#ah well theres always something to be learned from life experience

[jejesart]

my works for snkn gysn zine i did some years ago lol

[dmcheatsheet]

City of Song (street musicians)

a pallid elf, weak legs, who plays in this ally. she always plays the same half songs, because its all she remembers, but this doesn't entertain the maenads and half a song is no good for a challenge. Her buisness partner, is the deaf potter, who identifies with her panic when she forgets, because of his own struggles with confusion and surprise. He dosnt mind the repetition, not hearing it anyway. he is quick to say how he didnt 'adopt' her, shes his buisness partner and equal, and dosnt like the idea of 'whiteknights' 'adopting' a pallid elf and then leading them off on a dangerous adventure for a cure! or thr truth! a quest about their own glory and their fears of seeing weakness. A pallid elf in a city will live, work, play, love, and die in the city, which is the same life as every other city person. He mentions the noble who would come a tell her the same joke every day, because shed forget, hed toss her s gold piece after hearing her goofy laugh. went on for two weeks, i got suspitious cus she tends to remember people after a few meetings, turns out she was acting, for the money.

she can stagger for 30 seconds but it is exhausting. She broke her legs so many times when running away from the unfurmier and gruff and armed men she lived with in the moors. The emernians would often wake her up with their shouting or she would see them fighting and tearing into eachother while smiling. shed run from them and in a region full of fetted bogs and obscurred cliffs... One day they discovered her missing after hours, took more time again to find her, and by the time she was healed, they realised they just weren't the people she needed right then. So they brought her here. she has a great mind for learning, knows 4 languanges (elven, common-emerian, Celestial, sign) and has learned the instument perfectly, but just cant get the song right, cus she focuses on it. she could speak common to u, while signing for Friend, while she tells an aniqdote from the moors, but she wont remember if u prompt that story, or ask her a specific word, 'say something in 'elven' shell just blank. She dose mention that Caiber, an Emerian from her clan in the moors has visited before. she dosnt remember her time with them, or joining the clan, but she remembers most of his solo visists to her. He was the one ment to be with her that morning and who found her that evening. 'i thought after that whole month, she was getting better, she was doing really well i mean... there is no getting better.'

Caiber meets ye on his way to see his 'sister' and is so excited to hear PCs liked her. if a pallid elf, asks about other pallid elfs, then PCs themself, then what do YOU think of my sister?? So rare 4 u to find someone who shares sooo many experiance as u two do... (if girl 'theres so many ah... family planing magics nowadays...) Ever think of settling down? "And y the fuck would u not want to marry my sister."

From Ard Carmen, just arrived, has heard of the maenads, and will explain them. Loves magic and music, tired of the street-violence and spellslinger-crossfire from the sextuple-diection colour-coded wizard-gang-war in Ard Carmen. he played for stay on a merchant ship, with a little mending spell whenever they needed, and i did sell all my worldy possions, other than what im wearing right now... and the stuff that was eaten by my closet. O ya, the final push i needed to leave was when some stay spells blew a hole in my bedroom wall in the middle of the night, my closet came then to life and (when it was done chewing up my socks) it tried to eat Mowgali. I can overlook the destruction of my home and underwear, but i draw the line at putting my monkey in danger, had to leave that place.

hordes attention? maenads? eat them instead of can which he has learned about?

Rock'n Raccon. takes his ops out of the game. he speaks to animals to attck peoples instruments, poison lightly their food before a dual. he has loads of actual bard levels.

[stayxlix]

You deserve so much more recognition for your writing! Off the deep end is such a masterpiece, it’s so new and refreshing to read in the fanfic community. The plot building is insane and the way you’re so descriptive with words makes it easy to imagine the settings. I literally get so immersed into the story whenever I’m reading it, my obsession is eating me alive lol.

Each of the characters are so unique and interesting, I love being able to learn more about them in every chapter, especially with Minho and Jisung! Hyunjin is still a hard one to crack and more closed off compared to the others so it would be really interesting to see how his attitude towards mc will turn out in future chapters, will he remain hostile or be more accepting. The almost relationship between Hyunjin and Felix has me crying because it’s so heartbreaking to read. Sometimes I wonder what goes through Hyunjin’s mind when he sees the evolving relationship between Felix and mc :’(

However, Felix finding that comfort with mc that he never found within Hyunjin has me screaming and him confessing that he’s in love with mc... like FINALLY?! The last few paragraphs of chapter 7 literally gave me goosebumps, I had to put my phone down and take a deep breath before I started tearing up 😭

LOVE the angst so much and how troubled felix is with his own past and emotions because it makes it feel so much more real.  Thank you for continuing to update each chapter despite how busy you are with life. As a reader, I appreciate that a lot! 

hi sweet anon.<3 oh this brought the biggest smile to my face.😭💕i cannot thank you enough for taking the time to share your thoughts, you are incredibly kind. im so grateful for the community of readers like you that ive been lucky enough to connect with. your enthusiasm and curiosity about the characters really touches my heart. referring to the story as something new and refreshing in the fanfic community…wow just wow. this is everything to me, and im going to be thinking about your words for a very long time. its really special to hear that the characters are resonating with you too. theres just so much i want to say about each of their stories/backgrounds, and for them to grow more with mc. i really feel like this story could go on for a very long time.🥹

ah the almost relationship between hyunjin and felix..this has certainly tugged at my heartstrings too. it stems a bit from personal experience i guess, but i really wanted to show that relationships (even between friends) arent always straightforward, you know? lines can blur and despite caring deeply about someone else, things don't always align as neatly as we'd hope in the end. its a bit bittersweet i suppose, but either way, the depth of their connection and the love they have for each other is still undoubtedly present.🥹

omg and the confession at the end of chapter 7—im so happy you were able to feel the intensity of felix's emotions in that moment. i feel like it had been building for quite some time so it was really important for me to do my best to get it right, you know?? i practically held my breath as i wrote those paragraphs too and i definitely had to take a break after it was all over!!😂😭 your reaction was exactly what i hoped to evoke though, and im honored to be part of that emotional experience with you.<3 thank you for allowing it to reach you in this way. im really glad felix's character and his background are resonating with you too, because that really is the heart of the story.🥹

my sweet anon, thank you for jumping into the different layers of the story with such depth. thank you for not only taking the time to read, but for sharing your thoughts with me as well. i really appreciate your understanding of the challenges in updating chapters in the middle of life's chaos...but i can assure you that even if things do get a little crazy from time to time, this story isnt going anywhere.<3 im going to keep updating, and i can't wait to share what lies ahead with you. much love, take care.🤗💕

[ghostiiiee]

Just Like Me

To read at my Ao3 CLICK HERE This is the first chapter. sorry is its a little rough. :sweatdrop:

Almost forgot! Tw: i will be going heavy on quirkless discrimination and mental health issues. Theres not much in the first chapter but i do want to touch on it at some point.

School was never something he looked forward to. After all, what was there to look forward to? He was used to getting bullied, made fun of for being different, called names, shoved around. The irony wasn’t lost on him. Many years ago, maybe he would have been the normal one? 

Then again, what even was normal?

It used to be normal to go to school- learn history, math, science and whatever language the school taught. 

It used to be normal to not have any powers, after all -  superheroes were a dream. Stories people made up to tell themselves. Heroes existed, yes, but they never had powers. Heroes were just people, average people. 

Again, there's another word that's changed. Average. 

Normal. Average. 

Two hundred years ago, it was normal for the average person to look human.

Two hundred years ago, it was normal  for the average person to have no powers.

Two hundred years ago, it was normal for superheroes to only be a thing of stories.

That was two hundred years ago. Not now.

Now it's weird to not have powers.

Now you get bullied for being regular. Quirkless.

One of 20%. 

Mathematically, he thought it was stupid that so many people get treated so differently. He did remember Mr. Lancer telling him of people getting treated for less. Mr. Lancer told him two hundred years ago, 10% of the population was seen as satanic because of what hand they used to write with. A similar estimated percent was discriminated against because of who they loved, or what they identified as. 

“Sadly, Mr. Fenton, the human race has a history of not tolerating those who they see as a minority.”

“I remember that from history Mr. Lancer.” Danny sighed, leaning his head on his hand. His eyes stared out the window, looking at the stormy weather. “I remember you talking about how things used to be.”

The teacher pursed his lips, staying quiet and looking at him with concern.

Lancer had asked Danny to stay after class to speak to him. He never did like how Daniel’s peers would gang up on him after school ended. The best he could usually do was this. Casper’s principal was... far too likely to be accepting of anything the more wealthy students’ parents had to say.

“Is that why you’ve been spacing out all day then, Danny?” 

It was asked gently. Danny’s eyes glanced over to the balding teacher before darting back to the window. He hummed for a moment. “...Kinda. I got a lot on my mind.”

“Penny for your thoughts then?” Lancer pulled his chair next to his desk.

It was quiet for a few minutes, the sound of rain gently pattering against the classroom windows filled the room while Danny collected his thoughts. Blue eyes watched raindrops roll down the glass.

“I don’t get it, Mr. Lancer.” His voice was quiet as the floodgates opened. “Everyone in my family has quirks. Dad is strong. My mom can copy anyone’s fighting styles just by watching. Jazz can look at someone and-.... well you know.” He sank down into his chair. “Aunty A, even has a quirk. I've never seen her miss a shot. And then there's me. Daniel James Fenton. The first quirkless person in our family in a long time. Don’t get me wrong either, it doesn’t bother me too much.” Liar. “It’s just... it feels like the cherry on top of everything else.

“My parents got an invitation to teach some classes at UA in Japan. In Japan, I've never lived anywhere but here. Amity Park. It’s not like they can leave me here. PLUS, Jazz has always wanted to go there for the General studies.”

“I understand your concern, Danny. But I’ve seen your work,” There was slight amusement in Mr. Lancers voice. “Aren’t you good at building things? I know I’ve caught you tinkering with something more than once in class.”

Danny’s face flushed red. “...My parent’s usually make those. They’re old models of support gear they have made. I was seeing if I could get a glitch out.”

“And?”

“...I keep shocking myself.” He mumbled. “It hurts like hell.”

“While I can’t say I’m happy that you are getting injured. As long as you are safe, I'm glad.” Mr. Lancer offered a smile to the teen. “As for the other predicament, you are always open to contact me if you need me after you move.”

“Thank you Mr. Lancer.”

~~~~~~~

Danny was thankful that they moved over the summer and not in the middle of the year. School was already hectic enough as was. Moving in the middle of the year was not something he ever wanted to do, let alone moving across the globe in the middle of the year.

He kept to himself for the first few weeks. He liked to walk around, exploring the new area. It felt different than Amity park. More crowded. He noted early on there was definitely more hero around too. It didn’t bother him too much.

That's a lie.

More heroes means more villains.

He didn’t like villains.

He also didn’t like being a hostage.

Lucky him!

He was held hostage by a villain not even before the end of the second week. Not that this was a first time experience for him, having been a favorite target back in Amity Park. He knew all the heroes back home personally because of it. People just loved to take quirkless people hostage. One would think, with the target that seems to hang over his head, that Daniel James Fenton wouldn’t take such risks as walking around alone at night. One would think that if he did, it would be out of necessity, and he would at least have something on him to defend himself.

...yeah no that's not the case. Why in the world would that be the case?

Danny was shoved onto the ground, air leaving his lungs as he hit. He gasped for air, trying to look at who was targeting him now. He couldn’t really tell much about the person, ratty clothes and a hoodie pulled up to cover their face. Nothing could be seen under the hood, it was just shadow, pure, black shadow.

“What’s a runt like you doing out right now?” The villain crouched next to Danny. Chuckling when he tried to scoot away. They put a foot on one of Danny’s wrists, “Ah-ah. Now that’s rude. I’m talking to you punk.”

Danny didn’t respond, wincing at the pressure on his arm. 

“It’s rather rude to ignore your elders.” The villain put more pressure, adjusting so they were crouched like a vulture next to prey.

“F-fuck you. I’ve seen worse.” He growled

The regret in saying that was nearly instant. In the blink of an eye, the ground next to his head - that was solid concrete what the hell- was shattered. The villain was making an inhuman noise, a low gutteral sound coming from them. “You haven’t seen my worst. I wasn’t gonna do much to ya, but I’m starting to change my mind kid.”

He knew he should do anything else - he was already on a thin line - but fuck it. He had a free hand anyways. He grabbed something from his pocket and slammed it against the villain. “As I said before. Fuck. You.” He pressed the button on the side.

The machine sparked to life. Quite literally. Danny still didn’t know what it was supposed to do, but he could make it shock things. Like a weird taser. Unlucky for Danny he was literally pinned to the ground beneath the villain getting tased. And as everyone knows. Humans are conductive. Very conductive. 

Strangely the villain didn't even flinch. The growl getting louder as they grabbed the device from their shoulder and crushed it with their hand. Danny started shaking. Okay so that was a horrible idea. 

The shadows of the alley gathered around the villain. Climbing up their clothing and slowly slithering along their arm. They held Danny down, forming chains around him. In the villain’s hand, a knife, absorbing all light, The villian made the move to attack, and Danny closed his eyes, waiting for the pain to come.

It never did.

It lessened. 

Weight lifted from him, a weight he hadn’t realized was there besides his arm. Tentatively he opened his eyes. 

The villain was on the ground a few meters away from him, knocked out and tied up to a fire exit- similar to how Batman would leave criminals for the cops. Danny blinked. He hadn’t heard anything. So what in the world happened? And how could that have happened so fast? 

Standing up, he looked around for a sign of anyone being there to help him.

Oddly enough. It seemed no one had caused the villain to go down, at least not that Danny could see. Blue eyes scanned the area for a moment, looking for anything that wasn’t there before. Nothing popped out. Nothing was out of place. It looked like no one had been there.

He let out a breath he didn’t realize he had been holding. The air condensed, forming mist as it left his mouth and floated away. It was like when he first stepped outside in the winter. Which was strange- it was the middle of summer. A small frown formed on his face. The nights here weren’t that cold normally. 

He brushed it off, ignoring the goosebumps running along his skin as the air chilled. Perhaps whoever knocked the villain out had a rather cold quirk, he mused to himself. Heroes normally make themselves known at this point, checking to see if he was okay. 

He had an inkling it wasn’t a hero. At least not a licensed one. Not that he minded. He didn’t care who it was really. They saved his life… he was grateful for that.

Danny looked up to the clear sky, moonlight peaking over the buildings enough to illuminate the alley where the street lights glowed. He smiled up to the stars. “Thank you.” He said softly. “I wasn’t paying attention tonight.”

He left the alley, starting his way back home. He never caught sight of the figure watching him.

[ducktracy]

Hi, ur so cool

Usually i feel kinda insecure when i become obssesed with a show i didnt grow up with cause theres always that feeling of "im not a true fan" even if i know a lot about it (not that knowing lots of obscure information is some sort of qualification lol), and sometimes people even scoff at the stuff i do know like none of it matters cause i wasnt there so i cant possibly like it as much as the other fans but omg you getting into looney tunes two years ago and still actively posting top tier content and niche information is just the coolest thing and it makes me really happy

AH JEEZ YOU’RE TOO KIND!! this is incredibly sweet and put SUCH a smile on my face, i can’t begin to tell you!!

i totally get where you’re coming from and have been in that position myself many times! my biggest word of advice (and i realize it’s much easier said than done) is to not think too hard about what other people themselves think

comparing yourself and others in degrees of who the biggest fan is of what does 0 good and only puts you in a box! you’re just siphoning your dedication off as something that can be quantified when it can’t! do you like something a lot? great! you’re a fan! known it all your life? got into it 2 days ago? great! you’re a fan!

don’t let other people get you down and don’t compare your self worth to how much or how little of a “true fan” you feel you are. just spread that love and passion and inspire others to do the same! life’s too short to worry about stuff like that.

that’s why i don’t consider myself to be in fandom circles—i march to the beat of my own drum and see myself as my own little leader. not in an egotistical way, but just because that’s what i’m comfortable doing! usually people interested in Looney Tunes aren’t as interested in the same areas i am (i mean, who else can say they saw every Bosko, Buddy, Beans, and Porky cartoon before ever touching classics like What’s Opera Doc??? my priorities are outside of public interest HAHA), and it can get alienating sometimes but that’s why i just put myself out there instead. if i wanna hear people talk about the cartoons i like or want people to draw the things i like, might as well do it myself, y’know?

very few of my interests have been lifelong… animation and cartoons, yeah, but i think the only thing i’ve really gone womb-to-tomb with has been SpongeBob (which, of course now i’m VERY biased towards). you shouldn’t judge yourself by how dedicated you are to something! if you enjoy it and it makes you happy then that’s all that matters (if it’s obviously not harmful and all that jazz, that goes without saying but just in case). don’t put a price on your happiness or try to gauge just how much passion you have in you, quantifying something that’s YOUR OWN EXPERIENCE and can’t be quantified only leads to stress and restricting yourself—speaking from experience!

EITHER WAY, THIS IS SO INCREDIBLY KIND!!! this really put a smile on my face! i still have much to discover and learn about LT myself, but i’m so happy to hear i can inspire others!! sometimes ya just gotta do what ya want yourself! if you wanna see it, make it! do it!!

[thegetoufather]

Ah sorry I don't usually do this but I wanted to ask some advice. I'm 18 and no one has ever liked me. Of course guys have wanted to have sex y'know but not be with me. I'm in college now for two months and I still haven't met the one, or any potential for that matter. I'm so sad about it, I know it's dumb but I always expected I would have some whirlwind romance in high school like in the movies, even most of my friends are currently with or have been with someone. I try not to be too upset about it because people always say I'm so young and I have time, but I feel like there's something wrong with me? Media makes it seem that girls can get anyone so easy but it hasn't happened so I started to think I'm really unattractive but I felt like I was just average looking. Sometimes I feel like I'll be one of those people that just never experiences love in their life. Idk I always get upset about this at 3 am maybe its the anxiety talking

hi bby!! i hope you dont mind that this is late i just wanted to give some thought to my response!

under a read more because i wrote a lot lmao

first off, lemme just say, im 22 in your exact same position. im done with college (undergrad at least) and never met 'the one', and with the way grad school is going, i dont think i'll meet the one here either.

and you know what, it took me a long ass time to reconcile with this but, that's completely ok!!

its hard as hell to keep believing that when everything around us, whether it be social media or movies, promotes the idea that we should be boo'd up now but, one thing that i keep telling myself is that just because it hasn't happened now, doesn't mean it will happen never, ya know?

another thing is that, immediate attraction has always been conflated with romance, when it honestly isn't always the case! i think with everything around us we get tricked into thinking that if we are immediately attractive to others we are loved, which is far from the case. most immediate attraction is shallow and based off of looks, which does not bode well in terms of long lasting stuff either, ya know? to get personal, im never the person that guys go after immediately when out with my friends, ive even been passed over right in front of me once someone saw my other friend, and while that did sting, it reflects more poorly on him for being so open about being shallow.

im sure you are far from unattractive! everyone on this earth has something that makes people gravitate towards them, and even if you don’t believe it, you do. 

someone not liking us is a reflection of them, not a reflection of who we are.

and another thing — its ok to be sad about it! its not dumb at all, its ok to want a relationship and yearn for that companionship. i think when we get to that point we want things that are the real deal so our filters of what we want from people increase — and in a world where hookup culture kinda created people who lie for sex, we start seeing even less and less potential amongst the bullshit we are surrounded by.

if this essay beforehand seemed more like me being a psychiatrist than advice i am sorry, ill say some more direct things that helped me now but, im gonna start by saying this: theres absolutely nothing wrong with you. we are all deserving of love, and if you truly want a companion, you will find it someday, that much is true.

im not gonna say you need to love yourself before someone else can love you bc thats not true either because we deserve love even in our low moments,

but what i am gonna say is what helped me through the periods of being alone is learning more about me and what keeps me happy. learning how to i deserve to be treated and treating myself on my own to those things. once i started doing that, being alone became easier because i had a clearer picture of what i wanted and knew that im setting forth the example of how i will be treated — and instantly started attracting people who were better for me as friends and so on.

and i have my off days too! i dont love myself all the time either, and i light my dumb lil candles in hope of an irl jean/eren to swoop and kiss me silly to make the pain go away. but its important to remember that it isnt forever.

you’ll find what you’re looking for someday, and dont settle for anything less. i wish you good luck nonnie, i hope this helps <3.

[kekisu]

TOP 5 CHARAS AND 5 REASONS WHY YOU LIKE THEM GO GO GO

AHHHH OKAY OKAY. I LITERALLY LIT UP WHEN I SAW THIS IN MY INBOX YOU HAVE NOOOO IDEA THANK YOU SO MUCH ah okay. i hope its ok if i leave it to just one or two of my fav things about them though cause NFHBGDF I DONT WANT THIS TO BE MILES LONG i hope you understand!!!!!

1. LIGHT YAGAMI

now. i dont think anybodys surprised. MFKSKFMFMHNGJN honestly, though i dont care about death note much at all anymore, hes like gum stuck to my shoe and i just cannot get him off no matter what i do. i tell myself that i dont give a fuck about anything in death note until i see him on my dash and i go apeshit. hes completely changed me and how i approach analyzing complex characters. i think hes the first character that ive ever actually cared about in that sense? the sense where i look into every detail about him i mean. its really just so fun...

my absolute favorite thing about him... i really love how funny he is. this isnt to say hes a humorous guy im saying hes funny as in he makes such stupid decisions and its hilarious to see him struggle so hard constantly. the entire ending of death note is fucking insane it sends me into laughing fits every time. theres so many funny moments in death note despite it being considered a psychological horror animanga because of him being a genuine fucking idiot 24/7. hes supposed to be a genius but he truly does lack so much self awareness sometimes.

if you wanna know more of my thoughts in depth, i have an analysis of him here that you can check out :) ID LOVE FEEDBACK ON IT so if you disagree with me or have questions etc feel free to shoot an ask and ill try to answer!!!!!

2. GORO AKECHI

god... hes perfect. he and light are on the same level of favoritism for me, dont let the numbers fool you. hes hands down my absolute favorite in persona 5 and it blows my mind knowing that the majority of the fandom feels the exact opposite or are torn over him ITS ALMOST FRUSTRATING because its mostly due to the amount of misinformation/mischaracterization spread about him!!!! but no he just happens to be the best written character in that piece of shit of a game! MFDKDHNGJJ AND PERSONA FANS CANT COMPREHEND GOOD WRITING

my favorite thing about him.. i love how hes written. and i know this sounds really basic and predictable, but its the truth i just really love his growth as a character, especially in royals third semester when he gets a chance to properly shine and oh my god! did he shine! hes literally so perfect in 3rd sem

theres just something so captivating about an angry teenager who truly thinks of his life as worthless and doesnt bother making bonds with others because of it who suddenly finds himself questioning his choices of self isolation when he finally meets a group of people he can resonate with and feel seen by. a group of people who are willing to reach out and listen to him despite his past mistakes. theres just something so perfect about seeing that same angry teenager want to take his life into his own hands and strive to grow... that same angry teenager who didnt value his own life start to see meaning in things because of bonds...

i love goro so so much he makes me so emotional if it isnt obvious enough NGFHGDGBDFH I THINK ABOUT HIM A LOT. i think about him healing so much.

(btw im working on an analysis for him atm thats similar to lights so! stay tuned for that dropping when its done in like a million years NFHFBGFHDBGHF)

3. AKIRA KURUSU

DAMN 2 PERSONA 5 CHARACTERS IN A ROW

OKAY SO i know Technically akira is supposed to be a blank slate silent protagonist but let me tell you THATS SO FAR FROM WHAT HE ACTUALLY IS. IM NEVER FORGIVING ATLUS FOR TRYING TO SHOVE HIM INTO THE SILENT PROTAG BOX AND NOT LETTING HIM BE HIS OWN CHARACTER! BECAUSE HE HAS THE POTENTIAL TO BE AMAZINGGGGG ugh sorryfor caps im so fuckng mad MKDFKMGMHMGMG

it really does get on my nerves how because of atlus trying to make him a silent protag, the majority of the p5 fandom sees him as that. blank slate. nothing. when in reality he very much has a ton of spunk and id argue that hes his own character entirely if you just look a little deeper past the surface Like... its not even that hard to see personality in him. beneath the mask is literally his theme song, have you Not seen the lyrics to that? HAVE YOU NOT SEEN THE ENTIRE THEME OF THE GAME? this little dude is so traumatized and angry at those who wronged him (aka the justice system! shitty adults!) and people have the nerve to say hes the worst persona protagonist? lmfao

my favorite thing about akira is how he looks like a cat and how cocky and annoying he can be.. he is such a jokester hes the absolute dumbest. i enjoy this silly guy. *holds him under the armpits like a longcat*

4. SHIGEO KAGEYAMA

ahhh mob. he makes me do this -> :)

mp100, of course, changed my fucking life. mp100 is the reason i am the way i am and though all the characters are incredibly relatable and memorable and i cherish them so dearly, i, like most people, cherish mob the absolute most. seriously his strength really is incredible and though hes just a fictional character he is so inspiring and i wish to carry as much gentleness in my heart as he does.

im so so proud of him on his development he started off so.. i wouldnt say he was weak, but i would say that he lacked experience. he lived in his own little bubble not knowing what the world was like and throughout the story he grew to learn so much.. he learned to make such. mature decisions at such a young age. hes so so wise. hes so powerful not only because of his psychic powers but because of his compassion for others. he can befriend even the worst of people...

my favorite thing about him is his determination to become the best version of himself he can be. and also his relationship with ritsu (not me, i mean ritsu kageyama <3) i always gravitate towards siblings in fiction because im an only child and well <3 i dont experience that. so i like projecting onto them GHBFBBHFG they care so much for each other.. sniffle sniffle

5. RYO ASUKA

ok im going to be real even though im into devilman i dont have much of a reason to enjoy him this much. i just think hes hilarious and really cool and his satan form gives me gender envy. i love it when he commits random easily avoidable acts of violence for no reason at all its just because he wants to. and thats just fine. i think he can kill people and get away with it because hes ryo asuka. gay rights

[fluffypeachwriting]

okay okay, so ramuda is probably 64% not a virgin since in the manga and drama tracks he's been shown to be quite the ladies man...however!! what if he is a virgin and it's all just a charade? becuse well, his whole personality is fake so theres always room for theories 👀 so could I get nsfw of a virgin ramuda and virgin female reader first time? reader is jus trying to get his mind off his hectic life and nervous ramuda is just like "yeah,um, i've never fucked a human"

i think gen and dice caught him undressing a lady in his office once? it would be intersting to see how much of his confidence is fake tho, I totally get it

but anyway I hope you enjoy the rq!  (o^▽^o)

“A-are you sure it won’t hurt?”

“It shouldn’t, Ramuda.”

“I just… I’ve never done this before…”

He’d repeated it a thousand times since the start of the evening as if he couldn’t believe it himself. When you first brought up that you were a virgin, you were surprise to learn that Ramuda was too. It was a small shock, but after a lot of reassurance, his worry was replaced with love and he was more than comfortable with having sex with you. You had no idea he was even remotely insecure about it, but he was more worried that your opinion of him would change because of his façade.

The two of you waited for a moment where you were both ready. You were just as nervous as each other. Getting to experience each other’s first time was something you wanted to treasure. After a lot of nervous exploring and giggling, Ramuda positioned himself on top of you, huddled under a blanket to keep you ‘lovely and warm.’

He’d made sure to take the time to get you aroused as possible, and with his warm, naked figure pressed against your own, it wasn’t difficult.

“Mm…” He nuzzled into your neck and his sweet, warm breath felt hot on your sensitive skin. The gesture would be kind if you were trying not to beg him to put it inside you already.

“I haven’t been this close to anyone else…” He wriggled on top of you, and in doing so, the tip of his cock brushed against your folds, dripping with wet, “O-oh… that’s…”

“Ramudaaaa…” You nudged his hips forward with your legs, urging him on. “I want you, Ramuda.” It would have embarrassed you to say anything dirtier, but your body craved him desperately, so you hoped he took the hint.

“Ah, I’m sorry,” Ramuda leaned in and kissed you softly as an apology, “I just don’t want to mess this up,” He shuffled awkwardly, using one hand to position himself at your entrance and the other supporting his weight, “…can I?”

“Please.”

Ramuda pushed himself into you with ease, watching your every expression.

“So warm… so wet…”

“Ramuda…”

“Ah, don’t be embarrassed,” he spoke in between sighs, “you feel so nice. I’m so happy… I don’t want it to end…”

But soon the feeling was overwhelming and he had to focus on holding back from moving when reached the hilt.

“Are you okay?”

The pressure of him filling you, the pleasure of making love, and the feeling of sinking into the bed together, it all was too much for words. You weakly nodded at Ramuda. He kissed your nose and began to move his hips. They were barely thrusts but even the slightest stimulation made you keen under Ramuda’s touch.

“I’ll keep going then, (y/n).”

He leant down, letting you wrap your arms around him. And with the sweetest and most genuine smile, you and Ramuda made love, long into the night.

[princessjungeun]

From Nothing To Something: Joy x Reader

Request: Hi! I checked your master list and saw that there’s only one RV scenario there. I’m here to change that. 😁 May I request an enemies to lovers kind of scenario with Joy? 😳

The dance is linked below if you want a visual

Park Sooyoung. You’ve known Sooyoung for as long as you could remember. She’s been in every single class with you since Pre Kindergarten. One would think after knowing someone for this long you’d be best friends.

No. It was the complete opposite.

You and Sooyoung absolutely couldn’t stand to be in a room together. It’s been that way since you first met her. Despite this, as far as you can remember there’s not a specific reason you dislike her. You always remember hating her, never bothering to look into why.

All of this leads up to know. 12th grade dance class. Going to a performing arts school was definitely one of the best experiences you were provided with. Dance was your entire life. So much so you were already on track to attend an arts university overseas in America in the fall.

Every year a project was given to year 12 students. A year 12 dancer was paired with another year 12 student who didnt study dance. You were to teach them a dance and perform it for them in front of the whole school. A panel of judges from entertainment companies as well as universities were the ones who gave grades. Of course they showed a small amount of mercy. As you all were only teenagers and one of you al had no prior dance experience. However, this didn’t diminish the fact that many students still failed this project.

Your teacher rambled of names one by one giving you (the dancers) your partners (the non dancers).

“Jisu and Eunji”

“Sooyoung and Chaeyoung”

“Heejin and Jiwoo”

“Soojin and Jihyo”

“Siyeon and Bora”

“Sooyoung and Y/N”

“Chaeyeon and Kahei”

The second you heard her name you walked to the Sooyoung you wanted to be paired with, Ha Sooyoung.

Your teacher noticed you two standing together and said “Ha Sooyoung is with Son Chaeyoung. Y/N you are paired with Park Sooyoung. Please find your partner promptly.” Your fellow dance friend waved as she went to find her partner. You looked around before seeing Sooyoung staring directly at you.

She stood in front of you then said “well are you going to talk?” You felt fire boil up inside you, but instead of lashing out like you wanted to, you took a deep breath. “Meet me here tomorrow at 3 pm. If you’re even a minute late I’m leaving and requesting a partner switch got it?” Sooyoung rolled her eyes and walked past you, bumping your shoulder in the process.

That night you decided the two of you would dance a slow song. Knowing that Sooyoung has probably never danced before you wanted to do something she’d find easy.

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When you arrived in the dance studio the next day Sooyoung was there waiting for you. She wore leggings and a t shirt with a pair of sneakers. You for once didn’t look at her and internally gag, she looked...nice?

“Ok I decided that we’re dancing to a slow song. It’s a slow and emotional choreography. We’re dancing to Say Something.” You put your bag down and walked to the center of the floor.

“Have you ever danced before?” You asked her expecting a no, but there was no harm in asking. She responded “yeah I have, for a few years as a child.” You nodded then said “ok I can work with that, nice.” She responded in an annoyed tone “can we start please. I’m meeting someone after this.” You rolled your eyes and started guiding her through her choreography.

By the end of the practice she had learned the first quarter of her routine. “Ok Joy. Uh...you did well today, be here tomorrow. Same time.” Her eyes narrowed and she immediately said “don’t call me that.” You asked “what?” She responded “Joy. Only my friends call me that. You call me Sooyoung.” She grabbed her bag and walked out before letting you say anything else.

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The next few weeks you spent hours with Joy Sooyoung teaching her choreography. She picked everything up fairly quickly but she definitely needed help making thing cleaner.

“When you get here I need you to add more emotion. The lyrics are sad but you’re just going through the motions.” You instructed her hoping she wouldn’t respond negatively. She sighed and ran her hand through her hair before doing the move again with the same expression. You sighed “We’ll work on it...”

A knock on the door interrupted the two of you. Your dance teacher told you “Hello girls. Please show me what you all have so far.” You nodded and started the music.

As you danced you could tell Sooyoung was just going through the motions. She didn’t trust you, you tried to not get frustrated as you danced but you couldn’t. You knew Sooyoung didn’t want to do this just as much as you if not more.

Your teacher tells you “Ok well the choreography is beautiful and the sing fits well. However, I feel like you two are lacking chemistry. Watching you was like watching two different people. With this you need to be one with each other. Trust each other and feel each other’s emotions through your movements. Channel your inner dancer Sooyoung, I know you can do it. And Y/N, be patient with her. Try to feel for her more, you’re dancing for yourself when you need to dance for the two of you. I suggest you two call it a day.”

When your teacher tells her students to call it a day, that’s one of the worse things you can hear. It’s the equivalent of her telling you, “you suck go home I don’t want to see you in my school anymore this evening”. You sighed and let her walk out of the room before you faced Sooyoung.

The overwhelming feeling of anger and disappointment welled up inside of you. As much as you wanted to yell at Sooyoung, you knew it wasn’t all her fault. You played a role in this situation as well. “Tomorrow. Same time��� was all you said before grabbing your things and leaving.

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The next day you showed up and saw Sooyoung waiting for you. You told her “Come on I’m taking you somewhere.” She responded “where are we going? What are you planning? Are you going to take me to some remote place and try to kill me? Answer me! Ugh you’re so annoying no wonder I hate you.” You just grabbed her arm and dragged her to your car.

You drove for what was probably two hours before arriving at your favorite place in Seoul. Sooyoung looked out the window and unimpressingly asked “You brought me...to a mountain?” You responded “just shut up and follow me.”

You led her along a trail, hiking up the mountain. “I hate this. Why are you taking me here. This is so stupid. A mountain of all places?” You couldn’t contain yourself any longer “SOOYOUNG. SHUT THE HELL UP. ALL YOU EVER DO IS COMPLAIN. WILL YOU JUST HUSH FOR ONE MINUTE AND PAY ATTENTION TO WHATS GOING ON AROUND YOU?” She looked at you stunned then stayed quiet as she followed you “ok...sorry.”

When you got to the highest point of the mountain you didn’t hear footsteps following behind you. Turning around you saw Sooyoung clinging to a railing. You asked “what’s wrong?” Sooyoung’s eyes were closed tightly and she shakily said “I’m like really really afraid of heights.”

You sighed and walked back to her carefully removing her hands from the railing. “What are you doing? Why am I moving? What’s happening?” She started to panic. You responded calmly “it’s fine just relax.” She was clinging to you for what felt like dear life. Her body was shaking and her knees wobbling beneath her. You found it kind of cute honestly. You sighed and wrapped her arm around your shoulder, her hand immediately finding yours. While your free arm snakes around her waist.

You sat down on the ground, guiding her to sit in front of you, facing the end of the railing. Finally you told her why you were here “We’re here so we can gain trust and chemistry.” Sooyoung’s eyes were still shut, you could tell even from looking at her back.

You asked her “Ok first off theres one thing we should talk about first. Why do you hate me?” She scooted around so she was now facing you but her eyes were still closed. “Because you’re better at everything. You’re a better dancer, a better singer, you’re prettier...waaayyy prettier than me, your body is to die for, you’re so nice to everyone, your hair is perfect. I-I guess I hate you because you’re perfect...” Her voice trailed off in the end.

“Sooyoung...I’m far from that, truly.” You stated. She asked “why do you hate me?” You responded “Because I thought I was supposed to.”

You both say quiet for a minute until she said “ok well let’s talk about the dance then...why’d you choose it?” You looked down at your hands and said “broken relationships, family things. It has a meaning to me.” Sooyoung responded “I can tell. I’m sorry I haven’t been cooperating with you...” You replied “I’m sorry you don’t trust me yet.”

She asked you “so what now?” You noticed her eyes were still closed, her fists tightly clenched around her sweatshirt sleeves. “Come on theres one more thing I want you to see.” You helped her stand up and the second you took one step her body caved into yours. “I’m scared Y/N...” She whined softly.

“Shhh it’s ok just trust me.” You walked slowly to the very edge where the railing was still protecting you both. You stood behind her and wrapped both arms around her waist. “Ok now breathe in” You instructed her, “and breathe out.” She followed your instructions, you felt her shaking.

“Sooyoung-ah it’s ok I’m right here I won’t let anything happen to you. Breathe in and out until your calm.” She once again listened to you, her hands finding yours.

You softly said “Ok good now I want you to slowly open your eyes but keep breathing.” She did as you said and saw the beautiful mountains in front of her. You told her “See, look what happens when you just trust me.”

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Ever since you and Sooyoung had that little bonding experience, dancing with her improved. She slowly started showing more emotion and putting more effort into her performance. Your teacher often watched the two of you and praised you both for your improvement.

Dancing with Sooyoung went from dancing with a stranger, to dancing with another part of yourself. You two became one as you danced, feeling each other and trusting each other. It was something you’ve never felt before. And you loved it.

You told her “Ok let’s do a full run through then we can call it a day.” She nodded and you started the song. As the music played you let your body move freely, not thinking about anything. You could tell Sooyoung was doing the same. The parts where you both came together then apart were like you were separating part of yourself.

When you two finished you immediately ran into her arms excitedly “that was so good! Sooyoung-ah we are going to do so well!” She jumped excitedly with you.

You looked into her eyes, you never truly noticed how beautiful she is. You noticed her eyes scanning your face as well, ending on your lips. Your eyes flickered down to hers and without hesitation she pulled you in and kissed you. Her lips were the softest you’ve ever felt.

She pulled away breathless and said “I’m Joy to you.” Caressing your face and kissing you again before grabbing her things and leaving. You stood in the middle of the room stunned at the interaction.

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As weeks went on you and Sooyoung Joy got closer and closer. Immediately you realized how much attention she actually needed, you found it cute. She was always clinging to you, craving your love and affection whenever you were around.

On the day of your performance you hadn’t seen her all day. You and the rest of the dancers wouldn’t see your partners until you were onstage. This is why you and Joy had been practicing so hard the past two weeks.

“So let me get this straight. The girl that you once absolutely hated. You couldn’t stand her whatsoever. Is now your girlfriend?” Your best friend Chaeyeon asked you. You responded “we aren’t girlfriends Chae.” She roles her eyes and said “well lovers whatever you two want to be called.” You told her “I don’t know we just talked about it one day and then she kissed me...and here we are.” Chaeyeon responded “wish I could relate.”

You were instructed by your dance teacher to get in order by performance. Your friends helped each other put the finishing touches on your costumes. You wore a black, long sleeved leotard with a high neck. As far as you know Joy was wearing the same thing.

You waited your turn, watching your friends and their partners dance. The judges have yet to say anything genuinely different. It’s all the same comment “good work” or “with more practice you would have gotten higher”.

The lights dimmed and your friend behind you patted your behind in support. Nervously you ran out and found your spot, hearing Joy do the same.

When the lights came on you heard the music come on. Immediately all of your fear washed away and you let the music take control. The audience was completely silent as you two danced.

Something was different about this Joy. She wasn’t smiling as she danced like she did in almost every practice. She didn’t laugh once when you lifted her into the air. She didn’t jokingly whisper provocative things into your ears when she was close enough to. This Joy was different. She danced with passion and emotion. You could tell she wanted this as much as you did.

The end of the song came, your back against hers and her hand reached for yours. As choreographed, you tore it away and got up, walking away slowly leaving her alone. Much like a very close relationship you once had.

The lights turned off and the music stopped, you both ran into each other’s arms. The lights came back on and the judges sat in silence staring at you. One of them, from a very famous dance studio in Seoul said “I’m speechless. I honestly have nothing to say.” The others nodded in agreement before they told you both to exit the stage.

When you got into the wings you turned back to Joy, immediately you hugged her. She pulled away and wiped away tears you didn’t realize fell. You smiled and hugged her again “thank you so much. You did so well.” She rubbed your back “it was all you, I just followed along.”

Your teacher escorted the two of you back to a dressing room with your other classmates who already performed. All of them showered the two of you with complements, your best friends praising you especially.

Joy sat down and opened her arms for you to sit in them. You both watched the last two performances before the whole class was escorted onstage.

The final grades would be given in class but the highest graded performance was announced publicly. Everyone nervously waited not knowing who would be awarded the highest grade. You weren’t 100% confident because there were at least two pairs you thought did better than you.

The judge who sat in the middle spoke “This performance received a high grade of 100%. This performance left us judges as well as the audience speechless. The technique was incredible, not only from the trained dancer, but from the inexperienced partner as well. They both had the chemistry and you could tell that they trusted each other. They told a story with their choreography, it was truly beautiful. This grade is given to Y/N and Park Sooyoung.”

You couldn’t believe your ears, you turned to Joy and picked her up, spinning her around. You couldn’t help but start to cry as your whole class huddled around you hugging you. You thanked the judges profusely as well as your teacher.

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“Joy I wanna talk to you about something.” You walked into her room as she towel dried her hair. “Do you know how much hair spray and gel Jihyo put in my hair? It took three washes to get it out!” You looked at her seriously and she said “sorry yeah what’s wrong?”

You sat in your bed and patted the seat next to you. She sat down and you continued “For the longest time I absolutely despised you. I didn’t have a reason you I just did. And then one day we were forced to do this crazy project. I took you to a mountain and you kissed me there. Then we became...whatever we are now. But I don’t want to do this with you anymore.”

Her face dropped and you could see the hurt in her eyes. You told her “I don’t want you to be doing this with me...if I can’t call you my girlfriend.” Immediately she tackled you “yahhh don’t do that you scared me!” You pulled her down and kissed her passionately. Softly you mumbled against her lips “I love you Joy” She pulled away out of breath and kissed your cheek, “I love you too Y/N”

[kyokyo866]

I hope you don’t mind me asking. My friends are wanting to create Fauchereves for a good while, but they don’t know much about the lore. They would like to know as much as they can so they can accurately create the Fauchereves.

Sure thing! Uuuuh, not sure where to start, time to word vomit!

Their hairs always white, mostly because of the lack of pigmentation in it, however they CAN dye it with stuff they find. Mud, Berries, Blood, ya know whatever. For a hunter that can be common to color it for camouflages, but usually they like to keep their white hair showing so they can recognize each other from a distance

Theyre very much pack beasts, they always have a tribe and its kinda rare (and not good for them) to be out on their own. Very social beasts are they, so much so they dont mind having other creatures join their group or even adopt pups of other species if found abandoned.

That said theyre very nomadic, they got that wanderlust and the want to experience new things. So usually theres at least one big travel in a fauchereves life before they decide where they want to settle down if they want to. They usually head to a new place, establish a community, then when its fully figured out, whoever wants to keep going can keep going and those who want to stay behind can

Their tails have a glowy fur fiber on them, but when they have a mate for life, its a mating ritual to comb/pull out those fibers (something about the other being their light in their life) its more tradition than anything, but held very sacred. so if theres a fauchereve with still a tail glowing but has a pup, mmm theres gonna be some discrimination of them being very irresponsible. UNLESS they adopted the kid cuz parents are gone, then its like ‘oh dang that sounds hard lets help you with that-’. Not even these beasts are immune from discrimination

Their eyecolor gambit runs usually  from grey to blue, theyre not the most colorful things out there. Which is where their clothes can usually show that off instead, known for being very heavily patterned

All of them have cheek marks with different symbols on them. Thats their name as it were. Fauchereves tend not to have names, usually if you talk to a crowd and be like ‘HEY YOU’ the one youre talking to’s ears will twitch and be like ‘what me?’ but if youre talking about them while theyre away from you, youd usually call them by their cheek from left to right, like Diamond-Star or Circle-Tear. Saying their ‘name’ to them to their face is the same effect of your mom calling you by your full name when youre in trouble. Doesnt feel very good.

That said about the symbols, theyre inherited from your parents. Your left from your mother and your right from your father. Yea sometimes that means some people have the same combos but hey, so do normal names sometimes. But another difference is they have different color tints as well, again running the gambit from black to blue. So while two people might have Diamond-Circle, one could have a grey diamond and a white circle while the other has a white diamond and a blue circle. When you have a mate, there’s a chance of the marks altering (people think its due to the mating ritual of tearing out the fur fibers does something to them) where they equal out to each other. Such as, one black symbol and one white symbol, post mating ritual theyre both grey. It’s a strange phenomenon that they dont entirely understand, but some of them see as like, physical evidence like a wedding ring that theyre the same color. Course sometimes ya just have the same color, that happens sometimes, but still.

Their hair are like horses in that it grows from the spine, like a mane, however the difference is it goes aaaallll the way from their head, down their spine and down their tail. Usually the tail hair doesnt grow as fast but it can if you dont cut it for like 100 years. So if you want you want a nice haircut, best groom wisely. You can still shave your head and yet still have a long spine mane since its not all connected to the head. Common practice in hunters is to keep the spine mane very short or shaved down so predators cant have something to grab on to, but leave short hair on top to still show themselves fellow fauchereves to their group

All of them have sharp black claws they can grow out willingly, for a normal fauchereve its not much, but for hunters theyre trained to grow them very fast. One of the signs as a pup they have a good chance to be a hunter.

Ah yes, tribe functions speaking of. There’s usually an Elder (despite the name, sometimes the elder can be younger than a lot of the others, just means leader) who’s the leader, duh, the Hunters who go out and get the food along with keeping the peace amongst the tribe (so kinda the police should need be), the caretakers who watch over the pups and the sick, the tailors who go find stuff around to make clothes, furniture, whatever supplies (their most popular and important job is the clothes though so thats why their title is tailor and not seamstress, also guys can have it too), and while those are the most important roles, there can be other roles depending on the tribe such as cooks, beast tamers, general sales, magic users, so on and so forth. Magic users is a rare role, but one that is very good. Not all fauchereves are equal, some have more talent than others in some categories. Take Reve, he has a huge gift in shapeshifting, something that cant be so easily done with normal fauchereves, so hed be considered a magic user. Some other magic user traits can be learning an element, being SUPER smart like, hyper intelligence, portal making, and so on. 

That said, if Reve was in a tribe and never was abandoned, he would have been a caretaker in his tribe. His dad was a hunter and his mom was a tailor. that’s where his hats from, from his mom and from her mom and her mom and so on. A family heirloom of tailors as it were. I guess he broke the cycle in more way than one.

Thats all i can think of on the top of my head, if you have any more feel free to send it my way!

[thiswaycomessomethingwicked]

this is the gentleman jack anon from a bit ago, sorry I dunno why it was anon last time lol- in terms of ur fics reminding me of the show I think it's mainly due to

1) historical queerness - I kno technically most of ur stuff is fantasy but it's basically the same - Annes (eponymous gentleman jack) mascultinity n attire is very reminiscent in vibe of ur discworld fics in my opinion

2) Anne in general really reminds me of Downey bc it's mentioned she had a reputation for gambling / hanging out with soldiers and being rambunctious in her youth but now she's a very mature character and a lot of the plot focuses on her business and landownership deals similar to Downey and running the assassin's guild. also shes really invested in maintaining the status of shibden hall, her historical home which is very similar to Downey's taste for traditionalism and grandeur. Also as characters they're both very into dignity/ courtesy/ 'doing the done thing'

3) theres also scheming and drama and illness which vaguely reminds me of the Sicily plot in thus always

4) Anne's actually a proper nerd aswell and loves to mention her time studying anatomy / art / blah blah in Paris which echoes William 'poisonous plants' Downey n Vetinari the og big nerd

5) also just older queer people which u don't often see in fic n stuff- Anne is in her 40s in the series

anyway that's just a few things that came to mind I could probably write an essay on it but I would defo reccomend u watch it I think it's right up ur lane 💓 (Soz for how long this got hehe)

<3 helloooo 

1) Historical queerness - I do borrow a *tonne* from early modern and late-early modern queerness for Discworld stuff, and Downey in particular (see: Downey’s hats & Florentine mlm and their hats) - and I mean discworld as TP wrote it has no consistency in clothes so there is the late-early modern and early victorian (e.g. Moist & Adora) mixed in with late medieval and early modern (e.g. Vetinari) - I do tend towards the early modern myself because medieval and victorian is overdone 

2) ahhh that is delightful! she is clearly living her best life. But I do appreciate a good #Growth experience with characters - yet ones who never lose their joie de vivre. So, still have a love and lust for life, but you know, also have maturity, responsibility and a sense that there are Consequences for Thine Own Actions. Which us something you rarely see in characters? It tends to be Rake/Louche Living v. Stodge/Do What is Right rather than a more normal mix of someone who once ran wild who learned there are consequences and has appropriately tempered themselves. So they’re still be a mad lad when they want to be but also pay the bills on time and have descent life advice and make good relationship decisions. 

3) ooooooo! this interests me greatly! anyone get suspiciously pushed down some stairs? 

4) <3 <3 ah this Delights me. Downey: Have you heard of this rare mushroom? Vetinari: Have you heard of this super niche linguist? Downey: I love you so much you dumb nerd. Vetinari: takes one to know one. Downey: I will have you know I’m one of the cool kids. Vetinari: mmmk honey. Only because no one knows about your secret sordid plant nerd ways. 

5) YES. OK I LOVE OLD QUEERS. I love them so much. Mostly because i am a 75 year old man at heart. But yes I love old queers and i just - always want more of them. all of them living their best lives. doing what they need to do. just out their. being gay. ugh - be still my beating heart. 

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well! it’s still on my to-watch list and that has been a great booster of it up the list! so good work! 💓 💓 

in cute things; my mom has watched it in an attempt to better understand me since I apparently remind her of the Anne character and she was very excited when she finished it and told me all about it and I was like “thank u you’re great” then she bought me men’s boots. 

so you know, happy 2021 everyone. 

[viktormaru]

a super post on some kakashi and sakumo meta

Alright lets do this

BOOKS?? idk is there any connection how lil Sass and Strict Kakashi somehow ends up to porn?? did he accidentally read the word 'boob' in one of Sakumos books and was forever tainted.

According to Naruto Online, Kakashi starts reading Jiraiya’s books at age 18. So what I think happened is well ... puberty. Kakashi shows a bit of an interesting in reading early on so we can assume he was already into books. But then I imagine that like... he hit puberty at around 14 but things were still a mess back then, seeing minato dies then and so on so Kakashi never had a chance to process those things properly. But then time passes, he’s ANBU and he needs to do something whenever he’s stuck on the village be it to recover or simply because he has no missions. He’s gotta isolate himself and Gai keeps giving him frowny looks at the depressing books he has so he goes to the bookstore to get a new one and its like... he bumps into some sales and oh.. its Jiraiya’s book... Kakashi knows Jiraiya. And he opens the thing and goes red. Glances around and its like, his whole new set of hormones make themselves very known and Kakashi buys the thing and reads it alone and is super embarrassed but LOVES it. Its so different from everything else his read he cannot stop reading it. Travel fowards a little and Kakashi notices he can use it to troll other people so he starts reading it in public.

Do you think Sakumo brought Kakashi along on missions a lot? Lower ranked missions, as bonding and training? And and, because the leaf village doesn't vet these things, one of those D/C missions actually turns out much more dangerous than intended and Sakumo has to teach Kakashi how to kill much earlier than he intended to, which is partially why Kakashi is desensitized to violence until the one dead is his dad

Yes! I think at first Sakumo would bring Kakashi along because he didn’t trust anyone with the baby (and he was paranoid the kid would die if he got too far away ever since his wife died) so kakashi is a mandatory company for any missions within the village. It becomes a habit and when Kakashi’s curious eyes just swept over anything Sakumo did , he found it cute. And then Kakashi started to try to copy what Sakumo did and proved that maybe he could do those things as well. So sakumo takes him along as a learning experience and just a way to spend time with him (sakumo is not good at Dad-ing in his own opinion but he’d good at ninja-ing, so if he can teach kakashi how to ninja, he will). And yes, I can see missions going south and Sakumo having to teach Kakashi about life and death, about in the shinobi world sometimes its you or them, and Kakashi having to process it the best way he can. Kakashi knows early on that poorly trained shinobi are dead shinobi.

Opinions on animals that are not dogs?? Are they okay with cats or do they Dislike because of the cat v dog natural fight

They are probably ok with other animals, including cats. Dogs are just their favorites. Also, Kakashi might be a dog lover but he’s sure cat-like often! Gotta stick with the pack though, dogs number 1.

What was Sakumo's relationship with the ninken?

With his own or Kakashi’s? I love the idea that Sakumo had a pack of wolves that he called The Ladies (read that on a fic but can’t remember it now). Just a bunch of amazing wolves that Sakumo respects a lot (hes the babiest of them all, they call him soft). If you mean Kakashi’s... idk if like... 5 years old is an age in which summoning is possible but I think Sakumo would love them as his own children as well (in a way).

What did Kakashi tell his dad in the afterlife?

Tales of team minato at first! Sakumo would have loved clumsy obito, kind rin and the lovely Minato. He tries to tell him happy stories. He goes over the sad stories and the losses and he tells him about Gai, about how sakumo had been right and how Gai really has made a difference. He tells about team 7 and their potential. He talks about himself and about how much he’s changed from the little girl he used to be and he hopes he could be something his father could be proud of. 

Did Sakumo attend PTA meetings

*googles PTA*

AH

Well, he had to when they decided to boost Kakashi through the ranks. Sakumo was shitting his pants in fear thinking something might have happened to Kakashi or some trouble was stirred with the kids but then they were just like “yea hes too good to be in this class” and gave praises about his childs performance and sakumo was just like “..... ok....”

Do you think Kakashi hated his dad for a while after his suicide? Or do you think he hated the village?

I think he hated his father, or tried really hard to. It’s really complex. Kakashi seems to still love his father despite everything but... hating the village is something that is just.. its not possible. Its not allowed. Kakashi was bred to fight and die for the village first and foremost and what that means is that if the village turned against him then its cause he must redeem himself. And if his father died under the pressure, then its cause his father couldnt give the village what he should have given. The village abandoned him cause he deserved it, sakumo abandoned him cause he chose to. 

Kakashi understands the reason his father did what he did, but falls into denial because the opposite would turn against the village. And now that he was alone, how the hell could that even be possible? If he becomes a better ninja he will prove himself to everyone. If sakumo had been a better ninja he wouldnt have been scorned so much. Simple logic. 

Its easier then thinking about the morals of one actions and the whole deal of humanity versus being a weapon of the village. 

What happened to Sakumo's ponytail

Kakashi cut it

Did Sakumo read Jiraiya's books

I dont think sakumo was alive by the time jiraiya published his first book! I think Jiraiya had a few drafts before though, just random stuff he’d scribble. Sakumo liked the cheesy romance shorts (they were bad).

In SD, there's a joke that Sakumo is the inventor of the One Thousand Years of Death. Thoughts?

i LOVE IT. Sakumo impressing Kakashi with a super secret dangerous forbidden technique and Kakashi is like oh?!?!!! And he tries to get Jiraiya with it.

Relationship between Sakumo and Minato?

Ah! Theres one fic out there that i really like that shows how i picture their relationship to be like. Minato at first being a nervous puppy around this Man of Legends Sakumo, and said man  being completely unaware of his status and just being like “oh wow what a nice boy”

 this fic btw: https://archiveofourown.org/works/12854022

Relationship between Sakumo and the three sannin?

Jiraiya likes Sakumo because Sakumo is very easy to be dragged to places and he can talk nonstop to him and Sakumo is usually too nice to call him an idiot. Sakumo hangs out with Jiraiya cause he fills the silence for the both of them and makes him leave his home and try to have fun some times (sakumo is a workaholic unfortunetely)

Tsunade thought he was a coward at first but its also very easy to make him pay for your tab so she keeps him around. She learns eventually that he!s smart and a good person and a good listener! So they become friends and they can gossip about jiraiya too. Sakumo was definitely terrified if tsunade at first but shes too fucking cool and smart. Hes always scared into hanging out with her but ends up enjoying himself around her.

Orochimaru finds him too bland. Sakumo is boring and soft and he fights like a legend but says sorry too much. They only hang out because of their shared friend circle. Sakumo is too busy being socially inept to know what to do around Orochimaru. Its painfully awkward, he feels bad.

Has Sakumo beaten up Hiruzen?

Oh hell yeah! They totally must have sparred at some point and DAMN Sakumo’s a beast when hes fighting. Hits like a fucking truck. Destroy that old man.

Is Kakashi gay

Yes

What do you think if kakashi wanted to be a medical and how will that affected the storyline

Oh! Ive read a fanfiction on this! Its pretty good and I think its about how things would have happened if Kakashi was a medinin.

https://archiveofourown.org/series/1273706

[thebibliomancer]

Dark Crystal Age of Resistance Tactics liveblog pt 10

So I'd like to keep uniting the clans but the only mission on the map is the quest for the Dual Glaive. Which, hey, will help unite the clans! And maybe might check the Grottan off the map.

So this is the All Grottan Proving Myself Power Hour!

Lets go for it!

Mission: The Threaded - Outer Domrak

"The heroes head to the Caves of Grot to seek out the Dual Glaive. But someone, or something, has beaten them there."

Probably spiders. Right? Lots of spiders.

So, hey. I wonder what kept the arathim from trying to retake the Caves of Grot before making a treaty with the Skeksis.

Perhaps they were too afraid of reprisals to gather in force. The arathim we see prior are individuals hanging out, causing trouble, hucking rocks at traffic.

Then again it might be because last time they gathered a big army, Ordon kicked their asses.

Theres a lot of stuff going on in this map that I don't understand.

So Deet, Gurjin, Kylan, Breg, and Alyadon can handle it.

Its arbitrary choosing but it does get Deet in the Deet mission.

Deet: "Come along everyone. We're almost to my home."

And then Threaders take over some friendly Grottan.

Yeesh theres way too many Threaders on this stage. Like just way too many.

Ah, the other glowy things are runes that give you a stat boost if you're standing on them. Weird place to introduce them but I'm game.

Actually, I like that the game is still introducing new stuff to the levels even this far in. Some trpgs peter out by this point. Lore-wise its baffling but gameplay wise, its a nice addition.

I swear sometimes Final Fantasty Tactics Advance got too into my brain because everytime I go to make a move in Age of Resistance Tactics I wonder 'wait is this against the law'

Don't want a Skeksis to teleport in and red card me.

Hm. I know that this is how the gameplay works but I feel bad beating this threaded Gelfling unconscious considering that a) they're Deet's friends, b) in the story Deet and Rian won over the Arathim by treating the threaded Gelfling as worthy of protection, and c) the Arathim I'm beating to death are going to be my friends later.

Oo, there's three spaces left on my characters list, I wonder if one is an Arathim!

... Probably not.

I'm just rotating this level around and around taking in all of the beautiful level design. Not that the rest of the game hasn't been pretty but there's a lot of detail in the Caves of Grot.

Geez, purge rot was excessive on a threader. I just don't want them to get close to poor, precious Deet.

Okay, purging rot on that threaded Mender who only had a sliver of health really was excessive.

This level is pretty easy after that dern Chamberlain fight. As long as you're careful of the Threaders range its basically a cake walk.

Still, worth level ups for all of my cool peeps.

Deet learned Life Exchange (swap HP percentage with a targeted ally, this feels super situational), Gurjin learned Hold Position (casts barrier on self if end turn without moving), Breg learned Blindside (attack a blinded or stunned enemy for extra damage, Breg thats fighting dirty!), Kylan learned Carapace (its the barrier move), and Alyadon learned Convalesce (AOE heal, nice).

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Mission: Homebound - Domrak Dwellings

"Deet and the heroes race back to Domrak with the Arathim chasing them at every turn."

The game perhaps tipped its hand a little too early with the Arathim for I am slightly wearied fighting spiders. Hopefully by the end of this run of missions, that'll be at an end.

Party: Deet (this is still her questline), Rian, Rek'yr, Hup, and Boggi.

Letsss goooo

Deet: "Hellooo, I'm home! Lath'N, Mitjan, Bob'N? Are you here?"

Deet: "Wait, look at them! These Gelfling are being controlled like the others!"

Threaded Gelfling: "We are the Ascendency!"

Rian: "The Arathim are behind this! We have to stop them!"

Rian we have been dealign with this for a while. No duh the Arathim are behind this.

Me: "Oh this level doesn't look so bad either. There's a couple threaders, pretty far from me. Couple threaded Gelfling. Very managable."

Arathim spitter: -webs down from the ceiling- "SURPRISE"

Dammit, one of the damn threaders got Boggi! Not the dooooooog!

Annnnnd also Hup.

That spiraled out of control fast. With two of my peeps on their side they outnumbered me. I managed to get it down to one Rian vs one giant spider and alas, the spider won as Rian was too demoralized after having to beat Hup and Boggi unconscious.

TRYING AGAIN

LOSING AGAIN

Got Hup threaded again like an idiot and things were going well until they weren't and then I lost.

Ugh.

Trying Rian, Reky'r, Boggi, Brea, and Kylan for the heck of it.

Ok, that time went really well. So fast that the last Arathim spitter and devourer didn't even spawn. It really helped to have Brea to nail the threaders from a distance with LEGALLY DISTINCT FIREBALL.

EVERYONE LEVEL UP! yayyyy~

Rian learned Deafening Roar and Bandage because Stone Warden is generous, Rek'yr learned Bash, Brea and Boggi leveled and got NOTHING, and Kylan learned how to Dreamfast. Kind of late in his life to be learning that but lets not make fun.

I also got a Cooking Spit, which may make a cracking new spear for Naia.

Dang, its the special spear of the Grottan and it has decenty stats. That's going right on Naia.

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Mission: Save Bobb'N - Deet's Home

"Just when our heroes thought they had dealt with the Arathim problem, Darkened Nurlocks show up"

SPIDERS AND WORMS

I wonder if Spider Bobb'N is going to be an ally.

Well, he's on the map and he sure looks not hostile.

Geez this map is whack. The spawning squares are all over the place.

So Deet and Rian to the left, Naia at the top, and Rek'yr and Brea at the bottom right. This is arbitrary.

Deet: "Bobb'N, is that you?"

Bobb'N: "We... no Bobb'N. We... Ascendency!"

Deet: "Oh, Bobb'N... Not you, too! Wait, what is that sound? Darkened Nurlocks! Oh, no, Bobb'N is in danger!"

.... APPARENTLY the mission objective is to plug the nurloc holes with boulders. Or with bodies. =|

Good news is that I DO get to control Bobb'N, with a spider in his little portrait.

Iiiiii accidentally dropped a boulder on Rek'yr crushing him for max damage.

Whoops.

And things slowly went downhill from there. The nurloc holes pop out infinite nurlocs. And I couldn't get to the last one because everytime a nurloc spawned it would move out and boom new worm.

Trying Rian, Deet in lower right. Naia and Hup on left. Gurjin on top.

And that went better. Although it was a little touch and go. I used Bobb'n to knock the boulder and not crush Rek'yr into paste but that put him into range of a nurloc who hurt him bad.

But it went well. I got Hup and Rian to stand in holes for most of the level.

Pfft all it takes for Deet to convince the Ascendency Bobb'n is 'hey the skeksis have tricked you, join us' which is slightly less than it took in the show.

Annnnd level ups!

Naia learned Smite (consume an attack up status for massive damage, definitely feels like a good fit for Naia)! Hup learned Sharpen Teeth (give critical chance up to allied beast and any adjacent targets) and Natural Resistance (the same but Shell)! Yes thats right, he leveled twice! Deet and Rian leveled and learned nothing! Gurjin learned Tangle Up (attack and inflict move down to all adjacent targets)!

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Mission: Finding Sanctuary - Sanctuary Tree

"With the Arathim and Gelfling working together, the heroes must help everyone escape the Darkening within the caves"

Not only Bobb'N but a friendly Arathim unit on this map perhaps??

Thats what I was hoping for!

So for my party I pick Deet and Rian because they were here in the plot, Breg and Rek'yr because they need some more leveling like always, and Boggi because he has a delightful face which takes up most of his body.

Another mission where the objective is to book it to the glowy exit square, in this case the roots of the Sanctuary Tree.

And I do get to control Bobb'N again.

AND I DO GET TO CONTROL ARATHIM! Nice, nice. Got Blinding Spray, Spit, and Sticky Web as abilities. No regular attack, just spitting.

Oh but I do see that all of my allies have to survive as a mission objective. Anyone bites it and I'm sunk.

And I have to get the Grottan and Arathim to the exit. Thatssss Deet, Bobb'N, Arathim and... it says 0/4 so I'm confused here. I don't think I have another Grottan or Arathim. And Bobb'N doesn't count twice, the spider is off his face.

Maybe I just need to fill up the glowy exit squares.

Okay, I moved Boggi onto the exit square and didn't get a 1/4 so huh.

Also a damn windsifter just came over and wiped out half of Deet's life in one attack. Eesh.

Ok Deet just died and I didn't lose so I think only Bobb'N and Arathim can't die. Cool. Glad this level's objectives are clear.

Yup, Bobb'n died and the level ended. Cool. Good learning experience.

My strategy this time is to box in Bobb'N and Arathim. Just surround them in buff individuals and also Deet and Kylan.

So I have Rian, Deet and Kylan, Gurjin and Naia.

O I C, I got Bobb'N to the exit and it spawned in another Arathim. So I gotta keep doing this until I get four to the exits.

And more enemies are spawning in too.

Oh neat, the new Arathim is a Devourer with different abilities than the spitter. Devourers can actually Attack. Have Sticky Web. But also have Devour which does much damage to a rooted enemy. Neat.

Got an Arathim out and a random Grottan spawned. Couldn't even make it one of Deet's dads, huh?

Oops, Deet died. =(

Oops, Rian died. =(

Gurjin avenged him.

And Rando Grottan avenged Deet. But this angered the video game gods, or maybe I knocked too many enemies off the field because a whole bunch lot just spawned in.

Good news is that I got three people evacuated and the random Grottan is on his way and not close to any enemies. Though my named characters will take a blow, the mission objectives will escape.

I really only have Naia, Gurjin, and Kylan on the field besides the random Grottan. The big three. Best pals.

VICTORY! And then the tree gets eaten off screen by nurlocs because we're not making the assets for that, there's no budget for assets that get used once.

Also Deet maybe doesn't absorb the knowledge of the Dark Side but who can say.

Woo, everyone levels up except Rian! Deet learns Earthen Roots (AOE Root spell, nice), Kylan learns Cleanse (clears status effects), Gurjin and Naia learn nothing because they're already perfect!

AND NEW CHARACTER! Its Wukki. He's another fizzgig. He just kind of comes out of nowhere in terms of playable characters. I would have liked to keep a spider. And I get another Grottan Cooking Spit but geez, Naia can't dual wield and she's the only one that uses spears in my party.

Wukki is a Fizzgig Herder. The fighter to Boggi's Medic. He also comes at lvl 19, my highest leveled guy right off the bat. He has Get 'Em! (attack and inflict wounded for three turns), Mad Gnash (attack all adjacent targets, and a good pun), On Guard (self barrier), Startle (Inflict Attack Down on an enemy for 3 turns and delay its next turn), Nuzzle (Grant Accuracy Up to an ally for five turns, awww), Embolden (Grant Attack Up to allies within 2 tiles after landing a Critical Hit), Provoke (Inflict Berserk to targets in a cone), Silent Assassin? (gain critical chance up at the start of turn while afflicted by silence), Sneaky Little... (Apply Haste and Silence to self for three turns, oo combo potential), and Fuzzy Meteor (jump down to a lower elevation and damage all adjacent targets, seems very situational).

Oof thats a lot to drop on me, game! I have to pick only five out of this!

The characters all have bios and short descriptions. I've been glancing at them but maybe I should share them later. Here's Wukki's since he's the new guy.

"Wukki is a physical fighting Fizzgig Herder"

"Wukki is an excitable, young Fizzgig. He was raised by Podlings as a Nebrie-herder. When his entire Nebrie herd succumbed to the Darkening, he blindly chased after them. Ultimatley, this left him lost and alone in the Caves of Grot, until a Gelfling family found him and took him in."

That was an emotional rollercoaster

How about Boggi?

"Boggi is a supporting Fizzgig Medic"

"Boggi is a clever and loyal Fizzgig. Boggi has been a pet and aid to the scholars in the Library of Ha'rar. He took a particular liking ot Brea, who would always bring him treats whenever she would come to visit."

Wait, I've been assuming that Boggi was her pet but she stole him from the library? Damn, Brea, I don't know what a library ever did to you that you've done so much to them!

So two more spaces on the party page. Who will it be.

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Cutscene: The Dual Glaive

Deet: "The tree... My home... It's all gone."

Rian, can't read the mood: "And the Dual Glaive is lost with it."

Maudra Argot: "Dual Glaive, you say? I have that right here!"

God its just as convenient as in the show.

Maudra Argot: "But this is only part of the whole. To unlock its true power, you must find the other half. Head to Stone-in-the-Wood. You will find it where your father, Ordon, left it."

Cool, cool, cool.

And the plot splits again. Alyadon offers to go talk to the Sifa and Brea to the Vapra. Uh, is Seladon an issue in this narrative? Is she doing her Seladon thing? Brea maybe be careful. Kylan offers to talk to the Spriton.

So thats three clans open for me to prove myself to. And Rian decided he won't grab the cool endgame sword until the clans are united.

Rian, you've got it backwards. The sword unites them. I saw it happen on the show.

Anyway, this went on loooong. Provided there's not a ridiculously huge number of missions, I'll try to unite a clan an update.

[gg-astrology]

what about capricorn sun aries moon ? thoughts on us 🥺❤️

Hey there! ❤️❤️❤️  I’m going to do my best for u!! ❤️❤️

[Below Cut: Capricorn Sun - Aries Moon 🎆]

Subtlety powerful?? 

The kind of people who wields power, but doesn’t need to over-state or be too bold about it

Likes challenges (like people who are challenging) but is soooo quiet about it

Really....these people are like......quiet and bold

Believe in the power of acting/walking the walk, and that in itself proving them right

Prefers it when people are themselves (around them) nothing to hide and quickly state/show their intentions because they’re honest/just.  

They’d rather the other person self-express themselves fully than act high-key sus, cautious/hide themselves away or acts like they have something to be wary of (cause that means they’re guilty/insecure about something for sure-- possibly of treating people badly that they’ve done before)

Instinctual, hone in on the scent of blood pretty quickly from others (those who hurt others/vipers/are vicious/vindictive is a nono) 

Prefers direct, straight-forward or like--- those who aren’t ‘waiting’ for things to happen to them and then throw themselves into a deep messy pity-party ya know? 

Has a critical/evaluating eyes, can undress people (psychologically) bit by bit based on their behaviour

Their impulsivity is mostly bc there’s a primal aspect to them, like an instinct/hunches to trust or not trust others y know?

These people may have powerful walks, knows how to smolder (if they try) bc both their inner fortitude and their outer-appearance can sometimes work to their advantage 

Inside however-- they are humorous, fun and kiddies

Like no lie they just wanna let go and have fun, share their experiences with friends and possibly try out/experience different kinds of excitement y know?? 

Can get whiny/throw minor tantrums if things don’t go their way, bc they’re so bold-- they’re not above using their charm to get what they want from ppl bc it’s just?? it doesn’t mean shit to them/how people see them since they’re sure about who they are-- and it makes ppl happy??

Like theres no loss there personally, so their pride isn’t on the line whenever they do something bc they know it pleases someone (besides thats a good thing right?) 

These people are always diligent, like they know FULL WELL what their short-comings are (inexperience/lack of something) so they’re always trying to work on it, expand it, give it a solid foundation/base and try out different ways to improve themselves on all fronts

U can say they’re multi-taskers but its not like they’re doing things all at once, it’s just that they actively expand their consciousness of themselves into knowing/aligning and organizing what they need to improve on-- and trying out different methods from experiences they’ve had, in order to see if it could be improved this way or that (with what they already have/discovered in themselves y know)

Does that make sense?? 

Capricorn/Aries believe in inner-strength, that everyone should have strong solid core foundation of themselves and Know themselves better than anyone. They think people deserve that, to not feel-- y know? like their power is put into a collective/groups rather than themselves.

They’re self-empowered, so meeting people who would willingly give up theirs for the collective/let things go out of their own hands is baffling to them

In a way, they are strongly self-sufficient and adaptable. If any hardship comes their way, they know how to work through it, swerve it or bat it and crush it into 10000 pieces of dust instead

They’re self-serving, bc they believe you gotta do things in order to improve/help yourself y know? If you’re inactive in your own life, in your own participation and just let yourself rot--- then nothing will change, and more harm will be done by the time you get up to do something  know?

So in a way, while they are quietly observative of others, subtle and bold. They are also motivational to others, quietly supportive and There for people. Want them to work hard for themselves, not for anyone else. For their own person bc they are Them and nobody’s gonna love them more if they don’t learn how to love themselves y know.

That’s their self-sufficiency. In a way Capricorn/Aries are also very very stubborn, if they set their minds onto something and then they can’t get it on the first try (and someone comes along and say ‘ah its ok try it again later’) they’re gonna be ADAMANT about getting it right and working on it until they achieve it

Stubborn stubborn fools who likes to do things the hard way, sometimes they ignore the more efficient method/answer bc then they won’t get the EXPERIENCE of it fully y know? The Whole Experience of Hardship and Labour and Most Importantly Lessons that came from those hardship

Would rather do things their way, or like, the long-way rather than short/easy way bc they feel like they’re ignorant of many things (doubt themselves as knowledgeable/smart as others) 

These people are pioneers, and they often will find themselves subconsciously picking up pace/tempo as they concentrate on something. When they stop and see that others are slower/more even-tempered than they are-- they might just tell them ‘Im going ahead first’ bc they Know they’ll be ok with surviving/surveying things out and reporting back at others to know all the loops/caution they need

They look out for others this way, quietly but protectively taking actions that are independent-- but will ultimately benefit others. Like soldiers? in a way, reporting/protecting others by putting themselves out there. Wanna be appreciated/love even tho they are sometimes forceful, impatience or independent to a fault.

(Also lowkey gets a lot of self-doubt when they feel like they aren’t progressing, if they’re stagnant or if they’re stuck on something. They’re so used to ‘starting’ stuff and seeing how it gets more and more so that when challenges come-- or like their pace slows to a halt, they get worried if it’s THEM that’s the problem, if they haven’t developed enough and that’s why THEY’re the problem and not-- y know, the task itself that needs solving. Doubts themselves.)

I hope this is good!!! ❤️ Honestly they need more love ;; ❤️❤️ 

[ltjlily17]

Oh, can we call it a night?

What’s the most played song on your iPod? I don’t iPod anymore these days, but theres a site that will aggregate your Spotify listening, and the song I’ve listened to the most all time on Spotify is In Your Atmosphere by John Mayer. What is one quality you admire most in others? People who know what they want to do with themselves. What would you do with a million dollars? Invest it, maybe? Buy a new car. Start a non-profit that will save the world. Or just a small part of it. What’s your favorite song to dance to? All of them. What would your ideal birthday party be like?

No idea.This year I went to my favorite pizza place with a couple of friends, my mom and husband. Was pretty good.

If you could be reincarnated into anything you wanted, what would it be? I’m not sure I believe in any of that. What talent would you like to have? I wish I was ABSOLUTELY FANTASTIC at something. I’m good at most things, and can get by, but I’m not outstanding at any singular thing.  Are you ticklish? Nah. What’s the longest you’ve gone without sleep? 3 days or so. I basically had the flu and felt like I was dying. Not like the real flu either, theres this illness you get when your body hasn’t slept in too long. What New Year’s resolutions did you make? None. What are three songs that mean the most to you? Mayonaise by the Smashing Pumpkins, Wonderful Tonight by Eric Clapton and Bornand Raised by John Mayer. Someone else used these italics and I’m just running with it.

Who is the one person you miss the most? No one? What do you think of your parents? They are flawed people. I make the best out of my relationship with my mom, but I’m just not sure I want to bother with my dad. What is one thing you would do to make the world better? Instill a sense of community. People would be so much better off if we all gave a shit about the other people we are on this planet with. What is your favorite kind of sandwich? Hot, cheesy, some kind of sauce. Other than that, I’m flexible. If you had a puppy, what would you name it? I got a puppy 2 years ago and his name is Finn. We wanted a Star Wars name and Supreme Leader was the runner up name. If you could be invisible for a day, what would you do? I can’t think of anything I’d wanna see. What people do behind closed doors is their business lol. How much cash do you have on you right now? None. I’m in pjs, but beyond that, I rarely use cash. What do you think makes you attractive to other people? Humor or personality? Would more money make you happier? I don’t know. We have a comfortable amount now, minus paying for healthcare. Steve may have a job offer that would cover the healthcare, but would I be happy not working? Would I just turn into a loser slug? What is one of your favorite memories as a child? I really don’t know. My parents pretty much screamed and threw things all the time until my dad moved out. Then they played horrible games with me in the middle. There’s a lot of stuff I don’t even remember about being a child. I’d say the good stuff started happening when I was a teen and could seek refuge in my friends and their stable houses. I had one friend in particular, Andrew, whose mom and dad were super nice and he had a fun little sister- every time I was over there, which was VERY often, it was like a slice of the good life. What’s the hardest thing you’ve ever had to do in your life? This was on another survey and I didn’t know how to answer it. I think once it’s done I just move on, I’m really a dweller. How do you measure intelligence? Unsure. I guess you just get a feeling for someones intelligence as you’re interacting with them.

What cartoons do you watch? None at the moment. I did just get Disney+, so that may change, but there aren’t really any cartoons I’m planning on watching. Have you ever used drugs? Nope. If you were a Skittle, what flavor would it be? The purple one. Sleeper hit. How would you describe your style? Hmmm. Casual indie bohemian with a side of lazy fat person. If you had to spend $1,000 in one hour, how would you spend it? The internet. Generally, my money goes to clothes or Halloween decorations. I really wanna buy some regular decor for the house though, so maybe that. What’s your favorite smell and why? I don’t have one. Something not flowery or overbearing. Something fresh and natural. Where do you buy your clothes? Anthropologie, ModCloth, Target, Gap, Old Navy, Loft. What’s your favorite kind of cake? Birthday cake? Funfetti? Does intelligent life exist elsewhere in the universe? I have absolutely no idea. I used to think that it was just statistically impossible that there wasn’t, but fuck I don’t even know how any of this got here, so I no longer have an opinion. If you could eat anything right now, what would it be? MilkBar birthday cake. Are you into tattoos? I guess so? I like the art of them, I follow a lot of tattoo people on instagram and keep up with their work. I just got my first tattoo a week ago and I’m 35, so it’s not like something I do a lot, ha ha. Do you like photography? I do. I have illusions that I’m a photographer sometimes. I should be currently editing a wedding right now, but here I am. I’m just not sure I’ll ever be the kind of photographer I’d like to be, so I don’t know what I wanna do with it going forward. If you were a holiday, which one would you be? Halloween 100% Do you have any siblings? Nope. If you were to get a tattoo, what would it be of? I just got one. It’s a bat pusheen. I really wanted a bat of some sort and pusheen is my favorite so I just went for it. I always thought my bat tattoo would be a little more dark, but it is what it is lol. What’s the biggest celebrity you’ve ever seen in real life? I hid behind a dumpster when I was like 14 and 3 of the Backstreet Noys walked right by me, ha ha. I have some photos with me and the guys from Good Charlotte from when I was a wee teenybopper. How many pushups can you do? Absolutely zero. What person in history do you admire most? None? I don’t think I admire anyone. These surveys are quickly informing me that I don’t believe in anything or look up to anyone. Am I inert? Who is your favorite actor? I don’t have one. Ha ha, see above. I like most of the stuff Chris Pratt is in. Robery Downey Jr as Iron Man is iconic, but I’ve never seen any of his other movies. I like Adam Driver in Girls and Star Wars. What is the most daring thing that you have done in public? Spoke. Have you ever lied about your age? I don’t think I’ve ever had cause to. Have you ever cried while watching a movie? If so, what movie? For sure. Everything makes me tear up in my old age. Last movie was probably Endgame, though. Are you afraid of anything that most people are not afraid of? Not like huge, life changing fears, but I’m always afraid a bug will get caught in my hair and I can’t touch drains because they freak me out. Where do you see yourself five years from now? I’ve never been one to make plans. Hopefully happy with more direction. What is your favorite candy? Fun Dip, Nerds, Starburst. Have you ever watched someone struggle with addiction? Not someone suer close, but there are lots of auxillary people I know that have and do. Who do you look up to for your style? No one in particular. I see things on the internet I like and try to incorporate that, but its always varied sources. Who is your favorite sports team? I don’t follow sports. How often do you drink alcohol? Once every two weeks? Even then, its usually just one drink with dinner. I don’t much care about drinking. It seems like a lot of work to fill myself up with something I don’t really like the taste of just so I can potentially feel bad later.  What is your life in three words? Evolving yet bland. If you could be anything in the world, what would you be? I knew that, I’d be working towards it. Would you have a pet dragon? If so what color would it be? Sure. Whatever color dragon is fine with me. What’s your favorite sport? The only one I even kind of pretend to care about is baseball. Do you believe that homeless people are dangerous? No.  If you could be skinny and miserable or fat and happy, which would you be? I’d always pick happy. If your life flashed before you, what do you wish you would have done? Hmmm, I don’t know. I don’t have like any huge regret at the moment so probably just wish I’d have enjoyed myself more. If you were to invent something, what would it be? Hopefully something that makes the world better. Some kind of climate change related thing?  Who would you like to get to know better? This wholesaler real estate guy that has been selling us properties. Maybe if we knew him better, he would give us better deals, lol. Have you ever had a near-death experience? Near drowning when I was seven. Do you fear death? Yep.  What is the strangest food you ever ate? Hmmm. I like food with interesting combinations. Like smelly cheese or beet pesto or something, but I’m not on board with weird meat and I don’t eat seafood. Do you think you’re cool? Nah. What reality show would you like to be on? None. I don’t watch any of them. The only show like that I ever watched was the Osbournes, ah aha. What’s your favorite thing to order at a Chinese food restaurant? Whatever is gluten free. Ususally no choices for me at most chinese places. PF Changs has pad thai and general tsos I can have and another place nearby has general tsos too, but thats about it.

I loved lo mein and crab rangoon in my former life, though. Are you happy with your life? For the most part. If you could name your own planet, what would you call it? I’d need some plantary details before coming up with a name. If you could live another 200 years. What would you hope to see? People learning that we need to work together. Would you rather be hot or cold? Well, I’m cold like 90% of the time and that sucks, but at least you can do something about it and layer up and get blankets and such- if you’re hot, you’re just stuck. How would you rate yourself? What am I rating here? I’m like a 0 at makeup skills, but like an 11 if you need someone to pick you up in an emergency. 10 at playlist making. 1 at doing the dishes. Would you ever move to a different country in an attempt to start over? Maybe not to “start over”, but I would definitely consider a dream job in another country if all the details worked out. If you could be a character from any book, who would you be? No idea. I read a lot of Stephen King and none of those characters are alright.  Do you prefer taking baths or showers? I’d love to take a bath, but I’m a little big for the tub. Do you still collect toys from Happy Meals? Nope. I never ate happy meals even as a kid, so I never did. What’s the most spontaneous thing you’ve ever done? I drove two states over for a sandwich once. It was like a 15 hour round trip. In your opinion what is the greatest challenge the world faces today? People being willing to fuck over every one else if they think it will benefit them in any tiny, miniscule way. You are destroying everything by being an asshole and letting the people that really have all the money get away with it. Do you like dogs or cats better? I was 100% cat until I got a dog 2 years ago. I’m mostly dog at this point. Don’t tell my cat. What have you achieved that you once thought was impossible? Hmm, I don’t know. I’m a lot better off than my parents were. I just kind of thought the constant worrying about the car breaking down or the bills being paid was grown up life, so its nice to get here and know that I worked hard to not have those problems. If an ex texted you out of the blue, how would you respond? I don’t think I would. I’ve been with Steven for a decade, so theres def nothing that needs to be said to anyone that far back. Do you have a favorite poet? I don’t. I really like some poems I’ve read randomly in my internet travels, but I’ve never really been able to sit down and read a book of poetry. What have you tried to quit, but weren’t able to? Eating too much food? Would you rather go on a shopping spree with $200 or put it in the bank? I’d rather go shopping. I might save it, though. What was the last rumor that you heard? No idea. I don’t really have rumors around me at this point in my life. My friends aren’t like that and I’m not working anywhere at the moment. What country star would you most like to meet and why? I don’t really know who any of them are. Have you ever been in a car accident? Yes. One of them happened when I was like 15 and it pinched a nerve in my neck and half of my left hand went numb. My mom didn’t believe me for a really long time that there was something wrong until she watched me try to pick up a glass of milk with my left hand and it just fell to the floor. Are you an organ donor? Yes! What is the most dangerous thing you have ever done? Unsure. I’m fairly adventurous, but I don’t do super dangerous things. I guess just trespassing in old abandoned buildings when I was younger could have been dangerous. What is the meaning of life? Moments of joy. For you and others. What word do you like the sound of? Nothing in particular jumps out to me. Isn’t Cellar Door supposed to be lovely? What’s your favorite ice cream flavor? Hmmm. I don’t know. Its more about the brand I think. I usually get Jeni’s or the other fancy ice cream brand when I get the chance. 

I always get the cake flavored froyo, though.  Do you prefer cupcakes or muffins? Cupcakes. Are you an athlete? Ha ha, no. What did the last text message on your phone say? From my brother in law. He’s doing the work on the house we just bought, getting it ready for a renter. He wants more money, lol. What is the funniest movie you’ve seen in your whole entire lifetime? Man, I don’t know. I think maybe Grandma’s Boy was the funniest I had seen at the time. I usually don’t even like movies like that. What’s the worst nightmare you’ve ever had? I had this dream when I was a kid that I left the scissors out and they flew up and cut my moms fingers off and the whole dream was dark and black and white because it was night, but at the end, she picked up the phone (landline, because cell phones weren’t a thing then) and the only color was the green light coming from the phone that illuminated the numbers and she was trying to dial 911 with her fingers that weren’t there. 

I probably had that dream close to 30 years ago now and it’s still clear in my mind. 

What do you know how to cook? Lots of things. I’m especially good at carbonara or alfredo. What’s the worst injury you’ve ever had, and what was it from? I fell down the stairs and broke several bones, severely sprained both ankles and ended up getting surgery to fix the cartilage in one ankle. What’s your favorite amusement park ride? Any that my fat ass can fit on. What do you wish you were doing right now? Well i’m doing this instead of things I should be doing. Who are your musical influences? I don’t play music, so I’m not really influenced? What was your favorite band or musician when you were 12? The Smashing Pumpkins, Bush, Nine Inch Nails, Marilyn Manson and the Back Street Boys, ha ha. What’s the best pick-up line that’s ever been tried on you? I don’t think anyone has ever given me one. How many drinks can you handle? I don’t really know at this point. Getting older changes things. I know that if I have one drink and then stop, I get a headache, lol. What was the longest phone conversation you’ve ever had? Hours and hours. Like 7 or 8 probably? Back in my day you could only talk to boys on the phone because we didn’t have cell phones or text messaging and you only had dial up internet. What’s your favorite candle scent? I got one from Anthropologie called Riviera that was my favorite candle scent ever. I bought two, but they are sold out now and I am very sad.

[9-the-lost-stitchpunks]

“Our origin stitchpunks?” 12 asked.

10 nodded at the twins sitting on the floor,

“They are stitchpunks related to part of your soul. You know the legend of the main stitchpunks? Where half of them died and they’re souls ended up ascending from the heavens to recreate rain?”

“Yeah!” 11 spoke up cheerfully, “they’re the ones who are restoring life back right now on Earth!”

10 smiled and dipped his head as a way to praise for being correct.

“Well, with each raindrop that are rained down, it contains part of one of the late stitchpunk’s soul from the bacteria. Their soul can never run out since they easily regenerate, so pouring parts of their souls down here on Earth is endless.

“When rain started showing up, SARA witnessed strange green lights rising to the clouds and suddenly restoring rain. Curious, analyzed the raindrops and learned that bacteria actually relates to the scientist’s souls. It’s a long and complicated detail on how she figured this out, but to make it short, she decided to to make new stitchpunks with.

“She used a talisman her creator used to make her and added two raindrops in the device. Then, using a body she made, she activated it and the newly fused soul was transferred into the stitchpunk’s body. That was how I was made.”

11 optics glittered in awe,

“Baby 10......”

“Leven please don’t make this lecture awkward than it already is,” 12 muttered.

10 chuckled and blushed while scratching the back of his head,

“It’s ok. You...could say I was considered a baby at first before you guys.”

“Oh yeah!” She chirped, “can you tell us a story on how we were created.”

“Oh don’t worry, I’ll explain that to you later. Today I’m just teaching you about your origin sttchpunks.”

“Ah,” she stopped smiling and stared in curiosity.

“I will tell atleast a bit about your creations. After we transferred you souls into your bodies, we were analyzing you two to make sure the process is a success. What caught us by surprise however is not only do you both have part of the deceased stitchpunk’s soul. But the ones still living right now.”

“Wait what?” 12 snapped out of his daydreaming for a moment.

“Ooooo, really?!”

“We don’t know how it’s possible. Your the first so far that has it. Our leader is still trying to figure it out. But yes, we now know it is possible to contain part of a living stitchpunk’s soul. However, most of your souls are for certain based on a deceased stitchpunk. We call them our Main Origin Stitchpunk, or Main Origin to put it shortly.

“When two souls merge, there is always always gonna be one of the them that takes the most space. And the bigger that part of your soul is, the most likely you would act like that stitchpunk more then the other.”

“So,” she blinked, “does that mean we are the reincarnation of those stitchpunks?”

“Tenchinally you can say that.”

“You act like them, but that doesn’t mean you are duplicate of them. The fact that you are fused with two different souls, the way how you are experiencing your life right now, is what makes you yourself. A fused soul may even create few new personality in you that they never had.”

10 paused,

“There is a catch though.”

11 and 12 looked at with a blank look.

“Not only do the late stitchpunk’s personality affect your actions. It’s their life experience, how they died, how their body and soul was treated before it was ascended.”

“For example, if your Origin Stitchpunk was swallowed by a goblin, you would either like of be horrified by the goblin.”

“THERES A GOBLIN?!” 11 optic pupil went huge. Even 12’s optic slightly shrunk by the news of this.

“No no, I was just giving an example.”

“Ofcourse,” 12 mutttered while optic went back to normal.

“Oh.” 11’s excited reaction disappeared.

“But anyways,” 10 continued, “I’m sure what that personality of yours can do. And I know you never saw what your life is like. But try to be careful. Your actions might end up repeating the future.”

“Oh yes,” he glared at 11, “especially SOMEONE is always putting herself into danger.”

The brown raggedy dressed stitchpunk made an soft embarrassed chuckle while rubbing the back of her head.

“Oh!” Her shutters flew back open when she thought of something.

She quickly looked back at 10 raised her hand.

“Hm. Yes, Leven?”

“I have a question. If it’s true my soul came from my Origin Stitchpunks, does that mean they’re like me? That they believe that there might be some beasts that are innocent?”

Her face fully brightened she said this.

10 was taken back.

Such full hope coming from her face....

He nervously looked at 12, hoping there might be a good answer to this. But he felt uncomfortable on doing it and just looked away. 10 has no choice but to say the best one he can think of.

“11,” he looked back at her, “besides you, we have never met any stitchpunk that can have the same opinion about the beasts being innocent as you.”

“But I’m sure that’s because nobody here ever met my Origin Stitchpunks!” She continued looking excited, “So that means there’s a huge chance that one of them really does!”

10 fist clenched. 11 stopped smiling, wondering what he was thinking.

“Um.....y-yeah. I’m sure they are. Ju-“

He paused again. He walked and kneeled to put his hand on her shoulder. He smiled.

“Just don’t give that belief up. I’m sure there’s someone who sees the beasts the same way as you.”

“Mhmm!” She made a huge smile and dipped her head, “Yeah! Ok!”

10 glanced at both of the twins.

“I think that wraps up the lesson on Origin Stitchpunks. Any questions?”

No answer.

“Alright then,” he fully stood up in satisfaction, “then you two are free to go.”

“Yay! Come on 12, let’s scout the Emptiness again!”

“Sure,” 12 said as she was rushing out of the room, “just give me a moment. I’ll catch up to you at the entrance.”

“Okie dokie!” Her voice chirped from the distance. 12 bent down to get the backpack 11 crafted for him, as well as his weapon. He paused, sensing that 10 was gonna ask him something the moment he walked up to him.

“You were too scared to tell her too. Weren’t.”

The dwarf male was silent for a moment.

“Look. She may be cloud brained as she is. But she is smart enough to be aware of what people think of her. If we said even the slightest doubt of her pathetic viewpoint, it can affect her. Believe me...”

He put his pocket knife on his belt pocket.

“The next thing I need is to see my sister upset.”

10 dipped his head seriously,

“Ofcourse.”

12 looked down on the ground for a moment and began walking out of the room.

“We’ll come back before sunset.”

10 waited until he was out of his sight. He looked away, his mind dazed into the conversation he just had with the twins.