#also i hope you're doing well jaz!!

[killerandhealerqueen]

It's Love Letters Night! Send love and positivity to some of your favorite writers and bloggers!

@hyperbolicgrinch Jaz!!! You truly are my hype woman no matter the fandom and I am so grateful to have met you when Killer and Healer was airing because honestly, you really brighten up my day. Also, I really like your writing, even though we may not be in the same fandoms, and starting the ✨ weekend wip exposure club ✨ with you and Holly was so much fun

@theotherwhybietoldmeso Holly! My beloved! I know we only became friends this year but I am so grateful to have met you! You and Jaz are truly like the MVPs for dealing with me during this time of f1 hyperfixation (which I love, don't get me wrong) and hearing your nice feedback in the tags is always something to look forward to. Also, your fic ideas are so interesting and diverse and I love seeing the different fandoms you write for because of our ✨ weekend wip exposure club ✨

@clawbehavior Claw! My beloved! I know we're no longer in the same fandom, but it's always so fun to read your meta and tags and also see what sort of fanfictions you can come up with just from a simple post, drawing, or gifset. Your mind works a lot like mine creatively so it's so cool to see how your fics/ideas for fics come together and I'm always honored whenever you tag me in your fic ideas or come to me for advice with your fics. Truly so glad we met

@ahhhnorealnamesallowed Billie!!! Thank you for always being my sounding board for whenever I need someone to talk to about my fics because it's so easy to bounce ideas back and forth with you and you're always willing to be my second pair of eyes whenever I'm just fucking done with a fic. Also, thank you for always encouraging my ideas and for thinking that they're not too ambitious (because sometimes I worry that they are). So grateful to have met you when Killer and Healer was airing

@fourth-quartet Took! I know we really don't share fandoms anymore but it's always a delight to see you on my dash talking about things you're passionate about. Also, I really love your writing and will always support you in whatever you decide to write. I'm so glad we became friends when TDJ was airing

@kpopfantasywriter Jiejie! I know I haven't really come to you with fic ideas like I used to, but it's always so much fun to brainstorm fic ideas with you and it's always fun to read your little snippets that you sometimes post to the discord (I'm also very honored to be an OC in your fic, it's a lot of fun). Thank you for always sending me fic ideas/prompts and talking about fics with me, both on here and in the discord. I don't remember when we met but I'm really glad we became friends and have the relationship that we do

@dangermousie Mousie! I know you're not a writer but my god are you one of my favorite bloggers, I love your meta on different dramas and I feel like I'm watching them through you, which is a lot of fun because I get exposed to dramas that I would never actively seek out myself. Your commentary is also so fucking funny and makes me snort because I'd probably be saying the same damn thing too

@seonghwacore Ann! My baby! I know you don't write as much anymore but you are one of my favorite gifmakers and calling you my friend and my baby is like...just everything. Your gifsets for Killer and Healer were (and still are) legendary and your skills have only improved for Ateez and I'm proud to watch you grow. You're doing great, sweetie!

@nineninepetals Nine! I know you're not online as much anymore, but you deserve to be on this list and get this notification because I need you to know that you were and still are one of my biggest Killer and Healer cheerleaders and getting comments in my inbox both on here and on ao3 from you with a full on book report of your reaction to my fics is just...everything. I miss you and hope you are doing well and just know that I'm always thinking of you and I hope you come back to us one day

@marulo Maru! I also know that you're not online as much anymore, but I just wanted to let you know that I love you and miss you and hope you're doing well. You were also one of my biggest cheerleaders for my Killer and Healer fics and were always so supportive. I hope you're doing well and please just know that I miss you and I hope you come back to us one day

@evil-moonlight Jin! Of course you're on this list too! You're always so supportive of my fics and you're also just my biggest cheerleader in general and I really really appreciate you. Your writing is also super good and I hope you write more because damn girl you made feel things

@tytangfei Jina! The one who got me into Killer and Healer! Thank you for doing that, honestly, because that drama truly has changed my life and writing fanfiction for them as been both an honor and a dream. Also, your gifsets for Killer and Healer *chefs kiss*. Truly. They're the reason I got into the drama in the first place. Also, your writing...I hope you write more for them because your writing is so good...

@bestbuds55 Dana! I couldn't forget you too! Your writing is so good. I re-read your Killer and Healer fics all the time but have never dabbled into your Hannibal ones so I need to do that because the premises for them sound so interesting so I know I'm in for a treat

@mishathewtf Mish! Can't forget you either! You truly brighten both my dash and the discord both with your hilarious Killer and Healer memes (truly I think I've spat water while looking at them) as well as your other hyperfixations. Also, it's so fun playing those different games with you over discord because 1) they're interesting and something that I'd never actually play on my own and 2) they're just fun to play with others. Also, I have to thank you for being willing to put on LEGO Lord of the Rings over discord to help me calm my super bad anxiety...it really meant a lot and I know I told you at the time, but...I still think about it sometimes and it warms my heart

@sunriseverse Corset! Of course you're on here too! I love talking with you about fics and listening to you rant about your sunrise verse and honestly the work that you put into that thing is just...mind-boggling. It's so cool, honestly. Also, I love your fics for Couple of Mirrors and I'm so glad you wrote them because they are some of my faves (cuz I love that drama). Also, sending fic/writing questions back and forth to you is just so much fun, I love picking your brain about writing

@okifyouinsist Girl, I couldn't forget you. I know we've only been mutuals for such a short time, but you really have become my cheerleader in the f1 fanfic world and that really means a lot that you get so hyped over my little snippets that I post. I hope that our friendship can strengthen and that we'll be friends for a really long time

@friendlynbhddevil Sammy! I know we only became friends recently, but your love for Killer and Healer is almost as unmatched as mine, like we truly match each others freaks when it comes to those boys. I also love seeing you lose your mind over Beyond Evil cuz I too lost mine damn mind over that show...ugh, I'm just so glad we're friends. You really do brighten up my dash

Also, I know there are so many others who I'd love to put on this list, but then I'd practically be listing all of my mutuals so if your name is not on this list, please just know that I love you, I think about you, and you make my life so much better because you're in it

[macaroni-rascal]

I was too tired yesterday to do a recap but then again, I have so. many. thoughts., so let's do this.

I didn't watch the jr men free, I bailed as soon as I heard Michael Buble. I like Adam Hagara the most of this batch of boys, something about his fundamentals gives me hope that he can only go up from here. The rest will probably get lost in their nations' deep fields, which is a shame.

The jr women were a veritable jewelry box full of the most precious gems and I can't wait to see them sparkle over the next decade or so. They were hands down the highlight of the weekend for me. And overall they had age-appropriate material, which I really appreciated.

The jr dance FD event was way messier than the RD and far less inspired. Kiliakov Jr. is a very good skater but his parental units belong in jail for this Duchesnay knockoff, I've only ever heard that stupid flute against my will. The winning Americans moved and skated really well, but it was to the melody and not the beat, which defeats the whole purpose of ice dance. Another egregious example of this elsewhere is Gauthier/Thieren's Woodkid. Nevertheless, it was nice to see skaters from different schools all do so well and have good basics. Btw, who knew the Canadian jr field was held together only by the strength of Noah's knee ligaments? Poor kid, I hope he can recover because Jordyn is so phenomenal.

Ava and Yohnatan are such diamonds, their skating makes me so happy and I hope they have a smooth transition into senior in a few years. Jaz and Kiki have amazing chemistry, but Oakville has been sending out these jr pairs that lack half the elements and it's been so nerve-wracking to watch. Idk, maybe send them to Milton a couple of times a week to get jumps? Also, ouch, what a rough skate for the little Flores sis, it all looked so painful. But omfg, the Georgians. I didn't think anything could be worse than their short, but I've seen their FS and their exhibition now and all I can say is WTF. Russia will round up its gay people but then send skaters out with the gayest programs imaginable with sense of zero irony. She can sort of pull off the theatrical dress but his outfit would blend in nicely behind a set of prison bars, which is where it belongs. That silly collar will haunt my dreams. And the little tiara? What if she flies head-first into the boards? Truly no sense of self-preservation whatsoever. Just a hot mess. And their ridiculous exhibition really took me out. Why was she dressed as an elf card dealer and why were her boobs around her neck? Did we really need to see this boy in his unmentionables? So many choices, so little sense. I loathe a gimmicky exhibition or program in general - if you're not H/B or Kurt or somebody like that, stay home.

Speaking of the exhibitions, I didn't bother with most of them, but the only ones who were able to pull off being playful without being cringe were Sara and Niccolo. G/F's exhibition looks like something C/B would do as a competitive program. And if I hadn't cancelled G/P already over their other material, this country-ass Woody and Bo Peep exhibition would've been it for me. But this is the same team that skated to Evita during an economic downturn when Paul comes from LatAm colonial money, so my expectations of them are so low as to be subterranean. And Ilia tripping on that stupid hat tells me that he needs to learn the first rule of ice dance: NO HATS!!! None - no elaborate headgear, no easily detachable hair accessories, no hair pieces heavier than the skater's head, nothing! Rules #2 and #3 are, naturally, keep your ass off the ice and don't mess up the twizzles. That's it. You'd think there'd be more to it than that, but no. A skater might think they're being innovative by putting excessive shit in their hair, but they're actually being dumb (as an example, watch Bobrova/Solovyev's OD in Vancouver and how their sailor hats kept sliding into their eyeballs). Btw, Ted saying that Kevin had an uncharacteristic meltdown in the free had me cackling - Theodore, that was exactly on-brand for Kevin, where the hell have you been? If anything, his recent consistency has been the anomaly. Smfh.

I guess the senior events will have to be a separate message lol.

I'm going to take your word on all of this, Fashionista Nonny, because I didn't watch any of the juniors, and I rarely, if ever, watch any of the gala. So I am going to defer to you and just say I agree with you across the board because I trust you implicitly.

[secretsandwriting]

ry the new episode of this anime that im obsessed with is releasing tomorrow and im just so excited about it that i have to tell someone

also how's apt hunting going? everything ok? I hope you're doing well hon<3

What's the anime?

I haven't been looking for an apartment yet because right now I have to pay for a psychiatrist and all that jaz so it will be a little bit.

Everything is decent I guess? My job is going ok, I'm looking at options to help my anxiety, and I'm going to my first concert in 15 days!!!

Anyways, I expect an info dump on this anime you're watching!!

[puppy-phum]

CHECK UP TAG ❤️

tagged by jaz @jazthespazz​ ♥ thank you and sorry am doing all of these very slowly for now 

how has your day been?

absolutely miserable bc my so didn’t even kiss me goodbye before they left to work in the morning :( they just abandoned me here :(( alone :((( the audacity (ok jk i get it that they didn’t want to wake me up at damn 6am for that, it’s sweet. they’ll be back in a couple of hours. they promised me extra smooches as compensation. am living the best life.) otherwise, just suffering with the heat. tho i am also just very happy that it’s warm. gotta soak it up when i can ^^

what was the last thing that made you smile?

watching ep 4 of Great Escape season 3 and seeing how delighted deng lun was to crash a car through a metal gate :’D they’re really going all out this season

what’s keeping you entertained these days?

uuuhh currently my so? we have been playing It Takes Two together (it’s very sweet and so much fun :’)) and then binging Teen Wolf half seriously (we actually started this during february and back then got through almost the first three seasons and now we’re in season 5. it’s fun and very light and makes us nostalgic about our teenage years. also i can finally say that i love stiles after learning who he even is). other than that, i’ve been watching the drama Time Flies and You Are Here which is very entertaining but also makes me want to pull my hair out 

if you are in some kind of quarantine/self isolation, is there anything you’d like to achieve in this time?

i am currently not, as you can probably tell from me meeting up with my so and their friend during this past week or so, but what i’d like to accomplish currently is a) finish my pingxie wing au oneshot (am close!) and b) make a drawing of liu yuning (i struggle hhhh why is his face so hard to draw??)

post a selfie! (if you’re comfortable with that):

sorry i am going to ignore this for now ^^’ i haven’t taken that many selfies lately. but i can share a pretty scenery bc i enjoyed the walk i took with my so the other day! they took me to see this dam and everything over there was so beautiful :’) i wanted to go walk on all the nice stones going across the river but my so very firmly told me no bc they were scared that i would fall into the water XD

as for tagging, i am going to go with: @jaecomments @psychic-waffles @humanlighthouse @fengqing @wuxien @epicwalrus and @xia-xueyi ♥ i hope you all are doing well :’) 

[askyuuandco]

Do you think the top part of a mermaid also tastes like fish or that they taste like red meat? Like would there be a solid line where the meat changes in their bodies or would it blend together? Could you make a surf and turf plate with one dead body?

Yuu: oh...oooohhhhhkkkkaaayyyy... OAO'///

Finn: I have...no words... =-= * is a predator but doesn't eat other mermaids*

Azul: you people are terrible >:( *prey aquatic mermaid*

Jade: just twisted >:/

Floyd: YOU PEOPLE ARE NASTY!!! D:<

Jaz: *flipped the Q&A Table over and leaves*

Yuu: Jaz don't leave...Jaz don't-

Jaz: *slams the door behind her*

Yuu: JAAAAZZZZZ!!!

Jaz: *opens the door back up*

Yuu: I LOVE YOU! <:D

Jaz: NO! I'M F***ING DONE! I'M F***ING DONE!

Yuu: no you're not!

Jaz: THIS IS BULL****!

Yuu: *trying to calm her down*

Jaz: THIS F***ING BULL****!

Yuu: omg

Jaz: WHAT IS THIS?!?! WHAT IS THIS?!??!?!

Yuu: now I'm stuck on the webpage! ;A;

Jaz: WHAT IS MY LIFE?! *slams her head on the wall*

Yuu: Are you okay?! <:0

Jaz: I CAN'T DO THIS YUU!!!

Yuu: WE CAN'T EITHER

Jaz: I CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE MAN!!! \;A;/

Yuu: WELL I CAN TELL YOU WHAT JAZ! YOU CAN GIVE UP NOW OR YOU CAN FIGURE IT OUT BECAUSE CERTAINLY CAN'T DO THIS WITHOUT YOU, AND I KNOW YOU CAN'T CERTAINLY DO IT WITHOUT ME! D:<

Jaz: I APPRECIATE IT...BUT LOOK AT WHAT WE'RE DEALING WITH MAN!

Yuu: JAZ!

Jaz: YOU GOT TO DRAW THE LINE SOMEWHERE!

Yuu: JAZ!

Jaz: WE GOT TO DRAW THE F***ING LINE IN THE SAND DUDE! YOU GOT TO MAKE A STATEMENT! YOU GOT TO LOOK INSIDE YOURSELF AND SAY WHAT AM I LOOKING TO PUT UP WITH TODAY?! NOT F***ING THIS!!! *pointing at the ask*

Yuu: Anon you better hope to God that the octo group doesn't find out where you live because they're going to destroy you

[skywalkin-in-the-papes]

Crazy Little Thing Called Love -BTTF Marty Drabble

This is a BTTF drabble in honor of Back to the Future Day from quite awhile ago. I love Marty so much and I've really been fangirling over him for the LONGEST time. So, here's a drabble about him and a character that loosely resembles me. Yes, the song is the title from a Queen song so obviously I don't own it. I don't own Back to the Future either. This one is a real cutie. I'm also going to leave it up to you to decide whether or not they've already sort of been romantically involved and OC just doesn't want to take those feelings further or they've never been romantically involved at all and Marty really wants to be with her but she's not really ready to be in a relationship. Reader's choice. :) I kind of wrote it that way so I hope you guys enjoy it.

"Hey, Suz!" My friend Natalie or Nat as we like to call her says interrupting my staring off into space. She snaps her fingers in front of my face bringing me back to reality. I gaze around the mostly quiet library as research for an English paper takes place.

"Huh?" I ask, turning my face back towards her.

"We were talking about going and grabbing milkshakes after school. Do you want to come?" she asks me.

"Ummmm..." I start to say before he catches my gaze again. He shoots me a smirk before moving in between the shelves to "research". I don't know what he's doing but it's certainly not research.

"Girls, are we researching for the paper on your era of literature that you were assigned?" Mrs. Edmonton, my English teacher asks me. I pull up Peter Pan in front of me, which I'm actually using as a part of my research paper, and pretend to be super busy with something.

"Yeah!" Nat says with a smile, "Susan here was just telling me all about how Peter Pan fits into the era that she's writing about." Her extrovertedness and ability to make up stuff on the fly has never ceased to amaze me. Jasmine or Jaz to those of us who she appreciates, comes over and sits down across from me. I peek up from my book for the briefest instant to smile at her and my gaze flicks to the boy avoiding Mrs. Edmonton in the book shelves for another second.

"What are you looking at?" Jaz asks with a humorless laugh.

"Huh? Nothing in particular," I say as I feel a blush creep onto my cheeks before pulling my book closer to my face. Jaz pulls it down and raises an eyebrow at me.

"Really? You're gonna try to lie to me?" she asks me before flicking her eyes over to see what I'm looking at. Or rather who.

The boy hiding away in between the shelves looks at me and shoots me a wink. I roll my eyes at him before pulling the book up to me and finishing down writing the thought that I had been working on. I hear Mrs. Edmonton getting on Natalie for not doing her work. She gestures to me,

"You would do well to pay attention to your friend, Susan. She's very good at the work that she does." Jaz rolls her eyes and kicks me under the table. I flinch and Mrs. Edmonton looks at me with a surprised look. Alexandria or Alex comes over and grins at Mrs. Edmonton.

"Hey! Long time no see!" she says excitedly to all of us before sitting down across from Natalie. The two of them exchange devious smirks.

"This is an English class, Alexandria. Please refer to me with more respect," she says and Alex laughs.

"Whatever ya say, teach," she replies. Jaz and I exchange annoyed and worried glances. Mine worried and Jaz's is merely annoyed. She moodily stabs the paper that she's writing on a bit harder with her pencil as she starts to write some notes down. Mrs. Edmonton leaves after reprimanding both Alex and Nat. Nat immediately whirls around to face me.

"So, milkshakes?" she asks and I sigh, "You know you can't stay in the house forever, Suz. That's not how life works. Besides, you always say you don't want to go and then you have a blast going."

"It's not just you and the milkshakes. I'll come," I say as I turn and notice him gazing at me as he's pretending to look at a book.

"Okay, for real," Nat demands, "What are you looking at?"

"It's not a what," Alex says with a mischievous smirk on her face, "But who." A huge blush floods onto my face and Jaz rolls her eyes. Nat perks up with interest and a huge grin appears on her face. I look to Jaz for help and she shrugs.

"It's your funeral," she says and I inwardly groan. These two are not going to leave this alone. They can't know.

"I'm gonna go look for some more books. Might be in the encyclopedias," I say as I walk back towards the bookshelves where he is hiding. I stop a little ways away to make it look like I'm actually looking for something.

"Finally!" his voice low and soothing breaks through the silence causing me to jump a little bit when he first starts talking, "Took you long enough."

"Can we take this somewhere a little bit more private?" I ask and he raises an eyebrow, "Marty, I didn't mean it like that."

"Uh huh. Sure," Marty replies. He starts to reach for my hands but I pull them away.

"Not here. Please. You know how I feel about these kinds of things and I don't want to get into trouble," I say and Marty looks like he's about to protest but he obliges anyways.

"Well, where should we go then?" he asks and my eyes drift up to the second floor of the library. Marty doesn't hesitate and takes my hand pulling me up the more concealed of the two staircases. I follow him as he quickly pulls on my hand to lead me.

"You know, Mrs. Edmonton was just telling Nat about how good of a student I was and now you're gonna go and ruin that," I say as we make it to the top.

"Why? We're just friends," Marty says, locking gazes with me.

Just friends, huh.....Well then.

"Then why are you holding my hand?" I ask him and Marty's gaze quickly flicks to our hands. He quickly intertwines his fingers with mine and pulls me closer to him.

"Because...maybe I like it there," he says casually. I start to pull away but he grabs on tighter to my fingers.

"Well, if we're just friends, why would you want to hold it in the first place?" I ask and Marty thinks for a minute.

"You'll get lost if I don't," he says.

"I'll get lost?" I repeat before slowly pulling my hand away from him, "Besides you know how I feel and you've been chasing after Jennifer Parker."

"Yeah but..." Marty starts and I look at him.

"There's nothing more to talk about," I finish for him before walking down the stairs. He grabs my hand again and our gazes meet before he lets go again. He sadly follows me down the stairs and goes back to whatever it was he was previously doing.

A week goes by and I'm out at Burger King getting milkshakes with my friends. Just as I sit down in my booth with Natalie next to me and Alex and Jaz across from us, I feel someone nudge my elbow. I look up just in time to see Marty shoot me a wink as he walks by. Nat shoves me playfully and hard about causing me to fall out of the booth.

"Nat," I grumble but she merely chuckles. Jaz looks across at me and shakes her head,

"I'm so sorry that you had to befriend the flirtiest guy in all of Hill Valley."

"He's not that bad," I say to try and defend Marty.

"He's not that bad..."Nat laughs out loud, "How come I don't know about your friendship with him? Does this mean it's a relationship?"

"Nat..."I say again after sighing, "We're really just friends. He really likes Jennifer Parker."

"Oh tell him to forget her. Why would he like her when he has you?" Nat asks, "How long have you been friends with him? The two of you seem pretty close."

"Does it matter?" I ask them, really wanting them out of my personal business.

"YES!" Alex says and Jaz shrugs looking at me.

"Like I said last week..."she starts and I sigh.

"I know...I know," I say, poking my milkshake and glancing over at Marty to see him sneaking glances at me. Funny how that works. He winks at me again and I resist the urge to roll my eyes. I smile up at him and I see him smile back at me.

"Just friends, then?" Alex asks, "I'll really believe you two are just friends when he asks you to the school dance." I resist the urge to laugh before taking a long sip of my milkshake. Checking the time, I realize it's starting to get late and I need to get home and work on homework.

"I'll see you guys later. I gotta get home," I say sadly.

"We doing this again soon?" Nat asks and I nod.

"Just let me know when you want to do it again," I say as I stand up and swing my backpack over my shoulder catching Marty's attention. I adjust it and wave at everyone before heading out the door.

Another week goes by and my friends continue to hassle me about Marty and I. Marty and Jennifer start to hang out together a little bit more much to my chagrin. I like Jennifer. She's super nice. I just wish she and Marty didn't click as much as they do.

Mostly because I've finally started to admit to myself that I have a humongous crush on Marty. I quickly sit on a park bench and wait for someone to come pick me up since I didn't feel like riding my bike to school. I'm feeling pretty tired today. I lean back against the park bench that I'm sitting on in the town square and I shiver involuntarily at the colder weather coming in.

"Mind if I sit here?" I hear a voice ask and I see Marty standing next to the bench. I nod and he sits down as close to me as possible and a smile creeps on my face. Another shiver hits me and Marty notices. His gaze goes from pleased to concerned and I shake my head.

"I'm fine. You don't need to..."I start but he quickly takes off his orange red puffy vest and hands me his jean jacket.

"I don't want you to be cold," he says.

"You know how much I love the cold," I say and Marty shakes his head.

"You're shivering," Marty says before placing the jacket on my shoulders. I sigh and oblige to his offer. Something about wriggling my arms through the sleeves of the jacket just feels right. I smile at him as I poke my fingers out the end causing him to smile. Marty gently rubs my back with his hand and I shoot him a skeptical look.

"Now aren't you going to be cold?" I ask him as I carefully pull the jacket tighter around me.

"No," he says with a smile and gently rubs a hand up and down my arm furthest away from him. I lean closer, allowing him to snake his arm over my shoulder and pull me into his side. He gently continues to rub it and a smile drifts onto my face as he holds me.

This all just feels so right. Me wearing his jacket and the two of us snuggling on a park bench. I lean my head against his shoulder and let out a happy sigh.

"How serious are you about liking Jennifer?" I ask quietly. Marty's gaze snaps to mine with a happy glint in them.

"You don't mean?" he asks.

"I do," I reply just as I see my dad start to pull up around the corner. Making sure he isn't looking, I quickly press a kiss to Marty's cheek. I stand up and start to walk towards the street to have Marty call out to me.

"Wait a minute...can't we finish this conversation? Do you really have to go?" he asks me sadly. I can see the saddened look in his eyes as I'm standing up to leave.

"Yes. Besides, you really want to have this in front of my dad?" I ask him and Marty sighs.

"No, not really. I just..." he starts.

"We'll talk...but not now. Okay?" I try to reason with him and Marty nods.

"Okay. But just realize that this is far from over," he says and I nod.

"I know. I think I would know better than anybody," I say, "Marty, don't worry about it. I kissed you on the cheek and you know I don't really do that....ever." Marty nods his agreement before standing up and moving closer to do just that. I pull away and Marty smirks at me.

"I'll return the favor when your dad isn't around," he says.

"That would be very nice but maybe not yet. I like to take things slow," I say before turning around and getting into the car, "I'll see you around."

"See ya," Marty says before getting on his skateboard and riding away. I get into the car realizing that I still have Marty's jacket on but my dad is already driving away before I can do anything about it.

The next day, I walk into school wearing Marty's jean jacket. Nat and Alex both shoot me surprised looks.

"Isn't that Marty's jacket?" Alex asks me with her eyebrows raised playfully.

"I was cold so he let me wear it," I reason, which was really the truth. I hadn't asked for it from him. He was the one who had given it to me.

"Yeah but, you're still wearing it," Nat says, tugging on the end of the sleeve. I pull it to me protectively.

"Maybe I like it," I say before gently rolling the sleeve over my wrist.

"Just like you like McFly???" Alex asks, raising her eyebrow suggestively and I roll my eyes.

"It reminds me of my friend," I state and Alex, Nat and even Jaz laugh at this.

"Right...your friend," Nat says as I feel my cheeks flush a pale red.

"Really, Suz? By the blush on your face, I can tell even you don't believe that," Jaz says as she gives the jacket sleeve a good tug.

Walking into history first period, which I conveniently only have with Nat and Marty, I hurry to my seat and try to move away from Nat to give myself some space. I love my friends, I really do but they can drive me crazy sometimes. Not saying Marty doesn't either because he does at some points in time. None of my friends are perfect but I love them all just the same.

Nat walks into the room and takes her seat next to this guy that she's kind of been pining after for the last little while. I can see her talking up a storm and I roll my eyes as I start to organize my notes and such to get ready for class. The tardy bell rings and Marty slips in just after. I raise my eyebrows at him. He sneaks in and sits in the seat behind me. I turn around and whisper,

"Don't get caught." Marty smiles at me with a wide grin.

"Nice jacket," he whispers casually and I roll my eyes.

"Would you stop that? I'm trying to keep you out of trouble," I whisper back before noticing that the lecture is about to begin. I turn around and get ready to take notes until I feel a light prodding on the sole of my shoe...until it becomes way more than a light prodding and an incessant tapping. I try to ignore it, pretending that I'm very busy taking notes and not paying attention to Marty's prodding. Finally, I can't ignore it any longer and I turn around.

"Can I help you?" I ask and Marty smirks at me before I turn back around and keep writing. As soon as the bell rings to end class, I hurry out with Marty right behind me. He keeps pace with me and I smile at him.

"Are you gonna stop ignoring me?" he asks. I nudge him playfully as we walk down the hall.

"Of course. I was never really ignoring you to begin with. I was just trying to focus in class," I say and Marty chuckles as we walk.

"But you weren't..."he starts to protest.

"Ignoring you? Yes. Trying to pay attention in class? Yes. Giving you the silent treatment? No," I finish his sentence and he shoots me an annoyed look before pulling me into a small alcove in the hallway full of busy students. We are so close that our noses are touching and I smile at him. The bell rings to warn us of class starting and I hurry out and towards my class.

"Hey.."Marty starts to whine but I shoot him a small smirk.

"We'll have more time for those kinds of shenanigans later," I say as I enter my next class, leaving Marty in the hallway to be tardy yet again. I'm really not ready to be in an official relationship. Marty, I know would like it but I'm not really sure I'm ready. That's kind of a lot to ask...especially out of someone who's as introverted as I am.

The rest of the day goes by relatively quickly even though it feels like forever. Marty tries to find me in between each of our classes and we walk to the classes that we have together. At the end of the day, we walk out of the school hand in hand. Marty gently squeezes my hand as we walk.

"So, I think everyone's going for milkshakes. Are you in?" he asks me.

"Sure," I say as Marty and I walk side by side. Once we get to a more empty part of town away from the prying eyes of Sergeant Strickland...I mean Principal Strickland, Marty leans down and quickly pecks me on the lips. I look up at him questioningly and he grins at me,

"That was me....returning your favor from the other day."

"So it was," I reply before leaning up and gently pressing my lips to his. He deepens the kiss and pulls me closer to him. After a few seconds, we pull apart and I smile at him. "We should probably get going," I say, "Everyone's gonna wonder what happened to us." Marty nods his head in agreement.

"Yeah, I guess you're right," he says.

"Keep this on the down low?" I ask and Marty shrugs.

"You know I can't do it for long," he replies.

"Can we wait before the whole school sees it? I kind of like keeping this between us for the time being," I say and Marty nods.

"Yeah...oh and by the way, don't worry about me and Jennifer Parker. I think I've found the right girl for me," he says with a smile on his face. I blush and take his hand as we walk the rest of the way to Burger King. The girls are already there and Marty and I walk in together, our hands still intertwined. Nat, Alex, and Jaz all look up with smiles on their faces at seeing us. Marty pulls me over to sit with him and I do as he wants. I see Nat, Jaz and Alex quickly pick up and pull up some chairs to the booth where the guys and I are at. Nat and Alex shoot me excited grins. Marty casually slings an arm over my shoulders and lays his hand flat against his jacket on me. I smile at my friends and mouth a silent "thank you" in their direction. These crazy little things that people do for this crazy little thing called love. I lean my head against Marty's shoulder, thankful for the friends around me and the boy sitting right next to me.

AN:/ Hope you all enjoyed that!!! That's the first time I've put out a drabble on Wattpad/Tumblr so I hope you guys like the style and that it works well. I might intermittently post them from time to time when I think I want to share one. I have one finished that involves Luke Skywalker as well if anyone would be interested in that. That one's a cutie too.

Marty is a character that I for some reason can really see myself with and he's just so adorable. I really like him a lot and I like the way that the personalities mesh when I write things together. His personality is super fun to write too.

Did I do okay with characterization? Did you guys like it in general? I hope it was pretty cute and fun to read. I'm hoping to just throw out some drabbles as I like them here and there. I wouldn't expect it all the time but from time to time....you might see one go by. :) These are more for me and a friend or two's private enjoyment which is why I've been writing them but haven't actually posted anything so here we go. Here's something everybody can enjoy!! I hope you like it..please feel free to drop your thoughts as you go. If you like this OC and you would like to maybe see her go through the trilogy with Marty (that would be the same character but she wouldn't necessarily be in this AU (so that way her first kiss can happen in something actually canon), please drop a comment saying so!! Thank you so much for reading and doing whatever it is you do (and yes, I count full out fangirling as a thing because I do it ALL THE TIME. )

See you around, friends

-Aisling

[nekomamiiz]

hey izzy<3 24, 32 and 50 for the ask game please!

hola jaz :) thank you for these!! i hope you're doing well ilysm 💖 24. what are three places you want to travel?

i really want to go to italy, japan and spain. some honorable mentions would also be greece and thailand :))

32. if you could live in a fictional world, what would would you pick?

im about to go way back with this one but barbie in mermadia was my shit and i wanted to have a buddy like bibble so bad,,, but mermaids i mean c'mon im such a sucker for fairytales

50. what's your favorite kind of weather?

i love the winter time!!! rain, thunder storms, hail storms all of it, not driving in it tho, if i'm lucky i'll be able to experience all four seasons this year so let's pray for some snow!!!!!

be nosy hehe

[yostresswritinggirl]

hello hello, it's been a longass time since we've chatted but i hope you're doing well and all <3 (p.s: i was the first person to donate to your ko-fi for ur laptop actually HUEHUE)

if you're wondering how i'm faring, i'm already in my final sem of college and my exams are coming in 1 month followed by my internship sigh </3 (at least i'm getting paid though)

on the other hand, i have gotten ayaka and will now be patiently saving for cyno or a ganyu rerun </3

- jaz / kookie idk-

also i made a new blog but i think u already knew that hehe and is currently going through some series childe brainrot help-

OMAYGHAD THE IMPOSTO-//SHOT

KOOOKIE COME HERE YOU BOOTIFUL HOOMAN *BEAR HUGS* OMG THANK YOU SO MUCH I WAS WONDERING WHO THAT PERSON WAS, AND YOU WERE EVEN ONE OF THE PEOPLE WHO FIRST HELPED SPREAD IT AAAAA YOU ANGEL

I didn't know internship comes after college for you there??? Assuming that last semester means you're graduating, because I'm currently in my internship period and entering the last school year next month - but oh my goodness best of luck with clutching, I've seen the announcements of your exams and writing too! You got this and make suuure to keep your health in check okay! (Horimiya supremacy *sobs* even tho it ended already*)

I saw that one too, let's go more Cyno waiters!!

[catcze]

omg i just read ur reblog of xiao as a tattoo artist in a modern au & im ?18!:9:!:8:;&&::! i'm speechless and i used to have heavy brainrot of this too (like i wrote one fic about it in my old writing blog-)

& i don't think we've talked before but i'm too shy since you're really nice and all aksbdidjd but i do see you liking my works which do freak me out sometimes aaaa

but anyways- hope ur doing well hehe <3

- jaz / kazuhavo1r

kjsanas OMG hi Jaz !! <333

Don't be shy to talk to me aaaAA feel free to slip into my DMs / messages if u ever wanna 👉👈🥺💞💞

No but I'm super glad you like that little concept kajnsaksj I've been having such insane modern au Xiao brainrot recently so you're deffo not alone HAHA

Hope you're doing well also Jaz !! I hope you have a nice day 💞💞

[angelblumes]

food ment. Helllooooooo ugh would you like me to beat her up perhaps end up like her namesake, og mischa?(jk im not a (cannibal)) time to bust out the therapy voice tho , you will find your people and they will love you. Ok. ok wtf is happening? are we like the same person or something? wellbutrin buddies ❤ my room needs to be clean and moved the whole sha bang but I cant😔 life needs to be lived and such. I hope you arrived safely and happily and that everything is slightly better for you than it was last message and that you didn't get too carsick. my power went out today for like 3 seconds everything turned off everything , it usually takes alot for that to happen for my house just because its old and other reasons that I dont actually know. I've had a jam out session yesterday, it was so relaxing 😌 🙌 danced my little heart out to them guys I told you about. There's something abt the murders in hannibal that just does it for me... the artistry of it all. I love it when we talk outside of the 5 daily things too!!! hey, did you get that 'you're so mature for your age' as a kid or 'you've got an old soul' ? whats ur thoughts on that? I personally cant really imagine saying that to a kid maybe its a generational thing? ok 🙄😁 I like commentary ive been watching reactions? on youtube its a guilty pleasure, also I've been getting into some reality tv. Wife swap is crazy I love it alot and then the dating ones because ofc. whats one of the 1st reality show you remember watching and not hating? Honey Boo Boo and I Am Jaz (I think?) were my top two choices of reality. maybe a rewatch is in order for me. ok daily things um a guitar got brought into my house today i... its very.. it made me weirdly happy I love music and its instruments. thank goodness tbh my med were just a little later than usual, the pharmacy gave me emergency 3 days for they can figure out whats up because this is the second time we are having the same problem 😅 I had the best brownie of my life, it was store bought but like from the bakery fav dessert. I got this "new" shirt on so comfy, its tie dyed splattered different blues with an astronaut and nasa logo in white, its cute but also like 3? sizes too big (its a hand me down) dont worry abt the guy if a next time happens ill be ready for it 💪 it will go down, I personally know the man's family I will ruin his life if it comes down to it (we live in a town idk if it's small)or realistically just sic my family onto him. I found out my cousin has a gf now and is apparently very much happier than she was with her ex man (who made awesome cheesecake btw off topic tho) gay people stay winning, I did not know she was not straight tho so happy little surprise 😁 jeez its a lot of words uh I hope you're doing good and you had a good sleep and other nice stuff happen to you and you had a good trip🌷🤟🤙��

HELPPP u are an angel. thank u❤️. and right exactly. normalize thinking fictional murders are artistic or something . thinkin abt how i used to think criminal minds murders were interesting but never had the right words so i'd just be like "woah he *kills them weirdly*? cool"😭. BUT YEAH i did get that all the time omfg "ur so mature for ur age!!" like thanks it's because i have issues and problems 💀....hmm i hate reality tv HAHA. this gc i'm in was just talking abt wife swap the other day how crazy !! idk if i've EVER liked reality tv .... i like watching commentary abt it (like uhh cody ko's stuff) but watching it myself... nope😭. daily things lets see!!! i went to the baltimore aquarium:) i was exhausted tho. saw that a tiktoker i like (hello fem will graham cosplayers...) went there a few days before me. how funny! i wish we had met and fallen in love or something. i went to bed at 5pm yesterday and slept til 3am. then went back to sleep from 6am to 10am. i think my new adhd/anxiety meds are the cause. sadly. cuz they work! but by making me too tired to be nervous or start thinking too much🥲. i'm tired 24/7 already and thats not helping LOL! i had this fancy meal ok multiple fancy meals and it was really nice. i got chesapeake chicken (haha like chesapeake ripper am i right?!?) and it had crab but i'm crazy i'm crazy i didn't eat the crab. the texture was soooo bad. anyway at another place i got a burger bc i'm lame i don't eat seafood (besides shrimp. which i am allergic to.) and i ate almost the whole thing and my friends mom said she was proud of me😭❤️. i always feel so guilty after eating a lot and that made me feel good. i've started watching more vampire video game play throughs. what can i say. vampire masquerade: bloodlines did something to my brain where i like vampire games now. it's the same guy which is cool. i dont like finding new youtubers becuz i've never kept up w whose problematic or not... like what if i get really into someone and mention it and someone's like oh yeah he preys on women. wtf. like umm cry? is he a youtuber? is he evil? cuz i was looking for a pathologic gameplay and he had one and i was like hmm... he sounds familiar. he has probably done something ? maybe? mm lastly.... i read this hunger games hannibal crossover WEEKS AGO but it's just still on my mind. i don't particularly love the hunger games but it's only bc i don't really know a lot abt it. i enjoy it but i've only seen the movies and read the first book (until rue died. never picked it up again after that! i cried a lottttt) and there's like an absurd amount of hannibal crossovers. i guess bc hannibal would totally rule in the hunger games. like come on a CANNIBAL? the uh.. capitol? they'd go crazyyyy for that. the fic itself wasn't even that groundbreaking or anything i have a lot of criticism for it tbh but it opened my brain to the concept. i have another one opened in a tab but it's super long so i haven't made much headway. i want one where it's like.... the one where the old winners come back for a game! and then they escape😈. but in the one i read will and hannibal sort of just escape anyway in a normal hunger game. like ok cool but i don't think that's plausible. but then how would it work ? like could will win a game on his own? maybe i should write my own fic. but then i'd have to understand what happens in the hunger games /j. ugh ok i was thinking abt that one scene where idk they do the little hand signal thing and drag katniss away and go to shut the door like right as they shoot that guy in the head. THAT WAS SO CRAZY. or when katniss shoots the lady instead of president snow and then everyone just descends on him💀 i feel like there's a level of nuance and understanding that i just don't have so i say "woah! cool :)" i hope ur doing well too ily❤️❤️💗

[grison-in-space]

So one of the things that gets me about this is also that... Alaskan huskies aren't just any dog that can haul a sled quickly? They aren't even the only modern racing mushing breed! Eurohounds also exist, and while you can certainly get dogs with intermediate traits, there's a definite difference in type that clearly differentiates the dogs and their respective niches. You also have racing Siberian Husky lines still as well as the Alaskans, which seem to be thriving based on a recent hunt for racing Sibe kennels I went on to show a lady on the dog DNA Reddit sub the other day.

Besides, Alaskan Huskies are as genetically identifiable as any other dog breed; they're just not necessarily selected for physical consistency in coat color, ear shape, or head shape. Even if you are allowing theoretically unlimited outcrossing, selection for dogs that perform at a specific level in a specific way means that initial-stage crosses tend to get fed into the breeding pool through back crossing to parent breeds, such that you get limited introgression of new genes into the population. In practice, even without formal regulations and institutional control over outcrossing, breeders generally don't outcross without a plan for the offspring, and if the F2s aren't competitive relative to the original lines.... usually they never make it into the mainline breeding pool.

Bluntly, breeders breed to supply markets for their dogs. If there's no one who wants to purchase your Alaskan Husky/Shar Pei crosses because they're terrible pets, bite everything in sight, and can't move for shit... well, you can probably find some suckers to saddle the first couple of litters onto, but eventually your supply of puppies is going to outstrip local demand and you're going to have a whole bunch of dogs in your house, the keeping of which is extremely expensive in time, money, and effort, and you'll probably stop doing it or become a hoarding situation that requires intervention at that point. From a genetics long-run perspective, almost none of those Shar Huskies is going to stay intact around other Alaskan Huskies long enough to produce offspring that are competitive enough that someone keeps the dogs in the breeding population.

No individual breeder, unless they have dogs that are collectively viewed as valuable and high performing enough to generate substantial sustained demand for the dogs, is going to be able to swamp the communal gene pool single handedly. And if their dogs are that desirable, they're also going to be able to distort the gene pool of a closed stud book breed just as effectively--that's why popular stud syndrome exists!

IDK. Humans typically seek out predictability when we go acquiring purpose bred puppies. I think that a lot of the arguments about closed vs open gene pools are arguments about how we hope to shape general demand for our dogs in the future, so that we can ensure there is a large enough market for the dogs that we like to see that some of them are available for us when we are next ready to acquire a dog.

So I guess... Jaz, I know Dobes are really important to you, and I know you routinely talk to folks who breed lots of different lines in the breed and who appreciate different things in their kennels. I know you're ambivalent but generally supportive of outcross projects, although you're worried about losing the essential Doberman without a conservational focus. What do you think is essential to be a Doberman?

I know that if it was me, I would be very worried about losing behavioral type and predictability in the wake of a loose definition of type and magically opened stud books. The pet market is inarguably the biggest dog market that exists these days, and everyone I know that does Stuff with dog breeds frets about bench-line dogs that have a very predictable and consistent physical type but tons of behavioral flaws when it comes to working or sport ability. And because humans are humans, and because our modern world has changed its expectations on dogs substantially in the past decade, Dobermans particularly have undergone severe and sometimes contradictory behavioral selection in recent decades. It's hard to quickly evaluate a dog's temperament, and the breed specific institutions for doing so are far from perfect. It's easy to define "looks like a Doberman," but much harder to define "acts like a Doberman," especially in the moment.

IDK, man. We want the dogs we want. I suppose I'm mostly wondering how the presence of a larger pool of... call 'em "appendix Dobermans" bred as part of outcross projects might both shape and respond to public demand in the Doberman space. After all, litter sizes aren't infrequently ten pups a litter in these dogs; the market's gotta absorb some of it.

My inclination is to go further than allowing outcrosses. Throw out any notion of bloodline preservation. An Alaskan husky is any dog that can do an Alaskan husky's job, regardless of pedigree. A DP's job is to look like a DP, be trainable, be a well-mannered companion at minimum and a protector with the right training, and make puppies that take after it if so wanted--yes? Any healthy dog that fulfills those requirements should have the option to be called a DP, even a mutt off the street.

If you do not understand a breed's purpose I don't think you should be telling other people how their breeds should work, to be quite honest.