
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Chapter 4: Captain America: The Winter Soldier - Partners in crime
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Part 9:
As soon as we were done talking, I found a room and I looked through all the files that Maria gave us. It’s crazy how easily HYDRA grew in SHIELD. We were so quick to believe that the agency worked perfectly.
The knock on the door was quick to make me lose concentration. “Come in,” I said and the door opened, revealing Steve. He had a small smile on his face as he stepped inside.
“Am I bothering?” He asked before closing the door. “No, just looking over some stuff.”
Pulling out the chair in front of me, he sat down, looking around the room and then at me. “What’s up?” I asked. “Did something happen with you two? Romanoff is awfully mean and she’s not here with you,” he sighed, leaning back in his chair. This man lives off of gossip.
Clearing my throat I glanced down at my papers, trying to find the right words to say. “Uhm… we had a fight, and it… Damn I don’t know, it really seems to be a tough thing to roll over… I- I don’t know Steve it was bad,” I ran a hand over my face and took a deep breath in. “Was it serious?” “Yeah, trust issues overall. That’s pretty serious,” I dropped a file into my bag. “We’ve been together for a while now and I still feel like I know nothing about her life before SHIELD. And I’ve told her a million times that whatever she did, I would accept it and know that it was against her will, but no. Nothing. I’ve been patient long enough, I need her to give something to me but she’s not willing to do so… I told her if she learned how a relationship works, she can talk to me.” “Don’t you think it was a little harsh?” He asked with a frown but also a concerned look. “She questioned whether it’s important that I know about her past life, so no, I don’t think it was harsh.” “Alright, but you guys should definitely clear things up.” “I don’t know…” I sighed and my shoulders dropped. “I need to ask you something though,” his words made me look at him. “What do you know about Bucky?” His sad eyes were a pity to look at.
“Surprised it wasn’t the first thing you asked,” I smirked and he just shrugged. “Ugh Barnes, I met him when I was in the Red Room, he was a trainer. We had missions together, but he mostly trained us. He was basically programmed to do so. What do you know about that controlling thing?” I asked. “I know nothing. I thought he had been dead since 1945 until I saw him on the bridge today.” “Oh boy, okay. Well, I don’t know the follow-up story but he is controlled by HYDRA. James had subsequently been brainwashed and armed with a new cybernetic arm in order to become their operative, known as the Winter Soldier. He didn’t remember much about his past and what he had done but he remembered the war. Always talked about his friend but never named him. But now I know it’s you,” I gave him a small smile and he was almost shy about the mention. “James is a good man, and he saved me multiple times. Even though I met him when he was a madman, I know once we rescue him, it’ll be alright.”
And there was another knock on the door, but they didn’t wait for an answer, they just opened the door. Steve and I both turned towards the entrance, where Natasha’s head poked inside. “Can I talk to her, Rogers?” She asked. I saw Steve take a glance at me then stood up. “Yeah, sure. We were done anyway. Thank you, Y/n,” his small smile was a sweet action. “Anytime.”
Once Steve left, Natasha was standing by the door for a couple of minutes. Arms crossed, I think she was lost in why she was actually here. “So that’s it?” Her sudden words made me look at her. “Did you realize why your life matters in a relationship?” I turned my whole body towards her.
She scoffed and shook her head. “Why do you want to know?” “Because you watched me suffer through nights and days because of what happened to me, and you were there for me. And I’m not gonna let you agonize over whatever you’ve gone through within yourself. Natasha I want to be there for you, but I can’t if you won’t let me. So if you think that it’s still hard for you to open up, then maybe it’s better we break up. Maybe we rushed things and didn’t look forward,” I said, already feeling the knot in my throat. I felt my hands shake, and drip from sweat.
Natasha did not look at me. She bounced her leg, and couldn’t move away from the door. “I’m sorry I can’t be what you need,” she took one last glance at me and if she looked away one second earlier I couldn’t have seen her glossy green eyes.
The door closed softly but quickly. Feeling the warm tears run down my burning cheeks, I just kept staring at the metal door, knowing that she won’t run back to me and hold me in her arms.
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Couple hours later we found ourselves outside of the SHIELD compound. Natasha being undercover and Fury laying low, Steve, Maria, Sam, and I made our way inside.
Not gonna lie it was an easy way in. “Is Rumlow still alive?” I asked. “Probably, but not for long,” Sam spoke. “I’m so ready to end this, not gonna lie,” I added with a sigh. “We’re almost there,” Steve patted my shoulder.
Canceling the earpieces of the agents in the control room, we just waited for someone to open the door. Seconds later an agent stood in front of us. Sam and Maria held a gun at him while Steve stood in front with me behind. “Excuse us,” the tech guy held his hands up and stepped aside to let us enter.
Steve took over the mic and made his big hero speech, exposing HYDRA and speaking about the Helicarriers. “Did you write that down first, or was it off the top of your head?” Sam stepped up to him and I had to chuckle at his words. Sometimes I don’t know if he’s joking or just simply a fan of Rogers.
Making our way to the Helicarriers, Maria stayed behind and informed us from the HQ. “They're initiating launch,” she said. “Great, now we have to be quick,” I murmured.
“Hey, Cap, how do we know the good guys from the bad guys?” Sam asked as we were running. “If they're shooting at you, they're bad.” “Wow, wise words, Captain,” as I said that, I lifted off the ground since they already knew that we were there. Sam, in his Falcon suit, follows me and flies off while Steve heads down, the HYDRA agents start shooting at us, and Sam flew around to avoid getting shot. I surrounded myself with a shield and looked around. “Hey, Cap, I found those bad guys you were talking about,” Sam spoke over comms. “You okay?” “I'm not dead yet.”
Flying up the Helicarrier I saw how Steve was struggling to get through. “I’m in position,” spoke over the comms. Using my powers I threw some heavy equipment at a group of HYDRA agents who were going after Steve. “Thanks,” he said through heavy breaths. “Falcon, status?” Maria spoke. “Engaging,” seeing Sam land on another ship, I took out my chip. Looking for the right place, I inserted it into the system and saw the data go through.”Alpha locked.” “Nice job, Stark,” said Maria. “Thanks.” Just after that Sam locked the second one.
“The Winter Soldier is on sight,” heard Maria’s words and I flew off immediately. “I’m on my way. Steve, get the third quick.”
Bucky fired at the SHIELD pilots and agents killing them all. Before he could shoot another grenade I caught it and it blew up within a fire shield. “Come on Barnes, we’ve been here before, can’t you learn that you’re not gonna win?” I spoke as I walked closer to him. Dropping his gun he ran at me, and I did the same. His moves were quick but I knew all of them. Dodging one of his punches, I was quick to hit up his chin. He grabbed my arm and twisted it before landing a kick to my stomach. “Your fucking fetish of kicking me in the stomach,” I cuffed but grabbed a knife out of his pockets and tried to stab him but he caught my hand. “ты слаб, (You’re weak)” he said and I shook my head. “I love how you forget my powers,” and with that, I grabbed his metal arm and started heating it. He tried to pull away but I didn’t let him. When I saw that it started melting, I let him go and kicked him far away.
Turning around I helped some of the SHIELD agents hold back the HYDRA ones, but then there was a gunshot. Looking down at my stomach, I saw deep red blood gushing out of my upper stomach. I touched the wound with trembling hands and slowly turned around, but all I could see was James taking off in a Quinjet. “Barnes… he’s ugh, he’s in a jet going up the Helicarrier,” I reported. “Yeah, I noticed,” Sam panted. “Where are you, I need a ride,” he said. “I can’t fly, I’ve been shot,” I took a heavy breath in, gal Ching down at the wound. “But I can go on foot, in a second,” I murmured. “Rumlow’s headed to the Council, get Stark and go after him,” Maria said over comms. “Got it.”
I had to get up before Sam arrived so with a deep breath a burned the exit wound, a loud scream was all I could make. “Huh, okay… I don’t think I will ever get used to this,” I panted and stood up. Then Wilson was nearing me. “Are you okay?” He asked and I nodded. “Let’s get this son of a bitch.”
Going up the stairs, I was at the front and Sam was checking the back. “Can we make a bet?” I suggested. “What type?” “Whoever gets Rumlow pays for the drinks later,” I said and he chuckled quietly. “You’re on.”
After reaching an office space we took cover. “I'm on forty-one, headed towards the southwest stairwell,” Rumlow opened the door and before I could get him, Sam attacked him but after a few punches, he was down. “This is gonna hurt. There are no prisoners with HYDRA, just order. And order only comes through pain. You ready for yours?” He took his vest off. “Dude, what are you talking about?” I sighed. “Man shut the hell up,” Sam spoke too. “Two against one, I don’t think you have a way out of this,” I walked slowly to the other side of Rumlow. “Oh yeah? What can you do to me?” He smugly shrugged. “I have my ways,” I said before kicking his feet out. Sam quickly started punching him but Rumlow shook him off and stood up. “Come on, Stark. That’s all you’ve got?” He rounded me, and with a blast to his face, I climbed onto a desk, and with a swift move I wrapped my legs around his neck and brought him to the ground. “Oh Rumlow, STRIKE has taught you nothing? Widows always win,” and with a punch to his face, he lost consciousness. “Sam?” I glanced at him and he held a hand to his head. “I’m buying drinks.”
We stood at the window, watching the Helicarriers as they were firing at each other. “We need to get out of here,” I said. “But you won’t,” we heard the voice, and turning around we saw Rumlow barely standing up with a gun in hand. “Why is he doing this?” I murmured. “He’s a maniac, what did you expect?” “Get down,” I said lowly. “What?” Sam asked confusedly. “Get down,” I pushed him down and sent a big blast at Rumlow, which took him down. “Y/n we have to go,” Same shouted. I turned around and saw the Helicarrier was about to crash into the building. “Please, tell me you got that chopper in the air!” Sam spoke into the comms as we were running away from the crash. “Where are you?” Natasha’s voice rang through my ears. “41st floor, northwest corner!” “We're on it, stay where you are,” said Romanoff. We were desperately trying to get away from the destruction the Helicarrier was causing to the building. “Not an option,” I said. “Sam, you have to hold on okay? I’m gonna jump, and you can’t let go of me,” I said and grabbed his arm. “Oh man, please don’t kill me,” he said and held onto my shoulders.
I created a shield around us, and with high speed, we flew out of the building. The chopper was just below us, and I flew us to it. I placed Sam in the helicopter and then took a glance at the compound. “I’m gonna get Steve,” and with that, I flew off, but as I was about to reach the Helicarrier I was shot once again.
My legs let loose along my arms and I soon started falling from the sky. Coming in and out of consciousness, I felt a burning pain in my abdomen before falling into the water and passing out.
I was getting dragged by my suit which was soaking wet. I could still feel the pain in my side from the bullet, but at least I was alive.
Opening my eyes, I blinked multiple times before I could see clearly. Looking to the side I saw Steve’s limp body. Trying to reach up to the hand that was dragging us I groaned as my injured side was holding me back.
The person stopped and let us go. My head hit the ground and I could clearly see who it was. James.
Cut on his left cheek and multiple bruises across his face. His eyes were soft but scared. He’s back. “James…” I cuffed up some water but he heard me and looked down. “I’m gonna find our daughter.” He didn’t say anything else, just limped away.
“Daughter? You have a daughter?” Steve mumbled from next to me. Barely able to speak. “I’ll tell you later.”
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fangirlinsweden · 2 years ago
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Just One Kiss: Part 18
Part 18: Road Less Travled
Pairing: Steve Rogers x Reader
Warning: Nerves, impatience, hard words, arguments (kind of) and loaded discussions
Count: about 3200 words
Summary: You have been suspended from work and do not know what to do with yourself. Then in just a matter of hours, you find yourself on a plane to Montana to stay with people you have never met before. And as if that is not enough one of the men you are supposed to get to know is handsome enough to make your knees shake.
A/N: I do not know anything about the professions that are detailed in this story. I have googled most things I did not know and therefore there can be some inconsistency.
English is not my first language, so there will be mistakes.
And a big thank you to the amazing @dreamcatchernightsky not only for giving great support and helping me stay motivated but also for the amazing dividers for this story. You are AMAZING!
I also want to give a big thanks to @banditthewriter   & @kaunis-sielu & @maw000 or their support! Thank you!
And a big thank you to my incredible Cat for being my beta reader! As well as @dreamcatchernightsky
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You lay awake thinking of Steve when you heard someone opening the door in the hallway. Since Nat’s room was the closest, you figured she wanted a snack or something. She had been kind of off earlier when you had gotten in after you met Steve in the stables. Maybe she could not sleep. You put on a robe and went to the door to go down and see if she wanted to talk. When you came to the stairs you heard the front door open and close, so you walked down slowly. In the window, you saw Nat walking towards a tree. A man came out of the shadows and they stood looking at each other for a while before Nat hugged him. It must be a friend, maybe even Bucky. You yawned and looked at Steve's door. You wanted to go there and crawl down in his bed, but it would not be right, and if Nat came back... It was not how you wanted Nat to find out about Steve and you. You looked out again and Nat and the man had disappeared. Maybe Nat would come and talk to you after? Either way, it was back to bed. You cast one last look at Steve's bedroom door before going to your room. 
Nat walked out into the night and heard sounds that she had all but grown up with. It was quiet, but at the same time kind of loud. The sounds of the animals, the night creatures, and the smell of, well, Montana. Nat took a deep breath and started towards the tree. Where was he? When she was just a few metres from the tree, he stepped out of the shadows. A part of her thought he was not going to come, but she should have known she could always trust him. Even now, with all they had been through, he was still there for her.  “Nat,” he said and his voice still made her feel safe.  “Hi,” she said, and there they stood looking at each other. Who would make the first move was not something Nat could predict, but suddenly she was in his strong, safe arms again. He still smelled the same, just as she noticed earlier that day when they had hugged. “Thank you for coming out,” Nat whispered into his shoulder. “You know I am always here for you,” Bucky answered, and let go of her slowly. They looked at each other again and Nat knew she had to say what she was thinking. “Peter thinks I have villainised Steve and that I am acting like a spoiled brat,” she got out. Bucky let out a low chuckle.  “You agree?” Nat crossed her arms. Bucky swung an arm around her shoulders and together they started walking away from the trees, away from the house. “Both yes and no,” Bucky answered after a moment of silence. Nat makes a noise but doesn't say anything. “Nat, look at how you have treated Steve since your mother died. You were not the only one that was struggling. Hell, you took it out on everyone, not just Steve.” Nat stopped and looked at him. “Don’t make this about us.” She pushed off Bucky’s arm.  “I am not trying to, Nat,” Bucky groaned. “I am making this about everyone in this town.” “What do you mean? I still have contact with everyone,” Nat raised an eyebrow. “You do? Really?” Bucky looked unimpressed. “I thought you only talked to Peter.” “No.” Nat started to feel small. Who was she really in contact with other than Peter? She talked to people when she visited, but not anything else. Never in-between visits. “Fuck.” She breathed out. “You just shut everyone out.” Bucky took  a step back. Nat looked up at him with big eyes. “It…… it just got so hard,” Nat let out in a shaky voice. “I didn't just lose my mom and step-dad, I lost you as well.” 
Bucky felt like he just got gut-punched. She lost him? No, it was the other way around. His mind went over the way things had ended and how he been feeling after. All the calls, the letters.  “You never lost me!” Bucky tried keeping his emotions in control, but knew by how Nat looked at him that he did not do a good job. “You ended things with me when I said that I was going into the Army. You left and did not look back. Never answered my calls or my letters.” Nat’s eyes filled with tears.  “I wanted you to fight for me,” Nat yelled out. “I wanted you to come to New York for me.” Bucky shook his head.  “I did fight for us. I couldn't follow you to New York. I was already in basic training when you moved.” Bucky looked away towards the house hoping nobody heard them. “Why did you not leave,” Nat demanded. “Because I needed to become something. I needed to find me,” Bucky explained and sighed. He felt so tired all of a sudden.  “Why could you not do that with me in New York?” Nat looked at him again. The tears in her eyes made his chest hurt.  “Because New York was your dream,” Bucky answered honestly. “It was never mine. I don’t belong in big crowded cities. I need the clean air and the freedom out here. More now than then. But this is were I belong.” He gestured around them.  “But why the Army?” Nat took a deep breath. “I thought I would be good at it,” Bucky admitted. “I didn't just want to be a ranch hand. And you know what, I was really good at it. It fit like a glove. Until it didn’t anymore.” Bucky looked away from Nat. He was not ready to tell her what had happened. Maybe she knew. Maybe Steve or Peter had told her. But either way, it was not going to come out of him now. Bucky took a couple of deep breaths and tried to ground himself. Remind himself where he was and that he was safe. He looked back at Nat.  “I think we got off the subject,” Bucky cleared his throat. 
Nat felt like he was avoiding something, but decided to drop it for now.  “We were talking about Steve and you,” Bucky continued. Nat nodded. “I think you should take this time with him and try and see him for who he really is,” Bucky said. “Try and take away the picture you have in your head.” Nat nodded. It was similar to what Peter had said. “Maybe talk to people around here and in town to see him.” “What do you mean?” Nat narrowed her eyes. “You know that people in town can’t keep anything secret and that they will tell you the truth,” Bucky smirked. “Listen to the gossip and all that and you will see.” Nat nodded. “That is kind of what Peter said, well not listening to gossip and all that,” Nat smiled.  “So you are going to try?” Bucky asked.  “Yes, I am,” Nat smiled again looking up at him. Something inside her kind of snapped. She realized that she wanted to kiss him. Just as she was going to take a step forward and kiss him, Bucky looked away. “Is there anything else you need to talk about?” He was putting up a wall between them, and she wanted to take a sledgehammer to it and get through to him. How could he be so different, but still the same? What had he been through? She had pushed him away and she did not want to do that anymore. Coming here and seeing him for real for the first time in years she realised something: Bucky was still the one for her. She still loved him and that explained why no relationship had worked out over the years. In her heart she had known they would never be Bucky. Nat took a hold of Bucky's hand and he looked at her.  "I am so sorry for how I handled it all," Nat swallowed hard. "I should have tried putting myself in your shoes as well as actually listening to you." Bucky squeezes her hand. "It's all long ago," Bucky clears his throat. "We were just kids." "We are not kids anymore," Nat looks at him.  "No," Bucky agrees. Nat takes a step forward and lifts her other hand to Bucky's face. He went still and it was almost as he was holding his breath. Nat showed what she intended to do, but Bucky just stood there. She slowly came closer and closer until she knew he would be feeling her breath on his lips. He still stood still. So she kissed him. One hand in his soft hair and the other around his neck. The taste of him was everything she remembered and more. How had she been able to live without it for so long? Bucky started to kiss her back and soonthey were making out, almost as they had when they were teenagers. She could not get enough of him, and it seemed as he felt the same. Suddenly Bucky took pushed her away.
“Damn you, Nat,” Bucky glared at her with heat in his eyes. “You can’t just come back and do this to me.” He turned around and stalked away from her. Since he never lookedback, he missed the big smile on Nat’s lips. Nat now knew what she wanted and she would not give upuntil Bucky was hers again. This was the reason she never found someone to love, because Bucky was her one. The only one. She really hoped he felt the same way. With a big smile and a mind full of hope for the future, Nat made her way back to the ranch house and up to her room. 
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The next morning Y/N woke up with a big smile on her lips. She had never heard Nat come back in yesterday but figured that her friend would not have been out all night. Y/N went down to the kitchen and started breakfast. It was still early but she knew that both Steve and Peter would be up and about. After putting on the coffee and starting the bacon and eggs, you made the table. The coffee was almost ready when Steve walked into the kitchen. The sight of him coming in and taking off his hat made her weak in the knees. She wanted to go over to him and jump up in his arms and kiss him. Steve must have seen something in her eyes because before she even took a step forward he shook his head ever so slightly. The door closed behind him and in walked Peter.  “Good morning,” you greeted them, grateful that you had not acted on your impulse. “Breakfast is almost ready.” They greeted you back and you turned to the stove to stir the eggs. Peter and Steve washed their hands and you could hear them talking about the farm and things that needed to be done. It seemed that they had a full day ahead of them before the cattle drive guest would arrive. Hearing their voices talking about the farm made you feel relaxed and happy. The tension between Steve and Peter seemed to have become less as well. You took that as a good sign. 
Steve came over to the stove and helped you put the breakfast on the table. Just as you were pouring your second cup of coffee, Nat came into the kitchen. She looked tired and you could almost feel the tension increasing in the room with every centimeter she came into it. You had set the table with a plate for her as well, even though you had not thought she would be up this early.  “Good morning,” Nat said and almost looked uneasy. Steve smiled and poured coffee into her mug. “This smells amazing,” Nat smiled thankfully as she sat down at the table.  “Y/N makes a mean breakfast,” Peter looked at Nat. “I know. I missed it while she has been here,” Nat looked at you.  “Well, then dig in.” You made a gesture to the food on the table. Everybody did, but you. Instead, you just looked around the table feeling content. You could feel Steve's eyes on you even before you turned your head towards him. His eyes met yours and you smiled at him. Under the table, he ran a foot up and down your leg. It was like he could not keep his hands - or in this case his leg - off you. It made you feel warm inside. The breakfast was pleasant and even though there was still some tension in the air, you decided to ignore it.
When breakfast was finished, Steve stood up. "Anyone up for a ride to check some of the property fences?" You could feel Steve's eyes on you, but you did not want to seem too eager.  “I still have some chores to do,” Peter looked almost smug.  “I am too tired,” Nat yawned. “I also need to rest my ass  for the coming week.” Steve chuckled at that. “Are you sure you still know how to ride?” Steve said teasingly and gave Nat a small nudge . “I mean, it's been years.” “Of course I am sure,” Nat smiled and pushed back at Steve. Peter looked at them and smiled.  “Nat has been out riding some with me,” you said and Steve turned to you. “Well, then I am not worried,” Steve put an arm around Nat, but still kept his eyes on you. There was a sparkle in his eyes and it was so hard not to go over there and just pull everyone into a hug.  “How about you, Y/N?” Peter asked. “You can go riding with Steve, as you have done most days.” You looked at Peter and felt a blush coming on. Even though you told yourself not to react. “I need to take care of the dishes,” you tried to keep the colour in your face down. “Same rules apply here, as in our apartment,” Nat said and you knew what she meant by that. “What?” Peter asked. “The one that cooks do not do the dishes and clean up after,” you said before Nat could answer.  “Exactly.”” Nat nodded at you and since you wanted to go with Steve you nodded. “I would love to go with you Steve.” You looked at him and saw his smile. “I just need to go up and get ready. Give me five minutes.”  “I will be waiting,” Steve smiled. Neither of them saw the looks that Nat was giving them, but Peter did. 
When you came down the stairs you could hear noises that you associated with doing the dishes as well as talking. Part of you did not want to interrupt what sounded like catching up between family members, but you knew that Steve was waiting on you. As you predicted, the conversation kind of came to a stop when you walked into the kitchen. Steve turned and smiled at you. It was a smile that lit up his whole face and made you feel warm all the way from your head to your toes. “Ready to go?” he asked and you nodded. You said goodbye to Nat and Peter. Outside you put your hands in your pockets so that you would be able to resist touching Steve or holding his hand. “I want to touch you so bad,” Steve got out when you were a few steps from the house.  “Same here,” you smiled at him. “I thought you were going to jump me before breakfast.” Steve looked serious, but his eyes gave him away. “If Peter had not been behind you, that was exactly what I would have done,” you laughed.  “I think that would have shocked him if he had seen that,” Steve laugh. You talked all the way to the stable, then inside the stables he stopped and looked at you. His face was more serious now. “How are we going to be able to keep this quiet for a whole week?” He looked down at the ground. “How am I supposed to keep my hands away from you?” You looked around and when you did not see anyone, you took his hand and dragged him into his office. He closed the door behind him and then turned you around so that you were pressed between him and the door.  “I know, I have been wondering the same.” You looked up at him. “I figured that we might have to sneak away for some alone time after we settle in for the night.” He nodded at this before he closed the gap between your lips. Your arms automatically went up around his shoulders and you hung on to him with all your might. Every kiss was addictive. It was as if you could not get enough of him.
There was a knock on the office door that made the two of you break apart. Steve went around his desk and you opened the door, to find Bucky outside.  “I will just go get the horses ready,” you said to Steve after greeting Bucky. You walked out and took a couple of deep breaths. That had been close.
Nat walked to the window to look after Y/N and Steve when they left the house.  “I see now what you mean about Y/N and Steve,” she nodded to where the two of them were talking and laughing. “I don’t think I have ever seen Steve smile as much as he does now,” Nat confessed.  “I know,” Peter smiled. “Y/N has a positive influence on him and she clearly make him very happy”. Something in Peter's eyes made Nat narrow hers. “What have you done?” Nat wondered and Peter just smiled. “Peter,” She warned and raised an eyebrow. Peter raised his hands. “I have not done anything,” he smirked. “Yet.” “Peter,” She said again and took a step closer.  “I have a plan for getting them together,” Peter still smirked and Nat turned to him. “You have?” Nat lifted an eyebrow. “How can you be sure they are not already together?” “Please,” Peter snorted. “We both know Steve and how slow he is with things. He needs to think everything through first and I am pretty sure he would not want to do anything that would make you uncomfortable.” Nat nodded, that was true. She had spent a lot of time lately trying to see Steve in another light. “Tell me about your plan,” Nat leaned a bit closer.
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