#again with the self talk
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honestly my mother was a huge champ about her eight-year-old asking to be bought an unabridged edition of the Odyssey for a birthday present, and then she was an equally huge champ about reading her eight-year-old the unabridged Odyssey as a bedtime story and pausing every four lines to define something for me, and let me just say that I have fucking TREASURED the opportunity to reverse that old tradition by more or less forcing her to sit on my couch and listen to Epic and pause it every four lines for my dissertation
#epic the musical#classics#the odyssey#odysseus#look this is everything you need to know about me as a child#firm shoutout to my mother having handled this whole character arc with aplomb#i read percy jackson several years after this. to clarify. i was a little freak is what i am saying.#i also subjected my in-laws to my Odyssey Thoughts while they were here for christmas#to be honest i do not think they expected me to have a 20 minute speech locked and loaded#but again: they were great sports#incredibly convenient of my child self to have dubbed odysseus their blorbo because now i sound fantastically well educated#when in reality this is EXACTLY the same as me talking for 20 minutes about the animorphs#fuckin gottem
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FNAF movie Mike and Michael meet their younger selves..
#myart#chloesimagination#comic#fnaf#five nights at freddy's#michael afton#mike schmidt#fnaf movie#fnaf 4#fnaf fanart#I get asked q now and again how Michael would react to his younger self#so finally made it into a full comic + added Mike to it too#Mike would definitely be comforting towards his younger self#I think Mike knows he just needed some validation and good support at that age#his parents seemingly let him believe everything was his fault#so Mike would want to be that parental figure he didn’t have#WHILE MICHAEL#listen Michael wouldn’t be mean to his younger self#he knows he was a problem child BECAUSE his home life sucked#BUT HE WILL be blunt with his lil self BAHAH#just telling young Michael outright if he keep being a jerk he’ll turn purple#idk if lil Michael is understanding what he’s saying but it’ll definitely leave an impression PFF#Michael truly keeps being top tier at talking to the youth BAHAH
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Needed an excuse to draw sun in his natural habitat (unpaid babysitter).
#this is the closest to my actual interpretation of the character that i get MBSHSHS#i love soft sun and i love drawing him. but im a true believer in the “we already went over this i refuse to have this talk again—#— youre gonna sit down and we are gonna do this right.“ but like. together#little bit of tough love#hes just a tired babysitter#i do love sun and moon interpretations swapping attitudes when it comes to canon and fanon. at least a little#cuz yk. moon is not 100% just a little creature guy either#been a while since ive done a self insert shenanigan#doodles#sunshine draws#dca fandom#dca fnaf#dca sun#self insert
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While a lotta pipelines are dangerous and bad, the “ew furries are cringe and gross” → “I’m not a furry myself but I support them <3” → “I am a furry” pipeline is a beautiful thing full of love
#was just watchin footage of a furry convention and thinkin about how I’d love to go#and it made me laugh thinkin about how my high school self would react to that#lyla’s talking again
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on a completely separate note; shizun luo binghe with a disciple shen yuan who fell into the abyss??? *thinks about LBH canonically stealing SQQ's corpse for 5 years* he'd hallucinate i think. like, like visual and audial hallucinations.
Keeps thinking he's seeing SQQ in the corner of his eyes, or wandering between the trees, amongst a group of disciples. Thinks he hears him calling for him, but its just the wind or another disciple.
Gets Xiu Ya reforged but patently fucking refuses to make a sword mound. Because his disciple Is Not Dead :))) There was No Body. He's Not Dead. And If You keep Insisting That He Is, He's Gonna Skewer You :). He's holding onto Xiu Ya so he can return his most favored disciple's sword when he returns. It's on his hip right next to Zheng Yang where it's supposed to be.
Also this motherfucker?? does not sleep btw. He has the image of SQQ, wide eyed and hysterical and standing at the mouth of the abyss burned into his fucking eyelids. Can't use the dreamscape to escape it either because he keeps trying to save him and either he does and it's an incredibly cruel trick to wake up to, or he doesn't and he gets his heart broken in several different pieces again.
There is no convincing this man that Shen Qingqiu is dead. Absolutely nothing at all. He is buried so deep in denial that moles would be jealous of how deep he is. He keeps making tea for two in the bamboo house only to remember that it's just him. SQQ's fans are hiding everywhere, little reminders of his presence. He goes to wake up SQQ on the mornings he sleeps in-- only to find the room empty.
#svsss#luo binghe#svsss au#scum villain#scum villian self saving system#shen yuan#shen qingqiu#disciple shen yuan#lbh. visibly exhausted and with twitchy eyes: im fine :) | everyone else: ho no the fuck you ARENT.#SQQ was hysterical not because he found out LBH was half-demon but bc he was having a long-awaited mental breakdown over his autonomy :)#or (limited) lack thereof. he was having a sudden onset crisis of mortality and was handling at quite literally the WORST time. oops#im thinking very hard that LBH would never push his disciple into the abyss especially with no system to force him to. so SQQ either#had to goad him into it (failing always) or throw himself in. he ended up doing it himself but not before some very impressive hysterics.#BUT ALSO. IF THIS HAD BEEN WHERE SQQ WAS THE HALF-HEAVENLY DEMON INSTEAD IT WOULD'VE BEEN SO GREAT.#and by great i mean horribly angsty bc SQQ is NOT doing too hot and has. in very SY-like fashion. convinced himself that LBH will kill him#when he finds out he's a demon. so when it comes out i have this mental image of him lunging at LBH and LBH flinches back. but SQQ wraps hi#hands around the blade of Zheng Yang and yanks it up so the tip of the blade is digging into his chest where is heart is. LBH can't yank th#sword away without risking slicing into SQQ's hands. SQQ's hair has fallen out of its tail/bun and is now messily spilling down his#back and its NO helping the kinda deranged look he has going on. he's visibly shaking and his eyes keep flittering away and back at LBH's#face. SQQ is looking at the messages from the system warning him that he has to go into the abyss or punishment will occur. he's like.#rambling though. talking about how shizun doesn't *like* unclean things and there is nothing more unclean than a demon. like he is#INSISTING. LBH can't?? get a fucking word in. actually. SY isn't listening that much either anyways. too overwhelmed with the system and#the amount of stress he's under and his crumbling mental state and the innate and primal desire to live even when he's standing in front of#his own executioner. it all ends with him sitting on the ground at the lip of the abyss with his hair falling in his face. he looks so#unkempt and fallen apart and so distinctly *non-Shen Qingqiu* that LBH feels physically ill over it. tears are streaming down SQQ's face#and despite everything he is smiling. its not a nice smile. its a very frayed falling apart at the seams about to crack smile.#he tells shizun not to worry about staining his blade with this disciple's filthy blood because this disciple will take care of it himself.#and then he falls into the abyss before luo binghe can so much as grab him. the only reason LBh doesn't literally jump in after him is bc#he was numb with shock and the abyss was already closed before he could feel his legs again :]
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✨Buck's baggage✨
#don't talk to me or my son or his self worth issues or his self worth issues or his self worth issues or his self worth issues ever again#he is so special to me!!!!!!!!#to whoever is saying he's baggage free now post coming out you are so weird forever. and so is he. sorry.#okay going to sleep#tv: 911#911 abc#911 fox#911edit#911gifs#tvedit#buck buckley#evan buckley#tvgifs#televisiongifs#mythtakensgif#cinemapix#dailyflicks
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WHAT DO YOU MEAN HE USED TO PRESS HIS FINGERS TOGETHER LIKE THEY WERE ONE
#gravity falls#I need to watch the episode again to see if he does it in full color there#new self deprecating habit I’m adding to fics about him#stanford pines#talking flower time#LATE EDIT HERE#THESE ARE FROM THE GF STORYBOARDS#link is in the comments for them
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magnus’s “i have just been kissed by alex fierro” is of course hilarious if he’s realizing it just at this moment. but like. throughout the books he’s already aware? he gets flustered when around alex regardless of what gender he is, he knows he’s into him. he describes male characters as attractive. he has relative knowledge of queer experience, having met other queer kids while in shelters or on the streets, always growing as he talks more with alex and other people and learns more about the world and himself. the fruity edge line. magnus's "i am absolutely great about that" was the culmination of a journey he's been on for a long time, perhaps more subtle than that of nico di angelo but still important. this was a point he reached !! this state of comfort and ease with himself and his identity and being was something forged over time !!!
#CLEANING OUT MY DRAFTS AND OH MY GOD FEELING STUFF ABT MAGNUS CHASE ~AGAIN~#he mustve. he mustve been so alone during so much of that self realization.#god i hope he talks about it with people eventually . there's so many people that will be there for him .#MAGNUS CHASE YOULL ALWAYS BE FAMOUSSSSSSSS#mcga#magnus chase and the gods of asgard#magnus chase#alex fierro#fierrochase
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it’s been 6 years exactly nd i apologize for everything about this
[tw: implied csa]
#i did not work on this fr 6 yrs obvio i jst hated what i did originally nd dropped it forever#bt like last month i thought abt it again nd realized that 6 year promise was coming up….so i debased myself#i still hate this so much :) but i forced myself to do it#rip to the 100 odd ppl who were xcited abt this when i originally posted the sneak peek#i rly wanted to try making something long but i think i shdnt do that n e more lmfaoo#thers a significant quality drop on lots of pages i never quite got around to finalizing n time. sorry. sorry sorry sorryyy#iasip#always sunny#charlie kelly#dennis reynolds#mac mcdonald#mac macdonald#charden#chardennis#trash trio#charmacden#deetress if u squint#fanart#mine#i want to xplore the chardeetress part of their hs more i rly lov that trio#also also i totally lied in the original post talking abt ‘these 3 suffering’ it was always focused on the charden trauma connection#sorry mac girlies#i hav complex feelings regarding mac's involvement n th uncle jack side of charlie's childhood#but they r not on display here#gnna hav to draw some cute bb charmac to repent and to self sooth aftr this#1k
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i keep thinking to myself, god we have got to put tim drake in a time loop. but also time loops just feel so perfectly like speedster bullshit, yknow? therefore lemme just smash these thoughts together like particles at cern aaannddd--
let's put tim in a time loop that bart accidentally caused. a tim loop, if you will :) specifically, tim loop where kon dies at the end and bart just kind of subconsciously went nope! and "if anyone can fix it it's tim right?" bc bart has. a normal amount of faith in his friends but also a normal amount of feelings about himself being useless to save kon bc he couldn't in infinite crisis.
and bam suddenly tim is having the worst tuesday of his life like 20 times in a row. yippee! it's bart-powered but he doesn't even know. he did it on accident. bart in the loop doesn't know what's going on. it just resets every time the ending is something bart can't accept (kon dies again). tim tries to sacrifice himself to save kon once but somehow that doesn't break the loop either (bart refuses to accept that). how long can tim go through a time loop before he goes completely bonkers bananas insane? only tim(e) will tell.
and, worse: how many times can tim watch kon die? how many times can he beg kon to value his own life, to get it through his head that being a hero doesn't mean he needs to die for the world, that there must be another way? how many times can he watch kon sacrifice himself to save others and know that if he stops kon, those people might die?
how fucked up would he be if he ever actually found out just how suicidal kon has been his entire life?
extra fun: cassie takes one look at him every time and instantly clocks that he's feeling like shit, but every time she forgets why, because the loop resets. tim is being perceived but it never lasts. this will drive him crazy so fast. he's gonna start acting out and snapping at her for being concerned because what's the POINT of talking about his feelings if everything resets ANYWAY. this will definitely not come back to bite him in the end or anything, right?
(kon-el dead wife giggling in the sunshine and playing under the sheets montage plays over and over for both tim and bart. this probably means nothing.)
#rimi talks#i will never write this fic bc i have too many wips already but like#kon and heroism as self sacrifice vs bart refusing to let him die so hard he breaks time a little bit#but bart is fucked UP by infinite crisis and doesnt think he can do it himself. like#its about the devotion between all 3 of them. timkonbart is real#and tim&cassie is also so fucking real its a cornerstone of this in a different way.#she knows him sooo well. she KNOWS what intense grief and trauma look like on him#but the time loop prevents her from actually getting through to him. because she did once. and then it reset#anyways. time loops fun everyone go play in stars and time im thinking about it again#tim#kon#bart#idiot trio <3#cassie#core four
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#fooling around on magma with friend again#was doodling her while listening to polish rap and disco#cnalastair talking#svsss : cnalastair#svsss#scum villains self saving system#sha hualing
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the most difficult thing about growing as a person socially, as in getting out of your shell and noticing that you are, is that there will still be times when it doesn’t feel like you’ve grown at all! times when you can’t really connect with anyone around you, times when you fail to enter into an existing conversation, times when you say the wrong thing (or nothing at all when in hindsight you probably should’ve). but that’s also kind of the best thing, because that’s the thing that helps you realize that sometimes, it’s not you or your lack of skills or any shortcoming. sometimes certain environments just aren’t for you and certain people aren’t your people, and that’s okay. that’s human. it’s okay to not feel the progress you have made all the time.
#and that goes for every type of growth#backstory of this post:#after I came back after a few months of doing my international internship I felt so much more confident#it was easier making friends and walking up to people#i took more chances#and generally just heard it a lot from those around me who kept telling me how much i’d changed#this was further supported by my first office job that went pretty well#but then came my grad internship. and while i love the work and have met some great people I noticed it was difficult again#there was one office lunch where no one spoke to me at all! it was my first week and I didn’t know what to say#if i should even say anything#we were all sitting at the same table#not one person even glanced my way#it made me doubt myself; i was doing so well before#was that even real? why can’t I just speak up? this is not the way to connect with people#especially in my first week!#but you know what#i was still doing well. i just had to factor in the fact that these were all middle aged people talking about reality shows i didn’t watch#and bikes i knew nothing about#as well as people who knew i was the new intern yet didn’t speak to me at all even though I’d introduced myself to them all individually#and even so#people I couldn’t really talk to about MY interests outside of work either#my point being:#it’s okay to not feel a connection with everyone you meet#it’s okay to fall back into old habits even though you’ve developed new ones#it will never unravel the process you’ve made and the connections you’ve built#you’re doing fine#after this internship I will surround myself with people who reaffirm that belief#growth in the self#self love#positivity
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Clingy f/os that are too emotionally stifled to be openly clingy. Clingy f/os that are stiff in public but adore you at home. Clingy f/os that slowly, secretly inch their hand into yours. Clingy f/os that play with your hands under the table, write out words or images. Clingy f/os that will follow you around and want to be around you like a puppy but that you have to guide them into a hug that they melt into. Clingy f/os but the soft moments are just for you, they’re sacred in that way. do you get what I’m saying?
Dividers by saradika-graphics
#imagines.💕#Do we understand?#f/o imagines#self ship community#self ship#self shipping#fictoromantic#Once again I’m talking about Carmen
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man I know I shouldn't jump in on Wicked discourse but I keep seeing people calling Glinda the "villain" of Wicked and it's driving me nuts because I really don't think it's as simple as that
imo Glinda's story is a very Shakespearean style tragedy about a white feminist (liberal) politician. Her hamartia is her desire to be accepted by the oppressive ruling class, while her internal conflict is her struggle to be perceived as "good." She was influenced just enough by her marginalized activist friend to feel crushing awareness of her own place in the fascist system, but they were separated before she was able to fully reach self actualization and pursue a more fulfilling goal. Her tragic downfall is that she got exactly what she thought she wanted, but through her incomplete character arc she found that it was actually cold and hollow and lonely. Yeah she's a shitty selfish person and she dug her own grave but she's not the villain, she's the tragic anti-hero
#✨literary theory baby✨ it pays to pay attention in english class#🎶 like a comet pulled from orbit as it passes a sun 🎶 like a stream that meets a boulder halfway through the wood 🎶#[she] has been changed for good 🎶#<- as in there is no escape#she can't go back to blissful ignorance she is trapped in her self awareness forever#wicked#lyla's talking again
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Something Old, Something New.
[First] Prev <–-> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#a-yuan#Hey now! It's been a long while since we've seen that hair style!#Something old - in the way you see a little glimpse of a boy that died a long time ago#Something new in a man who has a new direction and purpose. Somehow it is still you. But you can't ever be that *you* again.#I think grief comes from a mourning of futures we lost. We associate it with love-#-but what else do we mourn if not the future we had with them? So too do we feel grief over the future our past self once hoped for.#I love the radish extra because it is so sweet and so full of small sorrows.#WWX is as playful as always with A-Yuan but there is a constant presence of how he no longer sees a future for himself.#Be it in the way he talks about the impossibility of him having children.#Or in the way he creates this silly and artificial game of helping A-yuan grow-up faster.#It's always about the moment to moment with him. Tomorrow isn't guaranteed.#His major hubris moment has yet to come but I would strongly argue that the seeds of doubt were already gestating.#It might be a bit of a 'ship tease' moment when WWX comments that his idea kid would be more like LWJ than himself -#But I consider it to be a true (if unconscious) sentiment that he sees himself as having gone down the wrong path.#It's not a 'I want LWJ to have my kids' moment. It's an 'if I were to have kid - I'd want them to never know what I went through.'#WWX is the parent that breaks the cycle. He walked for 10km through the corpse piles everyday and by god he's driving you to school.#LWJ is also a cycle breaker parent but in the opposite direction. He packs chocolate chip cookies and extra snacks in your bag.
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more mario and luigi doodles but i took their mouths away
+ extra unfinished stuff under the cut
#the dear doppelganger weeg one is purely self indulgent bc ive been playing it on loop recently im normal#and i know doppelganger is a different whole thing than what he has but. hey its ok we ball#more spm on the way (i hope!!!!!! as long as i dont get distracted by avemuji or sekai for a bit)#most of this was practicing mario bc i still dont like the way i draw him tbh but i think we're getting somewhere#shoutout priv twt oomfies for dealing with my mario fix bullshit youre all so real#drawing these little guys is so much different from my other little guys i think thats why ive liked drawing them so much constantly#it just feels fresh for me!! i just get to fuck around when i draw them its fun to experiment again#ok done talking i like them a normal amount#mario and luigi#mario#luigi#super mario bros fanart#super mario bros#super mario fanart#spm#super paper mario#mr l#starlow#smb#super mario brothers#mario bros#mario fanart#art#fanart#my art#cloudy draws#nintendo#nintendo fanart
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