#also it comes in pink omg <3. lov that

[ajortga]

just too late

pairing: tara carpenter x fem!reader

summary: where tara can't help but regret the outcome of her consequences, she was just too late. how can a heart love if it is no longer beating?

warnings: massive angst, death, stabbing, blood

word count: 3.5k+

a/n: based of a request i got on wp! honestly, i wrote this months ago and got to the end, but their request was so similar that i redid it. posting a small second part soon<3 also omg, thank you for 500 followers!

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You had just visited Tara, a bouquet of roses in one hand as you knocked on the door. You had seen them when walking to her apartment and you knew that they were just perfect for her. You had to get them. As you heard the lock of the door click, Tara opened the door. She peeked out and saw you, smiling shyly. You thought she'd smile back, but instead her smile dropped. 

That had never happened before. 

"Y/N, we need to talk.

You knew something was wrong, something bad was going to happen. Your breath got stuck in your throat as she stepped aside to let you in. You knew the next thing that would happen would not be good.

 fast forward 20 minutes

You stood there in Tara's apartment, Sam eyeing you with a penetrating death glare. You felt like sinking into the floor right there and then. You hated this kind of silence. 

Sam broke the quietness, her gaze stern, "Y/N, this isn't going to work out between you and Tara." She states, crossing her legs as she sighs, "All of it just adds up."

You shake your head, but before you can retaliate, Sam speaks again.

"You know it too. You started dating my sister two weeks prior before the first ghostface attack. The police found your necklace right next to the victim, covered in blood. I can't trust you and have you near my sister. All of us," she states, twirling her finger in a circle, "Are in danger and I can't let my baby sister get hurt again. None of us trust you, not Mindy, not Chad, and definitely not me. You are going to stay away from her, no more coming over or seeing each other at school. Do I make myself clear?"

"You believe a piece of evidence that barely proves anything? They didn't even find my DNA anywhere!"

"Gloves."

You felt rage crawling its way out, you couldn't believe your girlfriend's sister would think you're the killer. Sam knows all too well how much Tara loves you. "You know I wouldn't hurt you! Least of all Tara! I love her with my whole heart and I would never even think of that! I-I don't know how my necklace got there, someone framed me!" You turned to Tara, blinking away tears that stung your eyes, "Tar.. You believe me right? Please tell her. I didn't do anything! Please don't leave me."

"Please.." you begged. You saw the way her gaze slightly cracked, you knew she didn't believe you. You could feel it, you wouldn't care for fucks sake if Mindy, Chad, or Sam didn't believe you. But Tara was different. It felt like a swing to the heart, it hurt so much. It felt heavy.

Tara didn't do anything but give you a hurt look, staring down at her fingers. You expect her to throw her arms around you, tell you that they all got it wrong and you can both live happily ever after in the end. Yet she doesn't.

"I'm sorry Y/N," she forces her shattered voice in her normal tone, swallowing a cry clawing to come out, "I don't trust you anymore, I don't love you. I-I never did. I just.. Don't think you should visit anymore. We're done."

You felt like your whole heart shattered at that moment as you heard her last two words. You looked at her as you sobbed in your hands. Hurt, mournful, betrayed.

All that Tara said was, "You need to get out please," her eyes pink and glossy.

"You don't understand Tara, please I'm begging you-"

"Y/N, I'm not going to say it twi- It's n-not me Tara!" you say, this point a small cry escaping you. The way Tara looks at you is wild.

Your girlfriend's voice raised, with a fury, she wasn't going to say it again, "Get the hell out! Do you need me to say i-it twice? I don't fucking love you! I don't want to see your face again!"

You flinched, you never felt more heartbroken in your life. Your heart hurt, it felt like someone had smashed it with a hammer. Tears that threatened to fall down were now dropping on the floor. All the moments you've spent together were now thrown away, stomped on. You felt your body shaking as you toss the flowers, leaving them to fall on the floor with a thud. 

You simply nod, slowly.

"Fine." You say, more flat than ever, turning to leave as you feel the petals get stepped on by your shoe. 

All you wanted was to brighten your girlfriend's day, entering with flowers in your hand and just wanting to cuddle her all day long. Yet, here you are, your girlfriend now turning into you ex, flowers dead, no cuddles, no more trust.

Tara felt horrible, the guilt eating her alive. All of her words were lies, she just knew that if you were to separate from her, she would keep you safe. You wouldn't be the target for ghostface if he thought you were just a normal person in Woodsboro. You would be safe. She tried to assure herself that as you slammed the door. 

Her eyes met the squished flower that escaped from the bouquet on the floor and she wondered if she'd ever get flowers from you again after everything.

-

You stared at the picture frame placed on the counter of you and Tara together hugging with matching clothes, you choked on your sobs. Tara nor your friend group had chatted with you since then. Sam had blocked you on social media. At least your other friends had came along and checked up on you to make sure you were okay. Tara had sent a few messages, saying she was sorry that things had ended up like this, but to realize you blocked her.

You couldn't function properly, your eyes were dry with the amount of tears you released in the past week.

It's not your fault, you tried to assure yourself. You weren't ghostface. You can't believe the person you trusted most didn't even put her trust in you.

Maybe it all is your fault. Maybe if you were different, in personality, how much the core 4 really liked you, you wouldn't be here, crying like those teens in the movies that just feast on a gallon of ice cream. It makes you cry a little harder while you hug your teddy bear.

Especially the taunting memory of Tara screaming at you, tears blurring your vision as you stumbled back out of her apartment. Sam's eyes softening just a little bit, not meaning for this to happen. Yet you didn't even try looking into her eyes, too caught up with your own feelings to feel her sorrow.

The past few days, you've locked yourself up, abandoned school. Ignored the core 4, blocked Tara and the other three.

Your mind wandered, you were clouded in your own thoughts as you sobbed angry and hurtful tears. You cried to the point where tears stopped falling, and you were left with feeling nothing and your body feeling sore. Your breathing was still heavy, you let out heavy shaky breaths, but they started to cool down.

You closed your eyes, focusing on your breathing, until you heard your phone buzz from the ground. You picked it up, there was a message.

A part of you expected your friends to check up on you, since that's what they've been doing every since you've stopped going to school. Instead, you were met with a picture from unknown of the abandoned movie theater not too far from here. There, you saw the camera facing a knife pointing towards Tara and Sam, threatening, daring. 

Your eyes widened, as you immediately take your keys and bust out the door, grabbing a small knife, maybe you'll need it, unblocking Tara and calling her and all of those you knew must be in there. They're in danger.

Each call leads to voicemail, from both Tara and Sam, you search up their location. The only one shared for you is Tara's. You almost smash it to the front of your phone holder, locating where they are at.

As much as you hurt, you knew that you would never heal knowing that someone you loved was at risk. The car engine roars to life as you head for the theater.

With each texts and call ignored, you get paranoid, worried sick. Stepping on the accelerator of the car, your car turns a corner and is out of sight.

"She fell for it, she's coming your way," a taunting voice rasps into their phone, Ghostface.

"Our plan is just setting into action."

-

Carefully, you slip into the door of the run down theater. You hear clatters, and immediately you freeze, hiding a corner and peeking out. Tara's scream echoes through the theater, your eyes widen and you look around, for something sharp. 

This is a stupid shrine committed to ghostface, you realize. It makes it a little better, at least you're guaranteed a knife to defend and fight with?

You sweep a corner, the room your in is silent, and you creek down the floor board, being greeted with glass display cases.

You're not good with blood, yet there's evidence from ghostface's mark years ago. TV's, a knife laced in the red crimson color. A gag almost leaves your lips, yet you open the display case and your hands grasp around  a cool metal. It's a knife alright, not too sharp if you were to drop it you wouldn't cut your whole toe off. Yet it's do-able. 

"Tara?" your voice echoes, walking around and exploring, you're frantic. You keep hearing her voice mail ring through your ears and your worry increases.

You thought the room you were in was obsessive with ghostface, yet when you go into the middle of this shrine, it's filled with obsessive things. Masks, robes, knives, even the TV that Stu Macher was killed by. A shiver escapes you.

You look up, and you see the chaos going, glass shattered on the floor, action buzzing around. You see Tara.

"Tara!" You shout, trying to keep your voice low, your eyes meeting the ladder that goes up, you climb on it, grunting in effort. You climb, climb, climb, climb, until you reach the top.

Tara is with Sam, they're talking about their plan, they're a couple hundred feet away from you. The sister's clothes are smothered in blood, Sam's arm has a wound, and you feel sick seeing the blood seeping from your girlfriend's clothes. 

Your about to say her name, until you see a shadow emerge. It's not any that you know, this one is dark, tall, more man-like. 

It's not until you see the tilt of their head the sliver of light reflecting off their mask. Ghost face. 

You don't know what gotten into you from the adrenaline from the moment, but your legs begin to run, move, nothing sounds more fitting than slow motion. His knife lifts from his chest, the sharp metal edge glistening.

You try to scream, the words bubble up in your throat, comes out in a dry cough.

Your legs feel like jelly, run faster, damnit. 

They can't see him, he's behind them, tucked just 2 feet away in a corner, yet you see him. You can save Tara and her older sister, you can save the both of them, you have time. 

You can save the both of them, your love outplays your brain. It's telling you to stop, you're going to get killed. But your heart overwhelms it, beating quicker, with each beat all you can hear is 

Tara

Tara

Tara

Save

Her!

Tara

You

Have

Time.

The knife ghostface is holding gets brought down.

"Tara!" You finally scream, it comes out as a desperate cry as you lunge towards her. Her eyes turn from the setting below her to you, confusion, then shock as your hands shove her shoulders. The strength you built up finally goes to use, pushing her out of harms way, she shoves into Sam, as they both stumble back. 

You hear them both say your name, confusion at first, before the second time they holler it out. It's a scream, yet it dies down in your ears, feeling the cool metal of the blade slam into your shoulder. The ring from Tara's screams fade, replaced with the blood pulsing in your ears. The pain, the sharp knife sinking into the flesh of your shoulder. All you can do is let out a soft cry, too tired to scream. 

Your eyes water, looking up at ghostface, the ugly mask boring into your eyes. He tilts his head, shocked for a moment. Until he tilts his head back again, like the target he hit is even better than what he wanted. They didn't expect you so soon.

The knife tears out from your flesh, a sob leaves your throat, kicking and flaring your arms. 

"Y/N!" Tara screams your name, this one you can hear. She's crying, sobbing, wailing. Begging for her older sister to let her go and save you. 

Sam shushes her, all they can do is watch. All Tara can do is watch you suffer.

His knife slams into you again, your abdomen. You hear a disgusting squelch as it goes in. The pain is unbearable, this stab hurts even more than anything you can think about. You thought the 4 foot thorn going through your foot was bad. You cry, grabbing the knife that's tucked into your pocket and slam it against the black coat, right where the neck meets the shoulder.

A raspy whisper escapes your lips, "F-fuck you." You snarl.

You barely hear him grunt. Yet he doesn't back down, in fact, you hear the disgusting squelch again.

And again.

And again.

The pain lessens. You know why. You're dying.

You can't hear it anymore, but there are now several stabs on your abdomen. You collapse, blood seeping through your clothes, your hands, your face. It's warm, dark red, spreading. It oozes out of your wounds, and the squelching sounds are gone. Your eyes flutter, seeing the flurry of the white masked figure leaving you to rot. Your body collapses to the floor with a loud crash.

You saved Tara, you would die before he could ever kill her. Before she could ever die. If Tara died, you'd kill yourself, or you'd die quicker from a broken heart. 

Sam's yelling, kicking ghostface as he lets go of you, you can barely see her bringing him down to the bottom floor, both of them collapsing off the second story.

Your eyes begin to close, your breath comes in short heaves and wheezes.

And then, you see her, barely, through your weak vision.

It's blurry at first, but you know it's Tara, who else would look so good with blood all over her face?

She presses her body down to you, her warmth barely seeping through, your body is colder. Those warm, soft eyes are wide, looking so scared, hands pressing down deeper to your stomach, trying to stop the bleeding.

"Fuck, no. Nononono.. Why the hell would you do that?" She yells at you, shaking your body, you whimper.

You barely respond, croak her name out, cough out blood.

She's crying, you realize, she's choking on sobs as she cradles you, lifting your body up to her chest. She smells like your favorite scent, sweet.. light.. vanilla.. So lovely.

You just want to be in her arms forever. Let her sweetness soothe the pain.

"Y/N," she sobs, seeing the way you're struggling to stay conscious, you're only holding on because she's there. She can tell the way your eyes are slowly glassing over, your vision is twitching, blurring, un-focusing. 

Don't cry, you want to tell her, even though you know you're here, dying in your girlfriend's arms. But you're too weak to speak, instead, let a slurred murmur leave you. Her hand is clinging to yours, like if she were to let go you would immediately fall away.

"It's okay baby," Tara sniffs, clinging to you. Like if she lets go you'll shatter, "I'm here, help will come soon. Stay with me. Eyes on me baby."

You look at her, your girlfriend, being in her arms. She has a small wound, around her arm to her shoulder, yet it's barely bleeding. Being here, in her arms. It's your favorite thing ever, you've done it so many times to feel her warmth. You never thought you would not be in Tara's arms at night with you buried against her.

Yet you know it's your last time you'll be in them. You can barely feel the warmth she's trying to transfer to you, you're freezing. She senses it too, the way she's hugging you tighter. Pleading you to stay here, with her. The brunette squeezes your hand, distracts you from the pain that's already leaving. Along with your pulse. 

"I'm so fucking sorry," she sobs, "I love you so much, you don't fucking understand," she wails. Pulls you closer to her, "I should have never left you, you mean the world to me, I never meant what I said. I t-thought I could protect you if ghostface knew that you were no longer in our circle."

You wheeze, your eyes never looking away from hers. She notices, how you're studying her, like the moment you don't, you'll forget how she looks like in heaven. 

Freckles, doe-shaped crying eyes. You lift her hand to your chest, let her feel your heart, to let her know that your giving her your heart, your love. You don't want her to forget about you. 

You don't want to die.

Yet if you don't want her to die, you'll die before she could ever. 

Tara's still sobbing, ripping her shirt and tying it against your stomach, the blood seeps through, she tightens it. Looks worriedly down at you. 

Ugly shapes of swiggles and dots cloud, you see random shapes flying. Try to focus on Tara.

Sirens ring in the distance, Tara looks back, yet immediately looks back at you. A tear falls from her stained mascara cheeks, down your shirt. Weakly, you bring it up and wipe her cheeks. Assure her it'll be okay. Yet she knows it's not. They're just too fucking late.

You saved her. That's all that matters now.

"It's all my fault, I'm so sorry my love. I never meant to hurt you. I never thought it would end so soon. I don't want you to die."

You swallow, blood slightly gurgles through your throat, use your dying strength to speak, "I'm h-here." You croak, "T-tara."

"I love you so much," you slur, hiccupping on a cry. Trace the matching necklace she gifted the two of you years past on her neck. You're wearing it too.  Hers was silver, yours was gold. A silver and golden dove.

The blood loss is too much, you can barely speak. But she's here with you, in your last moments. You're able to have a goodbye you might not have had. She might not be ready, but you almost are.

Time wasn't in your favor. It really wasn't. 

This isn't goodbye this is a simply see you later.

She's okay, knowing that makes you feel a little more okay. A little more okay and soothe the worries.

Tara plays with your necklace. A proper goodbye. Her eyes glisten with tears, and she leans down, presses her lips to yours. You kiss her, knowing it'll be the one you'll live to feel. Then you slump back down on the concrete. You don't care about anyone but her anymore. Sirens holler, people bust into the theater, and you look up at her, taking off her necklace and putting it into the palm of her hand.

"I w-want you to promise me one thing."

She sniffles, tears wont stop anytime soon, keeps tying cloth around your deep wounds. It's no use. She nods, "Y-yeah?"

"Promise me y-you won't forget me. E-even when you find someone you love, maybe even more than me. You won't t-throw.." You pause, coughing, "T-throw our memories away.  Promise me that. That when your h-hands hold theirs, you realize that mine was once warmer. When you're by yourself on F-Friday nights, you'll remember that you used to come to mine and cuddle m-me." You hiccup, losing your train of thought, blinking, your words are barely audible, yet Tara can still make them out.

"...When you look at the stars on the grassy meadow, you'll remember that that's the spot we always w-went to to get our thoughts out of things," you barely giggle, it hurts your stomach. "A-and, when you look at all my pictures, or maybe one day I won't pass your mind for once, you'll be ready to let me go. The thought of me still being here. Y-you'll be able to love, even though I might still scar your heart."

She sniffles, seeing the way you begin to struggle on your words, they grow quieter.

"But I won't let that happen, I don't want your h-heart t-to scar," You place her hand on your chest again, "You can have mine."

Tara swallows her tears, still, they drop.

"I love you, Y/N," she sniffles, it's the same word from every other time you both said you loved each other. Yet this time, it's so fucking different. It's the last time you'll ever hear her say it to you while you're still hear. "I'll never love anyone more than I loved you."

"I love you too, Tara," you whisper. It's the last time she'll ever hear it from you. A small, weak smile cracks on your face as she leans down one more time, kisses you softly, taking the last breath from your lips.

And it's time to go. Your chest stills.

And for the last time, she hears your heart beat one more time.

A heart that once beat for her was gone.

[euclydya]

once again am considering just buying a new tablet

[mintchocfringe]

10 Biases

Hi hello there I've been tagged by my good pal @pepperminthiya to talk about 10 biases, so enjoy me ranting about my faves because I never do that..... anyway onto the love 😎 I’ve been putting off finishing this bc I lowkey expose myself but sure here we are......

1) Taehyung - BTS

One of my ultimate baes, I really do adore him a lot. He’s so positive, friendly, and bubbly, big lov. I need a minute to talk about his vocal range, because fam it’s very impressive (i’m a music person, i’m in the know) and he has this beautiful, rich voice and I just *clutches heart* love it. I need to talk about stage presence because onstage tae and off stage are different people I swear (esp during Blood Sweat and Tears, that stage where he had the fake scars on his back omllllllllll) and he’s so charismatic!! Big love. Also, he’s adorable! Oh my god so soft and fluffy which makes my heart go w h o o s h, but will also!!! come for my life !!! (y’all saw the dispatch photos I was unable to cope).

2) Hoseok - BTS 

Okay listen. I have been bias wrecked by j-hope for so long that i’m just lying to myself if I don’t bias him at this point. I've been biased the whole time and just never said so.....I really do love him with all my heart, he’s so full of life and energetic, is always picking people up when they’re down and just a genuine good person. Hope World really shook me to my core, the lyrics and everything about it really reached out to me but I loved him so much even beforehand. He’s so talented in so many ways and is super charismatic as well, big big love. Also there’s something about the tonality of his voice as well??? I don’t know how to properly describe it but the whole kinda baritone/raspy thing he has going on ??? oof

3) Irene - Red Velvet

Right okay so I just a minute because i’m so incredibly snatched by Irene, I mean her surname is Bae!!! Meant to be. I love her because aside from being incredibly stunning (how is one person allowed to be that gorgeous omg) she’s so dorky and cute too? Like in her own kind of quieter way but she can be vvv serious, Mama Irene the Ironing Cooking Queen but also silly and funny too. Of late she has been so down for raising up women which I am all about! I only stan intellectuals after all!

4) JiU - Dreamcatcher

 This girl, let me tell you. She may the “fake maknae” type, but she is a powerful woman. Can rock literally every hair colour without trying, can be good at any concept without even trying and she just amazes me. She’s so dorky and weird omg???? Like talks about such weird things and behaves like a toddler on a sugar high but is also a slaying queen??? I am unable to cope, I love her so much. Her vocals are kind of honey-like and really sweet which just makes me ;_; Also she loves the colour pink more than life itself and it’s so cute asjakls

5) Jun - Seventeen

OOoooooooooookay. Where to begin with the vampire meme prince of China??? (I won’t stop talking about his vampire web drama you can’t make me mom). I’m so affected by his presence it’s embarrassing. He’s too powerful and actually damages my general stability in life. So powerful that I abandoned Hoshi for him...(I was always biased though, I was out there watching his web drama calling myself a hoshi stan dasjdalkjds). He embodies “duality of man” so much I get whiplash from him smh... Can be so present on stage and such a character but is a soft baby too??? He makes his little puns (lest we forget ajun nice) and cares for the other members so much and is really really soft. Can be the cutest patoot in the whole world but also the most dangerous man ??? in the space of 00000.2 seconds ?? idk man i’m never okay when he’s out there being himself...

6) Youngjae - GOT7

*inhales* hoooooooooo well. I have lots and lots and lots of love for JYP’s resident otter. He just embodies a ray of sunshine and is so bright and bubbly and his laugh adds 2 years to my life!! Although I really love his more expressive side too when he releases his emo songs at 3am and remember it got leaked that he has tattoos????? oh my god. I could go on forever about my love for him because in all honesty he’s very close (if not basically) my ideal type. I’ve talked with some of my close friends about this and we’re vvv similar so idk that makes me all gooey and cringey to think about it ((cringe culture can fight me)) but yeah. I think that says everything I need to say tbh...

7) Dahyun - Twice

There is just something in the water at JYP because I adore Dahyun with every fibre of my being. A soft memey bean who had so much love to give but is so loved too which makes me so happy <3 I’m calling it now but she’s gonna be a hecking good mc on something one day, something funny like weekly idol (or whatever the new version will be.. rip honestly) where her true Comedic Queen self can shine! She makes some hella good jokes and never fails to make everyone laugh when she’s on a variety show etc. Her personality is so likeable and she’s just so friendly!!! ((this seems to be a theme... hmm)) 

8) Kihyun - Monsta x 

mmmmmmmMMMMMMMMMM oh my goodness gracious i’m so affected by kihyun it’s horrific. ((not as much as jun but close)). I always seem to be stanning these “duality” types whereby they’re so soft and fluffy one minute but attacc my whole life the next. Kihyun is such a dangerous man on stage, and is so stunning like his visuals are no joke but is also a soft bean??? Kihyun just kills me, like his vocals are A+++ and any high/ power note sends me to the grave. He’s also too savage for me, which isn’t my usual type but a lot of the time it’s really funny... oops.... 

9) Nayoung - Pristin/ IOI

Idk man there’s something about Nayoung that just gets to me? She was known as “stone nayoung” during pd101 for being so serious/ shy and I understand bc I’m too serious sometimes too lmao but she’s also really sweet! She will protecc pristin with her life and makes such weird jokes as well lmao. She too is super powerful, rapping her way into my heart. A queen

10) Doyoung/Jaehyun - NCT

Okay i’m cheating a little bit here BUT they are both in NCT but anyways... I love them a looooooooot, doyoung is such a bean but will fite u for not picking up your socks off the floor. He’s such a little fluff but will come for my life ((Esp 7th sense hooo that was a time) and he’s such a good mc! Vroom Vroom Talk Show paid off :D ((fight me it was fantastic))

But then there’s jeff. He’s such a meme ((which i’m too weak for save me)), but also such a bean?? The cutest fluff but needs milk but will also fuck me up ?? I can’t handle how fast his personality changes between on stage/off stage/ general existence.... He’s so adorable but really fucks with my sanity sometimes and I h9 him but will fite anyone to protect him. Idk what to tell you fam I just love jeff too much.

Hooooo that was a journey but here we are! Also, this isn’t in any particular order because I have so much love to give, and wish I could include more biases but you can just keep an eye on my posts for that :P 

Tagging: @apassionthatisdead @beingtaessoulmate @kittog @merci-beau-kook @todoroki-bean @hopeless-namjin 

Enjoy!

[abiistudies]

Hi! I'd like a blog rate, I don't have any Original Content yet. ^-^ but I will soon. Umm I guess a song I'm really vibing on is Come Back Home by BTS? The "Love Yourself" Videos are driving my insaannne help !!! I love your blog its so cute!

hiya!!!! by now youve got an original post aha (sorry i took so long!) come back home is honestly such a bop???? and im sooo hyped for the comeback ahhh, tho not quite as much as i was for previous comebacks :/ and ahdhaidkd thank you so much :))))

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icon: nice | super cute! | wowzer!! | I Will Pay You To Give It To Me (purple haired tae was iconic)

theme (for both mobile and desktop): nicebut default | pretty! | this is so gorgeous!! | give me it???

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overall: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 | cannot be expressed innumbers

following: no, but you’re still awesome | i am now | already stanningtalent | i lov u

additional comments: firstly i love your name omg??? its so cool??? it makes your url sound awesome too! also your icon is just?? wow?? your desktop theme is default still but i love the colour scheme, pink is such a pretty colour :) and your header image ahhhh so cute (that photo of jimin is adorable!) i also think its great how your first original post was an advice post and it was really good!! sometimes its the most simple things we need reminding of tbh! i look forward to seeing more of your posts in future :)))

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[fuckedupriot]

I was tagged by @espbelle !!! thank you!!!

rules: answer these questions, and tag 20 followers that you would like to get to know better

name: Megan or Riot

nickname: beep beep (it’s a work thing, my rewards name at the store used to say my name really messed up where it said meganmegan *my last name* and every time I bought stuff which was literally every day my coworkers would just go “MEGANMEGANMEGANMEGANMEGAN” so I changed it to beep beep so they’d just say beep beep instead and it stuck and people genuinely will forget my real name for a moment bc they just always call me beep beep.)

zodiac sign: cancer

hogwarts house: honestly idk maybe I should figure that out bc harry potter is my friends fave thing ever

height: uhhh like 5'4 but I got these awesome platform boots that I lov!!!! they’re 4 inches high & have bat wings you can add to them!!! tbh I love all shoes with platforms and honestly this quote comes to mind: “why is the dog on the counter?” “he likes to be tall.”

sexual orientation: SENSITIVE MEDIA


ethnicity: caucasian


favourite fruit: hmmm probably blueberries (….KNEES FEELIN JUST FINE YEA)

favourite season: I like summer bc of all the fun stuff that happens like concerts & other cool events but I also like fall bc halloween & the weather is nice and honestly sitting around in a big comfy sweater on a fall day is awesome

favourite book series: I have no idea omg I haven’t read many of them….

favourite fictional character: Uhhh so I also haven’t seen many movies or shows but maybe Alice from resident evil?? that’s the only character I can think of… or maybe steven universe but I’m not caught up on that series at all.

favourite flower: roses or snapdragons idk much abt flowrs

favourite scents: uhh I tried to list some specifics but I can’t think of anything right now, probably lots of fruity scents & also minty stuff

favourite color: red, black, grey, white!!! I completely redid my room with all my stuff those colors! I’m thinking of doing my hair red again but also I’m thinking purple or yellow/pink or pink/orange or purple/red okay maybe I have no clue what I’m doing with it I gotta hold off until I know lmao

favorite animal: cats, sloths, alpacas!!!!

favorite artist/band: hippo campus!!!!!


coffee, tea or hot chocolate?: hot chocolate!!!


average # of hours of sleep: honestly I just do whatever pals


number of blankets: 1-3 currently but that’s only bc I don’t know where my other 4 blankets I used to use are

dream trip: honestly my idea of a vacation is like “hey I went out of town for the day!!!” so like literally anywhere I’m not sure of any specifics but I guess maybe it counts that I wanna see hippo campus at a hometown show??? (someone come pick me up and bring me……..please I’m 100% serious)


last thing i googled: I was looking up “public the band” bc I want to buy public’s new album and a bracelet on friday!!

blog created: back in late January or something but I didn’t start using it until the middle of February (after I saw hippo campus)

how many blogs do i follow: uhhhhhhhh I’m not Goin to look at the actual number but last I checked it was around 1,700???????? nobody judge me please lmao

(edited to include it's actually 2000ish blogs. you can judge me now)


number of followers: uhhhhhhhh this blog has like 530 now omg… ily all. I gotta do somethin for that!!! I’ll see if I can pick up another copy of landmark when I’m in duluth to give that away! (hey I’ve already got the halocline eps to give wooo!!!) Honestly I’ve wanted to do that for literally ages (since like 60 followers……….) so I gotta get Goin on that… Should be pretty soon now though.

what i usually post about: hippo campus!!! but also oops I keep forgetting/being too lazy to add stuff to my queue….. I gotta do that soon bc its empty

do i get asks regularly: hmmm occasionally I’ll get some!!

Uhhh idk who to tag omg..

[thelillykane]

ok! would u rather get bitten by a spider or a snake, hold a snake or have a cat scratch ur face, jump from a balcony or from a cliff, umm get stranded in the desert or the snow. have u ever come close 2 drowning, have u ever cried in front of a teacher, stolen something, been arrested AND top 3 ice cream flavours, top 3 movies, top 3 characters, top 3 lilly looks, top 3 lilly moments, top 3 vegetables !!!

would you rather: 

i am not kidding if a spider comes near me that’s it you might as well kill my ass i’ll take the snake bite any day

wait but i love snakes & cats ummm probably hold a snake just bc my cats scratch me everywhere always

omg heights are so scary uhhh from a cliff bc that sounds more fatal than jumping off a balcony 

have you ever: 

yes i had a super near death drowning experience when i was like 4-6 idr the exact age. i wasn’t (and am not) a good swimmer and i was holding onto the edge of the pool and my hand slipped off and i can remember just kind of sinking to the bottom of the pool and i’m fairly certain i blacked out because i don’t remember being saved or whatever but some guy who was at the family gathering noticed i was missing from the pool and jumped in to get me out. 

crying in front of teachers is my middle name!!! i’ve cried in front of all my teachers bc when ur girl is gonna cry she’s gonna cry i don’t give a fuck if ppl watch me usually it makes them more uncomfortable than it does me. but honestly yes i think there’s only like…ten or less maybe i haven’t cried in front of and mostly that’s just bc college makes me cry less in public so my profs have lucked out 

okay of course i’ve stolen stuff but i haven’t like? recently iirc and i’ve never stolen big stuff bc i usually don’t care that much 

i’ve never been arrested thank god #whiteprivilege (but also i hardly ever leave the house so good luck) ((also i don’t really commit crimes…ok that’s a lie but i commit small “crimes”)) 

top threes: 

ice cream flavors~

coffee!! 

chocolate & peanut butter 

oh man maybe cookies n cream? 

movies~ 

the matrix 

clueless

the breakfast club 

characters~ 

buffy summers!!!

the fishers from six feet under (specifically david, nate, & claire)

logan echolls!!! i would die for him 

ok this is four but not mentioning lilly kane or brooke davis feels like a lie 

lilly kane moments~ 

in wrath of con – the BEST veronica mars episode – when she’s going through veronica’s closet and they’re talking about the homecoming dance and she gets so animated and lively and tells veronica she’s red satin and goes “why do you even have this” when she sees veronica’s ugly yellow cotton dress and says stuff like “why do you insist on suppressing your hotness the world is ready for you veronica mars” and then she makes sure veronica knows they aren’t going to the dance bc hello dorkus limo party with your best friends!!! and then she flops on veronica’s bed and bounces a little listen that whole scene i can see it frame by frame in my head i love her 

DUH her like opening scene with “i have a secret a good one” and she’s washing the car and doing this little dance and swaying her hips and she’s fucking living!!! thriving!!! having the time of her life!!! and veronica goes, “god lilly i see the prozac’s working” and lilly immediately says “high on life, veronica mars” and i loV E HER 

ok in return of the kane and the scene is her and logan and veronica and her and logan are like holding hands and talking really softly and they are IN LOVE and veronica is sitting on the ground drawing on lilly’s shoes and lilly’s impatient and she wants to see the drawing and know when she gets to draw on veronica’s shoes and meanwhile veronica has drawn duncan’s name every where with hearts and logan & lilly are HORRIFIED and lilly just goes “okay that’s a little creepy don’t you think?” and again i love her!!! would die for her!!!! (also this which i posted on here in 2013 and 100% stand by)

top 3 vegetables~ 

bell peppers saved my life 

broccoli!!! 

umMM okay maybe corn? probably corn 

i like a lot of others too but mostly bell peppers & broccoli

oh and lettuce i fucked up 

TOP 3 LILLY KANE LOOKS: 

1. 1x01 “pilot” 

look at her she’s so alive and radiant and she looks so good the fuck and logan’s hnd??? i fucking 

2. 1x04 “Wrath of Con” 

LOOK AT HER I WOULD DIE FOR HER i wish this picture was brighter but that dress!!! please!! (it looks best with her hair in the ponytail or down completely which is why i didn’t put the brighter pic here of her in this w/ the bun) also yeah i cropped duncan out of this 10/10 would do that again 

3. 1x13 “Lord of the Bling” 

GOD THIS WHOLE LOOK SHE LOOKS SO GOOD SHE’S ROCKING THE JEANS AND THE SOFT PINK SHIRT AND THE PIGTAILS 

first image she’s making total heart eyes at logan 

second pic she is plotting the MURDER of the girl he’s checking out (yolanda) 

third pic she’s back to the hearts and!!!! veronica is making them on a smaller scale at logan too and logan is smiling so much it HURTS ME 

in the fourth he kisses her on the cheek???? what tje fuck 

and the fifth he’s watching her as he walks away and him and veronica are standing real close together and veronica still looks so happy i could spit 

[02choi]

I was tagged by @cakekiss  (thank you aaaaa💗)

THE LAST: 
1. drink: choccy milk fam eYYYY 
2. phone call: my mum probably?? idk i hate talking on the phone 
3. text message: @rwbyrwby probably 
4. song you listened to: limitless by nct 127 eyy gotta represent the Bois 
5. time you cried: last night phh 
6. dated someone twice: y e  s  
7. kissed someone and regretted it: y  e s 
8. been cheated on: lmao ofc  
9. lost someone special: not yet; 
10. been depressed: ofc i have my depression is the only thing to me 
11. gotten drunk and thrown up: i hate alcohol ew no

LIST 3 FAVOURITE COLOURS: light pink, black and light blueee

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU: 
15. made new friends: maybe??  
16. fallen out of love: nopeeee 
17. laughed until you cried: lmao once  
18. found out someone was talking about you: noooo 
19. met someone who changed you: not really  
20. found out who your friends are: probably not tbh  
21. kissed someone on your Facebook list: nAAAh

GENERAL: 
22. how many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: like all of them apart from a few 
23. do you have any pets: nope:(( 
24. do you want to change your name: i kinda like mine i guess not really 
25. what did you do for your last birthday: lmao absolutely nothing 
26. what time did you wake up: like 8  
27. what were you doing at midnight last night: sleeping eYY 
28. name something you can’t wait for: my prom is in a few days???? thats a good thing right 
29. when was the last time you saw your mom: yesterday at like 10 
30. what is one thing you wish you could change in your life: my eyesight man i hate having glasses  
31. what are you listening to right now: crayon by g-dragon omfggg 
32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: yes?? this question is so random im sc reaming 
33. something that is getting on your nerves: i opened my chocolate bar weirdly so i cant eat it without melted chocolate all over my fingers fuck 
34. most visited website: tumblr probs 
35-37. lost questions?? 
 
38. hair colour: brown but it’s going to be blue sooooon 
39. long or short hair: well my hair isnt short and it isnt long?? medium? why wasnt medium an option tf  
40. do you have a crush on someone: not really 
41. what do you like about yourself: um;; fuck pass this question 
42. piercings: my ears 
43. blood type: idk?? who tf knows this stuff 
44. nickname: i dont have one rip  
45. relationship status: single 
46. zodiac: aries 
47. pronouns: she/her 
48. favourite tv show: i really like izombie thats a good one, and orange is the new black thas also Good 
49. tattoos: none  
50. right or left handed: right 
51. surgery: unless getting my knee sewn up counts, no 
52. piercing: my ears tf these questions are wild 
53. sport: lmao not since i left secondary school 
55. vacation: like last year i hated it  
56. pair of trainers: im guessing this is your favourite trainers? idk i only own one pair 

MORE GENERAL 
57. eating: chocolate fam i ate too much and i feel sick fuck 
58. drinking: nothingg 
59. i’m about to: i dk i dont plan that far ahead 
61. waiting for: my chEESE SQUISHY TO COME IN THE MAIL  
62. want: a drink now that i ate too much fuckin hell  
63. get married: lmao lets hope  
64. career: something to do with computers or a business maybe??  
65. hugs or kisses: both actually 
66. lips or eyes: eyessss  
67. shorter or taller: taller !!!!! i love a t0l man and concideriing in 5′6 that wont be too hard 
68. older or younger: older om Fg 
70. nice arms or nice stomach: i dont mind 
71. sensitive or loud: as long as he’s not one of those loud twats u get, i dont mind  
72. hook up or relationship: relationship omg 
73. troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant tbh i hate twats

HAVE YOU EVER:
74. kissed a stranger: no ew 
75. drank hard liquor: no 
76. lost glasses/contact lenses: no 
77. turned someone down: there was these really ewwy guys on instagram once i turned like 4 of them down 
78. sex on the first date: no thanks 
79. broken someone’s heart: lmao probably not 
80. had your heart broken: hasnt everyone 
81. been arrested: no 
82. cried when someone died: no one i know has died yet but i probably will cry 
83. fallen for a friend: n0pe

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
 84. yourself: phhh no 
85. miracles: eh i guess 
86. love at first sight: nah 
87. santa claus: nooo 
88. kiss on the first date: yeee thats fine 
89. angels: idk i havent really had any experiences to sway my judgement lmao

OTHER: 
90. current best friend’s name: i dont have one rIP 
91. eye colour: brown 
92. favourite movie: dont have oneee

I tag: @rwbyrwby bc i know u lov these i really need to get more mutuals fucin ghell

[starchasms]

Tagged by @mostrecentfantasy​! Thank youuuuu!

Rules: Answer these 85 statements about yourself, then tag 20 people.

Last…

1. Drink - water bc im a hEALTH GOD

2. Phone call - my gf bc im gay

3. Text message - “Omg babe”

4. Song you listened to - UHHHHHM, BAD BOY BY RED VELVET BC ITS A BOP

5. Time you cried - Lmao prob like yesterday bc im a gay cancer

Ever…

6. Dated someone twice? - lmao i just started dating oNCE

7. Kissed someone and regretted it - nope

8. Been cheated on - nope

9. Lost someone special - ye

10. Been depressed - uhhhhh maybe? yeA? prob? who knows? depression wHOMSTVE???

11. Gotten drunk and thrown up - UNFORTUNATELY. i see toilets in a whole new light

Fave colours…

12.) yellow

13.) pastel pink

14.) blue

In the last year have you…

15. Made new friends - hecc ye

16. Fallen out of love - nope

17. Laughed until you cried - heck yes

18. Found out someone was talking about you - yupyup

19. Met someone who changed you - yea but like, doesn’t everyone? u are always changing w every interaction

20. Found out who your friends are - yup! and i always will b bc again, things are always changing and ppl will come and go

21. Kissed someone on your facebook friends list - ya

General…

22. How many of your facebook friends do you know irl - what do u mean by “know” bc like,,,i know of most of them but i dont KNO them well or anything

23. Do you have any pets - UNFORTUNATELY NO

24. Do you want to change your name - nah, but when i was a kid i wanted to change it to fuckin KATHERINE bc i thought it was cool lmao

25. What did you do for your last birthday - i invited all my close friends (from hs and from college) over and it was wild to have my worlds collide but it was fun!! we had food at my place n then went to an arcade n then just had a sleepover

26. What time did you wake up today - I set my alarm for 8:45am but i snoozed until like 9:10am lmao

27. What were you doing at midnight last night - writing my paper but it was honestly the fastest i’ve ever written a paper wow

28. What is something you can’t wait for - SPRING BREAK!!!

30. What are you listening to right now - a documentary in class (lmao i should be paying attention but whatever)

31. Have you ever talked to a person named tom - no??? i kno some ppl named thomas

32. Something that’s getting on your nerves - life,,,the sense of impending doom post-grad

33. Most visited website - honestly prob fb

34. Hair color - black

35. Long or short hair - loooooong

36. Do you have a crush on someone - heh yea

37. What do you like about yourself - i’m unapologetically myself

38. Want any piercings? - nah

39. Blood type - I think its like,,, B smth

40. Nicknames - my gf calls me babe/baby, does that count

41. Relationship status - taken (wow who am i)

42. Zodiac - cancer-leo cusp 

43. Pronouns - she/her, they/them

44. Fave tv shows - unfortunately i dont watch any tv shows

45. Tattoos - NO BUT I WANT FLOWER TATTOOS BUT THEY ARE SO EXPENSIVE

46. Right or left handed - right handed!

47. Ever had surgery - ye

48. Piercings - i got a piercing on each ear lobe from when i was like,,,a couple months old

49. Sport - whOMSTVE?

50. Vacation - umm, yes pls (but also im going on a road trip down to san diego during spring break w my gf so that’s gunna be fun)

51. Trainers - yes i am a pokemon trainer

More General…

52. Eating - my saliva

53. Drinking - my saliva

54. I’m about to watch - im supposed to be watching this documentary in class rn, remember

55. Waiting for - this weekend so i can see my gf again

56. Want - my gf (god i am so gay holy shit)

57. Get married - heh down

58. Career - i wanna continue doing community work and being surrounded by people who are also down to advocate for social justice issues,,,so basically non-profit lmao but i need moneyyy

Which is better…

59. Hugs or kisses - kisses all the wayy

60. Lips or eyes - girl i,,,lose my,,,selfa,,,in those eye eyeye eyeye EYEEESS

61. Shorter or taller - lov all heights

62. Older or younger - doesn’t matter as long as we get along

63. Nice arms or stomach - why does this matter

64. Hookup or relationship - my cancer ass is into relationships ONLY ok

65. Troublemaker or hesitant - v hesitant

Have you ever…

66. Kissed a stranger - yea lmao, my first kiss was at a gay after party/club

67. Drank hard liquor - Ya, go hard or go home amirite

68. Lost glasses - honestly yea

69. Turned someone down - yeaa

70. Sex on first date - uh hell no, i dont even kno u like dat

71. Broken someones heart - prob a lot of cishet dudes yea

72. Had your heart broken - ya

73. Been arrested - no

74. Cried when someone died - yea

75. Fallen for a friend - yea lmao, the gays dont have an option

Do you believe in…

76. Yourself - of course

77. Miracles - yes

78. Love at first sight - nowadays not so much just bc love at first sight is just infatuation,,,ur just interested in them bc of their physical appearance

79. Santa clause - i dont think i ever did

80. Kiss on a first date - yea if its w the right person/at the right time

81. Angels - hmmm, maybe

Other…

82. Best friend’s name - Sarah 

83. Eye color - daaaaaark brown

84. Fave movie - The Handmaiden

85. Fave actor - i dont have one

uhhh im not gonna tag anyone but if u wanna do it u can say i tagged u LOL

[euclydya]

hi i have been very busy between work and figuring out the kid's insurance and apartment bs (i have experience in construction but it's against the terms of my lease to fix plumbing shit myself so my landlord made us have like a week of maintenance guys coming in and out for what i could've fixed in two nights -_-). i hope y'all've been alright though!

today's recommendations: fuck off by jayne county for billy, party til armageddon by jayne county for eddie, we are golden by mika for steve, good guys by mika for will, and pretty in pink by scene queen for chrissy.

Hi!! we have been good yeah!! That sounds sO fucking annoying though Jesus Christ <//3

All of these songs are SO good, pretty in pink especially!! Jayne County's a musician we should listen to more as well omg 👀

Our recs (almost everyone's kinda asleep tho so I'll be, uh. playing messenger I think is the term! -Wilford):

Be Gone - Brand New (Steve's rec)

Highly recommend that you listen to the live version first, if you want to even Possibly understand the lyrics /lighthearted. We've been obsessed with this song recently—all the lyrics on any lyric site is incorrect and that's Weird And Annoying. The only live version available is the one we linked. The lyrics in the studio version are way more chopped up and hard to understand. It's so weird!!! We Lov It Though <3 -Wilford

You're Crashing, But You're No Wave - Fall Out Boy (Eddie's rec)

Neither Eddie nor I can remember if this one's been rec'd before? I don't think so but my memory's horrendous lmao.

Another collective favourite sure, but Eddie easily relates it to hex's source tbh -Wilford

Hazy - Red Vox (Billy's rec)

We've been watching a lotta Vinesauce recently and every now n then remember that Vinny also has a band?? his music is really fuckin good. haven't listened to anything recent of his but Hazy & Ghost Page are tied for bein our top favourite Red Vox songs tbh!!

very fitting for the weather too I think. It gives off a cold n foggy vibe -Billy

Joyriding - Frank Iero (Will's rec)

Another song we don't remember if we've recommended before :/ our memory is. Bad!

But! Chose it for the ending lyric!! We're kinda,, going momentarily dormant but We Will Be Back™. That is a threat! (/lighthearted) -Will

Cheerleader - St. Vincent (Chrissy's rec)

Thematically appropriate, I think :3c -Chrissy

—

and,, Yeah as Will said. They're kinda. Going dormant currently, which brings us to this question: if they aren't gonna be fronting much at all for a while would you still wanna continue sharing songs? It's cool if not we understand, but. Yeah. ahajsjskdj

If so, then. Here's a couple songs from Dark & I:

Do It All The Time - IDKhow (my rec!)

House of Memories - P!ATD (Dark's rec!)

Thank you so much for the songs, your music taste really is good!! :D -Wilford