#also gonna. make an aesthetic sideblog this time.

[eazy-peazy54]

"Welcome, babies. To the Fruity Pebbles Castle of Torment: a scary castle with 100 rats."

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There comes a time once in every f-slur's life to make an intro post for this god forsaken hellsite.

Now is that time.

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GREETINGS, TO EVERY FOOL WHO HAS MISTAKENLY STUMBLED UPON THIS TUMBLR PAGE!

(This is my sick ass and very cool intro post!!)

SOME MAY CALL ME A MAD SCIENTIST, OR A "RINGMASTER-TYPE," BUT MOST THINK OF ME AS SOME SORT OF WEIRDO WHO THINKS THAT BILL CIPHER IS "SO ME FR" AND TYPES LIKE THAT FOR FUNZIES IN HER INTRO POST SO SHE LOOKS COOL.

(The last one is true, I'm truly a nerd trying to impress you all so you stick around and like me. In all honesty I'm just a kid who wants to be both Bill Cipher and also a vampire. I wanna bring a real Will-Woodian vibe to your function [aka your dashboard.])

THIS BLOG IS ONLY A GLIMPSE INTO THE ENIGMA OF THE LONG AND VAST MAZE THAT SOME MAY CALL A "BRAIN." I PREFER TO CALL IT A MIND-HOLE.

MIND-FUCK, MIND-HOLE, SAME DIFF.

ANYWHO, ONWARDS!

🧪 ABOUT ME: ~ My name is Peazy ~ She/He/They ~ Bi ~ Minor ~ I PROBABLY HAVE AUTISM!! (we can tell) OR ADHD OR SOMETHING !! OR BOTH!! PROLLY BOTH!! 🫀 WHAT I DO: ~ I shitpost. A lot. Mostly, actually. But I am ALSO: ~ An artist! ~ Singer-Songwriter ~ Starting a band! (Mr. Amnesia and The Surrealists, check us out if we ever drop anything!) ~ Writer (of both real stories, and fanfiction!) ~ Creator of the Mary Bell Township ARG! (check out my TikTok and Youtube links if you're interested.. :3) 🐇 FUN FACTS: ~ Once again, I make music! ~ I'm making an ARG that I might make a sideblog for, so stay tuned! ~ I am allergic to gluten ~ I fuckin LOVE cats ~ I'm somehow Goth and Emo and Scene all at the same time?!?? ~ I play the pianooooo!

💫 CURRENT HYPERFIXATIONS: ~ Will Wood ~ LITWTC/Life in The World to Come ~ Gravity Falls ~ My own ARG ?? somehow ?? Don't ask, I don't know how this happened.

~ Moral Orel

🌊 FANDOMS: ~ Will Wood ~ LITWTC/Life in The World to Come ~ Gravity Falls ~ Smiling Friends ~ Captain Laserhawk: A Blood Dragon Remix ~ Portal ~ Once again, my own ARG somehow.

~ Moral Orel

~ Sonic The Hedgehog

~ Hatsune Miku/Vocaloid

~Undertale

~Deltarune

🎹 MUSIC I LISTEN TO: ~ this list is never gonna be EVERYTHING i listen to so bare with me

🎼 GENRES: ~ Goth ~ Emo ~ Vaporwave ~ Alternative ~ General "Weird Kid" music ~ Rap ~ Swing ~ "Indie" ~ Folk ~ Punk ~ Hyperpop ~ Basic white girl music that I will not admit as to specifics 🎶 ARTISTS: (in no particular order) (also this is NOT all of them) ~ Will Wood/Will Wood and the Tapeworms ~ Lemon Demon ~ Tally Hall ~ Oingo Boingo ~ DEVO ~ That Handsome Devil ~ Crystal Castles ~ Glass Animals ~ Man Man ~ Tyler, The Creator ~ Kendrick Lamar ~ Desert Sand Feels Warm At Night ~ Infinity Frequencies ~ POiSON GiRL FRiEND ~ Girls Rituals ~ Black Dresses ~ Jack Stauber ~ Mitski ~ She Wants Revenge ~ Joy Division ~ New Order ~ Joey Valence & Brae ~ Chappell Roan ~ Gorillaz ~ SOPHIE ~ Charli xcx ~ Kesha ~ MF DOOM ~ TV Girl ~ Ethel Cain ~ Lamp ~ Panchiko ~ Yaelokre ~ Radiohead ~ Billie Eilish

🕯️ AESTHETICS IM INTO: ~ Yes, this needed its own category. Hush hush. ~ Gothic (I'm goth don't come at me for putting it in the damn aesthetics) ~ Emo/Scene (SAME SHIT APPLIES AS THE LAST ONE) ~ Frutiger Aero (and anything relating) (<- I will yap about this for ages hold me back) ~ Frutiger Metro ~ Southern Gothic ~ New Wave ~ Utopian Scholastic ~ Vaporwave (IM AN OG PLEASE CHAT) ~ Weirdcore (NOT THE ONE YOU'RE THINKING) ~ 2000's/Y2k (once again NOT THE ONE YOU'RE THINKING) ~ Twee (oopsie daisy) ~ Whimsigoth

~ Halloween shit ~ General vibes of mad scientists and circuses ~ Whatever the fuck Will Wood has going on

🎪 OTHER INTERESTS: ~ Danny Gonzalez, Drew Gooden, Kurtis Conner ~ Flamingo ~ Making PLAYLISTS RRRAAAGH ~ Aesthetics (ask me about this shit I will yap for ages) ~ Liminal Spaces ~ Jfashion ~ Gyaru fashion ~ Other Subcultures ~ Everything creepy! ~ Song analyzation ~ Vampires ~ Circus stuff ~ Mad scientist stuff ~ HALLOWEEN ~ Playing piano! ~ YAPPING

🏷 TAGS TO LOOK OUT FOR: ~ #asks :3 - everything people yap to me in my inbox! ~ #fanfic shenanigans - I want you to take a WILD GUESS. ~ #peazy's yapping - general stuff, or long posts of me yapping ~ #long post - again, take a wild guess. ~ #reblog - like a normal reblog, but I said something in the tags! ~ #art reblog - same as the last one, but art I really liked and had something to say about! ~ #important - actual important things, like awareness posts and all that good jazz :) ~ #mutuals/#THATS OOMF 😭 - MUTUALLSSSS

~#mary bell township/#mary bell township arg - my arg! Arg content goes under both tags, but there’s usually more content under #mary bell township :)

🔎 OTHER SOCIALS: ~ TikTok ~ Instagram ~ Youtube ~ Ao3

🦇 DNI: ~ Jokes on you, there is none! Except... ~ Homophobes, transphobes, nazis, racists, terfs, radfems, pedos, proshippers ~ Blogs who solely post NSFW (a few suggestive things are fine! but if you're posting straight-up PORN or only nsfw and only smut, then no thank you brother) ~ Adding on to that, if you have a NSFW side blog, that's fine! ~ Also don't tag my posts as NSFW pretty please. I'm a minor, and if I'm talking about my mama, I mean my mother. ~ people who don't fw bagels /j ~ Either way, I block as I please!

PHEW, FINALLY THATS OVER WITH. BEEN MEANING TO MAKE ONE OF THESE FOR A WHILE NOW.

ANYWAY, I HOPE YOU ENJOYED LEARNING ABOUT ME, AND IF YOU READ THIS FAR..

thank you! :)

It means a lot!

NOW,

BEGONE.

[sexycornenthusiast]

maybe im not going easy on you sorry <3

3 -Regina and Gretchen 13 - Karen 31 - Gretchen 42 - Regina and Cady 48 - Gretchen and Cady

3 - Obscure headcanon:

Regina has a thing for critically panned popular sitcoms. You'd think she'd jump at the chance to be a hater but no, this woman is out here trying to convince people the big bang theory is the greatest show ever made and she would almost succeed if she weren't so... herself

(once forced cady to watch an episode of south park and it nearly ended their friendship for good (not that I can blame her for it that show is ass))

Gretchen has the most weirdly in depth family history to me... Her mother was born in Buenos Aires and her father was born in London. I was gonna specify years but then remembered 2024 exists so uhhhh (they're in their 50s) She goes on trips to both of those places but she doesn't talk about Argentina in public because it's "not cool". Whenever she says anything weird she'll claim it's British slang. It never is <3

13- Dumbest thing they've ever done: In fifth grade Karen ate two quarters on a dare from Janis. As for the outcome of this, let's just say.. Hoptal <3

31 - Tumblr: Gretchen has a super aesthetic Tumblr where she posts poetry and moodboards and inspirational quotes and stuff like that and she has a custom blog theme she stayed up until 3 AM one night making and also she has a sideblog full of the most unhinged shitposts you've ever seen. She's reblogging the werewolf boyfriend pineapple post (iykyk) in broad daylight and she needs to be stopped.

42 - 3 comfort items:

Regina: Her photo albums bc she's not beating the sentimental allegations <3. A travel mirror (doesn't matter if there isn't a single human being around her, she will be on edge if she leaves the house without it). A Really Big Stick TM; not any specific one.. she just feels better when she's holding a weapon 😊.

Cady: I'm forever a Cady stuffed lion truther. Wears her mathlete jacket around bc it makes her feel like a person. Also she owns a machete <3 a fancy one.

48 - Scariest moment:

Gretchen: that time she went in the ocean as a kid and her foot touched some seaweed /j

Cady: Uhh the 15 seconds immediately following the bus. For an agonizingly long second she genuinely thought her teen angst bullshit had a body count and that was soul-crushing.

[owlbelly]

can't believe i spent so long away from tumblr trying to hack it on other social media. i feel so fucking done i'm exhausted just looking at anything more "current"

& while i do unfortunately still suffer from the curse of wanting the internet to be my diary (here i am, Posting), i need it to be text-only & behind at least a semi-plausible smokescreen of anonymity. i have ZERO desire to spend time curating myself & my life visually! i absolutely fucking refuse to film myself! i hate the way this dovetails with being a freelancer & needing to self-promote, where i'm watching my peers scramble to make ~aesthetic video content~ about their (static!) visual art or even writing, feeling the need to be not only a creator of whatever it is you make but also a model, an interior designer, a photographer/filmmaker, an ad copywriter, etc. etc.

i can't do it. i can barely fucking scrape together enough executive function & will to live in order to just make the damn work, i can't also be Vanna fucking White showing it off. video killed the radio star & TikTok killed the old tired ugly artists who just want to get paid

i know i'm gonna stay on all these other fucking sites (except the video-only ones, fuck that), i have to, but i only post work & then bounce. i've crawled back into the tumblr sideblog hole & this is where i live

[ruanbaijie]

um ok so i have a backlog of tag games (I love them okay I just take very long to get back to them 🥲) so instead of answering them one by one and spamming everyone's dashboards, I'm gonna smash all of them together to create one HUGE tag game

tagged by @thitiponqs [x] [x] and @asterdust [x]

presenting:

nine albums or songs I've been listening to lately x nine people I’d like to get to know better x tag game with no name

1. why did you choose your url? i mean, look at him. what a bitch (affectionate).

2. any sideblogs? if you have them name them and why you have them. nope this place is a dumping ground

3. how long have you been on tumblr? october 2010 *awkward monkey meme*

4. do you have a queue tag? luQiao - which is the most common question i get 🌚

5. why did you start your blog in the first place? my friends were mentioning it (this was during blogging heyday and everyone was on blogspot) and i was like cool what is it let's check it out and uh i've been here ever since

6. why did you choose your icon/pfp? i wanted to something red + black (my favourite colours) to go with the overall ✨ aesthetic ✨ and xia zhiguang just happened to have this ridiculously out of this world badass modern wuxia-esque photoshoot with a red and black theme so

7. why did you choose your header? because hua chenyu is an AMAZING singer and god it's on my bucket list to attend his concert live

8. what’s your post with the most notes? this rainbow edit for jjk [x]

9. how many mutuals do you have? um so i keep an excel sheet that lists all my mutuals including main blogs (if the mutual blog is a side blog), names, what i tag their posts by, and tracked tags. said list is currently at *checks list* 288 🌚

10. how many followers do you have? 5.4k+

11. how many people do you follow? 455 but i think a lot are inactive 😭

12. have you ever made a shitpost? oh yes this is one example which i did for shl [x] and which got reposted on instagram (ugh) and i made them take it down yes i still remember it

13. how often do you use tumblr each day? too much

14. did you have a fight/argument with another blog once? yeah a whole episode that involved death threats instant report and block

15. how do you feel about ‘you need to reblog this’ posts people don't have to reblog every single thing but at the same time this is tumblr the reblog place don't just like things all the time without reblogging yknow

16. do you like tag games? YES i can be very long-winded i love them a lot

17. do you like ask games? yes but i get worried that people don't send in anything at all and i'm just talking to myself so i don't do them

18. which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous? definitely you @thitiponqs 💕

19. do you have a crush on a mutual? eh no i don't crush on people easily? and i probably need to meet that person in real life before any crushing happens

20. what is the last song you listened to? currently having blaze of clear sky (the insert song of episode 19 of the apothecary diaries) on repeat for DAYS now it's so good and it makes me want to cry

21. what are you currently watching? the apothecary diaries, yatagarasu, dededede, the king's avatar donghua season 3, isekai shikkaku, meet you at the blossom

22. sweet/ savoury/ spicy? SWEET

23. what is your current relationship status? single (anyone wanna date lol)

24. what is your current obsession? THE APOTHECARY DIARIES i'm so sorry i'm so late to this game but also STILL NOT OVER the spirealm it still causes me a lot of pain and rips my heart out and stuffs glass shards down my throat on a daily basis

25. what are nine albums/ songs you've been listening to lately?

齐天（华晨宇）- equal to heaven (hua chenyu)

双节棍（华晨宇）- nunchucks (hua chenyu)

斗牛（华晨宇）- bull fighting (hua chenyu)

麒麟（早安）- qilin (zaoan)

星星（早安）- stars (zaoan)

乡下来的（玖壹壹）- from the countryside (nine one one)

abyss (yungblud)

gento (sb19)

blaze of clear sky (takenaka daichi)

26. tagging (no pressure!) @alienwlw @lianhuajing @guzhufuren @miwtual @kolomo

@xiaobaosnoona @naughtynanzhu @mokacheer @alicenthighstower

[notarobotsadly]

ABOUT ME (the host): -William Afton Fictionkin -Jevil Fictionkin -Cat Therian -demon/angel/divinekin yes those are all lumped together -mmmmmaybe Dragon Otherkin like I know -PROUD TRANSGENDERIST EXPLOSION EAGLE AMERICAN FLAG -happliy married (/p) to @sweet-drmzzz -ADHD (not diagnosed but my dad is and I have almost all of the symptoms) and looking to see if I have NPD (and if I can get a NPD diagnosis without my parents finding out) any resources for either dropped in my inbox are a blessing -STRONGLY against the color purple and ONLY I can bully that color. PROUD #1 ANTI PURPLER (/j <<here as a precaution because that color has it out for me (/j))

about my Kintypes:

>Jevil< -alters that were split because of this number count: ??? -Aesthetics I associate with it: Jesters Goblincore Kind of Goth ngl -General vibe: "I am god" highs and rabies -Opinions on sourcemates: ANYONE CAN INTERACT (enrichment for my cage) also Seam is my peepaw/memaw in memories. -additional like micro 'types that stim from this one: Fae/the fair folk Goblins Imps/Demons kind of godish shit -Origins: present in a really developmental time in my life

>Will A< not gonna speak much on this one because I hate it -alters that were split because of this number count: 12 Sourcemates are encouraged to interact -Origins: present in a really developmental time in my life + the reason I'm still alive rn.

>DIVINE< -a character I will NOT be talking about -alters that were split because of this number count: 1, I think. -Aesthetics I associate with it: basically anything angelic, -General vibe: high energy, somehow. I love geese. -additional like micro 'types that stim from this one: Birds Demonic/Angelic/Divinekin goats sometimes WINGS oh my god I need WINGS. -Origins: saw a character and went "OH MY GOD ME???? Wait."

>kind of placekinish< -I just want to be a place, isn't that being a god in it's own right???

no dni just stances

-don't know what pro recovery or anti recovery means but I do believe when it comes to someone elses mental health issues all we can do is take their words for it especially online when you don't know them that well, and I do believe you can find joy in your mental health issues. It's at the end of the day up the to the person suffering from it and their therapist to decide how it's handled end of story. If you don't want to "encourage a delusion" than just block them. They know how it affects them best, you are a stranger on the internet.

-Pro Endo and not willing to engage in syscourse (on this blog at least) because it's just petty at this point.

-I believe that everyone is allowed to make jokes about their mental health (if the joke isn't going to make it worse) shit like "adhd moment" and "haha autism" isn't going to hurt anyone but people who are not adhd or autistic making fun of adhd and autism is. Joking about it can help ease the pain of it all and clapping back with "just wait till you've suffered like I have" isn't helping? Yes they are suffering that's why they're making these jokes. To cope with their suffering.

-I don't believe the media you consume defines you just how you consume it.

-straight Alloaces Ily, straight Aroallos Ily, lesboys ily, I don't think anyone outside of internet spaces cares that much nor will this hurt anyone

-I consider myself Alterhuman and I am an alterhuman friendly space

additional

-please ask me to trigger tag I'm not good at it but I can try

-blog may contain unreality and etc proceed with caution.

-I use tone tags and don't see the harm in them but will prefer to use stuff like this: (serious) (joking) around strangers.

-I believe in a free palestine and will try and reblog fundraisers and such, please correct me if I get anything wrong.

-We consider ourselves a system and you have no right to know if we have trauma or not as a stranger on the internet end of story.

-if you see any stamps here you made and want credit please let me know

SYSMATES SIDEBLOGS

system and alterhuman sideblog: @sysshitig <<More social on here

-Willaim: @scottjustletmedie

-Sun: @mikumikuyoucancallm3miku

-Malhare: @malharevrthepcport

-Jevil: @thedungeonv2

-Boomboxes/WIP req sideblog @boomboxedbeats

-Queenies Sideblog: @queeniesmansion

-Banhammers sideblog: @tyrantofbanland

all of them are under construction btw.

tags I need to keep track of: #artistic reference #for later #writing inspo #buttons

cred: -MCLS Stamps

[whitexdove]

⭐  𝙢𝙚𝙚𝙩 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙢𝙪𝙣

— 𝙗𝙖𝙨𝙞𝙘𝙨

(𝙋𝙀𝙉)𝙉𝘼𝙈𝙀: Stumpy

𝙋𝙍𝙊𝙉𝙊𝙐𝙉𝙎: they/them (genderless, probably a demon)

𝙕𝙊𝘿𝙄𝘼𝘾: pisces but spiritually an aries

𝙎𝙄𝙉𝙂𝙇𝙀 / 𝙏𝘼𝙆𝙀𝙉: totally married to @/fatetainted (pete)

— 𝙩𝙝𝙧𝙚𝙚 𝙛𝙖𝙘𝙩𝙨

𝙞. i am NERVOUS. constantly. just a fuckin mess. i have a hard time with social interactions and i'm trying more on this blog but you guys i'm fucking dying. (autism and anxiety is a hell of a combo). it's been weird to be the most authentic version of myself on this blog but.

𝙞𝙞. i have a fursona and my friend is making a partial fursuit of the dude. uh. they're a poorly bred german shepherd/a neurotic mess that chews holes in their clothing, like me. goth/punk aesthetic but nerves.

𝙞𝙞𝙞. i feel like im the peak depressed artist. i'm constantly sleep deprived and struggling with my art. i share my art occasionally but tbh with the drawing ideas i have here you will unfortunately see it more

— 𝙚𝙭𝙥𝙚𝙧𝙞𝙚𝙣𝙘𝙚

haha i started rping on tumblr when i was 13. i'm 25 now so i've certainly got roleplay experience. uhhh i do write standalone things, but not frequently. you can find some of those HERE (though it's back when i wrote cats so... jot that down) --i stille WRITE standalone short stories but its really only a fit of passion thing. look i draw i'm bad with words (i say, when people have surely seen my nonsense/read the stupid long bio page anyway)

— 𝙢𝙪𝙨𝙚 𝙥𝙧𝙚𝙛𝙚𝙧𝙚𝙣𝙘𝙚

if this is what i write... feral. animal-like. not quite an animal but they're a little too wild to be a normal person (which is like, the vibe with rufus. he bites.) i used to have a werewolf oc that got big and was known for being unhinged and feral. just,,, lets not talk about that bitch please ty. i also write dragons, cats, kinda anyone.

either the muse is picked up as a joke, because i had like extreme passion&ideas or like,,, some fucked up combo. i have a sideblog for college fratbro versions of slashers LMAOOOOO nothing is safe

— 𝙨𝙪𝙗-𝙜𝙚𝙣𝙧𝙚𝙨

juuuuust about anything within reason (like sometimes. sometimes we are gonna have to plot i'm not just writing wild shit with anyone you feel) -- horror is a personal preference but like. haha i love horror. i need to make a list of horror influences i've used. idk fuck it we ball after discussion. fluff/soft stuff is also SUPER NICE. but if im not writing casual stuff im probably writing soul crushing angst. iiiii do not rp smut. fine to imply it /talk about it in threads but like. please. please do not boink my muses in threads. even if they joke about it. i will hard skip into the next scene ty goodbye

— 𝙥𝙡𝙤𝙩𝙨 𝙫𝙨. 𝙢𝙚𝙢𝙚𝙨

U H. look, memes are the best way to start bc like either i'm shit at plotting or galaxy brained. there is no between. once i have a better feel for how our characters interact it's easier/more comfortable to bullshit plots! i'm the captain of the uss make shit up

[thyme-in-a-bubble]

may i ask how long u've been on tumblr/how you reached 10,000 followers? it seems like quite a feat and i've been trying to post my own stuff (aesthetics, themes, moodboards, etc) for while now almost regularly and i've been stuck at 59, 60, or 61 followers for that entire time. it only ever fluctuates between those three numbers and my most recent followers have been bots. i guess i'm asking if you have any advice? 😅

i’ve been on tumblr for exactly two years, but in october 2022 i accidentally deleted the account and had to start over (kids, the lesson is to never try to delete a sideblog on your phone, do it on the pc, that’s the only place you can do it, because if you try on the phone it’ll delete everything, all of your blogs, including your main) so, it’s taken me 1 and a half years.

well, i have tons of advice about all manner of things, but this specifically, how to get more followers? it’s a little more loosey goosey and based on luck and stuff. but here are a few of the advice i can give:

well, first of all i believe that kindness goes a long way, certainly with getting your followers to stick with you.

ALWAYS check the tags when you post stuff you want people to find, make sure you aren't using any tags that are broken or anything. this is part of the routine i have whenever i post a new fic, always always check that it's showing up in the tags. i'm also always that anon for my moots whenever i notice that their stuff isn't showing up and they either didn't know or needs a bit of help. if you don't know your way around tumblr tags, then this post right here is very very helpful. also just use the proper and appropriate tags, but i'd think that was a given.

you say that you post stuff like moodboards and such? to be honest, i don't know how many of my followers follow me exclusively for that genre of my content, i don't know how many followers are normal when that is your blog's thing.

some people like to spam post a ton of stuff, some people like their dash extremely active, i personally don't. i've unfollowed/just not followed people who i like just fine, but who post an overwhelming amount. i might not be the only one who's like this. i personally have some posts queued, i have a bit of a schedule of regular posts that i trickle out. like stuff that i reblog, there is a pattern to how i do it, just to spread it out and to keep it organised (because everything in my life is meticulously organised). like i always have a comforting little thing to reblog between 5 and 6 in the morning for me, because then it'll be one of the first things people in my timezone sees and one of the last things a nightowl might see.

also try and keep your blog organised, have tags for things so that it's easy for people to filter (and also easy for you to find stuff), have a pinned post that's kind of a gentle welcome/intro/guide to whoever clicks on your blog, that kind of stuff, also just try and make the blog pretty and inviting, not just the default tumblr icon and stuff (those lowkey scare me)

keeping timezones in mind when you post. think about if it's a good time for most people, is it a time of day where one could be looking at their phone, taking a little break.

reblog stuff! interact with people! support others that you like and maybe that someone will support you!

i've never posted stuff "in order to get lots of followers," or anything. i just personally really like my writing, and since i do, then there must be someone else that does as well. turns out i was right.

learn that your blog is like your little house. you make the rules, you decide who gets to stay, you get to do whatever makes you happy and no one can tell you that you are wrong.

at the end of the day, everyone is gonna like something different, you can't please everyone, so just make your blog, your content, exactly how you like it, just be your wonderful weird beautiful self and no one else.

「 come join my 10k celebration 」

[bloody-tongues-honey-teeth]

EDIT: I ONLY ACCEPT DMS FROM FRIENDS AND MUTUALS. DO NOT SEND ME UNSOLICITED NUDES.

Good morning freaks! My old nsft blog got shadowbanned in The Purge (moment of silence) and was possibly also kind of cringe as you went farther back because I had it for y e a r s so this is its new incarnation

I'm shine/sorrel/honeysuckle (or whatever name you know me by from elsewhere is fine). I am VERY TRANS any pronouns are fine, girl and boy are fine, but do not call me a woman (and I feel weird about being called a man too ngl those just feel too gendered somehow) and I have a preference for being called they/it.

I'm 27 and this is a nsft blog. Minors are not welcome here.

Switch + verse I'm usually responsive to whatever kind of dynamic my partner wants at the time tbh. Much less experience domming though. Soft/condescending/service dom, stupid idiot needy pathetic sub

There will be hard/weird kinks here. I will come up with a tagging system but for now there will be tags for #c/n/c #/blood #/sharps (blades, needles, etc) #/eroguro (just gonna be that like pastel aesthetic squishy soft type for now, if I post more realistic stuff later I'll make a separate tag or another sideblog idk yet) #/drugs #/somno #/vore #/cannibalism.

Less-graphic/more sensually- or intimacy-focused cannibalism (soft cannibalism???) will go here too and that'll just be tagged #acts of communion. I have a Thing.

Beyond that pls send me an ask if you need something tagged. I take triggers and sexual boundaries seriously. You do not need to justify or explain. I will not laugh at you.

Besides that there will be #/bdsm #/petplay #/submissive #/dominant #/sado #/maso #/bondage #/asphyxia #/breathcontrol #/degradation #/humiliation #/praise #/furry (subset by animal eg #/deergirl #/foxgirl etc) #/freeuse #impact #/breeding tags for sorting and navigating purposes, which list I may expand in the future but which I also may not keep up with perfectly because I'm forgetful. We'll see.

If I post any l e w d i m a g e s of myself I will tag them #shinensft

Sideblog for babayagawafflehut. Friends and mutuals can dm but I'm not rlly like seeking anybody to flirt with. If you dm me unsolicited nudes or if I don't know you and you write weird stuff under my posts I will regard you with disdain thenceforth and forevermore. If we're friends or mutuals and you're not a cis man though feel free to write whatever you want under my posts live it up post your most deranged manifesto go wild.

That said if you flirt with me under my posts and I don't reply it's not rlly personal I'm just 1) not seeking and 2) intimidated by interaction with anyone all the time. And also shy. (Will that even happen? Am I getting the cart ahead of the horse here? Does the horse even exist? Where are we? What year is it?)

If you know me on here or irl you probably already know all my kinks so idk honey good luck

Don't send me asks about why this or that kink is bad. If you're on my blog for anything at all we should all be adults capable of understanding how consent works and how to appropriately separate fantasy from reality.

[exercise-of-trust]

hey so uh. new year’s resolution for 2024 is to stop slicing off bits of myself to fit. that’s mostly for interpersonal stuff but also going forward i am gonna be way less circumspect about christianityposting on main; getting all in my own head about whether something can go on main or if it’s too religious and needs to be quarantined to a sideblog or drafts is just not a worthwhile use of my energy anymore. if anyone wants something to blacklist give me a holler but probably i’m just gonna develop a couple pretentious category tags over time and not think too hard about it; i am specifically making a neurotic psa post about this because i’m already overthinking it way too much and i want to stop.

(tbc not much is actually gonna change, it’s still gonna mostly be general art/aesthetics and tolkien around here. just. idk. this is a central thing about me now and it feels dumb to keep trying to carve it away just to try to maintain continuity with my self of 3 or 4 years ago? whatever i’m gonna shut up now)

[howlingmoonrise]

17 Questions, 17 People

tagged by the fantastic @galvanizedfriend! it's been a while, thank you for thinking of me! :D

•Nickname: howl is a technically a nickname and it's my favourite one!

•Sign: cancer like the tumblr crabs 🦀🦀🦀

•Height: 1.70m *flexes*

•Last thing I googled: "brandon lee the crow"

•Song stuck in my head: Butter by BTS (DON'T ask me how i just got into them right as they went on hiatus for military service after yearsof them being massively popular, i'm blaming this stupid gacha game for it)

•Followers: idk man, like 800 on one blog, 1k+ on another, then 300 on another.... i have many sideblogs and i'm def not gonna go through them all.

•Amount of Sleep: 😬 listen if i'm ALLOWED to i'll sleep for 10+ hours and i do this on the weekends. but work makes this impossible, and also i dread waking up to go to work in the morning, so i make that even better by only sleeping like 5-6 hours to try and wring out more free time from the day. i slept 6 hours last night and 4 the night before that. rip.

•Lucky number: 3! 7! 9! 13!

•Dream Job: just as yokan said before me, i simply do not dream of labour ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ however i'd love to be an hermit writer in the middle of the woods with lots and lots of money in my bank account for whenever i chose to reenter civilization.

•What I’m wearing: men's black cargo pants, plain petrol blue shirt, fancy and fluffy teal house robes, combat boots.

•Movies/Books that summarise me: movies: peter pan 2: return to neverland, pitch black, treasure planet, mulan, paranorman, casper (1995), barbie in the 12 dancing princesses, the rocky horror picture show, the crow

books: howl's moving castle (NO my name is not a reference), going postal by terry pratchett, juliet marillier's flame of sevenwaters, AND if comics count then also petshop of horrors

•Favorite Song: it kinda changes every week so hm. laura branigan's self control and halestorm's i am the fire are always good semi-permanent bets, though lately I've been listening a lot to light asylum's dark allies and rina sawayama's frankenstein. i am very consistent with genres i know uwu

•Favorite Instrument: violin or hurdy-gurdy

•Aesthetic: goth goth goth punk goth witch goth foresty goth goth goth pink goth glitter!

•Favorite Book: diana wynne jones' howl's moving castle annnnnnd *throws dart at wall of juliet marillier works* probably juliet marillier's flame of sevenwaters or heir to sevenwaters? special shoutout to maggie stiefvater's the scorpio races, naomi novik's spinning silver, and holly black's the queen of nothing.

•Random Fact: i can lick my own elbow! double-jointed superiority.

I tag @malgraw @sandmancircus @arkhangelske @booksfoodmusic-minion @cthulhu-with-a-fez @omgianna @purplesigebert @fynneyseas @awishturnedwell @rebornfromash @produdfctititty @bongboybrown @snorlaxlovesme @dying-suffering-french-stalkers @rogha @ladyyatexel @nuinancawen if you guys want to do it, and whoever else thinks it sounds fun!

[protect-namine]

I was gonna put these tags in tumblr's feedback form but like. if I was someone reading feedback, I'd honestly rather read something that's actionable (because sentiment is easy to understand but hard to make solutions for) so I'm just gonna draft here some suggestions before sending, because apparently, I have opinions. anyway this'll just be one of many, I'm sure staff will see a lot of suggestions in their time, so I'm not really expecting anything to come out of this. but uh, my two cents:

okay, first of all, what is tumblr? (I promise I'm going somewhere with this, it informs the actionable points later). I think it's obvious now that the tumblr userbase wants tumblr to stay true to what makes tumblr unique instead of copying what other social media sites are doing. but what is it that makes tumblr unique? why did people come here, and why have users stayed on this platform? a lot of us have been here for more than a decade now despite this site "slowly dying" and just hanging on by a miracle.

for me, what I like is how different tumblr culture is. tags function as community hubs, as ways to archive and organize individual blogs, and as quiet commentary. blogs are not treated like social media "user accounts" tied to an identity and one way of socializing. they are pseudonymous and flexible enough to function as a portfolio, a diary, an account to interact with other accounts, a collection of essays, anything really! it's a blog! you can do whatever you want! as much as we engage with other users, blogs are also a personal space just for you. this is your own little place on the internet, your own bulletin board. it can be anything you want it to be. and like, the pseudonymity thing (and not making follower count public) is important, I think, because it informs how users interact. nobody here gets influencer points. just do you. it's freeing in a way other sites aren't.

also, you can queue posts. how neat is that? I think it's cool because posts have longevity in this site, which also builds into site culture. this is why we have homegrown memes and inside jokes. posts don't disappear after 24 hours. you can reblog 10 year old posts if you think the art is really cool or the joke is really funny or the post is still relatable, and no one will find that weird.

and that's the thing, isn't it? tumblr is a microblogging site before it is a "social media" site. customizability is built into the platform. don't want an algorithm? you can opt-out on so many ways your dashboard can show posts. you can customize your blog theme and create your own tags to organize posts. you can change your dashboard colors. posts don't have a character limit and they give you so many tools for formatting. you can make sideblogs!! double, triple the blogs!! maybe you have a public fandom blog, an aesthetic blog, and a personal diary that you keep private. so many tools to make your experience flexible.

okay, so what are actionable things we can do to double down on what makes tumblr special? mind you, these are all just suggestions and like, I didn't really think of how easy or fast they will be to implement nor how much money this will rake in. but like. also, even if these suggestions are stupid hard to do, I believe that just showing the general direction of changes to do and prioritize should be reflected on showing off what makes tumblr different. and I hope to illustrate that here.

so, sticking on that theme of blogging and customizability:

we have a blog system. cool! you know what blogs have? about pages. tag pages. we used to make custom pages for this, now newer users just link their carrd. yeah, that's easier, but what if all tumblr blogs just had a default about page and tag page? like, you know what frustrates me about the mobile view for blogs? I have to manually link about and tag pages there (or carrd links, but I don't have a carrd). why can't it be a default thing? make all blogs have an about page and a tags page. users can turn it off if they don't want it. users can customize the pages further if they want to make it fancy. the tags page can list your top 10 tags or whatever as a start. we already show popular tags in a blog's search bar, so just take that to the next level. and this has the added benefit of reminding people that, hey, you have a blog and this is your playground for self expression. playgrounds are fun when there are toys! give users toys for their blogs, tumblr!

a functioning blog navigation system. what do all blogs have? well they have submissions and asks, and users will usually have some custom tags for them. blogs have a whole archive system that's underutilized and rather hidden. why not create a system that makes it easier to find all of these when scrolling through a blog? let users set their custom tag for asks and make that visible in the blog navigation menu, or just make them more accessible and easier to find. I don't want to go to the web version and type /archive in the url anymore. also, users can decide which ones to enable/disable in the nav system (maybe users don't want submissions or archives there, that's cool too).

users can see the top posts for a blog. cool! how about we make a customizable version of that? like, we can still keep the tumblr-generated top posts, but what if we let blogs have a user-generated highlights page as well? keep the highlights page limited to a couple of posts, maybe 10. artists can put their favorite art there. writers with their fics. fandom blogs with their meta essays and funny posts. aesthetic blogs with gifs and moodboards they're proud of. random posts about their day that they want people to know. maybe a blog has a combination of all of them to show the variety in their blog. give users a way to show what's generally on their blog in a flash. like top posts, but users decide which ones are the top one. like pinned posts, but longer.

we have a badge system. cool! how about we let users create their own custom badges? and let them share those badges with others? heck we can even make it a paid feature. I buy a badge from the marketplace, tumblr gets a small cut for distributing, but the creator gets most of the payment (this is important! pay your artists!). I mean, this is already a thing with blog themes (though idk, do people actually pay for themes these days?)

this one is just a personal thing, but aside from badges, can we get little hats for our icon/pfp/avatar/whatever people call it these days? like the top hat from that one april fools'. just a lil hat on the dashboard, I think that would be cute. :)

create an onboarding experience for new users. show users a guided tutorial on what settings they can opt in or out of, what they can customize on their blog, how to follow tags, and so on. maybe we don't need to appeal to how users from other sites use those sites. we want them to see what makes tumblr unique and how to actually see it. and I know what you're going to say. "oh, but the friction, protect-namine. the onboarding experience means it takes longer for users to start using the site". one: make it optional then. two: honestly, we probably should have more friction because we have a spambot problem. one of the best deterrents for spam is making it harder for them to start using the site.

tumblr is a playground and playgrounds need toys that are fun. tumblr live/tv? hate it. polls? love it, it builds community and everyone likes clicking buttons. layout change? don't like it, it makes tumblr look like other sites and it looks cluttered and takes attention away from the dashboard. ability to set popular tags in a blog search bar? love that, it makes my blog mine, now can we just extend this concept to every other change we can do for the site?

I am suggesting these things with love. maybe some of these suggestions are too hard or we don't have resources for them, maybe some of them are already in progress. I have no fucking idea. but I just think tumblr already has something going on for itself, and I would really like for that thing to keep going and be prioritized instead of seeing this site be cannibalized into something it isn't (a twitter clone).

[bedheaddeadhead]

Hey! It’s been a while since I posted anything here myself, but I thought I’d let everyone know that I’ve got a couple new sideblogs that are gonna have more of my own posts.

@freakyfreshjams is gonna be my music blog, and I’ll probably post my personal stuff there I think. It’s gonna be a lot of funk, alternative, and psychedelic bands over there, and I also want to post some of my own creative stuff over there. It’ll probably mostly be incomplete lyrical fragments and stuff I think of but don’t have time to write down, there will be incomplete riffs I write and post just to get them out of my head. Idk. We’ll see. The url may change as well, I’m not super happy with the one i have

@bedheadstudies is my studyblr! I’m a junior in mechanical engineering, and this is where I’ll post academic stuff. I don’t want to make it super aesthetically driven, it’ll mostly be a place for me to collect and share resources and any notes I’m particularly proud of. I also want to post content related to my mental health and narcolepsy, and how I deal with those while I’m in school.

Anyway, there you all go! The studyblr looks the way I want it to, but I need to finish setting up the music blog.

[doll-disjointed]

🩷 Welcome to the Dollhouse! 🩷

🍰 My name's Mason (he/it) and welcome to my sideblog! I'm an alter in the Apartment System and this is a separate space just for me to post what I please! I am Dollkin (specifically I am a ball jointed porcelain doll) and will probably mostly be posting about dolls and cute things here but there will be other interests, personal thoughts, memes, and more shared as well! Since this is a sideblog, I like and follow from the host's main blog found here. I'm hoping to meet more Dollkin and doll enthusiasts so if you read this and enjoy the same things I do, please don't hesitate to follow or reach out! 🩷

Be warned: This blog may contain sensitive content (like mental health talk, adult content, and occasional horror themes) but everything will be tagged to the best of my ability. Minors do not interact, you WILL be blocked on sight.

Read the info below to get to know me! ✨

(Last updated: 9/2/24)

˗ˏˋ WHO AM I? ´ˎ˗

All righty, my name's Mason, I'm 25, Black-Latino, and I use he/him and it/its pronouns! I'm a bisexual transgender dollboy (in polite terms). Being a dollboy means I am both dollgender and dollkin (what's the difference? don't worry about it!). I've identified with dolls for a very long time now. I've always felt a deep love for them but it wasn't until recently that I admitted to myself just how deep this love went. I am a doll and I love dolls, too (in multiple ways) 🩷

Real quick: While I may love cute things and the color pink that is NOT all I am. I enjoy/have interest in things like body horror, cannibalism, drinking, knives, dark aesthetics, etc just as much as I love all the adorable stuff. Just wanna throw this out there because I really do not like being reduced to nothing but a sweet uwu bean because I happen to have anxiety and like cute things.

I love talking to people so definitely send asks but I won't really answer messages because holding 1-on-1 conversations with strangers is hard! 🌈

˗ˏˋ INTERESTS? ´ˎ˗

I am an artist and a writer! Original fiction and OCs is what I usually work on but I've been known to dabble in fanwork from time to time. I'm also hoping to get into craftwork (sewing & doll crafts mostly!). I am also a casual doll collector! Porcelain dolls, barbie, BJD, neo blythe -- I love so many kinds of dolls and I hope to get so many more in the future! I'd love to even customize some or make my own sculpts someday. ✨

Besides that, I'm a casual gamer (Minecraft, Sims 4, Stardew Valley, Tetris, and hopefully other games as soon as I get a better computer!) and I'm also a religious witch. You'll hear a lot more about that on Plague's (the host) blog but I am also part of this even if I probably won't talk about it as much as it will. I listen to a huge mix of music, too! Usually stuff that matches whatever my current project is but I just love all kinds of music in general! I'm also always on the lookout for recommendations so don't hesitate to throw them my way. 🎵

˗ˏˋ DNI? ´ˎ˗

Minors, bigots/TERFs, "endos", ableists, anti-theists, doll haters, etc. Not gonna put much more than that. If something/someone makes me uncomfortable I just block and keep moving. Do NOT involve me in discourse whatsoever. I'm not fighting anyone about shit! 🩷

˗ˏˋ EXTRAS! ´ˎ˗

@devotional-devouring - Plague's Blog (the host/main blog) @amaranthine-wrath - April's Blog (another alter!)

#over coffee - Tag for text posts!

Other tags and such will be added at a later date! For now, here's some fun stuff!

Thanks so much for reading and have a wonderful day!! ✨

(Picrew Icon Credit)

[lifeisablackhole9]

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hmm. i’ve almost entirely lost my appetite over the past few days. i’ll consume less than 500 calories and even that will feel like too much. that’s not good. i wanted to loose weight to solve a health problem, i really didn’t want to create another on in the process. awesome.

i’ve been taking like half an edible so i’ll actually eat dinner but i really don’t want to rely on that either. weed and alcohol are supposed to be fun once in a while things for me, not something i become dependent on. really don’t like this at all but i currently don’t have any other choice. i was able to eat a bag of popcorn with some cereal in it for dinner but like that’s not enough and yet it was too much and i just. gah i hate it.

depressions getting worse too i’m afraid. it always gets bad in summer tho so i’m not too worried about it. it’s not as bad as last year. then again that’s a tough act to follow. i just get so hot and sweaty and it makes sleeping so hard and it just kinda snowballs ya know. i’m so tired and i just want to stop.

it’s not dissociative yet but i think it’s gonna get there soon. i’m already struggling to keep my room clean. i haven’t been emptying my pockets either when i change clothes. the only thing i’ve been keeping up with is showers really and that’s because i hate being sweaty.

i haven’t even been able to work on my piece for an. event. that i’m writing for that if you don’t follow my hawks sideblog then i shan’t say what the event is. but. yeah, it’s due on the 16th and i just. cant do it and i hate that. reminds me of when i was a kid and couldn’t do anything right.

something else that’s been bothering me is like. okay so i’ve been single like my entire life, right? no big deal. i can handle being alone (this is almost the truth). until i remember like. valentine’s day is actually one of my favorite holidays right? i love the aesthetic, i love the romance. all of it. but i’ve never actually gotten to celebrate it. and i just remembered that and it made me really sad. like no matter what i tell myself. no matter what i do or don’t come to terms with. no matter what i actually want. i know i’m going to stay single. i know i’m never going to actually get to celebrate one of my favorite holidays. and that makes me sad.

and i know i’m staying single because like. i’m not a person people take long term interest in. i never have been and i never will be. the only people who have taken interest are people looking for casual (nothing wrong with that, but i’m not) and like. that sucks. but i also know why.

i don’t know for sure what’s going on with me, be it adhd, autism, both or something else that’s not even on my radar. but like, i need stimulation. some of its touch because i tend to dissociate a lot. some of its movement, that’s why i got the chair i have, so i can rock in it when i need to. but a lot of it? it’s sound. i need something in my background most of the time. usually music. and i really can’t stand headphones and inears for long periods of times. so i have it playing off my phone (i don’t do this in public i am very much capable of shame don’t worry) and like, at full volume. sometimes i use a speaker. other times i need to make the sound. one of my favorite stims is to just blow into my mini harmonica as long and loud as possible. every hates that!! so much that i don’t even get to do it very often.

i’m either way too loud, or way too quiet. i tend to go mute or almost mute a lot, but i still want open communication. do you know how hard it is to find someone who will just be around you when you want company but don’t want to socialize literally at all? everyone always feels the need to fill the silence instead of just. existing. at the same time someone else is.

i also just miss physical contact. like a lot. i used to get a decent amount from friends but now i hardly see them and i just feel so disconnected from everything. i just got my weighted blanket back from the dry cleaners and i’ve just putting the entire thing on my chest to pretend it’s like. a person.

hell, i’ve changed my sleep white noise from just a storm to one that’s got a heart beet and breathing in it because i just can’t do this anymore. that’s so fucking sad and pathetic like what?? the fuck???

my anxiety is getting really bad, too like, i’ll keep feeling like i’ve Done Something Wrong™️ and i have to keep reminding myself that no. i haven’t. you’re not at the job where you were always in trouble because the rules kept changing on a whim without telling you. things are consistent now. you’re not going to get in trouble for things out of the blue now. it’s okay.

i should stop, the app just had a heart attack over me typing. sorry.

[initcne-arch]

after giving it some Thought i think i’m gonna go ahead and archive this blog soon. i’ve been feeling kinda stuck with darlene lately ( part of that has been post show slumps—no new content for me to blather about ) and this blog is quite cluttered. i’ll be under the same url, but keep yr eyes open for that.

[dyrwoodan]

url change falkreathh ↠ caiwyns

because i’m deleting all edits from this blog and i don’t want my url connected to them. i made a separate blog purely for edits, it’s @corvoattanc. feel free to follow it or not, idc. i will be reblogging stuff here as well but i won’t upload from this blog. only oc-related edits i think, and occasional photos. currently it’s just an archive of edits from this blog.

also made another sideblog @inkseeds for hhhhhhhhh other interests i guess that somehow don’t fit on this blog. tv shows and other movies, more aesthetics, etc. not even sure atm so it’s a wip and a mess.

the content on this blog will stay the same i just wanted to move some minor interests and my edits somewhere else. i also updated my about page and my tags page because of all that

tags for everything are the same but i’m too lazy to go around changing the links everywhere lmao so ya kno, just replace the old url with caiwyns ig it should work