Arguing With Them/Making Up With Them
Games: Fictif/Arcana
Characters: Asra Alnazar, Julian Devorak, Felix Iskander Escell, Sage Lesath
A/N: Kind of went over board with Felix, oops, and spoilers for asra's route in his part, but really just minor spoilers. ALSO I COULDN'T ADD THE PHOTOS BC TUMBLR SAID I EXCEEDED THE LIMIT >:((, please tell me if you spot any use of pronouns for y/n!! i've tried to fix it because i previously used she/her by accident
Asra Alnazar:
getting into a fight with you would not benefit either of you
it was obvious how much you two liked working together and time apart would not help
and fights don't actually happen frequently, only once every few months
asra is a very grounded person and they don't enjoy it when the two of you ever have an argument, no matter how minor the actual problem is
but they would always be the first to apologise, coming to terms with the way you viewed things and ultimately understanding it
so fights never lasted too long with this person because of how much they really love you
you'd be back in their arms the next minute, because Asra could've fathom the idea of not having you at their side as they love you that much
fights never lasted more than just 30 mins with them, truthfully
you couldn't bare to leave it more than that because it hurts to be away from each other for too long
which is why asra finds it difficult to go on trips without you after you two make it official
and you'd apologise first a few times too, since you knew when you were wrong and didn't think asra was the one who really needed to say 'sorry'
nevertheless, you always came back to each other
this time, however, it went further than expected
this fight had lasted hours, most of it yelling back and forth
you and them were going through with your normal routine when you had suddenly dropped a specific potion that Asra had been keeping to themselves for a while
it was smeared on the floor and you couldn't help but feel upset at yourself, no matter how many times the white-haired person in front of you had dismissed it
you could tell they were very disappointed that they no longer had a stash of it and frustrated with himself for not getting spares
so you had sought off to get some while asra was away on another trip, and they again hadn't told you how long they'd be away, so you believed you had some time to retrieve it
you were originally going to close the shop for the time being, but then asra's parents had come around at the perfect time
they had offered to take the shop until you came back
it took you longer than expected since you had to track it down yourself, asking people around town and ending up at a merchant just outside of town who gave you the directions and specific instructions
you recognised the name of the town they mentioned, which is the same town on the lable of the bottle, so it had to be right
you were dead set on wanting it to be a surprise, and returned home around two weeks later, opening the door to see Asra pacing around the room
they were still wearing their large scarf and their bag as well as their hat was carelessly thrown onto the chair, so it was obvious that asra had just arrived home recently
their parents were nowhere to be seen, so you assumed that they had left already
asra's head turned at the sound of the little bell above the door and they widened their eyes once they saw you, rushing and engulfing you in a big hug
you thought asra was just happy to see you, since they had been separated from you for a while
y/n: "hey, did you miss me more than usual?"
asra: "..."
y/n: "usually, i'm the one who jumps on you like this, heh. what's got your panties in a twist?"
asra doesn't reply, only tightening their hold on you
which was definitely weird
asra would almost always have something sneaky and flirtatious to say in return, but not this time
you clench the back of their vest before pulling away, now realising the frustrated look on their face as they looked back at you
asra asks where you were in this tight voice that seemed unfamiliar, and it only got worse when you admitted where you had headed
it was dangerous, from what asra remembered and the thought of you being there made their chest tighten
and asra was correct, it was dangerous, but you made sure to stick to what you were taught for protection and look, you made it out without a scratch
but asra didn't see it that way at all
asra let all their waiting in agony come at you in a loud yell that had shook the candles hanging from the ceiling
you were shocked, holding onto your bag tightly as asra continue to tell you off for what you were doing
sometimes you'd attempt to support your decision, but that was lost in asra's words
asra: "y/n, do you realise how reckless you were? that place is swarming with trouble and it's even worse for someone who hasn't been there before!"
y/n: "i was only there for a few nights, i booked a hotel the rest of the time on coming back home—"
asra: "but you were still there! how am i supposed to protect you when i don't even know where you are? you should've asked me, and i would've come with you."
they would go on and on about how you should ask them and such, and throughout the whole entire thing, you held the souvenirs in your bag close to yourself
you didn't know how to give it to them now that they were mad at you
and you were frustrated as well, because you've grown so much and you're able to do whatever you please
it made you bring out your sarcasm more, which was a habit you had picked up ages ago
it had developed over the years of asra shutting you in and out of danger bc they're too scared of what will happen when you're alone
you two are rarely ever apart from each other already bc of your living situation, sharing the bedroom and the whole shop
y/n: "asra, i believe i am fully capable with taking a trip like you do"
asra: "i know, i just don't want you going there, y/n, i don't think that's too hard to follow"
y/n: "oh, i'm so sorry asra, why don't you tell me where else i'm allowed to go?? am i back on my leash with you, huh? can i go to the bedroom, master?"
asra had blinked at you a couple times before feeling themselves break, a few tears forming in their eyes
the word you used to address them as always made their heart pound in the worst way possible
because that's what you used to call them before they let you go, and now asra hates that word with all their being
you were so irritated with them that you hadn't noticed, now pacing around the room like asra was as they stands there, struck
asra: "don't... don't call me that..."
y/n: "oh, so now i'm not allowed to say things?"
asra: "i just want you to be safe! isn't that what you want too—"
y/n: "no, asra, i just want to do what i feel like and not have you breathing down my neck about it, alright? i understand that you don't want to lose me and that you love me, but that's exactly how i feel about you and i still trust you enough to go out there without me or any other form of help"
you're not even looking at them at this point
if you were, you would see that asra's actually crying and they're just staring at you
you're looking at the floor as you clench your fists at your sides, one holding the strap of you satchel
y/n: "i'm not the helpless person from years ago asra, i'm stronger now. i hate depending on people when i'm perfectly capable by myself."
asra: ",,, so you don't need me anymore? is that it?"
this is the moment where the two of you are just staring at each other, finally linking gazes
asra was already crying, it was silent and slow
they tend to do that, cry quietly so nobody had noticed unless they looked directly at their face, even then they tried to hide
they trained themselves to keep their voice steady when speaking as asra cries because they would rather not warn the other person about it
you were on the verge, angry and sad tears already forming
you were aggravated by yourself, knowing full well that you should've at least mentioned it to asra. they worried about you a lot, and that was a fact regardless of what they really thought of you
you were sad at the two of you for even starting this fight, they could've solved this better with just talking normally and not shouting
y/n: "i never said that"
asra: "but thats what you meant, isn't it? you... you don't want me to worry about you, and i can't..."
this time, you walked towards them with a focused expression
they were wiping their eyes before seeing you waltz up to them, utterly surprised by the look on your face
asra goes to say something when you suddenly bring your hands forward to collect their tear-stained cheeks in your palms
the two of you stop, another time to take a breath
you looked them right in the eyes, you heart beating hastily before biting your lip as you tried to hold back your own tears back
asra's fingers brushed against your elbows, holding onto them in reassurance
y/n: "i'm... i'm sorry for not telling you where i was going. i just... wanted to replace what i broke and i wanted it to be a surprise. but it was reckless of me. i should know better by now..."
asra: "no, i just worry about you too much. i want to protect you and be there for you but... it's like you don't need that anymore."
y/n: "asra, i don't need you to protect me. just... just be there for me. love me until you can't anymore. in return, i'll do the same for you."
you couldn't ever see yourself not wanting or needing asra ever
you two have been through so much and you're together til the end, you will make sure of that
having asra's face in your palms, you kissed their forehead lovingly and slowly, telling them what you had thought about that
it would not be the case, ever
asra was embedded in your life and you couldn't imagine anything without them
asra: "but what if something happens?"
y/n: "i'm sure that we'll both be able to handle it. i don't want you shielding me. i want to stand beside you, asra. aren't we equal?"
asra: "of course! i'm just scared of what might happen..."
y/n: "you don't have to be."
as you spoke, asra only pulled you in closer, wrapping their arms around you
you dig your head into their shoulder and hold onto them like they were doing to you
the two of you cry together in the middle of your shop, nothing but hushed whispers leaving either of your lips
after a while, asra mentions the lateness of the day and brings you up to the bedroom
the two of you go to sleep right after that, asra laying on top of you as you brushed fingers through their hair
a habit after fighting is always being the closest you can with each other, letting the other know just how much you forgave them and still loved them
Julian Devorak:
julian was definitely a hard one to get into a fight with
arguments and disagreements were only natural for a relationship of any kind
but julian was the type to not voice his feelings purely because he was afraid of what the other person might say
he didn't want to lose you and if anything he speaks does that, then he could not forgive himself, so he thought it was better to just keep it inside
he hated disagreeing with you more than anything, which is why you would only get a statement or two about it before he decides to just keep quiet about it
a habit between that's formed because of this is that you tend to not push him too far
he made you more independent with your decisions but also take into consideration his points
there's only been a few times where you two have fought for real and it had taken a toll on the both of yous
one time was when you had been frustrated all day while making plans for a certain mission and you had gotten into a disagreement with julian about something small
it started off as something he tried to make sweet and joking
but he hadn't seen just how much today had taken a toll on you
nadia was busy with forming different groups to specialise in certain things and she was already trying to calm down her servants and city from the recent events that threaten them
asra was caught up with travelling around and getting information about the whole affair to help you guys win
so then you offered to help with setting up the plans and such for each group as well as the four of you, thinking it couldn't be that hard. just devise a plan that is foolproof. and it shouldn't be that hard.
but julian was talking a lot for someone who should be keeping an eye on the enemy in the chambers
y/n: "but why would we take the scenic route when the backway is way more safer for us?"
julian: "because, my dear, if this is really our last night alive, i'd rather spend it staring at the sunset with you."
y/n: "julian, i am not putting you on that ride if you're thinking that way, we don't need some saviour out there trying to get himself killed."
julian: "my, my, darling, what's going on with you?"
y/n: "look, i'm sorry, but could you leave for a few minutes? this is really important and nadia needs to set the fighters in place by tomorrow morning."
he gets the idea of it once you say that
he now understands that you are stressed from all the work you had taken on, and he even offers to take some of it off your shoulders
but you just say 'no'
and that stumbles him
you rejected because he had played his part already and you didn't feel right about giving someone else your workload when you took the responsibility yourself
but this is one of the times where julian wasn't quite sure how to handle situations like this
he was so used to himself being the one who was pulling away and you being the one to understand that and know when to stop
but it was switched here and julian didn't know what to do, or even how and when to pull away
so he stands there quietly as you draw lines on multiple maps for separate army guards to follow
all the two of you hear is your pencil against paper and you sighing out when you have to reach for the eraser
you could feel him watching you and just tracing your every move, which made you feel uneasy and frankly, make you work even worse than you were before
y/n: "..."
julian: "..."
y/n: "..."
julian: "... *coughs*"
y/n: "please, julian, leave."
julian: "what did i do?"
the breaking of silence makes you drop your pencil, resulting in you pinching the bridge of your nose and squeezing your eyes shut
maybe that would help you feel better
but it didn't as julian begins to hum some obnoxious tune
you're looking at him with a very serious and annoyed expression, making him feel even more confused
it results in a fight in the study room that makes all passerby people immediately leave the area
they wouldn't want to be mixed up up in any of that just by the sounds of it
you're yelling because you just want julian to leave you alone for a few minutes, thinking it would help you get some things done before you can see him again, and you can't focus with him just looming over you
julian's yelling because he doesn't know how to deal with this and he's trying to comfort you, in the worst way possible, but it's something and he isn't used to leaving you alone while you're upset without him there
it's frustration and confusion hovering in the air
you were piling up in stress because of this and it caused you to say things you surely didn't mean
which caused julian to say things he didn't mean either
a few times, asra or nadia would nearly walk inside but hear all the commotion and decide to come back later
they knew better than to interfere
last time one of them did, the two of you stared at them for a while, ceasing all talking and expressions before just walking away from each other, now silently arguing with each other
having another party try to butt in made you two feel like you were blowing it out of proportion, so you thought it was better to just ignore it
you're already gathering your things
y/n: "yknow what? if you won't leave, then i'll leave. i can't get this done when you're constantly talking to me."
julian: "ah! hey, i'm just trying to figure out what's wrong! i'm—i'm trying to help!"
y/n: "julian if you really wanted to help, you would've left me alone when i asked you to. i really need some space right now."
julian: "space? from... from me?"
y/n: "for only like... an hour or two! you know how important this is is nadia and all of vesuvia. i need to get this done. if i don't, i can't even comprehend how many people will die and if that happens because of... please..."
julain goes quiet as he hears the amount of desperation in your voice
you're really stressing hard about all of this and it definitely shows in your tone and face
julian finally sees how much weight is on your shoulders and decides that he should give you what you initially asked for
he decides to leave you alone
but he doesn't do that without rounding the table and giving you a kiss on the side of your temple, whispering a small 'i'm sorry' and 'i love you so much' before he leaves
you finally get moments of peace and quiet in the room and yet your ears are ringing loudly
you can't help the frustrated tears that escape you and the way you harshly rub them away before getting back to work
all within one minute
of silence
and without julian
you end up getting all the work done within the next hour and a half and you can't bring yourself to leave the room after everything you said to julian and you know for a fact that he won't be waiting very far
a servant comes around after noticing the quietness and asks if you need anything, and you ask for a drink (wine, really, it's been a long day) and you get it the next minute later
usually, they'd give you a glass and hang around with the whole bottle
instead, the servant hands you the whole entire bottle itself and a chalice before leaving quickly
you silently thank nadia for her good choice in people
you're by the window, sitting on the table and taking a swing from your cup, when you hear the door being opened
you expect julian, but hear another voice
asra: "is there a reason you left this guy walking around the palace like a lost puppy?"
with your cup still to your lips, you turn around to your friend and see him holding the taller man by the elbow
your boyfriend looked like he just got caught stealing, refusing to look in your eyes and only away at the wall
asra knows full well why, but he just tugs julian along towards you
y/n: "where'd you find him?"
asra: "the garden."
y/n: "which one?"
asra: *points*
y/n: "ah. okay. thanks, asra. i'll see you at dinner. tell nadia that i've finished and we'll go over it tonight."
he nods and leave you guys alone
julian stands there like a kid about to get told off
you're sipping your wine as you watch the vines and flowers outside
y/n: "so you were waiting just outside the window, huh?"
julian: "... just in case you were in trouble..."
y/n: "i'm on the third floor. how would you help from the garden?"
julian: "i can climb."
that makes you chuckle, and julian sees that you're looser than before, meaning he can relax as well
he walks towards you, sitting himself down close so your legs are touching
you hold out the chalice of wine to which he takes, pouring in some from the bottle
he clinks his glass with your bottle before you both take a sip
it's a nice silence between yous before julian bumps his shoulder with yours
julian: "i'm really sorry about earlier, darling. it was completely unnecessary and you needed to get things done. i was wrong."
you can tell by his voice that he's really meaning this, and he's playing with the rim of the chalice
y/n: "it's okay, julian. i should've been straight with you and just asked politely, but i took it out on you. i'm sorry, and i hope you can forgive me."
he smiles at you, wrapping an arm around your shoulders and pulling you into a hug
julian: "only if you forgive me, my love."
he gives you that smile that makes you believe that everything is okay
because it is and he really loves you
Felix Iskander Escell:
fighting with felix is very,,,,,, interesting
he's very stubborn and always wants to get what he wants
sometimes you just cave and do it his way because you don't have enough time to fight
more times than he'd like to admit, it's over very silly things that is just a preference for his every day life
like once you two got into a little argument about laundry day and how he needed to get all his dirty clothes together the day before, but he thought it was preposterous how he had to dig up clothes deep within his wardrobe to wear until his clothes dried
it was very useless
but sometimes you wouldn't see a proper way around doing his idea, so you fight to do yours
sage and anisa didn't particularly like getting involved in you fights, mainly because you were both ruthless and vvvv stubborn with your own points, depending what it was
felix would tell anisa that she was too uptight to understand where he was coming from
you would tell sage to butt out because he's too drunk to hear the bullshit he's spitting
you both endlessly apologise to the both of them in the end, because it's just plain rude and they didn't do anything
one time, you guys were in the middle of a fight with troops made up of sage's friends and anisa's peers, against some horribly strong enemies
felix was not good with close range attacks, so he happened to miss out on some assassin drawing in close to you, who was covering his vanguard
he calls too late as you get slashed in the back and grunt before turning around and slamming them into the way, breaking their helmet and watching the blood drip from behind it
you take a moment before stepping away and tripping back on your feet, landing on your rear as felix calls your name and stays at your side while your coworkers did what they needed to
you hear sage call out your name but felix tells him to go on while he takes care of you
felix: "i need to get you out of here. now. a... a first aid station or something."
y/n: "we're in a battlefield, felix, and the closest thing to a first aid station is that bathroom over there."
it gets blown up as soon as you say that
y/n: "nevermind."
felix: "then i'll find a way to assist you here."
felix knew nothing about closing wounds and how to heal them quickly with magic
he once tried the same thing with sage and he ended up in a ghost form for two hours, where he haunted felix and messed with anisa's hair
he was panicking though
he needed to help you
felix pulls off his coat and wraps it around you, pulling your arms through the sleeves since he knew if anyone saw one of their leaders injured then they'd be disheartened
anisa had warned them about that
y/n: "not now, we have things to do."
felix: "but you'll bleed out before you can finish anything useful! y/n, just allow me to bandage you up."
y/n: "you'll have an easier time the faster we finish this fight, come on."
you stand up, ready to continue with your weapon in hand when felix yanks you back with some magic
you look at him confused
felix: "haven't you ever read those tales? the injured back away from the war, y/n, not rush into it again."
y/n: "this is all we've got. nobody else is going to fight for us except for us."
felix: "don't be so deluded! listen to me—"
y/n: "after."
and you sprint off with your weapon, heading towards the group anisa is leading
this area was clear, and you trusted felix to know better than to wander off without any help
you're doing well so far, since you were wearing a black cloak over your back
sage was fairly good with a sword so he had taught you to use one
you told anisa to go on ahead so that you could make a round to find any other enemies that would be holed up in this facility
the fight was continuing outside
just as you get the area cleared, you feel your arm being tugged in the opposite direction
out of pure instinct, you flip them over your shoulder and hold them down harshly
takes you a moment to realise it's felix
you immediately let go and get off of him, calling out his name in surprise
y/n: "god, felix are you alright? you shouldn't scare me like that!"
he doesn't answer you for a moment before he slowly gets up and turns to face you, hand on his head
felix: "i'm taking you home."
y/n: "we're not finished!"
felix: "i do not care for this stupid war! you're bleeding through your back and i can tell how much pain is residing within! do not test my patience! my decision is final!"
all the yelling runs to his head, making it worse as he grips his hair
when he pulls his palm away, blood begins to drip down from his hairline
you're staring at him
you must've hit him hard,,,
felix: "i'm... i'm fine..."
and he passes out
you're kind of torn, because you need to get out there and fight but you also don't know who can look after felix
you groan as you haul him onto your back, making way for a nearby tower that you could hide in
felix used to teach you a few things about offensive magic, but gave you books about it since he wasn't able to teach that stuff
so you were shooting magic fire arrows at enemies when felix wakes up, bandage around his head and throbbing pain everywhere
you only had just enough for him
you look to him for a moment, focused look before turning to the field
you hated arguing with felix
this might not have seen like much to anyone but this was a breach for you
you trusted felix in his study, making plans, doing crazy experiments
and he was supposed to trust you on the field and protecting the others
it was like he didn't think you would do right here
you hated that
you spent so long to earn the respect of people around you in Porrima and anisa had warned you that many fighters did not trust you
you needed to prove how good you were and how much you intended to help
you promised to be on the front lines
but now, you were in a tower providing sniper aid while your lover was trying to recollect what happened
you shoot another arrow, getting an enemy square in the shoulder
y/n: "done whining?"
felix: "excuse me?"
y/n: "i only stayed back to make sure you were okay. they're expecting me out there."
felix: ",,, you didn't even treat your own wounds, y/n."
y/n: "busy."
he's so confused
why don't you just take a break???
it's not that hard???
felix knows a certain telepathy spell that lasts a few seconds for him, so he decides a quick look into that head of yours should help him understand better
you were only a few feet away from him, pulling back another magic arrow before you feel felix tug on your arm, making your arrow shoot within the room
it sputters around the room, hitting all the walls around the both of you
you tackle felix down and hold his head to your chest, making sure he was covered so he didn't get hit and you're also getting irritated
the arrows shoots out the window and you pull yourself up, taking a breath of relief
you shoot a look to felix
y/n: "what the hell is going on with you? what were you thinking?"
felix: ",,,,,"
y/n: "felix, we don't have any time for this! we're in deep shit right now, i don't need you trying to pull me out of the fight when i need to be there!"
you stand up, grabbing your sword and opening a portal like how felix taught you too
you're about to walk through
felix: "you don't need to prove yourself to anyone, y/n."
you stop and turn around to him, asking him what he said
felix: "none of this is of your concern, y/n. this is porrima's affairs and you are not even from here. i don't understand why you would make this a problem of your own."
you're still confused as to why he's saying these things
the portal closes behind you, making felix give a sigh of relief
he stands, carefully
y/n: "i'm fighting for my friends and their home"
felix: "you're fighting for the sake of being known, being seen as someone. y/n, that is selfish and you know it yourself. don't let a dream like that delude you from what is reality."
his words are harsh and he knows this, because if he doesn't speak this way then he won't get his point across properly
you look like you've seen a ghost
you're horrified
because you know he's been through your mind
a part of you knows that it's true
y/n: "shut up. you don't know what you're talking about."
felix: "i was just in your thoughts, y/n, i know. you shouldn't think of yourself something you are not."
y/n: "i'm trying to help! what do you want?"
felix: "you need medical attention. you're... you're back is drenched in crimson and you look pained whenever you draw back an arrow."
you shake your head at him because you can't believe how selfish he is making you sound, so much that you'd risk your own life to be seen as a god in the end?
you throw your sword to the wall
and grip felix's collar harshly
he's startled at the sudden movement
y/n: "listen. i've become too close to everyone here to just let them die. you have to let me do this."
felix isn't worried about himself in this situation like he would be whenever someone stronger began to threaten him
he's seen into your head so he knows where you are mentally
he only holds onto your wrists
felix: "you don't always have to be the savior, y/n, there are other people in the world."
y/n: ",,, and what if they fail?"
you've been burdened with all of this because of the mystery around your sudden appearance making everyone either think you were a traitor/assassin sent to kill them all, or some powerful all knowing being
you worked hard to get everyone's respect and attention
no way are you letting that all down now
but you're pushing yourself way too hard
you're shaking and your grip is getting looser
felix: "well... if you really want to, then you should face them when you're healed and okay. no point in trying to save the world when you're low on health, correct?"
y/n: ",,, right. but... but i can still help them."
felix: "of course you can, but please allow me to heal your back first."
you nod your head before sliding off the jacket, letting felix see the damage done, it was a lot
after he finishes, you apologise immediately and he does so too
he gives you a shy kiss to show that it's fine now, and by the sounds of it, the fight has stopped
you two meet up with sage and anisa and explain the situation that had happened, and they understand immediately after seeing how much bandaging your back needed, in private of course. your whole area from your chest to your waist band, blood still seeping through your back
in the end, everyone praised your bravery and nobody blames you, making you feel a lot more better about yourself
Sage Lesath:
sage is
not the ideal person to get into a fight with
not only does he constantly hide his emotions from everyone else until the bottle can't handle anymore, but he also blows up and says a lot of hurtful things when he's upset
however this is with anyone, he just gets so frustrated that he ends up tearing the person he's arguing with a new wound
he gets very emotional when he fights
tears are almost a given
yelling and headaches
but sage tries to get better
when he hears it himself after he says it, he instantly regrets even opening his mouth
immediately tries to apologise to whoever he yelled at, but there are a few times where he's gone too far
that would mean the person he yelled at would need a day or even a week to fully forgive him for what he's said, and more often than not it's someone he's close with, which makes it even worse
but sage knows when he goes too far
it's just that he has a hard time getting over it himself
this has happened between the two of you at some point in your relationship
you guys had been on the rocky side of things because he had a fight with anisa and felix about something important and you had just walked in as it hit the middle of it
you asked what was going on, and when they explained it to you, you had agreed with the duo rather than with sage
that made him frustrated, because now it felt like the world was against him today
and he started yelling at you as well
y/n: "sage, there wasn't another way to go around it. anisa and felix made the right decision, they couldn't do anything else."
sage: "maybe if they listened to me, then we wouldn't be in an even bigger mess!"
y/n: "nothing has changed though. we're just in the same spot, so we can retry everything."
sage: "oh my god, but this was the perfect opportunity to move forward! and those two dumbasses wasted it!"
you tried to calm him down even more and the other two have stopped talking at this point
you don't like it when sage faces his problems without a good mindset, you can tell he is frustrated by what happened and can't see the bigger picture
sage just doesn't understand why you can't see things the way he is
both of them recognise that this is no longer about them but about you, which makes them confused
why did it suddenly change? was it because you were involved now?
sage had already had a go at anisa and felix, spitting some harsh words at them that the two only overlooked as they knew about him and how he acted at these times
however, it lingered in their head about whether or not sage would go that far with you
y/n: "calm down, please. it's already happened, so we might as well just figure out our next course of action."
sage: "oh to hell with that. where were you when all of this went down, huh?"
y/n: "i... i was here."
you backed down for a moment, feeling a little useless at this point
anisa realised how sage was going to take this and stepped in herself
anisa: "i asked y/n to stay, sage, that was my fault. if you are angry with that, then discuss it with me."
you didn't like it when either of them fought, but what could you do?
sage was in no agreeing manner and anisa held firm to her statement
it was incredibly hard to sort things out in this group
sage: "but that's it. y/n was here while we were out there risking our own lives. what's the point of you being here if you aren't going to help us?"
y/n: "i am helping! anisa asked me to gather whatever information i could about the opposition!"
felix was about to ask what you found, since you had asked him to transport you to a very enemy secluded area and he was worried about your safety
but he was ignored
you two were still going at it
sage: "well that's now fucking useless, isn't it? we lost."
y/n: "you didn't lose."
sage: "and how would you know? you weren't even there!"
felix and anisa seat themselves down
at this point, there's no trying to stop them or even separate them
this had gone on for too long to go back, so they had to ride it out
it goes on, your frustration building up so much that you start to yell just out of pure frustration with sage
he falls deeper and deeper into the hole, pulling out things that would surely anger you further from just hearing about it
it would usually be that the two leave the room, but they haven't seen you this heated before
it was strange and they wanted to be careful, especially considering that you haven't mastered using your relic yet
sage: "you're so single-minded, oh my god! i just want you to see things my way, is that so hard for you?"
y/n: "sage, you can't expect someone to put themselves in your shoes if you can't do it for yourself! anisa and felix could've died out there and all you care about is winning that one fight! there will be others to redeem yourself if your pride and reputation as a mercenary means that much to you!"
you don't mean that
you know how much he cares for his friends but you're baffled by the fact that he'd prioritise the mission over them
and you're sure that they are as upset as you are
they give each other a look before listening in to the both of you
you were usually the calm one in this situation and it would take a lot to rile you up
and these two didn't know if your relic would come out to play in these times
you weren't someone who would resort to violence in a fight but your emotions are tied to your weapon, so if you were pushed far enough then it would appear
sage: "i don't even know why you even got involved in the first place."
y/n: "because you're acting crazy at the moment"
sage: "you keep saying i'm overreacting when you won't even hear me out."
y/n: "calm down first. you don't know what you're saying when you get this angry."
he's walking up to you and is now standing right in front
he's glaring holes into your head and getting more heated up that necessary
you've never been afraid of sage and you aren't now
you know that no matter what, sage would never ever hit you
and of course he wasn't going to
standing right up in front of the person he was arguing with was a habit that he had formed after years of having to fight for himself with no one to back him up
it was like an unconscious practice between him and fighting with anyone
so when he got up in your face, you didn't think anything of it
sage: "you know, y/n, what you have to say doesn't even matter. you're just some random person felix brought from another world, you don't matter when it comes to our lives. you mean nothing to what we have to do. to us."
this was the first time that he had hit that deep part in your heart
a sense of alienation when it came to you and porrima
you had mentioned this to sage before when you were feeling homesick a few days after your arrival
you were very vulnerable at that point and sage was there to help comfort you
you never brought it up again because everyone had made you feel a part of their lives and more comfortable, considering you were in a whole different time
when sage hears what he said, his head begins to reel at his sheer stupidity but he doesn't let it show on his face
he still believes that he is right
his pride gets in the way a lot
anisa: "that is far enough, sage."
she's angry with him, mostly because she had never believed that sage would treat y/n the same way he treated them in arguments
she believed that y/n was the only one who could properly calm sage down but it seemed this was just a bit too much
felix is wide eyed at the both of you, still processing what was happening
this was the first
he hadn't pictured sage yelling at you like that
and what was worse is that you feeling alienated was more of a silent secret kept between the group because of the nature of you coming into this world
everyone had a hint of it
but you hadn't actually told them, which made this even worse
you trusted sage with this and now he just confirmed it and resurfaced the problem when you were so close to forgetting about it
felix: "sage, that was a bit much, don't you think? it was uncalled for."
sage: "you—... i just..."
anisa: "are you alright, y/n?"
everyone's eyes are on you now
you give your best calm smile
y/n: "i'm fine. i supposed that clears that up."
everyone knew you weren't talking about the argument between the three
you left to your bedroom right after that, feeling your face burn with embarrassment and your chest tightening
anisa and felix were lecturing sage about it, making his tail only brush against the floor beneath them
they leave soon after
you had originally gone in there to give anisa the information she needed, written on a few sheets of paper, so the knight took that and began on her way to building the next step
felix wanted to come along as well, seeing as y/n needed time for herself and sage wasn't in the companying mood
sage would be in the study by himself for a while
until it was dinner time
he went into the dining room to see anisa and felix seated down, already beginning to eat what was prepared
sage: "where's y/n?"
felix: "hasn't left the bedroom. i tried already, but my efforts were useless."
anisa: "perhaps i should try again."
but before she can stand up fully, sage is already scooping up the two dinner plates and utensils in his grasp, leaving the dining hall against felix's calls
he's in front of your room in under a minute, using his foot to gently knock of the door
sage: ",,, hey, um... it's me? can i come in?"
he's met with silence
sage: "anisa and felix said you didn't come down for dinner, so i brought it up with me here. i was hoping we could eat together... and talk...?"
he hears a few shuffles before you open the door, allowing him to come inside
he sets the plates on the desk before engulfing you in a tight hug, arms around her shoulders and head dug into your shoulder
he's apologising almost immediately, which stops you because it happened all so quick
y/n: "hey..."
sage: "i was such an ass to you and you don't deserve any of that. i know how hard it is for you and i didn't help. i don't think you're nothing, and those two sure as hell don't. you..."
his grip on you tightens as strands of his hair falls over your eyes
he takes a shaky breath in
sage: "you're the first thing to mean everything to me. so please, forgive me. i'll do whatever it takes to make up for this."
he's crying and you are as you wrap your arms around his torso
y/n: "please don't talk about that anymore..."
sage: "i promise."
y/n: "okay,,, i'm really sorry about everything i said. i know you were worried about the others and that you're better than your pride. but i... i still think they made the right decision."
he takes a moment before brushing fingers on the back of your neck as a reassuring act
sage: "i understand. they probably did, i have no idea what was going on, i was freaking knocked out."
you asked if he was okay and he responds with tilting his head so his cheek is facing you
sage: "kiss it better?"
of course, you obliged
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