#ahahaa I love angst

[quicksilverdrabbles]

To embrace your blood, and give you your voice (2)

Morana: *panting, watching as the dragon finally falls while bits of its flesh begin burning and flaking into the air* What..?

Mirmulnir: Dovahkiin?!

Kaidan: Dovahkiin??

*the dragon falls dead, its eyes focused on Morana as its soul is ripped from its body in multicolored streaks and absorbed by the plague doctor. Streams of yellow light bind themselves around her neck before disappearing*

Morana: ...???

Whiterun Guard: Dragonborn..

Lucien: E-hexcuse me, what?

Whiterun Guard: Ancient dragonslayers.. They could kill a dragon by stealing their very souls.. That's what you just did, right?

Morana: I don't know. It's certainly never happened to me before.

Kaidan: Take a moment to calm yourself, your handwriting's shaking.

Whiterun Guard (2): Eh? Are you sure she of all people is the Dragonborn? Dragonborns are supposed to be able to Shout.

Whiterun Guard: Oh, you're right.. That would be a problem, wouldn't it. A Dragonborn that can absorb souls but not Shout. It's.. kind of funny, in an ironic way.

Inigo: I would recommend you do not speak about this situation being humorous unless you want to lose your tongue.

Whiterun Guard: Huh? And what are you gonna do about it, huh cat? You would really threaten the guard?

Inigo: I will make good on my threats to you and every other person in Skyrim if you continue to insult my friend like that.

Morana: Blu.. Please stop..

Ingio: ... Grr.. You are lucky this time.

Whiterun Guard (2): Can you really blame us, though? She can absorb souls, but without The Voice, is she really Dragonborn?

Kaidan: You shut your fucking mouth right now.

Morana: *tries to write in her journal. Her hands shake, and she drops her pencil. Kaidan won't understand if she signs* ... P-Please stop..

Whiterun Guard: If you people are so eager to defend her, then let her prove she's Dragonborn. Shout for us.

Taliesin: *glaring, dagger drawn* She doesn't have to do anything for you lowlives.

Morana: F-Fus.. *Her breath comes out like a gust of wind, noticeable, but quiet and ultimately powerless*

Whiterun Guard: Ha! Was that your attempt at a Shout?

Xelzaz: Morana-

Morana: F-F-Fus- *coughs, reaching a hand to her throat*

Lucien: Morana! *runs to catch her as she kneels to the ground* Don't force it, please. You don't have to prove anything to these people!

Morana: *trembling* I-I know the word. I can hear it in my mind.. I just- I can't-

Lucien: You're only going to hurt yourself, though!

Morana: Why the hell are people only ever concerned about me getting hurt?? Why am I unable to do things without having to worry about how much it would affect me? Why can't I do this?!

Lucien: Because we care about you-

Morana: You shouldn't! With the way things are going, I'll be dead before the year ends anyways!

Inigo: ... What?

Morana: You shouldn't put a dying woman's wellbeing over your own! You shouldn't have to make accomodations for my weakness! I- *sobs* I don't want that! I don't need it!

Dovahkiin..

Morana: *stands up, pulling away from Lucien* Just once, I want to be able to put my pains aside and do things without suffering! Just once, I don't want to be a liability!

I will lend you my voice, Thuri..

Morana: Just once, I want to be able to aid you all instead of forcing you to worry about someone who should have died years ago! Just this once- even if it's only once- I.. I don't want to be weak anymore!

Whiterun Guard (2): Hey, is she actually saying something right now?

Whiterun Guard: I dunno. Can't hear her, haha.

Morana: SHUT UP!

Whiterun Guard: ?! Shit, she actually spoke-

Lucien: She's been speaking this whole time, you idiots!

Kaidan: Morana..?

Morana: SHUT UP!! SHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUP- FUS! *the shout leaves her throat in a much deeper pitch, hoarse and growling, almost like an actual dragon's cry. It knocks the two guards off of their feet.*

Whiterun Guard (2): Gods above- let's get out of here!

Morana: *falls to her knees, coughing and spitting up blood*

Kaidan: Morana! *crouches down, trying to wipe at the blood soaking her mask*

Taliesin: *kneeling next to her* Gods- Hey, come on, let me see.

Morana: *shakes her head*

Taliesin: Don't be stubborn, they're already gone. I need to see how badly you're bleeding.

Morana: *shakes her head again. She tries to speak, but only wordless rasping comes from her throat*

Xelzaz: How much damage did that Shout do??

Mirmulnir: *a spectre of the dragon rises from its bones* It was not The Voice that injured her.

Kaidan: Oh for fuck's sake, not you again. We killed you.

Mirmulnir: And so I have recognized the power within the Dovahkiin. A dovah without a voice is, mm.. Aan dilon dovah. A dead one. And so, to counter her.. nahlot Thu'um, her voice which has been silenced. She absorbed my voice, as well as dii sil, my soul.

Lucien: How is that even possible?

Mirmulnir: Mm.. Many things about this one are.. folaas. Things that should not be. It is only right that they are.. righted.

Inigo: So.. You are a good dragon now?

Mirmulnir: My voice will remain in the Dovahkiin's possession. However, this form is quickly.. fading. It is possible this will be the last I will ever speak, of my own accord.

Xelzaz: Oh. Well, thank you? For giving her your Voice.

Mirmulnir: It was not my choice.

Xelzaz: ... Right.

Kaidan: Er, hello? Can we maybe focus on the fact that Morana's spouting blood from her throat?

Taliesin: *removed Morana's mask, wiping at the blood properly with a cloth* We need to get you to Danica. We'll have her meet us outside the Temple, don't worry.

Kaidan: Up we get. *lifts Morana with ease, ignoring her silent struggling* Need to cover her face for her before we go back to town. That mask won't do until it's clean.

Taliesin: Use this. It's a veil we got for her a while ago.

Kaidan: I don't even want to ask where you got that thing. Fine.

Xelzaz: Here, let me at least give her a potion to try and stop her bleeding-

Inigo and Lucien: *trailing behind the group*

Lucien: ... Do you think we should tell them?

Inigo: ... Perhaps not. I do not think anybody else heard what we did, not clearly.

Lucien: They have a right to know, I think. If what she said is true..

Inigo: If she told us, she will probably tell them sometime after. Still..

Lucien: Do you think there's anything we could do?

Inigo: ... I do not know.

~

Inside the Bannered Mare

Danica: *sitting next to Morana on a bed in the private room* Gods, you've really done it this time, Morana. What on earth did you do to injure your vocal chords like this??

Morana: ... I got angry. And yelled. Tried to.

Danica: *sighs* Well, you won't be able to speak at all for the next few weeks. Not even whisper.

Morana: Damn. Thank you for your help, anyway.

Danica: Don't mention it. Although I would like if you would come for a check-up every now and then. It seems like your health declines more and more every time I see you.

Morana: ... It's nothing to worry about. I would rather you don't waste your time. You still have so many patients.

Danica: Right. Well, I'll go let your friends know you've been healed the best you can be. They'll be in in a moment.

Morana: Thank you.

Danica: *stands and leaves, clicking the door shut behind her*

...

Morana: *raises a hand to her face, catching a tear that fell* (No matter how I tried... I was still weak.)

[masterwords]

Hi it's your friendly complimentary anon again! I'm too shy to unmask but thank you so much for fulfilling my request. It was so wonderful and beautiful as so many of your stories are. I LOVE your longer stories and series so I almost squealed with delight when I saw the treat you presented me with! I enjoyed it thoroughly! I'm so glad you were able to be inspired again! The Hotchgan community really are wonderful, both writers and readers alike.

I have another request/idea for you for when you have the time. It's a very ambitious ask this time lol. I would love an epic sweeping romance, from first meet to strong friendship (with an undercurrent of undiscussed mutual attraction) to Hotch divorcing Haley but she stays alive this time (all 4 of them have a lovely friendship - Hotch, Haley, Jessica and Morgan). Hotch and Morgan slowly get together, get married and have a long happy life to retirement and beyond. I guess it is sort of incorporating all your series but into one hahaha. I like angst but I am also a massive fluff bunny.

Thanks for all you do and taking the time to read my ramblings 😂. You are forever my favourite writer

Oh...my gosh. I'm glad you enjoyed it! I got a lot carried away but I had fun doing it. It's totally okay that you're too shy, but please don't feel like you need to be shy around me. I'm super uncool. ahahaa

Well. Ambitious though that was...it definitely struck a chord. I have IDEAS. So, it's going to be a multi-chapter and I posted the first today. I'm not sure how fast it'll see updates but I'm FEELING IT.

Thank you for your kindness and your support and encouragement and just...all of it. Thank you thank you. I really hope the first chapter hits the spot. I'll read your ramblings anytime anon. <3

Restless Heart (Chapter 1 - 5.3k words)

Masterlist: Restless Heart

[youkissedareaderinthedark]

heeey! i'm the Coraline request!!

Loved your idea of the end, one driver finds her and search help with the other. but make sure that the reader suffers ahahaa, I love when it's super angst

hi again! dont even worry about it, I have sooo many angst ideas

and by the way, do you want one driver to find her or multiple drivers? either is good with me!

[dangermousie]

He really is terrified out of his wits. And he should be, as this show might as well be called “Ivan Whumporama” and things have been going a little too well for him for the last ep and a half.

Aaaaaaa I am a horrible person who is going to hell, but since this is a rewatch and I know that Sexy Job the Spanish Edition gets his happy ending after all, I am giggling (and swooning.) Because of course, of course, Ivan is like a lightning rod for freak bad luck. He must have been a serial killer in his past life or something. 

I am sorry, I...I...I...ahahaa I will always be in AWE of the makers of this show who went “one horrible deadly fantasy illness is not enough for Ivan, let’s give him TWO!” clearly operating on the ‘buy one get one free�� sales at the grocery store principle that I previously did not realize also applied to plagues. I mean, even the makers of 1 Litre of Tears and A Moment to Remember, would be in awe of these guys.

Welcome to Hobson’s Choice...and you didn’t even need a philosophy class!

AAAAA! I swear to God, they only ended the show because they ran out of stuff to do to Ivan.

Forget getting out a spoon, I am getting out a soup ladle!

But honestly, this is my favorite storyline and so angsty and delicious and MMMMMMMMMMMMMM I love bawling over fictional people at 3am which this show provides me with and the angst vampire that I am, this is the BEST!

[redbeanboi]

Okay but that alt. angst ending with dead Reader, Heartbroken Giorno and a Giuseppe who wants to know about his mother gives me the same vibes as Thranduil and Legolas. This is just my take but I really think it’s an interesting direction to go towards and it’s really cool that you considered it at one point :)

omg..... thranduil and legolas.... nice connection!! I love it. :0 I hadn’t even realized that until you brought it up.

and now that you’ve brought it up...... I now have to draw Giorno as Thranduil and Giuseppe as Legolas....... Giuseppe the precious prince™️, the one thing Giorno’s wife left behind for him........ ooooOoOoo

thank you for sending this in!!!

[iceglade]

yo this tarot shit has me genuinely so irl-stressed out bro 😭😭 i gotta either indulging in my hyperfixation fueled absolute-worst-outcome pessimism or get completely out of astro/tarot unless it’s super 100% /pos cos this is a horrible combination eeee

🌻 flower for you! tarot can be brutal, blunt, and harsh, and just out-of-context enough to only make sense in hindsight. thats just like life ahaa. i swear i also get way to stressed out (i am also too invested, ahahaa), but for me divination helps calm my anxieties a lot. let us help you :D tl;dr. the genre is angst with a happy ending.

you've struggled with insecurities before, and are right now, yeah? not just about the future, or about other people, but about yourself, too. its human!! the clearest messages anyone's readings always have for us whenever ANYONE asks about this topic is: so is dream. hey, y'know, both you and him deserve comforting when anxious, especially if you're scared about the future. even if you make weird decisions because of that fear. dream has baggage, yeah, but he is a hardy dude. he's willing to put in the work. you KNOW he is. he's defied fate before. and hes not alone.

if anything: (imo) tarot is like a pocket-sized mirror. its a small divination tool that you can use to see How Things Are At The Moment. try to think of future predictions like a motion vector graph - if you keep keep driving forward, you may clip the side of that jollibee

i try to keep a healthy level of skepticism, but divination on this topic it means something very profound to me, when everybody, over and over again, is getting the same cards -

"what will the meeting feel like": the sun. the world. joyful, full-circleness - it may feel to them like finally being free, or finally coming home.

"what is gnf feeling on this topic": the lovers. two of cups. queen of cups. compassion, unconditional love (p or r), experience and understanding,

. all of the above is no matter what deeply personal issue someone's cards may call him out for. tarot doesnt roast dream because hes malicious, or because it hates him. it roasts him because sometimes you get scared of the truth - and tarot is about as blunt a truth-teller as you can get. for all george's unhingement, he has this grace that people overlook because he hides it. his home-work seperation is strong. that's very very admirable! but we're not his friend. dream is.

dream shouldn't be scared of gnf. in the most pure sense of the word: he loves you, dude. whatever the situation is. he loves you. unconditionally. you. oh god. oh god. hoooh

its not just negatives that people can't avoid. but if theres one thing i can GUARANTEE: its that regardless (romantic or platonic) it doesnt MATTER, as long as they're together, the story will have a happy ending. they work hard and play hard, and they've done this for years. they are stuck together. forever. its too late bro!! they're stuck!! sure this is backed by astro but you can see it clear as day in what they do every day even unconsciously (i.e. obsess. cling. mutually!! and with full awareness of the other!! that is part of the appeal!!!) and they both represent something so earth-shatteringly important to each other, it makes me wanna shatter something.

"someone will stay by your side."

or maybe

"you are lovable as you are, with all your mess." or something else equally moving. but every possible is just as impactful as these ones. smth smth "yeah we plutonian. we leave deep lasting impacts on each other's lives that fundumentally change the other forever. keep scrolling." i know you're braced for the negative, but you cant escape the posi side of the wheel of fortune. you can try though. we can all try.

that's what brings ME comfort when doing readings, anyway. that plus this is a natural part of life. these lessons get learned by everyone. it just so happens that dream's is gonna be live and with FOOTAGE 😭 poor guy!!!!!/lh

. the genre is angst with a happy ending. watch how it plays out irl: someone will always surprise you. dream's too dedicated to positivity, and to george, for anything less than that. it'll be alright :O

[redxblueihateloveyou]

I can't wait for you to see the whole scene and hear your thoughts. It's so damn heartbreaking. Like Rin seems honestly excited to tell Haru about his decision (and happy to meet him randomly in general) and then what unfolds is just... Oh man it's like watching a happy puppy get kicked. And since up until that point in the movie Rin hasn't seen Haru's angst much cuz he genuinely seems happier with Rin around so no wonder he doesn't see it coming. THEY NEED A CATHARTIC CRYING SESSION I SWEAR

I recently also saw the middle part too (soon, soon, I'll see it all xD). From the moment Rin says "you think making these decisions is easy for me". It's not okay... but dang, I really loved the moment, when Haru starts shaking, then breathes out and evil smile appears on his face. I'm... 👀.

And I get that Rin's always happy to see him, but I don't know how after thinking about it so much, he decided to go about it like this lmao. I'm just facepalming so hard. I've read the transcript of the before that too and I really do not get why he said what he said in that particular moment and once again who even does this like that, I mean.. that was such a weird idea seriously. Like ok, you already decided whatever you decided and it apparently doesn't concern us and his problems also don't concern us, but he could've at least start like "it was a hard decision to make, but in order to swim in the future with you I decided... lalala", he instead just dropped the bomb after Haru said "that's why together we..." and Rin went "yeah, about that, I won't be there". He was practicing this all that time? Oh god, this is just... I have no words for these two tbh. ComMUnICaTiON.

I bet this time Rin was like "okay, I've prepared this whole speech, and we're gonna have a moment.. and oh, under our tree too". I like how he after dropping the bomb and making him split, backed himself up with the whole "Ikuya thinks so too. We both decided it." ARE YOU PLANING A FUTURE WITH IKUYA, RIN? IS HE YOUR SPECIAL SOMEONE? YOUR SHINING? YOUR BABY? I DO NOT GET. "I want to swim with you next year and in the future"... ehmm thanks on that at least haha. Haru just went "ok, you zip it" lmao

Tbh if I were Haru I'd smack him on the head back in s3 already, when he jumped from behind this wall with "Yo, Haru"xD. But he's always so happy when he's back or when they spend time together, that he always decides not to darken any of them with conflicts about "why are you like this", but now it finally overflowed... a bit lmao. Like same was in s2, too, when everything seemed fine and and he was like "here's your sakura pool, baby" and Rin was flirting with him by the bus, and meanwhile we were literally dying inside watching him from afar all that time. And then several months later Haru was like "gtfo with your future, you moron" and Rin is like "😭 baby, I don't get what I did". ahahaa its a bit funny. I esp love when he doesn't talk with us for months and then casually comes in like they were drinking tea together an hour ago lol. It maybe was funny like in s1 when he pretended to be cool about stuff with his "yo, Haru, still hanging out with these losers?" but like now can we stop with trying to be casual about stuff already. I mean, I in 5 minutes could've come up with at least 3 ways of saying it in a way it wouldn't hurt nobody.

Not only he already decided, but he discussed it with a random person before him and he's already found a sponsor and.. omg. Too bad for Haru he misunderstood everything about who they are for each other, I guess.

But fuck, evil!Nanase just fully executed him there. It's just from reviews and summaries I thought he went just around the Rin leaving part so it could be connected to what started the conlict, but he just simply did everything to hurt him as bad as possible. Like damn, he fucking started by giving him flashbacks about his 2x09 "what dream? what future? I'm not you" with his "I can't live like you" and Rin just looked so lost, having all the memories he brought on and he didn't even get what brought this on. It all happened too fast tbh. And then Haru just finished him. Like all the hits were too precise, but the fact that Rin fully lost it only on the moment, when he has s1 flashbacks of hurting Haru says it all tbh.

My point is the whole fight had just... another nature that I thought it originally would be. Bc Haru intentionally made him remember worst moments that are related to him. That's why it changes my point of view on the situation and backs up my previous post about Rin.

Evil!Haru might be evil, but if you combine it, he just basically told him what I said yesterday "if you're planning to make decisions on your own and I'm not a part of your life, then I can't live like that and we don't see the same future for us. you keep coming into my life, bringing this sureness about our future and act like you're a part of it, but then you always leave." He just roasted him, but it's like truth tho lol

Like watching Haru screaming and dying inside while saying that was very heartbreaking, but it doesn't change the fact that it is what it is. Even when Haru is angry in a like "normal" way, he when he says something ugly, he tbh never exactly says what he doesn't mean like many, he mostly not at all far off from the truth, he just tries to slice Rin back, but this time, he just fully dissected him. Like holy fuck, dude.

But he was waiting for so long for him, then thought "I finally have him", but he mostly not there again, except when it's job related, if I heard his "oh btw I've decided this", I'd cry for sure. But murdering him is also an option, I guess lol.

One already has a crying session, it aint cathartic tho, it's painful. But at least Rin now agrees with us about the fact, that he's an idiot haha.

I in no way say that he deserved this, bc the way Haru worded everything is just hell on earth, but at least we all know now that evil!Haru is well aware of what is the most painful way to kill Rin... play on the fact that he loves Haruka Nanase too much. LMAO you gotta admit that it's a bit funny. I've only seen couples do stuff like this before. So it's like... very harsh angst, but it's a mega win too.

One is already having a crying session, but in horrible pain T_T

I bet Rin will for sure cry after Haru comes back and says that he loves him. But I agree, I also want Haru to cry in relief with hugs from Rin and all. I need lots of happiness at the end... like LOTSSSS. We also all need a theraputic fluff after this.

[hannah-schooler]

Fic writer interview!!!

Thanks so much for the tag @stormwarnings sorry it took me so long to do this!!! <33

how many works do you have on ao3?

9!!

what’s your total ao3 word count?

39,086. huh somehow I expected it to be higher than that

how many fandoms have you written for, and what are they?

Just Star Wars! pretty much entirely The Clone Wars with all of my current fics and most of my WIPs focused on Anakin and Ahsoka

what are your top 5 fics by kudos?

don’t just stand there staring, honey— a silly little fic about the Jedi and their troopers (Everybody Lives!AU) going undercover and they don’t understand that they’re all incredibly attractive. A sequel is coming....one day...

long after you’re gone (gone, gone)— 5+1; Five times Ahsoka left and the one time she came home. Happy ending, mostly

as if you don’t remember, as if you can forget—some post-Zygerria angst and healing. Aayla Secura and Ahsoka Tano centric. Lots of feels, angst, and hurt/comfort. Inspired by @webtrinsic1122 ‘s “Show Me Your Teeth”

once the last drop of rain has dried off the pavement— some MORE post-Zygerria recovery. This one is a little bit more pointed with what happened to Ahsoka and features a very distressed Anakin trying to figure out how to help his traumatized little sis. 

said you’d always be my white blood (i need you right here with me)—post Trandoshans/Padawan Lost arc. I LOVE this arc and there’s not nearly enough content about it. Wrote this to fill a tumblr prompt not long ago so I’m actually surprised it’s in my top 5!! Hurt/comfort, recovery, scary!Anakin and Ahsoka bringing him back from the edge

do you respond to comments? why, or why not?

Yes!! people take the time to write them and they make me so so indescribably happy! I literally end up gushing about readers leaving comments as much as they do about my work!

what’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

Definitely Never Let Me Go, but that was also my first ever work, and not my best. Pretty much all of my works have at least hopeful endings, if not happy, but my angstiest fic is you drew stars around my scars (but now i’m bleeding) so I’m gonna say that one

do you write crossovers? if so, what is the craziest one you’ve written?

no, never have. I don’t think I could do it well and there’s not really any fandoms that I want to see mixed together

have you ever recieved hate on a fic?

thankfully, no. I think I would cry ahahaa. My readers are literally some of the kindest people in the world I love you guys so much!!!

do you write smut? if so, what kind?

no. never say never, but it’s unlikely. again, I don’t think I would do it well

have you ever had a fic stolen?

not that i know of!

have you ever had a fic translated?

nope!

have you ever co-written a fic before?

no but i’d probably be down!

what’s your all-time favorite ship?

like....ever?? idk if i can pick! Star Wars though is hard bc i’m not the hugest anidala fan but also don’t really ship Anakin with anyone else. I like Ahsoka ships, just cause she’s my favorite character, but not all of them work. My guilty pleasure ship is probably fives/ahsoka, but there’s not a lot of content for them. i’ll pretty much read anything that’s well written except for the ones that i really don’t like (not going to list, no hate here!)

what’s a wip that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?

ugh right now it feels like i will never finish the don’t just stand there sequel, but i will one day! I have several multi chap fics that I want to write including one about Rex and Ahsoka saving the 332nd, and one in an Anakin doesn’t fall-verse where he and Ahsoka free the slaves on Tatooine, but long fics are not my strong suit. (looks guiltily at my original novel i haven’t touched in 3 months)

what are your writing strengths?

i’d probably say the emotional aspects of the characters?? that’s what i most enjoy writing. I’ve also been told that my prose itself is good so maybe that too?

what are your writing weaknesses?

plotting lmao. and action sequences. 

what are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

i mean my only other language i use is some sparse mando’a. I don’t speak any other languages so it’s probably not something i would think about. but i definitely enjoy fics and books that incorporate it because it adds such a cultural depth to the characters!! (i’m also such a sucker for the trope where Character A says something cute to their love interest in their native language, and when asked what they said they say something bland)

what was the first fandom you wrote for?

i have NO idea. I’ve been writing since I was really young, but maybe percy jackson? I remember writing for maze runner when i was like 12 but....

what’s your favorite fic you’ve written?

definitely you drew stars around my stars (but now i’m bleeding). I worked on it for so long and am really proud of it and the response it’s gotten

this was so fun!!! thanks again, @stormwarnings

Tagging: @ashgryff @lynnpaper @webtrinsic1122 and anyone else who wants to participate!! <333

[awanderingtortoise]

no wait also. 🧑‍🏭 🍰🖊️ (just answer all those in this ask itself sorry I didn't read the entire ask prompt fbdndks)

ahahaa np ok letsgo 👩‍🏭 If one of your fics was going to get you arrested, which one and why? - its definitely that one where i decided 'no plot; only mcd' then wrote like 1k words of pure pain. even id arrest myself for that tbh (fic is here on the off chance you want to read it) if you want an honest answer as to why i wrote that; its probably because i feel putting characters in extreme situations allows me to get a better grip on them? When its something like literally DYING the exteriors are stripped and youre left with just their core so its easier to figure them out? at least i think so lol (the best part was it was my first fic so the idea of someone reading that fic then never reading anything else i ever wrote again is always in the back of my mind )

🍰 Name one of your fave comfort fics (doesn’t have to be your all time fave).

one???? ONE???? shame on question im doing at least 3 (these are all zoyalai lmao im sorry)

in no particular order:

the map of my heart by koiis dude this. this. its just brilliantly written and clever and so gentle and perfect and agghhhh its one of the first fics i read and is in my thoughts 24/7. the language flows so well and so prettily its like reading art

marvel and destruction at its finest by nabrizoya

soft zoyalai, as i always always say, is something this world lacks, but this fic exists so short and sweet, i love going back to it whenever i miss those two and want to feel all the fluffy feels again. i love the banter so much and the writing style is so so gorgeous. read. read it. right now.

if i loved you less/ i could talk about it more by hyperspecificplaylists Kaz being a matchmaker, all the best grishaverse couples getting together, kanej pining weaving underneath? everyone written in character even in a modern au? literally HILARIOUS lines everywhere? this is such a great fic, left me smiling the whole time. long and 2000% worth it

🖊 Post a snippet from a current WIP.

oh crap SLFJS ive literally run out of banter to post so- angst? less confident in that but seeing as i dont know what else to put here yall have to take it lol

" Nikolai’s eyes stray towards the city spread below them, rows of houses and darkened streets where his people lay sleeping. The sight is one that should be tranquil; but all he feels is the weight of the crown on his head, a responsibility to which others whisper he has no claim. The rumors are hardly new. He’s grown up hearing them, grown up blocking them out before learning to embrace them. If he is the bastard king, then so be it. He has told himself he cares not, that he isn’t so shallow as to let any of it dissuade him. And yet today there remains the smallest, most stubborn part of him that twists at the talk; whispers to him of his bold-faced lies. Fraud. Pretender. You have no right.

Zoya’s lips press into a thin line. “They are fools, Lantsov; if they believe bloodline is what makes a great king,” she says. His smile very nearly falters, because- well, she’s practically read his mind. He had been silent for no more than the space of a breath, but considering he is Nikolai Lantsov, lord of endless chatter, it must have been enough to tip his general off.

And what does? He very nearly asks. What does, and might you see it in me? "

[hongism]

Do you have any good ateez X reader fanfics Recs? I’m in need of a good long fanfic If not long Then a really really good one lol I just have a hard time finding some lol

BOY HOWDY IM FINALLY HERE okay but fr tho i’m sorry this took me Lightyears to do im so bad at remembering what fics i read and how i tag them so i lost my mind while trying to find them all and i’m sure i missed a lot of favs so i Apologize in advance asiodjfosijdf some are kinda popular so you might have seen them before but some do not get the credit they deserve and i could sit here and sing the praises of these fics and their authors for years but i won’t put y’all through that ._.

You can’t even reach my neck - @kpopscenario - seonghwa

summary: They’re best friends and have feelings for each other but they both don’t know about the others crush, Seonghwa comforts her after another bad date. (Basically friends to lovers college!au)

yes i am a Sucker for a damn f2l college au on occasion and this is one of those Incredible and Well Written occasions i love this fic and the length is perfect and long in the best way 10/10 would recommend and it’s great

such a good girl for me - @starrychannies - mingi

summary: no summary but the warnings should tell you Everything you need to know wink wonk skljdlkdfj

warnings: harddom!mingi, sub!reader, size kink (its mingi duh), choking, sir kink, pet names, mix of praise and degradation, oral (receiving), unprotected sex, slight overstim, slight humiliation (?), a lot of fluffy aftercare.

i find it Uber hard to write smut that is well written in all honesty like i can’t read my own smut bc i can’t Stand It i just think it’s awful but there are so so many authors out there who can write smut and write it well and i admire starrychannies so much for such incredible writing talent with smut yesyes

Alone - @actuallythatwaspromise - san

summary: again n/a but good lord royalty au prince san, princess reader, smack me over the head because i really adore this 2.2k fic and good lord this fic gets me emo and i dont even know why??? the angst is soft and barely there but i’m still over here sobbing for no reason oisdfoaijdiof

detention - @/starrychannies - wooyoung

warnings: badboy!wooyoung, goodgirl!reader, smut, voice kink, corruption kink, fingering, dirty talk, public sex, exhibitionism kink, wooyoung has piercings and reader is a Big Fan, mention of gags, light degradation.

this, this shit right here, this is so good WHEW i dont really have the words but hot damn, i just love this fic and i love love love the way the author wrote the the fic and it’s Hot:tm:

violet roses - @/starrychannies - yunho

warnings: F L U F F, college!au, s2l, first meeting, yunho is a soft babie, yunhos pov!!, love at first sight, pining, bit of slow burn, yunho is Whipped, suggestive teasing, hyunjin is mentioned briefly in the beginning, protective yunho, mingi makes an appearance, mentioned that mingi’s gay, san is mentioned, smut, softdom!yunho, sub!reader, praise, car sex, SIZE KINK!!!!, vaginal penetration, fingering, finger riding, penetrative sex, daddy kink, yunho lowkey has a corruption kink, multiple orgasms.

did i die? yes but only a lot. ahhhh i LOVE me some damn s2l slow burn and pining that shit hits the spot and this fic has it wrapped up in a nice and lovely package pls read pls pls pls read

lover boys - @/starrychannies - seonghwa + hyunjin

warnings: smut, wet dreams, poly relationship, boy x boy, non idol verse, ateez x skz crossover (yay!), harddom!seonghwa, softdom!hyunjin, sub!reader, threesome, reader is Needy, hyunjin is Sleepy, seonghwa is Amused, pwp, light somniphilia, dirty talk, petnames, some degradation, early morning sex, oral (giving), throat fucking, reader has no gag reflex and hyunjin is In Love with it, fingering (receiving), spanking (like twice), unprotected sex, light cum play, cum swallowing, little bit of praise, cuddles!

i really just need a minute whenever i think about this fic bc i highkey die every time i think about it??? two of my ults??? i can’t??? i really can’t handle this honestly like woW osdijfoijdfoi the way i melted we love to see it 🤩

entanglement - @sanduction - wooyoung

summary: when the boy who had explicitly spelled out his implausible hatred towards you on every possible occasion tells you that he’s a dog, who would’ve guessed that you possessed the other half of his soul? not you, at least. life sure had a shit-load of guts to pull a twilight on you like that.

okay so deadass if you know me you know that i really am not the type to read werewolf/hybrid fics. i just typically don’t go for them or read them but this fic. this fic. oh my god. the way it’s so seamless and works so perfectly, i’ll never recover like W O W i love this fic that is all honestly i have mad respect for all writers who do werewolf/hybrid fics bc i can’t write them at all, so sanduction huge major props to you i love your work!!!

who catches the alpha? - @teeztheflag - hongjoong

summary:  „You don’t want to break the rules, am I right?“

aka another phenomenal werewolf fic with alpha hongjoong that made me fall over in a totally great way. the angst the fluff the little suggestive bits it all flowed and fit together perfectly and i am still in love with this fic no matter how much time passes

bite me - @atinyidea - yunho

summary: vampire!au, vampire!yunho, vampire!reader, female!reader established!relationship / warnings! angry s*x?, biting, blood, sir k*nk, consensual s*x, teasing, begging, rough play, overstimulation

this fic is ~spicy~ and whew it is good wow just the idea of yunho and reader being immortal together was like awww then it got spicy and i went to o_o real quick but it is such a good fic and wow i love it i dont even have words bc im Dumb but wow

You Got It Like That? - @kimnamshiks - wooyoung

summary: You just needed to get through this week at the resort at the hands of 20 coworkers and Wooyoung; the Sales Department Supervisor who got some raunchy photos of you the day prior.

honestly wow sodifjoisdjf i love this fic so much i just wow honestly the reader is a whole mood when wooyoung texts about the pictures and i was reading like ‘ahahaa me.’ oisjdfoij god the back and forth between wooyoung and the reader just had me rolling legit i got flustered like pls wooyoung just HAAHHAHA WOOYOUNG IN THIS FIC GETS ME FLUSTERED AS FUCK it is all because tay is a Stellar Writer and makes those emotions come to life in amazing ways and i’ll never ever get over it just whew banter in fics is legit one of my favorite things ever and tay does it with such beautiful ease that i am Enamored but i am also Rambling just pls read this fic oh my god it’s so good

be my neighbor - @jeonginks - seonghwa

summary: seonghwa moved into the apartment next to yours, and he stumbled into a situation he didn’t expect to face.

wow i l o v e this fic it’s just a perfect blend of angst and fluff and it sends me to space every time i read it soidfjoidjf don’t ask why space but it just does i kinda ascend okay? anyway wow this fic is such a gem and it is sO underrated in my opinion. the dialogue is written so beautifully and with an ease that i think is often times hard to capture?? wow just amazing

Cheat Codes - @serendipityunho - seonghwa

summary: “This party’s boring, wanna get out of here?”, may have perhaps led you to make the biggest mistake of your life by sleeping with your best friend’s other best friend, your best friend who happens to be in love with you.

me: wow i never read college aus hahhaa

also me: reads a shit ton of college aus sodifjodijf

honestly this fic is 100% fantastic from start to finish, it’s 5.3k of pure greatness and i just really love this fic altho my heart broke at the end it still fit perfectly and was amazingly written ;-;

that is all i have for today slkdfljdlk however i will be shameless and say that if you would like some Long Bois for ateez i have a few but i’ll link the fics i loved writing the most and am v proud of :3

storge - mingi

liquorice and ivories - hongjoong

[everybodyelsesgirl]

fellow angst gremlin!! I love that moniker for us (Also please direct me to that piece of phupha-angst writing)

ahahaa that is in a secret word document on my pc which I am not sure will ever see the light of day~~

(I have literally never shared anything I've ever written in my life but for my fellow angst gremlin I might just consider it... 🤔🤔)

[mothric]

joan, dad jokes, and deceit for the sanders sides ask game?

joan - what do you wish the series would cover next, or what kind of turn would you want to see it take?

I NEED ROMAN TO GET HIS EMOTIONAL ISSUES ADDRESSED PLEASE THE BOY NEEDS LOVE AND AFFIRMATION HE’S BEEN STRUGGLING SINCE TWO CHRISTMASES AGO I’M GONNA LOSE IT

Virgil and Thomas also need to have a Talk about his recent Big Reveal. even though a lot of the audience knew already, it was a big step for him to make that confession AND THEN HE JUST SUNK OUT LOOKIN LIKE HE WANTED TO CRY AND MY HEART CAN’T TAKE IT–

dad jokes - when did you start watching Thomas Sanders / Sanders Sides?

I casually enjoyed Thomas’ vines back when… that was a thing, and I’m pretty sure I subscribed to his YT channel in early 2016, when he did the “Vine vs. Youtube” song with Jon Cozart.

but I didn’t pay close attention to his videos until summer of 2017, when I thought ‘hm I wonder what Thomas is up to now that Vine’s gone.’ next thing I knew I’d binge-watched the entire Sanders Sides playlist, and Accepting Anxiety part 1 had just dropped, leaving me on that juicy cliffhanger. it was really good timing. xD

(I checked the timestamps on my blog to verify and, yep– I wrote this two days before part 2 came out, ahahaa)

deceit - do you have a least favorite pairing or ship? if so what ship and why?

I’m not a fan of romantically pairing the Sides in general (I’m all about those sweet sweet found family vibes), but to each their own. that being said, Roman/Remus gets a big fat no from me, for what I hope are obvious reasons.

on a platonic level, I’d say probably Deceit/Roman. Deceit’s been shown to be very manipulative of Roman in particular, and our dear insecure Prince eats it up. while that’s great for angst, I just don’t see them ever being chummy in a way that’s healthy. I suppose that goes for any Deceit pairing– ‘getting along’ isn’t really something he does (and that’s perfectly fine, I like him as a villain who’s sometimes morally grey)– but he doesn’t schmooze up to any of the others like that, just Roman. which makes me feel all >:( step away from my boy

sanders sides asks

[chanluster]

HOLD UP HELLO HE R E EI AM LONELY AGAIN AT 2 AM IN THE MORNING SCREAMING GASPING THROWING UP WHEEZING FIGHTING BLEEDING LOSING !;&:£3&3@3

ITS THE WAY I KNEW THIS WAS GONNA SLAP THE MOMENT I SAW HERODOTUS’ NAME ON TJERE ever since I played assassins creed odyssey I’ve been obsessed with the Greeks and their mythology and my man herodotus NEVER MISSES !!! also he was very cute in the game AVA PLAY IT 1!1!2!

OKAY ANYWAH BADK TO THIS I’m literally such a massive fucking history Whore so seeing this paired w the Greek and Roman mixture of themes I was so on it I NEEDED to inhale this !!!!

okay so first of all WHY DID U START IT SO ANGSTY TF (!;!;&; I WAS LIKE HELLO WHAT DID MINHO DO TO YOU ,!&;;& no but it was so haunting to have him explain what an impression the mc left on him wowowowow

mc tryna get away from him 💀💀 she really said average dick energy 🤒 BUT IT WAS SO SAD SEEING HER SO INSECURE AND AFRAID THAT MINHO ONLY LUSTED AFTER HER 😭😭😭 big time emo hours I came here for cock and left W tears

ALSO I KNOW U DID THIS ON PURPOSE THE PUN IS SO GENIUS

Aside from that tho the atmosphere ??? The setting ???? Ur so GOOD with establishing a place which is so unlike the modern times like I’m instantly transported to another historical period and when I say I WANT !!! THIS !!! ESCAPISM !!!! PLS !!! Like every reference to the Greek gods too when mc mentions “Eros’ arrows striking her heart” LYRICAL GENIUS METHINKS 😋😋 eros when are u gonna do that to me and chan I’ve waited long enough 😐

The OLD PRIEST CARRIED OMFGGGGG OLD MAN GETTING A PREMIUM PENSION HOME FOR HIS MOVES !!!! his kindness towards mc and him smirking and shit about the future king KNOWS they were meant to me !!!

Also speaking of minho and mc meeting did u know that I’m a WHORE MY GOD 😭💧💧😭 MINHO DIDNT HAVE TO BE SO HOT MY GOD IM JEALOUS OF Y/N IM JEALOUS OF MYSELF

when he helped her 🥺🥺 take off her jewellery 🥺🥺 maybe I don’t hate 🥺🥺 all men 🥺🥺

HE WAS SO GENTLE BYE and then it 😁😁😁 became not so gentle 😁😁😁😁 ahahaa aha a a😁😁😁😁😁😁

WHEN U DESCRIBED AS MINHO BECOMING EROS PERSONIFIED I LITERALLY £:83&393@39383&33 WOWOWOWOW APHRODITE IN SHAMBLES HER SON IS A FLOP NEXT TO MINHO WBK 🤕🙏🏼

okay but you do not understand ava

Like

THE SMUT .

THE FUCKIGN SMUT TENSJSJ;£:&:‘ I HAVE NEVER BEEN SO WORKED UP OVER SEXUAL CONTENT IN WRITING I THOUGHT I HAD BECOME IMMUNE BUT U HUMBLED ME SO BADLY

it’s the detailllllsssss man like over describing shit makes the smut boring but YOU !!!! RIGHT DESCRIPTION AT THE RIGHT TIME EVERY KISS EVERY TEASE MY GOD I WAS HOLDING ONTO MY BED SIDE FOR DEAR LIFE

This fucked W me so badly good fucking hades

But then u went fucking FURTHER IT KEPT GOING AND THEN U DROPPED THIS FUCKING PARA AND I HAD TO EAT MY FUCKING FIST

Like ,!&;!;&: MY GODDESS ,!;&:’e TO BE MINHOS MYLITTA ;!&;:’dne

I FELT IT I FELT IT SO SO BADLY

when the orgasm was so hard i nearly flew off him 🤒🤒🤒 pogo stick outta his cock 🥴🥴🥴

OK BUT WHY DID U ADD ANGST(!;&;’ AND FLUFF !;&;’d WHAT WAS THE REASON,!;&;’

this was so cute fuck u MINHO BEING CUTE AFTER COMPLETELY REARRANGING MY ORGANS IT SHOULDNT MAKE SENS E E E E EIMNSO HURT

When mc tried to slip away I wanted to die THEYRE CLEARLY IN LOVE W EACH OTHER ,!:&:’dn HELLLOOOOOOOOOO Minho searching for her broke my heart I hate angst I hate u I need a refund 😐😐😐

SEUNGMIN 💀💀💀 carried the whole fic in one line WHY WAS HE RUBBING SALT ON THE WOUND SVREEAMING G GG. but guess he helped 🙄🙄🙄 maybe I’ll give him all my coins in the next festival

DAW G THE REUNION 👁💧👄💧👁 HOW TO EXPRESS INTO WORDS IT WAS SO SWEET HIM CONFESSING TO HER THAT ITS REAL LOVE AND NOT SOME CASUAL LUST WOWOWOWW MINHO HAS MY WHOLE HEART I LOVE ONE MAN ONLY CHAN DOES NOT EXIST

this .!:!:’s THIS !;&;’dn SWEET AS FUCKKKK

When the wedding happened bye I was GIGGLING 😐😐😐😐 I WAS SO HAPPY FOR THEM

this had no right cockblocking me in such a way UR A MENACE

The end tho 😁😁😁😁😁😁😁 ahahahahah don’t be shy send the cut scenes I know u got them locked ahahahahahaa 😁😁😐😐🤲🏼🤲🏼🤲🏼

OKAY BUT THAT WAS SUCH AN EMPTIONAL SEXUAL ROLLERCOASTER (!;&;’r OVERALL AN AMAZING FIC WILL BE THINKING ABOUT THIS FOR A LONG TIME AND ONCE AGAIN UVE PROVEN THAT UVE OUTSOLD STAYBLR ‼️‼️‼️

Ritual

Pairing: Lee Minho x Reader (fem)

Genre: smut, romance, angst, fluff; oneshot; historical!AU, magical!realism (?), soulmates! (you’ll see…), Deus Sex Machina; 18+

Word Count: 11.3k

Warnings: swearing, explicit sexual content, unprotected sex, outdated gender and sexual norms/attitudes, sex as ritual.

Author’s Note: Alright, everyone - the premise for this fic needs some serious backstory, so here we are. Back in simpler times, I was a huge Classics nerd, and one man whose work you can’t escape in Classics is Herodotus, the “father” of Western history. One of his anecdotes that I found fascinating is a tale about a supposed ancient Babylonian religious custom - where every woman is required, at least once in her life, to have sex with a stranger in the name of the Goddess of Love. Historicity aside, I’ve always wanted to use this as a trope (of course, with modifications to deal with issues like consent and power differentials); that’s what I’ve done here, but with a twist…

I definitely played fast and loose with mashing together ancient Greek and Roman traditions here (yes, the Greeks did have gongs!) - so history nerds, don’t come at me!!

I owe massive, immense, unfathomable amounts of thanks and gratitude to @sunnyville36​ - Ray, if it hadn’t been for you, this fic would have been languishing in my drafts, uninspired and unfinished. Thank you so much for your thoughtful feedback, your genius brainstorming skills, and for all the compliments I don’t deserve 💕💕💕 Can’t wait for you to bless us with more of your writing!!

As usual - reblogs, engagement, and feedback are desperately desired and always appreciated!! 

Summary: “Your lover, the person you’re going to meet…it is said that the Goddess puts them in your path – that the two of you will be bound together by threads of passion woven by Mylitta herself.”

Cold. 

That was the first thought that popped into Minho’s head as he slowly faded back into consciousness. It was cold, goosebump-inducingly so, and he could swear it hadn’t been like this when he went to sleep. In fact, he remembered being exceptionally warm, cozy even, all wrapped up under the thick blankets with – 

His eyes snapped open.

You.

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[chikarikotranslations]

What's your opinion on ChikaRikoYou OT3? Considering it's the setup being pushed by the last few episodes and official art during the first half of 2018, do you like it as an option or is ChikaRiko the only path?

(Ahahaa sorry this is long, but I felt like it needed to be, to really say what my “opinion” is!)

There’s only one ship I don’t like, but for every other ship, I love them all! But still, even if I love all ships, I don’t think I’m a multishipper, at least, not for Love Live. I think there’s a difference between saying that I like a ship and saying I actually ship it. Just liking a ship is just to enjoy the concept of a ship and seeing its appeal, and maybe you can talk about it with friends who do ship it and have a good time. 

But actually shipping a pair is when you think about them doing shippy things together and you daydream about them, and make headcanons and AU’s, and you look for art/fics/other content for them, maybe draw/write some yourself, and you initiate conversations about them with others, and you’d want to recommend that pair to others, etc. 

(This is just how I view things!)

So for ChikaRikoYou, I do love the ship! I love that they’re all supportive of each other, and are always there for each other in dark times. And of course, as with any ot3, there’s the fact that it avoids the angst of leaving any one of them out in ships with just two of them.

But still, I don’t really ship it all that much, and I have reasons for that that I won’t get into here. So it’s just an “option” as you put it. For Love Live, I only really ship ChikaRiko!But I wouldn’t say that ChikaRiko is the only path though, because everyone is free to ship whoever they want, they’re all valid! But ChikaRiko is the only path that I’m on ^^;;

[minyoongijjangjjangmanboongboong]

ALRIGHT. DUDE. THIS CHAPTER DESTROYED ME. I DONT KNOW HOW TO CARRY ON LIVING ANYMORE. so many things are clear now. that's why nari feels so keen in taking care of jimin. but the cycle is repeating, jimin wants to give up his life and nari is willing to die for him AGAIN. the FEELS dude. also yoongi!!! i love him w my entire heart i hate seeing him cry :(( but there's something i dont understand though? the files said jimin only lived to his 23, but now we know nari gave him 60 years.+

+so it doesnt make sense. did something go wrong or are the files wrong? something tells me hoseok will still have an important role in all this since he apparently also is a shaman. we still dont know why that dude wants to kill jimin, and i also think it is also connected w his past life?? i dunno. and it looks like the fic is nearing its end???? :((( i can feel a lot of angsty shit coming. ALSO! im very interested in knowing if you got inspired to write zero in a real person?+

+because you describe him as having clear eyes and i suddenly imagine him as a western guy and not asian. but ye, the parting is definitely the angstiest thing you've posted so far and im a slave for mystical/supernatural stuff so it is probably my favorite work?? even if you just kill everyone in the end i'll love it kkjkpleasedontdothiskkkjkj you know i still love u right? im sorry for not being around so lately but im always following u and loving everything u do mum 💜

Ahahaa I’m so glad you noticed that ;) That will be answered in the next chapter. Also ooh! Hoseok! He’s such a fun character, and I wish I could have given him more time in the story. Same with Seokjin. And it is nearing the end! This week is the last chapter! I’m really excited to finally tie everything together. It’s been a long time for you guys to go without the big answers, and without knowing how the story will end. 

Oh! And that’s a great question! I actually wasn’t inspired by anyone when writing Zero. He was an original character from the first iteration of this story (before I adapted it into a fanfiction) so it makes sense that you didn’t read him as being of Asian descent. In the original, which is still on my computer, he was kind of nondescript racially. Kind of a mix of many things, since he was meant to be an ambivalent entity in the story. 

Hahaha I’m also a slave for the angst! I love it. And it makes me happy that you enjoyed this story! Seriously, it’s been such a fun ride. I love supernatural stuff, and it’s been really engaging for me to write in this genre. And of course! I love u too! Please don’t apologize. There’s no need! I’m happy when you’re around, and there’s no expectation that you’ll always be active. That’s totally fine!

ily2, my child

[theartofimagining13]

Why do I feel like you hate Seb because lately, his girl gets snapped away from him by someone else 😂😂

I DON’T! HE WOULDN’T BE HERE! Ahahaa!

You know, i… love… angst and drama in fiction, and both Sebastian and Tom have this quality… i don’t know how to say it but they’re so good at portraying conflicted characters and they look so hot when they’re angry and/or crying that i’ve just become addicted to that aesthetic when it comes to their imagines.

I try to remind myself to be fluffy every now and then for you all but i mean come on look at these faces:

Can’t help it.

~A.Wölf.