#again oh god tho I’m soooo sorry it took so long I honestly just saw it today

[twocorvids]

This might be a strange question, but kind of goes along with your post about Rick killing people. do you think Rick shows mercy?

oh god, im so sorry anon, this ask COMPLETELY slipped through the cracks for me.

BUT!!!! GOD, is that a fascinating question!

Because yes, to a certain extent, he does. Rick is capable of mercy, and even empathy to a lesser extent. he is capable of care, of going out of his way to care for people he doesn’t necessarily feel he should. (I AM talking about ppl outside of the Smith family, lol, even though they definitely fit that criteria too.) we see that in the episode “The Old Man and the Seat” with Tony and the lengths Ricks goes to bark at him, but never quite bite. the whole episode is Rick trying to look big, to seem intimidating and like a threat that he really should be, considering everything we’ve seen him do— but for whatever reason, it’s apparent that Tony is not the sort Rick can bring himself to treat cruelly.

and then it becomes clear that this isn’t a phenomenon in the weird Shakespearean play that is Ricks life! it’s something that has happened many times. in fact, it’s revealed that Rick has a whole chamber, or some otherwise “secret” room, full of people he traps in “Globaflyn” to keep them simultaneously in their ideal world and out of Rick’s life. which also demonstrates some severe control issues, but that’s for another time. I’ll stop legit explaining the whole episode, but I will also mention that that plot line ends with Rick trying to comfort Tony’s father a the funeral, and then ends with what is probably the most emotional scene of a character sitting on a toilet.

I bring all this up mostly to ask this: okay, Rick is capable of showing mercy, but what exactly triggers it? what specific aspect of a person needs to be present in order for Rick to show this quality?

and I think the answer is pretty simple: relatability. someone who he feels a personal kinship to. who mirrors him in some way.

and despite how distant of a person Rick is and tries to be, it makes a lot of sense. in an infinity of infinity, it makes sense that Rick would run into the occasional person who is a bit too much like him. someone who, if given the opportunity, could understand Rick a bit too well. considering that Rick has been just about everywhere, it’d be stranger for him not to. and Rick, predictably, is very uncomfortable with that notion. both in terms of bearing the concession of actually seeing another person and having that person see you. it disturbs Rick. it makes him want be kinder, to be merciful instead of defaulting to violence to get rid of most inconveniences, to lessen his grip on this multiverse-level rope in his fight for control— but he’s not ready for that type of change. or at the very very least, he wasn’t ready yet.

it’s so interesting because he is clearly self-aware of how deep his desire for connection is, so deep that it threatens to overtake his need for control— so he merely eliminates those numbers from the equation for himself, albeit in a way that is far more compassionate than Rick tends to go for. his controlling nature just barely takes priority over all else, so he ensures that it stays that way.

side note: where does Birdperson fit into this? well, i think this reveals a very interesting part of their relationship too. because I think Rick let BP(and even squanchy ig) get so close because, ironically, he thought BP couldn’t get close. because he and Birdperson are pretty damn different people, especially in Ricks mind. so Rick thinks they can’t understand each other because they can’t really relate to each other. Rick is loud, destructive, and allergic to all things emotional and vulnerable. Birdperson is quiet, just, and has a certain emotional intelligence to him that implies a deeper knowledge of how people work. and then their backgrounds are pretty different, too.

though it makes me wonder: is Rick aware of how much BP truly understands him? would knowing that change anything for Rick if he hadn’t known? or, is Rick fine with him having such a solid read on him simply because in this situation he isn’t forced to do any emotional labor of his own for BP? sure, he can care about/ love BP, but he doesn’t have to understand him because BP also doesn’t understand Rick! he can experience the more pleasant sides that come with emotions and love without compromising his sense of comfort and what he calculates as his safety. well, that was until he was (arguably) willing to at blood-ridge. but the thing Rick missed there at the battlefield is that BP already understood Rick as a person at that point. and he also understood the damage Rick would inadvertently do if Birdperson took him up on his offer. i do think that Rick has at least somewhat reverted back to that mindset of “we can’t understand each other because we can’t relate, so I’m safe!” current-day, however. personally, I honestly don’t think Rick really realizes how well Birdperson truly knows him, but ultimately; who really knows, huh?

I’m so sorry this is so long and possibly nonsense analdnekendodjj but thank you so much for the ask!!!!

[selfcareparker]

(lovely anon) ok so this may sound so dramatic but; let me paint you a picture: i’m responding to your latest message, sitting on the edge of the sofa. i type in “lovely anon” into the search and see this longgg post come up and i’m like uhhh... i scroll down and see the people you tagged and literally. when i saw @ lovely anon. i . cried . like full on tears. my brother goes “what are you doing” “she tagged meeeee” and he continued what he was doing and didn’t care LMAOO but i was so emotional? i love and appreciate you too and aAH IM CRYING!! you’re just really sweet and i didn’t expect it at all and it was really lovely to be a part of something :’)

the kermit pic sent meee but yes yes yes!! when you start uni let me know, lol i’m so excited for you!! let me know how it goes cuz i’m literally hype hahah & yes we will be in our sad corners of the world, missing england but you’re right it’ll be sooooo worth it in the end!!! and oH i’m glad you talk to them lol i truly thought you like haven’t seen them/haven’t spoken to them this whole time😭 that would’ve been awful!

also i totallyyy get what your saying about the english speaking thing. and idk why you’re insecure (well i *knowww* bc it’s not your first language and you’re studying it in college so yuh) but your english is great :)))

lol yeah that makes sense.. my mom took french in college and she remembers NOTHING HDJSHSJ (the fact that you wanna learn MORE languages i- ahh i so admire you.. you literally know so many languages🥺) yea i mean you know a bunch of languages bc you know the base of words lol, but i wonder if because you know latin it’ll be easier for you to learn french? oh- oh wait you said it’ll be easier HAHHAHA

THERES SO MUCH EXCITING STUFF TO TALK ABOUT HDGSJSJSL it’s so wild to me that you can’t watch chaos walking :( i’m a professional hacker tho so i’ll try and find a way for you LMAO (by professional hacker i mean i literally have gotten multiple free trials and i’m pretty sure the hulu police are after me bUT ITS THEIR FAULT BC WHY IS IT SO EXPENSIVE???) i mean the movie was good? and cute? and funny? but yea don’t think it’s gonna be the most fantastic thing haha AND THE DOGGO AWWW (i saw it again today- or my today lol, saturday, aND THESE OLD PEOPLE CAME AND SAT IN FRONT OF ME AND MY FRIEND LIKE ITS A LONG STORY LMK IF YOU WANNA HEAR IT)

SHARK FILMS?!?!! PLEASE READING THIS I HAD NO IDEA YOU WOULD LIKE SHARK MOVIES TOO FHSKSHSHDJDJGAJAYSJS ok so i haven’t seen any of the classics (i’m working on it) but i would probably watch jaws to laugh at it? not like that lmao but like comparing it. OKAY BUT HONESTLY I BARELY KNOW ANYONE WHO LIKES SHARK FILMS AHHH OKAY im adding “the shallows” to my watchlist bc it sounds super good AND SAME AHSJD ANY BODY OF WATER IN A MOVIE I JUST KNOW ITS COMING LMAO watch me not go in the water anymore after seeing that picture HHDJSJ

WHEN I READ THIS I JUST GOT DONE TALKING TO MY MOM ABOUT THE MEG AND THAT SCENE WHERE THE SHARKKK JUMPEDDDD AND ATE THE OTHER ONEEEE AND THEN JONAS HAD TO DO- bro i cannot (i think that one is my favorite because i love me a bit of romance and the subtle romance hAD ME) 47 meters down PHEW could you imagine?? i try not to think too hard about it i’m like “don’t be dumb catherine, don’t put yourself in a dumb situation” (not autocorrect having “dumb bitch” ready i am not lying) and i literally understand... there is no other way to explain 47 meters down

i CANNOT watch horror movies, can’t can’t can’t, i literally hate them i cannot do it!!! the thrill is tempting and it’s cool in the moment but i cant lmao. i don’t have nightmares about scary things (for the majority of the time) but going to sleep i’m like oooohhhhhh shit 🥲 literally what you explained

music !!!! music !!!! music !!!! (u ever write a word and now it looks weird lmao) MY BROTHER DOESNT LIKE MUSIC AND ITS SHIT IM LIKE WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU- anyway, my music taste is all over the place i mean......... it’s crazy. earlier today i was listening to meghan trainor’s album “title” oUT OF NOWHERE, but just a few minutes ago i was listening to fall in love with me by earth wind and fire soooo lol .. megan is *chefs kiss*, i’m not familiar with stormzy🙈, harry styles.... IM SORRY IM THAT PERSON but i don’t listen to his solo music EEK i only listen to adore you... and not that frequently... the music video freaked me out... i like niall’s solo music a lot more, which i listen to a lot more. now. one direction. favorite. please & thank you. i have a playlist called “boy bands” and it consists of one direction and the vamps (obsessed with cherry blossom btw) but as you can see my taste is all over the place!! fr fr if i sent you what apple music has as my “favorites” it went from ariana grande to carrie underwood to glee (OBSESSED DONT LET ME TALK ABOUT IT) i mean please if you let me i will nonstop (hamilton HDJSH) talk about music all day😩 & NOOO UR MUSIC IS GREAT HAHSK IM NOT A BIG RAP PERSON BUT DOJA CAT IS MY FAVORITE!!

okay good, i’m glad :) i was just nervous that you did feel that way <3 and GOT IT HAHAJ healthy pressure is always good :’) my friend got me these pens cuz i love stationary and school supplies lol and was like “now you have to write something” soooo yea i feel that! and i saw you posted the ficcccccc literally so proud of you 🥺🥺 i’m trying to decide if i read it tomorrow or tonight..... sleep or a literal beautiful creation made by the sweetest person and is v v nice smut and college!peter and 4.7k...... sleep aint really calling no more.

GIRL ALL OF MY SENTENCES ARE TOO LONG HAHAHAH IN FACT THIS IS TOO LONG SOOO (also why am i 3 days late..😑) anywho it’s 1 in the morning so <33 lovely anon

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oh my god the fact that you cried nearly made me cry too😭😭🥺🥺 (also, your brother LMAO), i wasn‘t even sure if you‘d see it but i immediately thought of you so of COURSE i included you <333

the hulu police lsjsjaiaik, girl i was ready to get a hulu membership when i wanted to watch big time adolescence and i couldn‘t find it anywhereee, and when i got to the payment it said i need a bank account that‘s based in the US or whatever. like bro i was about to pay you!! but i was forced to find it somewhere (and i did, on levidia,— not that i‘ve ever used it because it‘s illegal 😤 i would never!!! i‘d rather support billion dollar companies and spend my money on watching films that i can find for free 🥰🥰🥰 not

i‘ve found chaos walking online so i‘ll watch it som time this week!! also YES TELL ME THE STORY

okay so idk if you watched/are planning on watching falcon and winter soldier but i watched the first episode the other day and they were speaking french (just a few seconds) and I UNDERSTOOD SOME WORDS DLDJDJ and i was so proud of myself. i‘ve only ever learned french with duolingo lol (i only do like 5 mins a day and that‘s why i was so surprised that i understood some of it!!). and yeah apart from latin i feel like italian, german, french and english are all similar in a sense.. i mean obviously they‘re completely different languages but for example there are some grammatical constructions in french that i think i wouldn‘t understand if i only spoke english? so when i translate those things into english you can‘t directly translate them bc you say things differently, but when i translate them into german then it makes more sense to me. idk that‘s something i noticed so i feel like if you already know multiple languages it‘s easier to learn another language compared to if you only know one language and are trying to learn a second one. even if the languages aren‘t similar then i think you get the hang of it easier.

ikd slsjsjs also i don‘t want you to think that i‘m a linguistic genius or anything lmfao, like i‘m only fluent in english and german and i‘m just a wannabe (ew that word) polyglot sksj (yes i had to google polyglot— i do think learning ancient greek would be super cool tho? like imagine studying latin AND ancient greek, whew). and honestly i don‘t think i‘ll ever be fluent in another language bc i don‘t plan on living anywhere other than germany or possibly england and i‘m not dedicated enough to properly learn any other languages esp if i don‘t have anyone to speak the language with. but i still try my best and i just love language/languages as a whole so yeah i‘m happy & just learning as much as i can dkdjh🥰

(I guess language/linguistics are/is my passion (which sounds sooo lame lmaoooo) and the word passion comes from the latin word pati (i think💀) which means to suffer, and in german passion is called Leidenschaft which basically means suffering too, idk why i‘m telling you this maybe you know it already. but ok dumb fun fact, in german you can make compound words with as many words as you like, and the longest official german word is Rindfleischetikettierungsüberwachungsaufgabenübertragungsgesetz which is a law for the monitoring of labels on beef... this is such a dumb fact but i think about that word like once a day idk why dodjsjsj so... 👁👄👁)

but i‘ll stop boring you with my linguistics talk because truly i don‘t know much about languages but i am interested omg i‘m gonna shut up now.

now water + sharks. (so in non-covid times i always go to croatia with my dad during the summer, and even before ever watching a shark film i was always kind of scared in water.. but after watching so many shark films wldjdj HELP Like you know when you go deeper into the ocean and you can‘t see or feel the ground/floor? anymore.. then i just start imagining sharks. like i can‘t help it i just imagine a shark sneaking up on me or feeling something graze my foot ABD I JUST START FREAKING OUT SSKJSHSJ. idk. anyway kdkdh i do love the ocean/swimming though but the older i get the more i realise how fucking scary the ocean is ( even if we’re gonna disregard sharks)

your brother... what‘s wrong with him? HOw CAN YOU NOT LIKE MUSIC LIKE WHAT THE FAWK

OKAY BUT SAME ABOUT THE ADORE YOU MUSIC VIDEO DLDKDJSJSKSLSLKSKSJSHSH and yeah i have to say harry’s style (styles lol) as a solo artist isn‘t reaaally my cup of tea, and i only like the popular songs from his second album and the first album is only good when i‘m in the right mood (haven‘t actually listened to it in a while though, but kiwi is one of my all time favourites along with only angel but i hate the start, like it takes 40 seconds to actually begin properly). i like mgk and because of him i watched the dirt which is a film about motley crue, and now one of my favourite songs ever is same ol situation and i‘m into rock now lol. +++ justin bieber. I had a justin bieber cardboard cutout thingy😭 i was the biggest Belieber on earth when i was 13-16, but i didn‘t like his last album and tbh he‘s become a bit weird lately, BUT OH MY GOD. i Listened to his new album yesterday and i‘m in LOVE with the song hold on

i really like niall‘s music toooo!!!! And doja cat 😌😌😌😌 And THE VAMPS OG MY GOD. i got to see them live bc they were the opening/support act for little mix and ajdsjskslslsjsjsj. (Also i love concerts, some of the best memories of my life are concerts, i‘ve seen nicki minaj live 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 and justin twice and my heart fills every time i think about how excited i was, it was my first concert ever (16th of September 2016 😌) and i was the happiest person alive seeing justin drew fucking bieber (even if i‘m not tooo sure about justin nowadays)

i have a confession? Idk what hamilton is. I mean I‘ve heard about it and i keep googling it but i‘ve never watched it (is it even a film???? or like a proper musical? also pls tell me you grew up with high school musical. i have a few friends who didn‘t and it makes me so sad 😭😭😭 hsm is the best thing to happen to my childhood , the sooooongs— i still listen to some of them every week or month lool they make me so happy)

(Okay wait i was about to recommend some stormzy songs but you said you‘re not that into rap so i won‘t dksksjl)

What you said about my fic AHSLSLSJB (i wasn‘t sure if you sent an ask about it earlier? idk that might have been someone else, so if it was (and you‘ve read it already) i hope you liked it sksjsj i was...... unsure about it. and i have this reeaaallly long peter fic that i started writing in december and that‘s the only peter thing i currently want to write but also i can‘t because idk how to continue kddjj.) but I’m definitely getting back into writing i have a few blurbs that i want to write so 🥰🥰🥰

Oh and pls as soon as you read this let me know: violet or yellow? (it‘s just a tiny thing for my new theme slsksj)

[skamfairy]

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows - thoughts after reading it for the first time

oh my god it’s come to this. we made it. WE ARE HERE. at the end. im emotional. shsajhahjs THATS AN UNDERSTATEMENT. This whole book has left me so emotionally drained but not in a bad way. it made me feel so so so much and change everything and i’m just shjjhsahjas I GOT A LOT OF THOUGHTS but i’m also worried i’ll forget things cos i took a long time to read this and a lot happened so ashjashjas let’s see how i go (i really should have kept notes as i read but i’m chaotic and it’s too late sajsahj i’ll do that if i ever review a book on here again) 

THIS IS SO LONG so if you read all of this then sajhsajha wow you must really love me or harry, or both sdhjasjhahjssajh 💖

ALRIGHT lets start with dudley!! it feels like years ago now but when he actually showed feelings towards harry it was soooo good and unexpected and i really really loved that choice. like showing that he’s not a villain or anything and that he does actually care for harry despite being such a brat his whole life sahjsahj idk it made me remember that he’s just a kid too who was also raised by the dursley’s you know? anyway i loved it and i’m hoping harry and him do sorta keep in touch. 

this also feels like a big part of the theme in this series i want to touch on. I feel like instead of villainising characters straight up, we sorta get to see that when you are shown nothing but cruelty and disrespect then they are the traits you will only know as you grow and it’s really sad but also creates incredible empathy and understanding in the reader when you see characters like draco and dudley kinda follow what their parents teach them. and then when you get that reminder with both characters that that’s not really them and once they begin to think for themselves or get shown something else they can finally branch away from that and be who they really are. That’s what i love so much in this series! being able to see that they aren’t evil or bad they’ve just been taught shitty behaviour and they can change once they follow their own beliefs and not those of their parents.

i also had a slight critique about slytherin’s potrayal here shjashj but i deleted it cos i felt like i ranted more than i should ashjashj but basically i just felt like there was sooooo much anti-slytherin content in the series but i got it cos i figured it was all building up to a big SLYTHERINS ARE GOOD TOO LETS BE FRIENDS moment and i mean i wasn’t wrong? we got that sorta, in the end when harry talked to his son and told him that slytherins are cool too, although the example was snape jhsjhsa. but yeah i think after all that i was expecting something more idk. especially cos i found it weird that not a single slytherin was in dumbledores army or fought on the order of phoenix side in the battle. like they all just left! but idk maybe i’m too new to hp to understand sahjsahj i just thought at least a couple slytherins would fight just to show that not all of them are bad but maybe they were scared cos of voldemort’s ties to the house shjashj sorry this still turned into a bit of a rant but i’m not like annoyed just surprised. imagine a character who was in the squad but they were slytherin sjhasjh

ANYWAY back on track shjasjhas 

hedwig dying broke my god damn heart 

IM CRYING remember when fred and george got turned into harry’s and they turned to each other and said in sync “WOW WE’RE IDENTICAL!” im sorry i just flicked to that page by accident to remember what to discuss next and that just made me laugh again im sahjahjhjsa

SO I GUESS THAT MEANS IT’S TIME TO TALK ABOUT FRED AND GEORGE. okay yes so they are two of my fave characters EVER not just in hp but in anything i’ve ever read or watched. they bring me so much laughter and happiness and while reading this series, when i was feeling down and i needed something to get my mind of things, i would read hp. but every single time a line from fred or george came up, it would make me feel SO much joy and i can’t express how much they both helped me and brought light into my life while reading this series. and they’ll always hold a special place in my heart. i’m so thankful for this series because it introduced me to some of the most beautiful characters i’ve ever met. and fred and george are two of them. They showed how much you can give and help in such a horrible situation, just by giving people something to laugh about and that was so so so incredible to read. to see that you don’t have to be super brainy like hermione or strong or brave like ron and harry to be important and a hero. bringing light and laughter in people’s lives during a dark time is just as heroic and meaningful as anything else and i love that fred and george represented that power. (but also they had everything else too sajashjhjas) anyway i really love them. and i remember while reading this book, fred pulled the same joke he did when we first saw him in book one and it made me emotional because we have come so far and he’s still just as warm and joyful as he was 7 years ago. losing him was the worst thing in the whole series, not worst in the sense that it didn’t make sense or anything because it did and i’m glad i could feel soooo much but it was the worst thing by it hurting the worst for me personally and ishjajhashjsa im never gonna get over it. everytime i think about it i cry like i am now dammit sdhjsahjajh SO LETS CHANGE THE SUBJECT 

oh my god one of the things that broke my heart early on wasn’t even a death but hermione erasing herself from her parents minds to protect them???? That’s absolutely heartbreaking and sad and i love her so much. she is so clever but also so caring and brilliant and she does whatever she needs to and it’s just fucking hell it was so sad and i just hope it all worked out and she was able to undo it cos i’m really stressing about it i don’t want her to lose her parents :(( and they love her so much like we never got to see them much but i remember in the second book how supportive they were even tho it was so out of their element and scary they were just happy for their daughter and GAH I’M EMOTIONAL anyway i love hermione so much, moving on.

Ron and harry fighting??? MADE ME AGE A THOUSAND YEARS OUT OF STRESS AND PAIN that’s the worst, i hate it. i hate it when they fight. it breaks my heart because you know how much ron means to harry. he’s his number one, he’s his family, his best friend, the first person to ever love him and show him loyalty and love and what it’s like to have a brother who loves you like sahajshhjas IM SORRY ONE OF MY FAVE THINGS IN THIS WHOLE SERIES IS THEIR RELATIONSHIP 100% they mean everything to me. Ron is so insecure because he constantly feels like he’s in harry’s shadow but what he doesn’t realise is that when it comes to harry, everyone else is in his shadow because ron is the most important person to him. i mean don’t get me wrong they love hermione too ashjsahjahj but like ron and harry <3 it’s special they need each other im super asjhhajs im sorry im so passionate about their friendship and chosen family it means so much to me. like i hated it when they fought in goblet of fire and THEN I HAD TO GO THROUGH IT AGAIN??? but the scene where they made up literally made me cry and scream in happiness i love them so much i don’t want them to ever not be in each others lives. 

honestly i like ron and hermione! idk if that’s unpopular or what but i feel like they do make sense and their relationship was actually built up based on actual connection and years of developing.....unlike some people who never even talked and then woke up and suddenly were in love for no reason *cough*

TIME TO TALK ABOUT SAD THINGS AGAIN! dobby dying was absolutely horrible that whole chapter was SO DARK and scary and i was actually genuinely frightened for the first time in the series i was so so so scared it was horrible and then dobby came like an angel and saved the day and then he was just....gone??? it was so unfair and so sad and just i hate it so much i can’t comprehend it. he was a free elf! he didn’t deserve this. no one deserved this. that’s what was so tragic about the deaths in this series and it’s what makes everything so real. im so sad god dammit let me find something less sad to talk about again. 

HARRY IS THE DESCENDANT OF THE BROTHER WHO CHOSE THE INVISIBILITY CLOAK FROM THE DEATHLY HALLOW STORY!!!! ahhhhh im so happy i love that harry is related to something so cool and ahhhhhhhh it’s honestly so good and exciting how everything came together naturally like that. and CAN WE TALK ABOUT HIS CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT?? like how he literally went from saying he would choose the ressurrection stone, to in the end, just leaving it in the middle of the forest? im so proud of him he breaks my heart and i just wanna protect him forever i’ve never loved someone so much like ashjsajhsa i need to stop but seriously, harry is my absolute everything i love this god damn kid help. 

speaking of people who love harry.... jhsjhassjjas i really really love draco. like i feel so protective of this kid? i want to know more more more about him and i want to help him and go back in time and keep him away from all that bullshit dark stuff i can’t wait to read all the fics that analyse him because i know he’s actually a genuine good? i feel like he is. his parents let him down and he didn’t have any healthy relationships in his life to help him see another side of things even tho i know and really feel like if he did, things would have been different. he was just a kid and you could see he didn’t want this he hated it, he was so scared and alone and sahjsahjhjsa IM SORRY I LOVE HIM 

OKay can i just roast voldemort for a sec by saying, he is TERRIBLE at researching plans before execution and thinking through things like he acted like a silly egotistic child im so. how did the death eaters take him seriously? i don’t understand OKAY YES I KNOW HE HAS SO MUCH POWER but pfft he kept taking snapes credit for killing dumbles. but then it turned out dumbles asked snape to anyway so like sjshjjhsa and harry roasted him with that himself. i love that kid. anyway yeah i can’t wait to make voldemort memes forever this dude is so sjsajasjkajsk i hate him but also enjoy hating him. 

Remus and tonks :((( im so sad i love lupin so much it’s not fair but also now teddy is an orphan after a war just like harry and now harry is the godfather to teddy just like sirius was to him :(( im emotional. 

MOLLY SLAYED BELLATRIX I LOVE HER “NOT MY DAUGHTER YOU BITCH!” jhsdjhsjhsdj queen

okay okay okay finally i’ll address the thing that MESSED ME UP oh my god sajhhjashjsa so i have been complaining for ageeeees that i want LILY! BACKSTORY! and when i didn’t get it in half blood prince i was devastated sahjsahjjhsa and i figured it was never going to happen and then when i least expected it I GET ACTUAL LILY BACKSTORY CONTENT from the man i have been roasting and hating since book one im sahjshajhjas the irony kills me. anyway lily was just as amazing as i thought she was. i love her so much she’s so beautiful and kind and loyal and compassionate. she’s everything <3 and honestly i was actually able to empathise with snape? their friendship was so pure and sweet and i can’t believe he was her best friend in hogwarts this whole time. it’s really sad how he let himself be drawn to dark magic because she was never going to give up on him. him being drawn to that magic, and calling her a slur was what pushed her away and also brought her closer to james so, thanks for helping harry be born mate ashjjhas idk it’s sad and i empathise with snape now and now i can understand things i couldn’t before. LIKE EVERYTHING MAKES SENSE NOW. it’s like the missing piece has been found and i can see everything with new eyes it’s insane. and i remember seeing something about obsessive love in half blood prince and guessing that it was foreshadowing something and i think this is it. it’s just sad :(( and he actually was on dumbledores side im so sahjsahjhjas this whole thing was such a mindfuck idk what to think. but yeah i do emphasise with snape. do i like him now? no 🙈 sorry BUT i can understand him better and his character intrigues me it’s just really sad but he’s still an adult who bullies children. and daaaamn he hated harry, lucky for us he loved lily more than voldemort tho whoop i’m pretty sure my older sister loves snape tho so maybe i’m being too harsh idk 

HARRY WAS A HORCRUX??? i can’t that was epic and such a shock what in the world. i’m so happy how things turned out but holy shit that was insane. yet it made so much sense im so sjjshahjas

oh i love luna ashjahjshjas just gotta say that she’s my everything <3 

NEVILLE I LOVE NEVILLE HIM KILLING THE SNAKE WAS ICONIC !!!!! im so so so happy it was him. i love him so much he really showed how much bravery and potential he has i love this kid. 

okay so hands down the Kings Cross chapter was one of the best chapters in this whole series. seeing dumbledore finally tell us everything and getting to hear and see his mistakes and flaws and his truth was so so so emotional for me and it felt like final closure. im so dhjahjhja the way it was written!!! just all of it every single bit of it made me feel something and OPEN AT THE CLOSE im asjhhjsahjas ofc im just god the whole thing was sooooo jhsjhasjhas THE FEELINGS im sorry im not at all articulate when it comes to this im just the whole thing played in my head so well and i still have chills just from thinking about it i really don’t want this to end :(( 

finally the ending, im surprised that harry married ginny (i mean i guess not surprised cos he’s her love interest, maybe just jahsjhsasahj indifferent?) but im happy that we got to see him happy and again i love that he told albus it didn’t matter if he was in slytherin cos slytherins are cool too jsshjahjsa that was so important. ALSO draco!!! they nodded 👀 also shjsahja luna and george weren’t mentione :(( 

OH MY GOD I ALMOST FORGOT ABOUT HOW MUCH NOSTALGIA I GOT IN SNAPES MEMORY WHEN WE SAW JAMES AND SIRIUS FIRST BECOME FRIENDS ON THE TRAIN IT MADE ME THINK OF THE FIRST BOOK IM EMOTIONAL

Now i just want to say i genuinely love harry so so so much. he’s sassy and brave and selfless and caring and he has so much anger and frustration but that never stops him from doing what he can to help people and it just :(( he deserved a happy, free and loving childhood. i love this boy with all my heart and i always will im so thankful i finally let myself actually read his story. 

This series brought me so much laughter, wonder, tears, pain and magic. i’m so so so happy i finally read it sahjsajh despite avoiding and judging it my whole life lmao i was so wrong about it and this series has made me fall deeply in love with every single character and now im obsessed shjashjhjas LIKE I LITERALLY CAN’T STOP THINKING ABOUT IT i can’t im so asjhashj

im actually obsessed with harry potter i didn’t think this would ever happen to me. thank you for taking this journey with me angels 💖

anyway now i got 8(?) movies to watch for the first time sahjashashj stay tuned 💖 

[kyunsies]

MADCH MADCH <3

hello fam - I've had a weird day, I'm super happy I can take the time out to reply to you. always thinking of you though, I hope you're always having a great day. today's been a bit of a non day - a family member has to deal with operations and that's on top of me too so i've just felt a bit winded in life?

YES to you finally conquering that damn cold! do you feel properly replenished now? omg i hate sore throats too - okay i hope this doesn't give you nightmares but when i was a kid i saw a documentary about this terrible disease that manifests at its worst a bit like alzhemiers but it can hit anyone of any age and for the majority of people who get it... one of the first symptoms is a sore throat and i have literally lived in terror of sore throats ever since. but luckily it's a very rare disease. so basically, yes, i understand you.

OMG you know when you're like eight and you don't want to sleep and you're like no i will adult and stay up and it will be glorious - i'm like, CHILD YOU FOOL you could have gone to sleep XD and ugh no responsibilities?! i remember working most of the time when i was a kid and i kind of wish i had wreaked havoc? what was your childhood like? did you get to do lots of fun stuff? i know my mum wishes she had been able to spend more time with me when i was a kid and i'd like to have a family and i'd love her to be able to relax and just spend time with her grandkids? OMG well when you come to europe let me know and then i can show you around and give you a hug in person!

so we're mainly cofe here though cahtolic culture is still big and honestly i'm with you. like religion can be a great influence on you if it's not used in nefarious ways and can help you learn so much - like even if there are things you don't end up agreeing with at least you learn about then so you can make a choice for yourself as opposed to not really knowing anything? agree - people that are really boastful totally put me off, i just can't deal with it at all. but you're right, like it makes us so so hard to forgive ourselves for anything right? like, even if we've done nothing wrong and we shouldn't have to punish ourselves? like i swear i'm apologising for everything haha XD once someone pushed me off the tube and i ended up apologising like ON REFLEX? hasjdkahds XD but i really hope you have people around you that keep bigging you up too! if not i will keep bigging you up :D :D so you know that you are worth it.

i'm sorry you're not looking forward to your final year of uni! think you're almost there though - like this is the final stretch and you'll have like conquered everest you know?! and even if your landing at the end of it isn't as perfect the fact you landed at all means so much and that means you can stand up again and keep going! day at a time and moment at a time you know? i kind of had this moment today (hence my wierd day) when i was worry about everything and i literally sat there like - have i made the right choice and done the right thing and surely i've made the wrong choices in my life and do i actually have any talent cause if not people would actually like my stuff and i had to just be like... a moment at a time sometimes you know? like, just bit by bit and don't sweat the stuff you don't have to? idk i find it hard to do but i hope that helps you - like you'll surmount every little thing bit by bit and before you know it you'll have made it! you were born ready you were <3 <3

TINY SQUAD IS GO! the pant dilemma is truly a massive issue, like IDK how to deal OMG OK SO LAMPSHADING is like when you do big baggy like tops and then like leggings or tights or something skinny on the bottom so... you look like a lampshade? like i guess it makes you look cute and then also it's such an easy way to dress without worrying if you look like a kid that's wearing your mum's clothes?? ahsdjakdhsa XD

AHHHH YES BASIL ME TOO!! what scent did you end up buying? i'm sure it was lush - are your parents near you or is it like a massive special occassion to get to see them? YES agree with your take on musk though! like it feels like idk, something a 50 year old with a cigar in a stuffy country club would wear? like, there's no energy to it but not in a chill mellow way either??! like even if i was going to a dinner thing I would still rather not wear something musky? like i'd still rather it be something a bit sweeter? also like some musk perfumes can be SO STRONG? like i'm like - my nose is choking on this perfume XD

YES BLUE MOON SQUAD AAAAA it is literally one of their finest ever, it's always stayed on my top faves list by them. like ugh yes to the lofi stuff sometimes i just wanna VIBE and be in my feels but not so much i'm too angsty but enough that I'm FEELING feels ya know? what did you think of kiss or death? it really wasn't that kind of vibe but yh i hope they do more lofi jazzy stuff - also cause like not a lot of korean groups play with that sound a lot?

hello mädch's mom as always! nerer apologise for being late, always just happy to hear from you and i hope you are super super well and looking after yourself first and foremost! more than anything <3 (also i take ages to reply too ya know and omg this is so so long ahsdjakhdaskjdh)

love you lots and lots and lots xxxxxxxxxxxx

ANGEL ANGEL !!!!!!!! <3 i know i'm really late to this LKDFJS i've had such a busy week getting some overtime in and then visiting my grandparents' house so i didn't really have a lot of energy to reply to all of this BUT IM HERE AND i can finally give u a good response <3

firstly is your family member okay??? i hope so ;____; how was the rest of your week, and how was your weekend angel? i hope u were able to enjoy your weekend and that everything is okay in the family <3

but YEAH my mom and i are over the stupid cold ;_____; i hate colds,,,, they last way too long lol like i say i know the flu is a little more serious than a cold but i would rather have it for a day or 2 than being stuck feeling lousy for a whole week :( ALSO SLDKFSJDFKLJ OH GOD SEE we are both hypochondriacs ( that's not the best trait to have as a nursing major lol ) but tbh i'm really curious about this rare disease ????? :o sounds really scary tho goodness gracious i wonder what it could be ;____;

also god i was always awful at staying up late as a kid LOL but i know what u mean !!!!!! honestly there was only one time i can recall i had a sleepover with my friend in like the 3rd grade and we tried pulling an all nighter so i think we made it to like 5am but i had to go to bed omg i felt like such garbage LKDSFJ </3 it's just funny bc like as u get older u realize that staying up late is really nothing special and if anything u feel like a train hit you the next morning and adults are so sleep deprived as it is we just *try* to prioritize sleep SLDKFJSDKLJF :') you worked a lot as a child bub?? what kind of things did you do? i didn't start working until i was 15 bc most places here don't allow u to work until this age (unless you're in a family business i guess lol) but all the jobs i had in high school i hated so much ;_____; but my childhood? i would say it was relatively normal LOL like we say all the time i've had a single mom so life was really stressful for her but i always felt loved <3 i always had my mom <3 and we took trips to the beach with my family every year, it was our little tradition !! i went to san diego to visit disney, you know little trips here and there !! and then when i got into my sport and i started getting older my mom and i spent a lot of time and money investing into my sport so most of my weekends consisted of a lot of tournaments and driving far away for me to compete :') i do remember when i was really young like in kindergarten my mom's work was really far away from my school and we had a recital ; i was the "host" where i would introduce all of the songs and stuff and my mom didn't get off of work until like 6 and by the time she made to my recital, it was over :( she told me she cried a lot that night :( i don't remember her doing this (i don't even remember the recital all that much lol) but now that i'm older and i understand more about adulting, i'm sure she was so devastated thinking about it now :( anyways about visiting europe LOL I WILL DEF GIVE U A CALL AND LET U KNOW SO U CAN SHOW ME ALL OF THE COOL PLACES <333333

and about the religion ....... yes ;____; i think it's a great thing if a family decide that they want to do this when they're families; i hope to continue to practice it (even tho we aren't regularly going to church at all hhhh gotta work on that) but there is something about catholic guilt specifically that just makes it soooo hard to like, be easy on yourself? but ,,,,,, i guess it keeps me grounded :( in a self depreciating way ??? LDSKFJ I KNOW U UNDERSTAND ... it's weird for me to put into words ;____; and YEAH :( i think i'm getting a little better at this but i used to apologize all the time for things i never needed to be sorry for hhhh (still do) :')

and yes babe honestly i'm really terrified to start uni :( i think i have this weird anxiety issue i've had it ever since last year but i don't know why i'm so scared and anxious about things that haven't even happened yet ;____; are u like this too? is it normal? i wish i knew :( i guess i won't really feel better until i have made it to graduation, but i just want to do well this year. whatever i do, whether it's exams, or clinical rotation or my preceptorship, i just want to do well ;____; i don't want to do poorly, i want to make my mom proud and i want to work at a place i'll be excited to work at, and most of all i just want everything to work out ,,,, i wish someone could just sit me down and say listen i know what you're going thru is hard but you CAN get thru this and EVERYTHING IS GOING TO BE OKAY NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS bc no one in my family is in the health sciences (besides my cousin who is studying to be a doctor but she doesn't give a shit about what i do lol) so ;_____; yeah ,,,,,,,,,,, lots of anxiety and apprehension of the unknown :(

LSDKFJSD FOKAY NOW I KNOW WHAT LAMPSHADING IS LMAOOOOOOOOOOO yes i wear those clothes on lazy days LOL the thing is i'm really picky about the length of my oversized crewneck sweaters hhhh the can't be too long bc if it goes below my butt i look like i'm wearing rags LOL so i have to be careful :') but most days i do like, reverse lamp shading lDLKFJSDLKFJ i like wearing flowy pants with a more tight top or like baggy jeans with a tighter shirt or a blouse i can tuck into my jeans LOL but omg its so funny i didn't know what that was :') thank u for the explanation my love <3

OKAY BUT HALF THE REASON I DIDN'T RESPOND IS THAT i was saving this weekend to go to the jo malone store in my mall and !!! I GOT A NEW SCENT AND I'M IN LOVE WITH IT SO MUCH BABE ;____; you have to go smell it if you go there soon and tell me what u think !!!!!! it's called wild bluebell (here is the scent description lol) but the guy behind the counter helping me was soooo amazing and helpful like they really do treat u the best at the store and AH i’m so happy with my purchase <3 my wallet isn’t so much LDSKFJ but nonetheless i know i’ll have it for a long time :)

KISS OR DEATH !!!!! i actually really enjoyed it lol i have seen some ppl not really like the rapping so much but i loved it ;____; i’m super biased obviously LOL but gosh i thought they were all great and minhyuk + hyungwon killed the song for me <333 wouldn’t expect anything less from our monstas !!!!! and my mom is sending her love lol i tell her the work u do and she’s always wondering how ur doing :(((( same for my moots she always asks me about 2 in particular LOL she’s always asking me <3 i love u so much bubbie !!!! iM SO SORRY FOR BEING LATE MY LOVE again i always just want to give u a quality response <3 i love u the absolute most and i hope u had a great weekend !!!!!!! this is my last week at work before i have a week long break before i head for uni so :’) can’t believe i’ve done all this LOL :’) i will be happy to hear from u whenever u come back hun !!!!! TAKE CARE LOVE U <3 

[grapefruitguan-blog]

Fight!AU (Park Woojin)

- woojin was preparing for his comeback

- and they were asking a lot of time from him

- so he was coming home rlly late and leaving rlly early in the morning

- and you were supportive n he was really appreciative

- but it happened for about two weeks

- two weeks of you making dinner and watching it get cold and waking up to him and a quick kiss saying he loves you but he’s gotta go

- but you had ur last straw when he didn’t even come home on your birthday

- he actually forgot

- this time you didn’t fall asleep

- bc woojin promised to spend the day with you

- you were actually heartbroken

- he came back at 1:30 am rlly surprised you were up

- he had a terrible day daniel n the others couldn’t get the choreo down and the producer blamed him

- “babe? shouldn’t you be sleeping?”

- you didn’t answer him

- and had a small bitter smile

- “yeah. i should be. i shouldn’t have waited for you.”

- now woojin never ever snaps

- but today he was in the worst mood

- ever

- “jeez, what’s with you today?”

- and now you snapped

- “woojin, you should know what’s up with me today i’ve waited for you for now two weeks every single fucking day”

- “babe i know i’m sorry it’s just they’ve wanted a lot out of us-“

- “yeah. you want a lot of of me to wait for you. i know that. what do you think i have done?”

- “y/n i know it’s just the fans-“

- “it’s always the fans woojin, always.”

- “because they care about us. we just won at mama i don’t want to lose that streak. why can’t you understand that?”

- “woojin. i’ve been the most fucking understanding of that. i didn’t question you for shit about scandals when i sure could’ve and i always helped you when you felt stressed-“

- “people care about us, y/n. we have fans. they’re there for us.”

- oh god woojin really fucked it up now

- a small silence occurred when woojin’s eyes widened with what he said

- “babe-“

- “save it woojin.”

- “no i didn’t mean-“

- “no, i get it. i don’t have fans because i’m not an idol, so i wouldn’t get it. people care about you and the boys and not really about me. hell, they want me gone since i’m dating their bias. go date fucking lisa from blackpink or something, then!”

- “no that isn’t-“

- “save it. i’m leaving. maybe you’ll someday realize why i’m so fucking pissed after waiting for you for so damn long.”

- you walk out and slam the door

- “fine be that way!” yelled woojin

- he went to your guys’ now empty bed angry as hell

- he almost threw the picture of you two on the ground but hesitated

- you drove over to your bff’s house and slept for the night

- in the morning woojin went to practice

- and he was on snapchat

- and noticed your streak had an hourglass

- he sent you a black screen and you instantly left him on open

- he groaned

- and rolled his eyes

- and he was viewing his stories and saw daehwi’s

- it was a selfie

- “happy late birthday y/n!!!”

- woojin dropped

- wait

- it was your birthday yesterday???

- holy fuck he promised to spend the day with you

- he didn’t even get you an xmas gift cause you said that’s all you wanted

- holy fuck

- he stormed into practice

- “daehwi!!!!”

- daehwi was eating a croissant

- “woojin!!! you almost made me drop my croissant!!!”

- “dumbass bitch!!! why didn’t you tell me it was my gf’s birthday yesterday!!!!!”

- “woojin sweetie you were supposed to know this”

- “i remembered!” piped daniel holding his story too

- “shut up mr center i hope your cats die”

- “heY”

- jisung aka mom runs over

- “dUmbAsS KIDS STOP FIGHTING”

- daehwi rubbed his temples

- “y/n is soooo mad at you woojin”

- “she’s so supportive of your snaggletooth headass and you don’t see that”

- “hIs EYES ARE TOO SMALL TO SEE THAT”

- “shUT UP ONG NOBODY CARES MR I’M-28-TRYING-TO-DEBUT”

- “shUT UP YOU MAKNAE I WAS Y/N’S BIAS NOT YOURS”

- jisung blows the whistle n stops ong and woojin from fighting

- “DuMBASS WOOJIN for foRGETTING Y/N’s BDAY I’M NOT MAKING YOU FUCKIN RAMEN FOR A MONTH”

- jisung sighed

- “y/n rlly never let you see her frustrated bc you’d come home late as hell n she would always rant to me and daehwi about it and she went to (bff)’s house all night and cried”

- “how was i supposed to know!!!”

- “duMBASS biTCH I am Her SECOND COUSIN and you arE HER bOyfrieND anD I COULD TELL SHE WAS UNhAPPY BUT you COULDN’T????”

- “he has a point snaggletooth headass”

- “shut up four foot chode nobody cares sungwoon”

- “LISTEN BO-“

- “gUys shUT UP” yelled jisung

- “woojin go make up with her your dumbass fucKED UP”

- “big time!” chorused daniel holding his two cats

- woojin facepalmed

- “guys what the hell do i do i rlly did fuck up i was just so caught up on the choreo-“

- “dumbass dance machine”

- “shUT UP CAT PEDOPHILE I’M HAVING A FUCKING MOMENT”

- jisung blows his mom whistle again

- “gUYS ENOUGH FIGHTING”

- “luckily bc i’m so old and wise i have a damn plan”

- so all 11 boys shut up and crowd around

- “here’s what we are finna do bitches”

- “jisung sweetie pls don’t say finna it’s improper”

- “sorry minhyun”

- you’re at your bff’s house

- you were throwing dart’s at a pic of woojin

- until she knocks on ur door

- “hey y/n someone’s here to see you”

- “if it’s woojin i swear to-“

- “oH HI DAEHWI”

- “HI BESTIE IM HERE BITCH I GOT YOU STUFF FOR YOUR BDAY”

- “aw THANKS BITCH I SAW YOUR STORY”

- “yeAh SORRY BITCH I WAS AT PRACTICE AKDJKSD I PROMISE WE CAN EAT CHICKEN N WAFFLES SOON THO”

- “david lee ur so white”

- “i was born in LA headass”

- daehwi hands you a wrapped gift

- you coo

- “YOU REALLY ARE MY BESTIE”

- bff walks in

- “wtf y/n who’s house are you in”

- “lOVE YOU TOO (BFF’s NAME)”

- daehwi clears throat

- “anyways so”

- “get dressed”

- “we’re hanging out”

- “stop simping over the snaggletooth headass”

- “i wAS NO-“

- “bitch shut up ur listening to butterfly and spring day by bts and you’re really telling me you aren’t simping????”

- ok daehwi got you there

- so you kicked him outta ur friend’s room

- and you get dressed

- no details bc this isn’t smut

- yET

- hAHAHAHA

- anyways after twenty minutes you step out

- daehwi huffs

- “see this hair? i didn’t dye it white. it turned white waiting for your slowpoke ass”

- “shut up daehwi last time i checked i waited for you for two hours when you bumped into iu”

- “iU nOONA IS mOre IMPoRTANT”

- anyways

- daehwi flashes his signature grin

- “oK go to the living room”

- “daehwi i thought we were going out??”

- “yes going out of the room duh”

- “yOU lITTLE SHIT YOU MADE ME PUT MAKEUP FOR NOTHING WHEN IM STAYING INSIDE???”

- “y/n if you think i have money to treat you out for a day you really must be tripping”

- “daehwi stfu you deadass have tons of money after debuting don’t play with me”

- daehwi shoves you into the room anyways

- and your jaws drop

- and there you see the living room decorated

- with your favorite foods on the coffee table

- and presents

- and a chocolate cake

- and the other boys there

- besides woojin

- so daniel’s cats could be at ur bday and not your boyfriend? ok

- “HAPPY BIRTHDAY Y/N”

- “we’re really sorry we couldn’t celebrate with you on your actual birthday so we tried to make up for it” smiles jisung

- you almost broke down in tears

- because THAT IS SO SWEET

- “aw thanks guys i love you so much”

- “even if woojin hates me enough to not even want to celebrate my bday LOL it’s okay.”

- guanlin awkwardly coughed

- “uh look behind you”

- lo and behold

- park woojin is behind you holding 10 bouquets of red roses

- bby boy is almost falling bc he carried all of them

- you’re kind of taken aback

- because who wouldn’t be??

- “i’m sorry that i couldn’t wish you happy birthday with them i had to run to like five florists cause turns out everyone ran out of red roses”

- he hands you one bouquet and other boys scramble to help him

- “i’m really sorry that i fucked up and forgot that it was your birthday it was honestly such a dick move of me-“

- “HE ALSO CALLED ME A FOUR FOOT CHODE”

- “shUT UP SUNGWOON”

- “and i really took you for granted and i feel terrible because i need to remember that they’re fans, and though i’m in their hearts..you’re in mine. i’m scared of losing you because you’re the best thing that’s ever happened to me and i promise i never ever forgot about that”

- “and like roses are what i gave you on our first date and i know they can’t do too much to make you forgive me but i remembered you love them and you honestly deserve the world”

- and woojin has tears in his eyes and takes one hand and tries to wipe his tears and now he’s blubbering

- “i totally understand if you hate me and wanna break up i support your decision either way i’m so so sorry for being such a dick-“

- SEEING WOOJIN BAWL WAS TOO MUCH SO YOU JUST KISSED HIM

- he was shocked at first but he leaned down just a little bit

- “idiot i forgive you”

- “w-wait really”

- “BITCH YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO REJECT HIM”

- “shUT UP DAEHWI”

- “nO YOU SHUT YOU COYOTE LOOKING ASS I BET $10.00 ON THIS WITH ONG”

- before woojin went to go fight daehwi you laughed

- and he looked at you with a small smile

- ft his little snaggletooth

- and daniel brings out the cake and they start singing

- BUT then woojin’s eyes shoot up

- “wAIT DONT START I FORGOT SOMETHING”

- he hands you the roses and grabs a little box out of his pocket

- “here open it”

- “woojin we’re too young to get married-“

- “nonONONO NOT THAT NOT THAT”

- he turns bright red

- “i-i mean not like i don’t wanna m-marry you i-it’s just”

- you open it

- it’s a promise ring!!! the one that you told woojin how pretty it was two months ago!!!!

- “woojin!!!! this is really expensive you know i was like kidding right!!!!”

- “well like you deserve the world so i’m trying to give it to you”

- “and like it’s my promise to you to never treat you less than perfect”

- “and that i promise to put you before my career”

- all the boys coo

- and daniel is huffing bc the cake is rlly heavy and he wants to goddamn sing already so he can set it down

- so you sing!

- and all is well!

- and woojin puts an arm around your waist and kisses your forehead

- “happy late birthday babe, i love you.”

[adventuresinawonderland]

Arrow 6x03 Next Of Kin

Main takeaway: THE FEELS YOU GUYS!! Now this is the Arrow I know & love; minus a few changes in the lineup & a couple annoyances we’ll get to in the spoiler section. Other than that it was a pretty flawless ep. The pacing was great, the tone wasn’t as disjointed as the premiere (sorry, I’m still bitter), each scene flowed into the next beautifully, etc. Lots of positives; I even shed a couple tears. And yes the amount of tears shed does factor into whether an ep is good or not; in my opinion. Same goes for eye rolls/squeals/gasps/frustrated growls & hand motions; basically any heightened emotion. These are the rules; jsyk. Now that that’s out of the way...  *SPOILERS UNDER THE CUT ...AS WELL AS OBSESSIVE SQUEALING OVER THE OLICITY SHIP*

-Lets start right off w/ one of my favs; Diggle or should I say the Green Arrow 2.0? Seeing David Ramsey as GA was awesome; you could say it SUITS him ;). ...And I hate myself.

I will say I giggled a bit at his “Arrow voice”. It reminded me of Ben Affleck's Batman voice & I can’t unhear it. Now I can’t get Ramsey as Batman out of my head; not complaining. Fucking preferable tbh.

-The Arrow Cave/Bunker: Where Men Go To Brood. Am I right?! But in all honesty, if you didn’t feel your heart get all warm & fuzzy during the Dig & Oliver scene please check yourself at the door. OH MY GOD!! I’M NOT CRYING YOU ARE!! -insert choked up tears here;. Seeing these brothers in arms talking about their worries/concerns/having faith in their mission etc. was beautiful. “John. you’re one of the main reasons the Green Arrow even exists... it exists because you had faith in me” I MEAN!! CAN I GET AN AMEN PEOPLE!!! -ugly sobs;

-Now the freakout... WHAT THE HECK WAS DIGGLE INJECTING HIMSELF WITH?! HONEY NO!!! My mind immediately went to vertigo but I think that’s no longer a thing now since S3? I’m foggy on the details. What was wrong with the medicine the hospital was giving you?! Needless to say it looks like the “I have nerve damage, shhh don’t tell anyone” storyline will be going on for a while. My senses say it’ll come to a head possibly after the crossover eps/during?!

-Honestly if I was Dinah, I would’ve bit the bullet & told everyone Digs lil secret. Yes it goes against a trust they’ve built up; but this is serious. Lives are at stake. Her keeping this secret is a double whammy. The way I see it if anything else goes bad in the field it’s on both of their heads now. Unless it’s Rene getting beat up then by all means.

-That crossbow was super badass tho. I mean shit. Also loved the callback to the tennis balls from the early days of the show. Oh the memories.

-Curtis & Felicity figuring out what their start up company will be. I laughed so hard at the crossed out “Oracle” option on the board. -wink wink;

That fight in/outside of the limo was intense. Haven’t seen anything like that since Deadpool. Very cool. 

Onyx is an awesome name; why ruin it by being a terrible person?

-FBI Chick (don’t care to know her name) SERIOUSLY needs to get a hobby. Does the rest of the FBI know she’s doing this or nah? Also where the heck did she get those pics from? Did her & Chase have the same photographer. Either way you couldn’t pay me enough to care about this subplot. We’ve tread these waters b4. Unless she does something beyond empty threats & bitchy one liners I’m not gonna give her the time of day.

-Does Rene know what empathy is? Or how not to be the most annoying person ever? Survey says nope. Oliver has a child remember... that’s why he did this. Yes it’s take a while to get used to but DEAL WITH IT. Was it just me or did it feel like Rene was gonna ask if he could take up the GA mantel in Dig’s place? HA! That would be a disaster. 

^^^^Times like this make me really miss Rory. Damn I miss him!

Also... just because my fav Felicity says something positive about him doesn’t mean jack shit. You tried that with LL 1.0 & well... 

*SHIPPER FREAKOUT SECTION. SAVING THE BEST FOR LAST. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!* -OLICITY. ARE. MOVING. BACK. IN. TOGETHER. -TRUMPETS BLARRING;

Need I say more?... Oh yes, I have a ton to say. I MISSED THESE TOO BEING CUTE AND TOGETHER SOOOO DAMN MUCHHHHH!!!!

O: Hey. -cute lil smile; (flailing on my bed) F: Hey, I’m surprised to see you here. I’m also surprised you remembered the access code. O: It’s been a like week... F: Yea, it’s was a... a joke. O: -amused smile; (RIP ME)

-Oliver brought her Big Belly Burger & asked her to help William study. AWEEEE. (Sidetone: I was so worried it was gonna be another off screen moment. Especially after that fake out with Rene at the door. My heart fucking soared & then plummeted so fast I barely had time to register it. Your heart did too don’t deny it. From the look on Oliver’s face he shared my disappointment & confusion too.) ....ANYWAYS

-Felicity tutoring William was the cutest/sweetest moment ever. Already proving to be the best Step Mom EVER!!! And Oliver peeking in through the doorway & making them SANDWICHES!!! I’M DYING DEAD!!!

(You know what would’ve made this mini family moment even better? THEA DEARDEN MOTHERFUCKING QUEEN BEING A BADASS AUNT. UGHHHHHH!!) William: “She’s pretty cool.”  Oliver: “Yea she is.” i.e “She’s one of the best things that has every happened to me ever & I’m so lucky to have her. One day she will be your Step Mom.”

100% William is high-key aware of the love oozing between his dad & his new tutor (this sounds like something off of Ao3 amiright?!) I mean c’mon dudes he’s 12 not 2. 

-Felicity’s babbling in her pjs & being so freaking cute; ugh I missed this. “You have a lot of redeeming qualities, you have amazing abs...” -scrunches her face like an adorable lil bunny; Felicity is my spirit animal.

-Can we talk about that lil smiley face keychain w/ the glasses. It’s so random but I love it!!! Also I totally thought it was a key to a science lab because of Felicity’s quip earlier about how expensive they are in this town... my heart came to a complete halt.

-Oliver: “I saw you with him & I became 100% sure that, if you want, his life would be better with you in it. Just like mine.” AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!! I AM ALIVE & ON FIRE!!

Sorry this took me so long to write/post. I had to rewatch a few parts just to make sure I got everything straight. Also I’m a bit of a stickler for not paraphrasing quotes; I need it to be 100% verbatim. Think this means I should prolly start taking notes. Or maybe review as I watch? Prolly the latter lets be real. So in all this ep was good; a solid 9 in my book. Gonna try not to think about next wks ep; not looking forward to seeing “Bull Shit” again. Also did it look like Felicity was wearing a huge blonde wig or is it just me?!  See y’all next wk.

[runagainstawallwithsarah]

Bastille Munich 28.11.2016

Alrighty, I’ve procrastinated this one enough I think, but like a lot of stuff happened and honestly I’m still dying about it so you know. 

Let me start with this though, it’s been really fucking amazing, and I can’t ever go to one of their concerts again and not end up front row because this is an experience you just want to repeat and repeat and repeat and repeat.

I’ll put the whole thing under a read more because this is getting long!

Alright, let’s start at the top, which would be the 27th November 2016. We (my best friend Jasmin, my sister Nadine and myself) wanted nothing more but to be front row this time around. Nadine and I’ve been to two of their concerts before (Munich in 2013 and Leipzig in 2014) and each time we were sorta in the middle at the sites. So not horrible view or anything but ...we wanted more alright. So we all went by train a day early and arrived all in the early evening in Munich where we got to stay at a lovely women’s place (airbnb hurray) for two nights. (I’m not gonna go into details here because the train ride just ended up ... eh.... make sure to double check your tickets guys). So the 27th really was just a lot of driving by car and then by train and yeah exhausted sleeping that night (with pillows that just didn’t want to work with my head T^T).

And then the 28th was finally here and fuck I still can’t believe it. So we got up and ready to go in the morning and eventually arrived at the Zenith in Munich at about 11.30am. As expected we weren’t the first ones to be there but we weren’t the last either so yknow.

We got our numbers, (Jasmin-29, nadine-28, myself-27) and the waiting began. Honestly it didn’t seem that long but in reality it were like 8 hours I think until the doors opened which meant 8 hours in the cold. I was sort of used to it at the time already through work, but it was pretty fucking cold and we were first time waiting noobs that had no blankets or anything bc we didn’t know where to put them when we got in. That combined with the fact that all three of us are really fucking awkward when it comes to meeting people, we mostly kept to ourselves and froze to death basically. While we waited directly at the walls of the venue we could hear a bit of soundchecks which was really cool, and we all worked a bit on tiny things for the concert. Some made signs out of pizza cartoons, and we made a tiny WWCOMMS flag, which you’ll hear about again later, here’s a picture tho.

So yeah, while we worked on that the first survival packs were found, which honestly we weren’t really out to find (too cold + where to put it later?) but it was a bit frustrating because one of the packs was found at one place I literally walked past about 10 minutes prior when grabbing some tea for us, so... yay for that :’D Anyways I had been the first of us three to grab us some hot drinks and I actually warmed up really nicely during that so I told Jasmin and Nadine to go together, warm up a bit because they were frozen on the spot basically and after a while they did.....

Which turned out to be a bit of a bad decision for them xD While they were gone, some staff members that had to put up some stuff ushered us aaway from the doors, whcih honestly was a pain because they did that several times (we were never far away enough it seemed x.x) and trying to move several bags, drinks and stuff in one go by yourself was a bit hard. But I’m not gonna complain because it was worth it in the end....soooo... 

Sitting in our new spots in the grass, I talked a bit to a girl (Evy) which was really nice and waiting for her friend to show up at the time, (honestly sorry if I was annoying or anything, i’m no good making friends T^T) and yeah, after a bit I wanted to quickly leave for the toilet (which thankfully they had a really clean (AND WARM) one right outside the venue) and I just got up, ready to go...when Will and Woody decided to come outside with a big can of hot cocoa for us all!!! They were joined by Tom and a cute blonde lady i didn’t know, but oh my fucking god, Will and Woody!! So this happened! They were honestly so sweet and I died .... and then I sorta got over the shook of them in front of me that I remembered fuck jasmin and nadine are at a bakery that is like kinda far away and I can’t write or call them because my phone was being a bitch and kept dying in the cold and my second phone was with in the small bag they took with them! So naturally, I tried not to cry laugh because that timing right? And went back to dying because Will Farquarson is standing right in front of me and holy fuck he just handed my hot cocoa and fuck he’s beautiful! Woody was busy in another corner and I’m sorry as much as I love this guy, when Will farquarson is standing in front of you you kinda forget about everything else. 

They were so cute though, like not only that they bought us hot cocoa (when it also had just started to snow a bit!!) they seemed so worried about us too! When someone else thanked Will and told him how nice it was of them he just went “Oh it’s not a problem! You guys must be freezing to death.” and I’m still crying because he honestly sounded so concerned tbh?? And when he handed me a cup and I said ‘thank you so much!’ he just sorta waved it off and smiled and “you’re welcome, it’s not a problem” and I still die and?? So then everyone kinda started to ask for pictures and I thought...okay if they do it I could too maybe? and I asked Evy if she could take a picture for me because my phone just wasn’t working at all and so she did. (Thank you again!!!) This took a bit tho, because I was so awkward okay, I was just standing behind him (I feel so dumb and aaahhh send help) and just quietly went ‘Will?... Uhm, Will?...Fuck... Will?’ whenever someone else was done with a picture and I felt so awkward and Argh, but eventually he turned around and smiled and I asked if we could take a picture and he was so smiley and ‘oh of course!’ and we took a picture and I was so nervous and ended up spilling my cocoa over my hand .... BUT I GOT  A PICTURE OF WILL FARQUARSON AND I MET WILL AND I SORTA TALKED TO HIM???? I regret not asking for a hug tbh.... But yeah this happend!!! 

Also I look so stupid but like??? do i care??? not really...anymore because freaking Will Farquarson am I right????

So this happened and then I tried to back off a bit to give others a chance too and just watched from the back and sipped my hot cocoa and was just smiling like a freaking idiot and that was when Nadine and Jasmin showed up again!! and yeah I was so glad they came back before they went back in bc like?awkward xD but yeah they saw them too and my sister got an autograph from woody, and she tried toget a picture with will too but they were ushered back inside already (we think it was for an interview) but it was really cute because nadine said will was all “i’d love to take more pictures but you’re gonna have to walk with me because i’m being pulled back inside!” 

but AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH this happened!! and it turned out it wouldnt be the first time I was  going to die that day!

My sister cursed me a few times because I got a picture with Will, and what was really funny to me was that they told me that actually they were starting to get worried/feel sorry for me because “it’s really cold, and she’s kinda alone there, maybe we should get back?’’ and in reality i was hanging with 2/4 of Bastille.. could be having a worse time xD so they came back sooner because they were thinking about finishing their drinks at the bakery first, but yeah,i was good, couldn’t complain at all xD

After that more waiting happened and then it was time to get into the queue! H nestly this part was a bit of a mess because the main guy there was a fucking dick and yeah. we had a system okay, we had the numbers and we had a system of lining up at the barriers where they’d check our bags and everything to get in, but that dick wasn’t having it. after a while a second lady came in and one guy, he kinda looked like he was working there but at the same time he was waiting with us all in line later and was front row at the concert too so i’m not 100% but that lady and he kinda tried to calm us all and that main guy down and it sort of worked... problem with a lot of us was though that some of us (including my sister) had left a bit prior to put our stuff somewhere bc we didn’t know where else to put them back then (as it turned out they set up a bag thingy outside where we could put our big stuff for free) but our people weren’t back yet so when we finally got to move our other stuffs there and then go back to the barrier thingy and set up there again a lot of us had questions about our friends and if they’d be able to get back in line with us when they were back and some had other questions that were unclear and that dick got super angry at us and told us to shut up and just go? like? i’m sorry but we’ve been waiting all day and were happy and then you come along and fuck it all up? but anyways, that other guy who seemed to be  one of us in the end ended up being able to calm us all down again and said it wouldn#t be a problemas long as they stillgot their numbers on their hand so yeah we moved up and back to our places and waited for everyone to return and doors to open.

and wow that was a bit already and the actual concert bit is only starting now????

THE CONCERT

getting in and everything wasn’t too exciting. jasmin, nadine and i had a system and it worked out well in the end! while i went to put our jackets away, nadine got us something to drink, and jasmin got our most important job, getting us a good place front row! and she did an amazing job. while we weren’t in the middle or anything we got an amazing spot, front row right in front of will c: i’d regret getting excited about that later tho.

so we were all set up, ready for the concert... it took a bit for that though, if you ever want to have front row ou gotta prepare yourself for a shit ton of waiting xD definitely worth it tho!

and then it started! for real! at first they played the annie oakley hanging preview which was amazing! i’d heard the bit on tumblr before but hadn’t watched the video on youtube yet but it was oooo good! also i was singing along, and it was great XDthen the fake it guy came on!!! i’m not 100% sure anymore what he said during the night (he was on a lot) but he introduced rationale and then rationale freaking killed it!!! honestly i was almost dead already after his bit, you know it’s a great band when you’re dead after and rationale was amazing!! (speaking of, as i’m writing this i’m listening to bastille and VS. is onnow and now axe to grind just started, hi rationale xD) really tho i have no words because he was really really good, a lot of energy, awesome dance moves, even better voice! kudos to this guy! 

while they set up everything for bastille, the fake it guy came back on and the videos !!! damn i sure hope there’s the whole collection on youtube somewhere because it’s amazing!! ‘i misssss you i missssss you i misssssss you mooooooorrreeee’ and the guys showing up in the videos too, honestly the best i hope they’re somwhere or they share them themselves at some point in the future because, you need to see them. so yeah after a bit of fake it guy, he eventually introduced bastille and they opened with send them off! and I WAS DEAD THE SECOND THEY CAMEON!!! OKAY LIKE THEY WERE JUST SO CLOSE?????? AND SO BEAUTIFUL??? HONESTLYPICTURES DONT GIVE ANY OF THEMJUSTICE!!! we couldn’t really see kyle fromwhere we stood which was a bit sad, but WILLIAM AND DANIEL AND WOODY LATER ON AND IM DEAD!!!! honestly okay, will farquarson is a god, no questions asked, but daniel...hoyl fuck daniel... okay so there we were, dancing and screaming and singing and jumping up and down and having the time ofour lives and honestly when dan walked up to our side the first time i was just breathless??? his eyes are so blue?!?! and hes so pretty??? my son??? okay but yeah so the concert happened and i don’t think i ever worked out as much as i did that night xD but yeah, send them off! happened and then another song and another song and another song and it was beautiful.

hearing them live again, and then like this was beyond amazing! they’ve grown so much but at the same time not at all (in a good way) and it was just soooo good. okay so like the songs were amazing but then things happened...

first dan i think in the second song decided to come over to us again and he saw our wwcommsflag AND HE SMILED AT ME WHILE HE SANG AND POINTED AT THE FLAG AND DID THIS APPROVING FACE HE DOES WHEN HE LIKES SOMETHING AND I DIED???????? HE WAS SO BEAUTIFUL??? AND HE LIKED THE FLAG???? AND????

then will decided it was a good time to kill us ...because this mf walked up to our side (like closer to the edge of the stage) with his freaking bass and his freaking self and JUST DECIDED TO KILL US WITH HIS EYEBROWS?? YOU GUYS KNOW THE THING THE FLIRTY EYEBROW RAISE AND SMIRK HE DOES??? YEAH HE DID THAT TO ME HE DID IT TO MY SISTER ASWELL BUT FIRSTME AND I HATE HIMALRIGHT IF I COULD HAVE I WOULD HAVE WENT UP THERE AND PUNCHED HIM BECAUSE HOW DARE??? INSTEAD I GIGGLED LIKE A SCHOOL GIRL AND HID BEHIND MY FLAG 

then WOODY CAME TO OUR SIDE!! HE WAS TINY AND SMOL AND I LOVE HIM AND HE WAS SMILING AT JASMIN AND IT WAS SO ADORABLE AND IM??? SO SMOL MY TWO FAVES!!! 

AND THEN THEY DECIDED TO PLAY THE ANCHOR!! AND HOW THEY DID IT OKAY WE WERE SCREAMING AFTER THE SONG ANDTHEN DAN JUST WENT ‘WHAT WAS THAT? YOU WANNA HEAR THE ANCHOR? OKAY THEN’ AND THEY STARTED PLAYING IT AND I DIED BC ITS MY FAV BYE

ALSO GLORY

AND THE SILENCE WHICH WAS JASMINS FAV AND IM GLAD THEYPLAYED IT AGAIN FOR HER <3

DURING LAURA PALMER CHORUS WE HELD UP A SIGN SAYING ‘THANK YOU FOR THIS FUCKING AWESOME TOUR’  THAT THEY GAVE OUT WAITING IN THE QUEUE AND IT MADE DAN SMILE REALLY CUTE AND IM 

so...???? i feellike i’m forgetting something important here but like that was jasmins first bastille concert and i’m a bit jealous xD but yeah the concert was just sooooooo good,okay it was over way too soon but in a few bits i literallyalmost died, like i couldn’t sing anymore? i actually had trouble breathing a few times and had to couch really badly and this was a bit ew and now good but other than that!!! 12/10 would recommend! 

at the end of it, after getting some merch and waiting for my sister to get our jacktes, i was just lying on the ground of the venue a bit because i was so dead and happy?? honestly i can’t wait for them to come to germany again for a real show (not festival) so i can see them again! 

we found out later that dan came out after the concert for a little bit to talk to fans, but we had to catch a train back to the place we were staying at (which was a bit outside of munich) and we weren’t 100% sure about the times the trains would all connect etc (+tired) so we couldn’t wait outside but, honestly i can’t complain at all because it’s just been such an amazing experience and i’m so glad i got to go there!! 

a few more pictures underneath!!!

Also there was a guy right next to the merch selling Wild World on CD and Vinyl and no one went to him and he looked so sad and awkward I almost went there and got one to make himsmile although I do own both already XD

also back home home on wednesday i noticed this one which was much more angry looking irl than it does on the picture...but...thanks for that one guys xD

this stuff is actually hot!!!!! 

ALSO ONE OF THE SECURITY GUYS HAD THREE SETLISTS AFTER THAT HE JUST RANDOMLY HANDED PEOPLE AND HE GAVE ONE TO ME AND IM?????

also because we’re awesome like that we ended up only with one phone (jasmin���s) inside to take pictures and videos because we ended up 1. locking my sisters phone and one of mine at the trainstation she went to before we knew we could put our stuff outside the venue and my second phone ended up outside the venue which is why we barely have any pictures but we got to fully enjoy the concert irl like that so thats a plus but ... when will your fav ever right?