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Haha YEAH I love that you brought up the math involved.
We use this thing called the Risk Transfer Formula 👇
My field literally spends years working to generate JUST the PLRS portion (plan level risk score as I know it, but CMS also calls it the plan liability risk score)
I had to be able to calculate this entire thing before getting one of my certifications and Jesus Christ it is not a simple process, BUT this hell formula is why the ACA can essentially cover the cost of all this care. Any changes to the system must be accounted for here and not fuck up the math, else everyone (customers, issuers, CMS, EVERYONE) is fucked.
Issuers pay into a central pot (on a state-by-state level) and this formula essentially shows what level "risk" your population was in the state for the benefit year. Or in simpler terms: who had the sickest and most expensive population?
If you have a sicker population than your competitors, you receive extra money from the central pot. Issuers with healthier populations are the ones that pay extra into the pot. The goal is to not receive OR pay, because that shows you were RIGHT on the money when projecting coverage costs (also means your audits + analytics are solid). We often refer to the ACA as a "zero sum game". We don't want to pay or receive, we want to be accurate and reliable.
As issuers enter or exit the marketplace, those customer populations move around and introduce unknown variables to everyone's customer bases. (not bad or good, it just is what it is) Issuers do not share your health info with each other, so when a bunch of people move from one issuer to another it is basically a bunch of ?'s in the risk transfer formula. Sometimes you have a bunch of sick people, sometimes majority healthy - - this affects everyone in the ACA game and is part of market strategy.
If Trump destabilizes the ACA enough to push issuers out of certain states, it will result in a domino effect on everyone else in the payer marketplace. If they aim to replace or update the ACA, outside of business contracts that must be fulfilled over several years, they also must replace the risk transfer formula with a similar economic formula.
It is also worth mentioning that medical care and health systems cost money, lots of it. Think of the provider wages, surgical costs, facility maintenance, issuer admin costs, government employee wages, etc etc. We all gotta eat and that NICU equipment doesn't appear from thin air! Even in non-capitalistic healthcare models, this cost remains ever-present, it is just paid via taxes instead (ACA is our stepping stone to reduce upfront costs + explode open availability to as many people as possible)
It is GOOD the ACA is a profit-machine. Health care is a huuuuge industry around the world and if our current model can pay for itself, then that is great!! Lots of people are working hard to find ways to keep the brunt of the cost OFF the public, but with the taxes route being unpopular to the point of being a non-starter, the risk transfer formula is our current workable solution. The math is crazy intricate!
I read your post about open enrollment for the ACA and was hoping you might expand on why you believe it would take years to dismantle. I've been terrified that with a Republican house/senate, Trump could just snap his fingers and make it go away within months of taking office. I'd love some reassurance that that's not possible.
Hiya, sure I can share some thoughts on the matter! First, it's very important to understand the ACA is a huuuuuuuuuuuuge system with subject matter experts in dozens of places throughout the process. I'm one of those SMEs, but I am at the end of the process where the revenue is generated, so my insight is limited on the public facing pieces.
What this means is that I am professionally embedded in the ACA in a position that exists purely to show what conditions people are treated for and then generate that data into what's called a "risk score". There's about 6 pages I could write on it, but the takeaway is that the ACA is
1) intricately interwoven with the federal government
2) increasingly profitable, sustainable, and growing (it is STILL a for-profit system if you can believe it)
3) wholeheartedly invested in by the largest insurance companies in the country LARGELY due to the fact that they finally learned the rules of how to make the ACA a thriving center of business
4) since the big issuers are arm+leg invested in the ACA, there is a lot of resistance politically and on an industry level to leave it behind (think of the lobbyists, politicians, corporations that will fight tooth and nail to protect their profit + investment)
The process to calculate a risk score takes roughly 2 years. There is an audit for the concurrent year and then a vigorous retro audit for the prev year - - this is a rolling cycle every year. Medicare has a similar process. These are RVP + RADV audits if you would like the jargon.
Eliminating the ACA abruptly is as internally laughable as us finishing the RADV audit ahead of schedule. If Trump were to blow the ACA into smithereens on day 1, he would be drowning in issuer complaints and an economic health sector that is essentially bleeding out. You cut off the RVP early? We have half of next RADV stuck in the gears now. You cut off the RADV early? No issuer will get their "risk adjusted" payments for services rendered in the prev benefit year (to an extent, again very complex multi-process system).
The ACA is GREAT for the public and should be defended on that basis alone. However, the inner capitalistic nature of the ACA is a powerful armor that has conservatives + liberals defending it on a basis of capital + market growth. It's not sexy, but it makes too much money consistently for the system to be easily dismantled.
Or at least that's what I can tell you from the money center of the ACA. they don't bring us up in political conversation because we are confusing to seasoned professionals, boring to industry outsiders, and consistently we are anathema to the anti-ACA talking points.
I am already preparing for next year's RVP for this window of open enrollment. That RVP process will feed into the RADV in 2026. In 2025, we begin the RADV for 2024. If nothing else, the slow fucking gears of CMS will keep the ACA alive until we finish our work at the end of the process. I highly doubt that will be the only reason the ACA is safeguarded, but it is a powerful type of support to pair with people protecting the ACA for other reasons.
I work every day to show, defend, and educate on how many diagnoses are managed thru my company's ACA plans. My specialty is cancer and I see a lot of it. The revenue drive comes from the Medical Loss Ratio (MLR) rule stating only 20% MAX of profit may go to the issuer + the 80% at a minimum must go back to the customer or be invested in expanding benefits. The more people on the plan using it, the higher that 20% becomes for the issuer and the more impactful that 80% becomes for the next year of benefit growth. It is remarkably profitable once issuers stop seeking out "healthy populations". The ACA is a functional method for issuers to tap into a stable customer base (sick/chronic ill customers) that turns a profit, grows, and builds strong consumer bases in each state.
The industry can never walk away from this overnight - - this is the preferred investment for many big players. Changing the direction of those businesses will be a monumental effort that takes years (at least 2 with the audits). In the meantime, you still have benefits, you still have care, and you still have reason to sign up. Let us deal with the bureaucracy bullshit, go get your care and know you have benefits thru 2025 and we will be working to keep it that way for 2026 and forward. This is a wing of the federal government, it is not a jenga tower like Trump wishes.
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what’s your favorite au?
Im assuming this is referring to my favorite Marble Hornets au, which is kind of like asking who my favorite child is and is completely unfair, I love them all equally
That being said, here are some of my personal favorites
@creative-clawmarks Vampire AU has awesome themes of monsters, psychological horror, etc. Great take on the characters and fantastic links to the original story
@mickey-bees Infection AU, similar to the Vampire AU, has SUCH good horror and monster elements, though this time with a more eldritch spin. Every update is such a cool original take, and the monster design is super creative
@maik-ol Forestry AU sings to my SOUL, its got such poetic themes and Maikol has a fantastic understanding of the characters, as well as themes of nature itself which is so neat
@scootwat Persona AU is very fun, for the simple purpose of Persona and MH crossover is super cool. Special mention to his Jay x Mike Schmidt ship, which is rad
Special mentions that aren't quite au's but are equally fucking awesome alternate timelines are @ohgreat-moretapes for its great Tim characterizing, @strawberyz Seth au which OUGH rots my brain, and @scout-sms thoroughfare. CJ FOREVER!! All 3 of these are in their early publishing but y'all ain't even READY for what they have in store I'm so hyped
(This doesn't include the au's I've created/co created haha, sooo special mention to my 2 cowboy au's 1 alternate timeline and 3 apocalypse au's??)
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Hii! Hope you have a nice day/night 🌼 Can you please recommend any twt/x accounts? I want to follow the news and the latest theories/rumors too 😅
hello anon!!! today was wild lmao but I'm doing well thank you! ❤️
Twitter is my #1 source for literally everything when it comes to bl so no idea how people can even be in this fandom and not have Twitter djgkffd
but anyway these are my favorite news/rumors/gossip accounts! (in no particular order):
@/TheBLXpress
@/BoysLoveBuzz
@/BoysLoveHubENG
@/blup_dates
@/world_of_bl_com
@/NotiBLOficial (they havent been active in a while)
@/LiirBL
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#twitter#bl dramas#bl fandom#account recommendations#all of these are great for updates etc!!!!#if any of these see this thank you for service!!! the fandom would be lost without yall 🧡#I also follow a bunch of FK specific fan accounts which are also amazing#but also truth be told 90% of all bl fan accounts are from brazil djkhg#i really wish i spoke portuguese 😭#they always have the best tea jdkhgkf
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honkai: star rail i am BEGGING on my HANDS and KNEES for you to release more QUANTUM characters because i desperately need QUANTUM especially a dps but more importantly WE. HAVE. ENOUGH. IMAGINARY. IT'S. ENOUGH. SLICES.
#⟡ — kayleigh’s yapping#2.6 1st phase is rappa + dan heng il#2nd phase is acheron + aventurine#as much as i would desperately love to e6 s5 dan heng il + acheron + aventurine#i am basically f2p so that is an impossible dream 🥲 💔#but it means i get to save for sunday!!! maybe!!! i don’t need nor do i want another imaginary character...#unfortunately i adore him and i will need to have him#plus. i need to start utilizing supports more. and he’s probably going to be a really good one. fingers crossed at least.#i have 16 special passes right now so i’ll need. uh. 344 more. if i want e0 sunday and also to get his s1 lightcone.#i still need to do the wardance which sound get me a decent amount of stellar jades#(i’ve been putting it off because unfortunately i don’t like luka at all whatsoever but my husband is in it at least)#and then this entire new patch with the new events and missions and simulated universe updates etc#and hopefully sunday will be second half of 2.7 tbqh but simultaneously i want him first half because i am impatient#if sunday has a follow up attack that’d be great because that would make him a must pull for me 🤞🏻
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*i forgot to do my reviews for ep 3 and 4 of ft during both weeks smh.
episode 3 : very sweet vacation at the see also i was not aware of the joseph mccarthy and roy cohn gay allegations (not together). chokbar de bz like we say in french.
[insert here abby lee miller looking around her gif].*
diversity wins i guess, the anticommunist prosecutor who ruined so many lives is jewish AND gay. like tbh i didn't know at all because it wasn't written on his wikipedia french bio (but him bringing his mom to parties was though). like i thought the jokes about him and schine were just because theses environnement are full of men. i love the lightning on this show but it really stroke me during the scene where marcus walks in the alley at night. the costumes are so beautiful, i love the cuts of their suits.
*episode 4 : loved the christmas episode too. i knew mary's colleague was plotting something since episode one's ending. but also i'm scared for 80s timeline tim :(*
i love the actor of roy cohn also. like he's serving. serving conservative homophobic self-hating jewish but serving nonetheless (i'm not a irl roy cohn stan btw, will brill just absolutely serves as him). it was so sweet seeing tim and hawk being happy though (especially as i write those lines specifically right before the diffusion of the last episode). also small detail but it was interesting to see how even when the jewish person (here cohn) is on their side and does everything "right" to be accepted, people will still be antisemitic towards him (mccarthy and his wife).
episode 5 :
the scene of marcus and frankie on the bench ☹️☹️☹️ "i should have let him paint them red." killed me. i was so shocked by the death of senator smith though ??!! the scene where he looks at pictures with lucy was so sad in retrospect. also it's very funny seeing tim lurking around the mccarthy/cohn/schine trio. he's just a little guy. also lucy smith leave your husband and runaway with me !! i can make you happy queen ! she's so gorgeous and dresses so well i love her so much, and even more since this episode. i felt so sorry for her brother and how he gets no real help from anyone. and the last scene ☹️.
episode 6 :
lucy's outfits and hair are so gorgeous !! i really love what we saw her wearing in this episode's 1950s timeline, especially her baby blue and yellow dresses.
hawk being a daughter's father oh he's so real, kendall roy feminist icon coded to me.
the shot of tim in the police car with the back window showing hawk on the road is SICK. like i felt a pain in the heart. and i loved the last shot of hawk hugging jackson.
i kinda wish there was an episode in between 5 and 6 but at the same time it makes sense. we just didn't get used to hawk's children and had jackson for only one episode.
episode 7
an episode for the tim laughlin lesbian fans for real !! it broke my heart for the romance part but i could learn some things about harvey milk ! i'm not american so i didn't know he was murdered (or didn't remember it) but i read on wikipedia that he was jewish too ! i really love the costumes of the 70s, they're all so beautiful and fitting for the characters :'). i love all the small details in the sets and decorations, each of the era have a unique vibe ! i'm absolutely terrified for tomorrow's episode, i'm not ready to see them go at all !!
#between the * is what i had in my drafts for several weeks and just didn't update or post each week..#fellow travelers#fellow travelers spoilers#terrified for tomorrow i don't know about you all.. i was glad i could start it the first week though !!#i was a good ride. a really great one.#i don't expect an happy ending though.. (pretending i don't think there will be one so it can come to me faster etc..)#i used this tag every week
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Hi! I love your fanfic Echoes and would be more than willing to be a beta reader if you ever need! I recently saw on your feed that Victoria is not your only OC-insert, do you mind sharing who your others are?
I'll definitely keep that in mind if I ever desire a beta reader <3 Thank you so much for the offer!
Of course I don't mind sharing the others - the more I get to talk about my oc's and my complete obsession with them, the happier I'll be ♥ I've actually been slowly putting together little character templates that I might post later, if anyone is interested :)
This is going to get a bit long-winded, so apologies in advance!
Of course, you know Victoria so we'll just skip right on by her starting with characters that currently have public fics, starting with-
Shippo Inuzuka, from Bare my Fangs Fandom: Naruto Current Word-Count: 34k Rewrite Word-Count: 20k Twin sister of Kiba Inuzuka, Shippo is currently an Academy Student in training within Konohagakure. Alongside her ninja pups Aomaru and Momomaru, Shippo dedicates her days to studious training and play as she gets to know her fellow classmates. I have a lot of feelings about this fic. I started it before Naruto came to an end which always made it a little more difficult for me to write. I love the Inuzuka Clan a LOT and was very disappointed at the lack of oc-inserts more focused around them - so, I decided to write my own! It's been a very long time since I've updated this fic or even really thought about it and a large part of that is now that Naruto has come to an end, I'd really like to re-write it.
It's an old story with a lot of themes I no longer like, going in a direction I'm no longer sure about. However, because of this I'm excited to work on the project again! I have a lot more writing experience compared to when I first started it and I'd like to apply that to this story the proper way it deserves ♥
As it is, for any BMF readers here you can consider the current iteration of the story abandoned as I undergo this. Some major themes will stay the same, but a lot won't.
Shippo as a character is someone I've thought about a lot and have really come to love - the Shippo I envision now is someone a little unhinged; feral, in a sense, someone who plays off the wild nature of Kiba Inuzuka and the clan as a whole effortlessly. I don't really want to spoil too much about her and what I currently have written of the rewrite, so I'll leave it at that.
Her pups will absolutely be staying the same - I love Aomaru and Momomaru so so so much. I have very big plans for them.
Monkey D. Lucy, from Abyssal Fandom: One Piece Current Word-Count: 32k Rewrite Word-Count: 0k, Under Plot and Character-Building Twin sister of Monkey D. Luffy, Lucy is a young girl residing with the mountain bandits - and her brothers - on Dawn Island. She spends her days training in preparation for her eventual departure to sea with her twin and her overall terror of the ocean.
Abyssal has always been one of my backburner fics; One Piece was nowhere near its final arc when I first started it and I had been desperately hoping for more information on Luffy's background as a whole before delving in too deep into the story - it's a fic I didn't focus on too much and worked on when the mood struck.
One Piece is still my favorite anime/manga, so of course I plan on continuing with it eventually - most likely after the series has reached its conclusion.
Monkey D. Lucy will retain her terror of the ocean, only she now comes with a brand spanking new personality.
I have a general idea of where I want to go with her - someone who's passionate, reckless, violent, and beautiful. I have a character outline page written and a lot of rough sketches :)
Yuta Amelia Heartfilia, from Soulbound Fandom: Fairy Tail Current Word-Count: 10k Rewrite Word-Count: 45k This fic as it is has been completely abandoned. I've been working on a rewrite from the ground up for a while now - starting with the awful name, which is now Amelia.
I haven't talked about this fic anywhere or approached Soulbound in a long time - but I have been working on a rewrite for a few months now.
I adore Fairy Tail a lot - and now that it's come to a close I feel like I have a lot of freedom with this fic. There really isn't a lot of world-building and the general makeup of magic is very fluid to work with. I think Fairy Tail's strongest asset is its characters, which are honestly so so much fun to write.
As a result of this, I think Amelia is one of my more rounded-out characters.
Amelia is the younger sister of Lucy Heartfilia - and by younger, that is to say at the start of her story she is 11 years old, which makes her 6 years younger than Lucy.
Amelia is a quiet kid with no filter when she does speak - which makes her, rather unintentionally, a bit of an asshole. She's not good at reading people and has no real desire to engage with them - she leaves all of that charisma bullshit to her sister. Growing up on the streets after running away from home at a young age has made her street savvy; she's small, but lithe and very agile when she expends the effort towards it.
She spent most of her young life in cheap rooms in dodgey areas situated above taverns or whore houses while Lucy picked up odd jobs and magic requests to keep them afloat. This has encouraged a crass nature and a proclivity towards swearing that exasperates her sister greatly.
She's incredibly co-dependent on Lucy, who has acted as both parental roles for the majority of her life. She can't imagine life without her and is willing to do anything to keep her safe.
She holds no memories of any previous lives she may or may not have lived.
She was blessed with a rather simple form of Celestial Spacial Magic; the ability to teleport herself and objects a short distance around her. She adores her ability and often uses it for the purpose of being lazy.
I've been having a lot of fun writing this fic. Unlike my other fics this one alternates between the main siblings frequently, to the point that I'd say that they're both the main protagonists.
As a general result of leaving home so much earlier than canon, Lucy has changed a lot as well, but well - I'll leave that for the readers to find out when I do finally start posting chapters.
As for the fics I've kept almost completely on the down-low; these are fics I don't plan on posting for a very long time, but have been working on.
Anna Weasley, from Untitled Project Fandom: Harry Potter Current Word-Count: 60k Anna Weasley is a starry-eyed child - she sees the world through dream-hued glasses tainted at the edges by nightmares brought on by her rather bad habit of dying. Sometimes she sees things that others can't and that's okay - she has her twin, Ron, to help her sort out the muddled mess that is her mind.
She's bright in a simple kind of way, and a bit odd, but eternally optimistic and loyal to those she loves.
As much as I would love love love to talk endlessly about Anna, this is where I'm going to leave it. I have a lot planned for this fic and writing it between Echoes has been fun. I love the Weasley's, if you couldn't tell, and I feel like passing up the chance to jump into a story with a Weasley-centric OC would be a travesty.
Also Anna is like, in my top 3 OC's to doodle when I feel up to it ♥
Umeko Haruno, from Untitled Project Fandom: Naruto Current Word-Count: 70k Umeko Haruno has had her nose stuck to the grindstone studying and training for her future career as a shinobi for as long as she can remember. Growing up with a training companion in the form of her brilliant twin has pushed her into a diligent pursuit to surpass her own limits.
This mentality was largely influenced by the passing of her shinobi mother when she was still very young. A casualty of a mission gone wrong, her loss was felt deeply by the family with ripples that never quite ceased. Umeko's desire to live up to her mothers legacy, become strong enough to protect those she has left, and push herself to the extreme has resulted in her being a workaholic with an obsession to become a more efficient shinobi.
She's very book-smart and clinical, but she doesn't let that overshadow her kindness. She has a low tolerance for incompetence and values training above all else - there is almost no form of training she isn't willing to try, no matter the blow it might deal to her dignity or the respect others have for her.
I'm really really excited for this fic. It's a lot more fast paced than my other ones and writing it has been a lot of fun - Umeko is just a lot of fun. I've kept this fic completely hushed up simply because of Bare my Fangs, but as you can see I've got quite a bit written already.
I have a very strong idea of her story progression and how it will ultimately affect those around her, as well as the plot as a whole. I've got a few twists and turns planned that I can't wait to unveil ♥
What's this? It's A - Bonus Round!
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And then-
Afterward, nothing much mattered, anymore.
There was a peace in that.
More, than peace, it's like she ascended-
And then, she found, she wasn't alone.
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Thank you for asking about my OC's and sorry if it was a lot more than you bargained for! I really do love them and have been quietly sitting on them for a while now :)
#ask#thanatos-is-daddy#echoes#bare my fangs#abyssal#soulbound#Untitled Project#my oc's#tysm for the ask this was fun to throw together rq#and NO i will not be taking any questions about that last character there#have fun speculating :)#yes ive been writing a lot behind the scenes#part of the reason echoes isnt updated as frequently but im gonna burn myself out on it if i just hardball#in other news my friend has been great for idea bouncing and echoes is p much completely planned out#all i gotta do is write out the details :D#its kind of frustrating at the same time bc i have scenes written out for chapters that are like...very far down the line haha#the reason im not posting the rewrites and new fics is bc i dont wanna stress myself out w expectations of chapters etc#i can work on it at my own pace bc its almost completely private#and i can go back and adjust things as need be#i wont lie a part of me still craves validation for the work (like feedback lol) but my desire to build up a cohesive story i can update#regularly outweighs that immensely
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Crafting update: 10/14 rows sewn and sewn together for the rainbow quilt top! One more row sewn but still needs ironing before I attach it to the rest of the quilt top This productivity on a project I am rapidly losing steam for brought to you by the fact that I want to make a rainbow snake and/or dragon with that improvised piecemeal technique I used for the gargoyle, but I want to time how long it takes me, but I only have one timer and I'm using it for the rainbow quilt so I need to finish that first
#the person behind the yarn#crafting update#I have 'if you give a mouse a cookie'ed myself into having motivation#mostly because I am predicting this snake and/or dragon is gonna look REALLY COOL#and if people want to commission me I have to have at least a ballpark figure for how long it takes to make#because currently my idea for how long it takes is just one great big shrug emoji#also also: snakes! what should I tag them as?#I know they are a common fear/phobia/trigger/etc (I know those are separate but sometimes overlapping categories)#(but idk what group term to use for all of them?)#anyway point is: I want to be extra sure I am tagging it properly to be caught in blacklists of anyone who needs/wants that#but what tags should I use in particular for that?
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are the couple wearing connected collars both women...?
they’re far away so i cant tell. one of them could be a trans woman 😬 but also could be a woman so not sure..
#if i pass by i’ll update but lmao it’s cringe regardless#women twerkin on each other and getting feisty etc which is all great#but the connected collars is just cringe 😭
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**** and ****** and I all got invited to birthday party #1 tonight. Then each of them got invited to an additional birthday party, #2-3. so now I am being made to go party hopping with them. to parties of ppl I’ve only met in passing. and if that weren’t bad enough a friend of ours but mostly theirs is opening for [mid but confusingly well known DJ in our town who thinks playing starships by Nicki Minaj makes her all that even tho *** is better!] tonight and so now we’re gonna try to go to four things. Woeeeee is literally meeeeeeee I want 2 stay home and pirate ebooks and listen to sufjan stevens but unfortunately if I refused to go it’d be a whole big thing even though I literally only ever agreed to go to party #1!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Scream. Ugh whatever I’m going to drink a matcha latte with raspberries and a shot of espresso at 4-5 pm and hopefully I will not pass away </3 Urgh this is fine this is good for me I’m young blah blah blah I have to enjoy this era it’s fleeting whatever blah blah blah I have the rest of my life to drink herbal tea all alone plan my garden and force myself to read a joan Didion book I am not enjoying. Blah blah blah but I don’t have to LIKE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh AND I have to go fucking secondhand clothes shopping* beforehand this is like when Gabriella and Troy from High School Musical had big game, scholastic decathalon, and callback auditions all at the same time
*it’ll be FINE I guess hdhebfndjjejejdjdj
#ughhhhhhh#why don’t you skip it? you might ask. great question!!#it is because I have managed to seriously fuck up the dynamic between me and one of these friends to where it will make things worse if I#appear to be further avoidant!#so why not COMMUNICATE??#yeah I am asking myself the same thing! but it is COMPLICATED!#ahghgghhgh whatever maybe there’ll be MDMA at some point then it will be fun ugh#journal#sorry venting#I wonder if brunch tomorrow at ours with ****** *** and ********* got canceled. if not then that 22222 erghhhhhh#and then fucking yoga and dumplings tomorrow night#literally why am I complaining it’s nice to be included and wanted etc#I think it’s just the imbalance between stretches of loneliness and isolation and like…bam seven events in one weekend#last night I accepted the joint as it got passed around and instantly got so weird no one could tell what I was talking about.#which is what everyone always thinks but actually no one could tell for real this time so I just got in a blanket and thought about faraway#things#i should stop smoking weed the thing is it’s never like unbearable just like low grade kind of sad#update and now they want to take MY car??? all the way to fucking Fairview????????#when I don’t even know *****????
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Caleb Widogast is figuring his life out. He has friends now, a job he cares about, and can even – on a good day – have fifteen Bunsen burners turned on in his classroom, and not get pulled into the flames. What he does not have, is any experience training other teachers. Essek Thelyss is a prodigy, one of the Marble Tomes' foremost researchers, and the son of one of the Dynasty's most influential families—he is certainly not a teacher of children. And yet, somehow, he has ended up at a school on the other side of the border, with a list of publications as tall as he is and no classroom experience. All he knows when he arrives is information gleaned from the school's website, and the name of the person who will be training him—Caleb Widogast.
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hey folks it's my teaching au! that has been in my head for... literal years now (before we even knew about the m9 epilogue). I have been planning this for ages, and since there are now two (2) chapters up I feel like I can actually share it on tumblr. enjoy!
#critical role#cr fanfic#my writing#shadowgast#mighty nein#so like i don't have a great track record with longfic#and i cannot promise *regular* updates#but i have been working on this when i should've been marking/on the bus/etc for ages and i am very excited to be able to share it#and hopefully there *will* be updates#thank you all for facilitating yet another 'use your job to write fanfic' situation#i appreciate it#also yes the title is from the lady of shallot#i went through a whole list of space-ish titles and this one won
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#chaos.txt#aughhh im so tired. not enough spoons to do private life updates so im just... sending it out to everyone#uhmmm im doing good! have not made as much progress on my neocities as i wanted :/ studying is going well though#still quite stressed but less so because i have Been studying#working on a few new carrds + paintings#would like to do some digital art studies .. clouds and landscapes they are calling me ..#what else. i went to go watch astv again! it felt revolutionary in a different way the second time#but i cannot economically justify going again! excited to have it on streaming because i would LOVE to do some scene redraws#listening to worlds beyond number + very much obsessed. been also squinting at a few commentary ytbers cuz some of the stuff they say is..#not. great. i don't fully like em. hm. also been organising my files etc etc. made a cute notion that im not using! as expected#thinking about writing some fic tbh . had some epic watcher ideas a while ago that i would like to explore#im going to ... schedule this. for tomorrow. not in the headspace to . speak . to people. aa. its fine#i miss u guys. i think. i am so anxious and stressed all the time !! aagh. so dramatic. so dramatic chaos. what a mess. goodbye lads#see uuu all . in maybe 10 days .nods. maybe another life update in 10 days. because my exam is in 20#this exam is so so so important guys. idk. why it feels more important than everything else ive done for the application process but it doe#and it. stresses .me .out. ok gbye forreal now
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#periodical life updates#im trying to sleep but my nose is all stuffy. this is so inconvenient. u-u i would just like to sleep.#obviously i would rather this than toothache (which is still A Thing) but this still kinda sucks!! i would love to be able to breathe!!#urk. anyway sorry if i havent gotten back to you if you're one of the 6+ people who have messaged me. im not doing great physically.#or mentally. or emotionally. or socially. generally i am Unwell in every sense of the word. jace is doing Very Poorly.#but yeah. suffering is eternal and my pain will never cease etc etc etc~ its whatever.#i might get the queue back up. i'd hate for my blog to be full of my sad little vents for my birthday.#mom says we might not celebrate my birthday because the family is all too sick. i understand. it is how it is.#i just wish i could breathe.
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gonna add a take, android is better then ios because ios was created by Apple to maintain a complete monopoly over every single part of the phone so that it is absolutely impossible to get it fixed anywhere but at one of their official stores or licensed repair stores where they can slap you with ridiculously high repair bills for simple fixes. Android isn't a type of phone, it's an operating system. it's the same shit with apple always using a weird ass charging cable when everyone else has been using USB for decades. uniqueness not for improving the quality of the product, but for increasing its price artificially through after purchase repairs upgrades and replacements.
#if you control the OS you control what devices the phone can pair with what speed at whiich the battery drains and the phone runs etc etc#IOS was designed specifically so that Apple could have a complete monopoly over everything related to their devices#accessories software updates and fixes hardware fixes all of it#Louis Rossmann is a great source and he talks at length about this sort of thing as it relates particularly to Mac Books being#overengineered unrepairable garbage#he owns a computer repair store and yeah the mac book air he opens up once and literally realizes it has a fan that is placebo only#it doesnt blow on anything to reduce its temperature#it just makes noise#fuck apple
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People who try to analyze what happened on Tumblr on November 5th, 2020, often really overstate how much it was actually “about” Supernatural. As someone who has never been in the supernatural fandom ever but dID join in on the hysterical destielposting—it was really more about the stress of the pandemic and the 2020 presidential election.
The two biggest Youtubers I’ve seen try to dissect “what happened that November 5th” in video essays both weren’t American—- and I think that explains why they both tried to explain the hysteria primarily via analyzing the Supernatural fandom/the original show, rather than through the lens of the election. And while those videos are cool, valid, informational, and make lots of really well-considered interesting points— I can tell you that me and almost all my mutuals had literally no knowledge or interest in the fact that “oh supernatural had made nods at the ship in the past but the creators were adamant that I wouldn’t be canon” or etc etc etc etc. the first time I learned about any of that context was way later, watching videos where people claimed that fandom history context (that I did not know anything about) was the actual reason for the hysteria.
But the reality is that people latched on to the Destiel stuff because it was a piece of big useless inane zero-stakes fandom news in a time when we were desperately waiting for serious high stakes election news. We were latching onto a “positive “ piece of inane stupid fandom news in a time of great stress, with all the desperation of a drowning man who latches onto whatever piece of wood will keep him afloat.
The core of the hysteria was that Americans (who make up a huge chunk of tumblr’s userbase) were currently glued to their laptops watching the live presidential election vote counts come in. These vote counts were taking an extended amount of time due to the pandemic causing high numbers of mail-in ballots, resulting in a constant state of Election Day Stress for multiple days straight.
This was also during the height of the Pandemic. People had predicted Trump’s presidency would be bad; no one had predicted it would be this apocalyptically bad. No one had predicted pandemics and lockdowns and hospitals overflowing with bodybags. remember Trump spreading Covid lies and conspiracies?? There were so many Qanon conspiracies about democrats being Satanic child traffickers who had to be put to death, and coup threats were mounting from the right wing side. It seemed like this election was a choice between ‘centrist democrat’ and “apocalyptic right wing conspiracy theory authoritarianism,” in the midst of pandemic conditions that people feared would never ever improve— and it seemed like a close election.
Another major point was that Trump voters were more likely to be antimaskers/Covid deniers, while Biden voters were more likely to take the pandemic seriously— so Biden voters were more likely to send in mail-in ballots instead of risking the in-person voting crowds, which meant their ballots would take much longer to count. And so, in many state electoral vote counts, it would initially seem like Trump was very far in the lead— only for Biden to slooooowly build up an agonizingly small lead as the mail in ballots came in, and then defeat Trump at the very end.
So you’re just watching these news sites giving live election updates, refreshing the page every 2 minutes to see if you’re going to live under a spineless centrist democrat or a literal Qanon Dictatorship. And then you go on tumblr to distract yourself, and there’s more election posting, and more agonizing over the votes, and more stress and despair—-
And then it’s been days and we’re right at the crucial tipping point where it’s anyone’s game and the next few hours will determine whether Trump will win, so you need to keep your eye on the vote count, because the next hours will determine the future of the pandemic and your country and your plans for your entire life—
And then stupid Destiel becomes canon! And it becomes canon in the silliest way possible!
If Destiel had become canon at any other time, it would have been a big goofy tumblr celebration? But we wouldn’t have gotten the insane explosion of hysterical interaction.
The entire core of it was the contrast between the inane meaningless stupidity of fandom news vs the actual stressful election news you wanted to hear! It really is best conveyed in that meme where Castiel says “I love you” and Dean indifferently responds with a piece of important election news.
It’s about the contrast between the low-stakes inanity of fandom and the massive life-destroying stakes of a terrifying election. There really was no reason it had be Supernatural specifically, except that Supernatural was a thing everyone knew basic things about from dashboard osmosis— it could’ve been any other equally huge silly fandom ship news about a ship everyone *knew of* but might not necessarily be invested in (ex. Stucky becoming canon, Johnlock becoming canon, Kirk/Spock becoming more canon somehow, etc etc etc.)
I think it’s true that people who weren’t paying agonizingly close attention to the American election news got swept up in it, and that non American Supernatural fans also were extremely excited for purely fandom reasons — but the entire reason it blew up to an unprecedented degree was because of that core of stressed out terrified Americans glued to their computers watching election results and suddenly receiving stupid fandom news instead, and deciding to just hysterically parodically hyper-celebrate this absurd useless zero-stakes news.
I think it was also all elevated by the fact that, as I said before, this happened at the crucial “tipping point” of the election where the next few hours would determine the winner. The fact that Biden began to slowly develop a lead in the hours after made it feel, hysterically, as if the hours after Destiel became canon was somehow the turning point where he began to win; so celebrating Destiel felt like celebrating that slow turn towards victory.
The tl,dr is that it’s so important to Remember the Fifth of November …..in preparation the inevitable hysteria that will happen in the presidential election on November 5th of next year. XD. Personally I’m rooting for Johnlock or Frodo/Sam to somehow become canon in the eleventh hour right before the democrats win
#November 5th#november 5 2020#the fifth of november#just a random ramble#November 5th 2020 is such an important day to me#it really is a holiday#but it does confuse me when I see people analyzing it primarily as a supernatural thing#instead of a ‘hysteria over an election reaches a breaking point when inane zero stakes fandom news comes out and we all latch onto it’thing#but yeah!!#this is my personal essay out of love for the holiday
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my birthday :)
#mine#ill update my bio in a sec zzzzzzzzz#going to have burgers (rahhhh america) and cake for dinner very excited about it#also going to start my 2nd beegee3 run which is going to be my first dark urge run!!!!!!#VERY excited!!!!!!!#i made a lot of mistakes and missed a lot of things in my first run so im going to try to rectify that here#i'm going for a resistant durge angle and im also going to romance ast4ri0n again (no surprise)#ive heard a lot of good things about resistant durge x spawnst4ri0n (and i can see in my mind why they would be great together)#so i'm really excited !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#i think it's going to be a lot of fun :D i'm going to make a storm s0rcerer m3ph1stopheles t13fling#(again sorry for the numbers i just dont want to show up in search results)#during my first run i restricted myself from starting new runs for multiple reasons (partially because i was just really engaged and didnt#feel the need to make a new guy but also because ive heard a lot of people talk about act 1 burnout + never finishing runs etc#and i was like i want to play this game through (so i can read spoilers + understand the story better) and avoid all that trouble#that other people seem to have)#but i might let up on that rule juuuust a little bit because to be honest part of me wants to do another normal tav run purely because i#missed so much stuff the first time around and i know playing as durge is going to add a fuck ton of story content and events#and change a lot of things#but then at the same time i HAVE rough ideas for future characters and part of me wants to wait until i finish a durge run#so that i know what that looks like (and i can read spoilers) and from there i can make informed decisions#about which characters should be durge and which should be normal#like i would hate to make a new tav partway through my durge run and then later realize that character would have been better as a durge#or vice versa#so. we'll see...
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#finally finished all my dmv stuff! now I just have to wait for my updated ID to arrive in the mail!!!#tag talk#now I just need to update all my miscellaneous records and bank and apartment and work and dr office etc. but like... I'M DONE THE BIG STUFF#and I have a dr follow up in two weeks where I should get my first hrt scrip dog willing. it's all coming together and honestly I feel great#like. huge weight off my shoulders. life finally coming together. energy freed up to work on other stuff#I wish to hell and back that I could time travel back to high school me. I was so hopeless and had no idea why.#everything was wrong and bad and I couldn't do anything about it except hope that my mind stabilized by the time I hit my twenties.#I didn't even realize I was trans then. I just thought my body issues were over being gay.#honestly just seeing my future self would mean everything. I'm working on holding onto the weird I had back then but in a healthier way#I was still fighting against my dad buzzing my hair every few months. I ended up performing masculinity in such a weird way to compensate.#flaunted my scars as the only way of rebelling that I really had. proving I wasn't okay while refusing the christian help I was offered#everything I've told younger kids. taught younger cousins. taught other people. it's stuff I wish I could have known back then#stuff I've learned on this blessed hellsite. idk. it's all coming together. I'm becoming who I am#something something Lincoln Park all I want to do is be less like you and be more like me#I just. I'm alive again. New first name new last name new middle name but I'm still the same person I've always been#I'm not changing who I am. I'm changing all my tags to accurately reflect my content. I'm updating the summary to show what I contain#I'm shedding the costume I was pushed into and showing the true skin beneath.
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