#also fun fact. i never see myself in my dreams i see everything from my pov but in this dream i finally could see myself

[linalilia]

typing this so that i won't forget it bc. this is wild

so uh. i really am feeling really sick rn and i almost passed out so i had to force myself to go to sleep and i slept for like two hours and woke up but had like one of the weirdest dreams ever

long story short i was inside my brain and my brain was portrayed as this huge building with many different floors and each floor represented a certain thought of mine or a certain need/desire and before i got to explore them, i had to ask some people to come with me and they were already waiting for me and i don't remember this part clearly but i remember mizuki from pjsk being there and i think yuno was there too and when i asked "why are you all here" they replied with "what do you mean? we are all a part of you". i don't remember exploring the floors that well but what i do remember is that when we were done, they all left, but i saw this really pretty blonde woman walk out of the elevator and she caught me staring at her, laughed and went "well, i represent a certain part of you too", noticed that i'm feeling cold, gave me her coat, kissed me on the cheek and left

girl is this all some kind of sign from the universe

[the-100-days-of-junkan]

Day 1

And thus begins an excessive undertaking! Do you like rambling?

Speaking of undertaking the first three days of the project were actually made at least a full year before I did all this.

Y’see I’ve been into Junkan for awhile, like, even back before I came out as trans awhile, in like 2018 or 19. It started as a joke between friends that all the events of DR could have been avoided if Junko and Mikan made out, so it was in my head for awhile even if I never fully engaged. Eventually though I accidentally read a fanfic where the relationship was written in a really adorable way, and that just sold me instantly (this happens more than I’d like to admit i’ll be real). From there I read some fanfics, got hooked, but kept to myself because this was when I was extremely anxious and paranoid about everything.

Cut to I wanna say 2023 (potentially really late 2022) and on an impulse I start reading Junkan fics again, and that’s when I came across one fic by VanadisValentine (Check her out! She’s cool!) which I read in a single night and it gave me insane brainrot. I was so brainrotted that in a night time haze I drew the first three pictures of this project and only showed them to like, 2 people. 

Another fun fact! The art presented here isn’t actually the first pic, this is something made at the tale end of the project days before it was even announced. I will be including the original pic for Historical sake, but looking at it makes me irrationally angry and ya’ll deserve better so I redrew it. To briefly explain the art, because of Vanadis’ fanfic “Everything You’ve Ever Dreamed,” (which started all this) I found myself super intrigued by the idea of Junko being terrified of actually falling in love with someone.

For the new version I just tried to do a better job at visualizing the anxiety, that’s about it. Reblogs Appreciated! Stay hydrated!

Hey if you like Junko’s red nails, horrible news! As far as I can tell the original version of Day 1 is the only time I’ve ever drawn them.

Also you can definitely tell with the original that it was made in a “No one will ever see this mindset” given how unpolished it is compared to some of my other sketches. Also i hate how i drew Junko’s hair in these first two pics that’s like the main reason looking at them gives me a headache. 

Nother reason you can tell ths is old is because I drew Junko with 2 eyelashes instead of 3 like I normally do

[freetimesimmer-l]

The Sims 4 Rainbow Legacy Challenge

Introduction

Welcome to this Rainbow Legacy Challenge! This is the first Sims challenge I’ve ever made and I’m excited to share it. Even if it never reaches an audience, I can still play the challenge for myself because I’m very proud of what I’ve put together.

I’ve taken some inspiration from the beloved Not So Berry Challenge by @lilsimsie, but workshopped it into something completely new. I’m sure there are plenty of rainbow challenges for The Sims online, but this is my personal take on it. I hope you like it!

I’ve made it a point to make this challenge accessible for everyone: for players that have some (or all) packs installed, and for those rocking with just the base game. I have marked everything that is DLC in color. The DLCs are optional and are not necessary for completing this challenge, but of course it adds much more depth to the story overall. Additionally, in numerous instances I’ve given you as the player options for choosing certain traits, careers or aspirations that are either DLC or base game.

I hope you enjoy the challenge as much as I enjoyed creating it. Thank you!

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The Rules

Set the lifespan of your sims to either normal or long.

Cheats are (in most cases) not allowed. You may not cheat money at any point, but cheats like debug fixes, move objects and full edit mode in CAS are allowed. Also, I’ll allow gender cheats for babies if you really want to.

Start the first generation as a young adult.

Each generation represents a certain color of the rainbow, but the extent of which they represent the color (i.e. hair, makeup, clothing, interior and exterior design of their houses) is completely up to you. As long as they are still recognizable as representing certain colors, anything goes.

Each generation is fully completed when all bullet points are achieved (but don’t worry too much if you don’t fully complete everything in time).

Again: DLC traits, careers, aspirations and skills are optional. The challenge is fully playable with just the base game.

Last but not least: just have fun!

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Generation 1: Red

Red is the color of love, passion and lust, but also of danger and aggression. Fittingly for this first generation, you can choose which path to romance you will take: will you be a hot-headed heartstopper and enjoy all the love the world has to give, or will you find ‘The One’ that will fulfill all your desires and remain loyal to them, and only them?

'Besides the fact that you dream of finding luck in romance, you have always deeply loved music. As you gained fame from your musical career, you earned the reputation of the 'heartthrob musician'. And although you love the attention and fans fawning over you, you just want to find honest love. You dream of sitting on the porch of your home, watching the sunset with your lover and serenading them a song you wrote specially for them. It might take a couple tries to find 'The One', but you just know they're out there waiting for you.'

Traits: Romantic / Hot Headed / Music Lover

Career: Entertainment or Romance Consultant (LS)

Aspiration: Serial Romantic or Soulmate

Complete either the Serial Romantic or Soulmate aspiration

Reach level 10 in the Entertainment career in the Musician branch or the Romance Consultant career (LS) in either branch

Reach level 10 of the Charisma skill, Singing skill (CL) and Romance skill (LS) and at least level 8 of either the Guitar, Piano or Violin skill

Marry at least once

Write at least one song dedicated to your lover/spouse

Serenade your partner at least once a week

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Generation 2: Orange

Orange, the color of amusement, excitement, extraversion and energy.

'As you grew up you’ve developed a keen eye for seeing what others might need to cheer them up. Your solution? Funny jokes and good food can put anybody back in a good mood. While your passion lies with cooking, you never back down from social outings with your friends and you’d do anything to make sure they’re having a great time. You’re well known among friends and the rest of the community as outgoing, fun-loving and an excellent cook. And since they’re always nagging you about it, who knows, maybe you’ll even open up a restaurant or bakery someday.'

Traits: Goofball / Foodie / either Outgoing, Bro or Insider (GT)

Career: Culinary

Aspiration: Master Chef

Complete the Master Chef aspiration

Reach level 10 in the Culinary career in the Chef branch

Reach level 10 of the Cooking, Gourmet cooking and Baking skill (GTW) and at least level 8 of the Comedy skill

Have a social outing with your friends or club (GT) at least once a week

Optional: own a restaurant (DO) or bakery (GTW)

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Generation 3: Yellow

Ahhh, yellow. The color of sunshine and joy, but sometimes also of cowardice.

'Growing up, you often saw your parents have fun at social gatherings in and around your house. You reveled in the joyful atmosphere and always wanted to join in, even if it was well past your bedtime. As you got older, you wanted to be just like your parents and have lots of friends to do fun stuff with. Being a little impulsive and lacking any clear steering as to what career you wanted to pursue, you ended up at a boring 9-5 desk job at a local firm. Although it isn’t your ideal job, you’ll be damned if you don’t make it work!'

Traits:  Ambitious / Cheerful / Clumsy

Career: Business or Law (DU)

Aspiration: Friend of the World

Complete the Friend of the World aspiration

Reach level 10 in either the Business or Law career (DU) in either branch

Reach level 10 of the Charisma and Mixology skills

Have frequent social outings with friends and take the opportunity to tend the bars at local clubs when there isn’t a bartender present

Have the following activities in your home for when you have company over: game table, dart board, chess table

Never decline calls from other sims asking if they can come over

Marry your Best Friend

Have at least 2 children

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Generation 4: Green

Green! The beautiful color of nature, healing, new beginnings and growth. Alternatively, it can also represent envy, jealousy, money and greed. In this generation, you can choose one of two paths for your sim (or alternatively, if your heir has brothers or sisters and you like a real challenge, give one sibling option A and the other option B. You may set the lifespan to long or pause aging for the duration of this if you really want to play both options).

Option A:

'During your youth you got all the love you could ever want from your parents: aside from their busy social and professional life, they still took enough free time to love and raise you. Although your youth was basically perfect, you often struggled with all the social interactions and visitors at your house. If being a highly sensitive person was a trait in the Sims 4, you would have it. Because of this, you longed for the peace and quiet that nature had to offer. You took a liking to gardening and dreamed of living outside the big city, away from all the noise.'

Traits: Loves Outdoors / Vegetarian / Loner

Career: Gardener (S) or self-employed

Aspiration: Freelance Botanist or The Curator

Complete either the Freelance Botanist or The Curator aspiration

Reach level 10 in the Gardener career (S) in either branch, or alternatively remain unemployed and register with the ministry of labor as a self-proclaimed ‘Naturalist’ and earn a living by growing and selling your crops

Reach level 10 of the Gardening and Flower arranging skill (S) and at least level 6 of the Fishing and Herbalism skill (OR)

Have a large garden with a variety of fruits, vegetables, herbs and flowers (try and cultivate at least one of every type of produce!)

Cook only with fresh ingredients from your garden and from fishing

If you want, you can also make the lot you live on off-the-grid for an added challenge

Optional: eat the Forbidden Fruit and become a plantsim

Option B:

'Growing up, your parents were too busy maintaining friendships and partying, so you lacked much parental love or guidance. Seeing other kids at school be given much more love and affection than you quite literally made you green with envy. This made you resent your parents and take a path of defiance in an attempt to gain the attention and recognition you lacked as a child.'

Traits: Jealous / Materialistic / either Mean or Squeamish (OR)

Career: Criminal

Aspiration: Public Enemy

Complete the Public Enemy aspiration

Reach level 10 of the Criminal Career in either branch

Reach level 10 of the Mischief skill and at least level 8 of the Programming skill

Use your programming skills on the computer to Hack and extort money from others

Have a secret lair/study room in your house

Because you’re too focused on being a criminal, you have little time for romance; have (or adopt) only 1 child as an adult and raise them independently

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Generation 5: Blue

Blue. The color of serenity, stability, inspiration and wisdom. Just like the color, you exude calmness.

'During your youth you were always called shy and introverted, and this continued into adulthood. Although you liked living surrounded by the quiet of nature, you often felt isolated and lonely, and this manifested into a gloomy outlook on life. Your biggest outlet by far was art. You loved drawing and painting, as it was a way to let out your creativity and complicated emotions. You've always aspired to make your hobby your job, and luckily for you, you might just succeed.'

Traits: Creative / Gloomy / either Perfectionist or Art Lover

Career: Painter

Aspiration: Painter Extraordinaire

Complete the Painter Extraordinaire aspiration

Reach level 10 in the Painter career in the Master of the Real branch

Reach level 10 of the Painting skill and at least level 8 of the Photography skill and Parenting skill (Ph)

Only paint emotional paintings (e.g. flirty, confident, sad)

Move back to the city as soon as you are able to

Meet the love of your life at school and marry them as a young adult

Have at least 3 children

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Generation 6: Indigo

Indigo. What an interesting color. Within the visible spectrum, it lies somewhere between blue and violet. It shares most of the same symbolizations as blue, like wisdom, justice, devotion and profound thought, but also mystery.

'Looking back, you’d say you had a great childhood. Loving parents, siblings to play with, maybe even pets. As a child you loved reading thrillers and superhero comics, and that’s where your strong feelings for justice started. Seeing your parent be especially vulnerable for bad news and having a gloomy and pessimistic outlook, you promised yourself you would make the world a better and safer place. As an adult, you took on a job of fighting crime while simultaneously keeping your eagerness to learn and love for reading alive.'

Traits: Self-Assured / Bookworm / Genius

Career: Secret Agent or Detective (GTW)

Aspiration: Renaissance Sim

Complete the Renaissance Sim aspiration

Reach level 3 in two part-time jobs as a teen before getting an adult job

Reach level 10 in the Secret Agent career in the Diamond Agent branch or in the Detective career (GTW)

Reach level 10 of the Logic skill and at least level 7 of the Athletic skill

Read at least one book a week

Have only 1 child

Visit your parents at least once a week to check up on them and reassure them

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Generation 7: Violet

Last but definitely not least: violet, or more commonly known as purple. The color of royalty, rarity, luxury and power. At its base, purple is a mix of blue and red. Fitting for our last generation (for now).

'During your youth you grew up rather wealthy, thanks to your parents’ well-paying jobs. In addition to that, you grew up as an only child. Talk about being spoiled. Your parent’s love for fiction and comic books and somewhat nerdy interests were (unsurprisingly) passed onto to you. You spend most of your time behind your computer gaming, programming and trolling people online. Because of your immense love for videogames, you chose to work in tech so you could make your hobby your career and not have to suffer one of those boring 9-5 jobs.'

Traits: Geek / Lazy / either Snob or Materialistic

Career: Tech Guru or Video Game Streamer (HSY)

Aspiration: Computer Whiz

Complete the Computer Whiz aspiration

Reach level 10 in the Tech Guru career in the eSport Gamer branch or the Video Game Streamer career (HSY)

Reach level 10 in the Video gaming and Programming skill and at least level 6 in the Mischief skill

Have your sim be androgynous

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The End?

Officially, as the rainbow only has seven colors, the challenge is over. However, I felt it was a little weird to not include pink at the very least, since pink is also a very popular color. That’s why, in addition to pink, I created a few extra generations to round out the whole challenge. So if you want to continue the legacy for at least a little longer, you can!

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(Optional) Generation 8: Pink

It’s pink baby! The color pink symbolizes love, affection, nurture, compassion, femininity and success. That’s why, in contrast to all other generations so far, this is the only generation that I made gender specific.

'You’ve always noticed that your parent was not setting the best example. Despite this, you still love them. They're your parent! To you, love, especially familial bonds, are the most important thing in the world. You strive towards having a large, loving family and want to become the best parent you can be for your kids, in contrast to your own parents. In addition to that, you’ve always loved fashion and would draw your own outfits when you were a kid. You’d love to make your passion for fashion your career, but only if your family life allows for it.'

Traits: Loyal / Family-oriented / either Good or Generous (FR)

Career: Style Influencer or Stay-at-home Parent

Aspiration: Big Happy Family or Super Parent (Ph)

The sim from this generation must be female

Complete either the Big Happy Family aspiration or the Super Parent aspiration (Ph)

Either reach level 10 in the Style Influencer career in either branch or be a Stay-at-home Parent

Reach level 10 of the Cooking and Handiness skill and the Parenting skill (Ph)

Have at least one biological child and one adopted child

Have a stronger relationship with both grandparents from Gen 6 than with your parent from Gen 7

Have only one romantic partner for the entirety of your Sim’s life and stay with them until death

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(Optional) Generation 9: White

White. Not quite a color color, but for the purposes of this challenge, it is. It symbolizes innocence, purity, cleanliness, safety and rebirth.

'Ever since you can remember you’ve played doctor with your dolls and teddy bears and begged your parents to buy you the hospital-style dollhouse. Wherever this fascination with health and medicine came from, it made you the caring and disciplined person you are today. Of course, your parents supported you throughout all of medical school and you’re eternally grateful to them. Because of their support, you can fulfill your dream of aiding others whenever they need it.'

In this gen you can choose between two routes: becoming a doctor or becoming a vet. If you only have base game or none of the listed packs, let your sim become an athlete (in this case their purpose is to lead by example on how to live a healthy lifestyle and prevent disease).

Traits: Ambitious / Neat / Active

Career: Doctor (GTW), Vet (C&D) or Athlete

Aspiration: Bodybuilder

If you have Discover University, I strongly recommend you to send your Sim to University, to add to the idea that they’re going to medical school. If you do, have them earn a degree in Biology.

Complete either the Bodybuilder aspiration or the Academic aspiration (DU)

Reach level 10 of the Doctor career (GTW), the Athlete career or register with the ministry of labor as a ‘Vet’:

If you have Cats & Dogs, purchase a Vet Clinic and make that your full-time job

Reach level 10 of the Fitness and Logic skill and the Veterinarian skill (C&D) IF you chose the vet route.

Marry and have at least one child

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(Optional) Generation 10: Black

Last but not least (for real this time): black. The color of power, elegance, death, evil and mystery. A sharp turn from our last generation, in some ways. But don’t worry, this sim won’t be so evil.

'Ever since you were born, people knew that you’d be different. And you were: as a child you often displayed ‘odd’ behavior, and as you got older you were diagnosed with erraticism. However, you also had a very high IQ. One could almost wonder if your erraticism was caused by your giftedness, or the other way around. Either way, you decided to not let your diagnosis get in the way of your dreams, and you pursued a career in science and engineering, subjects you were highly interested in since childhood. You wanted to prove to yourself and the world that having a ‘disability’ does not have to stand in the way of greatness.'

Traits: Erratic / Genius / Noncommital

Career: Astronaut, Scientist (GTW) or Engineer (DU)

Aspiration: You decide!

Since you have the Erratic trait, you may choose any aspiration for this final generation. But make sure to complete it!

Reach level 10 of the Handiness and Rocket Science skills, as well as the Robotics skill (DU) and at least level 5 of the Piano skill

If you have Discover University, have your sim earn a degree in either Physics or Computer Science

Reach level 10 in either the Astronaut career, Scientist career (GTW) or Engineer career (DU)

Build a rocket ship and visit Sixam

Have only one Best Friend (you may live with them or be roommates with them if you like)

Never have any romantic partners and die single

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The End

Thank you for reading and/or playing this challenge. I hope you enjoyed!

[lilac-reed]

Nothing will ever be as it was and that's something we all have to deal with sometimes.

What i mean by that is, when you look back at yourself, the things you've done, the things you liked, they're never how they were in the moment. After spending some time recently going through old home videos, clips my friends whom i no longer talk to have taken from video games we've played together, videos by and about creators I haven't watched in years. All I can say is simply retelling the same sentiment I've seen floating around some online spaces recently. I may have been cringe, but I was free.

Sometimes I miss the Dream SMP. I know, I know, it was insane. But it'll never happen again. Nothing can ever replicate the feelings it produced because despite a global pandemic. Despite the fact that I should have been doing school (sorry mom). Despite the fact that my personal life was intensely awful at the time, I was excited and interested in this Minecraft Roleplay Server. And so were millions of others.

If you were never into the Dream SMP, I'm sorry. A lot of videos are still up, so it isn't really too late, but it's not the same. Knowing who these people really were changes the perspective. After all of the drama and aftermath which is somehow still going on, it's easier to understand why some of the people there were so good at acting (they weren't acting). But I'm also sorry because watching the recordings or even rewatching the vods just doesn't compare to the feeling envoked watching the insane twists and turns happen live. Guessing in a group chat with a few other fans you've met online what's going to happen on today's stream. Hopping into a discord call to have a watch party and screaming together when something major happens. Getting to see how things started and how they progressed. It truly was a 'you had to be there' kind of experience.

It's the same to me as rewatching clips from old friend groups. We don't talk or hang out, and I'm ok with that. And looking at the memories, there's a bit of sting, sure. But there's the laughter at how laggy my set up was, and at each other's craziness. And suddenly I'm 15, alone in my room but surrounded by friends, and that feeling stays longer than any sting.

This year already a lot of people have been feeling nostalgic for just a handful of years ago, myself included. I think it's important to remember that everything seemed so fun because the alternative was so grim. And so now when you look back, you see the silliness and cringe in the things you liked and did. But as someone who recently looked back at themselves and their interests, take it from me. Remembering why you liked something is nice sometimes, even if it's much different than it was.

-Lilac, 1/22/2025

[quiet-desperationn]

Notes on what I found interesting and the songs he chose (tried to be accured but dont trust me)

I believe this was around 2012

“Is it harder to be creative now because you perhaps are happier now?” “There’s some truth to that, I certainly am. But that’s not entirely the case”

“After the Live 8 you sort of tentatively embraced on stage…” “It didn’t feel tentative to me! We had dinner the night before. I’m so glad we did it before Rick died.”

Neil Young - Helpless

Gustavo Santaolalla - Endless flight (Babel movie)

His mother spoke a lot about his father, because she was very proud of him and of what he’d done, and she felt she had been very lucky to meet this man (roger’s father)

His mother never felt like she was physically attractive

His parents joined the communist party together. And it was when his father joined it that he changed his mind about killing nazis and going to war

Just like Pink in the movie he also tried out his father’s uniform

Leonard Cohen - Bird on the Wire

He was a very stroppy teenager and took out on any kind of authority.

One of his aunts gave him a guitar when he was 13 or 14 years old and he tried to learn it but found it way to painful and difficult so he gave up

He was never close to his big brother. His brother had memories of their father, so Roger thinks he paid a higher price

Roger had a recurring dream for around 50 years where he murdered someone and he knew he was going to get caught. After a ton of therapy he realised it was because he felt like he had killed his father. After that he never had that dream anymore.

He feels like he came late to a lot of his emotional realisations. 

It took him a long time to understand that as a man it was okay to have power. Because he grew up entirely in the company of women, his mother and her sisters, he intuitively believed that the correct way was for women to have all the power. And because of that he involved himself in all kinds of disastrous relationships where he gave away all his power to women.

Chet Baker - My Funny Valentine

He was getting married to Laurie at this point. (“The love of my life”)

“You have been married before. I have. It’s a bit of a habit (laughs)”

“I have been married three times. I’m not prepared to go any further into that, Kirsty”

“Did you sit down together to write SOYCD?” “No, I wrote it”

“It’s very moving to play it. It’s like he’s there again. He was SO beautiful, Syd. He was so vibrant and so talented and special.”

Ray Charles- Georgia On My Mind

“How did you feel about being a known person by being a rock star in those early days?” “I think I was so fundamentally frightened in almost every possible way that I really shied away from it.”

“I was always that kid who always dressed in black. At a party I would be found skulking in a corner and not being friendly.”

“But you see, the brooding rockstar is even more magnetic.” “(laughs nervously) Well, whatever.”

“Were you fighting off the girls with a big stick?” “No, I never went through any of that. I fought maybe one of two (laughs nervously again)”

“Is that true? Isn’t that part of the fun of being a rockstar?” “It should be, but again we can’t possibly go into all the awful details of my appalling(?) love life. But I attached myself by that time, and had been attached for some time, to the girl next door who I married. “

“Notwithstanding the fact that I strayed from time to time, it wasn’t a glorious love in.” 

He regrets very much all his “straying away”

His mom loved that he had success with Pink Floyd. She was 96 when she passed away. When she was dying she said she was going to leave everything to John (Roger’s brother) “cause I have a feeling you’ll be alright”

Franco Corelli - (?)

“Now with a bit of perspective how do you look back on that period of the split up?” “It was a great deal of wasted energy”

About his solo career not being very successful at first: “I think it was good for me. A bit of failure is very character forming. It makes you think about what’s really important and what isn’t”

“I feel so much more comfortable with who I am now and where I am now that I did 40 years loose. I’m really glad I was in that band for the 20 years I was in it but I have no wish to do it ever again.“

Billie Holiday - God Bless the Child

“Would you be fine with your own company?” “Probably not, I like the company of others, particularly one other. Won’t do very well on my own.”

Mahler’s 5th Symphony - 4th Movement

Book: All the Pretty Horses by Cormac McCarthy

Luxury: A grand piano

[rathayibacter]

last day to buy all four Charcuterie zines for $15!

Charcuterie's a zine series I use to collect various odds and ends of my design work together, revising and cleaning up old projects and bundling them all together. it's a really fun collection to look through, as you can see how my skills and sensibilities as a game designer and writer changed and grew over time. in fact, under the break, let's talk about everything contained within this bundle!

GAMES SWEAT, TEARS, BLOOD: a 200-word rpg where you play out the climactic final duel of a long and tangled story Terrible Tweens: a game about monster kids getting into trouble on Halloween night Terrible Tweens 2nd Edition: a revised version that emphasizes the dynamic of fitting in vs standing out the devil's after both of us: a horror game for two players about trying to survive in the aftermath of a mysterious disaster Double-Bro-Seven: a cooperative game about guiding a drunk secret agent through a series of objectives The Problem of Evils: supervillains debate the definition of evil in the final stages of their master plan Bird & Breakfast: go on vacation to a small beach city populated by birds you are an earthworm who aspires to kill god: self-explanatory you are an earthworm who aspires to kill god 2nd edition: gets even bigger and more absurd INITIATIVE: a little combat system where your place in initiative order is also your location in space Explicit Course: an exquisite corpse-inspired silent ttrpg where nobody's quite sure what's going on A17-Q Declassified: members of an SCP-style secret organization who never find anything cool Maybe One Day, It'll Be Enough: war gods at the end of time dig graves and complain about each other Wizard Yard Sale: enchant household objects and sell them to each other (business card game) Adversary: become the twist villain of a different game (business card game) Pact: summon demons for fun and profit (business card game) Bid for Control: spend money to influence the narrative (business card game) Digit Labyrinth: do math! (business card game) More About The Spaces Between Notes: tell a collaborative story together that stretches to the end of time (business card game)

SHORT STORIES beginnings: an alternative creation myth, following a god who methodically smiths every particle in the universe by hand Archimedes the Wonder Horse: a summary of a boy and his horse movie from another world, where it's discovered that the horse can solve arbitrary math problems The Evergreen Luxury Hotel and Day Spa (est 2031): the single employee of a luxury resort is placed in a time loop each day to ensure everything goes perfectly Three Gifts: a short story about prophecy and a chosen one who refuses to go along with the status quo

POETRY Breaking Fresh Snow: a mindful walk home in the dark Pop Quiz: a three-part poem about identity The Tower of Revelations: the process of searching for Truth There's Two Kinds of Magic: a false dichotomy reveals something honest Taking Inventory: keeping track of everything 77: opening your chest up and seeing what roosts inside A Flower Halfway in Bloom: a wizard dreams of a strange, broken world Procedure: instructions and commentary on surgically extracting a human soul The Stars Weren't Out: glimpse the shape of the world Resolutions: a reminder to myself

[mushgloomz]

get to know your mutuals

my little love @valevntine - how did you know my fav thing to do is to yap about myself?🫦 ty for the tag my darling

What's the origin of your blog title?

pahaha, okay so basically several years ago my best friend @aurelliastar was like ‘bitch, i wish tumblr was still a thing bc i’ve just thought of the cuntiest username’ and mushgloomz was born

OTP(s) + shipname:

omg i haven’t properly shipped people in YEARS. i mean dellie (ellie and dina) are obvs up there, but i spend too long shipping characters with actual people that i don’t have much else to offer😭

feel free to ship me with javi gutiérrez…

Favourite colour:

green all the way - i just adore it <3 my fav metallic colour is gold though (can we guess that i was a loki girly during my marvel phase?)

Favourite game:

i wish i was a gamer girl but i’m SHIT at playing everything loool

would have to say undertale tbh, just so much fun and you already know i played that shit multiple times to see all the different endings

Song stuck in your head:

currently, it’s Love Is A Stranger by Eurhythmics bc it scratches an itch in my brain i can’t explain it

Weirdest habit/trait:

i’m generally a massive freakazoid so there’s probably plenty, but i’d say my chronic use of adlibs in regular conversations tbh

Hobbies:

unfortunately i’m really fucking uninteresting!! reading, writing and photography are as close to hobbies as i get honestly 😪

If you work, what's your profession?

i’m a full-time office administrator for a fire and security company in london - basically just sit there and argue with engineers all day <3

If you could have any job you wish, what would it be?

if i could have literally ANY job? i’d do acting or private interior design - yet again, my hopes and dreams have been squandered by societal and familial expectations so i will never be fulfilled in that sense 🤩

Something you're good at:

literally… nothing? like i give great head but i feel like this is asking if i have actual talents loool

Something you're bad at:

time management is honestly the worst of them for me. i’m so fucking easily distracted it’s painful

Something you love:

dancing - not well, but just dancing however i want to. makes me feel good 🕺

Something you could talk about for hours off the cuff:

anything psychology related or sex related (a lot of the time that shit overlaps and i get REALLY invested)

fun fact, i actually did a dedicated unit during my BSc on the psychology of sex and sexuality; so fucking fascinating

Something you hate:

my best friend always jokes that my main hobby is ‘critical analysis and being a hater’ and lowkey she’s right LOOL

for example, i hate being hungover, yet here i am for the second time in 48 hours with a hangover <3

Something you collect:

oh the autism is gonna jump OUT

i collect loads of random shit - jellycat frogs, crystals, earrings, scarves… if i like something, i have to have an excessive number of them

Something you forget:

MY FUCJING WIPS

What's your love language?

giving - words of affirmation

receiving - physical touch or acts of service

Favourite movie/show:

movie is always going to be labyrinth (i will shout this shit from the rooftops, it’s amazing)

I don’t really find myself interested in TV all that often (unless pedro is in it lool); naturally TLOU is a current fav, but I’ve also loved the crown, killing eve and black mirror 💅🏻

Favourite food:

okay so hear me out: carbonara

BUT

specifically the shitty supermarket jar version of the sauce😭

Favourite animal:

frogs (i’m bisexual and autistic be so fr)

What were you like as a child?

incredibly anxiously attached to my mum and MAJORLY traumatised (also see: me right now)

Favourite subject at school?

geography (spoiler alert, it’s bc i wanted to bone my teacher)

actual favourite would be psychology or English language

Least favourite subject at school?

hmm… probably maths? not that i disliked it, just sucked ASS

What's your best character trait?

i’ve been told that i’m funny which lowkey yeah i am so i’ll claim that LOOL

What's your worst character trait?

i’m incredibly stubborn - like, would sooner die than compromise on a lot of things oops

If you could change any detail of your day right now, what would it be?

NOT BEING HUNGOVER AS FUCK <3

If you could travel in time, who would you like to meet?

there are so many people i would love to meet (downside of loving 70s music tbh); hendrix, prince, bowie, freddie mercury… these fuckers changed my life

Recommend one of your favourite fanfics (spread the love!):

okay as soon as i saw this question i knew i had to say Hold Still by @almostfoxglove

only read it recently despite it being posted last august but it’s just fucking superbly written and really scratched an itch for me <3 (you can see me short circuiting over it with my reblog here)

if you made it this far, you’re hot🫦

npt bc i’m nosey <3: @ohhoneypascal @mandaloriankait @itsokbbygrlbutworsethistime @itwasntimethatdidit40 @stitch-away @alfiestreacle

[molathesunfish]

I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE YOUR RODYA AND YOUR ART GAHHH WHY AND HOW IS YOUR ANATOMY AND LINES SO GOOD. HOW DO YOU DRAW. WHAT ARE YOUR DRAWING INSPIRATIONS. what goes behind thay beautiful brain of yours PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE

oughhh thank you so much that's so nice of you to say<33

ACK i dunno i just draw a lot.... like some very specific things have become muscle memory and i just gradually gained a better sense of proportions and line control with mileage.. I keep telling myself i need to study fundamentals more, but beyond watching like a handful of Proko and Marc Brunet anatomy videos i really haven't been keeping up..... that's why the stuff i draw doesnt have any particularly complex poses or perspectives (yet!! one can dream). As always, 100000 references forever!! pull up some stock image, do a twitter redraw challenge with your favorite characters, whatever. Just, love a lot and love strongly, please draw all of your most embarrassing ideas, everything contributes to mileage and the fact you're drawing stuff you like helps with motivation i think!! Read books, watch movies, have fun and the drive to draw sustains itself, or so i've found (<- again, hobbyist)

Re: inspo ummmm honestly I don't know how to put it all in a single post</3 i literally just mass follow and mass like artists on twitter and tumblr (pinterest is good for this too, but i find i often spend more time pinning stuff than getting anything done... these days i just skim stuff off google image searches tbh i havent opened pinterest in forever). Sometimes I just randomly pick a piece that i like and try to copy it in order to take notes of how certain elements are done, sometimes i just stare really hard at a piece while scrolling, see how a certain piece of anatomy is stylised, or at IRL people and try to take mental notes of how their clothes drape and fold, that sort of thing, or i take screenshots while watching anime or vocaloid mvs...

I'll try to provide a few specific examples that i can think of based on recency i guess, but please know that literally anything could work and this list isn't even a smidge exhaustive.

@/xamag-draws and @/ikimaru are people i've followed since my homestuck days, and i'd say they're possibly integral to me as a person dsjhhjdsfh despite never having known them beyond their art. @/sarcasmprodigy is an exception, also from my homestuck days circa 2019 but we're also moots now so

yasutatsu and wooma are artists i found via their work on vocaloid mvs. big fan or their respective styles, i really need to study them more. such is also in this category, i mostly study how the anatomy is stylised in dongdang's mvs.

ponkansoup's painterly style and fun music... minty and melancholic.

ferry's (@/nopanamaman on tumblr) art and music have also influenced me greatly. i really love her sharp, kinda blocky style.

QMENG and VIVINOS, whose series Alien Stage (contains depictions of violence, though if you're a limbus fan you'd probably be fine) has very eye-catching, wonderfully stylised art - both the mainline mvs and the supplemental materials (you can find those in their youtube community tab or their twitter). I also recommend the one-off videos, though please note that many of them feature horror elements and imagery and proceed with caution.

BoAliDead's art, i find their style really cute and expressive.

I'm personally especially fond of the stylised anatomy done by Ryoko Kui. Consider studying the art in her "Delicious in Dungeon" series and its supplemental artbooks, Day Dream Hours. I also really like how she draws clothes, her style is just very appealing to me generally.

Generally, for all the media I've enjoyed it's safe to say the official artwork influence me one way or another, to varying degrees: undertale, homestuck, not exactly a hero (VN-type game), underworld office (similar to prev, same devs), my hero academia, fullmetal alchemist, delicious in dungeon, the persona game series, the danganronpa series, etc. (there's probably more but these are the ones i most clearly remember rn)

Please also check the "art" and "art ref" tags on my other blog @molathemoonfish, since i also hoard a bunch of stuff i like and want to study there (specifically the "rodion lcb" tag too. i promise i'm normal about her (actually, on that note, i'd like to direct you to this post and this post on twitter since i don't think Essie (@/sowedspicebush on tumblr) has posted them on their blog (or at least, i couldn't find either of them). i don't know how to properly convey how much of a hold these two pieces have on me i think about them all the time i genuinely think that black-and-white sketch of her flipped some sort of switch in mybrain. Essie please post them on tumblr so i can rb them. please. ple))

[valeriianz]

For the fic writer asks:

4. Obviously you did research for BitB. I'd love you to ramble about it if you like I'm sure you've got STORIES

5. Did you outline it?

7. How'd you decide it would be Hob's pov?

25-27 I'd love to know a/some favorite lines, details, and any lore you might want to share

omg TJ what wonderful questions! thank you!! this is going to get LONG!

4: Rambling about research!

do you wanna see a screen shot of my bookmarks under my "band au" folder?

man, and that's only what could fit on the screen.

there is... SO MUCH i chose to ignore for this fic. ideas that i had to drop, lines or extra details about the other band members equipment. more logistics, what Lucienne actually does, what Mervyn has to put up with as the new touring stage manager... i realized very early on that i couldn't possibly cram all this (super cool and eye opening) information into the fic and still keep reader's interest and, most importantly, to not stray away from the fact that this is a dreamling fic. whenever i felt myself getting carried away with a side character or job or even social media numbers, gossip, outside POVs, i had to reign myself in and get back on track. there will be time for exploring everything i missed in side stories after BitB is finished. i just hope i still have the energy to write it all.

once, i was so deep into research that after publishing chapter 2, i went into work and when my chef asked what "GA" meant on my prep list, i answered with full confidence, "general admission."

(it means "get ahead.")

the worst part of this entire writing process is im still learning new shit. i havent rewatched or read a lot of what i've saved because, to be very honest, i was feeling a little burnt out. it's why we're kinda full steam dreamling now. it's why ive been glossing over a lot of technical stuff and being vague about conversations amongst the crew/not including it at all. i don't prefer ignoring my research, but at the end of the day i want to still enjoy writing this fic and finish it. even if i can't be as descriptive and detailed and nuanced as i used to be.

5: Did you outline the fic?

(also asked by @hardly-an-escape!)

i wouldn't call what i have a proper "outline," it's more like a 20k word document filled to the brim with notes that i skim at least a dozen times while i'm writing a new chapter (being in my brain is literally hell). i live multichapter life very dangerously. i copy and paste lines or sections (always scattered, never together! augh!) that are meant to go together and plop them in a new document titled "band au ch.#" and then i structure the chapter around what i want to happen.

but to answer this question in the plainest of terms: yeah. i know exactly what's going to happen up until the very end. even if its all in my head and the only concrete shit that's written down are beats/plot points. i'll figure out the rest later!

7: How'd you decide it would be Hob's POV?

i actually never even considered writing it from Dream's POV. this was my first fic in the fandom (which is so nuts to think about lol) and writing in Dream's POV sounded so scary lol. i also just thought Hob's would be easier because i have worked a few backstage shows, back in my college years. i figured eh, i can make this work. and i loved exploring how weird and mysterious musicians can be, from a normie's POV. making Hob a fan first and having him worry about developing a parasocial relationship... it was fun to explore.

25: Share your favorite line

oh god, i have so many haha.

“What are you thinking about?” starting in ch.2 and onward lmao

“It’s–” Dream laughs quietly, bitterly. “I don’t like change.” He says each word with emphasis, eyes trailing down to fixate somewhere past Hob. “And I still hold onto the things I can control, like my instruments–” his eyes swing up to regard Hob apologetically. “Or my clothes or my–” he brings a hand up and wiggles his fingers around his head. “My hair.” ch.4

"His majesty is pleased." ch.5

“You are obsessive,” he states, slow and cool and with a quiet smile cracking through his composure. “Just like me.” ch.7

“You look good.” Hob has to lean in to say so, unwilling to raise his voice amongst the roar of the fans. ch.11

“Del looks like porcelain, but she’s actually made of steel.” Desire swirls the contents of their glass before pushing their shoulders back with a deep breath. “She's tougher than all of us.” ch.11

“Everything. I want…” his fingers tighten in Hob’s hair, pulling him closer, speaking against his lips. “…Everything.” ch.14

26: Share your favorite detail

how intentionally coy Dream behaves. i love keeping him a mystery and deciding when and how much to allow his intentions to peek through has been so fun lol.

Despair is in fact covered in tattoos and piercings! i say this because i feel like sometimes i forget lmao. (but also her and Hob don't interact much so. my bad haha).

Delirium's constant explosion of color in the way she dresses <3

Hob's dedication to his job, Dream, and the people he cares about the most. i don't care if people think i'm making him too soft and good, im gonna project on that man and make him a sweet, sweet simp lmao

and ah, this doesn't matter anymore, and i kinda regret doing it but. i originally had Dream's favorite bass all black but the pickguard was white. so it actually looked like Jessamy. not gonna lie when @designtheendless drew it all black i decided i liked it better that way. and truly i do. that's when i went back to ch.1 and changed it haha. to actually see the guitar with Dream, all done up sparkling black and purple flecks... gosh it's just so him. but then i got up to the reveal that the guitar's name was Jessamy and i was like, "oh, right." lmao. no one seems to care so i'll leave it be.

27: Share a piece of lore you made up for the story

i have a lot lmao. and this post is already so long... im hoping i can get to some if not all of it in side fics in the future. but for now, here's some that's more like headcanons but:

Dream hates flying. he can full on go into panic attacks on the plane if he allows himself to get into his own head.

this was mentioned briefly in ch.4, while Dream was discussing the formation of the band, but Despair was in another band before joining Endless. she is the only character in the fic who gets to keep her English roots (lol sorry) and is the oldest in the band (30).

all of the band members ages: Dream, Desire, and Death are all 28 and Delirium is 22.

Dream can experience subdrop after going too hard during a performance.

Dream paints his own nails, it's very therapeutic.

as an exercise, i explored my own headcanons for Dream in this verse in a word doc, and one thing i will share from it that you might find interesting: If I were to ever give Dream a theological values, I would describe him as a satanist. He is a physical and pragmatic person, nonconforming, and although he is introverted, he enjoys being a part of a community (he loves his band).

also found this in my notes: How Desire and Dream got along was Death making them fight it out. Hob raises an eyebrow “like in a brawl?” He couldn't imagine Desire throwing hands. “No, in a pillow fight that escalated in hair pulling and verbal taunts.”

fic writer asks

[nohara-rin-dot-mp3]

for those character asks, Tenten of course! (this is erumai-maadu from main btw)

hiiii chandu!!!

first impression: didn't really pay much attention to her on my first reading of naruto lol she was just a fun little background character to me.

impression now: she's awesome she's aromantic she's transcended the narrative's weird sexism what can't she do!!! i love her interactions with team gai and i love her microcosm of a happy ending in the bleak misery of almost every other character's heterosexual marriage hellscape. i think she should be allowed to kill as many people as she wants and YES she can be weird about it.

favorite thing about that character: i love how weird she is about fighting. it's just sooo refreshing to see her moral ambiguity! and for it to actually mean something about her character in the grand scheme of the narrative kind of! wish that she could have like. reckoned with it at any point but alas naruto is not that kind of story so i will settle myself with the fact that it happened at all. i heart her casual callousness and lack of self reflection and her usage of actual sharp things in a world where most violence is softened even if just a little by magic lights

least favorite thing: the lack of screen time :((( i want to see her!!!! not me dismissing her flaws btw i know she is a morally dubious character like all naruto character it's just that i love that about her. supporting women's* rights AND wrongs.

favorite line/scene: to no one's surprise.

favorite interaction that character has with another: i really like her interactions with neji during the chunin exams they're sooo cute. i know the exchanging information is like. a story-telling device to explain things to the viewer but i like to think that they are gossiping <3 also the way she reels him back in when he gets out of hand... it's just cute!!!! wish we saw more of them. there's this one part during sakura vs ino iirc where neji is like "they're weak" and tenten's like "yeah but not because they're women. because they suck." adslkflksfj and idk why but that cracks me up. they're so mean i love them.

character that I wish that character would interact with more: sasukeeeeee they're such good parallels. in my head. tenten is like the person sasuke could have been if he cared less. and i think it drives both of them a little insane. sasuke because it's like. GOD. she's happy and he's not!!! and tenten because she doesn't like thinking about her culpability in the system.

character from another fandom that reminds me of that character: kamui gintama... he's got the gnc swag ✔️ love of fighting for the sake of fighting ✔️ no canon love interest ✔️ and the foil-ship to the protagonist's emo terrorist rival ✔️... that's tenten baby !!! although sasunaru is unfortunately not as insane as takagin. can't have everything i suppose.

headcanon about that character: i know in my heart that tenten ends up the tallest out of team gai i just know it. okay. she LORDS it over lee and neji and both of them aren't actually all that annoyed but they play it up for kicks and giggles. it's not that they're short either i just believe in twig tenten supremacy. she's like 6 feet tall to me okay there is nothing in canon to back this up i just think that she should take after her step-dad.

song that reminds of that character: painkillers by rainbow kitten surprise... not a perfect fit but i've been writing my nejiten month fic while listening to it on loop so that has been. an influence afljdkgfljgkfja

unpopular opinion about that character: nejiten played straight is not it for me. any ship played straight with tenten involved is not it for me. less unpopular i guess and more just unknown cuz most people aren't aware that she's aro. but she would naught be involved in a romantic relationship!!! also i think that within canon, tenten was fond of her teammates but never particularly close to any of them. rip qpr tenji you exist only in my dreams

favorite image:

there are so many good tentens out there but masc!tenten is certainly up there with my favorites. look at him. the ideal man. the swag he carries from his ponytail alone is simply immeasurable.

[tj-dragonblade]

Fic authors self rec! When you get this, reply with your favorite five fics that you've written, then pass on to at least five other writers. spread the self-love ❤

Thank you! This is such a hard question! I love most everything I've written, picking favorites is hard, I swear it would be easier to name the ones I'm least thrilled with lol. And just because most of these are Sandman doesn't mean I don't care about my older fandoms either, just that almost always what I'm happiest with writing is going to be the most recent years. Maybe one day I'll go through fandom by fandom to pick a top three from each, or something. But for now! In no particular order, and after much thought, here we go.

When the Chips Are Down from the tail end of my Saiyuki days, published 14 years ago this month. It's comical crack-treated-seriously based on an obscure canon-adjacent factoid and that sort of thing has never been my forte, but I succeeded admirably here if I may say so. It was a joy to write, Jiipu is my favorite and forever under-utilized in fic so centering this around him, around a ridiculous tidbit of info about his counterpart in the original Journey to the West and telling it in his pov was absolutely delightful. I had so much fun writing this one and I'm still so proud of the character voice work I managed in here.

The Thessaly breakup fic from fluffbruary 2023, which I like for having a semblance of plot and because I see lots of talk about what Hob would think of Thessaly but I don't know if I've run into any other actual fics dealing with it. Not that this is the Hob-gives-Thessaly-a-piece-of-his-mind fic that I think we all need, but I'm still very pleased with it. And I just really like the scene of Dream crying on Hob.

Of Cutoff Shorts and Classic Cars. I'm just. So happy with how quickly this one happened, how much it kept growing in the writing and how it turned out in the end. I also laugh at myself for nitpicking over the right British terms for back yard and driveway and such but then I completely spaced using bonnet instead of hood. 😂 Also fun fact this was my first time ever writing oral with a vulva and I'm very pleased with how well it's been received.

The Keeper and the Traveler currently sits pretty high because I've always loved and wanted to write that fairy-tale narrative style and this got pretty close. I don't know if it will still be in my top five by the end of the year but for now, it is.

And lastly will cheat a smidge and say Cruise Ship Boys, because I love both pieces of the 'series' and can't decide which I like better. The porn piece again happened quickly and wrote easily and I'm delighted with how it turned out. The sequel was meant to be one cute-ish little scene to revisit them but snowballed into a whole depressing backstory for Dream and an illuminating look into his everyday life and again, it wrote easily which seems to be a theme with these faves, lol. But yeah. I would love to come back to this AU one day.

[himluv]

DA Review Series: Absolution

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This is the part of the list that gets a little... loosey goosey. Basically everything after Blue Wraith but before The Missing takes place in this weird, nebulous, in-between time. We know it's after Trespasser, after the Inquisition disbanded (per my and Bioware's canons) and before Veilguard, but we don't know when specifically. So, since we can't really say when these stories take place in relation to one another I'm just going to review them as I consume them :).

Title: Absolution Writers: Mairghread Scott, Mae Catt, and Tim Sheridan Release Year: 2022 In-World Year: ~9:45+ Verdict: Look. I love this fucking show. I'd watched it at least three times before I decided to do this big tie-in media marathon. And, I just rewatched it three times while convalescing with the flu this past week – turns out it's a very good comfort/sickie show. It does a wonderful job of orienting new viewers while not alienating old timers like myself, is fast-paced and fun, while also establishing a very interesting plot that could be vital to Veilguard. Basically, I highly recommend you commit to the three hours required to watch it.

Absolution introduces us to Miriam, a runaway slave from Tevinter, and her bff Roland (who may or may not be a chevalier?). The two are hired by Fairbanks to join his team for one last job for the Inquisition – steal a magic artifact from the Archon's Summer Palace. That's right, babes, Absolution is a heist story!

So, they team up with Fairbanks (Orlesian human rogue from Inquisition), Qwydion (lady Qunari mage!), Lacklon (dwarf warrior Lord of Fortune), and Hira (Tevinter human mage with whom Miriam has a romantic history), and head off for the city of Nessum. Of course, this is Dragon Age and nothing is ever as simple as it seems.

Miriam's former master, Magister Rezaren Ammosine, is in Nessum. In fact, he's the reason the artifact they're after (the Circulum Infinitus) is even in the city. He's studying it in the hopes of finding a non-blood magic means of activating it. Supposedly, the Circulum can restore life to the dead, resurrecting them to be the same as they were before. And he has a very certain someone he wants to bring back to life – Miriam's twin brother.

Without getting too deep in the details, Miriam and her brother were slaves raised alongside Rezaren, intended to become his bodyguards in adulthood. He claims to see them as his brother and sister, that they all were helpless in the face of his mother's abuse. And for a while the show does a good job of making us wonder if that's true. Certainly, Rezaren seems to believe it. At least until Miriam refuses to play along.

The heist does not go well. Fairbanks seemingly turns traitor, tries to kill Hira, and dies in the process. Hira is trapped in the vault, and Miriam is mortally wounded on the team's frantic way out. In a blood magic-fueled dream, Rezaren lays out his plans to Miriam, in the hopes it will convince her to rejoin him and the reanimated corpse of her brother. And, of course, it all boils down to the Magister's ambitions – he wants to become the next Divine of the Imperial Chantry, where he swears he will work to make Tevinter a better place. And yet, in his power fantasy, Miriam and her brother are still his bodyguards, just as they were trained to be. Even Rezaren doesn't seem to notice how deeply ingrained his view of them as "things" truly is.

So, obviously, Miriam and company aren't going to play nice with that guy. They hatch a plan to get Hira out of the palace, and things seem to be going their way for once. There's a lot of epic fight sequences, Qwydion is hilarious, and the romantic tension between Roland and Lacklon keeps ratcheting up. But when Hira makes a break for the safe house, the team follow her and start to get a whiff of the true betrayal.

The traitor was never Fairbanks (whose loyalty I never doubted!). He caught wind of Hira's true plan – to steal the Circulum from the Inquisition and deliver it to the Crimson Knight in Kirkwall – and was trying to put her down. I will never forgive this show for killing him, btw. I loved him so much! But Hira's real plan is even worse. All this time she'd struck a deal with Rezaren – return Miriam to him, and he'd let her have the Circulum once his ritual to restore her brother was complete.

Side note: Hira is stupid. There's no world where Rezaren actually lets her take the Circulum. None. So, she was willing to sell her (ex?)girlfriend into slavery for something that would never happen. And yeah, she makes a lot of promises about how she would have got Miriam back, how Miriam would have escaped, but we know Hira is a liar and a cheat and just as ambitious and driven as every other "Tevinter snake," as Miriam would say.

Anyway, there's a bunch more badass action involving blood magic, spirits, grenades, and a High Dragon (which again shows that dragon blood is extremely potent in magic rituals!). Roland and Lacklon finally kiss, and Miriam stabs Rezaren in the throat mid-meltdown. It's a beautiful end sequence. And even though the show is over, the team knows their work is just beginning.

Because Hira snuck off with the Circulum in all the chaos, and they know where she's headed. To Kirkwall. To the Crimson Knight... which appears to be a colony of sentient Red Lyrium, formerly known as Knight Commander Meredith Stannard. And she/they/it(?) is intent on seeing all of Tevinter burn. (insert my theories here about how the Blight causes feelings of intense hatred over time, as established in the book The Calling and further exemplified by the tainted Griffons in Last Flight.)

Obviously, I love this series and really wish we'd gotten a second season. There's just so much this show set up, surely we'll see more of team Absolution, whether in another season/show, in a comic or book, or... in Veilguard? Fingers crossed, y'all.

[coral-nerd]

okay, super curious, since I can't decide and need inspiration (you don't at all need to actually answer)

what are your farm layouts? Do you have a plan for them or do you just throw stuff down wherever there's space? I'm trying to decide how to decorate when I have the money and stuff

Oh dear oh no, now that really is the Coral Island question for the ages, isn't it?

Every time I start a new farm i tell myself, "When I get enough money, I'll completely re-do the whole thing and make it so ~ aesthetic ~ so for now I can just put things in places that are easy for me to remember where everything is."

And then I get to 2million coins and go, "eeeeehhh well I'm used to where everything is now, it would be a hassle to change, I don't even know where to put anything, idk what Vibe I want-"

Right now my only farmer who actually has a planned layout that's unlikely to change is Morimiya, who's a weirdo in that the thought process was "How can I plant as many things as possible and also maximise profit? Oh and keep animals too ig."

And I mean, it worked! He's got 12million coral coins! And more crops than he knows what to do with.

Although actually maybe most of my farmers are weirdos; Juniper's farm is basically my testing place for all the new items I haven't tried.

That one I have no intention of fixing up, it just lets me decide what I want for my other farms. For example: I don't actually like the turnip shed. The Pufferfish decor items are not worth it. Mushroom trees are super fun, but hard to fit in. Getting a good grid for your crops actually really helps. Pathways make things easier AND prettier.

And most of all, the valuable lesson of "as long as the insect and fish thingies look pretty and organised, the farm has a fighting chance of looking decent."

What I learned from Newcomer Hestia's farm is that part of my design problems come from bunching together all of my useful things, which then leaves too much empty space that I always struggle with.

And like, practically speaking I don't want to separate the useful farm items too much because then it's a lot of running around holding materials, but how do I balance practicality with beauty?

I thought I had done a pretty good job of that with Maya's farm, but there's still a lot of Dead Space.

Grass is super helpful for prettifying farms, but doesn't really cover the dead space. And to be perfectly honest, each style category does NOT have enough to cover the dead space on it's own. You'd have to do a lot of mix-and-matching.

Fun fact, Maya's farm was designed around the Smithing area, which I just randomly slapped down in the beginning. But I think having a Focal Point to build around helps.

But the lack of decorating really comes down to one main thing...

You can't line things up correctly in Coral Island.

See this? First thing when you walk out of the door, you just CANNOT line up a walkway with your door.

It doesn't matter how many beautiful items you get, there will be a lot of frustration just trying to put things down, hammer it back up, give all your coins to the giants to fix it, give up on trying to align it. Decorating is not very motivating when you'll have to spend many in-game days cursing at how a Single Tile throws off the whole vibe.

Plus when you are finally satisfied with the set up, your farm will get obliterated by space debris. So.

Anyway, that was yet another incredibly long-winded round-about way of saying, "I just put things down randomly and build around them. Then I dream of someday being able to actually decorate it."

I'm constantly looking up other farm layouts for inspiration and then just never get around to implementing it.

But maybe with my NEW farmer-

[wyllaztopia]

My question is: let's imagine that Nightmare had a childhood friend, his one and only childhood friend, and that she was a little girl who liked to fight to protect him and who literally had scars because of that because she literally fought every day to defend him, let's imagine that she survived the "incident", After the corruption of Nightmare how would he be with her? Would he be distant because he doesn't want to remember his past and the fact that he needed someone to defend himself, would he be tsundere with her or would he have a soft spot? Because I mean, his brother did not protect Nightmare because he was not aware of the others who harassed him, but she was the only one who had protected him, in part in any case. sooo.. would he be able to hurt her as much as he would be able to hurt Dream? After all, it's not as if she had protected Nightmare from absolutely everything, because as you said, it's not the only reason why Nightmare became corrupt and there were many others who added up.

ʕ•̫͡•ʕ•̫͡•ʔ•̫͡•ʔ•̫͡•ʕ•̫͡•ʔ•̫͡•ʕ•̫͡•ʕ•̫͡•ʔ•̫͡•ʔ•̫͡•ʕ•̫͡•ʔ•̫͡•ʔ (i love that enoji-)

I really love your version of Dreamtale! Joku doesn't give any more news so I have trouble orienting myself with Dreamtale’s story, but you show a whole new vision of things with Soulsborne! The philosophy you gave to Nightmare is much more complex than that of the original but I really hope that Joku will develop Dreamtale in the future! And we're counting on you for Soulsborne and his development 🫵🏼

thank you for such kind words omg this version of dreamtale literally came to mind when me and @neotxnic were reading the original dreamtale comic after we had a session of elden ring - it was also around the time i was delving deep into the dark souls trilogy lore. i wanted to add more depth and tone to the world of dreamtale and fromsoft games have really good story telling and lore so i wanted that to reflect on our revision of the story. note that i'm not trying to compete with joku and the original dreamtale. i think the original is good as is and very fun + heartfelt to read. on anotherrrr note - this will be a really long response to the initial question so buckle up because i will lore dump.

For this specific scenario, I won't make this character's insertion into the lore canon yet - I actually want you lot to share your opinions on the addition of Nightmare having a childhood friend.

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Nightmare and Dream were both born from the roots of Motus Arbor (the Tree of Feelings, the very being of Nim or what's left of her). The two of them are task to guard the tree - Dream guarding the negative apples and Nightmare guarding the positive ones.

Dream sought out to the people, he believes that through guarding the tree, he also has to guard the feelings of others. Thus, he often travels around the kingdom where he does his best to help his people have a brighter day.

Meanwhile, Nightmare keeps to himself and guards the tree while Dream focuses on their people to keep their emotions stable. He usually sits by the bed of motus arbor and reads books under its huge shade.

Because of Nightmare guarding the positive apples and the stereotype people have formed of him being the guardian of negativity (despite Dream's attempts to let people know that Nightmare isn't a bad person), many other kids would go behind Dream's back to harass Nightmare and accuse him of taking advantage of the positive apples.

This happens often but Nightmare never paid mind to these claims or mistreatment. Because of his pessimism being influenced by the positive apples that he guards, he's more of a realist (pessimism-leaning) - and so he doesn't see much value in the bullying.

However, a young girl around his age would stand up against the bullies, speaking up about their prejudice and unfair treatment. She called them out about how their judgement held no merit because they didn't know Nightmare personally, what right did they have to come to such conclusions about a person?

As the kids went away, Nightmare told her that there was no need for her to stand up for him since he wasn't affected by the mistreatment. He was perfectly fine simply ignoring the flock. She shook her head at his statement,

She told him her belief that passiveness won't progress society to a better environment. If we simply ignore the bad, does that make us good? Does that stop the evil? Does that stop the dishonesty? How will a wrong become a right if nothing is done for it to be so?

This philosophy was quickly dismissed by Nightmare; "Fighting fire with fire never bears any good fruit."

Despite their opposing ideals, this girl would pursue a friendship with the dark prince. She was true to herself despite how different their worldviews are but somehow, some of their morals were seen to overlap - such as their respect for intellect and honesty. The two both found enjoyment in books and being less social. It was a blissful friendship where they didn't feel the need to be someone else and the other was perfectly fine with it.

However, the conflict between Dream and Nightmare happened. Nightmare saw that Dream was being mistreated by the other kids, that they were abusing his kindness - and he hid his feelings from his very own brother, Nightmare. The guardian of negativity slowly realized that Dream's ignorance and selflessness - whilst spreading happiness… it was happiness given the wrong way. It was a clear imbalance.

And for the first time, he'd heed his friend's words: something had to be done. - and as for how nightmare would treat this friend of his in the present time? well, he holds no attachments. he had already stripped himself for any positive feelings towards anyone - including the very friend that pioneered his current ideals. however, deep down, he respects her integrity - a thought lingers within him that she'd understand his plans if one day she were to find out. however, if he finds reason to, he'll kill her with his own hands.

[toomanywatchers]

How Steven Lim Impacted Me Growing Up:

I may have joined the Watcher fandom about a year ago, but I have known Steven since the early days of BuzzFeed. That's right, I have always been a Worth It guy since Season 2 if my memory is correct. I have been a fan of food content as some of the many reality TV shows I would watch with my family growing up were competitive food shows a la Gordon Rasmey shows. The thing that differed me from the rest of my family is that I would indulge in YouTube content more than traditional media.

That is why I believe middle-school-me was inclined to click on my first Worth It video; “$17 Fried Chicken Vs. $500 Fried Chicken”. Though I clicked for the visually satisfying display of fried chicken-based dishes, I stayed for a completely different reason. Steven not only crafted a well-organized show while displaying a fun dynamic with his coworkers, and might I add his close friends- Andrew Ilnyckyj and Adam Bianchi- Steven also made a show beyond food and getting to share those experiences with friends;

He made a show to exhibit a wide range of cultures and traditions among various backgrounds masked by the concept of food/cooking for others. Covering a wide range of foods while also traveling to different countries to experience the culture face-to-face, and sharing these experiences with the world via YouTube. For me, a kid mainly watching people goof off while playing video games with each other, a show with so much substance should have not captured my attention at that age, but it did.

Now that I am an adult (of sorts), my appreciation for what Steven has made with Worth It has just blossomed into something real with meaning, and understanding. That same love and appreciation for Steven has tied over into Watcher when I realized he was one of the 3 CEOs of the company. Where, might I add, I see him coming out of his shell even more with Shane and Ryan and ultimately having the creative freedom to make what he wants to make, and make it how he wants to make it.

With the fact that he can create whatever now, Steven still bases his shows on a deeper meaning in understanding all the sides of various people.

Family. Passion. Love. Appreciation. Learning. -and- Experiencing.

Not only are his shows based on this deeper meaning, but he has also shown his selflessness by helping raise money for many charities and speaking out for the Asian and LGBTQ+ community. Let’s never forget too that he put the burden of dealing with the business side of Watcher and putting aside his creative wishes to make sure the company stays afloat. He has done so much for us, the fans, and the one thing this man deserves is our respect.

Steven Lim is truly an amazing guy from what I can see/what others close to him say on his behalf. Along with the few conversations I've been granted to have with him in the obeaver chat on the Wiscord. Steven cares about Watcher so much, and it shows. He has truly inspired me, along with the rest of team Watcher, to push and create. To push myself outside of my comfort zone to better myself as a creative individual, and all in all inspired me to take the leap and actually pursue my dreams in video production.

I hope Steven knows how much the fans love and appreciate everything he does for us, and I hope that one day I can say all of this and more to him in person.

We love you Steven Lim, and we are excited for what you continue to make for us all! <3

[poemnic-tarot]

Intuitive Channeled Messages For You

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(Disclaimer : This is a general reading please only take what resonated. For entertainment purposes only)

These are short messages I channeled without card, just intuitively. Please let me know what you think, I’d love to know!.

( Art designed on Canva )

🍰 🌸 🍬 💫 🍉 You Are Loved 🍉 💫 🍬 🌸 🍰

Pile 1 🧸

"You begin to get what life is all about. Every incidents, now you realised, was not a coincidence.It was meticulously planned for you to get here. Where you are today. Every road lead you here where you can see it all from an objective point of view. And you get it, you finally got it. You would not be confused no more, you trust the universe unconditionally. You will go where they lead you. There are fears of course and doubts and hesitation, but they would never stop you from vibrating in a high frequency, a vibration of love and compassion.

You used to be scare, all the time. Scare of life, of people in it, of all your choices, was it the right choice?, did i made the wrong one?.Why is everyone against me, why is the world against me?. Now you realised, it was just all karmic, it was designed specifically for you. So you could learn your lesson and move up. Ascend and become who you are today. Wise, at peace and more trusting than ever. Trusting of life, situation and most importantly, yourself and your choices. What you went through got you here today and you will be forever grateful. To the Divine,to yourself and your soul, for leading you home finally.

Poem: Sorrow To Joy by @cant-find-my-name

This big transition came through

A revelation

Firstly, we changed our beliefs

Reevaluate our wants and our needs

What makes us happy?

Who values we are following

Who we are without the things we do

Strip away all the unnecessary

Let go of pointless worries

To truly turn joyful

First, we shifted our energy

In this new me, being joyful

Is very easy

Song : Coming Back For You by Fireboy DML

Well I pray that the universe Gives you way more than you deserve When the tears fall like shooting stars Remember who you are Just look up to the sky you'll see

Well I pray that the universe Gives you way more than you deserve When the tears fall like shooting stars Remember who you are Just look up to the sky you'll see I'm coming back for you

🍰 🌸 🍬 💫 🍉 You Are Loved 🍉 💫 🍬 🌸 🍰

Pile 2🛍️

“I can still recall what happened vividly. The memories would never leave me. In a way, it shaped who I am. I identified with what I went through. All of it, the good and the not so good. I appreciates all the good times, all the good people. I wish them well and I know they would do the same for me. I am on a new journey. Honestly, I have no idea where I am going, where am I headed to?.It seem not that important to find out, I figure I'll just start step by step into the unknown. I’m willing to, in a way, I was waiting for this moment. Hoping for it in fact.

It seem I had shaded my old skin. Despited remembering everything that happened. I want to changed. I want to rebuild, I want to become something else. It not because I hated my old self or anything, in fact. It's the opposite. I love my old self very much, but I think it’s just time. Time for me to discover a new side of me that’s different. That the world have never seen before. I am excited, nervous but not scare at all. Which I'm thankful for, I want it to be a fun journey, learning about myself, who will I become. I love every versions of me, the old and I'm already sure that I will also love the new. I guess it's my new purpose in life, get to know thyself again and I'm looking forward to meet me.

Poem : Shooting Stars by @cant-find-my-name

My eyes Shined

They reflected the distance light

I’ve never pray so hard in my life

Wishing for a living dream

Wishing to know

What does all the pain mean?

Trying to find the reason

The universe put me here

And I can’t -

Find the reason

Even as stars shimmered

And shoot down

It is me that has been earth bound,

I can’t go back

I can’t go home

The limit is getting too loud

Going aimless

Wandering about

Maybe it is time for me to discover

Reach deep within me to know

How far did I come from?

And how far can I go?

Song: I'm Still Here by John Rzeznik (Treasure Planet)

I am a question to the world Not an answer to be heard Or a moment that's held in your arms And what do you think you'd ever say? I won't listen anyway, you don't know me And I'll never be what you want me to be

And what do you think you'd understand? I'm a boy, no, I'm a man You can't take me and throw me away And how can you learn what's never shown? Yeah, you stand here on your own They don't know me 'cause I'm not here

And I want a moment to be real Wanna touch things I don't feel Wanna hold on and feel I belong

🍰 🌸 🍬 💫 🍉 You Are Loved 🍉 💫 🍬 🌸 🍰

Pile 3🍑

“It's the people that loved you for who you are that helped you made it. They were a voice telling you not to give up, even when you wanted to. Even when there was no more reasons to go on, you think of the people who loved you. And in a way, their love for you saved you, when your own love wasn’t enough.

But you are still not out of the wood yet, but you're not scare of it no more. You are not scare to be alone anymore. People are your strength and there's experiences of that, but they are also your weakness. The world is more complicated and more than one dimensional and frankly, it's giving you a headache. You just want to live a simple life, a minimalist, no complication, alone in a forest surrounded by nature. You want your wood to turn into a forest. And build a cozy cottage to refuge there when the real world is too much. But most of your life, it's a graveyard of regret and it's full of shadows that you rather ignore. However, no more of that you finally decided. You pray for life to get better, for yourself to get better and in a way, you did not see a way out of it alive.

But in those darkness, you saw light and that light has led you to where the sun shined through. You can see better days," the monsters turned out to be just tree". There are better days, healthier ways to live. And in a way, you want to find that out for yourself. There are alway balance in life, you must remember one thing. When there's darkness, there is also light. When you encounter one the other will also find you. When you experienced one side, don't be scare to face the other. That is how you learn, that you will alway be okay.

Poem: Invisible Force by @cant-find-my-name

Something is choking me

The invisible force

Stronger than what's real

Maybe the scariest thing

Are what we're all thinking

Not necessary the truth

Or what happened

But what could have been,

It's scary to see

What isn't there

The affect is real

But the enemy aren't here

Song: This is me trying by Taylor Swift

I've been having a hard time adjusting I had the shiniest wheels, now they're rusting I didn't know if you'd care if I came back I have a lot of regrets about that Pulled the car off the road to the lookout Could've followed my fears all the way down And maybe I don't quite know what to say But I'm here in your doorway

I just wanted you to know That this is me trying I just wanted you to know That this is me trying

🍰 🌸 🍬 💫 🍉 You Are Loved 🍉 💫 🍬 🌸 🍰

Pile 4🍇

"Peace will find you, no need to seek it. It's there for you to tap into it, anytime, anyplace. No need to acquired more to get it. The misconception that you need this or that in order to feel whole. It a misconception, you only need one thing child. And that is yourself. If you have yourself, all of you, the dark and light part of you, the side you loved and admired and the side that make you look away. All parts of you deserve recognition. They are you and yours alone, so we got to honour them. Every part of you love you and want your attention and want you to acknowledge them. Let us finally do that. Let us look into the mirror and see ourselves finally.

We are a pure soul, there is nothing wrong with us, no matter what people implied. We are not broken, we are whole. Your soul is intact, it is there for you to go back and connect to it. Your soul is waiting for you to answer its calling. You heard it but you ignore it because life get in the way, but, if you're trying to find that fulfilment. That feeling of, aww there it is the thing I'm look for?, as annoying as it is, it is that part of you that you wouldn't dare look at.

Poem: Surrendering by @cant-find-my-name

Surrendering my sorrows

Surrendering to my flaws

If there is no Perfection

I would be perfect

Nitpicking my visions

Aiming for the best

Left behind a broken body

And an anxiety ridden mind,

Right path don't do that

Peace is not a compromise

Tis a birth right

Just like how everyone will die,

Getting my soul back

Revived my forgotten joy

Everyday supposed to be precious

Not wishing for it to stop

Song : Back To Beautiful by Sofia Carson

They say You're not good enough, you're not brave enough You should cover up your body Tell me, watch my weight Gotta paint my face Or else no one's gonna want me

Why do we say this to ourselves? And even worse to each other? Why do we say this to ourselves? Ooh

We gotta, get back to beautiful Gotta, get back to beautiful All these words, starting wars Over who can hurt who more Gotta, get back to beautiful

🍰 🌸 🍬 💫 🍉 You Are Loved 🍉 💫 🍬 🌸 🍰

Pile 5🍰

"Something is changing, you can feel it. More internally rather than externally. But it's changing all the same. But you're not scare or excited. You are just neutral about it. But there is that part of you that goes, Finally. Because lately, nothing evokes your interest.The desires you had once feel ill fitted. When you realised that nothing really matter, not in a depressing way, but more of a freeing way, You accepted that as truth. You are not satisfied in life, yes, but seeking more things will not do either. You don't want more per say, but there's something missing that you don't know how to put into words. The missing piece might not be tangible, might just be intangible things that you can't hold onto. Which way should you headed towards when your inner compass is kind of confused.

Forward is the way, you will never be lost, as long as you keep moving forwards and not stop. We will not rush either. When we are in a confusing state, we must take our time and experienced our moment fully so that there won't be a lapse in our memory. Memory is a tricky thing, if you think too far into the future or the past as you experiencing the present, then your present becomes filled with memories from the future or the past. So the present moment will never exist. Be careful of letting moments passed you by, it is alright to not know why you are feeling this way. It is alright to be confused or sad or even unsatisfied. It is alright to be in that state in your present because whatever you are feeling at the moment, the present will eventually become a past.”

Poem: Renewal by @cant-find-my-name

There is hope in this world

In words that you said,

Even though it's a lie

You tell yourself it'll be okay

Maybe not now

Definitely not right now

But hopefully someday

You begin to notice the yellow

In dandelions,

How it shine like gold

In certain light.

Now you finally see

The colourful sky

How many shades of it

Changed with time.

How every poem you write

Begins to rhyme

And you know there's a reason for all this

Every little bit of it

So whatever happened

Do not resist

For you shall learn to embrace it

Song : Take A Chance by Flume

So you feel all your powers unfold

Stretching our big wings while the white is turning gold So tell your story baby, don't give up, just let it all go out You're quiet wishing for something now

Will you be the one to take a chance? Have demands, spill your heart Will you be the one to take a stand Make the girls dance Spill your thoughts Will you be the one to take a chance? Have demands, spill your heart Will you be the one to take a stand Make the girls dance Spill your thoughts, will you?

🍰 🌸 🍬 💫 🍉 You Are Loved 🍉 💫 🍬 🌸 🍰

Pile 6🌙

"The unlimited possibility you seek is there for you to tapped into. Your believed is everything, so be careful what or who you believe in. Miracles exist, just look into a mirror and witness one. Look into your own eyes and wondered who that soul is. For it is you, but there so much you don't know about yourself, yet. Instead of feeling bad about that, we should feel excited. For it is a privilege to know thyself. Know your limit and your unlimited possibilities. How many grains of sand on the beach, that is how much your potentials lies. What you can achieved in life is up to how much you are opened to recieved.

My dear, you are magnificent, I wish you can see yourself through my eyes. How you hold on to life, wise beyond your years. Give it everything you got, no matter what that is, is such a human trait even gods envied. Every difficulties you go through know that those got nothing on your willpower to get through them. You are a strong little human, whose hope is bigger then the universe.You believe in the better, better days, better life, better energy for this earth. And your hope/light is what is keeping this planet alive. Keep believing in your power, because you are powerful. And loved by many.

Poem: Home Coming by @cant-find-my-name

My Divine Mother gentle touch

She taught me so much

By being nurtured we grow

By being loved we thrive

By being connected

We become part of the Divine

I know you look at yourself

And see a scare child

Darling, that's quite alright

Cause you are protected, alway

All the flaws should be

Embraced

There's no need for harsh judgment

Gentleness to ourselves is what

We should aim for

Realise what's important

Now look at yourself one more time

And see the true core

Song: Hummingbird by Metro Boomin & James Blake 

Hummingbird, summer sun, has it brought my life back? Hangin' in the balance, have you brought the light back? And how long's the night shift? She's sure I get away with Realizin' she might be all I need in this life

When I saw a cold snap, I wasn't with the season Attack was on the airport and outside there was a season In here paper walls are pushing back on you like Eventually you push through, the moment that you realize

And hummingbird, I know that's our time (That's our time) But stay on, stay on, stay on with me And hummingbird, I can never unsee What you've shown me, stay on, stay on with me

🍰 🌸 🍬 💫 🍉 You Are Loved 🍉 💫 🍬 🌸 🍰

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