#also if anyone wants an explanation for why i chose a certain song feel free to shoot me an ask!

[puffinsional]

hey! so in honor of good omens’ 30th anniversary and the drama’s 1st anniversary, here’s something i’ve been working on and off for about a year now...

presenting our side, a good omens story playlist!

i was inspired after coming across so many fantastic songs that work for aziraphale and crowley (many from listening to other peoples’ playlists, actually) and i thought it would be interesting to recount their entire journey through those songs. my goal was to make it feel like you were listening to the story just by listening to the playlist.

you can listen to the playlist on spotify or youtube! track list, lyric links, and story markers are under the cut.

special thanks to @rcmclachlan, @askazicro, and other good omens playlist makers for helping me discover many of these songs. i’m also including their playlists/tags under the cut if you wanna check out even more songs! also thank you to thomas ginnona for some classic rock consultation.

extra special thanks to my fantastic friend @humananalytica for helping me this entire time i’ve been working on this, sending me songs to listen to, helping bounce off ideas and give a second opinion every time i pester her, beta-ing, and for just in general being someone i can share my love of good omens with.

i’ve worked really hard on it so i’d be delighted if y’all can give it a listen! thank you very much!! m(_ _)m

TRACK LIST:

OVERTURE: A Tale of an Angel and a Demon

“Come With Me” - Chxrlotte

“A Rainy Night in Soho” - The Pogues

“I'll See Your Heart and I'll Raise You Mine” - BellX1

ACT I: The History of the World, Before the Armageddon

It Starts With a Garden

“From Eden” - Hozier 

"I'm With You" - Vance Joy

“An Act of Kindness” - Bastille

Hereditary Enemies

“Iris” - Goo Goo Dolls

"Losing Battles" - Josh Ritter

Policy Decisions

"The Garden" - The Crane Wives

“A Thousand Years” - Sting

"The Only Way (Hymn)" - Emerson, Lake, & Palmer

"Antichrist" - The 1975

Invitations

"Valentine" - Hope Tala

"Sit Next to Me" - Foster the People

"Try to Be" - Bonny Doon

The Arrangement

"Running Up That Hill (A Deal With God)" - Kate Bush

"Heads/tails" - Hotspur

"Walk Across the Water" - The Black Keys

Fraternizing

"How Does a Duck Know?" - Crash Test Dummies

"Monster" - Pomplamoose & dodie

“Chasing Twisters” - Delta Rae

Sorry, Consecrated Ground

“Do I Wanna Know?” - Arctic Monkeys

"What Kind of Man" - Florence + The Machine

A Bag of Prophecy Books

"The Thief" - Brooke Fraser

“Who Is In Your Heart Now?” - Studio Killers

“I Can't Behave” - Caravan of Thieves

“Devil's Backbone” - The Civil Wars

A Thermos Full of Holy Water

"Pick U Up" - Foster the People

“Holy Water” - Tommy Newport

“Waiting for the Miracle” - Leonard Cohen

Slowing Down

“How Long” - Matchbox Twenty

Delivering the Antichrist

"So Desperate" - The Mountain Goats

"The Things We Do For Love" - 10cc

“Good Old Fashioned Lover Boy” - Queen

Purely Social

“Drink!” - They Might Be Giants

"Heroes" - David Bowie

The Gardener and the Nanny

"Keep Her Closer" - Swimming Tapes

"Snakes and Lovers" - Spandau Ballet

"Five Years" - David Bowie

Harry the Rabbit

“Just Like Heaven” - The Cure

"1999" - Prince

"Someone's Missing" - MGMT

The Naming

"Apocalypse Please" - Muse

"London Calling" - The Clash

INTERLUDE: Crowley Yells at Some Plants

“Music to Soothe the Savage Snake Plant” - Mort Garson

ACT II: The World Has Started to End

To a Little Village in Oxfordshire

“Absolutely No Decorum” - The Ark

“Ride” - Clans

Tip-Top Shape

“Damn Your Eyes” - Etta James

Four Letter Words

"I Am Not a Robot" - Marina and the Diamonds

"When You Die" - MGMT

Velocipede

"Pedal Your Blues Away" - R. Crumb and the Cheap Suit Serenaders

Foolish Principalitie

"Put Down the Duckie" - Sesame Street

"Baby Blue Eyes" - Peter the Human Boy

"666 Conducer" - Black Rebel Motorcycle Club

The Third Alternative Rendezvous

"Just Between You and Me" - Lou Gramm

“End Love” - OK Go

"Allies or Enemies" - The Crane Wives

“Stomach It” - Crywolf

“December” - Collective Soul

It's Over

"Leaves" - Gregory and the Hawk

“Silence & Sirens” - The Narrative

"Drowning Shadows" - Sam Smith

A Plea (If She's Listening)

“Bad Blood” - Sleeping At Last

The Lords of Hell

"Warrant" - Foster the People

“What If the Storm Ends? (The Lightning Strike, Part I)” - Snow Patrol

Alpha Centauri

“Something Happened on the Way to Heaven” - Phil Collins

“Origin of Love” - Mika

"Eternally Missed" - Muse

“Flowers for a Ghost” - Thriving Ivory

God's Spokesperson

“The Truth” - Foster the People

"All These Things I've Done" - The Killers

How to Navigate

“Gravity” - The fin.

"Dear Wormwood" - The Oh Hellos

“Hold the Line” - Toto

No Longer Keeping Score

“Hurts Like Hell” - Fleurie

"Can't Smile Without You" - Sleeping At Last (cover of Carpenters)

“Never” - Seira Kagami*

Aziraphale's Plan

“The Sunlight Through the Flags (The Lightning Strike, Part II)” - Snow Patrol*

“Sure as Hell Not Jesus” - Cosmo Jarvis

Crowley Drives Through the Flaming M25

"Get Yourself Together" - The Black Keys

“Burnin' For You” - Blue Oyster Cult

"Dreams and Disasters" - Owl City

Things That R.P. Tyler Would Like to Say (But Can't)

“You're On Fire” - They Might Be Giants

Aziraphale and Crowley Watch the Others Stop the Apocalypse

“Dream Sweet in Sea Major” - Miracle Musical

Adam's Satanic Father

"Hells Bells" - AC/DC

“Get It Together” - Mystery Skulls

Beside You

“The One Moment” - OK Go

“Daybreak (The Lightning Strike, Part III)” – Snow Patrol*

Agnes Nutter's Last Prophecy

"Butterflies and Hurricanes" - Muse

If You'd Like

"Breakfast Square" - Hana Vu

"Landscapes" - Gregory and the Hawk

The Swap

“Heaven or Hell” - Digital Daggers

Holy Water and Hellfire

"Crossfire" - Brandon Flowers

“Sinners” - Lauren Aquilina

Temptation Accomplished

“In Our Bedroom After the War” - Stars

"Heaven Is a Place on Earth" - Belinda Carlisle

CONCLUSION: The Very First Day of the Rest of Their Lives

“First Day of My Life” - Bright Eyes (covered by Jesse Daniel Smith)

“Nobody” - Hozier

"Our House" - Crosby, Stills, Nash, & Young

“A Nightingale Sang in Berkeley Square” - Vera Lynn

* indicates a song that’s only included in the YouTube playlist

Sources: rc’s music tag/playlist, askazicro music tag/community playlist, michael sheen’s hardcore gomens playlist, other referenced playlists (x x x). also my local cvs. yes really

[fiore-rosewood9]

♫FrUk :D

Thank you for the ask, I will send a few songs that remind me of fruk, a whole playlist if you may, not only one song. I also touch a few of triggering topics as I explain the nations's personalities and relationships with one another so I apologize in advance if I upset/trigger someone and will put my trigger here - Warning - mentions of abuse, alcoholism, s*exual trauma. Under the explanation there is a playlist of songs that make me think of Ukfr/Fruk, so if anyone gets upset you can feel free to skip my general headcanons about fruk/ukfr relationship dynamics. There are too many songs that make me think of different characters or ships but I collected the ones that make me think the most of them.

I know the original song is by Lady gaga but this version is too sweet and cheesy for me so I chose the rock cover by the group Halestorm since I prefer it, it sounds more genuine and rough and kinda makes me think of the dynamic that ukfr/fruk has, that some people present is as just the enemies to lovers trope or them just fighting which is.....simply unhealthy????? Fruk is much more than that and I wish people would stop seeing it as a two dimensional thing, yeah they do argue on a lot of things and it is not the healthiest dynamic however it does work in my mind because they stick through thin and thick and that requires effort and true love since a lot of people nowdays do not take time to know the other person, they just jump into marriage and have a few divorces and just argue over everything and then separate, fruk is an off and on thing where they break and make. This kind of dedication is hard to find in today's couples. I know they're fictional characters and no one really cares but I practice my psychology skills and my knowledge of people around me, and I sometimes see people with similar or almost the same characters as fictional characters, they may not have all of their hobbies but they do act the same way. And certain pairs, no offence, just make me want to gag my self due to history with bad and toxic fans but if I look at it subjectivly and never encountered mean fans from a certain ship, I would say that they ship simply doesn't work. No ship bashing but as far as I know, people with this kind of personality from this ship that I dislike, and get upset when seeing fan art of, simply just do not get along and had a hard time divorcing, it is not only unhealthy and unbalanced, it is downright abusive because both partners seek control and to have the upper hand and this is not...what romance is about???? It is about two people taking care of each other, understanding personal space and boundaries, lifting each other up and yeah, they will argue a lot, sometimes for small things, sometimes for bigger things, but generally the point of romantic relationships is not someone using you, or abusing you financially and generally being better or bigger than you. This breeds insecurity and jealousy in the other partner and makes them feel inadequate. Usually such problems are not talked over and one of the partners acts passive agressive which is what ultimaltly leads to said divorce. So yeah, people can go away with their (BUT IT IS CUTE, IT IS SO FUCKING CUTE) pairing because real life pairings and how humans communicate and develop friendships and relationships isn't based on what your mind conciders and doesn't concider cute and there are lots of factors on whether relationship will ever happen like common interests, type personality, etc and just block me so I will never hear from them and their childish mindset ever again, which is why I blocked certain tumbrl fan art hetalia accounts who produce art of a pairing I (dislike) lowkey hate, for historical reasons, for manga reasons, for toxic fans who bullied me and made me go on 3 hiatuses reason and ultimatly in real life experience and psychology and how humans and the human mind works and what is healthy and unhealthy reason. Why should I support something where certain people have been hateful towards me and these same people that act like these characters and I know in my life are on bad terms in real life? Why shouldn't I just move on to something more realistic and more healthy, that I have seen that works with humans I know first hand? I am not a clinical psychologist and I have no power or saying in this but I had to write thesis and read books by psycholgists and analyze them in high school and my first year of Uni, in order to pass the year and I have also read reccomended books by a psychologist I went to because I wanted an advice on how to deal with my anxiety and talking to people, because my condition is extremely severe but I honestly feel stuck and try to improve but also feel confused, I sometimes feel like I am not doing enough to

self improve as a human. I sometimes come off as too cold or overly bitter and angry without intending to, and it sucks.

Francis is a really manipulative person and Matthew picked up that from him while part of Alfred's agression doesn't only come from confidence in his own abilities but the fact that England him self is an overly agressive person and is very dominant or at least used to be for a very long time, now he is more mild to keep his gentleman persona but he does suffer from severe anger issues which he hides while Alfred is prone to breaking things and screaming, Arthur is more prone to being rude, sarcastic and generally mean before he loses it. Matthew and Francis do not engage in fight if they can avoid it which is why sometimes people call them cowardly I think? And Matthew is a bit prone to being a codependent people pleaser as far as I see and he seems to have severe anxiety issues. Francis albeit charismatic and beautiful, is deep down in his core lonely.

I think that part of his pervertedness, shocking people with his s*xual humour and all of this sex obsession comes from trauma in his childhood and dressing like a girl. I wouldn't explain what the trauma in question was since it is not canon but I do headcanon that he had s*xual trauma and it is partly why Hungary dressed like a guy. I don't know if this is legit, it is bias from reading too much japanese fan comics relating to hetalia or just general history of humans and how they treated consent and what is moral today, wasn't amoral or against the law a few centuries ago, but I have seen artists touch on it. I think both Arthur and Francis suffer from neglect and they weren't particularly good fathers, in fact no country is, the whole FACE family is dysfunctional and while I love all of them, I kinda pity them. I think Rome was a bit discriminatory mostly towards France and never towards his other children while Arthur had to constantly prove him self and was bullied by his brothers. While other nations have suffered from trauma too (I headcanon that Prussia was burnt on stake and people threw rocks at him due to his albinism and being left handed) something similar happened to Arthur, who I headcanon that he was burnt for being a witch and Francis went a few times through the guillotine, or Arthur still having a bullet scar on his arm from the American revolution or Francis having nightmares from that day where Jeanne was burnt and waking up in his own sweat. Arthur also must suffer from workholism and alcoholism, judging by how much he works and goes to pubs to drink. Everyone chooses their own poison and how to cope with life and many use unhealthy coping mechanisms, hell, even I used unhealthy coping mechanisms a lot in the past and I am not proud of them, in fact, I try to improve.

I can talk about their history and how it relates to their mental health and what scars they have for hours but I would bore you. You came for a song and I am probably boring you so I apologize for writting a lot of words, in advance. I basically think that fruk/ukfr is the ultimate ship for many reasons because they click, I do ship spuk/engita/asakiku and many other things but fruk/ukfr is kinda like butter and bread, it is a great combination. I never said it is 100 percent healthy, however their relationship makes psychological sense and their personalities click. I know people like to present arthur as this dumb tsundere man that blushes and says baka, or he is this garbage rat dad that no one likes or francis is presented or at least used to be this perverted sex machine that touched other countries inappropriatly or at least the 2012-2015 fans saw him this way and while he still has the reputation of a pervert, what many young people in the fandom see as disgusting, I just see as an overly lonely man that just happens to have high libido and copes with it by having casual sex and just has a sex humour, the same way some people have fart jokes humour or darker, more cursed humour, I am really glad that fans mostly left off this whole - Francis is a r**ist and will grope you, in the past, because honestly r**e is not joke and as a character he clearly understands consent and boundaries and I don't think someone like him would do such a thing. Also Greece and Turkey have even higher libido than him and sleep around more, yet he is the ''pervert'', I don't get it??????????? but fruk is just so much more than opposites attract, they have a lot in common so I can't say they're full opposites, no one is truly. I have heard people ask why does anyone ship fruk when it is just opposites attract/enemies to lovers trope and I am honestly confused, because that is extremely rough generalization to say the least, it is like saying - All men/women are the same, it is simply wrong/uncorrect. I think they ''married'' five times - The Treaty of Paris (1657) formed an alliance against Spain. The Anglo-French Alliance (1716–31) formed another alliance against Spain. The Anglo-French blockade of the Río de la Plata (1845-1850). The Anglo-French joint invasion of Qing Dynasty (1856–1860). And the last one which is their official marriage The Entente Cordiale (1904) fought together in both World Wars. As far as I remember Francis tried to marry Arthur but he refused and why he refused is up for subjective opinion but I must write a whole thesis on why Fruk/ukfr works so well and people are not here for that, they're here for the music and I will provide. I also always saw Francis as the more gentle and more submissive partner, I just love to see him drawn in frilly beautiful dresses with bows and stuff and Arthur as the more dominant, I mean as a country he was a powerhouse during the 1600s-1800s and used to be a punkrocker, usually rockers are mentally tough and that man is extremely cunning and witty so...people drawing him as this useless baka uwu overly feminine anorexic boy that looks more like a tween rather than a 23 year old guy just assasinated his character in my opinion and it disturbs me but I am just some awkward human on the internet and no one values my opinion anyway because this is the internet and many people nowdays love to have hot takes and try to gain followers through clickbait stuff which sometimes goes out of control and everything just seems more fake and shallow to me, the more old I get.Okay that was my silly rant no one asked about but I feel really passionate about hetalia and Fruk/Ukfr. Anyway, I apologize again for my long rant and going all over the place, please enjoy this playlist

PLAYLIST WITH SONGS THAT REMIND ME OF FRUK/UKFR

1 - Halestorm - Bad romance - rock cover https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ll4NJs3NBIU

2 - Queen - Somebody to love - lyrics https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zj69iA_goIk

3 - ABBA - Voulez vous - (I know everyone chooses Waterloo and while waterloo is a fruk theme, I think Voulez vous works too) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fwcgMVXuBJc

4 - London beat - I've been thinking about you - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ixBryyQSrD8

5 - Santana - Smooth - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6Whgn_iE5uc

6 - George Michael - Careless whisper - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=izGwDsrQ1eQ

7 - Robbie Williams - Feel - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iy4mXZN1Zzk

8 - Michael Buble - Feeling good - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Edwsf-8F3sI

9 - Edith Piaf - La vie en rose - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kFzViYkZAz4

10 - Chopin - Marriage d'amour (Spring waltz) - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EFJ7kDva7JE

11 - Vanessa Carlton - A thousand miles - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ERw2LuU6Jj8

[diamcndgirl]

have you ever thought to yourself, “hmm, i love one direction and i love waltrp... i wonder what would happen if we gave every taken character a one direction song that reminds me of them??” well, don’t worry because even if it never crossed your mind because it did for me. i’m back once again with another silly little #waltmeme for you with songs by one direction or their solo albums that remind me of your characters. the choices can have something to do with a certain lyric, the title, or just the all around vibe it gives me that makes me think of them. don’t worry everything is under ‘read more’ and in alphabetical order-- or whatever order the taken list is in. p.s. not everyone has a blurb. but i still had a reason for everyone. if you really wanna know why just dm me and i'll give an explanation. love u mean it.

ALEJANDRO DIAZ - STOLE MY HEART / ONE DIRECTION

“you stole my heart with just one look” alejandro, my love, my heart. it’s clear the reason i chose this song is because it talks about having something stolen. but, you and your band of misfit criminal friends can steal my heart any day.

AURORA CAPULET - LITTLE THINGS / ONE DIRECTION

“i can’t let these little things slip out of my mouth” aurora you may be thinking.. this song talks about all my imperfections why would you pick such a thing? oh no! it’s not because i think you’re imperfect at all. it’s because i’m totally in love with all the little things that make you who you are.. and not to mention i couldn’t not give you a ballad. 

ANNA ARNADALR - HEY ANGEL / ONE DIRECTION

“hey angel do you ever try to come to the other side?” this whole song has anna vibes. anna, you’re an angel.. did you know that? well, angel… when you aren’t busy trying to fix your sisterly connection come to the other side and hang out with me.

BECKHAM TEAGUE - NICE TO MEET YA / NIALL

“i want your number tattooed on my arm in ink i swear.” the song, the lyrics, the vibe all just fits beckham’s personality very well. 

BENNET DOE - SWEET CREATURE / HARRY

“sweet creature running through the garden oh where nothing bothered us.”  sweet, soft, and lovely bennet.. sweet creature is one of my favorite songs in the world and it reminds me so much of you. i couldn’t pick a character better than you to give it to. 

BARLEY LIGHTFOOT - CANYON MOON / HARRY

“i keep thinking back to a time under the canyon moon.” lyrically this song doesn’t fit you, barley. not truly. but, aesthetically it reminds me of you very much. you’re adventurous and a little out there just like this harry styles tune. the bridge especially gives me a vibe of riding around in guinevere out on an adventure.

CASSANDRA JAGER - ONLY THE BRAVE / LOUIS

“tall stories on the page, short glories on the fade.” cassandra reminds me of strength and being brave (wink wink). and this song just reminds me of you, cass. though short it gives me a feeling like i can kick some ass. 

DANI DENNISON - THROUGH THE DARK / ONE DIRECTION

“oh i will carry you over fire and water for your love and i will hold you closer hope your heart is strong enough.” i love dani.. like really really love your sweet soul. she’s the cutest truly. just the sound and lyrics remind me so much of her and her heart to help the ones she cares about. 

DAPHNE BLAKE - LITTLE BLACK DRESS / ONE DIRECTION

“i wanna see the way you move for me, baby” clearly this song isn’t anything to write home about lyrically. but, when i hear this song i get all excited and ready to go take on the world. something about it makes me feel like i’m the hottest girl in the room and it should go to the hottest girl in the room.. which is you, daphne.

ELIZABETH MCQUEEN - WOMAN / HARRY 

“i hope you can see, the shape that I’m in while he’s touching your skin.” hi elizabeth.. this song is just hot. you’re just hot.. i really am jealous of monty and would take his place at any given moment if you let me.

ELSA ARNADALR - DON’T LET IT BREAK YOUR HEART / LOUIS

“don’t you let it kill you even when it hurts like hell. oh, whatever tears you apart don’t let it break your heart.” elsa, you’re truly the strongest girl i know. this song just radiates that energy of getting over what you’ve been through and not letting it break you down. 

EMILY LORELEYN - BLUE / ZAYN

“in the clouds where the angels sing. in your eyes, where i wanna be and her smile is all i see….. i need someone to love me blue.” emily is a goddess okay.. like she’s so beautiful and kindhearted. this song is so beautiful and then also the ‘love me blue’. reminds me of her origin and how she waited for love until she passed and turned blue. 

EUGENE FITZHERBERT - ONE WAY OR ANOTHER (TEENAGE KICKS) / ONE DIRECTION

“and when the lights are all out.. i’ll follow your bus downtown.” oh horace.. this whole song just fits you so well.. the teenage kicks mashup with the joan jett classic. it just embodies you so well. i don’t think i could’ve picked a better song for you. 

FLORIAN CHARMONT - NIGHT CHANGES / ONE DIRECTION

FRANCIS KYDD - SOMETHING GREAT / ONE DIRECTION

“come on, jump out at me. come on, bring everything. is it too much to ask for something great? the script was written and i could not change a thing. i want to rip it all to shreds and start again.” there isn’t a real lyrical reason i picked this song for you, francis. just something about it made me think of you. just gave me a feeling that it was theatrical enough for you, dear.

FRAN BERNOULLI - NO CONTROL / ONE DIRECTION

“i just can’t get enough of you the pedal’s down, my eyes are closed. no control” did i pick this song because you’re a race car driver and it made me giggle… yes, and because i haven an uncontrollable crush on you, fran. 

FRED FREDRICKSON - SAVE YOU TONIGHT / ONE DIRECTION

“i, i wanna save you. wanna save your heart tonight. he’ll only break ya. leave you torn apart inside.” fredzilla, my absolute favorite hero. i dedicate this to you. simple but effective.

FREDDY JONES - END OF THE DAY / ONE DIRECTION

GEORGIE FOXWORTH - SOUR DIESEL / ZAYN

GRACELYNN MOON - HAPPILY / ONE DIRECTION

this is my favorite one direction song, gracie and i’m giving it to you. so take care of it and understand that it’s upbeat sound reminds me of you and your cute behind.

HADES VASILIKAS - STOCKHOLM SYNDROME / ONE DIRECTION

you steal people. but if you stole me.. i’d fall in love. that’s all really.

HAVEN LEMOS - STEAL MY GIRL / ONE DIRECTION

HERCULES ZERVOUS - STRONG / ONE DIRECTION 

get it because you’re strong? hehe.

HOWL PENDRAGON - ILLUSION / ONE DIRECTION

IAN LIGHTFOOT - MAGIC / ONE DIRECTION

JACK FROST - LET IT SNOW, LET IT SNOW / LIAM

i’m sorry but i’m not sorry i chose this song for you, jack. feel free to hate me forever. 

JIM HAWKINS - WE MADE IT / LOUIS

KIARA SANTUCCI - NOBODY COMPARES / ONE DIRECTION

LILO PELEKAI -  SHE’S NOT AFRAID / ONE DIRECTION

LOGAN TEAGUE - TEENAGE DIRTBAG / ONE DIRECTION

LUCA PAGURO - SUMMER LOVE / ONE DIRECTION

MAEL CALCIFER - FIREPROOF / ONE DIRECTION

“i’m feeling something deep inside. hotter than a jet stream burning up.” i’d only want to be fireproof for you, mael. there is just something about you that wins my heart. i’d walk through fire for you.

MAVIS VADUVA - 

MEG DIMITRIOU - SHE / HARRY 

MOLLIE SILVER - KISS YOU / ONE DIRECTION

MONTY MCQUEEN - ROCK ME / ONE DIRECTION

“hit the pedal heavy metal, show me you care.” not only do i want you to rock me, monty. the only reason i chose this song is because i have a nascar inspired shirt for this and it reminds me of you. 

NALA OMITA - NEW ANGEL / NIALL HORAN

NUKA LEU - PILLOWTALK / ZAYN

ORION BARTHOLOMEW - KIWI / HARRY 

orion, are we sure you’ve never had a woman accuse you of being her baby daddy? either way, this songs vibe just makes sense for you, dear.

PENELOPE HAINLINE - GIRL ALMIGHTY / ONE DIRECTION

“she floats through the room on a big balloon. some say she’s such a fake that her love is made up.” penny, you are aware you’re the literal coolest girl in the world this song just proves it more. 

PHILIP CHARMONT - WOLVES / ONE DIRECTION

REAGAN CYMBELINE - SUNFLOWER VOL 6 / HARRY

“sunflower my eyes want you more than a melody.” reagan, besides the fact you’re a literal walking and talking sunflower there is just a sweet feeling i get when i hear this song and its the same feeling i get when i think of you. 

RITA HOLDEN - ONLY ANGEL / HARRY 

SADIE TEAGUE - KILL MY MIND / LOUIS

SIMBA SANTUCCI - TIO / ZAYN

SHAGGY ROGERS  - WHAT A FEELING / ONE DIRECTION

SOPHIE HATTER - ADORE YOU / HARRY

THACKERY BINX - SMALL TALK / NIALL

VITANI LEU - MIDNIGHT MEMORIES / ONE DIRECTION

“tell me that i’m wrong but i do what i please.” vitani, if anyone in elias is gonna say fuck you i’m doing what i want.. it’s you. 

VELMA DINKLEY  - BACK FOR YOU / ONE DIRECTION

VIDIA BELLEFONTE - SHE / ZAYN

WALLY AXIOM - PERFECT / ONE DIRECTION

WILL TURNER - LIKE I WOULD / ZAYN

[artificialenvy]

CALLOUT POST

@currynahh / @currynya is a shitty person.

I am making this post because I refuse to let them throw around accusations that I'm a predator.

Reasons I believe they are shitty:

I have ADHD, but I'll try not to derail any points.

After not seeing my spouse since Highschool, they invited them to a discord server. I was brought along and given a "+1" role, as in "This person isn't one of us, just @twiranux 's +1. I wouldn't have had a problem with that if it didn't create and "In group" and "out group" where the people in the ingroup treated the +1 role as "not a friend, just a +1."

They have a room for venting in that server, as a lot of people do. I have seen people typing in there on three occasions and decided not to interrupt them for my own needs, however the time I got to start typing in there and posted a couple of messages to indicate I would be typing, someone else came in and made it about them. I doubt they meant harm by that, but I went to @currynahh and explained it hurt to be silenced like that. I wasn't looking for an apology, I was looking for a solution so other people don't get hurt. My proposed suggestion was a second vent room for if there were 2 people needing it at once on that large a server, it would be helpful, or atleast a rule about interrupting vulnerable people. They dismissed this saying "two rooms wouldn't help because what if there were THREE people" which, if there were three people at the same time one would still have to wait, but the line would be split in half and people would be able to use it if it was an emergency and the first space was already taken without interrupting.

When they dismissed this idea, I said (and I dont have the exact quote as I left the channel, something @currynahh is very particular about is exact phrasing.) "If there's no rule against interrupting I guess next time I'm in need to type and someone is already using the safe space, I'll just be That Dickhead[TM] and interrupt? Can't wait." to which they threatened me with a ban, assuming I meant I was going to actively hurt people instead of just pointing out that there being no rule meant ANYONE could be That Dickhead[TM]

I also pointed out the inconsistency of threatening me with a ban for saying I'd do what the other user actually did and cut someone off. (they never spoke to the person who interrupted me about the event, to my knowledge, and I never spoke to them or saw their name) so I referred to them as "the fucker who interrupted me." Not in a mean way, just.. Here people can be called fuckers, like calling kids brats. I apologized once they said they found that rude, but they kept bringing it up saying I was name calling.

This is Hearsay, but apparently they said the person probably interrupted me because of ADHD, they seem a bit too comfortable deciding what is a factor of someone's else disabilities without consulting them.

Them dismissing my problems and threatening me with a ban instead of trying to fix their server made me actually go to name calling, and I still feel it's fair to call them a heartless cunt. Heartless for pretending to care when really they just wanted to defend someone in the in-group, Cunt cause it's a great word and it fits. I know the word Cunt is seen more harshly in some places, again, so much here. They really take offense to regional and class based dialects. They went to a private school and were calling me mean for just calling a dude I had no name for as "a fucker" when to me, someone who's poor and went to public school in a shitty town in Ontario, it's the norm here.

Since they showed they really didn't care I told them they were fake and left their channel, my spouse chose to follow me which I didnt know about at the time.

They DMed my spouse with another person who hasn't spoken to my spouse or I in 6 years to call me toxic, abusive and a predator. My spouse said they wouldn't have that conversation without me, as its childish and unproductive to just talk behind peoples backs. When @currynahh kicked me out of the group chat, refusing to talk like adults, my spouse asked me to log into their account to participate since they didn't want to be cornered by these two people to talk shit about someone they care about.

They call me toxic and abusive because I vaguely know the passwords to @twiranux 's accounts, despite never logging in unless asked to (for example a daily event in a videogame that they won't be able to make in time but wants the rewards.) and because on one occasion while I was napping, my spouse forgot an agreement we made about watching a specific movie together and I was upset about that, as I'm sure most people would be if their partner agreed to not watch something without them. I tried to keep my cool and just stay out of the way of their enjoyment, but my spouse wanted me to join in atleast for the end so I did, still grumpy but trying to make the best of it. If they had waited an hour or chose a different movie, things would've been different but @currynahh doesn't want "excuses."

They call me a predator because the person I'm married to is 2 years younger than me. @twiranux and I have been together almost 9 years now, we started Long Distance Online Dating just playing minecraft, listening to owl city (our song's Honey and The Bee 🐝,) and making Garry's Mod youtube videos. We would've been about 13 and 15 at the time, though it is worth noting that our birthdays were less than a month away from when we started dating so 14 and 16 if you want to make that distinction, I was in class with people the same age as my spouse. They think the age is gross, but we were two neurodivergent kids who were extremely sheltered at the time (helicopter parents/physical disabilities) who could only have freedom online. We had met through liking the same movies and youtubers and knew eachother a year before, while I was asking for advice on asking someone else out, my now spouse confessed attraction to me and I suggested we try "dating" for a bit, which consisted of nothing new except drawing cute pictures and giving eachother nicknames. I dont know if I knew their age at the time, but I did think they were a boy which didn't change anything, just hopefully shows I wasn't some 30 year old neckbeard hunting for kids on the net, I was just a disabled kid who was caught off guard by a confession of attraction and rolled with it.

@currynahh says they have proof that we weren't innocent in highschool, as (they claim) we asked them to write nsfw fanfic about us, which.. we didn't? My spouse has no idea where thats coming from and neither do I so just a blatant lie. Not that it's anyone's business but my spouse and I didnt meet in person for about 4 years and anything physical took place after we were both legal adults, im not comfortable going into more detail.

After my spouse had me log onto their account to show they weren't going to be cornered by those two, I was allowed back into the group chat to try and figure out why they think im problematic, but @currynahh insists im just making excuses when I've just been saying exactly what im saying here. They say I'm sugarcoating it, I disagree. I dont have the exact words I said about everything, but admitting to calling her a Heartless Cunt isn't something I'd do if i were sugarcoating it as she suggests. This is how it played out they keep trying to shove me into this "abuser" box they framed me in without knowing me.

They would repeatedly spew paragraphs of "points" then block me and leave the group chat while I was typing up a response. They don't want excuses (read: explanations) and they don't care about facts (that they misunderstood certain things and was willing to clear up what I meant if they weren't so caught up on semantics.)

I will not go into my partners mental illnesses on this platform, but they have a psychiatrist who I've met and I have to (sometimes in a way that looks controlling to someone who doesn't know the problems) keep my spouse grounded. The Psychiatrist thought I was doing a great job at managing it, but @currynahh disagrees, saying I'm enabling (without even letting us tell them what the problem is or how im helping.)

Which brings us to the next point; they say I can't talk about the mental health of myself or my spouse because it will trigger them, meaning they block any attempt we make at explaining how it works. They treat us as a neurotypical couple and call it abusive when I'm literally just doing what's deemed best by a psychiatrist for my spouse.

For DARING to tell her to stop calling me a predator, she calls me a narcissist, which is just.. Very cool. Love me some armchair diagnosis. They also diagnosed me with anger issues (from one call in which I was grumpy and then me trying to defend myself from these accusations.) So really, I think docs are being paid too much 'cause @currynahh is doing their job for free.

Because they weren't listening to my spouse, my spouse decided to stop typing, especially since she was just going on long rants then leaving the server before we could reply. Whenever @twiranux gets a chance to speak, @currynahh would leave the server claiming it triggers their anxiety to face the consequences of what they said. Then they would tell me to quit speaking over @twiranux when I was just speaking on our behalf, while in a call with @twiranux due to these reasons.

Instead of keeping their nose out of our relationship like we were asking, they kept trying to tell my spouse (who chose to marry me and lives in another country) that im abusive because they think trusting eachother is a sign of abuse.

Instead of listening that we're fine, they throw a tantrum and tell us to go to marriage counseling (which, although I wouldn't be opposed to going, is very telling that they think people can just do things that require money on a whim.)

They say that "instead of saving up to move in together and have kids you should put money towards marriage counseling" which again, what savings do they think I have? My bank account has -$4.00 in it and my spouse can't work right now. We have nothing.

They keep bringing up kids and how would we raise them? Would they not have privacy? Its a stupid point they threw out there as currently there aren't plans to have kids and there's huuuge difference between a married couple knowing eachothers passwords and not letting your kids have privacy.

They keep bringing up the fact that we've lost friends before without knowing why. So if they want to private message me I'd be happy to tell her about how we left our last friend group after a dispute where the other people were claiming the N word was inoffensive. Or the group that actually was trying to get into my spouses pants and we weren't comfortable there. You keep making accusations then refusing to listen to facts.

Idk if I'm missing anything, if they unblock me and see this they will probably say I'm staw-manning again without actually telling me how and while having no counter arguments. They also don't accept my adhd for accidentally derailing, while using theirs to deflect any criticism.

Karina, you don't know us and you say even talking about our mental health will trigger you, so you need to accept that you're unwilling or unable to understand the dynamics of our relationship but just because you don't understand it doesn't mean it's toxic. I wouldn't have made this post if you didn't keep calling me a predator, but I need to clear that accusation publicly before you keep throwing around dangerous labels.

Grow up. Get some help. Learn that your POV isn't the only one.

[whitherliliesbloom]

❀ illya skawi profile playlist

Character Profile - Music Edition  ♪

For many of us music is a source of inspiration for our characters, so I want to know what songs inspire and/or relate to your muse! Chose between 10-15 songs, compile them into an album and tag some friends to share the beat!  I’m choosing songs that I think are exclusive to Illya’s personality and development, rather than her role as the Warrior of Light because I think those songs can pretty much apply to ANY WOL. Songs about certain special relationships are also excluded, since I’ll be making a separate playlist for those.

“wallflowers can never bloom” {quiet}

Stray Italian Greyhound by Vienna Teng

god, i just want to lay down. these colors make my eyes hurt. this feeling calls for everything that i am not.

Waving through a Window by Owl City

did i even make a sound. it’s like i never made a sound. will i ever make a sound?

Five by Sleeping At Last

a white flag waves in the dark between my head and my heart. my armor falls apart. as if i could let myself be seen. even deeply known like i was already brave enough to let go.

“wilting slowly, surely.” {helplessness}

Antidote by Faith Marie

i tried to find my reflection on the glass, but i all i ever saw were the things i lacked. all the smudges on the mirror make me go insane. all i ever thought i was was a mistake.

Lilac by Minami

happiness is a blurring defective eye shutter. painful things appear delicately by a high resolution lens. 

The Walk by Imogen Heap

no it’s not meant to be like this. not what i planned at all. i don’t want to feel like this. so this makes it all your fault.

Failure girl cover by Oktavia [tw: hints of self-harm?]

everybody tells me i’m a failure. there’s no reason to even show me love. no matter whatever i do, it falls short of enough.

Hard Times by Paramore

gonna make you wonder why you even try. gonna take you down and laugh when you cry. and i still don’t know how i even survive

idontwannabeyouanymore by Billie Eilish

tell the mirror what you know she’s heard before. i don’t wanna be you anymore.

“even if it’s to save just one more, then with my last breath..” {purpose}

Daughter of the moon by Adriana Figueroa

destiny was close behind her. phantom of borrowed life. and the sea was a reminder. mirror of given light.

Determination symphony by Roselia

let your prayer of courage ride on your sound. your fingers, connected to a promise, play it. someday by your side, even if its impossible now. i won’t stop.

“i love you more than you’ll ever know” {self-acceptance}

Shake it out by Florence & the Machine

and it’s hard to dance with a devil on your back. so shake him off.

They will fall like roses by of Verona

you don’t know who i’ve become. i’ve become somebody else. i have used it for myself. i have used it to be free. 

Cosmic love by Florence & the Machine

then i heard your heart beating. you were in the darkness too. so i stayed in the darkness with you.

Never lost Word cover by JubyPhonic

A flower bloomed inside of the mirror and she finally replied ‘good morning’ to me.

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Not sure if anybody wants a detailed explanation of each category and song and how they relate to Illya but if you are i love you stuff is under read more!

wallflowers can never bloom:

More about Illya’s shyness, introversion and social anxiety. Stray Italian Greyhound is pretty much Illya at the start of ARR, when she’s still incredibly uncertain about everything and unwilling to take risks. But after meeting more people, making more friends and learning to open up, she becomes more willing to turn her “no”s into “maybe”. Waving through a window is pretty self-explanatory about her social anxiety. Being afraid of connecting with others, and yet she also fears not having a voice and not being known by others. Five is just a song about her enneagram type about being afraid of showing her feelings because she believes it would push others away, and her curiosity about the world around her.

wilting slowly, surely:

Lots of songs about depression, self-hatred, helplessness. Illya’s trapped in a state of constant melancholy. Antidote can actually be taken rather literally about the first time she discovers her “dark self” at the start of the dark knight storyline. Lilac and Hard Times describes her emotional fragility. When the going gets tough, she doesn’t always handle it well, and crumbles. The Walk is where Illya has a habit of blaming herself for her emotions. For feeling angry, momentarily showing her emotions to others, feeling scared. Failure Girl describes her powerlessness. Being unable to help solve all of the worlds’ problems, being too late in saving certain people. Whatever she does is never enough. idontwannabeyouanymore is raw self-hatred.

even if it’s just to save one more, then with my last breath:

At the end of the day, she pushes through because her morality compels her. She can’t ever forgive herself if she allows her own feelings and insecurities stop her from doing her duty. Daughter of the moon is her realizing and remembering the gift she’s been given, and that she cannot afford to waste it. Even if it costs her her life to save others. Determination symphony is just a self-empowerment song of her finding the courage to keep pressing forward.

i love you more than you’ll ever know:

It’s a long process, but slowly, Illya is learning to accept and love herself. In Shake it out and Cosmic Love, she accepts the darker parts of her personality (or fray). She begins to let go of the hatred she bears for her own inner demons, and accepts that it will always be part of her. She finally accepts that it’s okay to not be perfect. They will fall like roses is her answer to the people who have hurt her, to those who made her into the woman she is today. Never Lost Word is her growth from a bud that could do nothing but doubt and hate herself, to someone who could finally look herself in the mirror. 

[themjinterviews-blog]

48. Put your hands in the air and say hell yeah. Captain Jack! Johnny Depp!

What motivates you to do what you do? Sheer necessity, usually.

What was the weather like the last time you went out? Hot. It’s Arizona so it’s probably near 100 + sunny.

Do you go for walks often? I’m pretty lazy and try to avoid it. You sorta gotta trick me into walking, like take me to a big shopping mall or something so I inadvertently walk around it whilst shopping.

What color shirt are you wearing? Gray.

What is your favorite type of youtube video to watch? I don’t really watch any. I just use it to occasionally look up songs or to record snippets of stuff to remix songs.

Do you need any new clothes right now? I got plenty.

What’s the next project you are excited to start? I’m working on a nonsensical Adult Coloring Book featuring animals committing crimes.

Do you collect anything? If so, what? Used to collect rocks and Pokémon cards. I suppose in a sense I collect all sorts of art/office supplies.

^and if not, what would you like to collect? Nothing really.

What was the last disappointing thing that happened to you? I don’t know. Suppose work being closed for renovation for 2 weeks kinda sucks because I sort of need cash.

What is something God has healed you of? I don’t really do the whole God/Religion rigamarole... Chances are if we are healed of something, there is a psychological, sociological biological or generally rational explanation.

Have you ever experienced a miracle? Like, a phenomenal coincidence? I think as much as I hate to be a downer, there's probably a lot to do with our perceptions of events

What was the last thing you ate? Lucky Charms.

Do you ever eat food that’s intended for kids? Well, Lucky Charms. I also love pizza rolls and chicken nuggets. But I’m not eating Gerber Peas&Carrot baby foods or anything crazy like that.

What was the last stupid thing you did? Define “stupid”? Most things I do are probably stupid to others but perfectly acceptable to me.

Do you get embarrassed easily? Sometimes.

Are you wearing pants or shorts right now? I never wear shorts.

What are your top three names you like for a daughter? Elliot (this is also my pick for a boy name), Tara, Hazel.

Would you ever film a vlog of yourself giving birth? Ew. Fuck no. Honestly, adopting/fostering sounds way more my style anyway. To be totally frank, pregnancy sounds gross and being unable to take my adderall sounds awful. I’d gain like, a million pounds.

Do you like getting caught in the rain? It’s usually a refreshing break from the heat out here.

Do you think your hair looks best straight, wavy, or curly? Messy, or in a side-pony.

What was the last craft project you completed?: Coloring books for my friends’ kid.

Name 3 youtubers you would like to meet in person: I don’t know any.

Has anyone ever spread an untrue rumor about you? Sociopath ex. Not sure he actually said them aloud to people other than myself, but I was constantly being accused of weird stuff I absolutely did not do.

What’s one rumor you’ve heard about yourself, and is it true? N/A. No idea. Not aware of any relevant or applicable rumors. I literally just keep to myself and do crafts.

What color are your nails painted currently? Not painted.

Do you use a pill box? Jesus, I’m not 80.

List 3 people you know who were loving and then turned cold: it’s kind of generic to assume either of those things as permanent traits. But probably most flings or whatever. It always feels cold when one party loses interest.

Have you filmed a youtube video today? Never filmed one in my life.

Do you leave the house when you’re on your period? Um yes. Life doesn’t stop just because I have cramps.

^If not, why not? -

Have you ever felt threatened for your life? Yeah. Sociopath ex would get overtly paranoid and mistake harmless or unrelated things I did or said to be conspiracies against him. And occasionally my imaginary betrayals would lead to violent words or actions. Like, a bundle of index cards with Carrabba’s menu items and their ingredients, word for word, from the Carrabba’s menu, was somehow coded plots to who the fuck knows to have him killed. Irrational stuff like that.

What are you behind on? Student loans. And when I say behind, I really mean that I actively chose not to pay them.

Do you get enough sleep each night? No because night is my time to be productive, uninterrupted and without bothering anyone. I hate having to stop my thoughts just because other people are making noise or trying to converse with me.

Which did you like better: high school or college? Absolutely college.

Which year of your life stands out to you as the most significant so far? Probably last year or two.

…and why? Big personal transitions and revelations in my life philosophy.

What was the last store you shopped at? Walmart, most likely.

Do you have a favorite pharmacist? I used to back in NY. Her name was Evie. She wished a customer Happy Thanksgiving on Valentine’s Day accidentally once and it cracked me up and we had a running joke about it.

Do you have a favorite cashier at the grocery store? I don’t shop frequently enough and I switch up stores when I do.

What was the last thing you ordered at Starbucks? Probably a toffee nut Frappuccino.

What’s something you discovered recently?

What makes you more creative? Emotional turbulence, certain drugs.

What’s the last magical thing you experienced? Um…Magical? The herd of unicorns crossing the I-10.

What is the theme of your bedroom? None. We are staying in a spare room at a friend’s. But we're actually moving this week because being micromanaged and constantly scrutinized was getting old.

Have you ever lived in a dorm? Yes, for a few years

Who is someone whom you admire, and why? I guess the lady at work, Amanda. She’s like 64 and works open-close every day, and still has a great attitude.

When was the last time you stepped outside of your comfort zone? I don’t know. I test the waters every once in awhile.

Where would you like to travel to next? Nowhere crazy. Just back to New York for the Renaissance Faire.

If you could win three dream vacations to anywhere, where would you go? Portugal—New Zealand—Ireland.

Would you rather ride a camel or an elephant? Camel. They’re fuzzy.

Are you a free spirit? I don’t know what that even constitutes. I think outside the box and I question social conformity and other preset patterns of thought. But I don’t know that has much to do with my spirit.

Do you want to lose weight? I think I’m okay for now.

Which insects scare you, if any? They don’t scare me, they just creep me out …spiders, centipedes, millipedes, roaches…ugh.

Do you think it’s silly to be afraid of a tiny insect? It’s not like I think they’re going to murk me with a sawed off shot gun. I know they’re harmless and therefor not technically scary…but they’re still creepy and unsettling somehow.

Have you ever experienced paranoia? To some degree.

Have you ever hallucinated? Indeed.

Were you raised religious? We were raised Roman Catholic. Didn’t stick.

Have you ever been abused? Psychologically, emotionally, physically and sexually. #sociopathic ex.

Do you think the cops should do more about bullying? I think cops have enough shit to worry about as is and don’t know how effective extensive police interference would even be. I think the anti-bullying message is stronger when conveyed by people closer to kids like teachers, parents, siblings or a celebrity figure they idolize.

Is there a coffee shop you like better than Starbucks? I like them all about the same.

If you could afford to get your hair professionally done, what would you get? Probably dye and highlights. Definite trim of my bangs.

If you had a lot of money, do you think you would use it wisely? Absolutely not. I have little to no money now and I don’t even use *that* wisely.

Do you know any rich people who are very irresponsible? I don’t know many people to begin with.

List five careers that you’d like to have: Lawyer (like A.D.A. Barba!)...Graphic Designer...Psychologist...Self-Help writer...and oddly wouldn't mind being a waitress still.

List five far-out things that you’d like to do before you die: I genuinely do not have a bucket list. If I stumble upon something that seems cool, I do it. Making unrealistic lists won't help my quality of life very much.

Do you dream big? Quite the opposite. I sort of just fly by the seat of my pants. Weird expression. Can’t recall ever having very fixated dreams or visions for myself.

What was your first imaginary friend’s name? N/A

What was the name of the first pet that you loved? Comet. <3

What was the first work uniform that you had to wear? Waitress uniform of sorts. I wanna say it was white button down and black pants.

Do you like to go barefoot? Usually. On some surfaces it’s intolerable and I hate the texture, though.

Do you like the same colors now that you did as a kid? Pretty much.

Do you have a blog? You’re on it, buddy. This is a survey blog.

Do you have a youtube channel? What would I even post videos about?? I assure you, I do nothing that the general public would find entertaining.

[flower-vixen]

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[C] ↳(include a short synopsis of the character here for those too lazy to read the entire biography. include the most important information relevant to the roleplay.) [C] ◌ ◍ ◌ [C]⋰ ⋱ [C] Photo [C]⋱ ⋰ [C] ◌ ◍ ◌ [C] ❝ quote/lyric ❞ [C]┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈ [I] OC TEASER ˎˊ˗ [C] (write a roleplay example as this character here. this will be a good way to introduce your character to people and get them hooked, so try to write about something interesting!) [C] ◌ ◍ ◌ [C]⋰ ⋱ [C] Photo [C]⋱ ⋰ [C] ◌ ◍ ◌ [C] ❝ quote/lyric ❞ [C]┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈ [I] OVERALL ˎˊ˗ [C]i. | NAME. [C] Full Name Here [C] ↳(include name meanings and, if required, pronunciation help. you can also include how the character feels about their name, or why their parents chose this name.) [C]ii. | NICKNAME(S). [C] ❝ Nickname ❞ | ❝ Nickname ❞ [C] ↳ (who gave them these nicknames and why? what is their significance?) [C]iii. | AGE & BIRTHDAY. [C]Day/Month/Year, Age Range. [C] ↳ (what was the day they were born like. how do they like to celebrate their birthday?) [C]iv. | ZODIAC. [C] Sun Zodiac. Moon Zodiac. Rising Zodiac. [C] ↳ (does the character act like a typical person of their zodiac? what’s different?) [C]v. | GENDER. [C]Add Gender Here. [C] ↳ (how do they feel about their gender. if their transgender explain their transitioning journey etc.) [C]vi. | SPECIES. [C]Add Species Here. [C] ↳ (if not human please explain what the different traits of the species is.) [C]vii. | PREFERENCE. [C] Sexual Orientation. Romantic Orientation. [C] ↳ (are they open or closeted about their sexuality? who else knows? etc.) [C]viii. | NATIONALITY. [C] Nationality Here. (can be multiple.) [C] ↳ (explain some of the customs or traditions associated with this nationality especially if it impacts the character.) [C]ix. | LANGUAGES. [C] ↳ Mother Tongue [C] ↳ Second Language (include what level they can understand, read, speak or write the language, are they bilingual?) [C] ↳ Third Language (include what level they can understand, read, speak or write the language.) [C]x. | LOCATIONS. [C]Birthplace. Hometown. Current Location. [C] ↳ (has the character moved in their life? do they currently live in the same place they were born in? explain their journey.) [C] ◌ ◍ ◌ [C]⋰ ⋱ [C] Photo [C]⋱ ⋰ [C] ◌ ◍ ◌ [C] ❝ quote/lyric ❞ [C]┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈ [I] PERSONALITY ˎˊ˗ [C]i. | USUAL MOOD. [C] Here. [C] ↳ (why are they usually this way?) [C]ii. | OVERALL. [C] Include Personality Type/Brief Overview. [C] ↳ (what is their overall personality? make sure to include why the are the way they are with examples and explanations.) [C]iii. | LIKES. [C] ↳ (list them here) [C]iv. | DISLIKES. [C] ↳ (list them here) [C]v. | HABITS. [C] ↳ (list them here) [C]vi. | FEARS. [C] ↳ (list them here) [C]vii. | PET PEEVES. [C] ↳ (list them here) [C]viii. | BIGGEST DREAM. [C]Biggest Dreams here. [C] ↳ (explain why they want to reach this goal, or what are they doing to reach this goal? [C] ◌ ◍ ◌ [C]⋰ ⋱ [C] Photo [C]⋱ ⋰ [C] ◌ ◍ ◌ [C] ❝ quote/lyric ❞ [C]┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈ [I] LIFESTYLE ˎˊ˗ [C]i. | EDUCATION [C]Current Level, IQ. [C] ↳ (explain what they are currently studying, what their previous grades were, how their life at school was, etc.) [C]ii. | OCCUPATION [C]Job Title/Dream Job [C] ↳ (explain what their job entails, or what their dream job would entail. explain their shift schedule etc.) [C]iii. | INCOME. [C]Yearly/Monthly/Weekly Income. [C] ↳ (how did they earn this income? do they receive an allowance from family? did they steal this money or receive it in a criminal way?) [C]iv. | HOME. [C] Apartment. House. Studio. Student Halls. [C] ↳ (describe where they live. do they still live at home with family. do they have a flat mate? etc.) [C] ◌ ◍ ◌ [C]⋰ ⋱ [C] Photo [C]⋱ ⋰ [C] ◌ ◍ ◌ [C] ❝ quote/lyric ❞ [C]┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈ [I] APPEARANCE ˎˊ˗ [C]i. | BODY STRUCTURE. [C] Body type. Body shape. Height. Weight. [C] ↳ (describe their body, their skin type and colour.) [C]ii. | DISTINGUISHING FEATURES. [C] Any Prominent Features (face or bodily). [C] ↳ (describe scars, blemishes, freckles and moles, and any tattoos or piercings on their body/face.) [C]iii. | EYES. [C] Colour. Shape. [C] ↳ (describe any unique features about their eyes, do they look different colours in certain lighting. do they need glasses or contacts?) [C]iv. | HAIR. [C]Colour. Texture. Style. [C] ↳ (describe the character’s hair. what is their natural hair colour vs their current hair colour? how do they like to wear/style their hair?) [C]v. | MAKEUP. [C]Natural/Glamour/Colourful [C] ↳ (if they wear makeup, describe their daily makeup routine, and what they like to change based on the occasion). [C] ◌ ◍ ◌ [C]⋰ ⋱ [C] Photo [C]⋱ ⋰ [C] ◌ ◍ ◌ [C] ❝ quote/lyric ❞ [C]┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈ [I] WARDROBE ˎˊ˗ [C]i. | USUAL ATTIRE. [C] ↳ (describe what they like to wear on a day to day basis just going about their life. do they have a uniform they have to wear for work?) [C]ii. | SEASONAL ATTIRE. [C] ↳ (what do they change about their everyday look during the winter, spring, summer or autumn?) [C]iii. | SPECIAL OCCASIONS. [C] ↳(what would they wear on a date or to a ball or party?) [C]iv. | SLEEPWEAR. [C] ↳ (what do they like to sleep in, what kind of underwear do they like to wear?) [C]v. | SPECIAL TRINKETS. [C] ↳ (any charms or pieces of jewellery that have any significance to them? what’s the story behind it?) [C]vi. | INSIDE THEIR BAG. [C] ↳ (list what kind of items can be found inside of their bag, what kind of bag is it? is it messy or well organised?) [C] ◌ ◍ ◌ [C]⋰ ⋱ [C] Photo [C]⋱ ⋰ [C] ◌ ◍ ◌ [C] ❝ quote/lyric ❞ [C]┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈ [I] COMBAT ˎˊ˗ [C] ↳ (explain any supernatural abilities regarding to the character species, e.g. vampires, werewolves, vampire slayers, etc. or perhaps they are a mutant with superhero abilities which can be described here. maybe the world they live in makes them need to be able to fight, such as an apocalypse setting; if so, what kind of weapon do they prefer or carry about with them? maybe they have taught themselves self defence? or maybe they are completely useless in a fight? Are they a total pacifist?) [C] ◌ ◍ ◌ [C]⋰ ⋱ [C] Photo [C]⋱ ⋰ [C] ◌ ◍ ◌ [C] ❝ quote/lyric ❞ [C]┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈ [I] HEALTH ˎˊ˗ [C]i. | GENERAL HEALTH. [C] List Any Conditions. [C] ↳(explain any health conditions here. do some research about the condition! do they have to take any medication for these conditions? can they live a somewhat normal life? how does this affect them?) [C]ii. | MENTAL HEALTH. [C] List Any Conditions. [C] ↳(explain any mental health conditions here. do some research about the condition! do they have to take any medication for these conditions? can they live a somewhat normal life? how does this affect them?) [C]iii. | DIET. [C]Vegetarian/Vegan/Lactose Free/Gluten Free, etc. [C] ↳ (explain their dietary requirements here!) [C]iv. | ACTIVITIES [C]Activities They Do To Keep Healthy [C] ↳ (explain what daily/weekly activities they do to keep fit and healthy. or do they just laze about and do nothing?) [C]v. | ADDICTIONS [C]List Here. [C] ↳ (are they addicted to anything? are they in denial about their addiction? are they more of a social drinker/smoker than an addict? how do they feel about drugs?) [C] ◌ ◍ ◌ [C]⋰ ⋱ [C] Photo [C]⋱ ⋰ [C] ◌ ◍ ◌ [C] ❝ quote/lyric ❞ [C]┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈ [I] EXTRA INFORMATION ˎˊ˗ [I] This or That ˎˊ˗ [C]◞┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈◟ [I] Introvert or Extrovert ↳ [I] Fighter or Pacifist ↳ [I] Social Butterfly or Wallflower ↳ [I] Insolent or Genuine ↳ [I] Logical or Emotional ↳ [I] Right or Left Handed ↳ [I] Leader or Follower ↳ [C] ◝┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈◜ [I] Favourites ˎˊ˗ [C]◞┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈◟ [I] Season ↳ [I] Time of Day ↳ [I] Colour ↳ [I] Film ↳ [I] Music ↳ [I] Book ↳ [I] Animal ↳ [C] ◝┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈◜ [C] ◌ ◍ ◌ [C]⋰ ⋱ [C] Photo [C]⋱ ⋰ [C] ◌ ◍ ◌ [C] ❝ quote/lyric ❞ [C]┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈ [I] RELATIONSHIPS ˎˊ˗ [C] i. | MOTHER. [C] Name Here. [C] ↳ (describe the relationship.) [C] ii. | FATHER. [C] Name Here. [C] ↳ (describe the relationship.) [C] iii. | SISTER(S). [C] Names Here. [C] ↳ (describe the relationships.) [C] iv. | BROTHER(S). [C] Names Here. [C] ↳ (describe the relationships.) [C] v. | OTHER RELATIVE(S). [C] Names Here. [C] ↳ (describe the relationships.) [C] vi. | BEST FRIEND. [C] Name Here. [C] ↳ (describe the relationship, if they are best friends with another members character link them here!) [C] vii. | FRIEND(S). [C] Names Here. [C] ↳ (describe the relationships, if they are friends with another members character link them here!) [C] vi. | CURRENT PARTNER [C] Name Here. [C] ↳ (describe the relationship, if they are dating with another members character link them here!) [C] vii. | EX-PARTNER(S). [C] Names Here. [C] ↳ (describe the relationships, if they have dated another members character link them here!) [C]viii. | ENCHANTING. [C] ↳ (list what your character finds attractive about a partner here) [C]ix. | DISENCHANTING. [C] ↳ (list what your character finds unattractive about a partner here) [C]x. | PERFECT DATE. [C] ↳ (describe the perfect date/ or dream date/ for your character ) [C] ◌ ◍ ◌ [C]⋰ ⋱ [C] Photo [C]⋱ ⋰ [C] ◌ ◍ ◌ [C] ❝ quote/lyric ❞ [C]┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈ [I] HISTORY ˎˊ˗ [C]i. | INFANCY-CHILDHOOD. [C] ↳ [C]ii. | ADOLESCENCES. [C] ↳ [C]iii. | ADULTHOOD. [C] ↳ [C]iv. | PRESENT DAY. [C] ↳ [C] ◌ ◍ ◌ [C]⋰ ⋱ [C] Photo [C]⋱ ⋰ [C] ◌ ◍ ◌ [C] ❝ quote/lyric ❞ [C]┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈ [I] THEME SONG ˎˊ˗ [C] *insert theme song here* [C] song title - artist [C] ₀₀․₀₀◦──────•────◦ ₀₃․₃₅ [C]⟲◂◂ ► Ⅱ ▸▸ ♡ [C] ◌ ◍ ◌ [C]⋰ ⋱ [C] Photo [C]⋱ ⋰ [C] ◌ ◍ ◌ [C] ❝ quote/lyric ❞ [C]┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈

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‘Why Did You Go To Comic-con In A Skirt?’ - My MCM London “Crossplay” Experience

(Me in the centre) First of all, let’s clarify: The fact that my cosplay included a skirt is one of the most insignificant details about it. Secondly, I don’t entirely agree with the term “crossplay” myself, as it draws too much attention to the fact that the character just happens to be the opposite sex to the cosplayer. But this post is intended for people who don’t necessarily share the same views as me on this, so the title is tailored as such. So MCM London in May was pretty fun. I pretty much went entirely for the ‘Love Live! School Idol Project’ fan meet as I’d gotten rather into that franchise over the past year. I liked the bright tone of the show, and I thought the music was catchy and well composed. I’m a composer myself so I could appreciate all the creative details of the songs. I really like this ‘idol’ style of J-Pop, and the promise of discovering more songs of that style was the main reason I chose to give the show a watch. I had no idea what the quality of the show itself would be.

Turns out, it was pretty good. While it has a few flaws, mainly in that nine main characters was too many to develop them all equally, ‘Love Live! School Idol Project’ actually kind of nailed what it was going for. While I would hesitate to recommend it to anyone who considers themselves to be mature, those who still have access to their inner child may find themselves actually getting on board with this colourful show. And you don’t have to be a girl to enjoy it, even if some might consider it ‘girly’. It’s about a second-year student named Honoka Kousaka at the failing Otonokizaka High School; who tries to put together a J-Pop idol group with her fellow peers to attract more prospective students to the school.

By the end of Season 1, Honoka really stood out as a personal favourite character for me. As someone who wants to start and lead my own rock band, I really admired Honoka’s passion and determination for her creative project, and I relate to her intense focus on realising her idea, as well her inability to give up on something she’s set out to do.

...At the same time, she’s kind of the complete opposite when it comes to anything outside of the idol group, and she’s much less motivated when it comes to less creatively stimulating things like schoolwork and her student council duties.

....I relate to that as well x’D

So, that’s the background behind the character I decided to cosplay and what led me to this point. But I would imagine I also need to explain my views on gender roles and labeling things as being for certain genders. Basically,my world view is very genderblind. I believe gender is irrelevant in almost every situation. In other words, people are people, and some happen to be boys and some happen to be girls (Or both or neither, if you identify as such), but it’s very much a back of the mind thing.

So the idea that certain things are for boys and certain things are for girls doesn’t really add up to me. It’s slightly absurd to suggest that I’m not capable of enjoying certain shows just because I’m a man. Women aren’t alien creatures, I can understand, relate to, and enjoy most of the situations that a “girl’s show” with an all-female cast presents without any difficulty. It’s like suggesting that a “women’s” deodorant doesn’t work on men. Basically I just think everything is for everyone.

So further extending these thoughts, the fact that the character I cosplayed is female really isn’t the important detail here. It’s a character I considered to be one of my favourites, so I cosplayed as her. Simple as that. And while it may included a skirt, I would go as far as to say that it’s not a “girl’s skirt”, it’s a skirt. There was no magic spell on it that scanned for my gentials before proclaiming ‘ERROR! THIS SKIRT IS FOR GIRL’S ONLY!’ and self destructing. To be honest, I would actually say it was more comfortable than trousers. So yeah, clothing isn’t gendered, and nothing is really.

It’s true that I could have done a male version, but the only reason to do that would have been out of fear of what people might think. That’s an unhealthy mindset I want to distance myself from. What I do appreciate is just how little the con community cared though, despite a few fears in the back of my mind.

So in summary: From my point of view, this was no different to when I went to MCM last year as Link. The only difference was that this was a character I genuinely loved, rather than a character I already convieniently looked a bit like. I honestly feel like a limit’s been lifted, and now I’m free to cosplay a lot of my favourite characters. A majority of them happen to be female, so I’ve never actually cosplayed a favourite character before

Thanks if you made it this far. Ideally I wouldn’t be making an explanation post at all, but I felt like it would be easier to talk about it like it’s normal (which it is) if I had a post written up for reference to explain my viewpoint to those outside the con community.

[divine-identite]

RULES. repost, don’t reblog. tag ten. TAGGED. @thegreatunxter  thank you Lari :) TAGGING. anyone else who wants to do this.

BASICS.

FULL  NAME.   Paddra-Ballad Caius, Caius Ballad NICKNAME.   none AGE.   2,000+ BIRTHDAY.   December 27th  ♑  Capricorn ♑ (Capricorn Sun / Scorpio moon) ETHNIC GROUP.   Indigenous/Aborginals/Paddran NATIONALITY.   Pulsian LANGUAGE / S. canon: Pulsian  ;New World: French, Italian, Russian God of Death: Nigh-omniscience  SEXUAL ORIENTATION.   Heterosexual  ROMANTIC ORIENTATION.   Demiromantic RELATIONSHIP STATUS. Single (canon) / in a relationship (AU) CLASS.  N/A HOME TOWN / AREA.   Paddra CURRENT HOME.   The New Unseen Realm PROFESSION.   Seeress’s Guardian, God of Death

PHYSICAL.

HAIR.  Long purple hair, goes down to her mid-back. Smooth with light purple tufts of hair. EYES.  a vivid purple, almond-shaped. His eyes are normally sharp, stern, and intense usually some moments, which may intimidate some people who see them NOSE.  Wide bridge but slender nostrils it's also tall and straight  FACE. His face is kinda of square, prominent, strong jaw, open forehead, and subtle high cheekbones. LIPS. Full lips, the bottom is a bit more full COMPLEXION.  tanned - earth tones mostly, smooth, and soft with some weathering. BLEMISHES. He has freckles when looked upon closely have lightened up over the years but are distinguishable under a keen eye SCARS.  A few but they have faded possible or just non-existent due to the nature of the heart of chaos. TATTOOS. N/A HEIGHT.   6′4″ WEIGHT. 197 lbs BUILD.   Athletic, slender FEATURES. My seem imposing, vivid purple hair  ALLERGIES. N/A USUAL HAIR STYLE. Usually let down, held in place by his headband a large sweeping bang from the left. USUAL FACE LOOK.   Stern, unmoved and confident, even seen smirking arrogantly. While it’s not rare nor is it a common occurence, her features tends to soften up when he’s around people such as Yeul USUAL CLOTHING.  Armour made by Etro reverence of Bahamut

PSYCHOLOGY.

FEAR / S.  Failure, in the past many perhaps not being personal worth. ASPIRATION / S.  To end his and her suffering and free themselves from this accursed torment given by the Goddess Etro POSITIVE TRAITS.  Determined, Persistent, Dutiful, Practical, Wise,  NEGATIVE TRAITS.  Apathetic/Callous, Dogged, Blunt, Manipulative, Merciless, Cruel, Nonsense, Dogged MBTI.   LOGISTICIAN (ISTJ-A) ZODIAC.   Capricorn TEMPEREMENT.   Phlegmatic/ Choleric SOUL TYPE / S.  Hunter/ Caregiver ANIMALS.   Sable VICE HABIT / S.  N/A FAITH.  Agnostic GHOSTS? Yes AFTERLIFE? Yes REINCARNATION? He has none ALIENS? No. POLITICAL ALIGNMENT.  N/A  ECONOMIC PREFERENCE. N/A SOCIOPOLITICAL POSITION. EDUCATION LEVEL.  Home-schooled 

FAMILY.

FATHER.  N/A MOTHER. N/A SIBLINGS.  N/A EXTENDED  FAMILY.  N/A NAME MEANING / S.   Caius is classical and serious but also has a simple, joyful quality. There was a third century pope named Caius, as well as an early Christian writer, several Shakespearean characters, and a Twilight vampire. We would pronounce the name to rhyme with eye-us though at Cambridge University in England, where it's the name of a college, it's pronounced keys. Caius is currently Number 164 on Nameberry. 

HISTORICAL CONNECTION ?  N/A

FAVOURITES.

BOOK. N/A MOVIE. N/A 5 SONGS.  “ Heavy” - Florence + The Machine, “Caius Theme” - Final Fantasy XIII-2  “Oblivion“ - Bastille Sun and Steel” - Audiomachine “ Dawn ” - Skyrim DEITY.  N/A HOLIDAY.  N/A MONTH.  November, December SEASON.  Fall, Winter PLACE.  Paddra WEATHER. Fair temperatures, little  humidity, weather with slight forecast SOUND. Rainfall, night-time cricket ambience, the night, THE QUIET SCENT / S. like night, like fresh after a rain storm night. Coupled with a bit of sea water, jasmine, metal and earthy tones.  TASTE / S. Salt, Honey FEEL / S.  Leather, animal hide, scales ANIMAL / S.  Bahamut NUMBER.  N/A COLOUR. Green

EXTRA.

TALENTS.  Piano, creating metal sculpture art BAD  AT.  Critical, Self-Expressing, Fastidious, Judgemental, Conservative, Apathetic TURN  ONS.  An interesting personality, a good rival, determination, passion, being vigilant and perhaps just someone battling the odds.  TURN  OFFS.  Ignorance, constant nonsense, terrible personality, invading personal space, Weakness HOBBIES. Reading, taking long walks, training, stargazing TROPES. Papa Wolf: Seriously, do not mess with Yeul when he's around. That includes you, universe and you too, Etro. AESTHETIC  TAGS.   Moon, rain, mountains, forests, charcoal, feathers, leather, time, Fog GPOY  QUOTES.  “ Forever isn’t bright; it isn’t like that. Forever is cold and hard and final. .” - Deathless, Catherynne M. Valente

FC INFO.

MAIN  FC / S. N/A ALT  FC / S.  N/A OLDER  FC / S.  N/A YOUNGER  FC / S. N/A VOICE  CLAIM / S. Liam’ O Bren

MUN QUESTIONS.

Q1.   if you could write your character your way in their own movie, what would it be called, what style would it be filmed in, and what would it be about?  A1.  Walk to Oblvion - that explores the boundaries of morality between what is typically good and evil, and understand what is truly human in character in our core. I think perhaps a western movie or a high fantasy movie which Caius cause’s destruction for a greater purpose.

Q2.   what would their soundtrack / score sound like? A2.   Oh, boy I say Dawn - Jeremy Soule, Skyrim. 

Q3.   why did you start writing this character? A3.    From long story to short, it started when I was in yoga class when Book 4 was still airing. My muse for her came out of nowhere and I told myself the feeling is going to go away, but that night…I ended up making a blog for her. And here I am now.

Q4.   what first attracted you to this character? A4. Oh boy, this is a long explanation you’re demanding from me lol but I’ll bite. Well to star,t I picked up Caius out of curiosity and perhaps chance, I originally wanted to do Noctis - but Tumblr was so oversaturated with Noctis that I didn't want to be a clone. So, I had to go through the “fishing for a muse” phase.  I roleplayed a bit as Riku from KH , Kefka from FF6 and thus Caius. Now I chose Caius because from what I was told usually people pick him up and drop him like a dime - it sounded like a role I could take to see how it went since he was my first villain (at that point was a bit insecure at the time  ) At first, I was unsure if I would be good with him when I went on a massive study on him, he was this compelling villain and seem always to have a recognisable appearance which i was worried I would not master or convey into my other rps. Later,  I learned he was the most human of all final fantasy characters out there; with him wanting to destroy time for just one person, which other final fantasy 13 character such as Lightning, Fang wanted cocoon destroyed just to save those they loved and that kind of drew in more the more I realised it; the whole grey spectrum and his personality I could just connect with it off the bat ( I don’t know something about stoic attitude that always kinda makes me want to roleplay them so well and it always works for me, funny as it was since I used to RP Cloud Strife back on myspace). Though I think me and Caius have many differences we do have many similarities which made me fancy the character and got me to portray him to this level where. It’s perhaps easy to know  So, I guess you can say I roleplayed him as a mistake?

Q5.   describe the biggest thing you dislike about your muse. A5.  Being cryptic and generally just being callous so many things that some people would be, pretty much an asshole to people and his unfiltered honesty. Not being expressive

Q6.   what do you have in common with your muse? A6.   quite blunt lol and down to earth actually, i guess being practical at least.

Q7.   how does your muse feel about you? A7.  cool dood just needs to lighten the fuck up sometimes and be less blunt and callous, he would make a lot of friends if he did that.

Q8.   what characters does your muse have interesting interactions with? A8.   Kuvira (Avatar. Legend of Korra), Alex Benedetto (Gangsta), i think mostly Moana (Disney’s Moana), Fang ( Final Fantasy XIII trilogy), Kuja (Final Fantasy IX)

Q9.   what gives you the inspiration to write your muse? A9.  SE not fleshing out Caius, a lot of gothic horror pieces of literature, Lovecraft and Poe to flesh out his emotional states in some of my rps and what not. To expound upon such an amazing character is an honour and give my perspective on certain events, ones even sensitive, that have shaped his bleak future which he woefully remembers most of his life.

Q10. how long did this take you to complete?

Like a week lol because I was so on and off and doing multiple things

[bffhhoneymoon]

Entry 25

 I felt as if my eyes were bulging out of my head.  The pink-skinned beings around us had no sense of modesty.  Some of them wore clothing with more holes than material.  Many of the outfits with abundant material were also transparent.  Barely an hour on this planet and I was equally appalled by its occupants and impressed by its beauty.

 Displays of affection were not only frequent, they were grandiose.  Kissing seemed as common as a greeting to these people.  Lewd dancing to music groups sang was frequent.  What I felt and heard going on just out of sight was entirely inappropriate.

 When Aaliyah warned us that we might have a sense of culture shock due to this being a pleasure planet, I expected the drinking, gambling, drugs, music, and numerous forms of entertainment.  The crowds weren't surprising, not even with the singing.  I knew Dani's people had a love of music.  The complete lack of even a sense of decency was appalling.  James had to agree.  He frequently covered Dani's eyes.

 “Watch this.” stated Aaliyah shortly into our trip towards the school, grabbing my hand with a grip that made me feel fragile.  Then she started to sing.

 The song spread out from her, with every native to the planet joining her in singing it.  Even my daughter was singing almost instantly.  Spells formed all over, creating a complicated harmony to match the melody.  Magical light shows flickered in time, and even offworlders quickly joined in the dancing.

 Walking through the streets was no longer possible.  Anyone who didn't dance their way onward would be an unforgivable eyesore in this spontaneous musical.  The choreography was easy enough to learn, so James, Dani, Aaliyah, and I twirled, dipped, and bopped our way closer to the school.

 Much later when the song came to an end, I expected silence or confusion.  Instead, the enormous musical broke off into song-filled debauchery again.  This time I saw a connection between many of the activities.  Melodies, rhythms, and harmonies from the musical found their way into various other themes.  Dance moves were borrowed for other entertainment.  The people here never really broke from their unity.

 “Still finding it vulgar?” asked Aaliyah with “vulgar” being the sole English word.

 Come to think of it, I didn't know an equivalent word in Dani's tongue.

 “What's… vulgar?” inquired Dani, looking between the rest of us.

 “A word in a language we'll teach you someday.” explained James.

 “What's it mean?” asked Dani, her curiosity not sated.

 “You'll find as you learn languages that there are numerous words which won't translate easily.  My daddy enjoyed teaching them to me.  He works as a translator, so he knows many languages.” explained Aaliyah.

 For once, I was quite thankful when her explanation continued to an absurd length.  By the time Aaliyah had finished, Dani had completely forgotten what she had been asking.  Fortunately we had also arrived at the school.

 I couldn't find fault in the architecture of Dani's people.  The school was somehow even more beautiful to me than the numerous other buildings we had passed throughout our walk.  The soaring ivory towers with their silver accents and shimmering windows wove around one another in intricate, delicate-looking patterns which could trick the eye into believing the towers stretched past the clouds.

 How could a people so dedicated to frivolity design such a wonder?  

 “You'll never find a species more dedicated to the arts.  There are some equally dedicated, but even they can't compare in passion.” claimed Aaliyah with a grin.  She then took the lead, guiding us between the towers and into a garden at the center.

 A partially transparent illusion of a woman appeared when we stepped onto a fancifully engraved platform at the garden’s center.  The illusion smiled and said, “Thank you for visiting Zyanasha’s School for Girls.  The headmistress will see you shortly.  The energy field is for your protection as we ascend to higher learning.”

 As the illusion spoke, a dome was generated over us.  The platform then ascended at the end of the illusion’s speech, just as promised

 I felt numerous people above and around us, most of whom were obviously young.  By the time we arrived, I had a fair understanding of the layout for the lower towers.  Three of the towers were for education.  One seemed to be recreational.  The fifth was obviously dormitories.

 “James, Alma, and Dani, correct?” asked a tall woman with magenta skin, lilac hair, and a nervous smile.  She seemed uncomfortable in her modest dress, fidgeting slightly as she pulled it one direction and then another.

 I wondered if she chose her apparel for our sake.  She didn't really seem to know where to look between us, and was quite obviously not wanting to look at James.  Despite the pleasantly cool air and her species’ natural aptitude from magic, she was sweating.

 When James nodded and held out his hand, she quickly grasped it while saying, “I am Headmistress Miriandra.  We are most excited to see Dani into our care.  I'll be giving you the tour at your convenience.  Your maid has already prepared Dani's room, and the royal family sent welcoming gifts for her as well as a few tokens to take with you.  His majesty wanted me to inform you that he is most saddened that you aren't able to join the royal family for dinner on this trip.  The palace is always open to you.”

 Ah.  I could see why she was nervous now.  With this world's monarchy anxious to accommodate us, everyone would be attempting to do the same.  Why had Aaliyah said we were busy?  Was she keeping something from us, saving us, or plotting something again?

 “All of the above, of course.” she replied with a smile, having frozen time.  “We'll be frequenting this planet to visit Dani, and you would be most shocked by a royal welcome here at the moment.  Best save such things for when you are a bit older.  By the way, Miriandra is just as worried about upsetting you.  Would you believe there are rumors about how incredibly protective you are with regard to James?  Given that monogamy is unheard of here, she's not entirely certain what would offend you.”

 Before I could respond, things jumped back into motion.  The headmistress, realizing she had been shaking my husband's hand for an excessive period, released him and risked a glance at me.

 “I would be delighted for that tour if we may proceed.” I stated.

 The headmistress was quick to guide us onward, showing us where Dani’s classrooms would be and introducing the teachers as we stopped at each.  I found the uniforms to be scandalous and noted my husband averted his eyes from everyone present in the halls and classrooms alike.  The course descriptions here made Earth classes sound like a joke.  Mastering calculus, basic physics, and offworld languages was primary school material.

 By secondary school, students were expected to be on a technological level that would make Jarod geek out.  High schoolers here were also expected to have a firm grasp on intergalactic politics, trade, and law.  Then there were classes such as Spell Theory, Recreational Engineering, and The Art of Stillness ― a class dedicated to teaching emotional restraint.

 Given how obvious the effect of my husband was on the students and faculty here, I meant to insist Dani enrolled in that Art of Stillness class the moment she reached that level.  There were also a number of classes I intended to forbid, finding them entirely inappropriate.  James was probably unaware of them, given that they were thankfully not mentioned on the tour.  I simply wasn't capable of ignoring what was happening behind certain doors.

 I had mixed feelings about leaving Dani anywhere on this planet, but most of the curriculum was better than I expected, considering Dani wasn't of my blood.  The school was active year-round, save for holidays.  We would also have the option to visit Dani on weekends occasionally.

 The tour ended with Dani's bedroom, a multi-roomed suite that was obviously larger than normal.

 “These quarters are typically reserved for the royal family.  Given their current lack of daughters, his majesty insisted that we make the rooms available for Dani.” explained the headmistress.

 “But… I'm not a princess.” stated Dani with wide eyes.  She had been relatively composed throughout the tour, but a smile had grown on her lips till she heard this news.

 “You are to me.” replied James with a grin.

 Dani's eyes went even wider.

 I bent down and hugged her, careful to be gentle.  By my standards, she was fragile.  I couldn't let myself hug her as hard as I would like.  I didn't really want to let her go at all.  The month living together had only made this more difficult.  I forced myself to release her, smiling when I saw that she was clinging to me.

 “We need to do this.” stated James.  Time was frozen again, and he was staring into my eyes.

 “Are you really so certain?” I asked, surprised by his confidence.

 “I'm sure you noticed the energy on this planet.  Yes, I find much of their behavior shocking, but that emotional energy is overwhelming.  The difference between how the different ages reacted when we visited the rooms was incredible.”

 “Some of the girls looked ready to jump out of their seats.  Others had been quickly restrained by spells.” I admitted.

 “There was that, but we could practically see the excitement growing, passing between them.”

 Smiling, I told him “And here I thought you were doing so well at not watching anything.”

 “Unfortunately, I lost much of my talent for ignoring things when my senses were vastly heightened.” he replied with the most lovely frown.

 I nodded and time resumed its normal pace.  I gently brush my fingers through Dani's hair.

 She looked up at me and asked “Are you leaving?”

 “Do you want to go to school here?” I questioned.

 She hesitated, looking from me to James and back.  “Will I get to see you soon?”

 “You can chat with us whenever you're free, and we'll visit often.” promised James.

 “If you ever have a problem, just let us know.” I told her.  I was amused by how the headmistress tensed up at my words.  Dani would be treated well.

 “I'll be with you as well.” promised Mila.  “Alma would be disappointed if we didn't continue some of your extra studies.”

 “I'll also check in each month when I deposit the tuition.” stated Aaliyah.

 “There's no need to deliver tuition in person.  Fund transfers are the norm.” insisted the headmistress, looking shocked.

 “James and Alma won't always have time to make an appearance for tuition, but I'll be perfectly punctual.  As secretary to James Michael Somerset III, keeping tabs on Dani's progress while handling accounting is my privilege.” replied Aaliyah with a grin.

 The headmistress nodded.  “Very well.  I'll be sure to make time.”

 James knelt and hugged our daughter after seeing the rest of the rooms, so I hugged her again after him.  We were parting, but we didn't have to be apart for long.  Perhaps we would visit in a week.  James and I could easily sneak in extra times with Aaliyah's help if she were willing.  After collecting the gifts from the royal family, we headed back to the streets, and I found myself staring back at the tower that housed my daughter.

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Dance of Grey Ch. 2

Now in the perspective of the nervous blood-mage cinnamon roll with 0 self esteem.

Honestly, Dakota wasn’t sure why he had ever expected things to magically become great after he got accepted into the academy.

He sat, slumped over his desk, waiting for class to begin as students gradually filled the classroom. It had been about a week since the first day and already his classmates had formed their own little groups of friends and cliques among each other. It was weird how easily people were drawn to one another, like magnets to metal or something.

Except him. He was the other magnet that kept all the others away.

That’s how it had always been. In grade school all the other kids stayed around him because they didn’t like his power, in middle school he was teased relentlessly on the days that they chose to acknowledge his existence. All because of his power.

Any power that involved blood was usually pretty looked down upon. Most powers like that needed one party to consume the blood of the other party, but not every blood-based power was like that. His power was full control over his own blood. From the smallest drop to gushing wounds, he could manipulate his blood in a variety of ways, harden it, and still control it if someone else consumes it.

But that seemed to make matters worse for him, especially when he was younger and had little control over his power.

It was no secret that Dakota was a walking ball of anxiety and fear. He’d freak out easily when he was a kid, have frequent panic attacks, and when his power first manifested itself when he was a kid, those freak out sessions would cause his blood to go out of control, piercing through his own body, hurting himself and those who got too close.

It earned him a stigma that he could never shake off.

He had hoped that when he got accepted into Garrick Academy, some miracle that was, that he’d be able to find a place where he belonged, surrounded by students who didn’t care what kind of power he had. But even then, even now as he sat in the classroom, not a lot of students tended to look his way. He’d get a polite smile and greeting now and then, a few ‘nice work’ during the training exercises, but just the obligation ones.

For the most part, his classmates ignored him, no one ever reached out.

But, he couldn’t put all the blame on them, he never really reached out to the others, either. Too scared to after all the years of being bullied and treated as an outcast, scared of being laughed at for his attempt to befriend someone.

He sighed, picking at the sleeves of his uniform and watched his classmates tiredly.

A lot of them were loud and energetic in the way only high school students could be, and others were quiet and studious, already sitting down and reading over textbooks or looking over their homework for last-minute mistakes. What was more, they all had such cool powers while his was just… his. It really matched him if he was being honest, an awful power for an awful person, just as useless as he was.

How did he even get into the academy when there were so many others with a better power than his?

Over by the wall he could see the Dae twins bickering as they usually did, their powers were fire and ice from what he understood. James, a student with Stoneskin, a power that let him harden his skin, was talking pretty enthusiastically about something to Ian, who both was able to take on cat-like attributes and looked extremely uncomfortable.

Dakota could also smell smoke from behind him and didn’t have to look behind to know which student that was, and the hair on the back of his neck raised in only the way that static could cause, telling him what other student was talking a few seats behind him. Elizabeth and Cody, Smokescreen and Electricity respectively.

There were other students in the room with other powers that were just as amazing. Beast-Out, Siren’s Song, Elasticity, Sensory, metal manipulation, speed, strength and so many more powers that he couldn’t name.

His blood abilities were so pale in comparison.

Blood related powers were never good and Blood Control was likely among the worst. He probably only got accepted to meet a quota.

He hated himself for thinking that, but it was probably true. His mother had told him over and over again that he’d never make the cut for being a hero, not with the kind of power that he had. His was one that villains only ever had, it was a mark for a bad apple to have a power that involved blood as a necessary part. A sign they’d be no good.

But, whenever he saw the heroes on the news, smiling and laughing, so brave and courageous as they threw their all into helping others… he wanted to be like them.

He wanted the kind of courage they had, to be able to smile like them despite everything, to stand there and say “Never fear, I am here!” and have people look at him with hope in their eyes and the knowledge that everything would be okay now.

He just wanted to feel confident in himself and feel accepted by the world. That was the reason he chose to go here, why he wanted to be a hero.

But now that he was here at the school, he knew that dream had been nothing but a fantasy. All his classmates were well on their way to becoming the next top heroes, beloved and looked up to by the people. He’d be lucky if the school gave him a job as part of the faculty out of pity after graduation.

Why did he have to be like this? So negative and pessimistic? He could already hear his mother’s voice telling him that this was why he was never going to make friends here, why he’d always be alone.

Maybe it’d be better if he just dropped out? Then the school can fill his seat with someone more worthy. He was just a waste of space, anyways. He already knew he was going to be the worst student in this class, his test scores were subpar and his results during the training they’d done so far always left him in last place.

He knew the other students were always laughing to themselves whenever his name came up beside the number 20 after their teachers listed their ranking after each training session. His power was always useless no matter what they did.

He hated it. He hated it so much.

Dakota’s head was hurting and he just wanted to curl up and disappear. Laying his head on his desk, he closed his eyes and just tried to tune out the chatter of the rest of the class. At least when Ms. Katherine, their mentor teacher, arrived then the class would quiet down and he could start focusing on the lessons of the day and hope he managed to skirt by on the afternoon training.

It would have been better if he applied at one of the less well-known hero schools, or better yet, had just gone to a regular high school instead of letting his dreams dictate what he did.

He let out a quiet sigh as he moved his arm to rest over his head, but gave a small jump when his elbow bumped into his bottle of water, knocking it to the ground. He could hear it quickly rolling across the floor as he lifted his head.

Pushing himself up, Dakota scanned the floor for his bottle and before he could even get out of his seat to pick it back up, one of the students whom it had rolled close to had knelt down to pick it up instead.

“Here,” she said closing the distance between him and her, handing the blue plastic object out to Dakota while she smiled softly, brushing some pastel pink hair from her face. Kotone Kobe, one of the students he was certain had the most potential out of the class and would make a  great hero.

He couldn’t meet her eyes and held out his hand to take his water bottle back, “T-thank you,” he murmured, a slight stammer in his voice as he put the bottle back on his desk, hoping to not knock it over again. She was just doing it to be nice and would move on to talk to the other students soon enough. That’s what most did if they bothered to give him a bit of kindness.

But instead, she pulled up a chair from the desk next to his and sat down, still smiling as she studied him. “You’re not much of a talker, are you?” she asked, cocking her head to the side.

Dakota paused and looked at her, startled by the fact that she was talking to him without a reason for it. Maybe someone dared her to interact with the class looser, that was the only plausible explanation he could think of, but he couldn’t see any of the other students watching them to make sure she followed through with the dare.

She wasn’t saying anything either, and he realized with a start that she was waiting for him to reply.

Feeling his face heat up, Dakota tilted his head down to look at his lap rather than face her, “I… sorry, I’m…”

“A little shy?” Kotone finished in an offering tone and he found himself nodding. That was one way to put it. “I can understand the feeling. Plus, everything is still pretty overwhelming. It’s kind of hard to understand how everyone can be so relaxed and at home so soon.”

She was one to talk. She had been one of the first to settle in after the first day, having quickly reached out to the other students and integrating herself among the class.

Before he could say anything in response to that, not that Dakota was going to in the first place, unable to even find the words to make a reply, Kotone had held a hand out to him and she was still smiling. He noticed that her smile was warm, like little kisses from the sun, warming the cold numb he had felt inside since day one.

He hesitated to take her hand, but he did. Hers was so much smaller than his and so much warmer, her grip was gentle, enough so that he could slip his hand free if he felt uncomfortable.

“I’ve been wanting to tell you, but I thought it was really cool how you used your power during all the training we’ve been through these past few days,” Kotone said as she gave him a soft squeeze and then let go of his hand. “I’ve never gotten to see a power like that, it was amazing.”

She was lying. That was his first thought, there was no way that anyone would genuinely be impressed by his awful ability. No one had ever used cool or amazing to describe his power, or the self-mutilation he had to go through just to use his power.

Creepy, uneasy, bad. Those were the words he was used to others using to describe it.

But, looking at her face, he couldn’t find a trace of lie or mockery in her expression. It felt genuine, honest. It filled his chest with a weird feeling that he couldn’t quite explain.

“You’re just saying that,” Dakota mumbled, his cheeks turning pink again as he looked away from her.

Kotone shook her head and leaned forward in her seat to get closer to him. “No, I’m serious,” she said with a firmness in her voice. “I’ve never seen someone who was able to manipulate their blood, it’s really impressive. I mean, sure you were beyond awkward out there in the field like that, and the exercises that Ms. Katherine and Hercules put us through weren’t exactly suited for a power like yours, but you did really well!”

His face just got redder and redder the more that she kept talking, he could feel the blood in his face practically bubbling from how hot it was getting. This was the first time anyone had ever complimented him this much and it was embarrassing, he wasn’t sure how he was supposed to react.

“You did so much better than I did,” Dakota pointed out, rubbing the back of his neck. Kotone usually scored up in the top ten during all the rankings at the end of their training, so much better than him.

But, Kotone was laughing as she shook her head. “Not really. Did you not see me trip and fall flat on my face during the 100 meter dash? Or jumping and smashing face first through the wall during the obstacle course?” she rubbed her face as though she could still feel the ache. She… had hit her face into a lot of things during the training, that was true. “Not only that, my power only works if I get hurt. It’s useless if no one gets a hit on me.”

“That’s not too different from mine,” Dakota mumbled before he could stop himself, “I have to get cut to use mine safely, not that it’s really safe in the first place.” Why was he trying to find common ground with this student who was so much cooler than him? He felt embarrassment swelling within him.

But his classmate kept laughing, it wasn’t spiteful or mocking, it was like she was actually enjoying the conversation. “Hooray team ‘Must Get Injured To Be Useful’,” she said in a playful tone as she raised her fist halfway up into the air. Dakota found himself smiling softly at it, but it fell when she let out a gasp.

“I got you smiling, victory!” Kotone cheered. “You have such a nice smile, too, you should smile more often.”

His face flushed and he looked away from her so quickly that he felt his neck crack.

“Sorry, sorry,” Kotone said, still laughing but reaching out to assure him that there was no harm intended. “I’m just teasing you.”

Slowly, Dakota let himself look back at her. “So, um…” he struggled to find his voice, to voice the question that had been on his mind. “Why are you talking to me, anyway?”

“What do you mean?” Kotone asked.

He fidgeted with his hands, rubbing at the palms and fingers, twisting his wrist in his own grip. “You’re cool, nice,” pretty, very pretty, “and so much better than I am. So why are you wasting your time talking to the class loser? There’s got to be other students worth your time more than I am? Like Casey?”

She looked at him, studying him before leaning back in her seat and giving a hum as she stared at the ceiling. “Dunno. You seemed like a nice person, and I like meeting nice people,” she said and gave a shrug. “Do I really need a reason other than wanting to be your friend?”

Dakota stared at her like he didn’t quite hear her right, and so Kotone, still smiling that sundrop smile, continued speaking. “I hope we can be friends.”

Friend?

It was almost laughable that someone wanted to be his friend.

But, it’d be bad if he refused her, even if he didn’t fully believe her wanting to be his friend. No one ever did and she probably was just interested because he was different or new compared to what she was used to.

“It’s…I’d like that,” Dakota admitted. He would like to be her friend, even if he wasn’t sure it would last. He’d never had one, after all. But, Kotone’s smile seemed to grow even brighter when he said that, and he felt that weirdly warm feeling in his chest again.