eventually you have to sit down, look inside, and realize that the things that you have been waiting on are not going to happen. there was always this feeling that eventually something would come, somehow, someone, somewhere would come into being. but life hasn't materialized that way because it was never practical. it was never reality. it was pure fantasy. and this hard lump lodged in the base of your stomach was placed there by you yourself. you are guilty of externalizing your happiness. of externalizing the end point you're working towards. this is the life, this is the journey. its just you and its been you all along.
HOLD STILL
HOLD STILL
hiders
seeker
harvest the starving
they are everywhere
no eyes given to rust
no face given to the valueless
(what to do, exchange the few?)
all we ask you see?
hold still
parted ways lies
faded leather ties
it said:
We are here to train you
Unfortunate change
Unfortunately we had to chain.
It's the only way ÷it÷ knew
As a child too, choosing to continue the course.
Its face was filthy
And ÷it forced it upon me
It forced it upon me.
a home in vein
you said I suffer myself so you don't have to
what good then is my humility
at least about a humanity
for extra credit
give us sanity.
Please.
we bought you
we buy you
I beg you
PLEASE
- HaQ
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I tried for so long to fit into the crowd. Be whatever I was supposed to be for appearance sake. And then, I hit a wall. As if my body was suddenly rejecting this persona like a transplanted organ. That part of me had to die. Except it sometimes re-appears around certain people and the after math leaves me feeling as if I’ve poisoned and betrayed myself. This out of body experience that leaves me feeling like an alien in this place.