#also i just get nostalgic and comfy sometimes and want to think about all the wonderful memories i have with him

[turnit-on]

today i moved in to my new flat properly for the first time and i was really really upset about it for reasons i dont fully understand. i think its mostly to do with the fact that ive been spending 5 days a week with my boyfriend for so long and ive grown really attached to that routine, and the thought of it changing made me really fragile, i felt like i was going to cry all day. and i visited my boyfriend in the evening just to cuddle for a bit because he lives really close but then i kept getting weepy and still not understanding why. and i just wanted to write this down so i can always remember that he was so incredibly sweet and kind and helpful and it made my heart melt. "you have your own space now but you live wherever i live too", "if you can't sleep ever you can always come here no matter what", and he kept suggesting all sorts of decorations and things i can do now i have a place that's my own again to cheer me up and i just T_T!!!!!! he is so sweet he is so so so sweet he makes my life i love him so hard and so much it makes me tear up again whenever i think about it

[themultifandomgal]

From 2010- FOUR Hangout

Part 45

2014

“Hello everyone we’re One Direction and this is our first Google livestream” Niall starts after we have the thumbs up to say we are now live. I sit with my legs crossed between Louis and Liam

“We wanted to do a live stream so we could answer your questions about the new album. To help us with our questions we have very good friend of our, this is Ben everyone” I introduce our friend who is sat on a single comfy chair while me and the boys are sitting on a long red sofa

“We’ve got loads of questions from the fans and we only have half an hour so let’s just get into them. So it’s been four years now that you’ve been in the band which is why I’m guessing the albums called four right?”

“Yeah and it’s also our fourth album” I reply

“So you guys are actually on the XFactor tonight. Do you get nervous when you go back there because that’s where it all started”

“It’s very like, you feel nostalgic walkin round the halls and stuff. I think we all felt under so much pressure when we were there it’s now fun because we can enjoy the environment more” Harry explains

“Do you miss the simplicity of the old days YN. Is there anything you sort of miss?” Ben asks me. The boys all turn to face me as I think

“There’s definitely aspects that I miss, like being able to go to Waitrose with greasy hair and no makeup just to pick up some food, without having to worry about photos being posted or comments made. I think that’s been the hardest part for me, just being able to I guess live my life without any cares. Don’t get me wrong I am so grateful for all of this and I love meeting fans, and I know that without this opportunity I wouldn’t have met the people I have, but yeah I think that’s what I miss the most, just not worrying so much. I think it’s calmed down now though. Like where my dad lives no one really takes any notice of me when I go around the town”

“Yeah and at the beginning it was very hectic, but things have more structure now so it’s not as chaotic I don’t think” Louis continues

“Do you find though you’re able to enjoy it more now though?” Ben asks looking at Zayn

“Yeah definitely. We get time now to go and sight see which is nice”

“Do you ever watch clips of you back in the day and look at pictures and see the change? Niall?”

“Weirdly enough the other day I was watching our old video diaries and the stuff we did on the xtra factor and me and YN were texting each other talking about how young we were, we still are but especially her and Harry are the youngest, so looking back now it’s like woah we were babies”

“Some of the outfits I wore were hideous” I laugh thinking back to our days on the xfactor “so many clashed with my hair. Why did I think bright red hair was cute?”

“I know a lot of your fans miss it”

“I don’t. The amount of times when we were on tour and the bed sheets looked like a murder scene because he went to sleep with wet hair” Liam laughs along with me

“I ruined a lot of bed sheets, towels, anything white became pink. It was a disaster”

“I liked your red hair” Harry shrugs “made you look like Ariel”

“I think the problem was you never had time to go to the hairdresser so you dyed it yourself with a box colour” Zayn says looking at me

“Yeah that’s why I’ve gone back to brown because it’s just easier”

“So you won’t be dying it again any time soon?”

“Nope” I shake my head at that question

“Did people tell you at the time what to wear and what you had to do and say or were you in control of your own decisions?”

“A little bit. I know sometimes someone would show YN a dress or whatever and she’d be adamant that she wouldn’t wear it”

“Yeah it was a bit of both really” Louis continues on from what Liam was saying

“If you could meet yourself 4 years ago is there any advice you’d give to your younger self?” Ben asks “Louis?”

“Just have a second glance in the mirror and say are you sure you want to wear this?”

“Is that really what you’d say?”

“No ok that’s just me trying to crack a joke”

“Trying being the word”

“Oi” Louis nudges me on the knee with his hand

“I think on a serious note I would have said have fun and enjoy yourself” Zayn says I nod my head agreeing with him

“We have spoken in the past and there's a lot of it in the movie about how I guess for you there was an explosion on the internet really. it was a massive part of you career, but YN you had to deal with a lot of negativity. Is it better now and how do or did you deal with that?”

“It wasn't great obviously and I did struggle with it, but I went to therapy, still do, and I just don't check comments on social media. I just try to remember that the only reason people are saying things like that is because they have something to hide behind. They are bored. Our real fans are incredible though and most of the time if there's one negative comment there will be l0 positive”

“Is there ever a time where you it's gone to far?” Ben asks

“Definitely. Theres been comments telling YN to hurt herself or worse. I think some people forget that we are actual people and we all have feelings. We’re all so young and we can all be a little self conscious at lines so we just make sure we’re all ok and check in with each other” Liam tells Ben

“ Lets talk about the album. What were the songs that your most proud of? Zany let’s start with you, what is your favourite song on the album?”

“Erm I really like Where Do Broken Hearts Go” all of the boys seem to agree

“ I think Liams going to agree with me, but we fell in love with fire proof” Louis says

“YN?”

“ I love Fools Gold and Stockholm Syndrome. I'm actually so excited to sing them on tour”

“ Ok this is a recurring question. What is Stockholm syndrome about and what does it mean?”

“YN since it’s on of your favourites do you want to explain?” Louis looks at me with a smile

“Well erm ok it’s… harry you explain”

“It’s kinda along the lines of what Stockholm Syndrome is so”

“What is it?” Ben asks

“YN?” Harry looks at me but I shake my head “well it’s when you develop a relationship or feelings towards your kidnapper”

“And how much experience do you have with being kidnapped”

“Well I mean a couple times to be honest” harry jokes with a straight face which makes me laugh

“Is there any tracks from your other albums that you don’t like now?”

“I think there’s songs maybe we individually don’t resonate with anymore, or we don’t particularly like to sing anymore, but to say we dislike any of our songs would be a stretch. We all have our own tastes and styles ya know so a song I love one of these boys may not enjoy as much” I say looking at Ben “I think it’s important to be proud of all of the songs. I’ll always look back at the songs with fondness. Certain ones I can pin point locations and memories so yeah I don’t think I could dislike any of them”

We wrap up the interview having been talking for like 40 minutes about our music.

[randomravager]

5 7 14 15 21 32 sorry ik that’s a lot you don’t have to answer all of them if you don’t want to

NO PLEASE SEND ME ALL THE ASKS!

5: Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?

sometimes when I’m either really nostalgic, touch-starved, or just depressed/anxious. i sleep with my stuffed moose Alfie who I’ll add a pic of later. he’s comfy, but it makes me feel bad when they end up on the floor in the middle of the night.

7: What’s your ideal number of blankets to sleep with?

I have a winter blanket and a lighter summer blanket, so I only sleep with one blanket at any given time. sometimes I put pillows on my back for extra pressure though

14: Favourite color?

too many pretty colors, but I’ll go with green for now. in terms of shades, think of a massive meadow with an array of pretty flowers, right as the sun sets. basically nature-y colors? I’ll find samples later and add them here.

15: Favourite season?

AUTUMN! summer is too hot, winter is too cold, spring has too many allergies/school stress. in autumn, the weather is absolutely perfect and the fashion is top tier (I can wear a simple tank top or a sweater, so much range!) and it’s the beginning of school so semi-minimal stress and hot drinks and PRETTY LEAVES AND APPLE PICKING AND HALLOWEEN!!

21: How was your day today?

its about to get much better! I’m going to this library event called Anti-Prom and I’m dressed up and I’m so excited! I’ll ALSO add pics here later, but otherwise I stayed home and watched the U.S. Olympic swim trials and read my book. and I also watched half of a WWI movie for extra credit :)

32: If you could go anywhere right now, where would you go?

beach. somewhere along the water, preferably with you there <3

[nanshii-doruu]

Top Nancy Drew cosy moments (part one, probably)

(i’m using the British spelling of cosy and you will simply have to make your peace with that)

So! Recently released from tumblr jail I was looking over my posts and I had a couple of Top Creepiest Moments. Maybe one day I’ll do a part 3, I probably could! But, part of the appeal of ND for me is how comfy the games feel, too. Cosiness here refers to the peace/comfort you find in certain scenes in the games - and for me, cosiness has a lil bit of excitement in it, too. This is not presented in any sort of chronological or numerical order, just thoughts as they occur. For me this is often related to sleep and hidden places, but I’d love to hear your favourite ND cosy spots, or if you disagree with any of these!

DED - The dorm and rec room

Despite moments of terrible fear (and that creepy banging bit in the middle of the night) I actually really like the lab in this game. The rec room and the bunkbed room nostalgically feel a little like Guide Camp for me (I mean, winter Guide Camp, when we’d stay in an indoor building with bunks and sofas and Activities).

WAC - More or less the whole building, I guess

Again, we have moments of peril in this building, but I kind of love the idea of bed/study/food all being in one place (I miss dorm living sometimes...) The mild peril of having to be in bed at a certain time is fun, as is having a little tuck shop*. I also love the library so close to the bedroom - heaven!

*your Britishism of the day - "tuck shop” refers to a little shop in some kind of institution (private school, hospital, Guide camp etc) that sells cheap snacks/sweets. I’m familiar with it through Guides, I did not go to private school, do not mistake me for some private school **** lmao. Also I’m Scottish not British, this footnote is already too long

CAR - the hotel

This is one of the least interesting locations in the game but: call me boring, but I fuckin’ love a good hotel where you feel SAFE and RESTED (as long as you remember to turn your goddamn iron off). I love this room, I love ordering room service, I love those cheeseburgers and milk.

CRY - the hotel you never see

This one is kind of cheating because I’m talking about something you never see properly. Nancy is stuck in a house (it’s not really a mansion?), but Bess is back in the hotel. I’ve never been to New Orleans (hopefully soon!) but the idea of a French Quarter hotel with a balcony?? where you can go shopping??? and have a bubble bath??? and it’s raining the whole time ASMR style and also you can nip over the road and get some jambalaya/visit a curiosity shop/crash a Krewe meeting? I LOVE it. I bet this hotel had kickass pillows and a whirlpool tub.

DDI - the Hot Kettle Cafe

ooooooh this is the best. Nancy’s accommodation here sucks (head to head with Katie? COME ON) but this game is cosy and nice overall. The music is a big part of this, and I think the cosiness is at its best in the Hot Kettle Cafe. I want to rock up here, get a blueberry muffin and some clam chowder, and relax in a corner booth for a full afternoon.

SAW - Yumi’s apartment

I did list this in my scary list, and the game as a whole is terrifying. BUT HEAR ME OUT - I love Yumi saying that she loves her first taste of independence, I love the compact size of the apartment, I love us crashing in, I love the little kitchen area, and I love Yumi’s bed and her wardrobe. I wish nothing creepy happened cos this was nice!

TRT - most of the castle

My fellow gamers who love snow will immediately guess this. There’s just something magical about being snowed in. Plus a nice room, a roraring fire downstairs, and an infinite supply of chicken drumsticks? Sounds GREAT

[vegalocity]

Kiss 9- first kiss for Amnesia Spicynoodles? (Whether as Red Boy and Xiaotian or Red Son and MK, your choice).

Affection meme

9. first kiss

Goddamn i gotta get back on that AU

That's actually a very clever shorthand for the difference between 'the Son of the Monkey King' and 'The Monkie Kid' Anon hope you don't mind me using it!

Also since this is technically the first real THING i'm writing for this Au it got a lil crazy

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It was.... weird... falling into this rhythm with Red Son.

Even he'd seemed surprised at how quickly he'd agreed to join their team while they were hunting down the weapon that could finally end the Lady Bone Demon. Sure he'd reasoned that he was doing it for the sake of his father, that their family had been taken advantage of by that demon, and this was little more than 'enemy of my enemy' but barely time at all had passed before he may as well have joined simply because he wanted to.

There weren't a lot of bunks on Sandy's Hovership, and at the start of all of this, everyone was so on edge (and in Monkey King's case injured) that it just made more sense to sleep whenever it struck rather than sort out bedroom options and who bunked with whom.

Which had lead to some interesting things so far, such as Monkey King tending to curl up against Tang as he was reading or something and taking a nap right there and how Tang seemed like... wayyy too comfortable with it despite how he'd first reacted to seeing him on New Years.

Pigsy was ALWAYS crabby in the mornings, but he was getting exponentially more frustrated after waking up for something or another he never seemed to be able to relay when he woke (probably some frustrating reoccurring dream that keeps blotting out when he wakes up, MK didn't remember his dreams much either so he could relate)

And about thee days in of Red Son working with them, he'd knocked out during some down time, and while he was sitting near him. The ship rumbled, Red Son hadn't woken, but he slid to the side until he was leaned against MK's shoulder. and... It was comfy. Red Son was warm, and soft.

And before he'd known it he was being startled awake by Xiaojiao making delighted cooing noises and the flash of her camera. And when he jostled Red Son woke up as well. He'd met his gaze for a second and his artist brain noted that his eyes were a rather lovely shade of amber, not even fiery orange or honey brown, but pure, precious stone amber.

and for a moment it had felt... nostalgic... in a way he couldn't place. and the puzzled look on Red Son's face mirrored his confusion at the sudden thought, before the demon slammed up the walls again and pushed MK away, face burning bright red.

But from there it had spiraled.

It was just so... easy? he supposed would be the word. It was almost startling how easy it was to fall into this rhythm with Red Son. Not a few months ago he was a nominal enemy, yet here they were finding themselves sitting next to eachother more often than not, sometimes close enough for shoulders to brush, their unconscious bodies rolling over at once to tangle together like it was the most natural thing in the world.

At one point they were facing a demon that had cast one of those 'greatest fear' spells over the lot of them, and before it had hit he'd felt Red Son slip his hand into his own with a small startled gasp. And before the world went black and he was covered by spiders and the looming specter of his own failures he'd squeezed back.

That had actually happened just hours ago, and MK's hand was still tingly. Everyone was a little shaken up from that one. (Monkey King had holed himself away in one of the few bedrooms there were and he sounded physically pained when MK had tried to check in on him and he'd answered that he'd rather be alone. he was pretty sure Tang was allowed in, and he tried not to take that personally. It was probably a whole 'Mentor doesn't want his student to see him freaked out' thing. If he didn't stop taking everything so damn personally he'd be a sucker for the next fear spell or whatever.) And unlike the others, Red Son didn't have any loved ones on this ship to help reassure him.

So... if their... something or another... that had been developing was gonna mean anything, that probably meant it should fall on him.

Red Son was where he'd expected him to be, half buried in engine guts in Sandy's work area, his hands were shaking and there was a far off look in his eye.

MK had to physically lift him and drag him away, and it was a lot harder without the Mystic Monkie Strength, but he managed.

in fact he'd gotten all the way to the kitchen area and Red Son had stopped struggling in his arms screeching to be let go (yet never trying to flare his fire and forcing MK to drop him) before his stamina gave out and he had to deposit Red Son in one of the chairs.

"Noodle boy i swear this truce will end in an INSTANT if you do not explain yourself-"

"You're freaking out."

"YES I AM! You would be too if your current ally just lifted you up from what you were doing and carried you to the deserted part of the ship because even the Pig is too on edge to be in here!"

"I mean from this afternoon. Red son, you've been pale as a sheet since we got out of there and your hands are STILL shaking." He watched as he hurriedly hid them in his pockets. "You need to talk to someone. And it may as well be me."

"I- I don't need to talk about ANYTHING! Presumptuous Noodle Boy... Bold of you to assume I'd just pour my heart out at some perceived internal detriment which you have no proof even exists!" The bluster and casual insults were considerably less convincing than they were when they were enemies...

...maybe he was just starting to see through them better.

Red Son pulled his hands back onto the table, as a sort of subtle show of how fine he totally was, and clenched his fists to keep them from continuing to shake.

"Red..." The nickname felt... natural. He couldn't quite explain why, but he supposed they'd been Something-or-Another-ing long enough to make it reasonable. Red Son's glare abated and was replaced quickly with a shocked expression. But he didn't shout to not be called something so short, so MK considered that a signal to continue. So he continued with what felt natural and placed a hand over his clenched fist.

The defensive anger was all but gone. And that puzzled, yet slightly awed look he kept sharing with Red Son during moments like these replaced it and those amber eyes darted down to their linked hands, as if he didn't quite know what to do next.

Eventually Red Son came to a decision, and MK let him fiddle around with his grip until their hands were linked properly. And it felt... it was that weird sense of nostalgia again. And as everything else neither of them could quite explain it felt right. familiar. Natural.

"It's not really worth talking about." Red Son responded after the moment passed. yet he didn't pull his hand away. "I know better than to believe what it had showed me."

"Red-"

"I mean, I SHOULD know better, right?" He looked away from MK then, but squeezed his hand a little tighter. "I mean- they're my parents. and they agreed me coming along with you all to take down the Lady Bone Demon was the best course of action. I know they wouldn't disown me because they believed I was becoming more aligned with you all than with the family. That just because we're friends doesn't mean I'm somehow betraying them!" Red Son was working through it in his head, and he didn't seem to really realize that he'd admitted to seeing MK as a friend, so he just squeezed his hand a little tighter and filed that away to celebrate later.

"It's irrational, and it's ridiculous that I actually feared the idea."

"It's not ridiculous, If you think it's irrational then it probably is, but it's not ridiculous. " Red Son looked back at him then and raised a brow. "I mean, who isn't afraid that they're letting their parents down in some way?" He remembered how nervous Xiaojiao was about the idea of disappointing her family, and he was always worried that he'd disappointed his fath-....

What was he thinking about again?.... right, Xiaojiao and her parents.

Red Son took his attention again and the confusion zipped right out of his mind. he gently detangled his hand from MK's and was moving to stand.

"I suppose you're right. And... In that regard I should probably thank you for allowing me the chance to properly process."

"Anytime, Red."

He stood as well, with nowhere else to go, he supposed he'd probably just go out onto the deck and do a little one-man training, heavens knew he needed it.

Red Son put a hand on his shoulder before either of them could pull away and when he turned back to face the demon-

Red Son was looking at him with intent. determination. And it was only then that MK realized that maybe holding someone's hand while they talked about some Real Shit with you, constantly sitting next to each other so as to be closer, falling asleep on each other, and sometimes when you wake up you glance at their mouth wondering how easy it would be to just...

Maybe that wasn't just all friendship overtures.

And maybe they'd had a name for their little something-or-another already.

Neither of them were ever very good at this whole 'self control' thing anyway.

Red Son was just as warm as he'd anticipated. His calloused fingers hooking under his chin as if to keep MK in place. And it was... chaste. Nothing like the fierce passionate devouring of another's mouth that he'd anticipated a demon to go for (that he'd daydreamed about) Almost... child-like. As if Red Son hadn't kissed anyone since before he hit Demon Puberty and didn't know how to do it right. And the action alone made MK feel very much like a child as well. Which was ridiculous he was a grownass man and Red Son was a fully matured demon, and the shortest most chaste little peck made him feel like a squeaky voiced kid.

When they parted he peeked his eyes open just a bit, and it seemed like Red Son had realized the same thing, the two of them shared a soft chuckle.

But then Red Son started to pull away, and that wouldn't do. MK wrapped his arms around the demon's shoulders and properly kissed him this time.

And it didn't feel quite as natural, but it did feel right.

So that was what mattered.

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[mokutone]

Your post about witch hat atelier is what finally decided me to read it and I can't thank you enough! I've only read one chapter yet but the art is so lovely, it's almost reminding me a bit of Chris Riddell's haha so it's very comfy and nostalgic

ah, i’m so glad!!! i think i can see what u mean abt chris riddell, his art is also very confident and line-heavy for textures and form building...the art is really incredibly lovely, i cannot at all believe that kamome shirahama makes it so fast...there’s like two volumes a year! to create something at that level of detail and to make so much of it so fast, (AND AS FAR AS I CAN TELL SHE WORKS TRADITIONALLY TOO...I HAVE BIG ADMIRATION!!!)

like it’s not even just the characters who have beautiful detailed designs, but the objects and scenery they interact with...i hope she is having fun at least! how intense...here im gonna share some of my favorite bits in the manga w/o context, all are from very early on in the manga, and don't really contain anything more plot relevant than what i've already chattered about on my blog

(reminder for folks who havent read manga in a while: read from right to left!)

brief pause just to. admire this one especially ^^^ its REALLY difficult to get somebody to read a page going UPWARDS when our gaze wants to go down, so that shirahama-sensei is able to draw the eye upwards so fluidly toward that little figure [upward + leftward direction of clothes and arm as well as the border in rightmost panel leads to the upward and leftward gaze of the character, which we instinctively follow to the tiny figure floating in the high left corner] is REALLY impressive...its not a move that any comics teacher would recommend but she pulls it off incredibly well for being, essentially, Comics Rulebreaking!!!

her artwork is SO GOOD...sometimes she posts inking timelapses on her insta or twitter. wonderful...absolutely obsessed w/ her artwork it inspires me to be more careful and intentional with my own

[kuroosweakness]

i see that you’re missing kuroo (me too :,)) so here i am w some soft moments w kuroo <3

mornings w him are so relaxing and joyful !! he makes you coffee in the morning and you two sit on the couch together. he sits up, and you sit w your back against the arm of the couch so your legs sit across his lap. he runs his hands on your legs and tells you about his nonsensical dreams :,) sometimes when he’s drinking his coffee, he thinks of something really funny and starts laughing while taking a sip. truly chaotic.

if you’re having a bad day, not feeling like yourself, he’ll do anything and everything to make you smile. if you want to talk, he’ll nod along and smile reassuringly. he’ll make you your comfort food! or he’ll hold you and make your stuffed animals “talk” to you about what’s on your mind. he’ll never ever let you go to bed feeling sad !! he doesn’t want you to have bad dreams :( (maybe he used to have a lot of bad dreams when he was younger and doesn’t want that to happen to you)

omg car drives w him would be SO FUN. you two sing at the top of your lungs and he looks over at you from time to time w the biggest smile on his face. he loves seeing how comfortable you are w him. pls his singing voice probably isn’t the best but he gets so giddy when a good song comes on and he can’t help himself from tapping his fingers on the wheels and slightly dancing in the car seat :,)

now i’m thinking about his music taste :O i feel like he’d really like rnb and old pop music :,) or maybe rap? anything energetic and fun! he definitely had a rock phase in high school (i did shhh)

if you tell him about something embarrassing that happened to you that day, he’d probably laugh and make fun of you. THEN, he’d comfort you.

“it’s not a big deal. i’m sure no one remembers it. i will, though. thanks for the story”

when he’s off from work, he doesn’t do his hair all nice so it’s just fluffy and all over the place. sometimes you run your hands through it or fluff it up even more. it’s probably so soft and voluminous >:( i feel like he also wears glasses!! he’s a tall man w fluffy hair and glasses walking around in an oversized hoodie. SO CUTE AHH

when he’s feeling down or drained, he makes his comfort food - a meal his grandma used to make when he was younger. he immediately melts when you make it for him because you add extra love in it <33 he looks so cute w his cheeks full of food

if you two have been busy bc of school or work, he’d try to plan a small date one night so you can have fun together!! 100% would wanna take you to the arcade bc he’s competitive and knows he’ll win some of the games, like the punching bag game or the driving games. he’d collect enough tickets to buy you the biggest plushie tho :,) but he’d carry it everywhere bc he’s proud of it LMAO (he’d make all the little kids jealous omg get this man out of the arcade)

i miss kuroo too ahh i hope this made you feel a lil warm and cozy <3 i’ve been thinking about him so much hehe — 🧸 anon

awww you always have the best of the best kuroo headcanons :'((( i somehow always find myself rereading them especially when i'm feeling down :'

let's miss and indulge in soft kuroo content together >:))

:))) mornings with him hehehehhe (i can imagine him being mesmerized if/when you shave your legs and put lotion on ahhaaha) i'd listen to his nonsensical dreams any day~ lmaoo any time of day would be chaotic with him!

aw i really needed to hear that :(( i like to imagine that he has respect toward your stuffed animals for having been there during the times he wasn't :'

jdflsjdf making stuffed animals "talk" aaah that'd bring an unimaginable sense of comfort to me. sometimes, talking to people feels painfully uncomfortable no matter who they are :')

imagine him talking in a squeaky noise as your stuffed animal ahahaha. OR imagine him pretending to be someone else and saying something like, "good evening everyone. today we have y/n here with some questions. as one can tell, y/n is not feeling their best but still looking better than ... uh- better than my best. first off, can i ask how you're feeling?"

:((( your soft kuroo hcs are giving me life jsldfkj he's a sweetheart and there's no doubt about it. him not wanting you to have bad dreams :'(

YESS car rides with kuroo would be THE BEST !! so fun, so comfy, so nostalgic, everything but bad vibes :)))

i would love to sing in the car and shower with kuroo :'

AHAHHA i have a headcanon that kuroo can't sing/dance for the life of him >:))) seeing him put in his best effort is so cute though <3

oooh his music taste 👀hmm...i feel like he'd listen to classical music when studying and ramble about the 'effectiveness'

YES!! rnb and old pop music!! aaaha i was thinking the same! (great minds think alike <33) LMAO YES definitely the rock phase during high school!!

PLS that's basically canon aahahh he'll be rolling in laughter. you'd have to give him a minute to collect his breath, another minute to cool down, and finally, he'll comfort you :'))

kuroo fluffy hair :(((((((( pls let me brush his hair pls none of my christmas wishes have come true so pls let this one be the exception

this is all too cute i need to stop blushing over a fictional man

AWWW not the best at cooking, but who's gonna stop me from making his comfort food??? >:)))) exactly~

him: (o´ω`o)

dates <3 ahaha YES his competitiveness doesn't stop just because you're his s/o!! AWW the biggest plushie :' (maybe we can convince him to keep it for a while before he gives it to us, so when we get it, it smells like him :))

LMAO PLS HE WOULD he'll make all those provoking comments too- give the poor kids a break </3

missing kuroo hours seems to have extended to eternity :' your headcanons aLWAYS makes me feel warm and cozy and giddy inside <33 thank you sm for sending them in to me! they'll be kept in a secret cabinet in my brain~ i hope you've had/having a lovely day because you deserve nothing less! <3

[i-think-i-can-speak-here]

The Story of Dorothea/’Tis the Damn Season

My friend and I imagined out the entire story and it turned out amazing (and very gay of course) so I immediately wanted to see it as a movie. Now I’m unreasonably attached to these characters and their story and I figured I’d share it here. We also added two different Evermore songs to their story so I’ll make different posts about those stories if you want, they have a lot of angst, but this one has a happy ending dw lol. I’m going to call the singer of ‘tis the damn season Melody throughout this.

This is how I imagine the characters:

Dorothea - Very femme; ambitious; popular at high school; didn’t like being stuck in her small town; moved to LA to become a model

Melody - Not femme but not exactly butch either; like she wears flannel, wouldn’t wear heels to save her life, but also likes to wear lipstick sometimes; plays guitar, drives a truck (very country); happy with her life in Tupelo

And here’s the story!

Melody and Dorothea were high school sweethearts, the kind that so obviously belong together. They met under the bleachers in their freshman year, there was immediate chemistry and they got together soon after that. Melody was the kind to write her cheesy songs and it was all really cute, they were in love. 

Dorothea’s mom really wanted her to go to Prom and get all dressed up (she was supportive of her modelling dreams because she was the kind of parent who wants to live vicariously through their kids). She also didn’t approve of her dating Melody. She acted like she was ok with Dorothea being bi but she clearly wasn’t ok with her dating a woman. Dorothea decided she wasn’t going to go to Prom because she wanted to piss off her mom and Melody showed up at her place in a hoodie and they snuck out and had the time of their lives just wandering around town with each other in comfy clothes.

But Dorothea hated living in Tupelo and she left town right after high school, breaking it off with Melody. Melody got it though, she knew how much Dorothea hated it, she anticipated her leaving. But they were both heartbroken anyways.

Dorothea couldn’t make any real friends or connections in LA, but her modelling career did take off. She dated a bit but never got into anything serious. She ended up thinking about Melody a lot and the connection they shared. Melody watched her career grow and was proud of her but also really missed her. She did get into a serious relationship while Dorothea was away. They broke up after a year and a half and while she was getting over her ex she thought about Dorothea a lot and she wrote down the song ‘Dorothea’. She wasn’t going to play it for her though, it was just for her.

Then Dorothea came back to Tupelo a couple of years later for the holidays because her parents were very insistent. She wasn’t a fan of the holidays but she did get quite nostalgic about her hometown once she was there. She passed by Melody one day and Melody pretended she didn’t see her. 

They met again the next day at the house of a common friend from school and they ended up talking to each other there. There was clearly something that was still there between them and they both gave in and were together for the weekend before Dorothea left for LA again. She knew she was only breaking her own heart, Melody knew what she was getting into, it was just a weekend together. Still, she hated that Dorothea had to leave again. She texted her a few days later and that’s when they started talking to each other regularly again. 

A few months later Melody had to go to LA for a week for work and they met up and things went right back to how they were that weekend. When she got back to Tupelo, they finally talked about their feelings and while they knew that neither of them could leave their cities, they still wanted to be together. Dorothea said she would come around every year for the holidays and Melody said she’d try to come to LA for work more often. That’s how their relationship went for a couple of years.

They didn’t think about how it would work long term though, so they did get into some conflict after a couple of years and went on and off for a while, but they always came out of it together. Their love was the “they belong together, if soulmates exist then that’s what they are” kind of love. 

They didn’t go public with their relationship though because coming out could impact Dorothea’s career. She was really successful as a model and retired by the time she was 35. She moved back to Tupelo since she had been done with LA for a long time now and of course also because now she could finally be with Melody properly. 

Melody was obviously ecstatic about it and they actually ended up moving in together to make up for lost time. The press was still interested in Dorothea’s life because she was still kind of a celebrity. They stopped hiding their relationship. Now the media wanted to do interviews with Dorothea about living as a queer person, coming out and being part of the modelling industry. After living together for a couple of years, Dorothea proposed to Melody and they had a small and intimate wedding.

One day they were reminiscing about the past and Melody let it slip that she wrote a song kind of pining over her. Dorothea annoyed her into agreeing to sing it for her. Melody brought out her guitar from the attic and started playing. She thought that it was going to be some sort of slow, sad song so she was surprised to hear those happy and so very country chords. Melody has this playful smile on her face for most of the song and meets her eyes and smirks during the “ooh you’re a queen selling makeup and magazines, from you I’d buy anything” part. Dorothea has a teary eyed smile on her face throughout the song. Once the song ends, they lean in for a sweet kiss aaaaaand end of movie. 

I don’t like writing actual prose so I just wrote down the basic story so you can imagine it playing out like you want to. Hope you liked it and if you read the whole thing I love you! 😅❤️

[xeo-kunsatan]

MonsterOlympics One Shot +13 (Part 1)

Monster Maze HighXMonster High

This One shot is divided in parts because is long as hell XD, as well this contains many racy jokes, black humor and swearing, if youre sensitive with this humor i recommend you to not read this shit, as well this One shot is just for fun

The Spring/Summer season, A Flowering but sunny season for Romance, vacation And Mating.

But also a Season for the sports specially in the Monster Maze High, where the Students and the Staff where preparing everything for the most importan Event for them.

The Monster Olympics an important event where the Students shows their skills in many sporty activities in competition against any School for monsters.

Everyone especially Betrayus was excited for the event.

Betrayus: Alright Class, that's all for today's class but first I have an announcement for all of you!.

Clyde: Will you wanna add an Ice Cream Machine in the Cafeteria!?

Inky: Clyde we already have one...

Clyde: Oh.. Hehe yeah I forgot that part.

Pacster: Awww I don't minded to have another one...

Skeebo: Chill out Lemon lizard, is that really the only thing you use your mouth?

Spiral: Hey!! Don't insult my Bro like that!!

Bradley: Hey! Don't yell at my boyfriend!!

Pacster: and you don't yell at my Friend!!

Victor: And you don't yell to my Ex!!

Pacster: Try me Bitch!!

Aurora: Oh no..

Ryan: *face palm* Ugh...

They were about to fight as many times in other classes but they where stopped by Mr Betrayus.

Betrayus:*Demonic Voice* SILENCE!!

The students where now quiet in their seats

Betrayus: Uhum as I was saying I have good news for you.

Pinky: Will you add Hot springs rooms for all the students and the Staff?

Cylindria: Pinky.. this is the first time I'm Agree with you.

Inky: Yeah! Sounds like a good idea.

Betrayus: *Sniff Sniff* We are already working on it, Pinky you have an A by thinking in the staff :,D

Pinky: Really!? Thank you Teacher~

Skeebo: Tsk.. smug..

Bradley: C'mon Foxy it's a Great idea~

Ryan: Oh Man I can't wait for it..

Betrayus: Easy Dear Students, as you already know... The Monster Olympics is coming here, so for it I sent to make new uniforms for you and why not the staff too.

Amber: We will have new Sport uniforms!!?? O.M.G Now I don't know what is better if the Hot Springs or the uniforms!.

Farid: Duh Obviously Both news are wholesome... I hope the uniform is Blue, that color makes my beauty shine~

Farren: dude, the most important thing is that the uniform is comfy enough for us.

Spiral: You understand me Bro

Farley: *lifts his hand up* Hey Mr D-.. Betrayus.. with who we will compete this year?...

Blinky: Tell me we will not compete against the Belfry Prep...

Inky: Yeah.. I know we beat them..

Bradley: but they where such a bastards with us..

Skeebo: Ugh that vampires.. if I see any vampire from that school I have no doubts in Break his teeth by what they do to you that year Bunny..

Betrayus: Good Boy Skeebo~ but Don't worry Guys we will not Compete against them again...

Aurora: Phew what a Relief..

But this year they would fight against a School similar to them.

Betrayus: We will compete against Monster High!

Farley: Monster High?..

Pacster: You mean that school where all the cool things happens there?

Betrayus: What do you mean?

Spiral: Yeah, we are all follow a monster blog where many news are released, and all the cool things happens in that school and of course it's released in the page..

Amber: Since founding the Vampire Queen and give her company in her movie release in Horrywood, face the same Van Hellsing, Going to Boo York, etc.. all the things happens in this school are just fights, parties, and regular School dramas.

Mandy: *sighs* yes, the only interesting thing happened in this School is Just the Attack of Apex Crowd next to his pet Hans.

Cylindria: It's not the School's fault, we don't look for an adventure because we don't want it... I most suggest more school trips.

Betrayus: Conceded And you have an A by understanding as always Cily.

Bradley: And Dad? How would be the things about the event?

Betrayus: Good Question son, i asked for the uniforms, they will be here this Friday, about where we will do the event, me and my brother already talked with the Headless Master Bloodgood and we are agree in doing the event here in this same campus, before the event some students from Monster High will come to know you and take along.

The Ring bells, it was time for lunch and the students where free to leave.

Betrayus: Well students that's all for today's class don't forget to do your homework *leaves*

Everyone have leave except for the Fluffy Gang, Farid and Farren noticed that Farley was completely in shock while his tail was wagging.

Farid: C'mon Farley it's Time for lunch and time to take care of Claw.

Farren: Hey, what's wrong man?

Farley: We will compete against Monster High.. you know what that means?

Farren: Being hitted as we were hitted by Skylanders academy?

Farley: No!.. I-its not that..

Farley's expression was a mix between nostalgic and Excited

Farren: Oh shit.. now i know what that means.. That Cat..

Farley: I will see her again!! After long time without seeing us, i will finally see her again!! *Wagging tail*

Farid: Did you 2 have never being in contact?

Farley: Uhm yes, we have calls sometimes but seeing eachother, not really.. when i had the opportunity something happens as what happened with Claw and his mother if you remember... I was expecting of seeing her.. but don't misunderstand me I love the baby Claw.. but I still miss my old friend.

Farid: Now you mention that.. I wonder if she and her pals have adopted a baby like us, except it's a doggy.

Farren; Don't say stupid things..

Farley: Well let's go to lunch, I can't wait to see her.. *leaves*

Farren: or did he never asked her to take a walk, while we take care of Claw?

Farid: a Guy asking a girl to meet up and take a walk, you don't think it sounds like a date?

Farren: Well that's a good point.. but it's still so dumb of him to wait for meet up with her.

Farid: Hmm Dog's stuff.

The Fluffy Gang finally left the classroom without knowing that someone have recorded them.

A Ghost Girl left the Monster Maze High flying back to her original School.

The Day ended and it was time for the students and the Staff to rest.

Room 01

Stratos was getting ready to sleep when his younger brother entered into his Room with a cup of Tea.

Betrayus: Hey Dear Brother, *gives him the cup*

Stratos: Thank you Betrayus, *drinks it*

Betrayus: And tell me dear brother, what do you think of this?

Stratos: It's the First time we are doing this event in this campus, how do you think I am!?.

Betrayus: Don't worry, we will work hard to make the school look their best.

Stratos: *Sighs* at least I can count with you in this moments.

Betrayus: Just rest easy Stratos, everything would be okay.

Stratos: I Hope so.. *Finishes his tea*

Stratos fell asleep quickly throwing the cup in the floor.

Betrayus taked Stratos to his bed and left his room.

Betrayus: Ohh Man, the chloroform worked hard... The good thing is that i never mentioned him that Elli and Mitzy would come here to see the event..

2 days later

The Day of the visit of the Monster High have finally came, the Maze High students where waiting for their visit.

When they arrived, they started to take along

Name: Frankie Stein

Daughter of Frankenstein

Age: 16 (Days of life)

Specie: Living corpse (Frankenstein)

Frankie: *waved to the students* It's so nice to being here, I'm so glad that another school is having this kind of inclusion.

Spiral: Wow, you are like me

Frankie: You're like me too! By the way I'm Frankie Stein

Spiral: Spiral Stein, well the Stein part is just a nickname, my actual nickname is Hunterson

Frankie: Heheh, for one moment I thought that you were my cousin, by the way, Who builded you?

Spiral: A Couple of Scientist Elfs, my adoptive parents.

Frankie: Wow really? My grandfather builded me, Victor Frankenstein.

Spiral: Victor Frankenstein!!?? The original!? That's so cool!

Name: Clawdeen Wolf

Daughter of the Werewolf

Age: 16

Species: Werewolf

Clawdeen: do you really don't have Werewolves here?

Victor: Nope, mostly Weredogs and a Werefox, the only werewolf we have is the School guard Mr Derek the scary wolf standing behind us.

Name: Howleen Wolf

Daughter of the Werewolf

Age: 15

Species: Werewolf

Howleen: T-t-that man is really scary.

Victor: don't worry he is a nice guy, hehe

Amber:*goes to a Pink vampire girl* Uhhh~ are you the famous vegetarian vampire?

Draculaura: Uhm.. yes?

Amber: Eww did you bring your mutt with you?

Clawd: Grrrghh...

Amber: Ugh you give me-

Betrayus: *pushes Amber away* Draculaura!! You're here!

Name: Draculaura

Daughter of Dracula

Age: 1,600

Species: Vampire

Draculaura: Godfather Betrayus!? *Jumps to hug Betrayus* It's nice to see you again!

Betrayus: it's a pleasure too, sorry for not going to your 1,600 years party.

Draculaura: It's okay, i really loved the gifts you seended me

Name: Clawd Wolf

Son of the Werewolf

Age: 18

Species: Werewolf

Clawd: Godfather Betrayus?

Draculaura: Yeah, He is my dark baptism godfather.

Betrayus: Heya, you most be my Strawberry's Boyfriend, good work in making her happy.

Clawd: Really?.. you are not disagree with this?

Draculaura: Clawd, My godfather is married with a Jackalope.

Betrayus: and my hybrid son has a Werefox boyfriend.

Clawd: That's amazing! I never expected this.

Betrayus: Well welcome to the family Bud

Farley was looking for her friend between the monster high students

Farley: I wonder if-

Name: Toralei Stripe

Daughter of the Werecat

Age: 16

Species: Werecat

Farley: Tori!?

Toralei: Sheepdog!?

Farley: Tori!!

Toralei: Sheepdog

Farid and Farren: fuck..

Claw: Mew?

To be continued....

Stratos: *throws Farid and Farren a Shoe*

No swearing in front the kitten!!!

[so-i-dont-forget-again]

So I Don’t Forget Again: A Breath of The Wild fanfiction

Entry 152: Zora’s Domain

 It somehow felt natural waking up to his smile. It seems like he didn’t notice I woke up at first. He apologized, asking if stroking my hair work me up. He just meant to move some hair away from my face, but he accidentally just kept going. I honestly don’t know, but the was sun rising anyway so maybe the change of lighting was what did it. In the temples the lighting hardly changes, it just barely gets darker at night, I have to really look for it to tell.

Sidon apologized for falling asleep, he meant to keep me company though the night, though he was so glad to awaken with me asleep beside him. He hadn’t been awake for too much longer than me. A prince has many duties so he must rise with the sun he says.

Sidon was glad I finally let myself sleep a little. He asked me how I felt about it. If it was scary or not. It was somewhat, but I felt safe to try. Sidon was glad, though he did wish I would sleep where the doctors could monitor me.

I’m healed, though some infections are still inside me. The doctors thought that sleeping naturally healed me, but that can’t be. I know for a fact I have slept out under the stars when injured and I did not awaken healed. The new theory is that I heal when asleep only when in a bed, or I’m comfortable. I also told them about how the hot springs can heal me too. They’ve started discussing finding some Sheikah scientists and seeing if together they could figure out how my body works.

Purah said she was going to go to the Revitalizing Chamber to study it. I wonder if she’s still there.

The doctors kept me for a while, and my infections have actually spread. This was why they didn’t want me to fully heal just yet. Thankfully the damage was able to be fixed for my side before so it’s just in my arm again. They want me to stay a bit longer to adjust my medicine and make sure it has no adverse effects on me. They told me to not use my arm still, or if I must, be gentle with it, they don’t want it to possibly reach my bones or other organs. It’s eating away at me in a way, so if I’m not careful, I could tear something, and the infection gets inside and not stay outside and it will become much more difficult to manage.

Sidon had mixed feelings about this. At least I could finally take the splint off.

I never knew food could taste so good! After all the tests and pocking at my arm Sidon and I cooked again! I missed eating much more than I thought I ever could! We cooked so much, it was practically a feast and we fed the whole town. Even the King was impressed by my cooking and loved trying Gerudo cuisine! The feast lasted through the whole afternoon. Sidon and I only got to eat after everyone else was full and done, but I don’t mind. They popped into the kitchen once in a while to help or to just chat for a bit. It was nostalgic to make honeyed apples again. I should visit Kakariko Village soon. Any food that was left over I finished. I’d like to try combining different cuisine, I think some of the different pieces placed together would compliment each other well! Sidon was excited by the idea.

The kitchen can get really hot, so a nice cool bath was perfect after the meal.

Sidon filled the bath with bubbles again and massaged the goopy stuff in my hair and on my scalp again.

Taking baths just feels so great. Sidon agreed with me that renovating my house to add a bath was a nice idea. I think I’ll keep the bathing plants outside so they can keep growing even when I’m gone traveling. I’ll just pick what I want or need and leave them by the bath when I go in. Maybe I could keep a fire rod at the bottom to heat the water. And maybe I could get a waterbed as well. It would be nice to expand the house a little and add a bigger kitchen. I could also possibly work the land around my house for a while so I can just grow more rarer ingredients, though the plants from the desert might not be able to grow in dirt.

Sidon told me he loved hearing me speak like this.

Speaking of houses actually reminded him of something. After reading my memories a while back, Sidon wanted to help with the construction of Bolson’s town in Akkala and found a zora who’s name ending with son who was willing to go there and help. He had experienced much of life, being alive when the Calamity struck as a warrior. He just wants a peaceful life. His goal is actually to wed a couple, and surely people would want to get married in the new town. One of the Gerudo women who came traveling with Sidon, her name also ended in son so Sidon convinced her to go. So all that is left is to send a Rito their way.

I should go back and check up on the place some time soon. I’m going to Rito Village soon anyway so perhaps after I help them, though I will be going past the Akkala region on my way there so maybe I should pop by for a quick visit.

Sidon wondered if my healing only worked when I am comfy and happy. Perhaps though the water was not hot, if I were injured right then if I’d be healing. He noticed that I heal when I’m comfortable. I don’t heal when traveling because I’m likely on edge or only half asleep prepared for an attack. It would explain why baths, sleeping in a bed in a town, and eating could all heal me, because they all relax me and make me comfortable. I could see that, but then I wouldn’t have been injured so long here getting to be with him so much.

Sidon asked me if I ever get scars even though I heal. I’m not entirely sure. I know I had scars on my body when I woke up from my hundred-year sleep. I also try to eat as soon as I get hurt so they’re gone so quickly I never exactly get the chance to even remember where they were.

Sidon asked if he could have a closer look at my scars. He gently traced them, like when he was reading the engravings about Zora history. It was like he was trying to memorize them. He said it was almost surprising how such a little body could fit so many marks. Some of them are slightly discolored from the rest of my skin, some of them sink deeply into me. Sidon said he’d never seen scars so big.

Sidon let me trace his scars. He has one the left fin thing on his head. He got it from a great battle with a giant octorok that swallowed him whole.

He became oddly quiet though, then he asked me if he could ask something related to my darker thoughts. He asked if I ever wish I never woke up, that I was never placed in the revitalizing Chamber. I feel like I should have died with them, but do I want that as well.

I think if I truly grasped this situation I’m in sooner, then maybe yes. If I remembered my past when I woke up instead of not recalling a thing, I think I might have.

If I wasn’t alive there would be no one else to finish what we had started. We’d all be restless, and the others will keep being like that till I defeat the Calamity. My want to protect everybody, make sure they are happy is worth much more than eternal rest to me. If I stayed dead, then so many more people would have gotten hurt than even now with the Yiga clan chasing me. Besides, as much as I hurt, there is so much here that was not a hundred years ago. I never would have met Yunobo, or Riju or Kass a hundred years ago. And I never would have gotten to see how amazing Sidon would have become if I somehow continued to live on in that time. I have something that outweighs the pain, even if at times it is all consuming and I almost forget everyone, but that’s why I write here in the first place. I re-read this every night, so I don’t forget.

Sidon told me it truly is a miracle that we were able to meet now. He is so glad we were able to meet, but he was wondering if all the pain was too much. He doesn’t want to be blind to my feelings, he wants to understand me.

At times it feels like he knows me better than I do. I’m not sure how he could understand me better, but I’m glad he wants too. He told me that he’s glad I feel the same.

Sidon asked if I’d stay with him in his room tonight. He found himself unable to let me go yet. He wanted to stay by me longer. He told me it was selfish of him to want for all my time, but he couldn’t lie to himself, so he had to at least ask, however he made sure I didn’t feel pressured to go. He never wanted to force me into anything. He only wanted me to be with him if I wanted too, being with me would feel fake otherwise, and he wants to keep our bond genuine.

Sidon only travels sometimes since he’s busy taking care of his people. Still though, he dreams of traveling more, like when coming to save me, his logical reasoning being making closer ties between his people and others, but he also just wants to travel. He wants to see the towns, experience life in other places and experience their cultures. After Mipha’s passing he was somewhat ignored and coddled. For so long, even now everyone is focusing on Mipha and grieving her, it’s still a fresh wound for many of them. Because of that he was just kind of there, still cared for, but just there. Though as the last next of kin in the royal family he couldn’t leave the Domain too often for his safety with all the guardians around. He has been taught to fight but has only gotten to use those skills on occasion, that was known at least. Secretly he’d sneak off to fight monsters who came near the Domain or the water ways that branched throughout Hyrule. The only person who didn’t do this is his father, he grieved for his daughter but he didn’t compare her and Sidon, he made sure to love and praise Sidon for his accomplishments, he actually liked it when Sidon snuck out with me to find Me or when he came to rescue me recalling his own reckless adventures as a prince, but he’s the king, he has so much to do. Sidon loves his people, and they love him too, but at a distance, because he’s not Mipha. The younger generations are more inclined to see him though. It was not a bad childhood, but it was straining at times.

Sidon told me that he actually sent out some guards to go out to search for a Hylian warrior because he’s not allowed to go out farther than Inogo Bridge. He only left because Bossa Nova got swept away by the current and he just had to go save his friend. Bossa Nova was to be kept in town, but he wandered off as usual and someone spotted him fall in the ferocious river. If Sidon had not been told, he likely would have stayed by that bridge, he only would have left if the situation had become absolutely dire.

Sidon feels he could do more for his people if he were allowed more freedom, and they all expanded their horizons and looked at the world beyond their canyon and waters. Others always came to them, rarely the other way around.

In Sidon’s room are trinkets from other places. He excitedly told me stories about each of the items. About the rock a Goron had given him, saying it was their favorite and a little guy like Sidon needed to eat great food to grow up big and strong. Some golden jewelry the Gerudo women gave Sidon after returning here from saving me, loving how excited he was happily traveling with them, and as thanks for fighting so well with them. Some sheet music Kass no longer needed since he memorized the songs long ago, they were songs Sidon was especially fond of because Sidon met Kass when he was practicing those songs. A stone frog from Kakariko Village as thanks for helping them when the town began to get flooded for a time. I would write everything, but I only have so many pages.

Sidon’s room is large and has a balcony. He has a large desk for paperwork where many of his items are placed. There’s this large pool in the middle. Zoras don’t sleep in beds often, they usually sleep in the water or pools like this. Sidon had many pillows, carpets and blankets from Gerudo Town. Sidon set them beside the pool as makeshift cushions.

It’s so strange to see Sidon without his silver pieces and the blue sash. They just seemed like a part of him I suppose, I’ve never seen him without them before.

As he was placing away his pieces, Sidon tripped over Bossa Nova who had wandered in as Sidon was showing me his items I suppose. He’s so quiet it seems neither of us noticed him. In Sidon’s room is also a work bench for chiseling and working with crystal. In the commotion Sidon had bumped into it knocking the items off it and I had to catch them before they fell into the water. Sidon panicked, screamed as he ripped the items from my hands and checked them. He shakily sighed and held my hands closely, thankful I didn’t catch the dagger by the blade.

The blade is white and serrated while the hilt is crystal. Sidon reminded me of when I told him of my time with Calisa, and all she had taught me about travel and survival. I only have large weapons so many things are difficult to work with without smaller tools. Smaller tools would be extremely useful for making fires, digging, cutting down branches, collecting bark, and many other things. Sidon decided to make a dagger for me out of his teeth. Bone is extremely strong so is should not break easily. Not only would it make for a good tool, but a weapon as well. Sidon worries that there may come a day where I’m in danger and he is unable to get to me in time, so I could at least have this, a part of him with me. He told me his affections for me runs deeper than I may even be able to even fathom. His heart belongs to his people, but to me as well.

The other item is like his sliver pieces, but bigger and longer. Sidon was also making a piece to protect my arm. It had the Zora’s crest, the three crescent shapes, but in the crescent shapes are sapphires and in the space between where the crescents touch is one of Sidon’s scales. He showed me how the gems could be taken out and have other gems placed in. At the bazaar I had taught him about what I had learned about gems and the powers they have. Sidon wanted me to be able to utilize their powers. This way I could use multiple gems powers at once or have multiple of one so the power could stack up, and with rubies, hopefully keep me warm in the Hebra Mountains where the Rito Village is till I could get some warm clothing from there. Sidon wanted to make something to protect my arm, though he was a little nervous that I’d be more reckless with my arm because it was protected and not try to shield it more.

The scale placed in armor to protect someone; this is rather culturally significant. Sidon had told his father and Muzu what he had been making for me, he started this one when he returned after saving me.

I asked Sidon if he could out right, out loud, say it.

Sidon told me that like writing down things, saying things out loud makes them more real, and I had so much on my mind already, he was worried about adding something else, about if this could stress me. I told him I would be okay. I just want to indulge myself and hear him say it first. Directly, not roundabout like we have been this whole time.

  Sidon thinks he’s in love me.

I think I’m in love with him too.

  The King and Muzu had questioned Sidon, but he told them he didn’t care if I didn’t return his feelings, he wanted to protect me from anywhere like Mipha with her armor and trident, Sidon would always come to my rescue should I need it, but in case he couldn’t get to me in time he still wanted to help even if he isn’t physically there.

It fits perfectly, I asked Sidon when he took my measurements. He got sheepish, telling me he just tried remembering how it feels to hold my arm.

I’m trying to keep writing, but all these feelings keep welling up and I almost feel like crying? But it doesn’t hurt? Like my chest is trembling, and my throat is getting choked up? I’m only directly writing this now, so I guess it’s only settling in now how real this is? Nothing has changed. We both knew we liked each other for a while now, only thing that’s changed is directly saying it. And now I can feel my heart pounding. Am I panicking? Am I just excited? I don’t know!

Sidon asked me if he could court me. Sidon was getting a bit flustered now, and he tried explaining what me meant, but just kept tripping over his words. He leaned in before abruptly stopping. He asked if he could kiss me.

Sidon’s teeth are still very sharp. When he parted he realized he cut my lip on accident and started panicking. I had to keep reassuring I was okay and reminded him just eating or sleeping would fix it.

And my heart is racing like when he tells me I’m adorable. Why must Sidon do this to me.

It was so late, Sidon told me I could leave if I wanted. I asked him if that’s what he wanted. He wanted me to stay. I wanted to stay as well.

Sidon tried staying up again. He apologized when he couldn’t keep his eyes open. I promised him I’d go to sleep with him when I was done writing, and now I’ll do just that.

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[kreidewaltz]

YEAR END LOVE.

happy holidays and advance happy new year everyone!! this was supposed to be for christmas but.. yeah hope u had a great time w your loved ones <33 this is for my friends who helped me get thru shitty times, who made me laugh so hard, and made me feel appreciated :) to my mutuals, thank u for taking ur time to talk to me!! any interactions from u guys makes me so so happy <3 im proud of you for getting through this year!! this is gonna b a long one .. hehe <3 sorry if i didn't mention u!! i still love u :( this is in no particular order dw dw ily all d same

to my followers, mutuals, and people who likes my stuff in general ツ

AAAAAAA guys ily you rock !! thank u for supporting me and just being there for me (esp for the ones who listened and stayed w my shit !!) ty for liking, reblogging about my stuff, or just interacting w me!! pls pls talk to me let's have some good convo hehe i hope no one will send me or any blog hate bc that isn't cool >:( happiness and love only are allowed people!!!

@sunakissses ツ

my bestie, my bae, babe <3 you rock val if im honest :( even tho we haven't been friends for a long time, we just clicked !! and yeah talking to u is just makes me at ease n u have that comfy vibes :)) and our interactions r so funny and wholesome <33 i just love when im talking to ya you know :(( and idk i love ur supportive aura whenever i do something hehe :( lets keep going next year and be more closer >:) and yes u and suna r going to be the cat's first ever aunt and uncle <3

@romaune ツ

okay .. the literal meaning of sunshine, yes you gracie baby :( you're so wholesome i wanna cry thats me 2 u !! i love your aura and just everything, i get so excited when u reply to my asks fr, because ure so enthusiastic n i like that a lot !!! :( ik we don't talk a lot yet but from our interactions (or just us screamin abt our mans winks) i know i gained a friend, a good n funny friend for that:) and ure so like hinata i wanna squish and hug and talk to!! i love how we scream abt our ongoing suna brainrots HAHA can't forget that <33

@cryoqi ツ

people put ur hands up 4 the coolest person ive met !!!! >:( istg you're so kind and so funny even if thats not ur intention T_T at first i was intimidated by u but then yeah <33 we vibe :( only the real ones know abt us and me bein your bread anon <33 ure rlly great and can't forget d time us and dove sang thru texts ...? yes that i cried while laughing HAHA, and yes i love the way u write 2!! so you and just amazing overall :)) n yeah i like to talk to u a lot in the server !!! ure so funny & relatable at times hihi

@miyasangel ツ

arden bae !!! you're so ... cool and pretty and one of the people i want 2 talk to in here <3 you're like cool and the way you write is chefs kiss >:( and i love it whenever we talk abt random things AHSHS and when we talk abt atsumu <33 i love love that !! n yeah good thing i interacted w u b4 on ur old blog and get to talk to you more !!! i was so shy n nervous while sending you asks sometimes LMAO idk why :(( ure rlly a great friend <3 n i think u also became a factor on why im liking inarizaki :D

@cafemiya ツ

omg hail to issy !! i know we don't talk that much yet but i literally like u a lot >:( you're rlly great w your long fics !! n handmade heaven lead me to you and ur asks <3 and you're so chaotic too HAHA i like that :) dw ill always shower u w compliments bc u so deserve it bby !!! and i squeal sometimes when u reply to my asks w the same energy :(( n yes i just love you and your vibe in general <3 and im so excited 4 the collab !!! <3 thanks for reaching me out hehe or my slowburn fic journey wont happen :( anw ily and keep slayin issy baby!!!! :D

@kuro0luvr ツ

omg kieran .. the big phat supporter of chlojime is here people !!! <3 i just love loooove talking to you esp in the server & we scream abt anything n everything :( and thank u for always giving me support and everyone else when we're down!! you're one of my sunshines 2 :( i love how we just talk and instantly b close friends you know!! even tho we dont chat like in dms we r so close hehe :( and yes ill never forget how happy u got when i complimented that u have akaashi vibes <3 ty for being a good friend n supporter to me :(((

@oikawasbliss ツ

milo everyday !!! >:) i missed our interactions tbh :( you're just so chill n i vibe w u a lot!! your themes omg i want em its so aesthetic and everything <3 and uhm i love ur love for oikawa >< i mean who wouldn't but whenever i see smth kawa related i think of u immediately T_T and yes ure just so so cool :(( lets talk more soon gah and maybe talk abt aot hehe smirks <3 and yes i just like ur themes and vibe a lot <3 lets talk more soon gah >:)

@himichii ツ

I KNOW we didn't talk really like until few weeks ago but ... you're so funny and kind n lowkey sweet HAHA u were so intimidating before i can't talk 2 u <//3 but im glad i did !! not me writin this and listening to the playlist u made for me :( omg thank u for that and the other that u posted, i felt nostalgic and (good) sad on d inside <3 HAHS lets talk more omfg idk what 2 say :( OH oh ure a greatt writer :( the angst u sent yesterday made me sad gah <3 let's talk more in the new years!!! :(

@hajimine ツ

oml lexy bae where do i start??? omg ily like <3 because you're so nice n sweet n so funny 2!! glad i started participating in your ask games and on that we became friends hehe :( i love how we just talk abt anything on your asks <33 like ur life keeps me entertained HAHA and when u became more chaotic n all that .. i liked it!!! :( and oh u write so well if u didnt know >:( can't wait 4 more interactions w you bae !! <3 and ugh omg ily <3 literally cannot express how much :( you have good vibes n i wanna have that too !! and love how we just scream over one man ;D

@lcaita ツ

omg kai ... hi <3 HAHS sorry if im so awkward wtf but ure so cool and so funny !!! i like ur vibes always even tho ure not always around <3 and when youre around i just get happy !!! >< for some reason i love ur name hehe and uhm i love ur aesthetics hehe on ur acc !!! >:) and yes thank u for being a kind friend hehe :( lets talk more next yr abt anything!!! maybe abt ur mans (kaashi, semi, others) hehe ;)

@kemochie ツ

nea !!! i just . wanna say that you're a sweet human being :( and deserve the world :( ik we didnt interact much yet but !!! i love u already n your aura in general <3 and i just get soft on ur username for some reason T_T i love our little interactions from time 2 time n i wanna boost that more on the new years!! <3 idk i like u :( that's it thats my say :(

@nightmareupondaydream ツ

kana baby !!! im so grateful for u whenever u send me sweet words at random times ... and when i need it <3 and i missed our chats in dms :( lets do it again sometime !! im gonna be here for u okay :( and you're so sweet fr i love u,, and yeah just talkin about how shitty life is or how my writing goes, let's do that on the new years oki!! <3333

@ravscrii ツ

thank u for being there like really >< ik u have own probs to solve but you still helped me :( ty for being a great listener and supporter hehe <3 u deserve great things !!! and pls dw okay we're good even tho we arent talking that much :( i miss that hehe n ure a kind and funny person ASHS esp in the server ur replies n everything make me laugh :( lets talk more soon like the old times AAAAAA i miss it hehe <3 and goodluck on genshin HAHA pls entertain me w it even tho i don't play </3

@rintaroll ツ

olivia babe <3 omg i missed u sorry 4 not checking on u :( forgive me <//3 just wnna say u totally made my 2020 better n a little more bearable <3 i like ur vibes sm and ur name .. olivia wow i like it :( and oh you're so aesthetic like ur blog in general ??? hello pls step on me :( and u also influenced me (for some reason) to like tsumu more ?! which i dont mind at all .. i like it when we scream over tsumu or i tease u n him getting horknee :D yeah and god i can't forget the time we fangirled over gojo on ur asks ... and u sent me gojo gifs which made me scream <3 one of my unforgettable moments w ya!!

to my hajime anon + mod ツ

thank u for always being here :( and you just chatting w me makes me so happy <3 i hope you'll see this hehe and just thank u and ily yknow :( when im down or happy, or shitty you're just there, supporting me always <3 im so grateful for that!! and hajime anon mod ily :( thank u for taking ur time to chat w me and make me so happy hehe <3 take ur time okay :)

to my baby, stella ツ

AAAAAAA idk if you'll see this but shoot me an ask if u saw :( uhm i love ur vibes and you're so cool !! promise <3 and your theme changes r always so beautiful <3 pls pls i love you so much agh im so worried when u deactivated :( pls dont overwork okay whenever ure working :( i love talkin to u always in ur asks !!! ure so sweet and lovely grr >:( u deserve all d good things okay ily stel :((

[genesisrose74]

Requested on anon: Hey there! I’d like to request a memory and Aesthetic matchup from the Dream Smp! My outfit choices are usually comfy, and casual clothing (Mainly sweatshirts and hoodies), and my favorite aesthetic has either got to be Galaxy or Dark Academia! My music taste is very much all over the place, but I mainly listen to some Anime stuff sometimes and I usually just hit shuffle on any existing playlist already. I’m very much a morning person, and I love waking up to see the sunrise. Rainy weather is another thing that I find beauty in, and I love sitting in my room and doing some watercolors whilst enjoying the sound of the rain pouring outside. If I had to pick a favorite memory, it was when (at the time) my best friend was upset, and they really needed someone to be there for them. I remember when they were upset, I spent the entire day with them and made sure that whenever I could, I’d distract them from the situation at hand. And there was this one moment where I just hugged them, and we stayed there, just like that for what seemed like an eternity. We made a promise that day to never end up in some stupid drama. Hopefully this makes sense! Thank you!

Hi sweet anon! You can absolutely get a matchup <3 the galaxy and dark academia mixture is so cool and super unique, I absolutely love it! Not to mention the beautiful memory you included as well seemed like such a special moment. From the ingame dsmp characters, I think I’d pair you with…

^ artwork by SAD-ist on YouTube

I feel like you and c!George would be really close for whatever reason, and I think that stems from the fact that he’d just really like to spend time just watching you do things you enjoyed. While he likes sleeping a hell of a lot (yes, I am making that canon in the plot, leave me be), he’s always glad to come sit with you as you paint or fix up something to eat. Expect him to snag a bit of your meal as he appears in your room’s doorway, murmuring a groggy ‘good morning’ and dodging a splash of paint when you scold him for finally waking up two hours past noon.

I think George would love the rain, whether it’s the biggest rainstorm or the smallest of summer drizzles out of nowhere. He’s all for being chaotic around the house but never actually leaving, so whenever the skies open up and don’t appear to be stopping soon he uses it as an excuse to just hang around the comfort of the indoors. If it’s a nice night outside though, he isn’t opposed to some late evening stargazing — he’ll point out made up constellations and name them ridiculous things to make you laugh, too.

OH ALSO: sometimes George whines about wanting to help you paint something with your watercolors, and so you both came up with this idea to choose shades that he couldn’t discern very well with his colorblindness and have him choose them randomly. It’s just a really cute way to bond and laugh about unimportant shit, which I think both he and you could use in a world that is otherwise a mess of crazy. Some of the final products of your combined artist expertise actually turn out really good. George even framed a couple and pinned his favorites around his room. He really loves the ones that you’ll do of the sunrise and sunset, mostly because you’ll describe what the colors feel like while you paint. He could sit beside you for hours just listening to how beautifully you describe the blend of yellows, reds, and pinks in the sky — it just makes his heart so content and nostalgic.

One time he came to visit you in the afternoon and simply collapsed onto your bed without a word, and just the expression on his face told you that something had happened to positively ruin his emotional state for the day. It took a while for him to open up about it and tell you exactly why he was so upset, but after some food and a really long hug he spilled everything outright: he was losing his closest friends as a result of factors over which he had no control, and it was terrifying to think that one morning he might just wake up all alone without anyone to lean on or talk to. So you spent the entire day together and did anything you both could think of at the time, none of which related to the uncertainty he was feeling. Going into town, walking through the nearby forest, yelling over a cliff’s edge for no reason but catharsis — whatever came to mind is what you did, and it ended up being the perfect medicine for your predicament. Y’all definitely had a sleepover afterwards too (even though George practically lives at your house for half the year already).

[shawn-mendes-post]

Hoodie

A/N: I do not own anything. The song, Hoodie is by Hey Violet. 

(Y/N) stared at her phone since she was waiting for the interviewed. 

She hated interviews because of the relentless questions about her friendship with  Shawn. She did not know what the fascination of their relationship is. She hasn't been around him in months because they were both busy. 

Her manger knocks, letting her know it was time. 

Interview 

"Please welcome back (Y/N) (L/N)! " Jimmy said. 

The crowd cheers as she walks towards the comfy chair. She smiles and waves before sitting down, tossing a piece of her hair behind her ear. 

"Thank you for inviting me, Jimmy," she said, fixing her dress since it rose a bit. 

"No, thank you for joining us. I  appreciate you fitting us in your busy schedule. "

She laughs, denying she was busy, but she was. She hardly had time to go home before she had to work. Shawn tried to tell her to slow down before something bad happens, but she never was a good listener. Shawn would surprise her by taking her on to his tours whenever he knew she needed a break. Now, he is not there to help her, so she just working until she is exhausted. 

" You were amazing at the VMA's. Was it your first performance? How did you feel?"

" I was nervous in the beginning since I was performing live. When I started, the adrenaline-filled my veins, and I was able to get more relaxed. I loved it in the end and was sad it was over."

"Your friend Shawn was there. Did he speak to you? Offer any advice?"

" I did not have the chance to speak to him. He was busy getting ready for his performance with Camila. I would have been nervous to even listen to him if he did offer me advice. "

Jimmy nods, flipping through his cards. "Shawn and you have been friends since the two of you were little. " Jimmy then tilts his head, looking serious," you know, Shawn is my best friend too."

"Oh yeah? I bet Shawn and I would answer more questions right on the best friend challenge," she said cocky, making the audience laugh. Jimmy pretends he is offended and shakes his head.

"We will just have to see another time. You have been writing songs since you were in high school?" 

" Yes, I was, in my free time, or whenever I was stressed, I would write songs. I usually kept them in an (f/c) journal. The only person I showed the songs to was Shawn. I would help him sometimes with vines, and we would spend time talking about my songs.  He encouraged me to sing with him, but I would get nervous. It took a while before I did sing with him." 

"That is wonderful. We do have another game to play if you are up to it. "

" I'm up to it, let's go," she said, standing up, fixing the hem of her dress.

***

The two stand side by side, both of them standing in front of a microphone.  (Y/N) sways to an imaginary beat, waiting for him to speak. 

" (Y/N) and I are about to face off in a game called, "slay it don't spray it. 

We are going to take turns trying to sing well-known songs.  We will have most of the lyrics in front of us on cue cards. When the music stops, we will only see a blank, and it will be up to us to finish the line correctly. If you get it wrong then, the microphone will spray you with water. Also, if you slay it then, your opponent gets sprayed in the face. "

" I chose the wrong make up to wear today, " she grumbles, making everyone laugh. "I would have worn waterproof make up, but no." 

Jimmy laughs, shaking his head," it was a last-minute deal. You can go first. Push the button."

She was about to push the button, but he waves his hands frantically. 

" We have to put on our safety glasses first because of safety is sexy. " The two put on their glasses, showing off how they looked with them on.

She then pushes the button, hoping it is a song she knows. The random generate stops, and she internally groans. 

"Lost in Japan" - Shawn Mendes 

" That is not fair. If I get it wrong, so many of his fans are going to be mad at me. I will be mad at me, especially since I love this song. Shawn, I am so sorry. I know I am going to butcher this song."

The band starts to play, making her sway to the beat. She closes her eyes, envisioning the days she helped Shawn with this song. She remembers she was in Japan, and he would text her. The two missed each other; furthermore, he decided to surprise her. 

Opening her eyes, she starts to sing, watching the cue cards. 

" I could feel the tension, " she starts, moving her hips. "We could cut it with a knife," she gets more into the song. "I know it's more than just a friendship," she blushes faintly, hoping they don't notice. 

"I can hear you thinking about it, yeah," she points at Jimmy. "Do I gotta convince you that you shouldn't fall asleep?" She sung, shaking her finger in a no motion before her eyes widen when she sees the blank space. 

"It'll only be a couple of hours, and I'm about to leave. Do you get plans tonight?  I'm a couple of hundred miles from Japan, and I. I was thinking I could fly to your hotel tonight 'cause I-I-I can't get you off my mind," she sings perfectly, making the crowd cheer. Jimmy is then sprayed with water, surprising him as he tries to cover his face. 

"Wow. You are the first to slay a song. I am nervous know since you are amazing at this." He hits the button, and then slowly, the generate stops. 

"There is nothing holding me back" - Shawn Mendes.

" What are the odds?"

"This a Shawn Mendes edition or something?" (Y/N) asked, watching Jimmy fail terribly at the song.  It was her turn again, so she pushes the button.

 "Kiwi" - Harry Styles

 She smirks, knowing the whole song because she would sing it whenever. She moves to the beat, singing from the cue cards. She strides toward the microphone, "She worked her way through a cheap pack of cigarettes," grabbing the microphone and bringing it to her plumb, reddish lips. "Hard liquor mixed with a bit of intellect," she makes a drinking motion.

 Pointing to Jimmy, "And all the boys, they were saying they were into it," she steps closer to Jimmy. 

"Such a pretty face, on a pretty neck," she sings, running her fingers down her left cheek down to her neck, stoping to the valley of her breast. She lifts her left hand in her hair, running through her locks, singing," She's driving me crazy, but I'm into it, but I'm into it." She makes a face as if she was interested, "I'm kind of into it," she belted out as the music stops.

 ***

(Y/N), was in the breaking room again, not knowing she was also performing. She was giving a stern talking to with her agent since he forgot to mention this detail. 

" Now, you know how I felt when you strung the song on me. I need time to prepare to upload a song, not a few hours. "" I am sorry. I just wanted to release new music, and I did not want to wait. I already have three more songs I wrote. Then I have to go and film in the movie. There is also the Nextflix show I have to appear in and the other show. Then the premiere for the 100th episode of American Horror Story is coming up.  I have stuff I need to get done now I need you to help me.  You know why I have put a lot of work on myself. " She explained, changing into a  long sleeve, off the shoulder dress.  It was strapless, ending at her thighs and sweet lacy pink all over, fitting perfectly against her body.

 Matthew was looking on his phone, facing away from her as she was changing. " I know. I will do better in helping you deal with your problems. I do need you to keep me updated and not spring anything on me. "

She steps out, twirling to show her dress. She asks for his help to zip up her dress before walking out of the room. 

***"

“Please, welcome back (Y/N). She is singing her newly released song as of today, Hoodie."

The blue light shines on her, the band behind her starting to play. She sways to the beat, eyes closed as she getting into the rhythm. 

"You'd probably think I was psychotic," she sings with the backup chorus singing, "if you knew."  Her face was in a frown, "What I still got in my closet."

 "Sad but true," the chorus sings. 

"Slip it on over my shoulders," she makes a motion on putting on a hoodie, "Something I'll never get over," wrapping her hands around her waist to hug herself.

 "It makes me feel a little bit closer to you," she sings, feeling nostalgic. 

Memory 

Shawn had taken her to the beach, finally making time for the two of them. He had taken her to a reclusive spot where it was only them. He had on his favorite hoddie because it was chilly surprising the two. 

They both laid on the towel, snuggle up close together, watching the sunrise after a full day of swimming. They just wanted to hold each other because he was about to go on tour again while she would have to go back to school.

 " Why can't you join me?" Shawn asked, looking down at the most beautiful girl he ever saw.  He tried to push down his feeling for her, but they would always be there.

 " You know I can't, " she mumbled, knowing her parents would get mad. She begins to fumble with his broken zipper, not understanding why he still wore it. He nods, leaning down to kiss her forehead, a signal to tell her he isn't mad. Their relationship confused him because they acted more than friends, but never crossed the line.

 They would kiss but always apologized after then start avoiding each other. Shawn kept pushing down his feeling because of what happened with Tristan, her ex. Shawn is brought out from his thoughts, noticing she was shivering. Shawn took off his hoodie, wrapped it around her, pulling her closer to him.

End of Memory 

 "I can't keep your love," she sung, feeling tears build up in her eyes, "I can't keep your kiss. Gave you everything, and all I got was this," singing as she remembers everything she had done for Shawn.

 "I'm still rocking your hoodie and chewing on the strings." She bobs her head, dancing to the music, "It makes me think about you, so I wear it when I sleep," her cheeks flushed at the notion Shawn could potentially see this.

  "I kept the broken zipper and cigarette burns. Still rocking your hoodie Baby, even though it hurts," she points at the audience.

 " I used to put my hand in your pockets," she sings while the chorus sings, "holding on."  

"The smell of your cologne is still on it." 

"But you're still gone," the chorus sings. 

"Slip it on over my shoulders. Someone I'll never get over," she sings, referring to Shawn, knowing the fans will speculate about the guy.

 "It makes me feel a little bit closer to you. I can't keep your love," she sung, tears sliding down her face, "I can't keep your kiss. I gave you everything, and all I got was this. I'm still rocking your hoodie and chewing on the strings." She bobs her head, dancing to the music, 

"It makes me think about you, so I wear it when I sleep," she wipes the tears, hoping no one will talk about it. 

"I kept the broken zipper and cigarette burns. Still rocking your hoodie Baby, even though it hurts," she points at the audience.

 "Still rocking your hoodie and chewing on the strings." She shakes her hips, "It makes me think about you, so I wear it when I sleep," moving her shoulders to the beat, trying to bring up the mood.

 "I kept the broken zipper and cigarette burns. Still rocking your hoodie Baby, even though it hurts," she points at Jimmy. 

"If you want it back. If you want it back. I'm here waiting," she makes an open gesture with her arms. 

"Come take it back. Come take it back. If you want it back. If you want it back. I'm here waiting. Come take it back. Come take it back. Still rocking your hoodie and chewing on the strings. It makes me think about you, so I wear it when I sleep," she makes a sleeping motion. 

"I kept the broken zipper and cigarette burns. Still rocking your hoodie Baby, even though it hurts," she makes a heartbroken gesture. 

"Still rocking your hoodie and chewing on the strings," she does a little spin, running her fingers through her locks. "It makes me think about you, so I wear it when I sleep,"  her hands trailing down to her neck, roaming over her body. 

"I kept the broken zipper and cigarette burns. Still rocking your hoodie Baby, even though it hurts," she points at a random guy.

 "I'm still rocking your hoodie and chewing on the strings," she ruffles her dress, being careful not to show anything. 

"It makes me think about you, so I wear it when I sleep. I kept the broken zipper and cigarette burns. Still rocking your hoodie Baby, even though it hurts," she points at a brunette girl.

 "Still rocking your hoodie and chewing on the strings." She shakes her hips, "It makes me think about you, so I wear it when I sleep. I kept the broken zipper and cigarette burns. Still rocking your hoodie Baby, even though it hurts," she points at a member of the band. "I'm still rocking your hoodie," she sung before smiling at the cheering crowd. 

 "Thank you!" She yelled, walking off stage, waving bye at the crowd. 

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Shawn could not stop staring at the tv screen in his hotel room. He was watching Jimmy Fallon's show because he heard about (Y/N) was a guest. He knew he should have turned it off, but something was compelling him to watch. He wanted to see how she was doing since he was keeping his space. Something in his heart was yearning to be with her, to kiss her, to proclaim his love for her. 

He knew it was wrong to have feelings for (Y/N). He talked to Brian about how conflicted he was, but that did not help him. He was just more confused than before. 

He couldn't even think straight when he was on tour and having dates with Camila. He was either focus on singing or trying to be in the moment with Camila. Deep in his mind, he would start to think about their friendship. 

His heart flutters when (Y/N) sing one of his songs. He knew Lost in Japan was one of her favorite songs of his because it was about the two of them. 

Shawn was in his hotel room, feeling lonely. It was a bad day at rehearsal, and he missed his best friend. She was currently in Japan shooting in a film she was happy she got the role. 

Shawn then got the brilliant idea to fly to Japan and surprise her. 

" Hey, I miss you," she says, after calling him. 

" I miss you, too. Do you have any plans tonight?"

"Uh... no. I got done filming for today, so I am free. " 

" Get some rest, knowing you stayed up late yesterday. "

" How did you know?" 

" I know you."

She laughs before hanging up. Shawn got up, quickly packing an overnight bag, yearning to be with her. He tells no one what he was going to do because he wanted it to be a surprise. He contacts someone to get him a ticket to Japan before heading to the airport. Hiding, from the paparazzi, and fans, he was able to get on the airplane. He was stressing over the idea she would not be happy in seeing him. 

After the plane ride, he makes his way to the hotel. He stopped at a florist, getting her favorite flowers as a gift. He wanted to show her how proud he was of her getting the part she wanted. He would stop at a shop to get a few things to make her something to eat, knowing she would have forgotten to eat. 

Knock, Knock.

The door opens slowly, but all Shawn notices is the beautiful eyes of hers, shinning with happiness in seeing him. "W-what are you doing here?" She asked, not believing he was here in person. 

"I wanted to surprise you because I missed you too much. " 

She allows him to enter, still in shock as she glances at the flowers and bags in his hands. She helps him set the stuff down on the counter then hugs him. 

" I love you, Shawn. You are the best friend anyone can ask for," She said, braking Shawn's heart. His smile falters, nodding his head. 

" I love you, too." He had replied, shaking his head to get rid of his feelings. 'Just friends.' 

While she places the flowers in a vase, he starts to cook her dinner. The two were chatting as if they were not separated for a few weeks. When dinner was ready, the two sat down on the bed and turned on the tv. Both were quiet, watching the movie that was one as they ate. 

The two were drinking Sake with their dinner, slowly becoming tipsy. Shawn would glance at her a couple of times, debating with himself on kissing her. She was talking to Shawn, but he was not paying attention. 

Finally, he leaned down, pressing his lips against her like all those years ago when he was fifthteen. Her arms wrapped around his neck, loving the feeling of his lips on hers.  His hands moved to her waist, slowly rising to explore her body. His hands sent shivers through her body as she wanted more. She was craving more. 

"Shawn, I want you," she moaned breathlessly. He lays her on the bed, not caring about the plates as they fall on the floor. He takes off his shirt, capturing her lips in another kiss. His fingers running along her thighs, moving under her skirt. 

***

He remembers where he is and groans, seeing he is all alone in the room. He sees his erection and gets up to go and take a cold shower. 

'I need to sort out my feeling now.'

[void-tiger]

Tagged by @curiosity-killed (thanks for the tag!!)

roses or daisies:

DAISIES!!! They’re so simple and cheery have just as many colors and look delicate but are actually really tenacious? Also, how charming is Day’s Eye (and asters in general having the habit of facing eachother if they’re not turned towards the light--I think I have a picture of dahlias doing this from last autumn--and like. Star Flower. Okay, I’ll shut up now xD )

classical or lofi:

...okay so I admit I had to look this one up. But easily some of my favorite tracks are those Hidden Ones that bands plop onto their albums to fill up leftover space, but are often basically just scrapped recording or practice sessions? The bloopers and their creative process, basically. Cut to me googling and youtubing it and finding hiphop lofi and...yeah! Definitely Lofi.

(Classical vs OST and Modern Classical (that’s composed to be a lot more cinematic) just...really puts me on edge. It’s too mathematical...to put it nicely.)

So...yeah. Slow beats and something that sounds experimental or like a jamming session? It’s soothing and kinda ideal for background noise.

sunrises or sunsets:

Sunset. One, never ever gonna be a “morning person”. Forget it. Two, sunsets often have more dramatic colors and still make the landscape glow and you get to see stars peeping out vs fading. Also, y’know. I’m actually awake to appreciate it vs groggy and legit physically ill.

honey or lemon:

Honey as a condiment. Lemon for sweets flavor. (Baklava’s probably the exception...then again I haven’t had that many honey-flavored sweets, I guess? But Lemon-Poppyseed?? Definitely one of my favorites,)

coffee or tea:

Coffee. I adore tea service aesthetics and will someday probably collect them (especially the really quirky or earthen or blownglass ones vs the froufrou european ones)...buuuut, I just haven’t really had A Good Cuppa Tea much at all. There was this spiced tea I’ve had in Jordan that was AMAZING and I do like greentea (with...A LOT of sugar or honey...) but. I’ve just never really had tea. My family’s coffee drinkers, so the smell of coffee is nostalgic. (And yes, I’m basic enough that I prefer flavored, sweetened creamers; and my coffee brewed or spiced with, like, cinnamon and nutmeg, too. Or as a mocha.)

...I also have a Bad Habit of abandoning my Herbal “Teas” with the bags either left steeping too long (I have gotten better at using a timer) or while waiting for them to cool. And while I’d just really love it for Uncle Iroh to make me tea (provided he doesn’t get on my case about wanting sugar and maybe cream), the Times and Temperatures are just so dang fussy!! I...don’t think I have the patience for that.

enemies to lovers or friends to lovers:

Friends to Lovers. I just...don’t Get It with the sexual tension~ that seems to be the driving force behind enemies to lovers...I guess?? (That, and unless it’s literally on a battlefield, HARD PASS. I’ve had people try to blow off my complaints about getting repeatedly tormented as “he liiiiiikes you~” bullshit to ever be comfortable with it as anything but Legit Two Sides Of A Battle/Political Conflict. Sorry.)

But, Friends to Lovers? That Bond. And then the ...Oh. The domesticity and trust and safety. Also it is RIPE for Idiots to Lovers mutual pining xD

(bonus points if both parties decide ahead of time, “hey. even if dating doesn’t work out I still value your friendship in my life, so no pressure about ‘ruining things,’“ And then, of course, it does work out and there was nothing to be anxious about, after all.)

rainy days or sunny days:

...cop out but, overcast days with Soft Sunlight and Cloudbreaks?? I do like a clear skies sunny day, but, my eyes are also so sensitive to light that it can be painful. Rainy days can be soothing...but the rain has to be A Certain Way. Too heavy and with too much wind behind it and it can get me anxious. (My childhood home had Every Rain is Severe Weather...with no place to shelter. It’s gonna take awhile before i can appreciate it like i’d want.)

jupiter or mars:

Jupiter. GIANT. DEADLY. MARBLE (that wants to eeeaaat meeeee...) Also Pluto, and the jovian moons.

aphrodite or athena:

Athena!! She’s an ace icon, aight?? And also strikes me as...very, very Tired with everyone’s bullshit. Also...all the greek gods are kinda assholes. So. Yeah. She ain’t perfect and her characterization’s at the mercy of whatever myth in question, but generally she strikes me as practical and sensible and having Mercy...sometimes. As much as that group is capable of it, anyway...

rome or greece:

...probably Ancient Rome as a “ancient culture to explore but a YIKES (but. so is ancient greece.)” But visiting IRL in the present? Greece.

sun or moon:

Moon. I appreciate what the sun does and I do like feeling sunlight and all that...but, I’m also a night person. And I can look at the moon without risk of blindness and admire its corona and that rainbow corona you can see just a bit further out if you know where and how to look. BUT. The moon easily loses out to a starfield, especially if the light pollution and humidity are both low enough that ya get to actually see the milky way’s galaxy arm. (The irony that the sun IS our local star does not elude me.)

1920s or 1990s:

...neither?? 90s only slightly win out ‘cause I’m a ‘93 Kid and the 90s and 00s had some incredible toys and cartoons. And, idk. I still like overall pants and shorts. Always have. While a flapper dress would be “oooh pretty! starlight beading! Now OFF. Back to regular clothes for ‘Sporing or Comfy Lounging.”

blizzard or thunderstorm:

Blizzard. Also. Have you considered...thundersnow??

(Admittedly? I’ve also never been through a snowstorm that threatened by health&safety. The same cannot be said about thunderstorms when nearly every one could or would spawn tornados and severe straightline winds that could knock down trees and powerlines and sometimes even damage homes. While living in a home with NO safe place to shelter. Not even an interior closet or bathroom. NOT. FUN.)

midnight memories or made in the am:

...what?? [googles] ...OH...they’re...albums. UH. Neither?? (I don’t listen to them...?)

sage green or vanilla white:

Sage green. It’s kinda a nostalgic color somehow? Also. Just not a fan of monochrome...at all. I see it? I instantly want it to be a backdrop. Negative space. For COLOR. (jewel tones for whites/light neutrals and browns; NEONS for blacks and dark greys. Preference for Jewel Tones over Neons...wait. What was the question again??? OH YEAH..uh... I do like vanilla icecream? With rainbow sprinkles. Or...paired with hot fruit pie or cobbler. Or cookies. Um...yeah I should prolly shutup now. xD )

folklore or lover:

...I don’t...understand??? But...I like Folkslore as in...folklore??? Fairytales, Legends, Myths... (also, so frikkin ace I’m just. not ever gonna pick “lover”)

croissant or macaroon:

...why would you do this to me. I make a beeline for croissants because...Soft Flaky Buttery Bread. And they are So Good as a savory sandwich sorta thing. Easily better than english muffins or crumpets, tho biscuits have a fighting chance. But LIKE. Soft breads. My weakness as a kid.

...but a good macaroon?? It is so light and crisp and TINY and like?? how does it taste like coffee??? and berries????? (Too bad they are So EXPENSIVE. While even cheap croissants are almost always Good.)

ballgowns or pantsuits:

I like the aesthetics of a ballgown. But never the pricetag, I wouldn’t wanna live in that thing for more than an hour, tops (and. so much damn work!!) and I’m stuck looking at them Defying (boob) Physics and just...dying a little inside. With my rare It Pretty Want Pretty wilting with it. But...it’s rare that pantsuits really...look like anything. (They also look uncomfortable and yet another Wardrobe Disaster and Do I HAVE To??? if I think about...actually wearing them. But, Legs Free No Tripping...I guess??)

hades or zeus:

I only wanna EVER meet Zeus if I get to castrate the bastard and lock ‘im up where he’ll NEVER get back out. Hades, tho...I’m WATCHING you, Bub. (Why yes, I agree with Demeter on this one.)

platonic love or sensual love:

Platonic. Cuddling and Kissing are technically Sensual but, y’know what? They ain’t exclusive to sexual or romantic loves (and I just. really do not want kissing at all. MAYBE a quick kiss on the forehead or fingertips but LIKE. That’s it. And it’s cute af for...literally ANY Love Type.)

light academia or cottagecore:

Honestly? A mix between the two. Cottagecore with my charming little home with its overgrown flowerbed of wildflowers (and asters! All the asters) and produce grown in large pots or hanging baskets...and inside the walls are covered with overflowing shelves of books and knicknacks and other Neat Things. Oh, and naturally a tea service (might not actually have tea in it...) and tons of pillows and blankets, and lamps and lanterns Everywhere for warm and soft (and colorful) light to read by while music plays softly in the background. And the home smells like something I just made for Supper or Snacks, or like a food-scented candle.

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Aaaaaand tagging @mckinlily @headspacedad @aairachnid @synergetic-prose and whoever else wants to play! No obligation to play if tagged.

[lesbiancarat]

Yay!! Im happy to hear that! Hopefully you can rest up well from your semester!

Ahh by that I meant like you know how kpop albums have concept pictures included? Thats how I view what the TTT magazines are just minus a physical disc cx sorry for the confusion!! Honestly this is all so new and interesting, seventeen never really done something like this. Yes we had mixtape songs but not in this way so promotion will be different. I saw wonwoo and mingyu are doing a song but that isn't related to spider so that means its like jun's and minghao's songs. Which makes things a bit confusing lol, not complaining since hey more content for us ^_^ but yeah guess we have yo see when the next solo actually is. Oh and seventeen coming back!! This is the kind of news I needed, I'm shocked they actually have their own usa site to buy stuff (sort of like nct has) because I know bts nor txt don't. Well bts USED to but that was before bighit decided to shut it down in favor for weverse which sadly I don't see the need for (plus call me old and weird but I don't trust buying stuff from apps? Like I feel a bit more comfy on a computer which Ik doesn't mean its not safer but meh, apps make me fishy lol) also Walmart is selling the albums, bless my family uses Walmart alot (like we used it last night xD) so maybe I can squeeze it in next time? Granted I want to wait for the concept photos first because while I do like a surprise, its also just nice knowing what the vibe is. Or be the complete opposite of what the mv will be about lol.

Ahh as much i was being hopeful and had her eat, sadly my bunny didn't make it =c she passed away on the weekend. She was a strong bunbun, she tried her best to make it out but alas she didn't win. I'm a bit happy my gut instinct told me to spend time with her because at least I got to be with her for her last hour. It kinda sucks because I feel slightly guilty because I couldn't get her the proper help so I feel like I let her down (especially after I found out from reviews the food I bought for her is actually not good for bunnies and can cause problems so I feel dumb) I shouldn't since I gave my bunny the best love I could give while caring for her so she wasn't in a bad place with me. Still can't shake that off, feels weird not waking up and seeing her around or like when I play games she isn't near me chilling. Healing takes time of course so I'm making myself busy with enjoying content from my favorite artists. I made a lil promise that I would finish a game that I played alot while she joined me (it sounds silly but I viewed it as like "our game" ya know?) For her in memory. Sorry for babbling about this bsksbsjd. Losing a pet isn't fun at all. I am so sorry about your cat *hugs you* im sure that furry buddy was well loved!! If I may ask of course, do you have a favorite memory of your cat? Like any funny moment or cute ones?

ahhh ok i get what you mean! it will definitely be interesting to see how it all plays out since SVT haven't done a project like this before. I'm really curious how spread out all the solos are going to be. esp with a cb coming up it seems unlikely we'll get a TTT solo any time soon? but then again SVT are always surprising us these days. but i wonder if they'll come out just whenever a member happens to prepare it or if it's all scheduled out at semi regular intervals 🤔

but yeah it looks like bittersweet is part of the power of love project as opposed to TTT... it's getting complicated real fast! and yeah SVT is definitely expanding into/focusing more on US promotions now... it will be interesting to see how it all plays out! but i totally get what u mean about preferring to buy things on the computer it's funny how that is sometimes djfkgj i had been thinking about preordering the other day since it seemed like we wouldn't be able to pick the version we want anyway, but now that there are some shops that let you i definitely want to wait and see the teaser photos. every day i keep expecting them to start releasing but we get a different surprise instead OTL

I'm sorry to hear about your bunny :( but it's good that you were able to spend time with her at the end, I'm sure it made her feel safe to have someone who cared for her by her side rather than being alone <3 try not to feel too guilty about it, since what's done is done and there's no way to know for sure if it was the sole reason for her failing health. it's good that you're able to recognize and work through your grief, and i think finishing that game is a great way to do that and to honor her memory :')

and thanks, we lost her a little while ago now so luckily thinking about her is more nostalgic than sad. but as for a funny story Riley was a gremlin. she got up on the counters and kitchen table a lot when we weren't looking. she also liked eating paper and we had to be careful where we left things bc once she ate my sister's homework. which, ok, she didn't eat the entire paper but she did eat a corner of it and sort of ripped and crinkled the rest. i can't remember if my sister turned it in like that or if she had to redo it djgkgj

here's a picture of the frame/shadowbox thing my mom made for her after she died with photos, her collar (which she hated and hardly ever wore dhfk), and her favorite toy ;-;

also u didn't ask but here's my other cat liberty from a few days ago :P (she's getting older and has arthritis and kidney issues but she's still alive and kicking!)

[dearophelia]

Lol duh. Gonna ask about Dropsonde.

I adore you. I’m gonna answer them all because I’m that person. Also includes 6-8 for @swaps55! Thank you both!! [dropsonde (singers in a lower choir remix)]

1: What inspired you to write the fic this way?

For the original? I think it was a half-baked scene that came to me while I was on vacation in Florida. I remember scribbling it down in a notebook and then going to town when I got back home. I threw a bunch of time-skips in there because, frankly, I didn’t want to write small children. I do not blame 2007 Sara for this. She was a wise human.

For the revamp? A cascading domino effect started in last October and resulted in my mental health going entirely sideways for eight solid months. Literally nothing was working to screw my head on straight again: not meds, not therapy, not yoga, not getting my sleep and food under control, literally nothing. I think it was around early June when I realized the hallucinations weren’t going away this time (and perhaps had never really left) and I hit the end of my rope. Luckily, my great pal Aly texted me out of the blue with the fact that she’d fallen face-first back down a Grey’s black hole. We got to talking about our various fics we’d both written, how nostalgic we were for them, and I re-opened the OneNote notebook I had for this. Started writing, didn’t look back.

I'm not gonna say that I’m stable again as a result (I’m really not), but I’ve written like 30k words in the last three weeks, which is the most I’ve written since August of last year, and it’s something to do and think about that isn’t pure doom and panic. It makes me happy, and makes me happy in a way that doesn’t include caveats or exceptions; there’s nothing else in my life right now that’s just happy. It’s helping.

2: What scene did you first put down?

For the original, it was the one at the beginning of (the original) chapter 2, where Addison’s finishing up Goodnight Moon for the nine-hundredth time. For the remix, it was the actual opener: where Addison finds someone else’s shoes in her apartment.

3: What’s your favorite line of narration?

Later, when the snow has turned into rain and they've even managed a round three, Addison curls up against his chest, tangling their legs together. She smiles. She'd been using dead reckoning to make it out of her storms her entire life. Now she has a lighthouse.

4: What’s your favorite line of dialogue?

"Your storm is a natural disaster. It's chaotic and wild and unpredictable and often the only thing I can do is hang on. But that storm brought me you. That storm brought me love and a future I didn't see a path to." His fingers coast across her bare shoulders, mapping constellations out of freckles. "And if I'm the lighthouse in your storm, then I promise you to stay standing and lit, because I need you to know the way home from your storm, Ads. To me."

5: What part was hardest to write?

I remember the original sort of effortlessly flying out of my fingertips. What’s been challenging about the rewrite is filling in all the little gaps the original left; writing the spaces between the facts. Don’t get me wrong - that has been fun as hell, but also challenging because I have to remember the voices of these characters I haven’t checked in on in over a decade.

6: What makes this fic special or different from all your other fics?

IT’S MY WARM COMFY BLANKET UNIVERSE. It also...it does not have a plot. There are pieces of plot to it, but there’s not an overarching plot or anything. It’s not a mission, it’s not a rescue, it’s not anything that has plot-based structure. It’s just life. I hate plot, I hate it, it’s the worst. This lets me write shit in a world I like and not care about what happens next because life just be like that sometimes.

7: Where did the title come from?

2007 Sara was an idiot and really liked formatting her chaptered fics by snagging an album and making each chapter title a track on the album. Even if the album didn’t remotely fit (even better if it didn’t, because she thought she was such a musical snob. she was not. she was full of crap). “dropsonde” is an album by the trance group Biosphere (and I hate it. I think I hated it back then, too). It’s also a hurricane tracking tool. So that’s a weird legacy to have to work with.

The revamp’s remix title comes from Leonard Cohen, because 2020 Sara is a pretentious asshole and owning it. Book of Mercy 1: In a transition so delicate it cannot be marked, the court is established on beams of golden symmetry, and once again I am a singer in the lower choirs, born fifty years ago to raise my voice this high and no higher.

That line gives me so much life and hope: I don’t have to try to sing higher. I don’t have to reach for other octaves, I don’t have to try to shove myself into a space that isn’t Sara-shaped, and in fact I should not. Because I was born to sing in this Sara-shaped choir and it would be insulting to myself and to the creators to insinuate that this Sara-shaped choir was not made for me. The space you inhabit is holy because it is yours. As much a reminder for me as it is for the characters.

8: Did any real people or events inspire any part of it?

I don’t think I grabbed anything from actual reality? I may have. Especially in the original prequel/second part/whatever we’re calling Shenzhou, when I was grasping at straws for ideas and wrote a few really random scenes just to fill up space.

9: Were there any alternate versions of this fic?

Not of the fic itself, but this Rachel Montgomery is definitely the same Rachel Montgomery in gonna set your flag on fire. 

10: Why did you choose this pairing for this particular story?

Because it was 2007, I was writing fic instead of doing homework, and Addison/Alex was very much about to become a thing after being teased for a whole fucking season. Missed opportunities: the goddamn ship. I’m still mad.

11: What do you like best about this fic?

It’s fun. It makes me happy. And I don’t care about what anyone thinks about it - there are no expectations, I’m not trying to live up to “oh god I hope it’s good enough for so-and-so” (which, yknow, is bullshit anyway, but is how my brain was working on gonna set your flag on fire). It’s completely free from strings. So I can do what I want. Who cares. 

12: What do you like least about this fic?

It’s real fuckin’ long and I’m real fuckin’ long-winded. I’m about 30k in and Rachel’s not even one yet. Hot yikes.

But, on the plus side, as part of the “who gives a shit, do what you want” mentality, I’ve broken out of the “oh god I have to write the other side of this, I have to keep x topic going.” No, no I really don’t. It’s an Addison story, it’s always been an Addison story, I just didn’t realize that 13 years ago. It’s an Addison story and everyone else is window dressing that can come and go as the sun requires it.

13: What music did you listen to, if any, to get in the mood for writing this story? Or if you didn’t listen to anything, what do you think readers should listen to to accompany us while reading?

oh boy, here have an eight-hour playlist

14: Is there anything you wanted readers to learn from reading this fic?

plot is overrated. write what you want.

15: What did you learn from writing this fic?

I learned how much I’ve improved as a writer in 13 years. Part of this experiment was to shut down the “you’re not a good writer, you suck, no one likes you, everyone’s just tolerating you” voice that has plagued me for my entire life and got a lot louder at the end of last year because of Reasons. That voice is still trying really hard, but it doesn’t have much of a leg to stand on when I can point to a scene I wrote in 2007 and then the exact same scene written in 2020 and see just how much better it is now.