#alitaire

[finalgrlpilled]

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[deathsplaything]

The Ultimate Price || Alistair Solo

LOCATION: The Sugar Pot TIMING: The Solar Eclipse PARTIES: Alistair & Mikael SUMMARY: Alistair avoids the eclipse, but they can't avoid Mikael. CONTENT WARNINGS: Partner death, general grief

“Tha gaol agam ort. An-còmhnaidh. Gu bràth.”

Spending their morning the same way he always did, Alistair decided to close up the shop at noon to let their employees see the solar eclipse. No point keeping them locked up indoors all day instead. Of course, they didn’t see a point in participating. Not like they could see it anyway. So instead, they continued working on inventory and ordering on the laptop in the locked up tea shop. It was around 3 in the afternoon when totality occurred. They could sense it, any light and shadow vanished to just darkness. 

“Al, please hear me.” A gentle voice called out, and Alistair would know that voice anywhere. They’d traverse mountains just to hear it one more time. “Mikael.” Alistair responded, eyes wide as they removed their sunglasses to reveal the scars on their face. “Oh, Al.” Mikael’s voice was closer, and their cheek felt cold. Mikael was trying to touch their face. “Please tell me you don’t blame yourself for what that man did.” Mikael’s voice was like a soft bell chime, a beacon in the night that Alistair felt drawn to. They’d never be over them. As long as they lived, there would never be anyone else for them. 

“Of course, I blame myself.” Alistair spoke, voice breaking as they rubbed their eyes. “You can’t blame yourself for the actions of one person.” Mikael’s voice was pleading, and Alitair wanted to curl into a ball and let the world fade away. “Alistair, I need you to know that you’re heading down a dark path. I don't want you to go down it.” Alistair shook their head, angry as a tear escaped. “It’s what I am, Mik. I can’t… can’t just not practice.” 

Mikael’s voice shifted to directly in front of them. “That’s not true and you know it. These people you’re hurting, don’t do it because you’re hurt too. Don’t do it because of what you’ve lost. I’ve had time to be at peace with what happened. But I’m not at peace because you’re obviously suffering. I love you, you dolt.” That cold spot on their cheek was back, and another tear escaped Alistair’s eyes. 

Remembering Brutus, Alistair quickly summoned their companion to their side and cast the spell. It was Mikael. The short, lanky individual with long chestnut hair and chocolate brown eyes. Those bambi eyes of theirs rendered Alistair speechless. Alistair let out a choked cry, a hand covering their mouth as tears fell. 

“Tha gaol agam ort. An-còmhnaidh. Gu bràth.” Alistair whispered, and Mikael smiled sadly. “Tell me you’ll stop.” Mikael whispered, hands outstretched toward Alistair. “Tell me you’ll at least stop the healing business. I don’t care if you still practice magic, just stop hurting people because you’re hurt. I know you. I know you better than you know yourself sometimes. So stop. Let yourself feel something other than pain.” 

Alistair’s face fell. Of course, Mikael was always right. Always knew exactly what to say. “I… okay.” They croaked, wiping their mouth with their hand as if it would dismiss the emotions. It didn’t. They were still there, and Alistair still hurt. “For you, I’d do anything.” Alistair’s Scottish accent bled into their words, exposing just how emotional they were in that moment. 

Then, Mikael started to fade. “I love you, Alistair. That will never change. But let yourself be happy. Please.” Their voice faded out, and Alistair was left alone in the Sugar Pot. They severed the spell and put their glasses back on, fell into the chair, and wept. 

They wept for Mikael, they wept for what was torn away from them, for everything they’d done. They wept for the person they could never be again.

“An-còmhnaidh. Gu bràth.” Alistair whispered into the nothingness, a hand outstretched in front of them into the nothingness. 

[kueencrimson]

Sketch.

[trans-estinien]

Rotating Alitaire in my brain

[heirofhermes]

The hunters were too close. He was hoping for the wolf to follow him immediately, but he didn't. Instead he kept running towards the dead end and that cost them dear time. He had to think fast if he expected to help the terrified wolf.

"Stay very still," he instructed with a confident voice, rushing to his side and drawing a quick succession of runes on the floor with a sharpie. Quickly the light around them started to bend and shift, creating a wall in front of them. An illusion so perfectly crafted it would fool even the most seasoned of hunters.

But, since he never left anything to chance, he then invaded Alitair's personal space to cover his mouth.

"Don't make a sound. I'll keep you safe," he whispered, right as the hunters approached. So long as they didn't draw any attention their way, they should be safe now...

~🐺~

The young wolf was exhausted. His heart beating fast and legs were numb. He had no idea how long he had been running but he just kept going until he thought he was safe. Away from the men with the guns. Yet, the sudden voice caught him off guard which made him yelp out and run again, though he had trapped himself. There was no where else to go and so he knelt down and raised his hands up. "Please. I didn't do anything!" He cried out. Yet, nothing happened. He slowly lowered his hands and looked up to the other before him. He didn't look like a hunter. He seemed like he was around his age. "Go where?" He whimpered out.

[kirrades]

#100HeadsChallenge

Day 1 - Dragon Age Origins

I was challenged and completed the #100HeadsChallenge, 100 portraits in 10 days. I’ll be sharing them in bits and pieces, the majority was done in pencil so I’m gonna work on them with other media before I’ll post them!

I haven’t made 10 a day every day, sometimes less, sometimes more, but I’ll share ‘em 10 at a time.

Day 1 - Day 2 - Day 3 - Day 4 - Day 5 - Day 6 - Day 7 - Day 8 - Day 9 - Day 10

[royalbstrd-arch]

alitair may let you fight loghain yourself, but honestly all the bonus points if you let him do it. yes all the different HoF stories have valid reasons to want to kill him themselves, but alistair has a lot more behind it personally. cailan and duncan being abandoned and left for dead, the blatant disrespect and betrayal on the whole warden order (even if now there’s only two left). just let him get it all out of his system by kicking his ass in a duel. even more bonus points if you let him finish it and then stay a warden cause he rather not be king, executed, or exiled.

but also just know you will never be forgiven if you recruit loghain to the wardens. alistair can and will hold a grudge.

[baejax-the-great]

For the Fanfic Ask Game: A (for The Depth of Fear), G, O

A: How did you come up with the title to The Depth of Fear?

I have no great skill for titling things. Back when I wrote my first Bethistair fic, “The Coolness of Your Shadow,” I kept thinking of this song I used to know about darkness being a shelter and a comfort. For Warden Bethany, who I HC as finding acceptance for herself as a mage in the Deep Roads, darkness then becomes a transformative part of her life. I liked the idea that she actually found the Deep Roads beautiful as well, and so this song kept coming back to me. Alistair also found solace in the Grey Wardens, so I liked the idea that for both of them, the dark was a comfort, and not something to be afraid of. “The Coolness of Your Shadow” is a line from that song, and it sounded romantic to me.

And then, because I am not original at all, I just used more lines from the same song for the other fics, and they all kind of work honestly.

The Edge of Sadness deals a lot with Alistair’s depression and Bethany healing from being in the Circle. (but in the version of the song that I knew, which is a cover, they changed the words to Edge of Silence, but idiot me who hadn’t heard the song in like 15 years looked up the lyrics online... oh well)

The Silence of Your Deep, which I was told sounded like a reference to Bethany’s vagina, is a pregnancy fic, and while I absolutely regret the name, I will not change it. (Also it’s about weird lore and Bethany and Alistair becoming un-Wardened so like the silence part made sense to me but yeah I see the vagina thing now)

And The Depth of Fear is about Warden Alistair being sacrificed to the nightmare demon.

G: Do you write your story from start to finish, or do you write the scenes out of order?

I write the scenes out of order, but concentrating on the earlier scenes and working my way to the end, if that makes sense. For example, in TDoF right now, I have 23 chapters planned (but there will be more), and the first 7 of those are posted. Chapters 8-13 are more complete than 14-23. Sometimes I just throw in a header of an event I know needs to happen like “Fenris is like umm what now” (an actual chapter heading I have in this fic) and figure it out later. I also like to have at least 3 chapters mostly finished before I start posting. 

O: How do you begin a story–with the plot, or the characters? 

Hmm. For all the silly one-shots, it’s mainly just conversations I hear them having in my head, so I suppose the characters. For the longer stories, I need to have a plot figured out. Then the side characters show up as needed. Although, for some reason, I seem incapable of writing a story with Alistair that does not include Zevran.

Bethany and Alistair are fun because they have like six different world states where they could feasibly meet (though Warden!Alitair and Circle!Bethany is a harder one, I have an absurd idea for how it could happen). So for these two, it’s just been me thinking, okay, this is the world state, how/why did they meet and what does that mean for the rest of the world state.

[heavensoared]

"well all have dragons, but not all of us should carry the name rider." because some .. were better left to fend for themselves. he'd not trust them to deliver a sack of potatoes - least of all someone he ... cared about, in a way. "concerned about your well-being, if anything." soft hum, letting the warden's scent fill his lungs. definitely had worked on him, alitair had a point. no use denying it. "what can i say? i'm always right." smug grin to match the other's, posture nearly perfect still.

he leaned into that ... he wouldn't even call it a kiss. it was a press of lips, but oh so full of promise. & naughty. he couldn't deny the appeal. "you could try showing me why you called me here in the first place. i might go easy on you if.. you had a good reason." no doubt about that, but he could pretend, hands coming up to cup the young warden's face, letting his brown eyes rest on the other's for a little while before closing the distance between them again, lips against the others in much more than just the tease of a kiss.

"Oh I'm sorry, did you just say you can't let me travel with another rider?" He asked, smile growing brighter and the sparkle of mischief in his eyes getting a little bigger, leaning in closer so their noses brushed together just a little bit. "My, if I didn't know any better I might think that sounded...possessive" He hummed, smile turning into a shameless grin as he leaned in closer. "Hmm, you think I'd be hunted down for my sweet smells would I? Seemed to work on you quite well, so maybe you have a point" He murmured, his one hand sliding through the man's hair.

"Hmm, earn it do I?" He mused, leaning in and giving the other a lazy, tease of a kiss on those lips but made sure it was loud and that he dragged his lips away slowly. "Well, if I must earn your forgiveness then that's just what I'll have to do, whatever can I do to earn your forgiveness Sir Ryder?" He purred against those lips, eyes fluttering and grin on full display. Clearly loving every second of this game of theirs and truth be told...perhaps he did miss his favourite rider. "What shall my punishment be, hm?"

[finalgrlpilled]

you were mine before you were yours

[herald-divine-hell]

So i randomly stumbled upon the name "Alexandra Auditore" (dont ask cause i honestly dont remember anymore) and now all i can think about is an Assassins Creed AU version of Alexandra and.... Hggnnnnnnn.... IM GAY (we need more female assassins honestly)

Alexandra honestly is the Ezio of my world. Amayian is akin to Conner and Alitair, but Alexandra is like Ezio and Edward, with a touch of Evie. 

[cruddyborderlandstheories]

Eden-6!!

I am. so fucking tired. but I’m also late asf for Eden-6 stuff to the point it got its video release, so here I am playing catch up.

tl;dr: swamp planet!! we get some cool shots of Alitair and Aurelia, i, surprise surprise, still do not trust mr. wainwright, i tried to form an argument that these ruins we see across the planet are abandoned Atlas facilities/ships, but ~who knows~. also i would (and probably will) die for the saurians. i love them so much. one of them has a funky bone hat. it’s great. also also “stop the CoV before they gain control” [looks at trailers and behind closed doors intro] ... uh oh gamers...

“A backwater swampland of a planet, and family home of the Jakobs clan. Eden-6 is covered by lush greenery and stagnant waters, dotted with occasional settlements and the rusted hulks of crashed spaceships. Civilization has never fully taken hold here, and indigenous dangers including ravenous Saurians and semi-sentient Jabbers effectively rule the planet. As if you didn't already have enough to worry about, the Children of the Vault have a presence here as well.”

im excited for the abandoned spaceships, those things look fucking bad. ass.

Ambermire I am guessing is one of the more swampy areas? Jakob’s Manor is obvious, and Fort Sunshine I’m guessing is that abandoned facility we’ve been seeing around the trailers. unfortunately we don’t get too good of a look at the fortress (shakes fist at gearbox) but we do get some other stuff!

im gonna go over the instagram video first because the pics are a treat so we’re saving them for last.

sorry for the progress bars btw lol

i fucking love that gas giant. so much.

swamps are one of my least favorite biomes, but i know gearbox is going to make me love it.

also a look at one of the crashed ships! (i assume) looks like Atlas to me. Or old Hyperion, but tbh idk why Hyperion would be on Eden-6. so Atlas it is.

a look at one of the settlements. i really love the contrast between this planet and Promethea and Athenas.

those gross pod things on the right? idk if they’re egg sacs or plants or what but i both hate them and love them. also whatever that is glowing on the bottom left. i wanna touchy

Jakobs manor!! honestly a lot less extravagant in the front than i was expecting. also now we know this one shot

is definitely not in front of Jakobs Manor. could be the back entrance or smth tho. looks like it leads into a garden-y area.

my question is, is it a Jakobs thing to enjoy hunting? because it seems like it’s a Jakobs thing to enjoy hunting. also i don’t trust Jakobs. I know I’ve said that, like, a bajillion times, but i don’t. and those metal cowboy-lookin’ robots are totally theirs.

im just surprised the Hammerlocks are living in the Manor. I assumed they were like... visiting. now im pretty convinced mr. wainwright down here is evil because only Alistair is on Sanc-III and we’re all assuming that the Sanc-III demo (not the more recent one) takes place after Athenas, right? 

and OMG YES lilith’s tattoos aren’t visible in the newest video on sanc-iii!! im hoping that means she gets her powers back!! im giddy to look over it 30 times i cannot wait. but one post at a time.

evil. evil man.

he either dies or he’s evil i don’t trust him and hammerlocks eye shouldn’t be red in the We Are Mayhem trailer i just... im so suspicious of this man.

AURELIA i love her so much. she was great in TPS, one of my mains. her new outfit is popping, i love the boots.

also she has 2 ice diadem shards now and im terrified yet oddly happy for her.

ALISTAIR. i legitimately thought he was on Promethea at first, then i realized this is probably part of the abandoned facility/fortress. shame we don’t get a closer look at it.

also look who’s eye is back to being not-red again!

also the writing on the back there makes me even more convinced this is Atlas facility. on Promethea, the parts of the Meridian city are labeled with these unique symbols (so far i’ve seen blue and red) and this red one looks like it fits the mark perfectly.

these look like the same canisters from the mine on Pandora. whatcha pumpin eden-6?

more red plants. i like how different this can look from athenas, yet still have very similar foliage. outstanding move, gearbox.

is that another crashed ship in the background??? yes pls. also this dude’s face paint is giving me huge Mask of Mayhem vibes, I love it.

the inside of Jakobs Manor

i hate to tell you this mr. gearbox sir but im pretty sure they do

yeesh. 

also that one scene of troy in the manor as well

dis one

is that the globe in the background? anyone know? im trying to remember where the fuck ive seen that shot of the library/globe. hmmmmmmmmmm

it is not the globe whump whump. i am excited to explore this library tho. 

what looks like fishing net on the right? wild

also car!!

no wings/fins like in the Mask of Mayhem trailer tho, that sucks.

i like this dude. especially his face paint.

i like this glowing crystals even more tho

purple crystals that mimic troy’s red ones? me likey.

eridium? maybe! slag to chug when u need more power? maybe! i don’t know!

j̷̧̭͙̹̭̀̽͆̕͘u̸̦͌̃͛̕̕s̴̡̰͙̣͊̂̔t̴͇̪͐ͅ ̸̭̐́w̵̧̯̲͊̀̃̄̕a̵̢͓̎́̏̓t̷̪̓̑̎͜c̶̢̢͔̀h̴̥̬̪̫̫̿ ̶̪̬̞̼͐̾̉͐̒ơ̵̼̋̍̓̕u̵̻̪̞̞̺̐̾̀̚͠t̶͉̠̟͉̪̋̈̿ ̶̢̗̗͑f̵̰̫͇̈̾ọ̴͑r̶̢͕̺͈͎̃̌͘ ̸̩͆̏̅a̸͈̙̪̋̏ǹ̷̮͚͍̽͜ģ̵̠̀̍̋̔r̴̪̦̾̇̕͠y̷̘͖̜̿͑̅̀ͅ ̷̬̱͉̗͌̇j̵̹͇̽͗̕ā̸̳͇͈̠̺b̴̰̏͜b̴̘͗̔e̷͖̓͊r̸͍̫̻̊͆̊s̸̛̙̳͔̗̋̓͝ 

also check that glowy light in the background. totally Atlas.

also also i like they have little hanging nest/house things. those are really cute.

this motherfucker is coming at us with a sledgehammer ffs

i like their tiger stripe designs. they blend in with the leaves, which i guess is an evolutionary advantage all things considered.

I LOVE THESE FUNKY LITTLE MOTHERFUCKERS

LOOK AT THIS DUDE!!! HE’S GOT A BONE HAT! I LOVE HIM!!!

AND THEY FUCKING BREATHE FIRE??

GLOWING YELLOW EYES!!!

A SPLIT JAW! WHO DOESN’T LOVE THESE LITTLE DUDES???

i fucking love Saurians holy shit

okay okay okay okay

picture time 😎

i love the skybox on Eden-6, holy shit it’s beautiful. also, those sacs/plants/fungi or whatever are definitely volatile.

look at that one glowing red one. that’s totally going to deal some fuckin fire damage to whatever touches it and i for one am ready

also.

can we get an F in chat for Eden-6? lmao i remember being like ‘oh look a gas giant’ in my analysis of every museum of mayhem piece and COMPLETELY FORGETTING that eden-6 has a gas giant directly beside it. big brain fart there.

holy shit i love the color schemes for these things. i know there are blue ones as well, but these orange/yellow/red ones are FANTASTIC. i especially love the shiny yellow ones. they’re so pretty!!

we also get a mostly obscured window in the back there

possibly part of the abandoned facility? but more than likely just part of a crashed ship.

like (im assuming) this one!

the doors match up to Sanctuary-III quite well. also the bones on the ground. i love the regrowth aesthetic they’ve got going on here.

also apparently ratches have made their home here. these things are fuckin everywhere. they’re like the new rakk holy shit

MY BEAUTIFUL BOYS

look at the one on the bottom right! those blue markings are fuckin stunning and i love the little fins on the sides of his head

and that giant skeleton in the background? that’s some good shit right there! im hoping those are fireflies/some sort of glowing insect around the front there. so we can have pockets of glowing orbs dancing around the map as we explore.

oooo

i really like the hulls of the ships, the one on the far left and the one in the back right.

im mostly interested in this tree. i wonder if it just regrew around some debris or if this is making the stuff on this planet grow wildly out of control. I’m always down for science gone wrong! and with atlas, pretty much anything could go horribly wrong. that’s just their way of doing things.

anyway it is 4 in the am and i am tired, so im gonna pass tf out now and hopefully do Fl4k’s trailer, and a few other posts i gotta catch up on, tomorrow! so hyped for fl4k info!!

[pinayelf-archive]

elves: hm mythal? solas? evanuris? no, thank you *jumps into the ocean* also alistair is king bc im a slut for king!alistair since atlantis would be isolated they'd have most of their elvhen lore maintained but have also changed as society. the tail could be one of those things, like the higher the rank more frillish the tail is. or they could only use the tail outside the city, like the city could be in a magic airbubble or something (and alitair could visit and be like HOLY SHIT)

Someone: So your solution...was the just fuck off in the ocean?

Elven mermaid citizen: Yes

Okay an air bubble sounds cool and definitely something ancient elves would think of, but I for some reason can’t get over the idea of Alistair swimming down there like this to see the city jdisji

[dasmutquisition]

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Request 1

Alistair/Zevran Arainai

Fanart

Fanfiction

Alistair/Zevran:

Uuuuuugh love the experience gap here and oblivious boys being oblivious. Generally no preference on topping except wrt specific prompts (see below). Background Warden/Leliana very optional but very welcome!!

- Sex friends to lovers: Zevran offers to teach Alistair on the ways of sex/seduction (knowing that Alistar is pining after the Warden, probably male Warden in this case). Zevran is either already pining + oblivious or grows to really love Alistair, but thinks that he can't make a move on his feelings. Vanilla sex sliding into kinkier stuff ;) Can be modern AU. - Fluff and angst: Zevran is sexually experienced but romantically inexperienced (at least, he's not familiar with being pursued and loved/cherished). When Alistair begins awkwardly wooing him and treating him like something precious, Zevran finds himself panicking. - Established relationship + Position switching: Zevran has past sexual trauma and refuses to top (he thinks that he's hurting his partner), Alistair somehow finds the emotional maturity to talk him through that - A/B/O AU: leaning towards Alpha Alistair (born to lead! just hates it on a personal level!) and Omega Zevran (uses his wiles to his advantage, holds some resentment for Alistair refusing to make the most of the advantages he was born with), but can recast if you'd like!! Would LOVE some world-building with this, but pure smut will be also adored. - Size queen Zevran: Part of the reason why Alistair is a virgin is bc he's just .... too big. Zevran gets a peek and starts slowly obsessing. Bonus for Zevran working his way up w sex toys, and Alistair overhearing ;)

FANART PROMPTS: size queen Zevran, Alistair's first time bottoming, Zevran riding Alistair while wearing his Crow armor (that adorable skirt .....), Zevran blowing Alitair.

Letter http://silverfoxflower.dreamwidth.org/20181.html

Request 2

Zevran Arainai/Female Tabris

Fanart

Fanfiction

I think they'd have a ton in common with regards to their shared experiences, both being elves and (if you're using Ariel @ https://silverfoxflower.dreamwidth.org/16514.html) assassins with past trauma. Sexually, I prefer Tabris taking charge and Zevran being accommodating/happy to please her.

- Angst (with a happy ending?): Zevran wants to feel wanted. Tabris has issues showing want. They keep hooking up and not talking about their feelings even though they're both mutually pining. Zevran feels insecure that he's not good enough due to his past. Tabris feels guilty that she only brings pain/disaster to those she loves. Reaches a breaking point when one gets hurt. - Arranged marriage AU: Zevran is the man that Tabris was arranged to wed (ideally he's still a Crow). How would her backstory go differently? Bonus bonus for a gentle/hesitant consummation scene. Tabris can be virginal/inexperienced, but I'd prefer she didn't angst over it. - Oops All Kink: Tabris domming the fuck out of Zevran (see kink list above ;;) and he's intensely enthusiastic about it. Bonus for some f!Master/m!Slave roleplay since they both have capital-I Issues about that I would love to see explored. Alternately, a roleplay about how differently their "interrogation" scene could have gone ;)

FANART PROMPTS: pegging, cunnilingus, bath sex, Zevran giving Tabris a sexy massage, sex in her wedding dress

Letter http://silverfoxflower.dreamwidth.org/20181.html

Request 3

Isabela/Merrill (Dragon Age)

Fanart

Fanfiction

EXPERIENCE GAP and "kitten" ... that is mostly what I want from this pairing.

- AU where Isabela is a big bad pirate captain and Merrill is a hapless stowaway/freed slave, afraid of humans. Isabela has to protect Merrill from her rough crew while maintaining her intimidating image. - Platonic sex/love tutoring turns not-so-platonic - That dialogue in DA2 where Isabela tells Merrill that Llomerryn is a place where you "don't refuse a tumble" ... maybe Merrill gets into trouble there (or another notorious port city) and Isabela has to rescue her - Pegging (optional pun about pirates and peg-legs lol) - Isabela struggling with her feelings for Merrill, who she thinks wants different things (to put down roots, a long-term relationship) - Isabela expects Merrill to be a prim and proper virgin but Merrill, while inexperienced, turns out to be curious and enthusiastically kinky

Letter http://silverfoxflower.dreamwidth.org/20181.html

Request 4

Fenris/Male Hawke (Dragon Age)

Anders/Fenris/Male Hawke (Dragon Age)

Anders/Fenris (Dragon Age)

Fanart

Fanfiction

I play my Hawke as a warrior, who responds to earnestness with sincerity, but is sarcastic to people who piss him off (rarely aggressive). He's a freedom-oriented person, so winds up taking a liberal/moderate position with regards to mages, that they deserve freedom from the Circle unless they consort with demons.

With all of these pairings I like the enemies-to-lovers vibe ... I see Anders and Hawke as fairly chill with each other but Fenris is quite spiky and hard to charm.

- AU where Fenris is an abused and resentful slave gifted to Hawke or Anders (or Hawke/Anders). Fenris expects to be starved/raped/beaten, and is suspicious when he receives kindness. - Fenris has never had any consensual sexual encounters to his memory (non-con backstory optional) and is embarrassed about his inexperience. Maybe he has some misconceptions that sex is always painful for the receiving party and so sees offering himself to Anders/Hawke as an expression of love (and is surprised at how pleasurable it all can be ... top!Fenris even ...) - Frenemies-with-benefits + agonized mutual pining to lovers - Anders uses the same techniques one would to tame a feral cat to seduce Fenris - Size difference and clothes sharing ... Fenris swamped in his lover's clothes and they are SO into it

Letter http://silverfoxflower.dreamwidth.org/20181.html

[phoenyxrising]

Phoenyx Jae Trevelyan-Araiani

Backstory for Phoenyx, my most in-depth OC for Dragon Age. She is one of the main characters in me and my friends story, The Love That Shook Thedas.

Phoenyx, Nyx for short, is the second youngest of the Trevelyan children. Born in 9:12 Dragon to Altair and Victoria Trevelyan. She was born Corvus Jay and she was to become a Templar like her brother Gawain.

The family is originally from Tevinter, but Altair's father was the Teyrn; ruler of Ostwick. When he passed away, Altair was the heir and took his place as Teyrn. At the time, only Callum and Raven, the first set of twins in the family, were born. After the Twins, came Gawain, then Circe and Corvus, then Aya.

He grew up between two girls, his older (by a few minutes) twin sister Circe and younger sister Aya. Raven, his eldest sister, was already in the Circle when she was born. And his brothers, Gawain and Callum were never home as well, due to one being a Templar and the other the Trevelyan Heir: he was always with their father. They all never had time to play with him.

Before Circe got sent to the Circle, he and his sisters always played dress up, but Corvusliked to wear the dresses a lot more than the other two. His sisters never thought this was a problem and they kept playing, until Altair found them one day and scolded Corvus. He wasn’t allowed to play with his sisters anymore after that. Corvus was only 6. Altair began to teach and train him for the templars despite them stating he would be better off as Brother in the Chantry.

Corvus had to sneak around the fact he never stopped liking wearing dresses and acting like a girl. He would attempt to let his hair grow long but his father would immediately have it chopped off if it reached his jawline. It wasn’t until his 13th birthday that he told his parents that he no longer wanted to be Corvus and that he wanted to be a girl. His father was furious, blaming his first cousin, Dorian, who had recently revealed to his parents that he liked men. (The two were inseparable everytime Victoria’s sister, Aquinea, visited.) Victoria and Alitair were no longer married at this point in time. But they lived together to keep appearances up. When Corvus tells his parents about being a girl, his mother is somewhat accepting but his father downright kicks him out.

Altair doesn't disown him in hopes he’ll come around, but kicks him out with nothing. His second to eldest brother, Gwain, finds this out, does not care about him wanting to be a woman (he himself is a closested gay) and gives him a hefty sum of gold to help Corvus on him travels. Corvus had enough knowledge and skill with a blade to survive on his own.

She was on her own for almost a year until she had made her way to Antiva where she ran into Zervan, a member of the Crows, by trying to steal his coin purse. He liked her spark and took her to the Crow’s headquarters, training her personally. The Crows protested heavily, only training children from a young age. But Zevran persisted and they begrudgingly approved. She went by Cory for years, unsure of what to actually call herself now that she was her own person. It wasn’t until she was made to fight another master to prove her worth. She fell into a fire pit and came out almost untouched, did Zevran give her the name she was meant to have, Phoenyx. Like the mythical firebird, Corvus was reborn that day.

Phoenyx quickly rose through the ranks over the years, making a name for herself. She became a feared assassin in Thedas being at Zevran’s side. Once the 5th Blight hit, Zevran was contracted to kill the remaining Grey Wardens in Ferelden. He asked her to accompany him on the trip but then left her in Denerim while he went to make the kill, with orders to return home if he didn’t come back to Denerim in 5 months time. Those 5 months passed, but she waited a little longer. One day, he showed up in Denerim with the Warden and his party. Phoenyx was not shocked by this in the slightest. Warden Surana offered to help with a list of small tasks that Phoenyx had received while they were in Denerim.

After the Blight was defeated, Zevran and Phoenyx returned home, with a fire in their eyes to take out the leadership of the Crows. With the information they learned from Taliesin before his betrayal, they went to Guili Arainai, who was the head of the Arainai house and 8th Talon. They formulated a plan and put it into motion over the course of the next 10 years.

At some point, the Crows received a contract to kill one Knight-Commander Meredith Stannard in Kirkwall. Phoenyx agreed to the contract, and set sail. She spent more time there than planned, but when she arrived she was not aware of the rebellion being as far along as it was. She had to run reconnaissance before formulating a plan. A plan that never went into motion. However, during her recon, she encounters Raleigh Samson abusing and tormenting Cullen Rutherford over something. Cullen finds him smuggling letters. Cullen threatens to turn him in and Samson punches him. Phoenyx not taking kindly to people being beaten, she jumps between the two. Kicking Samson’s ass before fleeing into the night. Their eyes briefly meet before she takes off. The rebellion went full swing when the mage Anders blew up the Chantry. She felt obliged to help the Hawks. At the end, the Hawks thanked her and she immediately left town.

*Come 9:38 Dragon, Phoenyx was the happiest she'd been in her life. She had found who she thought to be her life partner, Illario Dellamorte, a few years back, she was almost at Talon status, somewhere she thought she'd never be. She had finally found her family. 

Though Illario decided one day he wanted nothing to do with her. He said many things to her, but the one that stuck is that she'd never be a real woman. Phoenyx took a downward spiral. She knew he was right. But she had heard of people using blood magic to change themselves before. 

So, she found a shady mage who had the abilities she desired. The spell almost worked but it ultimately failed. She was left with male genitalia, but she had a small chest and her body and face shape was more womanly. Phoenyx was however left gravely injured from the process and had to take 4 months to recover. Zevran was the one to find her in The Weyrs.*

The plan to take down the leadership of the Crows went smoothly after that and Zevran was the choice to become first Talon. One last contract for Phoenyx came before she was meant to take her position as second Talon, and that was to assassinate Chancellor Roderick Asignon at the Conclave.

(Anything added inbetween asterisks * are new things that I have forgotten to add) If you have any questions about Phoenyx please feel free to DM me whether on here or discord (info found in me+rules)

[wrdn-tabris]

post dao/awakening alitair/kan makes me REALLY emotional bc for the time being theyre apart. hes got th dog w/ him bc it makes kanya feel better tht theyre together. n kans just! alone! at amaranthine with this new role both as warden commander and like! arlessa! and she hates government! and having anything to do with that she just misses her boyfriend and her dog and then everything goes to sHIT

and I JUST. GET EMOTIONAL!