#also i dont do my best plotting when sleep deprived

[alskyllhasarrived]

You should let yourself rest if you haven't yet. (This one is not Blossom btw) As someone who does some of their best plotting while sleep-deprived, it will behoove you to at least try to rest your eyes for a while, sit back with a cool damp cloth over your eyes and just let them rest without looking at anything. You don't have to sleep, but it will help your eyes a lot.

This sounds like Inquisitor. It sounded like Pixie at first, but I feel like Pixie would not say Behoove. Definitely vibes of "older than me, has experienced the writing until you can't see straight, and is a parental figure"

Also rest assured I did rest. Went to bed early. Immediately started writing again this morning. Now waiting for my co-author to get back to me with her opinions.

[p-taryn-dactyl]

For the prompts, 44 with harximoff maybe?

(I like your Wanda a lot. You write her so well.)

hi! thank you so much, i love writing for Wanda lol. this is my first time writing for harximoff and since I dont really ship it, i kinda made this into an AU? psychiatrist!Agatha and author!Wanda, i hope it’s okay, i just thought those jobs fit them the best!

word count: 702 (ik it’s not that long, I’m sorry)

pairing(s): agatha harkness x wanda maximoff

44: I’ll sleep when I’m dead

Sleep When Dead

Sighing, Agatha got out of bed, dragging her feet across the cold wood floors until she could see the light filtering out from under the office door. Gently, she pushed the door open, eyes growing fond as they landed on her wife. Her wife who was tirelessly typing away on a typewriter, a gift from Agatha for their tenth anniversary, the clacking ringing through the air. Agatha leaned against the doorway, basking in the intensely focused air that radiated from Wanda. Her dark curls were pulled up into a messy bun, coils falling out and brushing the nape of her neck, bouncing with every excited click of Wanda’s fingers. Slowly, after a few minutes, Wanda seemed to notice the presence in the room. Pausing with the faux excuse of getting a new sheet of paper, Wanda turned around and sent Agatha a smile. 

“zdravo ljubavi,” she whispered, exhaustion evident in her tone. Agatha smiled softly, moving from her place at the door to wrap her arms around Wanda’s torso, resting her chin on her wife’s shoulder as she returned to writing. She placed a gentle kiss on Wanda’s neck before speaking. 

“The bed's getting cold without you, libe,” Wanda’s typing only slowed a fraction, “When were you planning to join me?” 

Wanda continued typing before sighing and stopping. 

“I had a burst of inspiration while showering and I just had to write it down, you know how hard this book has been for me.” 

Agatha nodded. She did. Ever since Wanda’s first book, No Strings On Me, a chilling retelling of the beloved story of Pinochio, became a New York Times best seller - with practically every book store’s shelves clearing within a month of the release, Wanda’s agent had been pressing her to release a new novel. Not a sequel necessarily but another book written with the magic that only Wanda seemed to have. Wanda claimed it wasn’t her talent that got her to where she is but her typewriter, always saying that you could write absolute horsehit and the typewriter would turn it into gold. 

“I do, darling, but stressing yourself and losing sleep isn’t the answer. Come with me back to sleep and after we wake up and have breakfast, you can write while I look over medication and transfer release forms.” 

Wanda contemplated this, a smile growing on her lips. She loved the days where she and Agatha worked silently in the same room, soft music in the air from Agatha’s record player she refuses to get rid of. But a trickle of disappointment interrupted her happy thoughts, making her lean back against Agatha. 

“Thank you, Aggie but I need to finish this chapter, it won’t take long I promise!”

Agatha sighed, shaking her head. She played with the fallen curls of Wanda’s bun, eyes starting to droop from exhaustion. 

“You need to sleep, Wanda.”

Her wife chuckled, humor sparking her dark eyes. 

“I’ll sleep when I’m dead, žena.” 

Agatha rolled her eyes, nipping at Wanda’s ear, making her wife squeak in surprise, before standing up straight again. 

“I did not go through twelve years of learning how the brain works for you to brush off your health. You can finish your chapter in the morning, my dear, just write down your thoughts and come to bed.”

Not wanting Agatha to go on another rant about the effects of sleep deprivation on the growth and removal of toxins of the brain and also hearing the desperate tone her wife was probably purposefully emphasizing, Wanda grabbed her fancy ink pen, scribbling down the plot twist on a sticky note. She stood up, letting Agatha hold her hand as she made her way to the bedroom. Her last thought as her head hit the pillows was that Agatha was probably going to “forget” to wake her up in the morning to continue writing. Wanda found that she wasn’t bothered by this thought as sleep wrapped itself around her like a comforting hug. 

Agatha watched as her wife fell into a deep sleep, carefully leaning across her to turn off the alarm on Wanda’s phone. She wrapped her arms around Wanda and fell asleep to the sound of her wife’s heartbeat.

a/n: i hope you enjoyed this! It’s my first time writing for harximoff so it might be a bit choppy but thank you for reading!!

[nuggeteri]

hey. see, this is a bit embarassing LMFAOOOOOOOOOOOOO

The person "quite upset about it" (IM SORRY IF IT CAME OFF AS THAT) was named lolyukimaxlol, right..? sighs. I feel like i have to explain myself;

I recently got into hermitcraft. So. Into fanfic. I proceeded to find in this together and it was the exact type of fic i imagined for another character in another fandom, just actually written, and BETTER!

i commented, you answered (which made me v happy) and i decided to check out your profile. i was litterally so shocked when i saw you had done 74 works. Thats so impressive!

i proceed to read a lot of you fics and stumble on A game of love. (WHICH IS SO COOL BTW,) and i usually skip past notes- but then i saw an @, and begged to see if you had a tumblr.

you did. now i find this.. sighs.

I loved your fanfiction and had related to it to some extend. Way more than i'd like to admit, i almost cried once i think- which doesnt happen often when reading fanfics! I also spammed my friends about it while reading it, which i also dont do often, just when a fanfic is extremely good. this was the case.

I'm an author myself (but you seem way more experienced and talented then me), so i know a bit about storylines and structures (also was very confused on the bad ending, but you said it yourself that it wasnt cannon because it wouldnt go well narratively) and was very confused for a bit when scar confessed out of the blue, just like that, when it's supposed to be a slow burn (ITS A VERY GOOD SLOW BURN!) I also like how the moment made Grian's 'doubts' spike up to a reality, a revelation to him that he could live. he could do this.

but when reading the fic, obviously sleep deprived (it was 4AM) i didnt quite immediately catch it- assuming the worst, that the author wanted to... rush. THATS A VERY BAD INSULT....

Then, my brain started to comprehend the situation a bit more and realized that on another perspective- one where scar was doing this on purpose to save the one he loved the most, on a spike of impulse and courage to tell Grian he loved him, before meeting the end. To get Grian to live. Because he deserved to. And while Scar might, he certainly couldn't. (He could, i'm just putting myself in his silly head)

I really enjoyed your fic, and i am looking out for more chapters, hopefully, soon! I didn't mean to come off as upset.. I dont know what i expected by commenting that- I guess relief, and a compliment in the way that you're a very cool author with unexpected plot twists and good storylines...

Uhm. i guess i have nothing more to say than this is awkward (btw i even ended up recommending your fic to my best friend, who isn't even into minecraft content but really enjoys the concept! And, my favorite scenes of the fanfic were grian's fish and scar's mouse. I like- no, LOVE, the two stories, how its so small, so simple, but impacted them way more than it should've, really..)

One person got a little upset at my latest chapter of In This Together, but I promise I actually did have that part planned since the beginning. I put a lot of symbolism in that part and foreshadowing. I will talk about it below! So also warning for discussion of suicide as well!

1. It was raining

Earlier in the story, Grian and Scar discussed the symbolism of a blue sky. Throughout the the story, the sky has been blue except in two instances. One was when the sky was red when Grian nearly leapt to his death. The second time was in this chapter, when the sky was gray/rainy.

Additionally, the only times there has been artwork was when there were suicide attempts.

2. Grian told Scar to confess before he died. Which he did.

3. The white cat.

Grian specifically said that he liked a certain white cat. He was happy when that cat came up to him. However, when Scar told Grian he liked him, the cat ran away. This was of course what happened with Scar as well. Scar liked Grian. Scar ran away.

Additionally the cat that was stuck in the tree with Scar at the beginning of the story. The first time Grian spoke to Scar. That cat was also white. (Could it be the same cat?)

4. Scar also had no money. There's no way he could buy anything.

There's probably more, but most importantly, Scar never showed any signs of wanting to live. He heard Grian say that he can't live without Scar. Scar told him what he wanted to hear. He had a plan, but we'll get into that.

5. Scar said: “Yeah. It won't be easy, but I know you can live. We're in this together, right?”

Specifically. He said that Grian can live. He wasn't talking about himself.

In any case, please have faith in me. I have planned at least a bit. I will do my best not to disappoint you guys.

[letswritestories101]

Heya im currently working on a book, it contains an arranged marriage, forbidden relationship and theyre royals.

however, ive no idea what to include in said book, like do i add a political element like a war? whos the villain? does the crown die and suddenly the main character is the king/queen! i just dont know and now im stuck.

any thoughts or advice for me?

Hey, anon! Hello and welcome!

Your story sounds cool, with classic and amazing tropes. A lot of good things can come out of that, for sure.

You seem to be in the brainstorming stage, right at the stage where you're deciding what you want before you start writing the thing itself. So keep in mind that it's okay not to have a very good idea of ​​everything yet.

Here are some tips that might work, IMO:

Think about the theme and/or message. It doesn't have to be something deep. It doesn't need to revolutionize the world or induce a paradigm shift. It doesn't even have to be new. But it has to be something that helps you focus, see the point of your story and what you want to tell. Even the good old 'love conquers all' helps to put a focal point. For example, showing the two royals loving each other despite being a forbidden romance illustrates this well. So the challenges will have to try to break them and not get it permanently, reinforcing the theme. Hence, from these limits now placed, you can think what kinds of challenges would best illustrate. Studying your elements that you want to put in and why you like them will help you find your theme. Adventure and friendship in the face of challenges can hide a theme from the power of friendship, not losing faith that something will work hides a theme about hope. It's about what you want to go through.

Discover the genre of your story. From what you've told me, she has a lot of romance so you can already trace some things like you already did. Ask yourself, is my book all about romance or fantasy or another element also has prominence. For example, if it's a fantasy novel with a romance, the fantasy will also need problems and resolutions. Look up the conventions of the genre and try to work from them. It will help to assemble the previous stitch, inclusive.

Think about what you like. We tell stories about our points of view. Our opinions appear in our art because they are part of us. So, find what you like and put that in the book. Helps a lot.

Go berserker with your inspiration! Make music playlist, moodboard, jot down all ideas including weird sleep deprived ones at 3am! Look for things that remind you of your book and save it!

Search, Search, Search! Know how a plot works, what are character arcs. Writing is a skill, so we have to improve it.

Only share when you are ready. The pressure for validation is high, but showing it to the public ahead of time can ruin your motivation. I've been through that. Give yourself time to think.

And remember, you and only you are the author. Neither I nor anyone else can talk about what you are going to write. The story is yours and that is our greatest blessing and pleasure as authors. We can create worlds and plots as we want and no one else. Enjoy it. And don't worry if someone else will like it. The answer is yes. There is always. Someone already likes. You already like it. And I can tell you from experience, your love for your book will reflect and beautify your stories for others like no other method of outreach could. Nothing shows how amazing a book can be like the faith and love that we writers have for our stories.

I hope my advice can be useful. Writing is a strange but wonderful hobby. You'll do fine :)

Some useful blogs:

@writingwithcolor

@wordsnstuff

@pens-swords-stuffswords-stuff

@hyba

@writing-is-a-martial-art

[youre-on-your-ownkid]

A proper about me I guess?

Name: Sarannya / Saru || Indian, Bengali || Pronouns: She / her || Zodiac sign: Libra || Rising sign: Aquarius || Moon sign: Virgo || Birthday: October 6th || Personality type: INFP || Favourite colour: blue and green

Fandom info:

Slytherclaw || Cabin six || Daughter of Athena || District 3 || Team Nat || London Institute || Tidemaker

Fandoms (literary):

Percy Jackson (Uncle Rick is a king, bow down to the real author of our generation) (Percabeth, solangelo is LIFE)

The Maze Runner (Thominho is real bitches I said what I said) (also, no teresa slander accepted)

The Grishaverse (Leigh Bardugo is a GENIUS)(KANEJ KANEJ KANEJ) (WESPER WESPER WESPER) (HELNIK HELNIK HELNIK) (ZOYALAI ZOYALAI ZOYALAI)

The Shadowhunter Chronicles (Jem Carstairs is bae <3) (Official Matthew Fairchild and Will Herondale simp)

The Folk of the Air trilogy (JURDAN MY BELOVED 😭)

Hunger Games (team Peeta cause he's the sweetest)

Little Women (maturity is knowing Amy and Laurie are deservedly endgame) (Stan Jo March for being the best female character in literature, ever)

Red White and Royal Blue (CAN I JUST SAY WHAT A BEAUTIFUL BOOK THIS IS ;-;)

Dan Brown books in general

Harry Potter (but in no means do I support JK R*wling who is a transphobic jerk)

Artemis Fowl (super underrated series)

Fandoms (TV show/ series/ movies):

Marvel Cinematic Universe (The. Best. Fandom. Ever.)

Umbrella Academy (the series) (#protectvanyahargreeves2021) (also, Elliot Page is an ICON)

HSMTMTS (I started watching it as a joke and now I'm addicted) (I watch it for the plot; the plot = Portwell)

Stranger Things (In this blog we stan Steve Harrington and Will Byers)

Teen Wolf (Stiles Stilinski is hands down the best character in tv show history bye) (also, Stydia= life)

BBC Sherlock

GoT (Arya marry me challenge)

Dead poets' society

Glee

Five Feet Apart

F.R.I.E.N.D.S. (Chandler Bing is my spirit animal)

JATP (Reggie Peters supremacy)

Fandoms (music):

|| Taylor Swift || One Direction || Little Mix || 5SoS || The Vamps || Panic! at the Disco || Anne Marie || Lady Gaga || Queen || Hozier || Olivia Rodrigo || Dear Evan Hansen || Hamilton || Six ||

YouTube fandoms (?):

Kurtis Conner || Danny Gonzalez || Drew Gooden || Trin Lowell || Dylan is in Trouble || Hannah Byles || With Cindy || Filtercopy || Slayy Point || Alex Meyers || Coleydoesthings || Anthony Aiken Jr || Jasmine Zade

In this blog, you shall find:

LOTS OF FANDOMS, A NEW ONE EVERY MONTH PROBABLY

Me simping over James Potter, Sirius Black, Steve Harrington, Kaz Brekker, Julian Blackthorn, Matthew Fairchild, Neil Perry, Stiles Stilinski, Fred Weasley, Reggie Peters, Will Herondale, Nikolai Lanstov, James Carstairs, Leo Valdez, Yelena Belova & Taylor Swift.

asks and long as fuck posts with mostly @i-dream-of-idk or @louthefish-28 or @i-dont-like-a-gold-rush or @thatbooksimp or @noselessness-forever

my shitposts / random thoughts that I get when I'm sleep deprived (ie, everyday) tagged #saru shitposts

a lot of random shit

Anything but sane content.

DNI: homophobes, transphobes, biphobes, misogynists, terfs, pedophiles, racists, pornbots, and bigots. 🗑️ Here's a trashcan for you to dwell.

This is the third time I'm updating this smh. I tried this schedule post thingy and idk if it works or not imma just keep this in my drafts and publish it later.

I'm supposed to tag people ig? So um here @i-dream-of-idk @i-dont-like-a-gold-rush @louthefish-28 @noselessness-forever @deanhouselocked @mik-in-chaos @ninazenikfanatic @thatbooksimp @edgarallanpoebutworse @your-true-north @pearljamislife @chrysalism-sonder @bi-n-high-vibes @buttcrflys-rose @justanaveragebookworm @anotherplaceintheuniverse @burn-like-starss @deadpoetsbythelakes

[torivikachu]

wanna play by the rules and entertain the idea of straight ships in Naruto?

I couldn't sleep so - apparently, yeah.

the only canon ship that makes sense is ShikaTema. like really. thats like my second best ship apart from SNS but if we consider the straight world - I'm gonna go with that one. they are so made for each other its not even funny its freaking adorable!!!! Shikamaru what-a-drag-women-amiright Nara x Temari I-like-dorks-who-I-can-dominate Sabaku is the power couple we deserve. and she is like the only married woman apart from Sakura who hasn't completely abandoned her work? she is an ambassador of Suna. right? or wait. was it just fanfiction? nevermind, she is a badass anyway.

I don't know about Karui and Choji... I mean, they are okay. maybe. I just have no idea how they could've ended up together. AT ALL.

moving on, there is SaiIno who I both adore to the depth of my heart and believe to be the low-key SNS. even though they don't make much sense too thanx to the plot, I do like them together. Ino always chased after Sasuke, but more cause everybody did... and honestly after all Sasuke has done you have to be a total idiot to still love him (I know two of those can you guess who). Sai - while looking similar - is handsome, smart and weird in his own way, and has this enigma fleur about him so I can totally see how he could have caught her attention, and she is a pretty girl who can kick ass and not afraid to stand up for herself, and if we entertain the idea that Sai has a thing for blonds after Naruto brought him out of his shell then maybe it makes even more sense. but what do I know...

I am really struggling to remember other ships (at least regarding rookie 9+3) so I'll just jump to the major ones I take issue with.

SasuSaku and NaruHina.

first of all - I don't hate these ships solely cause I like SNS. i honestly wouldn't ship them even in a completely straight word where no rainbow has ever appeared (that was lame but I am sleep deprived so back off wouldya).

they just DONT MATCH.

yeah Sakura was smitten with Sasuke and Hinata with Naruto for like... 700 episodes.

SO WHAT

that doesn't make them good couples. lemme explain why.

Sasuke is broken. okay? he.is.not.interested.in.family.

he doesn't connect with people. he can't! he broke the bond with Sakura when he left the village and that fragile shadow of it they established after the war is just not enough to build a relationship on. the only person he hasn't broken the bond with is Naruto and even relationship with him wouldn't be easy.

but we're in straight world, so I would assume he'd like to avoid human contact as a plague whatsoever. mb have a child or two to keep Uchiha bloodline, but no strings attached.

oh wait! sounds exactly like what he did.

hell, mb SasuSaku makes sense after all (SARCASM)

NaruHina is more likely.

but Hinata is so damn boring.

I mean... she isn't that boring. she is strong, relentless, stoic, brave and shit. but.so.boring.

Naruto would love playing house for a couple of years sure. cause he always wanted a family, yeah. but he also needs someone who can match him. at least on some level.

unfortunately, she cant.

she doesn't even seem to have a personality outside of Naruto. newsflash, that ain't healthy. I mean even though Sakura reduces to a blushing mess around Sasuke, she is pretty badass when he is not around.

Hinata is not. she could be! she damn well could be.

but she is not.

the only straight couple that makes sense out of these four is NaruSaku. yeah honestly. they have matching personalities, they would be a fun couple! both strong enough to not be consumed by each other, having a long history of friendship to support their love... even though they didn't have the best start, Sakura learnt to respect and like Naruto and he always adored her. their banter would keep things between them heated... damn, that's sorta even healthier than SNS in some ways.

but I really don't like that Sasuke is left out in this picture so I'd still go with SNS. Sakura can land any other guy.

or just bear Sasuke's child. that'll do nicely if she'd be satisfied with it.

but it doesn't seem likely.

so I'd leave her with Lee? or she can be alone. or InoSaku is pretty interesting but oh right thats a straight world. she could be with Sai though. but that leaves us eith a big issues of Ino being too good for any other guy out there so I am like really lost here.

Hinata would be okay with Kiba? probably. but I feel like Kiba needs somebody more... lively? though... they have been on the same team for a long time. I am pretty sure Kiba and Shino know her better than anybody else. so maybe... MAYBE Kiba would be a good match for her.

please don't ask me why I don't consider Shino cause honestly the guy is just a big buggy enigma for me I can't really imagine with anybody.

that's pretty much it with the straight ships.

I hope I can sleep now.

[binas-idea-vault]

Hear me out, Dream SMP Band AU

As an anon to different people I’ve sent like 5 million au ideas and for ✨reasons✨i think it’s for the best I don’t post the idea’s i’ve already sent in to others. luckily i am very sleep deprived and have a few other aus up my sleeve so here’s an idea for a Band AU. (SideNote: the characters are primarily based on their c! selfs not the content creators / ccs that play them on the Dream SMP)

it doesn’t start off with some x reader but i swear there’s x reader in this don’t kill me-

i have an extremely soft spot for the Syndicate and cannot bear to part them so guess they’re a band-

okay but seriously, they’re a band and their codenames are their stage names because i think that’s pretty cool. Philza / Zephyrus is the guitarist (purely off the vibes and since he doesn’t play an instrument in the canon), Technoblade / Protesilaus is the founder of the band and the bassist (once again because of vibes and the fact that he doesn’t play an instrument in the canon but also because the bassist is kind of like the glue that holds a band together (as it has been scientifically proven that the brain finds it easier to hear and find rhythm in a song when it is played at a lower tone) and everyone in the Syndicate is there because of Technoblade), Niki / Nemesis is the singer of the band (i’m pretty sure she’s dabbled in some singing so why not-), Ranboo / Lethe is the keyboard played of the band (also purely on vibes and because the image of a tall lanky person leaning over to play a keyboard is funny to me (although he obviously would have a keyboard that matches his height because leaning down a lot like that can cause back problems-)) and the fifth unknown member of the Syndicate Harpocrates is the song-writer / lyricist who is an official member of the band but has a role that doesn’t require them to perform.

Kinoko Kingdom is a band made up of Quackity, Sapnap, Karl and George, with Quackity as song-writer and singer (i mean this is self explanatory (i’ve also been very obsessed with listening to “Where are the askers?” for literally no reason other than the fact it makes me smile), Sapnap as the drummer (for the vibes) who used to be a member of Dream Team until the group split up for reasons unknown to the public, George as the keyboard player (he just gives me the vibes (i really need to stop using the vibes as my reasoning)) who joined Sapnap as a part of the Kinoko Kingdom band after the split of Dream Team, and Karl who plays the guitar (my reasoning? you guessed it, the vibes).

Dream Team was a popular band starring Dream as the singer until he decided to quit his career as a performer and became the owner of Dream Productions, one of the most influential record labels in the country and one of the wealthiest too. whilst it may just look like a successful record label to an outsider there is more to it than meets the eye, with questionable contracts and shares in young musicians’ profits (i think you can tell i know nothing about record labels but shhh lets just roll with it for the sake of plot).

whilst a Reader character could fit in many places i think i want to make Reader the owner of their own record label (i’m not creative so if i write a oneshot about this au or anything i’ll literally put -Insert Record Label Name Here- because creative juices are nonexistent, we only have creative room temperature water). just hear me out on this. Reader has a record label and with their team (consisting of Eret, Foolish, Puffy, and Sam (just added some of my favorite characters i didn’t include elsewhere cause yes i am author and can do that) they try to warn up and coming music artists to make sure they’re fully reading their contract with record labels so they don’t get a shitty deal or fall for traps in the industry with other record labels (totally not Dream Productions what are you talking about-).

Tommy and Tubbo are an up and coming duo band that almost signed with Dream Productions until Reader and their team stepped in and offered the duo a much better contract. Shenanigans ensue (it took forever to spell shenanigans and i dont think i even spelled it right-)

[cucumbers-and-olives]

Appreciation Overflow Post💛

Or, it’s my birthday, and i’m celebrating 67 amazing followers wtf???

hi, uh so it’s my birthday today, and i really want to do an appreciation post for all for my mutuals, because they have gotten me through so much even if they don’t know it, like

someone close to me going into hospice and then dying

my mental illnesses getting worse (one of my many christmas gifts lol)

sharing private information that for my safety i shouldn’t be sharing (i know this doesn’t really fit but it also does)

and a few other things that i don’t feel comfortable sharing

you guys helped me though so much, and i am amazed that i made it this far. i’m so happy i made it this far, because then i got to meet all of you.

i’m just a teen writing fanfic in my bedroom. (and i will block the creeps.) but you guys bring me so much happiness and i can’t wait to see what this year brings!

so without further ado- here’s me appreciating/maybe roasting/who knows what/simping (nah i’m not gonna simp for any of you) but to/for my mutuals. i apologize if i repeat any complements, there are not enough in the world for all of you

(i’m gonna go from oldest following me to youngest/newest)

@issaxcharlie issa, my very first mutual, i never quite processed that you followed me. i love all of your writing, and you interactions with @writerinlearning are so wholesome and amazing. keep being you issa 💛

@n0wornever missy, where do i start? your daily mantras help me know what day of the week it is, and if it wasn’t for them i would probably make a lot of silly mistakes (like going to the wrong zoom class) missy, you are beautiful 💛

@crybabyddl doll, you are one of my biggest inspirations on this site. dcma was amazing, and you are so talented! i am so happy you decided to follow me. you are amazing 💛

@meangirlsx sam, its so crazy that you follow me. you have thousands of followers, and yet you are following my tiny little blog. thank you. also can i take a second to just apprecate your blog aestetic? keep it up sam 💛

@bright-molina alright, is it bad that when the a majority of the people i follow changed their url to “bright-(last name of a JATP character)” i kinda lost track of who everyone was? nevertheless, bianca you are so amazing, and i am so honored to be one of your mutuals 💛

@txrii tori! you are so kind and lovely. i honestly cannot believe that you followed me, it blows my mind every day. keep creating tori💛

@blind-their-eyes kay, your support on my writing is unparalleled. i love your writing and i love to see your url pop up in my notifs💛

@jaskiers-sweetkiss erin, your writing is insane. the amount of talent you have is just so amazing, and the way your fics are written is even more so. i can’t wait to see what you come up with next! sending love your way 💛

@ssa-cinnamon jemma, im honestly amazed that you still follow me, esp cause ive turned into a JATP blog. you come up with the most amazing fics, and i hope you dont leave, but i undestand if you do. shine bright jemma 💛

@controversial-fandom-things love, go drink water and eat some food if you havent and also take a nap cause you are most def sleep deprived. i love you but go take care of yourself. please 💛

@piratesandswords lyra, where would i be without you? the answer that pops into my mind right now is less depressed, and less heart broken. but that’s the past, and this is now. i dragged you into JATP and i hoe you are enjoying it. thank you for being one of my amazing betas  💛

@calamitykaty katy, before i type anything else, can you and @dream-a-little-bigger-x get together already? you and nele are so sweet together and i will die on this hill. i love you owen fics so so much, and the plot twists that you come up with shock me everytime. be positive katy 💛 

@funsizearsonist doll, where do i start? like lyra, i have no idea where i’d be without you. you help be channel my ideas, and turn them into fics. your support on enemies to lovers is legit unparalled. thank you for your support  💛

@mo-d3ans dear your writing, like all of my mutuals, is legit god tier. i would love to see that hat that you pull your ideas out of and steal it sometime. do what make you happy love 💛

@julieandthepodcasters you all are so amazing. i re-listened to your podcast the other day, and just hearing your voices makes me happy. your podcast is once of the only podcasts that i am able to actually sit down and listen to. amazing work 💛

@softforcal nova, i know you are on hiatus, but if/when you see this, *gives you a big hug* (or if you don’t like that *gives you a high five*) i went back to check out some of your stuff the other day, and it made me a lot more confident to post my own RPF. hope your hiatus is going well 💛

@merceret julie, you are amazing! your writing is lovely, but you are even more so. i can’t believe i get to call you my mutual (also i’m ready for those benny watts fics i got so happy when i saw the coming soon!)💛

and to all of you, my 67 (what???) followers, thank you! i keep seeing that number go up, and it makes me so happy that you guys like my work. i didn’t think i’d ever get that many followers, and if i could tag you all, i would. you guys are the ones that make writing worth it, all your reblogs and messages and asks and notes. keep dreaming friends 💛

also i curled my hair and it didn’t turn out the best but i feel really pretty!

[majimemegoro]

piggybacking off of other anon: why are they your faves? 👀👀

i had to go back and check who i put for the definitive 5. ok so this is not easy for me to understand or express but heres my best effort (you wanted essays right ??? right ???????). sorry its not very coherent

1. majima

character design. I literally adore pointy sleep deprived men. also my life was suffering from a SEVERE imbalance between the apollonian and dionysian, and majima injected the dionysian back in, for which I am grateful. also hidenari ugaki is a delight to listen to. also: θυμος. also: his FLIPS and fighting style are so unbearably pleasing to look at. also: something something keeping on when you hate everything and everything sucks something something envy about violence as a healing force something something. dont psychoanalyze me.

2. mirei park

shes just. so impossibly well-written. It must have been by accident because her story was HORRIBLY written, but she as a character is truly one of my all-time favorites, and in my opinion the best-written female character I’ve ever encountered. shes so realistic. her personality has so many moving parts, that complement and conflict with one another. she really seems like a real person. I just adore the fact that shes a strong female character whose story has a great deal to do with femaleness without falling into ANY of the associated tropes. (again, im talking about personality, not plot lol) She saw the “frigid businesswoman” trope and was like “what if that was a real person, though”. shes frigid and nasty and loving and proud and broken and I love that. shes also gorgeously pretty of course.

3. nishiki

his, ah, special variety of vibration.... the trembling rage at his core.... the Tears.. the fact that he is always ready to snap and that any moment where he isnt snapping is, like, a miracle and an exertion of will. the Emotions in general. he has em. and the dependence on others. it’s about amour-propre. finally his character design slaps. three years ago i cut my hair to look like nishiki. dont psychoanalyze me

4. okudera

character design !!!!! so stunning !!!! and his general demeanor and tragic backstory are right up my alley. plus hes an impossibly talented stoic old man who is secretly very caring, whats not to love. mountain dude.

5. nishida

so intrigued by the fact of his normalness. like the fact that hes so normal, yet is MAJIMAS RIGHT HAND MAN, is just insane. nishida is fascinating because his particular insanity masquerades so well as normalness. also i have a whole thing for characters who devote themselves fully to someone who will never, ever care for them in the same way. dont psychoanalyze me.

[fnafslinky]

Fazbear Frights 1-9 review.

Into The Pit:

Slow and meandering during the first half but picks up speed after Spring Bonnie shows up. Good message and good idea, but the execution could be better. 6/10

To Be Beautiful:

This story is so full of fluff, you can cut out like 60% of it and lose nothing. I know it's going for a fairy tale thing with the repetition and all, but fairy tales do that because it's made for children. Repetition is to train a child's brain to remember better. These books are aimed at teenagers, so this narrative device is not needed. On top of that, it has unfortunate implications of "Not like other girls" memes that we don't need to revisit. Only saved by its creepy af ending. 3/10

Count The Ways:

Legitimately my favorite story out of FNAF and one of my favorites of all time. It fixed the previous story's Not Like Other Girls problems by having the goth main character hate the pretty blonde and being called out for not even knowing her and being shallow. It is actually surprising to have these two stories be back to back.

The narrative device of switching back and forth between the MC facing her death and how she got up to that point means it keeps your interest throughout that the previous two stories had problems with. It makes for great drama and tension.

The main reason I love this story in particular is because of this exchange near the end:

“Silly Millie, for someone who doesn’t want to die you sure spent a lot of time talking about it,” the voice surrounding her said. “But that’s the way of things, isn’t it? Talk is always easier than action.”

“I think,” Millie said, sniffling, “that when I said I wanted to die, what I really wanted was to escape. I didn’t want death. I just wanted my life to be different.”

“Oh, but that really takes action, doesn’t it?”

And, if I can be real for a minute: I feel like that kinda changed my life. Or very least, my point of view.

As someone who has made attempts on his life before and frequently battles depression- It made my problems so much less overwhelming. Of course I didn't want to die. I wanted my life my life to improve. And now whenever the thought of suicide passes through my head, I just remember this phrase and it helps me keep it together and calm down.

And also F.Freddy's follow up with having to work for happiness is spot on too. Misery is comfortable, that's why so many people prefer it. Happiness takes effort. 10/10

Fetch:

I'm in the minority for not caring for this one. I felt like there wasn't any direction or character arc, I didn't find Fetch particularly scary or interesting, and the MC makes a lot of dumb decisions in it.

That being said, I love how it jumps right into the action instead of taking awhile to get to it like the other stories did. The stories tend to play out like a different book and then FNAF characters are slapped in at the end. This one gets right to it and makes it integral to its plot. 6/10

Lonely Freddy:

Another one I really love. The Frights series has a good traction with its tragedies and this one is no exception. I really connected with the feeling of being pitted against your siblings, usually by accident and circumstance with your parents. Particularly this line:

“Maybe you’ve made them what they are,” Aunt Gigi said, pausing for a moment before adding: “Hazel’s the easy one. Alec is the hard one. It’s like you put them on their own little islands.”

I wasn't Alec, but Hazel in this situation. And it made me realize what my sibling went through because of it.

And this is another story where Freddy's is more integral to the plot too, and one of the few times it's not already abandoned.

I really like how well done Alec's back and forth he had with himself whether to befriend his sister or not. It's a believable character arc when he realizes his mistake at the end unlike another story that we'll get to.

And the fact they made a God damn teddy bear legitimately creepy is a mastery of horror writing that I can only ever hope to strive for. Definitely the scariest in Frights 2. 9/10

Out Of Stock:

I agree with Dawko that this one feels best to make a 30 minute special out of. It feels like a Halloween special or creepypasta you would watch/read as a preteen. Old enough to want to explore more mature stuff, but young enough to still have more cartoony stuff be familiar. And I mean that as 100% a positive.

I also like how this one is a bit more comedy based. Like the scene where the MC gets thrown across the room after electrocuting himself and his friends dont even notice. I can picture that bit so clearly.

The climax is the best part of having a dire game of Red Light, Green Light with the Plushtrap Chaser. It's very energized and exciting that the other stories don't have as often because the subject matter doesn't lend itself to it.

The trend in these stories of kids learning to appreciate their parents, and they're parents realizing they have to sacrifice some stuff to make their child happy is very sweet. And it's no different here. 8/10

1:35 AM

What I like about this series is that you never know where its gonna go from story to story. I though for certain this story was about how the doll was gonna have an evil spirit possessing it.

But no, what actually happened is that it's never made clear if the MC is losing her mind, being haunted, or just seeing stuff because she's sleep deprived. That ambiguity makes the book a lot creepier and sadder because you don't know how this poor woman should be helped. And it ends without any clarification. That's great and a perfect idea for horror story.

That being said, Scott's writing quirks (and it's definitely Scott doing it, I can tell) of front loading info, constantly stopping the flow to have backstory and over explaining things that don't need makes it frustrating to read after several books of it. And we're not done with that either. 9/10

Room For One More:

I skipped over all the dream sequences because it adds nothing to the story. Its great you remember Sister Location, but it feels like you don't trust your audience to read a FNAF story if there isn't animatronics every couple pages. And honestly? Understandable.

I do know based on my own FNAF comic, pages featuring humans is a lot less popular than the ones featuring animatronics. And I get it, you're a bunch of furries it's more interesting to visualize. And you can go in the opposite direction and have very little FNAF stuff when they're needs to be more. The New Kid doesn't even bring it up til the last third.

But I digress. The strongest qualities in Room For One More is three points.

The location is very vividly described. The underground security office with steel walls, the radiation disposals, the musky scent. It paints a clear and unique picture.

The main character's fallen arc of self care and distrust of others is a well done cautionary tale. It goes hand in hand with the speech before of having to work for happiness, and the difficulties there are from even trying. But you still need to do it.

The body horror is not as visually disgusting as it could've been, and more conceptually horrifying. But if you have a fear of bugs in your skin or crawling in your mouth, prepare for something so much worse! And no, that's not a spoiler, it's pretty obvious where its going from the beginning. 7/10

The New Kid:

This one was disappointing. This is not the way to do a tragedy, because I don't care about the MC.

Throughout the entire story, the main character has literal sociopath tendencies. He is controlling of other people, he doesn't have any empathy, he sees other people as tools to use, he kills a bird and doesn't care- So at the end when he accidentally kills someone, I don't believe him feeling bad about it. And I sure as shit don't care about his death after him leaving his victim to die, while he was still breathing, and not coming back for a week.

Also the twist at the end makes no God damn sense and I'm not even gonna dignify it.

A better tragedy would've been his friend, Mick, getting into trouble for the murder after refusing to ever stand up to the MC. Or even the MC being betrayed by him last minute for him to learn how his shit behavior really screwed him over. But the end result ended up being an unsatisfying mess. 2/10

I'll review the 4th's books with 5 and 6, since I'm sticking with a three at a time theme and because I haven't read 4 yet.

[1-800-i-ship-it]

khun modern bf headcanons?

Hmm oof i am probably not the best person to be asking this cause I dont write fics or anything but I’ll do my best

So i realized that i just wrote plot stuff but im posting anyway cause i spent way too long on this ahaha 

apologies in advance for typos that I'm too lazy to go through and correct

Enjoy the headcanons that i wrote later + plots that i originally wrote and went on a long tangent on oops

Headcanons:

Khun would be that subtle overprotective boyfriend 

He’d just kinda silently watch from afar but he’d totally kill anybody who hurt bam in any way, shape, or form

But he’d like be SUPER sweet with bam like

Pet names yall PET NAMES like khun and bam would prob both mutually melt when they call each other pet names

Khun would always help bam with hw and whatnot, let’s pretend bam’s a physics genius cause thats just how i imagine him in modern life, always has trouble with law class (he’s  taking it just for khun so he can understand what khun’s talking about) so khun helps him

Khun would be a super smooth talker, can woo a n y b o d y, exceptional at speeches, captain of speech and debate team

Khun would never admit he’s jealous but like the whole gang would know (except for bam who’s clueless as usual) 

Like bam is friendly with everybody so khun’d just be like ugh screw yall 

But then bam always confides in him and spends a crapload amt of time with him so he knows he’s just doubting himself and he’s mad at himself about it cause he knows bam is loyal to a fault and would never betray him

When bam gets older bam uses this against him hehe

Khun would also be that bf that everyones jealous of 

Everyone would want to be with khun but he only has eyes for bam

Ignores everybody else who hits on him

Side note i still stan top!bam and bottom!khun 

Khun would also be super thoughtful and goes out of his way to help make bam’s life easier whether its doing chores or smth etc, and each time bam smiles at him and expresses his gratitude khun’s heart would melt for the 1000th time

But like secretly khun really likes confident and sexy bam

They’d probably roleplay ngl (let ur imagination wonder~)

Khun would enjoy just spending time with bam :’) just cuddling and doing mundane things, they’d be super adorable together, hugs and kisses and ah just too cute-

Khun secretly likes bdsm and bam knows this 😏they switch roles from time to time, i cant decide who’s sub/dom

Khun would plan a super elaborate proposal to bam but then somehow bam would catch him off guard and then khun would just blurt it out when they’re together <3

Khun’d always be up early to cook for bam, they both morning ppl tho khun’s always sleep deprived bc hes also a night owl 

Khun is shy with pda in public but eventually he and bam decide they dont care anymore and just hold hands and act all lovey dovey to the point where shibisu cant decide if he’s a proud dad or if he wants to throw up, rak is always proud of his turtles, endorsi and hatz literally want to throw up all the time and would die before admitting that they secretly approve of khunbam

Khun is all around a model bf that i am sure half the fandom would be willing to date but im sorry guys khun’s taken cause he’s only got eyes for bam~

Plot things/idk what they’re called:

CEO!khun and intern!bam

Assassin!khun and assassin!bam who eventually get together and destroy the corrupt system

Gdi i thought of so many while having dinner but i forgot

Hmmmm

Imagine bam as jue viole grace like forced to work in a gang or smth and then khun as the gang boss 

I totally dont have a thing for badass assassin themed things pls dont judge me

Teacher!khun and student!bam (ofc it’d be near graduation if u get my drift...😏)

Idk why i thought of this but imagine idol khun o.o wait YO idol khun + assistant bam

Tutor!khun and student!bam 

I feel like im literally just saying the same ideas

Theres a reason why im not a fic writer :’)

High school sweethearts -> angst bc parents dont approve, sad forced breakup, no contact -> get back together when older after a time-lapse when they’re more mature, heated reunion 

Best friends bam and khun since preschool, since they were in the womb, PINING, both of them scared to admit it cause they dont want to ruin their friendship, meanwhile the entire gang is betting on them getting together (aka mainly rak and shibisu betting, hatz, endorsi, anaak, (insert s2 and s3 gang dont wanna spoil) everybody etc)

Uni students with khun as a law major and bam as a cs major (both geniuses, nerd bam), roommates *insert smirk* lots of pining, blushes from them casually changing in front of each other...the rest is up to ur imagination

Khun and bam as rival sports teams coaches 

Age gap!khunbam (not a lot, somewhere between 5-8 yrs), with bam as the younger one who kept saying that he loves khun but khun just laughs it off bc bams a kid but then khun sees bam after he comes back from college and bam gets a massive glowup from clueless cinnamon roll to clueless cinnamon roll hottie who only has the hots for khun (still) and then khuns all like “fuck” *dies inside*

Single dad khun, bam as a daycare employee who keeps getting flustered by khun, khun takes interest in bam bc he doesn’t ask nosy questions like other ppl, and bam has these mesmerizing golden eyes

Tailor/dry cleaner owner!bam and office worker!khun who constantly needs his clothes to be altered so they fit exactly how he wants them to (this eventually results in awkward moments and blushing), and also dry cleans like his countless number of suits and dress shirts and whatnot

Author!khun and publishing assistant!bam (is it even called publishing assistant honestly i have no idea but u get what i mean right), khun never signs books but bam convinces him to 

Poet!khun and uni student!bam as a literature major who’s a big fan and wanted to meet khun at one of his signings but is too shy even though shibisu drags him there, accidentally bumps into khun in the bathroom, is all flustered, ends up talking to khun for super long, khun loves bam’s enthusiasm for the subject, offers to give feedback on bam’s poems, bam is literally about to combust, they have lots of meetings and khun flirts with bam who’s clueless but blushes a lot anyway, they kiss *ahem* the rest is history

Spy!khun and bam, khun realizing he doesn’t want to hurt bam, sends fake info back to his country (ruled by eduan and jahad), eduan finds out (sent khun out in the first place bc khun was a threat to him cause the ppl liked khun better), sends out an assassin to get khun, who knows this and escapes with bam somewhere, some complicated plot taht idk how to figure out but you get the drift, eventually khun rules the country with bam

Real estate agent khun and contractor bam, eventually start their own business together

Khun as student pres, also known as the ice king bc he’s turned down dating everyone who asked, bam as the transfer student who catches his attention  (bam with more of a jue viole grace complex), the silent physics genius who is also on par with khun when debating in speech and debate club 

Khun and bam as besties, always do their hw together and hang out after class (cause bam always needs help haha), something leads to them fake dating, eventually real dating 😏

Khun and bam as besties, always do their hw together and hang out after class (cause bam always needs help haha), someone (rachel, DO NOT KILL ME I HAVE A REASON) asks bam out and he doesn't know how to say no (the rest of the gang egging him to date cause they know khuns gonna be jelly) khun goes and sulks, eventually bam gets hurt and manipulated by her, khun is pissed off, rachel is reported for abuse, khun and the gang fight for bam, khun is there for bam all the time, after a while bam asks khun out of the blue if khun likes him (shibisu let it slip that khun is gay bc god knows bam is oblivious af), khun is shocked but says yes bc he cant hide it anymore, bam says he always loved khun but thought khun was straight (bc of some dumb rumor someone said) which was why he ignored his feelings and agreed to date rachel bc he just wanted to distract himself, lots of cuddling thereafter, they get together, rak wins the bet for when khunbam will get together, khunbam gets married

oh man that became way longer than i expected...anon i hope u enjoyed that? half of it prob made 0 sense ngl and idek if i answered the q properly?

kudos to you if you actually read like all my rambling :’)

[lumen-tellus]

(this has been sitting in my drafts for ten million years and tbh it still feels very unfinished but then i would need to plot out a long-fic bc this idea is SOOOO fun to consider if i try to apply it to the entirety of at3′s story but i dont have the time or braincells for that unfortunately. UnU)

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— prayers spun from gold (like songs spun from gods)  —

Somewhere along the fifth axis, a seven-year-old Aoto is struck with a sudden case of Border Disease. And survives it, with all the consequences that entails.

(edit: slightly less sleep-deprived more edited version of this fic on ao3)

For the longest time, it’s always been just you and your mom.

You know it’s weird not to have a dad in the picture, but you don’t ask about him. Or rather, you did just once, saw Mom’s smile go from normal to normal but weird, and she patted your head while saying, in too soft, too careful words, that she would tell you some other time, later, when you’re old enough. In response, you had tilted your head and made a big frown, because that’s such a boring answer and you are old enough! She always says that you’re a big boy.

Another head pat. Then she laughed, which is closer to normal-normal, but something was off, a little, still. “I know you are. And to be very honest, I want to talk about him too. There’s so much, really, that I want to say about your dad.” A pause. “But you see, there’s something very... unusual, about your dad. Something that takes time to tell.

“Time to heal, before I can think about it long enough.”

Your big frown turned into the biggest frown as you watched your mom start to fiddle with her necklace - a very strange-looking but important present from Dad, apparently - while her eyes drifted, seeming to look through you, dimming in a way that even your child self could see wasn’t a good thing. But only far, far in the future would you recognize it for what it was, the invisible ghosts crossing the distant horizon.

So at that time, for that moment, your mom eventually shook her head and told you not to wonder about it too much, at least for now. In the end, no matter what, what’s truly important to remember is that he loved you as much as Mom loves you. And that’s that.

You will not notice the past tense until you turn seven.

“When I grow up, I’m gonna be just like you, Mom!”

Linnelle laughs as she ruffles her son’s hair, tucking the tablet pen in her other hand behind her ear. “Oh, but I thought you didn’t like staying in the laboratories with me?”

“Not like that!” You huff with a pout. Sure, you like running around in your mom’s lab coats and seeing how they flare and fly about as you jump around - but they also smell a little weird, sterile and metallic and chemicals, and they aren’t made from the comfiest thing either. “Science is cool and all but it’s boooooring. I don’t wanna be a scientist.”

“Awww, but I like seeing you around the labs.” Your mom fake-pouts in return and ruffles your hair some more. She giggles after a while of messing up your already poor excuse for a hairstyle, her voice becoming a little softer - “But I get what you mean, Aoto. Though I doubt it will ever be possible, still, I think it would be nice to have a duet, just the two of us. A binasphere one especially.”

“What’s a duet?” You tilt your head in puzzlement. “And binasphere?”

“A duet is when two people sing together. And binasphere is a special way for multiple reyvateils to sing at once.”

“Then I wanna sing a duet with you then!”

“With how tone-deaf you are?” Light but not patronizing. Still, you tug at her lab coat with insistent irritation at the question. You aren’t tone-deaf! Like, sure, the one time you played an instrument or danced to a song, you weren’t the best or the greatest at any of it, but still! You can do it if you try hard enough.

Another soft pat of your head. Linnelle shakes her head, as if reading your thoughts - you nearly did consider trying to play another instrument, just now. “It’s okay, Aoto. When you’re older, you’re going to be the best singer in all of Sol Cluster. Not a reyvateil unfortunately, but even so, I think you will craft the most wonderful songs for people to hear.”

Your mom gives a reassuring smile. Similarly, you grin at her words, and take them as a promise.

A promise that goes up in flames several months later, when your head suddenly splits open to hellfire and agony and pain pain pain it hurts mom it HURTS—!

After an eternity compressed into a blind minute, an unspeakable and undefinable amount of time, you wake up to the news that your mother has passed away. The funeral after is solemn and hasty, spent swallowing down a song about frostbite and quiet disasters passing in the night.

At least you’re not tone-deaf anymore.

A scary old man takes you in, bringing you to a hamlet on the furthest edges of the peaks. For several days, weeks, bordering on a few months - you lock yourself into your room and hum the softest melodies under a heavy blanket, watching as ice forms and snow swirls around your fingers. When you’re not singing yourself to a numb sleep, you occasionally pry at the documents hidden at the bottom of your belongings, a stash of scientific jargon doodled on the margins of descriptive diagrams.

You weren’t the one who packed the luggage, though.

A coworker of your mom had helped with packing your things instead. A close family friend who gave you one last pat on the head as you were to depart out the gates of the city, kneeling down to whisper in your ear - “Your mother left something very important with you. Please read it. It’s really, really important that you know, Aoto.”

And while at first you wanted to do nothing more than to pretend the world didn’t exist, that nothing had ever happened in your life - you ultimately couldn’t pretend for too long. The ceiling is the wrong color every time you wake up.

So, over those several days and weeks, you squint at scribbled letters accompanying the abstract pictures, getting a somewhat better sense of what you were left with as you riffle through a dictionary of terms and explanations penned in your mom’s handwriting.

—There were moments where you didn’t want to read though, didn’t want to understand - her handwriting just made you remember too much - but eventually, you would give in to nostalgia and longing and read on, learning what you can about yourself. About what became of you on the impossible day your head became attuned to sound.

And it was good that you did, since a few months after you moved here, your body begins to scream again in pain, from the mechanical breakdown of your wave composition. Pounding on Steeps’ door isn’t a great idea at any time of the day, much less in the wee hours of the morning, but you do it and against the man’s irritable expression, you fearfully squeak that you needed diquility, now, sooner than later, or you’re going to learn just where your mom went to after she died.

Thankfully, despite his sheer disbelief and astonishment, he comes through for you in the end. Though not cheaply - from that day onwards, you’re forced to come out of your room for more than just silent meals, and to learn how to become a steeplejack in the future.

Better than being kicked out of the house for being a liar or a mistake, at any rate.

For the first few years at your new home, all is quiet. You spend it as any other child would, relearning the fun in chasing sunlight and drawing shapes in the clouds on breezy days. Hours are spent getting to know the villagers better, the lumberjacks and the farmers and the merchants that come and go and sometimes stay, for while or forever. In a rotating schedule of mornings, Steeps drags your half-sleepy head to meet masons and carpenters, where the trainees and experts alike teach you the basics of construction and thus the things you need to know to fix things. In the afternoons, you run around with the few adults that indulge you with sweets and snacks, and the quiet evenings are spent blabbering things to your foster dad over good food. Sleep starts to come easier and easier, until you’re back to being instantly knocked out the moment your head hits the pillow.

Though that’s not always the case. Sometimes, in the middle of the night, you wake up to a dream of burning static in your head, to a nightmare where you’re left to stare at the foggy memory of a gravestone for what feels like an eternity. The details are disappearing, you realize at some point - so on those bad nights, you begin a habit of skimming through the research you were left with, staring at the papers that sometimes makes sense and sometimes still don’t, even with the explanations made painstakingly simple for your sake. On especially bad nights, you take out a letter buried among the schematics, reading the hasty scribbles cut short because there was no time to say everything except goodbye, my sweet son and remember that I always loved you. 

You would trace your finger along the cursive to remember the happier things. And the not so happier things. Quietly thinking back on what happened, try to reorganize the disappearing pieces into as clear a memory as you can afford to manage. (There are things you just don’t want to remember, don’t want to accept, no matter what.)

You would remember the quiet hallways of your mom’s workplace, the sudden shouting at the end of one corridor, the stern voice of an unfamiliar man and your mom’s response highlighted with an angry sharpness. The conversation spiraling into an argument and crossing a line too many - the muffled threats and the sudden fear and your blind adrenaline as you ran in with a split-second decision to tackle the man who dared to take away the only family you ever knew—

And then there had been pain, the physical kind, as you were shoved away - your mother calling your name with a score of horror as you hit your head on something hard - the man continuing on with no more than a cursory look at you and a smidge of irritation to his voice - “You will give me that key, Dr. Near, or the two of you might just meet the same end as your wretched husband.”

And then there had been pain, the one that nearly killed you, as everything soon registered and a swirling chaos of thoughts and feelings erupted from the hidden meaning in those words.

On the outskirts of the hamlet, close enough that you won’t run into monsters but far enough that no one will catch you - you breathe your thoughts into the air and watch the mirages of your heart take shape. Your mind has an instinctive understand of what you can do, and you get the faint impression that it isn’t much. Two songs, red magic and blue magic, was au ga lamenza echrra—you have only your traumas to sing about.

You pick up a random twig on the ground, squeezing the bark into pink imprints on your palms. You don’t want to be like this, you think quietly. Just like this. Forever like this. Reyvateils are strong people - you know this because your mom had a clear voice and a large heart overflowing with so many colors, with passion and confidence and soft lullabies that never had the same lyrics as she tucked you in at night, wee yea ra revm pitod infel yor - you remember that, in a time not too long ago, you said you wanted to be like your mom. 

And you still want to be like her. Strong and determined and willing to save her loved ones no matter the cost. The twig snaps into pieces from the duress of that thought. You will be like her, you think quietly, then loudly - you want to, you have to, so you will. You will become someone stronger, someone who won’t lose their loved ones, who won’t be helpless in the face of danger.

You absolutely will.

Thus, a few days later, you endure a two hour ranting lecture from Steeps on the sheer stupidity of trying to modify a steeplejack’s tools into weapons, especially while having no idea about how you were even going about it. No one said the road ahead was going to smooth sailing anyway.

But hey, it also got one of the older steeplejacks to teach you gathmelding, so at least you got something cool out of it, right?

Time passes. You never falter in your ambitions. You never doubt your own hopes.

But you will doubt yourself, sometimes.

Tucked into a corner that oversees the area by a mile, a small building houses everyone with a job in construction or something of the sort. As you begin to graduate from enduring mindless lectures and more technical reading than a kid would like to do, you’ve started to spend your mornings and some afternoons here, getting practice with the tools or sometimes shadowing someone.

One of those afternoons finds you reading a blueprint detailing how to repair the tiling on certain types of rooftops. While you’re busy puzzling out what any of it means and having no luck whatsoever, a few apprentices walk in with wrapped sandwiches and yawns about wanting a longer lunch break. They settle in the opposite side of the room after a few polite greetings aimed your way - some that you return as briefly and simply, a bit preoccupied with the blueprint still - before taking the next twenty minutes or so to just relax in this peaceful solitude. They chatter at random, from the recent weather to a resident’s wedding to the latest Cleansing that happened last week.

“—damn Clustanians, I swear,” one of them grumbles between munches of their sandwich. “Just because they’re reyvateils with their fancy song magic and crap, they think they can do shit all to us humans...”

“Hey, hey, calm down, there’s a kid in the room, you know.” A delicate pause. “That being said, I feel you there... But really, what can we do? We can’t beat them in numbers or power.”

“So, what, you’re saying we should just let them control us like this? Let those reyvateils just ruin our damn lives as they please?”

“I— I’m not! I’m just saying we shouldn’t do anything stupid when they can easily kill us all if they wanted to.”

A barked laugh. It sounds brittle. “They’re going to kill us no matter what. ‘s just a matter of time.”

“Why do they have to do this?” A third voice speaks, this one soft - just thinking aloud, unintentionally. A deep sigh follows from the group. You can’t help but curl into yourself, for some unclear reason weighing heavy on you. “I wish they would just stop and just... I don’t know, leave us alone? Let us live as we like?”

“A stupid dream if I’ve ever seen one.”

“I know. I just—” The sounds of the wrappers being scrunched up. Soon, they get tossed into the nearest trash bin. “My cousin was there. At the Cleansing that happened.”

“What— Fuck, Matthew, why the hell didn’t you tell us—!”

“You guys! There is a child here! Keep the cussing down, will you?”

“Yeah, an old enough kid that’s gonna hear this stuff sooner than later. You can’t baby them all, Lenas.”

“We can at least stop scaring them too much, jeez! Just look at Aoto, he looks like a cat that got dropped into a lake right now.”

The use of your name gets you to snap your head in the apprentices’ direction. You blink wide eyes at their sheepish or disgruntled faces, at the soft apologies given before they return to their conversation in even quieter whispers. You weren’t—scared, or at least you don’t think you were, just now. Were you? What was there to even be scared about? They were talking about the Clustanians. The reyvateil-only population of Sol Cluster.

You hurriedly look back down at the blueprints you were studying, trying to resume where you left off. Keyword being, you try, and then stop trying altogether. Stopped a good while back, actually. When the group had walked in and starting cursing about the sheer misery of being weaker than reyvateils and their power. About the monstrosity that you are, what you could possibly do if you so wished as well. Not that you would though! You would never misuse your powers, never sing an apocalypse onto all these people that care about you so.

(Would they care about you, though, if they knew?)

You stare at the blueprints for a long, long time. 

In the end enough, you go home, listen to Steeps’ grumbling over dinner, and sleep. And you get up the next morning, the morning light so warm and promising, so bright and suffocating, that there’s no way you can go back to sleep. Not that you want to. Breakfast is an omelette. It’s burnt, always is, but Steeps is trying. He’s trying, he hasn’t said anything, hasn’t spilled the beans. The only thing he does is raise an eyebrow when he finds you awake before your tenth alarm clock has rang, and you just grin and say you’re gonna try to fix the chimney with a drill all by yourself and that jumpstarts a five hour lecture so loud he could’ve woken up the entire village.

Your ears are twisted a near-permanent red after that, and everyone - everyone, from the petite granny down the road who gives you extra snacks to your trade mentors and fellow apprentices - keep making empathetic comments on it throughout the day. But you keep grinning and snickering as you indulge a young boy’s usual penchants for mindless mischief once in a while and the days and the weeks pass and pass and - this is fine! 

This is fine, yes. All exactly as you sort of wanted.

Even as you spend your time more on tools and construction, on work and living, even as you spend a bit less of your spare hours on secret sessions trying to weave the violent swings of an improvised weapon between hymns of a coffin being encased in ever-creeping frost - because you can’t, you know, you can’t forget, you want to (have to, there’s no choice, for the worst, for the inevitable) be strong for the amount of love (and fear) in your heart - you think, indeed, this is fine. It’s not perfect, because a perfect world wouldn’t have dead parents and conspiracies you still don’t have the faintest idea about, but this isn’t so bad either, honestly. So long as it stays like this, slow and quaint and forgetful to the last detail.

Some years later, a strange girl shows up one day, prays for miracles from a god that shouldn’t be listening, and everything turns into cake. And nothing is nor will be slow and quaint and forgetful as you run for your life, to some other future along the axis.

[roomfullofcunts]

I love you're writing, btw. You are a blessing upon the fandom. I have a bit of a dumb question though as someone who has only been lurking around the D:BH fandom for a few weeks... is there a reason why fans seem to universally hate David Cage? I feel like I missed all the good drama and am now trying to piece together the story based on numerous angry authors notes. (You're not obligated to answer if you dont want to you just seemed approachable) :)

Thank you anon :3

I don’t mind. Someone can probably word this better than poor sleep-deprived me, but I think with Cage there was already some history regarding his writing or behaviour. As someone who’s only been exposed to half of Heavy Rain, I wouldn’t really know, but that’s the impression I get; meaning that what people criticise about DBH is not an isolated event. As for DBH itself… My biggest issue with it was how ham-fistedly the race allegory was handled. It was clumsy and cringey at best, and ignorant and offensive at worst. I don’t really have the energy to go into it in-depth, but this is a pretty good write up.

There’s also the problem of how the women in the game were handled. Compared to Markus and Connor’s relatively complex, existentialism and ethics-driven character arcs, Kara was a “maid-bot” who wanted to be a mother. That was the extent of her humanity. Oh, and the sex bots. Even North’s whole personality seems based on the fact that she was a sex-bot, and the trauma she suffered because of it.

The force-fed straight romance rubbed a lot of people the wrong way too, not least because many people felt Simon should’ve been open for romancing as well, but also simply because it was just such a prime example of a shoe-horned straight romance where none was needed.

I’ve seen more criticism that has to do with world building or narrative, but these are the main points I usually see when the topic comes across; i.e race, gender & heteronormativity.

The problem I think is that DC built a plot revolving around something incredibly loaded in terms of race politics, but didn’t actually want to make a political game. He romanticises civil rights movements but doesn’t actually truly address the issues why those movements were necessary. Not to mention the awkwardness of essentially equating *objects* created to be subservient with black people. Yikes.

I’m sure much of this was unintended, stemming from ignorance and tone-deafness. But that doesn’t change the fact that many people (and especially Americans, who are closer to the topic than I as a European am) found it incredibly… well, shitty. Add to that the dissatisfaction with some of the narrative aspects, and you end up with a lot of fanfic authors denouncing DC as too incompetent to be paid any attention to, and embrace Death of the Author

Having said all that… Look, fandom keeps reiterating this -

it’s okay to like things that are problematic.

I greatly enjoyed DBH. I’ve sat through two playthroughs on my own console, and plan on doing more. I think the game is visually gorgeous, it’s one of the few “walking simulator”/QTE-heavy games I’ve actually enjoyed mechanics wise, and I thought the plot, when separated from it’s political ineptitude, was actually very captivating. I enjoyed the characters themselves, I cared about them and I cared about the relationships you could build. I think it’s a good game. I also think it’s an incredily badly handled game.

I also want to say this: A lot of us already spend a lot of time dealing with upsetting politics in real life. I’m a half-asian queer woman living in a country where right-wing politics are constantly trying to gain more foothold. And you don’t have to participate in the oppression olympics to feel anxiety about whichever country’s current political climate. Not to mention the personal problems most of us deal with, even the most well-adjusted of us. The real world is draining, so-

It’s absolutely fine to participate in fandom and not want to involve yourself in political discourse about the source material.

You don’t need to excuse yourself, you don’t need to apologise for your enjoyment of the product. You’re allowed to scroll past, blacklist, mute. It’s good to be aware of the nuances in the material, and it’s good to be open to the criticism people have about it, to be an educated consumer. But if it starts giving you anxiety or feelings of guilt about liking it - whether it’s a book or a game or a tv show - you’re allowed to take a step back and idk, go read some one-shot fluff-fics or that five-part smut series of your favourite gross ship.

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         º◦·✧·◦º  ┊  kj apa,  he /  him  &  cismale  ┊  damn,  look  at  archibald  andrews  this  year !  i  heard  he’s  seventeen and  has  lived  on  the  northside  for  seventeen  years.  also,  his  favorite  milkshake  flavor  is  black  &  white  with  whipped  cream,  chocolate  chips  &  two  straws,  just  in  case  you  wanna  get  in  with  him.  a  free  dessert  goes  a  long  way  !

          ok ya’ll so.  i never fuccen made an intro post bc  ??  im the worst  &  intro posts r the worst.  match made in heaven truly.  bUT as things grow  &  go on i figure i should get  !!  something  !!  up.  so here’s this  ??  idk what it is.  bear w me pls.  it’s most likely gonna end up as lil notes i’ll update  /  add to frequently as my portrayal tarries on  !

as we all know  !  s2 ends w archie being arrested for the murder of this binch  !  i dont need to say it but obviously archie didnt murder anyone  &  it’s all hiram’s doing.  for rp purposes we’re just gonna say the coopers helped get him out  (  register connections ??  )  &  now he’s just  ...  barely getting by.

post  !  arrest leaves a sad,  vulnerable,  sleep deprived archie.  he’s  SCARED,  in all honesty,,,  scared of what’s to come next,  scared to keep people around  ‘cause he knows he’ll drag them down with him.  he knows the arrest was only the beginning  &  he has no fuckin clue on how to make it stop.  it’s safe to say he’s feeling waves of  PARANOIA  &  ANXIETY,  but he’ll supress it literally as much as he can.  he’s getting back into writing music,  tho,  so hopefully that helps  ?

like i said,  archie is  HELLA  sleep deprived these days.  he’s kept up late w pressing thoughts  /  stress  /  anxiety  /  paranoia,  &  will literally just sit in bed until he either decides to run it out,  or talk to betty ab it  (  if her light’s on,  ofc  !  )  in this verse,  it’s not odd to find the boy w deep bags under his eyes  /  literally just drifting off in school.  sad.

he broke up with ronnie via the notion that he needs to step back as far away as possible from the lodges.  he still loves  /  cares about her so much  &  wants to support her  /  be friends,  but it’s a scary time for him.  he needs to disaffiliate w lodge industries,  &  get back to his roots  !  he’ll focus on being her  friend,  &  honestly,  that’s what they  both  need right now.

speaking of roots,  archie has been spending  A  LOT  of time w betty  !  they’re next door neighbors  /  best friends,  so naturally,  he’s going to her with a lot of his fears.  when he can’t sleep at night  ???  he calls her.  when he's tryin not to be alone  ???  he calls her.  various other issues  ??  u guessed it.  all her.  she’s become his literal  girl friday,  &  it’s inevitably making him think about her a ton  ??  while he’s at it,  he’s been pondering their kiss,  &  is allowing himself to recognize the immense feelings he’s had for her.  even tho he  KNOWS  he’ll never be good enough for her,  he’s finally willing to let himself  try  to be.  he doesn’t want to hurt her again,  though,  so he’ll walk on egg shells until she’s ready  !

miscellaneous fun facts  /  late night musings

obviously he’s primarily riverdale based, but as an avid reader of the comics,  i’m inclined to throw some of his personality from those in as well  !  this means arch is  ?  i guess more so in touch w his emotions  ?  like,,,  he  is  in the show,  but in the comics it’s just.  deeper.  i dunno.  he’s an emotional lil boy.  fav comic moment is when he tried to call himself an  albatross  but accidentally said albacore.  tragic.  :(

there’s no single,  widely accepted star sign for him,  so i’ve decided to make my archie a  pisces  !  seeing as i myself am one  &  a lot of the charas i draw inspo from are  (  ie.  ron weasley  ),  i only feel like it’s fitting.  defense:  arch is extremely sensitive  /  emotional.  he has a huge heart,  he’s the ~creative~ type,  he’s idealistic,  loyal,  patient,  genuine  &  hella romantic.  &  finally  ??  the 1985 birthday issue for archie states that his birthday’s is in march  !  as for moon  &  rising  ??  definitely leo  &  saggitarius.

in his earlier high school days i think he focuses his relationships a lot on lust rather than love  (  grundy,  val  &  even ronnie to an extent  ).  he’s v quick to say i love you  &  a lot of his relationships are v sexually based.  i think as he grows up tho he’s kinda realizing the importance of like  ?  love  >  lust.  this does not in the slightest invalidate his relationships  (  besides grundy bc that shit is fucked up.  he was so manipulated  &  it was mentally awful for him.  gross.  ),  i think it’s just the fine line of Who He Was  vs  Who He’s Becoming.  maturity at it’s finest,  my dudes.

archie andrews is an  INCREDIBLY  physical guy  !!  meaning he’s  gonna  hold your hand,  put an arm around you,  hug you,  etc  ...  it’s just a show of him caring  !

while post arrest has him scared  &  trying to back off everything  ...  it’s only a matter of time before arch starts plotting to take down hiram with the rest of the gang.  he just  ...  needs some time.  betty needs time.  veronica needs time.  &  jug  ?  he’s  kinda  got his hands full w the serpents,  so  ...  we’ll table that,  for now  !  (  aka:  i’ll explore this more when we finally get a hiram  !!  )

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disclaimer: most of what happened between us was on now deleted quotev/quizazz accounts and my old blog that i deactivated after getting stalked by someone irl. all the screenshots i can give are from our email conversations, but i can get some testimonies from people who knew her about how she treated me in public and what i told them at the time it all went down. 

(@stillwritinghaikus & @sadcryptid knew me and eli most of the time, but @gafou was there towards the end and can say what they were like the few times we all hung out also only contact these ppl off anon, they don’t all want to be involved too publicly but agreed to be included as character witnesses to who eli is-- there are other people but i don’t have ways to contact a lot of them because we fell out of touch over the years)

anyone who has followed me for long or knows me knows i still deal with panic attacks, issues in relationships, issues with self worth, and nightmares because of a bad ex-girlfriend.

me and eli (i think that’s what they’re going by now and i believe they use they/she pronouns now) were best friends and on-again off-again since 2013 up until some time in 2017. consistently from 2014 until 2016 (i tried to detach from them in late 2016 so we talked significantly less and i would ignore them when they got angry or anything), they emotionally abused me. 

tw for incest, daddy kink, and emotional abuse under the cut-- don’t harass her about the things regarding incest or daddy kink because most of that is from when they were 13-15, i’m only including it because its a testament to what type of person they are and something that is available in our email chains to prove. i was complicit in a lot of the incest rp/kink but at no point was i legit into it, i just never called them out on it and i went with it

we met when they were 12 almost 13 and i was 13 (i think) on our first accounts on quizazz (now quotev), a quiz and story-making website, because they spoiled fred dying for me in a post about harry potter. 

from then we started talking and eventually became best friends. things were mostly normal and healthy overall for the first year until i got into my first relationship w/ someone. they started to get possessive of my time and over me but i thought it was normal and it pretty much was especially when i found out why-- they confessed to having a crush on me. i got permission from my S.O. at the time to be poly and date both of them but eventually i dumped my S.O. for eli alone. it was around when we became exclusive (when they were 13 and i was 14) that things went from normal messy teenager dating to controlling my entire life

they would get angry when i went to sleep, saying that i had to stay up for them or giving me the silent treatment the next morning if i went to sleep when they didn’t want me to. they didn’t limit asking me to stay up to when they were unstable either, most of the time their reason was that they wanted to rp. they would snap and withhold affection from me if i went to sleep on accident or my mom took my laptop away so i would go to sleep. at some point it reached the point that i was missing days of classes in a row because i was sleep deprived and throwing up in the mornings from stress and lack of sleep. i told them this and they still didn’t stop.

they would also control what i posted on my blog or what i had my layout look like on quotev, because if they didn’t like what it was they would claim we had nothing in common and should break up or they should unfollow me or they should block me. most notably, when i made a sideblog for taylor swift posts at some point i started spending most of my time on that blog because taylor swift was a hyperfocus at the time. i switched that blog to my mainly active one and made it a multifandom with a focus on taylor swift, and they got mad at me for posting so much taylor swift. to placate her, i changed it so i only posted taylor swift in my queue and then, finally, i just ran a multifandom blog and avoided reblogging anything about taylor swift more than two or three times a week. i need to emphasize here: i never tried to make eli talk to me about taylor swift after they made it clear they didn’t like them, i didn’t talk to them about it and i didn’t require that they interact with my posts or anything. they just didn’t want me to post about my interest. this also happened with pokemon and homestuck, but to a lesser extent-- the fight was over once i changed my layout from having art for them, i was still allowed to post some.

we broke up sometime in late 2014 for good, but they still made all of my decisions. they were possessive and called me theirs, they didn’t like it when i liked girls who weren’t them, and only let me show affection for them. i was allowed on relationship other than eli, and only because they approved of her and set me up with her. in the end, we broke up because, with eli’s manipulation and forced dependence on them, i was still in love with them. then, within the month of breaking up with this girl, eli switched the script completely and would randomly go through bouts of anger where they would give me the silent treatment and vague about me for still having feelings for them.

they also made it very clear that they got to pick who i could and could not be friends with. most notably with my then best friend dani (@sadcryptid, dont message them publicly abt this). when they found out i was talking to dani in any capacity-- whether i mentioned her or posted something about her-- they would give me the silent treatment or yell at me about it extensively. this went on for YEARS (two? i think) until i ended up dropping dani for entirely unrelated reasons (we’re cool now). when, briefly after, i made friends with a girl who went by luna (who sexually harassed me so eli ended up being right but they didn’t know about that at the time), they lost their shit guilt tripping me into dropping luna too because they wanted to be my only close friend. another time my friend irl confessed to having a crush on me and eli made me talk to her less and said i was theirs

they also briefly shipped reylo and wincest, i have no idea if they still do but i know they did as long as i knew them, and shipped nico from percy jackson (a canon gay character) with their girl oc. (they had a whole breakdown when nico was confirmed gay, saying it ruined the books for them)

they also would give me the silent treatment whenever something good happened in my life-- when i got tickets for the nebraska comic con, or got to see taylor swift, they would give me the silent treatment or yell at me

they had an incest kink to the point of making up ocs to be their twin and older sister, only agreeing to human aus for michael/lucifer from spn if they were related in them (until they changed their mind to getting angry at me for suggesting them), and had a literal daddy kink-- not just into calling their partner daddy but to the point where they would propose rps where their self insert was the literal child of michael and they would have sex. 

they also liked professor/student plots, especially in harry potter with professor snape and their self inserts.

so here are the screenshots now, for your ref in the screenshots, they’ve gone by “mya”, “lottie/charlotte”, “wren”, and “matt”. they also have an oc other than the fake siblings that come up a few times named “juliet” and one named “holly” and one named “casey”. i know that the screenshots don’t have proof of everything i’ve outlined, like i said above most of it happened on accounts that have since been deleted or deactivated so i only have what i could find in my gmail.

i’ll add more screenshots as i find them

[alone-with-company]

✩ - Avignon

Send ‘✩’ for the following:

because this is long and gonna be a wonderful handful to tackle, its under read more.

*note that this is to the best of my knowledge of the ocs involved, so any input afterwards to ‘correct’ anything would be helpful!

Disagreements:

Who is more likely to raise their voice? 

AVI, because he gets irritated and annoyed very easily sometimes and I feel like Blue would just sort of stand there and stare until he calms down.

Who threatens to leave but never actually does?

Uh, tbh I’m really not sure? I think that they are both capable of making these threats, but I also think that it would take more than a disagreement (unless it was something crazily fundamental) for one to leave.

Who actually keeps their word and leaves?

Personally again, I feel both? But in my own instinct, it leans a little more towards Avi

Who trashes the house?

Well what kind of intense argument are these two having? I don’t think either would “trash” the house, maybe a few things broken by a pissed Frenchman, but nothing trashed lol again, this would have to be a crazy argument to even get to that point to begin with

Do either of them get physical?

I hope not??? Avi might slam and wave his hands around, and IF he were to TRY to strike Blue, I doubt that would even land.

How often do they argue/disagree?

To date, they haven’t really argued that much. Minor spats, or little comments, but its never been anything huge enough for an impact on either side.

Who is the first to apologise?

*snickering* Apologies? Where? 

Sex:

Who is on top?

That is easily Blue. Avignon never/hardly tops, not a thing he really craves.

Who is on the bottom?

Avi lol

Who has the strangest desires?

uhhhhhh, I feel like probably Blue to be perfectly honest

Any kinks?

I know that they both have kinks lmfao specifically for Blue, I don’t 100% remember them all, I know at least blood play and knives for certain. Avi likes bondage, being ordered about (you didn’t hear it from me), certain toys, lace, rough play apparently now okay. 

Who’s dominant in bed?

Blue, that is a given lol though doesn’t mean Avi might not possibly challenge, but again he rarely tops.

Is head ever in the equation?

I don’t see Blue giving head personally, I mean I could be wrong, but that doesn’t seem like that would be a thing he might do. Avignon doesn’t really give head either, though if asked, he might do it

If so, who is better at performing it?

I don’T know the answer to this, I literally have no idea LOL

Ever had sex in public?

they haven’t even had the sex. Uhm, if they did, Avi would be very desperate to make sure that they did not GET CAUGHT.

Who moans the most?

THat would be Avignon I feel, but again, could be Blue - though I feel like he would make more ‘growling’ noises if that makes sense.

Who leaves the most marks?

Blue, that is definitely him no lie at all there.

Who screams the loudest?

Avi

Who is the more experienced of the two?

Blue, I feel is more experienced lol

Do they ‘fuck’ or ‘make love’?

I personally feel like they would probably ‘fuck’ over ‘make love’, but I think that depends on the mood surrounding the event in my personal opinion. I know Avi prefers the term ‘make love’ but *shrug*

Rough or soft?

RoUgh, just because that just seems the way they might go. But maybe soft at times?

How long do they usually last?

I literally have no idea how long two non-humans would last. I don’t knOw.

Is protection used?

Avi doesn’t use protection lol I don’t know about Blue however.

Does it ever get boring?

I doubt it :’) 

Where is the strangest place they’d have sex?

Probably some abandoned building or some crazy thing like that, depends on who is thirsty and if they want spur of the moment.

Family:

Do your muses plan on having children/or have children?

HAAAAAAA HAAA NOPE NO CHILDREN HERE LMFAO

If so, how many children do your muses want/have?

ZERO so do I fill the rest of this out hypothetically...? Leave it blank? I’ll fill it out for shits and giggles because I know 1000% there is NO children at ALL.

Who is the favorite parent? 

Blue prob

Who is the authoritative parent? 

Avi

Who is more likely to allow the children to have a day off school? 

Avi LOL

Who lets the children indulge in sweets and junk food when the other isn’t around?

I don’t think either of them would care

Who turns up to extra curricular activities to support their children?

ehhhhhhh....???? Depends on the topic. I don’t know

Who goes to parent teacher interviews?

I feel like both lol Blue intimidating a teacher sounds hilarious

Who changes the diapers?

neither lol nah, Avi probably

Who gets up in the middle of the night to feed the baby?

Avi again lol

Who spends the most time with the children?

Avi

Who packs their lunch boxes?

I donT know. Avi I guess

Who gives their children ‘the talk’?

Blue can have that, Avi will just wander away from that conversation LOL

Who cleans up after the kids?

Maybe both, they both seem to like things in order

Who worries the most?

AVI he needs to NOT worry

Who are the children more likely to learn their first swear word from?

Avi :’)

Affection:

Who likes to cuddle?

I know Avignon doesn’t mind cuddling, but Blue doesn’t (yes? since he doesn’t like hugs it seems safe to assume that)

Who is the little spoon?

My first thought is to say Avi, but that implies that Blue intiates the cuddling - which he doesn’t like, so I suppose Blue would be?

Who gets naughty in the most inappropriate of places?

I know Avi doesN’t, he would try to hide any such evidence.

Who struggles to keep their hands to themself?  

I don’t think either of them have that problem, but it could depend again on the situation. On who’s more lusting at the time.

How long can they cuddle until one becomes uncomfortable?

like five seconds. Nah kidding, but I wouldn’t imagine very long at all.

Who gives the most kisses?

Idk about Blue, but Avi is one that likes to sneak in kisses so

What is their favourite non-sexual activity?

Plotting the demise of their enemies. Avi might tag along with Blue’s urban explorations tbh - maybe find some odd shops and what not.

Where is their favourite place to cuddle?

i....dont know. A random hug on the go and then back to business lol

Who is more likely to playfully grope the other? 

Not sure why, but I feel like Blue could be a tease if he wants to be. Doesn’t even have to be a grope either for him, could just be a way he talks or maybe a certain look.

How often do they get time to themselves?

a fair amount...?

Sleeping:

Who snores?

I don’t think either of them snore, Avi doesn’t, and I don’t think Blue does.

If both do, who snores the loudest?

N/A

Do they share a bed or sleep separately?

Well. Since their sleep schedule is different, I can see them sharing a bed, but also because it wouldn’t really be a big issue

If they sleep together, do they cozy up together or lay far apart?

Lay apart, though yet in still close proximity? just not ‘cuddle’ actions.

Who talks in their sleep?

I feel like they both do, to what extent with Blue, i don’t know, Avi might just mumble here and there. Though would be the type to respond to a question asked.

What do they wear to bed?

I don’t know what Blue wears to bed honestly, I almost feel like he just sleePs in his clothes. Avi wears light pjs, usually loose long pants and a long sleeved shirt

Are either of your muses insomniacs?

Well Blue is a vampire, so naturally he won’t sleep at night, but for his own sleep cycle, I can’t say for certain - but I do feel like he might have trouble falling asleep. Avi for sure has trouble falling asleep.

Can sleeping pills be found by the bedside?

No.

Do they wrap their limbs around each other or just lay side by side?

Avi would like to do that, but won’t because boundaries. so lay side by side.

Who wakes up with bed hair?

BlUe, and I don’t know why I say that LOL. Avi doesn’t get bedhead that bad, if ever, but again who knows lol

Who wakes up first?

uhhhhhhh, thats tricky to figure out because one sleeps during the day and the other at night, so..

Who prepares breakfast in bed for the other?

Neither, I don’t see them doing that tbh

What is their favourite sleeping position?

Avi sleeps on his right side, slightly curled. I’m not sure how Blue likes to sleep :x

Who hogs the sheets?

Avi might since he’s prone to getting chilly a lot of the time.

Do they set an alarm each night?

Avignon does out of habit, I don’t think Blue does.

Can a television be found in their bedroom?

Nah, probably books though and a laptop.

Who has nightmares?

HNNgggg, I can’t remember if you’ve told me if Blue does or not, Avi does on occasion, usually about things about work.

Who has ridiculous dreams?

I don’t know, dreams can be all sorts of ridiculous. I don’t think either of them personally.

Who sprawls out and takes up most of the bed?

Neither again in my opinion, I see them both as pretty sound and still sleepers.

Who makes the bed? 

Hmmm, Avignon i can see making sure the bed is made, so that it looks nice.

What time is bed time? 

LOL whenever they are tired, there is no set time. 

Any routines/rituals before bed?

Avi brushes his teeth and usually takes a shower, puts his hair up a bit, might read a little or do a few things on the internet. Blue, I don’t know what he does before he goes to bed.

Who’s the grumpiest when they wake up?AVI. Okay, hes already making himself sleep deprived so just...leave him be for a couple minutes and he’ll be fine lol

Work:

Who is the busiest?

They both seem pretty busy tbh, 

Who rakes in the highest income?

well since Avi currently doesn’t have a job anymore right now.....

Are any of your muses unemployed?

Avi lmfao not that he’s complaining about it right now though, he doesn’t mind that break

Who takes the most sick days?

Avi since I don’t think Blue can get sick

Who is more likely to turn up late to work?

Neither

Who sucks up to their boss?

well Avi did so that he can like try to work his way up to the top/stay alive, kinda important.

What are their jobs?

Blue is a neurosurgeon, Avi is a field agent to keep it somewhat simple - maybe like a makeshift FBI of the company he works for

Who stresses the most?

Avignon. When does he not stress?

Do your muses enjoy or despise their careers/occupations?

I know Blue does!! I know Blue very much enjoys his career. Avi actually wouldn’t mind so much if his life wasn’t deemed as worthless :’) and that he is basically a pawn

Are your muses financially stable?

Blue is for sure, Avi is okay for now as well.

Home:

Who does the washing?

uh, Avi I guess? THough I’m sure Blue is also perfectly capable, they would do their own laundry I would think lol

Who takes out the trash?

Avi

Who does the ironing?

Blue’s the one with all those nice suits, so him I think :P

Who does the cooking?

Well Blue doesn’t eat human food so it would have to be Avi

Who is more likely to burn the house down just trying?

Avi, though it wouldn’t be but a one time mistake LOL

Who is messier? 

They seem to be both orderly to me tbh, so if one was to be messier, it would be slight? Unless Blue just likes to put things in random places and Avi just doesn’t care for where that is

Who leaves the toilet roll empty?

Neither

Who leaves their dirty clothes on the floor?

I don’t know, Avi might throw his on a chair when he’s not going to wash it right away

Who forgets to flush the toilet?

Neither

Who is the prankster around the house?

Again, not a thing I see either of them doing. Maybe an unintentional scare because Blue is a silent walker, might give Avi a slight heart attack to just APPEAR

Who loses the car keys when it comes time to go somewhere?

Avi

Who mows the lawn?

Well no one wants someone mowing the lawn at night so Avi lol

Who answers the telephone?

Avignon is quick with telephones, so he would be prone to dart to answer it

Who does the vacuuming?

Both, they can both vacuum yes. Though I feel like Avi might push reminders more

Who does the groceries?

Avi because he’s the one eating the food

Who takes the longest to shower?

I really don’t know

Who spends the most time in the bathroom?

Avi maybe? Brushing his hair and what not

Miscellaneous:

Is money a problem?

Nope.

How many cars do they own?

Avignon has a car, I don’t know if Blue does - never been mentioned/never seen him with one lol

Do they own their home or do they rent?

They would own a home.

Do they live near the coast or deep in the countryside?

I feel like probably the coat, not gonna lie.

Do they live in the city or in the country? 

City, more convenient and probably a lot more interesting things happening. 

Do they enjoy their surroundings?

As far as I know they both do

What’s their song?

I have no idea, but that might get looked into lol

What do they do when they’re away from each other?

Business as usual lol I don’t really see a lot of behavior/pattern change just because of each other,except the fact Avi needs to find a different job now

Where did they first meet?

WELL, in a stairwell of the SSIH

How did they first meet?

Chance meeting that was probably one out of a million because who expects a crazy vampire wandering up a company stairwell? And then fun times ensue from that

Who spends the most money when out shopping?

I don’t know what Blue spends money on, honestly.

Who’s more likely to flash their assets?

Uh, I’m not sure on this either :P maybe Blue?

Who finds it amusing when the other trips over?

Blue, that is a Blue thing to be amused by

Any mental issues?

THese two? mental issues? Not at all, what are you talking about.... Both, but very different issues. One knows all about his and readily talks to his voices, while the other shoves it deep down and decides to ignore it like a fucking champ until it’ll probably eat him away.

Who’s terrified of bugs?

I wouldn’t say Avi is terrified of bugs, but he doesn’t really appreciate it when they like to invade his space

Who kills the spiders around the house?

Blue won’t, so I guess Avi will have to - that or nicely escort them out of the house.

Their favourite place?

As in together or separate? Together I have no idea, Avi separately would love to back to France on a trip, Blue I’m not sure, he seems to like the odd places 

Who pays the bills?

Both.

Do they have any fears for their future?

Avi worries about the consequences and repercussions of his late career a lot, and worries about how long he probably has left until someone assassinates him. Blue, I’m not 100% on. 

Who’s more likely to surprise the other with a fancy dinner?

Well since avi can’t as Blue doesn’t eat food (unless he does something crazy with blood somehow...)

Who uses up all of the hot water? 

Avi lol he would use all of it up

Who’s the tallest?

Blue is at 6′2″, and dear Avi is 5′9″

Who’s more likely to just randomly hop into the shower with the other?

I actually think Blue would tbh

Who wanders around in their underwear?

Neither, not a thing I can see Blue doing and Avi certainly doesn’t do that

Who sings the loudest when singing along to the radio?

Avi I feel, he doesn’t mind singing along to a radio at all :D

What do they tease each other about?

small things, maybe on different habits or hobbies that they like that might seem obscure to the other. Protecting the other

Who is more likely to cringe at the other’s fashion sense at times?

Neither I don’t think, they both have an actual nice sense of style to the both of them and nothing really obnoxious lol

Do they have mutual friends?

No......? Not that I can think of. Mutual enemies tho now lol

Who crushed first? 

Avi, Avi definitely crushed first because the Frenchman can’t help himself 

Any alcohol or substance related problems?

For Blue, not that I know of, and for Avi, no.

Who is more likely to stumble home, drunk, at 3am?

Avi might, if he’s really upset or something

Who swears the most?

Avi lol

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OKAY DONE FINALLY, I very much enjoyed this lol Now you know more things, and Avi here is glowing lol. Though let me know on inaccurate thoughts? I did my best lol