#also im super excited for my first con!!!!

[hellocloudofshops]

I'm making a series of cryptid prints!!! They're 4x6 glossy prints and will be up in my shop after the next update!

I'm super excited to announce that I'm going to be tabling at my first convention this August so I'm working on expanding my inventory~

Starting strong with Mothman!

[hehosts-moved]

guys im frothing at the mouth rn, i want this pilot to come out so bad

[jo-gakky]

AND WE ARE BACK!!! only here to post some goofy shit- BC I AM GOING TO A CON!! my first ever con, actually! And im in artist ally!! WOOHOO!! so ofc ive made some stuff!! mostly keychains, but also prints and tote bags!! which, here are the designs!!

Prints

tote bags SUPER EXCITED TO SEE THEM FINISHED AND PRODUCED!!1

[ashyslashyy]

i censored my face but believe me my makeup looked fuckinng awesome ANYWAY. ASH COSPLAY COMPLETE!!!!!! AND I GOT FIRST PLACE IN MY CATEGORY IN THE COSPLAY CONTEST!!!!!!!!!!!!! when i went up on stage i did the boomstick bit from army of darkness and a ton of people cheered and said "shop smart, shop s-mart" along with me it was fucking awesome. and then when they called me up there with the other winners i borrowed the microphone and got like the entire crowd to yell "GROOVY!" with me!!! there were also two other ash cosplayers there which was super fun (jacksonville ash & ash wednesday (wednesday addams + ash williams. fun)) and they also entered the cosplay contest so of course i cheered super loud for both of them. all in all super fun con i had such a great time i got so many compliments and pictures taken with/of me it was great. im super excited to wear this again on halloween!!!

[localfanbaselurker]

Watching Voltron:Legendary Defender for the First Time and Recording my Thoughts

S1-2 | S3 | S4 | S5 | you are here! | S7 | S8

<this debrief/review is pretty rant heavy because of how the season personally impacted me, but fret not! i (hopefully) made it to be still enjoyable/fun to read! just a heads up tho!!>

You get to see the “Pre” thoughts before the read more this time! As a treat <3

Pre-S6 Thoughts

->for the most part I think I understand what’s going on with shiro, but I want to really make sure. jussssst in case.

->they gave lance a big focus in season five so hopefully “we” get to see what that’s culminating to. Super excited about that!

->I don’t fw Lotor all that much despite him being the blorbo by proxy (oomf’s fav) but hopefully this season can change that. I’m just beginning to like him (beginning!) and it’s a 400k slowburn melting an ice berg of hate at that. but it’s getting there. soon they’ll hold hands.

->despite my personal enjoyment of allurance, I would be okay with lotura if Lotor got fully redeemed (in the show and in my heart)

-> PLEASE MAKE KEITH COME BACK!! AND WITH HIS MOM!! I’M BEGGING.

->I’ve noticed a sort of pattern where the characters get a specific episode(s) dedicated to them each season (shiro s1, keith s2, keith+allura s3, pidge s4, and lance s5) So hopefully hunk gets his focus episode this season

->I NEED to see what happened after keith found out about krolia

->hopefully more haggar/honerva lore, maybe even lotor lore to redeem him using Tragic Backstory™ points

Post-Season Six

-> what the actual frick.

-> what WAS this season bro.

-> This season had me getting punched,kicked and tortured left and right and up and down and everywhere. the plot twists and dramatic turns and cries and gasps just kept coming

-> this season left me like lance at the climax of a langst fanfic (yk like right b4 they save him and he’s all fucked over)

-> there are lots of things i liked and also SO MUCH i didn’t like this season

-> so pros and cons basically that’s it that’s the “review”

->WE GOT HUNK APPRECIATION!!! HE GOT TO BE THE ENGINEER AND BE SUPER HELPFUL AND ACTUALLY USE ONE OF HIS SKILLS ABDUWBDJSN IM SO HAPPY FOR MY BOY. MY SON. AAAAHHH.

->^LITERALLY LOOK AT HIM!!! HE GOT SOLID CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT TOO!! He reacted much calmer than his s1/2 self would have in a far less stressful situation!!! He grew up!!! HE GREW UPPPP!!

->^He looks like he’s itching to make a gay joke

->why did lance “die” in the first ep?? It was so random and literally served no purpose?? like it was never talked about in the other episodes and was literally just randomly put in the episode’s run time. it had nothing to do with the shield or whatever was going on with Shiro or lotor either

->does it get talked about in the next seasons or?? like it was literally just a throwaway scene

->KEITH AND HIS MOM!!! THEYRE BONDING!!! KEITH MAKES GOOD RELATIONSHIPS!!!!

->the whole “two years” thing is a little difficult to comprehend on all of its layers but I like to think of it positively because that means Keith and krolia got to spend time building upon their relationship and everything that krolia missed, more than just those flashbacks were “memory shared” between them, and keith resolved some of his internal conflicts.

->however it is probably going to make Keith be even more distant with the team because in his mind two years passed while in theirs only like 2-3 months passed from seeing him in person (if you don’t count 5x04 but they barely saw him there) so the relationships that he was building with them have fallen back a little on his part but the others still feel super close to him, so I hope that also gets resolved in s7

-> LANCE IS CUBAN!!! I got super excited you guys don’t understand. maybe you do considering the notes on my post where I said that. But still. I actually squealed so loud when he said it.

-> The mock DnD episode was super fun!! the calm before the storm though I guess

->i looooved the fact that keith came back to the team but that episode pissed me off SOOOOO FREAKING BAD BRO.

->^“we need to attack Lotor when he comes back” OMFGGGGGG NOOOOOOOO THATS literally so STUPID. make a PLAN first you freaking IDIOTS.

->^Literally if they had just played it cool when lotura came back and then told Allura about everything privately THEN stage an intervention/interrogation with Lotor like in Season 5, NONE OF THAT WOULD’VE HAPPENED.

->^but nooooooo we have to be STUPID and ATTACK IMMEDIATELY because PLOT REASONS. istg. don’t get me started this isn’t even the beginning of that rant. I just… *long suffering sigh*

->^and the way they immediately took the altean girl’s word and turned on Lotor? Y’all some fake ass bitches fr didn’t even let the man defend himself. it could’ve been a misunderstanding but okay. damn.

->^WHY ARE YOU INCRIMINATING YOURSELF BRO. OH MY GODDDDDD. every time i told myself that this episode couldn’t get any worse,, it. got. FUCKING. WORSE.

->^low key get the altean girl’s frustration tho because that shit was traumatizing. literally my live reaction right there

-> the only good things that happened that episode were lance calling keith hot and the team meeting krolia. maybe the lotura kiss. (I would’ve enjoyed it more if it wasn’t for the knowledge that they were straight up gonna beat Lotor’s ass when they got inside the castle)

->I guess I have to suffer for the absolute SQUEAL I gave when Kieth went up to the black lion and said “FORM VOLTRON” making them do the thing where they’re divided into 5 frames like a comic

->^that bitch ass clone better be ready to catch these hands. you do NOT say that to my boy.

->I got so excited when keith went all galra! ultimately yeah he did it because he was incredibly stressed but still it was super cool!

-> I was actually a little sad that Lotor didn’t get a real redemption. Like yeah I saw it from a mile away by the way he talked about quintessence and overall attitude but idk,, like him and allura actually seemed in love. even if he was just doing it for the quintessence you could tell he actually ended up genuinely falling in love with her. maybe it’s just me, but i think it would’ve been nice.

-> maybe keith and him could’ve bonded about being half-galra, and keith would finally get some solidarity with someone who knows exactly how he feels? idk it’s just a lot of missed opportunity there.

-> and then they just…kill him off…wow. that was a lot to take in. I had to actually take a moment. I mean it wasn’t even his fault, really. the quintessence got to him just like his parents. it’s actually super tragic now that I think about it. reminds me of family jewels by MARINA.

->I will say though that final battle was absolutely amazing. Beautifully animated and the action was great. I loved getting to see all the lions powers in the quintessence field. And the flaming sword?? that was literally awesome.

-> my hopes of allurance died but i think this is actually a really good step, Allura still felt bad for lotor when she didn’t wanna leave him in the quintessence field because she still loved him and after the conversation she had with the mice it was obvious she doesn’t (and won’t) like lance back, (she could’ve began to in s4/5) and lance seems to accept this as well, (seeing how he handles it when allura confides in him) which would be good for their relationship. so im happy about that 😊

->ngl if they ended it here it could’ve been pretty good, solid ending. Like, leave the rest up to interpretation sort of thing. (Yes I know there are some strings to be tied yet but yk what I mean) The ending was really satisfactory and if they just fixed a couple plot holes it would’ve been the perfect way to end the show tbh. Idk tho I still need to watch the last two seasons so I’ll see if I still keep my opinion then

->lance’s s5 focus didn’t really culminate to all that much, but he got to be taken seriously when he cried about shiro, so there’s that.

-> the clone!shiro vs keith fight was literally beautiful too omg. The emotions were perfectly captured and the flashbacks were just so perfectly timed it was incredible. the way you could just feel exactly everything keith felt as he fought what looked identical to the man who practically raised him was just. wow.

->^literally gorgeous. look at that, man. beautiful.

-> Don’t get me started on “you’re my brother, I love you” because I will start crying immediately

-> So. yeah. This season was a mess. I laughed. I cried (a lot) I got super pissed in the middle. But it was really super enjoyable otherwise. Bittersweet, really.

-> Hopefully Season Seven doesn’t disappoint! I really hope there’s more Keith+Shiro lore. Just. In general all their family lore.

These are thoughts I’ve been compiling for a while. I will continue to post my thoughts on the tag “Laura’s first VLD”

Please Remember that I am just a person with a life and responsibilities and try to be patient about updates.

Thank you 💞

[carofb3]

Going to my first ever con soon so made a few new sillies to sell there super excited since im going to be vending with 2 friends <3

Made 2 keychain design! 1. of Angel dust and 2. of my pet axolotl

AnnnD then some tote bag design! again of my axoltols and then a design of my ocs <3

I also made some stickers but they more boring lol begging they will arrive on time for the con UPS-

[my-castles-crumbling]

dancer anon here

reason for wanting to stay connected to being a girl: i feel good when i present feminine sometimes, I don't know why, while i dont feel like a girl or connected to that at all, i enjoy feeling pretty, and that kinda fuels the "cant not be partially a girl" because i like my feminine attributes (such as my breasts and eyelashes (i really like my eyelashes, they make me feel pretty)) but i tend to like my feminine attributes more when im alone and only /i/ can see myself and think "damn. im pretty today."

ballroom q: i tend to do more follower than leader now but i get to dance with my favorite dance teacher someitmes and shes really nice :D my favorite dance is paso doble (i do more latin ballroom than standard lol, but i do enjoy waltz the most out of standard dances lol (its the first dance i did with leader steps :DD)

correct pronouns: ik that its not really making a big deal to ask, but since im not out to many poeple outside of my friend group. i also dont want to correct my friends because im afraid it will reach someone outside of the group and theyre going to question it because in my school the majority of the students aren't really,,,, allies ig

neopronouns: have considered, didnt fit, so they/them is my go to because it is the one i feel the most comfortable with

confronting my friend: i do sometimes feel like confronting them about it, but its kinda scary because i hate confrontation because of the toxic friend i mentioned, so i dont think im gonna do anything about it (for now maybe?)

trauma: i am 97% sure i dont have any trauma relating to masculine people? however, my memory /is/ actually trash, so i could have just forgotten. the most likely thing that caused the fear would probably be the dance teacher with cold hands, because i hated his classes because they made me feel like dance is an obligation and i have to do everything /correctly/ even though i signed up because i enjoy dance. i also had to dance with him and his hands were cold and i dont like physical touch if im not initiating it (which is kinda why i dont dance with anyone anymore - a combination of physical touch, sweaty hands, and the close proximity. im even scared to dance with the little children i sometimes help dance with, because i dont know if they feel comfortable with physical touch which makes me feel icky)

also its not really something happened to me, its fear of something that /could/ happen (SA, etc)

also i still see that dance teacher around at the studio sometimes. he still scares me, but less? and when i talk to him sometimes, my brain tries to tell me im overexaggerating how much i dislike him, which i may be doing, but he /did/ ruin one of my favorite dances for me, so...

agender label: i do feel comfortable with the agender label, i believe, but ive never really met anyone else using it so i think i ust want to know ppl who also use it

you are also a wonderful human!!!

on another note, i am genuinely in tears thank you, you are so kind <3

Hello again!

So, there's four things I wanna address here:

With the pronouns/friends: Yes, it sounds like it might be a good idea to think more about the pros/cons of this. I still completely think that you deserve the respect of being gendered correctly, but if it's not safe for you to be pushing this,(secrets being shared, an unsupportive space, etc) then it might be a good idea to step back until it is safe to bring it up again. Remember though that you deserve to be supported and loved unconditionally and using your correct pronouns is something that should not be a burden to anyone.

Being agender: Have you considered finding people on here who identify similarly? It could be cool and validating to find a community of people who feel the same way. I know for me it was super exciting to find other nonbinary/genderfluid people.

Being touched: Okay, that makes sense. I definitely get not liking to be touched by people, especially people who give weird sensory input.

Ballroom: Oh, damn Paso Doble? I only know the very basics but it's SO different and cool! Respect <3

Lots of love!

[tunabesimpin]

TUNAS FIRST CON!!!

lolol baby steps people!!! lets gooooo!!!

Con was super fun first day! I got to dress up! but by god i had a panic attack after i entered LMAO- but after i stopped n took a good breather I was able to walk around and enjoy it more!

warning tuna irl cosplay at the end

HERES THE HUAL!

I also got a cool Anya sweatshirt! The lady i bought it from was actually the one who helped me calm down too ToT <3 She complimented my bird bag and chatted with me a bit which helped me gain more confidence and feel better!

Sadly I didn't spot anyone else twist theme, but lots of genshin cosplayers! It was so cool seeing so many different characters! I even saw a Kaveh cosplay with his suitcase and all!! Very cool! And a sweet Barbara cosplayer stopped me and recognized Lilia!!! I was so happy someone knew!!! She was super sweet I wish i asked for a photo together! Then a few others recognized me after that and i wasn't as scared as i was before! Finally I got in line for the autographs but JESUS- I KNEW THE LINE WOULD BE LONG BUT BRO IT MOVED SO SLOW COMPARED TO THER OTHER LINES- I was in heels and my feet started aching so i left ;v; maybe tomorrow when im more comfy!

And thats it for my first day! it was pretty fun and im excited for tomorrow! Now here are some pics i took of my cos! I was too shy to take any at the actual con;; but hey better some then none!

Alright now i go clean my face cuz gottdamn my eyes r runnin LOLOL Thanks for reading !!!

[lunicho]

i spent an arm and a leg.. but my family helped me out cuz my birthday is in june.. i feel very grateful but it did make me feel nauseous to spend that money but there’s sooo much that comes with the vip, at least imo normal stuff i think?? like check in, first entry, the keepsake lanyard and stuff and then access to merch BUT u also get soundcheck, send off, and a limited edition gift (whatever that means) buttt my bias is wooyoung and i really really want to meet them i think it’d be so nice to just say hi to them and if i can, take a selfie with woo and then get something like a photocard signed😭 i also think i’ll still be closer on the floor than i would be in a seat even if i’m a bit further back and it’ll be fun to experience the concert with so many other atinys rather than by myself in my seat :(

i think 82major might come to a city even closer to me because a lot of groups with smaller companies have been touring there recently so i’m really excited about that too!! thank u sm yeah i’m excited, i cried a little but i just felt silly too cuz i bought another ticket first (i will def be able to sell it) but like the vip stuff wasn’t loading and i was trying to convince myself i didn’t need it😭😭😭

sigh.. what’s new with you? i know you have a lot of events coming up in the next few weeks, how’re you feeling about those? have you decided on riize?

- 🍑 anon

aww that's super sweet!! be sure to stop by on your bday so i can wish u a super super super happy b'day!! im glad you're able to go and i hope they organize your send off well so that you're able to have a fair experience! wishing u so so much luck 🫶

ooh that's so fun they better go there! im literally so excited to see them it's not even funny 😭 can't wait to hear about all of your interactions with seongbin once their con comes 🙏🏾 i had that happen to me 😭 i ended up buying two different tickets before buying new ones for enha last year but i was luckily able to sell it on concert day! im glad u got vip regardless, im so so happy for u 🫶 have you started planning your outfit yet!!

currently planning my trip to la for riize 😞 i wanna spend the smallest amount as i possibly can so yeah... i am gonna end up going to riize 💔 im a little stressed about it all cuz txt on the 18th... riize on the 20th.. it's a lot but i wanna go so im gonna make it work! im trying really hard to do as many fun things as i can this year cuz i never do anything fun or anything worth talking about so im trying to live this year to the fullest!!

[truckfreaks]

had such an funny array of experiences the other night at that bar and I've been reflecting on it and wanting to write about it very much.....

on one hand i saw my friends sibling who i haven't seen in quite a while, and he was more outwardly open and excited and chatty than hes been for probably the whole ten years I've known him. like, he even invited me to his bands show? he never invites anyone! he's notorious in our crowd for being very, like... idk. ive heard lots of things - "particular", "difficult to work with", perfectionist... but he was totally different.

he brought his new boyfriend along, and we all had a long silly talk about sneaking into cons when we were kids, navigating the precarious world of gender soup (he understands my soup probably better than anyone, cis trans or otherwise, that I've ever met! it felt great!), the different creative projects were working on (he went to college for video game soundtrack composition at a really prestigious school - super talented!), got really excited when we realized we never had any idea one another had bugsonas and excitedly shared art of our respective bug guys... oh and his boyfriend recognized Dr. Habit on my phone lock/background?! it was the first time anyone's ever recognized anything SFM related on me in the wild ! so that was cool!

and on the other hand... my friend (his brother)'s girlfriend who i've been trying to give an honest fair shake in getting to know was there as well. and like, i think surface wise most people look at her and assume she's like, very ... leftist? and I'm sure she thinks she is, too. but every time i talk to her she sneaks in some kinda backhanded comment about women. i get a big internalized misogyny plus Italian familial politics vibe. and i found myself talking to her abt similar topics, because she said to me she's never seen her boyfriends brother so animated before! and i said well this might be my personal experience coloring things, but being out makes a massive difference in someone's ability to just, like, exist happily! and she wasn't sure what i meant by that, so i explained, and she was like "oh, well i guess i don't understand why you're choosing to identify in a neutral or masc leaning way but you dress like a girl?" and i explained that first off, i appreciate not getting it, but the first step is recognizing that there is no one right way to be a man or a woman, and if we accept gender nonconforming behavior from cis people then why don't we accept it from trans people? why do i have to be a caricature of manhood for you to see me as transmasc? and it kind of got through to her but... not entirely, because her line of questioning was a little ... invasive and unkind in a bad faith way (i have a LOT of patience for folks who may "get it wrong" but engage with me in a good faith way). like she was tryna play gotcha or something.

and i suppose the juxtaposition - people who are quietly queer suddenly becoming loudly queer and, as a result, happier, vs. people who are vocally supportive, but only when a person fits their narrative of what a queer person should look or act like... well. it was not lost on me!

and it also reminded me that sometimes, when you get a vibe about a person, you should trust your gut! it's ok to think, yeah, this isn't a nice person, im gonna protect myself! because if i continued engaging with her, the conversation might have gone very poorly. it certainly has in the past. (for example, apparently bee and puppycat was, and i quote, "too woke" for her. she got really mad when i laughed about it and realized with horror that she wasn't kidding). i feel bad for my friend (her boyfriend) for being in the middle of it, sorta. he's a easygoing simple dude who is wildly supportive of his brother and however he chooses to identify, and frankly i don't think he knows a whole lot about this side of his girlfriend because to him, he doesn't really seek out those kinda conversations. not obviously that it's never come up, but yeah. i know him well enough to know he doesn't share those feelings with her, and it's always really shocking to me to hear her express them - but always when he isn't around. so much so that in the past when I've expressed concern about it, he didn't believe me at first! (then other folks started saying the same thing.)

idk. life is cool and weird and i am happy to be a cool and weird little guy.

[xieliancore]

oh my god we ended up getting a table at the convention i wanted to go,! its so exciting its the first time i do this 😭 also scary bc i have plan lots of stuff and the con is in february but!! im super motivated rn!!

[futurewife]

Your post about not wanting kids irl but exploring having kids in a fictional context is really relatable. I like the idea of being a parent in a fictional context, especially if it’s like being a parental figure to fictional children who’s fictional parents didn’t treat them well. Additionally, the idea of a character you love telling you that you’d make a great parent is also really assuring and weirdly affirming. I’m not sure how to further explain it, but it’s just a really comforting thing to me personally.

but having kids in real life? Yeah no, that’s off the table. I have so many reasons why and most of said reasons are out of my control (ie: the climate is fucked) - but mostly it’s because of my medical condition which leaves me really tired a lot and taking care of myself is already hard enough as it is. Raising a whole human being while tired? YEAH NO, that’s not going to happen. But yeah I’m sorry about this ask/2 cents but your post was really relatable.

Yes totallyyy like I like thinking about telling my f/os they're gonna be dads and stuff, I think that's super cute but even then I feel like it's more about me and them and us than the baby itself HAHAHA... Just imagining little contained scenarios like that is enough for me, and it's not even in my ship lore or anything. Great for higher stakes drama and angst though. Plus I lose interest in imagining anything past uhm... delivery and the first 24 hours....uh uh no thank you. selfship inner mind theatre over. once that baby starts impeding on our relationship (jk)

I think it makes perfect sense to enjoy it only in a fantasy way because well... if you do it in real life you get an actual real baby you have to centre around and it won't even be C.able's from d.eadpool 2 ☹🙁😬😬(L)

I agree with what you said about a character telling you you're gonna be a great parent- I think this hits the part of the brain that's like yesssss f/o picked me they picked MEEEEE im going to be their little broodmare for all time :) cuz they just like me sooooo much :)) - which I am all about almost pathologically. It feels kinda gross and biological but I guess i still have that switch that says find the best genes out there and make sure you snatch them up so they get deposited into you and create offspring. ig my f/os are my brain's idea of "THE BEST GENES" so I want them to br**d me for not only sexual reasons. it's like I don't want to actually be a mother but I still want you to want to if I wanted to idk... it's nice to be ASKED ig 🙄😤😤

when I was a kid I just assumed I would have kids at some vague future date, like it was an inevitable thing coming towards me I couldn't prevent. but when I got into my 20s I realised i literally didn't have to and it's crazy that that blew my mind HAHA. I was like wait... this idea never excited me and I never really cared about it or fantasised about babies it wasn't a part of any dream future type plans. I would always wanna rp as the pregnant mother when we played house tho ig that's the only part I liked the idea of HAHAHAHA and still to this day... but hell no i don't want to take care of the doll and tote it around and pretend to feed it. this explains everything

I also agree with your climate change reason for not having kids. That's one of my personal things too- call me a doomer or whatever but I just feel like I'm doing them a disservice, when I myself am already concerned about what the rest of my life will involve with weather messing up food supplies, plastic pollution, extreme temps etc- plus the environmental impact of one more person when in all likelihood I KNOW I wouldn't really enjoy being a mother. The cons far far far outweigh the pros for me (I can only think- my partner may really want kids? but then why are they with me lol. also i feel this is a quick trip to resentment and regret because you only did it for someone else- and as a woman statistically most of the child rearing would be on me too). i also am a bit weird in the brain (menthol illness that i think emotionally stunts me and takes a lot to manage- i need a lot of time to myself to decompress) and a lot of that is coincidentally due to my own mothering experience (bad and scary) + having no positive modelling of motherhood (hence never developing the instincts? behaviours? maternal warmth who?) so it seems like a real surreal nightmare situation to have my own children.

it's ok tho I hc C.able as infertile due to the virus 😎✌

[lexa-griffins]

thanks loads for the quick response, you were so lovely!! 🌸 as i said i’m just starting to educate myself so i don’t want to get things wrong or support someone who doesn’t deserve it. for example, Eliza.. like im still confused about this other topic bc i’m not interested enough, my heart already belongs to Alycia and i mean Alycia only, so… that’s what i’m focusing on. okay so basically that’s what i thought, the “could’ve handled it better” was about her not actually handling it at all, in a way, which i like to believe has nothing to do with her “hating” lexa (it’s something i keep reading online and idk where it comes from) or her fans. Bad advices and likely her trying to save Jason’s a** lead her to shut the discourse. but if this makes sense for the first weeks/months following lexa’s death, what i don’t understand is why she did seem annoyed when fans brought up lexa to conventions etc. but if she hated the fans and/or lexa, i can’t possibly believe she would’ve ever accepted to come back to the show for the finale. she came back bc she cared (about lexa, i mean SHE played her for gods sake, it must be hella important for her as well!!) and knew it was important for the fans, i guess. I’m almost scared to talk about this as i know Eliza’s fans are mad about it and especially Eliza/b0b supporters (i’ve seen enough on Twitter dear lord) but if what some people say is true, that he asked Jason to fire her bc he was jealous of her success, then maybe HIM being fired was also one of the reasons she willingly came back? like don’t get me wrong, i’m sure a big fat paycheck played a huge part too 😅 but trying to add more pieces to the puzzle here, as i really know like 40% of what happened behind the scenes with Jason and all when lexa was killed off, so again, i’m sorry if this always ends up being super long but i’m trying to do my homework here 📋🖊️ (and you genuinely are super kind btw which i’m super grateful for 😭)

I have never opened my mouth about the E and B topic because I am not about to open that can of worms or invite their fans to fight me here. I was a huge E fan and just a week before all the shit came out i was talking to a friend about how i wish clarke and her got the same love Lexa and Alycia do... that came back to bite me in the ass real quick 😅 you guys know how much i love Clarke but damn was it impossible for a bit there for me to be able to watch clexa and clarke scenes again and be able to seperate e from Clarke. We clearly got there tho 😌

In a way, I can understand why she was a little annoyed at cons. Alycia never went to a con with the main intent of talking about Lexa, she was on FTWD, she was probably very excited about it and was sent there to talk about it and yet every question she got was about a character that st that point she had not played in maybe a year if you account for the time between filming and the episodes coming out. And its probably nerve wracking to have a room full of people who care so deeply for a character and that are part of a community that is marginalized and her having to say the right thing. Not to meantion like most actors sometimes the line betwwen Lexa the character and Alycia the actor got a little blurred and i get the sense Alycia is the type of actor who wants a clear separation between herself and the character. Maybe wrongly so she tried to distance herself from Lexa not because she hates the fans but because it was what she and others around her felt was right for her career having just started on a new show.

We know B was most likely fired but I doubt that he was the reason why Alycia left. I truly think Jrot believe he was doing something with Lexa's death and that he was telling a epic story, i really think any other story of B wanting her gone and what is now know its false about her not being able to do both shows (AMC was ready to let her continue on the show, i wish i could link you a source to this) - making Alycia agreeing with Jason probably just PR trying to not cause a drift. Alycia (and Jason) kind of alluded to the fact that there had been chances for Lexa to come back before but that Alycia didn't feel comfortable with it and I do think that shows that she respected the fans and didn't want to be used as a prop to make fans to watch the show again. Her being in the finale was a surprise (well, not to me and many others because it felt like there had been hints being dropped for a good while). While i dont doubt the nice pay check wasnt an incentive Alycias entire message for the shows finale felt very sincere to me and very clearly dedicated to the fans. Blorke/B/E fans (well, B fans, lets be real here they only care for her because shes with him, they used to call her names before that) think that just because Alycia is both rather private and doesnt try to take fans money left and right that she hates her fans and hates Lexa. I just think that Alycia didnt really speak up when it was the time for it for whatever reason - i dont think it was out of malicious intent but i do think she should have said more - and talking about it now would just come across as trying to stir something up unless it was directly asked of her to talk about it. Id like to think she has proven herself an ally and a decent person where i dont think she has to talk about Lexa for me to consider her "forgiven" for not speaking up back then.

No need to say sorry, i totally get trying to understand what the fuck happened in this fandom of ours 😅 i just hope im saying things accurately because i have been here since mid 2015 so some things really get blurry around the edges. There used to be master posts or something im sure that explained things because this was a whole thing that last through most of 2016.

☺️ i might not remember or know how to answer everything but if you have any more questions about the fandoms history and if i can help and respond, feel free to ask me! :)

[lordsmeldingtonthethird]

ITEP "Dear Podficker" letter

Dear Podficcer,

Im so excited to be joining ITPF this year!

LordSmeldingtonTheThird on ao3 as well

Things I Like: sucker in general for tropes and Aus’. Im also not against crossovers (especially in the batman side of things, like, it just works so well as a crossover cause the location has so much character) I am a sucker for found family, and fake dating troupes, and have a particular fondness for a medieval/fantasy AU. Basically anything super character focused as well. I am a multishiper, and in regards to batman, love a rare pair.; Things I Don't Like: I am not into dub/non-con/rape, incest, first person. Other then that I’m pretty open. I am fine with major character death or something else that goes straight for the feels so long as its done well. I also am not a fan of any omega verse stuff.

Tropes/AUs I am into: all the tropes, fuckin love the tropes. For batman, im not against crossover event if its not listed on my fandom croseover list. Don’t know why, but I am particularly fond of those. Wing fics are great, don’t love merman/maid fic tho.

Fandoms: Batman

                Tim is my favorite Robin, tho I am also partial to Jason. Also love anything with any of our Batgirls as the main focus. Love whenever Maps Mizoguchi shows up, don’t super love Tim and Steph together. Much prefer the both of them in gay pairings. (prefer queer parings in general tbh). Am totally fine with crossovers even with fandoms I don’t list here. I think Batman works particularly well with crossovers. The best part of Batman is the Batfam.

The Locked Tomb

                Anything at all. I am not picky. This series will always have me in a chokehold. Love a good bubble AU, love a messy as shit Ianthe. Basically cant go wrong here.

Gravity Falls

                Basically anything here as well, no BillxDip tho, am particularly found of all the different AU’s available here,

Stormlight Archives

                I am here for one thing and one thing only, and that is ether Adolin x Kaladin, or Adolin x Kaladin x Shallan

Ouran High School Host Club (anime/manga)

I know, but I would love anything involving the Host Club being their RIDICULOUS OVER-DRAMATIC SELVES and having WACKY ADVENTURES. Also leaning more gen, rather than shippy with this fandom. That being said, my preferred pairings are Hikaru/Haruhi

Merlin

                Merlin x Arther. That’s it. That’s all you need to know about this one.

Any of these fandoms work great for me, however if you find a queer (particularly women x woman) ship in another fandom totally fine with that as well, I have been known to watch/read stuff solely based off of queer ships. In general I don’t tend to go for any super explicit stuff.

I am an absolute sucker for fake dating, arranged marriages, friends to lovers, enemies to friends to lovers, there was only one bed, all that goodness.

[sawsession]

just a con diary entry ig, look away LMFAO

anyway never getting over this con and cosplaying riz bc people were genuinely so excited to see him!! like i've gotten lots of compliments and pictures of my other cosplays, but only once before have i had someone litrally yell in surprise bc im cosplaying a character they love. (the girl who recognized my ai in 2022 and yelled "AI!" i will never forget you). but with riz it was like, every couple minutes i'd hear "RIZ GUKGAK?!" or "omg are you riz??!?!". like dear convention goers, there are so many fantasy high fans out there, we couldve totally done a meetup lol

Also this is most ppl have like wanted to talk to me. as in, they were so excited to see someone cosplaying riz that they had to talk to me about fantasy high, and it was so so soso sososososoooo fun bc i love hearing ppl talk about things they love!!!! i wish i wasnt so bad socially cause i totally wouldve talked w ppl more, but i get too nervous that im overstaying my welcome lol

there was a person selling in artists ally who was super excited to see me and they gave me a free sticker kjdfhsjkfsh shaking and crying, it was so fun y'all ppl love this silly little goblin

and the business cards were my greatest idea ever btw, ppl LOVED them. the last guy i gave one too said "of course you have business cards" LSJKFSKLJFS the reaction was either something along those lines or like a yell or gasp cause like omg riz's business cards... i just wish i had sturdier paper lmfao

in 2022 i put so much work into Ai and it really paid off, i loved the costume and i got so many compliments at the con, almost entirely from ppl who didnt know the character but appreciated the costume. with Riz I literally put maybe one weekends worth of effort into it, and had just as good of a time. i think it was nice to experience this to balance out the part of my brain that wants to put months of effort into my cosplay every year. some years thats nice, but not every year lmfao

so much happened i feel but also it can all basically be boiled down into people were so excited to see me. i went in expecting to give out like 3 business cards and probably gave out at least 20. not everyone that recognized me got one, but most ppl did. also getting called "the ball" by fellow con goers was so funny and wonderful

it was very fun and cute to run into a group of friends cosplaying adaine, fig, and fabian (the fig had a crochet baby and i litrally GASPED it was so adorable!!!) cause it was like omg no doubles.... 4 out of 6 bad kids isnt too bad hehe. also the adaine cosplayer had a little boggy on their shoulder!!!!! anyway. perhaps thats part of the joy too, ive never done a character where i was able to meet other ppl cosplaying in their series and like get super hyped about a picture together hehe

last note i think, perhaps part of the wonderful experience is bc this is also the first time i felt like i could actually somewhat personify my character. the business cards definitely helped with that, but riz is a character where it is so easy to like not disappoint. like hes an anxiety ridden little guy and oh boy am i also anxiety ridden sfsjfklsjf. genuinely just felt comfortable as him and it was so much fun

anyway posting this as like a little diary entry to keep the post con crushing loneliness at bay lfkjsfklsjfskfj

[shaddy-bee]

I have finished playing through Ghostrunner 2 in a matter of 2 days.

My thoughts: I think the voiceover audio works better than the stilted facial animation stuff they tried to do with the hub world. Frankly it feels like there doesn't even need to be a hub world at all, but it's pretty ignorable.

The levels feel like more of the same stuff from the first game, but they spiced things up with a couple new enemy types, more collectibles to grab, and a couple new mechanics here and there which add to the variety. You are switching between like many different buttons and actions all the time in a way that feels very fun to play. Good additions to the basic concept. The augment system is really well done for what it is. There's a lot of cool modifiers, rearranging the grid as you go feels nice, and having to puzzle around where best to put things to get all the bonuses you want is a good balance between being interesting without being constricting or frustrating. Also, there's a ton of augments which let you stack combo and gain movespeed and bonuses per combo meter, along with extending dash distance and rocket jumping, I am super excited to see what the speedrun for this game does with all of that tech. I ended up just getting 20 combo and then throwing myself off a ledge with +100% movespeed but im sure people more skilled than me with be able to do a lot with it. I think I like some of the boss fights from the first game a bit more, there's not a ton of boss fights overall to be fair, but the Humanoid boss fights just feel a tad less interesting in places. That said, the bossfight on motorcycle is dope as hell. Actually, the entire motorcycle section is awesome! Feels really good to control, the fact you can jump off it and grapple back to it feels sick as hell, it's implemented well to pace out this frankly enormous level which feels like half open world and hearkens my brain back to the days of the Hotwheels game on the gamecube. Legitimately an incredibly cool addition to the game, and every level section based around it they just went super off with making it as cool as possible. The story in the first game felt a bit more tightly wound than it did in this one. I think part of that is because the way the story is happening feels a bit like you're being sent on sidequests a lot of times instead of having the same sort of linear progression feeling that the first game did. Maybe some of that is just because I didnt know the world at first and so learning more about it felt in the shoes of the character more, idk. It uses the same general engine as the first game, so a lot of the things that existed in the first game (buggy out of bounds wall runs on jank geometry, occasional walls in places that are missing proper collision, dash->slide->jump cancelling to go super fast ((very fun, best part of the first game was mastering that "mechanic"))) which is both a plus and a con in some places. All in all, I had a ton of fun with it. The roguelike mode was also surprisingly fun, though I wont likely play it much more. A lot of the fun comes from the levels themselves for me, and there seems to be limited level variety in that mode. TLDR; Bladerunner 2 is everything I wanted from a game I never knew was even being made. Big fan.