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god i need therapy and to move out
#aka i need to move out#idk how much longer i can take listening to my parents just say shit and have opinions and then expect me to feel the same way#and when i disagree suddenly i’m siding with the wrong people#when quite literally i’m trying to make you understand that your thoughts are not the only thoughts to be considered#while also trying to validate their feelings but that they’re not communicating at all and are taking it out on ppl#i am so so so tired of being the constant middleman between my family members and ultimately having to hear everyone say shit abt everyone#and expect me to immediately agree or understand#like girlies you can all be wrong and you all are and the fact that you aren’t willing to admit your wrongdoings is your first problem#your second was expecting me to hype you up and encourage your behavior#having to constantly remind myself that it’s not my responsibility to keep the peace or to solve my familial issues#and the one time i tried to explain this it was met with ‘no one’s asking you to’#which is true !!! but then why are ALL OF YOU complaining to me and only me#why are you burdening me with all of this information#and if i tell you i can’t handle it or don’t want to talk about it i’m suddenly the bad guy too#i can’t win here your honor !!! the only solution in which i win is to get OUT#and of course i can’t make anyone say or do or believe anything#i’m not naive enough to think i can#but sitting there silent isn’t helping and speaking doesn’t either and there’s no other good solution#it’s just exhausting
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bird in her gilded cage 💙🪽
#ref/pose is the vogue italia cover from nov 2005 by bruce weber#i realized as i was drawing this that it turned out super similar to the last painting i did of them (the kiss) BAHAH oop#just in a different font#what can i say... i just have a tried and true dynamic/cliche that i like LOL#aka super sane fictional men who just want to keep a girl all to themselves (and also to keep them safe) no red flags here move along#hogwarts legacy#sebastian sallow#sebastian sallow x mc#sebastian sallow x oc#sebastian x mc#hogwarts legacy sebastian#choccyart#clora clemons#i painted this in black and white and then added colour afterwards and o my god it was such a pain NEVER AGAIN!!!#i was so stressed bc i liked how i painted it but i was like WHENEVER I TRY TO ADD COLOUR IT SUCKSSSS#idk how some artists paint so well by adding colour later but i SUCK at it... i need to paint in colour from the very start#lesson learned#thank god for gradients they saved me BAHAHA#i still dont know if im happy with this but i am done looking at it
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not to be that person but fuck
n don’t get me wrong I love smut as much as the next person but I cannot stand meaningless smut. With no substance just mindless sex with no passion or any ounce of affection attached to it. No buildup, no pining, no tension so thick it’s palpable no “fuck why are these jeans glued on” no “clumsiness or characters being awkward because sex is awkward sometimes and intimidating” no characterisation, character development or poking fun in a lighthearted way because
“dino boxers really?”
the way they’d be so unapologetic about it too maybe not even vocal but the look that fucking look that screams “yeah? n what you’re gonna do about it?” or maybe they’re flustered but that’s hot either way because it’s them, it’s their quirk
It’s the little details
The vulnerability? The insecurities—trying something new but being afraid to cross or plunge into unknown territories
but it’s their touch—guidance—that unspoken “you’re safe with me”
Subtle hotness/intimacy man
But yeah sex sells. Let’s be real. It’s a cheap way to get views especially when not mindful of how characters would react in such situations
#ellie williams x reader#ellie x reader#ellie williams imagine#tlou ellie#that girl smokes an expired old joint ONCE and y’all think she’s some kind of sex God😭#no but she would in fact wear dino boxers#I don’t think Ellie would engage in random hook up culture either bro she’s a LOSER LESBIAN#shes the queen of self deprecation needs encouragement or social cues before making the first move aka weed scene#only then does all HELL break lose#no but the way Dina pulled away for a split sec…mid making out bc she just ignited a beast
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The official Mclaren account adding fuel to the fire... disgusting
#oscar's one of my faves but im so done with the team#the last thing this needs is the official f1 team instigating more shit#I gave lando a pass cuz he's fuelled up aft the race (+ yk how dumb f1 media qns can be) but the team is being so obnoxious#friendly reminder who was alonso's engineer in 2010 🙄#who said the dumbest things aft the race whr alonso lost the wdc#max verstappen#lando norris#austrian gp 2024#mclaren#aka#clowns#don't even try to compare it to rbr knives meme post#rbr is poking fun at themselves (rightfully so- this mclaren post only goes on to prove their pt)#while mclaren is still trying blow the incident out of proportion#be so fr it wasn't even the worst incident in that race#compared to previous instances at T3 there was a lot more room#we see contact in races all the time it was just that this time both cars unfortunately came away with a puncture#the irony of being a racing team yet encouraging a smear campaign the moment some actual racing happens#both were going at it be so fr#max alr got penalised MOVE ON
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So uh. MelDan ammirite? This (kinda) blew up on Insta and other socmed I use so ig I'mma upload this here too lol
It started as a crackship (and it's still is, I kinda like to jokingly them imagine them pretending to like each other but actually wanting to skin each other alive, a little ooc for both of them, but it's mostly just for fun) but rn I'm exploring the potential ""relationship"" through a more angsty lense.
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#hpma oc#hpma daniel#my art#magic awakened#daniel page#melly anderson#melly anscombe#OK SO#I think that there's many different ways these two could “work”#I could go with a safe route aka transfem!Daniel x Melly all cute and sweet#OOOOR I could make it angsty and potentially one sided#my current idea? Daniel knows Mel is a metamorphmagus and wants her to tell him who she really is#but Mel ofc doesn't really want that for many reasons#she doesn't feel comfortable sharing who she really is bc she doesn't want people to know the real her in general#if she tells Dan he'd pry more and he'd discover WHY she's pretending to be Melly and that's a no no#this frustrates Daniel to no end he's not even sure if Mel even likes him back sometimes#Mel feels bad for deceiving Daniel snd wants to be honest w him but she can't#although I do have somewhat of an idea why Mel would get involved w him like this I'm still trying to figure it out#(she's probably having a comphet phase + she feels lonely af and needs a distraction from everything + to move on from Melissa and Cass)#and maybe also Ivy? she avoids her several reasons despite feeling heartbroken to do so#real question is tho what does Dan even see in her lol#that's def smth I gotta think about lol#but yeah. it's not canon to any of my current universes it's just for some mindless fun
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crying and sobbing at the downgrade in depth illario got between the wigmaker job and veilguard
#:V#datv#da#dragon age#illario dellamorte#spoilers#its such bs!!!! in wigmaker illario CARES for lucanis. hes annoyed at his heroism yes. but he wants luc to be safe#see: him touching lucanis' arm to calm him down. and asking if he needs a healer once they meet up after the jobs done#AND. lucanis respects illario. he literally says its illarios calling to be first talon#and even if caterina picks lucanis they both hope that she ''sees reason'' eventually aka decides illario is a better fit#i truly do wonder what made illario do such a heel turn that hed want to kill lucanis...#HONESTLY. i think a better plot would just involve illario selling out caterina to the venatori so he can move in as first talon#he'd still be a traitor but in a way that makes sense#maybe once luc starts snooping illario gets desperate#but looking at wigmaker illario i just cant see him wanting to kill lucanis#anyway sorry for this rant i dont call myself the illario defense lawyer for nothing
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couldn't reason with the underdog. once you've been it then you'll always be one, looking around the arena thinking "i'm just like you."
#io laithe#endwalker spoilers#ffxiv#azia gposes#THE PAIN I WENT THROUGH#first of all i had to load into this and the tanks were new so we wiped on the lb3 part#then once they left i had 10 minutes to set this up and take it#had to change shinryu into endsinger and move that big bitch#and the posing and lighting and shader UGH misery#and i lost her head dot because her skeleton is an eldritch horror so i couldn't make her look more at io but here we are!!#i just needed to get the shot out of my head#not too bad for a ten minute gpose with an ancient horror aka little girl
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☎️🎲 🤼♂️ ✈️🚪 ➡️ 🫀🎮⌛️
The Promise by When In Rome
previous ⏪ now playing ⏩ next back to playlist
#byler#stranger things#bizarre love triangle playlist#mike wheeler#mike's pov#this song has so much going on i don't even know where to start#'when you need a friend don't look to a stranger. you know in the end i'll always be there'#feels very reminiscent of mike's insecurity at the end of s3 about will finding another party aka new friends aka a new best friend#angela might not have been who mike thought she was but that insecurity that will moved on from the party (mike) is still present#mostly because mike still doesn't know about will's true life in lenora (probably too scared to find out will is happier outside of hawkins#and so he wants to make clear to will that he's always going to be there#'and when you're in doubt. and when you're in danger. take a look all around. and i'll be there'#pretty self explanatory.#'when your day is through. and so is your temper. you know what to do. i'm gonna always be there'#even if will breaks down (s3/s4) and tells mike everything that he's feeling and it backfires#mike is always going to try to make it right (minus s3 blatantly... for angsty endgame reasons...)#'i'm sorry but i'm just thinking of the right words to say. i know they don't sound the way i planned them to be'#mike may not be the best with words in the moment#but that doesn't mean what he's feeling and thinking is foreign to him#he's constantly battling his feelings and how to communicate them. like that's the whole problem in and of itself#sometimes (usually) when mike's put on the spot he lashes out and then he has to overcorrect it#but will is really the one that mike makes the effort right after wronging him to promise they will get through it together#he might not be able to fully realize (accept) the implications of that right now...#but what the promise is telling us is is that no matter what they go through#mike will always see will in his future at the end of all of this#the ending of s3 was the promise hidden in the subtext of their friendship and s4 continues that#'i promise you. i promise you i will'#'we will. we will.'#4x04#gif
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can't post about this where the guy im crazy over or whatever can see it but man hey <- on his third drink kind of crazy that i really did think like wow im never gonna recover from the horrible things this guy did to me and he's gonna fuck with me forever cuz he's like or whatever only to realize hm no actually i Can actually decide to just. get better. and ignore that shit and live my own life and find people who actually care abt me and aren't like yk abusing me to get their rocks off or whatever... crazy...
#be not afraid#im nicer now and happier#and im not banned from a thrme park for threatening to kill people so thats somwthing right#coming up on 1 year since moving out aka the nest decision and probably the only reason im not out here with stab wound scars or smthn#never date a mf whos entire personality is being mean on tumblr and lying about heing popular man.#i love my friends i need to put them in my little ptri doshes forever and i#unfortunatelt am kinda down bad for this giy huh#qoke up to just#one of the nicest messages ive ever received out of nowhere and was liek oh so thats what its supposed to be like#not the#yk#isolating you from ur friends or choking u or getting u fucked up enoufh to pass 9ut#thank god
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TUMBLR'S FAVOURITE TOKYO REV CHARACTER ROUND 1 BONUS ROUND: RESURRECTION!
There are two extra spots up for grabs in round 2 so to fill them I've gathered the 10 character's who lost the first round by the least during their match ups, vote for your favourite and the top 2 will advance to round 2, it's a second chance!
#tokyo revengers#tokrev#tokyo rev#aka the plot twist round#it's only because we need a certain number of characters to make this flow properly and i could've added characters like#Mikey's parents and others but i thought this would be more fun and includes characters people are more passionate about#how many of you are doing mental gymnastics rn though? trying to figure out if your fav would have enough so you can vote#for your 2nd fav????#btw if either place draws then it'll be up to wheel to decide#After this we'll wait 24 hours then I'll post the results to all of the first round polls then we'll move on to the second#oh and just to make this clear this is the only round this is being done on they'll be no need for second chances after this
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skitters around like a beast. Hii ❤️ok im going 2 go ramble in the tags now👍
#are there any cane user jou enjoyers around !!#getting struck by lightning and then almost burned alive by a god all in One tournaments finals is kindof a lot .so I think itd be nice for#him 2 have one ^-^#ok more artists notes .standard poking fun at kaiba .he hates when his hair is too long (sensory issue) but he hates the hairdressers even#more (worlds most sensitive scalp. And touch issues with strangers. aka now im just talking abt me here)#solution: mokuba cuts his hair. this has taken many Many years of trial and error (see: the green hair era)#and lastly bakura ! he makes me want to gnaw on wood. i actually really liked how this doodle turned out tho I might turn it into a full#piece hmmm#also I thought it was so funny how they censored his move spelling out death by changing it to final .girl that sucks 💀#go play wordle find a better 5 letter word .not that I can think of a better one off the top of my head tho……#i mean he is already using a whole ouija board at this point is it even worth trying to censor#BUT YEA anyways. I need to draw more gx and 5ds stuff#honestly. I would not mind at all if ppl sent in requests so I could practice drawing diff characters#no promise ill actually get to them tho T-T sorry .my willpower is very fickle#kat post#jounouchi katsuya#joey wheeler#seto kaiba#bakura#ryou bakura#yami bakura#ygo#yugioh#yugioh fanart#art :3
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oh man today has not been a good day lmao
#I stay silly!!!#but what the fuck!!!#I wake up after having weird dreams#idk what drawfee and chappell roan and a party have to do with anything#but okay???#I had trouble getting to sleep too#and ugh#anyway!! I wake up and immediately my neck and shoulders hurt way more than they usually do#for some reason I decide laying my head in a weird way is an okay thing to do in response to that#except it totally isn’t because when I tried to get up it made it worse#like I literally couldn’t move#I was very close to tears about it#very close#and then once that settles I have to do dishes#which is just… it’s fine but it’s not a task I like doing especially when I’m already feeling like shit#and then my plan/timeline gets thrown off bc my mom decides to clean the drains#and so then dyeing yarn gets delayed#(the black yarn I need for this commission wasn’t black enough)#but only by like half an hour so fine whatever#I dye the yarn and that went kinda fucky#like it worked but it was finicky and i got shit tangled at one point#but again! I got it sorted and it all turned out okay!!#but that took a couple hours to untangle shit and rewind it only to unwind it again and then blow dry it#aka way fucking longer than I wanted#and then I finally finish crocheting one out of two of the things#and I hate it. tried something new and it didn’t work and so I had to frog it#and ideally I’d have this done by Wednesday but idk man#I didn’t dye enough yarn either so I’m gonna have to do that tomorrow#and I also don’t have enough t-shirt scraps to use as stuffing#ALL THE WHILE MY STUPID NECK AND SHOULDERS STILL HURT!!!!
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today has been shit, i feel awful & have a really bad headache. but I need to prepare for my appointment to discuss my thesis on Thursday. because I'm getting a covid booster tomorrow so I'll probably not feel great the rest of the day.
so now it's 22:00 and I feel terrible and I still have to write this crap somehow 😭
#I don't know how other people just function.#I have been trying to do this for a week and it's just. not. happened#it'll probably end up being one of those situations where my brain won't let me do the thing so I have to somehow talk my way out of the#situation (aka pretend I know what I'm talking about)#and I'm really not good at that 😭#it'd be so easy if I had just. done it. instead of.. doing nothing/other things#I hate myself :)#ugggh I should have just moved the vaccination appointment but I need to talk to my GP about one of my meds so 😭 I'd have to go in anyway#personal#posts about my thesis
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sometimes ya gotta take your sweetheart oc and turn them into something that they feel most uncomfortable with / not their usual style.
#anyways having thoughts of Shivani turned into a vampire#and i can't stop#but not really in a twc verse - cause i imagined her being turned in the 70s?#so probs she still be considered a 'baby vamp'#also have this scene in mind where she moves to a new town (in the current day) and need to find a new... sleeping chamber#aka she has to go to a funeral home and buy a coffin (without revealing herself )#which aint so easy since shes q terrible liar#how she hadnt been found out for years is somewhat a miracle#oc: shivani gupta
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Cap'n : *sigh...*
Sweet : what?
Cap'n : nothing..
Sweet : you don't like the food?
Cap'n : I love the pepper steak and mashed potatoes with wine like it's one of the classic expensive food! but ironically I miss eating rice with only sugar so much right now.
Sweet : ????@%^&!%&&*(#&(?!!?!?
#[records]#Scc#Sweet#Cap'n#only filipinos could understand this about why rice and sugar is a good meal#yeh Cap'n likes expensive stuff like he dreamed of but he miss what he used to eat too#some common humans miss the old days we used to be broke and do cheap budget but still enjoyed simple life what god has already given us#and when you reached to the point you're successful like you dreamed of. you miss those times were so simple#Brothers Blood au#<- scc are not the brothers. Mark and Seren are. the scc are also main characters here as Mark's bandmates#Cap'n could still enjoy rice from other countries but he'd love it more when it's imported from the Philippines itself#sadly Cap'n doesn't know how to cook so he needed K_K and Sweet's help for it (he's lucky he got his mom's recipes)#imagine he goes to every fast food chain jollibee they pass by#I want to give Cap'n some more backstories (like his dad has another family aka he has step-siblings and stepmother)#and Cap'n did all his best to get better income for himself (because his mother sadly passed away before he moved out)
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rotating possible eyrie home lore in my brain
#I’ve been thinking about how they aren’t nomadic in the truest sense but more that they move from one place to another#to follow the seasons + what the goats and sheep need#to which rotations of grazing lands#so there are permanent home structures for their village but they are used 4-5 months at a time before moving on#also thinking about how there are wood warders and then there are Wood Warders#aka the difference being those who trek far and wide to protect the land and then those that spend most of their time out in the fields#with the herds of goat and sheep#idk what makes one which I haven’t thought that far#those who watch the animals are gone for about a week at a time whereas the others are gone much much longer#I’m just rotating in my head how eyrie could have just taken care of sheep their whole life#I’m just sitting here in a hell of my own creation called the hero’s journey#I watched lotr return of the king tonight and I still big cry#anyway also if EW had gone differently or if I was committed to a certain kind of narrative#I might have done a frodo move with eyrie#too weary from the trials of the journey—forever changed and so unable to return back to life before#that the only solution is to move on. to take a rest and no longer be part of the story#at a point in post-EW it was a very tempting thought#after barbie it was really difficult and even worse after lapis when they had a sudden seizure after being okay for several months#oc: eyrie kisne#anyway done rambling GOOD NIGHT
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