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SCTIR Translation - Chapter 463: I'm a Fan! (3)

“I told you I’m not. Whether I’m thirty or twenty-five, I’m not dating or getting married,” I replied. “But you said you were going to confess!” Yerim cried.

Chapter translation under the cut.

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I could feel a gaze on me. Without even having time to sort out my tangled thoughts, I completely hid myself. The Sprout skill that I hadn't fully checked deactivated, and I heard Moon Hyuna’s laughter.

“At this rate, we might lose track of Director Han. He’s completely out of sight.”

“The normal one here is me—me,” I emerged from behind Jason, protesting that they were the ones who were too tall. Chloe was still looking at me, but it seemed she didn’t know exactly what I had done. She tilted her head slightly before slowly looking away.

‘S-rank.’

Chloe Alger wasn’t an A-rank. My mouth went dry. Could it be? No, I shouldn't jump to conclusions. It wasn’t uncommon for hunters to conceal their true ranks. Even Yoohyun had disguised himself as B-rank under the alias Kim Minyi. So it was possible that Chloe had been concealing her rank all along.

It might not have anything to do with the Pious or Park Hayul's ‘noonim’. Maybe she had been S-rank from the start, both before and after my regression.

‘…But I can’t just ignore it.’

Hiding one’s rank while entering the country was already an illegal act. If it were anyone else, I might’ve quietly tipped off Director Song and left it at that, but damn.

‘There could be a good reason for her to hide her S-rank.’

Maybe she had a contract, or someone had leverage over her, or she had someone she needed to protect. Awakening as S-rank wasn’t always a blessing. As rare as they were, S-rank hunters attracted a lot of attention, and that made them targets. While the S-rank hunters themselves could handle it, the people around them often couldn’t.

If Yoohyun had been B-rank instead of S-rank, he wouldn’t have had to distance himself from me. Young mid-tier hunters were good prey, but they were nothing compared to top-tier hunters, especially S-rank ones. …If he hadn’t been born an S-rank, even that cursed lizard wouldn’t have bothered approaching him.

‘I trust Director Song, but…’

He was also inflexible, which could be a problem. He would prioritize the law over almost anything else unless there was an exceptional reason. And if an S-rank hunter had broken the law? There was almost no chance he would look the other way.

“Hyung, this way.”

Before I knew it, Yoohyun had come up beside me, taking hold of my arm. My feet had unconsciously started following Chloe and the Burn Cave Guild group.

“We can’t ride in the same car.”

“Oh, right.”

“Ajussi, you really seem to like that hunter unnie,” Yerim whispered.

I liked her, sure, but...

The Burn Cave guild members climbed into their waiting limousine. With so many large people, a normal car would be cramped. Coming to my senses, I realized that not only Yoohyun, Yerim, and Moon Hyuna, but also Sung Hyunje and Song Taewon were all staring at me.

“Hyung-nim, this seems more serious than I thought?” Hyuna said.

Everyone seemed to think I was simply starstruck because of my fanboying. Even Director Song didn’t seem to have noticed anything strange. As for Sung Hyunje…

‘...He seems to have picked up on something.’

The amused glint in Sung Hyunje’s eyes, as if he had just come to spectate for fun, had settled into something calmer. When our gazes met, the corners of his lips lifted slightly.

“Come to think of it, I had a date planned with Director Han. At the aquarium,” Sung Hyunje said.

He was probably asking if we needed to talk privately. By ‘aquarium,’ did he mean his house?

Moon Hyuna elbowed Sung Hyunje in the arm. “Looks like going on a date with Hyung-nim will be hopeless until Chloe leaves the country. What’ll you do?”

“It’s not like I’ll be following Hunter Chloe around all day. But I should still be a good host, so I can’t go on that date right away,” I said.

“Listen to him. He means after she leaves the country, after she leaves!” Moon Hyuna said.

“Hyuna-ssi, really! I’ll keep the appointment within three days. I’ll contact you,” I said to Sung Hyunje. He should have understood that I was saying there was a problem, but that I needed time to investigate it further.

“I appreciate the offer of your valuable time. I’ll prepare thoroughly to welcome you.”

It seemed Sung Hyunje was going to look into it too. I was sure he’d be discreet enough that Chloe wouldn’t notice.

Moon Hyuna then asked me if I liked aquariums. Between Noah, Yoohyun, Yerim, and even Sung Hyunje, I’ll have gone several times already.

“Would you like to come along next time, Hyuna-ssi?” I offered.

“Thanks for the date invitation, but I prefer fishing over watching caged fish.”

“You like fishing?”

“I prefer spearfishing. Not the small stuff, but the big ones. Sitting around doing nothing is boring.”

That sounded more like hunting than fishing.

Since I didn’t need to go to the Association, I decided to head to the rearing facility first. Sung Hyunje and Moon Hyuna returned to their guilds, while Song Taewon stayed behind to accompany us.

'...First, I should talk more with Chloe-ssi.'

I couldn’t just come out and say, “I think you’re actually an S-rank.” She’d likely just respond with, "I had my reasons for hiding it." If that were true, it would be a relief, but the bigger problem would be if she were connected to the Transcendents or Park Hayul’s group.

‘Maybe I should meet her alone.’

Throwing out bait was always the best approach. Or perhaps there was another way…

“Hyung,” Yoohyun, sitting next to me, said in a heavy voice. “I’m against you getting involved with a high-rank Awakened.”

“…What?”

I turned to look at my little brother, who had a dark expression on his face. He seemed… somewhat sullen.

“If you end up with someone stronger than you, it could be dangerous,” he said.

“Well… obviously, but why bring that up all of a sudden?”

“If you start dating, you’ll inevitably spend a lot of time alone together. I wouldn’t be able to guarantee your safety.”

…What? Before I could process that, Yerim, sitting on my other side, also jumped into the conversation.

“He’s right, Ajussi. There’s such a thing as dating violence and domestic abuse, you know? With potions these days, it’s easy to erase any traces, so it’s risky. And you only just met her, too.”

What? What’s with this sudden talk about dating violence? But… they had a point. If someone stronger than me resorted to violence and then used a potion, no one would ever know. That’s pretty scary, now that I think about it.

“Right. Neither of you should date anyone above S-rank. You should date people weaker than you.”

“When I start dating, I’ll be the strongest anyway, so don’t worry about it,” Yerim said confidently.

“Got it. Not that I plan on dating anyone,” Yoohyun answered indifferently. I had already given up on seeing him in a relationship. “Then you should also date someone weaker than you, hyung.”

“…No, I can’t do that. I can barely take care of myself; what am I supposed to do if I end up with an F-rank?”

I was already worried about the non-Awakened people around me. Adding another one to the mix would be too much.

“But high-ranking hunters are too dangerous.”

“Yoohyun, it doesn’t matter whether they’re mid-tier or high-tier for me. I’d be easy pickings for S-rank and C-rank alike.”

Sure, if I was fully geared and armed with items, it’d be different, but in everyday life, they were all the same.

Yoohyun sighed deeply at my response. “Do you really like that hunter that much?”

“You only saw her videos, right? Do you like her more now after seeing her in person? Are you going to confess?” Yerim asked.

These kids, seriously. No matter how many times I tell them it’s not like that… Wait a minute.

“A confession…”

At my muttering, Yoohyun and Yerim’s eyes widened in surprise.

“What? Ajussi, hold on! I was just kidding!”

“Hyung, are you serious? You barely know her. What if you end up getting married? She might ask to move in with us, or insist that you move out!”

“Ajussi! These days, people don’t date or get married until they’re thirty! According to their registered age, I mean!”

The kids each grabbed one of my arms. Director Song, who was sitting in the front passenger seat, turned back to look at us.

“I told you I’m not. Whether I’m thirty or twenty-five, I’m not dating or getting married,” I replied.

“But you said you were going to confess!” Yerim cried.

“Hyung… you’re not going to kick me out, are you?”

“Han Yoohyun may be an adult, but I’m still young!”

“I’m not kicking anyone out! That’s never happening! I’m not even dating anyone!”

“Really? You can start dating when I’m grown up. It’s just that now feels a little too early,” Yerim said.

“I don’t have the energy for stuff like dating.” I really didn’t have the bandwidth for it. And even if I did, dating right now would just end with me getting dumped. “I’ve got my hands full just taking care of you two and the kids. I don’t have the strength to add anyone else.”

But…

“I just wanted to try confessing, that’s all.”

“Hyung!”

“Ajussi!”

“I’m talking about just saying the words. Just the words, that’s all.”

To say, ‘I love you.’ Considering everyone was already misunderstanding my feelings, wasn’t this a good opportunity? It was a situation where I could naturally and openly say ‘I love you’. It probably wouldn’t be enough to apply the keyword just from saying it once, but if it worked, that’d be great. If it didn’t...

‘At the very least, I’d find out if she’s connected to Park Hayul’s noonim.’

If Chloe had grown stronger thanks to that noonim’s skill, I’d get the same message saying the keyword can’t be applied, just as I did with Park Hayul. By confessing, I could at least rule out one possibility.

‘And depending on her reaction, I might even figure out if she’s involved with the Transcendents.’

If she were connected to Chatterbox or the cult, wouldn’t she eagerly accept my confession? If it were me, I wouldn’t let an opportunity like that slip by. If I didn’t get the “keyword cannot be applied” message and Chloe rejected my confession, it would likely mean she was simply hiding her rank for personal reasons.

I really hoped that was the case.

“Honestly, it’s not like I, uh, have absolutely no feelings at all. Don’t look at me like that, guys,” I said. It was making me feel like a jerk trying to abandon his kids and remarry. “I just want to get it off my chest so I can move on. And there’s no way Chloe-ssi would accept my confession anyway.”

“Why wouldn’t she?” Yerim asked.

“Since it’s you, hyung, of course she’d accept.”

These kids really think too highly of me.

“If she understands Han Yoojin-ssi’s worth, she may very well accept,” an unexpected voice chimed in.

“…Huh?”

I hadn’t expected Director Song to join the conversation.

“I would advise you to think carefully about dating a top-tier hunter who isn’t from Korea but from overseas.”

“I’m not even thinking about dating,” I protested.

“I’m also concerned about Hunter Chloe’s safety,” Song Taewon said, his gaze shifting to Yoohyun and Yerim. “Please act with caution.”

“…I’ll just confess and leave it at that. Really.”

Ah, geez. I really don’t have any other intention. I just want to confirm the situation.

Even after I repeatedly insisted that I wasn’t interested in dating, Yoohyun and Yerim stayed glued to my side for the entire tour of the rearing facility, blocking Chloe from getting too close. Even Director Song didn’t try to stop them.

“I’d heard some rumors, but you really do seem close,” Jason said, clearly taken aback by the two S-rank hunters’ actions. Thanks to that, everyone seemed to have misunderstood that I not only had feelings for Chloe Alger, but that I’d fallen for her at first sight. Chloe herself didn't show any particular reaction, but the other hunters looked back and forth between us, whispering quietly.

If it turned out Chloe wasn’t hiding anything nefarious, I’d feel really guilty. I’d have to make it up to her somehow. I felt genuinely apologetic.

“Once large monsters grow beyond a certain size, they are transferred to the rearing facility in Gyeonggi-do,” I explained.

“Could we see that as well?” Jason asked.

“Of course. I’ll arrange it.”

Apart from the rumors about Chloe and me, everything proceeded without issues. Since Chloe was with them, I wondered if Jason or the Burn Cave Guild were also involved, but they didn’t show any suspicious behavior. Jason, for an S-rank, was relatively polite as well.

The real trouble began after the breeding facility tour ended.

[Hyung-nim, are you really going to confess?]

It started with a message from Hyuna-ssi, who had probably been tipped off by Yerim.

“Lord! They said you fell in love at first sight!”

“Yoojin-ssi, is it true?”

Even Do Hamin and Noah had heard the rumors and rushed over.

“…I’m just going to confess, that’s all. A confession to let go of lingering feelings! Why don’t you go fuss over your precious hamster?”

“I’ve already made sure our Goldie is comfortable. We’re giving it time to adjust, so it’s better not to get too close yet. Look at the sheen of its fur. Even though it must have been tired from the flight, it's so glossy─ Isn't it amazing? And look at its small hands and feet. And that bottom! That round little bottom! It eats well too. Look at its front paws, front paws. It's holding food tightly and nibbling, pushing it into its cheeks. Isn't it adorable? Oh, those cheek pouches, oh my, really. It's cute when they're full, but when it empties them, pressing with its front paws! Whew!"

I’d better not mention anything about gold or hamsters around Do Hamin for a while.

Then Seok Shimyung also rushed over, looking deeply concerned, and asked seriously if I was really going to confess. “You’re too young for a relationship, in my opinion. Surely you aren’t thinking of marriage already?”

“…No, I’m not.”

“I don’t doubt Director Han Yoojin’s familial love, but dating and marriage can interfere with the harmony within a family—”

“I said I’m not doing it,” I interrupted.

Seok Shimyung proceeded to launch into a lecture about how it wasn’t the right time for dating, that it would interfere with the rearing facility, that marriage should happen when the time is right, and that it’s not uncommon for people these days to marry after forty. Only after grilling me multiple times about whether I truly had no intention of dating did he finally leave.

Even Seok Hayan’s team contacted me to ask if it was true. Rearing facility employees started subtly probing for information, and even Myungwoo came out from the smithy to have a serious talk.

“I also don’t think a foreign high-rank hunter is a good match. Especially since I heard that you met for the first time today.”

“...It’s not like that.”

“Yoojin-ah, there are plenty of good people in the world. Make sure you choose carefully.”

Facing his sincere eyes full of concern, I started feeling guilty. It’s not like that, really. I’m not dating anyone.

And the next day.

"A hotel would be best, I think."

“Of course. The weather’s getting cold, and outdoor venues are the worst. Hyung-nim, which hotel do you like? I’ll rent it out for you!”

Sung Hyunje and Moon Hyuna were all set to help with my ‘proposal.’

Is this fun for you, huh? You two are really enjoying this, aren’t you?!

#sctir #the s classes that i raised #s classes that i raised #my s class hunters #내가 키운 s급들 #novel translation

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beautifulpersonpeach · 1 year

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Hi BPP. I have a question running through my mind lately, and I think it’s a little bit stupid, a little bit legit. I read your thoughts and like your opinions. I think you’re one of the best people who could answer, if not the most appropriate one. Sorry if it sounds dumb, tho.

I’ve been into kpop for a while, now. I can’t say i know the way it works, i can’t say i’m a master of it. But i notice things. I notice the big big impact fanservice has in the industry, for example. It’s literally fundamental. There are a few few companies with sex-mixed groups. Put them apart, the majority are same sex groups. Because with opposite genders in the same group there could be problems, unease, relationships etc.

Then they push same sex fantasies with fanservice and amplified skinship (already present in Korea). And until this point, everything is normal. I mean, we know things work this way.

But here i already notice a controversy. Homophobia is present and rooted in Korea and in the industry, but still they push gay narratives/don’t do anything to debunk them. So they try to “feed” everyone, people who like gay scenarios/moments included.

Then i think about girl groups. Twice, black pink. There’s a lot of explicit touching, explicit affirmations (i like you, your body is stunning, let’s go on a date, you make me blush etc). There’s in bts too, the guys did some nasty things too on cameras, i know. But with girl groups, you can easily notice it’s made up for the cameras but it still happens, and unless i’m missing it, i never saw someone hating or heavily hating on members because of it. Because of some easily misunderstanable sentences/acts.

The same goes for boy groups. I’m thinking of ateez. On of the members (i’m not into them so i don’t know his name) loudly read a comment saying “marry (insert another member’s name)”. And he said “you want me to marry *? You know it’s illegal here”. Then i’m thinking of enyphen, again, i’m not into them, but i saw this clip of two members going live and reading comments about them being a couple/being romantically involved. Shipping.

I’m sorry this is gonna be a long one, but before making my point i need to say these things.

Then we have Somi. She explicitly said she has a lot of women flirting with her, and she said she wants to conquer women too. She said she likes Han SoHee and dmed her on insta, but she didn’t reply. She even kissed Hyuna in a video posted on the internet less than a month ago.

Then we have Bibi. She kisses girl fans during her concerts and pictures of it are shared everywhere. She’s still famous, all of these people i’m mentioning are famous, are known, are in the korean spotlight, more or less. And their careers are not fucked up. Sometimes it’s fanservice, some others it’s who they are. Somi really likes women too, imo, and Bibi as well.

I get that for women it might be easier. There’s a group (a big group) of people who prefers gay interactions between women than gay interactions between men. They find it pleasing, and it’s an homophobic, toxic masculinity and women fetishization related preference.

But still, most people are fine with it. Yeah someone probably criticized it, probably hated on them because of these behaviours, but at the end of the day everything is fine for them.

I’m thinking about J-Hope too, who has gay friends and publicly shares pictures with them. He even visited a gay club and, again, probably some people criticized him for it and i’m just not on that side of the internet and the fandom, but at the end of the day his career is not gonna end because of it. Most People are fine with that too. He wears nail polish, tae does too. Can you imagine Jm or Jk doing that publicly? The hate they’d get? Maybe i’m wrong and it wouldn’t be like that; but that’s how i feel.

Then i think about Holland. His coming out had a huge impact on his career, his life. The aggressions he was victim of; his music not being so followed and famous, probably also because of said coming out.

I think about every kpop artist who is closeted and can’t say it. I think about Jikook, about Jimin who had to “play” with colors, lyrics, temporary tattoos and playful interviews (such as the “I think he likes men-> I don’t like you” one) in order to silently whisper that he’s not straight. That there’s more he can’t show.

And then Jikook in general. They could never afford to do what ateez and enhypen did. Never, bpp. We know that. So why?

Why is there this difference, why is it so… difficult for me to get how this works. Why can they do it, but Jikook can’t? But bts can’t? Why is there a limit for some idols, and some others are almost completely free? What am I missing?

I hope my question is clear, bpp. I really do, because i feel like i made a mess here all over the place. I’m sorry about it, thank you for reading this, if you did.

I appreciate you🫶

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Hi Anon,

Don’t apologize.

So if I’m reading this right, you’re asking why the reaction to jikook showing queer expression is so much more negative than you see it for anyone else / other duos and groups?

Or, maybe quoting you is better:

“And then Jikook in general. They could never afford to do what ateez and enhypen did. Never, bpp. We know that. So why?”

I’m not sure if what I’ll say will make sense, and this might seem silly, but I think one reason jikook/BTS appear to have fewer liberties on things like explicit/overt shows of love/attraction between them, even under the umbrella of ‘fan service’ and compared to other groups, is because BTS is the biggest group in the world. Just by virtue of the group’s prominence, BTS being very closely tied with several government appointments and massive brands in Korea (Samsung and Hyundai)… there’s a greater expectation of conformity for them compared to other groups. There’s just more at stake for them.

I mean, do you recall the lead up to the enlistment news? How people were picking them apart, people who didn’t think they should be exempt where digging into their old footage trying to find anything to turn public opinion against the group. It was kinda crazy. In that sort of environment and in any case, the prudent thing would be to wait till after military service to expect more freedom in expression for a boy group. And perhaps that’s what we’ll see with jikook and BTS in general come 2026.

But also, the thing is, jikook have still been quite loud… in some ways even louder than Somi’s declarations (but certainly not Holland’s and the cost to him and any openly gay artist is apparent to see). GCF in Tokyo is so loud, it couldn’t be louder if JK got a megaphone, climbed to the top of the Eiffel Tower and screamed that he loves Jimin in the four cardinal directions. No matter what anybody says about GCF in Tokyo, that video itself is very clear and it says it all.

Then there’s the gesture of Jimin flying from Paris to Korea just to spend some time with Jungkook on his birthday, and then more recently, flying to NYC to be with JK during Seven debut. There’s the way their families treat them both. There’s that OT7 live where Jimin kept one half of his body literally glued to Jungkook’s on the couch, hooking his arms to keep their thighs together that not even air could pass between them. Then there’s fucking Rosebowl, pardon my French.

Like, even with all the scrutiny, jikook have still been able to say what they actually want about what they each mean to each other. Jimin is usually private and careful with how he speaks in general, he’s not the kind of person to talk the way Somi did about anything, really. So expecting a similar level and style of communication/queer expression, for jikook compared to these other people, really isn’t fair to Jimin or Jungkook to begin with, I think.

It’s totally okay if as a fan you’d like to see more open, simple and consistent expressions of queerness the way we have it in OnlyOneOf, Ateez, Bibi, etc. Those groups are made in some ways precisely to scratch that itch. It’s good the way they talk about queer attraction draws you in or resonates with you, but I’m not sure it’s fair to expect other people, in this case jikook and/or BTS, to express their relationship and queer feelings the same way.

If you’re approaching this solely from the point of concern for jikook, I totally get it. Korea is very homophobic. But within their immediate team, I hope and trust they are surrounded by more good people than bad, people who will aim to protect the queer members. There’s no use worrying about this for long, since they’ll just have to learn to take care of themselves.

I could’ve totally missed your question or what you’re actually asking, Anon. If so let me know. But the above is also what I think.

#Also Hobi didn’t go to a gay club but one rumoured to be frequented by some gay men #jikook #BTS #bts chapter 2 #kpop

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cryiling · 1 year

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No no no, kpop revalink angst let’s hear it 🧍‍♀️

(in reference to this post)

OUH GIRL NO DONT MAKE ME THINK ABT SAD THINGS *pulls out my notes of angst ideas*

thinking about revalink angst in terms of them being in the same group is actually killing my soul so let's come up with a different angsty au together 🤞

ok idea number one revalink as hyuna and dawn

honestly I don't know much about hyuna and dawn LMAO so we're gonna make something up. they're in the same label and they get put on a collab stage together or something, and the chemistry they have is so 🤭 they start talking more and eventually get together yay! but then drama happens and they leave the company to go to a different one, they get engaged and they're so happy but then one day link posts on his Instagram that they broke up?? and everyone is heartbroken and actually revali sees this and is like wtf is link breaking up with me over an Instagram post??? he couldn't be bothered to tell me to my face? because actually they had not broken up! turns out link's Instagram got hacked and he had no idea, but this causes so much miscommunication between them and yeah but they eventually sort it out and then get married yay! 😊

IDEA NUMBER TWO they're from different labels and their managers decide to make them fake-date to increase both of their publicities

hey guys so actually I love fake dating aus 🫶 omgeeee practicing holding hands and kissing to make it believable and then they get all flustered with each other.. great ideas yes yes, plus so much potential for angst + miscommunication when they think it's not mutual pining

so at first it goes great, their fans eat it up and they do end up getting more popular as two of the first openly queer idols in the industry. but then dispatch comes out with a cheating scandal bc like,, link hugged mipha or something AJDBAJDN so yeah. idk my ideas are not very creative lmao 😭

THREE they were together but the fans bullied them so hard they broke up, and now all they do is write sad love songs abt each other

idk what more to say. angsty love songs. yup. CONSIDER: the truth untold, she's in the rain, and 0x1=lovesong noraiir im crying rn and this is all your fault

hey guys wtungsten also recommended don't wanna cry pls go blame them for my tears LIKE???? just go look at the lyrics good bye

#revalink #revali #link #breath of the wild #legend of zelda #botw #the legend of zelda #loz #tloz #sorry it took me so long to answer this 😭😭#i was waiting for more inspiration to strike me but it never did :'(#im ngl angst is actually really hard for me to write so honestly these ideas aren't very angsty sorry 💀#noraiir-arts #crow's revalinkverse #me being So Normal about this game

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topconfessions · 1 year

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Hmm turns out Lisa is dating a white nepo baby who apparently has a high status in the fashion industry. Not yall have been calling Jennie a leech for YEARS just bc she had a baseless rumor with YG, turned out it was her bandmate that dates vgly men for status 🤣 this is why you should never take stereotypes seriously, constantly calling J a social climber only for her to end up in a relationship that does nothing to her career but tarnish it, and well its safe to say that she asked for it.

????? and ???? what's your point cause ???? you're telling us this, which we appreciate, but some of your interjections is clearly coming off personally as a jennie fan. I'm going to speak on her the way I speak on TOP and this is coming from someone who was a hardcore BB / TOP stan, still favoring top more than jennie if I had to chose. Everything that has ever been said about jennie here is objective and not personal, when we have our chats like "I'm disappointed in newjeans, or top, or jackson wang cause xyz" then that's when y'all can jump in and say something y'know?

good for lisa and I'm not surprised, I always expected that of her, jennie just gives the general public the outward impression she would rush for that first but as we seen, she dates close to home i.e "kai" and GD while lisa is makinh networking moves dating up. Also No.

do not insert words into ours mouths, never did we use the word "leech" if that's your summary of what we've said about her, say it as such. Jennie is basically hypergamous but she hasn't landed a big well yet and tends to date people of familiarity in the industry. There is absolutely nothing wrong with dating an ugly man for status cause guess what? 95.95% OF FEMALES YO'VE EVER ADMIRED FROM THE 80S UP TO NOW HAVE BEEN ESTABLISHED OFF THE CHECKS OF UGLY RICH MEN.

Fuck, beyonce owes her fucking livelihood to jay-z and this is why she bizzarely comes off so weak wiled and always whining about her position next to him in music & elsewhere cause she's aware she wouldn't be shit had she not let jay come to her rebound off of aaliyah's rejection. the streets have the tea on bey on how Nas didn't want shit to do with her and the men who looked attractive and did couldn't do shit for her like sean paul. ask yourself why beyonce parents were so fucking voerly comfortable with their 18-19 year old daughter dating a very mature past criminal record old rappe? 35 dating 18? yeah ok.I could name 50 females in hollywood history and even kpop so far that are where they are cause of ugly but well off men, shit I love hyuna but a man made her as well.

you have to be very young or very immature and thinking like the crowd to not see dating an ugly man with means who wants to be with you even just for a brief hook up as lame. How the fuck y'all think she landed bvlgari in the first place next to ZENDAYA AND ANNE HATHAWAY!? and those two I can say were not made off the force of men cause they come from disney / teen movie backgrounds. and you never see them on a yacht aka escorting "yachting" i.e prostituting under the guise of vacation. Now if blackpink has a monster single one day and blows up in a BTS way here in america more than they have already? and I catch one of them on a yacht? then we can talk.

that's all. where you end up in a relationship does not negate your intention of being a social climber, jennie is and was a social climber. she chose wrong and it just didn't workout plus jennie gives me the vibe she's not as aggressively hypergamous and desperate to keep a spot nor cling to a man like she would be if she was 2nd gen, coming from a run down agency and gd looked her way. we've always established that she only fucks with secured idols or men but she isn't desperate nor seeking to get more she just only associates and dates them. Lisa, I can't speak on why she is dating that man but that's very forward thinking on her end. fuck, ashley benson from pretty little liars is marrying an oil heir. a fucking oil HEIR she's set for life if he doesn't run a tight prenup on her with no loopholes and even then she's set cause depending on how she carries herself and how she has this man whipped, she can always live off his money and not spend her own as shared income.

GD is nearly at the same level as the dude lisa is dating so all of this you said is invalid to me. y'all keep being obtuse and naive thinking she got handed fucking BVLGARI of all high end brands just cause. she is more accepted and more popular in the u.s than jennie, she has more western appeal but if you don't think lisa didn't work that connection with ole boy before they were officially dating or after? congrats, you've got a lot to learn and I'm saying this before anyonwe else pops up like "lol lisa got bvlgari before she met him" that's how it always starts.

it's a good move for lisa, now if she's smart and doesnt just rest on being seen with him and dating just to date, she can mingle with his friends or superiors and make contacts. if I see her land 2 more big deals no other kpop star or korean actor has landed? i'm chalking it up to this, period. also, your career can only be "tarnished" these days if you're dumb enough to let it be. she's fine, she's in blackpink and been pushed to fucking moon and back like how CL was monster pushed but 10x more than CL's push in 2ne1. She's good. But if you consider it tarnished? it's cause of how she herself handled all of this and the fact she does give off geninune impression when she dates. that's a personality and image flaw that's on her. like if suzy from miss a was landing whales back to back and that shit didn't last, I could see suzy and those relationships getting 'some' negative feedback but still looked at with positivity cause of her personality and how she carries herself with men.

being with GD is still a win and if it didn't last, then unless gd really pushed her away or broke it off himself? then that's on her and that shows for whatever reason she wasn't wanting or needing it go the distance, if you really need something to last, you'll make it last. you see beyonce didn't drop jay by sasha fierce era when she could have? cause she needed that and still needs that.

be for real.

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gaymer-hag-stan · 2 years

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Ah yes, OF COURSE it was EXO-Ls attacking Gyuri!

I should have known because literally the other day they were mad at people not being mad at HyunA for being able to date and un-date Dawn without severe backlash and now they're mad at Gyuri saying that if girl groups want to remain active they should marry late in their lives and they somehow thought this was a jab at Chen specifically???

Bitch what?

Even if it was a jab at someone who got married and that, for one reason or another, affected their career, do you think Chen is the only person in South god damn Korea who had that happen to them? He's not. Any time Sunye so much as attempted to talk about releasing music again they tore her apart and told her to stay home and look after her kids. Hell people are still mad at her for "ruining" the Wonder Girls when she decided to get married and have kids back in 2012. They literally call her a traitor. She was like the most popular member after Sohee too back in the day and now she's the most disliked. Why would she be talking about Chen specifically anyway?

Now, let me spell out for you why it isn't a jab directed at Chen or anyone else.

First of all what she said is true. South Korean entertainment companies heavily rely on presenting their idols as desirable, available people whom their customers, the idols' fans, can form parasocial relationships with and then the company can squeeze money out of them on the basis of said parasocial relationship. While this is promoted much heavier with boy groups, they still want that for their girl groups so the longer they can play the pure innocent virgins the easier for their company to promote them.

Now I don't know why you would think Gyuri would be speaking about Chen for any reason, because it seems much more likely that she would be speaking about her own experiences, you know, as a woman in the K-pop industry. On one hand female idols have to be innocent pure virgins who are single but on the other hand, they should absolutely start looking to get married before they're 30 because that's what society expects of them. That essentially puts a very specific time limit on them to, literally, make it or brake it. If they can't get super famous and make money during their teens there's very little chance of them doing that later on in their careers. KARA are all over or close to 30 and none of them are married. Do you think maybe it's more plausible Gyuri had something like this in mind and not Chen's personal life? Do you?

Furthermore, Gyuri herself broke up with her boyfriend last year and is now promoting as part of KARA once more and her whole idol persona is based around her self-confidence and witty remarks, so it could very easily have been self-referential. And, once again, it would be much more plausible to be talking about herself and her own experiences rather than some other idol's, who I'm not even sure if she's even actually ever spoken to. Like I'm sure she knows he is a member of EXO and whatnot but I don't know why any of you would think she'd be keeping close tabs on what he's doing. The Korean entertainment industry does not revolve around EXO.

But, most importantly... It was a joke... It was a god damn joke. There's no hidden meaning there, no malicious intent, she was just joking. Maybe you're used to people having no personality or sense of humour but Gyuri has both of these on top of being gorgeous and being a pretty good dancer and singer, so maybe you should stick to what you're comfortable with okay.

P.S. They were actually calling her broke to "get her" when she and the rest of KARA have made enough money to never have to actually work again, but still reunited for the fans and also to honour Hara's wish of them all being together again.

They could also announce a Tokyo Dome concert tomorrow and it would sell out so... Yeah, maybe actually know who Gyuri is before speaking about her sweetie?

#KARA #Gyuri #Park Gyu-ri #K-pop #Girl Groups #CΗEN #EΧO

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Wait I think you broke my brain in a good way with suggesting Woozi for Hyuna… I would’ve never thought of it BUT she would love his quiet confidence. He’s not the usual type she’d go for (I see her more with the outwardly cocky types) but she finds his demeanor (and his abs) so sexy. I can also see him into getting a strip tease and lap dance from her. I may have to write more headcannons about them for you. - 🌊

I'M VERY SORRY, OP. I love that you're coming up with new cross-ships and headcanons, ESPECIALLY for Woozi, but once Hyuna started dating (and then married) a piece of shit who was in the Junyoong group chat and watching videos of women being assaulted, she became SUPER dead to me lmao

I really do appreciate the ask though! I definitely wanna talk about Woozi and a new female ship though!!

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When I found out Hyuna from 9Muses not only got married but also had a kid I legit cried. I was actually upset and at first I thought maybe I was jealous that someone got to marry her and that maybe I was bi. I don’t think I am but knowing that all the 9Muses members as far as I know are married still upsets me and tbh I don’t know what specifically the 9Muses situation upsets me so much but then I saw more and more idols I liked getting married and now with Jun.H getting married I think it’s straight up jealousy.

I’m jealous that these seemingly ordinary people, I know some idols marry other idols but some are marrying people who aren’t famous and like sometimes I wonder what it would be like to have a celebrity fall in love with me and I am delulu but not crazy, I know that the chances of me being in a relationship with a famous person is slim to none but I still like to think about it sometimes and the thought of a famous person picking you out of plenty of other people in the world sounds wonderful and that makes me jealous like sometimes I want that, I’m jealous that I’ve seen a flood of idols getting married recently like..I’m just jealous of them I think mostly cause they are getting in relationships and getting married and I’m still single.

(Of course that could be my own fault because I am afraid of getting into a relationship and I do not go out and meet people) but like..it’s hard to explain I sometimes wish I was in a relationship, sometimes I want to fall in love and have someone I can love and be loved in a romantic way and seeing these idols, it’s mostly former and older idols, find the time to meet people, if like in general the idols who are secretly dating like how do they have such busy schedules and still are able to meet someone and connect and I have so much time, I work and come home like I’m free so often yet I am single cause I don’t get out and meet people. (I want someone to just appear and I would know they are the one. I don’t want to go through people and heartbreak trying to find the one for me. Sometimes I do believe in that stuff but talking about it makes me feel gross and sappy sometimes)

Like, I am well I’m not happy cause I’m jealous but it’s nice that Joohyeon fell in love and found someone he wants to be with. Idols go through a lot and it’s nice to know that they can be happy and get married despite the hardships esp with how angry some fans can be and I do hope they can stay together and grow old together cause that’s what I would want and like I’ve seen a handful of idols get married and then have icky divorces and I really hope Joohyeon and his wifey don’t go through that but I am jealous because, and a little mad tbh I’m a little upset like and it’s not my place but I was so mad when they just disappeared after sandcastle came out and I heard nothing as a lot of people didn’t and then two years later, I swear it’s actually been like 5 one of the members gets married.

I know that some idols want to keep it a secret about dating and stuff but idk like for me I really like unvs and I was hoping they would stay around and have a comeback and they didn’t, then I heard Jen was going in the military and then I never heard anything about when he came out or the other members going in or if they were nor did I see them making any posts together and then the other day I see them all together for the first time and I was happy to see them, and I had hope they might have a reunion because I felt like they disbanded even tho I never saw an official announcement like I’ve been a fan of groups long enough to know that long hiatus’ are mostly likely quiet disbandments unless they come back for a reunion like one time and at this point I just think a lot of my favs disbanded with no announcement anyone cause they aren’t popular so I was upset that unvs seemed to be over and then like the next day I go on twt and find out Joohyeon got married.

I’m still processing it cause it feels weird but only to me but I’m jealous, I liked all of unvs and I’m obviously going to be a bit jealous if one of my favs gets married but idk why 9Muses and Joohyeon makes me feel even more jealous, even J.Heart, that situation I just don’t want to talk about it makes me mad with how jealous I am but ugh. I want Joohyeon and the other members to be happy and live happy lives I think everyone deserves to live happy lives it’s not fair when humans can’t be happy and live how they want esp with all the shit going down these days around the world, it’s nice and I think it’s cute to see idols finding their soulmates and getting to fall in love and get married but sometimes it triggers the marriage feelings inside me and I just get upset.

Sometimes I think about marriage and relationships and I have been thinking about it a lot more the past like idk 3 years and I know you have to put work in a relationship and I know the things I say about marriage and relationships but when I see these idols getting married and like I’ve seen so many pretty weddings, 9Muses and one of the members of AOA and Suju like everything is so pretty and the idols get to sing for their wife or husband and like seeing unvs again after so long finally together but it’s for a wedding. I know that sounds like I hate them and the situation but I don’t I mean I don’t really care. Joohyeon is just another person in the world but I want what he has. I wanna get married too. I want kpop idols to perform at my wedding too but I don’t have a man and even if I ever did get married, by that time all my favs will already be married or too old to sing at my wedding and plus I do my have the connections. I can’t just dm them and be like “hey I’m getting married can you sing at my wedding?” Like idek how that works unless you are close with the artist ugh. You see what I mean? And these feelings just get worse around moonsickness like mine just ended the other day but I still am cranky and emotional which just makes everyone more dramatic and worse. Being jealous just makes me feel worse cause what right do I have to be jealous of idols who get in relationships or get married? I do my know them at all, I’m not their friend or some ex gf so it’s not my place as a fan to be this icky jealous right?

But I see people even online like on tiktok and insta and out when I go in public in relationships and I get jealous and I used to look at relationships as gross, I thought kissing was gross, I thought people who got married were stupid and I had all these opinions only because the relationship my parents had was not happy and sometimes I still view marriage as stupid and kissing as gross and think people who get in relationships are wasting their time and that I would never want to spend time with someone and have to change the way I do things or have someone view my routine or know my views or share a house with someone or any of that that comes with a relationship ya’know? Like most of the time I want to be left alone, I want to live alone, I want to be independent and be alone forever and die alone but sometimes it’s not like that. Idk why it’s off and on and Idk if I’ll ever be in a relationship. I used to think I wasn’t in one cause I was ugly but I’ve seen people I think are ugly and they are in relationships so I think the real problem is I don’t get out or have the motivation to meet people and dress up and go have fun and that’s understandable considering how dangerous it is to do anything nowadays but I now know why I’m still single. This post is a train wreck but I have trouble sorting my thoughts out :(

TL;DR: 9Muses and UNVS getting married really upsets me and makes me feel bad that I’m not in a relationship. I know I am young, 25 is pretty young and Joohyeon is in his thirties which is a nice age to get married but ugh like there are other people my age that are married and in relationships or people younger than me that are, I have younger cousins in relationships and married and with kids and living together and I see and hear about all these younger than me idols who just seem to be doing better than me in different ways and it just makes me feel like shit. I just feel like shit and I’m jealous and really upset and I feel like I’ll never be in a relationship and that I’ll die alone full of hate or that I’ll get involved with someone who is dangerous and I’ll be stuck with no escape and end up dead at an early age and all that scares and upsets me.

Also I’m trying to avoid insta and twt cause all the unvs members and Woojin from target are posting about the wedding and that just makes me feel depressed like I want to actually cry I’m sick and feel sick to my stomach like sometimes I just get so lonely feeling I want to throw up ok that’s it bye

#new anime plot: miagwyn bitches #rant #personal #kpop

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I knooooow I don't wanna bald Kai for the record, but... omfg, ONF also Jinjin from Astro and one guy from Victon has been going viral for their dances lmao. Sehun and Kai soon. You're right Chen has committed the biggest crime an idol could commit... lives like a regular person 😭 oh no

Right, if I were there with them I would be like MINHO FIGHT BACK YOU CAN TAKE HIM DOWN IN A SECOND, but we all know he wouldn't do that to Key 💔 I can't wait for Taemin and Kkoongie lives to be back

Maybe we can have new Triple H because Hyuna and Hyojong has been hanging out with Holland, all that while poor Hui is imprisoned 😭 I think Krystal, she would be dark academia or Wuthering Heights type of girl

Look at all the 🍤 I haven't tried all of them, some only look shrimpy or have shrimpy texture, but some taste like sea aidyjsshsishsjsbajd. I like vegan spam, I used it for kimchi fried rice and breakfast dishes. Lots of egg + spam recipes, so I'm here with my fake eggs and fake spam veganising everything 💓 I checked out Tofu Village and it looks almost identical to one Korean restaurant I have here! Meat eating scenarios?! Bestie what why 😭 I make non-vegans eat fake meat without them knowing sometimes. Like that Impossible burgers, no one ever notices lol. So there's Beyond Meat and Impossible the two most famous vegan patties, I personally prefer BM, but Impossible is really impressive too. I don't go to non-vegan fast food restaurants anymore, but I know many offer Beyond burgers

Yeah that's right I'll start sending you anon hate soon 🤺

So a nice looking English guy huh...

How can I go out with you if you're about to break my heart with your writing?! "You long to be loved" 🙈

I'm not really sold on Antifragile, but maybe one day I'll have a change of heart, I really don't like when they rap 😭 and the chorus is just nor it for me... I only heard NJ's songs maybe twice? And saw them perform while I waited for Guerrilla, their music isn't exactly for me and the whole sexual scandal around them... but they definitely have their own vibe! I'm kinda sad cause some of the rookie groups I rooted for disbanded or went through some changes :/ btw I saw Pixy recently, it was bittersweet, but they were very cute!

2016 kpop wow really I can't believe we got so much goodness that year. Idk why I can't access the quiz :/ gonna try on my laptop later

Ufffff no bald Hwa in sight, I cheer!!! I was afraid something might have happened to his hair.

MODEL SEONWGAHAHSHAYSTATAAAAAAAA

Atinys in Seoul are better than me, if I saw Seonghwa during the soundcheck I would simply steal him away, grab him by the hwaist and took off 🏃‍♀️

Me for the next two months once again

KMS-ing I'M AFRAID uhm okkk???

Nah this is sick this is not normal

Sanhwa slutty men 😭😭😭😭

Hold onnnnnn - DV 💖

hi helloo!

BUT I KINDA DO WANNA SEE A BALD KAI,,, bestie better rock it,, HJFKDJBC YEAH THEM 😭😭😭😭😭 THEYRE REALLY OUT THEIR LIVING THE BEST LIFE DOING RANDOM DANCES ANYWHERE CATCH ME DEACTIVATING WHEN SEHUN GOES <3333 no srs how dumb do u have to be upset that someone got married and had kids, like every other person out there??? god for him, singlehandedly carrying sk's future vocalist generation

NO SERIOUSLY HE COULD TAKE THEM DOWN SO EASILY,, for a while when i saw minho in the military i was like what if this guy ends up liking it so much that he enlists again 😭😭😭 STOPPPP KKONGIE IS SO FUCKING CUTE, THE BEST LOOKING AND THE CUTEST PET OUT ALL KPOP IDOLS IDC IDC I WORSHIP KKONGIE

with holland ????? 👀 👀 smelling a collab bc ayo that be fire,, NAURRRR HUI IMPRISONMENT ERA 😭😭😭 omg she'd be like wednesday adams, those lana del rey vibes but edgier omg ur so right !!!!!!

omg??????? ngl i was like iS THAT PLAYDOH hfbjkdjf that does look very interesting in it's shape too 😭😭😭 hOLDON THERES FAKE EGGS???? ARE THEY GOOD??? omg no way??? then the food must be insane good, first k restaurant I've seen that is a vegetarians drEAM,,, NO YEAH MEAT EATING SCENARIOS 😭😭😭 IT DIDNT TASTE LIKE ANYTHING BUT I WAS HORRIFIED FJSDHFJ oHHHHHHH TWO TYPES BET,, personally yeah BM truly tastes so good, like ppl who eat meat should try it bc it's tbh maybe even better than meat <3

Yeah that's right I'll start sending you anon hate soon 🤺

i cANNOT WAIT HEH

So a nice looking English guy huh...

uhuh and studies bpk (biomed) but truly he's very handsome, 100% white boy model material

How can I go out with you if you're about to break my heart with your writing?! "You long to be loved" 🙈

NO BESTIE SAME BFJDFHHKF THE LONG OT BE LOVED SHOWS IN MY FICS SO BAD ITS EMBARRASSING FNDSFM

no yeah the rap i agree 😭😭😭 hybe's rap declined after bts ngl,,, OH YEAHH THE SCANDAL DEF DID PUT ME OFF TOO BUT U WILL CATCH ME 3AM HAVING MY CONCERT TO IT,, im still vv confused on the pixy matter, why did the two leave? they all seemed really promising!

unfort with the tragedy in itaewon, smtown Halloween is cancelled and as well as everything, hoping there's no concerts bc that'd be quite unpleasant but at the same time difficult for the contracts between companies on d-day’s

2016 kpop wow really I can't believe we got so much goodness that year. Idk why I can't access the quiz :/ gonna try on my laptop later

2016 and 2018 kpop truly the years of peak music that was actually music ifynkim,, the music quality and the hunger to perform was at it's best missing those days 😭😭😭

Ufffff no bald Hwa in sight, I cheer!!! I was afraid something might have happened to his hair. /// MODEL SEONWGAHAHSHAYSTATAAAAAAAA

SMN HWA IS BACK HE IS CRAZY. CRAZY. saw that and let out the biggest scream at 2am,,, ?????? i thought he was about to unbutton, the concert went from cult to strip show

SEONGHWA'S MERCEDES

what the hell

this one is peak private vampire core

Atinys in Seoul are better than me, if I saw Seonghwa during the soundcheck I would simply steal him away, grab him by the hwaist and took off 🏃‍♀️

DHFJHDKSCJCBJHF NO SERIOUSLY HOW DID THEY LOOK HIM IN THE EYE WHILE HE THRUSTED AND NOT STOLE THAT MAN

Me for the next two months once again

i felt this bc all my friends are going and i- 😭😭😭 im good, holding on 😭😭😭

KMS-ing I'M AFRAID uhm okkk??? /// Nah this is sick this is not normal

THIS I S NOT NORMAL AND IM NOT COMPLAINING BUT. IM DEF SCREAMINGON TOP OF MY LUNGS

Sanhwa slutty men 😭😭😭😭 Hold onnnnnn - DV 💖

BESTIE HFBKF HFBF I D LIKE TO SAY I PREDICTED DAZZLING LIGHT ON THE SETLIST I WILL PROVIDE U PROOF

PLS REFER TO THE TIME,, WHEN I TELL U I SCREAMED BEKFDJEBH

2/2 Hello Baeksy it's me DV again, I have a few more things to say before I go away for the weekend, SO:

I said I'd grab soundcheck Hwa and run away well I'M DRAGGING THIS ONE BACK TO HELL WHERE HE BELONGS

TAKE HIM WHERE HE BELONGS,, but these outfits are def on of the best ones they've had

They sang My Way and I wasn't there :///// Ah so pretty

THE TRANSITION INTO ILLUSION????????

Uhhhhhhh is this A STRIP CLUB

THIS TURNED INTO THE MAGIC MIKE REAL FAST WHAT THEHELL ATEEZ

😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 //// Lads I'm not feeling very alive right now. I wanna cry and die thanks

NOT TWITTER MARKING IT AS SENSITIVE POST PLS DBFJASGFKJ that lad was the most birtish thing i ever heard from u

Why did they perform the remix of Fireworks noooo, if I never hear actual Fireworks live I'm gonna eat KQ's walls!!! /// 🧎🏼‍♀️🧎🏼‍♀️🧎🏼‍♀️🧎🏼‍♀️

those who have heard their entire discography in concerts, imso jealous right now

What's the point of living if I haven't perceived Wonderland Hwa with his sword with my own two tired eyes 😞 and no DEJA VU THIS IS CRIMINAL BEHAVIOUR, no The Leaders... ☠ and no ES, Aurora or Fever, but Celebrate and Illusion made it... I see. No PK or Treasure or TMH. At least Mist, My Way, Dazzling Light, Horizon are there /// Cursing everyone who attended the previous tour as well, they're witnessing everything 💔 //// They totally ditched ZFP1 (INCEPTION!?!?!?) and ZFP3 (except for Rocky) I'm so devastated 😭😭😭😭

THIS IS LITERALLY NOT FAIR FHLEKFABJH;IM GONNA BE SO DRAMATIC ABOUT THIS CJSHDCJDH NO PK??? TREASURE??? 😭😭😭 I WAS HOPING INCEPTION WOULD BE THERE but answer,, their setlist is WILD WILD WILDD

#✉️ : ask #dv 💖 anon

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Hiding in Public.

Pairing: SNSD Taeyeon x gn!reader

Word Count: 1k

Genre: Fluff

It has been three years now since you joined Amazing Saturday as a fixed member of the cast.

You are known as the "Human Nolto" because of your ability to solve dictations, almost like Key, but you are not as pretentious.

No one could be as pretentious as Kibum, honestly. That's why you love him.

Aside from Human Nolto, you were also one of the three members of "The Golden Trio", a group consisting of Hyeri, Hanhae and you. It was called that because you seemed like the best of friends, always sitting together, laughing, having inside jokes.

This is why it hurt you to see Hyeri leave. You weren't there from the beginning of the program, but you had been there long enough to create such a deep bond with her.

When Taeyeon came to fill her seat the sadness dissipated a bit. On the first day of filming she showed up with that smile, making jokes for only herself to laugh and that distinctive laugh. You wondered how someone could brighten your day so easily without knowing her.

As she began to feel more comfortable in the show, she also began to feel more comfortable with you.

If you were next to each other, she would look for every excuse to make conversation with you. She would laugh at every single thing that came out of your mouth, sometimes even suggesting that you wear matching costumes.

And she made you feel so happy that you were extremely satisfied with doing any of these.

Then you understood.

You had never really questioned it, but after a get together with the cast, she was so drunk that you offered to drive her home, mostly because you were possibly the only sober person in the room. When you were helping her into her apartment, she started laughing.

"What's wrong?"

"Nothing, it's just that this is exactly what I wanted."

"What do you mean?"

"I wanted you to bring me home so I could kiss you."

"What?"

And when she took your face in her hands and roughly, hungrily, pressed your lips together, then you understood.

It turns out that Taeyeon has had a crush on you since ages ago. Seeing you at music shows, awards, festivals, variety shows and lately at work, she was so hopelessly in love. Now you finally knew.

You started by going on dates, doing picnics, walking Zero around town, attending craft classes, watching movies and eating at each other's houses.

At some point it seemed like you guys were already married, seeing and pouncing on each other, kissing whenever you could, looking at each other with heart eyes, touching at every excuse you'd find. And then you decided to formalize your relationship.

It's been two years since you've been together.

Working with your partner is quite an experience. Everyone in the cast knows you're together and how much you love each other, they are used to seeing you in your own world, on the side, being extremely sweet with one another. It must be because of that comfort you two have with the rest of your co-workers that you don't tend to stop with the affection while filming the episodes.

At the beginning you tried to be extremely discreet with it, but it's really complicated to work for almost eight hours every week for two years with your partner and have to pretend that nothing is going on between you. So eventually the worry about hiding lessened.

Every now and then, Taeyeon would rest her hand on your leg or lay her head on your shoulder. Then, she started with this habit of hers, which is that when she's concentrated in something, she plays with the hairs on the back of your neck. And so the love signs kept adding up, like back-hugging her while standing during the snack game, her caressing your cheek when you are explaining something to her about the dictation, or just randomly feeding each other.

Once, Hyuna and Dawn appeared as guests, they were so happy in their love bubble that you two, monarchs of not taking anything seriously, couldn't help but tease them and as part of the joke, you started calling each other "yeobo", which is how you normally call each other, but you had avoided doing it in front of the cameras, of course. From that moment on it became a regular thing and the fans love it, they find this "inside joke" quite adorable.

Fans.

Sometimes you think your fans, and anyone paying attention to you two, is pretending to be an idiot.

You and Taeyeon upload instagram stories together all the time, you appear in her daily life vlogs, and in all of this you're always super loving. Why doesn't anyone question you?

By this point you weren't even hiding your relationship anymore.

You are grown people who have been in this industry for years and are extremely successful, you don't have to pretend that your life only depends on your fans and satisfying them. You didn't have the energy to pretend as if you were rookies who don't want controversy. You also didn't feel you had to confirm it, because it's your private life, you don't owe that to anyone.

So you were just free about it.

If you felt like you wanted to post a picture together on your social media, you did. If you wanted to be all over each other while filming Amazing Saturday, you did.

And the fans, they seemed to understand this. As if they were covering up for you guys.

When that picture of you arriving at Taeyeon's apartment late at night was leaked and no one talked about it.

Or that time someone posted a video of you guys backstage at SMTOWN in Suwon, which was blurry, but it was possible to notice that you were kissing, and everyone on the internet was looking for ways to explain that it wasn't like that.

It was weird, but it was like everyone was faking a collective delusion, trying for once to allow two idols to be happy while dating.

After giving it a lot of thought, you understood that it was possibly because none of you have had good experiences with your previous confirmed scandals and your fans just want to prevent that from happening again.

In the end, they love to see you happy and you can be calm about your relationship, you can be in love, in peace.

—O—O—

OMG FINALLY A REQUEST FOR THE ABSOLUTE LOVE OF MY LIFE

this is half imagine, half headcanon.

it's so interesting cause i've had this idea in my head for months now and then suddenly someone requests it, crazy

hope you love it <3

—ica.

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after midnight 04 (m) || jjk & reader

title: after midnight 04 - dusk pairing: jeon jungkook x reader genre: angst, smut, fluff, fwb!au, fuckboy!jk, doctor!reader word count: 6.3k warnings: unprotected explicit smut, jungkook gets possessive (?) lol, the smut just ain’t that yummy tbh i get worse with each chapter a/n: uh so idk if i am finishing this by chapter 5.... ask me when im in the middle of that bc this might,,, end up being a LITTLE bit longer than planned LOL

Back then, everyone claimed that young girls all have one thing in common—they all want to get married when they grow up.

You recalled back to a time where the girls back at your middle school would giggle, nudging each other from time to time when discussing these fantasy scenarios of which boy in class they were going to marry in the future, whose hand they were going to walk down the aisle with, and who they were going to share that romantic kiss with.

Reality sets around the second year of college, you admit, that getting married young and having a stable relationship with anyone is impossible with the goals you’ve set for yourself.

Which is why being here in between these four walls of your childhood bedroom with Jeon Jungkook, it feels surreal. Sure, he’s potentially a boyfriend, not exactly one, but the fact that someone is here, in your bed with you, the possibility of finding someone and not being alone feels… within reach. Jungkook makes you feel like things that are supposedly insurmountable are the easier mountains to climb; it’s all about perspective.

Chest heaving heavily during his sleep, he’s got an arm resting underneath his head and the other laid on his bare chest. He’s wiped after an orgasm, and you internally laugh at how cute that is because he’s normally not this serene while awake.

He’s… nice, sort of. Truthfully, you don’t really know Jungkook other than he’s got that “fuck-it” attitude because he likes to live life for what it is rather than planning anything for the future. But one thing you’re solid on is that he isn’t the type to close this chapter of his ‘fuck boy’ life, nor did he have any intentions of stopping in the future.

Albeit it’s still alarming that he suggests coming to see your family, and when you brought up that they may be slightly odd, he came anyway.

In the morning, the sun beams on him, and he glows underneath the light. Despite how annoying he is, after a night full of events, whenever you stay with him for the sunrise, it still renders you speechless on how he radiates during any time of day. He manages to be brighter than the sun (especially when he showcases that cheeky smile) and when he laughs, it’s like a shot of serotonin for those around him that are lucky enough to hear it. He talks a lot, but in these early hours of the day, it’s nice to see him sleeping soundlessly like this—disheveled hair, mouth slightly agape, dried traces of drool on the side of his mouth, with the crispy boogers on the corners of his eyes.

He’s cute. But he can’t be more.

Trying to shake off this feeling of your heart tightening, you push the comforter off your legs and search for your clothes. Maybe coffee will spruce things up, clear whatever it is that’s complicating your mind and possibly give you a better start to your day.

But before you could even reach the kitchen, you’re met with Hyunae in the hallway.

She has her arms crossed over her chest, face scrunching up in annoyance with a click of her tongue. “I heard you last night,” Hyunae informs, scowling. “You realize that these walls are thin, right? I could hear you. What if your parents heard you? Ugh. You’re disgusting, you know that, right?”

“Mm,” you hum groggily, yawning afterwards. “They won’t hear, they’re on the opposite side of the house. My sister also sleeps with music on—highly doubt she hears me. You just got lucky and heard me… unless… my parents have the best hearing of their generation then…” You wink in her direction. “I gave them a show last night.”

Hyunae’s mouth drops in disbelief with a gasp. “You—”

“Yeah, I’m gonna grab some coffee. Want some?”

She puffs her cheeks as she follows you downstairs and into the kitchen, where you’re greeted by all your relatives. They’re all elated when they find out that you’ve brought home a boyfriend—although their beliefs are traditional and only really want you to date because men are supposed to take care of their wives, the view of a happy family impressed with you is… nice. Even if the reasonings aren’t what you agree to. And even if you’re not even sure it’s Jungkook that's your endgame.

“Dr. Hyunjin—” Hyunjin narrows his gaze at you and chills crawl up your spine, “—I mean Hyunjin, hah, sorry. I uh, was tending to a patient and their symptoms aren’t really common. I think it might be something, but I want to pick that brain of yours.”

Truthfully, these past few weeks, you’ve been getting closer to Hyunjin. He’s an amazing doctor, a kind mentor to his peers, and well… he’s single.

Hyunjin chuckles, nodding his head in agreement as he stuffs his hands into the pockets of his white coat. “Okay, let me see here…” his lowering stare into the chart has his lashes gingerly brushing against his supple milky smooth cheeks, all while chewing on his bottom lip in deep thought. He’s cute, you think to yourself, because he really is so attractive, but all the women (don’t exclude the men)—from doctors to nurses to patients—always have this longing gawk when they see him. You’re merely just part of that queue anyways.

“Are you even listening to me?” He teases, a soft smile tugging at his lips. “Am I that pretty?”

You clear your throat. “I uh, sorry. A lot is on my mind. Could you say it again?”

“You mean I’m on your mind,” he leans over to tap your nose gently, and you swear your heart skips a beat. “Instead of me constantly being on your mind, how about we just skip that and have dinner together tonight? Since, you know. We both somehow managed to get this lovely day-shift for the first time.”

Did you just choke on your saliva?

Hyunjin looks appalled, quickly rubbing your back soothingly until you regain your breathing again. “Whoa, are you okay?”

“Uh, um, yeah. Sorry, just wasn’t really expecting that.”

He raises a brow curiously at you. “Why? You’re pretty. Smart too, and you’re so easy to talk to. I can keep a conversation going with you and not feel like I’m carrying the burden of letting it continuously flow. I like that about you. Of course I wanna ask you out.”

Why the fuck is Jungkook popping up in your head right now?

“Oh wow, uh, I’m flattered,” you laugh awkwardly, scratching the back of your head in thought. “I’m uh… wow, uh—”

“Are you thinking of saying no?”

“What—Wh—Oh! Uh, no? No. I mean, I don’t know. Hyunjin, you’re definitely amazing, in fact, you’re way out of my league. I’m just… wh—are you sure?”

Hyunjin laughs, it’s bright and he radiates all this positivity, but for some reason… it’s not… like Jungkook’s. It’s missing something—was it the way your heart didn’t flutter? Or was it that it didn’t get your stomach churning like people making ice cream in the olden days? Maybe it was because your hands didn’t get all sweaty, or that you didn’t suddenly get defensive because you didn’t want to admit how cute it sounded.

Scratch that. Why the fuck is Jungkook still coming to mind?

Quicky, you wave your hands dismissively. “Actually, forget that. Yes. Yes, Hyunjin, I’ll go out to dinner with you tonight. Let’s uh, give this a shot, and if it doesn’t—”

He lets out a breathy laugh this time, nodding as he speaks. “—Yes, I know. Keep everything professional. I can do that. So… tonight at eight? Text me your address and I can pick you up.”

“Sounds like a plan!”

“That most definitely does not sound like a plan.”

“Jungkook, get out of my house, I’m trying to get ready for my date.”

He’s laying on your bed, in a loose light grey t-shirt with sweatpants that match. He keeps tossing your airpods from hand to hand with a bored expression on his face, but it immediately shifts the moment you tell him why you’re pacing around your room to look for things. “The fuck you goin’ on a date for when I said I’d be your boyfriend?”

“Nice, Jungkook. What? You’ll be a boyfriend for a solid three days, realize that you can’t do it anymore and we end up back to what I said before? Come on, I don’t have time to waste. I’m looking for something serious.”

“I said, I’d be serious for you.”

“I’ll believe it when I see it.”

He sucks in his cheeks in displeasure, letting out a sharp breath afterwards. “How the fuck am I supposed to do that? I went to your parents house this weekend, tried swooning them but—”

“It was barely two days, Jungkook. You asking to stay means a lifetime,” you huff because it feels like the hundredth time you’ve said this. “Are you gonna stay a whole lifetime, Jungkook? No. I don’t think so.”

“You literally just answered your question for me instead of letting me answer.”

“OK, but am I wrong?”

He groans, standing up from your bed before dropping your airpods onto the comforter. “Alright, let’s talk. Like, talk talk, not just some simple discussion where you’re gonna push everything I said under the rug. Because what I’m getting at is that you haven’t even given me an ounce of a chance here, let me actually try being your boyfriend. You’re so quick to jump off to the next guy—what about me when I’m standing right fucking here asking if I could be yours?”

“Because you don’t… actually like me, Jungkook.”

“If I genuinely didn’t like you, babe, I would not be fucking you into the mattress religiously like at least four times a week.”

You grimace.

“Yeah, but you don’t… like me, as in my personality, or who I am. You like the outside shell of me, and it’s not the same.”

“Are you kidding me? Yes, you’re right. Fuck, you’re absolutely right because I would’ve never been drawn to you if I didn’t think you were hot. But shit, baby, don’t you know who you are? You’ve got these dudes on Tinder swiping right on you like crazy, and they’re blowing up your dms still, after you’ve had full blown conversations with them and turned them down. You’re a catch. Not to mention that you’re ridiculously smart—like sometimes I just wanna flick you for correcting me on shit but I’m not gonna lie and say that I didn’t like that. You’re also generous too. I’ve seen the way you look at your sister, how you treat her, and how you take care of your parents despite their opposite beliefs to yours. So what? I want that. I want you, and the fact that you don’t believe me is actually astounding. I’d be an absolute nut job if I didn’t develop some kind of feelings for you,” he pauses for a moment to take in a deep breath. “But you know what? If you going on a date with that stupid model doctor is what it’ll take for you to realize that I’m fucking right here, you’re welcome to take up on that offer, babe.”

Blinking blankly, you don’t move an inch from your spot. It’s so weird seeing Jungkook in this light, seeing him this passionate in something, or well, someone, and it catches you off guard.

“I—I don’t—“

“No,” he sighs, carding his fingers through his locks. “I know that you’re fighting off whatever it is you’re feeling because you think I won’t be committed. Alright, fine, go out tonight. Give that lover boy a shot. But if you decide after this date that you don’t want this, you don’t want me, then I won’t pursue you anymore. And if you come back home and you want me—well, you know where I live.”

Fuck. Everything Jungkook said haunts your entire date. You can’t even focus or formulate coherent sentences to Hyunjin because the whole time, all you can imagine is Jungkook’s stupid face across from you. The amount of instances where you had to take a double take is unbelievable.

So… what did this mean? Do you… like him? Do you let him be your boyfriend? It’s hard to tell, but there has to be a straightforward answer tonight.

But Hyunjin is pretty, smart, and kind. And well Jungkook is pretty stupid, cute, and an asshole. But there are times that he can be kind. Especially after rough days, the aftercare is extensive in comparison to what it usually is. But then again, Hyunjin is a doctor. However, just because Jungkook isn’t a doctor doesn’t mean he isn’t capable of being a boyfriend.

Shit, fuck! It keeps cycling back to Jungkook and you feel like you’re spiraling.

Hyunjin, dressed all lovely with his loose button up, stares at you worryingly. “Hey, you alright?”

“Uh,” you laugh nervously, fidgeting with your fork. “Of course. Why wouldn’t I be?”

“You seem a little… off?”

No shit, of course you’re off. Your head keeps filling with these thoughts of Jungkook, and truth be told, it’s starting to sink into the bottom of your stomach because you feel queasy. Whatever this is that you’re going through—although you definitely don’t want to admit it, it’s obvious what’s happening right now.

You have a teensy weensy baby crush on Jeon Jungkook.

And being here on a date with someone else, someone who is surely by far a better candidate for a boyfriend than he is, is proof of it.

After Hyunjin says his goodbyes that night, dropping you off at your apartment without receiving much but a gentle kiss on the cheek, you make it your mission when you see his tail lights that you were going to go to Jungkook’s apartment.

You needed to hype yourself up. So quickly, you rush back into your place to take one… two… okay, maybe three shots of vodka because it takes balls having to tell a stupid cocky dude that yes, you like him, and yes, he’s been right all along. You’re never going to hear the end of that arrogant story with that smug look on his face.

But that sweet sweet face that you love so dearly, reminding you of those cute little macaroons with a plethora of colors and flavors—fuck, the alcohol was already hitting and you possibly may have hit past the sweet spot of confidence and hit the infatuated part.

Nonetheless, you managed to hitch a cab and here you were. Standing outside of Jeon Jungkook’s apartment, yet again.

It’s a wash of deja vu that hits, because you’ve most certainly have been in this position before. Heated skin, inebriated for a boost in confidence, and at his front door with a task at hand, to demand something that you want.

Biting down on your bottom lip rather harshly (that absolutely is going to be an ouchie in the next morning), your hand reaches up in an attempt to knock on the metal door, but whomever is on the other side beats you to it because it swings open.

“Who—“ He pauses, eyes widened. “Fuck.”

He’s kinda cute like this. Messy hair, big doe eyes like he’s a deer in headlights… Was he happy to see you? He should be. But in those swirls of chocolate orbs, there’s no… ounce of excitement, just fear. Have you been missing something?

Oh, right. The half naked chick behind him.

Wow. Doesn’t that hurt? Could you hear that? The sound of your heart… cracking? There’s no way, right? You don’t even love Jeon Jungkook. He’s just some guy you were sleeping with.

But fuck, you were on your way here. Here, to give him your all, to let him be yours and you be his. To tell him, “hey! I’m finally coming to terms that I do, very much in fact, have feelings for you. Hyunjin is just a colleague, nothing more.”

Guess not anymore?

“Baby,” Jungkook calls out, exasperated. He’s trying to reach for you, but you recoil back and his heart aches. “It’s not what it looks like, I swear—“

“I—I came here,” you stutter, mouth open because inhaling through your nose wasn’t enough air flow. “I—I came here because I wanted to tell you that I love you,” fuck, that specific word wasn’t supposed to slip, but it’s too late to go back now. With each foot forward toward you, you step further away from him. “I—I was going to let us be… us, because the whole time with Hyunjin, I thought of you—“

“No, no, no, fuck, baby, no, stop, it’s really not—“ He keeps coming to you, but you don’t have any of it.

“No,” you say sternly, the sober part of you kicking in. “No. Fuck you, Jeon Jungkook. I thought for once you could prove me wrong, but you fucked up. I thought I was the dick for pushing you around, for leading you on each time you said you’d try, so I came back and wanted to apologize and make things better—so we could be us, but shit! Fuck. I didn’t think you’d move on that quickly. Before I could even come to a consensus, too.” You clench your jaw, eyes shutting briefly. “Fuck! Fuck. Fuck. Fuck, I loved you. Fuck. Okay. I’m leaving.”

Jungkook sighs, physically taller than you but suddenly feeling smaller. “Baby, don’t go home. You’re drunk,” he notices this when you curse under your breath some more and he gets a whiff of that vodka. “And stay the night. I can get her to leave and tomorrow morning we can talk.”

You bite back the urge to cry, but a tear manages to escape and you wipe it away hastily. “No, it’s fine. I’m getting an Uber home. It’s over, Jungkook.”

When you reach home, the memories are a little foggy.

The chick was definitely half naked; she was literally in a bra, in the midst of slipping off her pants and Jungkook’s hair was tousled like he’s been making out with her. Sure, yes, the original agreement was that he was allowed to sleep with anyone but he said there was only you! Of course, you have the right to be mad. You were lied to—

Knock knock.

Well, that was quite the understatement. It was more of a fist to the door kind of pounding, and the sudden intrusion startles you.

Sighing, you toss your keys in the catch-all bowl, making strides toward the front door. “I’m coming, I’m coming. Who is it?”

Just as you open the door and notice that tattooed hand reaching in, you immediately try shutting the door. How the fuck did he get here so fast? Didn’t he have some bitch in his apartment earlier?

“Babe—babe! What—“ He doesn’t need to do much to get it open because Jungkook evidently works out and the muscles aren’t just for show.

Groaning, you let go of your grip and plop on the couch. “Close the door, at least.”

He furrows his brows, shutting the door behind him. “What the hell was that? Why wouldn’t you let me in?”

You narrow your gaze at him.

“You wouldn’t even let me explain.”

“There’s not much to explain, Jungkook. I saw what I saw.” Your focus is automatically on the duffel bag slung over his shoulder. “Why do you have your overnight bag?”

“Because I’m staying over until you hear me out.”

You puff your cheeks. You need a drink. Getting up from the couch, you’re making your way to your bar cart and Jungkook follows. “Baby, she wasn’t anything.”

“Mm,” you hum, fingers dancing along the glass bottles. Which do you wanna go for? Maybe something yummy, especially since Jungkook is being annoying right now, at least you should drink for enjoyment. Opening the fridge, you suck in your cheeks in concentration to find that one lime you saw the other day. “Where’s that… lime…”

“She came over, demanded I sleep with her, and I told her that I’m over that kind life. It’s been two years and she’s not over me—I meant what I said.”

Spotting the lime in the corner of the drawer, a smile rubs on the corners of your lips. “Ah, here it is!” Trudging over to the counter, you reach for a knife and Jungkook immediately halts you in your actions and you quirk a brow. “Let me do it for you.”

It takes you a bit to cave in, but you eventually do. “I want a mojito,” you state plainly, and he nods in response.

“You should go home,” you suggest, even though you enjoy his company here. He shouldn’t act like a boyfriend, not after what just happened, and despite explaining himself, it’s still difficult to trust him. “You have someone waiting for you, and I don’t think she’d be cool if—“

He stops in the midst of cutting. “I said we’re not together. Why don’t you believe me?”

“Because we’re not together, so it’s not my place to ask you the details. And truthfully, it shouldn’t even matter. I saw this coming, and that’s just that.”

Reaching up in your cabinets, he inhales sharply after grabbing a tall empty glass. He’s seen you drink out of this a handful of times, mojitos being your favorite filling to the brim, but you only really indulge in alcohol when you’ve had a long day.

Sure, the encounter was less than twenty minutes, but it was enough to make you feel like you’ve had a long day.

“But we are together, maybe not in the way that I keep asking for, but we are. I’m yours, before you even let yourself be mine,” He tosses some mint and juices the lime into the glass before using the muddler. “I uh… I’m not into relationships, you know this. But I wanna give it a shot with you.”

“Relationships aren’t just some trial and error—“ Wait. You pause. Relationships are sort of a trial and error thing; you date someone you like, and if it doesn’t work, you break up. It’s simple. “Wait, uh. Yes, they are. But they’re not just… if the two people don’t have the same end goal, why start something?”

“Because what if my end goal changes?”

You scoff. “That’s funny, Jungkook.”

He grabs the bottle of rum, measuring the amount he pours by feel before glancing over at you. “Sugar?”

“Nah.” Jungkook pops a couple cubes of ice into the glass from the freezer before opening a can of sprite to pour in. He slides the drink to you from across the island counter, watching as you reach in to take a sip.

“You already changed part of my plan, you know. I’m not the type to want a girlfriend. And I mean it—the girl you saw at my place means nothing to me. I heard the door when I was napping—I thought it was you. Then she came in, started stripping and I was so confused I—“

“Ooo, this is good.”

“Babe, just listen, please,” there’s desperation all over his face, tone begging for you to lend your full undivided attention. “Can you actually give me a shot? A chance to actually… make this work.”

“All this because the pussy is that bomb?” You query, with a crinkle in between your brows. “Jungkook, do you hear yourself? You only want to be with me because you don’t want me fucking anyone else because that means I can’t fuck you anymore.”

“Didn’t I explain to you before that it’s more than just that?”

“You did, before some bitch came into your apartment.”

“I didn’t have control!” He exclaims, the vein on the side of his neck protruding with his anger. “She shoved me aside and came in. I didn’t want it! Why don’t you trust me?”

“Because of your track record!” You shoot back, clenching the glass cup in your hand. “You always did the same thing, every single time. You hurt girls, you tell them you don’t want anything more, and all because your ulterior motive was to fuck them.”

“But I’ve never done any of those things to you,” his voice is softer this time. “My track record ended the moment we got together.”

You suck in your cheeks, uncertain what to say next, and Jungkook takes it as his cue to continue.

“In fact, it’s quite the opposite. I don’t even know why the fuck I keep fighting for this, but something in me is like… gnawing at my insides, telling me that I gotta. I haven’t even slept with anyone other than you for the past few years. I’m even asking you to be more, even after fucking.”

Quietly, you take another sip of the mojito.

“Fine, take your time. But tell me, how bad was the date with Dr. Hyunjin—I mean Hyunjin,” he’s annoyed now, voice saturating and dripping in cockiness because he knows the reason why you came to his apartment in the first place. “Did you even go home with him? I bet it didn’t even get that far. What? Did you see my face the entire time? Wish he was me?”

You scowl. It’s exactly that, but you weren’t going to let him know that. “Don’t act like a dick because you’re jealous.”

“Jealous of what?” He breathes, arms resting on the granite. “I have you.”

“You don’t have me,” you counter, reminding him once again. “And you’re jealous because I actually considered him for a serious relationship and not you.”

Jungkook rolls his eyes, watching as you swirl the remains of the mojito in your hands. “Considering that you let me into your house, let me make you a drink, and haven’t kicked me out with my overnight bag—I’d say I’m doing better than him.”

Between your irritation, how sexy Jungkook looks, and the alcohol in your system—of fucking course it doesn’t take long to work him up, because despite how much Jungkook grinds your gears, nothing like having sex cools you down, ironically.

The moment you say, “take off your clothes,” Jungkook doesn’t argue back or make any comments, but immediately starts unbuckling his pants in the kitchen. You slip out of your dress just barely seconds after, climbing onto the loveseat couch in your living room, and Jungkook doesn’t waste any time chasing after you.

“Are you seriously trying to solve our argument over sex?” He asks, crawling over your body, eyes never leaving yours. “Like, we could’ve just had a civil conversation about it, but instead, you chose sex?”

“Isn’t that the best way you communicate anyways?”

“I mean, well—” You interrupt Jungkook in the midst of his sentence by pulling him down closer to you, lips ghosting over his own. “Well,” you reiterate him mockingly, “get to it and fuck me. I’m tired of hearing you talk, I’m stressed out because of you, and I’m just in need of a release.”

Jungkook heaves out a heavy sigh, arms on either side of your head. “Baby, you know that I think you’re hot. You’re sexy, smart, and uh… lo-lovely?” He’s having a hard time saying the last word, but he pushes it through. “But I gotta be honest. If we’re not okay, I don’t wanna fuck.”

You scoff. “What? You have your pants off, dick hard as fuck right now, hovering over me and you don’t wanna have sex with me?”

“Oh, babe, of course I wanna have sex with you. But… not like this.”

“Then what?” You snap, irritated. “You wanna go back and fuck the other bitch in your apartment? Because you’re welcomed to do that, Jungkook”

“Will you just stop!” With his voice slightly raised, and brows furrowed in indignation, this is suddenly not the same Jungkook you’ve been seeing for the past two years. There’s a glint in his eyes, something new in them, and you’re having a hard time trying to decipher what it means. “Stop mentioning her, she fucking stabbed me that night I went to the ER. I’m so tired of living this life, girls coming and going, sometimes I just wanna be at home with one and be held. You know on those rainy days, where it’s cold and dark, I just want to wrap my arms around you, have a blanket over our legs, and watch some stupid movie on TV.” He takes in a deep breath, eyes fluttering close before exhaling. “Wow, that felt like a huge burden off my chest. I think I’ve been wanting to say that for a while now, but I just… felt like I had to hold a front around you.”

Speechless, words are caught in your throat but you honestly don’t know how to respond either. “Listen, how about you sleep in bed tonight and I stay on the couch. I know you’re probably pissed off still, but you’re also slightly intoxicated. I wanna talk again when you’re sober.”

With that, he pulls himself off of you, grabs his duffle bag and heads to the shower.

Snap! “Why are you daydreaming already?”

Shutting your eyes close briefly, you shake your head from the thoughts of last night. “Sorry, sorry,” you apologize to one of the nurses, grabbing the patient chart from their hands before signing things off.

In the morning, Jungkook stood in the kitchen, no shirt on with an apron around his frame as if that’s any protection from the oil that splatters on his skin. He was cooking up breakfast—eggs, bacon and pancakes (when he had the time to go grocery shopping, you’re not sure), but he’s even got lunch packed for you and it all seems… oddly domestic. You wanna probe for more, but in all fairness, your head is still spinning with what he said last night, and the fact that you spilled and said the fucking ‘l’ word right in front of him.

But he acts like… none of that even happened.

“What’s up with you?” Hyerim asks, tapping her fingers against the counter of the nurses’ station. “You’ve been all like… weird, this morning. What’s even weirder is that you’re accepting morning shifts, despite saying that you wanted to go on nights.” She’s slinging her bag over her shoulder, ready to leave since someone has relieved her, but of course, she can’t go until she’s got her juicy gossip.

“Uh, well, nothing—”

“Daydreaming about me, hopefully,” Hyunjin interjects, grinning cheekily when his gaze meets yours. “I hope your night was well. I know you weren’t feeling your best, but I hope you’re feeling a bit better now. How was your sleep?”

Hyerim eyes you suspiciously, pulling her bag closer. “Hmm. Interesting. You guys went out last night, Dr. Hyunjin?”

“Yeah,” he says giddily, hands in the front pockets of his white coat. “We sort of went on a date.”

You cringe. This is exactly what you were talking about. “Hyunjin!”

“Sorry,” he smiles innocently, attempting to mask his mistakes with a soft chuckle. “It was lovely. I hoped to do it again, so I apologize for getting ahead of myself. I got excited to ask.”

“I—“ Before you could even respond, you spotted someone sitting at your desk through the window. Feet up on the desk, watching you from the seat cautiously with a narrowed gaze. He has a pen in his mouth, and a rubber band twirling on his index finger and just the sight of him from here is… intimidating. “Uh… actually, guys, I’m going to take my lunch break now.”

Hyunjin quirks a brow. “Now? But it’s an hour before you usually—”

“Yeah, yeah,” you wave him off dismissively. “Just uh, I’m gonna be in my office. I need some space. Give me a call if you need me, yeah?”

Although they both exchange dubious stares with each other, both Hyerim and Hyunjin let you off. Promptly, you speed walk to your office, shut the door behind you and close all the blinds after locking the door. Inhaling in a deep breath of courage, you turn around to face him.

“What are you doing here?”

Jungkook looks at you, feigning a look of surprise. “What do you mean? I brought the girl I like some lunch. But she keeps talking to this one dude at her workplace who has these… heart eyes for her. Not sure if I like that.”

You roll your eyes, slipping out of your white coat and hang it on one of the hooks on your rack. “Thanks for the uh, lunch, Jungkook. It’s very out of character for you.”

“Everything has been out of character for me as of late,” he states obviously, watching as you take the seat across from him. “Not gonna kick me out of your little office chair?”

“You seem comfortable. What’d you bring for me?”

It feels like you’re walking on eggshells throughout the conversation because Jungkook is being… leery. He observes you like a hawk, testing to see what actions you’re going to make next because he didn’t like what he just saw out there just now. “Hm. Some rice. Short ribs. Veggies.”

“Sounds good. Where is it?” He gestures to the bag on the table. “Let’s talk first.”

“Again?”

Jungkook nods. “Again.”

“You’re not usually a talker. More like a fucker, maybe.”

He furrows his brows, standing up from the swivel chair. “Is that what you want, baby? Because you keep saying that, and you keep asking for it. All I wanted was to talk. Why are you so adamant on fucking?”

You swallow. “Because you’re good at fucking, Jungkook, not at talking. Feelings aren’t your thing.”

“Get up.”

“What—“

“Get up.” Abiding by his instruction, you stand from your seat, confused. “You said I’m better with expressing myself through sex, so let’s do it. Right now, right now.”

You scoff. “Jeon Jungkook, we’re in my office. In case you haven’t noticed, I take care of business here. I’m not fucking you in my office, not especially if I could get caught.”

“Blinds are closed.”

“Well, yeah—“

“Doors are locked.”

“I mean—“

He clicks his tongue. “We’ll make it quick. Get on your knees.”

Startled, you nearly choke on your saliva. “Jungkook, I’m not—“ his gaze darkens, and your heart skips a beat. Why was he suddenly so attractive when he knows what he wants? “Okay, fine.” You reply sharply, getting on the floor. He doesn’t hesitate to unbuckle his belt, unzipping his pants to relieve himself.

It’s like part of your memory is wiped because your lips are suddenly wrapped around his dick, and panties wet from the sight of him fucking your mouth and you don’t even know how you got here.

Jungkook thinks you’re so pretty like this—but not only like this. He finds you stealing the breath from his lungs frequently; in your white coat, hair tied back while tending to patients, or when you’re at home, flickering through the channels on your TV, in search of anything with an ounce of entertainment in it. But something about you like this specifically, underneath his hold, with your lashes fluttering against your supple cheeks that grow damp from the tears that spill when you choke on him, has his heart sputtering like the engine of a lawn mower.

He leans down, rubbing his thumb against your cheek to wipe the tears away. “You’re doing so well for me, baby.”

You hum in delight, because who wouldn’t want to be such a good girl for Jungkook. But before you could show him any more, he pulled away. A look of disappointment washes over your face.

“Baby, do me a favor? Bend over on your desk.”

Jungkook is horny, obviously, but he still thinks with his brain sometimes. He knows that this is a workplace, this is your workplace, and the fact you prioritize your career over anything else. So, yes, he’s horny, dick hard and ready to be enveloped in your wetness, but he’s also cautious. Double checking the door is locked, confirming that the blinds keep the two of you hidden, and having a hand on your mouth to muffle your moans when he has your scrubs down to your knees and dick deep in your warmth.

He feels so good like this, despite the turn of events because there’s no sweet Jungkook who makes you breakfast this morning. “You won’t listen to me when I’m talking, but when we’re fucking, you’re all ears, huh?” You can barely formulate a sentence, dumb full of Jungkook and brain foggy from pleasure. “Listen, now, yeah? Stop considering other guys, will you? I want you to be mine.” He slams his hips into yours, your ass bouncing at the impact. “Tell Hyunjin to fuck off. That he isn’t the one you took home to your parents the other day.” A slap to your ass makes the skin slightly redden.

In the midst of his thrusting, he pauses. Wincing, you’re practically begging to be fucked now, but you can’t say a word with his hand on your mouth and your arms holding you up on the desk. “What was that? You want more? Gotta tell me that you’re mine, baby.”

You gasp when he uncovers your mouth, and you’re practically drooling on his cock. “Tell me baby,” he eggs you on, fingers outlining your spine gingerly, reaching your plump cheeks again to rub the spot he smacks soothingly, “Are you mind?”

Are you his? Yes, this is sex, you realize this much, but Jungkook initiates it for a reason. Because he’s better at fucking than he is at talking, and although he asks to be yours, there’s something different in his voice when he says it now. It’s his comfort zone, something he’s familiar with (as disturbing as it sounds) but he never claims a girl during sex. It’s part of his rules.

But now that he’s asking you, it’s not the same anymore.

And oddly enough, you do want to be his.

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