#also i feel so bad because i didn't take pictures of the gifts i bought Elliott so he and Tony and Emma never saw the gifts

[fazcinatingblog]

Alana Porter, who wears the same number as John Noble, gets to play her 50th game in the John Noble cup

[idv-sunsxin3]

Rody Lamoree // Random Dating HCs

{Dead Plate and characters belong to Studio Investigrave}

Note// He is like, 80% my type... I love him, though, dhdbdb I guess it's gn for s/o. I'm kinda a straight girl (who loves bl and yuri---), so sorry if I sound too straight./ih

•He is clingy, extremely affectionate, and touch starved... Relationships didn't end well with him because of that. But you managed to soften that by giving him plenty of love and attention when you both make time for each other. You can't say no to his puppy eyes;;;

•Can't cook for his life, is either you teach him how to cook or you both order takeout. If you do decide to teach him, he might fail miserably once in a while like injuring himself somehow or burn water--- he'll feel so bad that he is the reason you're carrying burden through the process but he'll sob more once he notices how patient, caring, and supportive you are while guiding him...

Rody// *sobs while looking at Y/N as if they're god*

Y/N // you okay there, babe?

•He'll die peacefully when he gets called pretty boy, Honey, hunny bunny, puppy, darling- no matter how cheesy or weirdly cute, it is Honey, him feel so giddy amazing 🥺✨️

•He is canonly buff and strong, so I can't help but imagine he is more than happy to carry you around on his shoulder or in bridal style to the point you don't even need to walk at all when he's with you/ih

•He'll compliment you a lot. He is your #1 fan. He'll quickly notice the changes in your appearance in one glance.

•New Haircut? Worshipping you right now. You wore something new? He'll take pictures of you in different angles, including selfies of both of you - red carpet material. You did your nails? Oh god, slay... Oh, what's this? A keychain you bought? That is so cool. He'll be so dramatic about it that it's so funny;😭

•Like man-- he's so supportive. Overwhelmingly supportive. He won't deny anything you decide and just support you till the end-- Like he's too in love to even care. He wouldn't even help but smush your cheeks together and say, "WTH WHY ARE YOU SO PRETTY AUGHHH;;;" (thx to the sketch Rachel made;;;)

•He'll usually respond to you whenever you text him - or even as soon as possible to respond back through letters. He always loves your voice, so there would be times he asks if you can call each other. Having him lean to the side of the wall as he is blushing by the soft whispering in his ear you make through the phone.

•He'll do all his power to spoil you with gifts and expensive dates despite being broke. He'll go the extra mile to always do something so special in your anniversaries.

•Even in Valentine's Day, to the point he may forget to treat himself... you gotta remind him that his birthday is your pride and joy. Like, it's the day god blessed you for letting a beautiful being like him spawn/lh

•HEAR ME OUT- I'm looking respectfully.... No one should deny that this man is pretty muscular ♥️ He is so bashful when you praise his strength. You would also have the privilege to touch his biceps or lean your head on his chest,,,(I swear I'm normal). Just the feeling of you tracing his arm, shoulder, spine, and chest makes him go crazy and so down bad -

•He won't stop talking about you once a question related to you comes up - the victim will never hear the end of it -

•Canonly when you date him, He'll give you flowers that are plucked out of the ground since he cannot afford to bye a prettier bouquet from a flower shop...

•When he's sad, you have to give him words of assurance or hold him close... You can even order any kind of fast/junk food, and he'll be so happy that you would do that for him😭🥺

•If you happen to be smaller than him, he would find the opportunity to hover over you and wrap you up with his hoodie or coat before pulling you to an embrace. Kinda like shoving your head inside the coat;;;

•Besides writing songs and playing the guitar for you, he would also try to sing for you if he wasn't so hella shy about it. hhh;(he sings surprisingly decently tho!!!)

•He loves having a bike ride with you- he once promised that if he ever affords a car, you'll always get the passenger princess treatment, no buts!!!

[nor-4]

Adoration

Bad writing

Grammatical errors

HAS SO MANY MOOD😭

Who loves to take pictures of you with the new outfits you bought, never in a day mike has missed a moment to take pictures.

He cannot sleep when he don't feel your touch, i just know he loves em skin to skin contact.

He loves it when you wear pajamas at home, it just hugs your ass perfectly andd it looks so cozy.

Another thing he loves is how you take care of abby it just awaken something in him seeing you have a motherly care for abby, especially the warm love you give just like when mike comes home late you scold him for going home so late. He has this tingly feeling when you show that you care plus when you scold him he wants to fuck the attitude out of your system.

He has them huge biceps so sometimes when you ask him to grab something on the shelf he just picks you up to get it.

Something about the atmosphere when he wakes up in the morning beside you, he just want to sleep for the rest of the day it makes him go feral.

Seeing abby being so comfortable around you like sharing everything that happened on her day makes mike so happy, he himself is having a hard time taking care of a child. The times that abby is having a hard time making friends with people in her age, you were there to keeping her accompany. Abby got so attached with you after hearing you defend her from her auntie who thinks she's mentally ill.

Mike always try to take a day off to take abby and you out, it was your suggestion because you're the only parent figure she had growing up.

About mike at first he's scared to even show what he go through. After you comfort him for the first time when you hear him cry he feels like the child inside of him is also getting the comfort he wanted when he was a child. Time by time he knows that it is healing.

He was so nervous meeting your parents, he is shocked at first when him nd abby are treated well by your parents especially your mother. Since they grew up their parents being shitty. Mike enjoyed going to your parents house every holiday, it feels like home for him to run when something went wrong.

He swears he will gift the whole world for you, it's his first time that someone stepped up for him when someone mistreated him at work. It makes him lose his job but it didn't really affect him, experiencing when someone actually caring for him is a rare thing in his life not until you came.

[before-it-felt-like-a-sin]

Could I maybe request LottiexFem!reader headcanons where reader is wayy shorter than Lottie? Just fluff and forehead kisses and reader being the little spoon.<33

btw- I love your work!! Keep it up.:]

Height Difference Lottie Matthews Headcanons

this is so fun and silly also tysm for the complement 😭😭

I'm so envisioning Lottie like using you as an armrest

Obviously you're like "screw you" but she does it anyways

The arm on your head is her go-to pose for couples pics too

She also constantly rests your head on top of yours because come on! You're the perfect height!

Whenever you want to initiate a kiss you have to like... drag her down or ask her to lean over

She thinks it's adorable but you hate it

Lottie used to be really insecure about her height, like especially when she thought she had to date guys

She didn't want to be taller than her boyfriend!!

But then she realized she didn't want a boyfriend

Even then she was like hm do I really want to be this tall

And then she met you and you were short as hell and like couldn't reach the top shelf at the grocery store

So now she loves being tall

Speaking of the grocery store...

The girl doesn't even let you TRY to reach high up

"I could've gotten that" "with a step-stool maybe" "fuck off"

You guys do in fact have a stool at your apartment for you to use when Lottie isn't home

She bought it because you kept standing on chairs and falling from them (from personal experience this is hell. I need to buy a stool)

You boycotted said stool in the beginning but eventually were like "okay this makes my life significantly easier"

Obviously Lottie is normally the big spoon

But sometimes, like if she's sick or had a bad day, you spoon her

It's almost comical

You're like a backpack on her because of the height difference

She appreciates the effort if not the delivery

Not height related but she braids your hair. She loves messing with it too. Like yall will just be standing there and then you realize you have like 7 tiny braids in your hair

Okay back to her being so hella tall

You definitely tried to give her a piggyback ride once

Needless to say that that didn't end up working out

If we're thinking like a more modern setting Lottie absolutely used her height to her advantage when taking 0.5 pictures of you

She had a whole album dedicated to them

The insta birthday posts are absolutely horrendous

If you ever wake up and Lottie's standing somewhere in your bedroom you're like "there's my sleep paralysis demon" for a second

And then you're like "oh whoops that's my tall as hell gf"

Also forehead kisses happen so often

Lottie thinks it's a pain to bend down to your lips every time she wants to kiss you

So most of the time it's like right on your hairline or just the top of your head

The amount of lipgloss in your hair is astronomical

Cuddling with her is so nice though because she's so much taller than you and you feel so safe with her

Like not only is she probably strong as fuck but she's also tall? Goddamn

Sometimes you lay on top of her like a weighted blanket and she's so here for it

She tried to do it to you once but it didn't have the same affect

When yall do dishes you wash them/unload the dishwasher and she puts the dishes away because she can reach the shelves and you can't

Around Christmas and your birthday she hides your gifts on the top shelf of your closet

Lottie's just such a cutie I love these

[haesunflower]

if you're still taking requests, could you do a zb1 reaction to the members accidentally breaking something really special you gave them (such as like a first date gift, or smth that you saved up to buy for them)? thank u sm!!

how i imagine they would all interact lol

₊˚⊹♡.....zb1's reaction to their members accidentally breaking something you gave them .....₊˚⊹♡

pissed (externally) : ricky

rightfully so, ricky is so pissed when he finds out a member not only has borrowed something without permission but has also broken it. usually he has no problems with members using his things, but he doesn't lend the stuff that you specifically gift him, like the expensive watch you gave him for his birthday

so when he finds the broken watch, he takes a picture of it and sends it to the groupchat asking "who the fuck did this". when he finds out it's gyuvin he has to be physically restrained by gunwook, because he has half the mind to tackle him. yeah....they'll be ignoring each other for a while after that.

but gyuvin apologizes everyday and eventually ricky got sick of hearing it. he even contributes a little to the repair fee but only ricky can truly afford to repair it lol.

pissed (internally): hanbin

he wants to get mad but hanbin can't because he's the leader. he already warned the kids not to play soccer in the room because they might break something...and true enough, not even 30 seconds later, they accidentally knock over the vase you got him

they send over yujin to apologize on behalf of the team (because they think sending the youngest would soften the blow) but hanbin doesnt say anything, instead, he just sighs and excuses himself to go on a walk.

hao gets mad at gunwook, gyuvin, and yujin on hanbin's behalf. literally nagging like a mom when he says "see what happens when you don't listen!!"

cries: taerae & gyuvin

taerae is actually so devastated when he learns that the guitar that the members borrowed during their reality show broke, the strings came off and it can't be repaired. he calls you, tears in his eyes, about how the members didn't take care of the guitar you gifted him like he thought they would.

he would only speak to the members when spoken to, and when the cameras are on. otherwise, it's the cold shoulder....scary...

later on, he finds out that it wasn't handled properly by the staff and he got an apology from the manager. after that, he went back to normal with the members, even saying "sorry guys i thought it was your fault ehe" and gyuvin screams "i told you it wasn't us hyung!!"

as for gyuvin, he's doing the dishes with yujin when the younger member accidentally drops the mug you both made during your first pottery class together.

his face is frozen like 😀as yujin says "sorry hyung, it slipped from my hands" and for the record, he DOES feel bad about it okay

especially when gyuvin is crying to gunwook, who is patting him on the back when gyuvin dramatically says "how am i gonna tell y/n it's broken, she loves that thing". ricky is trying so hard not to laugh at gyuvin's crying face, so gunwook pushes him away telling him to go elsewhere

silent treatment: hao

hao doesn't even speak to any of the members once hanbin delivers the news that some of their pets have used the plushy you gave him as a chew toy. he likes to keep the mangled plushy on his bedside table as a reminder of his anger.

he's petty and only speaks to the members without pets. it takes a while for the other members to figure out that he's been mad and giving them the silent treatment.

in an attempt to be peacemaker, hanbin suggests for the members involved to find an exact replica as a replacement. lol goodluck because you bought that in another country.

makes his members fix it: gunwook & yujin

it's hanbin that softly delivers the news to gunwook that the sweater you made him has shrunk in the dryer and he's like "excuse me what did you say hyung" 😶

hanbin gets ahead of him and explains to him all the theories he has in order to reverse it. but gunwook is good at science and helps them figure it out anyways, he gets peace of mind that way

as for yujin (not romantic okay), your joint art project was sitting peacefully in his bedroom when jiwoong accidentally knocks a can of paint on it. yujin is scarily quiet when he says "you're going. to fix that. right hyung?" and jiwoong cooly responds with "yeah yeah i will don't worry kid"

but for once, he isn't confident over something and has to wake ricky up in the middle of the night and bribe him to help fix the art project. ricky sighs but gets his painting materials anyways.

doesn't make a big deal out of it: matthew & jiwoong

he knows it's an accident, so matthew is so chill about it. i mean he's a little sad that the picture frames you gave him got knocked over, but so did the rest of the pictures on display – after they decided to set up the PS5 in the living room. though, he does ask hanbin if he could tell ricky off or something, since it was his idea to set it up on the mantle.

the tasks spills over to hao (who can't do it), so it spills over to jiwoong (who also can't do it, since ricky helped him fix his mistake)

to put it simply, jiwoong is unbothered because you are unbothered. if you were mad about it, he would be mad too. but you were there when it happened, and you watched taerae and matthew bicker over the lyrics displayed on the ipad you gifted jiwoong

in the midst of their argument, the ipad drops on the floor, screen shattering. all jiwoong could do is look at you, carefully awaiting your reaction. your face is like 😦 then 🤭 before you say "damn guys that was expensive"

matthew and taerae are spilling apologies as they hand the broken ipad to jiwoong for him to examine, only for him to look them straight in the eye as he removes the broken tempered glass – returning the ipad to them, as good as new "be careful next time, will ya"

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[thefallennightmare]

Miracle-eight

(gif created by me, the fallen nightmare. feel free to use, simply give credit)

Pairings: Noah Sebastian x Reader

Warnings/Tropes: forced proximity, slight enemies to lovers, slow burn, smut, angst, fluff, mentions of death, and swearing.

Summary: Reader is the merch girl for Bad Omens. It wasn't what she wanted to do with her life but when her mother got sick with Alzheimer's, reader took a job where she could to help with the costs. She thought it would be a one-time gig but the longer she was on the road with them, the harder she fell for Noah Sebastian; even if he wanted nothing to do with her. She needed a miracle to save her mom and her future.

Author Note: things are about to get REAL intense so buckle up!

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Holy shit, I give Bryan so much damn credit. He does this almost every single night and I've only been hopping around back and forth in front of the stage to get random clips or videos of the guys set for one night. At first, I was nervous to tell Bryan about my promotion because I felt as if I was stepping in his territory with taking pictures but he was ecstatic. Even offered to show me how to work the camera that I'd bought for my other content. I remembered how red in the face I'd gotten when he asked if I'd always been interested in photography when he saw the type of camera I had. Obviously I didn't tell him the real reason I had to buy it.

"It was a gift from an aunt," I lied.

My eyes glanced away from my camera over to Noah as he finished the last line of Like a Villian and snapped a few photos of him from different angles. I wasn't great at editing pictures, something else Bryan offered to help me with, but I still could tell what was considered a good shot.

I stood in front of the barricade and the crowd behind me screamed for the guys, absolutely thrilled that they could see them live even when the festival was canceled. It was the last-minute show that I pulled together and the small venue we were in was packed full of fans.

After our early dinner, before the show and after Noah fingered me under the table, we played oblivious to what happened. I hated we didn't talk about it because all I thought about while I was getting ready for the show tonight was if Noah and I were dating or if we simply were messing around. Even though I didn't want a relationship right now because of everything going on with my mom, I also didn't want us to be a casual hook up whenever one of us were horny.

I knew I needed to talk to Noah about this; it wasn't good to keep everything bottled up because it would only fizzle over before exploding. But the part of my heart that has genuine feelings for him was afraid of getting hurt if I found out he only had sexual feelings for me.

"How are we feeling tonight, Cleveland?" Noah asked the crowd.

Their screams echoed loudly around me as I took a few pictures of Nick before walking over toward Jolly to get a few pictures of him. I made a mental note to get back on stage to get a video of Folio drumming when Noah's voice stopped me in my tracks right to the side of him. I was on the floor but still only a few feet away from him.

"Before we play our next song, I want to give a shout out to someone special. She was the one who set up the pop up event earlier today and put this whole show together," Noah waved a hand around, showcasing the sold-out crowd.

The crowd cheered again as I gulped, not knowing where he was going with this.

A smile graced his face as he pulled the microphone closer to his lips. "She's someone that's been with us for two tours now and she's become a great friend to us."

I narrowed my eyes at him as ours locked.

"What are you doing?" I mouthed.

Noah ignored me, only giving me a smile and a small wave, even under the dark stage lights his eyes burned bright.

"You might recognize her as our merch girl but recently she became our social media ambassador so whenever you guys send us weird D.M's, just know she's the one reading them."

The crowd laughed at that, and I couldn't help but chuckle as well.

"But in all seriousness, she deserves this. Lets give Y/N a huge scream of thanks for putting all of this together."

Now the screams were deafening, and I tried not to sink into myself as people in the first few rows noticed me standing there. I gave a tiny wave to the crowd before snapping back over to Noah.

"Fuck you," I yelled up at him, no hint of malice behind it.

Noah winked. "You know if I'm being honest. I didn't think she could pull it off, so we made a bet. If she was able to, she'd get to design my next tattoo."

Some people in the crowd hooted and hollered at that.

"So if you see me with a tattoo of her name or some shit like that; that's why."

Before I could crawl into myself even more for having the spotlight on me, they started up into the next song, and letting my camera hang from my neck; I walked up the back of the stage up to the platform where Folio's drums were and watched in awe as he let himself go, being the beat that everyone followed. It was a true experience being able to watch him. I took out my phone to record a video of him to post on the Bad Omens Instagram story and when he finally noticed I was there; he winked after I took a few pictures of him with my camera, I walked down the stairs of the platform thinking of what I could get for the final shot of the night. I had a lot of close-up shots of Nick, Folio, and Jolly but none of Noah.

Biting my lip, I snuck up being him not to get in his way of performing, and as he sang the last few lines of Just Pretend, the lights in the venue went dark. The only source of light was from the flashlights of the fan's phones and seeing how ethereal Noah looked, I snuck up beside him to take two quick pictures.

He peered at me with a sideway glance as the corner of his lip lifted in a sly smile and once I was satisfied with all the pictures I took tonight I walked off the stage to the back. Noah, however, hooked a finger in the belt loop of my jeans and yanked me back towards him.

"Would you say I'm worthy?" he sang the last line, the lights fading around us.

I couldn't see anything in front or around me but I could feel Noah's presence behind me. His warm breath fanned across the back of my neck as mouth pressed gentle kisses there.

"Angel," he mused. "Do you know how beautiful you look tonight?"

His hands gripped my hips, and I shivered with his touch as he led us to the side of the stage where the rest of the guys were waiting. They would hang out for two minutes before going back on for their two song encore; Concrete Jungle and Dethrone.

I was turned in his embrace and saw the huge grin spread over Noah's soft features. Sweat glistened his body all over and his hair clung to his forehead.

Fuck, he looked so good.

My fingers raised to brush the hair back, but I stopped myself. Noah noticed, and he gave me a confused look.

"Everything alright?"

As much as I wanted to talk to him about us, I didn't want to do it before he was about to go back on stage.

"Yeah, you just took me by surprise is all with what you said."

"It's true," he shrugged. "Before when you were at the merch table, I could barley see you but now that you're so close to me, I couldn't stop watching you all night."

A blush painted over my skin and I cast my gaze downward, not wanting Noah to see how much his words affected me; although, I had a feeling he already knew. This was becoming more of a problem than I liked. I was allowing him to inject himself in my bloodstream, infect me with his presence and it would hurt me in the end. Whether it was because I ended things or he realizes that the problems with my mom were too much to deal with. I need to focus on my mom and now this huge step in my career, I couldn't let myself get blinded or involved with someone I worked with.

Too late for that.

The crowd was cheering for one more song and I knew they would run back out on stage in less than ten seconds.

"Angel," his finger brushed along my jaw. "What's wrong?"

My lips parted, but no words came out, unsure what to say. This wasn't the time and Jolly could tell as he watched us so he adjusted his guitar before slapping Noah on his shoulder.

"We have to go."

I nodded behind Noah. "I'm fine."

His eyes searched mine, fingers still gripping my chin. "You're sure?"

"Yep," I lied while patting his chest. "Go fight God; I'll see you guys back on the bus."

With a chuckle, Noah's fingers slipped away from me and I watched the four of them run back out on stage for the encore part of their song. I could stay and watch but there was no need to hang back anymore. They gave me the choice if some nights I wanted to help the crew take everything down I could or I could head back to the bus early to rest or do whatever I wanted.

I know I should hang back to help tear everything down but right now, all I wanted was a bit of solace on the quiet bus away from everyone.

"Oh, god not that one," I muttered to myself as I browsed through the pictures of my phone.

I should look at the ones I took tonight, but I was looking at more risqué pictures. Tonight, Lana's second payment was due and as usual, I was short. Even with being promoted, I wouldn't get paid until the tour was over. So, the only thing I could do was ask Lana if she was fine getting the payment a few days later than normal and thank fuck she was.

Take your time, dear. We're all good over here.

Even though I was alone on the bus, I couldn't risk recoding something in case someone walked on so instead I took a handful of different pictures. These, though, were way more revealing than I usually take. One was in the bathroom on the bus; I was bare from the waist down with my pussy in full view but kept my Bad Omens t-shirt on, rolling it up from the bottom until it stopped over the middle of my breasts. You could see half of them, but the nipples were covered. My phone blocked my face, which was something I still wouldn't forget, and I took a few different angles.

The next set of pictures were of me laying in my bunk, now wearing a black thong but now the shirt was off, and I had my hand resting over one breast while the other was bare for the camera.

As I was still deciding, Folio came bounding up the stairs of the bus, his energy radiating off of him. When he saw me scrolling through my phone, he sat down and took my phone from my grasp.

"Are those the pictures from tonight?"

"Folio, no!" I bellowed while reaching for my phone.

I fell onto his lap, my chest pressing against his hips and he stiffened when he realized what he was staring at; the picture of me in the bathroom mirror.

"Woah," was all he said.

I groaned in embarrassment as rolled over in his lap now looking up at him and snatched my phone back.

"Please forget you saw those."

Folio stared ahead as he blinked a few times, almost processing what he saw before his gaze fell on me. Something twitched beneath me and when I realized what it was, I sat up with a start staring down at his dick, which was semi hard.

Oh God.

"This is so embarrassing," I covered my face with my hands.

Folio let out a low chuckle before slowly removing my hands.

"Who were you sending those to?" He wondered.

I quickly shook my head. "No one."

A small noise sounded from the back of his throat as he adjusted himself on the couch, still clearly affected by seeing my half nudes.

"If it makes you feel better, I like the one in our shirt the best," Folio grinned.

I smacked his chest. "You can't tell anyone about this, please. I already feel weird about taking them and now that you saw them, it's going to make things weird between us."

"You're the only one that thinks that, Y/N. And if you feel weird about taking them, then why did you? From what I saw, you have nothing to worry about."

My eyes narrowed at Folio in a playful glare; it was very clear that he indeed liked what he saw.

"If I wasn't mortified by you seeing my nudes, I'd take that as a compliment."

His brow raised in amusement. "Were they for Noah?"

"Hell no. He can never know about these or even see these, understood?" I pointed a finger to him.

"I won't tell him but I can't promise that I'll forget what I saw," Folio winked before get up from the couch and headed back to his bunk.

I was still burning up when Nick, Jolly, and Noah came onto the bus and when the latter's eyes fell on me, he reached for my hand.

"What?" I stared at it.

Noah lifted me from the couch and dragged me to the back area of the bus so we could have some privacy. He was still wearing his stage clothes, and I marveled at the tattoos that peaked through his blank tank top. Once alone, he let the door shut behind us as he fell to the larger couch in the room; me falling into his lap.

"What are you doing?" I asked while trying to sit next to him instead.

Noah's fingers dug into my hips to lock me in place. "I think we need to talk."

With a sigh, I nodded. He was right and as much as I didn't want too, this had to be done. Still in his lap, I positioned myself so I could look directly in his brown eyes.

"This," I pointed between us. "What is this?"

I could see with the look that flashed over his face that Noah was trying to figure out the best words to describe us.

"I'm not sure what to call it but I like what we have going. I don't want it to stop," he admitted.

"What changed, though? Last week it seemed like being around me was like pulling teeth," I said.

Noah sighed and wrapped his arms around me to pull me into his chest. "I tried to stay away from you because I thought it was a bad idea to get involved with someone on the crew and with what happened in Chicago, I took it as an opportunity. But the harder I tried to forget about you like that, the deeper you sunk your claws into me."

My heart shuddered in my chest.

"Can we maybe take things slow? Maybe see where this goes. I can't have a relationship right now. There are some things going on in my life that needs my attention, especially once I'm home," I explained.

I didn't miss the hurt look that shined in his eyes but Noah nodded. "I can wait, angel."

He was not making this easy.

This time, I extracted myself from his grasp and stood on my feet, giving us some distance.

"I can't ask you to do that," I said.

"You're not. Whatever you've got going on, I want to be here for you," Noah assured.

Tears brimmed in my eyes as I let out a long shaky breath. "It's a lot and I don't want to push you away again. If I'm being honest, I've wanted this from you for so long and now knowing you feel the same, I'm afraid."

He was on his feet fast to press me against the wall with his hips. Noah's large hands pinned mine above my head then he buried his face deep into the skin of where my shoulder met my neck. I let out a mix of a whine and moan when his rutted his hips into mine.

"Angel, I'm not going anywhere."

I gave a half nod, understanding, but I couldn't really focus with the way his cock pressed against my lower abdomen.

"This," I panted. "Isn't slow."

Noah hummed as he left a small mark on the skin behind my ear and I nearly melted into him.

"You're going to kill me," he breathed before pulling away from me, my hands falling to my sides. "But we can take things at your pace. If you want to hang out and watch a movie or something, I'm here. Or if you need help with other things, I'm here."

I linked my fingers with his and brought them to my lips to kiss the tattoos on the back of his hand.

"Thank you, Noah."

With a fond smile, he led me out of the room to the front of the bus where he motioned for me to sit at the table.

"Want some tea?" He asked.

I smiled. "Please."

I then sat at the table across from Jolly and Folio. Still embarrassed by him seeing my nudes, I refused to meet Folio's amused gaze and kept my own on my phone. I was turned away from everyone so no one could see me as I uploaded a few pictures to my Only Fan's page. I needed these pictures up as soon as possible to start making money.

"So are you excited to go back home for a few days?" Jolly asked.

"Oh shit. I almost forgot!" I beamed.

Bad Omens had a two-night show in Los Angeles, where we headed next. Then after those two nights, we would head up to Washington. With everything that had been going on lately, I forgot to mention to Lana that I could stay home those nights with my mom.

"We can book you a hotel for you if you want," Folio said.

"Or you could stay with someone," Noah piped up from behind me.

I glanced over my shoulder at him. "Slow, remember?"

He bent low to leave a kiss on my forehead and my eyes fluttered shut. "I'm only kidding."

"My mom's excited to see me so if it's alright, I'll stay at my place," I said.

Noah's lips twitched before he nodded. "Sure."

Seeing that the pictures uploaded to my site, I stuffed my phone back into my pocket and talked some more with Jolly, not realizing that Noah's phone went off with a notification or the way he adjusted himself in his pants when he looked at the screen.

[kpopbestie96]

Finding out the secret - Bang Chan short story

Hello lovelies! Bang Chan posted on Insta!! Which means I get to write a fun little story for you based off the pictures. If you're new here, welcome! I like to write short stories off the pictures Bang Chan post on Instagram. Enjoy 💗😘

Paring: Bang Chan x reader, Bang Chan x Y/n

Genre: Stray Kids fan fiction, Bang Chan fan fiction

Warnings: cussing, delusional 😂

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Late night, where the world is asleep when the only time you and him can both be out without worrying about anyone seeing you two together.

The only noise can be heard from few cars passing by while everything is still. You and Chan walked to your favorite secluded spot where you and him always meet at away from the crowds, fans, the world. It was a safe space where you and him can be yourselves without anyone suspecting you two are dating.

He looked handsome, as always! He was wearing his black hat, with a plain black leather short sleeve shirt with silver buttons over a plain white tank top. He a paired it with his favorite jeans that have crosses on them. He loves them because in his words 'makes him look more stylish.'

He was also wearing his black shoes he bought when you and him sneakily were hanging out in another country that him and your best friends, Stray Kids, were performing. And of course he had on his jewelry that you and others have gifted him.

On the walk, you couldn't help but have this strange feeling, something you haven't felt before with him. Something seemed off and it didn't help that he really didn't speak much. Normally, you two are conversating, not a dull moment between the two of you, but it seemed as if there was something else on his mind.

You would ask him questions but only receiving one word or a short sentence out of him. Your fear kept growing as you guys made it to the park, wondering if he wanted to break up with you. You didn't mean to think harsh but it's hard not to when he's not acting like his fun self. Maybe he's just tired, yeah that has to be it. They have been working a lot and this is my first time seeing him in a week because of how busy he has been for the comeback with the guys. Everything is fine.

You kept telling yourself it was fine as you sat down at the steps that overlook the water and the city. It was peaceful, hearing the water float on by and hearing crickets take up the night while a soft breeze passed by. You were too deep in thought about him, you didn't notice how close he sat to you.

He reached over and brought your hand into his as you removed your face mask with your other.

"Sooo..." you started, wondering what to ask now because now your mind was telling you he might be mad at you for something you did. I don't think I did anything... "What's wrong?" You couldn't help but ask since your mind was running amuck.

Air escaped his mouth while he stared at the water, seeing the lights reflecting in it. All day, he was afraid how he was going to tell you the bad news. Ever since he found out this morning about your guys' secret being exposed, he's had an upset stomach and a headache.

He didn't want to say anything at first but his Kids made him finally text you, telling him you have the right to know; even though he thought he could fix it all on his own.

He let go of your hand, staring down while fidgeting with his favorite bracelet, nervous to make eye contact with you. He told you he would protect you at all cost, especially more so since you agreed to move here for him. He felt as felt as if he let you down by not keeping his promise.

"Chan....what's going on?" The longer he didn't say anything, the more anxious you became.

"If I tell you," his voice was shaky while his mind searched for the right words. "You have to know that I love you and will be here for you...."

"Babe, you're scaring me...what's going on??" There was a huge lump in your throat making it hard to swallow down. Oh fuck, did he cheat on me?? That was now a new worry you didn't think to ever cross your mind.

Okay, I can do this, he inhaled a lot of air before exhaling it all out. "My company found out about us..."

"What?!" You flinched back a bit in your seat, worried how they would have found out. You two have been very careful, making sure others wouldn't see you, not being reckless at all. You two have never stepped foot in public in the daytime. Did someone follow us at night? No, we made sure to always go past one in the morning, like now. "Are you sure??"

"Yes, my manager called me into his office and told me how they found out you moved here for me." He could still picture the scene vividly. He was in the studio with the Kids when his manager's assistant walked in, asking him to follow her. He nervously shared a glance with Changbin, who was sitting next to him at the switchboards, before following the assistant to the manger's office.

When he walked in, his manger wasted no time telling Chan that they know about you.

You on the other hand didn't know what to say, your face went white like you saw a ghost, and your hands became clammy. "Um...so what do we do now?" You knew you would be taking a huge risk when you moved out here for him, but yet you told yourself who cares, you were going to be with someone you love.

"He wanted me to end this relationship..." You could see him nibble on his lower lip while you tried to figure out what might happen next, trying to prepare your heart for words you didn't want to hear.

The silence between you sat heavily, the only thing that could be heard were the tree leaves wrestling in the wind. Your hands were shaky, trying to hid them underneath your thighs so he wouldn't see.

"Oh.....I understand..." You finally broke up the quietness while tears welded up in your eyes, your heart feeling as if someone was stomping on it repeatedly. You moved your head up to stare off into the horizon with a tear sliding down your cheek, trying your best to hide it from Chan.

"He said we couldn't stay together because of the fans and that your not an idol yourself..."

I fucking got it...damn... Well, I guess he is breaking up with me. Fuck... "I'm sorry!" You snapped up, turning to him who was shocked by your sudden out burst. "I shouldn't have come here. I knew I should have stayed in my country. It was wrong of me to be here!!" You were about to run off when he quickly stood up, catching your hand. "Let go Chan!" You yelled in a stern tone while trying to yank your hand free.

"No." He said so simply because ending things with you wasn't an option.

"No?" You felt confused as his grip on you was weakening. "What do you mean? I'll make this easy and just end it now."

"Just because my manager doesn't want us together, doesn't mean we're going to end this." He let go of your hand, while you turned to face him wondering how you guys will continue to date if the manager knows. "I wanted to tell you this because one, you needed to know and two, to come up with a plan to continue this."

"Really?

"Oh my sweet love," He walked up to you, wrapping his arms around your waist while his gaze fell onto yours. He could sense the fear in your eyes, see the tears that were sitting at the brim. "When I told you I love you and I was going to protect you... I meant it. And that you'll be forever."

Your eyes searched his face to see if he was lying but you could see the hearts that stared down at you. A nervous feeling arose, wondering how this would work. Now you both have to be extra careful.

"Honestly, I want to tell everyone, I don't care," Chan said breaking up your thoughts.

"Chan..."

"Will do you do this with me my sweet love?"

He sounded determined to fight this and if he's willing to, you were as well. "Let's do it." You smiled while he shared one back before he passionately pressed his lips against yours.

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Thank you for reading!! I hope you enjoyed it! If you want, no pressure to but check out my other Stray Kids stories/stuff here

[i9messi]

hi :) can u do dating messi headcanons? thank u!

Dating Young Messi

[headcanons]

I feel like at the beginning, Messi would be a little shy to talk to you. He wouldn’t know how to ask you out or what to tell you

So surely you had to take the first step

After so many conversations in which none took the first step, you asked him if he wanted to go out with you on a date

Leo clearly accepted, because there was no way he would had the courage to invite you first

The first date was lovely, he even took special attention to all your favorite things, like the food and the place

He spoke proudly of his family, his football team and his country. Hearing Lionel speak was comfortable and refreshing

He offered to take you home, and of course, being the gentleman he was, he tend to ask you a lot of questions before doing something

"Can I kiss you?"

When both kissed, it was as if everything was clear

Messi did not hesitate to invite you to see him in the next match

Lionel was very nervous and wanted to give his best, so when he saw you among all the people, he filled himself with courage and dedicated his first goal to you

The rest was history

"I think I’m falling in love with you." "You’re in love with me?" "Oh, how could I not be? I can only think of you, I’ve even told my mom about you and even she wants to meet you."

In every game you were there to support him and scream his name, knowing that he was one of the best players of the world and he always will be the best for you

You loved him with all your heart, he was a boyfriend who despite his football career and his busy calendar, always left his agenda open for you

Your dates could range from watching the sunrise from the balcony, to going on a yacht and swimming in the water

The only thing that made you feel bad were those days when Leo had to because of his job and you had to be apart. You both had a hard time staying apart.

"Can I have one more hug before I go?" "Babe, you don’t have to ask, come here..."

When he came back he reminded you how much he loved you, and that you were all he needed

On his return he brought you flowers and some gift that he said reminded him of you

"You're so pretty, I don't deserve you."

Leo bought a camera to take pictures of you, so he could have them when he had to travel

You going with him to events and helping him to put on the tie because he didn't know. Lionel used your moment of concentration to steal kisses

Now that you were a couple, he was no longer as shy as before

Your love language was totally physical and affective

Like sleepy back hugs when the other is busy whipping up breakfast in the kitchen, catching them by surprise

Interlacing your fingers with the other’s when they least expect it

You supported him blindly with his career, being his shoulder to cry when things didn't go as he wanted them

Lionel was 100% honest with you, besides being his girlfriend, you were also the person he trusted and believed the most

He didn't doubt that you were the only one and that he wanted to marry you someday

After a difficult match he would go straight to you, not wanting to do anything but be with you and listen to your voice, he said that your voice bring calm to him

"I just want to relax in your arms."

After dating for a while, there had come a point in your relationship where Lionel wanted to take the next step. He couldn’t wait longer to call you his wife

That man was so in love with you that he couldn’t think of anything else

You wearing his ring? God, he could blush just thinking about it

One day you went to the beach, it was a date that your boyfriend had prepared for a long time and you didn't know. He slowly started to write 'will you marry me' on the sand and when you finally figure out what he was doing you were already emotional

"You’re the only person I want to spend my life with."

You said yes, of course

You loved him so much and he was the man you wanted to spend the rest of your life

Messi being a great husband, someone who made you feel proud and valuable

The man was perfect and his intention was to bring you happiness

[ninja-muse]

September was a good month! Nothing I read was bad, which means my ranking this month was done by hairs and vibes and I definitely recommend everything. Even my DNFs were good, objectively. They just weren't for me. And my library has finally, finally, started to put June and July releases into circulation, and Seanan McGuire knocked it out of the park again, and I found out I won an ARC by getting an email that effectively said the parcel had been delayed, and I managed to read two-thirds of a book in a single day because I had public transit adventures on purpose.

My expected book haul didn't happen, though. My birthday yielded one book (the Tolkien), but also two bookish puzzles, one bookish shirt, and two bookstore gift cards. (Yes, I have already preordered something, never fear.) (No, I'm not complaining. I do not need more books. And the shirt's perfect.) And once again, I feel like I didn't read enough, but I had some freelance work come my way and that ate into my reading time. Oh, and uh, GBBO is back so there went another evening….

I managed two books off my physical TBR this month. The Trixie Belden is one I "accidentally" bought online a few months ago. I loved these books as a kid and I'm determined to one day own them all. (I think now I'm missing six.) I was pleasantly surprised by how well it held up and would love to see Trixie get a reboot or rerelease for modern kids. She is hands-down better than Nancy Drew and I'll fight people about it. The other book is a Philip Pullman short story I liberated from work and which has been sitting on my shelves for something like six years. Lee Scorsby gets his own prequel story! It's great! And definitely improved by my inability to picture him as anyone but Lin-Manuel Miranda.

And A Natural History of Dragons was exactly the sort of book I imagined it being, and I think it's going to be a near-binge series for me. I have the second book coming in for me at the library now, and I'm pretty sure I'll be requesting the third once I'm done with that.

I'm going to have work in October at reading more dark or complicated things, or striking more of a balance. Five cozyish books this month was a little much.

Oh, and one last thing: due to recent news, I've purged my library of all Neil Gaiman works I don't have a sentimental connection to. I've yet to take the stack to my favourite new used bookstore for credit, but as far as I'm concerned, they're already gone.

And now, as usual, here’s my list of everything I read this month, in the rough order of how glad I was to have read them.

Tidal Creatures - Seanan McGuire

Somebody is killing incarnations of the moon and the remaining moon gods, lead by Chang’e, must stop them before the cosmic balance is upset.

8/10

major Chinese-American POV character, 🏳️‍🌈 secondary character (lesbian), South Asian secondary character, 🏳️‍🌈 author

library book

The Disenchantments - Celia Bell

During the Affair of the Poisons, a baroness and her female lover are thrown deeper into the underworld of lies and secrets after a vicious murder.

8/10

🏳️‍🌈 protagonist (sapphic), 🏳️‍🌈 secondary character (sapphic)

warning: domestic abuse, misogyny, beating

reading copy

A Natural History of Dragons - Marie Brennan

A memoir by Lady Trent, renowned natural philosopher and adventuress, covering her childhood, first expedition, and the troublesome dragons of the Vystrana highlands.

8/10

warning: death, murder, animal death

library book

Once Upon a Time in the North - Philip Pullman

Lee Scorsby arrives in Novy Odense and finds a conniving politician, a beleaguered captain, and a hired gun—not necessarily in that order.

7/10

warning: blood, gun violence

off my TBR shelves

Shoestring Theory - Mariana Costa

After everything goes wrong under King Eufrates, Grand Mage Cyril decides to turn back the clock and prevent disaster. Unfortunately, his plan for fixing things was “wing it” and he’s never been good at politics. Out in October

7/10

🏳️‍🌈 protagonist (gay), 🏳️‍🌈 secondary characters (multisexual), major dark-skinned characters

warning: suicide, animal death

reading copy/won

Buried Deep and Other Stories - Naomi Novik

A collection of fantasy short stories.

7.5/10

🏳️‍🌈 secondary characters (achillean)

reading copy

Dreadful - Caitlin Rozakis

Gav wakes up with no memories in a dark wizard’s lab. He quickly realizes he is the dark wizard and if he doesn’t figure The Plan soon or play to type, there won’t be a Gav at all.

7/10

🏳️‍🌈 secondary character (achillean)

library ebook

Trixie Belden and the Mystery at Saratoga - Kathryn Kenny

When Honey’s groom suddenly goes missing, Trixie and Honey naturally start working on the wheres and the whys and whatever else they need to bring him back.

6.5/10

warning: attempted animal cruelty

off my TBR shelves

The Village Library Demon-Hunting Society - C.M. Waggoner

When Winesap’s amateur sleuth realizes her town’s per capita death rate, she grows convinced that something supernatural is afoot. And that’s before her cat starts talking.

7/10

Black secondary character, 🏳️‍🌈 secondary characters (gay, bi man)

borrowed from work

The Forest City Killer - Vanessa Brown

An account of a number of unsolved murders in late-1960s London, Ontario, with a bent towards there having been a serial killer.

7/10

🇨🇦

warning: murder, sexual assault

library ebook

Picture Books

The Bakery Dragon - Devin Elle Kurtz

Ember wants a gold hoard like the big dragons, but he’s too small to get one the normal way. One night, he follows a golden glow to a bakery and everything changes.

9/10

DNF

Garden of Earthly Bodies - Sally Oliver

When thick hairs begin to grow on Marianne’s back, her doctor diagnoses grief and trauma and sends her to a New Age center, where strange and unsettling things are happening.

borrowed from work

Goth - Lol Tolhurst

A history of goth music, from a musician who was there at the beginning.

reading copy

Currently reading

The Disappearing Spoon - Sam Kean

An entertaining history of chemistry and the elements of the periodic table.

library ebook

Music from the Earliest Notations to the Sixteenth Century - Richard Taruskin A history of early written European music, in its social and political contexts.

The Penguin Complete Sherlock Holmes - Arthur Conan Doyle Victorian detective stories

disabled POV character (limb injury), occasional Indian secondary characters

warning: racism, colonialism

Monthly total: 10 + 1 Yearly total: 92 Queer books: 2 Authors of colour: 1 Books by women: 9 Authors outside the binary: 0 Canadian authors: 1 Classics: 0 Off the TBR shelves: 2 Books hauled: 1 ARCs acquired: 1 ARCs unhauled: 3.5 DNFs: 2

January February March April May June July August

[omnidemidisaster]

Do you have any more spooky month Kevin x Reader headcanons? Sfw boyfriend headcanons or nsfw?

Him hees

( NSFW at end )

Kevin dating HCS

SFW

He is quite panicky in the relationship

Like he always believes something might go wrong

He tries not to think so much, but he just wants the best outcome and ends up thinking the worst possibilities

He isn't the most romantic by definition, but he does his own romantic gestures to show his love

Like leaving some candy he bought for you at your door or kitchen counter, coming over whenever you're bored, hell he'll even let you hang out in the backroom of the store as long as you don't get caught if you really wanted to

He never 100% give or receives. He will always give and take. He doesn't want to come across as lazy or overbearing, so he will let you take control in the relationship every once in a while

That goes for cuddling too. He loves to hold you whenever you're sleeping. He adores that feeling of protecting you. But he will never say no to bring cuddled. He also adores the feeling of you holding him close and allowing him to be vulnerable

Now this isn't a hc, but something that the VA stated, but Kevin will always protect you whenever you're afraid or anxious. It doesn't matter how scared Kevin is, you are his priority, so you will come first

He is a bit of a hopeless romantic. Like before he started dating you, his mind will absolutely wander about a possible relationship with someone.

I suppose you made that dream come true!

He loves to kiss your cheek and forehead ( Especially if your shorter than him )

Now you bet that whenever the two of you are either on a date or just hanging out that he's just taken photos of you

Not in a creepy way, but in a way that captures the moments you both had together

He even posts them on his snapchat, going on and on about how much he loves you

Though an all time favorite photo of his is one where you both had a first Christmas together. You were in front of a very cheap dollar store tree with some gifts beside it. You both sat on the floor and started to open up gifts together.

Eventually your hands picked up a certain box. He quickly grabbed his phone and got ready to take a picture. He knew that that gift was particularly special ( What it had inside could be up to you ).

Once you opened it and realized what was in it, you began to cry from joy. He did take a few photos of how happy you were. And 2 of those photos are on his lock screen and home screen.

He doesn't like Christmas that much, but your smile and happiness is far more important to him :]

NSFW 🔞

Very fidgeting and anxious when you both had your first time together

Like boy gave himself a pep talk in the mirror...and was still freaking out

Though that freaking out didn't last too long

He just needed some buttons pushed ;]

I said this and ill say it again: He loves somnophilia

Though he is on the receiving end on it. Even if the two of you agreed with consent, he doesn't want to do anything to you while your asleep. Kissing? Sure. Maybe dry humping? Hes not opposed. But he's scared to actually hurt you or make you feel violated despite the explicit consent

Expect some rough stuff, especially after a long and horrible shift. He already likes to go fast and hard as is, so if he has a particularly bad day and your in the mood, just prepare yourself

Don't worry, boy will absolutely pamper and shower you with affection so you don't feel hurt or unsafe in any way

Home boy has praise and degrading kinks simultaneously. Like he'll praise you and degrade you in a single breath

And of course at the end he reassures you he doesn't mean anything he said...besides all the praising

He doesn't really like bondage. He hates the feeling of being restricted. Though if you want some light stuff like handcuffs or your hands tied up, he doesn't mind

The two of you came up with a safeword and he will always ask you what it is before doing anything

Not because he thinks your dumb, just wanting to make sure he doesn't hurt you and make you feel overwhelmed/overstimulated

If your a girl or have female parts, expect him to every once in a while ask you to peg him

He absolutely adores it and loves feeling submissive to you

Aftercare with this man...

He is so damn affectionate. He will make sure you're okay and feeling good, then help you clean up and clean up whatever surface the two of you did it on. By the end, he's cuddling you and kissing you while muttering praises

[aesethewitch]

Hey friend 👋 I just stumbled across your ghost analysis post and was intrigued, and saw that you do tarot readings?

I recently began looking into tarot, but the two decks I have aren't traditional ones, but I've read from a lot of people that traditional tarot decks are the (only?) way to go. I'm curious about your journey in learn to interpret the deck(s) you have, since I'm also struggling with that.

I also see that you have a free tarot reading Friday, and since it IS Friday, I'd like to ask- how can I overcome the political and religious obstacles that force me to hide?

(if this is a question that isn't so suited for tarot, that's my bad)

-SC

Hey there! (:

So, anyone who tells you there's only One Right Way to do something is full of shit. Folks just like to feel superior for doing things More Correctly Than You.

You can use whatever for divination and get solid results. You could make a functioning system out of coupons. Hell, you could doodle on printer paper, cut it into squares, and then use it as a tarot deck. That would probably work, as long as you understood what the pictures meant.

Some folks have an easier time with traditional decks, others don't. I tend to vibe with decks that are a little funky. Extra cards, different suits, interesting presentations, etc.

The deck I use most often, the Alleyman's Tarot, is technically not a tarot deck at all -- it's an oracle deck, since it doesn't follow the "traditional" composition of a tarot deck (major arcana + minor arcana). But I still call it a tarot deck because I can and I use it like one. It works great.

I do have the Deviant Moon Tarot, which is based on the Rider-Waite-Smith, and it would be considered a "traditional" kind of deck. It's a great deck, and it's the one I taught myself to read with many years ago.

When I got that deck, I believed that someone else had to buy tarot decks for you; it was "selfish" and would "taint" the deck's power if you bought it yourself. Also bullshit, by the way, but I had that belief in me. A kind lady overheard me lamenting and pining for the Deviant Moon in a bookstore, bought me a gift card, and gave it to me with a note telling me to buy the deck for myself. It was a life-defining moment for me, to be sure, and one that sticks with me today. I strive to live up to that kindness.

Learning was an interesting thing. I didn't look up any spreads, and I barely used the book. Mostly, I just wanted to look like I knew what I was doing right out the gate (I didn't; I was 18 and had self-image issues, lmao). So I taught myself to interpret based on vibes and imagery, then went back to reference the book when I really needed to. It helped that I had a spirit ally hanging around that was looking for a vessel; it's still attached to those cards to this day, and it helped me learn how to hone my abilities. For a long time, the act of pretending I knew what I was talking about prevented me from actually learning much at all.

It isn't... well, it isn't great advice. I wouldn't recommend "learning" tarot the way I did. I figured it out after a while, but there was no real system to it. If I could go back and relearn it the way I would do it now, I absolutely would. Here's what I've learned is a fairly good method for learning any new tarot deck:

Shuffle the cards and lay the pile face-down.

Draw the top card.

In a notebook, write down your immediate, knee-jerk impressions of the card. I recommend just key words or single sentences.

Then, take a closer look at it. Note the colors, positioning of figures, background imagery, and other details. Write down what you see, not how you would interpret it.

Now interpret. Take your time writing down how the card's specific imagery makes you feel. What does it remind you of?

Jot down an example question and how you would apply the card to the answer. For example, the question "What do I need to know right now?" answered by Temperance could be something like: "Patience is a virtue. Take your time." Or however you would interpret that.

Set the card aside. Repeat until the entire deck is done.

Congrats! Now, you have a general idea of the entire deck's meanings and a handy guide to help you remember what they mean to you.

Bonus step: Review periodically. Opinions and interpretations change as you do.

I follow this routine with every new deck I get. I've figured out that the same card in two different decks could have vastly different meanings, depending on how it's depicted. It's really cool!

Also, it's kind of important to note that I'm not really a full animist. I don't think that tarot decks (or other tools) have individual spirits. My Deviant Moon deck has one, but that's because of the ally I mentioned before. The Alleyman's deck doesn't have a spirit as far as I can tell. I've got spirits hanging around that enjoy assisting with divination and magic and such, though.

As for free tarot, it's closed for now! The update reblog was sent to my drafts instead of posting,,, sorry about that!! Your question would definitely be fine for tarot interpretations (though a little shallow with only one card; situations like that are typically better interpreted with more cards I've found). I do open it up every Friday, though, so feel free to stick around and send another next week! (: (Or visit my Ko-Fi linked in my pinned post if you want a more in-depth paid reading! /shilling)

[foster-the-world]

Onward and Upward

Last day of school. Onward to 3rd grade, 2nd grade and 4K. Can't believe she's going to be a "big kid" in the 3rd grade. They grow up so fast, its goes too fast, yada, yada, blah, blah, blah.

They were happy this morning. Certainly no learning will take place today. Bee's teachers is bringing her 9 and 13yo. Bee loves, loves, loves the 13yo. Our flight to my parents house is 8pm tonight. Got an email that we could change for free due to bad weather. It looks like maybe the storm is coming in later. Fingers crossed.

The girls had their awards ceremony last week. Disappointingly 2nd grade only did "you completed 2nd grade" awards for everyone. Lame. 1st grade had individual awards but they were generic - leadership, academic excellence. Rebel won both big awards because she's a teachers pet type. I had to miss because I don't have vacation hours at work. My husband said all of the kids were really excited for each other. I loved, loved Bee's teachers awards last year. Every kid got two very specific awards. They were very, very sweet and captured each kid beautifully. The kids tried to guess who she was talking about and they were 100% correct because the teacher really understood each kid so well. I had tears in my eyes. One of my favorite things is to see my kids being known and loved by other people. I wondered if it would be less so with a kid who has much more challenging behaviors. But nope. Baby boy was very well loved and known this year also. His teacher sent me a long text message about how much she is going to "miss her boy." She also sent a ton of pictures that capture him really well. Bee wrote "You are a great teacher. You treated me like family" in her teacher's card. So sweet. Teachers gifts sent off (flowers + gift cards). Feeling relieved to have all of the end of school year stuff over with.

I'm enjoying Clair Lombardo's books. I got a bunch of new books for baby boy on hold at the library. Found some about personal space. He's more of a crasher into other people so I'm not sure it will translate but let's see. His social skills class finished yesterday. If insurance paid we would keep sending him but I don't think its worth the steep price for what he got out of it. He understands social rules he just doesn't always follow them. They have a summer camp - nice to know for future reference.

The ADHD parent coach has given us some good suggestions we are trying out. We mentioned taking him to stores is difficult. He wants to run around and touch everything. I think it would work better in the suburbs where they have carts. In NYC we try to hold his hand while holding all of our purchases. Stores are smaller so less space for him. Anyway, he suggested we try it when we don't actually need to buy anything. That way we have time to set rules for him (stay near us, don't touch everything) and can leave if he's not following through. We are also going to put him in charge of finding one item. He can then buy/keep the item if he follows all of the rules. He gets three warnings. Normally we only take him when we have to buy something so we can't follow through with the threat of leaving if he doesn't listen. Not sure why we didn't think of this before. Fingers crossed some practice will help him/us out.

His sitter said he is interested in reading the pamphlets/how to's from the ADHD parent coach. Which is appreciated. Once again thankful to have so many people who want my kid to succeed.

His sitter owns a backpack company. Such a cool idea. They are really high quality: https://shiftbackpacks.com/ I'm really hoping they go viral at some point. I suggested he try to get in the NYC private school circuit. Those rich people have money and are all about letting their kids express their emotions.

Bought my husband (and I) tickets to Sturgill Simpson in October for his Birthday. Birthday present done and I get to see a concert = yes, please.

[extralively]

Yura's second apartment

So let's get into Yura's second apartment! She moved into it in late 2012 after saving up enough money for it (even a third grade sorcerer gets paid fairly well, as it turned out), and slowly went about furnishing it.

...Granted, Satoru helped, whether Yura liked it or not. After she moved in, he bought her a whole ass couch (it's very comfortable so Yura only grumbled a bit about it), and then a new TV after they tried watching a movie on her old one (see her first apartment) and he complained that it was too small. Over the years, he also kept giving her stuff, like a blu-ray player, a dishwasher (after that one Christmas), that living room rug, some plants, and just a bunch of random (but expensive) knickknacks to fill her apartment with. Thank God she has a decently-sized apartment now!

It's definitely an upgrade from her last one! I mean, technically it should be a little narrower (again, I have to stick to TS4's grid), but this is pretty much it.

(More pics of it under the cut!)

So let's take a look at the living room/kitchen:

This area is pretty spacious, and Yura didn't quite know how to furnish it so some parts seem a little empty. She actually likes it that way though, after living her whole life in cramped rooms, and she's actually started owning quite a few things now that she has the space.

Her kitchen in particular has gotten quite a bit of use: thanks to Tsumiki's initiative, Yura now occasionally bakes with the younger girl there (especially for Valentine's Day). She also started experimenting with some cooking herself, but she mostly sticks to cooking basic stuff.

On that table by the window, in particular, is where she keeps her photo frames. The first one is a picture of the Tokyo team during their second Goodwill Event after they won (it was a happy moment and a certain someone who shall not be named was not present, thus no bad memories were invoked). The second one is of her and Yaga when she got her third grade certification, with Yura looking quite proud of herself over her first (and only) jujutsu promotion. Then there's one with her and Shoko singing karaoke during one of Yura's birthdays, then one with her, Satoru and the Fushiguros on their trip to Tokyo Disneyland in 2009 (they're all wearing those matching Mickey ears), and the last one is the most recent one from their trip to Osaka in 2016. Basically, all of her good memories are here.

This here is Yura's bathroom! I had initially envisioned it as a regular western-style bathroom where everything is in one room, but then I started looking at some Japanese apartments layouts and this definitely seems to be more common over there.

You can see that Yura actually has a bunch of beauty and bath products scattered around and, to be honest, that's mostly Satoru's doing (he likes to gift her expensive stuff). Yura also turned out to be not the most organized person around, so her things are just kinda thrown about now that she has enough space for it lol

The actual shower room should also be a littler narrower, and the tub should also be smaller--because that's the one Satoru keeps calling a teeny tiny bathtub! The bathtub should actually look something like this:

It's small, but big enough for some... fun times (͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

And finally, Yura's bedroom!

She and Satoru have definitely spent a good amount of time in here, if you know what I mean (͡° ͜ʖ ͡°). Also, one of her dresser drawers is definitely all Satoru's clothes at this point.

There's only one bedside lamp because she figured buying two would be a waste (...she used to be the only one sleeping there), and her desk is usually cluttered with curse files and reports if she's working on a case. She doesn't dress up much so she doesn't usually feel the need for a full-length mirror, but if she were to ever bring it up to Satoru he would definitely buy her one right away.

She also keeps a few random photos on this wall, mostly of her and Shoko doing girl stuff, the Fushiguros, and, of course, her and Satoru. This is also where she keeps the first photo strip she and Satoru took in that photo booth, while the second strip she keeps in her top desk drawer (she likes to keep it out of sight from prying eyes... but also somewhere she can easily access it, even if she won't admit it).

...Also she has a storage room by the entrance. It's just a bunch of stuff.

So this has been Yura's second (and current) apartment! Next up should be Satoru's, and oh boy. That one is big. We might have to do it in parts lol

[lawyerkin]

story time of how i got a dog under the cut :3

so as i mentioned. i was in a big city, biggest one in my state actually, for an important appointment. and i left with some pretty bad news that left me feeling really hopeless and depressed and kind of done with everything. this was last thursday in the morning.

from the hospital i went straight to the beach with my gf and her brother, who drove us there in his car. i felt pretty bad all day and i was on grindr to distract myself because big city grindr is very different from what im used to back in my town and i like exploring it.

the next day we went back to the actual city and we were at the mall from around 11 am to 6 pm, then i left with a guy i met up with there. i got to the guy's house and he had two dogs, a small shitzu and this puppy that was almost bigger than his grown dog, and he told me he was giving the other dog away because he bought the dog thinking it was a yorkshire (he fell for a pretty obvious scam 😭) and the dog just wouldn't stop growing and the apartment was REALLY, REALLY TINY and absolutely NOT AT ALL fit for a dog any bigger than a york.

so i was telling him i live far away from the big city and my backyard is pretty big and tbh almost all houses in my town have really big backyards and he asked if i could take the dog bcs he said i seemed like i would be able to care for it and im ngl, i never wanted a dog

after my two elderly poodles passed in 2022 i thought i'd never have a dog again because it really is a chore and i wasnt really willing to take on a 10+ year long responsibility again. but when i saw that puppy. they called him urso. i just instantly knew i HAD to take him. i just knew i NEEDED him. and yeah, i did

i was at several other places after going to that guy's house, all in the meantime i was talking to a lot of people to see if it would work out. i talked to my sister ofc, even with my dad who didn't even know i wasn't home, with bubble and her brother because we'd be taking him home in their car and with my friend wolfe who lives in a farm as a sort of backup plan. the next day at around 3 pm i decided i was taking him. so bubble's brother drove us to pick him up. he got in the car and not even an hour later he was sleeping on the floor of the car, and bubble also fell asleep and i was just looking at the dog and thinking about my life and about those very negative thoughts i was having and i started thinking about this dog and the future we'll have and all the things i'll have to do to keep him safe and take care of him and i was suddenly filled with these waves of motivation and i scrapped my idea of quitting going to the gym because i'll need to be strong to control my dog and have energy to take him for walks and i want to knit him sweaters when it gets cold and train myself to jog/run so we can go together and teach him tricks and give him toys and we can have matching collars and i'll make a instagram stories highlight just for him and im gonna have a baby to care for. and i'll have an actual reason to leave my room. and go out. and eat and go to the gym and do my best everyday. for my puppy. he needs me i need him and i am SO glad i met up with that random guy on grindr

also here are some pictures :3

tony hawk pro skater demo (aka urso 🐻) in his original home, and being carried by his original owner in a bag (cutest thing in the whole entire world!!!!!)

tony hawk pro skater demo (aka urso 🐻) in our car, getting ready for a 6 hour long drive home <3

on our way: stopping to stretch our legs, posing with a 3 meter tall capybara, tony inspecting the driver's seat, going back to sleep and, finally, TONY HAWK PRO SKATER DEMO HOME WITH MY FAVOURITE CHEW TOY I GAVE HIM AS A SPECIAL WELCOME GIFT <33

[peddlestox-shinyrocks]

Heartfelt

DT spoilers

She feels several kinds of foolish. Here she is sneaking about, hiding from the guards like she's doing something wrong, and for what? He knows already. She doesn't need to keep up with the gifts nor the secrecy. Sure she didn't get an answer, but she also didn't stay to hear one.

And this? This is... This was an idea, and it refused to leave her head. And she thinks... well she doesn't have proof he didn't like her previous gifts, he may have, but this was something she thinks he'd truly appreciate and Kwawasei is all about those kinds of gifts: the ones that have meaning to the person. Its why she's always wanted to be a crafter in the first place - to make something that people love and cherish and gain happiness in, to make something - give something even if bought - that has meaning to that person, memories, hopes, dreams.

The previous gifts were fine she supposes. She didn't know what the man liked after all having barely known him. And while the book could have been of an interest this she thinks is better, more. And it appeals to her to give it to him not because he's who she has a crush on, but because she's not the kind to give out frivolous gifts and he's not gonna be the one she can't do that for. She's done it for strangers who walked up to her shop before and by Byregot she's going to do it again!

Continuing on her trek, and she firmly believes most of the reason why she wasn't seen was due to her height and not her attempts - rude, she makes it to the courtyard of the palace with no one the wiser. Doesn't make it half way before a voice from behind her comes saying, "You do not need to skulk as if you are a criminal. You are welcomed here."

She nearly shrieks, jumping a few feet in the air, box flying, before catching it and spinning around. The taller man was just as startled by her reaction as she was by him being behind her, his purple eyes as wide as her green-blue ones.

It takes them a moment to calm. And in that time Kwas wonders... not quite what he's doing here. He lives here. But more why... now? This has to be some divine trickery of the Twelve. The Spinner perhaps? No matter. They calm and Koana ask what brings her here, politely ignoring the box she has in her hands she thinks (or maybe he believes its not for him).

She takes a breath and for some reason she's calm (where was this before?!) and she hands out her parcel. "Shhhok. For Uplander."

There is a queer look on his face as he takes it. He looks down at it for a moment, and then to her before he says softly, "You do not need to."

She shakes her head. Oh no. She has to give this one. Her craftyself demands it. "Peddlestox want have."

He stares at her for a moment longer before he opens it. And this time she calmly stays. She wants to see if her gift is as memorable as she believes it is.

As he takes it out of the box she gets a sight of her creation on display again. To the average eye it appears to be a pocket chronometer, and it can and does function as one, made of silver so it would tarnish but not rust and be a bit easier to clean. The inside, while does have a chronometer face to tell the time, has the lid part able to hold several pictures if made small enough... though, Kwas had taken the liberty to have his sister and his brother's son engraved in the metal.

As he stares and tries to speak she says "Back, pshhk." And motions for him to flip it over. When he does so he stares in disbelief. It took a moment for her to find something of a reference, but she managed to get his father upon the back. She thought to add his eldest sibling, because bad man or not he was once brother, but after asking after Zoraal Ja's image and getting a withering look she decided against it.

"I... I do not know what to say..."

She looks away, attempting to hide her face a bit even if the mask does so already. "Peddlestox likes giftgive and giftmake for happysmiles and happy pasttimes. Is sign of bestmaker to craftymake not what gobbies or Uplanders need only but make craftywork for lasttimes they want to think of.

"And Peddlestox has muchjoy in craft them and want you have one."

He seems upset, face pinched. "I... I do not share your feelings," he says quietly.

Kwas isn't phased though. She had an idea anyroad. "Peddlestox know. Want have still."

Koana opens his eyes and looks down at the chronometer again. "Tis beautiful craftmanship. I thank you for the thoughtful gift," he says softly. And that warms the gobbiefel like it always does - when a gift with meaning is appreciated by the thought and care put behind it. "Does it work?"

"Shokk! Yes!" And she's only lightly offended, mollified by how quick he was to hold up his hands peacefully.

"I meant no offense, truly. Its - I had thought it was only decorative."

She shakes her head. "Timespeaks."

"Did the goblins teach you?" She nods and as they continue to talk, the miqo'te puts the time piece into a pocket and gestures for Kwas to come with him, back down into the city.

Her first friend in the New World.

[aceofthegreenajah]

13 books! tagged by @old-man-ghost

1)Last book I read I read Ocean at the end of the lane in two days recently. It was a very fun concept. It's the kind of book that would have left a lifelong impression on me if I had read it young. But now it was just one good book in a long line of others. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

2) A book I recommend Let's go with a Taste of Gold and Iron. It's a very fun mystery, and the main character made me go. Wait. I know that feeling! I have a brain exactly like that too! (Riddled with anxiety and self-doubt at the most mundane things, but when things get serious, it's suddenly all business.)

3) A book that I couldn’t put down: I don't know if it exactly fits, because I wasn't fully invested from the start. But I did read all 500+ chapters of Omniscient Readers Viewpoint in just three days. And it is the only book I've ever read that make me go "Wait. I didn't know you could do that with a book." There are so many levels of meta in this book. It's like three books in one.

4) A book I’ve read twice (or more): I reread a ton of books. Let's go for Kalevala just because I was reminded of it while taking the picture at the end of this post. I used to read it every 6 months or so as a teenager. When we were told to read it for school I just read it again instead of telling anyone I'd read it like six times already.

5) A book on my TBR: One that has been there for ages is the Thief by Megan Whalen Turner. I hope to get around to it one day. I already bought it after all.

6) A book I’ve put down: Putting things down (as in meaning to continue then forgetting about it) happens often. Putting down and deciding not to continue very rarely. Last was The Calculating Stars by Mary Robinette Kowal. I have no idea why. In concept is sounds like just my thing and I have enjoyed her other books. My mind just couldn't get a grip on it, my attention always started to waver instantly.

7) A book on my wish list: I want an ORV official english translation SO BAD. Where is it??? It's announced and everything! Same for Nirvana In FIre, actually. Usually if I wish for a book I just buy it. It has to not exist to stay on my wish list long.

8) A favorite book from childhood: How young are we talking? Roald Dahl's witches book was my favourite at age 5. His dark materials at age 8. Good omens at age 12. Farseer trilogy at age 14. (all ages approximate)

9) A book you would give to a friend: 've gifted two people with All systems red. I would love to give it to everyone I know.

10) The most books you own by a single author: Mo Xiang Tong Xiu. As long as all 8 physical tgcf books and 4 svsss books count as separate. Though Brandon Sanderson comes very close. I think I have 7 of his books as physical copies and a few as audiobooks.

11) A nonfiction book you own: The Dawn of Everything is both excellent worldbuilding material, and really opened my eyes on how uncreative and stuck I was about how societies 'must' work. Applicable to real life as well.

12) What are you currently reading: I am still reading Exordia. It is an excellent book I'd recommend to everyone (as long as you are not particularly sensitive to body horror). But that is also why I'm going slowly because I only want to read it when I can concentrate properly. I am also reading Trash of the Count's Family when I need a less serious book, and an isekai manga, and What technology wants. The best way for me to read stuff is read whatever I feel like at the moment.

13) What are you planning on reading next? I got The Traitor Baru Cormorant at the same time I got Exordia so that's probably next.

My shelfie (one of several bookshelves. I should really weed them):