#all we can really do is support them and send them lots of love fr ;; you've done well my jjunie ily ���

[yeonjune]

Yeonjun about the strain he felt while preparing for his debut solo project ✙ "GGUM" MAKING FILM

[celestie0]

First time asker but long time reader 😭 I’m sorry that you got that shitty ask. It’s such a weird fucking thing to ask someone “hey when are you making these two fuck?” like… does that not feel weird to type out?

The gojo x reader tag has at least 5 explicit smut fics minimum daily, go read through those if you genuinely need sex in everything you read (it’s time to reflect on the porn addiction you have).

Regardless, I’ve been reading your fics on Ao3 and I absolutely LOVE the banter between gojo and reader 😭 it flows so fucking well I can feel the chemistry radiating from my screen. When I first started reading IHM, I was also an ancient hag like reader (29) so I found myself able to really relate to her. Usually when I envision Y/N, it’s a random person in their place but with this fic specifically idk why I lowkey insert myself? Everything she does, I would probably do the same and it makes me nervous (in a good way) that I’m gonna get attached to gojo and y/n’s relationship 😭

I absolutely love how gojo provides the security Y/N so desperately needs in the span of the fic. She has been suffocating on her own for so long that he just provides some fresh air. Dare I say meant to be?

The domesticity is everything and I like how we’re learning more about him alongside Y/N. So far we’ve seen just how supportive gojo has been and I’m excited to see how y/n comes through for him because my spidey senses (and your amazing writing) shows me that he has some baggage and it might resurface soon.

The build up to them realizing they love each other is making me giggle and kick my feet. I will happily eat whatever you feed us, thank you for sharing your writing with us. You absolutely have a talent for writing and fleshing out characters/relationships.

I appreciate you and will do my best to support you vocally from here on out 🥹 have a great week pls!

hi my love!! first of all thank you SO much for this supportive message, i srs teared up when i read it 😭 idk if that’s embarrassing to admit lololdjfsdfh but yea omg yesterday was rough so i can’t tell u how much it means to me

i agree on the porn addict thing omg like i love smut as much as the next person, but likeee to go into an author inbox after they just posted a 14k chap of their fic n say “are we gonna get smut soon?” like 💀 that’s sortaaaaa. i’m getting porn addiction vibes

aaaaaaaa i’m so happy you’re enjoying the banter in ihm :’’) and that you’re able to see yourself in reader’s shoes!! that’s such a wonderful thing n one of the aims of my writing ♥️ ♥️ also pls 29 is not ancient hag oml i mean there will be lots of rhetoric in ihm where reader thinks she’s old but like ultimately i want the message of the series to be that it’s never too late to start over and find happiness & joy :) i think that really applies to everything and everyone. and ahhh yes there will be some pretty angst stuffs BUT there will be happy ending <33

yes ihm gojo def got some baggage 😂😂 i need my men like that LOL. but thank you so much for being excited to see how reader comes through for him as well!! i know she’s going through a lot on her own, and that can sometimes cause her to neglect the things outside of her…but i think she has capacity to really be there for him too

oh my dear i really am so lucky to have you as a long time reader and i’m so grateful to hear your thoughts, but also please send them whenever you want to and without pressure <33 i will eat it tf up if/when you do but yea xD never feel burdened to! you have a wonderful week as well omg imma eat u fr

[pinkbrries]

IZABELLA RELATIONSHIPS: 98 LINERS EDITION

izabella masterlist

hongjoong — hongbella ♡

[izabella suddenly appearing at hj’s studio at 3 a.m]: OKAY BUT LISTEN UP! do you think fishes can see the air since we can see water? / hj: … have you been sleeping your eight hours?

he was so excited to meet her when the staff told him that she joined the company

joong really admired iza since he knew how hard working she was, even going to crazy survival shows with older and way more experienced ppl than her, that would judge and talk shit abt her because she wanted to be an idol

but oof their meeting was kinda… awkward

and the beginnings of their relationship? yeah. let’s not talk abt that❤️

the way hj just kept calling izabella “sunbaenim” and she was like !! i haven’t debuted tf you’re talking abt lol

she even was like ? we’re the same age too !! you can just be casual with me (spoiler: it took him one good month to be completely casual w her)

the first friend she made on kq, even before she even got added into the ateez final line-up<3

izabella is always like !! hongjoong-ah and i have been friends for seven years now!! and hj is always like 🙄❤️ yes yes, everyone knows it, you always mention that

he finds it so cute tho

the fact that iza is the maknae of the 98’ line so he always tries to (subtly) take care of her

pls the adoring eyes hj not so subtly gives towards her way

he knows she’s strong and that she always tries to gulp down all of her feelings and pretend to be tough since she’s one of the oldest members

but hj always has /this/ way of making her open up to him, and they’re each other’s biggest confidents

same thing with izabella, she knows how hj is always trying to help everyone and even not taking care of himself because he sometimes forgets to do it, so she always nags at him and takes care of him

sending him messages like “joong, did u eat already?” “are you drinking water?” “did u catch some sleep?”

if he says no, you can see her appearing inside his studio like 🧍‍♀️with shopping bags from the seven eleven lol, and she even sits to eat w him because she has to make sure he’s really eating and not fooling her

iza🤝joong: besties that live inside their studios 24/7

but shoutout to hongbella because we have a lot of bangers thanks to them!!!

they’re each other’s #1 fan,,, but also,,, they’re each other’s #1 hater KXLAJZK

not like they hate each other at all (they sometimes say to each other ‘i hate you’ but jokingly lol) but they’re always at each other’s throats

izabella would always start the teasing and the play fighting, but lately? hj is the one that always goes and annoys her just to see how mad she can get JXKSKS

theyre sometimes really clingy w each otherrrr, even hj going pouty if izabella doesn’t pay attention to him lol

izabella is hj’s best costumer when it comes to reforming stuff

izabella has a new plain jacket? she suddenly appears at joong’s studio and just leaves it to him without saying a word (along w some food and an iced coffee); izabella bought a new airpod’s case? she leaves it in hongjoong’s bag with a note attached on it so he gets the hint; she has some new pair of converse? she goes and leaves them at his room, just beside his bed.

at first, he’d be like ??? but after the time passed, he just finds it so normal and endearing from her

for her 20th bday, he gave her a customized bag and she got so excited and touched that she cried, fr

they have the deepest conversations when they’re together on the studio, recording a demo or when they go out to spend some time together

all the members go to them when they need to talk stuff out bc who needs therapy when you have hongbella giving you advice and hearing your deep talk without judging you?

hongbella are always spreading awareness over social media and supporting social causes. we love woke besties<3

they’re always pretty chill, but everyone gets scared when they fight because it gets hardcore

they fight FIGHT, the only one that can stop them and make them make up is: seonghwa

they love each other a lot tho,,,,, not like they would voice it out at all

hj is literally one of the main pillars in her life. she doesn’t know what would be of her if she didn’t have him in her life

1/3 of the “best friends club” (aka matz ZKSKSK)

contact name on her phone: cooljoong🕶

seonghwa — hwabella / 2park ♡

[the 99 liners screaming and being chaotic] izabella: i have an idea to make them shut up / seonghwa: does it involve murder? / izabella: *sighing* … i suddenly forgot my idea

oh man,,,, the first time they saw each other it was by accident,,,, and this dude really developed a crush just because the eye contact they made for like 0.5 secs LMAOO

seonghwa knew about izabella because trainees would be like :00 famous underground rapper cherry got signed here recently!! and he was like,,, sounds like a lie

,,, well, it wasn’t a lie seonghwa

hj formally introduced each other after that, the boy lowkey excited to make his only 98 liners’ friends meet each other

hj only knew abt the crush after the introduction lol, and he would always tease tf out of hwa😞 #flyhighseonghwa KXLSKS

but after two months of interactions, he forgot abt his crush because he realized it was only that: a teenage crush

instead, he realized that he and izabella had amazing chemistry, and they really enjoyed spending time together

the second longest friendship she has in the group after hj (to which hj is always like 🙄 sure thing, but i’m the longest friendship she has so stay pressed JDLSK)

she loves loves seonghwa, fr. she would D word for seonghwa and she would fight anyone that dares to make him feel bad or say bad stuff about him

seonghwa is always on the calmer side, so he’s always like “iza, don’t” but she’s like 😠 but did you hear what they SAID?????!! hold my bag, i’ll punch them��

she’s the president of the #protectHwaclub 🫶 always there for him

but is that going to stop her from joining the teasing that her members put hwa through? no❤️

probably the member that keeps her at bay when she’s wilding. hongjoong might be her leader but seonghwa is the one that goes “izabella. 😐” at her and u see her go 🤐

hongjoong: why u never listen to me but u listen to seonghwa ??? / izabella: because he is park seonghwa / hongjoong: … and¿ / izabella: i don’t plan to discuss it

izabella loves hugging him and being around seonghwa

u know how hwa sometimes goes🙄🙄 whenever woo is behaving like this. WELL, his favoritism it’s definitely showing with iza

TALKING ABT THAT !!! she’s so spoiled by him?? if she’s like !! let’s go out eat!! he PAYS for it. if she sees smth that she likes!! he BUYS it for her. and if seonghwa sees something that reminds him of her?? bet he’s going to gift her that

oh to be izabella

the park besties<3 looking all expensive and model like but being all giggly and polite everywhere they go can’t u tell i love hwabella

also their fashion taste?? IMMACULATE🤌 they always look like they’re straight out of a kdrama?? and they sometimes match their fits

girl group enthusiasts!! know every single dance. kings of random play dance me thinks

probably the only member she had never screamed at or had a /big/ fight with. they always talk stuff in a very calm way??? they listen to the other’s point of view and make it work out

she’s always praising him for everything he does. she goes like THATS MY BEST FRIEND!!! even when he’s just there breathing deserved<3

iza: park seonghwa you’re the most handsome man ever! / wooyoung looking at the side like: 🧍‍♂️noona what about me / iza: this ain’t about u😐

taught her how to cook some recipes but he still cooks it for her

the extroverts of the matz club, meaning that they make other ‘98 liner friends and hj goes 😐😐 why didn’t i know about this???

she calls seonghwa “wife” SJZLSKZ HELLO??? but she has to share her wife with hj tho:/ you can’t have all the nice stuff izabella

theyre just a really wholesome duo😞 pls i want what they have

1/3 of the “best friends club” (aka matz)

contact name on her phone: seonghwife💘

[little-miss-dilf-lover]

To you he's a menace to society, he's my little princess though. I'm back and here to serve more ideas of my favorite mean bbg 💗💗

Ok ok so I know this is based on the fic I sended, but can you imagine tan's wife being just so sassy? Walking up to this well known and feared leader, hand on our hip, smug smile, not a care in the world and saving our boys. And we always win because I said so.

Which brings me to my next point, acting. (I'm not obsessed with this idea at all haha) Now, this is silly but hear me out, since in the movie, the prince is a diesel because of her acting and how she bluffs, what if reader is arguing she's also a diesel because of her great acting skills. All I know for sure is that Lem would be so pissed at what we just said.

I hc that Tan doesn't spend much time on the internet, so when we send him "I'll see you at 14:37 :)" don't expect him to know. Lem would be like "you fucking dumbass" and having to explain what it means. (1437 = i love you forever)

Casual dom with Tan?? Pulling you by the waist so thar on the sidewalk you're further from the cars. Giving you his jacket because you "forgot" yours at home (he secretly loves it) scolding you when you don't eat and holding your chin up to make you look at him

This one is self indulgent but, wearing heels all day and you're legs hurt so he offers you a piggy back ride back home :((

Last one, I think he's kind of hesitant to open up at first but as time went by, and you two get married, what do you think will change in your relationship?

OK LAST ONE FR THIS TIME I'm feeling a little mischievous, giving him an attitude? 😱😱 shocking but,, how will he react? Please share thoughts ☺️

Also,, that text conversation ?? Delicious, thank you for the food ma'am. A while back, when I send one of these ideas asks (idk how to call them) I mentioned how it'll be like to be in a groupchat with these two and the fake sms app is exactly what I had in mind. Now that I saw the post, I wanted to ask if you could do something similar but I'm aware it's probably a lot of hassle so it's okay if you don't want to !! Sorry for any spelling mistakes!!  💺 anon

I love wearing sunglasses bcs no one will know what you're looking at haha. I say as I'm obviously staring at Tan's chest

hii!! ofc ofc, please enlighten me with ideas of our cute wholesome angel😩!!

1. like a protective mama bear 😌 always looking out for our little princesses. and yes to winning bc that’s the only way tbh

2. 😭😭😭 yes!! would kinda imagine as a femme fatale just bc it’s badass, and she would have many skills- acting one of them!! like someone you watch in a movie, and you’re like she’s fucking cool

3. yes!! feel like he’s a bit old in that department - he’s not really ‘up to date’. tbh I didn’t I know what that meant either until I read your last line😭 I feel like Lems the opposite of tan with the internet, he just knows things

4. ARFFGH LOVE IT!! he’s very chivalrous bc I say so! he NEVER lets you walk on the outside of the pavement!! always holds the/ your bags !! holds you close if you’re both out at night!! makes you food if you haven’t eaten!! makes you drinks- big acts of service kinda guy🫠😌 MAYBE… he doesn’t need a jacket but always brings one bc he knows you’ll get cold :((

5. so cute !!! especially if you went on a date!!

6. he’s a tough nut to crack!! dare I say a little difficult to love at times😶 I think he just needs lots of genuine reassurance and support to get you both past that first barrier. also he probs tries to push you away. but once you’re comfortable with each other and had a lot of time to learn from one another, he’ll be a great partner!! as most people, he gets more comfortable with time, so he’ll start to annoy you and wind you up for fun. maybe might argue more as time goes on, but they’re not that serious, nor are they petty, just standard ones

7. he knows how to shut you up, that’s all im gonna say

8. ugh you’re so welcome, love feeding my children😌 yes yes ofc!! just need to figure out how to that (bc it’s 3 people) I send messages to my ipad and respond that way😭 so if I find away to make a group chat as such, I’ll definitely let you know

9. he’s got such a pretty chest🥹

[camilaxmartin]

gonna put them emoji’s again💀😭 so it would be: 🥑🍬🌸🐝🎨🍄

I love using these TOTALLY USEFUL emoji’s so I picked em🥰

you don’t use avocado/bee/mushroom everyday? what are you even doing?🙄

BUT ANYWAY

🥑: you accidentally killed somebody, which mutual(s) do you text for help?

probably @bunnylove1 and @blookyag, idk why tho honestly, just getting the vibes they’d help somebody out with hiding the body💀 (it’s a compliment, i swear-)

🍬: post an unpopular opinion about a popular fandom character:

okay uhh- (don’t cancel me plz) i respect with my whole heart that alastor is asexual and (?) aromantic but i don’t get the hate people receive when shipping him with someone? as far as i know being on the spectrum means he can still date? like i know, he doesn’t show any interest in that but if its just for a silly au or for a cool drawing then what’s the fuss about? i’m not talking like about erasing that part of him because that’s a big no no for me, but like…? respecting it but still having fun with his character? i saw a great tiktok explaining my thoughts exactly so maybe i’ll link it here if i can find it (add the link here later camila:) (besides all that i project a lot of myself onto alastor (still debating if im aromantic or not) and i want to explore myself with his character (if i can even phrase it that way) so all the hate and shit really bother me, you know?)

(another thing more about whole thing not a character is that “whatever it takes” is in my top 4 songs and i don’t get the hate it gets?? i love this song?? it’s so great?? two latina (?) girls singing together?? cmon??)

🌸: do you have any pets? if you do, post some pictures of them:

i do actually! i have a dog and three rats:) (also had a rabbit but he died not so long ago and he was like my whole world so i got a tattoo to remember him, i’ll add it as well just because i can)

🐝: tag your biggest supporters and say one nice thing about them:

@kimmyisachiisaiakuma - ugh of course?? like in my head we are already besties fr fr, what can i saaaay😭 idk i love you and how supportive and just friendly you are!!:) and god of course, i love your art?? but i’ve already said it a thousand times??? so here’s one thousand first??

@bunnylove1 - just how supportive you are towards my stuff and how with exactly one request i felt like we also became besties? maybe it’s just me but yeah😭

@blookyag - liking my every post and responding to every single one of them!!! she’s a treasure, really. i’m surprised someone cares about my rambling this much💀

@informist - i’ve noticed that she’s also reacting to a lot of my stuff and she’s so quick with it like?? idk it makes my heart jump okay? i love attention from people even when it’s just my stupid rambling😭 (#iamanattentionwhore 😗😗)

@rougecreator1 - liked a lot of my posts as well, and somehow i feel like they enjoy my stuff? idk tho?😭😭 yeah just noticed interactions in my activities:)

@riveramorylunar - i feel like we were more active on each other’s accounts when i was still in my lady lesso era, but idk i really liked you then and i still love seeing your stuff pop up on my main page:)

and of course, all of my lovely anons who send me their ideas that i can’t wait to write!!:)

🎨: link your favourite piece of fanart and explain why you like it:

okay so like it changes every day?? but for now i must say this one:

click!

why? simple. a. brokerdoll b. the marvellous style? c. i want to draw like that d. just… just look at it okay? e. lesbians.

(and a special mention for THIS as well, as it’s the first time someone ever drawn my oc and besides the fact that she looks so pretty here it’s just… idk i just love it okay, she stole my heart)

🍄: share a headcanon for one of your favourite ships or pairings:

let’s start with the fact that i even have a favourite account for all the headcanons about brokerdoll which is @vypridae (adore all the hcs, really)

buut! my personal headcanon is:

• carmilla didn’t really expect to fall for velvette, i mean in my head she just saw her as so… respectless and dumb and stupid and careless and carefree and wild and free and pretty- wait

yeah, so in my head velvette was the first to initiate anything and at first carmilla was like “ha! no way, you stupid girl” but then she started to think more and more about velvette as the time went on and one day she just got along the fact that she might be attracted to the young overlord and somehow… went with it? like she didn’t make a big deal out of it… but velvette definitely did, despite the fact she was actually the first one to say or act on her attraction in any way.

(i need to write more headcanons for them, they’re literally eating up my brain)

[rubyreal]

ROCK AND READ 115 / Interview with Saki from Amai Bouryoku (English Translation)

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I forgot Tumblr existed... but recently I imported this book literally just so I could read the interview with Saki, so here’s the translation I've been working on!!! This took so long omfggf

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“Amai Bouryoku is a band that formed in 2016 with a raw and powerful theme: “Sweet violence rock dedicated to troubled girls.” Sticking to their basic stance without falter, they’ve been charging forward in the scene with their all-out music and lives. But why did they decide to adopt that theme in the first place? And why did Saki, who describes himself as ‘an ordinary person who hasn’t lived a turbulent life,’ decide to start a band? Furthermore, we explore the reasons behind the band not using social media, why he dedicates himself to visual kei, as well as the secrets of his own ‘troubled’ personality.”

—The purpose of this is to learn about your background, Saki-san. But Sweet Violence has a quite a few mysterious aspects. That’s because the members don’t have personal accounts on social media, right?

From my point of view, visual kei exists in another world. It’s about people from a different realm appearing on stage and providing an escape from reality, isn’t it? If people can casually send messages or replies through social media, for better or for worse, it shrinks that sense of distance. As a visual kei artist, I don’t have the confidence to fully commit to that while maintaining the vibe I want. In those three minutes, one minute before the show, the tension builds up… I value that. The audience’s excitement when the artist themselves appear on stage is the most important. I want to preserve that above all else.

—Because you’re such a unique person, Saki-san, I’m interested in your life journey. You seem to be looked up to by younger bandmen. Are you like an older brother in real life as well?

No, not at all (laughs). I have a family of four: my father, mother, and my older sister. My father has already passed away. 

—I see. I often hear younger bandmen say that when they’re troubled and contact you, you always rush over to help them, and they describe you as a reliable older brother. What kind of personality do you think you have?

“If you’re a man, just do it.” That’s my personality. I think I have an old-fashioned mindset. Maybe that’s why younger bandmen look up to me. I don’t know for sure, though.But of course I would never tolerate male-supremacy or sexism or any of the like. I’m really all about putting ladies first (laughs).

—When it comes to romance, too, are you the manly, dominant type?

Well, about that… when it comes to romance, I’m really really terrible at it (laughs). Just like in my lyrics. I’m not good at confessing my feelings myself either.

—You started blushing (laughs). Recently, you performed as a support band for the two Tohoku shows on MUCC’s “Love Together” tour, didn’t you? Afterwards, Tatsuro-san (MUCC vocalist) said, “Amai Bouryoku gives misshitsu kei (密室系*) vibes, right?” But how do you perceive your band yourself? 

*Misshitsu kei (密室系) is referring to a type of subgenre in visual kei with a more intimate and closed vibe. Literally ‘secret or locked room’

The theme we present is “Sweet Violence Rock dedicated to troubled girls,**” so I think it may have been interpreted that way. To be honest, I’ve really thought about us being influenced by misshitsu kei or us trying to revive it. Even for us, we think we’re a band that’s hard to classify. 

**Troubled girls (拗らせ���子) refers to girls with complicated emotions and relationships

—There’s masculinity, but also a lot of songs with themes of pain. The live shows are intense, but there’s also a pop-esk side to the music. You have an image rooted with a very heavy Kansai dialect. Where are you originally from?

I was born in Osaka, but I grew up in Wakayama. I spent my early elementary school years in Nishinomiya, Hyogo prefecture. From 4th grade, I moved to Wakayama. I lived there until I became an adult. After that, I lived in Tokyo for a few years. Then I came back to Kansai. My parents moved often for work, so we were always moving around. So I don’t have contact with almost any of my friends from my elementary school years.

—I see. So you’re not from a musical family?

My mother was in some kind of folk song club when she was young. The acoustic guitar she used to play was always at home. So, the first guitar I practiced on was my mom’s. My mom liked artists like Mariya Takeuchi, Mariko Takahashi, and Yumi Arai (later Yumi Matsutoya), etc., so when I was a child, I used to listen to them in the car.

—When you were in elementary school, did you prefer sports or studying?

I always liked sports a lot more, but I was physically very weak. I had asthma and my tonsils were very weak, so I’d get sick pretty often. My asthma was severe, so in order to overcome it, I started playing soccer. But… I was unbelievably bad at soccer (laughs). I played forward and wing, but I was seriously awful, so I was completely useless.

—Even playing an aggressive, star position (laughs). Rather than being good at it, you liked it. Were you bad at studying?

I also tried my best with studying. When I was in middle school, I ranked 5th in my grade on the midterm exams…

—That’s amazing!

I was better at it than soccer (laughs). But, there were kids who were truly amazing with their studies, so eventually, I stopped studying as much.

—When you were a kid, did you have dreams about the future?

At first, I imagined things like being an astronaut, but, I really always admired the entertainment industry. I didn’t really tell people, but since elementary school, I kind of wanted to work in entertainment. The trigger for me was seeing Hyde from L'Arc〜en〜Ciel and TERU from GLAY on TV. I thought they were so cool.

—So it wasn’t necessarily bands, but the entertainment industry you admired. 

I didn’t even have concepts of being a bandman. I’m actually a pretty normal person, I think. But I didn’t tell anyone I was aiming for the entertainment industry.

—Were you an attention-seeker in class?

I think I was very much an attention-seeker. I was a class representative and also in student council.

—You played soccer, studied, were in student council, and an attention-seeker. You must have been popular, is that right?

Yes, I was popular.

—Has it been that way since you were born? 

I’ve always been popular since I was born, yeah (laughs). But being popular based off your looks can only last until your early 20s. As you get older, you have to rely on things other than looks to really prove yourself. You need to seriously build character and refine yourself as a man. If you’re an adult man, it’s important to fully commit to what you do so you can leave solid results behind. You have to refine your inner self too. When I was a kid, I studied and did sports, but inside, I wasn’t confident in myself, and that had a huge impact. As a person, I didn’t think I was anything special, so I lived while struggling. I kept wondering what’s really important when it comes to living.

—So, you had a lot of insecurities, didn’t you?

I wanted to become a cool guy. True coolness isn’t about how you look, but living a cool life, right? To be honest, I’m not really a delinquent or a rebel, and I haven’t lived a turbulent life. When I thought about what I could become, I realized that all I could do what fully commit whatever was right in front of me. For that matter, if anything, I wanted to be the most rebellious. I am just an ordinary person. Because I’m an ordinary person, I had no choice but to develop talent or sense later in life. In Amai Bouryoku, I thought about a lot of things like that. Or rather, I’m still thinking about it.

—What is it that keeps your life’s theme from blurring?

The one, singular person I’ve looked up to in my life. I met that person as an adult, but everything is thanks to them. 

—Was that after you moved to Tokyo?

Yes. You know the apparel brand #FR2, right? I worked a part-time for a long time at that company. The president of that company, Ryo Ishikawa, is the the only person I’ve admired in my entire life. I still admire him, even now, and when I was younger, I tried to talk like Ryo-san and imitate the remarks he’d make. I was always imitating him like that.

—What was it that drew you in so much?

At that time, Ryo-san was behind VANQUISH, a central brand in gyaru-o culture. He was also expanding into magazines in the style, while also collaborating with people like Kiyoharu-san and SID, which was revolutionary. Around that time, Ryo-san declared, “We are going to present VANQUISH at Tokyo Collection. At Tokyo Collection, a proper and high-level fashion show.

—To expand on that, it’s a show rooted in fashion culture, such as the four major collections, right?

Yes. For a gyaru-o culture brand to join there is completely impossible from a conventional standpoint. When Ryo-san announced it, all the staff were like “Are you for real? A department brand like us will be presenting?” But the backlash and criticisms from the fashion industry were incomparable. That kind of fashion to make an appearance at a venue with all the industry’s leaders, it was met with a storm of booing. But, he didn’t let that head-on wind of criticism stop him, and he made it happen. I think there were even voices saying it was the end of Japan’s fashion industry, lots of people. I was really young at the time and just a mob staff member, but seeing his strong will and determination not to succumb to the pressure first hand really blew my mind. A singular gyaru-o brand could turn common sense on its head like that— I think that’s incredible. Ryo-san said, “If things stay like this, the industry will rot entirely. I absolutely refuse to lose.” And he always said it with a positive attitude too. Because I saw that, I’m doing band stuff with the feelings of not losing to Ryo-san back then. But this is somewhat similar to the current visual kei scene, isn’t it?

—Little by little, it seems like each generation is starting to feeling a sense of urgency and motivation to bring change.

Yes. Right now there’s a sense something big is coming to the visual kei scene, and I’m feeling that same excitement I felt back then. For example, zigzag-senpai (Shintenchi Kaishudan zigzag) is breaking through in an incredible way, and I think they’re so cool. DEZERT and Kizu are also holding solo shows at Budokan. I’m getting the same feeling that the era is on the brink of change, just like how I felt back then. Ryo-san told me, “If you’re going to to do visual kei, do it seriously, for real.” And that’s when I quit my part time. But now, I finally understand what he meant by “do it seriously.” Whether it’s in apparel, as a business owner, or anything else you can think of, after being in a band, I think it all comes down to how you live your life. Audiences can easily see if someone is only pretending to put in hard work. But if you’re seriously dedicating your entire self every day so you can pass their expectations, that becomes your way of life. I don’t have any innate talents or a turbulent life story, but I wanted to live in a way that I could truly love.

—By the way, when did you first become awakened to music, Saki-san?

Even in high school, I was still listening to L’Arc-en-Ciel and GLAY. It started as something entirely casual, but I ended up performing a live at my high school’s cultural festival. It was just because I wanted to stand out. I wasn’t longing to be in a band yet. Even then, though, I was the vocalist.

—So, there was still a bit of that attention-seeking youth left in you. Do you remember what songs you performed in that first live? 

We did Monpachi (MONGOL800). Some famous songs like “Chiisana Koi no Uta.” 

—That’s amazing! But, doing a live in front of a big crowd like that, that must have slowly intensified your desire to pursue a career in entertainment, is that right?

That’s true, but my mom was opposed to it. “The entertainment industry is such a scary world!” She would say, even though she didn’t know anything about it (laughs). So, and this the first time I’m saying this, but I actually secretly applied for a magazine audition with my friends. I got some results there, and started getting noticed.

—Eh? Did you actually debut in the entertainment industry?

 I did some work as a model and got featured in magazines a bit. And around that time, a lot of people in the entertainment industry gave me advice. “Your voice is very rock, so you should do a band.” So, I went to Tokyo and started a band. But I didn’t have a strong sense of determination, and I was just doing it as another way of standing out, not knowing anything, performing at live houses. There’s no way I could succeed like that. Of course, it ended with nothing to show for it. When the people around me were pampering me, telling me to do this and that, I had a mindset like “I can get through life without thinking about anything for myself.” But reality wasn’t that simple. When I was in my early 20s, I was struck by how naive I had been, and that’s when I learned DTM (desktop music production). I didn’t do anything, I didn’t put in any effort, but I had this attitude of wanting to do absolutely anything else than having a normal job. So I learned DTM, and since my mom had a guitar I could play a little bit, so I started making songs.

—Was the band you were in while working your part time at VANQUISH a visual kei band?

No, it was just regular rock. In the end, I didn’t even know what I wanted to do myself.

—Did you have any regrets?

Not at all. I really didn’t know anything at all. Even then, I just went along with the non-visual kei band, and something good came out of it. It was around that time when I met the current members Aya and Yoshi, through a taiban where our bands played together. They weren’t in visual kei bands either. After going through that wandering period, we seriously reflected on what we wanted to do and started moving forwards with our previous band.

—Shounenki. 

During that era of Shounenki, we got signed to our current agency and returned to Osaka. But in the end, our activities didn’t go well and the band came to an end. When the band I properly and seriously had dedicated myself to ended, I found myself in a really dire situation for the umpteenth time in my life. I seriously gave my all to Shounenki, but when it ended, I started questioning what I want to do again, and what I want to sing about. By then, those obscured desires I had to stand out or become famous were no longer there. I started thinking more particularly and clearly about what kind of person I wanted to become. I was recalled Ryo-san’s words. That’s why I was quite slow to realize these things— it wasn’t until I had nothing left in front me that I was forced to confront my mindset.

—Was joining a visual kei band what you originally wanted?

Yes. To put it simply, Ive always liked visual kei. But that’s exactly why it took so much courage to actually do it. Even putting on makeup at first was nerve-wracking. But, I really liked visual kei and wanted to try it, so I started. 

—What was your first performance with Shounenki like?

It was at Ikebukuro CYBER, but it was probably a session event, I think. We made our own music and handed it out everywhere, at places like Takadanobaba AREA, Ikebukuro Blackhole, and CYBER, saying things like “Please let us do a live!” We didn’t have any audience at all. At first, we only had seven people, and they were mostly our friends. It was a rough period.

—That said, it was because of Shounenki catching the attention of a management agency that brought Amai Bouryoku to be born. Amai Bouryoku has been active for 8 years. Do you feel that what you originally wanted to do and what you’re doing now are still connected, Saki-san?

People say that Amai Bouryoku’s style has changed a little over the years, but to me, it doesn’t feel as if it’s changed at all. Fans are the ones who notice subtle changes, so maybe there’s some unconscious shifts, but at the core, nothing has changed at all. When asked if I’m doing what I want to right now, I’d say I am. And more importantly, I’m not doing anything I don’t want to do. The same goes for social media. To me, the freedom to do what I want to comes with responsibility and resolve. I can’t explain it well, but in that sense, I think I’m achieving it. To deliver  the message I want to convey with both responsibility and resolve. For example, even with love songs, I feel as if they won’t be conveyed properly if the depiction is half-hearted, so I write them thoroughly.

—The theme you currently house is “Sweet violence rock dedicated to troubled girls.” Did this become Amai Bouryoku’s theme because, based on your own life, “troubled girls” were the ones you wanted to reach, Saki-san?

Looking back on myself, I was never an extroverted or cheerful person. When I discovered visual kei, what I thought was most amazing was how it was a place that would accept me entirely. Whether it was about appearances or lyrics, I realized there was a place that would accept even the bare, vulnerable version of myself. That feeling of amazement is still very strong for me, which is why I decided to make music that could be a safe space for troubled girls. I’m not strong at all either.

—For you, Saki-san, there’s an image of how visual kei should be?

At its core, it’s an act of rebellion against society, isn’t it? To wear makeup and make music? That’s why I feel it’s important to have a clear reason for doing visual kei. I think people dismissively say things like, “visual kei is just for mentally unstable people, right?” And “Yeah, it’s music for people who emotionally aren’t strong.” And I’m not pretending— I’m seriously not emotionally strong. I’m truly mentally unstable (“menhera”). But I neither affirm or deny that in my music. So when I see bands getting close to fans through photoshoots and baiting them with empty words like sweet lies, I feel conflicted— how should I feel? If there’s a demand for it, I don’t think it’s inherently wrong, but I don’t see that as visual kei. Visual kei is another world entirely. It’s important to maintain some mystery that leaves room for the fans’ imaginations. It’s either that, or you have to completely lay everything bare, there’s no in between.

—When you think about it, Amai Bouryoku is truly the best at using social media. The ultimate way of “not using it.”

That could be true. If we’re going to use, I think we need to thoroughly research marketing and make sure we use it in a cool way. But, rather than focusing on that, we’ve chosen to dedicate our energy to lives.

—While it’s undergoing diversification, what do you think of the visual kei lovers called “bangya” and “gyao?”

I think they are people who just really really love music. When Amai Bouryoku started, we decided to do it without social media, without doing in-store events, without making flyers, and with nothing. Instead, we decided to entirely captivate an audience through our lives and music. At the beginning, when we had no fans, I repeatedly told myself, “The audience is definitely listening to the songs and lyrics.” Of course, it’s only natural for people to want to events where the person on stage is in front of you, and you can take photos and things with them. I think that’s a very natural phenomenon, but for me, I wanted to reach people’s hearts directly. When I think about what people want to fall in love with, as I continue with to sing for a long time, as I continue with the band for a long time, I realize that appearance is important. But more than that, I think the way I live my life is important as well. As a result of betting everything on our songs and lyrics that pierce fan’s hearts, people gradually started gathering and I confirmed that what I was doing was not wrong. Bangya really listen to music and lyrics with their hearts. That’s why visual kei is great. If we felt our music wasn’t being listened to, it would be because our songs and lives aren’t good. Everyone is watching closely and really listening. That’s why we can only be honest, open ourselves up, and make our music hit hard.

—When you were young, you admired looks and attractiveness, but after going through some corruption and frustration, your heart matured. It’s.a way of living without being shameful or embarrassed— you’ve really got guts. 

I don’t think I’ve made an extraordinary amount of effort.

—Saki-san, you often compare lives to group dates, don’t you? 

Ahaha. There’s no man who can expect to take a girl home when meeting her for the first time at a party by saying, “I wanna have sex” right from the toast. I’m not just thinking of my own ego, I also consider how to make things easy for the audience to understand. But I think I was able to make those group date examples after I stopped trying to look cool or avoid being disliked. Love songs come out with nothing but outrageous lyrics, but I think that’s just how men are. Only tricking girls isn’t cool right? Neither are the guys who do that. I believe someone who is super serious about something is really, truly cool. So that’s why I keep exposing myself.

—For example, didn’t your mother get mad when you put out lyrics with things like “sex?”

My mom got really angry. “What are you writing!” She got mad (laughs.) My older sister has kids, and she constantly tells me, “I want to go to your lives, but I seriously can’t. I can’t take my kids with me.” My mom was pretty shocked. 

—Exposing everything would come with that. If Amai Bouryoku doesn’t last another 15 years,  then your family can’t come to the live (laughs).

I’ll try my best to keep going until my niece grows up.

[team-avia]

Theres some spoilers ahead😔✌ also this is super long im so so sorry i wanted to praise all of u and then it got a lot of asks and long texts by me i swear im just trying to be nice😭

Soo, ive done all routes except Angie (im gonna do it later) and i wanted to talk about it so sorry for being annoying😭

I've got two Bela endings, one was happy lovey traveled lets save the fam and all that. Loved the story, mia trying to kill me was so not a girl girls move. The other ending I didn't support her and went to Miranda (snitch? yes but mira liked it so...), sad part was that bela got sent to a hospital (i hope???) but fun to see the difference. Bela was a mean girl but with reasons (no heart lol) so i didnt click with the romance because i like the evilness with conscious.

I got two alcinas ending too, talked about the "happy" one before and im still upset dani got mad for me dating her mother, i really value friendships ( also mira died?????) Soo i tried a different ending without romancing her, i guess i questioned too much because guess who got turned into a sculpture🤪 (also how will mira recover my body to start it all over again? girlie is gonna have a hard time).

I got one Cassandra ending and one Dani ending, both were happy. I liked Cass more because it felt more like paths i would take in my life. However character wise i loved how both were written, Dani was so adorable i wanted to hug her forever and giver her all the praise (lets be fr her family was not doing it).

And to finish, the loves of my life Donna and Miranda. Both of their stories made me all aaaaaaaaaaa, ive loved them since re8 and it captured the image i had of them perfectly. I've played both twice and got a happy ending i simply cant not love them. It was so cool to see the foreshadowing in Donna's story, when she said Miranda was going to keep her in a tighter leash next time i was like 🤨😲😔.

I know Miranda is evil and that apparently shes keeping everyone in a loop until she gets us to be with her, but thats lowkey so sweet😍

Anywayy, loved everything, the characters were amazingly written, i also kept trying to decode the background to see if there was anything secret (blame flanagan), their expressions was so on point it was awesome to stare at it changing.

You all deserve every love and praise that exists in this world, tysm for putting this together, i really dont know how to thank you enough so that u understand how good all of this is (hence all of the asks ive sent istg sorry again😬)

LISTEN!!! WE LOVE!!! THE ASKS!! I DRINK THEM LIKE COFFEE!! And I drink coffee like water.

As to how Miranda can get you when you're a statue ... she has her ways :^) (It's Mia. Mia is breaking into the manor and steals you. hehe. Nah, I'm just kidding. Or am I.)

And right?? Dani deserves all of the hugs and affection.

Thank you for loving it so much that you send us so much love and so many asks 💙

Arla

[wheeboo]

Talk about your moots; what do you like most about them (could be a paragraph or a single sentence, spread the love!!)

omgomg okay lets do this guys. just know i luv every single one of you and without any of you i would not be where i am rn today!! i'm sorry if u were not included its prob bcuz we haven't interacted much yet but i also suck at communicating lmaosdjfldjkkfds i really do not deserve any of you istg

@ylliris-hanniehae - ylli is so sweet n comforting :(( like she's been with me since almost the beginning of me posting on tumblr here and she's been so supportive ever since!! i love the conversations that we have together and she really feels like a little sister to me!! she deserves all the happiness in the world fr

@fairyhaos - yena was the first person i asked to be moots with on here LOL and i remember being like "omfg should i send the ask should i send it" and well i don't regret it one bit!! she's so bubbly and sweet and i will never not say this- she always puts on smile on my face as well as everyone elses!! her fics are also soo comforting and so creative i love it sm

@etherealyoungk - skye is SOO lovely like i remember the moment she liked my mingyu fic and me freaking out like I RECOGNISE THAT NAME RIGHT THERE and i dont regret asking to be moots with her!! i love when she checks in with not just me but everyone else around her she's just so sweet n caring :(( i also love when we randomly scream abt different dramas together lmaoo

@slytherinshua - zanna and i just clicked like a snap the moment we started talking and istg she's so entertaining and funny like there's never a dull moment talking to her!! i love screaming about park jihoon and kdramas w her!! she’s also introduced to so many new groups i’m grateful for that. i also adore our late night music sessions and when we watch dramas together and cry and laugh and just everything

@mirxzii - roxie deserves all the happiness n love and she's so supportive n so silly too !! also i think she's soo relatable w some of the stuff she has said lmaoo it's so goofy and she's also been with me since the very beginning and i very much thank her for that

@rubywonu - nia i miss her so much she's been busy w school so we haven't been able to talk a lot so everyone SEND LOVE TO HER RN. i remember silently gushing abt the love series she made with svt members and being moots and getting to know her i see she's so sweet n chill but ik she got that lil chaotic side to her

@icyminghao - noelle every time i interact w her i just have this giddy smile on my face like its so refreshing to talk to her!! she's busy these days cuz of exams so everyone PLS send love to her too. shes so sweet n i lLOVE it when she screams in caps its the most hilarious thing ever

@wqnwoos - hana her writing istg literally the best thing ever?? its like so delicate but also gets me giggling n kicking my feet fr HAHA like i love it sm. she's such a sweet n chill person to interact with i really hope that i could talk to her more. i also love the poems and words that she reposts because YES i see them it reminds of those poem slideshows on tiktok that either got me crying or the most relatable thing ever

@hannyoontify - kie is so lovely i really hope i can talk to her more!! she's just so sweet n nice n very supportive! also shes like a drum major so hella kudos to her for that such a hardworking queen fr!! i can't wait to interact w her more because ik she's a very fun person to talk to

@toruro - mika i still don't understand how i managed to be moots w her like i admire her sm!! her writing never fails to amaze me like i NEED her brain rn and shes just so pretty?? will never deny that i have a platonic crush on her lmaoo!! and whenever we talk it feels very comfortable and natural it kinda reminds me of catching up with a friend over coffee tbh

@kyeomyun - jada is SOO LOVELY N SUPPORTIVE i always love seeing her pop up in my notifs or inbox and when we scream at each other sometimes LMAO. she's just such a very fun person to talk and i hope we can have more one on one conversations w each other bcuz ik for a fact we're both gonna be screaming over SOMETHING

@blue-jisungs - axe is SO funny and bright and whenever she pops up in my notifs it literally brightens my day sm. like she's just soo infectious that i just can't help but smile?? also she loves kdramas so i hope one day we can scream at each other abt it because YES. her nails and hair are also slay ik for a fact she rocks anything

[scruffyssketchbook]

Vay is honestly such a tragic character and nobody really talks about it :(

Being a prickly asshole is an extremely understandable response to what happened to him, although it’s not a good or ethical one. In Vay’s eyes, the old Blizz, the one he cared about, is dead and was replaced by some cruel mockery. Of course he hates him! And on top of that, Blizz doesn’t remember anything about the lab, and Vay must be incredibly jealous of that. Vay is mean and prickly but it must be hard to be anything else at this point. The other mon in the box really don’t understand the extents of what happened to him. Even if anyone knows what truly happened, I sincerely doubt they really understand his struggle. Everyone is so busy trying to deal with their own problems that it’s near impossible to reach out and really understand somebody else’s, especially when their trauma’s mostly come from a similar place. They’re trying so hard to ignore what happened that looking into anybody’s else’s pain would only bring back their’s at full force.

Back on topic, even if Vay wanted to be kinder, how could he be? He has no healthy outlet for his trauma or emotions. He’s already ruined his relationships with just about every mon in the box, repairing them would be such a daunting task that trying would probably just make Vay relapse into assholery. It’s not as if every mon would forgive him. Blizz might, but we already know why that wouldn’t work for Vay. I imagine spending time around someone who is kind-of-but-not-really your (long dead, in your eyes) hero would be HELL for anyone!

For any of the cast to truly move on from what happened to them, they would have to 1), be and feel safe, which a lot of them aren’t and none of them do, 2), actually acknowledge and process all the bad things that happened to them, which a lot of them have spent the entire course of the story running from, 3) process the bad things they’ve done themselves and try to make amends, which I presume most of them would struggle with, and 4) have the motivation to actually change, which is probably the hardest one.

Vay, and everyone else for that matter, needs outside support to heal from his trauma. He can’t do it alone. But he either won’t accept the help from others, or the others won’t provide it. And it isn’t like Vay will ever forget or fully move on from what happened to him. He’ll never fully feel safe or happy again. Even if Vay is willing to put in the effort to change, imagine how awful it must feel knowing that you’ll never be whole again, that some part of you, the happiest part of you, will never come back. Even Vay’s physical appearance is directly tied to his trauma. He sees it every time he sees his reflection, he will never be rid of his traumas. That would be a massive demotivator for anybody!

And I haven’t even touched on Nego! Imagine what kind of guilt he’s fostering for keeping Nego locked up for years(?). Imagine the guilt and loneliness he felt after sending him away. The circumstances surrounding Nego’s conception/birth may also have taken a toll on Vay, but I admit I would need to do another rereading if I wanted to make a proper statement about that.

Anyway it’s my firm opinion that Vay needs intensive therapy, and I’d like to scoop him up in my arms and tell him that he’s safe and loved and never needs to worry again <3 that’s my son right there, fr fr. He just needs some good direction and a lot of support, I can fix him, I swear

You gotta also remember!!! It has been shown several times that Vay does in fact care about Blizz. And it isn’t just that Blizz forgot the lab!!! Blizz forgot everything they been through TOGETHER. That makes Vay more angry honestly. It is correct that the other mon don’t know the extent of what happened to him, but you know who did? Old Blizz. His closest friend, the one he looks up with such admiration, his hero. The only other who comes even close is Flame, and Flame AVOIDS Vay! We have seen in the comic that all of the main boys except Blizz decided the best course of action to take with Vay is to leave him alone and give him space. Welp. They’ve been doing that for years and it just seemed to not help at all.

Along with all the other things- yeah Vay needs massive therapy. ALL of the cast does lol

[missegyptiana]

hiiiiii how are youuu

sorry I genuinely don't understand what taylor is doing??

Like, this is such a bad pr move that it's basically impossible that it's a pr relationship imo

which means it's real which is way worse???

how is her pr team letting her associate herself so publicly with someone like that. maybe she just knows that she's so big rn that she can do basically whatever she wants and many people will still support her??

I know taylor isn't perfect by any stretch, but until now i genuinely thought she was generally a good person, even though she lives in her extremely privileged bubble.

every time she said she was an ally or that she cared about people or she seemed a sweet and caring person etc, i didn't think it was fake (even when she failed to follow through with all the promises she made in miss americana but that's a whole other can of worms)

but now I'm wondering if it was fake?? maybe this is a bit too parasocial, and I'm fully aware none of us really know her, but all of us have an idea of her in our heads, and the one I had in mine just... would not date someone like matty healy. especially since she's a smart grown woman and not a naive young kid.

that's why I'm also genuinely worried about how many people (in my experience mainly young US swifties) put her on a pedestal, say they will always love her no matter what, think she's absolutely perfect and can do no wrong.

obviously it's okay to support people and be their fans and that almost always means idealizing them at least a bit, but blind faith like that is dangerous imo.

anyway sorry for ranting, I'm just upset and confused.

hope you have a good day!!

hi anon i’m ok how r u? i agree with all of this tbh. i have no idea what’s going on with her and between those two but i have a right to be hurt by it and to speak up on it. especially being apart of a community he’s made fun of or laughed at. ya and after everything she said she would do when miss americana released and the man and yntcd being released and i can’t remember the last time she’s spoken up abt something since the lover era. i understand she’s attracted to him, for some odd reason, but how can she be ok with what he’s done? and the things he has said that has hurt her own fans? and so many minorities?? and be ok with it? and her team being ok with it? people say we shouldn’t talk abt it cause it won’t do anything or we don’t even know her but idc! let me say my opinion! if u were hurt by him u would do the same! it’s just so annoying how people think we shouldn’t say anything. like shut up fr. ofc i still love her and i’m still going to her show, but this hurts so fucking much that i’m confused on what to do and i’m confused on what she’s doing. even if they break up, this decision of hers will forever hurt us. and her ignoring everything hurts a lot too.

and it’s ok that u ranted! i appreciate that u felt comfortable enough to put it in my inbox!!! never hesitate to message me or send an ask abt anything i will always listen to anyone’s rants. i will try my best to reply to everything u say <3

[yooniesim]

I really don't mean to come off as mean or demanding because it's insane to expect people to know everything about... everything - the only thing that made me a little upset about your original post was the fact that you really can't be sure of overwolf's statements, since they're probably trying really hard to avoid being subject to a boycott, and you have a lot of followers. I'm sad people were mean about it since you obviously didn't mean anything bad by it and are going through tough times as well. If you have a kofi I'd be more than happy to donate 🩷 we all deserve help, no matter the size of our problems, Ceci

Thank you dear nonny, I apologize that I made you upset! Clearly I just don't know enough about this subject, and obviously have bias by the situation I am in too. But it's so tough when people look to you to make a statement immediately, you know? If you don't say anything quick enough, people get fucking furious and say you're ignoring it. I had anons within hours of that tweet saying I support literal genocide because I had posts on cf which is absolutely ridiculous. But I hate jumping into a statement fast, because as we saw here, half the time new stuff comes to your attention afterward that makes you look like a jackass, people attack you like you're the devil incarnate for not knowing everything, etc. I've been really confused and conflicted by all this, I see one thing and then more info that conflicts that and then more that conflicts that. I trusted the original poster that added Overwolf's statements because they were the one to bring this up in the first place, and I didn't see anything conflicting that on their tweet (Like additional sources etc). But immediately after I posted their tweet, well, you see how that one turned out. I was thinking about privating that post but I don't want anyone to think I deleted it- but should I? I don't want it to be misleading. Or should I reblog it with additional/updated info? Yall, please let me know. I am so lost these days mentally.

I am really sorry that I upset people though with that. And I was being honest when I said I've lost sleep over this and all this suffering weighs heavy on my heart. I think most of yall that have been with me for a long time know that I'm one of those people that just wants to fix everything and when I can't it's just devastating and I can't get it off my mind. And choosing between participating in a boycott and being able to pay for meds is not something I would wish on anybody. Especially when you got people coming on your post calling you privileged, disgusting, hypocrite, etc because you didn't delete your cc posts fast enough for their liking. The money i'm waiting on from cf is money I already earned. They already got the damn ad revenue. I aint earning them more money because I aint uploading anything else there, I'm waiting for what's already owed to me. But to people on simblr who likely don't even pay their own bills, that's worthy of some goofy callout post calling you genocidal. Over freaking sims 4 cc. It's mind boggling.

Anyway, I'm going on too long again lmfao. Let me say again, thank you nonny, I appreciate you. I think I have an old ko-fi account somewhere, I'm going to get it set up so people can tip here and there if they like my cc and don't care for patreon. I'm also gonna start doing commissions soon. And on that note if anyone has any suggestions for how to format that feel free to send them to my inbox. Along with any other related suggestions. ...alright, I think I'm done rambling fr 😂 love you nonny 💜

[kimtaegis]

Yes, you are right about the criticising part... I think it's okay to criticise the bad things they do. They are humans as well, they make mistakes whether it's one person (someone from bts) or a company. And I feel like this fandom has a filter for criticising things because it was a week or two ago when everyone was so angry about the dynamic pricing. And rightfully so because that's yikes. But why can't we have the same for music too? Just because an artist is more involved? And I don't want to point fingers, or blame people because truly we don't know how this collab came to be.. I don't want to blame Jimin but I also don't want to say he's completely "innocent" because we are just fans, we don't know what he knows or thinks. He can just as easily Google or ignore things like us. I don't know how to feel about the company either, because it's possible they didn't know who Jimin would feature with (but that sounds weird), but at the same time they are a _company_ with a shit ton of money and resources, wasn't there even one person who said: Yea let's maybe sit this one out? And on the other side, people who actually made the song in America, they really looked at these people and said yeah let's hire them? Almost all of them are very problematic and they just employed them. So... whose fault is it, you know? Because there are so many factors, especially when it's not Jimin or hybe making the song and asking someone to feature, but they are the ones getting asked to do a feature. So it's weird but it just makes me really uncomfortable and we won't ever really know what was behind the scenes anyway... And I don't think we really need to know? Like they accepted, they made the song, it's done. But we can't have a civilised conversation about this because we'd be labeled antis immediately... That's what's also fucked up. Why is it easier to criticise the company than the artist. When Joon spoke about how he got a lot of criticism for his lyrics and that pushed him to be more mindful and get his lyrics checked out and just work on being a better person... Everyone praised him. But suddenly everyone forgot what pushed him? He got criticised. And he took notice of that. And he said, you know what, you are right, I want to do better. And I love him for it. But others or the company can't do the same if the fandom just blindly supports everything that has to do with music.. They called out the AI artist. They called out the dynamic pricing. They called out the NFTs. But they can't have the same energy for collaborations?

Anyway, sorry for writing a lot. I won't send another ask regarding this. But thank you if you read it :) I always love hearing your opinion on things and it's always a relief when something bad or like less good happens and I'm not alone with my very different opinion.

your ask goes along well with the previous one I answered. you made such good points, especially with the recent dynamic pricing uproar and what namjoon said about criticism making him want to improve. I really have nothing to add, and I think your words are a good end to this exchange here. I really wish more people would be a little more critical like this. yes, in the end we all want to have a good time, just vibing and all, but there are things that should simply not be acceptable by common sense, and it should be said. People who are so reluctant to realising artists’ missteps always make me wonder how they treat their loved ones, like… do you also just blindly support their problematic actions? The day fans will finally see that criticism is not the devil in disguise but a way to change things for the better, the fandom will be heaven on earth fr

[loveyourlovelysoul]

I don't feel safe at home. Since a year now. They don't beat me but their words cut, with a threatening tone. I can't go live alone. I don't know what to do. I tried showing them love despite this but it doesn't work. I'm tired of it.

First of all, I'm really sorry to read about this. Feeling safe in our home should be something everyone has to experience through all their life, no matter what. I don't know what they tell you or accuse you of, but it could be that they're simply throwing all their pain on you and not have it really against you despite some triggers they may get from you (and beware, I'm not trying to say they're right. At all. It's never right to project our own pain and traumas on others, especially when they have nothing to do about it -and generally it's all our own reaction to something-. But it can happen). And even when we respond with love, they may not change anything in their behaviour cause they're not used to it or won't get the reason behind it (sometimes because some people are differently sensitive from us or simply bc they are too triggered to see a different way to act and practice it). Ofc in such a situation it's normal to feel unsafe and wanting to go away: it gets to a point in which it becomes unbearable to stay in such a place and even boundaries we may put on seem not enough. We need to feel safe to live better and feel better.

Have you tried asking to a friend or some other family member you trust? Even just support in talking about/to the people you live with. I know not feeling safe doesn't help you in talking with those people and being vulnerable. And this all adds to you feeling drained by the whole situation, living on eggshells, constantly fighting for yourself, and having to dismiss the pain to turn it into love (this is what drains us the most in general): this is also what makes you so special and strong tbh. But you know it already, so back to your question. I had suggested once (but honestly it was a slightly different job-related situation) to wear a mask and pretend: in order to save ourselves, pretending the aggressor is "right" (meaning: asking what we're doing wrong, why, how should we do things, making them realize stuff while talking calmly... playing dumb too, if you want: they may not expect it) could do, but I don't thing it can work on the long term everyday as it may cause us to not recognize ourself anymore (we need to work a lot on ourself first and our on values). So probably this is not for you (also cause I am not sure what they do fr), but I'll leave it here still as maybe someone else may need it.

I am sure you have already tried but the only thing I can suggest you is to try and just recover some energy as for now: sleep, take naps... take a break from everything else and focus on regaining energies (even just a day or two). In the meantime work on creating your own safe place to reconnect with yourself and find your inner peace: even few moments everyday. Lock your room's door or just go out for a walk if you can (I'd say a vacation but not having money.... a one day vacation? Maybe nearby): leaving a toxic environment even for only an hour every day could help you breathe a little. And then try and see what it is something that you love doing: work on your passion on the thing that makes you feel good and relaxes you, and make it turn into a job. e.g. Write and send your writings/book to someone that may be a publisher or a journal (short stories), be bold. You never know. Don't give up/lose hope after the first no, even if you're drained. Keep sending until you get 2 or 3 yes. If you feel you don't have enough knowledge about your passion, study a little about it (you can find anything online) but trust me: you can build up your knowledge on the way. Just start. It'll help you get some money and maybe leave that place. Keep your focus on your goal and sure, it'll take some time to realize it, but if you happen to find the right person while you're being bold and showing off your abilities, it may even take less. I do hope this is your case tbh. Wishing you can be strong a bit more. Do not give up please. And again, try to ask for help to a close friend or anyone else if you can. I'm sorry but that's all I can come up with atm. Sending you a huge hug.

[harrysfolklore]

backstage girlfriend

third day of blurbs and i hope you’re not bored yet because this is a collab with my babie @astranva we really hope you like this <<3

backstage girlfriend masterlist | my masterlist

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yourinstagram unbothered. moisturizing. happy. in my lane. focused. flourishing.

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uncle_jezzy Photo credits?

↳ yourinstagram 📸 Joe Keery 2022 ® all rights reserved

↳ uncle_jezzy That’s better 🥰

annetwist I miss you dear !! ❤️

↳ yourinstagram i miss you too, nonnie 🥺 let’s meet up when you’re free <3

maya_hawke Why does your man constantly steal you from me

↳ yourinstagram i’ll be all yours this weekend 💃

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enews Joe Keery out with new girlfriend and Harry Styles’s EX! Here’s everything we know about Y/N Y/L/N! Link in bio.

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harryfan1 PLOT TWIST

fan1 they look so cute

fan2 i love celebrity gossip so much

harryfan2 the fact that SHE broke HARRY STYLES’ heart is comical to me. how tf can a 2 break his heart 

↳ fan1 this is so unprovoked

↳ fan2 stfu

TEXTS BETWEEN JEFF AND HARRY

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celebrityleaks HARRY STYLES LEAKED SONG: GLIMPSE OF US. LINK IN OUR BIO

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harryfan1 come on respect his work

harryfan2 nauuurr not harry building her entire career only for her to fuck him up. she does belong to the streets lmfao

↳ fan1 these harry styles fans are disgusting omfg

harryfan3 they were so in love :(

fan2 maybe what they had was read but it’s over now and yn is clearly happier now

harryfan4 DONT SPREAD IT

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harryupdates Harry in NYC today, according to fans, he refused to take any pictures or sign anything :/

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harryfan1 baby :(

harryfan2 oh he is PISSED

harryfan3 fuck yn fr

↳ fan1 why are you so quick to attack her ???

harryfan4 stop spreading the song ffs

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theharrytea okay but we NEED to talk about glimpse of us because WTF was that ?? OUR BOY GOT HIS HEART BROKEN

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harryfan1 fuck yn for real

harryfan2 if miss girlie isn’t crawling on her knees to get back with him i’ll assume she’s a cold hearted snake

harryfan3 both her and joe keery can get lost 🤷‍♀️

↳ harryfan4 i call bullshit on that relationship, she’s probably just using him just as she used harry

harryfan5 i just want to hug him

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uncle_jezzy Dear fans and followers, I wanted to make a wee community announcement. I couldn’t help but notice that there has been some social animosity of late. It’s becoming increasingly prevalent on my feed. There has been lots of, let’s call it speculation for now, about my private life and relationships.

Now, while I do appreciate the passion and support by those very people who are ‘speculating,’ it has come to such a point that I needed to say something, which in itself is a bad thing. We are living in an age of social enlightenment. More and more, people are realizing that their views may have been blinkered and that they need to expand them to encompass others.

So to you out there who are expressing your disdain and showing your displeasure through a surprising variety of ways, it’s time to stop. I know it can be fun to speculate, to gossip, and to dive into our own personal echo chambers on the internet, but your ‘passion’ is misplaced, and it causes harm to the people I care about most, and I won’t stand for it.

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fan1 OH EM GEE

maya_hawke I say those are my babies and I’m proud

annetwist ❤️

↳ harryfan1 anne ????

↳ harryfan2 is she aware that they broke her son’s heart?

florencepugh the love i have for the both of you it’s just so 🥺

mtv 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻

harryfan3 there she goes.. playing the victim.. again

camimendes True love always wins ❤️

fan2 joe actually SPOKE about it oh yall pissed gim off

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[midasinc]

polyam combeferre/enjolras/courfeyrac headcanons I BEG

oh i love !!!!

modern poly triumvirate hcs:

-enjolras and courfeyrac are childhood best friends. they grew up with a house inbetween each other and have known each other since they were tiny and they go to the same university as well. combeferre meets courf at a party and courf introduces him to enjolras and soon after... the three are pretty much inseparable

-i hc jbm to work like bossuet and musichetta both dating joly, but not each other. for this i actually hc that all of them are dating each other. it starts when courf and combeferre start dating and enjolras sort of slips his way inside and nobody really minds

-ANYWAY: love languages! combeferre is a cuddle bug and is always holding onto someone. he loves touch and he wants to be touched. all the time. he's a lil spoon for courf and a big spoon to enj. enjolras is a quality time kind of guy and is always kind of sprawled against combeferre when he's working and he goes to courf's work place to take him out to lunch most days. courf just loves attention. and he gets it.

-courf gets so many kisses. all the time. enjolras comes behind him as he makes coffee in the morning and kisses the top of his head. combeferre kisses the tip of his nose and on either cheek. oh he gets so many kisses. so so many.

-they're also all huge fucking nerds. they go to a comic con every year and try to do matching costumes but enj is a fantasy nerd and ferre and courf are scifi nerds. it's a mess. but it's still cute when they take photos

-all three of them go through so much coffee. ferre works a night shift at the hospital and enj gets up at like 5am to go on runs and courf is just fr addicted to caffeine. so much of their grocery budget goes to coffee (on the plus side, their kitchen always smells like coffee and it's really nice)

-courf is the best about rent and enjolras is the worst. they have a lot of little arguments like "why would you send five hundred euro to an arctic preservation society??" and enjolras is like "OUR PLANET IS DYING" and courf is like "WE WILL BE TOO IF WE'RE HOMELESS". there has been... there's been arguments, but ferre is always the median. he has to defuse a lot of rent issues before courfeyrac creates a budget journal with enjolras so they can find ways to financially support themselves and the causes they support

-they always have sunday breakfast. they make a ton of pancakes and enj will have batter on his nose and courf will lick it off and make him grimace (but he likes it anyway) and courf will add blueberries to his own pancakes, apples to enjolras's, and chocolate to courf's. these dudes can clear like 25 pancakes it's actually insane

-combeferre leaves both of them little love notes all the time. he hides them in enjolras's favourite snack box and on top of courf's meds and they're really sweet. oh he loves both of them vvv much

-a lot of people think they're just besties but then combeferre will kiss enj and courf will call enj by a ton of pet names and hold his hand and the others are like ??

-speaking of, les amis have a bet going on whether they're in a relationship or not. nobody knows for sure. enjolras knows that everyone whispers about it behind their backs but he doesn't care. it's their business, they don't have to explain it to anyone else

[chibifatou]

gif maker appreciation tag: skamverse edition

yeah this is a tag that has been going on in spring but you know it’s better later then never🤩 also it’s still pretty much down time for gif makers so it’s a good time to hype content creators here <3 thanks everyone who tagged me i couldn’t find everyone but you are for sure will be mentioned here later❣️

if you’re a gif maker...

a gifset you’re really proud of: sobbe gifset that took my pretty long to do and im very happy with results:+) i love how the coloring turned out and i tried new fonts thingy and i think it looks cool. only regret that i haven’t done it earlier when the tag was more alive. and also very proud of my traditions set my beloved

a gifset of your favorite remake: i don’t have a favorite one but i am focused mostly on wtfock and i really liked the one i made for finale and it made me pretty emotional while i was making it ngl

a gifset that you wish would get more notes: literally every gifset lately because it feels like all tags are dead now but i really liked robbe + pink and think it deserves more love

a gifset where you tried something new: tried transition from b&w to colors on elu gifset and wont repeat it ever again, it took hell a lot of time

spread the love!

a gifset of your favorite remake: i will mention a lot of more wtfock gifsets later but for now the ones that have a lot of characters and are my favs are this lockers gifset that make me so emo and this one with main’s bedrooms is so aesthetically pleasing and im obsessed with this wtfockdown gifset :.) what a gold time. and gifset with all mains is so huge and beautiful

a gifset of a remake you haven’t watched/ don’t like/ isn’t your favorite: i only watched few clips from new seasons of skam fr so i will count it as a remake i haven’t watched. @feminizedbf is making the best gifsets for these seasons and im honestly in awe of his creativity and devotion bc the tag was so dead during the time the season was airing and the gifsets got only few notes which is very unfair because these gifsets deserve all the love. my favs are new gen + name etymology, favorite episodes and the one with nikita gill and this one absolutely broke me thank u

a gifset with a cool layout: idc care about the rules and will include 944838 gifsets because i can and they all are so so pretty and there are way too many talented people there. sobbe + the night we met @nyttvera is a masterpiece and i still think about it daily, also very like her layouts here and here. vendredi 20h27 by @feminizedbf in comics style is insane love it so much. i call @sandersyasmina a queen of layouts for a reason and this one with ohn is my favorite. it was hard not to include everything @sanderdriesen made because they all are so creative and beautiful and i will try to keep it short and not write essays on each of them. ohn and moving drawings of robbe, hotel clips, sobbe journey, dinsdag 16:31, are the ones that blew my mind and AND my favorite gifset of all time😙 also i very liked yasmina each episode series that @sanderxrobbee had going on, layouts on these gifsets are so cool. really loved layouts on gifsets for sobbe anniversaries @nellsdani was making and especially this one for woensdag 21:21 (and and really love this one for ohn and with robbe). @fatoujallovv is always so creative with layouts and kieutou gifset is one of my favorites

tag someone who does beautiful coloring:

@fatoujallovv @arzkiya-hai @nyttvera @birthdaysentiment @robbeijzermans @lucasotteli @mirroroferisedx @nellsdani are queens of coloring, im in awe every single time, they always chose the best color combinations and their gifsets are so vibrant and pretty

tag someone who inspires you to make gifsets: there are so many people from my sweet anons who send me asks that make me motivated to people whose creations i see on my dash because it always makes me want to go to ps to experiment or details in gifsets makes me inspired to do something but when it comes to support these people are always here😙❣️ @arzkiya-hai @hidden-joy @sandersyasmina @sanderdriesen @nellsdani @letisnotonfire @dagcutie @sonderthroughthestreets @nyttvera @indimlights

tag someone who you’ve discovered recently:

@debussyatmidnight started making gifsets not so long ago and her gifsets are so pretty i wish i was making gifsets like that when i only started making them❣️