#also abt the more ‘pressinf matters’ its modtly about emotional amnesia. or even greyout/day 2 day amnesia

[brokenmachinemusings]

having a complex dissociative disorder sucks cuz on one hand. what if im faking? on the other i feel like im constantly stucj in a cirlce of trauma responses (fight or flight but also fawn and freeze). and i forget stuff about my favorite media months. if not weeks or even days after indulging in it. yes i have more “pressing matters” abojt my amnesia but using media is a way to cope for me and forgetting about said media feels like im forgetting a part of myself? or how to cope? its odd. i dont know