#also hopefully i'll post some class stuff soon too

[ghostoffuturespast]

No Friday field notes last week? 🥺👉👈 tell me one cool nature thing you saw last week. Saturday I got to see up close near my porch a robin with a beakful of worms. It's funny how they just kinda hang out and wobble with how they hold them. I also saw a wasp crawling along my sliding glass door so I got to get an up close look at its little face.

Oh! And Friday after my tattoo I heard a common nighthawk!!!!

Hey! Lol, I didn't realize the field notes would be missed so much! 🌿🌱🐣 🧡 Makes my little nature heart happy to hear though.

I try to do the field notes weekly, but there are times when I just might not have the gas to get to them. Summer is the busiest time for me work wise and this past month has been insane. Tail-end of field trip season, so I probably saw several hundred K-12 students in the span of 2 weeks, got sick, and then I've been coordinating installation and maintenance for a native plant garden.

June is gonna be even crazier because I've got back to back weeks of summer day camp (which I still need to put the agendas together for by like tomorrow lmfao), prepping for a booth at a comic-con, planning a community art event, field restoration workdays, more garden stuff, and I'm taking a plant identification course too, but the classes are on one of my days off, so I will technically only have one day off a week for the entire month... I will do my best to keep posting these regularly (because I do love doing them), but if I skip a week, just know it's probably because I passed out and am taking a nap.

Aw, mama Robin with worms! They are very cute when they are out hunting for food and I've seen quite a few out my office window this past spring. Bug faces are so fascinating to see up close, getting them to stay still long enough to get a good look is the hardest part though. Saw a neat metallic green Thread-waisted Wasp the other day (no idea on the species) , striking and beautiful! And a Common Nighthawk! I've yet to see or hear one, so that is very cool that you did.

What else have I seen... Lots of baby Bunnies and Prairie Dogs (all adorable), and the Bald Eagle chicks in the (4?) nests we've been monitoring are all fledging too which is very exciting! They're all getting ready to leave the nests. And the Pronghorn mamas are all about ready to pop, so hopefully we'll be spotting some babies soon.

Late spring flowers are starting to bloom here on the prairie! Rocky Mountain Columbine (Aquilegia caerulea) on the left and Western Wild Rose (Rosa woodsii) on the right. I'm very proud of those Columbines because they were incredibly sad when I planted them last year and they didn't flower. But they bloomed this year!

On my home brew native plant garden project, I'm happy to report I did manage to get 12 out of the 14 species I planted to germinate, with roughly 50% success rate, which is pretty good. (The seeds for the Little Bluestem and the Winterfat I think were blanks unfortunately, so I'll try again next season.) And my vegetable garden is getting there too. Snap peas and zucchini!

But, yeah, getting ready to blow half a paycheck on plant starts for my front yard lol...

[apho-sappho]

HELLO

I'm about to go talk to a friend but need to wait a few more minutes and am bouncing off the walls with internal energy so I am spilling it into your ask box, so sorry about that! :D (also you always seemed to reblog any "you can ask me stuffs" things multiple times so I have decided to take you up on this :))) )

Questions!!! (feel free to answer whichever you want obviously)

is there any little details about Safi and/or Shattered Portals (I think that's what you said it was called right? the Flora, Midna, Shadow, Ravio, and Linkle do stuff au) and/or the mlp lu thingey-magig-y and/or any other thing you're working on that you've not found a way to share yet? They're all very interesting :D

Is there any random head cannon or something else that you mayhaps want to blab about?

Basically this is a slip of paper saying that I've enjoyed all your little rambles and appreciate your existence, ok bye, have a good day! :D

HEHEHEHE I'm so glad you asked

Safi au is being written but unfortunately it's taken a bit of a backburner compared to other AUs I'm writing cough cough four de-aged to cap cough cough

Fun fact, in it, Time spends The Big Bucks to buy all sorts of candies and fruits for fairies who pass by the ranch! Safi immediately takes full advantage of it

Safi also speaks Minish with Four to communicate when they don't want people to understand them

I have 2 pages of Shattered Portals sketched out, but two panels of it properly drawn out. I'll still need to finish the rest and color it, but I'm hoping to upload the first "chapter" so to speak somewhat soon . Hopefully . If I'm lucky

I'm considering writing a lil oneshot for Shattered Portals but idk when I'd do so

I have 6 ponies drawn for my itty bitty mlploz thing, Time, Malon, Legend, Ravio, and Marin in both Legend and Warriors times. I have it all *written down*, but no designs

Some things I haven't talked about yet:

I have a happy ending sequel being written for my revalink fic!!!! It's at 2k words so far. In it, every member of the chain gets little Purah Phones

I also have a fic where Four gets teleported to Wild's world after the events of totk! 2.6k words so far! Both Blue and Vio have been taking anger management classes and Vio is trying So Hard not to snap at the rest for spending all their rupees

I have an au being written abt the Champions coming back to life post totk and having avatars like the sages too. It involves Wild shutting them off and forgetting after he joins the chain and then remembering during a fight and turning them on, only for them to kill all the enemies and immediately yell at him. This one has a grand total of 227 words so far 😭

As for hcs, I might have to reblog and add some later :D They're not coming to mind rn

[ivyshrinks]

semaglutide update: week 14

my last update wasn't a very informative one, so I'm going to try to talk a bit more about what's been going on lately in this post! I'll make some bolded headers for different topics I discuss in case there's anything in particular you do or don't care about.

weight update

I haven't had the best few weeks. I've been eating kind of like an asshole - ordering doordash a lot, started (and stopped) drinking alcohol again, etc. however, I've been back on track for a bit now, and I'm down to a new low weight of 347.7 lbs (down from my april hw of 390 lbs and my july 9th sw of 380 lbs). this means I'm a little over 30 lbs down in three months! losing at a rate of 10 lbs/month is great, and I'm really happy with the progress I've been making.

medication update

I'm still taking 20 units of compounded semaglutide a week, which I think (based on the concentration of my meds) is equivalent to the 1.0 mg dose of the actual stuff. I plan on staying on 20 units for a while, maybe throughout my next vial of medication (which should last about 10 weeks at 20 units/week), then I might discuss with my doctor going up a bit if I feel like I need it. I think the therapeutic dose of wegovy for weight loss is 1.7 mg or 2.4 mg, so I'm still technically below the therapeutic dose, but it's been working fine and I don't want to jump up in dose too soon if it's not necessary.

struggling with knowing when to stop eating on semaglutide (tw: vomiting)

something I've been struggling with is getting used to my new stomach and fullness cues. I never really had fullness cues until starting semaglutide, so I have a hard time knowing exactly when to stop eating. this means I often eat slightly too much, and then immediately have to go vomit - not self-induced, but just too much in my stomach that my body rejects it. I've been vomiting a few times a week from eating a little too much during my regular meals, which is something that really bothers me. so now I'm trying to be more mindful of portion sizes, how much I put on my plate, and unlearning being part of the "clean plate club." I always feel the need to finish everything I put on my plate, but I need to realize that it's okay if I save some leftovers for later or even throw away the rest of my food when I'm full.

sobriety struggles

as for the alcohol that I mentioned earlier, I bought a big bottle of vodka a week or two ago and thought "I can just have a little bit here and there, and it'll be fine!" without realizing that I am not in fact a queen of moderation when it comes to alcohol. after one evening of drinking my usual (large) amount, I woke up at 1 am with a headache, tummy ache, heartburn, etc., and I just thought to myself "I hate this and it's not worth it." when I woke up in the morning, I poured the rest of my vodka down the drain. I don't need it. it's not good for me mentally. it's not good for my weight loss journey.

exercise

I want to start exercising regularly again! for a while, I was struggling with back pain and sciatica, causing me to lose feeling in my right leg if I walked too far, which scared me out of going for walks. I didn't want to get hurt from falling. however, that pain has disappeared now! I've gone for a few walks this past week, with each walk being between 1.5 and 2.5 miles in distance, and I love it. I also plan on starting up yoga again to hopefully help with my flexibility and mobility, as well as for mental health benefits. I plan on using the underbelly website (which promotes yoga for people in all bodies with an emphasis on accessibility) for yoga at home a couple of days a week, and I even signed up for a gentle yoga class at a wellness center near my house! my first class is supposed to be tomorrow night, but I might have to skip it - unfortunately I have come down with a cold, and I'm not feeling too hot right now.

new doctor

I received a devastating email a few weeks ago saying that my primary care physician (who I have worked with for years and who I adore) will no longer be accepting my insurance in 2025. my doctor and the physician's assistant have been so supportive and incredible, both while on my weight loss journey and even when I was struggling with weight gain. they're healthcare practitioners who are supportive of my weight loss journey without being fatphobic or condescending about my weight. so, learning that I need to find a new doctor was devastating and scary. I did a lot of research and found a couple of doctors who seem to have very good reviews and are consistently described as kind and compassionate, so I have a new patient appointment with one of these other doctors in a couple of weeks. I hope she's as supportive as my last doctor. I'm kind of scared about starting off fresh with a new doctor, especially since I used this opportunity to switch to a doctor with a different hospital affiliation, which means she won't have automatic access to my old records. so when I go to weigh in for the first time with my new doctor, they're just going to see that I'm 300+ lbs, not the fact that I've already lost 40+ lbs. I hope to get them up to speed, but it's still a bit daunting. I hope everything goes well with this transition.

where do I go from here?

I'm going to keep on truckin! I'm going to try to limit how often I order doordash, and try to make healthier choices when I do. I'm going to avoid alcohol. I'm going to continue going for walks when the autumn weather is nice and start practicing yoga a few days a week. I'm going to try to get a little better about drinking my water on workdays. I'm going to try to post more in the discord weight loss groups I'm a part of for support since sometimes being on a weight loss journey can feel a little lonely. and I'm just going to keep marching forward!

[henriiiii-1001old]

coming back/moving blogs

hey, been a while, hasn't it? i hope you're all doing well! this is my official coming-back-to-tumblr post, but it's a little different than i had originally planned.

i've decided it would be in my best interests to move blogs after a bit of thinking. i feel like coming back here would just feel too awkward for both me and you guys, especially with my now deleted drama post. i just wanna move on from all this bullshit, especially since i've had do deal with a lot of other shit, including college.

it's still @/evrydaygets-darkr, just moved to a different account. i still like the name, so i'm keeping it for now. this account will still be up for archival purposes, but it will never be active again. i hope you understand. (EDIT: changed to @henriiiii-1001 bc of shit that happened w ak recently. see this for more info and this for my official statement on it)

as a general life update, i'm done with my first semester of college!! it's been kinda fun so far! i've made a couple friends here and there, and classes (except for math) were super cool!!! i loved most of my professors, and i am honestly excited for the upcoming semester! ive been artblocked to hell and back though, so i don't have much in terms of new art or writing, but i've been trying my best to get out of it. i also gained a new hyperfixation, which is project sekai: colorful stage (abbreviated as pjsk), so i'll probably be posting abt that quite a bit (btw my fav group is wxs and my fav character is tsukasa :3 ), specifically abt stats and achievements w like song completions, maybe some pulls too!

im also gonna put a few updates on aus and oc stories rq:

for my tmc aus: the big ones i'm working on are getting new masterposts and infodumps for the new blog. i would rb posts from this blog to the new one, but due to some personal stuff i don't feel very comfortable doing that. i havent been able to cook much lore-wise for any of them, but i'll probably get back into the swing of things once i start interacting w you guys again. - for specifically father's duty: i'll hopefully have chapter 3 done soon. it's actually been almost done for a while now, i just need to think of the ending. thank you to those who've stuck with me this far <3 (EDIT: all my tmc aus are discontinued. read above for more info)

for murder files: i'm gonna change up the pacing a bit because i feel like i was going a bit too fast with it. i wanna take my time with it and make it feel as real as possible. it might take me a bit to get fully set up bc im probably gonna have to plan a few steps ahead, which i've barely done. i just need time to plan everything out and draw some shit

i will try to post as often as i can to get back into using tumblr like a true tumblrina (even though i see theyve made some more disgusting changes so yay </3 ), though it'll probably take some getting used to.

i really missed you guys. i'll see you on the flipside.

-henry/thatcher

[five-bi-five-mind]

I was tagged by @storiesofsvu so let's goooo

How many works do you have on AO3?

I have 45 I believe

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

229,358 words apparently

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Criminal Minds, Station 19, MCU, DCEU (and the Arrowverse), BTVS... am I forgetting something?

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

I'm Yours Too

The Collapse

New Addition

Sin For Me

Maybe This Time

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

Eh yeah sometimes. I get a couple that are backhanded compliments and I'm usually like "uh hey no."

6. What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Probably... Break the Cycle... But I think there's going to a fic to beat that ending here soon.

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Turbulence for sure

8. Do you get hate on fics?

Like I said, backhanded compliments. Mostly on MTT because people didn't like the way I wrote reader for a bit, but it's a slow burn. Also weirdly on some Maya fics? Because people thought I was writing a Maya/Carina and that Carina was out of character when... she wasn't... in the fic...

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

oh ho ho ho... do I write smut... all kinds. All kinds.

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

I don't unfortunately write crossovers and I don't think I ever will. ):

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

God I fucking hope not.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Again, I hope not. If someone ever translated my fic I'd like for it to be a team effort and for them to ask me and work with me on that. Or, preferably, I'd just do it myself depending on the language.

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

I've been asked a few times but I am very hard to get a commitment out of. That's my bad. One of these days I'll co-write a fic I'm sure! Hopefully with one of my faves, the great @demonicbaby666

14. What's your all time favorite ship?

Uhhhhh..... swan queen.......... I'm sorry

15. What's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

My Villanelle one. I love that one so much but like... I don't think there's much interest in it and I kind of have turned my attention elsewhere.

16. What are your writing strengths?

I genuinely do not know. Maybe that I can capture a character's voice well sometimes? Y'all tell me.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

I feel like I'm way too fucking repetitive and also punctuation has never been my strongest thing. The more German I learned in undergrad the worse my English punctuation and grammar got.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

I mean I do it a tiny bit for Carina, but my Italian is severely limited to 1.5 classes of undergrad. Otherwise, unless there's randomly a German speaking character I'll write for in the future... I don't like doing it.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Like ever? Technically Twilight fanfics lol but that was way back in the day. Officially for this blog and stuff? Criminal Minds and BTVS at the same time.

20. Favorite fic you've ever written?

Actually... it hasn't been posted yet but I know what it will be once it's done. But for now...

There's three for three different reasons:

I Wish I Was the Moon

Me & the Devil

Maybe This Time

Okay no pressure tags of course but I'm gonna tag @yelenas-poser @desperate-gay @imdoingsortagay and genuinely anyone else who follows me and wants to do it. (If you do please tag me I wanna read your answers lol)

[cgetbrmj]

A Cget update: I have technically graduated :)) I still have exams and there's a couple weeks of leeway to get any unfinished assignments in for some classes, but as far as actually attending classes - I'm done!! Which is really crazy and neat and super cool and also quite scary and unfamiliar because wow doesn't time just fly by?

Anyway, what this should mean is fics being posted again soon! Ofcourse life is still hectic as usual and I won't lie, I have a lot of stuff going on, but after next week I should be fully done with school stuff for good, so I'll have more time to work with regardless :) I've been looking forward to posting for so so long now - craving it I swear - but I've had no time to edit, let alone start writing new fics. Hopefully some new fics will make their way to the surface in the next couple weeks though!!! :))))

Ps. For anyone following along with the caregiver crush/ cute guy who's been becoming a close friend/ a tiny bit of a normal crush aswell, story - still going strong! I'll see him again this week since I need to return stuff (and clean my art space bcuz yikes) but last week on everyone's last "official" day I ended up staying late and we hung out again and it was a lot of fun, I genuinely really like him. I ended up writing him a note/letter, as I did with a lot of people and he immediately pinned it on his wall and thought it was sweet which was so reassuring because I feel like that kinda thing doesn't always land with people lol, and I got to give him a hug before I left too and let me say - he's an incredibly good hugger. He's only just taller than me to like notice a height difference and it felt very safe. Very very good hugger. We also maybe made vague plans of a movie night at some point in the future?? Idk?

[vanta-nev00]

some star wars oc rambling for tonight!! - alyx

i really wanted to work on my new oc alyx (nyx earlier, i changed her name recently) and her latest updates, but of course school, work and personal stuff devour all of my free time for drawing lately. that's why i decided to write down some backstory ideas and fun facts i got during these last few days instead. enjoy :))

alyx is an albino!! that's why she can't (and hates to) stay in the sun for too long. she rarely visits sunny planets, but when she really needs to, she wears white, covering, yet thin clothes.

she also has polycoria in her left eye (two pupils on one eyeball), which is her biggest insecurity, that's why she keeps it covered by a bandaid and her thick bangs.

as a child, she was trained for a jedi in a complete secret in an abandoned ilum temple, until she was taken by a snowtrooper batalion during their hunt for her master

since then she was trained for the first order assassin, meant to be sent for anyone unwanted entering the planet

the trainings were in fact inhumane, forcing alyx not only to often overwork herself, but also stay in the cold and even complete darknedd for long hours. such treatmeant not only affected her physical health, but also ruined her mentally.

the harsh climate heavily damaged her nostrils, causing her to get severe nosebleeds while staying outside for too long.

in her early-adult years, the effects of childchood trauma surfaced, causing ptsd and strong anger issues, often let out by alyx on others.

woah, did i promise funfacts? haha gottem! none of my ocs are safe from the unspeakable trauma >:))

still, i'm so glad i was able to finally write it down, all nice and clear. hopefully soon i'll be able to draw some more of alyx (maybe even with kylo? *wink wonk), but for now that's all i can offer you about her

and maybe some doodles i made in class, that too

(i should be asleep long time ago, but this post in my drafts wouldn't let me sleep in peace)

[sighthounds-and-sketches]

Puppy First Month Costs Chat

Prior to getting Argos, my most recent dog acquisition was a decade ago in wildly different circumstances.

My expectations for costs have been heavily skewed, and I'm gonna talk a little bit on what first month costs have been like with Argos.

Because even though I budgeted for this, I did not in fact, budget for this.

In another post I detailed picking him up. In total, that flight series was only about 130.00 out of pocket to cover flying with him, seat change, and fees.

Let's continue.

Pet Insurance- I hate it but im too scared to not have it for him. 85.00/mo (ASPCA) if you recommend another Insurance, do let me know.

His vet visits, 410.00 this month- awaiting reimbursement

Harness- Saker Ascension, Extended - 140.00

*note that I opted for this Harness because he's a sighthound and it'll fit him better, and it's crash tested. This was the "cheaper" option compared to the crate I was going to get him but cannot reasonably fit into my car.

Flight Carrier- 75.00 (has also doubled as his travel carrier)

Food- okay so this one's kind of interesting because I have no clue how much I'm spending on his food. His breeder recommended Diamond Naturals- so that's what we bought him. 50.00

He disagrees with the recommendation and I've had to like, entice him with water, unsalted bone broth, quail egg. Whatever it takes.

Puppy Obedience Course- 250.00

Couch Cover because he's attacking the stitching of my couch-60.00

Miscellaneous treats, toys, and more (bath kit, tick removal kit, etc.) - 250.00

So, all in all, and I KNOW I forgot some stuff, or got things secondhand, we're looking at bringing puppy home costing around 1000/usd, and monthly around 200.00 usd. We're expecting to need to upgrade his crate, harness, gear and do more puppy classes in the next year, so down the line that's around 4-700.00

This isn't really a complaint, so much as a reference for anyone who might be planning for a puppy to come home sometime soon, and want to hear experiences.

We bought some secondhand items from our local humane society and got a lot of toys from local buy-nothing groups. I highly recommend looking into the "buy-nothing project" in your area to see what's available. People can surprise you. My area is a little bit uppity so it's not super great for it.

I need to get thriftier about this process but there's not a lot of ways around things and I'm already going the inexpensive route with a lot of it.

Hopefully seeing this talked about laid out will help someone plan. If it does, I'll continue discussing things more? I'm sure there's more costs to incur- and that's okay. This is going to be updated, I guarantee you.

[tyonfs]

aurkay SCHOOL!

so as we’ve established it’s my sophomore year of college and omg ibhate it 😭 classes suck so bad and i have no free time in my day. but what sucks the most is that i’m moving to georgia. like i’m transferring schools. which in some way is great because i hate san antonio but at the same time i’m so conflicted because the place i went to high school to aka hometown is only 2 hrs away and it’s just so like. i used to be able to visit my friend whenever i wanted but now??? i can’t ever. and it makes me so upset. i’m gonna move at the end of spring semester but still! like i just don’t want to because i love my life right now as much as i sound like i hate it.

anyways i’m sorry for talking your ear off alice (i know u might get back to this like 5 months later which is okay! ur busy) how’s post grad treating u?? do much adulting stuff yet?

a lil update on that friend i am still protecting my peace and ur right oregan is never real 😮‍💨

but thank u queen for listening and giving me advice 🙁🙁🙁 just think about it it almost marks a year since i became ur anon and two years since i’ve followed u woooohoooo!!!! i like to think we’re like besties lowk - 🎀

omg im so sorry love :(( moving is definitely always hard, i used to move a lot when i was younger and could never get used to it. it's also tough cause your friend circles worked so perfectly and it's just such a big transition mentally too :/ im sure you'll be thriving in georgia tho!! and i hope you can stay in contact with the friends you have rn and hopefully be able to make plans to visit them when possible 🤍🤍

HAHAHA NO DW ITS OKAY but post grad has been stressful!!! rn im actually in the middle of moving 🤧 not a super huge move or anything but packing everything and moving to another house is a Little overwhelming 🥲 but i'll finally be able to rest soon LOLL

oregon is NOT real ❤️ and im glad you're protecting your peace queen ��‍♀️

omg it's been so long 🥹🥹 and now we're going into 2024 isn't it insane how fast time flies?? we are so pen pal besties 🤝

[petra-creat0r]

Comics Progress Update

Howdy Creative Creators and welcome to 2023! Wooooo! Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

Now, the every moving passage of time aside, I've got a progress update for my comics! As some of you here may know, I run two ask blogs! @askthedreemurr-fontfamily and @askyoungcharaut-ish! Though I recently added a third blog too! Though not a comic, @hisui-researcher-lilax is a more casual ask blog where I post about my trainersona's journey's in Hisui as I finish Legends Arceus (well, eventually finish. We're perfecting the Pokédex first because I'm insane)

Anyways, onto the comics. As is tradition at this point, I have made new watermarks for both my regular work and both AtDFF and AYC for the new year. Why do I insist on putting the year in the my watermarks? So I know when I drew the thing!

Not much to say about them, they're just watermarks. Though for AYC's, I did search up fonts made in 1923 and used a version of Baskerville! AtDFF is just Comic Sans and I liked the portal 0 from last year.

Anyways. I promise that the team and I are working on the next AtDFF update. I know it's been 6 months. We have all the foreground stuff, we're just waiting on backgrounds from @anxiousdisasterlesbian, who has been working on them, albeit slowly (I love you babe, keep up the hard work!)

Some of you may have seen that I updated AYC yesterday, meaning we're finally starting the Orphan Train arc. I apologize for the delays, and I know I said it's return back in September, but yeah. College. Though now, I'm hoping I should be able to work on the comic in between classes after finishing my work since I got a new Wacom tablet. I'll still be using my Huion for at home work, but on the go, it's hard to find a place to plug both my computer and Kamvas Pro 12 in, since it needs to be plugged into both my computer, and an outlet.

For both AtDFF and AYC I've decided to upscale the proportions of the panels by 1.5, so instead of 600x450 pixels (with adjustments for some asks) it's now 900x675 pixels. This shouldn't affect much for you guys except hopefully the quality.

I'm really excited for what this new year brings, not just for the comics (though there's some good stuff coming up soon that I hope we can get to) and I hope y'all are excited to. It is my hope and plan to start posting more regularly, not just for the comics, but also in general, though I can never guarantee anything sadly. I'd also like to do more stuff for our Patreon (especially now that I have at least one patron. Thank you so much @kierangecko.) Either way, regardless of how much I post, I should always be very active on here, answering asks and stuff, as well as on the Ish Discord.

Thank you all so much for an amazing 2022, and I hope 2023 can be just as great. See you later Creative Creators.

[coolwyou]

041623 | long overdue updates!

it has been quite a while since i last updated. i had a horrible first semester of grad school, and spent this semester really trying to fix that! i wen through the medical withdrawal process and managed to do well so far. one class is a pass/fail class which helps a lot, and the other one is an introductory class so it's not as rigorous. other than that, school is pretty steady now! i'm taking the summer off to hopefully work or do an internship for a little bit (:

i am set to take a normal course load next semester, which i hope i can keep up with. i'm going to keep in touch as often as i can and hopefully save up enough to get all my appointments done and get adequate paperwork for some disability accommodations next semester. thankfully, one class is synchronous online, and another class is only meeting in-person every other week! it really helps me to not have to leave the house every week and just be comfortable at home.

anyway, i'm updating my theme (the struggle to find a cute and functioning one) and about section a bit! the biggest edits were adding links to show the planner i am using for 2023 and that i started bullet journaling! i'm not too great at it, and it's really just a book of "trackers" (i track things like video game daily logins, medical stuff, and my mood) but i hope maybe next year i can add a sort of scrapbook component to it! also, i made a cute things side blog! :D

as for my personal updates, i'll put those under the cut!

i have been doing okay! health-wise, i am doing quite badly, and upgraded from a cane to a walker (everyone thinks it's unfortunately comedic, because for years i called myself a little old lady, and now i really resemble one!). i also got a platinum pass to seaworld because it is a really happy place for me lately (love to go through it at my own pace, watch some shows, eat some park food, and just in general sit around it lol).

i'm seeing two of my partners soon! they're coming to visit and we're going to have a lot of fun i hope! i have an awful complex about living where i do, so i'm trying very very hard to make their stay nice. it's hopefully going to help me power through finals and inspire me to save up to visit them in the summer/early autumn too.

some random thoughts to end this post: i'm loving two songs a lot right now, nmixx's love me like this and ive's i am. they're both different overall vibes but they are both so fun to me! i also have been playing a lot of virtual jigsaw puzzles and just finished two 1000+ piece ones, and starting a new one. i am really loving sticker-by-number books too! i'm currently doing a dog one and it's so cute!!

[yostresswritinggirl]

Dear Mom,

I’m sending you back a letter to assure you I am not dead, but I’m unable to come back for the Holidays. Not to bring the mood down, I’m sure we can figure it out; it’s just that something came up and I’d be an idiot to turn it down.

I was apparently offered an internship somewhere farther up North to help “investigate a space pocket that opened up in the area.” Weird right? Their words not mine.

It confuses me nowadays. I’m not the only student that studies space and time here at the academy, and my main course of research is how imagination affects it. Just a mere space pocket shouldn’t be enough to ask for my “help.” Then again, space pockets are pretty rare this close to where we stand, so it might give me some material to go off of for my next assignment when school starts up again.

I was about to accept when I realized they didn’t say if I should just show up or tell them that I’m going to be attending. Thinking about it now makes me realize I spent way too long contemplating whether or not I should put in the effort to tell them.

I decided to send them a heads up that I’m coming, which hopefully explains my lack of letters. Also because I ran out of ink ‘cause I forgot to get more ahead of time but we don’t talk about that.

They sent back a reply soon after, and by soon I mean I-haven’t-started-packing-for-the-internship soon. Makes me wonder if they really have that much time on their hands. Maybe they’re just really well staffed. Oh no it’s post-quarantine all over again.

At the time I’m writing this, it’s the week before I head off on the train that should take me up North. Hopefully. I was never good with directions. Maybe the holidays have already passed by the time this gets to you. Sorry about that.

I’ll make sure to make time to visit you all on my next break to compensate!  Don’t worry too much.

Seasons beatings,

Cherry

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ashjahs i hope this can help put a smooth transition for my inaactiveness while i get whooped by school-

i wrote this all the way back in december, so imma be honest i dont remember what i put in this AHSHAHS BEAR WITH ME???

Dearest Cherry Child,

It's a real shame you didn't make it over the holidays but it's understandable, it's a bigger shame that we couldn't have at least brought over some of the feast leftovers ourselves, mostly because your siblings are such big eaters and there was none left. Then again, there's almost five thousand of them so I can't really do much about that...

A space pocket investigation? First I've heard of an internship like that, in comparison to your twin's internship in Inazuma, I hope you advise caution during your trip then! I would love to hear more about the imagination research stuff in close detail someday, I think it would be very, very useful for me... For, uh, no reason whatsoever.

I wonder if you packed all your essentials and emergency medication just in case, you always forget at least one thing when packing. But hopefully you don't leave something instead on your way back. Either way, make sure to enjoy your trip, it's important to appreciate the journey over as well so long as it's not a hindrance.

Soon, mother would be taking an Akademiya class to advance my knowledge, most likely I'll be writing less letters to focus on writing reviewers. Still, I'll l make sure to write back immediately when I have the time.

I love you, stay safe, take care, and don't let the space pocket bite!

Terra incognita,

Exiled

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December geezus that really is delayed hahaha that explains the note

[ticenchantedtoc]

How is happily ever aftermath going?

Unfortunately, pretty slow right now! I've been focused on writing projects, my dnd campaign, and school stuff. Winding Down is almost done, and I've been fiddling around with another fic idea I've been waiting on for ages. It needs a lot of rewriting and polish, but I'll never turn down a random burst of information!

Speaking of school though, I'm doing a TON of writing for that too. Among a lot of other classes, one of them is focused on novel writing! As exciting as that is, the downside is it soaks up a lot of my writing time and energy. Idk if I'll post anything about it, since it's still in the starting phases, but I have some spare scenes sitting around if that intrigues anyone! (The DnD campaign also takes a lot of writing and art time, but I can't post much about it because my players follow me)

If all of that background information doesn't interest you, here's the important part. I do have a couple posts in the works for Happily Ever Aftermath, but the art isn't done. Hopefully I can make enough progress in other stuff to work on that soon!

[jay-avian]

Writing Update - January 2024

Happy new year everyone! I wanted to start making monthly updates in regards to my projects and future plans.

General Plans

I want to post more about my WIPs to get people excited and to hopefully get myself motivated too! Whether it be snippets, character tidbits, or general aesthetic stuff, I want to gather inspiration when I need a reminder of why I love a project.

I'm also taking yet another semester of creative writing classes. I may end up posting what I write for class if it's good. I can also post any good tidbits of info about writing if anyone's interested.

"The Court Magician"

I've had this thing plotted out for a while (well, mostly). I just need to get around to actually writing it. I'm about 2-3 chapters in with my first draft and I already know it needs some heavy editing. But that's okay! That's what drafts are for. I still don't quite know how the ending will go or what trials Micah will face exactly, but I'll cross that bridge when I get there.

"Kraken's Bane"/"Morgensturm"

"Kraken's Bane" is being entirely redone! Well, not entirely. Originally, I wanted to write about a character discovering the events of this big backstory. But then I decided it would just be easier writing about the backstory. So the WIP is essentially becoming a prequel (or the original idea is becoming a sequel?). It's getting a whole new name, "Morgensturm", after the main character's ship. I'll edit the WIP details in my pinned post soon.

[raksh-writes]

<beware, self reflection post incoming>

So. This year has been a tough one.

Feels like it has been tougher than all of those before, ngl, but it's hard to tell how much of it is skeved memory and how much just how strong those feelings are today. But it has been an awful year -- the first half was kind of alright, but the second? Yeah, everything went downhill there.

I slid into one of the worst depression holes ever. I quit my job two months ago, because it has been contributing strongly to that, but remained unemployed and stressed out of my mind because of that and feeling completely listless since. Unmoored. With no purpose whatsoever. It's... not a good place to be. On top of that, I got real sick with covid this week and barely started feeling somewhat better today. Guess it's a suficiently shitty end to an awful year, huh? What hurts, too, is the heart breaking writer's block I got in that second half of the year too.

I wrote barely anything this year, posted even less. Got very disconnected from that part of myself that carried me through the rough times of the previous years -- and maybe that's why it feels worse than ever now, when I had at least that joy back then but it feels like it's been taken from me. It's... rough.

I've always been in the middle of something before too. Always going back to classes, to uni, got a job last year, but now? Well...

I did start taking steps to crawl back to life. Trying to at least. Baby steps.

So, I wanna make a list of those baby steps. The ones Ive already started taking, the ones Im gonna soon, the ones I wanna try to make. Make a path out of them, maybe. So:

Im back to therapy, that's good. Working through new and old stuff, it's definitely helping, but... there's a lot more to work through than I imagined. It's okay, though. I can already tell some of it helped, it's been a good helping hand in digging myself out of this hole - or at least starting to dig myself out.

Im also starting an internship at the job office on monday (hopefully most of my symptoms are gonna be gone by then 🤞). It's a 6 months one, not as well paid as a full job, of course, but it's experience, it's a start, and I can always search for smth different in the meantime. And it's stability a dearly need.

I want to go back to studying too. I found I miss it a lot, having that goal, broadening my mind, etc. I wanna sign for some post-diploma library studies classes in the city where I intern, near where I live. It might not open up, but if it doesn’t, I think I'll try going back for actual Masters. It's something Im actually sort of looking forward too, even if it makes me a lil' anxious.

Been idly thinking about maybe going back to the city. Trying to live on my own again. Study, find a job to pay for it. Might not be quite possible, though, with prices of pretty much everything going up to 3x what they were and still going up. It's an idea for the later part of the year, though, if Id actually try going for it.

Maybe the most obvious one -- I want to write again. And post, too. I miss interacting with readers. Seeing that someone Gets it. That it brings people joy. I miss it a lot. These last months, even if I managed to write a little, I didn't even had the drive to post. No drive for anything, really. Feels like death to a creative soul 😔 So I want to write. And I want to share it. Im still thinking of my Beauty and the Beast Voiles AU -- I have a couple chapters of it done, maybe I could start posting and see where it goes, even if I dont manage to finish it? Then I got obsessed with VegasPete, an amazing ship I recommend to all that like Voiles or just enemies to lovers! I even managed to write some lil bits of them, some I Could post even, but I can’t get myself to... maybe it's a goal for the near future. To break through that block and engage with new fandom beyond just reading and commenting, but trying to contribute some of my own. It's scary, but it might do me good? It'd be nice..

I want to try and do more typesetting this year too, and properly, since Ive been thinking I could maybe do it part time in the future, do a project here and there, but for that I'd have to polish up my skills. Maybe do some smaller projects, that wont take me months to finish like the fics I did lately.

Have my eyes peeled for opportunities and have the courage to reach for them. I want to do library studies and Id love to work in a library one day, but its hard to get into one, so I gotta have my eyes open for any possibility. Or working in a book store, Id love that too. Anything with books, tbh. So, be on the look out. And work on having the courage to reach for it and battling down my anxiety.

Go out and meet with friends I haven't seen in a long time. I think Ive isolated myself a bit too much this year and it definitely hasn’t helped. So I need to try more to get out of the easy, lazy way and go out to meet people.

And that's it, for now, I think. Goals for the new year? Maybe, but being in the place I am, baby steps feel better. Im sure Im not the only one that had an awful year and if you're reading this, feeling the same, I see you. Can’t promise it's gonna get better, but we gotta have hope and try taking those baby steps towards making it better. So, Im not gonna go into elaborate wishes, Im just gonna be simple.

I wish you all good health, because it's so important and yet we don’t appreciate it enough, and also wish all of us courage, especially those struggling. To reach for what we want. To reach for what we fear. To get out of our comfort zones, one baby step at a time. To put ourselves out there. To win over our anxieties. To live.

Im slowly, very slowly, trying to take those baby steps. To crawl back to life. It's hard. And slow. But I hope it's gonna be worth it. It's gotta be better than the misery of last months. So, that's what I hope for in the next year. Taking the baby steps to a better future.

Happy New Year, everyone, and I hope y'all have a lovely last day of 2022 💗

[marcholasmoth]

OSRR: 3052

today was really productive.

i woke up to my alarm this morning! and then i fell back asleep. and then i woke up again not too long after! and i took my meds because i'd brought them upstairs with me last night because i knew i wasn't gonna wanna get out of bed to go get them but i needed to take them still, so i kept them by my bed. which was a great idea.

and then after taking then i fell back asleep again for an hour.

when i woke up, it was about 11:30 and mom asked me for help decorating, which i was planning on doing anyway, so i got up and showered and made my way downstairs to help decorate. mom gave me a working time of 45 minutes so i could get to work on my paper, and in that hour we got stuff organized and put up and problems solved and i'm pretty happy with how things look, even though we're definitely missing a box of greenery. i have some lights to put up soon, so hopefully the snow we've gotten today melts. which i doubt it will very much, but tomorrows supposed to be in the mid 30s and it'll be in the 40s later this week, so it probably will. who knows.

anyway, i spent the day editing the 54-page group document for our capstone. as the 4th person exiting it, i was shocked to see how many problems were left. repeated words, improperly hyphenated words, and missing citations, along with poorly formatted end citations, which i fixed all of, some of which entirely. that was fun.

but i got it done in time for our 5pm class meeting before our presentation tomorrow, so that was good.

and then i volunteered to cover the small business section. so i gotta do that tomorrow. eh.

and after dinner, after i finished up doing some other things and looking at rings because mom saw that someone got engaged and i was like "i picked out the ones i want, wanna see?" so we looked at them for a while.

i also helped mom move some empty boxes out of the way so it's less cluttered around the house, and james took our cars one by one to fix them in some way, and i learned i'll need new brakes which shouldn't be terrible, and i'll need a new something else which i anticipate being more expensive. but the good news is that i have some money i can use to pay for things, so that's good. it was nice being able to pay for tires myself.

and then, after all that, it had started to snow, and i switched tasks to the discussion posts i had left to do for my capstone. i had my textbook open so i could understand what i was supposed to be looking at, which didn't end up helping so much as google searches and looking at what my classmates commented. so i got all of those remaining posts done, so the last thing to do for my capstone is that presentation tomorrow. and then it's done. and all i'll have left is the few pieces that go to my paper for my other class. and then i'll be done. i'm so excited.

in the meantime, i've been so busy i haven't texted joel in a couple days, but i have thought about him. mostly in passing, though, like "joel would enjoy this," or "this reminds me of joel," and most frequently "i miss my joel :c" but i haven't reached out besides the other day of asking "do you need anything." i assume he's okay. he would tell me if he weren't, if for no other reason than he'd need a ride somewhere or need someone to watch the dog for a bit. joel is funny, but i understand. how babies have object impermanence, i have people impermanence. if they're not there and i'm not constantly reminded of them, i forget they're there. so i understand not reaching out. it's just. people don't exist if they're not in my top messages on here, facebook, snapchat, over text, or on discord. womp womp.

oh well. i'm fine. just tired. time to sleep.