#ahnhyejin

[hwasamariaonly]

[rebeccablogs]

Watch "hyejin reaction to Hwasa #mamamoo #hwasa #moomoo #ahnhyejin #fypシ" on YouTube

https://youtube.com/shorts/7UfXNUs87ZQ?si=RWbjCBmhVi4eU-6h

[mamamooincorrectquotes]

Hwasa: why is justice best served cold?

Wheein: because otherwise it would be JUSTWATER!

Solar: [hitting them with a broom] IT'S 3AM GET TF OUT OF MY HOUSE

[gabrsartsy]

fanart: wheein-ter ❄️ 

[theoldmc6106]

🌼🌼🌼 #Mamamoo #MAMAMOO #MooMoo #Moomoo #rbw #Solar #KimYongsun #Moonbyul #MoonByulyi #Wheein #JungWheein #Hwasa #AhnHyejin #fanstagram #kpop #kpoper #kpoplover #kpopfff #follow #like4like https://www.instagram.com/p/CR1ogrqjyOf/?utm_medium=tumblr

[artheadedmoo]

For Hyejin, always.

[denniezemclyon]

Hwasa - LMM

16.07.2020

I heard the piano and the violin then dropped my phone and tears started to flow. I cried and sobbed quietly cos I don't want them to hear. I badly needed this song. I've been shedding tears within these past few days everytime I let out deep words. But, those tears are out of frustration, anger, worries, shame, concern, regrets from arguments, grievances, memories, my current state and the tomorrow.

When I clicked the MV on YouTube I was excited to watch it as I'm anticipating Hyejin unnie's presence. I've heard the intro a couple of times with teasers but not the whole song. I heard rain and white noises but when the duet of the piano and violin striked followed by her voice that can move mountains, I lost it.

It resonates even though I don't understand the lyrics, it pounded in my core and coated my heart with a feeling I can't even begin to explain. I started to cry and up until I'm writing this while listening to the song, tears just won't stop. Tears that I've been so long holding back then desperately trying to let out for a while. Tears out of asking mercy, asking for help, asking for protection, asking for assurance, asking for hope.

Even there are some good things I have been doing like finishing a song after a long time, reviewing and dissecting music, volunteering, taking care of my mental health, even simply just by breathing, the condensed energy of me feeling off seems to be heavier.

That's why I have been suffering from extreme headaches lately. I didn't took any medicine for it cos I liked the pain. I liked it as much as it is miserably agonizing, I found pleasure in it.

Dark thoughts visit me. Thoughts that I don't want to explore. Thoughts I fight so hard, focusing my attention by holding on to funny videos, goin out or sitting in my room being me. Putting on my headphones and blasting loud songs to forget. Write unfinished songs and few poems as an outlet. Escape just for a while. Nevertheless, there are times it's hard to stay away and I feel angry about it and then guilty for thinking myself as weak.

I started to listen to MAMAMOO August last year and I can proudly say that it is one of the reason how I gained more confidence. Got into self-awareness, self-betterment and self-love.

I don't know how to let her know, or if anyone would see this for that matter but I wanna say that I'm genuinely, sincerely, truly grateful for the people who created this masterpiece and to Hwasa.

Even tho my vocabulary isn't that wide, there are countless more words I wish to express but I find myself running out of them to deeply convey how thankful I am to MAMAMOO. To people behind the curtains who also are collectively part as Mamamoo. To ever-loving MooMoos too! And ofc to each member as an artist, as a person and as an inspiration.

I hope Yong unnie, Byul unnie, Wheenie unnie and Hyegi unnie gets to do that as long as they can. As for me, I will work harder on myself and maybe one day. Oh no, not maybe..

One day, I will get to do that too. Make a difference. Give hope even just for a moment.

Take care. Stay safe. And be kind.

[misulstudios]

Mamamoo Gogobebe!

Other than the portraits I did way back, I hadn’t done any other fanart for Mamamoo. Gogobebe really inspired me to draw fanart for them again. The MV was crazy and i loved all the different fashion. This background and these outfits were so *clean and crisp* I had to do something for it. 

Original date: 08April2019

[dfangurlinme]

MAMAMOO THOUGHTS: Dark Side of the Moon

I remember liking fifth harmony and started getting into the loop of things back then. It was my first time liking something that was in a group format. I remember struggling with t he thought of how would I like every member of the group when Lauren was my personal preference. I always feel that whenever I give Lauren more attention than the others I feel like I’m betraying the other member and the group. In that moment I realize the complexity of liking a group.

 How would you strike the balance of liking each and every member and how you’ll provide your attention to each of them equally, hence when the group broke up I had that feeling that because of having preference in a group is what cause the imbalance and tension on the group image. My preference gave me the opportunity to actually focus on one member and gave my attention to them far more than the other. Yes I liked one member over the other but I try to ensure to support the other activity and take away the lingering feeling of envy over the other members.

 When I finally realize that fifth harmony’s longevity is in the hands of the OT5 it was already too late. Solo stan was everywhere and the music industry is still a business and saw that Camila Cabello is their road to a much bigger revenue; ripping apart the OT5 I loved the most. After Camila left I distance myself to 5H and vowed to never follow any group ever again as it is problematic.

 Then I was introduced to MAMAMOO, I enjoyed their song then I tried to stop myself on liking them because the thought of following a group who might break up again because of personal preference of other people and not being able to support the balance that’s hard to achieve was already over bearing yet MAMAMOO charmed me. I found myself being shell shocked because of how powerful Hwasa is, how captivating Solar is, how tender Wheein, and how amazing Moonbyul is.

 I may have started following MAMAMOO because of their skills but they make you fall in love with them because of their personality. As I learn I started finding a connection to Moonbyul, she was the person I wish I could be. It started because of superficial reason such as her fashion and mannerism but Moonbyul strive for balance the same way I hoped for equality. Yes, I am part of the LGBTQAI+ community yet beyond it I always wanted to be sure of who I am without questioning how others see me. Moonbyul knows who she is and she is able to accept herself and is able to look and see a bright future ahead of her. MAMAMOO is a confident group, no doubt about it, but for me I hope to be proud of myself the same way Moonbyul express herself. I want to walk outside with my suit and tie someday and feel that I really am the person wearing it and hoping that person is finally walking to something worth doing.

 When I learned that RBW already place the plan of making each member a soloist I knew from that moment that Moonbyul will have the hardest journey to take. Moonbyul strives for equality her battle is about acceptance of an idea. One thing is battling a superficial aspect of the culture but battling a standard which is questioned around the world is already a much bigger battle on its own.

 When I was specifically learning about the group I started learning first about Hwasa because when I saw their Good Luck performance I immediately associated her to be the Beyonce of the Destiny’s Child or the Jerry of Spice Girls. Then I got to know Solar and Wheein who I immediately tagged as triple threat of the group. I refrain from learning about Moonbyul because I knew from that style of her that she’ll be my favorite and I’ll start to feel sorry for her because she will take the hardest route among all of them.

 I maybe feeling this way because is some ways I knew how it feels to hope that the people around me would see me rather than my preference. I want the world to see Moonbyul beyond her style and mannerism. The thing is, women are firstly judged by their superficial characteristic such as looks and fashion.

 Moonbyul currently has a niche market; outside the fandom, her image is something that questions the already existing norm of gender. Gender is something that is highly debatable in the world; hence a woman who is deemed lesser by men due to societal belief; then inject that woman who see herself outside the realm of the usual femininity. Moonbyul is MAMAMOO’s real anomaly. She stands out and whatever she does she will standout.

 Moonbyul’s career has a long way to go and RBW seems to having trouble about it as well. Moonbyul is not the easiest to be marketed. How can you market a woman who’s charisma attracts women that would not hurt men’s ego learning that if she wants too she can actually make other women looks her way. How can you market a woman who seems to be more visually compatible with other women? How can you market a woman who specializes in taking other women without pissing other men?

 Ellen DeGeneres became the icon that she is today because she believed that being herself will lead her to her success. She made it on top because she was just herself and when the world realizes that she is more than her preference then the world see beyond it.

Selfish and In my room are experiments to see how Moonbyul can be launch in the general public where she would not be covered by her members. The real beginning of Moonbyul’s battle as an artist and as a soloist is when they allowed her to release Dark Side of the Moon. The album is what Moonbyul is. She showed that she has so much more in her.

 When I watched the teasers as it comes out, I already predicted its mediocre performance compared to her other member’s release. Moonbyul whole heartedly showed who she is and that was what Dark Side of the Moon’s purpose is in my opinion. It’s not to win music show, break records or sales. Dark Side of the Moon is the actual start of Moonbyul’s road of carving her stamp as one of the faces of androgyny for KPOP idols. If she really do believe that there should be more awareness of the fact that there are still more expression such as hers that needs to be put forth then she will continue to the journey of what Dark Side of the Moon started.

 There are many idols who have done androgynous style for sure but I think it still needs to be explored more given that androgyny by itself is a hard expression to present. Nothing can ever present this self view easier than a person who sees herself as someone in that realm. A lot more work is to be done but I hope Moonbyul would not stop until her vision becomes reality.

 Androgyny is a niche market hence if Moonbyul will continue this route then I have to prepare myself for a journey of pain and disappointment because the world may be getting better at accepting the idea but its progress is still at its infancy hence I would expect Moonbyul to experience more hurdles before achieving this vision of hers but if her vision comes true then a legacy is waiting for her at the finish line.

 Other may say that she’s the weakest member of MAMAMOO or she’s the least successful from them but Moonbyul has her own battle to win beyond MAMAMOO. Sometimes her battle may be overlooked but as long as Moonbyul is Moonbyul her battle goes on. I hope that RBW would finally be able to find the balance that they are looking for, for Moonbyul because their support is much needed.

I know that solo stans number in MAMAMOO fandom will continue to increase as they continue to showcase them as soloist and the competition among the members will continue to be more visible as they grew but I hope the members will continue this journey for themselves and each other. Fans may be the reason for an artist success but they are their own human and I don’t own them by any means. I am at the point once again where the fear of solo success might destroy the balance of their group.

 The more I get to know them, the more I get invested in them hence seeing fans point blame for what they deemed to be a failure saddens me as I remember that 5H’s story ended because of envy. The envy that cause disruption and divided the fandom that later on lead to the inevitable business move of disbandment. MAMAMOO and 5H is 2 separate story but they are in the world where anyone can be greedy and anyone can destroy that beautiful picture on the frame.

  MAMAMOO along with Moonbyul have so much more to do in an industry that tries to defined them I hope that I will still continue to see these 4 women go up against the prejudice of culture together, creating music that will unite everyone.

[red-radish-in-neverland]

Queen 😍😍👑 Congratz ❤️ . Credits to mamamoomoomemes . #mamamoo #hwasa #ahnhyejin #maria #queen https://www.instagram.com/p/CEKeaUrqy3E/?igshid=1ech7crbcx1z9

[mamamooincorrectquotes]

Hwasa: you guys need to be more positive

Hwasa: *trips and falls down the stairs*

Hwasa: wow, I got down those stairs fast!

Byul:

Byul: are you..

Byul: are you doing okay

Hwasa,crying: N O

[theoldmc6106]

🌼🌼🌼 #Mamamoo #MAMAMOO #MooMoo #Moomoo #rbw #Solar #KimYongsun #Moonbyul #MoonByulyi #Wheein #JungWheein #Hwasa #AhnHyejin #fanstagram #kpop #kpoper #kpoplover #kpopfff #follow #like4like https://www.instagram.com/p/CR1oRbmDQQQ/?utm_medium=tumblr

[mamamoo-photos-blog]

[xlaxuuu]

I CAN'T WITH HER 🔥

[sanichique]

Watermelon Sugar High 🍉✨

[misulstudios]

Mamamoo - Hip

Everything you do is Hip!

I loved the styles in their stage outfits so I mashed a bunch of them up to make these. 

Original date: 29Dec2019