#alchoholism

[mayapapaya33]

I hope in the animated mighty nein show they keep Nott repeatedly endangering/ killing Caduseus with her recklessness with the exploding arrows (or at least have the one big moment). I also hope they do a bit more with it in the show, like some sort of mild confrontation about her behavior. Idk, Caduceus is so kind, maybe there could be slightly more emphasis on it considering she LITERALLY KILLED HIM lmfao. (C2 E55 4:03:40)

Maybe one of the others could be like wtf? You killed Caduceus! holy shit! And then the two of them could have a nice chat like they did when Taliesin got back (I so wish he hadn't been absent that next episode, but it is what it is). Percy got punched in the face by Vax for forgetting to check for traps, which accidentally killed Vex, which they very much amped up for the animation into him coaxing her into being reckless. Veth ACTIVELY exploded Caduceus to death because she wasn't paying attention to where she aimed or collateral damage radius to her weapon! They've gotta play with that!

It can also set up a pattern of recklessness that pays off in the fact that she very much got herself killed fucking around dismantling deadly traps. I don't remember if she was drunk or nott; C2 E83 (3:19:15) AND how later on her and Jester being loud and reckless endangered her both their friends and families and got Veth's son killed. I'm not still salty about C2 E129 no siree, I'm not still irritated that Veth and Jester couldn't sit still for 10 fucking minutes to let Caleb cast the dome, nope, not me lmfao. (Speaking of life lessons I hope they emphasize a little harder in the animated show, Marion and Yeza are waaaaaay too nice hahaha. Also they didn't really know it was 100% Jester and Veth's fault but I digress). Combined with her arc about alcoholism and self worth I can see a really great storyline. Those are very strong, interesting themes to write about.

Maybe she goes on a mini bender out of guilt for hurting Caduceus after or something, or just some actual conversations between the characters about it, anything really to have it in the narrative. That death is when he gets his first in campaign major vision from the Wildmother as well, so that would be very interesting to see. Especially if they manage to preserve the blink and you miss it information buried in a beautiful conversation with his sister later on that he used to eat lilies (which are poisonous plants irl) to try to talk to the Wildmother when he was all alone. Campaign 2, Episode 130 (2:37:32) The subtle tragedy of his loneliness and isolated devotion are so slept on sometimes so I really hope it's addressed more.

They said they were changing things; that's one of the things I hope gets fleshed out a bit more. Taliesin really played support for most of C2 and he did it wonderfully, but I hope they take the opportunity to bring some of his more subtle character journey to the forefront for the show.

[astralfandoms]

Father's Day Headcanons

we were thinking about the different managers/bosses and how they interact with their fathers so let's gooo

Duck Shuffler: Has no memory of what his father was like because orphan so is honestly just confused about the hype around it. Usually hangs out with Graham, Dave, and Flint during the day.

Prethinker: Has an awful relationship with his father so is extremely hostile/hates people who have a good relationship with theirs (ex. Cosmo, Cathal)

Derrick Man: Has a lukewarm relationship with his father so calls for formality's sake but doesn't do anything otherwise.

Rainmaker: Has a single mother whose father was never there so never celebrated

Deep Diver: Has two mothers so never celebrated Father's Day

Land Acquisition Architect: Has two fathers who he loves very much and they love him back lots so he goes to visit them every year.

Gatekeeper: Her father is on thin ice and will go dinner with him but will be in a bad mood for the rest of the day (usually solved with sparring)

Witch Hunter: Likes his father but never visits him due to his poor relationship with his mother so just handwrites and sends a card.

Public Relations Representative: Parents are long dead and doesn't talk about it unless pressed (usually in the form of riddles).

Bellringer: Laments the fact that he has a bad relationship with his father but tries not to be too bitter about others having a good relationship with theirs. Keyword: tries.

Multislacker: Usually spends half of the day with either dad before they have a family dinner together at the end of the day.

Senior Vice President: Is the father! Spoils his husband rotten in an effort to not think of his own father.

Mouthpiece: Spends the whole day with her husband and kids, spoiling her husband so that he doesn't have to do anything strenuous the whole day. Usually is too distracted by her kids and husband to think about her not-too-great father.

Major Player: Has a great relationship with his dad and usually has a family brunch with his father and then chills with Buck, Graham, and Flint for the rest of the day.

Chief Financial Officer - Buys things to cope with the fact that he hates his parents and his parents hate him the same.

Firestarter - Has a bad relationship with his father due to him being unaccepting of who Flint is. Usually spends the day with Graham, Buck, and Dave to keep his mind off of it, though.

Plutocrat: Usually is too busy to visit his fathers but usually calls and has gifts delivered to his parents' house because they have a pretty good relationship.

Chief Legal Officer: Has a cordial lunch with her father but otherwise doesn't do anything for Father's Day due to her uneasy relationship with him.

Treekiller: Has a great relationship with his parents and usually drags Chip to go see them (his parents also love Chip).

Chainsaw Consultant: Doesn't have a good relationship with his own father so usually goes to see Spruce's instead.

Chief Executive Officer: Drinking. Lots and lots of drinking to forget.

Featherbedder: Visits parents' and husband's graves with his children and grandkids. Otherwise just burns a candle in remembrance of them.

Pacesetter: Blocked his parents out of his memory so just doesn't have many feelings about his father. Tends to hang around Buck, Dave, and Flint during the day to help cheer Flint up.

[madame-helen]

[tea-and-secrets]

My moms an alcoholic and I feel terrible because she’s been sober for a month but I still hate her and think she’ll relapse. I can’t shake off all the things she’s done while drunk she gets violent but police don’t do shit cause she’s a white woman

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[thenumberfives]

take a swig for all the foamstars out there

[schmedterlingfreud]

🏥🩹🍶🍲🖌📓

膵臓がこわれたら、少し生きやすくなりました • My Pancreas Broke But My Life Got Better by Kabi Nagata

[sunbugg]

How Iifes been feeling

[bananitryithegoatman]

[glassheartstonesoul]

the way westerners demonize cigarettes but will drink themselves into an early grave like bitch ??? both are bad for u

[timetravelingthroughspace]

I see now that I was the monster.

I don’t know how to fix that. Fix the past, or assure anyone, or free them of the negativity of all that.

I know only that more self-reflection is necessary to fix me.

There is in me a very hurt, paranoid, manipulative, controlling, insecure, hateful person.

I don’t know what all underlies that. Why I’ve felt that way. I only know that feeling those things isn’t what I wanted.

So I disassociated. Disavowed.

I think alcoholism at some point became the means by which I could “safely” feel those things. I could feel them and forget them.

That seems correct, anyway. It’s difficult to be sure, I just know that the voice of those feelings would speak and write to others in my most blacked out states.

The things I didn’t want to feel I made others feel.

Hangovers were a kind of shell, protection from feeling and recognizing what I’d done.

Unable to recognize what I’d done because doing so threatened to reveal to me what I didn’t wish to feel.

But now I see how that made the world close in around me. I was more in control than I realized. I was the monster terrorizing me.

I hope this is the last time death drives me.

No more psychonautical psychodrama.

No more projection.

I’m so very sorry.

I’m so much closer now than I ever have been.

I hope I won’t fail again.

[vividviolence]

mfw the cool sideblog name I thought up is taken by some inactive account with zero fucking posts

[bigfuckingcrab]

Gonna be streaming at 11PM PDT so for any other late night FREAKS out there

Come watch me drink myself to death 🤣🔥🌿🚬✝️🙌

[remembertheplunge]

March 22, 1995 10:20pm

“John Roster called. “You been drinking, Lewey? You don’t want to end up like me. Two drinking driving convictions. That was a warning Call. He almost convinced me to quit drinking again. I feel physically jammed and achy now as a result of booze, caffeine and work hell. How can I ignore a fellow human’s call in the rainy night? John  said “I know you, because I know me.” Interesting he knows it’s ok to call this late on a rainy night. How did he know it’s ok? Why did I feel warmth at his call?

“A set up to drink” he called my impending San Diego journey. I said “the magic is out of the drink for me.”  He replied “There is no magic in the drink. I grow fatter with each swallow.”

I said “I’m trying to figure out my life.” He said “Don’t stay out too long. I knew it wouldn’t be easy for you.  Why did you go out?" Me “because Sunday was brutal emotionally.”

Monday March 27, 1995

I feel pretty beaten up by alcohol  just now. Good talk with John Roster this evening.. we talked of symbols. Symbolic living to express meaning.  Espresso equals meaning. Martini equals symbol. Probably would feel much peace if I just let go.

End of entries

Note

“Going out” meant to start drinking again. —————————————————————————————————————————

Some thoughts can ritual and symbol:

I believe that the body needs ritual and symbol.

Drinking involves the ritual of the drink along with the symbols of the glass and the bottle. If you can substitute another form of ritual and symbols, the body will release you from alcohol, The body’s need for ritual and symbol having been satisfied. The gym involves ritual and symbol. The ritual of the movement and the symbol of the weight. I drank and trained until finally the drinking left and the training thrived.  My body was satisfied with the ritual and symbol of the gym and it released me from needing to drink alcohol.

[edgytransgirlusername]

Day 500 without a drink

[locusfandomtime]

compilation of all the iconic insane mumbo jumbo posts

wanted to get them all in one place. feel free to add