#allthegreen

[coyotetg]

Today is one of the hard days. First time waking up in a panic in a moment. Not even really sure why. Suppose I'll find out sooner or later what's coming my way.

Grappling with some lingering questions, doubts, even resentments. I know there will never be any answers to them, so they don't ultimately serve me.

I'm stuck on particular moments in time. Moments that felt joyful or hopeful.

Staring at eachother in a cafe over a meal and feeling so thankful. Hearing a song come on and effortlessly singing along to it, discovering in the moment we both loved it. Gentle reassurances. Thumbs brushed along cheeks. Heads nestled in the crooks of shoulders. Confessions and promises. Words of devotion.

I think back to efforts I made. Encouragement and support for friendships. Challenging negative thoughts about others. Reassuring that, despite something feeling impossible, it could be done.

It's a hard day today. It's a day of grief, and mourning. I know it won't be the last. But they're coming further apart. And will keep coming further apart.

And maybe I can take some solace in enduring these memories, because it means that what I felt, the efforts I made, the ways I did show up, were real.

I don't need anyone else to know or believe that for it to still be true.

"There's one thing I want to say

So I'll be brave.

You were what I wanted;

I gave what I gave."

-Stars

Nikolay Punin, from a diary entry featured in The Diaries of Nikolay Punin: 1904 - 1953

[coyotetg]

Phil Elverum - Various Projects

[crispkitchenandjuice]

GODDESS // in the build! All the green! Featuring our house-baked sourdough sorghum boule (gf). . . . #sogood #goodglutenfree #allthegreens #thecrisplife (at Crisp Kitchen + Juice) https://www.instagram.com/p/CpVzFsYSC8S/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[belezzaediverita]

allthegreen

[coyotetg]

Need to drill this into my thick skull until it really sticks.

Show up for the people who show up. Give back to those who are giving. Love the ones who love me. Care about those who care.

Never take someone for granted.

This was a lesson I was taught young and hard and deep. It's one I lost, along with many other pieces of myself, 5 years ago. Forgetting it has cost me (and others) things that cannot be regained. Precious things. Dear things.

I've failed those that have loved me in ways I can never forgive myself for, in ways that - no matter how hard I tried - I can never make right. Paradoxically, by failing for care for/about myself, I have perpetuated a cycle of harm for those that do care for me.

If I ever hope to silence the belief that I need to exclude myself from others' lives for their own benefit, then I need to make damn well sure I'm doing my best to be a net positive.

Dying is simple. Growth is hard.

Do the hard things.

[raemissigman]

Exploring tonal mixed media paper and watercolor. #watercolordaily #watercolorpractice #watercolorbeginner #artstudio_post #watercolorpractice #allthegreen #popupartclasses #raemissigman #studioart #paintingleaves #paintedpaperart #watercoloronpaper #philodendron #watercolorleaves #watercolor #watercolordoodles #watercolorflowers #watercolorflorals #moodyflorals #moodyflowers #botanicalwatercolor #createeveryday #dailycreative #makearteveryday #makersgonnamake #artstudios #artstudios #creativeeveryday #graytonedpaper #mixedmediaart https://www.instagram.com/p/CmMF368LK3y/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[mynamemeanscute]

thetis lake, may 2019

drizzly walks can do the soul some good.

(also spontaneous visits from cousin, post sailing around the islands)

[teikahudson]

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Convention is over, it’s painting time. Progress on the ‘sneaky dragon’❤️😀 #dragon#watercolorpainting#painting#timelapse#timelapsevideo#paintingvideo#video#dragonpainting#greendragon#brushes#green#scales#art#create#artist#watercolorart#arting#paint#happy#happiness#coloring#allthegreen (at Calgary, Alberta)

[belezzaediverita]

allthegreen

[katwhysalltattoos]

Finished this on @evel_inkk, sorry for hurting you agaaaaaain!✨ ❤️ @ininkwetrusttattoo 💜 kreativkatart@gmail.com 💙 www.facebook.com/katwhysalltattoos 〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰 #london #skull #thisisart #eltham #orpington #art #artist #ininkwetrust #chistlehurst #octopus #kent #femaletattooist #design #elthamhighstreet #allthegreen #femaletattooer #studio #southeast #vegantattoo #southlondon #squid #tattoostudio #tattoo #tattooartist #tattoos #tattoosnob #octoskull #uktattoo #myhighstreet @thegbhighst (at In Ink We Trust) https://www.instagram.com/p/B2eDPlahzEk/?igshid=layn4cbtnygx

[coyotetg]

I've had premonitory dreams for most of my life.

It's weird. There is no logical explanation for it, and it makes me feel unhinged even admitting it.

But they have guided me before.

When my life was burned to the ground in 2019, I had dreamt of it, repeatedly, ahead of time. It wasn't a clear "vision of the future" but snapshots of moments in time that were terrifying and formed a picture when taken as a whole. I took certain precautions, made sure to document certain things, and those precautions saved me.

The end of 2023 and large swathes of 2024 were especially severe with these premonitions. I managed to convince myself I was actually just going crazy. The stress, the pressure, my lack of any true support network, made me think I was just... going crazy. I was actually convinced that I was for a solid 3-4 months, like commitably insane.

Then I started noticing patterns and asking questions. The right questions at the right times. I started gambling on my premonitions being accurate, or at least clueing me into some kind of truth. And kept being proved right. Weirdly right at times. I got called spooky for it.

I predicted three deaths. I predicted specific interactions between people, with near perfect timing.

And I recall a very specific prediction, one that took place when I moved into the house I still live in back in 2023. It didn't make much sense to me then. I think I actually sought reassurance from one of the parties in that premonition that it was just all in my head after.

Now here I am, poised on the edge of that premonition (it was down to a date, though oddly not a year - that I assumed incorrectly) and I feel an odd sense of calm. I guess because these premonitions never seem to include the other parts of my life.

Maybe I'll feel differently when it happens. I probably will. But I've gone through the emotional turmoil of it so many times already that I can look at the reality and just... laugh. I can look at the individual components as they are, and even feel sympathy.

One of my resolutions for this year (and ongoing goals in therapy) is to trust my gut. To believe when it is telling me something, because I've been proven right over and over about the concerns I tried to shove down or pretend were baseless or think my way around.

And when I really open myself up to it, there are some good feelings too. I went through the ringer in 2024. But I also started on a path that has been bearing much more fruit than I ever imagined.

Here's to 2025. With all the heartache it has in store for me, I think there's true joy for me to find here too. I just need to stay open to it.

Doesn't make me feel any less like Cassandra of Troy though.

[belezzaediverita]

allthegreens

[beallofthem]

Took a quick walk around the neighborhood during my lunch break. #happystpatricksday #allthegreen #staysafelovelies https://www.instagram.com/p/B92AiWsnURw/?igshid=crg22nqzlxl9

[adaradin]

Yeah; I wear my #blarneyprincess #tiara to work. Hit me up of you want one of this year's official @lucky_mpls #parade #buttons Your $5 #donation gets you two bead necklaces, 1 parade button AND the money goes to the #americandiabetesassociation 's #CampNeedlepoint , a summer camp for children with Type 1 #diabetes PLUS! It'll get you into our parade #afterparty !!! #luckympls #stpatricksday2020 #minneapolisstpatricksday #allthegreen #IrishAF #dogoodfeelgood #giveback https://www.instagram.com/p/B8bwhdwFlB1/?igshid=1jn3eqj4tvq1f

[kitchenlassie]

Sprouting onions & fennel fronds.... — When you get delivered a 20kg bag of onions and the nasty ones are hiding at the bottom....and fennel fronds are too pretty and together they are already practically besties, you take the photo right?!🌸 — There is beauty in most things if we care to look closely enough. I’m a little bit like a 5 year old toddling around in the world.. — I could spend my days just placing pretty things together and trying to capture them- drawing, taking pictures or just simply sitting and imagining how incredible it is that all this cool stuff even exists. — I don’t spend enough time in this space- I’m trying to make sure I do🍎 — •Do you take enough time to notice the smaller things.. what constantly surprises you? — #sprouting #onions #fennel #femalechef #stilllifephotos #allthegreen #kitchenlassie #lookclosely #eyeswideopen https://www.instagram.com/p/B35VBxPg1Ez/?igshid=alg7sejwha76

[belezzaediverita]

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