#also i love taeil so much he is prettiest boy

[what-if-nct]

hi hi hi today's reminder is a list of nct members i expect/want to see releasing solo albums (excluding taeyong bc he already has one out, dojaejung bc I have a strong feeling sm wants to push the unit as opposed to the solos, and markhyuck bc i will pay big money for them to take a nap):

1. ten: call me delusional but it is definitely happening by the end of 2024. he can sing, he can rap, he can dance, he speaks 618292 languages, he has the visuals, he has the brand recognition plus he's heavily associated with taem (hit the stage and superm) and i just Know they're gonna push him as the next taemin

2. taeil: at least a mini album before he has to enl*st or i will fucking riot

3. yuta: much like ten - can rap, can sing, can dance, beautiful specimen of a human man, super funny, plus he is one of the most popular members worldwide. it would make Big numbers, but it seems unlikely because he'd eat up nct japan. I'd still love to see it tho, i adore his voice

4. winwin: i just know even in a full solo album he'll end up with a collective 2 minutes of lines and I'm very curious how that would work

5. chenle: my baby. dream has a solid vocal line, so i wouldn't call it a hard carry , but he definitely is the backbone (watch their killing voice, he is the soul of their live singing) of their vocals. the harmonies, the ad libs, and he absolutely kills his own parts, and he's super versatile. this is one of the more unlikely ones on this list but I'd be very interested in listening to that

7. renjun: brilliant singer, i love his voice, he has such a pretty tone that deserves to shine more. also it would top the charts because each and every nct member would buy five of each version just to collect all the photocards. they could ask sm but they wanna do it right. want a fansign call? good luck, you're going up against 20 grown men who would kill for him no questions asked

8. xiaojun: he has never not been the star of a song he's on. take off, moonwalk, make a wish. he's the resonance era golden boy, just a well of potential. the boy is a Star

9. yangyang: universe era golden boy. he's quickly reached Mark/taeyong/Doyoung levels of fitting every single song, and has the unique advantage of sm knowing this and actually putting him on songs. again - sings, dances, raps, models, very funny boy. he has the Range

10. Kun: who's surprised here? honestly his voice is so severely underutilised, it hurts my heart, he has the absolute prettiest singing voice. give him the reins like taeyong and he'll produce an absolute masterpiece

bonus duos bc i thought of some while i was writing those:

1. any/all pairs out of xiaojun, renjun and yangyang: renyang bc besties and their voices would compliment each other, junjun because their unbreakable love cover is the third most watched youtube video in my history, xiaoyang bc again would compliment each other super well and it'd be a fun mixup in the wayv Duos

2. renjun and winwin: i just need to see the rest of them spontaneously combust

3. taeil and chenle: your honour in my heart they are Besties

4. Kun and Chenle: obviously

5. Johnny and Hendery: they would vibe. i know they barely know each other right now but i just believe they would Vibe. also you specifically would love it, and the world should revolve around your wants and needs

Hiiii! Ten definitely has a solo album around the corner. Like he's definitely been preparing for it like if not by year's end for sure in the beginning of next year. Like its just inevitable. I'd even just accept an ep from Taeil. Something cause once Sehun enlists it's only a matter of time for Taeil. Plus Taeil is injured so just one solo song will do. Till he returns.

I hope yuta does a rock album, like its just so him and needs to happen. If Yuta brings back screaming from kpops distant short visual kei past. Like a full rock album from Yuta would be everything. I also have songs I'd like for him to cover. Hatefuck - Motionless in white, Closer - Nine inch nails, Sinematic - Motionless in white, throne - bring me the horizon, I have a playlist I'll just send it to him.

Sweet baby Renjun, definitely needs a solo album soon, his voice is so pretty and needs to be highlighted. Chenle too!! Oooh and a Renjun and Chenle duet would be wonderful. Xiaojun, just put him in the studio and let him go it's what the world needs. I would love to see a Yangyang solo, I loved lowlow so much I need more Yangyang. I would like for him to also cover peach by yixing, it would just fit him. It's what Yixing would want. Of course Kun needs to have an album, it would be a beautiful album of ballads with just one unhinged song that no one expected.

Speaking of Yixing, I need Winwin to really go for it. I want multiple solo albums from Winwin and for his career to really prosper in China, make sm beg him to comeback but he's just too famous and busy. I used to be worried but I need Winwin to get only the best and succeed. But I really feel like SM is purposely holding him back cause they know the power he'd have.

Speaking of hear me out Renjun, Yangyang and Winwin, there's some untapped power there and I kinda need that. We have more than enough proof how good Kun, Taeil and Chenle are together, it's just destined. Yessss Hendery and Johnny would be best friends if they aren't already. And you are too kind but if I had one wish granted by sm it would be Hendery and Johnny duet that's it. Also Johnny, Jungwoo, Jaemin and Hendery there's something here. Not just cause they're all my biases. They're all the same level of weird and a little out of their minds. I don't even want a song. Just put them in a room alone with a camera I want to see what happens.

[jeogiyall]

𝐓𝐡𝐚𝐧𝐤 𝐘𝐨𝐮 𝐅𝐢𝐯𝐞; 𝒎.𝒕𝒍

✪︎︎ᴡᴏʀᴅ ᴄᴏᴜɴᴛ: 𝟷𝟶.𝟺𝟺𝚔 (𝚜𝚑𝚎’𝚜 𝚊 𝚖𝚘𝚗𝚜𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚕𝚘𝚕)

✪ɢᴇɴʀᴇ: 𝖿𝗅𝗎𝖿𝖿, 𝗌𝗅𝗂𝗀𝗁𝗍 𝖺𝗇𝗀𝗌𝗍, 𝗆𝗎𝗌𝗂𝖼𝖺𝗅 𝗍𝗁𝖾𝖺𝗍𝗋𝖾! 𝖺𝗎; 𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗱𝗲𝗿 𝘅 𝗺𝗼𝗼𝗻 𝘁𝗮𝗲𝗶𝗹 <3

✪︎︎ᴡᴀʀɴɪɴɢs: 𝗌𝗅𝗂𝗀𝗁𝗍 𝖼𝗎𝗌𝗌𝗂𝗇𝗀, 𝗆𝖾𝗇𝗍𝗂𝗈𝗇𝗌 𝖺 𝖽𝖾𝖺𝖽 𝗉𝖺𝗋𝖾𝗇𝗍, 𝗅𝖾𝗌 𝗆𝗂𝗌𝖾𝗋𝖺𝖻𝗅𝖾𝗌 𝗌𝗉𝗈𝗂𝗅𝖾𝗋𝗌 (𝗂𝖿 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝖼𝖺𝗋𝖾 𝖺𝖻𝗈𝗎𝗍 𝗍𝗁𝖺𝗍)

✪︎︎ᴀᴅᴅɪᴛɪᴏɴᴀʟ: 𝗅𝖾𝗌 𝗆𝗂𝗌! 𝖺𝗎, 𝗌𝗅𝗈𝗐 𝖻𝗎𝗋𝗇 𝗋𝗈𝗆𝖺𝗇𝖼𝖾, 𝖻𝖾𝗌𝗍 𝖿𝗋𝗂𝖾𝗇𝖽𝗌! 𝗁𝖺𝖾𝖼𝗁𝖺𝗇 + 𝗃𝖺𝖾𝗁𝗒𝗎𝗇, 𝖿𝖾𝖺𝗍𝗎𝗋𝖾𝖽 𝗅𝗎𝖼𝖺𝗌, 𝗐𝗂𝗇𝗐𝗂𝗇, 𝗑𝗂𝖺𝗈𝗃𝗎𝗇, 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝗁𝖾𝗇𝖽𝖾𝗋𝗒 𝖺𝗌 𝗍𝗁𝖾𝖺𝗍𝗋𝖾 𝗄𝗂𝖽𝗌.

✪︎︎ᴀ/ɴ: 𝖺𝗌 𝖺 𝗍𝗁𝖾𝖺𝗍𝗋𝖾 𝗄𝗂𝖽 𝗐𝗁𝗈 𝗂𝗌 𝖽𝖾𝗌𝗉𝖾𝗋𝖺𝗍𝖾𝗅𝗒 𝗆𝗂𝗌𝗌𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗂𝗍, 𝗍𝗁𝗂𝗌 𝗐𝖺𝗌 𝗌𝗈 𝗌𝗈 𝖿𝗎𝗇 𝖿𝗈𝗋 𝗆𝖾 𝗍𝗈 𝗐𝗋𝗂𝗍𝖾!! 𝗂'𝗏𝖾 𝗂𝗇𝖼𝗅𝗎𝖽𝖾𝖽 𝖺 𝗌𝗆𝖺𝗅𝗅 "𝗀𝗅𝗈𝗌𝗌𝖺𝗋𝗒" 𝗈𝖿 𝗍𝗁𝖾𝖺𝗍𝗋𝖾 𝗍𝖾𝗋𝗆𝗌 𝗎𝗌𝖾𝖽 𝖿𝗈𝗋 𝗋𝖾𝖺𝖽𝖾𝗋𝗌 𝗐𝗁𝗈 𝖺𝗋𝖾𝗇'𝗍 𝖿𝖺𝗆𝗂𝗅𝗂𝖺𝗋 𝗐𝗂𝗍𝗁 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗌𝗍𝖺𝗀𝖾. 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝖽𝗈𝗇'𝗍 𝗇𝖾𝖾𝖽 𝗍𝗈 𝗄𝗇𝗈𝗐 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗉𝗅𝗈𝗍 𝗈𝖿 𝗹𝗲𝘀 𝗺𝗶𝘀 𝗍𝗈 𝗋𝖾𝖺𝖽 𝗍𝗁𝗂𝗌, 𝖻𝗎𝗍 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝖼𝖺𝗇 𝗋𝖾𝖺𝖽 𝖺 𝗌��𝗈𝗋𝗍 𝗌𝗒𝗇𝗈𝗉𝗌𝗂𝗌 𝗈𝖿 𝗂𝗍 here, 𝗍𝗁𝗈𝗎𝗀𝗁 𝗂𝗍 𝗂𝗌𝗇'𝗍 𝗇𝖾𝖼𝖾𝗌𝗌𝖺𝗋𝗒. 𝗂 𝗁𝗈𝗉𝖾 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝖾𝗇𝗃𝗈𝗒!! -𝐚𝐝𝐦𝐢𝐧 𝐫𝐞𝐢𝐝

Theatre Glossary

Callbacks: Second step of the audition process, almost like a second audition but you focus on a certain character

Blocking: Movement and positioning of actors on stage during a performance

Dance Captain: An actor in the show (typically ensemble) that helps with anything dance related. Can help choreograph some numbers, usually runs dance rehearsals

Stage Manager: A crew member who is in charge of crew as well as everything backstage during a show. Whatever they say is a direct extension of the director

Stage Door: A door where the actors, crew, and staff can enter and exit the theatre

Tech Week: The week leading up to opening where the cast and crew do the full show each day in full costumes and makeup. It is extremely physically and mentally challenging and you can often end up at the theatre for 6+ hours

“Thank You Five”: Whenever the stage manager gives a direction back stage, actors should reply with “Thank you (direction given.)” This is to let the stage manager know that you heard their direction

Mic Check: Before the show each actor that uses a microphone will get the levels and placement on them checked

Notes: After a performance or rehearsal the director will give commentary (critiques or praises) to the actors

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Ever since you were a little girl, bouncing in the velvet seats of your city’s theater while watching Les Miserables, it was your dream to play Cosette. From the lilting notes of ‘In My Life’ to her character that leapt from the countless pages of the book, the character (and show) took over your brain. It was a genuine miracle that your parents hadn’t hidden your copy of the cast recording, or that your best friend (Lee Donghyuck) didn’t duct tape your mouth when you’d go to his house after voice lessons and force him to listen to you sing ‘Castle on A Cloud’ with countless different interpretations. 

After years of being obsessed with the show, you felt that it was a sign when your youth theatre announced the summer musical. An email with Les Miserables in huge red, white, and blue letters. It was challenging to not get your hopes up, even throughout callbacks. Even as the director tested different boys and kept you on to read for Cosette, you forced yourself to swallow the thoughts of ‘It’s me!’. When the cast list was finally posted you had to force your hands to quit shaking... Then made Haechan open it because your will didn’t work.

”Why are you even nervous, you know you got the part.” He grumbled, fishing through his pants pocket and trying not to throw up.

“The same reason you’re nervous, now open the damn list” 

“I’m going as fast as I can!” If it weren’t for his panic, you’re sure he would’ve slapped you, “Okay, I have it.”

“Give it to me straight, Doc.” He rolled his eyes and scrolled, undoubtedly skipping past a lengthy message from your director.

“You are such a dork,” It was easy to tell how nervous he was, so you bit the side of your cheek and allowed him to read, “okay. Xiaojun is Valjean, Jaehyun is Javert..” You nod with your jaw clenched, twiddling your hands where they sit in your lap.

“That’s good, they’ll be good in that.” He nodded in agreement, swallowing hard.

“Yea, they will. Lucas is Thenardier, that’ll be funny.” It was becoming increasingly harder to speak, so you hummed an answer and hoped that he understood what you’re trying to say, “Oh no!” he groaned, causing your heartbeat to falter in it’s place.

“What?!”

“The girl who got Cosette! She’s so annoying, but also really talented. As well as hardworking, and she’s wanted to play this role for forever, and-” Realization slowly sunk into the lines of your face as you slapped your best friends arm.

“Shut up!” He started laughing, something huge and sparkly forming in the space between your bodies.

“She’s also my best friend, so...” It was impossible to not hug someone in that moment, so you threw your arms around Hyuck’s shoulders and hoped that he didn’t notice the shake of your shoulders, “Are you crying?” 

“No...” You had sobbed into his shoulder while fat tears were fall onto his cotton t-shirt, “A little bit.” He laughed, a sound that’s familiar and comforting and wraps you up like a blanket.

“I’m proud of you.” Hyuck breathed, squeezing your body tightly.

“Thank you, me too.” The smile when you pulled away was beaming, soaring as high as your full heart.

*

Playing Cosette was everything you’d ever dreamed, except for two tiny things. For starters, there was the wig. Of course you knew that you’d have to wear a wig, almost everyone who plays Cosette has to wear a wig. You just weren’t expecting yours to be so... Ugly. 

It was a nearly five pound mop of thick blonde curls, that would spend every single rehearsal tickling the back of your neck. It didn’t help that you were still a little confused on how to put it on, which caused the terrifying object to slip and slide around constantly. Pretty much at any chance it could get. The first time Xiaojun saw it happen he laughed so hard that he cried.

(”Xaiojun!” You had whined, trying desperately to straighten the blonde rat tail on your head.

“I’m sorry! I’m sorry I was just trying t-to sing at you a-and your wig-” 

Needless to say, the most that came out of that rehearsal were some cursed images of your wig mishaps and one scene being blocked.)

The second, and much more pressing, issue was your love interest. Moon Taeil was a newcomer to your theatre company, but no one was shocked when he got Marius. His voice is technically perfect, you and Xiaojun had analyzed every note of his audition while waiting for the cast list. There was not a single flaw, then when you factored in his emotion... Any director would be lucky to have him in a show.

Based just on his callback, you figured working with him would be a dream. It was for the most part; he came in already memorized every single rehearsal and his voice was just immaculate. His chemistry was stunning... With every one else.

Maybe it’s because you’re spoiled with your lists of love interests, which consists entirely of your closest friends, but you just could not get used to Taeil. It was clear he felt the same way, causing all of your blocked scenes to be stiff as a board. 

(”He’s not like that with Donghyuck! Why is Marius more in love with Enjorlas than Cosette?!” You lamented during an after rehearsal Sheetz run. Donghyuck had rolled his eyes while snatching Sichengs milkshake out of his hands.

“Hyuck, I have literally never hated a person more-” 

“Stop whining, we’re talking about (y/n)!” He quipped, passing the drink back to your peeved dance captain, “It’s probably because he doesn’t have to kiss me, which is a real shame for him.” 

“But he also kisses Emily, and they seem fine.” Jaehyun commented while taking his seat next to you. His addition caused you to groan, head sinking into your hands.

“Why can’t I act with my Marius! It’s so awkward and I can’t even get to know him! He just shows up, does the work, and leaves. Which is fine, whatever, but really? That’s it? No Sheetz afterwards? No McDonald’s? Not even a bag of chips from the vending machine outside the auditorium?! How am I supposed to get to know him when he’s just in and out like a ghost, are we even sure that he’s real?!” You’re breathing has turned heavy while your hands are gripping your wig cap braids almost violently, “Also my wig is so ugly and I don’t know how to put it on!”

“What’s wrong with (y/n)?” Lucas whispered, popping a chip into his mouth and chewing slowly while waiting for someone to answer his question.

“She’s having a mental breakdown for no reason.” Sicheng answered, snatching his milkshake back from Jaehyun. You were so busy ranting that you didn’t even notice the theft.

“It’s not for no reason!” You snapped, chin catching on the straw of your drink.

“(Y/n)?” Donghyuck began, eyes wide and sincere, “Shut up and drink your slushie.”) 

The scenes were so flat, in fact, that you and Taeil were called for a characterization meeting. Alone. If you thought you and Taeil were awkward on stage, sitting on the leather couches of the green room while waiting to talk about how awful you were together was much worse. Plastering on a smile when your director entered was physically challenging. 

“Okay!” She started, dropping files onto the cofee table in front of you, “For the record, you are both doing great. I mean really, love love love the effort. Taeil, you and Donghyuck are just hilarious, and (y/n) and Xiaojun almost made me cry the other day!” 

“Thank you!” You both answer simultaneously, Taeil nodding his head while twiddling his thumbs.

“Of course, that being said there are some issues regarding chemistry.” A shiver runs up your perfectly straightened spine, “I just remember at call backs you two were mind blowing together, like seriously. Those voices were made to sing with each other, and your characters were just what I wanted. A true directors dream, so what happened to that?” Your eyes flick to Taeil, internally begging him to speak first. It almost looks like he’s going to, but the words die on his lips, “I know it’s awkward to talk about, but we need to be open if we’re going to make this work.” You look at your Marius one more time, willing him to speak.

“Personally, I think it’s challenging for me because all of the boys who have previously played my love interests were really close friends. Like Jaehyun, I’ve known him since we were in diapers so it wasn’t... Weird, for either of us.” You turn to Taeil, who’s shifting uncomfortably in his seat, “It’s not that I don’t like you or anything, I do! You’re very talented; I just don’t know you, y’know?” From a force of habit, your eyes flick to your director. She’s nodding, ink pen tapping the tip of her nose. 

“Okay, Taeil?” She prods after a silence that takes forever. The boy fidgets, one hand coming up to scratch the nape of his neck. For one brief moment you notice how beautiful he is, with his sharp jawline cutting perfectly against his soft cheeks and high cheekbones. His eyes glisten while he thinks, then they flick to you. It makes everything feel red.

“Um, I agree... You’re really sweet, and funny, I just don’t know you. Or anyone, really.” The warmth on your skin dissipates and is replaced with a heavy swirling in your gut. Is it always going to be this hard to make him talk to you?

“Okay,” Your director starts, dropping her pen to the table, “so it sounds like for (y/n) to be more comfortable you have to get to know each other, and for Taeil to be more comfortable you need to get used to the environment; nod if I’m right.” Taeil looks at you with the same expression of a deer in headlights, but you’re used to this form of communication. He watches as you nod, then follows timidly, “Alright, I have an assignment. I want you two to go on a date.” 

Let’s just say, if you thought your ego wasn’t damaged by having to do this meeting it was definitely damaged by Taeil’s incredulous sputtering.

“Excuse me?” He asked, cheeks flushing beet red. You bit off the hangnail on your thumb, stomach churning again.  

“I don’t think she means a real date.” You muttered, embarrassment threatening your cheeks. 

“You’re right, (y/n), I don’t. I just mean that I need you two to go out somewhere, sit down, and get to know each other. Not as Marius and Cosette, but as Taeil and (y/n), okay?” You nod eagerly despite the redness flushing your face, because you’re a directors pet first. Taeil is a little (read: a lot) more reserved.

“Okay, we can go after next weeks act one vocal run through?” You suggest. He smiles, it’s the same one he uses while acting. 

“Yea, I’ll drive.” You want to tell him that he doesn’t have to look so scared about it. It’s not like you bite.

“Perfect!” Your director sighs, clapping her hands while popping up from her chair, “It’s a date.”

You wish her words sounded less like a threat.

*

There were few things worse than choreography rehearsals. One thing was choreography rehearsals lead by Dong Sicheng. Especially when they happened on Haechan’s (more commonly known as your ride) sick day. Even worse? Having to wear a blonde rat tail on your head.

“I’m really sorry (y/n), I just can’t even-” His words were cut off by the sound of him retching, you prayed that it was into a toilet, “Yea. That.” You chewed anxiously on your thumb nail, eyes tracking to the slowly dwindling parking lot.

“Don’t even worry about it, I’ll bring by some soup tonight.” You could hear his mom ushering him back into his bed, “Okay?” 

“Sounds good.” He groans out, making an ‘oomf’ sound as he drops into his bed, “I gotta go before I get something gross on my phone. Love you.” 

“Love you too, bye bye!” As you dropped your phone back into the rehearsal bag slung across your shoulder rain started to drizzle outside. It wasn’t a long walk from the theater to your house, and if you ran there was a small chance of actually getting wet (you had learned this with Donghyuck and Jaehyun back in middle school, after many unfortunate weather days.) You could always wait until the stage crew is done and see if one of your friends was on today, but the rain was already turning from drizzle to downpour. Besides, it felt wrong to talk to someone just because you needed a ride; running would be perfectly fine. 

“Who were you talking to?” A voice asked. You yelped, whipping around to see black hair and soft cheeks.

“Oh, Taeil!” Your voice comes out so fake that it makes you cringe, “It was just Donghyuck, he’s sick so I’m here. Why are you still here?” He shoves his hands into the pockets of his sweatpants, eyeing the rain where it falls behind you.

“I was talking with Henderey. He’s stage manager, do you know him?” Slight irritation itches the back of your neck. 

“Of course.” He swallows roughly, hands briefly coming out of his pockets to brush through his hair.

“Oh, well our dads are friends. So...” Silence settles awkwardly in the room, so thick that you could spread it on toast, “So if Donghyck’s not here how are you getting home? Doesn’t he usually take you?” A sigh escapes your lip as you turn around again, noticing the rain that’s beginning to come down in sheets. 

“He does, I think I’m just gonna... Walk?” Taeil’s face twisted, jaw going slack while his eyebrows furrowed. 

“Y-you know I can’t let you do that, right?” A small laugh bubbles in your throat as you suddenly understand why he’s the perfect fit for Marius. The only word that can be used to describe Taeil in this moment (other than awkward) would be pretty. His lips are puffy and twisted with concern, soft cheeks pulling downwards with a frown. He’s pure lover boy material, which makes you even more frustrated that you can’t act with him.

“It’s fine, you clearly don’t want to be around me. Or go out with me, and if I run-”

“Hold on,” he interrupts, taking a step closer to you, “who said that?” a blush rises all the up to your ears, you almost move to cover them.

“Well, you didn’t say it but-”

“ME?!” His eyebrows are raised, they’re so perfect that you wonder if he’s ever had them done.

“Yes! Last week, you all but spat on yourself at the idea of going out with me. I mean you don’t have to get married to me or anything, but seriously? Is it that revolting?” His cheeks are the color of the daylilies that bloom in your front yard. Running in the rain doesn’t sound too bad at this point.

“I didn’t mean- it wasn’t like th- I just don’t know you!” For some reason those five words are what make the pot in your brain boil over.

“I don’t know you either! You aren’t the only uncomfortable one!” His expression is softening, it makes you want to scream... Or cry, “I don’t know you, anything about you! I try to joke around backstage, ask about your favorite shows, I even gave you permission to make fun of my wig! I won’t even let Donghyuck do that! You literally just won’t talk to me, so it’s safe to assume you don’t like me very much. Which is whatever, that’s all up to you, but you have to work with me! Which means you have to not, oh I don’t know, spit on yourself when the director says we have to do something together!” The expression of concern on Taeil’s face had twisted into one of sadness. It was unbelievable to you that he was sad, you were the offended one! With a frustrated sigh, you turn to the glass doors and brace yourself for the rain.

“Wait!” He calls out. You turn back around to see that he’s taken a step closer to you, one arm outreached as if he wants to touch you. Something flips in your stomach, “I’m really sorry. And I promise it’s not like that, I do like you.”

“Sure have a funny way of showing it.” You mumble, arms folding across your chest. He froze for a moment, lips forming a straight line on his face.

“I know, I’m sorry. Let me drive you home and make it up to you?” You’re about to say no when thunder booms outside, “I’ll even pull up and get you.”

“Does your car have seat warmers?” A smile starts cracking at the corner of his lips, you can’t tell if it’s endearing or infuriating.

“Yes.” 

“Okay, fine. I’m still upset though!” The smile finally spreads, it looks like sun rolling over hills. He nods and moves past you.

“Noted.”

* 

The moment you decided that Taeil was okay (probably more than that) was when you were sitting in his mom van underneath the cover of a Kangaroo gas station while listening to your musical theatre playlist. He was eating sour patch kids and sipping on a mountain dew while laughing at your answers to ‘twenty’ questions (twenty in quotations because in reality the two of you had far surpassed that number. It had been almost an hour of asking questions back and forth while chewing on gummy candy.)

“Okay... What’s the best role you’ve had?” You ask, stomach fluttering at the way his face lights up.

“Other than Marius,” He playfully sticks his tongue out at you, causing a giggle to bubble in your throat, “Tulsa in Gypsy. That was super fun.” 

“You can tap?” You ask, shooting up out of your seat. He chuckles, stealing a gummy worm from the bag in your lap.

“Is that your question or...” 

“No! Don’t count that; and stop taking my worms!” He laughs again as you protectively cradle the colorful bag.

“What’s your best role? And yes, I can tap.” You mull it over for a second, sucking on the red and blue candy in your mouth.

“Probably Sarah Brown in Guys and Dolls, that was really fun. I got to do it with Jaehyun, too, so that was nice. My turn?” He nods while taking a long sip from his green can, “Okay, what’s your favorite musical?” 

“Oklahoma.” He answers definitely. It makes you want to gag.

“Why?!” He answers with a ‘tsk’ sound, wagging an index finger towards you.

“It’s not your turn anymore.” He shoves a clump of blue sour patch kids into his mouth before continuing, “What do you think is the best movie musical?” 

“Easy, Mama Mia. And swallow before you talk.” He smiles, poking one blue blob in between his teeth, “Why Oklahoma?” He sighs, plopping back into the drivers seat. 

“It was my moms favorite.” His voice has taken on a softer tone, it makes you want to turn down the music.

“Permission to pry?” He looks towards you with glassy eyes, then nods, “Was?” 

“Yea.” He breathes out, head tilting backwards. The motion exposes the elegant lines of his throat (it takes everything in you to not stare,) “Was, she passed when I was nine. Stomach cancer. I started theatre pretty soon after that.” Your heart softens at his words.

“I’m sorry, I had no idea.” He locks eyes with you and grins.

“Don’t you dare go and forgive me because I have a dead mom!” The strict words make you bust out in laughter,doubling over so quickly that you almost push his drink out of the cup holder. He chuckles too, pushing playfully at your shoulder, “Come on, sit up.”

“That isn’t why I’m forgiving you.” You answer through laughter, placing a hand on his arm, “I’m forgiving you because you’re actually really funny, and kind, and... You’re like a pomegranate person. They seem so ‘meh’ on the outside, then you have to work really really hard to open it up, but once you do it’s worth all of it.” 

“Thank you, I think?” He chuckles, putting his free hand on top of yours, “Did you just call me ugly?” The laugh that comes out of you is so aggressive that it could be classified as a snort. It makes your gut clench.

“No!” You gasp, running one hand across your face, “I was saying that... I’m glad you forced me to let you take me home.” He gives you a soft smile, your ears turn pink.

“Yea, I am too.”

*

Being part of a theatre company in a small town resulted in two things; a lack of crew and strange traditions. The lack of crew was a direct cause of the lack of people auditioning, but after ten years that was proving to be less of a problem. However, the traditions (thankfully) had still yet to die out. There were countless examples, but amongst your favorite was the pajama sing through. 

It started in the very first show, ‘The Little Mermaid’ (you were participating at a ripe eight years old, in the groundbreaking role of ‘Clown fish’.) The girl playing Ariel decided that a pajama party would be fun, someone even brought a waffle maker. You remembered sitting next to Donghyuck in matching onesies and sharing a waffle with whipped cream and strawberries, and so the tradition was born.

(He had laughed his butt off when you got into the car that morning.

“You look ridiculous, it’s perfect!” You wanted to slap him, but in a caring way. On one hand, he made you wear a Mike Wazowski onesie. On the other, you wouldn’t want anyone else to be your Sully.

“Shut up and drive! Also, are you feeling better?” He chuckled again, punching your shoulder the way an older brother would.

“Much, it was just food poisoning. Let’s go!”)

Everyone cheered when you and Hyuck entered the green room with a rusty waffle maker and fresh strawberries. It was a heartwarming sight, thirty kids all sitting on the floor of a shabby room with neon green walls dressed in over the top fuzzy pajamas.

“Where’s the waffles?” Jaehyun called out from across the room. He wore a black cotton shirt with fuzzy plaid pants, an outfit that fondly reminded you of your middle school sleepovers.

“Will you get your bag off the counter please?” He stuck his tongue out at you, slinging the leather satchel over his shoulder. You smiled sweetly at him then immediately got to work setting the machine up, “Sicheng should be here soon with the batter.” 

“Um, why are we all in pajamas?” A voice asked from the door, one that you quickly recognized to be Taeil. He was in a white t-shirt tucked into a well fitted pair of jean shorts. all tied together with a brown leather belt.

“Did no one tell him?” Jaehyun whispers, the room falling quiet. Everyone’s staring at him, it almost makes you embarrassed.

“Um, we always wear pajamas to sing through’s. I guess no one told you, but don’t worry! I brought extras!” You walk towards the door, grabbing his arm as you pass by, “Did Hendery really not tell you?” 

“Guess not, it’s weird to have everyone stare at you for not going out in pajamas.” His face when he makes a joke is so pure, particularly the way he softly laughs to himself. You make a point to laugh as well. 

“Yea, it’s a tradition that we started at the first sing through. It’s always fun, kind of like a movie night. We’re parked this way.” You pull him towards the stage door.

“Aren’t we supposed to not use this door?” You scoff and push it open.

“No one follows that rule, also the pj’s are Hyuck’s. They should fit fine, if anything just a little long-”

“Okay you can call me annoying, or rude, or say that I have the personality of a door knob. But if you start calling me short I won’t hesitate to dropkick you.” A laugh escapes your mouth, coming out bubbly and kind. Like something you’d share with a friend.

“Relax! I wasn’t calling you... The s-word. I was just saying, Hyuck is a little bit tall-” He slaps your shoulder as you move towards your friends silver car.

“Not another word!” He punctuates each word with a short slap to your bicep, it makes you giggle.

“Okay, okay! I call mercy!” You laugh out while retrieving the fuzzy pajamas from Hyuck’s car, “Here you are, one pair of pj’s!” When you turn around to hand them off he’s standing just a little bit closer than before, you can almost feel his breath.

“Thank you,” He sighs, taking the fuzzy green pants and white hoodie into his hands, “I guess we’re not going to a restaurant after this?” You laugh again, softly pushing his shoulder.

“Are you trying to say my Mike Wazowski onesie isn’t good enough for the public?” He gasps and clenches his chest, perfect eyebrows furrowing.

“(Y/n)! I would nev-” He’s interrupted by the stage door swinging open, Donghyuck poking his head out ever so slightly.

“(Y/n)!  Waffles!” You smile widely, like a little kid on Christmas morning. You slam the car door behind you shut and begin moving towards the door.

“Coming!” You sing in response, turning back to motion at Taeil, “Come on, there’s waffles!” You see him smile, something about it looks reserved.

(What you don’t see is the longing glances he cast to you throughout rehearsal, the clench in his gut as you feed Donghyuck the piece of strawberry that had fallen onto his Sully onesie. You don’t see his eyes cast downwards as you nestle into Donghyuck’s side and stay there for the rest of the sing through.)

*

It turns out Taeil’s plans consisted of eating Taco Bell in the trunk of his mom van while listening to the Mamma Mia cast album. You passed around questions and laughs while stuffing your faces with burritos and chips that were too greasy. 

“You really don’t think I would play Harry?” He asks through a mouthful of burrito. 

“No, you’re definitely a Sky. Also, swallow before you speak!” He laughs, threatening to fling a piece of lettuce at you, “Don’t you dare!”

“I won’t. You’d probably be Sophie.” You flash him a bright smile, doing an over exaggerated hair flip.

“I think so too.” He rolls his eyes, the sunlight spilling from his car windows highlight a honey colored undertone in his pupils. A part of you wishes you could bottle up this moment and keep it forever, “Permission to pry?”

“Is it about my mom?” He asks knowingly. You nod meekly as he smiles a gentle smile, “Go ahead.”

“Yesterday, when you said that you started theatre soon after your mom passing, was... I don’t know, was there a reason for that?” The words coming out of our mouth feel heavy, threatening to shatter the bubble. You had never worried about shattering a bubble before, but something about the memory of Taeil’s glassy eyes from yesterday makes your stomach clench.

“She was an actress. A really good one too, there’s tons of pictures and stuff. We actually have one cast recording from when she was off Broadway, but I can’t listen to it anymore.” He takes a deep breath, tilting his head back again. You’re starting to think that’s a habit when he talks about his mom, “I did Suessical right after she passed because I wanted to... I don’t know, feel closer to her? I stayed because of the whole family thing, since my family had actually fallen apart. Like, unraveled. Then I found out I was kind of good at it, so here we are.” It’s tempting to reach out and grab his hand, so you do. Your eyes lock as you offer up a gentle smile.

“That’s sweet, I’m sure she’s really proud of you.” He smiles back and breathes out. One strand of black hair swoops over his eyes, you think that he looks like a love story.

“She was a lot like you, actually.” You cock an eyebrow, eliciting a breathy laugh from the sweet boy, “I’m serious! She was so sweet, and funny, and like... Stubborn, but in a quiet kind of way.” Warmth blossoms in your chest.

“I’m glad you think of me that way, does that have anything to with why you wouldn’t talk to me?” He laughs again, unwinding his hand from yours. The answer is hesitant, you choose to believe it’s because he was laughing.

“Sure.” 

You stay in the back of his car until the sun sets, wrapped up in the feeling of being with Taeil like it’s a warm bathrobe and you just stepped out of the shower.

*

“Where to this week?” You ask while bouncing over to the mom van. Taeil smiles, unlocking the door so you can climb in.

“I’m feeling ice cream, so Dairy Queen?” You smile and nod enthusiastically.

“Dairy Queen, absolutely!” He flashes you a smile while settling into the drivers seat, immediately connecting his phone to the aux and flipping through countless cast recordings.

“What are we feeling today? Maybe some Phantom?” When he looks over he’s greeted with a hazy smile, one that’s exclusively reserved for post rehearsal sappiness, “What?” (You pretend to not notice the goofy grin catching on the plane of his face.)

“I’m just really glad that we’re doing this weekly now. It’s almost like we’re friends.” He laughs, punching your shoulder. You think that it feels different than when Hyuck does it.

“We are friends, now text me your order.”

*

“Where are we headed, Miss?” Taeil questions, mustering up a rancid British accent. You would’ve laughed less if his hair wasn’t stuck to his forehead with sweat. The entire cast had been hoping Sicheng would lighten up on choreography rehearsals as you got closer to show week, but sadly you were all dead wrong.

“How about Dunkin’? I need the caffeine after that torture session.” He smiles widely, you pretend to not notice the bead of sweat that drips down his nose.

“Sounds great, text me-” 

“My order, already on it!” He pinches your cheek before putting the car in reverse; you try to ignore how it makes your skin burn for the rest of the day.

*

“I can’t believe we’re one week away from tech.” You lament while Taeil sinks his teeth into a Five Guys burger. The idea of inhaling fast food while sitting in the back of this boys car would’ve once been so foreign to you, but now it’s a routine, “It feels like just yesterday we were stuttering our way through every scene together while Hyuck roasted me in our group chat.”

“Would he really?” A laughs spills from your mouth, along with a single shred of lettuce from the bite of cheese burger you had just consumed. Taeil immediately points at the spot where it landed on your thigh, laughing along with you, “Swallow! Swallow before you speak! Laugh? Either!” He’s shaking a finger at you, it reminds you of something your father would do.

“Stop! It’s your fault for making me laugh!” You whine, reaching up to grab his still waggling finger, “I swear we’re gonna have to fight!” His laughter has permeated the air, it makes something flutter in your stomach.

“I can’t believe your manners are so bad! Get it together, (y/n)!” He brings his other hand up, but doesn’t get very far before your hands are wrapped around both of his index fingers.

“Keep this up and Marius is going on with eight fingers.” You manage through a laugh, trying not to notice the pink spreading across his high cheek bones. (The same way you tried to not notice the freckle on the shell of his ear, or how his skin looked like honey against his black sweatshirt,) “I’m not kidding!” 

“Forgive me for finding a girl who was wearing a blonde pom pom on her head an hour ago less than threatening.” He teases. You pretend that your heart doesn’t clench at his mischievous smirk.

“You’re so lucky that I like you too much to hurt you.”

*

When Jung Jaehyun moved in down the street you were six years old. It immediately resulted in countless days of riding your bikes up and down the street and stuffing your face with traditional Korean food at his house. Over the years the activities have changed, but the accessibility was always the same.

Which is how you ended up knocking on his front door at midnight exactly eight hours before tech rehearsals were set to begin. He opened the door wearing an expression of concern, as well as a bright green face mask.

“(Y/n)? It’s kinda late, isn’t-”

“I think I’m in love with Taeil.” You blurt out. His jaw drops open, light cracks forming in the green goop on his face, “I don’t really know how it happened, but we have those weekly dates or whatever, and he makes me laugh, a-and I don’t know! He’s just so kind and gentle, so so gentle, and our stage kiss! That, that used to be something just like... Whatever, you know? Like how I’ve kissed you and Hyuck. Just a stage kiss, but with Taeil it leaves chills all over my body! I literally forget my lines, which I’ve never done before! At least not because of a kiss!” Your eyes are wild (though, the fact that you’re donning fuzzy plaid pajama pants and bed head definitely adds to that.)

“Um... I’m not really in a position to talk right now, why don’t you come inside?” You nod, chewing nervously on your lower lip. He ushers you into the house, immediately seating you on the couch with a warm cup of honey tea, “I’m gonna go wash this off, but I promise I will be right back. We can talk then, yea?” You nod shyly, sipping the hot tea as he exits the living room.

The thoughts of Taeil had been dwelling in your head for weeks, causing your romance scenes to flourish. Receiving adamant praise from your director was nice, but you always left the stage with a hole in your chest. A gaping hole that only closes up in the solace of Taeil’s mom van with his eyes trained on you and everything feeling warm.

Jaehyun reenters the room with a clean face, immediately plopping next to you on the couch. His hair is pulled back from his forehead with an elastic headband, causing it to poke out in every direction. You think he looks like an octopus  

“The tea’s good.” You breathe, face taking on a tired expression. You think Jaehyun doesn’t notice until he places his ring finger on the space between your eyebrows.

“Relax, we don’t need tech week wrinkles before tech has even started.” You roll your eyes dramatically, running a hand across your face.

“I’ll never forgive Hyuck for teaching you about skin care.” You groan as he playfully punches your shoulder.

“Whereas I am forever grateful. So, Taeil?” You whine like a peeved child at his comment, head falling onto his shoulder. He let’s out a squeaky laugh while pushing you to sit up, “Come on, tell me everything!”

So you do, mouth letting out words faster than you thought was possible. You tell him about the first day he drove you home, how he ate sour patch kids and sang along to Mean Girls. You tell him about taco bell, about how your weekly outings have become almost sacred. Most importantly, you tell Jaehyun about the moment you started to fall. Sitting in the back of Moon Taeil’s car with a mouthful of burrito; ‘She was a lot like you, actually’. It was so certain, so meaningful.

“I don’t know. He just make me feel so calmed, like... Like when we’re together there’s a pink bubble around us, and nothing can penetrate it.” A soft smile has taken on home on your friends face, one of his hands holding his heart as he pouts. It’s maddening how a moment like this with Jaehyun (or with any of your friends) makes you feels so different compared to a moment like this with Taeil. He’s just a boy like the others, but his hand on your thigh would make your head explode.

“That’s really sweet, (y/n). And it seems like he really likes you too.” You groan again, eliciting a warm laugh from your friend, “What? Why’s that bad?” You drag your hands down your face, pulling dramatically on your cheeks.

“Because! I’ve never liked anyone this much before, let alone someone like Taeil! He’s so hardworking, and sweet to everyone. I just don’t know if...” He leans into you, raising one eyebrow.

“You don’t know what?” A lump forms in your throat, you want to vomit.

“I don’t know if I’m good enough.” The words are breathy due to you uselessly fighting back tears. One slides down your cheek, Jaehyun passes you a tissue, “A-and it’s scary because I’m not used to not knowing that, I’m always good enough! But for him, f-for him? He deserves the entire world, and I can’t give him that! I can’t even drive!” Jaehyun laughs softly, pulling you into a comforting hug while patting your back softly.

“Well the driving thing isn’t your fault, or relevant,” A whimper escapes your lips as you cuddle into your friends chest, “And if you two are meant to be then you will be enough. No matter what you have to give physically, if you two really love each other you will always be enough. Now let’s get you home, can’t have Cosette showing up cranky on the first day of tech.” You laugh; it’s a depressing, watery noise. Sitting up, you wipe the tear tracks from your cheeks and inhale snottily.

“No, I guess we can’t. Would be a shame to have a sleepy Javert, too.” He laughs while standing in one swift motion, offering you a hand.

“Yes it would... (Y/n?)” You stand up, stealing one last hug from your kind friend.

“Yes?” You ask while nestled in his arms.

“I love you so much. You’re like my little sister, and I’m really really proud of you.” A sigh leaves your chest, your whole body feeling like a weight’s been lifted.

“Thank you, big bro.” He smiles brightly, “You’re gonna tell everyone about this, aren’t you?” He laughs again, head tilting back. You think of the way Taeil does that, and then you think of the way his laugh sounds (soft and high, almost like how a fairy would laugh.)

“Sweetie, we already knew. We were just waiting for you to admit it.”

*

1:27 am

Incoming text from; xiaojun <3

‘(Y/N) AND TAEIL SITTIN IN A TREE’

‘K-I-S-S-I-N-G’

*

1:49 am

Incoming text from; seecheeng

‘thank u for confessing jae owes me $30′

*

1:52 am

Incoming text from; luke ass

‘AYEEEEEEEEEE’

*

6:05 am

Incoming text from; donkey yuck <33

‘if u don’t make a move by the end of tech i’ll eat your toes :)’

*

There were four dressing rooms in your theater, usually divided between principle and ensemble due to the amount of costumes. While the boys and girls were separated, you would freely go between your dressing room and wherever all of your boys were. You were all so familiar that you could come in wearing nothing but a sweatshirt and your spanx. Which is exactly what you did, business as usual.

“Happy t-” Your voice leaves as soon as you see Taeil sitting in front of a mirror with an eyebrow pencil in his hand. He looks at you, and it’s almost comical how quickly his cheeks turn pink, “I’m gonna go put my pants back on.” 

(You can hear Hyuck laughing through the walls.)

“Welcome back!” Lucas calls out as you reenter the dressing room, “Happy to see your pants this time.” You shoot him a sleepy glare and plop into the seat next to Donghyuck. 

“Will you do my falsies for me?” You ask the boy, already knowing that he’ll agree.

“Yes, but I’m not tying your corset.” A laugh falls from your lips as you pump primer onto the back of your hand. It’s going pretty well until you notice Taeil watching you, eyes trained on your every move. It makes you blush.

“What?” You ask, remnants of laughter settling in your chest. The room is bustling, people arguing over where to put costume pieces, music blaring from Xiaojun’s speaker, Lucas screaming over... Something; but nonetheless you can feel a bubble form around you and Taeil. 

“Oh! Nothing, just... Your makeup looks so good. Mine always looks gross.” His eyes are sparkling, along with the teeth that poke from his small smile. You laugh lightly, pushing a stray piece of hair behind your ear.

“Do you want me to do your makeup?” His eyes immediately go wide, the small smile now spreading cheek to cheek. The way he nods like an energetic kid makes your heart clench, “Okay, just let me finish this really quick.” You pack powder onto your forehead, then slide up onto the counter in front of where he’s sitting, “Where’s your foundation?” He reaches behind you to grab the small glass bottle, hand lightly brushing your hip bone in the process. It would be a joke to say the two of you don’t develop blushes redder than a fire engine.

“Um, here!” He shoves the bottle into your hands, driving a wedge between your bodies. 

“Thanks.” You sigh, spreading the liquid goop onto the back of your hand, “How are you feeling about your first tech day so far?” The boy smirks, a giggle playing on his lips.

“It’s fun. My favorite part was when you came in without pants.” From across the room Hyuck cackles, causing both you and Taeil to turn and stare.

“Sorry, I agree!” You roll your eyes and return to the former position. The first thing you notice is how smooth Taeil’s skin is, then the solemn expression that it wears. Your eyebrows crinkle while spreading blending foundation into his cheeks.

“What’s wrong?” You ask while moving onto the boys forehead. He shakes his head dismissively, causing you to promptly slap him, “Don’t move your head... Or lie to me.”

“I’m fine!” The boys sighs, a smile finally verging on the edges of his lips, “And I wouldn’t lie to you.” Something clenches inside of your chest, something that let’s you know he’s still not okay. You’re about to push even harder when Xiaojun calls your name from across the room, shouting that it’s your turn to pick the song.

“Anything from Waitress!” You reply while lightly dabbing blush onto Taeil’s cheeks. The bubble is officially popped, but the weight of Taeil’s face in your hands is too comforting for it to matter.

*

“Five to places!” Hendery calls into the girls dressing room. You (and three ensemble girls) are currently trying to shove your gut into a corset while not damaging the curly blonde wig on top of your head. Yet still, you drone ‘Thank you five’ in response, as if you’re all actually going to be ready by then.

“I got it!” One girl shouts as she fastens the eye and hook on your back, “Okay, breathe in really hard.” You barely have a chance to breathe period before she fastens the ribbons so tight that you see stars. 

“Thank you.” You wheeze as she backs away, moving quickly to put on your first dress. It’s a gorgeous thing, with sleeves that puff like clouds and a huge violet silk skirt. The first time you pulled it over your head it felt like you were the same little girl who bounced and cheered in the seats of the Les Mis national tour, like thousands of wishes on stars had come true. You felt the same way now as you gazed into the mirror.

“Where’s your bonnet?” The girl playing Eponine asked, eliciting a curse from your perfectly painted lips.

“I left it in the boys room.” You drop your hands from where they’re adjusting the gown and head for the door. Rushing into the boys dressing room while wearing a dress shaped like a cupcake and character shoes is probably a sight for sore eyes. You actually know that it is, if Xiaojuns aching laughter is anything to judge by.

“Has anyone seen my bon-” The sight of Taeil standing alone in the center of the room with your bonnet twirling on his fingers makes your voice stop. You smile and walk towards him, reveling in the stars in his eyes, “Thank you, I was looking for that.” You say as you take it off the boys fingers. The room is a heavy kind of silent, one that waits for someone to say something, “So are you-”

“We have to stop this.” He states, turning to face you head on. Something clenches in your chest, causing confusion to rise up on your face.

“Stop what, I’m just getting my bonnet-” 

“Please don’t do that,” He groans as sadness settles into the lines of his face, “don’t act like you don’t know what I’m talking about. It’ll just drag this out.” He moves to turn away, but you grab him by the shoulder and flip him back to you. There’s no way that he’s getting of this that easily.

“I don’t know what you’re talking about, so tell me!” You’re begging, but there’s something snapping in your heart telling you to not care. He sighs deeply, running one hand over his face. It’s infuriating how hard his action makes your stomach flutter.

“This! Th-the feelings! The way that we talk a-and touch, it has to stop.” You feel a lump harden in your throat, but you swallow it down and grip him tighter.

“Why?” He groans, trying again to move away, “No, tell me why? If it’s because you don’t feel how I do then I at least deserve to know!” His eyes go sad, a single tear rolling down his cheek. You want to tell him that it’ll ruin his makeup if he cries now. You want to wipe it away.

“It’s not that, I-I do feel the same. But I can’t, and I shouldn’t, so we have to stop this.” Tears are flowing down his cheeks, you want to cry too. It’s actually becoming hard not to.

“Yes, but why?” Your voice sounds like a sob.

“Because! Because I don’t want to hurt anyone, least of all you, so we have to stop this.” Well, that wasn’t any less confusing than this outburst. You’re about to say something when the door swings open.

“Places!” Hendery calls into the room. Your stomach goes cold at the realization that you still have to do the show.

“Thank you places.” Taeil calls back as you drop his shoulder. He wipes the tears from his cheeks, you want to tell him that he’s going to get foundation on his sleeve. Before he leaves he casts you one last glance with watery eyes, it almost looks like he’s going to apologize. He doesn’t, leaving you standing alone in the middle of the room. 

The silence settles heavy again, enveloping you entirely. There’s no sound as you sob, no sound as the overhead microphone turns on, no sound as Hyuck and Lucas enter the room to envelope you in a bone crushing. No sound except for the boiling anger that turns your ears red and the erratic thumping of your heart that leaps into your throat.

*

You do your makeup and put on your wig in the boys dressing room everyday, yet still manage to avoid talking to Taeil until final dress. It was challenging to say the least, but Hyuck’s terrible jokes and watching Lucas try to do his stage makeup was the perfect distraction from the brick that Taeil left in your gut. Unfortunately, neither of them were here now. Just Xiaojun (who was sitting in the cushy chair by the door with earbuds in,) Taeil (who was buttoning the collar of his ruffled shirt,) and you (who’s shoving all of the hair on your head into a wig cap.)

“You were really good yesterday.” He says, mocha brown eyes moving to where you sit. It’s frustrating how quickly you blush, “Not that you’re not always really good, you are! It’s just-” 

“Why are you doing this?” You ask, hands dropping from your head and onto the makeup counter, “First you say that you won’t... Whatever for god knows why, and that’s fine! I’m trying to let that be fine, even though I have to kiss you but it’s not like I’m actually kissing you. It’s fine, it’s fine! Until you start trying to make small talk, that’s just cruel.” You can only imagine how non-threatening you look with all of your hair shoved into a lump on your head, yet he still looks like he’s been scolded.

“Oh, um... I’m sorry.” You turn back to the mirror and pull the wig onto your head, securing it with a huge clump of bobby pins.

“I have to go and get my costume on, I’ll see on stage.” You exit quickly, with something angry, sad, and ugly forming in your stomach.

*

The feeling of opening night is one that eludes a description. It’s like there’s a pit in your stomach, but the pit is lined with glitter and fireworks. Wonderful and happy and relived, but still anxious. 

“Happy opening!” You sing while waltzing into the boys room, wearing a pair of sweatpants over your already fastened corset.

“Happy opening!” They chorus in response. The room is already in perfect chaos, with Hyuck and Lucas doing full fledged reenactments of whatever song comes on shuffle while Jaehyun stands between them and struggles to brush on mascara. You laugh at the scene while settling into a makeup chair.

“How are you feeling?” Xiaojun asks from his seat next to yours. A smile spreads on your face at the question, causing your hands to hiccup while they unpack your makeup bag.

“Excited... Nervous. Happy, but also a little bit sad. Everything, I guess.” He laughs in a way that let’s you know he feels the same, and that he also has no idea how to describe an opening night.

“Everything about sums it up.” He responds with a short laugh, turning in his chair to face the mirror, “I’m really proud of us, you know? Like... You make me cry every night, (y/n), we used to not even be able to get through the death scene without cracking up.” The memory of your wig sliding away from your scalp like a fried egg makes you giggle while you cast a soft smile towards your onstage father. The bright feeling in your stomach turns sour as you see Taeil’s reflection, but you swallow it whole.

“I’m proud of us too, dad.” Your friend visibly cringes, a hearty laugh escaping his smiling lips.

“Nope, nope absolutely hated that!” He whines, pushing you back towards the mirror.

“Aw come on-” You stop talking when Hendery pokes his head into the dressing room, already knowing the exact words he’s about to say.

“Mic check in five!” He calls, the words feeling different than they did the day before.

“Thank you five!” Everyone answers.

*

It had never been a problem that Taeil’s mic check was done right before yours. Sure, you both had to go back to the dressing room at almost the same time, but it usually never mattered. Xiaojun, Lucas, and Jaehyun were always done far before you and you could find them in the dressing room finishing up their makeup and starting to get in costume. It had never been a problem, until today that is.

You enter the dressing room hoping to immediately jump into a Lucas led dance party. Instead the room is empty except for Taeil, who’s quietly singing while patting blush onto his smooth cheeks. His back goes pin straight when he hears you pick up your makeup bag, moving towards you quickly. His hand comes to rest on your shoulder, it’s frustrating how right it feels.

“(y/n), please just-” 

“Taeil, I already told you. I can’t do this.” The expression on his face is one of soft determination, small creases forming next to his pretty eyes.

“I know, I know. I just want you to know that... I love you, (y/n), and I have to tell you why. Can I tell you why?” You can feel him looking at you with a gaze that weighs a thousand pounds, so you nod, “I love you because every time I pass a Taco Bell now I think of your sweet laugh in the back of my car. I love you because whenever I drop you off at your house my car still smells like your perfume for hours. I love you because when you blush it goes up to your ears. I love you because every time that we sing together I think of New Years Eve with my mom, when we’d sing around the piano after dinner. And I know, I shouldn’t do this because you have a boyfriend and that’s just... Wrong, but if I didn’t say this-” Your eyebrows furrow hard at his comment, a boyfriend?

“Who’s my boyfriend?” You ask, causing confusion to rise on the boys face, “Taeil, who’s my boyfriend?” 

“I-I thought- Donghyuck?” A hodgepodge of emotions bubbles in your chest. It’s like an elation and confusion sundae, topped with disgust sauce and a cherry.

“Taeil, you beautiful, beautiful idiot! Donghyuck’s not my boyfriend, he’s just my friend!” You exclaim as the boys eyes go wide. You grab his face by the cheeks, then remember that he’s wearing a full face and settle for his shoulders.

“He is?!” You nod excitedly as his confused expression is replaced with realization.

“I’d rather eat my own toes than date Hyuck, he’s an asshole!” 

“Yea see you’d say stuff like that and I’d get really confused-”

“Taeil, we’re going to kiss now. Okay?” He nods, bringing his hands to curve around your neck.

“Oh, okay. More than okay-” 

The first thing you notice is that his breath tastes like cinnamon. He tastes like cinnamon and clover honey, and you think that you could get addicted to it. You think you are addicted to it. The way that his hands hold your face like it’s a diamond, the way that his soft lips engulf yours, the way that the taste of him has you subconsciously following him while he pulls away. You think that kissing Taeil is one of those things that only takes a taste to make someone addicted.

“I love you, so, so much,” He breathes, foreheads resting against one another. You’ve never felt more in a bubble than you do right now, “I don’t know what to say...” 

“So don’t.” You sigh while moving forward, securing his lips in a second kiss. His lips are moving with yours within seconds, his tongue briefly slipping into your mouth. It takes every ounce of your self control to not melt in his hands.

He’s moving his hands down to your waist when the door opens. You don’t even notice, too lost in the weight of Taeil’s mouth and the motion of his hands. You two are completely lost in each other, until Lucas let’s out a high pitched scream.

“Damn it! Hyuck, you won!” He shouts, causing you and Taeil to jump away from each other (and for Taeil to hit his tailbone on the makeup counter. You jokingly offered to ‘kiss it better.’)

“Finally!” Hyuck says, entering the dressing room with an arm slung around Xiaojun’s shoulder.

“It’s only been a week!” You cry defensively, settling into Taeil’s side. You take in his warmth and think to yourself, ‘I could get used to this.’

“We’ve been betting on this since the read through.” Jaehyun states blankly while grabbing his costume from the rack.

“Yea, we were starting to think Sicheng was gonna win with ‘after the show.’” Xiaojun jokes, holding his hand out to silently ask Jaehyun to pass him his first costume, “I’ve already lost, act one sing through.” You laugh brightly, slapping Taeil’s chest with one hand. He’s staring at you like you’re made out of a million dollars, for the first time you can notice it.

“I think after you explain this I might have to dig your grave.” He laughs, pressing a soft kiss to your forehead. You decide that you like it when his kisses are gentle, too.

“Yea, probably. Now go get your wig on, cutie.” Your friends gag loudly as you give him a short peck and bounce away over to where your wig sits on the other side of the dressing room. You don’t want it to be any other way.

*

“You know, the wig actually looks kinda pretty with the whole costume.” Taeil says, pushing an artificial ringlet off of your face. You laugh while rolling your eyes and grabbing his hand.

“Just like how you don’t look stupid in that ruffle shirt?” He smiles in a way that makes his eyes crinkle, you add the sight to a list of things you never want to forget.

“Exactly!” You’re going to kiss him again, but sadly you’re interrupted by Hendery poking his head into the dressing room.

“Places in five!” You suddenly remember that it’s opening night, then you think of how easy it’ll be to portray Cosette’s story tonight.

“Thank you five!” You both respond, Taeil bringing a hand to cradle your jaw.

“I’ve never dreaded leaving a dressing room more.” You whine, giving your boyfriend a sad glance. He smiles in a way that makes your whole body feel warm. 

“Don’t worry,” Taeil whispers before pressing a quick kiss to your lips, “we’ll have plenty of time to do this after the show. Now go to your dressing room, I’ll see you onstage.” 

Later, during notes, your director says that the first glance between Marius and Cosette was the best one yet. You know it’s because the entire time while cooped up in your dressing room you thought of nothing other than Moon Taeil’s lips on yours.

*

When the cast list for Grease was posted you were checking out at Sheetz with Taeil. Jaehyun, Xiaojun, Lucas, Sicheng, Hendery, and Donghyuck  were quietly waiting for you two at a table, speaking anxiously amongst themselves. Well, until everyone’s phones went off at the same time. The only thing you could make out was someone yelling ‘cast list!’ and Xiaojun dropping his phone face first onto the tile. Along with people harassing Hendery for information.

(”Don’t act like you don’t know!” Lucas accused while offering a hand to Xiaojun who was assessing the damage on his phone. While on the floor.

“I’m telling you, I’m just the five guy!”)

“Here’s your receipt, have a great day!” The cashier chirped while handing  the receipt to your boyfriend. There was a knot forming in your stomach as you walked over to your friends table with three bagfuls of snacks, but it released as Taeil put a hand on your shoulder.

“Relax, Sandy.” He whispered into your ear. The words made you blush all the way up to your ears.

“We haven’t seen the list yet Danny!” You quip back, hoping desperately that he didn’t notice your red cheeks. (He noticed, your cheeks got a firm kiss along with a boyish giggle.) 

“(y/n)!” Haechan squeals while running over and grabbing you by the shoulders, “Look at the list!” A nervous giggle slips past your lips as you move to grab your phone. You stop when you notice that Taeil’s already on it, turning to face him while inhaling deeply.

“Give it to me straight, Doc.” You deadpan, causing him to let out a breathy laugh.

“Cute.” The way he says it makes you want to explode, “Okay, we’re looking.” 

As always, you bit your cheek and nodded along while he read out everyone’s roles. For the next three minutes, the only words that your brain could conjure were ‘mhm’, ‘oh, that’s great!’, and ‘that’ll be fun!’ Other words don’t exist until Taeil gasps dramatically.

“What is it? Is it good, is it bad. You know what? If it’s bad I want Jaehyun tell me, because-”

“It’s good!” He interjects, effectively cutting off your rabbit tail, “We are the cool couple at a made up high school in the fifties!”

“Oh,” You say, heart rate slowing, “that’s good. We’re good!”

“We were already good though, right?” 

“No, yes! I just meant like... Good at theatre!” The eclectic bubbling in your  chest is making it hard to talk, but the way that your sweet boyfriend is smiling makes it okay.

“Oh, yea. I guess we are.” He smiles a goofy smile, and your stomach does back flips. In that moment it doesn’t matter that you’re in a Sheetz dining room while surrounded by all of your screaming friends, you want to kiss Taeil more than you want to breathe. So you do, effectively forming a perfect and pink bubble around you two. You’re about to pull away for air when Hyuck screams.

(“Get a room!” )

You were all now sitting at the table, everyone talking excitedly about the show and their parts. It was a happy conversation, filled with laughter and remembering Les Mis.

“Remember that terrible wig you had?” Donghyuck starts while shoving a potato chip into his mouth,  “You looked like a poodle.”

“I think she looked pretty.” Taeil comments quietly, wrapping an arm around you.

“Aww,” You coo, nestling into the boys side, “thank you honey.” You’re about to kiss his cheek, but then Donghyuck gags dramatically. 

“Hey, who do you think’s gonna fall in love this time around?” Sicheng teases while budding into the conversation.

You think that sitting there with everyone is the way that life was intended to be lived.

[taeilskitty]

Hey there! I saw that you open for a request so here's what I thought : what kind of sound did nct make when having sex? Are they more into whimpers, groans, or maybe dirty talk? Thank you so much for answering my question and hope you have a good day!

i was BORN to answer this omg. lemme tell you, i have thought about this so SO much!! (i'm leaving chenji out of this bc i don't know how people feel about that yet)

anyways, i hope u enjoy and i hope this matches what you had in mind <3

taeil

oh fuck. taeil is most certainly a groaner. i think (and trust me, i've thought a lot) he must make these gorgeous low moans like right in the back of his throat if that makes sense - have you ever heard his bubble voice messages? oh my god, they're so fucking hot. his raspy voice in the middle of the night is just to die for. that makes me CONVINCED that he dirty talks super up close. even thinking about it makes me shiver :(( he's the king of praise, i just know it. i think he degrades too, but his favourite is when he mixes both together - "you look so pathetic there baby, how cute." "daddy loves his pretty slut so much." "god you're so fucking good for me, my cockslut~" taeil also asks things, i think that suits him so much. "yeah? you like that?" "is daddy's cock too big baby? shh, i'll be done soon..."

taeyong

whiner. whiner. undoubtedly. this boy has the sweetest, prettiest little moans... he gets all high pitched when he's close and oh god when he sinks into subspace he just mewls and his voice gets so weak </3 little "yes" and "a-ah thank you"s slip out because he such a good kitten. he's so precious... and if he gets asked to speak while he's getting fucked he just squeaks out an answer. "m.. love it... ah..." n he will never fail to say his please and thank yous - he's so well mannered even when hes getting used !!!

johnny

this is just. oh my. i think he's silent for the most part. heavy breathing and quiet grunts and groans until he's close. THAT'S when he starts moaning, all sorts of things slipping out. "god you're so good" "i love this hole so much" ahh??! i think he talks down too. fuck !!! daddy!johnny is so patronising, and not just outside of the bedroom. kinda like taeil, he asks things, but he makes u feel so dumb and cock drunk :( AH AND he like... coos when you feel all dazed from his cock... "awh~ is that good? you like that don't you sweetheart? yeah, i know."

yuta

i have this vision of yuta just SLAMMING from behind with his face right up in your ear, telling you all sorts of dirty things lowly with just the hottest voice ever. he's very vocal about what he wants, and he loves cumming inside... so expect him to talk about that. oh, he is so fucking possessive too. "hmm. mine. this is mine. you're mine." he probably bites your ear/neck when he says it... the grunts that come out when he slams are enough to send anyone reeling, but i bet he tells you "fuck. gonna. gonna cum in my fuckdoll--" n his voice just trails off as he fills you up and sighs<33

kun

now kun is !! an interesting one !! ... i envision him as a pretty hard dom, so i don't think he's any stranger to degrading. that being said, i think he's more talkative when he's giving punishments (e.g. spanking over his thigh... heaven<33) rather than when he's fucking. i think he moans lowly, semi-quietly but as he gets more and more pent up he gets louder. (i think this is the case for most of the nct doms but oh well) he'll praise how good you make him feel - assuming you've been behaved enough - but that doesn't stop him from cursing under his breath at every chance he gets ,,..

doyoung

definitely has pretty moans !! he probably does whine, but i mean that in a dom way - if that makes sense? higher pitched moans but not pathetic, in fact it's probably paired with him whispering "fuck yes, good [insert ur fave petname here]". i think he's the type to kiss you a lot during sex and like... moan into your mouth; any space not taken up by the sound of moans will for sure be filled with the sound of his panting and his tongue dancing with yours.

ten

another semi-whiner. i always saw him as a dom but i'm sliiightly succumbing to the idea that he may be a switch... which is why i think there's so much BEAUTY in his moans?? ten makes really pretty, breathy whines and moans i'm sure, i don't particularly think he talks a crazy amount but rather short instructions. (yes i'm going back to dom!ten) "turn around." "get on your knees" "quiet." AH !! he always lets you know what he needs - however, sub!ten will just whine and squirm till you make him cum because he is most definitely a slut who takes anything:(

jaehyun

first of all, this man wrecks me to the fucking core, and i could talk about this for... a while. but his moans are definitely like, raspy high-pitched type. think about his vocals. esp in try again... i bet you they sound like THAT. i'm sure he talks a bit too, tbh he probably says rather textbook dirty things but it sounds so fucking hot when it's him. "yeah take it, take my cock" "fuck yes just like that", he loves how you whine when he moans right up next to you btw - it just makes him do it even more. oh, and bonus - he will never call you ANYTHING without prefixing it with my or daddy's. daddy's girl, daddy's boy, daddy's pet, my dirty slut... ahh<3

winwin

it's almost contrasting to jaehyun but sicheng's voice is so low. i can't explain this in any way other than that he's kitty, but his moans are so... puppy? and when he's fucked, he makes himself sound so dumb too. he's constantly slurring his words and biting his lip because he's trying to keep quiet but anyone who walks by the room will hear "mm.. m!!" because he just can't help himself :( when he's close he probably squeaks like taeyong and cums all over the place GOD i want him

jungwoo

oh god there's no doubt that jungwoo talks SO much during sex. he probably loses his fucking mind with how good he feels. he's such a good boy but sometimes you just need him to shut up - but he can't. he squeaks out a little moan when you push into him, or when you start touching his cock, but withn minutes he's babbling non-stop; "oh god oh god mommy/daddy i love it so much, a-ah like that, please~"

lucas

my brain used to be convinced that xuxi was a dom, but i'm now sure he's a switch. either way, his moans are pretty much the same. they're very heavy and... i guess manly is the best way to put it. in my head i can literally picture him being like "ughhh..." when you start fucking because he just feels like he's wanted to fuck you so desperately - yes, even if you fucked hours before. it's always so breathy and moany and i think he sounds like a bit of a fuckboy tbh... "fuck yeah" as he slides his cock into you? THANKS

mark

loud baby loud baby LOUD BABY:((( no matter how much you cover that pretty mouth of his he will be so LOUD!! he can't stop talking and whining and panting, kinda like jungwoo but honestly... more. he swears a lot too. he tries not to but he just can't help himself :( "aw shit... god shit!!!" under his breath UGHHFDGGDFDD SO FUCKING CUTE IM GONNA SCREAM !!! he's very polite though, so he always says sorry every single time :( he babbles like hell when he cums, he can't stop himself, again like jungwoo. "i'm gonna cum i'mgonnacumi- i'm -- ah fuck, shit--!!"

xiaojun

two words. action figure. everyone knew that was coming, HA - i'm sorry but THAT verse means we all know how he sounds. i think he tries his best to talk normally while you edge him but his little voice keeps on wavering and cracking and just... he can't help but sound all pretty and pathetic :( but surely dejun has some (very frequent) moments where he can't keep his front anymore and just whines like a whore because it feels so good<3

hendery

the things i'd let this man do to me:))) i think at first he'd actually try and hide his moans because he feels like that's what he's supposed to do, but no. for me personally, i know i would NOT LET THAT HAPPEN !! he probably sucks the air in through his teeth in an attempt to hide it - it's very fucking sexy when he does that, granted - but he can't keep doing that for long. i think he hums and laughs when he can't keep it in any longer because he almost feels some kinda defeat but then he just moans semi-loudly and lets out a "good girl/boy/baby... let me fuck you, huh?"

renjun

renjun scares the fuck out of me. why? because his moans are fairly quiet. he's master and it S H O W S. he grunts quietly, maybe muttering things under his breath like "so fucking tight" "mmh there you go..." to fill some silence but he does it subconsciously; he goes so far into domspace sometimes that he just can't control himself. when he's close he talks through his teeth and he's like "i'm. i'm gonna cum baby..."and the more you whine on his cock the more he just laughs at you because he's a sadist hhhhhhhhhhh.........

jeno

most definitely a fun one... you see when he's sub, he pants and whines and drools all over himself like a big dumb puppy boy and he just breathes so heavy n his moans are all shaky... if he's a brat he will try and talk big but he can't take it, he just gets so pathetic and !!! but dom jeno is fucking TERRIFYING because he talks down and tries his best to intimidate you. he chuckles and degrades you, but one of his faves is when he can big himself up under his breath. "look at you now. you love this fucking cock."

haechan

this isn't good for my mental health :) i fucking cannot TAKE this brat :) AHA! hyuckie is honestly such a whore, he's bratty and rude and always talks back at you like he's the king of the fucking world. he's constantly laughing at you and trying so hard to make you feel like you're not worthy but he feels so good he just gets fucked dumb by you :( he is SO loud too. he wants everyone to hear what a dirty whore he is and he makes sure he puts on his prettiest pornstar moans. he whines like his life depends on it. on the off chance that he's being a good boy, he begs and cries and whimpers when he finally cums - and i mean CRIES. sobs. he'll be heaving by the time you're done with him, but god he fucking loves it.

jaemin

fuck... fuck okay... well firstly he loves to talk. we all know how much he praises and how he's constantly showing his love off... that doesn't stop at fanservice, nope. he will fuck you like a ragdoll and keep calm and composed as ever, talking down to you as if you're in his lap for a soft cuddle. "baby loves nana so much hm~?" "oh you really love that don't you?" "you know you're so pretty. nana wants to cum in you so bad~" yes, he calls himself nana because he's a cocky fuck and loves how it sounds. especially when you're moaning it for him.

yangyang

i'm kinda in 2 minds about this... on the one hand, he's kinda like hyuckie in that he whines a LOT. but he can actually keep his composure - he's a breathy whiner, he's not quite as loud and he most certainy doesn't crumble as easily. (that's not to say that he can't, he most definitely can.) on the other hand i think when he's in a more neutral headspace rather than subby, he talks to you like a total fuckboy. not in a mean way but he's just like "hah. i know you love me fucking you like this." he gets so cocky and he sucks hickeys into your neck and hums quietly<3

shotaro

he's such a shy baby :( he wants to moan so much but he probably gets all self conscious and tries to hide it... so you gotta make him feel safe :( when he does he whimpers and it's so pretty and pathetic. the way he wells up with tears and hitches his breath is. adorable. he whispers "thank you... ah..." every time he feels that good and by the time he cums it's just falling from him like a waterfall :( the more comfortable he feels, though, the sluttier he can get... he will always be a good boy but i think he lets his whore side come out every once in a while <3

sungchan

last but most certainly not least, yet ANOTHER boy who pains me to the core. i think sungchan whimpers too. THERE I SAID IT. his cock is too big for his own good so he just... needs you to do SOMETHING to him :( he always sighs at first, maybe hissing just a little but then he gets to a point where he's quietly whimpering because he just needs to cum so fucking bad <//3 "need it... p-please..." he's always nervous to use titles but if he wants to cum he has no choice :( when his dom asks please who? he blushes bright red n mumbles a little "please mommy/daddy... 'm so good..." and god yes he is he deserves it so much ugh<33333333333333

[nctsjiho]

Relationships with: NCT Dream

Click here for: NCT 127, NCT U, NCT Dream, WayV

Mark:

Little-big brother

JiHo makes him laugh almost as much as Haechan or Johnny do

Helps her with rapping and is the person JiHo reaches out to when she wants validation with her rapping

Spent a whole night with her in the studio after she had a mental breakdown when she kept messing up and the producer told her to come back the next day

They never talk about it and no one else knows (that’s what they thought but Taeil and Doyoung do know. Of course they respect JiHo’s privacy and never bring it up) but he’s always there for her before or during she records her rap part when he knows she’s nervous or stressed out

“Dude!”

“DUDE!”

If Jaehyun is JiHo’s bro, then Mark is her dude shut up I don’t make the rules

They talk in English a lot as well, JiHo actually helps him out with his Korean at times

Renjun:

The prettiest boy of them all in JiHo’s eyes

It’s an ongoing joke that JiHo is whipped for Renjun and JiHo doesn’t deny it

She loves his voice and thinks he’s super talented and smart

But she only says that about him and not to him (she doesn’t want Renjun to feel uncomfortable around her, God bless her)

They have great chemistry together and seem- are best buds

Renjun appreciates JiHo’s hard work and her great language skills

She usually tries speaking only Chinese when with WayV or China line

He’s the only person she speaks Chinese with casually when they are not hanging out with the Chinese members

Praises her a lot when she’s not there

They can get really mischievous together and go and tease the others

Their usual victims are Ten, Kun and Jaemin (they keep it really playful though so their “victims” laugh a lot when they get “teased”)

They can talk for hours and hours Taeil and Doyoung have send them home after finding them in the studio or practice room talking at 3 am multiple times

Jeno:

Jeno and JiHo are a dangerous duo

Their visuals are OUT OF THIS WORLD

Like they are both very attractive on their own, but put them together and-

*chef’s kiss*

Jeno is a firm believer that JiHo should’ve been in NCT Dream

Also have a kind of brotherly bond, but Jeno gets really protective over her

He pushes her around playfully but if someone else does it and does it too hard, someone is about to catch those hands...  -_-;;

Workout buddy

Even though JiHo complains a lot when exercising with him, he still drags her along (like literally, they will go for a run and Jeno will grab her by the wrist and drag her with him)

“If you hate it so much then don’t come with me next time.”

She’ll still join Jeno on his next workout ^^

Haechan:

TEASE

The biggest piece of sh-

But we’ve been knew

Thinks JiHo is a great singer but never says anything, because he will not show her his soft side for her

Knows JiHo isn’t the best reader and while he usually makes fun when the other members mess up when they read, he’ll never make fun or laugh at JiHo

The first and only time he’d done so, he saw how her smile faded and it broke his heart so he never did it again

Instead, he’ll volunteer to read instead of JiHo whenever possible and she appreciates it a lot

Doesn’t believe that JiHo is technically younger than him

Believes in treating everyone equally, so if he didn’t tease or annoy her enough during practice, promotions, or video shoots he’ll annoy her at the dorms

Barges in her room whenever he wants to  and after an hour of annoying her or “ruining” her Vlive, he will just sit on her bed and play on her switch or his phone for a few hours

Jaemin:

“Forces” her to do aegyo

Thinks JiHo is the most adorable human bean (yes bean) to grace this earth awww

Says he doesn’t want her to join next promotion because he hates seeing her work so hard, but never actually means it. He loves that JiHo is part of NCT with him

Wants to be in a Sub-Unit promoting with her so bad, but it doesn’t seem to look like that’s happening soon  (ㅜ_ㅜ)

JiHo likes to give him back hugs and he melts every time she does, but tries to hide the smile creeping on his face

Jaemin knows he’s one of the only members receiving skinship from JiHo so he doesn’t want to jinx it by pointing it out, but is very proud he gets those rare JiHo hugs <3

“She’s always so cool on stage but in person she’s insanely cute!” (He said this during a Vlive shortly after her debut in 2018)

Chenle:

Chillll~~~

They either hang out in his house or in her room at the dorm

People thought they didn’t like each other for a while, even the other members

They just didn’t have much to say to each other

Now they still don’t have much to say to each other but they just hang out and listen to music or play games together

They don’t have the best chemistry on camera, because they just are really quiet but when you are with them physically you can't sense any awkwardness at all

Daegal loves her (not as much as she loves Mark or Chenle but enough to sit on JiHo’s lap 50% of the time she’s is at Chenle’s)

He makes fun of her when she messes up her Chinese but no one else dare make fun of her Chinese or he’ll find a way to make fun of you so you feel bad

During a variety show the host made fun of JiHo’s Chinese and Chenle asked him to say something in Chinese, when he couldn’t Chenle just gave him that a look and stan Twitter went OFF

“OMG The look on the hosts face! Chenle protecting JiHo!!! OMG IM DED”

Jisung:

JiHo is the coolest hyung noona

She doesn’t baby him because they are pretty close in age and Jisung appreciates the change of pace

Wished JiHo was also a member of NCT Dream (com’on SM everyone wants JiHo in Dream! ㅜ.ㅜ)

He finds her intimidating whenever she’s in performer mode

Will willingly do aegyo for JiHo and vice versa

Sometimes it feels like JiHo is younger than him so he has a sense of protectiveness at times

JiHo isn’t a star chef, but she can cook pretty well, so sometimes she visits the dreamies’ dorm and cook for Jisung them

Also learns Jisung how to cook or bake simple things (he sucks but they love spending the quality time together)

The hugs they share look so comfy and ngl everyone fans, not-fans and even their own members feel jealous

Everyone wants to know what such a hug feels like but it’s only possible between JiHo and Jisung

Cutest-most-wholesome duo

[nctseren]

HER RELATIONSHIP WITH 127

TAEIL + SEREN

SEREIL

She's his #1 fan, no joke here. Sohee is always praising his vocals and visuals, she had said multiply times that Taeil is indeed her favorite oppa, since the moment he took her under his wing she decided that she will always try to make him happy. He has a big heart so she's always taking care of that.

He also takes care of her, she's his baby after all, and is always mad that SM doesn't let her show her amazing vocals.

Always hugging him and there's a ton of compilations of her and Haechan fighting for his attention. And, of course, always begging for Taeil solo.

JOHNNY + SEREN

SOHNNY

Johnny is the brother she never had. He was the first nct member she met.

He always takes care of her, since the moment she arrived. But also likes to be that annoying big brother (she doesn't mind that much). Gives her a lot of hugs when feeling sad.

AND fun fact lmao she had her first beer with him because "it has to be with family" and HE IS family, her parents love him and will forever be grateful with him. They actually may love him a little more than they love her but it's okay cause his mother does love her more and it's always asking for "that little baby star",,,, sigh they're family!!

TAEYONG + SEREN

TAEREN

He's her leader and like a dad, of course she loves him. Since she's the only female member he tends to worry about her a little more — is she sleeping well? is she eating? how is she doing?

It's something he can't really help, he needs to take care of her. Sohee always goes to him and ask for help whenever she feels like her rapping is not that good (which is a total lie).

Even though he's the dad in the relationship, she tends to take care of him too, specially in nights when he can't sleep or is feeling stressed. She just wants him to feel that he's not alone in this.

Fact: roommates <3

YUTA + SEREN

YUREN

It's crazy, really, and Yuta can't believe it because she is tiny and cute, but sometimes... She may seem a little intimidating and, even though he doesn't want to accept it, sexy on stage. But he knows better, that's just fake because she is indeed a big baby. His big baby? He sure hopes so (even if he has to fight Taeil and maknae line).

Their friendship at the beginning was weird cause during trainee and rookie years Sohee was always stuck with Red Velvet members so they didn't had that much time to interact, or more like they didn't tried. But now they know they were idiots and love each other more than anything, maybe Yuta a little more.

He's the one who holds her hand in airports and hypes her the most when she's doing literally anything.

Yuta likes to sit between her and Mark so he can give his full attention to both, but ends up getting jealous of just those two talking and giggling 😔 pay attention to him pls

DOYOUNG + SEREN

DOHEE

This friendship is kinda cute-funny because at the beginning Sohee was his baby, not doubt.

Doyung would always show her off and talk nonstop about her, whenever she was fighting one of the members he would pick her side, and trust me when I tell you that he would kick 127 asses if they did something to her.

But the last year their relationship became a little more playful to the point that one moment they're ready to throw hands, pulling pranks, insulting each other and the next one they're hugging — he keeps saying it's Haechan's fault she's that way.

(Still picks her side on everything.)

JAEHYUN + SEREN

SOHYUN

Cutest best friends, fans think they're soulmates. Always together, like in interviews they sit together (and judge everything and everyone lmao), sometimes they laugh like the funniest thing happened and that kind of makes the members feel left out (like wth what's so funny???) but it's not on purpose!!!

Used to do vlives on Tuesdays, not every week but they tried, Sohee called it "Tuesyay" (she was drunk okay! besides nctzen liked it so) and it was just them cooking or doing cute domestic things.

But honestly that's nothing compared to how they are when there's no cameras around, they hug even more and watch movies in his (and jungwoo's) room, especially when one of them can't sleep or is feeling down, they really help each other and it's really cute.

They're a pretty big famous ship in the fandom, and even non nctzen know about them. Tbh it doesn't bother them cause they really do love each other but they would like to be known for their talent instead of just fans shipping them, that's why lately they're trying to not be like that in front of cameras.

JUNGWOO + SEREN

SOWOO

He's the prettiest boy she has ever seen, Sohee was so happy he became an nct member and even more when it was announced that he was gonna be in 127.

They're iconic and really flirty with each other which is a surprise for the members (well for yuta and maknae line) cause she! is! not! like! that! with! them! and it's not like they want to, right? but how??? she's a baby she can't do that!!

Always telling that HE! IS! PERFECT! his vocals are amazing and his dancing skills 100/100. Damn she just loves him too much.

Jungwoo loves her so much, too. She can be doing nothing and he's like "YES YOU GO"

MARK + SEREN

MAREN

Precious 99 liners!! They're so cute together, kind of give that puppy love vibe which it may be true but they're also just friends and always have been, even though she used to have a crush on him but you didn't heard it from me okk? That's long gone and tbh she feels like finding a person like him it's weird and hard, he's so unique that ruining that would just kill her so they're precious best friends that tell each other everything and that's it.

Ngl Johnny and Taemin ships them almost as much as half of the fandom, but because they're not that obvious with their skinship they don't push it that much. They're more like longing stares and a lot of smiles when the other is talking, more in the admiring side.

He was soooo shy when they met and she was like ?? but after 2 weeks they became friends.

HAECHAN + SEREN

SOHYUCK

He's just,,, ugh sometimes she wants to punch him so hard but then she remembers he's her Haechanie whom she loves with her whole heart. It's weird really, he's always pulling pranks on her or bothering her but the next moment he doesn't let anyone touch her.

Doesn't call her noona and tbh she doesn't care, that makes them feel close. She always saves his ass from Doyoung and sometimes Renjun, she would do it a thousand times. That's her Haechanie, how could she not save him? Besides she's the only one who can kick his ass.

Expect him to try to give her kisses on every live (he know she can't hit him on camera lmao)

[hi-hey-haechan]

The thought of sucking haechan makes me incredibly flustered imagine licking his tip and swirling around it oh my god imagine sucking the cum out of his balls and milking him dry as he moans for you, too sensitive i need something for all the members of how they feel when they get sucked it’s so hawt 💚

The way you wrote this was so unbelievably hot? Like I can’t, oh my gosh.

Taeil:

His moans would be light and breathless, without a doubt. When you pay extra attention to his tip, licking and swirling your tongue, he sharply intakes a breath. His legs honestly would quake a bit when he’s close to climaxing. Taeil’s fingers would definitely tangle in your hair as you suck him, the strands giving him something to grab onto and anchor himself. When he cums, he prefers it be in your mouth. There’s something so hot and intimate that comes from swallowing his seed. He doesn’t mind being overstimulated, and his moans would grow quite a lot louder.

Johnny:

He’s pretty quiet when he’s overcome with pleasure, but he’d let out short grunts and his exhales would be kind of labored. Johnny could get off on just the mental image of your mouth around his huge length. Seriously, seeing your lips taking him in, wrap around him, and suck? It’s such a hot sight for him to see. He’s the kind of person to get so wrapped up in pleasure and push you deeper on his cock. He likes to see you swallow his cum, but he wouldn’t tolerate overstimulation. The overwhelming sensitivity isn’t something he fully enjoys

Taeyong:

The sounds he would make would be a mixture of whimpers and moans. When your mouth is engulfing him, he can’t help but let out a few breathless whimpers. Your warm mouth surrounding him, and your warm, wet tongue swirling around his tip would literally turn him into a mess. Taeyong moans when he’s closer to his edge, unable to hold back. He honestly likes cumming on your face, the sight of his seed on your face making him feel so filthy yet turned on at the same time. If you overstimulate him, his legs would shake, and his whimpers would be so much louder.

Yuta:

We all know that this boy is so dominant and kinky. If he comes home from work the slightest bit stressed, you best believe he’d have you on your knees. He hates being teased since he’s impatient when it comes to pleasure. Yuta would tug on your hair roughly and force you down on his length, making you take as much as him as you could. He would tell you how pretty you look with your mouth stuffed full of his cock. His moans would be sexy, and that’s the best way to describe it. They’re low but audible. Unless he forces your mouth back on his cock, he doesn’t want to be overstimulated. Yuta doesn’t let you forget who’s in charge.

Doyoung:

He definitely has beautiful moans and gasps. They’d be light and honestly sweet to listen to, but each sound he makes goes directly to your core. If he gets too wrapped up in the pleasure, he’d mindlessly begin to fuck your mouth, bucking his hips further into the wet heat of your mouth and tongue. If you suck him, he needs to grab onto something. The pleasure would be kind of blinding and overwhelming if you sucked him. However, because of this reaction, you’d likely continue to hollow your cheeks and suck. If you want to make him cum quickly, you’d have to suck him, especially his tip, and he’d turn to putty in your hands. Doyoung would prefer to cum in your mouth, for he’d dislike the mess of another place, and he also doesn’t want to escape the warmth of your lips.

Jaehyun:

I don’t think he’s too loud, but when he’s coming, he’ll definitely let out a few decently loud moans, and god, would they be hot. They’d be deep and breathless, the sound literally enough to make you wet. His hands would tangle in your hair if he wanted to guide you on his length. Usually, if he’s standing, he’ll just ball his fists or hold onto something. Jaehyun’s tip is sensitive, so he’d probably shudder a bit as you initially swirl your tongue around his leaking tip. If you lick his testes, you’ll automatically bring him closer to the edge, just because the sensation is a lot more pleasuring than he’d admit to. He doesn’t enjoy being overstimulated. Once you suck him off and he cums in your mouth, he doesn’t immediately want to be worked towards another high.

Winwin:

He would make the absolute prettiest sounds, and nobody can try to convince me otherwise. Sicheng would honestly remain pretty quiet, but you’d be able to hear his labored, shallow breathing quite easily. His fingers would tangle in your hair, but he wouldn’t pull on the strands. Instead, he’d sort of apply pressure to his fingertips, which would be splayed across your head. That would force you a bit deeper on him, but he wouldn't try to hurt you. He’d tell you how good your mouth feels, without a doubt. When he gets closer to his high, if you suck on his tip, you’ll send him over the edge easily, and he’d be unable to hold back his breathless whimpers and groans. Overstimulate him (which he would allow, unless you completely tried to take charge), and his sounds would only grow louder.

Jungwoo: 

He wouldn’t be too loud, either, but when he lets out a few moans, they’re so unbelievably hot that you would suck him harder, wanting to hear more of the sounds. However, if you hollowed your cheeks around him and sucked him, he’s done for. You’d be sucking him harshly, bringing him to his end so fast, without a single regret at how soon it’s over. He wouldn’t enjoy being overstimulated, but if you did overstimulate him, his head would be tilted back with beautiful sounds spilling past your lips. Jungwoo would cum in your mouth, no questions asked. He loves when you open your mouth after swallowing, showing him how well you took all of him and reminding him of how incredible your mouth felt around him. If you lick his balls, he’d done for.

Mark:

I’ve written about how it would be to suck him off multiple times, but it’s always fun to write. His moans would be deep and low. Mark would not be able to hold back when he’s feeling good, and you love this about him so much. His hands would grip your hair, attempting to keep himself anchored amidst the pleasure your mouth brings. The feeling of your tongue swirling around him literally makes his knees buckle. Mark wouldn’t want to leave the warmth and pleasure of your mouth when he comes, so he would cum in your mouth. When you hollow your cheeks and suck him harshly, he can’t hold back any of the sounds he’s been withholding, head thrown back as your mouth brings him to pure ecstasy. Overstimulate him, and he’d an utter mess for you.

Haechan:

I so want to hear the beautiful whines he’d make while you sucked him off. His tip would be so red and sensitive when he’s hard, so when you swirl your tongue around it, he’d let out some helpless mewls shamelessly. If you suck him, stars and white would flash behind his eyes because of his pleasure. He’d want to cum on your face, honestly. Just kind of seeing your features dripping with his seed just gives off such a close and intimate feeling to him. Also, please overstimulate him. The cries he would make while you’re doing so are so pretty and helpless, showing him that despite him being dominant at times, you’re the one in charge at that moment. 

[jenomark]

Say 1 thing nice about every member of nct (all units!!)

Taeil’s patience is admirable. As the oldest, he can really do and say a lot, but he allows others to be themselves, which I love. 

I really like how Johnny steps into a big brother role for everyone. I see it a lot when he’s around Mark. I’m appreciative of him.

Taeyong is musically gifted and I will always support that. His vision is different than what people are used to, but I genuinely think he’s a genius. 

Yuta seriously has one of the nicest personalities, and I aspire to be as wonderful as he is every day. He’s the best role model.

Kun is so funny. His humor is grossly underrated. 

Doyoung brings comfort to me like no one else does. The way he cares for others makes me feel like he’ll care for me to. A good boy.

Ten’s art is really good, like, I hope he knows. He has so much more to show us and I’m very excited for it!

Jaehyun is more than a pretty face and body, like, he has such a beautiful soul. You can tell how much he means well for others.

WinWin’s softness makes me want to protect him. Some people might call it naive, but I think it’s something really special. 

Jungwoo is enough. Jungwoo was enough when he was a trainee, and he’ll always be enough.

Lucas is so intelligent. He’s rich with his emotions and the love he has to give to everyone.

I always say really sweet things about Mark. I will just say that he has some of the prettiest and most delicate hands I’ve ever seen.

Xiaojun’s smile IS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL SMILE IN THE WORLD. Seeing him smile makes me feel like everything is going to be okay.

Hendery is a good friend. I like that he’s been there for Ten. I like how much effort he puts in when trying to make his friends feel better.

Renjun is one of the best dancers. I love, love, love the way he moves. Brilliant.

I think people take advantage of Jeno’s kindness a lot, but he’s always so mature about it. I really like that part of his personality.

Haechan is thoughtful and loving. He might express things in different ways, but what a privilege it must be to receive that love.

I know abs don’t matter, but I think the discipline and work Jaemin put into his body over the last year is amazing. I never would have expected it, to be honest.

YangYang has such a light presence. I will never grow tired of hearing his laugh.

I have so many things I could say about Chenle. I think he’s growing up to be a lovely young man. He’s so kind, patient, accepting.

Jisung’s mind fascinates me. He’s very strange , very intelligent and thoughtful. He’s also kind of a comical genius. 

[goldenswan]

Chapter 2 ( Lizzy P.O.V.)

5500 words - After getting out of the torture chamber, her fate must be decided.

Disclaimer: Violence signs depicted and swearing.

And now, here you are, trapped, unprotected and at the mercy of all those menacing eyes found in the room you just stepped in. They were all targeting you, how could anyone not feel vulnerable found in such a situation? Since you’ve entered you could feel the reek of danger and all your senses would shout alarmed to get yourself out. While your fight or flight instinct started building in you began to observe more your surroundings analyzing all the risks. The room was spacious and quite flamboyant, they were rich for sure, only by seeing this you know such a mansion you can only dream of, they can have a ballroom inside, but that’s not what you needed now. You soon found yourself drawn by the huge round wood table and all the people that were waiting at it. The two boys that escorted you went forward and took their places, letting a free chair in the middle of them.

My place I assume?

All of them were expectant at the last persons that were supposed to take their seats, you, and Jaehyun positioned at the opposite part of the table. From the sharp look, Jaehyun trowed towards and the sit down read from his lips you understood he was waiting for you, and he was becoming impatient of you being oblivious. You took his words and followed his demand. Only after that, he did the same.

Wanting to be that last. Does he consider himself that special?

You found yourself looking side to side at each man that was present, from left to right, strangely at the same time you became tinnier that you already were seeing how intimidating they were from a brief close up.

There are still many empty chairs, are they even more people like them in here? 

You started counting and learn each of it as if your life depended on it, who might help you out and who will push you down the pit.

Jaehyun seated right opposite to you, with an aura that would make you believe that even at this round table, he is the center, he was listening to the man next to him, you couldn’t hear what he was saying but from their faces and the attention Jaehyun was having while listening you knew it was serious and private.

The man that was talking seemed a bit more wiser, maybe with one year older, but softer in eyes, he was wearing a full suit, looked like a true businessman but you already know what’s their business, they were mobsters. You could tell he was serious but still calm, he felt in control over the situation, only his eyes were becoming softer whenever he was facing the woman near him.

I am surprised to see a woman between all these men, but again, she looks quite scary too.

Still, the man was smiling so warmly to her, taking her hand carefully in his, feeling reassurance through her touch and the welcoming smile with loving eyes she would return to him. Soon the man realized his expressions and he went back at looking serious, well he was trying but the woman stopped from keeping a straight face. Seeing her smile like that, made you awestruck, she was so beautiful, and even more, she seemed exotic, maybe she was a foreigner. She was wearing a uniform, she seemed to be dressed similar to a nurse, but it felt way more stylish, her attention was only on the two men near her and what they were speaking. You had a small heart attack when she turned her eyes towards you.

Did she catch me staring at her?

You got a bit worried before realizing she was looking at the boy from your left side, he didn’t seem to feel her stare but when he shifted his head to you she also moved fast to not be caught, smiling unfazed at the men near her. You stared back at the boy you just met look.

How was he called? Jaehyun mentioned it. Was it Haechan?

The boy glared at you, clearly not liking for you to keep your eyes on him for too long so you moved your stare next to him, meeting again another man in a suit.

Even though he was sitting down, you could know, he was quite massive and intimidating. He didn’t seem to care that much of being here. He was the only one who was keeping his legs on the table, his arms intertwined and his eyes lost and staring at the window.

No one was bugging him, and sincerely you would be scared to do it too. He was like a lion sleeping and who is that crazy of actually disturbing a lion? He did resemble one, with his hair color, full of warm tones or maybe that it was a bit longer, not too long, perfect to emphasize his face structure. He did throw some sneak peeks at you, trying to not seem too interested, but who he can lie, those were the only moments his dull eyes would show a bit of energy. But the last look he gave to you was different. This time you were the one to feel a bit electrified, or maybe scarred, even he only kept his eyes fixated on you for a second, they were too feral to feel nothing from it. You gulped the knot he was able to make in your throat.

Why do I feel I would end up eaten alive in here?

Next to him was another man, and surprisingly, if the previous was a ferocious lion, this was the prettiest deer you would see. He might be older, but his soft features might make you call him boy at first even thought that was a man standing near you. His hair seemed fluffy and his eyes were so big, like those of a Bambi deer. He seemed gentle and angelic. Maybe he will be the one to save you, after all, out of all of this he was the only one who didn’t feel threatening, but again, you ended up in here because you believed those types of eyes.

But he also looked worried, he was shifting in his chair, shaking, never keeping his eyes in one place, he was anxious. The man from before observing it too started to try amd calm him down, with a pat on his back, encouraging him to “man up” or that everything will be ok. Now at a second look, you realize all of them are dressed formally. All of them except the two next to you. Well, one of them was formal, before giving you his coat, you touch the fabric of it while blushing at the bold statement the boy said it before you entered.

Who am I lying, since when boys can say things like this so easily? Am I that old fashioned?

You found yourself looking again at him.

His name… was it

Y/N: Jaemin You whispered the name softly, more for yourself, but he still picked it up, turning at you, with a bit of shocked face to hear it from you. It didn’t take long to welcome you with a reassuring smile and praising eyes for learning it so fast.

Jaemin: Uhm, you got it right. I’m proud of you. He nodded happily while you started blushing again at him and all this scene.

What’s this? Did I end up in a romantic comedy?

***  Jaemin: I like to keep this image only to myself.  ***

Your ears started to burn while his voice and the fact he saw your bra right before to enter start playing again in your head.

Why his voice was like that? It won’t leave my head. That whisper was too close to me.

You moved your hand to cover your ears while still feeling them tingle from his voice. While you would go through this Jaemin would simply smile, enjoying that conflicted look on your face. On the other side, Haechan seemed to be unfazed at the beginning growing a bit annoying by seeing you and Jaemin. He rolled his eyes and sighed, turning himself on the other side, not wanting to assist more after seeing the scene. Turning his back to you made you see his leather jacket more clearly. He was the only one wearing one out of all of them.

Is he part of a gang?

Taking a closer look you could see what was written on the back of it.

“Nightmare?” I think I saw it before, but where?

Wait a minute, the boy that was with him when I got kidnapped had one similar.

The thought made you come to boil from the anger. You found yourself glaring again at the last man from the room. The one who also clearly tried way too hard to act like you are not in the room.

Goddammit, Lucas!

You are surprised to see him this time in a suit, and not the biker clothes you’ve been used to. While you worked at the coffee shop he was a simple customer. In the beginning, you thought he only liked the coffee from your shop, by visiting it quite often. You always tried to ignore the fact that you would catch him staring at you or your workmate’s teases that he might have a crush on you. He was handsome, but you didn’t want to allow yourself to get infatuated with such thoughts and dreams. Until the dream did happen and he confessed you. You only gave him his number, being suspicious of everything. For a few weeks, you only maintained texts and chitchat while you were working. He did walk you home a few times but none of you seemed to have courage to even kiss each other, you barely held hands, to begin with. You would lie if you would deny those moments, he made you smile only with a thought of him and you had butterflies whenever you would get closer to him. Soon you had your first date, you were so excited about it, and then here you are, you completely fell for his trap. He kidnapped you together with that boy, and you foolishly allowed them to do it.

 Jerk

You muttered it together with other curse words towards him, but he didn’t dare to face you, pretending not to hear you.

what a man, rising the trust issues I had until now reach a whole new level. If I get out alive … you … are … so dead. 

You were ready to rise from your chair towards him, before you hear Jaehyun cleaning his throat, bringing your attention back to him. He seemed mad serious about you to stay put, you wanted to fight back, but again, you were in no position to do it. He commanded to sit down, and again, you found yourself following him.

Johnny: Now what? Jaehyun: Now? Shall we start?   Taeil: We aren’t all, but I think we can, Mei will reach soon, and Renjun was instructed to give her all the details before she comes here, Jeno is with them too. Great, more people to show up. Jaehyun: Jisung and Chenle? Jia: We decided they shouldn’t be here knowing the topic we will talk about. Jaehyun: Stop babying them Jia, being part of it means they have to face everything that is happening here, good and bad. They can’t stay weak-hearted forever. Taeil: You are right, but we advise it might be better to postpone it for the next time when our boss will be here to decide if they should or not. They didn’t take their coming of age exams yet. They barely bloomed into being adults, we need carefully to Jaehyun: How you just said, they did become adults. Next time they should be here. Taeil: I understand. This shall be done. The man slightly bowed his head to Jaehyun in agreement.

Even that he lowered his head to him, you could still feel a bit of tension between the two of them, a small break installing before they went to the next name.

Jaehyun: Where is Feli? Is she still sick? Jia: She is recovering at a slow pace, but soon… Haechan: You two did become quite close, covering her. The boy spoked loudly, interrupting the woman with a sarcastic tone, being heard by everyone, without changing a bit his position, laid back on the chair. Jia: Being so jealous, if you want me to take care of you find other solutions Haechan.

The boy blushed for a second, but that faded away soon, even so, this time when he opened his mouth to speak you observed his voice being more mellow.

Haechan: But we all know the real thing. If Taeyong is not the one initiating a meeting she won’t attend it, even though it’s her brother calling her to be here. Why does she get special treatment? Johnny: Hm, true, but knowing her chaotic nature, it might be better with her out, for now, I would have refused too to come her but then I would have missed the chance to meet such pretty sight.

You were taken aback by his comment, a small blush arising in your cheeks. As your eyes lockdown one more time he flashed you a cocky smile, before moving back his attention to the man speaking, who was not in the mood to see flirting at this time.

Jaehyun: True, I will talk with her after, she listens but she never had enough focus span to stay in a meeting.

Haechan tried to hide a laugh from his comment. As he caught you staring at him, Haechan trowed you an annoyed look.

Haechan: What, now are you starting to catch feelings for me too. I thought after ending up in this situation you would have learned already. Lucas or Jaemin, I would be more careful when it comes to boys noona.

Tch… another Jerk

You got annoyed, but more because he was right of what he just told you. Jaemin too, just like Lucas, or worse, he might throw in a bigger problem.

Johnny: What about Mark? Jungwoo: Mark decided to take care of himself of the body found dead today. Haechan: ugh

He sighed deeply Haechan: that idiotic hyung of mine. Again, taking a fault that is not his.You heard Haechan mumbling under his breath. That was the first time when you saw his eyes got a tiny softer.

Jaehyun: The body from the morning, right. What info we have, how did she died? Jungwoo: She was found dead at her home with an overdose injected into her veins. Johnny: Such a coincidence to happen to know that people were trailing her. Jaehyun: Suicide? Taeil: Actually, a faked suicide. Jia: I got a chance to check up on the body before reaching here, it showed light signs of restraints on her ankles and wrists, at the first look, they might have used a polypropylene rope for this, letting soft marks, it can be seen as only that besides drugs she also indulged into more strong sexual hobbies Easily mistaken for someone who might have a rope fetish, but such statement is true only if you don’t check her mouth, by looking closely, I observed some of her teeth have been forcefully and quite painfully extracted, they went for the molars, nothing to be seen upfront, hiding the actual pain they inflicted on her, there have been also signs of…..

Jia: cigarette burns …..

Jia: her body …..

Jia: mutilated …

Jia: they used a knife for ……  

From there you lost your focus, you couldn’t hear anymore, your heart beating so hard was covering almost anything that she was saying, only small fragments would reach your ears letting your vivid imagination picture the whole gory acts, you started trembling from all the thoughts that were hitting you. With each new word, she would mention you would start to shiver harder and harder, forgetting any rhythm in your breathing, fear, and panic installing in by the gruesome acts she was describing. You could feel the stomach-turning upside down, a need to trow up combined with the feeling of your lungs failing of getting any air, you almost started choking.

Jaemin saw your face changing and acted quick reaching your hand behind the table. He allowed you to hold it as hard as you could, putting all the pressure you had into him. At the same time, he calmly stared into your eyes, reminding you patiently to breath, by accentuating his breathing, you soon start to mimic his moves, stabilizing back at a normal pace. A sigh of relief came from him he saw your pale face getting back to normal. The woman who was talking saw the whole scene, stopping from giving any other detail, slight remorse could be seen in her eyes.

Jia: The bruising may be minimal or invisible on the skin surface but they took their time in torturing her. We should be thankful to Doyoung for his connections within the police, we might have missed the chance of finding her identity and the case would just have been closed as a dead drug addict found in a bathtub.

Taeil: Also, on the identity topic, checking her info on the police data, we found that she changed her name and address quite many times, a runaway with light criminal records, a no-name perfect to use as a pawn in local actions, also more easily to have it confused when searching for a trail, the man stopped for a second fixing his gaze on you, his eyes shown worry and resentment. She is innocent.

Mei: So it was a mistake!

A loud voice was heard from the backside while the door opened. You turned around to be faced by possibly the most gorgeous woman you have met until now in your life. From head to toe, she was sparkling, from her black silk dress, the brown fur coat worn only on the half, letting a shoulder to be seen, the glamorous shapes of her body to the extravagant ruby earrings she was wearing, together with make-up so on point that you could never guess if she prepared for a date or a murder. You were blown away by the fierce and elegant aura she was radiating that took you quite a several seconds and blinks to realize she wasn’t alone. Two boys were standing by her side, left and right.

Again, wearing those leather jackets, one with bleached ashy blond hair and black eyes and another with brown hair and sharp eyes, both of them were quite intimidating, scary.

That didn’t take long, one of them changed completely as he sneezed, his face softening from the straight one he tried to keep, still, he looked a bit lost in thoughts, or maybe a bit under the weather you could say. His eyes seemed feverish. Jaemin laughed at the sneeze, followed by a small “someone had fun” that only you got to hear. On the other side, Haechan was seething from actually realizing one of those two was sick. Jaehyun: You are late. Mei: Next time I should be announced a little bit earlier when you fail of doing the smallest thing while the boss is out, even though I didn’t mind rushing in here, a ride with the motorcycle was something I did miss. And again, late? It seems I am not last, after all, you have some people missing. Especially that devil of a sister you have. Jaehyun face was starting to get a bit darker as the woman was going on with her talk, but soon he regains his composure. Mei: Can’t keep simple tasks in control, can’t keep his sister in listening to him, even this meeting and information I received came from the advisor order, so, our dear and precious underboss, Jaehyunie, enlighten me, whose fault is that right after Taeyong and Doyoung left to take care of the external affairs the first thing happening in this house is a mistake!? The woman shouted while finishing her sentence, she looked mad. Taeil: As an advisor, I feel you should listen when I ask to control both your voice and temper.

Jaehyun seemed unperturbed by the woman’s attack. He was analyzing her, keeping his eyes steady and his words followed in the same manner while each of it left his mouth. At that moment, with his low tone, and slow rhythm of speaking, you could truly see how much he was in control.

He didn’t need to shout, his words were already heavy enough, not only the woman who was supposed to receive the message, but everyone in the room found themselves listening carefully to him, even you found yourself drawn by him, he had the charisma of a leader, he was enjoying al those eyes on him, bathing himself in attention, and becoming a true ringleader in this scene.

Jaehyun: We are here to discuss Mei, and if you lose your cool so easily you are no use for any second advice, if it’s like that, then you can as well go back to your work, …  I will pay you for the hours while you were away or shall we make it double, bartender?

A smirk showed up on his face while rolling out of his tongue the last words, meeting her eyes, full of cockiness. Jaehyun: I will handle it myself.

If eyes could trow real daggers, it would have been a real carnage in here. The woman got so dark after that comment, but surprisingly she did calm down. The silence that fell in the room together with the pair of eyes you could swear they could’ve been owned by a true murderer made you feel full terror in your bones. You found yourself holding again Jaemin’s hand a little bit harder this time. The atmosphere was becoming so heavy you could have used a knife to cut through it.

You flinched when she started to move, walking slowly, hearing her heel clicks at such a tensed rhythm like a ticking bomb, that soon will explode, and it did, when the sound stopped, when her steps reached their destination, the woman faced Jaehyun with a killing smile, Taeil truly looked intimidated near her, but not him, Jaehyun faced her eyes with a faultless expression, and expectant eyes, waiting for hell to be unleashed.

Mei: I am amused but not surprised by such comments. since we were little you always wanted to be on top, didn’t matter the games or the rules, hungry for power, our Jaehyun would always become the one in charge when the chance arises, and today is no different than those past years, your father truly took its time to nurture such a desire into you, I will acknowledge that, but sadly he didn’t put the same amount of effort into teaching his children about ethics or value. Our dear underboss, I would be careful in your place, letting yourself be blinded by power will just make things easier for getting your crown snatched. Let the pride aside, after all, you didn’t always win, and I know the best out of all, of your fair share of losses.

She took a small break, to asses her upper hand before continuing her speech.

Mei: Taeyong trusted you for everything to work even without him here, and you failed, how can I not be mad. And more than mad, I am disappointed. The first time you’re given real power and you can’t even keep it in your hands. In your place I would start changing some things, seeing you fail is becoming predictable and … quite boring nowadays.

Jaehyun rose from his chair, reaching the same eye level with her, no actually he was way higher, even if she was wearing heels he was still towering over her, lowering his head, looking down on her.

Jaehyun: In your place, I would be more careful with my words, let’s not forget how dreadful it might be if we would know about all the mistakes in here, after all both me and you know the best who stepped on the wrong path the most often, right, cousin?

The woman shrugged, moving with so much lightness, just like a feather, no guilt could be felt from her stance.

Mei: I am not his mother, if it needs to be punished he will be punished, doesn’t matter of love when for me, blood is and will always be thicker. I came into this family to support Taeyong, this was and is my job since I was welcomed here, nothing more, nothing less. Taeil: Good, then this should be easier, the informants who mislead us, where previously workers under Doyoung.

She paused for a second, you could feel her aura getting again a bit darker, she turned around gracefully this time to face the pretty boy that was close to them, he flinched when he locked eyes with her, he was afraid.

Mei: …Jungwoo The boy flinched again while being called. Mei: I hope you have a good excuse, you kept close attention on this situation for quite a while, and even if they were previously workers under Doyoung, they are still currently in your command, you were the one in charge with the past mission.

Lucas: You know already what Taeil told us too if it’s a mistake like that we have to assume it together … as a family.

That was the first moment Lucas opened his mouth since you were there, also the first time he did face you, finally. He kept his eyes fixed, he didn’t show fear nor anxiety but also he didn’t provoke such feelings in you either.

Was that directed to me?

You got caught by the thoughts before coming back to the conversation.

Jungwoo: No… she is right, even if it’s a mistake, there are still my people who committed, I did know it from the start. I .. I will take responsibility. I am not denying or searching for a scaping goat, I will assume it, but my punishment will be chosen by Taeyong himself, when he comes back until then we need to solve the problem. That’s why I asked for Taeil to bring you all here, to inform you of her presence and also think of solutions. Thank you, Lucas.

The boy thanked with a cheerful smile.

Mei: Good. First, Jungwoo, I am proud to hear this from you but we will talk about this subject later, privately. Secondly, the police might help us the most, after all, currently, she is a missing person, right? Taeil: Not really, no one declared her missing, and we can keep it like that. But we still need to figure out where to place her. Mei: I see, well… one thing is for sure..

for the first time the woman looked at you and for the first time you felt such coldness from her eyes that a shiver ran into you, it felt like you were staring into death itself

Mei: … she won’t be allowed to stay here. Jaehyun: This is not mainly your decision. Mei: True, but after all of you seeing her appearance is not like my choice has no foundation. Jaehyun: Mei… Mei: When I entered this room, I didn't raise my voice because I am angry about the mistake, but more on its effect. I am seeing a ghost of a person that should never put a foot back into this place. Taeil: She Is not Alice… and she has zero connection with her. Mei: I don’t care. I don’t even want to know what would have happened if Taeyong would have been here today. I don’t want her here for when he comes back, find her a place to be sent or I will choose the place myself. I am not allowing demons to come back into his mind again.

A whisper you could hear from your left side.

Haechan: Good luck, knowing her, you might as well end up in a brothel for the better.

Jaemin: Stop scarring her with lies.

And you couldn’t think of your heart to sink deeper, but here we go again, the thought made tears start to show in your eyes, it was just too much, you don’t even know what to believe anymore.

Lucas: We will find her a place away from this house, she previously worked at a café, we have some chain restaurants under our networks, we can send her there. Johnny: Well if she makes good coffee she can work as my assistant, I do need one for all the travels and papers, and she will only stay in my office. Haechan: Or even better, we can use her for our cover. Think about it, a cursed café, one worker kills himself while the other one runs away, coincidence or a true criminal mastermind. I feel it’s a good news headline. Mei: Not bad... Haechan: Right, we get two birds with one stone... Y/N: OH Fuck off! The curse was loud and you could feel all the frustration that was built into that outburst. But you couldn’t take it anymore. You spat on him while you shout out, followed by your heavy breathing. The boy was perplexed by your reaction, he finished his sentence while wiping some of your spits that ended up on his face with a disgusted look, but this time with way less confidence in his statement.

Haechan: one stone. Now now, we understand that you are innocent, but you should understand also that we can just let you out after what you’ve experienced everything, plus seeing our faces. Y/N: I have nothing to deal with this and no reason to deal with this hell. I want out. Everyone was shocked by your boldness, well everyone except one person. That one started laughing like he never had a good laugh for way too much of time, and that one was Jaehyun. You ended up being shocked by his reaction, together with everyone from the room.

Jaehyun: Now, Mei, your turn to enlighten me, is she the ghost you thought you would see?

The man was smiling so cheerfully, it looked so happy, his face got lighted so much, he was enjoying this moment like a kid enjoying his favorite show, but this wasn’t a kid’s show, this was you being tormented.

Mei: She… well, she is different.

Jaehyun: Right. She is more amusing though. Now if you don’t have any suggestions you can all leave, we will need to discuss more private where we can hide her, for now, you know the situation, you are free, but keep an eye on her, she can’t be allowed to escape. And Y/N, trust me, you will leave this building tonight.

A smile was so brilliant and confident that it can shatter any defense. You couldn’t understand anymore, the feelings that came and left while staying in this room for all this time, how only this small moment would take all away, why is he like that, and why your heart feels like it can beat faster, only because of a man you barely meet, a man who took the blindfold from your eyes and welcomed you into this torture. How can you be such a fool and feel any sweetness from this? You felt conflicted by everything.

Pffff

Another laugh woke you up from all the reminiscences. This time not from the man from your story, but a new face.

Feli: I can’t believe it. I truly did miss quite a face. His laughing is a once in a blue moon event. Also making a promise for you leaving. How mighty of you Jaehyun, as expected of my brother. Jungwoo: Calm down, if you laugh like this with your nose clogged you will end up out of air.

The girl sounded so upbeat, that you wouldn’t believe she is sick if you wouldn’t have seen the number of tissues around her. Still, the coffee table was clean and welcoming with many sweets and tea. She coughed a bit while calming down her laugh. She soon took another spoon from her chocolate cake like nothing even happened.

Feli: Now now, having such a piece of information we can open so many new doors. I wonder, how we should put that into play.

After eating that last piece of cake she pointed her spoon towards you and welcomed you with a bright warm smile.

Feli: I should thank you. Today you turned my boring day into something way much better, and this can go on quite easily. So, Y/N, wouldn’t you like some of my help?

Boring, today was anything less than boring. This became a memorable day, you truly believed you’ve died at that time and ended up in hell, and all the devils you’ve met made your belief stronger. But letting your memories play again in the back of your head, and seeing again all those small things that you saw but never understand at the right time, you start thinking that maybe you were the actual devil that they’ve welcomed, hidden behind a lost child, but all if that is in the past, that’s why you are hearing it now. This is a story of the times I might have wished to change them, but they are all stuck, in Yestoday.

[softyn]

Broken phones & guided tours | Jung Jaehyun

Requested by @blazingshuiro :  Can I request a fic where y/n is a foreigner (can she be African too if you don't mind it would be more relatable to me) visiting Seoul for the first time and while she at the SM building visting the shop she meets jaehyun for the first time in person by accident and she's sure she falls more in love with him in person (it would be nice if he likes her too yknow because 😳) 🙏🏽 thanks Have a nice day

Words: +1.7K

Genre: Fluff

Warnings: Curse words

A/n: Maybe the gif doesn’t fit too well but I just loooooove this gif, Jaehyun is so cute :’^) (It’s not proofread, sorry!)

-Mai.

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You got off the plane and breathed deeply, after 10 hours flight from Africa to Spain (because there were no direct flights to Seoul) and 13 hour flight from Spain to Seoul you were finally in South Korea.

You were beyond tired and although you were dying to visit all the shops, the coffee shops, the karaokes and of course, the SmBuilding, your desire to sleep in a real bed was greater.

When you got to the room you unpacked your bags and lay on the bed.

Tomorrow would be a great day, you foresee.

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Your heart started to beat quickly when you entered at the Sm building, all these time daydreaming about it and now, you were finally here.

You started yo walk around the exo’s section, all their outfits, objects that they’ve used in their mvs, photos... You tried to remember every single detail, it was amazing.

Then the Shinee’s section passed, the Red Velvet’s one, Super Junior’s... until you arrived to the NCT’s section.

You smiled widely, looking at the room in awe, everything was just like you imagined.

The Firetruck's outfits, the Chewing Gum's ones... You couldn't be happier, you were ready to walk around the room when the speakers started to talk.

You were confused, you couldn't understand what the voice was saying, mainly, because you couldn't understand korean, then the voice started to speak english.

-Please, all users are asked to leave the museum, due to a technical error it is required to evacuate the building.-

-Are you fucking kidding me?- You asked looking at the speakers.

The voice repeated the sentence and you left the room, you were really mad, not only you didn't see all NCT's section but you couldn’t see the Girls Generation, TVXQ, F(x) and BoA either.

-One day, just one day where you are at and this happens. Bravo y/n, I don't know how you do it but you are the most unlucky person in the world.- You talked to yourself, outraged.

You walked out of the building and sighed, you were really annoyed but at least you still had the shop.

You were walking through the aisles of the store, looking at the TVXQ merchandise when the boys who were at your side started to talk.

-What? Another plushie? Hyung I am not going to allow that, you already have this one.- One of them said.

-It’s not the same plushie! This one is Changmin, the plushie I have is Yunho!- The other one complained.

-And? You need to stop.- 

-But they are so cute!- Then, everything happened in slow motion, you saw how the boy who had the plushie in his hands raised his arms hitting the phone that you had in your hands, which fell to the ground.

You eyes widened and you quickly picked up your phone.

-Oh my god, tell me that nothing has happened to your mobile.- The boy said.

You looked at the screen and it was totally shattered.

-This can’t be happening.- You said in desbelieve.

-Oh my.. fuck... I’m so sorry... Forgive me please, I’ll buy you a new phone, I’m sorry.- You heard.

You looked at the boy and your eyes widened like they’ve never had.

Jung Jaehyun was in front of you, worried about your now shattered phone and asking you for forgiveness.

-I... uhm.... it’s okay, don’t worry.- You said.

-No, of course it’s not okay, I will buy you a new phone.- he repeated.

You were trying to stay calm, you didn’t want to scare the shit out of him, but it was being a difficult task.

-Jeno, tell the others that I will go with...- He shut up and looked at you, asking for your name.

-Y/N.- You said sweetly.

You couldn’t believe what was happening, Jaehyun just broke your phone and for some reason, you couldn’t be mad at him.

-Tell the others that I will go with y/n tobuy her a phone, I’ll be there later.- He said and Jeno nodded.

-Come on, follow me.- He said.

He put his mask on and you started to walk behind him, some minutes after, you arrived to the shop, wich was surprisingly near.

-I still can’t believe that I broke your phone... - he said and you smiled slightly.

-Don’t worry, It was an accident...- You said and he smiled, showing his dimples.

-You can call me Jaehyun if you want.- He said, still smiling and you blushed.

He was more handsome in person, you could appreciate some small imperfections in the skin that could not be appreciated through a camera made him even more attractive, his dark brown eyes, his dimples... wow.

The shop assistant started to talk with Jaehyun in korean, so you couldn’t understand them.

-So... what are you doing here?- He asked you when the shop assistant dissappeared.

-I have just moved to Seoul because of work but before I started to work I wanted to be familiar with Seoul and its culture and today I was suppossed to spend all day at the Sm museum, but they needed to evacuate due to a technical error.- You said. -Luck is not on my side.- You laughed.

-And what have you planned for the rest of the days?- He asked.

-Actually.. I don’t have plans, you know? I am like a leaf that is carried by the wind.- You said and he laughed.

-what about go with me? I know Seoul like the back of my hand, I can give you a tour.- He smiled.

-Oh no! Don’t worry, You must to be real busy and you should spend for free time to rest.- You said.

-Look y/n, I still feel really bad about your phone, and I would love to give you a tour so please, don’t make any excuses.- He said.

You shut up because of how direct he was and you nodded.

-Okay- you laughed.

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That day, Jaehyun decided to take you to dinner at one of his favorite restaurants and then escorted you to your hotel.

-Thank you for today Jaehyun- you said smiling.

-You don’t need to thank me, goodbye.- He smiled you back.

The guided tour by Jaehyun started, first he took you to an old traditional Korean village, where you spent all day there, the day after, Jaehyun decided to take you to the Sm museum again, and although it was difficult to walk without the fans discovering Jaehyun, you made it, you also went to the Gangnam District, wich was spectacular, but the place you loved the most until now were Namiseom, a small island with a half moon shape.

The next day, Jaehyun picked you up again, you two went to take breakfast and then you spent all day in the Han river, you had never laughed so much with anyone, the faces he made, his contagious laughter, the anecdotes he told you and the plan they made to push Lucas into the river, who ended up soaked.

Now you were having a night picnic on the banks of the Han river, you looked at Jaehyun and blushed, you only saw him through a screen but you always thought that he was amazing but now that you have met him correctly, you could define him as someone really caring, who loves to laugh and make the others laugh too.

You found yourself loving his personality more that you expected

-I had a great time today, you are a really good fun.- He said.

-I had a great time too.- You smiled.- Thank you so much, I really mean it.- 

-Y/n, I already told you that you don’t need to thank me, by the way, I will pick you up tomorrow by afternoon, I want to take you to the N Seoul Tower, you will love it.- he said.

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-Jaehyun! Where have you been?- Winwin asked when he entered in the dorms.

-At the Han river... With y/n.- He said.

-I bet 20 dollars a week they will be dating.- Johnny said.

-I think they're already dating.- Taeil commented

-I’m sure that she will reject him.- Haechan laughed.

-Can you not talk as if I wasn’t right here, please?- Jaehyun said.

-Well... At least he didn’t deny the fact that he likes her.- Yuta said.

And what Yuta just said was true, in just five days you totally won his heart, they way you treated him, your personality, how pretty you were... Everything about you captured his heart.

Since he became famous, all the people he knew treated him differently, but you treated him like any other person, you listened to him and did not ask about his life as an idol, you were interested in the real Jaehyun and thanks to that Jaehyun felt really comfortable by your side.

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Jaehyun watched as you ran towards one of the crystals and how you were impressed by the views.

-Cute- he whispered for himself.

-Jaehyun this is amazing... You are the best I swear.- you said in awe.

He looked at your face and he blushed, you were beautiful, his heart was beating really fast and he was afraid that you could hear it.

he sighed deeply, maybe he will regret this all your life, but it was worth trying.

-You are beautiful.- He said.

Your eyes widened and you looked at him.-W-what?-

-I know that we just met six days ago, but in this time that I’ve spent with you has been amazing, you treat me like a real person, not an idol, and I feel like I know you since always, and you are the prettiest girl I’ve ever seen... and, and I love your smile, it’s beautiful and you hair and... Oh my God this is so awkward, I’m sorry.-

You stayed in silence trying to process everyhting he was sayung and he started to get nervous.

-If you don’t feel the same it’s okay...  You d...-

-Of course I feel the same.-You smiled. -You are an amazing guy Jaehyun, you’ve treated me like a princess, even though you are really busy, you decided in give me this tour and It has been the best week in my life, thank you for everything you’ve done.- You said.

He blushed and he approached you, then he cupped your face and he kissed you.

It's the cutest kiss you've ever had, in the perfect place, with perfect views and the perfect boy.

You started to smile through the kiss and he spearated from you.

-What?- he asked with a big smile.

-I was thinking in my phone, thanks for breaking it, If you hadn’t done it, I would not have met someone as wonderful as you.- you said and he laughed.

-The best accident I've ever done in my life. -He said and you kissed again.

// Masterlist //

[maetaamong]

ALL 18 MEMBERS!?!? idk if I even have 18 mutuals sakdjda I love my mutual and I love NCT tho so I’m pumped to do this. 

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Note 1: Each person will get one (1) gif, a couple sentences, and one (1) member. So you’re welcome

Note 2: the only reason I’m not pairing @xuhoon with a member is because she doesn’t stan NCT

Note 3: I ran out of people that I know well enough to do this for so some people get two (2) members each. They are: @page17 @whoozyuji @undinefin @thedaysix @howcaniwait

!! Stream Yestoday !!

Taeyong: @busan-daegu-hiphoplover​

The two best moms you could ask for. We were just talking about the Dreamies the other day and we both decided I’d join their club and she would be their club leader lmao. Both of these two are so cuddly and loving and just love being loved AND IM HERE TO SUPPLY THE LOVE

Taeil: @thedaysix

I think the gif explains a lot on its own lmao. Taeil is the certified grandpa of NCT and takes care of all of the boys. Just like Boo does with me and the rest of our Beans crew !! He can be a lil shy at first but is super wild once he’s relaxed which I think suits Boo as well. (maybe not as much for the shyness tho lol) They are both just the the most loving people and never let the people around them forget how supported they are.

Johnny: @llavkey​

Both Julia and Johnny start with the letter J are the biggest sweetest dorks I have yet to know. Prime example: when I was feeling sad Julia sent me off to a marriage blog and told me that Hanbin was still free. 11/10 not what I was expecting but tbh better than anything I was expecting. She always sending me the weirdest posts and quizzes and links and honestly I love it all. These two are adorable and awkward and I love em both.

Yuta: @howcaniwait

The first thing that comes to my head when i think of Yuta is just “freaky”

Yuta has the cutest megawatt smile that just lights up the whole damn world. And sucks for all of her followers but I have seen CP’s smile and can confirm its the prettiest thing possibly ever. Also Yuta is just an aesthetically pleasing human being, he doesnt try it just kinda happens. He’s just pretty like that and CP's photo series are the most aesthetically pleasing ever.

Bonus: they’re both weird af

Kun: @thedaysix

The sweetest ray of sunshine ever?? Yes. 

Also sometimes just disappears? Like Boo will just be gone for a few hours on end then come back and send our gc the cutest goodnight message. And Kun was just gONE for years while the rest of the boys debuted. Plus Kun is just always stressed™ about his kids and I know for a fact that if any of Boo’s beans are hurt or upset she’s ready to fite anyone or anything that hurt them. 

!! Stream Yestoday !!

Doyoung: @sambashua​

Another mom lmao. No but both Mir and Dodo are highkey protective of the Dreamies (and the smols of our gc). They’re both so caring and cute!! My favourite bunnies tbh Plus both of them are more than ready to crack a joke here or there.

ALSO BONUS MIR IS AFRAID OF BIRDS AND DODO IS AFRAID OF EVERY ANIMAL LITERALLY EVER

!! Stream New Heroes !!

Ten: @undinefin​

A SMOL !! Ten is the shortest boy and L is the smollest bean, it’s perfect. Also they are the ultimate dancing king and queen. Sure you might have seen Ten on Hit the Stage but have you seen L dance?? Your mind will be bloWN. Ten is scared easily?? But L isn’t?? I mean at the same time tho if you even touch her sides she’ll collapse on the floor cause she’s just that ticklish. Also bonus: they both have dirty minds lol

Jaehyun: @howcaniwait​

Beautiful? Yes. Lovable? Yes. Shy? Sometimes. Flexible? lol no. 

Jaehyun is a bit dramatic sometimes and will draw out his reaction a little bit in order to make those around him laugh and smile. Cue him being kicked in the ass by Taeil during soccer and just dyiNG on the ground. CP isn’t really dramatic lmao but she does try her best to make her friends, followers, and mutuals smile and laugh. Not to mention they’re both the biggest sweethearts.

Winwin: @page17​

You can’t not love Winwin and you can’t not love Nom, it just works like that. Literally every NCTzen and NCT member ever has the biggest soft spot for Sicheng and every member of our gc as well as her 1203913 other mutuals have the biggest soft spot for Nom. They’re both the sweetest of the sweet, Winwin will lose his shIT over ice cream and anything fluffy and Nom just melts over anything cute. But they’re both also lowkey terrifying sometimes. You don’t want to get on they’re bad sides (I love you Nom)

Jungwoo: @aidenfiftyone

He is the most pure human being ever and the only thing I could ever compare him to is the literal sun so um yall are demons and no but at the same time I feel a strong need to not exclude Junguwu like SM DID FOR YEARS so I’m dragging Aidon into the world of kpop so here...

!! Stream Yestoday !!

Lucas: @maetaamong

I literally cannot think of a single mutual of mine who is like Lucas??? But I feel like I sometimes am??? this is my justification go away cause we can both be loud as fuCK when excited. We’re both unnecessarily flirty with friends and are taller than most of our friends. (only Charlie is taller than me lol) 

!! Stream Yestoday !!

Mark: @whoozyuji

SO HARD WORKING !!! If you haven’t read any of Ash’s SVT text posts on @seventeen-teen-teen-trash then you haven’t lived. Ash is always working on creating or planning a new project and I am forever in awe of her creativity and drive. And our baby Mark (who is in all 3 NCT subunits for those who dont know) is always working to deathly hard its lowkey insane.

Bonus: they’re both absolute sweethearts who need to be protected at all costs

Renjun: @gaymergirl69

He’s too pure for you demons just like Mr Junguwu but I love my son too much to pair him with someone who Auden you better take good care of him

The only real connection I can see between my baby Renjun and Auden are that theyre both savage as fuck but like Renjun is pure and....

Jeno: @smittenbyschmidt

An actual sunbeam??? I just melt at Jeno’s smile kill me now Aly is just the sweetest human being and is always sending me random love asks and just being a generally lovely human being. 

Bonus: they both need to be protected at all costs

Haechan: @page17

The two cutest human beings ever???? Legit Nom has the sweetest smile ever. I nearly melted when I first saw it. And we all already know that Haechan is the undisputed aegyo king. Plus he and she are savage as fuCK when they want to be. 

Jaemin: @whoozyuji

A ray of sunshine in the form of a human being. My heart just starts glowing whenever I know that either of these two lovely beans are happy. I mean look at that smile, he’s the cutest. And Ash is the actual loveliest human possibly ever. She takes such good care of her friends and literally everyone wants to be friends with her. She and Jae are both down to poke a little fun at their friends as well.

Chenle: Judy (she doesn’t have Tumblr)

Judy is the sweetest and more pure child I have yet to meet. One smile from just lights up the whole damn world. And lucky for us she’s almost always smiling. If someone she knows walks into the room she just starts beaming. And we all know how lovely and pure our baby Chenle is. I think they can be very similar.

Jisung: @undinefin

Do I even need to explain? The baby with the baby. It’s peRFECT. 

TBH tho both L and Ji are savage af when given the opportunity (example: Ji during yaja time lmaoo) and get shy and awkward behind a camera (unless L has popcorn apparently) But they’re both so very loved by all of their friends and are unreasonably sweet and funny.

[xiaobaemoon]

Cards

NCT Oneshot

Reader x Taeyong

Word Count: 1.834 Words

Genre: Fluff?

Summary: You always get the same photo card in your NCT albums. But why?

„Let’s find out whose photo card you got this time“, your best friend said, leaning against your shoulder. It was your birthday and you got four copies of the same new NCT album. It was not like they released different versions or that you were a famous youtuber who would do a huge giveaway, no. It was more like an experiment. You had a theory and you needed to know if you were right or not, even if that meant that you had to spent your whole savings which were originally meant to buy you new text books. This was more important. The albums all arrived yesterday, since you ordered them online. It was a pain for you to wait until you could open them, but your best friend wanted to be by your side, so you granted her this wish.

With your right hand you reached into the beautifully designed photo book to grab the card. Your friend was looking at the pictures again in another copy, not without commenting the beauty of every single member. “I can’t believe it” you sighed, giving your friend a surprised look. Your experiment was successful.

Your friend took her eyes from Johnny, who had a stunning picture where he was sitting between hundreds of books looking all smart and stuff, but she made a rather confused face. “Is it him again?” You nodded and gave her the card. It showed Taeyong, smiling with his eyes closed. You got the same photo card as in all the other copies. You can’t remember an album where you not received a photo of your bias. On one hand it was pretty nice, since Taeyong has a special place in your heart and you did not mind looking at his handsome face over and over again, but it actually made you freak out a bit. At first you told yourself that it was just a coincidence but it happened a bit to often just to be one. “Well”, your friend put her copy beside her and reached inside the back pockets of her dark blue jeans. “This is not a coincidence, I bet my left leg on it. I guess, there is only way to find out what is happening.”

What does she mean? You glanced at her hands and your eyes opened as wide as possible. She had a ticket for the upcoming fan sign event in her hand, laying it softly in yours. “Go and ask him” she winked.

You were at a fan sign event once before and you actually talked there with Taeyong, but would he even remember you? The day was one of the happiest days in your life, so you were thankful for your friend who bought you a ticket as a late birthday present. It was sad that she could not come with you, yet she asked you to take a lot of pictures and to let Doyoung sign a copy for her, which you would have done even without her asking you.

While sitting in the train you thought about the other event you were. You remembered how loud the small room was. NCT was a pretty small group back then, they just recently got very popular. You remembered how hot it was that day. The boys were so happy back then and talked a lot. They did not had to sigh a lot of albums after all. The train stopped and you reached into the pocket of your jacket to grab not only the ticket but also your four photo cards which you wanted to show to him.

The moment you entered the room your jaw dropped. It was a huge room, much bigger than the one you were a few years ago. Hundreds of girls were standing around in small groups or were sitting on the floor, talking to each other. They all looked very pretty and your idea of Taeyong remembering you grew smaller and smaller. You had nothing that stood out, in your opinion. He was surrounded by the prettiest and most talented girls all the time, you were probably no one really special to him. He was your whole world, one of the reasons why you smiled on rough days and your motivation to constantly work hard, yet you were just another fan to him. However, this was not the right time to get sad about something like that! You had to talk to him and there was no one stopping you, you would finally get the answer you wanted to know for a long time now.

The moment the boys entered the room everyone became surprisingly quiet. Normally people scream when idols enter the room, but every girl was silent and they started to form a line. The groups slowly disappeared and one girl after another made their way to the chairs standing in front of the table where NCT was sitting, and talking, ready to have a good time.

You have never been a fast person, so you were almost at the end of the line. To be even more specific, you were one person before the last one. It did not bother you at all. You enjoyed seeing the other girls interact with their idols. One girl with long black hair was whispering something to Mark, another one with blue hair compared her hair with WinWin, who also got dark blue hair this comeback. Yuta was kissing the hand of a girl which gave him a flower crown and Doyoung was all soft and cuddled with a plushie a fan gave him. Their behavior reminded you of your last meeting with them. They were still the bubbly and hard working men you fell in love with and you could not express in words how happy you were about this fact. Some people change the moment they become popular, but not them.

The only one who not seemed as happy as the others was your bias Taeyong. He constantly moved his right hand through his now black hair. Of course he smiled at the fans in front of him, held their hands and laughed with them, but something was off, you could see it in his jet black and consuming eyes. He looked at the line a lot, just like he was counting the people or as he was waiting for somebody. The line grew smaller and smaller while the tables of the boys got fuller and fuller. Toys and snacks were everywhere. For a short moment you felt bad because you did not buy them anything, but it was probably better so, since their space for writing and laying their hands on the table got smaller. The staff was talking to somebody as well, so the boys were left alone with the fans. A dangerous situation, but the moment you wanted to sigh around five of the staff ladies returned and cleaned the tables.

After waiting for more than two hours it was finally your turn. Your heart fluttered as you slowly seated yourself on the first chair, right in front of Taeil, who looked very sleepy. He smiled at you and signed the two copies you brought with you. The next in line was your bias wrecker Jaehyun, who remembered you.”Oh nice to see you again” he laughed, showing you his deep dimples. You felt your cheeks turn red, yet you tried your best to calm down. This was not the right time to blush. With every member you visited, said hi to and hold hands, you realized how nervous the other boys in the line got. Did you move too slowly? Did they want to leave and you robbed their precious time?

You finally arrived at your destination, right in front of Taeyong, giving you one of his bright smiles. “Taeyong-oppa, I have a question” you started and reached inside your pocket. “Why do I always get your photo cards? I bought four copies of your new album and I still got only you.” His eyes sparkled as they looked from the cards away, straight into your ones.

The other boys around him looked surprised and started to whisper something to another, yet Taeyong was still quiet. Why did he not answer? Did you pronounce a word wrong? Did he try to come up with a smooth answer? No, he just started to giggle and get all shy, which made it impossible for you to hide your blushing. His laugh was just the best!

“I made sure you only get my cards, y/n” he answered in between his shy laughs. He remembered you! He really did! Why? Your face must have been very confused, because he answered your questions just by guessing them. “I remember you, since you made such an impressive impression on me the last time I saw you. We remember every single fan which came to this fan sign event, since it was our first one after our debut. “He took a large breath and started talking again. “You however smiled as bright as the sun. You had something different around you, I can’t describe it.  I found myself thinking of you often. I asked myself what a person you are and if you would still find happiness in our music .You have grown a lot and I’m happy you are still supporting us. Thank you so much.”

Without even thinking you gave Taeyong a hug. His warms hands slowly grabbed your waist. This was a really tight hug and probably more sincere than all the other hugs the boys gave this day. You could listen to his fast, yet calming heart beat. It was hard for you to believe what was happening now. You meant something to him! This must be a dream. You made your idol happy. You made the person who made you laugh so many times in the past laugh as well. What a great feeling!

Back in the train you looked inside the two copies to read what the members wrote in it. Everyone wrote really nice words. Some were uplifting, some were just cheerful and Yuta’s were flirty of course. As you wanted to put the albums back into your bag, you noticed a sheet of paper sticking out of one. Confused you grabbed the paper. It showed many numbers, probably a phone number. Was it the one of the girl with the brown piggy tails behind you in line? No, you saved her number directly on your phone. But whose phone number was it?

You turned the paper around and you felt your heart do a huge jump. You read the words written on it over and over again. You pinched your skin to wake up, but it was not a dream. It was real. You saved the phone number and texted a shy “hello”. While waiting for the answer you said the words again and again in your head.

“I can’t wait to hear from you again. Your TY Track ;)”

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Daydreaming | Ten

Prompt: In which Sunday mornings are boring so Ten thinks about the people he loves being around, especially about his boyfriend Johnny.

Type: One shot

Category: Fluff

Word Count: 1389

Author’s Note: I’m so emo, I want Ten to interact with the hyung line again ;-;

AO3

Sunday mornings were always like this, quiet and boring. Ten hates sleeping early on Saturdays because that meant spending a boring morning after looking at the ceiling in his small studio apartment.

He hated being alone, hated things being quiet. He would spent most of his time with his friends if he could but his friends have lives of their own and need their own space. His group of friends were quite the bunch and no matter how different they were from himself he loved being around them.

He loves the banter, the interactions and how everything seems to always be unpredictable with them. As a group they were a wild gang that had water gun battles and felt like rebels for doing it. Every single one of them are a joy to be with. As individuals and as a group, they are the most perfect mismatch ever.

He started thinking about them, about how they made his life better. Each one of them were great to hang out with, he was a social butterfly so getting along with people no matter how different they are from him was his thing.

He smiled, thinking about the day before when Mark felt in love with a new ice cream flavor, they were at their designated convenience store when they noticed a new bright color wrapper popsicle in the freezer, a new addition. The watermelon flavored popsicle was alright in his opinion but Mark went wild with it and just like that they spend the whole afternoon hanging close by the store and Mark blowing his weekly allowance in several watermelon popsicles.

He loves that about Mark, he’s full of excitement and finds joy in little things like a new popsicle flavor. He laughs a lot, even when Ten tells him a lame joke, he laughs because he loves to do that, he’s a cute little source of happiness and energy and Ten loves being around him.

Mark, he would say is like the stars, and then we have Haechan who is like the sun, he shines so bright he lights up an entire apartment building with his presence alone, he’s playful and has a lot of sass, spending time with him means getting roasted half the time by default but it’s okay because Ten can handle the heat. Haechan even though he tries to hide it has a heart of gold, and recently he’s been wearing it on his sleeve as he gains more confidence in himself, it’s beautiful to see.

Yuta is the definition of a narcissist in the streets and a selfless in the sheets type of guy. He’s assertive and refuses to look ridiculous no matter how much Ten tries. He’s smooth, oh so very smooth and what he loves about him is the fact that he’s confident without putting others down, his confidence is not based on how or why he’s better than someone else, if anything he appreciates the beauty in others so much that Ten thinks he might as well be a poet when he uses borderline prose to describe him or anyone else in the group.

Doyoung is the most protective person he has ever met, followed only by Taeyong, both of them makes sure no one does anything stupid, unfortunaly with their group of friends, that is a very difficult task. Both do it without complaining which is truly commendable, Doyoung with his nagging attitude makes him feel safe, he knows for sure he won’t choke with an ice cube if the orange haired boy is in the room.

Taeyong is paranoid, Ten secretly thinks the other boy has a special sense for this kind of thing, the fact he can sense when Mark and Haechan are up to no good and most of the time he’s right scares Ten a bit. Taeyong has intense eyes that sometimes are too much for him to handle but he knows Tae’s true murdering stares are reserved for anyone who dares to mess with his friends.

With brown curly hair that resembles a puddle is Jaehyun, the one who makes all the plans when everyone is going to hang out, the one who always chooses where they're going to eat fried chicken next and what movie they're going to watch next Saturday. Jaehyun loves watching horror movies with him because he says it’s funny when Ten screams nonstop when the scary stuff starts to happen.

“Ten’s screams are scarier than the actual movie” he always says jokingly and Ten has to chuckle a little while he turns to the side fixing his pillow a bit, it was true. He could scream pretty loud. Jaehyun in the other hand is extremely calm, nothing can make him lose his temper which makes him the perfect target for pranks, even if they don’t muster any real reactions out of him. The real show is watching Jaehyun remain completely blank face while Haechan and Mark tie a screaming Winwin to a lighting pole.

Thinking about a screaming Winwin, Ten has no other choice but to feel sorry for their prince, like everyone calls him. If Jaehyun is their designated target for pranks then Winwin is the designated bait for them. The lean boy loves and hates it depending on the pranks. He’s the chic one, the one who is always hooking Ten up with the best shampoos and skin care tips. He’s the friend that takes you shopping and makes you feel like a fashionista just because you paired up a short fur coat with skinny jeans and combat boots. Bless him.

When Ten first met Taeil his first impression about the other boy was the he was composed and very mature. Boy was he wrong. Taeil is the most childish of all of them, very petty too. His muggle act is pristine and when people try to tell the true about his character no one ever believes it, a true mastermind.

With Taeil he can talk about aliens, alternate realities, the types of life that inhabit other planets, different galaxies and conspiracy theories until 3am if they wish to with the occasional which game of thrones character are you quiz in the mix. Smoking a joint with vaporwave in the background while they debate the current six alien races battletling to decide which one it’s going to invade their home world it’s their usual setting when it’s just the two of them and Ten wouldn’t want it any other way.

And then there’s Johnny.

Johnny.

Johnny. He thought about Johnny with his tall frame, gentle smile, mess of a hair and big hands that always caress him so gently, so loving. His laugh is probably Ten’s favorite thing in the world, the way he chuckles at the silly things he does, the way his voice adopts at soft tone when he says his name.

“Ten” – He says it like it was the prettiest word in the universe, like those 3 letters were made of cotton candy and sparkles. That single word prompted out of Johnny’s lips make Ten feel full, complete. When those soft lips clash with his it’s like the entire universe is exploding under Ten’s closed eye lids.

They do most of their stuff together, him and Johnny. Since the first time they met at the arcade, they were inseparable, the connection too strong. He loves Johnny not just because he’s his boyfriend but because he’s also his best friend, they laugh a lot, they cry, they watch sappy movies until late night and make love until it’s the suns turn to take over the skies.

Johnny’s big hands feel exquisite in his hair when they’re showering, his smell lingers all over his apartment because even though they don’t live together just yet the tall boy has plenty of his belongings there.

Ten grabs the pillow Johnny usually rests his head on and hugs it. He can feel himself succumbing to the sleep once again but this time he’s smiling because when he wakes up Johnny will be there, letting himself in with the spare key copy he gave him and they are going to spend the Sunday like they always do, making chocolate cookies and watching bad movies until they fall asleep.

Ten closes his eyes, yeah he can’t wait to do just that.

[blow-up-reactions]

NCT Taeil - A Day To Remember

You were sitting in the dressing room, trying to get some work done while the boys were performing. You could clearly hear Whiplash blast throughout the large stage. Lucky for you, you’ve always found it easy to work in loud noise. And even more convenient you just needed your computer to work.

You had gotten permission by SM to join the tour, and it had been amazing. You had seen NCT 127 and NCT U perform almost every night and you could still work while spending time with Taeil. Plus you had made very good friends with one of the makeup artists, named Cathy.

You had been together since his trainee days and you were getting close to your 4th anniversary. Which was the day after you get back from tour. You couldn’t help but smile as you remember all your years together. You really loved Taeil and you couldn’t wait to celebrate another year with him.

Jus as Whiplash ended Cathy walked through the door with her newly cleaned makeup brushes. “Can I do your makeup?” She asked. It had become a fun way to pass the time during shows, Cathy sometimes puts special effects makeup on you and sometimes fancy makeup, and you enjoyed seeing your face transform. 

“Sure,” you said and got up from your seat and sat in one of the makeup chairs,

While she did your makeup you guys talked about how excited you were for your 4th anniversary and what you were planning on doing. You admitted that Taeil had insisted on planning the whole thing, as all the other NCT members didn’t believe he was as romantic as he said he was. And he was planning on proving them wrong.

Cathy did your hair and makeup. When she was done, the show was almost done as well. “It looks amazing,” you said as Cathy was doing the finishing touches, “wait!” Cathy basically yelled as you froze. She blushed as she handed you a piece of clothing, “try this on with it.” she said. You took it on and saw it was a very cute light blue dress that made your skin color look milky white.

It went perfectly with the makeup, a light lip tint with a simple eye shadow you almost couldn’t see but it went amazing with your deep brown eyes. Your face was framed with loose soft curls making you look cute and innocent. “I love it!” You said as you fixed your hair slightly.

The loud music came to a stop as you heard Marks familiar voice as they began the ending ment. Cathy froze and grabbed your hand and pulled you over towards a section with some of all the clothes the boys had worn during the show. It was under the stage.

As soon as Cathy stopped pulling you, Taeil started talking on stage, “I need you to stand right here, no matter what.” Cathy said, “umm okay?” you answered in a confused tone.

“I’ve had a very special person with me on tour,” Taeil told the fans as they started screaming, and he chuckled slightly. “you probably, know who I’m talking about, my amazing girlfriend, Y/N.” you blushed, your relationship was public but still very private and the fans knew almost nothing about you. 

“She’s also here tonight,” Taeil continued and suddenly the ground under you started moving. You let out a surprised yelp and Cathy giggled, “trust me,” she said as the floor kept moving up on stage, and suddenly you were standing in the middle of the spotlight.

It took you a while to get used to the sharp lights and the loud screams from the fans. As you finally could see, you saw Taeil walking towards you with a huge smile. You barely noticed the other boys standing in the corner of the stage. You looked so lost, that Taeil laughed, “she wasn’t expecting this” he said into the mic.

“So,” Taeil started “ this is my amazing beautiful girlfriend” he stated as he looked everywhere but at you, he was nervous for some reason, “She’s been with me since my trainee days,” the fans went almost silent as they listened to your boyfriend, “and she means very much to me.” A blush made its way on Taeils face as he smiled in a shy way.

“Now, the members claim that I’m not as romantic as I think I am,” Taeil said as he walked to the edge of the stage were a staff shortly walked in and handed him something. He walked back to you and looked out over the ocean of fans, “Y/N, do you think I’m as romantic as I claim I am?” He asked and leaned in so you could speak into the mic.

You thought about the question for a minute before answering “Strongly depends on the situation” You answered with a laugh, Taeil faked a hurt expression, still with a shy smile plastered on his face, “after all the expensive restaurants I took you on!” He said in a dramatic tone, you leaned up to him and spoke into the mic “in your dance practice clothes!” The fans laughed, and Taeil blushed, which made you laugh even more.

“Right, right” he laughed and looked over to the members. “I didn’t bring you up here to expose me to the fans,” he mumbled just loud enough for the fans to be able to hear him. “The real reason I brought you up here is to prove to the members how romantic I am. And I want you guys to scream if you think what I’m doing is romantic, okay?” he asked to the ocean and a huge, “Ne!” sounded from the fans.

“Okay, first of all, I want you to thank you for being an awesome and supportive girlfriend, and even though I’m not good at this feelings thing, I’m going to let it all out today. I want to say that I love you even though I don’t say it enough,” he said, in a serious tone, but still with red cheeks. The fans were already screaming fairly high, as you sent him a heart.

Taeil then pulled out a lily, which is your favorite flower. He gave it to you with the biggest smile and you could feel your ears burning.

He then pulled out a small book. You recognized it as the book he almost always carries around to write things down to remember them. He opened the book at a certain page and looked at it shortly.

“September the 16th 2013″ He read loud and clear, it was exactly 4 years ago today. “I met the sweetest, funniest, and prettiest girl today. Her name is Y/N, and she’s one of the dance instructors daughter. We talked a lot today, and I know it’s early but I think I’m falling for her. I’d get in huge trouble if teacher finds out though”

You smiled as you remember the day you went to work with your dad, you had always liked going to work with him, but after meeting Taeil you went almost every day after school. The first day which apparently was 4 years ago, you had both stayed after practice just to get to know each other. 

Taeil flipped the page and started reading again, “October 8th, I finally got the courage to ask Y/N out, we’re going to one of her favorite Thai restaurants tomorrow. I can’t believe she responded almost right away. Maybe she’d been waiting for me to ask? She seemed happy enough.”

The crowd had become completely quiet, it wasn’t because they didn’t think it was romantic, they were just listening to Taeil’s words. Taeil shortly looked at me with a smile. “October 9th,” he said and I recognized the day as our anniversary. “me and Y/N were on our first date today and I think it was the most relaxed I’ve ever been on a date. I was nervous of course, I still can’t really believe she’d go out with me, but our conversation just flowed, there was no awkward silence and she smiled so much. I want to see her smile again, she’s the prettiest when she smiles.”

The fans awed loudly and Taeil hid his face behind the book, so you were only able to see his red ears. The members started to complain loudly as they wanted him to continue. Taeil cleared his throat and continued, “I don’t wanna mention all the dates we’ve been on, I’d take too long but I have them all written down because they’re important to me and I want to remember them.” he said from behind the book before reading once again.

“October 20th, it’s already me and Y/N 3rd date today, and I’m falling hard. We went out for brunch today and a walk in the park. It was very romantic and the conversation still flowed without any trouble. When the date was over I walked her to her apartment. As we were saying our goodbyes, Y/N leaned in and kissed me. My feelings went from surprised to over the moon happy to embarrassed. I wanted to be the one who kissed her. Oh well, I’m sure I have plenty of time for that.”

The fans screamed, and you started laughing hard. Taeil just wasn’t good at taking hints and you had been staring at his lips all day and dropping subtle hints, you just couldn’t take it anymore as you had just gone for it. Taeil cringed for a bit on stage before yelling “Why did I decide to do this?!” making you and the fans laugh even harder. Taeil cleared his throat once again.

“November 17th, today Y/N met the rest of sm rookies. She was really nervous and honestly so was I. I was afraid that they maknae line would be too overwhelming and scare her away, but I knew that she’s gonna have to meet them at some point so why not.” There sounded some complaining sounds from Mark and Haechan who were the only maknae line that was on tour.

“She was amazing and she clicked with all of them almost right away. I also found out that Y/N’s mom is Chinese so she talked with WinWin almost the entire time. Of course, in Chinese so I couldn’t understand. I honestly don’t care though, Y/N was having a good time and enjoying being with them and that’s what matters the most.”

Taeil carefully peeped over the book, the blush had now spread all over his cheeks and ears. You stepped closer to him and started fanning his hot face to make the fans notice his blush, and it made the crowd laugh as Taeil hid his face in his hand instead. “Lemme be romantic!” He suddenly yelled at you, while still having a shy smile on his face. You laughed but then carefully listened to his words.

“November 30th, we Skyped my parents together for the first time today. Y/N was surprisingly cool. Not even 15 minutes into the call, Y/N and mom were already talking about the recipe for my favorite soup. I realized that we clicked together like a puzzle. She’s definitely the talker of the relationship while I’m shyer. She’s spontaneous while I like to think things through. We make an amazing couple.

January 9th, Today I told Y/N I loved her. It’s the first time I think I’ve felt like this for someone. I truly believe I love her, I love her so damn much and luckily she feels the same way. I was just hanging out at her place while watching a movie, I decided to spend the night as I’ve done many times before, we were saying goodnight and “I love you,” just slipped from me, we were both shocked before Y/N smiled and said “I love you too,”

Taeil closed the book and looked straight at you and you could see that the redness was almost gone from his face. “That was just some of the important milestones in our relationship, I had a really hard time to pick which moments to tell because we have so many. There's also a memory I want to tell, but I didn’t write down. It was one of the few days with you I want to forget.”

Taeil took a deep breath, “The day we told your father about us, he was furious and he refused to teach me for months after that. He didn’t forbid you to see me, but he really didn’t like it. I guess he had hoped I’d go away, and well I’m still here. I avoided being alone with him all these years, well knowing that he hates my guts.”

“Yesterday I called your dad on Skype and asked him a question, and after a bit of convincing he agreed, and that made it possible for me to write down another milestone.” Taeil looked flustered and nervous, he looked shortly over his shoulder to the other members. He then took a deep breath, “September 16th, 2017, today I asked Y/N to be mine forever.” He said and to your big surprise he reached in his back pocket and pulled something out before going down on one knee in front of you.

“Y/N, will you marry me?” He asked you.

Ahhh, the first time I write about nct! I’m still getting to know the nct members so I don’t know if I really captured Taeil’s personality that well. I thought about doing this story to one of the bts members but I thought I’d try and write a Taeil version of it so... I tried.

-Admin Satansoo

[jaeminlore]

Chrysanthemums // Moon Taeil

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the prompt: could I maybe get a taeil one where he’s the gardener of her kingdom and he’s always thought the princess was the prettiest in the land but he knows she’ll never like him back but he’s come to terms with it but he still likes to make her smile so he gives her a flower every week with a fact about the flower and the meaning of the flower?

words: 1655

category: fluff(!!!)

author note: haha jokes on you anon, she likes him back. also pls give love to my eldest son taeil, he’s so precious and deserves the stars.

- destinee

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Taeil always smelled like flowers. Some women around the castle liked to say that his mother birthed him in a garden.

His mother was the best gardener in the kingdom. Her green thumb impressed many, including the king himself. Of course, her talent was passed down to her only son, Taeil, who was offered a job as the castle’s official gardener and landscaper.

It was hard work for the boy. He was often sweaty and tired, with aching muscles and an empty stomach by the time his work was all done. Not only did he plant beautiful flowers, he also picked weeds and roots, made beautfiul arrangements, and trimmed the bushes and trees that littered the palace courtyard.

But his favorite thing was flowers. He loved everything about the small plants. Especially the way each flower meant something. Each flower had a different color and meaning to it, and that had always fascinated Taeil. He could tell you what every flower meant in his sleep, if he wanted to.

-

When Taeil first saw you, he was sixteen years old. It was his first year as the palace gardener and he was surprised to see something that actually threatened the beauty of his flowers.

You were a youthful type of pretty, with full, rosy cheeks and curious eyes.

When you spotted him one morning, raking the leaves that had fallen outside your window, you called out to him. “Taeil?”

He dropped his rake. He couldn’t believe you knew his name, let alone were addressing him by it.

The flustered boy picked up the rake and turned his gaze towards you, cheeks red. “Yes, Your Highness?”

“Do you think you could plant some rhododendrons outside my window?”

Taeil snorted before composing himself. “Yes, Your Highness. I’ll plant them tomorrow.”

Your eyebrows furrowed, “What’s so funny?”

“Well,” Taeil leaned on his rake and gestured to your window, “Rhododendrons mean beware, and it’s just ironic that you want them outside your window. It’s kind of like a no trespassing sign.”

“I didn’t know flowers had meanings.” You shrugged lightly. “Anyway, thanks Taeil.”

“No problem,” he said quietly, as you had already shut the window.

-

Taeil wasn’t a dumb man. He knew there was no way you would ever like a gardener. You were a princess. Princesses wear flowers in their hair. They don’t fall in love with men who plant them.

So he was content, as the years went by, to simply sit back and watch you grow up from a youthful teenager to a beautiful lady.

-

It was your twentieth birthday. You were practicing your speech in the courtyard, when you noticed Taeil walking towards you.

Through the years, you two had been good acquaintances. You greeted each other when you passed and occasionally talked about current events.

“What are you doing here?”

He sat down on the bench beside you and handed you a small bouquet. “Here.”

“What is this?” You hesitantly sniffed the flowers.

Taeil pointed to each flower in turn, “These are casablancas; they mean celebration. The purple tulips mean royalty. The black-eyes susan means encouragement.”

“How do you know all that?” You asked, staring up at the boy.

He shrugged, “It’s just an instinct. My mother used to tell me the meanings of flowers and I guess I just memorized them.”

“They’re beautiful.” You sniffed them again. “Thank you, Taeil.”

“Happy birthday, Your Highness.”

“Oh,” you stopped him before he could get up, your hand latching onto his wrists. “Call me Y/n.”

You’re smile was so radiant, so lovely that Taeil felt the selfish need to see it again.

“Happy birthday, Y/n.”

-

The next week, Taeil found you on the same bench, reading.

“Hello, Y/n.” He bowed politely before handing you a single flower.

“What does this one mean?” You asked, a smile growing on your face.

“It’s an aster. It means contentment.”

“I wish I was contented right now,” you said quietly. Taeil caught it anyway, and his eyebrows furrowed as he sat beside you.

“What happened?”

You sighed, “I didn’t know all of the responsibilities that came with my coming of age ceremony. I’m learning three different languages right now, just so I can speak with the different ambassadors.”

“Can’t you just get a translator?”

You rolled your eyes, “Mother says that it’s safer to get information directly from the source, without a middle man.”

“She’s not wrong, I suppose.” Taeil looked at your upset face. “But hey, at least it isn’t four languages.”

You let out a small laugh, “You’re right. I should be thankful. Are there any flowers for that?”

“Hmm…” Taeil tapped his chin in thought. “Pink carnations stand for gratitude.”

“You should plant some pink carnations outside my window, so I’ll remember to be thankful.”

“Consider it done,” Taeil said, standing up to return to his work. “See you.”

“Goodbye.” You watched him go, your heart beating just a small bit faster than before.

-

“How did I know you’d come see me?” You asked, smiling as Taeil sat down.

Of course he would come see you. The two of you had kept the rusting up for many months, so that it was now a permanent part of your week.

He seemed out of breath, and beads of sweat littered his forehead. He pushed his hair back off his forehead and sighed, “I almost forgot. I was trimming the bushes across the palace when I remembered.”

“What flower did you bring me this time?” You asked.

He placed a flower into your eager hold, “It’s a bachelor button. It represents anticipation. I heard you’ll be crowned queen soon, since your twenty-first birthday is coming up.”

You sighed. The flower fell limp against your lap as you avoided Taeil’s gaze. “Can I tell you something? Something I shouldn’t say and you should never repeat?”

“Of course,” Taeil assured you.

“I don’t want to be queen,” you whispered. A flood of relief washed through you as you confessed. “But I don’t know how to tell my mother that. I mean, my little sister can take the throne. She’s more fit for it anyway.”

“Well what do you want to do?”

You laughed at the irony, “I think I’ve fallen in love with the languages I learned. I want to perfect them and be an official translator for the palace. That way, my family doesn’t have to worry about being fed wrong information. I’ve thought about it a lot and I think it’s what I really want to do.”

Taeil smiled, reaching out to touch the flower in your hand. His fingers brushed over your palm slightly. “Than anticipate good results.”

“Thanks, Taeil. You always know what to say.”

“I don’t say much.” He laughed, obviously flustered.

You felt a thrumming in your heart. “Everything you say makes me happy. Thank you.”

He caught your smile out of the corner of his eye. “Then you’re welcome, I guess.”

-

“A whole bouquet?” You laughed, accepting the flowers. “What did I do this time?”

“Are you kidding?” Taeil asked. “The queen officially announced that you wouldn’t be taking the throne. Why didn’t you tell me?”

“Oh,” you smiled shyly. “I wanted it to be a surprise.”

Taeil scooted closer to you. You could smell the flowers and dirt on him and realized that it had become a comforting smell over the whole year you had spent with him. Taeil had become a comforting presence, other than the fact that he sometime caused your heart to stop beating.

“What do these mean?”

Taeil’s face turned a soft shade of pink. “I don’t know. I just decided to match the colors today. No meaning. I’ve got to go now.”

“O-Okay,” you stuttered as he left as quickly as he had come in. “Bye, I guess.”

-

You decided to find Taeil’s mom and ask about the bouquet.

Taeil worked diligently on his bouquets, and there was no way he put this one together on accident.

You entered the quaint flower shop at the other end of the kingdom. “Hello, Mrs. Moon.”

“Oh, hello, Your Highness.” Taeil’s mom had the same smile as her son. The thought made you happy. “To what do I owe this pleasure?”

“I was wondering if you could tell me what the meaning behind this bouquet is?” You handed her the bunch of flowers.

“Oh,” she smiled fondly as he examined the flowers. “That’s a yellow chrysanthemum. It stands for a secret admirer. This one is a delphinium, meaning boldness. The lilacs here mean first love. Pansies stand for loving thoughts, and the red tulips mean a declaration of love. Who gave this to you?”

Before you could answer, the door to the flower shop opened, and in walked Taeil. “Hello, Mo–”

As soon as he saw you and the bouquet, he turned around and left the shop.

“Not so fast!” You grabbed the bouquet and ran after him, into the warm streets. Taeil stopped, but his pride kept him from facing you. He knew it was a stupid decision to give you that bouquet. He should’ve known you were smart enough to figure it out. Now he had to suffer the humiliation of being rejected by the princess herself.

However, you simply handed the bouquet back to him.

Taeil took it, and stared at it. This was you rejecting his feelings. This was you telling him you didn’t like him.

“I understand,” he started. “I hope this doesn’t make our friendship awkward.”

You rolled your eyes, “Why do you think I’m giving it back, Taeil? I’m returning your feelings!”

Taeil’s head snapped up, a bright smile pouring into his face. “Really?”

“Yes, really.” You said. “I like you, Moon Taeil. I might even love you. I just know that I never want to be apart from you.”

“Are you serious?”

“Yes!” You laughed. You attacked him in a hug, inhaling his flowery scent. “I love you, Taeil.”

~the end~

[jenomark]

I asked you this like a week ago but I think tumblr destroyed it. Since we in soft boi hours what’s something each of the members do that make you heart go soft for them🥺-🥰

Taeil: It’s usually whenever he sings a song in English. The reaction my whole body has when he sings is 😥😥. Also, when he talks about kitties.

Johnny: Whenever he encourages someone. I’m specifically talking about the time Haechan said he was good at English and Johnny was being the best big brother by hyping him up. 

Taeyong: Whenever he makes this face 🥺 when he’s reacting to someone else doing something weird. My heart grows three times in my chest. 

Yuta: HIS LAUGH. HIS BIG, OBNOXIOUS LAUGH WHERE YOU CAN SEE ALL HIS TEEFS. 

Kun: This might be weird, but I get really soft when he argues with Ten, because sometimes I think I would have the same reaction. Kun’s my platonic soulmate, the peanut butter to my jelly, the Capri to my Corn.

Doyoung: Whenever he wears “boyfriend” clothes, or takes “boyfriend” photos. I just want to cuddle him and bury my face in his sweaters. 😭

Ten: Whenever he’s around people he really bonds with, I feel really soft for those times. I like that he has support.

Jaehyun: This Video.   😚

WinWin: He makes me soft a lot. I like his face when he gets embarrassed the most. 

Jungwoo: When he talks about his dreams, when he stuffs his face with food until his cheeks are full, when he’s in public and he’s so loud and oblivious to other people staring at him. Now that I think about it, he’s oblivious to a lot. 

Lucas: When he’s just the tiniest bit gullible because he doesn’t understand something. He tries so hard to be a part of things. 😞

Mark: When he’s acting like himself. There isn’t much about Mark that doesn’t affect me, tbh. I love him a whole lot. 

Xiaojun: He has one of the prettiest smiles I’ve ever seen. He looks so cold if he doesn’t smile, but when he smiles, I feel that shit and it hurts. Look at this:

Thank you for looking.💚

Hendery: For some reason, him screaming about Xiaojun’s feet made me soft. Normally, it’s how selfless he is. I do love me a good Libra sun.

Renjun: When he acts like he won’t respond to the rest of the Dreamies acting immaturely, but then you see hints of a smile on his face. 

Jeno: The whole JSMR series really made me soft. Like, how amused he was by everything??? His smiles?? His laughter?? His weird impulses??? I love him.

Haechan: I could write a whole list. I do have a whole list. When he smiles with his teeth, whenever he acts cute, when he looks fans in the eyes, when he pouts, when he eats etc. This boy has my heart. 

Jaemin: His real laugh makes me soft. Every time he’s affectionate with Jeno, I become so, so soft. 

YangYang: When his hair is all fluffy and he runs???? Heart nut. He’s so cute, please.

Chenle: At the moment, everything this boy does makes me soft. His laugh, his smile, his voice, the way he plays around with his friends. My happiness right now is seeing Chenle happy. Zhong Chenle, you’re my baby and I love you.

Jisung: I get soft whenever he’s awkward. He has this really sweet innocence about his reactions to his own stupidity and I just !!!!!!