#also before anyone tells me it’s okay to cry I know and ily but if I cry now idk if I’ll be able to stop

[whimsyprinx]

once again: sorry for being depresh on main again, it’s been a month, pms, my body being mean, overstimulation, generally I just don’t like life or myself so like lots and lots contributing to me wanting to cry

[churipu]

Idk if u take requests rn, but if you do, could you write fluffy moments with jjk men (pls include toji, i rlly wanna see him w fluff because there is like none) you fav would be cuddling, but you do whatever you want <3 Also, don't stress yourself when writing i, and please take breaks <33

JJK MEN + FLUFFY MOMENTS (๑ > ᴗ < ๑)

featuring. toji fushiguro, gojo satoru, nanami kento x reader

warnings. jjk men being softies

note. i just read the most heart wrenching nanami fic, i think i'm not okay at all </3 but hi anon, thank you for requesting this — this is exactly what i needed after reading angst. i apologize if it took a long time to get this out omg, i hope you like it.

and guys, omg???? 700+ followers? i genuinely never expected my works to be recognized by so much, and meeting new writers here and there, making friends, makes me so happy (i'm not crying) i love u all so so so so much, u guys rock, ily all <;33

TOJI FUSHIGURO

hated talking about the future, but ever since he met you — he rambles about it.

toji has always thought his future was nothing interesting, he kills people for a living, gets money off of it and he gambles. that's about it, so what was there to think about in the future?

meeting you was the firsts to a lot of things in his life.

toji grew up in a loveless household full of anger, and lust for power. which is why he is who he is today. distant, aloof, detached. people tell him he'd be nothing without his strength and face, there is no denying that toji fushiguro has a face card. he knows that.

so when he first met you, all he expected was like every other day. people caring about his face, and only that — and he'd play along although he's had enough of it, but no; you didn't care about all that.

face, money, strength. none of that.

he vaguely remembered the first time you spoke to him: "hey, mind helping me grab that box of cereal?" and he expected you to hit on him after, but you left it at that, muttering out a thanks and then leaving him in the aisle alone.

then for some reason he meets you again, the very next month. asking him the exact same thing, asking for help to take the cereal box which happened to be on the very top of the shelf. god knows why, both you and him just made it a routine every month after that. no communications about meeting and all. you both kind of just, met right in the cereal aisle on one particular day in the month, and then leave.

on the fifth month, he finally asks for your number.

"toji, is that your way of asking me out? because if it is, i'm disappointed."

"maybe."

and then you both kind of just sealed it; you're dating. nothing much changed, every month both you and him still go to the cereal aisle — he still helps you with grabbing the box from the shelf. the only difference was that now the two of you leave together.

toji hates talking about his future. but with you? he could go on for a whole day. he rambles about what he thinks and what he wants in the future with you.

"i wan' to get married. i wan' to marry you," did it caught you by surprise? yes. yes it did, "i wan' to have a family with you, a nice little family. i wan' to have a son so i could throw him around — but a girl is okay too, i can protect her from boys, i'll love them both equally. but i don't think i'll be a good dad to them. i'm scared they won't like me."

"toji, what? where did that come from?"

his back was pressed to your chest as you both lay down on the bed, one of your leg draped over his torso and he has his hand on your plush thigh, squeezing it every once in a while.

"i don't know. just a thought, i never talked about my future with anyone before," his body vibrated as he grunted, leaning his head back a bit, "i just don't think i'll be a good father, y'know?" he squeezed your thigh.

"why do you think so?" you asked him, placing your chin on the crown of his head.

"i just think so."

"stop thinking then," you chuckles, draping an arm around his neck, caressing his throat so softly it made the male shudder under your touch — but he didn't mind, he took comfort under your skin.

"can't." his voice was not stern or bold, it was soft and serene. he laced his fingers with yours, kissing your knuckles gently, "i can't believe 'm saying this, but 'm worried about my future. 'm a little scared."

just the fact he was admitting that he's scared about something was mind boggling, because the toji fushiguro? who kills people? was admitting that he was actually terrified of something, which wasn't even the strongest sorcerer. it's his future.

you were silent, letting him talk because when else would he be able to be like this?

"'m terrified. 'm scared i won't make you happy. what if i don't make you happy? what if my kids hate me?" so many questions that you don't even have the answer to, but you placed your hand over his lips, shutting him up.

toji grumbled, he swiped his tongue over your palm.

"ew!" you laugh, wiping your hand on his shirt, "but why're you suddenly talking about this all? which videos have you been watching again?"

"nothing, can't i think about my own future with you?" he shuffles, turning to face you, prepping an arm under his head as he stares down at you. not in the condescending way — he stared at you with so much desperation for love, he slowly blinks, the glint in his eyes never changing.

"why out of the blue?"

"jus' because."

you poked his cheek, "liar."

he sighs, latching his hand onto your hips, pulling you close. he buries his head into your shoulder in content, "jus' worried about it, i never think about my future in the past. but now — with you, i jus' worry about it because i didn't think i'd make it 'till now."

you chuckled, rubbing the back of his head lightly, "you remember that one time in the park when you see that little boy crying over spilled ice cream?"

he hums softly.

"and you bought him another ice cream, but asked me to be the one to give it to him because you were scared you'd scare him off instead?" you ask him, your fingers tangling with his hair lightly.

"yeah."

"you'll be fine, toji." you tell him.

"y'think so?" he retorts back, squirming a bit.

"i know so."

GOJO SATORU

he has to know about everything that you like, he needs to know why you like them. every. single. thing.

gojo chased after you. you were one tough cookie, he likes a chase. he's so used to people fawning over his looks that when you didn't — he just has to know your name.

the curiosity to know your name ended up pulling him in a spiral of this little thing called "love". gojo swore it was just curiosity, but everyone else besides him thinks otherwise, he promised himself and people around that he didn't like you, he was just, well, curious.

but curiosity doesn't look like that. gojo finds himself asking people about what type of boys you like, and when he finds out about it — he tries his best to be your type. he promised he was just curious.

gojo tries finding out what your favorite flower is, and when he finds out about it, he's out there sending big bouquets of it to you. he promised he was just curious.

gojo tries finding out what your favorite genre of music is, and when he finds out, he listens to them so he could talk about it with you. he promised he was just curious.

gojo tries finding out what your favorite series or movie is, and when he finds out, he watches them all intently so he could talk about them with you and hate on characters together with you. and he still promises that he was just curious.

he was just curious, he kept telling that to himself. so why does it bother him when you were out with another guy? another guy that's not him. not gojo satoru.

gojo asks you about who it was, and when you tell him it's nobody important, he gets upset about it.

"why are you so upset?"

"i'm just..curious."

"it's none of your business."

he left it at that. his whole week was ruined, he couldn't stop thinking about it. about you. and then he finally realizes, he wasn't curious — he was in love. so there he was, in front of your door at two in the morning.

"what?"

"who was that guy?"

"gojo, you're still onto that?" you ask him, tired, "i said it's none of your business. you're here at two just to ask me about that?"

"it's my business because i'm in love with you, damn it!"

gojo was half grateful when you told him it was your distant cousin, but half embarrassed as well. all's well ends well. he gets you in the end, and he doesn't have to worry about anything else — nothing in the world matters to him but you.

"baby, what do you recommend?" was one of the most spoken phrases he has delivered to you.

in restaurants, dessert bars, convenience store, movie theaters, anything you could recommend him, he'd ask for it.

"why do you always ask? don't you have your own preference, satoru? i'm not even sure if you'll like my recommendations though," he smiles at you, tracing small circled on the back of your hand.

"i want to know about everything that you like, and why you like them. i want to know everything about you," you look at him and smiled, honestly, what did we ever do to deserve him?

"why?"

"because i love you." yeah, he wasn't just curious. he's in love. and deep.

NANAMI KENTO

he always orders food that you like, and shares some with you — even if you didn't ask for it.

nanami never expected to be in relationships. in fact, relationships was the last thing in his mind — but when he met you, he just kind of felt attracted. he seeks for your comfort whenever he's tired, and when you weren't there, nanami just sort of drowns in himself until he could see you or hear your voice.

at the beginning of your relationship, nanami was never the one to initiate things because he wasn't an experienced male in relationships. you ask him and he just sort of do it without any other complaints.

but as time goes on, he get the hang of it. what he should do and what he shouldn't — it's adorable, he's started doing things that he never thought he would do in his life, but here he was sitting by your side; peeling apples for you because you wanted them.

"kento, eat some. it's going to be finished by the time you finish peeling every one of them," you joked, your legs on top of his thighs.

nanami hums softly, "it's okay. as long as you like it."

nanami doesn't realize the weigh of his sweet words sometimes, he does it and asks himself to why you were reacting like that. sweet talk is his vocabulary. he says it with no worries, telling you things you've always wanted to hear but never say.

but one thing that always stuck to him and you from the first time you got close up to now was: nanami always orders things that you like. you never understood the reason behind it, and when you tried asking him about it, he just tells you he was craving it.

it didn't seem odd at first — but as time goes on, his whole taste was just an exact copy of yours.

if you get something different than your usual menu, nanami will get your usual menu because he knows damn well that you're going to end up wanting them. although you don't tell him when the food comes, nanami makes it his job to share with you. and that's really sweet of him.

but when you get your usual menu, nanami orders something with elements that you like in them and shares them with you even without you asking for a bite. and not only that, he didn't share a spoonful — he shared a lot.

"ken, you don't have to share with me. i have my own food." you tell him, despite your heart tugging you to just let him share because you were too shy to say that you wanted a bite.

"it's alright sweetheart. i'm a little full." he lies. he ends up snacking on something on midnight, and it's now a routine.

so in exchange for that, you always make it your job to stock up foods ranging from small snacks like biscuits, chips, up to instant or pre-heated food. even cutting up fruits so nanami could snack on it, and he caught on to it pretty quick.

but he didn't complain, he likes it when you do it.

"ken, i cut out some mangoes and dragon fruit. you can eat them if you're hungry."

"thank you y/n."

mutual wins.

© CHURIPU 2023 , DO NOT COPY OR REPOST ANYWHERE

[thelikesofus]

Buddie Fic Recs

AKA Talented Mutuals Tuesday

Except I spent so long making this list that the timezones changed over BUT I wanted to show my mutuals some love and now that we are going into the hiatus I thought you might all like a list of quality fics to keep you occupied while there is no new Weewoo show. 

I don't know if anyone will actually want to join in on this but if you do the rules are simple:

SHOW YOUR MUTUALS SOME LOVE! Share your favourite fics, (or gifs, edits, literally anything that your very talented mutuals have made), as many or as few as you like but let's share the love around <3

Apologises in advance for the long post btw

@speaknowdiaz I would literally read anything that April writes and would probably sell a limb for the incredible WIPs I know she's still cooking up but here are a couple of my faves:

pining and anticipation (I don't want you like a best friend)

Buck challenges Eddie to try to hit on him after teasing Eddie for not having any ‘game’. This fic is very funny and very soft.

believe in one thing (i won't go away)

This fic hit me straight in the feels. Buck and Eddie go to couples therapy even though they aren't a couple and they work through some stuff.

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@thosetwofirefighters Incredible amazing Nat ily xx

Say It All Out Loud

Eddie comes out to Aunt Pepa after his ‘date’ with Vanessa. I am a little bit biased towards this one because she did write it for me but it's honestly just so good!

How to Cure Boredom: Buckley Edition

The 118 are stuck at the firehouse during a slow shift and Buck entertains them all by mattress-surfing the loft stairs. It’s soft and silly and in the same universe as her other fic Safe in His Arms.

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@loveyourownsmiilee The wonderful amazing Juju not only writes incredible meta and keeps us all fed with Oliver content but Juju also writes wonderful buddie fic. 

When Were You Under Me?

Who doesn’t love a Friends AU. This is Buck and Eddie as Ross and Rachel and it is hilarious and so sweet. 

You should also check out her Buddie Language Meta if you have not read it before <3

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@elvensorceress Jenwyn’s work always astounds me so be sure to check these out:

Color Him Father, Color Him Love

I will scream from the rafters how much I adore this fic and yes it did make me cry (happy tears). It’s a look into Buck’s head after his sperm donor kid is born and he realizes what Christopher (and Eddie) truly mean to him. I know I have recced this before but it deserves all the love. 

Unless You Ask Me To

Eddie dates a man for the first time, and Buck is completely 'Fine'. This is a preemptive rec because it is one chapter away from completion and I have been saving it to binge in one sitting but knowing Jenwyn and her incredible talent I guarantee this will be worth the read. 

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@spotsandsocks If anyone’s work is guaranteed to make me sob like a baby (happy, sad, or tears of laughter) it’s Spotty. 

Everything But (temptation)

This is Spotty’s newest fic and it's just brilliant. Buck is practicing extreme self-control whilst Eddie is being an irresistible menace. 

Could Have, Should Have, Would Have

Buck finally tells Eddie he loves him right before Eddie’s new boyfriend is supposed to meet Christopher. Honestly, all I can say about this fic is that it’s a masterpiece and I screamed many times while reading it. 

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@shortsighted-owl Wonderful amazing Owly (Abbi). I appreciate you so and you make my dash so happy xx

Of foam-moustached kisses, and button combinations

For all your sweet domestic buddie needs this is the fic. Eddie is practicing a video game to get better than Chris and Buck makes fun of his ex-technophobe boyfriend. 

Also THIS EDIT SET to the lyrics of You’re All That I Have by Snow Patrol make me assdffgghjjklkll

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@lilbuddie Okay, this one is just a brag because Minja doesn’t actually have any fics published yet (side eye) but I wanna make sure she is on everyone’s radar for when she does because yall are not ready for the incredible amazing talent that is this girl’s writing!! So go check out the snippets on her Tumblr and badger her until she finishes something plssssss

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@wheelsupin-five Hi! <3

Almost Almost Almost

This adorable of Buck who is always cold and Eddie warms him up I– asfffghhjkklllll

Under Kitchen Light

SO SOFT! Buck wakes up and Eddie isn't there, Buck finds him in the kitchen. 

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@rogerzsteven Simi owns my heart and by that I mean my heart is locked in a cage in Simi’s basement where it is occasionally beaten to a pulp by the most incredibly angsty fics you've ever read.

Cleanse

Buck is extremely nauseous and Eddie takes care of him while I sob over them in a corner.

build me a home underground (free from light and sound)

This fic is so brutal in all the best ways, my heart was in my throat the entire read! Buck gets trapped in a sensory deprivation room while the 118 and Athena race to find him. 

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@ashavahishta another incredibly talented mutual of mine

out of ashes

Is it really a Meegs rec list if I don’t rec this fic honestly it's engraved on my soul. This is a criminal minds/greys inspired fic where Buck is kidnapped and tortured until the 118 can find him. This fic is so so well written and means a million things to me I could never explain but pleaseeeee read it!! 

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@jobairdxx hello lovely xx

Oh, We Pray to Make it Through the Night

Highly recommend this fic, I do love a near-death experience fic! Buck gets injured on a call and Eddie falls asleep holding vigil at his bedside. 

Jules also writes beautiful poetry on Tumblr so go read some of that too <3

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@monsterrae1 MISS RAE! YOU INCREDIBLE THING! <3

love is on its way

I know we’re all a little bit in mourning over the couch theory but it lives on in our hearts and in this fic which has six moments between Buck and Eddie on the Diaz couch (and she’s a wee bit spicy too).

Buck's café (take my heart, just not my order)

Coffee Shop AU. Buck runs the shop where the 118 order all their drinks on shift. I absolutely adore this fic! 

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@alyxmastershipper RYAN!! INCREDIBLY TALENTED MUTUAL THAT YOU ARE!! 

there's always been a rainbow hangin' over your head

If “aasdsdfghhjkl” was a person it was me reading this fic. Eddie comes out to Buck, receives a quirky mug, and gets together with the love of his life. In that order.

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@bekkachaos Wonderful, amazing Bekka xxx

lose yourself in the feeling

I am a sucker for ‘accidental kisses’ and this was just wonderful. Buck is so excited about Maddie and Chim getting engaged that he kisses Eddie when he tells him. 

start me up, open my eyes

Okay, the mild sexual content tag is a lie, nothing has ever been closer to smut without actually being smut than this fic, I have never been so wound up reading a fic. Bekka builds the tension so so well. 

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@sibylsleaves honestly I'm still a little in shock that we're mutuals now so please excuse me while I fangirl over your incredible writing!

with a bird at your door

Eddie starts spending all his time with Buck. Which would be fine if it weren't for the fact that Buck is in love with him. This fic is the perfect mixture of pining, angst, and a happy ending. And yes I think about this fic frequently I love it okay. 

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@mysteriouslyyounggalaxy last but certainly not least (for now). hello lovely xx

(tell the gravedigger) better dig two

Missing scenes from while eddie is trapped in the well followed by the most perfect extended reunion scene. We all know I am a sucker for fics based on the well incident, it’s literally how i started writing for buddie but omg this fic!!!! 

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Remember to share the love around and happy hiatus to you all.

Love, Meegs xxxx

[elysian467]

Queen Ava Nash

I absolutely love Ava with my life....She is the best as both Ava Nash and Ava King because she is Her very own self!Be real guys,we all act petty at times and retaliate when we are wronged...yet she didn't cross the OCD boundary (not that Eli complained about it) and tried to make amends for when HE left the meeting to see her(Eli ily but that's all on you babe😆)

I have loved Ava long before her book came out because she is REAL.She was the coolest(She Reads!),most relatable and strong character.

She has her obsessions(Pink and Shopping),her passion for cello(plays violin and piano like a pro-mentioned in gow),is actually sassy and savage and loves her friends(remember how she checked glyn for injuries-the super cute moment won't get out of my head).She loves people and is not afraid to express it but she does not let herself be wronged and disrespected too.

Some people hate her for being blonde,loving pink and shopping but that's how people are!tf is wrong with u haters!?....Absolutely nothing wrong with being a social butterfly and party girl(though my heart breaks when its revealed as her coping mechanism from her episodes)

The way she messes with Eli when he hurts her feelings(he does it for her own good but she doesn't know that!) is called childish and bratty in so many posts but I think its real.That's what we do when we want to retaliate against our loved ones without truly hurting them(You are brats and childish haters)

She loves the fighting matches between the REU and King's U and that's so real like why the hell do girls have to be scared and worried mums who can't tolerate boxing???Like nobody is forcing the guys to do it!?(No one's dying chill tf out)

Also I hate Jeremy for when he spouted rubbish to Ava about not being there for her bestie Cecy and being toxic!?Like dude I googled toxic and you were there!?And before anyone comes at me,let me tell you that I read that unasked opinion way before gow was released so listen carefully....Ava repeatedly asked the reason for Cecily's breakup but she didn't reveal it(understandable since it can be difficult to talk about)Refusing to ask someone for help is refusing someone the chance to be helpful.....Ava,Glyn,Annie or anyone else couldn't know what happened if she doesn't tell them...Similarly Ava didn't tell her about her worsening condition or how she's been hiding the extent of it and how she was forced to marry Eli because that's reality....while they are each others confidants,no one tells someone EVERYTHING,there's always a tiny part hidden which may be known to one while unknown to another person.So Jeremy spouting shit to Ava just proved his serious need for therapy.I liked Cecily but only when she wasn't showing her doormat behaviour(Which was in every context related to Lan and Jeremy) proved by the point how she lacks assertiveness when Jeremy purposefully badmouths Ava,almost makes her cry when she is known to be "the protective mother hen of the group".(Like Ava has been your bestie since nappies!?Where is your protectiveness now??)Ig people find it cute but its really not when he is literally jealous of her relationship with her GIRL best friend Ava(Honestly there shouldn't be a problem if there was a Guy best friend either but you get the point)THAT'S REAL BOLD RED FLAG BEHAVIOUR(hurting someone's bestie is CUTE!??)

I know some people hated Ava when she slapped Anni but be real guys...They became friends with Annie that year while Creigh has been her close friend since she was born(Ava talked about how he was there for her in her dark time)I am totally with Anni when she shot Creighton because he made her shoot...was she supposed to watch her brother die tf!?(totally with her father's explanantion on the plane which she didn't heed to)Anyways Ava slapping her was totally right(lot less than what people would have actually done in real life situation when they see someone who SHOOTS there loved one)

The girls as individuals are okay maybe good ig but they are boring that's a fact...literally zero pride,self respect,self worth,no personality at all.

Loved Ari(Need her book god plsss😭)

So as you have read I LOVE AVA(I love Eli too but this is Ava appreciation post so😅)

Ava always retaliates....when Eli made her angry she messed with him too...She respected herself and demanded it when and where needed.She had the guts to warn Eli to treat her as his wife or she will find someone who will.

Ig people won't like me comparing her with other girls but the difference is so startlingly clear(Others were said to be several attributes like sunshine,strong,not-like-other-girls,relatable bla bla bla...but they couldn't keep up half of what was promised.....Ava was brilliant and so much more)❤❤❤❤❤💖

(As for the men my fav was Eli ofc)

(Loved Landon,Remi and Nikolai too)

(I find it soo amusing that Ava and Eli were my favs way before gow was released...doesnt happen often😁😆)

[thedensworld]

Hi den~🎀👾💌

I was wondering who your bias in svt is? I feel like it might be coups, mingyu or Wonwoo... or maybe vernon?

also how long have you been stanning svt for? And which is your favourite svt song? hope you have a great day! ily, take care 🫂

OKAY.. THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ASKING THIS, I'M SO GRATEFUL! LET ME GET SOME HOT COFFEE BEFORE ANSWERING! 🪑☕

Oh, I got into Seventeen around late 2022 or early 2023! 💓

I stumbled across this ridiculously handsome guy on Instagram with the username Joshu_acoustic👀 and had to look him up.

Honestly, I mostly started getting to know them through Going Seventeen (iconic, right? ✌) and completely fell for their personalities 🥺. After that, I gave their music a shot, and let me tell you—I melted! 💕

My favorite songs so far? Thanks, Don’t Wanna Cry, Good to Me, Trauma, Spell, and basically every Vocal Unit song. (Can you blame me? NO 🤍).

Now, choosing a bias? SO. HARD. Initially, it was Joshua (because, hello, he’s stunning 🌼✨), then Dino (his passion is EVERYTHING 💫). For a while, I adored Myungho because his personality felt so relatable to me.

But these past two years? HHU has me in shambles 🧚‍♀️. First, Mingyu—he’s such a walking green flag, I don’t even need to explain why. Like, he’s literally the man everyone dreams of 🤭💚.

And then there’s Scoups, Wonwoo, and Vernon. With them, it’s more personal. Something about their personalities feels like a mirror, and loving them has helped me love myself in ways I can’t even explain 🥹🤍. I’m so grateful I found them.

So yeah, it’s safe to say... Seventeen’s got me wrapped around their fingers! 💓✨

Oh, and I think I’m currently in love with Jihoon 🥺💓. Don’t blame me—how can anyone resist him? 🧚‍♀️✨

BUT HOW COULD YOU GUESS MY BIAS SO RIGHT? Is it that obvious👉👈?

[bubbles-for-all-of-us]

BUBBLES!!! okay first um are you okay babes???? I'm kinda worried about you so please keep me updated and tell me how you're feeling!

I promised a headcanon today so here I am!! and I'm gonna talk a bit about Ellie (because she's baby <3)

So you're welcome to expand as much as you want but basically, in my mind, Reader/you and Ellie are very close. There is this very nurturing and motherly bond between the two of you even if you're close in age and you're not her mom. Just like Joel, you feel the need to protect her and make sure she's okay but you actually are open about it. Joel adores her but he's quite clumsy with his feelings and their relationship is just based on the both of them 'acting tough' With you, it's different and when you arrive in Jackson, your caring nature becomes even more indispensable than before. You may ask why as you're all safe, you have a house, food, etc...but because you're not surviving anymore you have to find a new rhythm, discover what 'living' means and for a kid like Ellie who only knew the cruel, harsh world within the QZ, it is particularly difficult. She can't form a bond with children her age and she's also deeply traumatized from the different tragedies in her young life. And she relies on you a lot. I'm going to use the word 'clingy' but really, not as a negative remark. It's just that her development is a bit...backwards? Her early childhood until her teenage years were spent in force independence when she needed love and stability the most. So now that she has this 'stability' she finds herself completely lost and she doesn't know what to do, all she can hold on to is you. Of course, you allow her and encourage that behavior because it's important for her to feel safe and to finally have this 'normalcy' you've known from your early years. Anyway, you have a very close relationship with Ellie and it quickly became a habit that she slept with you while you were camping. Nights were often very cold and it was easy to get scared in the middle of the forest so naturally, you started bringing your sleeping bags together. That habit certainly didn't stop once you arrived in Jackson. Every night, you would take some time after dinner, etc...to tuck Ellie in, make sure she knows she can tell you anything she needs to talk about, remind her you and Joel are right down the hall and kiss her goodnight. Ellie will probably never admit it out loud but the attention and the love you give her make her feel all sorts of ways, it's so pure she almost wants to cry when you treat her with a gentleness she's never been accustomed to before. There are some nights though where Ellie feels worse than others. Sometimes she wakes up screaming from a nightmare and you and Joel found yourself rushing to her bedroom, holding her until she calms down. Sometimes, she wakes up randomly in the middle of the night and she just can't sleep. Sometimes she just needs you. Like tonight.

Aaaaand that's it for tonight!! what do we think?

I really really really hope you're already feeling better when you find this or at least that it could bring you some comfort and yeah, take care of yourself my little bubble ily <3

-🪷

Anh let's break it down.

She's seen way too much for a 14 year old. Done things that no kid should do at age like that as well. Of course it had scared her. Being an orphan, loosing people she loves, never having anyone to lean on had left her broken. So the fact that you, someone who had shown her emotions aka love, care, affection and so on. You are her main source of comfort. Cause now after 14 years of trying to survive on her own she actually has someone who cares.

It scares Ellie though. Probably even more than Joel but since she's a child she very naturally leans to the nurturing mother role that you hold. Because everything in her body is telling her that that's safety, that that's where she wouldn't have to be afraid. For that fact alone I think that the whole adaptation period in Jackson where everyone is like pufff there's nothing to be scared of here would be extremely hard for her. Because big walls, lots man with guns might read safe for most but it ain't for Ellie. So she requires your nurturing even more. She gets worried more easily, her brain still searches for bad things, for a way that she could lose this all.

I think you would be sleeping with her for the first week or so. The room feels strange, the hallway to your room is way too long and way too dark. She's not used to staying in a house. The sheets fell weird. Everything is way too comfy. I feel like you would find her on the floor the first couple of nights. And no matter how much you'll try to convince her to sleep in the bed, she just wouldn't do it. So you have little sleepovers on the floor instead.

You and Joel encourage Ellie to speak about the fears in head. Both sharing your own worries and how communicating them to someone you trust is a great way to let it go and to see a different perspective. But there's never any pushing in it. It she just wants to sit in silence that's what you three will do. Joel is big on taking her out to the farm so she could be around animals. Sticks around to watch her pet them and feed them. Challenging her to a pun war once in a while.

[rosewoodconch]

RWCH Readathon 2024:

Undercover Princess - Chapter 2

Everything about this chapter is so nostalgic to me. I read this book at 14 years old, and hadn't been away from home for longer than a guide camp. Now looking back as someone who just graduated university, it stings a little bit. Everything about this chapter, from leaving your best friends behind (and for me my family), to go somewhere completely new and on your own, your entire being packed into some suitcases and boxes is terrifying.

But I think that this book, and this scene specifically made it easier for me to do so. It let me know at 14 that hey it'll be okay, you'll find your people, and I'm really happy I did. Shoutout to all my uni friends who follow my non-rwch tumblr ily all.

I'm sure there will be a whole rant about the mantra at the end so stay tuned for that. ANYWAY

Ollie's letter is so endearing and it really shows his personality in a really susinct way. his hurt at being left being played off as a joke, even though you can still kind of feel the tension and fear he has.

The p.s about them being given a crown on arrival reminds me instantly of Barbie Princess Charm School

I also adore that absolute direct call outs in this chapter of them going you can't just decide you wanna go to Rosewood. It really emphasises how out of her depth Lottie feels when she gets there.

The tiara story makes me cry so much, I love how it's introduced and it brings such comfort to her

Also the line about it being an heirloom and handed down with the legacy of Rosewood now looking back i'm genuinely surprised we hadn't picked up on it.

I love the whole story that tells us about the tiara and the mantra and I won't get fully into it today, but I'm not exaggerating when I say this mantra has changed my life.

While chapter 1 was a brilliant comparison of the two girls, this chapter is where we truly get to know Lottie and she her vulnerability for the first time properly. She cares deeply about everyone and everything.

My favourite part is when it says that the tiara has the power to help anyone who wears it achieve anything, just like in the opening paragraph to the series, again affirming that Lottie is that special kind of person.

Be kind, be brave, be unstoppable isn't just a powerful mantra because of the words, but who each gives her them. Bravery is given by her mother, kindness by kate, a girl who moments before picked on Lottie, but soon changed to be kind, and gave her the confidence to embrace the final word for herself. Unstoppable.

[johnslittlespoon]

I love your bucky is dog fic so much!!! I reread it all the time it's so heart-warming and funny and just ahhh so good!! refreshing ao3 patiently and excitingly waiting for more<33

(a BIG mix of non–brainrot asks so i don't spam the timeline <33 some of these are from so long ago i'm so sorry. also lil disclaimer at the end about some specific asks i've been getting recently and why i won't be answering them! x)

1) !!?? you REREAD IT?? my heart wtf that's so sweet??? 😭💗 THANK U SM i will do my best to not let u down with future chapters even if shit gets a little bit angstier SDJKG <33

2) LMAO backseat gala–ing from the comfort of a couch 😭 judging the outfits as if they don't show up in plain tuxes half the time <3

3) <3333 thank u omg sjgkdk i'm so happy if my lack of stfu ability brings any bit of joy to anyone LOL

4) ILY THX LEGEND @air-exec u enable me too much <33

5) ALWAYS HAPPY TO INDULGE!! thank u for indulging my constantly rotting brain ur so kind 😭 <333

6) yaurrr i think it's just bc i do Not enjoy being around children LMAO i can't ever get into pregnancy/family dynamic type fics in general, i wish i could tho bc they're so wholesome :') but YEAH exactly ugh. it's like. the action of talking about it, especially when it's unattainable, is so intimate bc it's like an "i love you this much" thing. but it's also so hot bc the possession of it (and possible feminization depending on the pairing) sighhh

also i feel that sooo hard, sometimes you just gotta go where ur writing heart takes u yk? it's hard to write something if ur not fully invested :') and omg stop i WILL cry. 😭💗 wtf. thank YOU!! ofc i would read!! some ideas just /hit/ and urs is one of them <33 but also yes omg it's UP there (if not at the top) on my list of pwps i wanna write once i finish yad(iym) <33 thank you for sharing urs too and sending u good writing vibes regardless of what u write!!

7) GAHH this ones been on my ao3 read later since u sent this ask in!!! i literally have started a doc with links to moots fics i need to read/general fics i've stumbled across that look good and this one is for sure going in it. i do love reading sooo much, i just have the hell combo of adhd and dyslexia but i did start concerta a couple weeks ago which has def made it a bit easier to read lmfao thank fuck.

i think i just get in this headspace where i'm either a reader or a writer when i'm working on smth, idk if anyone else does this? i have a hard time slipping btwn both mindsets, i'm usually locked in on one at a time LOL but i need to get my shit together bc fuck everyone in this fandom writes so damn good and i want to leave long essays on all the fics and hype people up <33 i think once i finish the dog fic i'll take a few days to just consume my reading list to celebrate SJDGK

also omg i can't believe this ask is from before i even posted it that's crazyyy MY BAD. thank u and also that made me giggle JSKDG if that's my legacy in this fandom i'm honestly so happy ab that okay dog coded bucky is everything to me and i will do whatever i can to do him justice <333 and thank u again for the rec!

8) [ X ] UGHHH stop mammal RUINED me. he's soososoo pretty i want to die i think about that barry era as curt in the motaverse so often it makes me sick. i love pretty twinks!! xx (i have a whole motaverse au curtbucky where curt looks like 2012–ish barry and he's ken's age and they're cute lil mechanics together and it's so stupidly elaborate and niche and maybe i'll do smth w it one day who knows)

9) this is very sweet and i do appreciate you respecting my boundaries! thank you <3 i think a lot of people get annoyed at adults asking minors not to interact with nsfw posts on here bc the argument is always "they're gonna look even if you ask them not to" which, yeah, true! i was a teenager growing up online, i sure as hell did not let 18+ warnings stop me ever lmfaoo. i'm not telling minors to stay off my account because ik if people wanna find specific content, they're gonna find it. if teens are learning ab gay sex thru my blog, then at least they're learning ab it from a gay man who tries to keep things realistic in fic and who isn't a creep LOL.

that being said, i more so bar off minors interacting with my nsfw posts/writing bc i personally just feel uncomfortable discussing stuff like that with anyone who isn't an adult, and sometimes i don't have the time to check bios for ages (or sometimes bios don't have ages) before i reply to comments or whatever, so it's just easier to ask that y'all stick to the sfw so i don't accidentally brainrot some cooked shit with a child JSDJKG bc i would feel icky. i hope you understand <3

10) IT MAKES ME SICKKK. not only that, but when i was rewatching it with my irl last week, i realized that in e5 when bucky's smoking in the plane after gale goes down, he's sitting in the right (gale's) seat, which i'm pretty sure he doesn't do at any other time :((( like he was trying to be close to him in anyway he could </3

11) omg i've been meaning to watch that just to get a better inside look at stuff for world building purposes lmaooo but that sounds so wholesome :( i read that a lot of the guys would get real sad/touchy around holidays (obviously), so i could see a oneshot where one of them takes it upon themselves to try and cheer everyone up the best they can under their circumstances. a little found family holiday </33

12) thank u for the rec!! i'm suuuch a slow reader, i'm still working my way thru the actual mota book LOL but i've added this to my reading list <3 i think i might've actually read a couple excerpts from that one in doing research for my fic and it looks really interesting (and heartbreaking) so i'm sure i'll pick up a copy eventually :^)

13) oh 100% agree!! as someone who already isn't super interested in fashion/pop–culture, i find it very hard to look at the men's outfits and be blown away by any of them LOL but the women?? insane. was losing it over lana and zendaya's fits tonight ngl. hunter had me in a chokehold with last year's <3 tangent alright i always say this to my friends but i'm just jealous in general that women have so many more options in terms of clothes like.

okay listen i know i can leave my house in a skirt or crop top or whatever and a lot more guys are def starting to feel comfortable doing so. but i also enjoy not worrying about getting jumped or looked at funny! it's a lot safer than it used to be to do so, even in my small ass conservative town i'll sometimes put on some dangly earrings or a bit of rodrick–liner SJKDG but that doesn't mean it's normalized yet or whatever. point being that i wish it was because men's outfits would be sm more exciting at these fashion events if they had a wider range of options too!

but that aside, absolutely. until that changes, really it's not that hard for the men who are going with women (who don't want to go crazy with their outfits/who are more lowkey like you said) to just. wear something nice and on theme that compliments their partner's outfit and they'll be FINE. anything is better than something boring with no effort; effort doesn't have to equal crazy and fancy and elaborate. like austin's 2022 look has always been a standout to me because it was still a really nice look (even if it was simple) and it also worked so well because of who he had at his side. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ but i also literally don't know shit ab fashion so i rly shouldn't be speaking on it LOL. i just know some things make me go oh no and some make me go YUM

and that's probs the last i'll post about the met bc i rly don't care thaaaat much, i was just happy to see barry since he wasn't at the panel this weekend <3

OKAY THAT WAS SO MUCH I'M SORRY. i just felt really bad bc some of those have been sitting in my inbox for months bc i was waiting to compile them all into a post like this :-) but also one last thing, idk if it's bc of me stepping out of mota to talk ab the emmy stuff/the met this week, but i've had a couple gossip/drama(?) asks and i just wanna say rn that i won't be posting stuff like that, even though they've been worded kindly! one, because i rly only post about fic/brainrot/mota–fandom related stuff here (aside from rare exceptions like today lol). and two, because as much as i adore our boys and try to keep up with the things they're up to, i personally don't vibe with speculating about them (esp if it's in a way that kinda. forgets they are grown men who probably don't think twice ab some of the stuff that people think they do lolol). i have no issue with people who do like to talk ab that stuff, i follow update blogs and think it's totally fine as long as it's done respectfully! i just don't feel like talking about gossip fits the vibe here and frankly i don't care enough about what goes on behind the scenes half the time; i'm just here to create and support and be insane. <33 that's all, just wanted to say that so ppl aren't waiting to have those asks answered/aren't sending more in! x

[heartfeltletters-written]

She ignored her instincts for now, certainly, the quadrant wouldn't kill them all right before the crossing of the Parapet.

Hahaha. . . Ha. .

“I’m telling you it’s more work for us” Ridoc kept saying, “they pretend that second year is all about not having any responsibilities…”

Second year is all about having bruises and broken bones 😀👍 We shall not talk about mental torture yet.

“It’s embarrassing, I tripped down the stairs and landed on my hand. I went out earlier in search of Nolon but apparently, he’s full to the brim.” Nadine sighed.

*sighs and take out a Machete* looks like we have a certain someone to deal with. Just give me the sign author, really won't mind killing him (Jakey Backey).

“I have some mild painkillers” Violet offered, “I take them sometimes when the pain is too much to get through the day. They don’t make you sleepy, but the muscles become more relaxed.”

I want to cry whenever this is mentioned in any fanfiction 😭

I know we should not treat Violet like a fragile flower but I can't help feeling worried about our girl.

“Last year, you learned how to ride the dragons who chose you. This year, you’ll learn what to do if you fall off. Welcome to Rider Survival Course, or RSC for short.

Solutions for riders falling off their dragons:

Sadle ❌️

A bunch of broken bones and PTSD ✅️

Anyone who wants to start a college should definitely take lessons from the guy who set these rules 👍

Violet knew for sure that if Caroline had the opportunity she would kill her without hesitance.

And I know that Andarna, even if she does not have the opportunity, will love to get a temporary chew toy 👍👍

His expression fell, “Don’t.”

I really don't want to imagine what they do to those people.

She had the conduit strapped on her today, close to her skin inside a bracelet Mira had given her years ago.

MY HEART HURTS SO MUCH WHENEVER MIRA IS MENTIONED- THE SORRENGAIL SISTERS AND THE BEST AND THE STRONGEST HANDS DOWN

She was aware that both him and Garrick were not her biggest fans but at least Garrick was civil. Ever since they arrived at Basgiath Bodhi had been more hostile towards her.

Clearly, Garrick has some decency left in him 👍 And also, he would not want to face the wrath of his future girlfriend, now would he?

“Her and your friend in the same squad won’t go well, or are you expecting that by putting them in the same squad they won’t want to kill each –”

Bodhi is such a smart guy yall 🤌🤌 He thinks that the prince will come announcing his name to the whole world.

“I’m warning you Bodhi, step down. The last time I flung a dagger at someone I didn’t hesitate,” and the last time she’d done it had been to her brother, who unlike Bodhi was family, “the only reason why you’re still unscarred is because I know Xaden cares for you and would hate to see you hurt especially by me, but don’t test me.”

Bodhi, ILY man but back the FUCK off. Thank you 😀

“Or what Sorrengail?” he provoked.

Dear readers and author,

We are gathered here to mourn the loss of Bodhi Durran, Xaden Riorson's cousin, who is a victim of homicide. Rest in piece dear one.

*whispers to myself* Violet has done a pretty good jod by feeding the body to Tairn.

Thank you!

“I’ll allow it but you need to get a reign on your squad, Mathias.”

Get a reign on your signet and tongue first. You'll never know which one will lead you to your doom.

She couldn’t avoid her feelings, and she wasn’t sure she wanted to. The least she could do was have fun with her friends.

Okay, that's enough. *gets a warm fuzzy blanket with black and golden dragons printed on it* I'm taking her for a while. *wraps her up in a blanket and hugs her*

Violet reminds herself to thank Mira again for gifting her this the next time she writes to her. She wipes her head around in her search for Ridoc, Sawyer, Rhiannon and Imogen, they’re alive and safe.

MIRA W SNSKJSKSKSSKWN I MISS HER SO MUCH

“Ciaran is dead.” she simply states.

I-

“You do not have the right to burn what is mine” Tairn warns

*bawling my eyes out* here *sniffles* take the award for the best male at the moment in this masterpiece of a fanfiction.

omg thank you so much for reading <3

second year is fine .... idk what you're talking about nothing suspicious happening *nervous laugh*

jack barlowe pisses me off and i could have killed him but unfortunatelly i have plans for him so we'll have to deal with him a little longer plus nolon being shady

i always try to insert Violet's EDs in the most "normal" and casual way possible, she has it and she has to deal with it but dont diminish her casual pain.and yes i want to hug her very bad and beg her to go rest and listen she can be a badass and still need that care !!

if u ever plan to open a dragon's college read Basgiath as in: what not to do

Andarna deserved to eat someone in canon my baby is just hungry she's done nothing wrong !!

Violet and Mira are the definition of sisterhood !! those girls love each other soooooo much they're so special to me !!! i can't wait to start writing them together (also no Violet being upset about getting a letter from Mira that doesnt happen in MY canon)

Imogen has Garrick wrapped around her finger but neither knows it yet

Listen Bodhi is smart BUT he's mad at life he's not thinking very clearly right now.

Tairn is carrying the male population on his back and he's tired he's too old for this

[ripaxed]

Hm. Thoughts

The Rajbow conflict ended how I thought it would but I wanted more. I mean you saw my dramatic ass post about it yesterday and then it gets resolved in like. 2 minutes. If Bowie’s going to stay another episode after the reveal then their make up should have been stretched out between them.

Merge is too early also. Have the stunk butts lose, 3-3 tie vote between Bowie+Raj+Wayne for Julia and Julia+MK+Ripper for Bowie. Julia stays because of winning more immunity the previous season. Bowie gone. Continue as normal.

Well, it seems that Mkulia getting out for cheating has passed. I’m on board with that. Though, if they aren’t the double elimination, that mean it could be Ripaxel or, disappointingly, Raj and Wayne again.

Damien is a dungeon and dragons player. Ily so much Damien. Love him getting the first immunity this season.

I like Julia scheming even outside the cheating. Speaking of, I like Ripper getting to participate before the teams merged.

I like Zee having more focus. Tho, every episode past episode 1 I think it’s his time to go. And then he doesn’t. So at this point I’ve accepted he’s winning a million dollars

Ripaxel made out ugly style all night. Axel’s only weakness is Ripper. I care for them.

Nichelle’s training off screen was stupid and her getting eliminated like that is stupid. (Three consecutive early game female boots with characters that had so much potential? Horrible). Not only is it dumb, it’s sad. The deal was fake, so she leaves with nothing. What was the point. It wasn’t even funny.

Not only is the Priyaleb plot being unjustly dragged out (there is no reason why Caleb would not have confirmed to Priya he wants an alliance by now), it’s also lost the only interesting part of it.

The reason I was tolerating this plotline was A. It was mildly funny and B. The fallout of Priya realizing Caleb doesn’t like her romantically. But now Caleb is starting to like her back! So both of those factors are out. Zee is gonna tell Priya tell Caleb doesn’t like her, she’s gonna run away and cry, then he’s going to tell her He Really Does Like Her! And then they’re gonna kiss and Priya will be voted out. Fucking boring.

Okay, to be somewhat fair to the writers, I like that the episode is starting to give them actual foundation for a relationship. I like them relating to having parents with too high expectations. I like seeing more of Priya’s “firsts”. A major part of her character is being denied childhood milestones. First season we saw her make her first friend. Now we’re seeing her first crush*. That’s a cute idea. There’s even some novelty to the winner falling for the first boot. But that cuteness and novelty is not enough for me to like this relationship. There was no build up to this. Look at Ripaxel, for the two episodes Axel was in the game, they have interactions in both, with episode 2 putting large emphasis on their dynamic. Despite not being an official couple, look at Mkulia, another pair of character this season. They interacted throughout the first season and episode 6 put major spotlight on their dynamic. Caleb and Priya? I can’t even tell you if she looked at him in the first episode. Maybe the following episodes could win me over for them, but I highly doubt it. If Priya had to have a hetero romance plot this season, couldn’t it have been with Damien? At least then it would have had set up from the last season. Or, how about not put this much time into the character who won last season and put it into characters like Emma, Nichelle, or Millie.

*I know having a first crush is not a universal experience. I am aromantic. I have never had a crush on anyone.

[hannahlovesluca]

hey hey! i saw you were doing ninisani matchups and i wanna request one pretty please 👉🏻👈🏻 if not then that’s okay!

Gender: Female

Pronouns: she/her

Sexuality: I am straight, basic like that but boobies are hot.

Zodiac: Pisces. the fish.

Appearance: I am 5’4 and have pretty long hair that reaches my waist, it’s brown but the inside part of my hair is dyed purple currently, it was pink until a few days ago! I also have big boobies, they are my pride and joy, my personal stress balls (heh balls). I am fair skinned i’d say, my eyes are HUGE bro it’s a jumpscare, they’re also green so that makes it so funny when i look at someone with fully opened eyes randomly. the way i dress is very random because one day i will be looking like an angsty teen and the other day i will be looking like a business woman, but i do put too much effort into the way i look.

MBTI: I AM IN ENFJ and i do take the test every year, that’s what i get

Personality: Dude if it wasn’t obvious by now i am literally like a little too extroverted. I ADORE being around people, in fact i find it to be so easy to just make a random conversation with anyone on the street. If i think someone looks cool i will go talk to them and become friends, literally collecting them friends like pokémon. I am known to have a pretty flirty and booming personality. I can get pretty annoying due to how loud and energetic I am, i would call you at 3 in the morning to tell you that i beat my record in Hades. I do tend to have a short temper when it comes to incompetence and to people who are clearly two faced or just full of shit, i would say i am pretty good at reading a person as well :) if you yell at me i will cry tho so dont BUT FOR THE MOST PART I AM A DELIGHT (i love dogs and cats as well 👉🏻👈🏻)

Likes: MUSIC, IKEA FISH it’s so good and melts in your mouth omfg the haddock is everything. Trying new things, horror movies even though i am a coward, r-r-r-roblox👉🏻👈🏻 , AND WAFFLES.

Dislikes: PEOPLE CHEWING LOUDLY OMFG PLEASE JUST SHUT UP BEFORE I SHOVE MY FOOT DOWN YOUR THEOAT PLEASE, people who beat around the bush.

Love Language: basic yes but it’s physical touch, receiving and giving. But i would also say words of affirmation for giving as well :))

EXTRAS: I can fluently speak four languages. I will also always announce when i am going to pee. why? not sure 👩‍🦯

(you’re so cute ily mwah mwah all the love 😩🫶🏻🫶🏻 i hope your day is going great pookie bear 👉🏻👈🏻)

i pair you with…

Doppio Dropscythe!

hear me out…

• you and doppi mesh so well together!

• you’re genuinely like the same person

• honestly the man didnt even know what coochie was so he probably doesnt know what roblox is but he’ll play it if you ask (but he’ll be making you play Bug Fables)

• tbf i didnt know what coochie meant either but like… english is my sl….

• LMAO HE’LL PROBABLY CHEW REALLY LOUD ON PURPOSE JUST TO ANNOY YOU THIS LITTLE SHITHEAD

• “what are you talking about Y/N?” he says, still chewing. “i’m just eating!”

• i hear his voice saying that…

• HE LOVES YOUR EYES

• THEYRE SO PRETTY THEYRE SO UGHHHHHHHHHHH

• god he goes insane just thinking ab you hes so smitten

• i hc that it takes a lot for pio-chan to fall in love, but once he does, hes forever smitten

RUNNERS UP: Shu Yamino, Luca Kaneshiro

[rainintheevening]

Sorry not sorry, I'm going to ask for Steve and Bucky. 79.

Look, it's not who you ask for, I'm shocked you've only sent me one ask. Come on, girl, up your game. :D

Okay, from 100 ways to say ILY

Uh, this one got angsty. Also feels different from my usual S&B stuff...

79: “I’ll still be here when you’re ready.”

Bucky crossed the room, footsteps deliberately heavy.

Steve didn't even twitch. The comforter underneath him was rumpled, but he clearly had slept on top of the blankets. His back was to Bucky, his arms gathered in close to his chest. His breathing stayed steady.

Bucky paused by the bed, frowning softly. "Hey, pal?" he murmured, cautiously reaching to touch Steve's shoulder.

Steve jerked, he flinched away from Bucky's fingers, and they both froze for a long moment.

Steve cleared his throat lightly; Bucky exhaled and let his hand fall back to his side.

"What do you need, Buck?" Steve asked hoarsely, turning his head a little, but not meeting Bucky's eyes.

Bucky's heart ached. After all he'd been through, after everything they'd done to each other, he still asked what Bucky needed. It was his turn to clear his throat.

"Just wanted to know what you'd like for breakfast. Nat's cooking this morning."

"Not hungry. Right now." It took effort for Steve to add that, Bucky could tell. "Leave something in the fridge maybe."

"Okay."

"Thanks." Steve dropped his head back onto the pillow.

Bucky stood by the bed long enough that he would have grown in uncomfortable with anyone else. But with Steve... He watched the slivers of sunlight that had slipped through the blinds gleaming on Steve's hair, his cheek, his jaw.

His face was mostly healed, but the ragged line that ran down from his ear to his neck seemed to be an actual scar.

But his leg... Bucky wrenched his gaze away, took a deep breath. He wasn't good at this, he could only remember what Steve had done when Bucky had first returned. But for Steve, he could try.

"Stevie," —a startled breath from the man on the bed— "I wish you'd talk to me. Or Sharon. Or... someone. I know this is hard, trust me, I know. But– You can't keep shutting us all out. It's not... good for you. Or us. I think Tony is losing his mind because he's got too many ideas and no feedback from you. And Sharon..."

Steve made a small noise, squeezed his eyes shut, and Bucky yanked himself up short.

Crap.

"No, Steve–" He exhaled a growl of frustration. His hand twitched, but he held himself in check. He hated not being able to comfort Steve with his touch. For now, words would have to suffice.

"Please, Stevie, no guilt, okay? We just... care about you. And we know it will take time. But you gotta start somewhere. If you just... I don't know." The lump swelling in his throat brought his voice down to a whisper. "Start with me."

The words hung between them for a long time.

Steve was crying, silent as a stone, and Bucky felt as if his heart would explode, it was breaking into so many little pieces.

Still with clear, deliberate footsteps, he moved to the bookshelf, grabbed the carton of kleenex.

"Here, Stevie." He came around to face Steve, made sure the other man could see him, as he set the box on the blanket.

He took one for himself.

Steve made no effort to reach out. And wasn't that just the story of the last month.

"I'm sorry, Buck," he said, but it didn’t even sound like Steve, so strangled and broken. "Maybe... maybe tomorrow."

Bucky caught his breath, blinked. Blew his nose, while the words sank in. A light came on somewhere.

That... was a first.

Hope warred with cynicism, before Bucky caught hold of hope, held on tight.

"Okay. Okay, Stevie. And you know, you know I'll still be here when you're ready. I'll be here for you."

Steve nodded against the pillow, brought up one hand to cover his face.

"Thanks," he whispered.

Bucky watched for a long moment, aching with love and hope.

"I'll label your food," he said finally, stepping back, heading for the door. "And I'll be back to make sure you've eaten. You know how I like to nag."

No response. But when he glanced back, he did see Steve reaching for a kleenex.

[1d1195]

Bestie I had to search my email for the answer to the personality quiz because i took it YEARS ago lol The email said INFJ-T but then I decided to take it again because I think i have changed a bit since then lol The one I took today, i got INFP-T which is the "mediator". I think in some ways most teachers having an extroverted personality makes sense in my head lol In my head it also makes sense that might would be an ambivert but then again idk lol And i Use to LOVE those buzzfeed quizzes! I have a vivid memory of taking those quizzes with friends on the school bus ride back home in middle school lol

Your bf may have a point bc it's pretty common that when parents want to be "friends" instead of "parents" with their kids it mainly stems from other issues which then their kids are exposed to that. BUT I AM IN NO WAY DISSING YOUR MOM! literally being a parent is hard and that's just a generalization and very simplified version from what i've studied!

It's okay! I dont think any less of you or anything negative like that! Some people just don't get too much exposure with other cultures and that's okay as long as you are respectful, questions are always good to ask! Especially with Latinx/Hispanic cultures, they often get clumped together but there's a lot of diversity within those too! Ngl i BAWLED my eyes out Coco when it came out and I saw it in theaters with my parents and they cried too lol But its a yearly rewatch just to cry lol especially since my family actually celebrates the day of the dead it's in some ways therapeutic lol and I've never seen Encanto but i have seen clips and generational trauma is REAL so i understand how people found it so appealing, plus the songs were catchy lol And don't worry about unloading! At least for me, if it got too much I would tell you and I feel comfortable to do so because I know you wouldn't do anything with negative intention!

i will be SAT when you get to TA Harry! my TA is just SO AHHH like idk something about his vibe is something! Like he exudes confidence but not in a way where he's a jerk! plus bestie... HE HAS A SLEEVE OF TATTOOS! he wore a short sleeve today and ugh😵‍💫 I was going crazy in my head! i HIGHLY recommend going to a drag show! i love the drag scene! I think you would probably enjoy a nice drag brunch since those are mainly not in clubs or late at night lol But i do get not wanting to do too much when it's not needed lol like I DONT BLAME YOU!

BAHAH A COUPON! i kind of love thinking of it like that now! And my week is going okay! I went to the bookstore on campus today and got one of those "blind date" with a book so that was fun! I hope your week is going good!! ILY SO MUCH!! thank you for always taking the time to read my messages and responding 😭-💜

I so had a feeling we'd be similar!!! INFJ/INFP either way. I know there's a distinction but four out of five is pretty normal.

No my mom is def one of my best friends and that comes with good and bad. My mom relies heavily on me emotionally and kind of physically. My dad's in rough shape and my sister is also one of my bff's but she's useless when it comes to family stuff. Do you have siblings? I think you said you were an eldest daughter (but I totally could have made that up).

Okay long-winded thing that I talked about with my sister the other day, here we go: I saw this thing that said "you're only remembered for three generations." I thought that was so devastating and tragic because I hardly know my great-grandparents and I know NOTHING about anyone before them. I think I said to my sister word-for-word: "ya know, Day of the Dead is where it's at. That's how you're remembered that is the nicest, sweetest way to remember your family, your heritage." Like I'm really into my ancestry and I want to know more (but there's really not much about us--bunch of European peasants more than likely HAHAHAHAHA). But part of me wants to write an autobiography (it would probs be the MOST boring biography in the history of the world). It just seems sad to me that after a few generations I'll be forgotten, through no one's fault or anything. It's not like I'll be a famous politician or celebrity or a composer. It's just so wild. Anyway, all of this to say I think Day of the Dead is SO nice and cool (also it kicks of my b-day month) But I would love to learn more about your culture if you'd like to share! 💕

A SLEEVE OF TATTOOS OKAY SAY LESS 😍🤤 I'd melt. TA-Harry is writing itself! I have a thing about forearms--not like in a WEIRD way just like okay what was the reason for someone's forearm to look sexy? Like how does that work. There might just be something wrong with my brain.

OMG I've never tried a blind-date with a book! I love it! That sounds like so much fun! Let me know how you like!

LOVE YOU!

xoxo

[hotxcheeto]

My request ist Abby x female reader were the reader is on a mission with a few people and all of them die except her so she walks back to the base all bloody and she isolated herself in her room but when Abby hears that she came back starts looking for her.

I love your work it’s amazing

━ 𝐍𝐎𝐓 𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐓𝐈𝐌𝐄

𝙥𝙖𝙞𝙧𝙞𝙣𝙜(𝙨) - Abby Anderson x Fem!Reader

𝙬𝙖𝙧𝙣𝙞𝙣𝙜𝙨 - Cursing, angst, mentions of death, mentions of blood, crying, sadness, fluff if you use binoculars,

𝙥𝙧𝙤𝙤𝙛𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙙 ? - Yeah/Nope

𝙖𝙪𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙧'𝙨 𝙣𝙤𝙩𝙚 - This sucks but I kinda don't hate it but my first request after opening! Also thank you so much!! ily!!

You stumbled in front of the walls, a broken knife in your hand, and the other hanging at your side. Your bag was gone, so was your jacket. The rain having stopped just a little before.

You'd been missing for hours though. Your entire group gone, yet they hadn't set out anyone to find you just yet.

Now, you stood at the gate, shaking and covered in blood that was yours and your friends. "Stop there!" You shuddered, a small gasp leaving your lips.

Your body stilled. Looking up at the two guys pointing their weapons at you. Shaking where you stood, water dripping from your hair.

"Is that Y/n?" "No fucking way, open the fucking gate!" You whimpered when the gate opened, a few people you knew running out from inside. Looking around you, a woman coming up to look you over.

"Are you bit?" There was a silence as she looked over your body. "No." You finally whispered, looking at one of the guys who'd walked up. "Where's everyone else?" "Dead." You said in a harsher mutter, looking at the gate when Mel appeared.

"Alright enough, we need to get her to medical." "So you're telling me everyone else is just dead-" "Derek shut up." Mel lightly took your arm, bringing you inside. "Are you okay?"

You didn't answer her though, meeting her eyes for a second before looking away. A tear slipping down your cheek, though it only blended in with the drying water from the rain and the blood covering your cheeks.

It wasn't long before you left medical, wandering back to your room. Mel offered to go with you, yet you were gone by the time she'd gotten back from helping another patient.

You were already showered when Abby heard that you'd come back alone. Laying on your side, hugging your knees, every knock from a friend making you hug yourself closer. Words of comfort flowing through the door every once in a while.

"Y/n/n?" You hadn't even heard it open, not moving, only staring at the wall beside the bed you shared with her. "Hey.." She walked slowly towards the bed, her fingers brushing against your leg, feeling you flinch under her touch.

"Mel told me what happened." "I don't want to talk about it." You muttered, moving away from her, fingers falling from your skin. "We don't have to." "Okay."

You could feel the bed dip behind you, her hand just brushing over your bare hip. Almost automatically you moved away, not on purpose though, squeezing your eyes shut when she set her hand on your side.

"I'm sorry." You whispered, holding the pillow tighter as tears began to fall down your now cleaned face. Abby's hand coming to rub your upper arm, this time you didn't move though. Hiding your face into the dark pillowcase that had tears stains scattered across it.

"Don't be." "They ran, so did I but we weren't fast enough." You cried, hiding your face deeper as Abby caressed your hip, staring sadly down at your frame. "Breathe babe." You didn't realized your labored breaths, shaking as you struggled to breath in.

"Those things tore them apart." "Its okay now." You let out a sob you didn't realize you were holding in, squeezing the pillow your head laid on so hard your muscles were beginning to ache. You felt her kiss your shoulder, body hovering just behind yours as she moved to lay down.

"No, they're dead Abby." "I know." "They just wouldn't stop screaming-" "Hey, hey.. don't do that." You let out another soft cry, Abby's arm moving around your waist, turning your body slowly to look at her. "I can't Abby." You began to cry out, tears clouding your eyes as you sobbed.

Abby turning you over to hide you in her chest, holding you as you cried. Hugging you close to her, staring at the blank wall beside the bed.

"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry-" She held you quietly muttering little words and praised to you, not quite sure what to say.

Time passed, you laid in her lap, fingers threading through your hair. Wiping the tears from your cheeks as they fell. Talking quietly to you about her day, trying to distract your mind away from the events.

"The dog jumped on Manny, right in front of the girl too." You hummed, a very slight smile on your face. "I wish I could've seen that." You said softly.

"She's never gonna talk to him again." You pulled the blanket higher onto your body, letting out a shaky breath.

"I don't.. I'm sorry." A few more tears began to fall, Abby's hand wiping them away, kissing your forehead. "Don't be." "I lost all my stuff." "It was a shitty backpack anyway." Abby hated how you couldn't smile, barely meeting her eyes.

"It's gonna be okay." "It doesn't feel like it." "It never does." Her fingers glided through your hair and along your face as your eyes began to droop. "They're dead..." You whispered, your eyes growing blurry once again. "And I'm not." "You weren't meant to die yet." "You really believe that?"

You looked up at her, waiting for her answer.

"Yeah, I do."

A/n: Ooo period I gotta a lot of ellie smut requestsssss

[randoimago]

Tiktok Trend, “Not Saying I Love You Back”

FANDOM: Jojo’s Bizarre Adventure

Character(s): Josuke Higashikata, Okuyasu Nijimura, Rohan Kishibe, Koichi Hirose

Type of Request: Headcanons, Self Indulgence

Word Count: 655

Note(s): My friends and I have been watching Tiktok compilations and one we watched was the “Not Saying I Love You Back” Tiktok trend and I just imagined these poor babies having it happen to them. So here it is!

Josuke

He’s going to go hang out with Okuyasu to see what he found. He says “I love you” before he leaves. But then he stops halfway through the door when he doesn’t hear anything back.

Definitely thinks that’s a bit suspicious but figures it’s cause you didn’t hear him so he steps back into the house, shutting the door as he says it again. Still no response.

His brain is fighting with himself for a bit. On one hand he thinks it’s a joke, like a dumb prank. But then he’s also like, ‘Okay but what if you’re mad at him’? He doesn’t know why you’d be mad so he goes to find you.

“Hey, I love you,” he says. He keeps eye contact when he says it. All you do is smile at him and say, “I know.” Josuke is biting the inside of his mouth as he’s trying to figure out what exactly is happening.

“Real funny, S/O” He eventually does go with this being a joke because he knows he hasn’t upset you. Josuke is pouting though as he leaves to go see Okuyasu. He finally snaps out of it when he gets a text from you saying, “ily”

Koichi

Koichi also didn’t know if you didn’t hear him at first so he’ll say it again. He pouts a bit when you still don’t respond to him.

He’ll go find you and ask if you’re okay. Like do you need anything? Is it an off day because he can just lay in bed and cuddle with you if you’d like. 

Koichi is just so sweet to you because he knows that the only reason you wouldn’t say it back is because you’re sad. Right? You would never pull a joke like this on him.

If you do keep telling him that you’re okay, just that you want him to continue on with his day then he’s going to still be very concerned but do as you say.

Koichi comes home later with a huge bouquet and some candies that you like. You better tell this baby “I love you” back, he is too good.

Okuyasu

Okuyasu might actually cry if he says “I love you” and he doesn’t get a response back. Definitely thinks he did something wrong.

He was going to go out to hang out with Josuke but he just stops and sits next to you as he keeps saying “I love you” over and over to get something back.

“Do you hate me? Did I do something wrong?” Like he’s now asking those questions because he needs to know what happened. Please don’t play with him right now.

Seriously he is just a kicked puppy the whole time. He will call Josuke and say that he can’t go or if he does then he’s sad the whole time. 

Honestly will not be happy until he does get an “I love you” back. When he does then he is immediately happy again but he’s not going to leave your side for the rest of the day.

Rohan

When Rohan doesn’t get an “I love you” back then he is just going back to where you are and cross his arms as he gives you a look.

“I love you.” He says it just completely void of emotion. Like he’s daring you not to saying anything back. You just give him a smile and he lets out a “huh”.

He’s absolutely sulking for the rest of the day but doing his damndest to act like it didn’t affect him. He will absolutely get you back for this too. 

If anyone says anything about his attitude then they’re going to get the iciest glare from this guy.

Like the next day he’s waiting for you to tell him that you love him and then he’s not going to say it back. He eventually will though but is going to let you know how it felt.

[mersuperwholocked-lowlife]

Disappointment

Word Count: 1,636

Characters: Dean Winchester, Sam Winchester, Bobby Singer, Mary Winchester (mentioned), Reader

Pairings: Dean Winchester x Sibling!Reader (platonic)

Warnings: angst, some fluff, insecurities

A/N: ohmygod it's been so long ive been so so so busy but im here now and also ily all so thaks for supporting me this far and also this fic is also trash

Masterlist

“Do you remember Sam?” Dean put his hand on your shoulder, bending down to your height.

He pushed your face out of your face as you nodded softly.

“He's going to be with us for some time, okay?” you stood behind Dean as Sam walked out of an apartment, giving you a small smile.

Your memory of Sam was faint, you were only 6 when he left. You had seen Dean all day, every day, except for the occasional visit from your dad.

You hid behind Dean’s leg, holding onto him tightly.

Sam’s face dropped slightly, giving Dean a look.

“Think it’s time for you to go to bed,” Dean helped you into the car while you remained tense, looking at Dean.

You stayed quiet as you leaned onto Dean’s bag, closing your eyes.

---

You slumped in the chair outside the office, waiting for Dean. your anxiety grew with every second, you didn’t do anything wrong.

You were waiting for Dean, since John died, he became your legal guardian.

“What happened?” Dean ran to you, your leg bouncing.

You were the last person he’d expect to get in trouble.

“I just… we had to make notes from the textbook, but they keep saying I plagiarized it, but I didn't. I swear I didn’t, Dean,” he nodded his head, stroking your cheek.

“Okay, hey, I believe you. Let’s go inside,” Dean held your hand as the two of you walked into the room.

“Mr. Winchester?” your teacher stood in front of you while you held Dean’s hand.

“Brother. From what I understand-” Dean began to talk before your teacher interrupted.

“We have a strict policy against copying and pasting work,” she started.

“Copy and paste? It’s a textbook,” Dean scoffed.

Dean

You could feel your nervousness rushing inside of your chest as you kept your eyes on the floor.

“We’re just worried that (Y/N) won’t learn as much as the other kids will-”

“No, let me tell you something. My baby sister here is by far the smartest person I know. She could beat any kid here on any subject. You just have a problem with her since she doesn't remember the dumbed-down content. I’ll be taking her and we’ll be on our way. Thank you,” Dean pulled your arm, leading you out of the room before your eyes widened.

“Why did you do that?” you whisper-yelled, not wanting anyone to hear.

“She was going to blame it on you. No one can try to make you look bad, kiddo. You need to stand up for yourself too,” Dean put his arm around your neck.

“I have you to do that for me,” you gave him a small smile as he chuckled, stroking your cheek.

Something was off, his smile faded. You tried to ignore it.

“Damn right I will. I’m done with my hunt, do you want to hang out?” He asked.

You nodded as he led you to the car, before driving off

—-

Dean was dead. You didn’t know what happened, he sold his soul for Sam. He didn’t even tell you. You stayed with Bobby, for the time being, you hadn’t seen Sam in what felt like years.

You walked around the city, keeping to yourself, trying to clear your mind.

You wanted Dean back more than anything. But no one comes back from the dead after four months.

You called or texted Sam every day, always checking up on him, but he never replied. You realized he never would reply, he abandoned you as well. All you had left was Bobby.

Your phone was ringing as you wiped the small tear that shed, before answering Bobby’s call.

“Hello?”

“Hey, kid. How far are you from home?” He asked.

“I’ll be there soon,” you tried to hold back the fact you were crying.

13-year-olds aren’t supposed to be weak. Sam never was, Dean never was.

You walked back to Bobby’s, taking a deep breath before opening the door.

“(Y/N),” as you walked into the house, you felt shivers up your spine, hearing the familiar voice a few feet in front of you.

It wasn’t real, it couldn’t be.

You stumbled back, trying to find any silver or holy water.

“I already tested him,” Bobby said.

“How do I know you’re really Bobby?” You replied.

He was slightly in shock before you saw a small smirk on Dean’s face.

“Told you she’s smart. Take your time,” after a series of tests, which had no effect on him, you were left trying to hold back your cries.

You held Dean tightly, wrapping your arms around him tightly.

You buried your face in his neck as he stroked your back.

“I missed you,” he said softly.

“I missed you too,” your voice was strained, holding your cries back as he stroked your cheek, wiping your tears.

“Where’s Sam?” he asked you.

You felt sadness in your chest before shaking your head.

“I haven’t seen him in a while,” you shrugged.

You saw him frown before giving you a small smile, shaking his head.

“Well, you need to catch me up on the past four months…”

—-

“Are we going on a hunt?” Dean jumped slightly as you entered the room.

He shut his laptop, turning back to you.

“No,” you could tell he was lying.

“I can go on a hunt. Really, I’m okay,” you said again.

You walked a couple of steps forward as he walked backward.

“Dean-”

“I said no. Tell Sam to meet me in the car,” Dean walked out of the bunker, while you sat on a chair, resting your head in your hands.

It had been weeks since the incident between the two of you. Dean would never intentionally hurt you, the mark was hurting him.

You knew it was an accident, you told him it was okay, but he didn't listen. He would spend all his time avoiding you, if he wasn't, then you were mad at him.

Things in the last few years had gotten worse between the two of you. Ever since he came back from Purgatory. You didn't recognize him as your older brother anymore, he wasn't your protector or your friend. He was just someone who spent his time bossing you around.

You tried your hardest and hardest to impress him, but nothing could work.

You waited for both of them to leave before opening Dean’s laptop,

tracking him.

---

“Do you have any idea how fucking stupid that was?” the bunker door slammed shut as the three of you walked down the stairs.

Dean held your bag with one hand, holding onto your arm with the other.

“You could've got hurt,” he pulled you to a chair, you clenched your jaw as he pushed you into it.

“You guys needed help-”

“It doesn't matter. Why can’t you ever listen?” he continued to yell at you while you wrapped your arms around yourself.

“You’re a disappointment,” you felt angry tears in your eyes as you pushed yourself out of your chair, glaring at him.

“Nothing I ever do will be good enough for you, I get it. Just… stop,” you took a few steps back before Sam sighed.

“(Y/N), that’s not what he’s trying to say. Look…”

“I’m going for a walk,” you cut Sam off.

“Like hell you are. Not at this hour,” Dean shook his head.

You grabbed your phone and wallet before shaking your head, walking out of the door.

You could feel your heart aching as a lifetime of insecurities hit you all at once.

Sam was strong, Dean was strong, you needed to be strong.

You remembered all the times from your childhood where Dean took care of you and protected you. You remembered two months ago when the two of you spent hours screaming at each other until Dean walked out. You didn't see him for a month after that.

You inhaled deeply, walking away from the bunker.

---

“(Y/N).”

Dean knocked at your door. You shifted in your bed, sitting up as he opened the door.

“Were you asleep?” he asked.

You shook your head no as he sat next to you.

The mark was long gone, in the last few months, God’s sister returned, Mary came back to life, Sam was kidnapped. Everything was bad.

You spent months ignoring your siblings, everyone sensed the tension but no one would dare say anything.

“Mary said you didn't eat dinner. Just wanted to check on you,” you knew it wasn't the real reason he was there, you decided to play along anyway.

“I have a headache, not hungry,” you shook your head.

“Right,” he nodded his head, looking away from you and towards your desk.

“Was that all?” you asked.

“No. You know… you're not a disappointment, kid,” memories of your arguments came back to you as you stayed slightly tense.

“I don’t know what's happened the last few years but I still love you. You’re my kid,” your eyes watered as he scooted closer to you.

“I wanted to say sorry. For everything. I don't expect an apology, or for you to forgive me or anything.”

You wrapped your arms around Dean tightly, taking his by surprise. He paused for a moment before hugging you back.

“I’m the one who should be sorry, Dean. Y-You just wanted what was best for me, and… I’m sorry,” you buried your face in his neck, sniffling.

The two of you stayed with your arms wrapped around each other before Dean chuckled softly.

“All it took for this reunion was five long years. I say it was worth it,” you scoffed, shaking your head.

“Do you want to mess with Sam’s hair supplies?” Dean raised an eyebrow.

You nodded fiercely, holding your hand before pulling you up, leading you out of your room.