#also jaehyun is so pale omg

[taemin-eternal]

[sluttyten]

omg bea, could you can pleeeeease do #18, #29, & #42 with jaehyun? 🥺 sub jaehyun is >>>> (I also haven’t been on tumblr for the longest time and came back to check on you hehe hope you are doing well!! ♥︎) - hvndery/jungyunos 💗

sub jaehyun + “you need to use your words, love” + “you look so pretty like this” + you talking them through anal the first time (pegging)

Jaehyun was so nervous for his first time. You couldn’t blame him. You’d been nervous the first time you had penetrative sex too. Of course, he’d done plenty of penetrating in the past but today it was his turn to feel it. He was excited, he’d told you, but just nervous for how it would feel.

Right now, he’s waiting on the bed for you, entirely naked with all of his beautiful smooth skin exposed to your eyes. And he was blushing which was an unexpected bonus.

You’d already begun playing with him, just easy stuff that he was used to. A little bit of light touching, teasing his nipples, softly kissing him and then kissing his erogenous zones to soften him up for you. You’d even gotten him used to the feeling of your finger gliding over his hole, damp with lube, you’d teased him like that.

“How does that feel?” You ask, kissing his cheek. “Do you want me to do it again, baby?”

Jaehyun nods with his eyes closed. His head is tipped back against the pillows, cheeks a pale pink, his bottom lip trapped under his teeth.

So you do it again. Glide your lubed finger over his hole, circling around the entrance. You feel him twitch, unable to resist reacting.

His cock is devastatingly hard, arching up over his belly, the tip dripping beads of precum slowly against his abs. And when you circle your finger again, when the tip just barely dips inside him, Jaehyun moans, cock bobbing.

“I—I want…. I don’t mean���” He takes a deep breath and tries again. “I want more, but I don’t want it to hurt.”

“Shh.” You lean in to softly kiss him. “I’ll take it slow, Jae. Work you up to it. I’d never try to rush you into this. Okay?”

He nods. Takes a deep breath.

“You need to use your words, love. Do you want me to open you up with my fingers?” You stroke his thigh, trace your thumb once more over his entrance.

“Yeah. Yes, please. I want to feel it. Wanna feel you inside me.” His voice takes on a surprisingly whiny tone you’ve never heard before. You like it.

When Jaehyun spreads his legs for you, you’re faced with all his pretty pinkness. Pink cock, pink hole, pink blush. His precum glitters on his abs.

You make certain your fingers are covered well with lube, spreading it around his hole before you even attempt to get the first finger in. He’s tight, tense, and when you look up at him from where you’ve lowered between his thighs, Jaehyun let’s out a deep breath.

“Relax, love.” You kiss his thigh. “It’ll feel so good when I’m touching you.”

To help him relax further, you lift yourself up until your mouth closes around the tip of his cock. Jaehyun’s head falls back, shoulders slump, and he moans as your warm throat envelops his cock. He relaxes, and you circle your finger around his entrance and finally it slides in.

Jaehyun’s moan rises in pitch as you start work your finger inside him, trying to get him loosened up, and slowly he does. He relaxes as you blow him and finger him, and when you get a second finger in there, he’s blurting precum over your tongue.

You pull off of him, scattering kisses instead over his hips.

A third finger is what really gets him. You find his prostate then, and Jaehyun’s legs jolt, squeezing in around you. The moan that leaves him is punched out. His cock is so pink, so hard, and when you glide your fingers over his prostate again, Jaehyun cries out and cums.

You’ve never seen him quite like this. His lips parted as he moans. His cock rigid as he sprays his cum up his chest, over his belly. It drops down his length into the neatly trimmed hair at the base. And just like that he slumps into the pillows, body totally relaxed.

Jaehyun looks debauched, ruined but in a good way. His cum stripes over his belly, his skin glistens with sweat, and his rosy cheeks are still rosy as he pants for breath, eyes darting around behind his eyelids.

“You look so pretty like this,” you tell him, still slowly moving your fingers inside him. His cock twitches weakly as he goes soft, the last of his cum leaking down to join the mess on his belly.

Jaehyun’s lips twitch into a smile. “Felt amazing.”

You kiss his thigh and lick around your fingers before you pull them out. Jaehyun’s thighs start to close as you circle your tongue there around his loose entrance.

“Want another, love?” You sit up a bit. “I could go find my dildo.”

Jaehyun’s legs close and he squirms. “I don’t think I can right now. That was…. A lot.”

You nod, moving yourself up the bed toward his face. He still looks so beautiful, glistening with exertion, glowing from his orgasm, and still blushing so prettily. You lower your head until your lips meet his. “You did so wonderfully, my love. I told you you would, didn’t I?”

Jaehyun nods, resting his head against you. “Felt so good. Best orgasm I’ve ever had.”

You stroke your hand over his hair. “Can’t wait til I get to split you apart on my cock, love. Seeing you bouncing back on my strap will be such a pretty sight.”

Jaehyun hides his face against you, but not before you glimpse his blush and bright smile.

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[heartj4yn0]

NO ONE'S AT FAULT.

[TW: DEPRESSION, ANXIETY & MENTIONS OF SUICIDE]

PAIRING. erin x jeong jaehyun

GENRE. ib student!erin x boyfriend!jaehyun | relationship!au | fluff(?) | angst(?) | college!au | ib!au

warnings. depression, anxiety, mentions of suicide & just sad stuff?

— disclaimer: If you are uncomfortable with said warnings, please don’t hesitate to exit this story!

AUTHOR’S NOTE.

idk i just had to write this. i was so immersed into this story that i couldn't stop jajaja. i guess everyone can relate to this? not me writing ib stuff omg

WORD COUNT. 754

Jaehyun found your journal. The black journal with gold polka dots and the sayings DOT DOT DOT. he opened it and what he saw broke his heart. 

He didn’t know, he didn’t notice it. He was about to blame himself but he stopped as he remembered you saying 

“babe, if anything happens to me or if you see anything heartbreaking, please don’t blame yourself. It is never your fault. Please remember that.”

He read the 3 paged contents written by you.

“I’m scared. Will i be able to do this? Will i finish what i started? anxiety pours over me. I don’t know what to do. Unable to tell anyone no matter how vocal i am. 

Will i achieve my dream? Will i tell myself “congratulations, all your hard work paid off”? Those teary nights, those procrastination build up, those anxiety attacks, those slumps, will i ever be able to say goodbye to them? 

I have no idea what i’m doing in my life. I feel so useless. What can i even do? I study & i study, & yet i still can’t answer the questions on the tests. What’s wrong? 

Why am i here? What did i do to deserve this? Maybe i’m just not fit for academics…? I don’t know. I’m not sure. 

It’s so painful to know that my parents worked hard to give all this & yet, i can’t seem to do anything right; no matter how much i try.”

Jaehyun flips to the next page.

“Am i just plan dumb? I wonder what my IQ is. i just want to make myself proud, my parents proud, my family proud & those around me proud. I want to be able to prove those people who didn’t believe me wrong. 

Most importantly, i want to prove to myself that i could do this, no matter what & that i deserve this. But it also pains me that i often get compared to my parents’ friend’s children. 

Indirectly or vice versa, intentionally or vice versa, with ulterior motives or vice versa. As a means to show look what they’re doing now, you’re still stuck here.

 If i were to say that, i’d definitely get a comeback of ‘you ungrateful brat’ in a nice way. Is it wrong to feel this way? It hurts. It hurts a lot. 

To a point that when i cry, nothing comes out. My tears are inaudible, same goes with my screams.

Jaehyun flips to the last page.

“My screams are not heard. That’s how painful it is. But what can i say or do? I am just lost. I always feel like i don’t want to be here. I’m not supposed to be here. Can’t someone else replace me? 

Why do i have to go through this when others have it easy? Why am i so dumb? Why can’t i get things right? I’ve been held up by 2 years but why can’t i do it? Why are those around me up there? 

Why am i so behind? Why didn’t i do better when i had the advantage of doing so? Why? Just why? I keep on asking myself that. Why? Why can’t i be vocal about how i feel? 

Afraid of the comebacks i believe? Maybe. Why is it so hard for me to confront everything? Why can’t i be okay? Why is it so painful? Why does it hurt so much? I feel like all my efforts are useless. 

I understand concepts being taught but why can’t i answer the questions?”

He finished reading the 3 pages of your feelings that you poured on the pink and white striped papers. But you look so happy, he says.

How did i not notice this? I’m sorry, baby. I will be there for you starting now.

I’m sorry it took me too long to realize it and i’m happy i stumbled upon your journal. If not, i would’ve never found out about this. 

Tears started pouring down his soft, pale skin. His heart breaks with you. 

He still can’t believe you’ve been hurting even though you show your happiness whenever he’s with you. 

He makes a mental note and a promise to himself that he will help you. He wants to help you even if you push him away because he knows. 

He knows that you hate receiving help from others but hopefully he will be an exception.

 Jaehyun needs the happy you, not the happy but dead inside you. He wants you to be happy, not discouraged. 

He believes in you.

la fin. / to be continued...?

AUTHOR’S NOTE:

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[jaehyunspeachparty]

daddy jaehyun

iv.xx.

You sit with your sisters in front of the TV while watching your babies. It was already evening and Sunoh and Miga were already asleep. Emilian, Xioajun and Jaehyun were sitting outside in the garden drinking beer. You didn't want that the twins catch a cold again and you didn't want to let them out of your sight, so you make with your sisters a Netflix evening. You are watching the series "The Witcher". Audrey had made popcorn and you made yourself comfortable with lots of blankets and pillows. If Victoria were there, it would be almost like before. You had often put yourself together in a room and watched all kind of movies. They were wonderful memories of your childhood. "Omg, Henry Cavill is just so beautiful." You sigh and look at the TV. "Is it your celebrity crush?" Audrey asked with a wink. "Sure. Look at him. He is built like a god. I would go into the bathtub with him immediately." You laugh, but right now you see Jaehyun standing next to you. "I wanted to lie down and take the twins with me." Jaehyun looked serious and you fear that he was a little angry with you. "Okay, I'm coming with you." You get up, take a quick look at your sisters, and then follow Jaehyun. It was all a little awkward. Jaehyun didn't say much and went straight into the shower. You are now changing the diapers from the twins and everything was a little awkward for you. After laying the babies down and lying next to Sunoh, Jaehyun finally came out of the bathroom. But without saying anything, he lay down and closed his eyes. "Don't you even want to say good night to me?" You look at him a little confused. "Y/N, I'm just tired." Jaehyun was clearly angry and so you had confirmation. "Are you angry because I said that about Henry Cavill?" You almost laughed. "Just leave it." He turned on his back and stared at the ceiling. "Jaehyun, that's just such a ridiculous celebrity crush. I'm also not jealous of the women in the porn that you jerk off to." You roll your eyes and look at your husband. He didn't say anything but just turned around. You just decide to leave it at that.

As always, you were the first person to wake up because the twins needed to be breastfed. But after both were full, you could see how Miga had her eyes open. "Good morning my beauty." You smile and stroke her dark hair. She also started to smile and you kiss her. "Do you want to go and make your make up with Mummy?" You ask and Miga nodded immediately. You take her hand and you two go to the bathroom. You lift your daughter up and put her next to the sink so that you were opposite. First you start brushing her hair, then yours. You apply your makeup and use the brush to spread a little powder over Miga's face. She started giggling immediately. Somehow you always enjoy these beauty sessions with your daughter. It was something that only you two shared and ultimately she was your only daughter. You apply a bit of eyeshadow, mascara and lip gloss. When you were also done with the makeup, you sprayed a thermal water over you two, that Miga took with great joy. Then Miga looked in the mirror and smiled. "Do you like it?" You ask and the girl immediately turned and nodded. "YESSS!" She was very happy and you stroke her hair while looking at her. Miga was perfect for you, there was no more beautiful girl in this world. Maybe all mothers thought about their daughters the same way, but you were incredibly proud of her. "Mummy, why do you have a line there?" You stood there in your underwear and so Miga could see your pregnancy scars. She ran her finger horizontally along the middle of your belly and stopped at your navel. "You remember how Geon, Kiwoo and Sunoh were in my belly, right? And you were in my belly too. Because of that, everything had to stretch and that's where this line came from." You smile gently and drive along the middle of your body. "I was in your stomach too?" She asked and giggled. "Yes exactly. You lived here for 9 months." You pinch her pink cheeks because she was so cute. "But I can't remember that." She grinned and you had to laugh. "Nobody can do that because you were so small." At the moment Jaehyun comes in and he smiles. He seemed to be in a better mood than yesterday. "Good morning," he said softly, placing his hands on your hips. You kiss and you were glad that it was all over. "You look beautiful," he said then and gave you another kiss. "Aren't you angry anymore?" You then ask him, just for safety. "No, I was drunk and was in my old pattern. I'm sorry." He sighed and you stroke his shoulder. "All good." You two smile and as you turn to Miga you can see her lifting her pajama shirt and looking at her stomach. "Miga, what are you doing?" Asked Jaehyun with a laugh. "I don't have a line. Daddy show your stomach!" Jaehyun was a bit confused but he picked up his t-shirt. She examined him and then looked at him questioningly. "Why do you have hills here?" She squeezed one of his abs and you had to laugh. "These are muscles," Jaehyun told his daughter. She was a bit confused about it and looked back at her stomach. "Do I have no muscles?" She asked him with wide eyes. "Yes, but because I do sports, you can see mine." Jaehyun laughed and Miga nodded understandably. He was about to pull his shirt down, but his daughter had more questions. "WAIT DADDY! Did you also have Kiwoo, Geon, Sunoh and me in your belly?" She asked him then. "No, only your mummy had it"; Jaehyun explained with a laugh. "But you always tell Kiwoo and Geon that they're your babies." Miga was incredibly curious and she always wanted to understand everything. Since she now has three siblings, it is not unusual for her to want to know more, but it was becoming increasingly difficult to explain all of this to her. Since Jaehyun was already slightly panicked, you bend down to Miga. "You know, when a Daddy and a Mummy decide to have a baby, they both have to do something. Do you remember when we planted flowers in the garden? We dug in seeds and the flowers grew slowly in the soil. And It's the same with Mummy and Daddies. Your Daddy gave me the seed and I grew the seed like the soil. And so you and your brothers came into being." Miga looked at you with wide eyes and nodded understandably. Everything seemed clearer to her. "Wow, that was incredibly honest and totally child-friendly." Jaehyun laughed and you nod. "Yes, I hope that's enough until we have to have the real sex-talk," you sigh. "Please let this take a long time."

It always took an eternity for all of the children to finish. But you finally wanted to have breakfast. Sunoh has been reluctant to wear clothes lately, so it took him the longest. But today he had a lot to tell because he had been dreaming. "And then train ... woah shhhh ..." He tried to imitate the train and you nod in fascination. "There was a train in your dream?" You put on a t-shirt and straighten it out for him. Sunoh nodded and continued to tell. It was incredibly cute, because he could already do a lot of sentences, but when he told a lot, he still babbled. When you were on the way down, Miga and Kiwoo with Jaehyun, Sunoh and Geon with you, he continued to tell you about the dream. Apparently, this have been pretty intense to him, since he had so much to tell. Everybody could already hear from Sunoh's babbling how you were on the way to the dining room. So Audrey came towards you and looked at you in horror. "I'm sorry, I thought he was coming next week." She was pale and you look at her in confusion. "What? Who?" You cannot understand what was going on. But when you get a few steps closer to the kitchen, you see it. He had hardly changed, it was as if he had never grown older. "Y/N," he said, smiling. Jaehyun looked at you questioningly and he also seemed to be restless. You were frozen and you just said one word. "Harvey?"

daddy jaehyun masterlist

[tyongf-nct]

Jaehyun having his gf thigh ride him w/ edging and overstim maybe? Omg i love your works

I’ve been wanting to write another jae piece so i hope you like ittttt (also thank u)

dynamic: jaehyun x female reader

warnings/tags: smut, thigh riding, edging, overstimulation, dirty talk, only reader orgasms

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Jaehyun stopped the movement of your hips for the third time, taking away another orgasm as you groaned in frustration. He smiled, loving the way your thighs shook with the effort of rubbing your bare core against his leg. You threw your head back, neck exposed for Jaehyun to attack with his teeth, nibbling little hickies into your flesh and sucking harshly over the marks. You whimpered, nails digging into his shoulders through the thin cotton t-shirt. He was sitting on the edge of the bed upright in just his t-shirt and boxers, while you were completely bare on his lap aside from your lacy bra. Jaehyun went feral at the sight of the sexy black, the cups holding your breasts perfectly as you grinded down onto his leg. Thigh riding was tortuous but so, so worth it.

“Please let me come,” you begged. He breathed out a laugh through his nostrils, pulling his head back away from your neck to grab your chin with his hand. He forced you to look at him in the eyes, pupils dark and round, such a contrast from his clear pale skin. He must have pitied whatever desperate expression you were making, because he sighed and let go of your face, nodding and resting his hands on your waist again. 

“Alright. You can come,” he said. You moaned in relief, circling your hips faster and faster to chase your high against his thigh. Your bundle of nerves rubbed continuously against the strong muscle of his leg, electric sensations rushing through you every time he flexed his muscle or jerked his thigh up against you. It was long until you were coming, small droplets of your arousal spreading over his skin as you cried out in pleasure. Jaehyun left one hand on your waist and brought the other up to your chest, massaging one breast before moving on to the other as you continued to grind down on him.

It was like something was controlling you, whether that be hormones or some sick masochistic urge inside of you, but you couldn’t stop. You kept moving, stuck on Jaehyun’s body as you pushed to overstimulate yourself. It was starting to hurt, too much pleasure overwhelming your body but you pushed on, wanting to keep going until your body physically made you stop.

“Fuck, y/n,” Jaehyun’s voice was hoarse as he watched your body with wide eyes. You glanced down, body curling in with the pain and pleasure and you noticed Jaehyun’s erection through his boxers, the thin fabric tenting as he grew. 

When you cried out, either in agony or pleasure, Jaehyun forcefully grabbed at your hips, making you stop.

“Okay, okay, fuck. That was hot, but just give it a minute. You can start again after a rest,” he said. You nodded, panting and shaking from the overstimulation of your nerves. Jaehyun rubbed soothing patterns on your back, calming you until you eventually had enough strength to move off of him. He helped you lay down on the bed, crawling until his body was hovering above yours. You took your few moments of rest before starting again, taking care of Jaehyun as well as he took care of you.

[markleesthighs]

Mea Bella | Chapter 1

Pairings: Reader x Jaehyun, Reader x ??? Genre: NCT royalty!au, angst, fluff, subtle flirting Warnings: flashbacks, forbidden love Words: 2.9K

Chapter 1 - Run with Me 

You knew Jaehyun since you were a young child since your mother worked as a maid for the castle when you were young. Your father had died in battle, which left your mother to work for the royal family. You remember that day. You were about five years old when a carriage came to pick up you and your mother. You had packed a small suitcase and held a bunny stuffed animal your father gave you. You entered the carriage hesitantly and sat looking impatiently out the window.

You stopped in front of a castle bigger than you could see, it was so big you almost fell back looking up at it. You held your mother’s hand while entering the castle past the terrifying guards and bowed to the king and queen when you entered. You hid behind your mother’s legs, being shy about meeting new people. Your mother introduced you, and you poked your head out from behind the fabric of her dress and hugged your bunny tight. Your eyes met another pair of eyes who appeared to be around the same age as you.

“This is my son Jaehyun.” the queen had said.

He was also hiding behind his mother, peering out to look at you. He waved, and you shyly waved back and continued to hide behind your mother. Another maid led you to the maid’s quarters, and your mother unpacked your things. You were too young to start work, so the queen allowed you to wander and explore the castle. You heard music coming from a room and decided to follow it.

There was a light coming from the room of soft piano keys being pressed to play a melody. You peeked and saw Jaehyun playing the piano and swaying to the music. Jaehyun noticed you, and you immediately shut the door. Jaehyun ran and opened the door to see you bowing and looking at the floor, apologizing. Jaehyun smiled and grabbed your hand and helped you up on the seat to listen to him play. You were amazed at his skill and enjoyed him playing music for you. When he finished, he looked at you and smiled

“I loved that Jaehyun, you are very talented.”

“Thank you, y/n.”

From that moment on, you played with Jaehyun often, and his mother allowed you to follow him to be his little assistant. He taught you manners and how to become a good maid, however, Jaehyun didn’t see you as another maid but as a friend. He let you join him in archery, horseback riding, and you memorized his daily schedule. One day, Jaehyun took you to the library, where he would study and read. You looked at the amazing array of books, but you never learned how to read. You’ve always wanted to learn but never had the chance. Jaehyun caught you glancing at The Great Gatsby and told you to take it out if you wanted.

“You know, you can take that back to your room if you want.”

“I wish, but I don’t know how to read.”

“Really?”

“Yeah, with my dad away I had to help my mom a lot, I didn’t even go to school.”

“Hmm, maybe I can teach you.”

“Actually? How do you even learn to read?”

“I’ll read this book to you, and you can follow along to my voice.”

Jaehyun read for about fifteen minutes before your eyes started to get droopy, and you felt very sleepy. You felt your head fall on Jaehyun’s shoulder and started to sleep. Jaehyun noticed, closed the book, and carried you on his back to your room. He laid you down and tucked you in saying:

“Goodnight, my daisy.”

Leaving the book at your bedside, so you know who bought you back to your room. About an hour later, you were awakened by the sound of a bell, which you assumed was the dinner bell. You sleepily walk to the kitchen rubbing your eyes, grabbing the water pitcher. You walked out and started pouring water glasses for the family. You got to Jaehyun and smiled and walked passed standing only if they needed their water to be filled.

“Bring in Mrs. y/l/n, please.”

“Yes, ma’am,” said the butler.

After the butler went into the kitchen, he came back out with your mother.

“Yes, my queen?”

“I have a request for you.”

“What is it, my queen?”

“My son seems very fond of your daughter, and I would like to allow her to be his personal maid and friend, serving for this castle. I wish to appoint her has my son’s official maid.”

“I accept my queen.”

From that moment on, you were to stay with Jaehyun, get him ready in the morning, and following him through his schedules now with royal approval. Little did you know that as you both grew up, you grew feelings for Jaehyun, and you knew him better than anyone. Your new room was placed next to Jaehyun’s room, for him and for you. He would be able to ask things from you, and you would be able to serve him with ease.

~Modern Day~

You woke up in your bed, hearing the birds chirping and the sun beaming through your window. You were now sixteen, and you still work in the castle along with your mother. You stretched your arms up yawning as you walked to your closet full of the same black and white dress you wear every day. You grabbed one off a hanger, changed out of your nightgown, and into your outfit to serve Jaehyun breakfast and get him dressed. (yes, you still dress an 18-year old). You made your bed and left your room to pick up his breakfast on a. cart from the kitchen elevator.

You quietly knocked on his door and wheeled in his breakfast and tea. You opened the blinds of his room and prepared his tea with two sugars, just the way he liked it. Jaehyun groaned at the light and kept his face in his pillows. You walked over and removed his blanket, telling him to get up. He eventually got up and sipped his tea while you found appropriate clothes to wear for the day. Once Jaehyun finished eating and drinking, you helped him get dressed. You turned around as he put on his pants, and he attempted to put on the rest of his clothes.

“Hey, y/n?”

“Yes, Jae?”

Jaehyun never liked it in the beginning when you called him “prince,” so he told you to call him “Jaehyun” or “Jae,” but you would only call him “prince” in public or in front of his parents.

“Can you help me with my shirt, I can never get the strings right.”

You turned and saw Jaehyun with a bare, pale chest. You took the ends of the strings and delicately laced them in his shirt. You tried to not stare, but you couldn’t help but think:

“Since when did he have abs?”

Last time you saw Jaehyun’s stomach was when you were children playing your stomaches like drums. You finished his laces and didn’t realize how close his face was to yours. Your lips only lightly brushed against his, and you turned away blushing while Jaehyun laughed at your reaction. As you turned, he held your waist and rested his head on your shoulder.

“y/nnnnn, why did you have to wake me up? I’m so tireddd.”

“You are a busy man Jae, you have a lot of things to do as an 18-year old, you’re going to take over the kingdom soon. You also have to prepare for the midnight gala, we’ve been attending it since we were kids.”

He removed his arms and his head and put on the rest of his clothes. You both walked down for Jaehyun to start his schedule. First, he had fencing. You didn’t know how to fence but always watched Jaehyun win every time. Afterward, Jaehyun took a bath while you washed his hair and got him dressed again. He had music and etiquette class while you sat and tried to follow along. Then towards the end of the day at sunset, he had horseback-riding lessons, which you were required to be on a horse.

“C’mon y/n!”

“No, Jae we have to get back ins-“

“Just ONE race, unless…”

“What?”

“You’re chicken.”

“WHAT.”

You raced Jaehyun through the vineyard and eventually found a flower field outside the perimeter of the castle. Jaehyun got off his horse and offered you a hand to help you off the horse. You stepped off, and Jaehyun ran off saying

“The race isn't over y/n!”

“Omg…”

You bolted after him, and he stopped, and you fell on top of Jaehyun. You apologized and went to get up, but Jaehyun stopped you.

“No, stay like this, I like it.”

From Jaehyun’s point of view, he saw your hair blow in the wind while hundreds of small flowers fell into your hair. With the sunset in the back, it was a beautiful sight to see. He pushed your hair behind your ear and held your cheek. You two just gazed at each other and felt yourselves getting closer and closer until you suddenly snapped out of it.

“Shoot, you have to get back home before it gets dark.”

“Alright, princess, since you want to go back so badly..”

“Shut up.”

You both rode off back to the castle and made it just in time. You opened the doors to see Jaehyun's family awaiting his arrival at the dinner table. You shyly left go to the kitchen to get the water pitcher while Jaehyun sat down at the table. You were overhearing the conversation Jaehyun had with his mother.

“Jaehyun, you are eighteen..”

“Mother, I am not having this conversation again.”

“You are to be married to one to the prospects me and your father have selected, and that’s final. It’s tradition Jaehyun, your father did it, your grandfather did it, your great-grandfather did it, your-“

“I GET IT.”

You looked at Jaehyun as he felt frustrated, you would be lying to yourself if you didn’t admit that you felt terrible. A little part of you also felt hurt, you knew this day was coming, but you wished that in the realm of possibility, that Jaehyun would be allowed to date you. You both felt a connection, and it had only grown from there. But you both had just been flirty with each other in the meantime. Jaehyun looked at you feeling guilty, that one day he’d have to be married to someone he didn’t love. You smiled at him at reassurance, and you left to go into the kitchen. After dinner, you helped Jaehyun to another bath and got him prepared for bed. You had some conversation while putting on his clothes, Jaehyun seemed tense and felt that he needed to vent a little.

“Can you believe this?”

“Believe what?”

“My stupid mother, making me marry someone I don’t even know.”

“It’s your family tradition.”

“How can you say that?”

“…”

“Fine, how would you feel about marrying some snobby rich man, who maybe didn’t even love you.”

“If it made my mother happy, I would.”

“Well, your mother and my mother are different, at least your mom isn’t a pushover.”

“You’ve known this had to happen sometime after you turned eighteen. This shouldn’t have been a shock to you, Jae.”

“Yeah, but all of these girls are spoiled, and I don’t even know if they will like me.”

“You are a very kind-hearted, caring, considerate, and loving guy. If she doesn’t love you, it’s her loss.”

“Thank you, y/n.”

“Do you know when you’ll meet them?”

“The midnight ball.”

“O-oh…are we…not going to match this year?”

“NO, we are going to match, that’s OUR tradition, and that will not be broken until I get married.”

You chuckled, “alright,, my stubborn prince, it’s late, and you have a big day tomorrow.”

“What am I even doing?”

“Planning for the midnight ball, outfit fittings, food tasting, and french practice.”

“Ughhhh, why can’t I just stay in bed.”

“You’re a prince. Its what you do, goodnight Jae.”

“Goodnight, y/n.”

You blew out his nightstand candle and tucked him into bed. You walked into your room and began to change into your nightgown. You tucked yourself into bed and couldn’t fall asleep. The underlying idea kept popping into your head of Jaehyun, getting married to someone else. You both loved each other, and you wouldn’t bear to see him get married to another woman. You tossed and turned but couldn’t sleep. You walked out of your room quietly and went downstairs to have a warm glass of milk. But when you entered the kitchen, you also found Jaehyun making himself some warm milk.

“Can’t sleep?

“Y-yeah.”

“Here, I’ll make more.”

You sat as you watched Jaehyun heat up more warm milk for himself using the fireplace. You both drank in silence.

“What’s on your mind?”

“I don’t know…just thinking about getting married still worries me, what about you.”

“I just feel a little sad that you are getting married, we are growing up.”

Then there was silence again

“Jae?”

“Did you ever like someone who you wished you could get married to? Or did you ever like someone?”

“…yeah”

“O-oh”

“She is beautiful on the inside, and outside, I feel like I could trust my life with her.” “Does she make you happy?”

“Very happy.”

“Who is sh-“

As you were about to continue, Jaehyun’s lips were a centimeter away from yours, and your eyes connected with his deep brown irises. You were red and felt that you could faint. Jaehyun grabbed your cheek and leaned in to kiss you on your lips. His lips felt soft and warm against yours, and he pulled away to see you shyly fall into his chest. You laughed a little, and Jaehyun couldn’t help but smile. However, your eyes started to become glossy, realizing what you had just done. You let the prince kiss you! A maid! Not even meant to be seen touching him! You immediately pulled away from Jaehyun.

“Jae…”

“What is it, my daisy?”

“This is wrong…we shouldn’t be doing this…”

“You don’t f-feel t-t-the same w-way?”

“No! I do feel the same way it's just-“

“Just what?”

“You’re a prince Jae, I’m just a maid, even if we did love each other, there is no way we could ever truly be able to love.”

Your eyes started to form tears and fell down your face. But your face was blank, and tears were just falling, with no sobbing or choking up.

“Oh, y/n...”

Jaehyun embraced you and rubbed your back while you held Jaehyun crying into his shoulders.

“We can keep this a secret, yeah?”

“…”

“It’s okay if you want us to stay friends. It's your decision, my love.”

“What do we do if someone finds out? Or what will we ever get to do together? I’m just- so confused, frustrated, and scared, Jae.”

“I promise I will protect you from anything until I stop loving you, and I will never do anything that will hurt you in any way. I swear on my heart.”

“…alright…we can flirt in secret…and date…I guess…”

“YE-“

“BUT nothing beyond that I don’t want you to get carried away,” You said as you winked

Jaehyun blushed and then kissed you on the cheek

“You’re such a cheeky little one, aren’t you?”

You laughed as you fell into his chest, hugging him. You both eventually walked back to your respected rooms and fell asleep in bliss and happiness.

The next morning you woke up and got ready and walked into Jaehyun’s room to wake him up. As you were about to remove his covers, he grabbed your wrist and pulled you on top of him.

“mmh…sleep with me…”

“You were always a sleepy head Jae.”

You played with his hair as you laid on his chest, and he kissed your forehead as you blushed. You eventually convinced Jaehyun to get up and dragged him out of bed. Jaehyun got dressed, while you were putting his pajamas in the laundry basket to wash. While you bent over, Jaehyun whistled at you, which made you slap him in the arm playfully.

“What? y/n, I’m not wrong.”

“You are so gross Jae, why did I have to fall in love with a dork like you.”

“Hey! But I’m a cute dork, YOUR cute dork.”

You laughed as you kissed his cheek

“Okay, now its time for you to go plan for the midnight ball.”

“But what’s the point in going if you aren’t going to be there,” he said pouting

Jaehyun kissed your hand before walking out to attend his duties

“Till I see you again, Mea Bella, te amo.”

You were always flustered when Jaehyun spoke to you in Latin, finding it to be charming and impressive. You sighed in bliss as you skipped to go do the laundry happier than anyone in the castle.

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[heartau]

Oooh you went to Neocity right? I’d love to hear descriptions of the boys in the words of a writer 🥰

omg this sounds fun !!! ok before i start this i just wanna say this is from what i personally saw when i saw them live. i was relatively close to the stage, enough to make eye contact and to be waved at, so i’ll do my best!!

taeyong: seeing him in real life was a little surreal because he looks exactly how he does in pictures and videos which is already jarring because he’s already really beautiful through those. he has really big, expressive eyes and the warmest smile; every time he would look at the audience he’d have this small smile that looked like pride. it was really really heartwarming to see. he has such a calming, relaxed and cute aura durings ments but once he started to perform... whew! his head also really big, honestly a lot of their heads were really big in real life which is adorable idjdjddk, but yeah!! i made eye contact with him a number of times and you would think his gaze would be intimidating but it really really wasnt! the only word i can describe the feeling i got from him is motherly :(

johnny: first and foremost, i do not believe that he’s 6’1... that man is gigantic. his proportions are so good, his leg to chest ratio is so... [chef’s kiss]. what you see of him in videos is truly what he is in real life, he’s so goofy and funny and lively and he always encouraged other members to do their thing as well. he’s honestly so hilarious too which makes me sad because it makes me feel like we’d get along really well if i knew him personally ... man i just wanna be his bff. but yeah he’s really tall, like towering over the other members tall; even taller than jungwoo, who was surprisingly tall as well. maybe it’s just me because i’m really short. he also has a small face in real life, but at the same time his features are so expressive that you dont even realize it haha. but yeah he’s just a happy, talented, gentle giant.

jungwoo: if i could describe jungwoo in one word it would be cherub-like. he literally has the softest features ever and he moves so gracefully, he literally glowed on stage and it was kinda shocking really. he was also really tall omg, like i was expecting it anyways since i knew that he’s around 6ft, but like... he’s REALLY tall. he has the SOFTEST, most honey-like voice but he speaks with so much confidence, it’s so so so cute and made me so happy. he also has really fluffy hair, like even from my seat i could see how soft and light his hair was; every movement he made that night just made his hair whip around really easily, like even if it was bleached you really couldn’t tell because his hair didn’t look fried at all. all in all jungwoo was truly angel-like and very graceful.

taeil: oh man taeil is beautiful on screen and through pictures already but in person he glows 100x more. he has really, really pretty skin that made him shine under the spotlight and his jawline is REALLY sharp omg. he’s also really short (which i was expecting... probably still taller than me though) and has a big head hehe. he’s also one of the members that had a really calming, nurturing energy, during the ments he would literally have heart eyes full of pride when he’d look at the audience, it was really really heartwarming. a GOOD butt. also his vocals are so, so, sooo good and very stable - there was one point (i think it was back 2 u(?) i can’t remember anything from that night other than my videos) where he used his headvoice for the highnote and not falsetto and it floored me - i’m a classically trained vocalist so you bet i freaked out in the audience. but yeah, taeil is just really calming and nurturing and REALLY funny too :(

yuta: yuta honestly shocked me because although i knew that he’s baby from interviews and other clips, i was still somehow intimidated by him, but when i saw them live he really stomped on my intimidation. he literally has the most fresh, most positive, most genuinely kind energy i’ve literally ever felt :( he had the biggest smile throughout the night, every time i’d look at him he’d just be grinning from ear to ear. “healing smile” doesn’t even come close to describing how GOOD his smile is in real life. he’s also short, something i really wasn’t expecting, like a good 2nd or 3rd shortest - really really REALLY funny too and a REALLY good dancer, i got some of his freestyle dance on camera and every time i watch it, i’m floored bc he hits every beat on the spot. i made eye contact with him at one point and i remember feeling just so happy and at peace, like... he’s not intimidating at all... he’s just a happy boy :(

mark: ohh mark... i see mark as a childhood friend so when he came out on stage i literally felt tears spring in my eyes. i live in vancouver and saw them in vancouver so i feel like that kinda intensified it a bit more as well. he is SOOOOOO undeniably funny its crazy, throughout the night i’d just be laughing at things he’d say (that were intended to be humourous ofc). his head also really big omg it was kinda jarring, and taller than i expected. his stage presence is so good, everytime they’d perform my eyes would sometimes land on him, literally SO good. honestly, when i walked into that venue i was expecting him to cry which i feared for because when someone cries, then i cry, but he didn’t!! although after the concert ended, when they were saying their goodbyes, they left mark alone to say his own goodbyes and when he was doing so, his voice kinda cracked before he did this bow and his eyes were a little glossy and i got SO SCARED because i didn’t wanna cry rkdndkdndk but yeah :( im proud of mark and you can tell that he holds pride in what he does as well!

donghyuck: MAN... donghyuck literally has the most beautiful skin i’ve ever seen. i know i’ve said this before but he glows, like he literally glows, fullsun is an appropriate nickname for him. he emitted nothing else but cute, happy, mischeviohs energy during ments but once he started performing his vibe changed so drastically it was crazy - especially during wake up and baby don’t like it. there was one part during baby don’t like it when he pressed his forehead against taeil’s and when i tell you how much i lost it because i wasn’t expecting it... oh man. i also see donghyuck as a best friend; i was born a week before he was and our natal charts are exactly the same save for our moons, so seeing him rip it up on stage was so so soo good it made me so proud :( i made eye contact with him somewhere during summer 127?? I WAS SO HAPPY AFTER like it was refreshing omg i sound so silly but im telling the truth iddndkjd he’s also shockingly tall as well, around mark’s height, maybe even taller, and REALLY long legs. like a good 90% of his body was made of leg didjdjdjd but yeah donghyuck is just... he’s really the sun and he was meant to perform.

doyoung: i will start this off by saying; i left that venue as a doyoungzen. doyoung... whew... he also shocked me because through videos and pictures i was NEVER intimidated by him at all, i honestly genuinely always just saw him as cute baby but man oh man. you know when you just KNOW that someone’s rich by the way they hold themselves? that’s doyoung... he’s really regal-like and holds himself really gracefully, like a strict prince type. he intimidated me SO much that night (in the best way possible... sexy intimidation... dont worry) like his energy was just so... intense. i made eye contact with him a number of times and when i tell you how SMALL i felt just from meeting his eyes... my goodness. he has really broad shoulders and a tiny waist, also really tall, small-ish head. his features are REALLY sharp like it’s crazy, i really have no other way to explain it. he also has really pretty hands, nimble-looking fingers. he was really adorable during ments and at one point kept hopping which was so CUTE but even then... man. his energy is just really intense. i ended up making him one of my ults after i left the venue.

jaehyun: deep inhale... so. jaehyun. honestly its kinda silly because i can remember so many details from the other members but i feel like once it comes to jaehyun i’m at a loss of words because of how in SHOCK i was to see him up close bc as you all know he’s my ultimate bias, it was my three years with him a few weeks ago. but gosh... jaehyun... i really can’t see the whole “cold prince” image they give him bc he’s so chill and relaxed? ok wow a few memories are coming to mind now; he has a really big head, which i was expecting because i’ve seen people talk about how big his head is but yeah it’s big but it’s CUTE he’s just a little bobblehead :( i made so much eye contact with him that night too and god like. i got some of those moments on camera and you can see through the videos how i’d just FREEZE every time we jefkenfkd he’s just... really chill, really relaxed, let the other members do their thing, but at the same time really silly and had this aura of confidence which was really nice. a lil shorter than i expected omg but his skin was reeallllyyyy nice and he’s very pale irl omg. he waved at me and my friend at the end of the show and i also got it on video and like... every time i watch it its just so surreal cuz like ... 😭 LIKE WHAT NOW how am i supposed to live the rest of my life now knowing i reached my peak at neocity like .... bruh

all in all these boys are just so talented and have the best stage presence ever, and they’re super SUPER interactive with the fans. beingin the crowd during touch and replay was just so... nice :( it was truly one of the happiest moments in my life and i hope that they come back soon !!! i also hope that the next time i see them, winwin is part of 127 again as well :( and lastly, i also hope that whoever is reading this sees them in the future as well bc u deserve it!!!

[theboyz-engup]

Jacob Birthday One Shot 2019: Beach Dig

Q: omg can i request jacob and the reader playing a volleyball game with the rest of the boys? p.s love your work 😚

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Sand trickled into your sneakers from the little holes meant to keep the shoe comfortable, filtering down and making a grainy feeling with each step. Usually, it would annoy you more than anything but your brain was very much distracted, sun hitting your exposed cheeks and a smile stretching from ear to ear. Jacob held your hand, tugging you forwards so the sound of water grew louder and you could see the way it lapped against the ground, putting sand down as it came forwards and sucking it back as it pulled away. Your eyes didn’t have time to get mesmerized by the deep blues and greens and foam that rested against the bleak tan of the ground. Instead, you were filled with constant faces, eyes flicking between which boy was talking or laughing or cracking a joke.

Sunwoo jumped on Haknyeon’s back without warning, both boys taking a quick tumble to the ground but cackling nonetheless, belly laughs which were grabbed by seagulls and taken aflight on their wings. You felt absolutely breathless, squeezing Jacob’s palm to make sure something could keep you from floating towards the few wisps of cloud that covered the endless sky. The little pulse that came back, his head turning around and small smile coming across his lips helping your feet land themselves back on the ground. The volleyball he had pressed comfortably against his body using his arm didn’t move from its place until you got to the collapsed nets on the beach where you were meant to play.

“Not it,” Chanhee called immediately, bringing his finger to his nose quickly. Others followed, you being quick on the draw and saving yourself from net duty. Juyeon, as always was caught last, eyes scanning the group of you for a moment before realizing what had happened. Though, if it wasn’t Juyeon, it would’ve been Jacob. You had to nudge his side for him to bring his finger up.

As the joking ensued, Eric’s loud laugh piercing through the air as his hands came down and shook Juyeon’s shoulders, a few others took pity on him and helped with the field setup. Jacob let go of your hand, pressing a kiss to your cheek before saying he was going to make sure they were doing it right. Chanhee had already set up his scoreboard, butt sinking into an old and overused foldable beach chair he brought every year since you’d started his tradition.

“Why don’t you get a new one?” you asked him, looking at him struggle to get comfortable. His legs were nearly up in the air, sandals dangling. If you brought your camera, you definitely would’ve taken a picture of him looking up at you through his oversized sunglasses, lips pouted out and into an ‘o’ at being interrupted, sun hat stretching far over his pale face.

“Sandy’s been with me through a lot, y/n,” he hummed, rubbing at the material fondly, “that’d be almost as bad as me asking you why you don’t get a new boyfriend once Jacob starts getting a few wrinkles.”

You chuckled at him, loving the way he spoke so matter-of-fact. “That wouldn’t be such a bad idea, would it?”

“Don’t go breaking his heart, now,” Sangyeon chimed, sidling up behind you to open the large cooler that lay beside Chanhee’s chair. He squatted, mouth whispering numbers as his eyes scanned all the food.

“We didn’t pack enough,” Chanhee pouted, leaning over and nearly tipping his chair over. Sangyeon laughed at the boy, floral green shirt shifting in the wind to reveal a white t-shirt underneath. Your hands immediately went to save him, pressing against the legs of the chair to help steady him in the sand while Chanhee let out a small scream.

“We’re ready!” The call to the game was enough to get everyone playing back to attention, the sound of Chanhee’s speaker turning on coming from behind you as you kicked off your shoes and socks, hiding them in the shade, and hurried to see how the teams would be decided.

As Jaehyun was describing the divisions, you came up just beside Jacob, sliding an arm around his waist naturally. His reaction was easy as well, slowly slinging his arm across your back to bring you just that much closer to him. There was some sweat on his skin but, as you came closer, he still smelled like his mint toothpaste and green tea. Being around him was enough to make your heart calm, head leaning against his shoulder lightly as you gave your attention to the very dramatic boy in the middle of the circle.

He twirled around, producing chopsticks from a pocket in his swim trunks, holding them from the bottom and explaining the tips of them were dipped in two different colours: pink and blue.

“I also chopped off the bottom of one of them, so whoever gets that shortest stick has to wait on the sidelines to get switched in,” Jae explained, feeling rather proud of himself for his new invention. Most of the time, everyone just played rock, paper, scissors until they decided teams because the last winners were ‘uninventive’ and ‘lazy’, as Jae liked to joke.

Everyone gathered around, loud conversation coming from both sides of you as people crowded around and hovered their hands over the sticks. After a small countdown, twelve hands ripped at Jaehyun’s, grabbing whichever stick they could without knowing which was which. Everything seemed to be a competition which you loved because it was friendly. No matter what, everyone could still have their fun. They loved each other and, even if you didn’t always feel included, you loved them too.

Eric’s scream was the first to be heard, him falling to his knees in front of Juyeon, absolutely distraught that they weren’t on the same team. Juyeon was laughing, eyes nearly fully closed and hand pointing down at him before turning to Younghoon and resting his hand on his back. Both of their shoulders were shaking, Sunwoo coming over to grab the stick from Eric’s hand and offering to trade.

“No trades!” Jaehyun attempted, raising his voice and walking over to the group with his finger wagging at the younger boys.

Bright smile on his face, Jacob turned to look at you from under his wide brimmed sun hat and held out his hand to you. “On three?”

You nodded and, together, revealed your picks. Jacob was normal with a pink end and yours was blue with the end cut off. Pouting a bit, you apologized, to which he laughed.

“You didn’t do anything wrong, you didn’t know what you were choosing,” he hummed, attempting to console you as he brought you in for a hug. You let him reel you in but kept your eyes on his face, a devilish grin replacing your little pout.

In a sweet voice and wide eyes, you responded, “no, I’m sorry that your team is going to lose, Jacob.”

His mouth dropped open in disbelief almost, though there was a hint of a smile on his lips. “What?”

“You heard me,” you chimed, leaning in to peck his lips before running off and finding the rest of your team. Sunwoo carried you on his back towards your side of the court, the two of you now starting a cheer for the blue team. Jacob, a little ways away from you, yelled that you wouldn’t even be playing first.

“Don’t need to play first to beat you!” you called over the netting, finally being let down by Sunwoo.

“Terrible clapback,” Changmin critiqued, which surprised you, but you laughed nonetheless. As you sat in the sand, hands placed behind you and sun licking your cheeks, you watched the teams form slowly on the court.

Your opposition was Sangyeon, Jacob, Jaehyun, Eric, and Kevin while Haknyeon stretched on the sidelines, trying to look menacing but bursting out in laughter every few seconds once making eye contact with Sunwoo. The orange-haired boy on your team, who was widening his eyes and puffing out his chest to a chorus of giggles from the rest of the boys, was accompanied by Juyeon, Younghoon, Changmin, and Hyunjoon. The last boy seemed the most excited to play, hair dipping into his eyes and lips pulled between his teeth to conceal his grin. Last year it had been difficult for him to play so you and Chanhee kept him company by teasing the other members as they played. That night, on the drive home, Joon gave your hand a tight squeeze, whispered a thank you, and then found himself asleep on your shoulder moments later.

Chanhee’s toy trumpet started the game and, suddenly, you were off. Other people on the beach passed you by with funny looks, and sometimes amusement, as members dived and leapt for the ball. Haknyeon and you were resident hecklers until you were swapped in, your hand tapping Younghoons before you ran to his position.

“Good luck,” the fair boy huffed, plopping down in the sand, splaying on his back, and giving a taut yell from his belly.

“You didn’t even do anything!” Sangyeon claimed, coming over to sit next to Younghoon with his arms outstretched to the boy.

While those two preoccupied themselves, you found your eyes locking with Jacob’s and immediately, it was a competition. You wouldn’t say you were bad at the sport, it was just that you weren’t as good as he was. Kevin and him set each other up a lot, claiming they were Canada’s best players each time they got a point. Halfway through the game, they chest bumped each other which resulted in Kevin not sticking the landing and tumbling over, sand going in his hair.

“Canada’s best players, huh?” you called over the net, which made your team giggle a bit more as the others moved to help Kevin up.

Jacob, returning to his spot was now face to face with you, both of you close to the net and having a little stare-off.

“I wouldn’t be so talky, y/n,” he chirped, obviously joking but loving the banter, “you’re the one that’s got less points.”

With that, the game only escalated until you were down to the last stretch, only two points to go until the other team won. Needless to say, your team couldn’t pull through but that’s not to say they didn’t try. All the boys, and you especially, were covered in sand from all the dives and falls and trips. Nobody quite seemed to mind, though your team was meant to buy everyone dinner on the way back home. Jacob dipped under the net after the celebration in which Jaehyun got hoisted into the air after scoring the last point, little smile on his face. His chin faced upwards.

“Well? What do you have to say?” Despite his words, his voice was still mellow and sweet, like a familiar song that you can’t ever get sick of. His hands came around your body again, resting on your lower back as your arms snaked around his neck.

“Your team was better,” you hummed, hoping it was enough to placate him.

“No, that’s not- I mean, yeah that is true but also no, it’s not what I wanted you to say,” he chuckled, leaning his head down to press his forehead against yours. His hat shifted up and slightly off his head but both of you didn’t mind. You closed your eyes and grinned lightly, leaning up to give him short kisses between your words.

“We play better when we play together,” you decided, hoping it was enough. Jacob’s cheeks were a slight shade of pink when you pulled away, something you couldn’t blame the sun for considering he’d been wearing his hat all day.

“Trade next time?”

You nodded, “deal.”

He sealed your little contract with another kiss, one that made your heart start to beat irregularly for a moment. In those few seconds, it was just you two. The game stripped away, as did the water and the sand beneath you. He always had this way of making it feel like, no matter what little meaningless competition you had going on, it would always end up right back here with his arms around you to keep you safe. He didn’t have to be your whole world but, sometimes, he made it feel like it would be alright if he was. He made you feel like you would be alright.

“We should get some snacks before they run out, hmm?” The question was soft, an easy break to the thoughts your mind was curled in. You nodded, feeling his hands fall down and one slip into yours. Your fingers entwined without much time, both of you finding comfort there. As the sun dipped down ahead of you, going to lay its head in the deep blue waters, you felt at peace. You felt at home.

[sunkissedsicheng]

idol!mark x idol! reader, angst, mentions of suicide, gender neutral, song request, requested, mark from nct

song: lullabye bye- inigo pascual

[3:47 am] You knew everything was hard for him. Leaving his dongsaengs, practicing his lines and choreographies, and his frustrating life. He wasn’t your shining and happy boy anymore, he was engulfed by work, stress, and this sense of unworthiness. You were an idol yourself, you knew how it felt. the feeling of just not being good at anything at the moment you wanted to feel like you could do something, be someone. there were times where you just stayed in the studio, for days even. but there was Mark, there to bring you your food, cuddle and hug you when you were crying and, most importantly, encourage you to keep living and do what you love, and never leave him. You both promised that night.

there you were, sitting on your balcony. though the fall didn’t look that bad, you knew it was enough for you. though it could be viewed as selfish, you at the moment had been so done with society. It’s not easy being in an idol, also having a significant other as an idol was just the icing on the cake. it wasn’t typical of you to listen to those harsh comments, but they were really hitting home this time. There were people commenting such crude thing, like how much you should’ve died in the car crash you were when you were younger, or how the real reason you parents never supported was that you had no talent. it had really hurt you. Now there you were, about to commit leave this painful world. You had written letters for all your loved ones, telling them the real reason you left and how much sorrow filled you leaving them, especially mark. Oh, mark. You truly loved him with all you had but you knew he was better off without you, You were his biggest distraction. You didn’t hear him come into your studio and it wasn’t until he pulled you back by your small frame, his fingers tightly lacing onto your waist to pull you away from the danger you had put yourself into,

“No! No! No, let me go, i-i want t-to go!” you wailed, tears couldn’t stop streaming down your face at that moment. Mark pulled you into his chest, rocking you back and forth, warmth latching onto your skin.

“Its okay baby, I’m here, don’t worry,” he shushed. He felt his heart breaking as he saw you, allowing stray tears to fall down his pale cheeks. He hummed as you calmed down, singing your favorite song.

“let me sing this lullaby for you, don't want you to cry, so just close your eyes now and sleep, and sleep. while I sing this lullaby for you. just know that I am here for you. you can rest here with me and when you wake you'll see.” He sang beautifully, so smooth and soft like honey. He was your everything, nothing could ever change that.

“Don’t you ever give in baby,” he said into my ear. He was so sincere about his feeling with you, you always knew how he felt and vice versa but right now, he had almost witnessed the love of his live commit suicide. All he thought about was how you would all these happy moments and they were almost taken away from him. If only he had known what went through your head at times.

You knew it but you didn’t say anything, it was like you could feel him trying not to cry every time you brought it up. He was so different now, and you couldn’t help him. He was officially broken. No “we hot and we young anymore”, just little incoherent mumbles of agreement and zero eye contact. although things were like this, you wouldn’t let the relationship break like him.

-admin sunshine 

Request-  omg hi your saturday nights blurb was so cute, i was wondering if you could do some mark or jaehyun fluff with the song lullabye-bye by inigo paschal? i’m not sure if you’re familiar with the song. thank you

Sorry if i changed it to angst but i feel like it was more fitting