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[apocalypsegay]

"the bechdel test, a way to measure representation of women in media"

IT'S ABOUT LESBIANS!!!!!!!!!!!!! IT'S A JOKE BY A LESBIAN ABOUT WHAT ITS LIKE TO BE A LESBIAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! STOP TAKING IT OUT OF ITS LESBIAN CONTEXT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[indirecticn]

just as info... because im a bitch who has to over explain everything...

i am on like, not semi hiatus but def. semi slow down for a bit and here's why. under the cut is a lot of boring work garbage, feel free to ignore lol

ok SO here's the thing

i think i mentioned it before but like a month or two ago my company fired five people, four of which were like directly in my operations group. we are a bulk liquid e.xport team that specializes in fle.xi bags being loaded like... well, with bulk liquids lmao. its not super hard but it is TEDIOUS as fuck what i have to do on a daily basis.

i have direct contact with suppliers and traders purchasing from suppliers and i coordinate the full movement of product so basically customer tells me: i need X amt of product moved from point a in the usa to point b in the world. they specify, often, the particulars of like.. what steamship lines to use based on rate, or like on end destination preferences, and they expect us to typically coordinate the trucker to pick up food grade containers that then live load or transload at a supplier's plant and then get ingated back into whatever port terminal to get on a vessel and make specific arrival times at their end destination.

like idk some of u might even be in this industry too, so u kno what i mean.

the PROBLEM is that i am expected to get the booking with the ssl, coordinate the trucker, make sure the product gets loaded both within the customer's expected window + within a window where containers can be ingated against said booking's vessel, with OUT additional cost (so things can't sit on yards and get storage or detention for drivers or have additional legs in the trucking which means more money to pay trucker ect ect) and i have to load the amount the customer requests AND

Sometimes the product has to go on rail and that has specific regulations and sometimes the product is hazardous and has to be pre approved on the SSL to even be booked but the customer sent a request asking to load the next week so they get mad you dont get a confirmation within the same day because the haz approval has to be granted by the transhipment port half way across the world too because SOME ports don't take haz and some do but only certain kinds and and and and....

sometimes there is a vessel congestion in the ports or bad weather that shuts down ports or plants, or sometimes drivers have mechnical issues or just miss their fkn appts to load or show up with wrong equipment or ... or there is no container your driver can find because the ssl is out of them at that particular port location or...

yeah.

and so take that and then give me one account that is incredibly picky, sends requests last minute, mostly of randomly haz bullshit, and expects u to lick their boots....

and then another account where i am expected to maintain a perfect constant flow of bookings out of four different ports and the amount expected is like... ohhh 28 a week out of one, 10 out of another, 20 out of two others... and THEN that same customer sends you 75 FUCKING RAILCARS TO ONE SINGLE RAILSPUR/TRUCKER THAT CAN ONLY TRANSLOAD TWO A DAY, MAYBE FOUR TOPS, AND and your boss told them that there would be NO storage charged back to them so you have to now hope to god all the railcars dont show up at once because then you have to meet that four day vessel window and at MOST can load out like 10 of the railcars, if that, if you are lucky with perfect conditions but WHOOPS ALL 75 ARE THERE AT ONCE SO ACTUALLY fuck your life you get storage on 65 railcars and it shows on YOUR account that you lost money

and also?

you have to do the customs filing and documentation for destination arrival and have a window for that too and must have the info perfect or there is charges for fucking it up or containers getting stuck in customs at the destination...

yeah.

my co workers are overwhelmed and they have like maybe 60 containers on their desk a month?

my fucking dumb ass customer gives me a total currently of 450.

and yes, they fired people so i dont have a lot of back up until they hire someone new to take over this single stupid account so i can focus on others.

ive been working from like 6am to 7pm if not later because of this. im looking at other jobs but nothing pays as well currently and i technically like my team its just frustrating because ... yeah.

i hate this industry. i haaaaate it. supposedly im good at it but i dont care. i just want to survive having to pay rent or car payments and getting food, you know?

and i want to be able to do what i love which is write... and this job is melting my brain and just got exponentially more ugly within the last two weeks.

so anyway thats where im at and until i either change jobs or my desk chills out or they hire someone OR i get back on my adhd meds (lol that is really NOT helping to be off of them) im going to be slow.

but whatever, yall are great and i know those that want to will stick around so i appreciate you

thanks for coming to my ted talk bye

[cookiecrumbconundrum]

i miss being with my friends! i miss getting coffee! i miss sitting outside! i hear the laughter outside my door and want to join in! i miss doing homework not on my floor! i miss my classes! i even miss going to work! i miss it all!

[doyouknow-themelonman]

NO COREY LAJOIE WHERE ARE YOU GOING NOOOOOOOOOOOO

[pronouncingitwang]

[ID: 6 gifs from Russian Doll Season 2 of the scene where Alan meets his grandmother as the MTA worker. She comes up to him, smiling, and says, "My perfect baby boy. Didn't I tell you?" Alan, overcome with emotion, shakes his head, and she says, "You were too young. You don't remember. I'll tell you again... My perfect baby boy." She presses her hand to his cheek and he smiles tearily. /end ID]

We can't spend our lives so scared of making the wrong move that… that we never live at all. Don't be so afraid to live. Yeah, I killed myself, so I… I don't really know how to live with that. It all just seems so much easier for everybody else. Am I wrong? RUSSIAN DOLL (2019 - 2022)

[o-i-w-u]

i felt a lil silly and now I have this

Yes I copy and pasted each letter so it was friend instead of followers lmao

Little spooky Mal for your troubles :D

SCURRYS OFF WITH HIM... GAHHAS????? SHOVING HIM MY POCKETS TOSSING HIM AROUND ABGGHBGHHH YEEAHHHGHHH LITTLE BABY MAN AUUYHHYUHUYHUHYFDSGNFGH NH NHJGFNF HJ WEEPING CRYING THROWINGUP LOOK AT HIM OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HES SO LITTLE... TRAVEL SIZED EVEN!!!! TAPING HIM UP AS HALLOWEEN DECOR.. WOES ABSOLVED

[rose-reads-visualnovels]

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AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I HATE THIS NEW OST I HATE MY LIFE WHY IS THERE A FUCKING RING INVOLVED TOO

[kreepyveebs]

THE DAY IS ALMOST OVERRRRRRRRRR AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

[le-velo-pour-dru]

Guys I'm so embarrassed aughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh this has never happened to me before 🥲💔

Girl who accidentally slept in two hours later than she was supposed to: X'D

[r0tcom]

i really want to make an ask blog man!!! but idk who to do it about!! i know its probaly gonna be tf2 but what!!!???? its either mimi, the conagher brothers (my wives from emesis blue :33) or maybe my blue scout and sniper. BUT IDK!!!! AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

[crisscross-sonicsauce]

15 MINUTESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WE'RE SO CLOSEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[sarcasticsciencefictionwriter]

Aghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

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[teutaranaway]

Why do you hate women

god i wanna fjcking rip her fsce off and maul her AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

[theo-is-dumb]

AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Sorry that came from the soul

[ruinikaidoexplodedbadly]

im such a failgirl i cant believe im going into ART SCHOOL for uni thats so pathetic ohmy god well i can still do some media and literature shit instead but AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH Omfg my ass will not survive i have to marry a rich doctor and move into a mansion im telling you people

[teethgrabber]

I'M SO HAPPY THAT WE ARE FRIENDS!!!!! You're super cool and I feel very comfortable talking to you :D but that art though. Can we talk about the art? Let's talk about the art. I remember when u started posting and I was just SO BLOWN AWAY. And I continue to be blown away every time I see something from you like. I think you are one of the most talented people I've ever met. You can often find me on horseback, riding through the streets of Manhattan, ringing my trusty bell to alert the masses that I am sooo happy that tumblr user teethgrabber has posted art. RAAAAH I barely know how to express it I just really adore your art OKAYYY???

AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH THANK U!!!!! its still so surprising to me to hear anyone could like my art to such an extent and especially hearing it from friends who i cherish the art of as well it makes me go crazy. RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHH