#ahhh im bad at words 😔

[grechsblog]

TIED TO MY PREV POST ABOUT CHANGE AND STUFF

so i just kinda got a thing slammed into my head. okay? idk if it holds any weight cuz i didnt finish the game blablabla WHATEVER!! spoilers (?) under the cut

SO. the thing is with these loops- sif changes every time they die. the change isnt rapid but progressive, growing with every little itty-bitty cogs and bobs that are changed or learned by their hand. its not a hard thing to see or notice yeah? it absolutely isnt

but the thing is- the thing is- the world around him DOESNT. it doesnt grow (unless forced by him) doesnt learn (unless forced by him)- it just doesnt change. the world is already frozen in time, to him. his friends are frozen in time, to him. its an egg that will never crack, to continue the allegory

i dont think he quite understands that as of yet (2nd loop) but i think the theme will be explored on a later date to which i havent had the chance to get

i wonder if itll be something similar to flowey situation. siffrin may have their emotions intact but- well, how much loops is there really? how many times would it need to repeat until hes too tired to care? i... hope not enough. to come to that

but knowing my bad-at-games syndrome, it probably will

idk where this post was supposed to go. theres some kind of theme around it bouncing in my head. not quite theory, just a parallel with a piece of knowledge i dont have yet

[hischierswhore]

ANNIVERSARY

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y/n.hughes one whole year with you 🥹 it feels like we’ve been together for an eternity. nico, you were my missing puzzle piece and im so glad i found you. happy one year, my love. i love you endlessly ❤️

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nicohischier happy one year, schatzi ❤️

nicohischier i love you to infinity 😍

user6 one year of this iconic couple ahhh

_quinnhughes hands where i can see them hischier

user86 i feel like we should NOT be seeing that 5th slide

jackhughes i need my eyes bleached

↳ y/n.hughes why is everyone complaining? i could’ve been worse and just been horny about it

↳ jackhughes nicohischier come collect your gf pls. i cant do this anymore 😔

user9 the cutest couple ever

colecaufield mom & dad!

↳ nicohischier hi son 👋

↳ jackhughes well don’t encourage it

lhughes_06 still don’t know how you convinced us to let you date our captain

↳ y/n.hughes if i remember the conversation correctly, you approved immediately 🤨

↳ _quinnhughes …so i was the last to give approval???

↳ y/n.hughes well yes !

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nicohischier happy anniversary, schatzi. there are no words to explain how much i love you, but i do. i love you more than anything ever. i’ll see you when i get home ❤️

y/n.hughes neeks 🥹 i love you ❤️❤️❤️

user13 this is so wholesome 🥹

_quinnhughes y/n.hughes this is a prime example of how to make a non-sexual post

↳ y/n.hughes the last sentence of the caption implies otherwise 😏

user43 y/n’s comments 😭😭😭

jackhughes SHE MADE YOU COOKIES???

↳ y/n.hughes yesss cause he wants this cookie so bad 😩

↳ jackhughes i’m gonna block you.

user72 bro is fighting back and letting the intrusive thoughts win

dawson1417 👏👏👏

njdevils our hearts 🥹🥹🥹

user2 HOME? AS IN? TOGETHER?

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caption: me when my boyfriend is away on a roadie but makes a whole post dedicated to me for our anniversary 🥹

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↳ nicohischier anything for you, my love ❤️

↳ jackhughes so he can post you for your anniversary but not me for my birthday? i see how it is 😔

↳ elblue6 you deserve this, sweet girl

↳ _quinnhughes for a moment i thought he made you cry sad tears. i was about to start beefing with this man

↳ lhughes_06 i’m sitting next to him right now and he won’t stop smiling at a picture of you guys on his phone 😪

↳ colecaufield you guys are literally my parents

[koqabear]

ahhh it's fine 😭 I know that you probably have a really busy life outside of tumblr

Ok so I'm making this drabble series about asmrtist!soobin (NSFW) like he makes those nsfw boyfriend audios. and I basically have all the ideas and scenes I have written out in small notes but I have no motivation to actually write 😭

Also writing smut is so freaking hard!!! Like it's so hard not to use the same descriptive words over and over again especially when writing a longer smut scene. I wish I could share my works telepathically 😔

(Omg sorry for the super long ask btw. Im just excitedthat my fav writer is back c:)

-lvlee

ur so sweet :( it makes me so sad bc wdym i can't spend all day cooped up in my room writing silly fanfics...

OUUU wait that sounds really interesting! im such a sucker for all camboy/nsfw creator aus... but no yeah i get what you mean </3 having everything planned out but no motivation to make it happen is seriously the worst... maybe with time you'll eventually get to it!

NO FR writing smut is actually the worst. it's so tricky to not make a scene seem repetitive 🥲 there's only so many words you can use as descriptors before you inevitably run out... but then again there's nothing wrong with using words multiple times !! you can only do so much with smut..

BUT LITERALLY like i wish so bad that i could just telepathically show everyone my fics. but alas,,,, i actually have to write instead 😒

(ur totally fine hehe i love a long ask!!)

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

ARI MLL IM SO SORRY THAT THIS IS SENT OUT SO LATE HSJSJS. I FEEL SO BAD FOR NOT REPLYING EARLIER 😭 it was assessment week and istg everyday was just filled with assignments/exams/pracs etc. i just wanna go back to high school already!! i’m not mentally prepared for this ☹️☹️

UR SO REAL ABT THE JJK DILFS THO. like they’ve raised my standards up for men so high haksjsj. i so badly want, no, NEED a college bf! geto in my life to make my very own uni life a lil more bearable. HES SO BF CODED OMG 😻 okok but hear me out. geto playing guitar?? i repeat. GETO PLAYING GUITAR??? more specifically ELECTRIC GUITAR PHEWWW. i’m sorry it’s been plaguing my mind for the past few days but i so believe that geto can play guitar w ease. hsjsjsj guitarist! geto has me melting icl 😭✋ with his piercings nd tattoos nd the reading glasses he wears at home hshshshs. its not a want, it’s a need 😔

AHHH UR SO RIGHT ABT STEM GIRLIES AND LIBERAL ARTS GIRLIES HOLDING HANDS HSJJSJ. us stem girlies have sm respect for you guys 🙇‍♀️ from what i’ve heard, lit is a pretty tough major (i took lit as an atar subject back in hs and i FAILED LMAOO). plus lit girlies are so knowledgeable it js blows my mind away. like give me ur brain please 🙏

i’ve tried getting out of my reading slump (WE’RE GETTING THERE WOOHOO!!) like i’ve recently started little woman by louis may alcott (a classic ik idk why i’m even referencing it shshs) and so far it’s pretty good! sometimes the dialogue throws me off a little since it was written so long ago and my mind just goes blank as soon as i read anything that’s not modern day english (i’m talking anything published before the 2000s 😭). i watched the movie a while ago so i’m kinda excited to see if there’s any major differences between the books and the movies. apparently there are a few but i didnt listen in further bc i didn’t wanna spoil myself hahah. welp ig i’ll k when i commit to actually finishing the book.

i haven’t heard abt the travelling cat chronicles yet but i’ll sure be adding it to my tbr 🫡 I LOVE LOVE LOVE CATS SMMM!! ive always just preferred cats more than dogs idkk. speaking abt cats, i have two ragdoll cats hsjsjs. funnily enough, someone pointed out that they somewhat remind them of gojo 😹😹 whelp i fear that i might as well grow up to be an old cat lady hsjsj. not that i’m complaining tho 🤭 really out of the blue question but dy have any pets? 👀 i’m just curious hahah.

also thank u so so so much for the advice ari! i’ll definitely be checking out the summaries + quotes for any future books i wanna read. and nooo ur not incompetent at all, don’t worry!! and thank u sm for being so supportive bby i have sm love for you 💗 AND YEAH I AGREE, READING IS SM FUN WHEN YOU’RE NOT BEING FORCED INTO IT.

and aww the tags were absolutely no problem at all! ur geto drabble was written SO WELL. like ari bby you are so talented and i cannot emphasise that enough. you have a way with words and it’s so admirable!! ++ you nailed geto’s characterisation so well, i was genuinely in awe while reading it. ahhh i still think abt it even to this day!! cult leader geto plagues my mind once a week istg. SAME W HIM AND HIS DYNAMIC W SATORU. like hello?? every time i hear abt satosugu i wanna BAWL MY EYES OUT. they’re soulmates (both platonically and somewhat romantically?? idk if you can have both hahah). but omigosh they’re so tragic shskajsjs. brb i’m not crying, i’m chopping up onions!! !! !! 😃

OMG THAT RESEMBLANCE BETWEEN GOJO AND RHE KITTY CAT OMFDDHDH. someone tell me they’re twins and i’ll believe every. single. word. thank u sm for the treat ari, i hope ur day/night is going well!! i’m so sorry that this is long overdue but i genuinely LOVE talking to you bby <333 remember to take care of urself too! ilysm 💞🥹

p.s hes so fine i swearrrr 😍 i saw this on twitter and it’s been my roman empire ever since

UKIIIII MY BELOVED PLS FORGIVE ME FOR THE WAIT 😔😔😔 i’m finally here !!!!!!

first of alllll i hope your studies n work have gone well!!!!!! 🥺🥺 you know i’m always cheering you on hehe. i just have a month left n then i’m free but i’m not sure how it is for you :’3 i hope you’ll get to rest properly soon!!!!

ANDDDDDDDD GUITARIST!SUGU. GOOD GOD 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 your hcs of him made me LOSE it i hope you know that…… he’s literally so bf…… PLSSS PIERCINGS AND TATTOOS AND READING GLASSES ARE YOU TRYING TO KILL ME 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 OUGHHH UKI I NEED HIM SO BAD….. he would strum his pretty guitar for you on nights you couldn’t sleep 🥺🥺 i just know he would!!!!! he’s such a loverboy…..

LIBERAL ARTS GIRLIES 🤝 STEM GIRLIES FR….. from my perspective stem subjects are a LOT more difficult i rlly can’t overstate how impressed i am by how much you guys study …… 😭😭 i’ve heard . horror stories abt it LMAO…..

AND THE BOOKSSSSS i’m so proud of you for trying to get out of your reading slump uki!!!!!! i actually haven’t read little women yet hehe, pls tell me if it ends up being good!!!!! i’ve heard great things abt it….. AND AND ANDDD i get you!!!! i think it’s important to pick books that are written in ways that you like!!! it’s easy to think that older books are like . harder to read and relate to but that’s usually more bc of the author than the time period!!! i prefer mine to be from around the 1800s-1900s and they aren’t difficult to understand at all!! some classics are super hard to get into bc of how just. Heavy they are writing wise (side eyeing shakespeare n dostoevsky rn) but others aren’t!!! one classic i absolutely adore is the stranger by albert camus, idk if you’re interested in existentialism but!!! the writing is very pretty :3

anyway anyway…. FELLOW CAT PERSONNNN i knew i could trust you!!!! and you have ragdolls!!! 🥺🥺 my current housemate has four of them LMAO and they all look like gojo ngl …. act like him too……. this little guy just follows me around n sleeps in my lap and yaps <33333

BUT YES i think you’d really love the travelling cat chronicles!!!! i read it so quickly bc it’s just. so lovely!!!! and pretty!!!!! and cute n sweet :(((( i love it lots!!!!! but it made me sob so much… so pls make sure you have tissues close by if you read it……

ANDDDD again 🥺🥺🥺 thank you sooooo much for being so sweet …. you rlly are too kind!!!!! i’m so happy you like my geto, i loveloveloveee yours too <33333 AND . YES. i cry over stsg all the time too…. sniffle……. they’re soulmates both platonically and romantically imo :’3 they just . belong together no matter what!!!!!! wish they weren’t so doomed by the narrative tho…..

THANK YOU SO MUCHHH FOR CHATTING W ME SWEETIE <33333 i hope you’re doing soso well!!!!! and i rlly am sorry abt how long you’ve had to wait for this response 😭😭 my brain has Not been braining correctly recently. but i adore you sb 🥺

[atrirose]

can you do enha headcanon abt sweet things they to for you in realtionship

##. SWEET THINGS THEY DO

WE USE TO BE CRAZY IN LOVE

（ 概要 ） 。all members x reader || established relationship || g : fluff || 0.7k words || no warning || i promise after this a tiktok series post

##.HEESEUNG : always has his hands on your thighs, a form of reassurance, its not to show others that you belong to him or anything, its just like that, it is a subconscious thing so if you take his hands off he gets all pouty and moody “why would you do that?” he had a frown “do what?” you actually didn’t think he would be bothered by it but apperently he was, so he puts his hands on your thigh again and brushed your hands away if you try to remove it “don’t you try that again” that was enough of a warning to never do that again😃, an act of secret love 

##.JAY : takes you on late night drives, loads a lot of snacks to keep you entertained and full, “yn, ahhh” makes you feed him, “don't you have work tomorrow, you should really tone down going out so late” you said as you fed him “nah I don't care, this is the only time I can be free with you, I don't mind if I sleep or not” get yourself a man like jay, he also brings blankets for you 🥺.

##.JAKE : calls you by his last name, wife you up, bonus when he calls you his wife infront of your ex or your infront of your family, you almost choked but that's okay, casually says “sim yn” good for you 😔

##.SUNGHOON : gives you his hoodies, has a collection of hoodies with the main purpose of giving it to you, while buying hoodies always thinks about u “will she like this white one or black?”😶 so in conclusion he is buying those hoodies for you to steal, just likes seeing you drown in the hoodie. but always makes sure to wear it at least once so that you can feel his scent.

##.SUNOO : takes you shopping for matching clothes. don't you see those couples when you go to some amusement park who have matching outfits and bunny hats, yeah he does that, wants to tell the world that you are taken by him, not like cringy matching clothes, he is very stylish about it so its not that bad “yn a bunny hat won't hurt you wear it, it looks so cute, it makes you cute” um yeah but he does force you to wear that hat 🥲

##.JUNGWON : never lets you do work, goes both ways, first he doesn't tell you do anything and does almost all the chores and groceries, yeah pretty thoughtful and sweet and selfless but no 😇 the other way he doesn't let you do work is annoy you when you do you homework or try to study, he wants attention “can you not do that” takes the books away and lays on your lap instead “im going to fail”— “not my problem” okay not his problem 🙂

##.NIKI : pulls you close while walking or sitting together, not like zero space but he likes to be comfortably close to you, he likes to smell you shampoo or hold your hands and also because he is possessive about you so he doesn't like others looking at you for too long, okay yeah you are pretty but you belong to him what rights do others have to look at you, so he pulls you close and hugs you “stay close please” damn he is SO CUTE I CANT JKHJKHKJKHJ

[taegularities]

THE CHAPTER WAS SO BEAUTIFUL AHHDKWKEODO LIKE THOSE 2 R SO IN LOVE IT MAKES ME SICK ANYWAYSSSS I have a theory… maybe… i see a lot of ppl saying they think jungkook is seeing someone else etc etc but idk hes so caring of oc and careful with her that i doubt he is seeing anyone else(cmi jaykay i swear if u are i will be at your door step🤨🤨) BUT I THINK JUNGKOOK IS GONNA TALK ABOUT THE DEAL AGAIN. hmm im gonna reread and try to find more clues🔎🔎 but i do think he’s gonna bring up the fake dating deal and they r gonna have like a semi serious talk about their feelings but i don’t think they r gonna confess next chapter AND i think the thing Jungkook’s brother was talking about is jaykay getting a tattoo of the flowers maybe🧐and that he might show oc his new tattoo (I hope it’s tattoo so bad but his brother did say “she’s gonna kill you” or something along that lines so it’s not looking too good) AND AND AND i think he’s gonna ask oc what color he should do for the flower tattoo HENCE the little quote thingy for the next chapter. or i could have missed the mark completely BUT WHO KNOWS AND TY AGAIN FOR THIS AMAZING CHAPTER WAS DEFINITELY WORTH THE WAIT AND WAS VERY VERY VERY WELL WRITTEN🫶🫶

and i think 🤔 i will be back with more theories i hav so i will call myself detective anon🔎🐻‍❄️

IKRRRRRR, IMAGINE HOW I FELT WRITING IT 😭 sick, truly sick.

ahhh important point right there! jungkook is so caring and careful with oc – he even knows when she's feeling shit and all, so would he really hurt her? but he's just a person, too, so who knows 😔

ABOUT THE DEAL, HUH? damn, that'd be a long ass talk with a lot of cute stuttering and looking down 🤣 and the damn tattoo. THE DAMN FLOWER TATTOO. yeah, his brother said something like "ohh, you're gonna die [when you get to know]" to her. though, her flower is a forget-me-not, so we can assume jk would know the colour! love how y'all share the same braincell LMAOO but ha ha we shall see x2 :D

U'RE VERY RIGHT, WHO KNOWS LOL AND THANK U SO MUCH, i appreciate ur words and the fact that u read it so carefully !! i cannot wait for more of ur theories, i loved this and u're an incredibly smart bean !!!! <333

[j0nika]

IM GLAD YOU ENJOYED MY REACTION!!! yes, homura is still amazing!!!! in fact....

you can say that its too soon to be buying figures, but COME ON. madoka magica was something else for me and this is just the process of diving into the fandom....

i really did love homura devil! that was definitely one of the most memorable parts of rebellion to me!!!! she was so beautiful, too. you're right, she does look very very very tired....:(

HMM YEAH!!! Actually, i worded that really weird sorry...i dont think i myself see her as evil either, she really does just want the best for madoka, even if shes done some bad things in the process...she never had purely evil intentions, and i dont think any character does honestly. AND ALSO NAHH I WAS WORDING IT REALLY BAD IM SO SORRY. i wasnt even thinking that their relationship was sexual, my mind just sort of went to the fact that the way homura had been acting is stereotypically sexual especially for anime girl demons or whatever but i really liked the depth of her character and that ahe had been characterized as "evil" more than anything.

ALSO, THATS A VERY NICE SUMMARY! rewrote the universe just to ensure madokas happiness...:( oh homura you tried so hard just for madoka to almost immediately go back to god form...

OH YEAH. I WAS THINKING OF THAT SCENE TOO AHHHHHHHHH noooooooooooooo that makes me SO SAD😭😭😭😭 thats where the drawing idea that i did of homura came from, that scene made me really tear up aswell....i also sort of combined that with when homura was laying with madoka as they were dying together...my heartt😭

yeah....struggle is the perfect word. its like trying to restrain everything to maintain madokas happiness, even if that doesnt mean the best outcome for her herself

AHHH YES you are so right!!! It really makes things *feel* beautiful. bittersweet is just the stuff that gets me crying. you are very right, its a strong love-hate relationship, but i think thats the reason that its so special to me....its so pretty!!! makes me feel like a violin

OOOHHHHHHH!!!!!! I didnt think of the hair braiding that way!!! Actually, i sat down and started drawing homura with long hair and a little braid in the middle...ended up deleting it, but i love that hairstyle, a little bit of "both homuras", ive never thoughr of it that way before thank you!

awhhh thats really really sad.....immm.....😔. poor homura.....you're definitely right

OH YEAH. both of them are VERYYY POWERFUL. i know that homura deep down really cares for everyone, even if she sees them as insignificant or whatever....they were all once her friends...aww

REALLY??!! im glad something as simple of that could make you happy, haha!

EEKKK YESS I LOVED IT SO SO MUCH! AND IM GLAD YOU LIKED READING IT!!! Tried my best to express how i felt about it! and thanks for being so patient and responding and stuff:)! God i have to rewatch it, ive been so stressed out lately i forgot all of the intense emotions it gave me!!!!!! Also, im so so so sorry for the late response, ive been going THROUGH IT recently and lost all of my motivation to talk to anyone.....theres some crazy stuff happening where my house is on the verge of exploding because my water heater is leaking...so that means my birthday is cancelled and nobody can come over......ive just been super sad about everything! ☹️☹️ BUT im hoping i can move past this and get back on track with the things i love, like madoka magica and drawing in general!!!

HOLD UP, since your mom bought Rebellion for you as a birthday present, is today your birthday?!

Also…how was it…? I hope you liked it! (Of course if you have trouble processing what happened, feel free to ask)

That was the best movie

i have ever watched.

i went through all 5 stages of grief within the matter of 5 minutes.

SPOILERS FOR MADOKA MAGICA REBELLION BELOW!

i feel like i have never been so touched by a piece of media in my life

since the movie is so long, im not going to touch on every part, only the ones that were the most important to me

I WAS VERY CONFUSED AT THE BEGINNING. it was a huge surprise that the world had been fake (pretty much), because i was almost positive that was homura in her early stages of time travelling....NO. everything had already happened...

when they had begun talking about how the world was created by a witch, i was confused on how Bebe was relevant, since there had been no previous mention of them...and for them to imagine this ENTIRE WORLD just didnt sit right with me. once they started to mention it a little more, i had immediately known it was homura.

still, i started to get emotional when the world started to burn, and it was revealed that homura really was behind this. homura had been the thing she had sworn not to trust, what she hated with all her heart, trapped in her own cage she was trying to escape from...quite literally. that in itself was pretty beautiful to me :(

after all of that, when homura had pretty much sentenced herself to death to make sure that madoka would not be taken advantage of, madoka ended up trying so hard to save homura...i think that their love for eachother is definitely mutual, even if it seems like homuras might overpower madokas, i know that madoks truly cares about keeping homura safe and even in a moment of sacrifice madoka still just longed to be with homura and didnt want her to end that way, it was such a heartwarming moment

especially when god madoka came down to help homura, i started tearing up, it was really pretty and i had these lighst going on in my room and i was wondering the whole time "what does fantasy mean by people dont like what homura does at the end? everything seems fine right now!"

........

HOMURA

WHAAAAAATTTTT?!???!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?

Holy FUCKING SHIT I WAS NOT EXPECTING THAT.

I THINK THAT WAS MY *FAVORITE* PLOT TWIST THAT I HAVE EVER SEEN IN AN ANIME...IT SERIOUSLY BROUGHT OUT ALL THE EMOTIONS IN ME

i was STARING at my tv with my mouth open i could not believe it.....AND WHEN SHE STARTED TO SMILE, I GOT SUPER EXCITED!! I tend to accidently headcanon characters insanity as the smiling insanity, as if they broke, and i had started drawing homura like that but figured it wasnt fitting for her.....DAMN WAS I WRONG!!!!

i LOVE how homura had become an obsessive....not quite lustful, but more...PURELY EVIL DEMON....who had seperated madokas human form and god form to create a madoka who would be able to live happily (i believe?) with an altered memory...GOD, that scene was so POWERFUL, ive been stuck thinking about it all day today....DAMNIT HOMURA, I LOVE YOU EVEN WHEN YOU ARE EVIL!!! And this insane character development just made me love her even more!!!!!!!

then, at the end, when madoka had ended up quickly reuniting with her god form....and the way that homura said that the ribbons look better on madoka....JESUS...i was THIS CLOSE TO CRYING!!! it was almost a bittersweet ending, and that was the best route they couldve chosen...i couldnt tell if i felt sad, at peace.....it was really really beautiful!

HONORABLE MENTIONS:

that scene with the flower field....THE SCENE WITH THE FLOWER FIELD HAD ME NEAR SOBBING...i thought it was gorgeous and the way that they hugged...the thought that this would be one of the last times homura would be able to hear madoka say those heartfelt things to her, just seeing her sit there....it was really blissful :(

THE SCENE WITH THE STATUE TURNING TO TAR!!!! that was AMAZING symbolism, holy shit! i just kinda stared at the tv for a little bit...its as if homuras love was infecting madoka....i love it so much.

i cant quitteee remember this one very well, but when madoka started t-posing and sunk into the ground, becoming this liquid, the homura becoming liquid, then a mini homura smashing it up? I DONT THINK IM REMEMBERING IT RIGHT, but i just know that it kind of hit me, it reminded me of no matter how hard homura had kept trying to save madoka, she kept dying...and all she went through within all of the timelines were ultimately very small and hardly mattered, since in the end, she failed...THATS HOW I SAW IT!

(and also, the fight with mami was AMAZING!!!! The music, the combat, the intensity, oh my god!! and when homura shot herself, and then held it up to mami, i was like WHATS GOING ON?!?!?)

this movie was absoloutely beautiful, touching, intense, i....literally have no words to describe it.

I PROBABLY WOULDVE NEVER GOTTEN TO WATCHING IT IF YOU DIDNT RECCOMEND IT TO ME FANTASY!!! THANK YOU SO SO SO SO SO MUCH...that was *seriously* one of the best experiences of my life, i went through so much in such a little amount of time...the fascinating scenery with the witches and the everything looked amazing as always, this was just a very very special and UNIQUE movie to me and i stayed involved the whole time...I DONT THINK ANYTHING THAT ILL EVER WATCH WILL TOP THAT, HONESTLY.....

thank you SO SO SO SO SO MUCH!!!! I LOVED IT!!! 10000000/10.....it genuinely couldnt have been better!!!!! and it only made me love homura even more!!!!!!!!

(ALSO, TO ANSWER YOUR QUESTION, it is not my birthday! my birthday is in 9 days, march 16th! STILL COUNTS AS A BIRTHDAY PRESENT!)

[jayflrt]

I didn’t want to send another ask last night cause I was afraid, it would bother you if I send too many ;-;

But I actually finished it last night with 1% remaining xD that one percent is stronger than my mental health, ngl :]

Anyways! That’s not the point :D it was beautiful. Like yes, the humor is dry but it’s fucking awesome. Like uh… dry [appreciative]. I’m very bad with words, I’m sorry. But I loved every word of it.

Which leads to my next question. Would you 👉🏻👈🏻 add me to your general tag list? I’m already on the nnn one but I really enjoy your writing

omg pls feel free to send as many as you’d like D; i love seeing you in the inbox so go ahead !!

(I HIT POST TOO EARLY HELP)

also that 1% is so clutch 😭😭 iphones always lasts for like 20% at the last 2% it’s insane unless u don’t have an iphone OOPS

BUT AHHH IM GLAD YOU LIKED IT 🥰🥰 it was rlly fun to make so i’m glad it was able to make you laugh and that you had fun reading 💗💗 thank you sm for leaving such a sweet comment 🥺🌷

also yes ofc i’ll add you !! HONORED THAT YOU ASKED 😔💕 but tysm for being interested 🌻

[eitelle]

Sorry for just attending now 😔

Soo how about I take one Kenma x reader romantic unsweetened coffee? With two pumps of fake dating, your writing style, a song of your choice, a bit of teasing between the characters. End it however you like but don’t give me depression 😭 (Here’s a little tip 💵💵💵 dw im rich)

#reis anime musical collection

Ps.: Of course I follow you ❤️❤️❤️

Pss.: CONGRATS YOU HAVE 200 FOLLOWERS?? YOU GO QUEEN 😩😩❤️

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BABIEEE ILYSM PLS <33 AND U KNOW IM “KNOWN FOR” MY HURT COMFORT SO IMMA GIVE U MY BEST 🤤🤤

AND OFC IK U FOLLOW ME 🙄🙄 ID BE PISSED IF U DIDNT /hj ALSO KENMA??? HURTCKMFORT??? R U SURE UR NOT ME??? TASTE: IMMACULATE. AND FAKE DATING I- MY HWART WISVEJDBDKZH

the song of the day is: lover by taylor swift! just trust me here

“ Can we always be this close forever and ever? ,,

what a foolish promise. it was your 18th birthday and you couldnt help but sit in your college dorm thinking about how wonderful your ex was doing. you two had a summer romance. a real one, but like most it didnt last. you were from miyagi, he was from tokyo; it just didnt work out. sure it was cliche, but why does that have to be a bad thing?

“ And ah, take me out, and take me home (forever and ever) ,,

as you reminisce on your last date, the one that ended in him sending you home with your heart in pieces there was a knock on your door.

“ You're my, my, my, my ,,

walking up to get it thinking it was your best friend? you open the door in sweats and a loose t-shirt, thai food staining a bit on your pants.

“ Lover ,,

as the door swings open you stand in shock as you see your old flame (whos feelings for you and your feelings for him never went away) in obvious distress at your college dorm doorstep.

as he pushes himself in the small dorm he seats himself on your bed with horrendous posture.

“yn i know im the worst person you should be seeing right now,” he starts.

“damn right,” you snort, rolling your eyes and tapping your feet. “go on, the days almost over i just want to watch my anime.”

“ok uh how do i put this, because of our. relationship,” he explains awkwardly, wording it in such a weird way. “it would be so realistic if you could be my date to this gamer expo. i dont want to get harassed you see and obviously you know how popular i am.”

“haha nice try bud. its a no from me.”

“ill give you mone-”

“when and where.”

and just like that, the two exes reconnected with a fake relationship.

“ Ladies and gentlemen, will you please stand? ,,

at the expo it was time for kenma and you to man his panel. “KENMA KODZUKEN AHHH AHHH AHHHHHH” you heard from each fangirl and from each one as soon as the saw you with your hand possessively around his waist they shut up got what they wanted and left in disgust. finally nearing the time for q&a and the final speech, you realize how great the day had been. how secure, safe, and whole you felt with him. it was the same feeling you had when you were just a couple of teenagers in love 3 summers ago.

“ With every guitar string scar on my hand / I take this magnetic force of a man to be my lover ,,

at the q&a it was smooth, your nerves and his nerves hyper activated so your hands were interlocked under the table, his thumb dancing over your knuckles. in that moment you felt so content you couldnt even remember why you hated him or why you were even pretending.

“mr. kodzuken? i have a question for you. uh who is the person next to you? a significant other?” you hear from a fan relaxing when you hear how sweetly the question was worded.

“kenma,” you whisper away from the microphone, “i got this one.”

“hi,” you respond, “i am in fact kenmas significant other. we met three summers ago and we reconnected at the start of last year.”

as you hear the whispers ripple throughout the crowd they all seem to notice as kenma puts his arm behind you, thumb rubbling circles in the lower half of your back. “you did good, thank you. one more event and we’re done and we can go our separate ways.”

as your eyes start to tear up at that, yet another harsh reminder that you didnt belong here. you didnt belong with him. in fact you hated him, he was your ex who broke up with you and this “relationship” is fake. it was all fake.

“mhm yeah one more event and i get my money huh,” you chuckle, trying to joke lightly, nudging your shoulder into his subtly.

“ My heart's been borrowed and yours has been blue ,,

at the event you walked up with kenma, the stiffest youd been all day and of course he noticed it. he still cared about you. he didnt go to you in specific for no reason, he couldve gone alone. he really didnt need a date, this event wasnt that sort of thing but he couldnt help it. he felt butterflies and nerves and anxiety when your name came up. fake dating you for a day taught kenma one thing: he was still madly in love with you. but it also taught him another: he could never bring you into this world. it was painfully obvious you didnt fit here and he could never do that to you. prioritizing you, kenma decided after today he would let you go.

feeling the same butterflies when stepping up to the podium with you, all of his thoughts and speech were lost. tapping you twice on your arm, you remembered from that summer what it meant.

one tap: im uncomfy

two taps: i cant do this

three taps: get me out of here.

“ All's well that ends well to end up with you ,,

stepping up you decide to take this speech onto your own hands. it was an acceptance speech and a thank you speech to all of his fans, only you had to deliver it. cant be that hard right? if it was for kenma anything was worth it.

“ Swear to be overdramatic and true to my lover ,,

“hi everyone. kenma doesnt do well in pubic settings for speeches so as his s/o i am delivering his speech as best i can and hopefully conveying his feelings about yall to yall,” at the lack of response you get the confidence to continue. “i obviously do not belong here. this isnt my setting, but it is kenmas. he has amassed all of yall and all of these awarda smd achievements in such little time and hes so proud and thankful of all of you. his success would be nowhere without any of you. he is my boyfriend and even thought this is new to you guys its new to us too. ill treat him well dont worry, and he hopes that hes treated you all well. thank you.”

at the standing ovation you received, kenma guided you down the stairs and ushered you into the car.

“you did great n/n,” his old nickname for you slipping out as he gives you a kiss on the cheek making you flustered as hell.

“ And you'll save all your dirtiest jokes for me ,,

“well mr kenma, now that the hard part is over lets strip down to our unmentionables shall we?” you say winking at him with your newfound confidence as an attempt to mask your sadness that your relationship was over with the day. sure it was fake, the feelings werent. that you were sure of.

“ok then y/n, but first heres your money. you did a great job today, thank you for helping me,” he says giving you a huge wad of cash. “is this enough?”

“god kenma you just dont get it huh? of course its enough, if i wanted this relationship to stay fake. but i dont. and i hate myself for that. all i want to do is be able to say, ‘and at every table, I'll save you a seat, lover’ but your not mine. this is fake. but my feelings arent,” you rant, tears fallibg from your eyes.

“i wanted to shield you from this world yn,” kenma says softly as he reaches out to grab your hands as he meets your eyes. “i was truing to let you go because i prioritize you. i will always prioritize you. but sometimes we have our selfish moments. im sorry for making you cry baby,” he finishes grabbing your face in a kiss.

“Can I go where you go? Can we always be this close forever and ever?” you ask, repeating the same promise you asked him all those years ago.

“always.”

[chemmerson]

this is a weird thing to complain about but i'm so used to writing chapters with 12k+ words that this fic im working on, which has way shorter chapters, feels like i'm not giving enough to my audience 😭 like i'm disappointing them somehow :( like theoretically it means they get more chapters more frequently but my brain is like "bad, make chapters beefy" ✌️😔

i have felt that way before!! and still sometimes do feel that way. i think i had to remind myself that every story is different and will never be told the same. the plot will flow differently! more or less isn’t bad, it just depends on what story you’re telling :) like sometimes more is needed, sometimes less is needed, it all just depends on what is important to focus on in the story. and what you feel is important to communicate to the audience.

plus as a reader, im sucked into the story either way. like i never pay attention to how long a chapter or part of a story is. im always just like AHHH SO GOOD I CANT WAIT TO SEE WHAT HAPPENS.

i promise you’re not disappointing your audience nonnie!! <3 word count can feel intimidating, but it doesn’t reflect your value as a writer. at all. words themselves tell the story, not the number!