#also I'd like to talk about the fact that they broke the TV they were USING before like its not like it got broke bringing it there

[statementlou]

turns out Lewis Capaldi smooching Louis for a planned viral moment was NOT the funniest thing that could happen at glasto but rather Louis going viral for simply being like damn there's no signal in VIP guess I'll be going about my day doing what I was gonna anyway but now in this field then

[d-criss-news]

Glee star Darren Criss says he is 'culturally queer' thanks to San Francisco upbringing

When Darren Criss broke out on Glee, he instantly became a "teenage dream" for viewers — especially for LGBTQ+ audiences, who were able to see themselves represented in a new way in television.

Criss himself identities as a straight, cisgender man, but he says that his upbringing in San Francisco, Calif., helped him understand the importance of his character, Blaine, and his character's relationship with Kurt (Chris Colfer).

When asked at the Chicago Comic & Entertainment Expo (C2E2), what it was like portraying the groundbreaking relationship on television, Criss replied, "It was f---ing awesome.... Nowadays, we just call it a relationship on TV. But to contextualize it, a gay relationship on mainstream Fox, that's a pretty cool thing to be a part of," he said, adding emphasis when naming the network.

"I have been so culturally queer my whole life," he continued while appearing on a panel over the weekend. "Not because I'm trying — you know, actually, I was gonna say not because I'm trying to be cool but I'm gonna erase that, because I am trying to be cool. The things in my life that I have tried to emulate, learn from and be inspired by are 100 percent queer as f---."

"It was in queer communities that I've found people that I idolize, that I want to learn something from," he said. "And I'd say that's a gross generalization, that's a lot of things and a lot of people. But I grew up in San Francisco in the '90s. I watched men die. There was an awareness of the gay experience that was not a foreign concept to me. So, it was a narrative that I cared deeply about."

Criss also clarified that he didn't feel any ownership or entitlement over the role, but instead, felt a sense of responsibility once he was cast. "[I wasn't] like, 'I'm the man for the job,'" he explained. "They hired me...They said, 'You're the guy,' and I said, 'Okay, I'm the guy, I will do my best. I will do my best to talk about it in the way I believe and a way that I'm passionate about.'"

Criss portrayed Blaine Anderson for five of Glee's six seasons. He was introduced as an openly gay student at Dalton Academy and a member of a cappella group the Warblers in season 2. He recurred throughout the season. In season 3, Criss was upgraded to a series regular and Blaine transferred to William McKinley High School, home of Kurt and the New Directions. When the series ended, Blaine and Kurt were happily married after many ups and downs.

For Criss, Glee's legacy of portraying a relationship on television that so many people hadn't seen before was the most meaningful part of his experience. "In many ways, I'm glad it was me because it was a thing I really liked showing," he reflected. "It meant a great deal to me and it meant a great deal to other people. Because when people say they were affected by that show or that relationship, it's not because of me, it's because of that relationship on TV and the risks that people took to put that on TV."

"It took the people watching it to have the aptitude for seeing beyond what was maybe given to them in other avenues of culture. People of all ages, all spectrums of awareness say, 'I didn't grow up with a show like that and it was a really meaningful thing for me to see,' and I go I didn't grow up with a show like that and that would've been very meaningful for me too. Regardless of the fact that I'm a straight kid. That has value. For anyone who's been an underdog, we all know, in any shape or form — sexual, religious, biological — it has value because there's going to be a lot of people who see that and say, 'Okay, I can now understand this in a context that maybe I wasn't able to before.'

"It was a f-ing privilege," he concluded, "and I love talking about it and I'm so grateful I got to do it."

[lesbiandreamriso]

Given what we learn in episode 7 here's what I think the show will use as the full explanation for why Tin is the raindrop killer.

Due to his obvious misogyny Tin sees sex work as lowly and thinks all sex workers are disgusting. He hated the fact that his mom was a sex worker and the fact that it somehow contributed to her leaving him. He has lots of pent up anger over his parents abandoning him and forcing him to become a single dad at age 16? Maybe 18.

He uses those women as a proxy for his mother. By killing them he is able to express all the anger and resentment he has towards her. He also mentions how big and powerful it makes him feel to hear them beg for their lives. I'd imagine that's a major high for a boy who was powerless for his entire life.

I havent seen anyone talk about how the show heavily implied the reason why Tin only kills on rainy days is because he'd always have to comfort baby Tul when she got scared due to the mom working. I'm waiting for Tul to connect those dots because that will be devastating for her and it will make for some great tv.

I have seen some people loop his sexuality into all of this and while he is definitely gay I dont think that plays as big of a part in this as everything else. Also he only blames the mom because he's a misogynist. The man gets off on killing innocent women this should not be shocking.

As for why he killed Kawin. I think its because Kawin started up the killings again. I believe they were partners at some point and they quit after Wisut was convicted and Kawin moved away. When he came back I think Kawin wanted to start up again and Tin said no. Then the copycat came out and Kawin did it anyways but this time he broke the pattern. Tin didnt mind because he is crazy but then he saw how it started impacting his sister and that's when he got weary of him.

I think the final straw was Kawin knocking out Run. Kawin knows Run is directly tied to Tul and them taking her makes things far more risky. They probably argued and then Tin snapped. There are many holes in this theory but I think it will atleast be partially true. Likely the part about them being partners.

[marta-bee]

Claims that Liz Cheney broke the law are even thinner than you think

(Archive.us version here.)

It seems like every day we're getting hit by a new "y'all really need to be following this" news story. I'd love not to have to be talking about this. We should all be, I don't know, baking gingerbread cookies and making fun of Hallmark movies or something. But honestly: y'all really need to be following this one.

If you remember, after the January 6th insurrection the Senate held hearings on Trump's role in it. Liz Cheney was one of the few Republicans, certainly the most famous, who helped organize and present the evidence. Cassidy Hutchinson had worked as Trump's aide, had at first not given much information but later she fired her Trump-provided lawyer and participated more fully. A lot of the most damning descriptions of Trump's involvement, like him throwing a food plate against the wall while watching it on TV and his trying to wrestle the car steering-wheel away from his driver to go down to the Capitol, come from her testimony.

Yesterday, a House committee issued a report on those hearings. Their summary:

Based on the evidence obtained by this Subcommittee, numerous federal laws were likely broken by Liz Cheney, the former Vice Chair of the January 6 Select Committee, and these violations should be investigated by the Federal Bureau of Investigation. Evidence uncovered by the Subcommittee revealed that former Congresswoman Liz Cheney tampered with at least one witness, Cassidy Hutchinson, by secretly communicating with Hutchinson without Hutchinson’s attorney’s knowledge. This secret communication with a witness is improper and likely violates 18 U.S.C. 1512. Such action is outside the due functioning of the legislative process and therefore not protected by the Speech and Debate clause.” “The Federal Bureau of Investigation must also investigate Representative Cheney for violating 18 U.S.C. 1622, which prohibits any person from procuring another person to commit perjury.

Which, yes, sounds very bad. But if you dig into the details? *Quelle surprise!* Much less so. Cliff's notes version as I understand it: her first attorney was Trump-provided and pressuring her heavily not to provide information; Hutchinson reached out to her at one point, wanting to speak more candidly and without a lawyer, and instead Cheney encouraged her to get a new one, and gave her several names because Hutchinson was having a hard time finding one she could afford on her own. I'm not a lawyer so can't say 100% she didn't do anything wrong. Talking to someone without their lawyer, even to help them find a new attorney, is a big no-no. And while I'd argue the real tampering with a witness and was with that first Trumpy lawyer, the law isn't a comparative thing. You don't have to be less guilty, you have to be not guilty.

But still. Based on what I've seen, it really doesn't seem like there's much substance to these charges. The fact they're being made at all, though... well, let's just be a bit vague and polite and call that "concerning."

The Washington Post has a good analysis, link above. I'm sure there are other outlets covering it. But do keep an eye on this story, especially if you're American. This one is going to matter.

(And do thank a journalist! Things like this is a big part of why they matter so much.)

Also, am I allowed a personal moment on this? I had a bit of a scream moment in the shower over this one. It's been a few weeks since I've had t do that; I'm actually a bit proud. This one stung, though.

[pastlight]

S3E8 nbc hannibal livetweet from 2015

alright back to pain town we're 1/3 done

6:43 PM · Aug 2, 2015

[i binged eps 7/8/9 all in a day. uni kept me busy]

hello Richard Armitage Mr Red Dragon welcome to the show

7:02 PM · Aug 2, 2015

man i wish i could remember more from when i read the book :(

7:06 PM · Aug 2, 2015

i love the music of this series so goddman much

7:07 PM · Aug 2, 2015

I CAN'T BELIEVE THE BEER *WAS* MADE OF PEOPLE

7:11 PM · Aug 2, 2015

i'm kinda upset. when Hannibal started i had just read Red Dragon a few months back and remembered everything

7:14 PM · Aug 2, 2015

now i can't know what's coming except for small details D:

7:15 PM · Aug 2, 2015

[fun fact! this was actually one of the main reasons i checked the series out very early on]

i always forget how good your expressions are untill i see them again

7:18 PM · Aug 2, 2015

i will literally never stop laughing every time someone in canon says "Hannibal the Cannibal"

7:20 PM · Aug 2, 2015

dude why are you pasting/sticking things the same shitty way as The Author

7:27 PM · Aug 2, 2015

/you all know what i'm talking about/

http://pastlight.tumblr.com/post/125145711763/soupery-soupery-i-know-its-stupid-but-im

7:28 PM · Aug 2, 2015

WILL IS BACK WITH HIS DOGGIES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'M SO HAPPY!!!!!!!

7:31 PM · Aug 2, 2015

Jack "I'm here to drag you again" Crawford

7:33 PM · Aug 2, 2015

i missed Will making awkward expressions and looking slighly scared all the time tbh. so cute.

7:34 PM · Aug 2, 2015

oh right!! molly! he's so happy i'm crying jack please don't.

7:36 PM · Aug 2, 2015

"I promisse I'll to to make it as easy on him as I can."

THAT'S WHAT YOU SAID LAST TIME JACK

7:38 PM · Aug 2, 2015

YO ROMPERÉ TUS FOTOS YO QUEMARÉ TUS CARTAS, PARA NO VERTE MÁS, PARA NO VERTE MAAAAAAAS

7:44 PM · Aug 2, 2015

[no i was actually hilarious for this]

wait he broke into their home??????

7:54 PM · Aug 2, 2015

ohhh man the flashlight effect is so cool

8:04 PM · Aug 2, 2015

oh hey why aren't we doing the swinging golden flashing thing anymore :(

8:05 PM · Aug 2, 2015

i guess that means he's less immerse now???

8:06 PM · Aug 2, 2015

ohhh yoo i was right!!! nice nice

8:08 PM · Aug 2, 2015

there's a weird sense of nostalgia in all this :^)

8:11 PM · Aug 2, 2015

"This is my design" H E L L A

8:13 PM · Aug 2, 2015

SPECIAL AGENT PRICE MY LOVE

8:13 PM · Aug 2, 2015

I'M TRYING SO HARD NOT TO SCREAM AND GIGGLE IN FRONT OF MY FAMILY

8:15 PM · Aug 2, 2015

LITERALLY NO OTHER CHARACTERS/SHIP GET ON THE LEVEL OV PRELLER FOR ME THEY'RE JUST THE BEST

8:15 PM · Aug 2, 2015

[i cannot explain my obsession with Price and Zeller. it's not like i had much interest in reading fanfic about them but every time they were on screen i was twirling my hair and kicking my feet]

and the best part is that i don't have to feel bad for it they're clean

8:15 PM · Aug 2, 2015

[also very sad to see me struggling between the stupid moral obsession i'd picked from fandom spaces back then and my genuine enjoyment of this show]

my LOVES. my children and my parents

8:17 PM · Aug 2, 2015

"Welcome back"

BACKSTREET'S BACK ALRIGHT

8:18 PM · Aug 2, 2015

me: wait we're missing someone

me: o-oh... Katz... r-right.....

8:18 PM · Aug 2, 2015

i stopped watching just trying to find a screencap someone did with this phrase but i need it again

8:24 PM · Aug 2, 2015

HERE IT IS. (http://reservoirs.co.vu/post/49317803278/a-refresher-of-things-that-happened-on-a-tv-show)

i can keep watching ok ok

8:42 PM · Aug 2, 2015

[that link is broken: go to this one. nbc hannibal meme of all time TO ME. those recaps still crack me up]

OF COURSE Will asked about the dog

8:47 PM · Aug 2, 2015

ok food break before next ep, i haven't eaten much in all day

8:49 PM · Aug 2, 2015

[saladmix]

HII I LOVE YOUR FIC SO MUCH!! IT MEANS THE WORLD TO ME!! SERIOUSLY THE BEST THING I'VE READ THIS WHOLE YEAR!!

this might have already been answered but I'd like to ask what was your inspiration for writing a tmnt horror story? and what are some of your favorite horror books/movies/etc. ?

again "The Day the World Broke" is so amazing I don't even know how to properly articulate how good it is

AHH THANK YOU this fills my cold dead heart to the brim with joy <3 I'm so glad you're enjoying it I'm truly so warmed by the fact that it has gotten any pick up at all given the wild genre!

And thank you for sending questions omg please don't mind me as a ramble for forever because I could talk about this kind of stuff all day (and I have, much to friend and family despair).

The impetus for TDTWB was actually me driving back late at night from a friend's place. It was REAL foggy, the kind of fog where you can't see in front of you and have to rely on the small road markers right as they come into sight. The mist in the story is almost its own character, I love how alive it feels (and how it sometimes very much IS alive, SOS). But that's where I kind of originally built the idea out on that drive home.

But I consume a huge amount of horror/suspense media so there are so many elements of different things that have kind of come together and coalesced into this story. You see a lot of elements of Silent Hill, Resident Evil, and Evil Within baked into it, especially with the monster element. I really wanted to go big or go home with some of those creatures. I myself love a good creature flick but there was nothing more fun for my friends and I screaming in front of a game when a new horrifying monster came on for us to fight. It just reminds me of those times, where it's scary, sure, but mostly the feeling of 'Oh my goooooood what the hell!' that I really enjoy.

There are also a ton of other movie influences and some of them are more subtle and based on singular scenes that get kind of expanded upon. For instance, there's a scene in the First Omen (skip over if you don't want to be spoiled for the scene, but it is in the trailer!) where our girl is sitting in a dark room, saying it isn't real, and a voice answers back "what's not real?". That stuck with me for a while I really loved that so a lot of Leo's Demon Shredder experience is kind of build on that singular feeling of sudden dread.

But as with some of the good horror movies, it's not just about the scares and the monsters. A real desire for me when writing horror is digging into that humanity piece, a concept you can see across a lot of horror series and books. I wanted each of these boys to have their own arc to contend with and some are more subtle and others are more, how you say, extremely obvious. But they were all very purposefully built in. It was important for me to make these characters vibrant and dimensional and it was not hard, because it's TMNT and we love these turtle boys! But I was hyper-aware that I'm doing an AU version that is pretty atypical, with what is essentially a regular family of teenagers having to navigate the end of the world. So I'm so touched that people love them as much as I do!

I don't even know if I'm answering the question at this point! My goodness. But I WILL wrap it up with some of my favorite recent media that I've consumed, otherwise this list would grow beyond anyone's desire to read <3

Books:

Hex by Thomas Oldeheuvelt (This felt like a really unique premise that really speaks to the whole humanity is the monster theme)

Sister, Maiden, Monster by Lucy A. Snyder (Not for the faint of heart! But boy was it a wild trip that I thought about for weeks after I finished it)

Movies:

Heretic (just came out, super eerie for me I loved the build up)

Smile 2 (I love me a movie that trips into Uncanny Valley, I found the scares unique and fun, but for me I loved the character, drew me right in!)

Oddity (SOOOO eerie, super obsessed with it)

TV Shows:

The Haunting of Hill House (I highly recommend this one for the family drama behind the horror, it's such a fun, beautiful time)

Thanks for the ask!! I really loved it, and I love talking about this story and horror so please ask away any time. Thank you so very much for reading the story too!

[yourworsttotebag]

I think you’ve talked about this some, but how does Evie get along with her family? (And how does Reality!Evie get along with hers?) Do you have any headcanons about Gale’s family, and/or how they get on with Evie?

I have a lot of vague ideas about Evie and her family. For some reason I've been wary of committing to any facts about them even though I can just change my mind. I think between Evie's parents, she's closer with her dad. They have more of a fun relationship whereas I see her mom as a little more distant and a bit more of a hard ass since she's the head of this noble family. She's probably hard to get close to.

Evie and her two older sisters are close but have only recently developed their adult relationship and probably wanted to kill each other when they were tweens. There's a big gap between Evie and her oldest sister. I was wondering how big that gap could reasonably get because Elves but haven't actually calculated it. In my Evie/Halsin fic I called Evie the wild child of the family. As the youngest, she has all of the perks of noble life with none of the responsibility or expectation so she parties and dates around which I imagine the oldest is slightly exasperated by.

I think her oldest sister has a flower name like Violet or Poppy. Her middle sister is named Madeline.

I'd summarize it as Evie's family loves her but they could probably be a little more involved and a little more cohesive. Evie loves her family as well (and is worried about protecting them when she gets back to Baldur's Gate) but I've written about her feeling a little bit of disconnect from the city and I don't think she'd feel a ton of angst about moving away to live with a partner.

I don't think it's a spoiler to say that reality TV is not so great for Evie's long term emotional health. Her parents are probably kind of baffled and her sisters probably expressed some mild distaste about her going on another show which Evie internalized and now feels a little bit of shame over. They're all in a weird emotional holding pattern until she can get back from filming. They only met Jen after she and Evie broke up.

My personal headcanon is that Gale is an only child and his dad isn't in the picture because he died when Gale was young. I've also pictured Gale coming from a well off family but not as well off as Evie's so she's not going to be intimidated by any of that. She isn't going to make a fancy person faux pas like using the wrong silverware at dinner or not knowing the different parts of a sail boat. Evie knows how to dress to meet an older, posh woman like Morena. (If this is reality tv their meeting will DEFINITELY be before the show airs).

Morena would be quite curious about Evie and spend their first meeting trying to subtly size her up. May privately harbor some reservations about Evie's youth but she really can't detect anything insincere about her. This person seems to just genuinely adore her son and she can't find fault with that. One of my favorite bits I've written is Morena calling Evie her daughter-in-law even though she and Gale aren't married yet, a gesture Evie feels is "both very kind and slightly overbearing - perfectly Morena."

I think Morena and Evie would shop together.

Morena would say she isn't interested in watching the reality show but does watch it and makes some oblique references to it.

[star-dust-n-astral-wind]

Why The Doctor Ran Away

We can construct a surprisingly consistent narrative on this topic given what little has been revealed over the years. I'll be sticking mainly to TV, although I'll mention some expanded material towards the end.

In Heaven Sent, Twelve claims to have been scared:

DOCTOR: I was scared! I ran because I was scared! Is that what you want me to say? Is that true enough for you?

Which presumably ties to this little speech later in that same episode:

DOCTOR: Long before the Time War, the Time Lords knew it was coming, like a storm on the wind. There were many prophecies and stories, legends before the fact. One of them was about a creature called the Hybrid. Half Dalek, half Time Lord, the ultimate warrior. But whose side would it be on? Would it bring peace or destruction? Was it real, or a fantasy? I confess, I know the Hybrid is real. I know where it is, and what it is. I confess, I'm afraid.

And in Hell Bent, we have this interaction with Clara:

DOCTOR: Ah, no, he didn't tell anyone anything. He went completely mad. Never right in the head again, so they say. CLARA: Okay, that's encouraging. DOCTOR: The last I heard, he stole the moon and the President's wife. CLARA: Was she er… was she nice, the President's wife? DOCTOR: Ah, well, that was a lie put about by the Shabogans. It was the President's daughter. I didn't steal the moon, I lost it. CLARA: I'd know you anywhere.

A bit later, Ashildr has this to say on the topic:

ASHILDR: You were barely more than a child. You broke in here and the Wraiths spoke to you about the Hybrid. Why did that story make you so scared?

In Twice Upon A Time, the First Doctor claims that "There were many pressing reasons" to leave Gallifrey. He also talks about good and evil:

DOCTOR 1: There is good and there is evil. I left Gallifrey to answer a question of my own. By any analysis, evil should always win. Good is not a practical survival strategy. It requires loyalty, self-sacrifice and er, love. So, why does good prevail? What keeps the balance between good and evil in this appalling universe? Is there some kind of logic? Some mysterious force?

In The Five Doctors, Tegan and Five have this scene:

TEGAN: You mean you're deliberately choosing to go on the run from your own people in a rackety old Tardis? DOCTOR 5: Why not? After all, that's how it all started.

And then there's these choice bits of expanded material:

In the novel Beltempest, Eight claims to have left his home because he "disagreed with the philosophy of its Masters".

In the novel World Game, Two said that he grew tired of "the deviousness and corruption of Time Lord politics".

In the audio story Prisoners of Fate, Five says that he had little time, and just needed to get the first Tardis he lay his hands on.

And then comes Remembrance Of The Daleks, and it all falls into place.

I propose that the story goes something like this:

One of the Doctor's children (Susan's parent) was president of Gallifrey, and intended to use the Hand Of Omega for some reason. Given Eight and Two's statements, this may have been a matter of political corruption. This was a largely popular decision amongst the Time Lords, although the Doctor strongly disagreed with the idea, although their concerns were ignored.

And so, the Doctor did something tremendously stupid (as they often do): they stole the Hand Of Omega in an attempt to stop the Time Lords from utilising it. Along the way, they also took Susan with them, possibly fearing that she'd be used as a bargaining chip against them, or simply knowing that she would suffer/was suffering on Gallifrey without the Doctor to shield her/comfort her/etc.

Now, this was not entirely a spur of the moment decision. The Doctor had been debating leaving Gallifrey for some time now. Both due to knowledge about the Hybrid that they'd learned from the Sliders in the Matrix Database during their youth, but also due to a growing curiousity concerning the nature of good and evil.

Given that the Sixth Doctor would call out the Time Lords for being "Degenerate! Decadent! And rotten to the core!" during his trial, I think it's a safe bet that while they maybe didn't include the Time Lords on the side of "evil", they almost certainly were not counted amongst the "good" either. So if the Time Lords weren't ensuring that evil did not overcome good in the universe, who or what was doing so?

And so the Doctor - fearing for Hybrid that lurked in the future, fearing for Susan's safety, fearing for what the Time Lords would do with the Hand Of Omega - stole a Tardis and ran away.

Also at some point during this mess, the Doctor "lost the moon"? Not entirely sure what that means or how that happened, but apparently it did.

[bruinhilda]

So, with all the talk about Steamboat Willie becoming public domain, I realized a couple of things.

First, that I'd never actually seen Steamboat Willie. Never saw it as a kid, never got around to looking it up even after all the copyright talk started again. (I have recently watched it. Didn't think it was bad or meh or anything, but I just don't seem to "connect" with it.)

And after some thought...I don't think I've seen ANY Mickey Mouse short in my life. Ever. I can't recall ever seeing them on TV. I remember seeing some Donald Duck, and maybe one or two Goofy shorts...but not Mickey Mouse. In fact, I don't think I actually saw Mickey in anything other than clips or bumpers until Fantasia was re-released in theaters in the 1980s.

Loony Tunes and Tom & Jerry? I would be shocked to find one I haven't seen many many times. That was a good portion of my childhood. But the Disney stuff? It's more that I was aware of it existing, without having seen a lot of it.

That might be because Loony Tunes was everywhere, on multiple channels all the time...and Disney had a single one-hour program once a week where they mostly showed boring live-action programs I'd turn off five minutes in. Later on they were on cable. Premium cable that of course my family was not going to pay for, we're broke as shit, count yourself lucky you got to see basic cable for 5 months before we cancelled it and got the giant antenna you have to stand outside and turn around every time you change the channel.

The movies were also rarely shown on TV. Certainly not the "good" movies...those were kept in the Vault and would only be re-released to theaters for a couple of weeks every 12 years. Your elders will talk about how amazing they are, so prepare to be underwhelmed by most of them when you finally have a chance to see it for yourself.

I don't think I was impressed by a Disney movie until I saw Fantasia, and I wasn't absolutely wowed by one until Lion King. Everything else was just...kinda there. Snow White is back in theaters, it's an event, we're gonna go see it. And I'm going to forget half of it 5 minutes after leaving the theater, because it's just not speaking to me.

I don't know why most of the Disney stuff just doesn't connect with me the way a lot of other animation does. I don't see them as bad or anything. They just...don't move me, for the most part. There's a handful I love. There's a bunch that I find just...okay. Not going to complain that it's playing in the background, might watch some of it...might just wander off.

And the rest, like Mickey Mouse...I've never actually seen. I have no real plans to see. Sometimes I think about looking up this or that...but have no real motivation. I'm sure a lot of it is good. I'm probably missing a few gems that WOULD connect with me the way I'd want.

It's kind of making me once again feel out of step with the rest of the world. People gushing about this or that pop culture thing...and when I admit lack of exposure to it, they're not just surprised, they're AGHAST. Sorry. I'm sure Mickey Mouse is fine and funny. I just haven't seen that for myself yet, and these days I don't have the spoons necessary to correct that situation.

[ireallydontunderstandpeopleatall]

New York

I woke up today and I was ok

Its sunday and I didnt want to get out of bed so i turned on the tv to put myself back to sleep

but then saw a movie, A rainy day in NY and thought of you and your NY

so i thought i'd watch it to see the scenes of NY that you see and maybe i will feel closer to you

forgetting that it also rained here today

somehow the movie is about a NY guy and a AZ girl, and I am an AZ girl and you and NY guy. why do things work this way.

that the morning i am thinking of you, to put on a movie about your city and the characters are from our regions, makes me want to believe its a sign for us but i know it's not.

no movie or coincidence can change how you see me.

2 weeks ago from tomorrow we started talking

i fell in love with you in about 3 days, yes I know it's a toxic attachment but I dont care, you are just so sweet

you stole my heart like D did and you broke it like D did but I dont want to forget you

you talked to me during a time that my world was so grey after richard.

it was such good company i did not know i missed.

and i guess i accepted it even if it hurts because it takes away the fact that richard is not the last person i had serious feelings for.

and lets me know i can still have these feelings and fall for someone so hard still even after I told myself i had sworn off relationships

you revived something in me i thought i no longer had

you flirted with me and got me to like you and when i started liking you then you told me you were already involved w someone else

at first it hurt and it was disppointing and i felt like i screwed it up for myself again by showing interest too easily and too quickly, and i might be right. maybe i ended the chase for you and i know some people need that for the passion

and i'm sorry but when you messaged me i had to fast reply bc i didnt want you to think i was not interested and i also did not want u to have to wait.

but maybe that is my downfall, caring too much as usual.

even after many heartbreaks i still have not learned my lesson and was so quick to give in to you but you made it feel so good and at my age i am shocked you could still make me feel this way. so in a sense you made me feel young again

but it doesnt matter bc you do not like me like you made me think you like me

but i still like you, we have history, I want to always be your friend and hopefully be some part of your life, even if small

when you told me about her i thought you would leave but you didnt, but then i tried to leave and you told me you didnt want me to disappear bc you didnt disappear on me and you're right

in a way you fought for me and idk why, i want to think theres a part of you that wants me, but if you do, you probably dont want me the same way i want you.

i write this bc i am ok now

before i was not

in the first week i was emotional and confused

over the first weekend i was disappointed by the low amount of contact

by the 2nd week i became accepting

now in the 2nd weekend i am almost back to the state i was before you took me.

except now i am calm and at peace and accepting but with fragments of you

i still crave you but i know very well what this is, it's out of my control and in your hands and i can only set boundaries and set limits and distance myself when i need balancing.

i dont think we will ever be anything

but in my coming down stages i asked myself if i really want to experience you and you experience me

all of my relationships have ended badly and with very bad words and criticisms exchanged, do i really want to learn to hate you like i hate them

we played trials together 8 years ago and were part of the same clan. if we ruin our friendship then it's like all those memories go to waste or disappear

you grew up to be such a smart and aware young man that even i couldnt even resist

my idea of you for many years was the young boy that was chasing the wrong girl that he talked to me about back then and years later was still hung up over her

when i thought of obssessive people for the wrong people, you were one of them that was used as an example

but when we reconnected and the stories you shared it was like we had seen the same struggles, heartbreak, realization and healing and i made myself believe that you were right for me, that you were who i have been looking for and who would finally come to sweep me and make me whole.

as much as you leave me wanting you, craving you and being curious about you, i know my wanting for you is about me and my need to attach. you just turned on that switch for me and it was exhilarating i have no regrets

like the song in the story of kunning palace,

"my heart is broken but i do not regret loving you"

and also

"traveled so far but i still can't forget you"

I just want to run to NY and stand in times square and hope to find your face among millions and dream that when you see me that something will awaken in you that will make you say "shes the one i want" but i know this is my dream

but i no longer expect anything from you, to expect from you would only be torture for me when they go unsatisfied like seeing you online but you dont invite me to play and i'm just waiting

but also richard waits for me to join him and i dont and he sees me online

so we all hurt and yearn for someone's attention in some way and this dating world is cruel.

but since you care about our friend ship it has made me feel better

i am happy you did not ghost me and have been honest with me

i can sleep again, i can be happy again in my world and it is no longer being pushed under the weight of passion, love, confusion, anticipation, longing and hoping.

i thank you for making the decision for us to not ruin our relationship

so today as i write this, i am ok.

[beansforwhat]

"I feel POWERFUL!"

"GOOD DAY SIR!"

"Eat sh!t losers. F!ckin' killed that one."

"Now I'd like to call Thomas Standers-- Whoops!"

"Guys, I broke my blue crayon! Can I- does anybody have an extra one? Ah, I'll just make do."

"You were the first person to call it a loop, you stupid viner."

"Do you swear to tell the whole truth? And nothing but the truth?" *the most goofiest gooberest of pauses* "Do you liiike meee?"

"Ring ring ring! Who's this? Who? What? Who gave you my number? What? Oh my gosh, that's wonderful! I'll tell him!" *hangs up imaginary phone* "She said she's going!"

"Whoever burned the library of Alexandria, your mom's a hoe."

"No, you don't- you- let me- I- this is my time. I have been👏 here👏, for the last two👏 videos👏, where you have been off doing whatever- You go and you have your little 'Christmas celebration' because yeah, that was the last time we saw you was f!cking Christmas, and now you just waltz in here like "ah-bah-bah-bah-bah-bah, I'm gonna talk about feelings!" Come in here and turn everybody into puppets? Bullsh!t. Sorry, Thomas, I just.. it's bullsh!t." *pause* "Oh, okay, we did a script rewrite. My new line is: "What?""

"It doesn't change the fact that it doesn't change the fact, and you can't argue those facts!"

"Look, ma, I'm on TV."

"This is a nightmare's nightmare, by the way."

"I'm being awesome right now."

"Eat a d!ck, dork, which is also a d!ck--"

"No onesie, no vote! Like our founding fathers believed!"

"That's about the size of an average U.S. classroom."

alright now here are the sanders sides bloopers quotes that live rent-free in my head:

“I'd like to call my next witness to the stand. VIRGIIIIIIILLLL~”

“Your most extreme reaction is an eyebrow raise— is an OYbrow raise.” “OY LOGAN-”

“I'm a pretty pretty bird!”

“What the fuh?”

“Oh my gosh, Deceit, is this yours?” *casually flips Janus off*

“One. Singular Sensation.”

“I know nothing!” *falls out of chair like the baby lawyer he is*

“Look, ma. I'm on TV.”

*in Voldemort voice* “Do you ever feel~ like a tiny baby corpse~?”

“Where are your kids, Patton? WHERE ARE YOUR KIDS??”

“I'm waiting for the others to show up so I can scare them right out of my pants.”

tell me yours!

[dameronology]

Hi are you still taking requests? I'd like to request one with Poe with number 4 from the angst list (you don't get to decide...) Safe travels!x

poe dameron + "i can't carry on like this for much longer"

It was late evening when you finally came home from work. The traffic on the Coruscant subway had almost been enough to ruin your day, and the fact it had been raining all afternoon didn't help either. You wanted nothing more than to just to get in the warm, have a cup of tea and then pass the fuck out. There was a shit ton of reality TV loaded up on the DVR and blankets on the sofa. It sounded like the perfect evening.

It didn't really click in your head that said perfect evening didn't involve Poe in any way. It had, once upon a time, but with work being impossibly busy at the moment, your relationship had sort of hit a reef. Neither of you had meant for things to go that way, but when you were both putting all your energy into rebuilding the Galactic Republic, it left little time for domestic bliss. And because you were so consumed by work, neither of you had really taken a moment to step back and think too much about the state of your relationship.

You loved Poe. You loved him with your whole heart and of course you wanted to make things work, but it just wasn't a conversation you were ready to have.

"Hey, Beebs," you greeted your droid with a tired smile, throwing your bags by the front door.

BB-8 rolling around could only mean one thing: Poe couldn't be very far.

And there he was, in the kitchen. A mug of caff in one hand and paperwork in the other; it was the earliest he'd been home in months and he looked shattered. You couldn't count the amount of times on both hands that he would creep in well past eleven o'clock, not rising until long after you'd gone to work.

"Hey," his welcome was monotonous, brown eyes barely flickering up from his datapad. "How was your day?"

"Y'know, the usual," you replied. "Got in early, stayed late, nothing to show for it."

You moved over to the fridge, ditching your wet hoodie and jacket into the dryer as you did. Poe's eyes followed you - it hadn't gone unnoticed that you hadn't bothered to ask about his day. Why would you? He'd always known you to prefer silence over small talk. He just never assumed it would be aimed at him.

"Yeah, same here," he quietly responded. "You up to anything tonight?"

It was a secret implore for please spend time with me. I miss you.

"Nothing interesting," you said. "I was just gonna watch some TV and chill out. It's been a long day."

"Mind if I join you?"

You glanced at him, eyes finally meeting. "Yeah, if you want."

No, not if I want, he thought. I want you to want it.

Poe stayed silent for another minute. He didn't want this to be the moment that everything came to head but also, what if it wasn't something he could control? This apartment used to be both your happy place; back when you were happy together, and not just dancing around each other, going about the formalities of your relationship simply because neither of you had the energy to end it.

"I can't carry on like this for much longer."

His voice broke slightly as he spoke; you quickly looked up from the slice of cheese you'd been examining, eyes wide at how the atmosphere in the room had nose-dived quicker than the time he forgot to refuel his X-Wing. You didn't need to question what it was that he was talking about it - you knew straight away.

You left it another second, unsure if you were supposed to say something.

"We've gone to shit, haven't we?" Poe continued. "I'm not saying it's your fault. I think it was a joint effort actually, or lack thereof but - I just miss the way things used to be. I don't like how we dance around each other now."

"I know," you murmured. "I don't like it either. I miss you."

"I'm right here."

"No, you're not," you shook your head. "You're never around. You probably think the same about me from your point of view, though."

"Is it just work that's keeping us away from each other?" he asked. "I mean...I know it is for me. I just don't know if there's a deeper thing on your side. Like that you've fallen out of love with me-"

"- no!" you quickly exclaimed.

Throwing your cheese aside, you crossed the room and took Poe's hands in yours. They felt foreign and familiar at the same time, maybe like he was a lover from a past life. He might as well have been at that point. Still, though, you could run your fingers over the calloused palms and recall how he gained every single scar; how every mark came to be, like a map in your head of the man you loved. The man you still loved.

"I love you, Poe," you said firmly. "Just...think of a relationship like a plant. If you neglect it, it will die. And I think we can both safely say that we haven't exactly been nourishing ours."

"I'm sorry," he murmured. "I didn't mean for things to get like this. I wanted to work hard to create a safe galaxy for us and I think I've gotten so caught up in it that I forgot why I was doing it in the first place.

"It's okay," you sadly smiled. "Well, maybe it's not okay, not from either of us, but I do want to try. I really want to try."

Poe leant down and brushed his lips against yours; it was the first time that had happened in months. It felt like a spark of hope. The feeling that maybe things would be okay.

He smiled. "Me too."

[starryluminary]

Noah and Cody most definitely had a fling we didn’t get to see: an over analyzing of two fictional characters

Before I start: I’m not forcing you to agree with me, I’m not claiming this is canon and you’re allowed to disagree with everything I say on this post. I’m literally just in my feelings and can’t keep my mouth shut that’s all this is. If you’re not interested, goodbye!! Keep scrolling the total drama tags!!!

For those of you who are interested though………

Part 1: Awake-a-thon

Lets get straight to it. The reason any of us ship it in the first place. The ear kiss (which is the first kiss of the series, might I add!!!!!!!)

Rewatching that episode, I noticed it took them 3 and a half days since the beginning of the Awake-a-thon for them to virtually decide to sleep next to each other. Why they didn't just go back to the cabins to get proper sleep is beyond me. Maybe Chris didn't allow it, I don’t know.

Either way though, something happened in that timeframe that led to that ear kiss right. This is where it begins. The bonding. In those four days they got close enough, whether it be through conversation, lack of other companionship or pure chance, that they most likely fell asleep in each other's company. Now we have established that they've at LEAST bonded with each other before the ear kiss, and now have some form of an established relationship.

Speaking of the ear kiss itself, that was very clearly an accident. I love it all the same, and you can claim “Cody was smiling half awake, that means he was enjoying it!”, but they barely know each other at this point. I’m sure whatever happened then was probably not meant to happen. I'd kill to know what Noah was dreaming about, though.

Now you'd think that two 16 year old boys would never want to interact again after one kissed the other's ear on national tv, especially someone like Cody (which I hope I don't have to explain.) AND YET.

Part 2: Dodgebrawl

Why the fuck is Mr. Wannabe Casanova willingly sitting next to the guy that kissed him on national TV. For what reason.

Maybe their initial interactions were superficial, and maybe the kiss strained the small connection they had but… the fact that they sit next to each other frequently and Cody actually smiled at him at one point leads me to believe they actually managed to enjoy each other’s company enough to want to put effort into repairing what might have broke because of that kiss, and did it successfully. If you think I'm being farfetched, might I direct your attention to Noah’s elimination?

Hmmmm. Cody's.... sad? Upset?? To see Noah eliminated??? Notice how he's so far away and behind the rest of the team when this happened. Like he's the only one that feels that way. Because he is. Makes you wonder why he cares so much doesn't it.

We understand that their relationship is strong enough that Cody’s visibly upset and distant as a response to him leaving the competition, yeah? Ok good.

Also only five marshmallows are thrown at him. I'm confident in saying Cody didn't throw a marshmallow at him. We don't even see his reaction to the marshmallow pelting so I'll leave it here.

Isn't it so fucking funny how shit starts lining up so nicely? Almost as if all of it was intentional and there were plans for a friendship in the margins of the writing team's notes that ultimately didn't make it to the final product. I'm not saying that's a fact, I'm just saying that's what it feels like.

Now this isn’t about them interacting directly but I feel It’s important to mention…

Part 3: Playa des Losers (He kissed a guy! No I didn't!)

It’s just that one part. You know the one. It became a popular audio for animatics and TikToks you know what I'm talking about. The fact they are drilling it in your head is saying something. They won't let you forget. If this was the only offense I probably wouldn't care enough to add it here, but it’s NOT. THEY WON'T LET YOU FORGET. WON’T LET THEM FORGET. CHRIST.

This brings us to our next point-

Part 4: TDA's Aftermath

The mere fact Noah and Cody sit next to each other the entirety of the aftermath episodes tells me everything I need to know, but let’s talk about it for the sake of clarity.

Them sitting next to each other despite, and I can’t stress this enough, “embarrassing” themselves on national television (which we are reminded of when they introduce Noah!) is just. Baffling. Cody doesn't even sit next to anyone else in the beginning, he’s on the top corner of the booth. This demonstrates Noah and Cody are considerably comfortable with each other, despite everything. Cody even looks at Noah for approval, which he reciprocates with a smile. I can compile the knowing looks they share during the aftermaths, but I won’t for brevity's sake. They’re friends, your honor.

[I’d also like to add they could have shown any of the dodgebrawl clips for Noah’s introduction, but they chose the ear kiss and proceeded to show them sitting together. If the point was to humiliate him, getting pelted by marshmallows would have done the job just as well!! Being hurt by marshmallows is so pathetic they didn't HAVE TO REMIND US OF THE KISS BUT THEY DID. ARE THEY TRYING TO MAKE A POINT??????]

Love how Cody said one sentence and Noah spoke two words the entirety of action but you can still see the bond they have in the sidelines. Art, truly.

Now. The part that has me CONVINCED the relationship teetered away from being platonic.

Part 5: Celebrity Manhunt

Holy fucking shit. They let it happen again. It happened AGAIN. They remember what happened last time, they’re not stupid or blind. They knew this could happen again and did it again ANYWAY. It couldn’t POSSIBLY be by accident this time. How does someone as smart as Noah and someone as simp-y as Cody make this mistake again. The answer is it wasn’t an accident this time. Noah deliberately slept on Cody’s lap and Cody let him…. What, just BECAUSE??

You can’t tell me two 16 (maybe 17 at this point?) year old boys made the conscious decision to sleep together in such an intimate way and convince me they don’t feel anything for each other. Do you see what I'm implying.

At least the first time it happened they ran away screaming, but they sat next to each other in the tent this time!!!!! The same day!!!! No shame!!!! No embarrassment!!!! Are you kidding me!!!!!!!!

Not to MENTION they were asleep next to the cliff before this! They woke up, decided to move to the side of the bus, and slept on top of each other. Are you serious? Homosexuals.

This isn’t even their first interaction in the special. I am flabbergasted.

The looks Cody shoots Noah this special. Who is he trying to impress, I wonder.

And impress he did, cause he slept on his damn lap!!! I rest my case.

I feel the relationship wasn’t as strong in World Tour (and I don’t want to sit down and rewatch it, at least not now), so I’ll leave it here.

Conclusion

Given what I’ve shown so far, you can see their relationship gradually evolve from being strangers, to friends, to whatever the hell they labeled their relationship after that. I can’t pinpoint when the less than platonic relationship started, but I’ve come to the conclusion that they most definitely had that spark between them, however brief it may have been.

You don’t kiss someone's ear in your sleep and then decide to sleep on their lap because he’s a homie. That’s all I have to say.

[lifblogs]

I feel so honored for being tagged in this! I love your takes @marvel-starwarsfangirl, and I love your love for Crosshair (who I fell in love with a bit later than I wish I had). I am immensely grateful for this show, and the characters (especially Tech). I had an interesting and not so great start with it. You see, I have quite a few mental illnesses, and I was still working on recovering from two of them when the show started, and because of being sick leading me towards bad decisions I ended up in a clique that hated the show, and I felt like I had to be like them, and I disliked it too.

Eventually I realized what a horrible place I was in, that these people would hate me in a second if I did something wrong. (And really, to them, I had done bad things.)

I left, blocking all of them, and I got to watch season two without the pervasive heaviness of that clique, and I loved it!

So this year I was unfortunate enough to get two brain injuries within three days of each other. I was in a fog, I couldn't do anything. But when I was out of the fog, and allowed to do more, I realized I couldn't read (which is one of my favorite things to do) because the words were swimming everywhere and it hurt my head. I couldn't look at my phone because the scrolling was terrible. I also adore TV, so I decided to try watching that. I knew season 3 of The Bad Batch was coming soon, so I thought, hey, I'll rewatch it. Why not?

And that's when I really fell in love.

This year, this show has been my savior and my comfort through so much.

I could watch it without feeling sick. It made me want to be here even though my head hurt and I didn't feel like me anymore because of what my brain was now doing from being injured. I'm still suffering from symptoms, but The Bad Batch gave me a place to go, a place to heal.

And it got me back into writing!! I've been writing fanfiction since 2016, but a lot of tragedy and trauma happened in my life that kind of just... stole that writing spark in me. It was hard to write. I barely did it anymore. I wasn't enthusiastic about it. I've had other people to lean on during this, and that was great, but I still missed it. And I'm going to school for screenwriting! How could I not be writing?

Somehow this show gave me that spark back, and showed me I can write even while my brain isn't the same. It used to hurt my head if I wrote too long, or I'd get a bit nauseous, but as I've slowly been healing I've been able to write more and more. And I want to write. I want to write for this show! I have so much fun writing. I feel so much like myself again because of what The Bad Batch gave back to me.

I also got back into reading fanfiction! For years I just kept finding myself beyond disappointed in fanfics, and then I found a fic from @clownery-and-fuckery, and it is amazing. I love being friends with him! He's so cool and fun to talk to, and it feels so good to have someone to talk to about writing.

So, more background about me for this next part. Last June I fractured my femur. It has been such a lonely experience healing from that, both physically and mentally. I hadn't known another person with that injury, and so many times I still feel like that person who was stuck in bed for three months, unable to move without screaming. And in my rewatch I really liked relating to Tech with that (even the fact that we could both walk on our fractured leg a little bit [don't ask me how, I think it's because of where I broke it]), and I made a post about it, and how he made me feel a little less alone. And that's where @miss-mouse99 comes into the picture!! She also fractured her femur last year, and we started talking over that, and now we talk almost every day. After horrible online friendships and cliques I used to be so anxious talking to people online, but I'm always comfortable talking to her.

I'm grateful for my new friends, my drive for writing again, these wonderful characters, and the beautiful writing, the absolutely gorgeous music (I'm also a musician, so you bet I'm conducting while listening to the score for this show), the stunning animation. I'm grateful that even though my fics are pretty intense this fandom has for the most part been nothing but kind to me. I personally find all of you the kindest part of the Star Wars fandom! It felt really good to be welcomed with open arms and to have people accept my writing even while I'm still struggling with aphasia from the brain injuries. I haven't felt this special in fandom in a long, long time.

Tagging: @clownery-and-fuckery, and @miss-mouse99, and a special tag, @evilwriter37, since I got him into this show this year, and we have so much fun watching it together.

Before TBB Ends...Regardless of HOW it Ends...I've Got to Say Something...

In 2021, TBB was released, and over the last few years, it's grown to mean a lot to me. Not just the stories, the storytelling, the characters whom we've fallen in love with and hope to see more of someday, whose stories we've learned important lessons from, but how it profoundly affected my life.

And it is something I am incredibly grateful for.

Regardless of how the show ends, if it's something I'm going to love or be totally heartbroken over and hate, I'm so glad it happened and went on this journey.

For one, it gave me the plug to start writing. Writing was always a dream of mine but it wasn't until I discovered fanfiction, because of TBB, that I actually realized it. I had this idea of writing and thought I'd never really be able to accomplish that. The show enabled me to move past that and I've been able to be enflamed by my love for writing. It brings me so much happiness. No other show pushed me to write like this one.

Secondly, my writing has allowed me to touch and interact with people. I can't tell you how much it means to me and how thrilled I am to hear and learn my work has touched you in some way. I'm humbled by your words and taking the time to actually read and appreciate what I've written.

Thirdly, I've gone on so many adventures, crazy amazing adventures because of what other brilliant minds I met through the show have written. There are SO many great stories that just hit me so.....I was touched by your stories that you wouldn't have written if you hadn't watched the show!

Lastly, but CERTAINLY not the least, I have made SO many friends and writing buddies because of this show. It has connected me to so many cool people that I otherwise may never have found. I've grown really close with some of you, while others, though we may not be friends per say, I hope we can someday. In the meantime, I will admire your work from here. You guys mean so much to me and I can't even begin to express how wonderful it's been getting to know you over the past few years. The fun experiences we've shared, the theories, the stories, all of it. I am not putting this as well as it was in my head so please forgive that.

This includes but isn't limited to: @eclec-tech @photogirl894 @apocalyp-tech-a @lizartgurl @jedipoodoo @arctrooper69 @carolinetano7567 @trapezequeen @ghostofskywalker @masterjedilenaaa @ladysongmaster @moonstrider9904 @klmwrites @techs-stitches @ovaa-bi-bia @frostycatblr-fandom-files @imabeautifulbutterfly @sverdgeir @oceansssblue @marvel-starwarsfangirl @jedi-hawkins

How about you? What are you guys grateful for? Reblog and share what TBB meant to you!

Copy and paste the red as your header and let's see how many people we can get so share their stories!

I will end with no other quote than this!

"With love comes loss; it's part of the deal. Sometimes it hurts, but in the end, it's all worth it. There's no greater gift than love."

[pleasurenerd]

I don't have anyone to talk to about this in my life but I cannot stop thinking about Our Flag Means Death.

I didn't know how much I needed a story about an ensemble of queer pirates in my life until Our Flag Means Death. I fully stopped watching a lot of popular shows because they frequently queer baited or killed their queers. It just really hurt to feel like my value is to develop someone else's story.

Then I watched Our Flag Means Death and I could feel pieces of my heart come together again. To see a happy queer ensemble, living their best pirate lives made me feel so happy inside! Albeit until Stede was a noodle and broke my heart again.

<There be Spoilers below>

I know that in reality Stede and Ed don't get back together, but for my broken bisexual heart I desperately want these two fictional middle aged men to be together and live a happy (albeit probably short due to being pirates) lives.

I want this to divert from reality so badly because I want to believe that there's more happy endings for queer folk in TV. Also if HBO don't renew this, they're so incredibly stupid.

That being said... I do want:

A scene where Ed is in Stede's secret closet and is just touching and admiring the fine clothes maybe even wearing a few under his leather (it didn't seem like he'd thrown them away with the books)

Red silk square is found and eventually returned to Ed (or Stede wears it as he's still carrying a torch for Ed).

Fang saved Lucien (you can't hurt his little fingies!) - ultimately Lucien still being alive.

Ideally a scene on the deck where Blackbeard is trying to angrily kill Stede and Stede (back with more confidence) is aptly defending himself leading to a heartfelt apology

Alternatively, Ed is in his quarters having a moment alone (more crying let's be honest) and Stede and the old crew come aboard. There's a rematch with Stede and Izzy where Izzy is trying to protect his captain's pride/honour and hide the fact the fearless and ferocious Blackbeard is pining for an effeminate rich boy who dares to call himself a pirate.

Happy reunions between the separated couples, although I think I would love/hate if Jim had changed and become a darker version of themselves.

An apology that involves "You came back?" "I never left"

More scenes with Ivan and Fang. I thought they were fun characters and I'd love to see more of them and their softer sides.

More relationship building within the crews - I literally want to see more of all the crew.

Frenchie interacting with a cat (like one is snuck onboard when they go ashore)

Buttons obtaining a seagull army and setting about everyone who wronged the crew with a hex on ye

More bedtime stories being read to the crew

[vdlest]

Love than lose

Characters:

TFATWS!Bucky Barnes x Reader

Summary:

The day Bucky confessed to you that he likes you, you told him that you can't be with someone whose life is always in the line of death. So you two decided not to do anything. But when you saw him in the news regarding his mission to end Flag Smashers alongside the new Captain America, Sam, you rushed towards the scene to tell him that you regret your decision.

Warning:

Fluff

You just got home from your work in a library near your place, when you opened the TV, you instantly saw the flash news about the current situation in your city. Sam and Bucky are putting an end to the Flag Smashers.

Three weeks ago, Bucky confessed to you how much he likes you. You like him too, there's no doubt about that but the fact that his life is always in danger, in line with death and life, you are not comfortable by that fact. You are afraid that one day tragic news about his dangered life will come to your knowledge, and you don't have any idea how you would survive that.

So you two did not do anything about those feelings.

But while watching the news, seeing how Bucky puts his life in the line just to save people's lives, just to make this world a better place, you saw the kind of man you always tell your mom that you want to marry and grow old with someday.

A man with honor. A man with love for his country. A man who is willing to sacrifice his own life in the name of love and peace.

That's who Bucky is.

That's the man you fell for.

So without further ado, you grabbed your car keys and immediately went to the location where you saw Bucky in the news.

The moment you got there, you saw Bucky talking to Sam and a woman who's familiar to you. You were afraid to approach him at first, but you are more afraid to lose him without putting up a fight for what you two feel for each other.

So you got out of your car, you walked towards where Bucky is, but tons of reporters and media personnel suddenly intervened in your way, that's why you lost sight of him. The reporters and media personnel must be running towards Bucky and Sam as well.

You pushed yourself through the reporters and tried your best to keep up with Bucky and Sam, but when you got through the media, the only person you saw was Sam and no sign of Bucky.

Since you're also friends with Sam, you approached him.

"Hey, Sam," you're still catching your breath when you called Sam's attention.

Sam immediately recognized you, "Y/N, what are you doing here?" he asked. The police officers were able to hold off the reporters away from Sam, the new Captain America.

"Where's Bucky? I got to talk to him," you asked him.

Just when Sam's about to answer your question, you both heard someone cleared a throat, coming behind you.

You and Sam turned your heads around and saw the man you are looking for.

You're not sure whether he is surprised to see you here or not. He is just looking and staring at you. You wanted to know what he's thinking while staring at you relentlessly. His stare feels like reading your mind and you wish you could do the same thing, but he's too unpredictable to read. After all, he's a hundred and six-year-old man.

"I'm gonna leave the two of you. I'll just check on Sharon," Sam excused himself.

You gave Sam a quick nod, then you moved your eyes back to Bucky, who is still staring at you.

"Hi," you cleared your throat as you slowly walk towards him.

"You got lost or something?" he asked emotionless.

You understand that Bucky is somehow mad at you. He was full of confidence when he confessed to you, and all you did was break his heart and reject his heart. You did not want that, but your scaredy-cat heart did. But it's only a matter of time before you realized that you'll choose to take the risk than to lose him completely.

You looked down and bit your lower lip, feeling guilty about how you broke the White Wolf's heart, "Bucky, I know...I know you're mad at me for what I did three weeks ago," you sighed as you finally look at him in his eyes, "And I'm sorry. I'm sorry for being a coward. I'm sorry for not taking the risk with you. I'm sorry, Bucky. That's all I could say right now, I'm sorry. I really am," you apologized, tears slowly forming in your eyes, making your sight of him a little blur.

He slowly nodded, curving his lips, shrugging his shoulders, "So, what are you doing here? Why are you here?" he asked you, still emotionless.

"If you still like me, if you still want me, I want you to know that I want to be with you, that I want to take the risk with you," you breathed, looking at him in his eyes.

"Let's say I still like you, that I still want to be with you," he started walking closer to you, arms crossed in front of his chest, "How will I know that you won't leave me hanging again? That you will not be a coward? How will I know that you won't give up on me, on us?" he quizzed.

"I won't do that ever again to you, Buck," a tear fell down from your eyes, "'Cause I'd rather die than lose you again," you proclaimed.

Bucky shook his head and you thought it means he doesn't believe you, so that made you bit your lower lip again as you looked down.

"Next time," his hand cupped your face and made you look at him in his eyes, "Let me bite your lips for you. I'll be happy to do it," he said before he leaned towards you to crash your lips using his.

A feeling of love and contentment runs through your veins, your blood, right through your heart the moment his lips touched yours. You felt his vibranium hand move to the back of your head, supporting it while kissing you, and so your hand traveled to his nape to pull him towards you even more.

"Will you finally go out with me?" he said in between kisses.

You nodded without pulling your lips away from his.

"How 'bout tonight?" he asked again in between kisses, and that question of his made you pull away from your kiss, "Do you want to leave this place and eat somewhere?"

You smiled, "I know a place."

"Then lead the way, my luna," he gave your lips one quick kiss after he called you his nickname for you, his luna, his moon.

-v.dl