#after... 6? 7 years? wowie

[sigtheta]

"She’s on the other side of that thin curtain, not on the other side of this blasted continent. If she slides the curtain across, if she gets up and looks into the booth, if she even moves, she will see him. And he realizes that it is time to go, job or not."(5/4/2025)

Do yourself a favour and go read @roraruu 's spectacular fic Confessional! https://archiveofourown.org/works/23603962

[skytlake]

things i am doing in the next 5 days:

packing my tiny car with the majority of my worldly possessions

driving 2 hours to spend a day with my family

doctor appt

taking car in for oil change

driving 2 more hours to take my sister to lunch

driving 10 hours to my partner's school to spend the night with him

driving 1 final hour to move in to my new place at my new job

[tigerkirby215]

5e Graves, the Outlaw build (League of Legends)

(Artwork by Jason Chan. Made for Riot Games.)

Blam blam?

Honestly I made Twisted Fate awhile ago so Graves was on my To Do list. It does also help that he has become a bit of a main character in the Tales of Runeterra shorts, being featured in both the Bilgewater and Bandle City short. And his place in the League meta certainly helps too.

But truthfully most of the builds I make are rather spur of the moment. Graves was just one I had a sudden bit of inspiration to do, which is why he’s up now.

GOALS

Hope you weren't planning to die of natural causes - Two barrels of Destiny should be enough to blow the brains out of anyone who stands in your way, or any other squishy bits.

I ain't got time to bleed - Who has more armor? The woman riding a horse made of literal metal, or the guy with a shotgun who did a bunch of Wave Dashes?

Lights out - To keep foes in place you’re going to need to smoke them out... Smoke them in?

RACE

Because I’m sick of constantly making Variant Humans I’m still going for Eberron Dragonmarks. Nothing really makes sense for Graves except for the Mark of Passage. Your Dexterity increases by 2 and you can increase any ability of your choice by 1: bump up that Constitution for a bit more bulk in the jungle.

You have Courier’s Speed for 5 extra feet of movement and Intuitive Motion to drive land vehicles or make Acrobatics checks. But of course the main feature we’re here for is Magical Passage to cast Misty Step once per Long Rest. Since we won’t be getting Misty Step from elsewhere we’ll finally have an accurate cooldown for Flash!

If Dragonmarks aren’t an option: Variant Human with either the Crossbow Expert feat or the Fey Touched feat works fine.

ABILITY SCORES

15; DEXTERITY - DEX is the “shoot gun” stat, as well as your AC stat among other things. Turns out we’ll have to shoot our gun a lot.

14; CHARISMA - Graves has a gruff charm to him, and while Fate is the one who usually does the talking that doesn’t mean Graves is incapable of doing so.

13; CONSTITUTION - You’re deceptively tanky for a Markman, though that mostly comes from Grit.

12; STRENGTH - You’re also a fairly large man, and New Destiny is a heavy gun.

10; WISDOM - You can tell when folk are lying but you’re a little dense.

8; INTELLIGENCE - But if the Legends of Runeterra shorts have shown anything it’s that you’re only really getting by on dumb luck and determination.

BACKGROUND

LoL wiki says you’re a mercenary, but you tend to work alone (or sometimes with your partner Tobias) so Urban Bounty Hunter makes a lot more sense for finding the scum of Bilgewater. Insight is nice but I’d also grab Intimidation instead of Persuasion or Deception, because you don’t play nice. You also get some tool proficiencies: I’m sure your partner taught you how to play with Cards and Dice, if only to cheat you out of your money.

But what we’re mainly here for is the Ear to the Ground feature, letting you keep in contact with Bilgewater’s underbelly to know who needs a blasting. These connections can get you a contact for bounty work anywhere you may go.

(Artwork by Kelly Aleshire. Made for Riot Games.)

THE BUILD

LEVEL 1 - FIGHTER 1

If Fighter is the fastest way to learn how to shoot a gun then you must fight! Fighters get two proficiencies from the Fighter list: Athletics and Acrobatics will help you with all that “jungling” stuff.

You also get a Fighting Style and you may be surprised to hear but we’re going for Archery to shoot your gun better, and you also get Second Wind for some refillable potions.

Honestly the most interesting thing to talk about with Fighter levels is what you’re going to grab for a weapon. If you’ve got an Artificer who can give you a cool (Heavy) Crossbow then feel free to grab that, but for the most part we’ll be using Hand Crossbows to recreate the range limitations of Graves’ shotgun.

LEVEL 2 - FIGHTER 2

You’ve got two barrels on your gun so you should shoot both of them in a round thanks to Action Surge. Get another action on your turn! Yup that’s all she wrote chief.

LEVEL 3 - FIGHTER 3

Third level Fighters get to choose their Martial Archetype and Graves is simple, boring, but effective. Feel free to take something more fun (or just use the Dark Tides of Bilgewater Renegade subclass tbh) but it’s about time I crack out the good ol’ Champion Fighter! Buy a Collector for an Improved Critical range of either 19 or 20! That’s 10% crit chance! But any ADC main will tell you that 10% crit still isn’t much crit.

LEVEL 4 - FIGHTER 4

4th level Fighters get our first Ability Score Improvement but being able to shoot good is more important. Grab Crossbow Expert to shoot in melee, reload quickly in a fight, and shoot with your Bonus Action after shooting!

LEVEL 5 - FIGHTER 5

5th level Fighters get an Extra Attack to Blam and then Blam again. These two Blams are separate from your Crossbow Expert Blam which is also separate from Action Surge, allowing you to Blam another two times meaning by level 5 you can already Blam up to 5 times in one round!

(Artwork made for Riot Games.)

LEVEL 6 - SORCERER 1

What? Did you really think that we wouldn’t have any spellcaster levels? Sorry to say it but there’s no easy way for a martial character to shoot out a smoke cloud or Wave Dash enough to survive a sniper rifle shot in the head.

We’ll be going for the Clockwork Soul since your gun is certainly mechanical in nature, and it’s certainly the soul of your character. As a Clockwork Sorcerer you can use your reaction to Restore Balance and negate either Advantage or Disadvantage a number of times equal to your proficiency bonus, regaining all expended uses at the end of a Long Rest. I’d flavor this more as your skill from years in the business letting you steady your aim or dodge out of the way of a foe who thinks they have the upper hand.

You know what helps with getting the upper hand? Spellcasting, especially with extra spells from Clockwork Magic. The extra spells you can get can be from the Abjuration or Transmutation schools, and can be from the Wizard, Warlock, or Sorcerer spell list. This means you can grab Shield for some Grit AC, and Absorb Elements for some Magic Resistance as well. You also get 4 cantrips and 2 more leveled spells:

CANTRIPS

Mind Sliver will serve as your Challenging Smite, weakening enemies and damaging them.

Message will help you keep in team chat with TF.

Prestidigitation will let you do all sorts of minor tricks with your bullets and gas canisters.

Mending will help you fix up your outfit after getting in scuff.

SPELLS

Fog Cloud will serve as your Smoke Screen, obviously.

To shoot out some Galeforce projectiles, grab Magic Missile to execute! (Note: Magic Missile will not actually execute.)

LEVEL 7 - WARLOCK 1

I COULDN’T HELP IT I’M SORRY. Warlock levels give us an easy way to have spells ready with just a short rest. First level Warlocks can choose their Patron at level 1 and for a bit more lethality take the Genie Patron. You can choose your Genie Kind and a Djinni will give a couple of benefits: for one your Genie’s Vessel will let you do Thunder damage equal to your Proficiency bonus once per turn thanks to Genie’s Wrath. You also have Bottled Respite for a safe place to rest and store the two guns and three knives you are expected to stick onto your gun.

You also get Pact Magic which is like regular spell slots but they come back after a Short Rest. Thunderwave is a good way to give yourself some space with shotgun knockback, and is on your Warlock spell list since you took the Djinni patron! And Hex is just good to Smite a foe to do more damage to them.

LEVEL 8 - WARLOCK 2

Second level Warlocks get their second Pact Magic slot, which is the main reason we need at least 2 levels in Warlock. But you also get Eldritch Invocations: Devil’s Sight will let you see through the dark with your dumb human eyes. And to play dress up Mask of Many Faces will let you put on some skins!

You can also learn another first level spell from the Warlock list: honestly there isn’t much I want, so I guess you can grab Armor of Agathys for some Thornmail.

(Artwork by Bo “chenbowow” Chen. Made for Riot Games.)

LEVEL 9 - FIGHTER 6

Back to Fighterman, take me by the hand for Ability Scores and, +2 to Dexterity man.

LEVEL 10 - FIGHTER 7

7th level Champions are Remarkable Athletes, letting them add half their proficiency bonus to any STR, DEX, or CON check made which you aren’t already proficient in. Unfortunately you have proficiency in Athletics and Acrobatics but at least this buffs your Slight of Hand and Stealth. And since Initiative is a DEX check, this ability improves that too!

Oh and you can also increase the distance of a running long jump by a number of feet equal to your Strength modifier. A whole extra foot of jumping distance!

LEVEL 11 - FIGHTER 8

Hey more Ability Score Improvements! Cap off that Dexterity, and also put 1 in Charisma for later.

LEVEL 12 - FIGHTER 9

9th level Fighters get a QSS for Indomitable, rerolling a failed save to potentially succeed! Are you going to succeed any mental saving throws? Probably not, but you’ve got a good chance for Strength, Dexterity, and Constitution. And you can use this for Death Saves too!

(Artwork made for Riot Games.)

LEVEL 13 - FIGHTER 10

10th level Champions get a whole Additional Fighting Style! Wowie! Take Defense for a bit more Grit in a teamfight.

LEVEL 14 - FIGHTER 11

11th level Fighters get an extra Extra Attack, letting them attack 3 times in a round. This means 4 attacks with Crossbow Expert and 7 if you Action Surge!

LEVEL 15 - FIGHTER 12

12th level Fighters get another Ability Score Improvement, and you know what’s better than one Flash? Two Flashes! Grab the Fey Touched Feat to increase your Charisma by 1, get another once-per-day use of the Misty Step spell, and also grab the Heroism spell for a bit more grit that you can cast with your first level slots.

(Artwork made for Riot Games.)

LEVEL 16 - FIGHTER 13

13th level Fighters get another use of Indomitable. That’s two rerolls on any failed save! Wow I know basic math!

LEVEL 17 - FIGHTER 14

14th level means another Ability Score Improvement: more Charisma means better Definitely-Not-Spells. But feel free to get something like Sharpshooter or another more practical feat, as the only spells you really have which rely on Charisma are Mind Sliver and Thunderwave.

LEVEL 18 - FIGHTER 15

15th level Champions finally grab their Infinity Edge for a Superior Critical on an 18, 19, or 20! 15% crit chance!

LEVEL 19 - FIGHTER 16

16th level means another Ability Score Improvement: either cap off your Charisma or grab some better feats. Build flexibility is important. "Got any bright ideas?"

LEVEL 20 - FIGHTER 17

Our last level is the 17th level of Fighter for one more use of Indomitable (making it 3 uses total) as well as an extra use of Action Surge! You can’t Action Surge twice in the same turn but you can Action Surge two turns in a row to really put the DPS out!

FINAL BUILD

PROS

I like my enemies two ways: dead, or about to be - Your shots are as reliable as they are deadly. 4 shots per turn thanks to Crossbow Expert’s Bonus Action, all of which have a whopping +13 to hit! Not to mention Genie’s Wrath giving you a flat +6 damage every turn and Superior Critical allowing you to crit 15% of the time.

Let's settle the score - A little bit of magic never hurt anyone. A few Misty Steps and a few more Shields can keep you out of danger, and spells like Hex can let you up your DPS. Even Fog Cloud (while admittedly situational) can still give you cover for either an attack or an escape.

Easy, partner - All that magic along with Fighter abilities and Fighter hit die means that you’re sturdier than most, with plenty of ways to shrug off attacks or boost yourself up after getting hit.

CONS

Who's in the dark now? - Making a specific point of dumping both Intelligence and Wisdom leaves you very lacking in social encounters. It also means that you’ll have a lot of trouble with spells. Even Hold Person can really hinder you.

Everyone's a hero... till you shoot off a leg or two - Champion isn’t exactly the most exciting class and this is well-known, but unfortunately Graves isn’t exactly the most exciting champion. Trust me I’d love to make him a Battle Master, Arcane Archer, Samurai, or Renegade (Dark Tides of Bilgewater.) But Graves is a big man with big crits and not much else.

Go ahead; I like moving targets - One more level in Warlock would’ve given you Misty Steps that come back after a Short Rest, as well as the Darkness spell which is arguably stronger than Fog Cloud. It would’ve also given you your Pact Boon, all of which are very strong. Honestly while the 17th level of Fighter is stronger if you know that you aren’t going to get to level 20 I’d definitely recommend a third Warlock level for the reasons I just said.

But of course anyone can win if they can just wave their hands around to send giant flaming rocks out of the sky. You prove that all you need to win a fight is a big gun, good aim, and a whole lotta grit. Put one between their eyes and a hundred more into their chest, and don’t mind any potential Collateral Damage. Just watch out for traps and stay clear of Yordles; wouldn’t want to be featured in another animated short.

(Artwork by Xu “Crow God” Cheng. Made for Riot Games.)

[sheepinawolfsfur]

I'm late again, but here we go. Tagged by @flaggermousseart

1. Name: Deer

2. Nickname: Deer ;) sometimes Dee

3. Zodiac: Capricorn

4. Height: 175 cm

5. Languages: German and English, a few crumbs of French, currently learning Spanish

6. Nationality: German

7. Favourite Season: winter. I'm thriving rn

8. Favourite Flower: amaryllis

9. Favourite Scent: I love the scent of being at the beach, but also the forest after it rained? Heaven

10. Favourite Colour: blue

11. Favourite Animal: cats

12. Favourite Character: oooooof

13. Coffee, Tea or Hot Chocolate: all of them

14. Hours of Sleep: I try and go for 8, it mostly works

15. Dogs or Cats: see 11 (cats)

16. Blankets: yes. Usually one, but if it gets chilly two

17. Dream Trip: definitely with a loved one, friend or family or whatever, I'm terrible at casual socializing. Long enough to settle in for a bit, maybe near the beach, that's a definite vacation association. But I've got nothing against discovering a new city or bigger village for a bit

18. Blog established: 21.03.2017. Oh wowie. Four years ago in a month.

19. Followers: wouldn't you like to know weatherboy. (It's at least double if you count the p*rnbots I blocked)

20. Random Fact: I've set out to reestablish my reading focus, let's make it through a book. Maybe that'll motivate me more for my own stories

I'm tagging @atgranger @dementorsareshook @idkmaybenotthatcool @transaurus

[cyberrat]

37th Batch Masterlist

ooohhh shiet this batch, y’all mmmh mmmh

1. Hawks/Endeavor – feminization; bullying; virginity kink – Endeavor is a dummy and Hawks exploits that fact shamelessly

2. McCree/Hanzo (+ Hanzo/others) – cont of B11F2 – more of Hanzo that got caught by Deadlock and is put through his paces!

3. Lucifer/OC – ‘Obey Me!’ Fandom – pining; courting – Lucifer has taken notice of the human for a while now. Shortly before the year is up he finally invites Tom for a dinner, talking, and more.

4. Lucifer/OC – ‘Obey Me!’ Fandom – cont of last fic – transmasc OC; petnames; Dom/sub – the evening develops into something more.

5. + 6. Reaper/McCree (+Reaper/Soldier76) – hypnotizing; BJ; tit/pec job; cuckolding – Jesse knows commander Reyes and Morrison are sweet on each other. He knows that Reyes routinely fingers himself in the showers so he can run off to Morrison for a nice and nasty quickie... so he uses his hypnotizing gadget to have some fun for his own.

7. Bruce/Jason – cont B36F7 – somnophilia; maybe camsex – Bruce finally wakes but Jason is still asleep. He does not react to being speared on dick like Jason might have thought.

8. Reaper76 – cont B36F6 – Jack POV; micro dick; happy ending – Jack seeing that Gabriel actually told the truth about how much he’s turned on by the tiny raisin dick.

9. McHanzo – cont B36F8 – blackmailing; dragon fucc – more in this verse. Hanzo maybe turning the tables somewhat...?

10. Reaper76 – cont B36F9 – watersports/wetting; ABO; massive cum inflation – When Jack starts waking and shifting, Gabriel loses his fight against the inevitable.

11. McHanzo – cont B36F10 – aftercare; rape aftermath; hurt/comfort – Hanzo finally disregarding years of strict upbringing to give his man the aftercare and comfort he deserves and needs.

12. Gust/Builder – cont B36F4 – bondage; cbt – Time later after they had played with the other pair, Gust asks (asexual; nonbinary) Builder for something.

13. JACK/TORBJÖRN – JACK EATS HIM OUT! YAS!

And there you have it! starting on the first one ASAP! lots of new stuff, lots of continuations, wowie :3c

[loserholland]

Fuckboy 101

𝟎𝟎𝟑 ➺ 𝐋𝐨𝐧𝐝𝐨𝐧 𝐓𝐨𝐰𝐧

𝟎𝟎𝟏 ➺ 𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐌𝐞𝐞𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠

𝟎𝟎𝟐 ➺ 𝐂𝐨𝐟𝐟𝐞𝐞

𝟎𝟎𝟒 ➺ 𝐅𝐢𝐧𝐝 𝐦𝐞 𝐢𝐧 𝐏𝐚𝐫𝐢𝐬

Pairing ➺ Fuckboy!Tom Holland x Reader

Warning ➺ fluff, angsty towards the end, tom being a HUGE DICK

Word Count ➺  2,370

Summary ➺  A bet that was too hard to refuse.

A/N ➺ FINALLY updated this mini series after a bajillion years and wrote this in about two hours wowie.

✿ 𝓟𝓮𝓻𝓶𝓪𝓷𝓮𝓷𝓽 𝓣𝓪𝓰𝓵𝓲𝓼𝓽 ✿ - @loveyathreethousand​, @taronxfiction, @killerqueen-gunpowdergelatine, @spideyyypeter @lou-la-lou​ @babebenhardy​ @rivervixenbaby

@writingstoriesaboutcharacters​

☞  Masterlist  ☜

-

Summer.

It was a wonderful time to take time off of school and worrying about grades and to just relax. 

Tom had surprised (Y/N) with tickets to London to not only explore the city and check it off her bucket list, but to also meet his family. It has been a wonderful seven months, but by the time it was their three month anniversary he didn’t want it to be a bet. Even when he had told Jake they were dating, he continued to add more to the bet, get her to say ‘I love you’.

Check.

On their four month anniversary, she had said it without realizing. It was one of those moment’s when you’re looking at someone in complete awe, when your eyes are basically shaped like hearts. 

It was one of those moment’s where the rest of the world went mute and all that mattered was them. How she whispered it not even realizing what she was thinking was let out to the world.

They were walking in central park, the snow was slowly starting to melt yet it was still a bit chilly out. The two had just came from dinner and decided to take a stroll in the park before heading back to campus. Every so often she’d look up at him a warm feeling spread through her body every time he caught her eye.

“I love you.”

(Y/N) didn’t even realize she had said it, Tom though the moment he heard he say it. It felt like a dream, his heart stopped he gazed down at her a small smile tugging at his lips.

“What did you say?”

The words replayed before she looked back up at Tom, it was a now or never moment.

“I love you.”

Tom leaned down placing a sweet kiss on her lips, he felt her smile against his lips causing Tom to pull away slowly. He placed his mitten covered hands on her cheek, placing a small kiss onto her forehead.

“I love you too.”

Jake didn’t stop from there, he said that if he wanted the bet to be done with then move to third base. 

Check.

Six month anniversary, after Tom had spoiled her with a huge shopping spree. and a beautiful dinner. He had rented a hotel suite, Harrison helped Tom decorate the suite with roses and candles.

“Thomas, I swear this better not be some fifty shades of grey shit.” (Y/N) commented the moment Tom had asked her to place the blindfolds over her eyes squeezing Tom’s hand lightly.

“It’s not, I promise. But if you’re into th-” She slapped the back of his not allowing him to finish his sentence, yup not gonna happen buddy.

She heard a small click unsure of what that might have been for until she felt Tom guide her once more before whispering “Take off your blindfolds.” slowly she undid the knot blinking a few times allowing her eyes adjust to the lighting.

(Y/N) gasped lightly before looking back at Tom, “Tommy.. you didn’t have to do this.” Tom shrugged in response walking over to wrap his arms around her waist pulling her closer to his chest.

“Happy sixth month anniversary darling.”

The bet didn’t stop there. But you knew that already.

“You love her don’t you? Like actually love her? Damn you’ve gone soft.” Jake slurred causing Tom to huff loudly brushing off what Jake had said.

“Fuck off Jake.” 

 This caused Jake to stand from where he was sitting, pointing his beer in Tom’s direction.

“You had all your chances to break up with her, yet you kept pushing it. Alright final part of the bet Holland.” Tom stood up from his seat with his jaw clenched ready to punch the lights out of Jake, fucking hell why did he agree anyway?

“Break her heart Holland, make her hate you.”

Pending.

He didn’t want to break up with her, god that was the last thing he wanted to do. But he never backed down from a bet, but he also didn’t want (Y/N) to hate him. That little shit Jake knew what he was doing, he knew what buttons to press.

“Thomas?” (Y/N) tugged at his arm causing Tom to look in his girlfriend of seven months, “Look! Wow it’s as beautiful as I thought it would be.” he watched in awe as she admired the city of London below her.

He didn’t want to let her go, he didn’t want her to end up hating him after what they’ve gone through. God thinking about it made his heart clench and feel sick to his stomach.

“Ladies and Gentlemen, we will be landing in about ten minutes. The current time in London is 11:44 AM, 65 degrees fahrenheit, 18 degrees celsius. The current time in New York is 6:44 AM, 71 degrees fahrenheit, 22 degrees celsius. Thank you for choosing United Airlines, we will be landing shortly.”

God he felt sick, he doesn’t want to end it with (Y/N) really that’s the last thing he wanted. There was something holding him back from wanting to break up with her, and something eating up at him for just needing to do it.

(Y/N) on the other hand was beyond nervous on meeting Tom’s family for the first time in person, she had seen them over facetime and in many pictures from Tom’s camera roll. Yet this is the real deal, Tom had met (Y/N) parents when they came to visit during spring break. That was the first time she had seen Tom get so nervous or something. 

“Should I change? Yeah I’ll change.” before Tom could go back and dig something out of his closet she grabbed his wrist tugging him towards the bed. 

(Y/N) placed her hand on his cheek rubbing her thumb against his cheekbone before speaking “No, if you change one more time we’ll be late. You look great Tommy, my parent’s will love you.” she leaned in to place a chaste kiss on his lips in sign of reassurance.

After a their little lunch date (Y/N) father had pulled Tom aside and said “She talks about you a lot, you make her happy. Thank you for getting her out of that little shell of her’s.” 

That’s what Tom thought back to. Those words (Y/N) father had told him always echoed when he thought about how he’d break up with her. But right now was not the time to think about breaking up with her. Instead enjoy summer vacation and (Y/N) meeting his family for the first time.

Once they landed, they went to retrieve their bags and waited outside for Harry. All (Y/N) wanted to do was get in the car and nap, her body was still on New York time. It was about 12:25 London time and it was 7:25 New York time, during this time she’d be asleep.

“Hey you div!” a voice called causing (Y/N) to furrow her brows in confusion she looked up from the ground to see Harry walking towards them. Tom mumbled something under his breath yet (Y/N) couldn’t really catch what he said. 

“The lovely (Y/N) (Y/L/N), the person Tom talk’s non-stop about!” Harry pulled her into a hug causing (Y/N) to chuckle lightly, “Ah yes Harry, not Tom’s favorite!” Harry pulled away quickly with a loud dramatic gasp.

“Well we all know that’s a lie.” Harry said in a ‘as a matter of fact’ tone.

“It’s not you div! Now help me will you?” 

Before Harry went to help Tom with the rest of the luggage he opened the door for (Y/N) allowing her to climb into the passenger seat, she got as comfortable as she could and told herself she’d rest her eyes a little.

"Darling, we’re here.” Tom spoke softly lightly tapping his sleeping girlfriend, he watched as (Y/N) shuffled around not budging or trying to wake up. 

“Darling c’mon wake up.” (Y/N) groaned lightly raising her hand to rub the sleep out of her eyes to see Tom sitting in front of her, she hummed lightly “Hi Tommy.” 

He was gonna miss that. 

“Hi darling, we’re here.”

(Y/N) slowly shuffled out of the car and followed closely behind Tom as they approached the house that was filled with light chatter, “Tom!” Nikki announced as she began to move towards the two.

Tom stood with his arms slightly open expecting his mom to hug him first yet she brushed pass him and went in to hug (Y/N), “Oh! I’ve been so excited to finally meet you in person (Y/N)!” Nikki exclaimed causing (Y/N) to smile.

“I’ve been excited to finally meet you in person as well Mrs.Holland!” Nikki pulled away lightly waving off (Y/N) attempt to call her Mrs.Holland, “Dear please, call me Nikki.” 

“(Y/N)!” another voice called which seemed to belong to Paddy, who yet again brushed pass Tom to greet (Y/N) instead.

“Paddy!” (Y/N) crouched down lightly to accept Paddy’s hug.

“Missed you too mom.” Tom spoke causing Nikki to chuckle, going over to hug her oldest son. 

I guess (Y/N) didn’t need to worry after all.

-

The Holland’s had decided to bring (Y/N) to their favorite beach, they gave (Y/N) a day to get a bit use to the time change before heading out to play tourist. She had also finally met Tessa who was the cutest dog she had ever met in the entire world. 

(Y/N) walked along side Nikki and Dom as they watched the boys run after one another, “Whenever they’re together it’s like their kids again.” Dom commented as (Y/N) nodded in response.

“He talks about you guys a lot.” (Y/N) said as she brushed a piece of hair behind her ear wrapping her arms around her chest as a cool breeze brushed passed. 

“As he does with you,” Nikki replied as a tint of red kissed her cheeks, “he really loves you. I’ve never seen so head over heels for a girl before.” Tom looked back for a moment catching (Y/N) eye before sending her a playful wink, she crinkled her nose at the action shaking her head lightly at him.

"I should be thanking you two, if it weren’t for Tom I’d still be hiding in my shell. He’s helped me get out of my comfort zone, I can’t thank him enough for it.”

She was head over heels in love with him.

-

They had one more day left in London, Tom had taken her to see Big Ben, the London eye, Buckingham palace, and take several iconic London phone booth photos.

(Y/N) helped Nikki with dinner, chopping up the vegetables and washing the dishes that they had used. During that time they had a girl talk and just gossiped, something she did with her mother all too often. Once dinner was ready Nikki had asked (Y/N) to call the boys. 

Paddy and Sam came rushing in the backyard, Dom had a comedy gig so Nikki had made him a plate to warm up one he came home. (Y/N) made her way to Tom’s room where the two were currently sharing a room, before she could call the him to eat she heard another voice in the room. 

“You’re kidding right? That’s fucked up Tom, no this is way passed fucked up.” the voice was surely belonged to Harry, she stood there quietly listening in on their conversation. 

“It’s just, it suppose to be a bet. I still is, now I have to break up with her.” (Y/N) tensed slightly at the sound of Tom’s voice.

“Tom, you’re really gonna choose your pride and ego over (Y/N)? Keeping your president position over (Y/N)? All you had to do was say no to the bet, do you even have real feeling for her?”

(Y/N) knocked on the door lightly, “Dinner time.” 

Tom looked over at Harry in panic praying that (Y/N) didn’t hear their entire conversation.

“You better make this right Thomas.”

-

The moment they landed back in New York Tom knew something was off, she hadn’t spoken to him the entire flight and dodged him when he went in for a kiss. (Y/N) waited till they got back to campus to question him not wanting to make a scene in public and look like the ‘crazy girlfriend’.

Once (Y/N) unlocked her dorm, she looked around to see if her roommate was in for the summer yet it was empty. Tom had already stopped by the frat house to drop off his things.

“What’s wrong?” Tom questioned quietly. 

(Y/N) sighed turning around to look at Tom “What is this.” she gestured pointing between her and Tom, “Was this all a bet? What was it?” in that moment he knew, she heard what him and Harry were speaking about.

“(Y/N)-”

“No. Was I a bet?” 

Tom didn’t answer instead his head hung low, he fucked up, he really fucked this up.

“Was I a-”

Tom looked up and shouted “Yes!” she was taken aback by his answer her heart slowly began to break as tears brimmed her eyes.

“You were a bet (Y/N), you were one of my bets. If I dated you I’d keep my position as president so Jake would ‘t be president. I promised him that I’d have your wrapped around my fingers and I did. I had you wrapped around my fingers within four months of dating, I was given a year and finished it in seven months instead. So yes, this was all a bet, everything I said was a lie, none of this was real.”

“My love for you wasn’t real.”

She felt dizzy, the world was beginning to crumble as a few tears began to stain her cheeks. She felt sick, she felt sadness and anger.

“Get out.”

Tom stood there for a moment, he just hurt the girl he loved the most. He just took her heart that she had given him and ripped it into two right in front of her. 

“Thomas get the hell out!”

(Y/N) pushed his chest lightly causing Tom to stumble back and walk towards the door, he had hurt the girl he had learned to love. He fucking hurt her. ‘

“I fucking hate you and never wanna see you again!”

Check.

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How the Moon Fell In Love With a Star - Part 7

Fandom: Harry Potter, Marauders Era

Pairing: Sirius Black x OC (Remus’s twin sister)

Word Count: 1,875

Summary: Lilliana Lupin is just starting her seventh year with her twin brother and best friends. The only catch: she’s in love with one of them. When James hatches a plan to make both Lily Evans and Sirius Black notice James and Lillie, she is hesitant. Until it works.

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A/N: Wowie, it took me so long to write this part. Hope it was worth the wait!

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A week later, the boys and I were sitting around the fireplace working on homework. Sirius had just dropped his books on the table next to me when James said, “Come on, Sirius.” James stood and stretched. “We've got Quidditch practice.”

“Already?” asked Sirius. “Bloody hell, I just sat down!”

I shook my head at the two of them. Sirius ruffled my hair as he passed. James leaned down, put a hand on my cheek, and pressed a quick kiss to my lips. When he pulled away, his eyes shot towards Lily, who was sitting at a table in the corner. He smiled at me, patted Remus on the shoulder, then led Sirius out of the common room. Sirius’ scowl didn't go unnoticed by me.

“Since the two of them are gone,” Remus said, turning to me. “Will you finally tell me what's been going on?”

I shrugged. “James asked me out, I said yes, we've been dating ever since-”

“Lillie, you know that's not what I really meant,” Remus interrupted.

I sighed, then glanced around the room to make sure no one was listening in. “You know me better than anyone, Remus. What do you think?”

Remus thought for a moment before stating, “I think it's killing you a little on the inside.”

“Well then, you would be right,” I mumbled. Remus nodded sadly.

Surprisingly, my brother was the first person to figure out that I loved Sirius. As more than a friend at least. I didn't really tell him, simply gave little signs that only my twin would have picked up on. James figured out soon enough after, and the teasing carried from third year all the way through fifth when I finally had enough of it and returned the favor by teasing James about Lily. In front of her, though, because that boy had no shame.

“You know,” Remus drew my attention back to him, “you could always break it off with James and ask Sirius to the ball.”

“Don't be ridiculous, Remus. Do you think I'd ever have the nerve to do that?”

Remus shrugged. “Anything's possible if you've got enough nerve.”

----

Christmas at Hogwarts brought that happy sort of feeling. You know, where everything is right in the world.

Except everything was not right in the world. News of James's and my relationship had spread like wildfire and it seemed to be all the school could talk about. Going between classes, I always caught snippets of conversations between girls about how James was only dating me because I was his best friend and needed someone to go to the ball with. Others said I had asked James out and he only said yes out of pity. Still others hit closer to the mark: James was using me to get Lily's attention. Those weren't completely correct but not completely inaccurate either.

What bugged me the most was Sirius’ reaction to it all. In the beginning of this whole mess, his annoyed face made it all worth it. However, the closer it got to Christmas, the less I saw that face. Instead, he let his face wash into an amused smirk whenever James and I did something remotely romantic. Now, I doubted if any of this was even worth it.

My brother was convinced James and I were driving Sirius up a wall and that he would snap soon. Peter tried to stay out of the mess. Like always, he didn't like confrontation. James insisted we should keep the charade up a little longer. I didn't really know how I felt about it. And I had absolutely no idea how Sirius felt.

James's plan had always been to make Sirius crack and admit his feelings, and James was convinced that the only way to do that was to go to the ball together.

One night a few weeks before Christmas, we all sat around the fire working on homework or, in James's case, using his wand to make figures dance in the fire. “Hey, Lillie?” James said.

“Mm?” I hummed.

“Go to the Christmas ball with me?”

Sirius’ head shot up. “Sure, Prongs,” I replied.

----

The morning of the ball, I woke up to the sound of muffled voices. Rolling over in bed, I noticed the bathroom door was shut but light leaked out through the gap. The dorm door opened and in walked Alice. “Good, you're up. Lily was planning to dump a bucket of water on your face in the next few minutes,” Alice giggled. I groaned and rolled out of bed.

“That girl is infuriating sometimes.”

“Well, she wasn't going to have you miss this!” Alice pulled you over to Marlene's vanity in the corner. “Now, what are you thinking for your hair?”

“Honestly? I haven't thought of any of this once,” I replied, sighing.

“Well, that’s alright, because I intend to make you look stunning.” Alice smiled sweetly at me in the mirror.

I returned her grin, internally wincing at the thought of who I would be looking pretty for.

----

“You look absolutely stunning,” James grinned. “Doesn’t she look stunning, lads?” He spun me under his arm. Sirius’ gray eyes followed the swirls of my green dress, from the heels on my feet Lily forced me to wear up to the intricate rose braid my hair wove into. Remus leaned over and pressed a kiss to my cheek.

“Beautiful,” Sirius agreed. He shook out of his trance, grinning brightly.

James shot me a look before holding out his arm. “Shall we?”

----

The next three hours involved dancing stupidly, sneaking drinks of firewhiskey, and acting like complete fools with my best friends. When I finally sat down to take a break, Sirius joined me, eyes bright and awake from alcohol.

“You really do look beautiful, Lillie.” My eyes shot to his face, searching for some sort of lie.

“Thank you, Sirius.” We sat in comfortable silence, content to observe. Suddenly, he stood up.

“Can I have this dance?” I looked up at Sirius, his hand outstretched to me. I sighed before taking his hand and allowing him to pull me to my feet.

“You know, that is actually incorrect grammar. It should be 'may I’ not 'can I’ because ‘can’ asks for the ability while ‘may’ asks-” Sirius pressed his lips to my cheek, hitting the corner of my mouth.

“Would ya just shut up, Moonbeam? I'm trying to be a gentleman.” In my state of shock, his hand drifted out of mine and he was halfway to the dance floor before realizing I was not, in fact, following him. He gestured toward the floor. “Are you coming or not?” I just stared, lips parted and brain whirring. He huffed and sauntered back to me. “Come on.” With that, he wrapped his arms around my waist and hoisted me up over his shoulder, carrying me away from the table.

“Sirius! Put me down!” I protested. He didn't respond, instead continuing to walk. “Sirius Orion Black, if you don't put me down, I'll-”

He dropped me on my feet, smiling smugly. “You'll what?” I lost my words. “That's what I thought,” he chuckled.

I shook my head muttering, “Idiot.”

“Hmm? What was that?”

“Nothing, Siri,” I giggled. He rolled his eyes, sliding a hand to my waist and taking my other hand in his.

“You know, I was thinking about asking you?” Sirius offhandedly commented.

“Are you serious?”

He grinned. “Of course I am!”

I shoved his shoulder playfully. “Not like that. I mean, were you really thinking of asking me?”

“Of course I was. I've been planning it since before you and James got together. Of course, he had to go and mess up my plan by asking you out first.” Sirius shrugged. “It's not like I've been in love with you for years-” He cut himself off causing me to jerk back from Sirius.

“What did you just say?” I demanded.

“I-um…” For the first time in my memory, Sirius Black was speechless. We froze, staring at each other for a moment. Then Sirius bolted.

“Sirius! Wait!” I hiked up the skirt of my dress and rushed after him. He was already out of the Great Hall as I passed James, Remus, and Peter.

“Lillie!” James yelled. He tossed me a piece of parchment which I immediately recognized as the Marauder's Map. I nodded at him before spinning on my heel and sprinting out of the noise-containing Great Hall.

Sirius was nowhere to be found so I pulled out my wand and tapped the map, muttering the ever-familiar incantation. I found him easily, as most everyone in Hogwarts was in the Great Hall. The seventh floor in the hall of Barnabas the Barmy's tapestry. A moment later, he disappeared. I sighed before making my way up the marble staircase. Halfway up, my shoe caught on the edge of a stair and fell off. “Who am I? Cinderella?” I muttered, pulling off my other shoe and tucking them both behind a plant at the top of the stairs.

It only took a minute to reach the Room of Requirement, thanks to shortcuts the boys had found over the years.

“Sirius?” I pushed into the room, letting the door slam with a resounding bang. Sirius sat by the fireplace, staring into the burning logs. The flames reflected in his eyes, turning the gray irises gold. His tie hung loose around his neck in that boyish I don’t care about anything look. I dropped down next to him, laying back on the pillows strewn about the floor. “Is it true?”

Sirius nodded.

“Why didn’t you say anything?”

“Why do you think?” He whispered. “I didn’t want to ruin...this.” He gestured between the two of us.

I took a deep breath and let the words flow out before I could stop. “I love you too.”

Sirius’ head whipped to look at me. “Then why are you with James?”

I sat up abruptly. “That isn’t real, Sirius. James came up with this clever plan to make you realize you were jealous and to get Lily’s attention. For a while it was working. He was convinced you would do something eventually, but when you didn’t, he thought going to the ball together would be the last straw.”

“This was all a prank? A joke?” Sirius’ voice cracked. Though his face was blank, his eyes betrayed a pain I had seen few other times. “You and James were faking it!” I nodded slowly, not quite sure where he was going with this. “I can’t believe this! I hated James for months because of this!” Anger seeped quickly into his voice. “You thought I was dumb enough to try to steal the girl my best mate was dating? Even though I had loved her for years! I can’t believe either of you.” My heart skipped a beat. An angry Sirius was not someone I enjoyed dealing with. His voice turned deathly indifferent. “I hope you’re happy now.”

I was frozen in place, staring after the boy I loved as he pushed his way through the room, a scowl etched on his face.

“What have I done?” I whispered, letting the dam break. Tears streamed down my face as I curled into a ball and sobbed.

Part 8 (last part)

A/N: I’m thinking of three more parts to this, max. I may do an epilogue where they meet again during POA, but not for sure.

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FALL CSA WEEK 7

p i c k l i s t

garlic seconds - onions - radish - watermelon radishes- murasaki sweet potatoes - butternut squash - kale - spinach - beets - purple top turnips - carrots - brussel sprouts - mixed potatoes - popcorn

BREAD: ZUCCHINI BREAD (but actually summer squash)

WOW- WHAT A WHIRLWIND.  Another CSA season has come and gone!  What started with seeds in January, ends today with a cornucopia of root vegetables, some fresh greens, and a smattering of storage crops to keep you thinking of edgewater well into winter.  

Brief 2022 recap: The farming season is so wild!  From sunrise to sundown, every moment from April to literally right now in late November is either an epic win or an epic fail, very little in between.  So much occurs from spring seeding to summer picking to late fall storing and finally deep winter eating.  In total honesty, this was a tough growing season.  Lack of rain really took a toll on all of our crops, we were short two people on field crew, the crop failure we had during strawberry season was enough to make us all cry, weeds were out of control in every field and now we are dealing with rot in our potatoes.  It’s just a lot.  And this season more than any one prior, I gotta say, we are all ready for some real rest.  

Don’t get me wrong, we weren’t just irrigating our crops with tears this Summer.  There was awesome fruit to reap!  The melons were sweet and plentiful, winter squash blossomed like a dream, blueberries were divine, the cherry tomatoes were endless,  and we got a good handle on exactly how much collared greens to grow for future plantings.  Also, the good folks that show up every summer to work on our field crew are so dear to my heart and I love working alongside them.  Mike, Ray, Strong, Roy, Jasper, Garnet, and Tim continue to be total badasses in the field. Everyone shows up daily to give their all to whatever veg/fruit is in front of them.  Newbies Pam, Claire, Denroy, and Carlington fell into the groove while also experiencing steep learning curves.  Pam in particular, really stole my heart this Summer.  Her first year in farming reminded me how cool every crop is and how there is brilliance in every systems of planting/seeding/irrigating, etc… It was totally inspiring to work with someone so new to the field, and so eager to learn.  Her awe in growing food is contagious, Cheers pam!

And as far as the CSA round up goes, while we are ending our 7 weeks of Fall foods today, the farm is completing 24 weeks of CSA pick ups and pack outs- wowie wow wow wow.  Such a journey we went on this Summer beginning with the first bite of strawberries in June! 

We were all so lucky to have support from Mrs. T on herbs, Claire on early morning green harvesting as well as sky scrapers of wax box building, Anne on after hours kiddo duties, Ray on crop plan management, and of course allll the support from field crew on bulk planting, harvesting, etc…  (think cucurbrits, cherry tomatoes, small fruits, etc).  

My bottomline here is this:  you hear alot from me throughout the growing season via newsletter and instagram, but this farm is far bigger than one person and one persons voice.  It is an actual village and everyone here keeps the village moving, and food growing, and goodness gracious we haven’t even brought up all the cool stuff happening at the farmstand, in the  kitchen, and in the greenhouses.  Edgewater is a pretty special place, I often can’t believe I get to do this everyday… 

And without further ado, Allie and Holle (of the farmstand and greenhouses) just walked into the farm office with a 6 pack of white claws.  It’s 6pm, dark as hell, time to wrap up- so cheers to you all, thanks for having Edgewater at your table these past 7 weeks (and some 24!) dig in, Happy Thanksgiving, and let's party.  

pro-tips:

ACTIVE TIME/ 15 minutes TOTAL TIME/40 minutes… 4 servings

1½ lb. brussels sprouts, trimmed, halved

¼ cup extra-virgin olive oil

½ tsp. kosher salt, plus more 

Freshly ground black pepper

¼ cup honey

⅓ cup sherry vinegar or red wine vinegar

�� tsp. crushed red pepper flakes (optional)

3 Tbsp. unsalted butter

3 scallions, thinly sliced on a diagonal

1 tsp. finely grated lemon zest

Step 1 Place a rimmed baking sheet on bottom rack of oven; preheat to 450°. Toss brussels sprouts and oil in a large bowl; season with salt and black pepper. Step 2 Carefully remove baking sheet from oven. Using tongs, arrange brussels cut side down on baking sheet. Roast brussels on bottom rack until softened and deeply browned, 20–25 minutes. Step 3 Meanwhile, bring honey to a simmer in a small saucepan over medium-high heat. Reduce heat to medium-low and cook, stirring often, until honey is a deep amber color but not burnt (it will be foamy, that’s okay), 3–4 minutes. Step 4 Remove from heat and add vinegar and red pepper flakes, if using, and whisk until sauce is smooth (it will bubble up quite aggressively when you add the vinegar before settling). Return saucepan to medium heat, add butter and ½ tsp. salt, and cook, whisking constantly, until glaze is glossy, bubbling, and slightly thickened, 3–4 minutes. Step 5 Transfer brussels sprouts to a large bowl. Add glaze and scallions and toss to combine. Transfer to a platter and top with lemon zest.

Prep Time 20 mins/ Cook Time 45 mins/ Total Time 1 hr 5 mins

Hemp Seed Ranch (makes extra)

½ cup raw + hulled hemp seeds

¼ cup fresh lemon juice (from approximately 1 lemon)

¼ cup water

1 tablespoon olive oil

1 teaspoon dijon mustard

1 teaspoon garlic powder

¼ teaspoon nutritional yeast

1 green onion, finely minced (approximately 1/4 cup)

1 sprig of dill, chopped (approximately 1 tablespoon)

sea salt and ground black pepper, to taste

Roasted Winter Bowl

1 small-medium sweet potato, (about 3/4 lb or 330 grams) peeled + diced into 1/2 inch cubes

1 tablespoon olive oil, divided

⅓ of a block of tempeh, from a standard 1/2 lb or 250 gram block, cut into 2-inch pieces

2 tablespoons barbecue sauce of choice (see notes)

7-8 brussels sprouts, trimmed and quartered

Instructions

Preheat the oven to 400°F. Set out a large baking sheet, lining it with parchment paper if you like.

Make the hemp seed ranch dressing. In a blender, combine the hemp seeds, lemon juice, water, olive oil, dijon, garlic powder, nutritional yeast, salt, and pepper. Whizz the mixture on high until you have a smooth and creamy texture. Scrape the dressing into a small bowl and stir in the green onions and dill. Cover the dressing and store in the refrigerator.

Place the diced sweet potatoes onto one end of the baking sheet. Toss the sweet potatoes with 1 teaspoon of the olive oil, some salt and pepper. Slide the sheet into the oven and set your timer for 15 minutes.

At the 15 minute mark, remove the baking sheet. In a small bowl, toss the tempeh pieces with another teaspoon of olive oil, some salt and pepper. Arrange the tempeh pieces in the middle segment of the baking sheet. Lightly toss the sweet potatoes. Slide the sheet back into the oven and set your timer for another 15 minutes.

At the 15 minute mark, remove the baking sheet. Throw the brussels sprouts into the same small bowl that you used for the tempeh. Toss the brussels sprouts with the remaining olive oil, salt, and pepper. Scatter them in a single layer on the remaining segment of the baking sheet.

Flip the tempeh pieces over and brush them with the barbecue sauce. Slide the sheet back into the oven for 15 more minutes. Once brussels sprouts are lightly browned, remove baking sheet from the oven.

Transfer sweet potatoes, tempeh, and brussels sprouts to a serving bowl. Drizzle some of the hemp seed ranch dressing over top and enjoy.

Equipment

Blender

Recipe Notes

For barbecue sauces, there's no shame in a good store bought one OR you can make one from my recipe. This one and this one also look great.

I used a high speed blender for the ranch dressing, but I imagine a normal blender could get the job done because hemp seeds are quite soft.

A super easy, vegan, one-tray roasted winter bowl supper with BBQ tempeh, brussels sprouts, sweet potatoes and vegan hemp seed ranch dressing. This is a great lower effort, nourishing meal for one.

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All arcana asks ;)

I hate u so much Hayden. Putting it under a read more cuz HECK this is a lot. Also u can clearly tell Rose is my most fleshed out apprentice lmao. U can also tell when I started to burn out lol. THIS TOOK ME ALL DAY HECK

1. Name? Surname?Rose LaFontaineAaron (???)Lyra (???)

2. Any Family?Rose: she has a sister who’s 10 years older than her named Yvette, she’s a pirate. And her mother still lives in Fantasy France.Aaron: SO MANYLyra:….she doesn’t like to talk about it

3.Any Familiar?Rose: A bull mastiff named Mika who can change in size (so she can fit in a pocket or be the size of a horse, at her will)Aaron: A bearded dragon named Sir Slappy Skiddaddly the Third Lyra: A cute little rat named Pixie

4.Asra, Nadia, or Julian?Rose: JulianAaron: AsraLyra: Nadia

5. Best strength in magic?Rose: IllusionsAaron: Fire magic. Anyone who follows Eereree saw this coming.Lyra: the creation and manipulation of light

6. Favorite color?Rose: Maroon or light pink Aaron: Red. Surprise surprise Lyra: Purple

7. Favorite number?Rose: 69Aaron: 420Lyra: HOW DID YOU TWO ANSWER THAT SO FAST??? Uhh, 7?

8. Sexuality?Rose: BiAaron: PanLyra: Lesbian

9. Weird hobby?Rose: not really weird so much as unexpected for her, but she likes to sew and knit.Aaron: Weed lmaoLyra: Buying books but never actually getting around to reading them.

10. Favorite season?Rose: SpringAaron: FallLyra: Spring as well

11. Favorite weather?Rose: Sunny, but not hot.Aaron: Thunderstorms Lyra: Drizzly

12. Favorite place in Vesuvia?Rose: The Raven, or Mazelinka’s place. She loves that lady like she was her own grandmother.Aaron: The market. That pumpkin bread thoLyra: The palace library

13. How does their laughter sound like?Rose: Sober, its a soft almost teasing giggle. Drunk, loud cackling. Both are very charming in their own way.Aaron: LOUDLyra: giggling and soft snorting

14. How do they look like when they cry?Rose: She doesn’t cry often so when she does its…a lot. Loud gross sobbing often accompanied by yelling. Its not pretty.Aaron: Ghibli tears. You can’t convince me otherwise.Lyra: A lot of sniffling

15. What do they like to wear?Rose: Long dresses/skirts with low cut tops. Her brests are her best asset and she’s gonna show em whether you like it or not.Aaron: Tits out. That’s all u need to know.Lyra: Long, modest cut dresses with a corset. Very simple, but she always looke nice.

16. What are their fears?Rose: Fears? Don’t know her. (Actually death, which is…ironic considering the circumstances)Aaron: Abandonment. And cockroaches.Lyra: Rejection. The dark.

17. What do they like to do Friday night?Rose: put on fancy lingerie, get wasted, and play card games.Aaron: Blaze it lmaoLyra: (cuddling with Nadia) Reading

18. Do they use makeup?Yes. All 3 of them.

19. Favorite food?Rose: Mama LaFontaine’s crepesAaron: Spicy Vegetarian ChiliLyra: Cookies (technically not FOOD, but sweets are her big weakness)

20. Favorite drink?Rose: Rosé wine. Sounds redundant considering her name, but thats why she likes it. Growing up she thought it was named after her.Aaron: Just water, surprisingly.Lyra: Green tea

21. Zodiac sign?Rose: CancerAaron: Cancer Lyra: Aquarius(I dont care i have two apprentices that are the same sign leave me alone)

22. Day of birth?Honestly haven’t even thought if that lmao

23. Favorite movie?Rose: Heathers. She loves a bad bitch movie.Aaron: Shrek. Lyra: Not really a movie person tbh. She likes Disney stuff tho.

24. Favorite music genre?Rose: Classic rock or indie. Also has an interest in things involving old or obscure instruments.Aaron: Pop PunkLyra: Soft indie or video game soundtracks

25. Favorite song?Rose: Over the Hills and Far Away- Patty GurdyAaron: It’s Never Sunny in South Philadelphia-The Wonder YearsLyra: Youth- Daughter

26. Favorite TV show?Rose: Likes to watch cooking shows cuz its usually the only thing good onAaron: Doesn’t really do TVLyra: Also not really into TV, will put on like, QVC or something for background noise tho (im guilty of this)

27. What is their style?Rose: Like i said before. Long skirt, tits OUT.Aaron: Lazy but somehow manages to look hot? How does he do that???Lyra: Simple and modest, but always in pretty colors.

28. Any mental health issues?Rose: She has some anger issues, along with a tendency to bottle everything upAaron: hrrhgghh i haven’t gotten that deep with him WHOOPSLyra: Really bad anxiety

29. Any health issues in general?Not really?

30. Are they human?Yeah….or are they dancer?

31. Favorite book?Rose: She honestly can’t remember the last time she had time to read for fun.Aaron: Wtf is a book lolLyra: Don’t make her choose for the love of god

32. Favorite book genre?The person writing these questions assumes I know books lmao

33. Favorite time of the day?Rose: SunsetAaron: Early afternoonLyra: Like, really early morning. My sweet child why are you awake this early

34. If they weren’t a magician, who would they be?Rose: A pirate like her sister. Unless this is meant as like a modern AU then she’d probably sew and knit cute things and sell them online.Aaron: Probably a video game youtuber tbhLyra: Not much different, only she’d run a little mom and pop knick knack/ book store instead of a magic shop

35. Do they believe in ghosts?Yeah

36. Do they believe in aliens?Kind of?

37. Do they like sports?What is this…sport you speak of?

38. How do they look like?Sexy

Rose: 

Aaron:

Lyra:

(art by @willowwish64 )

39. What is their biggest motivation to solve the Lucio’s killer mystery?Rose: To clear Julian’s name Aaron: To make sure it wasn’t him and he just doesn’t remember. I mean…fire is kinda his thing, so…Lyra: To put Nadia’s mind at ease

40. What do they think of Lucio so far?Rose: “He’s an asshole.”Aaron: “Goatman! Fuck you, goatman!”Lyra: “I can never look at a goat again without feeling terrified”

41. What do they think of Nadia so far?Rose: “She’s the kind of woman I strive to be. I have so much respect for her.”Aaron: “A smart, capable woman. Also really hot like wowie.”Lyra: “She’s so amazing and so beautiful and i don’t know why she likes me so much, I’m so dull compared to her and-” (this can go on for hours)

42. What do they think of Asra so far?Rose: “A great friend and mentor. I’d do anything for him.”Aaron: “He’s like…a human sheep…but really skinny…imagine hugging cotton candy filled with bones…its amazing. Also dat ass.” (He loves him but he’s bad at serious answers)Lyra: “A close friend to whom i owe my life”

43. What do they think of Julian so far?Rose: “Oh, Julian. How do i begin to describe how i feel about him? I’ve never met someone who’s so smart and witty yet so dumb? And he’d do anything for you but doesn’t think he deserves the same, even though he does. And, well, i could go on but the long and the short of it is, I love that idiot.”

Aaron: “He’s like a taller, hotter version of me AND IM SO PISSED”Lyra: “he sure is…something”

44. What do they think of Portia so far?Rose: “My future sister in law???? I love her so much! ”Aaron: “She’s…so small…my god im surrounded by small people”Lyra: “She’s so lovely!! She’s like my best friend!”

45. What do they think of Muriel so far?Rose: “He…doesn’t like to talk much does he? And he’s so…TALL. Makes you wonder about…things.”Aaron: “Him big. ”Lyra: “He…kind of scares me a bit? ”

46. Do they like animals?OF COURSE

47. Are they allergic to anything?Nope

48. Do they have any talents (except magic)?Rose: Again, she’s really good at sewing/knittingAaron: He can lick his elbow. And he shows off his “skill” to everyone. Charming i know.Lyra: She’s really good with animals

49. Do they get drunk easily?Rose: No, she can hold her liquor pretty well. She usually just gets tipsyAaron and Lyra: YES

50 .What is their personality type?*fart noises*

51. What is their worst negative quality?Rose: She tends to dodge any question that’ll make her show any negative emotion. Being with Julian is kind of helping her with that, since he needs her support and she feels okay talking about this stuff with him. Also she tends to be kind of overly sexual. She doesn’t really mean to, it just happens.Aaron: He tends to take serious things as a joke sometimes.Lyra: She likes to just, avoid people. She’d rather just be alone by her own choice than face rejection.

52. What is their best positive quality?Rose: She’s like a mom? You wouldn’t think that on the surface, but she’s actually really warm and motherly.Aaron: So fucking funny.Lyra: She has a heart of gold

53. What is their position to fall asleep?Rose: She likes to fall alseep with Julian resting his head on her chest and petting his hair. Motherly instincts, i guess. Also it’s the only surefire way of making sure he sleeps. If she’s alone, on her stomach or side with her arms under the pillow.Aaron: Starfish. Asra just has to deal with it, i guess.Lyra: Curled up with Nadia. It’s where she feels safest.

54. The most uncomfortable moment they ever experienced?Rose: (spoilers) Finding out she died. Considering death is her greatest fear, it was especially hard for her to swallowAaron: When his brother found out him and Asra were fuckin…and he found out his brother and Nadia were fuckinLyra:…..

55. Their happiest memory?Rose: When she first came to Vesuvia. It was kinda scary, but there’s SO MUCH TO SEE!!Aaron: Getting Slappy. Lyra: Finding out Nadia likes her back. She nearly fainted.

56. Do they blush?Rose: Not really, if she does its hard to tellAaron: SometimesLyra: YES

57. Are they clumsy?Nah

58. Do they like jokes? Of course, they’re people, arent they?

59. How do they flirt?Rose: VERY direct. She’s not afraid to let people know what she wants.Aaron: “Hey cookin’, what’s lookin’?”Lyra: oh god she’s so bad at it help her

60. Favorite fruit?Rose: StrawberryAaron: Orange Lyra: Kiwi

[keywestlou]

STORM OF STORMS

STORM OF STORMS - http://keywestlou.com/storm-of-storms/Wowie! What a backup on I-95 in Virginia! Major snow storm. Cars backed up 17 miles. No one moving, going anywhere for 7 hours. During the night. Some cars running out of fuel which meant no heat. Snow fall was not actually bad. Seven to twelve inches. Expected. No surprise. Not a global warming problem. Man's fault. Virginia has had snow before. The State failed to handle it well. I lived 70 plus years in upstate New York. A real snow belt. Whether a major thruway or highway, the plows were out. Running over the same areas for hours till there was no more snow falling. Sometimes things got to be too much. Cars were made to get into rest areas for a couple of hours. Some interesting stories may come out of this. Like a baby or two being born. Hopefully no calamities. Two days to January 6. A day that will go down in history similarly to Pearl Harbor and 9/11. Two things we know will occur this year. Trump is making a speech. The rabble rouser from hell. Steve Bannon may also have his hand in some skullduggery. He has been promising things would happen for 2 weeks. There may be a third impetus. People themselves who have given up on Trump. If so, they will be out doing their own dastardly deeds. For whatever reason, talk of a civil war has been in the limelight a bit the past two weeks. I have been predicting one might come even before the January 6 insurrection. Are we ready for the anticipated conflict? How many think there will really be one? The North was not ready for the Civil War. They thought the South was all talk. Even as Fort Sumter was being attacked, they were not convinced what was to follow would be a civil war. The North was surprised it was for real. The North won for the same reason the U.S. defeated Japan and Germany. We had the plants and manpower to operate them. Tied into American ingenuity in converting the plants into facilities for the making of weapons of war. If there will be a civil war, I do not see it happening till 2024. Ergo, our government has more than sufficient time to destroy the people and things that seek the civil war. Will we do it? I consider progress extremely slow so far. The enemy of the U.S. must be destroyed now. Not 2 years from now when it may be too late. Repairs have begun on the Southernmost Point Buoy. They began saturday. Three or four more days required to complete. The police advise they now have identified the criminals. Though no arrests have been made. The police would provide no further information claiming they "did not want to compromise the investigation." How stupid! They have the webcam video. They know the names of the villains. Does not make sense to me. Today's COVID update. Experts have described omicron as: "The fastest spreading virus in history." Makes sense. Look at the numbers. Recollect also that today is barely a month after omicron's first case was detected in southern Africa. Those refusing to get vaccinated are playing Russian roulette. Florida. Hospitalizations this past weekend have resulted from 6,000 new cases. Deaths now 85,707. Florida's schools will remain open in spite of omicron concerns. DeSantis says, "Just let the kids be kids." Asshole! Children's hospitals across the country are reporting pandemic high numbers. The most ever. Unvaccinated the reason. Note children have not all received the ok to receive vaccines. The FDA friday approved the Pfizer booster shot for 12-15 year olds. I learned this morning a hospital somewhere in the U.S. has closed down its maternity ward. Insufficient staff available to care for the birthing mothers and baby. School teachers are becoming a problem. Actually, all industries and businesses. The head of the Syracuse Teachers Association announced a Syracuse school had been closed because there were not enough teachers to staff the school. Learned something new re teachers. The union head said fewer young people are entering the teaching profession and this was a contributing factor. It was reported this morning that yesterday there were 1 million new cases in the U.S. Today expected to exceed that number. Omicron acquirable from sex? Yes. First time I have seen it reported. Omicron reported to be more contagious than any STD. The variant spreads from droplets in the air when persons are less than 6 feet apart. Makes sense. Sex requires a closer connection. Experts advise also that omicron spreads by mere touching of a surface recently touched by a person who has COVID-19. Spoke with Donna this morning. On the mend. Returning to work tomorrow. Terri came down with the virus also. She is on the mend. Tuesday again. Tonight by blog talk radio show Tuesday Talk with Key West Lou. A fast moving half hour where I hit hard calling them as I see them. Join me. www.blogtalkradio.com/key-west-lou. Enjoy your day!

[cyberrat]

23rd Batch Masterpost

These are the gems of the upcoming batch :)

1. Lúcio/Akande/? – continuation of housewife Lúcio  – Akande brings home a business partner (of my choice) and while Lúcio tries being a cute little housewife the business partner feels him up and ends up fucking him in front of Akande.

2. R76 – greedy old man 76 takes what he wants and needs from Reaper who indulges him. (no other partners since the big breakup that happened a million years ago)

3. Crowley/Aziraphale – food play; Crowley stuffing Aziraphale with different kinds of vegetables.

4. Reinhardt/McCree/Hanzo – continuation of B21F5 – Reinhardt forces Hanzo to play with mind broken McCree while Reinhardt keeps fucking him.

5. Sigma/McCree – grounding/crushing; big dick McCree – McCree helps Sigma keep grounded in his own way. By deep dicking him nice and slow.

6. Angelo/Hanzo – continuation of a fic that has apparently gotten deleted from my blog... I at least don’t remember deleting it myself. I will post the original together with the continuation. It contains medical play and sph – Angelo continues his check-up with fingering Hanzo and humiliating his underwhelming cock.

7. Zenyatta/Mondatta – Zenyatta catches prim and proper Mondatta playing with his circuitry...

8. Sigma/Zenyatta – Overstimulation/repeated orgasms; aftercare – Zenyatta makes sure to help Sigma quiet that infernal melody.

9. Jack/Everybody – Jack gets fucked sloppy and brainless by the rest. (...Torbjörn maybe in there???????? >:3c)

10. Harry/Eggsy – No particular prompt; just humiliation, feminization, all that good stuff... Harry topping the baby boy obvs. (It’s Kingsman for those who are not aware)

11. Hanzo/McCree/??? – continuation of Housewife Hanzo where Hanzo is way too sloppy after taking Roadhog so McCree invites a mystery friend to DP his slutty wife... (I can decide... maybe... Torbjörn again?????)

And that’s it for this batch! The only ones that can stop me from putting Torbjörn in there are the prompters :)))))))) thank uuuuuuuu

(I like how diverse this one is wowie mmmhhh)

[imisswonho]

1. (this is gonna go over several asks to answer your q's!!!) okay so my dogs are from the same litter!!! their names are Buffy and Willow (from Buffy the Vampire Slayer) and they're pit bull boxer mixes!!! they're about three years old nd they're smiley dogs!!! okay now for my cats,,, ooph. OKAY so, my cat we got from the humane society!! he's a black cat named Blackberry and god he's scared of actually everything ksjsksks - og sunset anon

😣💕💞💓2. and he’s deemed as my cat bc he only cuddles me, only lets me hold him, when we first got him he would only eat if i fed him. my sweet baby. he knows how to open my door too so sometimes i just wake up nd see my baby boy. he’s about five years old!! our other cat (idk her real name) pudge, who is super pudgy nd small, is also a black cat from the humane society!!! she’s really friendly and doesn’t know how to meow!!! - og sunset anon

3. we got blackberry and pudge at the same time! our other two cats we also got at the same time and they are three years old, these two we’ve had since they were kittens. okay Boo Radley (radley for short) is ANOTHER BLACK CAT nd him big… when he rubs against your legs you can just grab his tail w/o changing your position. he’s also super chillaxed… he’s also my cat technically bc he only cuddles me and i’m the only one to hear his purr after 3 years!! - og sunset anon

4. and lastly our lil pixel cat!!! pixel is our only non-black cat and she’s an orange tabby!!! she’s super antisocial and really only comes out to play in the morning. she’s 3 years old but when she was a kitten she was super sick and didn’t grow a lot so she’s so tiny and still has lil kitten bounces!!! she’s my mom’s cat but she’s learning to trust me as well. today she came into my room and cuddled radley nd blackberry with me!!! - og sunset anon.

5. and for me nd my wonderful novia!!! okay, so she and i met through a mutual friend who writes fanfiction (i write fanfics too nd this friend is from uruguay and we talk about writing and the differences in our culture and since i have family from france we compare that too) and for awhile we were both anons on this friend’s blog aksksk then we came off and started talking and i had an instant crush tbh sksksks - og sunset anon

6. so did you end up exploring or going shopping?? i love your stories and pictures!!! if you have any memories you wanna share pls do i would love to listen!!! also i hope you had a great day bc you’re a genuine angel!!! i hope you have a great day today as well and you can smile a whole lot :) ALSO THE TAGS ON MY BLOG ALSO BEGIN W PRINCE FOR ALL THE MEMBERS OUR TAGS CAME TRUE!!! - og sunset anon

OH MY GOOOOSH KLSDJFLKFJSDLJDKL thank u so much for telling me about ur familie wowie i’m so in love 😣🐶💕🐶💕🐱💓🐱💓🐱💓🐱💓 buffy, willow, blackberry, pudge, radley and pixel has the cutest most loving owner ever okay im so soft 😪🎐💞💙💓🍧💘🌸💕😪🎐💞💙💓🍧💘🌸💕😪🎐💞💙💓🍧💘🌸💕😪🎐💞💙💓🍧💘🌸💕KITTEN BOUNCES SDLKFJDKLFS i’m so jealous is this what heaven is like!!!! ALSO DOUBLE SOFT BC SLKDJFAKLJFASFAL u n ur gf were meant to be !!!!!! 🎈🌿🍓❤️🍒🌱🌹🎈🌿🍓❤️🍒🌱🌹🎈🌿🍓❤️🍒🌱🌹🎈🌿🍓❤️🍒🌱🌹🎈🌿🍓❤️🍒🌱🌹🎈🌿🍓❤️🍒🌱🌹🎈🌿🍓❤️🍒🌱🌹🎈🌿🍓❤️🍒🌱🌹🎈🌿🍓❤️🍒🌱🌹🎈🌿🍓❤️🍒🌱🌹🎈🌿🍓❤️🍒🌱🌹 

n hehe we actually ended up exploring - a new brunch place!! except it was meh (our pasta was kinda bland and the ice cream was... $7......) but we took a . bunch of pics bc the outside of the building was so aesthetically pleasing!! :D ALSO THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR TAKING THE TIME TO SEND ME YOUR MESSAGES they made my night n i loved reading everything!! 💕💞💓 also kldffdfljksda ur so cute bls UR THE GENUINE ANGEL!!! i love u sm i hope ur day is full of sunshine and big ass rainbows ok :’(((

[wandrie]

50 questions with Ori my spirit guide

Same questions by @lulloph

1:what do you think is the worst creation ever made?

Ori: like inanimate or? me: anything you desire lmao Ori: Pedophiles.

2: whats your favorite genre of music?

Ori: like... southern Gothic chain gang country-ish but not like classic country?? Like Lana Del Rey or Delta Rae me: bless you 

3:if you could be any other entity, what would you be?

ori: Id be a god. me: WOWi

4: how many times do you think you have seen a beluga whale (in pictures or otherwise)?

ori: Im 9062 years old Ive seen many.

5:what is your favorite time of day?

Ori: Dawn

6: when do you think is the best time to take a nap?

Ori: I don’t have time for naps.maybe mid day so I cans till go to sleep at night.

7: how flexible are you on a scale from 1-10?

Ori: probably like a 7? me: yeah? ori: I can touch my toes but i cant like contort myself or anything.

8: how many fingers do you have?

ori: 18 in total. me: not 20? ori: thumbs are not fingers, they are thumbs. me: ok DAD

9:how many fingers do you want?

Ori: a total of 18 fingers and 2 thumbs.

10: would you rather get rid of your left arm(/left fin/other left extremity) or like half of all your body hair?

ori: body hair.

11:would you rather have a hamster or a guinea pig?

ori: neither. I am not a fan.

12: would you rather eat a rose quartz point or eat a selenite tower?

Ori: Don’t eat rocks Bree..... me: that wasnt the question. ori: I know what i said young lady.

13: would you rather have your whole body to be shaved like a barber pole or have to wear crocs on your hands and feet for the rest of your life (cant ever take em off…they grow with u)?

Ori: none of those. I dont care. if anyone comes near me with crocs or a shaver i will stab them. me: yes SIR

14: how many times in a day do you wash your hands?

Ori: As many times as is required. Before every meal, After using the bathroom, etc.

15: do you prefer rings or necklaces

Ori: rings. Im waiting for Az to put a ring on it. me: OH WORM? Ori: stop.

16: how many times in ur life have u ever wanted to yodel?

Ori: whenever the situation calls for it. these are strange questions....

17: do you prefer chocolate or fruity candy?

Ori: hmm............................*thinks for a long time* chocolate

18: whats your favorite animal?

Ori: Youve been foxes several times and Ive always thought those were adorable. Maybe I’m biased

19: if you had to ride an animal for the rest of your life, what animal would it be?

Ori: an animal that is made for riding?.... Horse?

20:are you an alto or soprano?

Ori: Alto and soprano are for feminine voice types. I would technically be a Tenor, but for the sake of this question, Alto.

21: what is your opinion on shopping?

Ori: I enjoy going to farmer’s market type places. Its interesting to see all the different types of food.

22: how would you feel if everything you ate for the rest of your life was the texture of sand?

Ori: i would probably choke on it..

23: how would you feel if everything you drank for the rest of your life was the texture of oil paint?

Ori: as long as its cold. It could be like a smoothie I suppose.

24: how many times in your life have you tap danced?

Ori: Maybe a few times. Im unsure.

25:do you prefer the moon or the sun?

Ori: The moon.

26: what is your opinion on water?

Ori: I do enjoy a good swim or sprinkle. My favorite place in your astral space is the fountain you made me. me: Aw im glad you like it so much.

27: how disgusting is the pulp in fruit juice on a scale from 1-10? (dont try to lie and say its good….its bad)

Ori: mm...maybe a 5. I will drink the juice if it has pulp but I don’t prefer it.

28: what is your favorite flavor of chewing gum?

Ori: The....bubble gum flavor. is that what its called? me: I believe so?

29: how well can you juggle?

Ori: I can juggle just fine. I wouldn’t say i’m an expert at it.

30: what are the top 3 instruments you’d like to learn how to play?

Ori: Ive always wanted to play the violin. thats all.

31: would you rather be the size of an ant for the rest of your life or the size of a giant every day for two random consecutive hours of the day?

Ori: neither. me: oh come onnnnnnnnn Ori: a giant so i could squish you.

32:what type of clothing would u get rid of if you could?

Ori: Boob windowed shirts me: why you dont have boobs Ori:....I guess I just dont like the trope in superhero things.

33: what 4 similarities can you think of for an alligator vs a peacock?

Ori: you find them in random places. Like that Library we used to go to, or swimming pools. Both remind me of dinosaurs, Aggressive, Beady eyes.

34: what color would you want your tongue to be if you could change it

Ori: I think it woould be nice if I could change the color of it like i can change my hair.....Maybe i can? ive never tried.

35: whats your opinion on reading?

Ori: I enjoy it very much. 

36: do you prefer the word snuggle or cuddle and why?

Ori: Both have the same meaning really. I use both depending on the day. However cuddle rolls off the tongue easier.

37: how many hairs do you think you have on your body?

Ori: None. me: what really? Ori: ask Az. me: in earlier questions you said body hair. Ori: yes because 1/2 of 0 hairs on my body is still 0. me: WOW

38: what is cooler? tarot or lenormand?

Ori: I know Tarot much more. Though I think you could benefit from learning a new divination card type Bree. me: yes dad

39: what is the coolest “mythical” creature?

Ori: hmm... nothing is very mythical now is it? Id say shapeshifters. me: youre just saying that because your boyfriend is a shapeshifter huh ori: anyway next question

40: if you could change your height/size, what would you change it to?

Ori: Maybe a bit taller.

41: what is your favorite cartoon?

Ori: whats that one you like? me: be more specific Ori: with the two kids and their uncle? Me: Gravity falls? ori: yes

42: what is a place you’d like to visit in the world?

Ori: I love Italy, I would like to spend my honeymoon there.

43: what is your opinion on daylight savings time?

Ori: I have no preference. Mostly because we dont change for that correct? We dont need to save sun. Me: correct. Arizona doesnt use it Ori: its inconvienent that everyone else does.

44: would you rather have to climb a tree like a monkey or like a big cat?

Ori: I would just fly? me: Answer the question Ori. Ori: maybe a monkey.

45: how do you feel about man buns?

Ori: I dont care.

46: if you had to eat one bug for the rest of your life, what would it be?

Ori: A huge one so i dont have to eat as many to be satisfied.

47: what genre of music is cursed (aside from country)?

Ori: well, considering I like country, whatever this persons favorite music is, is cursed. me: its just a silly joke ori. Ori: Hmpf

48: would you rather have to wear one glove for the rest of your life or one sock

Ori: I just wouldnt wear either. I dont even wear shoes.

49: what color would u want to paint your nails if you had to?

Ori:Hm pink or blue.

50: how much do you love your companion?

Ori: She is basically my daughter. And It is an honor to be her guide and see her grow in every life time. My love for her is unconditional, and I will do whatever I can to help her along, and I wouldn’t trade her for anything in the world or any other world for that matter. me: a-awww *tears up*

[pen-masta]

Let’s Play Pretend Part 6

[Prologue]  1   2  3  4  5  6  7

When they back to the dorm the light drizzle and turned into a down pour and the two giggling young adults are soaking wet. They’ve been laughing the whole run home and after slamming the door shut behind them, they both collapse on the coach together. They’re both panting as they titter in the darkness of the room. After a few minutes he’d caught his breath and he turns the lamp on bringing a warm glow to the little living room. He smiles at Joy as she pants next to him, her curls sticking to her forehead and ears as they drip from the rain. Her cheeks are pink from running and her eyes sparkle with glee as she giggles and takes a deep breath.

“Wowie Cassie,” she giggles smiling at him biting her bottom lip. “What the heck was that?”

It takes him a second before he realizes she meant their kiss. Oh right...he did that.

He clears his throat and manages to hold his smile, “Oh you know,” he shrugs. “Just had to bring it home for them is all. Make sure it was really real.”

Joy shakes her head, her eyes still shining, “They had to see us kiss to fully believe we were a couple? You got some really weirdo friends C-bear.”

He chuckles, “No argument here Jojo.”

She giggles and relaxes into the cushions of the couch, “Man Cassie I think we have some unknown talent or something.”

“What do you mean?” He shivers as he shreds his drenched bomber’s jacket.

“I mean we were incredible actors today!” She cheers and throws her fists in the air, “We were on fire we were couple of the year!”

He chuckles, “Yeah I guess we were.” He agrees not wanting to let her know how she couldn’t be more wrong.

“I say we become Youtube famous and be set for life,” Joy beams at him and sits on her knees. “Take our acting to the internet!”

“I think becoming Youtube famous takes some time Jojo,” he smiles softly.

“Ok then let’s join an improv group!” She bounces on her knees.

“We live in two different states J-bird,” he chuckles, “you know I won’t join it if you aren’t there.”

She huffs jutting out her bottom lip, “Ok fine, then I say we just drop out of college and run away together to Hollywood and become huge stars!” Her smile grows again, “That should be faster than getting likes and we’ll be together. All we need is to show our stuff to an agent and we’re set!”

He smiles very amused by her crazy ideas of get rich quick with their acting talents--of which they have none.

“Well I don’t have a car to do all that driving and I don’t know any agents,” he scratches at his beard, “but I do have shortbread cookies and hot chocolate with little marshmallows.”

Joy giggles, “That is an equally as good plan Clyde!”

“Alright Bonnie,” he chuckles and pats her knee. “I’ll get the goods.”

He stands up cracking his back as he does so. He turns on the kettle to boil some water listening to Joy strip herself of her letterman, the wet heavy fabric makes a slosh sound as it hits the floor.

He turns when he hears the door creek open before slamming shut with a long bang. He makes eye contact with a drenched Nathan. His roommate stands in the doorway dripping water on the floor. Nathan’s short hair is hanging down in his face which is red from running in the rain...or at least that’s what Castel guesses he doesn’t want to address the several emotions that are running through Nathan’s puffy eyes.

Nathan clear his throat and shifts his weight awkwardly, “Hey.”

Castel’s adam’s apple bobs in his throat, “Hey dude.”

Nathan’s eyes dart from Castel to Joy to the ground, “Hey I uh...I want to um... apologize for everything today.” He sniffles and wipes his nose on his sleeve, “Autumn was mean and pushy and...” he takes a breath and smiles at them looking up at the two for the first time. “You two make a really cute couple and I’m happy you have each other.”

Castel glances at Joy who looks like she’s going to burst into tears.

“Aww Nator Gator,” Joy starts gently.

He shakes his head, “Please don’t.” He smiles weakly, “I don’t want pity or anything like that. I truly am happy for you two. And this is for the best. Autumn never liked me.” He takes another deep breath, “Listen I’m gonna go to bed. Night.” He mumbles

“Night,” Castel nods and watches as Nathan walks into his room and shuts the door.

He sighs and looks back at the kettle. Something flicks his ear and he yelps. Holding his ear he turns to see Joy standing next to him with her face all scrunched up and her hands on her hips.

“What was that for?” He demands

“You’re just standing there like a doofus,” Joy scolds, “Go talk to him.”

“Go what?” Castel laughs, “Joy he doesn’t want to talk.”

“He’s hurting Cas,” she pouts. “You guys are really close right?”

He nods, “Yeah I think of him like another brother.”

“And if Mikey or Zack were upset and brokenhearted wouldn’t you at least attempt to talk and make them feel better?”

He blinks and shakes his head, “Yeah but...Joy...I mean he’s...ugh!” He growls and glares at her. She did have a point.

She smiles and takes his cap off his head, “You go talk to him I’m gonna go grab a shower and then we’ll have hot chocolate.”

“Fine,” he sighs, “towels are on my desk.”

“Cause that’s the logical place for them,” she snickers and puts his cap on her head before she skips to his room.

He sighs again and saunters over to Nathan’s door. Light shines out under the door and the only sound he can hear is the squeaking of the bed springs as they scream out under Nathan’s shifting weight.

He knocks, “Hey Nate. Can I come in bro?”

A faint muffled voice comes through the door, “I guess.”

Castel opens the door to see his roommates normally clean and organized room is in shambles. Clothes are thrown all over the floor, books fall from their shelves, knickknacks on the desk have been cast to the floor, and among this mess Nathan lies on his stomach on his messy bed. He was only in her for a few minutes how could it possibly look this bad!

Castel blinks and walks around the maze of objects until he manages to reach the computer chair at the desk. Gingerly he takes a seat and looks at his friend who looks as though he just miraculously walked away from a horrible car accident.

His hair is disheveled and still dripping wet, his clothes are a wrinkled mess, his eyes are red and puffy, and his nose is buried in his folded arms. Castel clears his throat and rubs the back of his neck, gosh he’s never been good at this kind of stuff. He searches his brain for something to say, something to start the conversation, words of comfort, anything. His deepest desire is to tell Nathan how he had seen through Autumn’s act from the beginning...well not the the fact that she was into him and not Nathan, no that completely blindsided him. No, but he saw how Autumn treated Nathan like trash and he own toy to manipulate. He saw how mean and cruel she was, he wants to just cut into that stuck up priss. But he can’t seem to form any other words than:

“You alright?”

Nathan’s eyes dart to Castel’s face then back to the floor. Ok, that’s a no.

Castel sighs and leans his forearms against his knees.

“I’m really sorry about all of this Nate,” Castel says and chews his bottom lip. “I really had no idea about...all that.”

Nathan chuckles weakly, “I didn’t either...well maybe I did know.” He sniffles and looks back up at Castel, “Like deep down, you know? I mean after all whenever we were together some how we always ended up talking about you. I thought maybe it was cause she really cared about you and all...well she did just not in the way I thought.”

He sits up and runs his hand through his hair, causing tiny water droplets to fly as he cards his fingers through the wet mass.

“You’re better off without her,” Castel says.

Nathan shrugs, “Probably. I don’t know how I didn’t see that she liked you. She was always messing with your hair and your clothes. She always asked about you, and how you were.”

“Don’t think about all of that stuff man,” Castel’s eyebrows furrow. “That wasn’t you being blind it was her being manipulative. And they’re all the reasons to forget about her. She didn’t care about you, she just used you.”

“I know that dude!” Nathan snaps his eyes burning, “But knowing that doesn’t make this all feel ok!”

Castel blinks and sits back in the chair, he hadn’t thought about that. He was just angry that Autumn did this to his friend. He was angry that he had been right about Autumn.

Nathan takes a breath and sighs, “I’m sorry.”

“No I’m sorry,” Castel says and shakes his head. “I was just focusing on how wrong it was that she did this...I didn’t think about how you were feeling.”

Nathan smiles weakly, “Don’t worry about it bro.”

Castel sighs, “Look Nate I know this is hard no matter how you slice it.” He scratches at the hairs on his chin, “But I want you to know it’s not at all your fault. Autumn let it go too far, and for that I’m sorry...I’m also sorry I never said anything to you.”

Nathan cocks his head, “What do you mean?”

“I mean I kind of saw how awful Autumn was to you...I never said anything because I thought you were honestly happy. I didn’t wanna take that from you.”

Nathan sniffles and shrugs again, “Don’t worry about it dude, besides if you had said something I probably wouldn’t have believed you or listened.” He smiles a little.

Castel smiles kindly, “Are you gonna be alright? I mean you’re not gonna do anything crazy right?”

Nathan chuckles, “Nah I’ve already dated Autumn that was crazy enough.”

The two boys share in a laugh before comfortable silence falls between them.

“So you’re good?” Castel asks after a beat.

Nathan hesitates then nods, “Yeah I’m alright. I’m not great, but I’ll get over it.”

Castel nods, “So...we’re good?” He asks slowly.

Nathan smiles more, “Always bro.” He says and holds his fist out to Castel.

Castel smiles and fist bumps Nathan. He clears his throat, “Do you want to be alone?”

Nathan shrugs, “Yeah I think I’m just gonna go to sleep.”

Castel nods once more and stands up, “Alright, well Joy and I are having some hot chocolate I can make you a mug if you want some.”

Nathan smiles and shakes his head, “Thanks but that’s alright dude you have fun with your girl.”

Castel’s heart skips a beat when Nathan calls Joy your girl, but he manages to hide the momentary shock. There’s also a pang of guilt that rips his heart in half that the relationship that Nathan thinks is so rock steady is actually a lie. But Castel rationalize that it’s because of that fake relationship why they found out Autumn’s true feelings, so he feels like that balances it out. He smiles and stuffs his hands in his pockets and navigates his way out of the room.

“Alright well if you need anything, and I do mean anything,” Castel says and looks back at his friend. “I’m just down the hall.” He smiles, “Here for you bro.”

Nathan smiles gratefully, “Thanks Cas. That means a lot.”

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When the door shuts behind him he releases the breath that he didn’t even know he was holding. His heart really does ache for his friend and he really hopes this is a speedy recovery. Autumn isn’t worth spending more than a minute to be upset about.

With his hands in pockets he strolls back to the kitchen to check on the water as he listens to Joy’s caterwauling a slightly off key version of San Fransisco by The Mowgli’s. A smiles curls his lips remembering when the two of them saw the band in concert. He had bought the tickets as an early birthday gift for her. The concert was three towns over from theirs and he had decided to make a nice mini vacation out of it. They left a day before the concert and drove the four hours it took to reach the town and they stayed in a cheap motel near by.

It was a lot of fun, they dropped off their bags and went to a local diner he had read was the talk of the town. They went put-put golfing and took a walk in the park, and spent the night walking around the cute little town window shopping and buying little trinkets they didn’t really need. The concert the next night had been a blast but he really had the most fun just walking around the quaint little town with her. Watching her ‘ooo’ and ‘aahh’ at the antiques and fawn over the little kids running around in the summer heat. He also loved standing next to her in the stadium screaming the lyrics to the songs she knew and stumbling through the ones she didn’t know. He loved when she pulled him out of his seat to dance with her, he loved racing down to the pit and lifting her on his shoulder so she could flail her arms at the band. He still has the picture they took that night in his wallet.

He’d love to do something like that again with her. Maybe he should look and see if any of the bands she loves are on tour and see if any of them are within driving distance. The high pitched whistle pulls him from his thoughts and he pulls the kettle off of the heat.

He hears the bathroom door open as he pours the boiling water into the mugs of chocolate powder. He stirs the brown water swirling it until all the chunks disappear. Just as he reaches into the fridge to grab the spray whipped cream he hears the floor boards shift as she enters the room.

“All yours Cassierole.” She says.

He smiles and turns to say something to her but stops short at the sight of her. She stands on the other side of the table across from him, damp curls slowly drying, wearing a red and black checkered flannel shirt and a beaming smile as she drapes the wet towel on the back of the kitchen chair. What throws him for a loop is the shirt. The sleeves are clearly too long for her and slide down over her hands, the cut is not fit for a girl, and the shirt is obviously too big for her seeing that it’s practically a dress on her. It’s a guys flannel, no! It’s his flannel!

“This is clean right?” She asks and smooths the towel on the back of the chair.

“Huh?” He asks dumbly.

“The shirt,” she smiles. “I kind of forgot to pack my pjs and nothing I brought is going to be comfy to sleep in. I saw this on your desk and thought I could barrow it.” A slight panic races across her face, “That is ok right? I mean I can find something else if it’s not.”

He blinks and smiles, “Yeah of course it’s fine Joy. That’s actually like my last clean shirt so you picked wisely.”

Her face relaxes and she narrows her eyes at him and smiles, “You’re nasty boy! We are def doing laundry before we go home for the holiday.”

He chuckles and walks back to the mug to spray in the whipped cream, but he’s stopped again. As he walks to the other side of the kitchen he gets a better view at Joy and sees she’s wearing his shirt and...nothing else. She’s wearing his shirt, just his shirt! His heart begins to race as he forces himself to look back at the mugs and not at her bare legs.

Oh god, oh god, OH GOD! He can’t do this! Why would she not be wearing anything else!? Does she think this is part of their game!? Does she think this is funny!? That’s not fair! Holy crap, his hands are trembling. He can’t do this, he can’t do this. Ok, ok just stay calm. Be cool.

He manages to get at least one brain cell to focus on spraying the whipped cream into the mugs, and when he turns back to look at Joy she’s sitting down in the chair. His breath freezes in his chest as his eyes catch the sky blue thigh-high shorts that were hidden before, but now that she’s sitting they peak out from under the hem of the shirt.

Tension rushes out of his body like a deflated balloon. His heart rate comes down as he realizes she’s not wearing just his shirt. And soon the panic, nervousness, and adrenaline he felt a moment ago is quickly replaced with embarrassment and self-condemnation as he chastises himself.

Of course she’s wearing shorts! Why wouldn’t she be! They’re friends, there’s no reason for her to be wearing only his shirt here alone with him. He’s a pervert for even thinking like that about her. Ugh, he wants to throw up.

“You good Cassie?” She asks concerned

He nods, “Yeah I’m fine why?”

She smirks, “Well you’re just kind of standing there holding the hot chocolate with a strange look on your face.”

His cheek instantly light on fire and he coughs nervously, “Sorry just really tired I guess.”

He finds himself again and takes the seat next to Joy. He smiles as she sips her hot chocolate giving herself a whipped cream mustache which she seems to not give a single care about.

“You talk with him?” She asks worry dripping from her voice.

He nods and swirls his mug around on the table, “Yeah we talked. He’s good, we’re good.”

Her smile brightens, “Good.” She blinks and looks at the table, “Hey I thought you promised shortbread cookies Clyde.”

He blinks and shakes his head, “Oh yeah right I forgot.”

She giggles as he stands up, “You wouldn’t make a good robber Clyde you can’t even remember what you were supposed to be stealing.”

“Well they’re mine so I don’t know how I could steal them,” he smiles and crosses behind her to the cabinet.

“Either way cross robber off your list of possible jobs,” she teases.

“Yeah that and acting,” he chuckles as he opens the cabinet.

“What do you mean?”

“I mean I can’t act worth a dime,” he says and takes the box into his hands. “I mean I couldn’t even convince Autumn we were together.”

“What?” Her voice is small and confused.

Stupid! He scolds himself for not monitoring his words more carefully, god that whole ‘Joy’s wearing just my shirt’ nonsense really numbed his brain.

He hesitates before turning to look at her. She’s facing him in the chair, he hands on the back of the chair, her eyes confused and her eyebrows scrunched up not understanding what he means.

“Fall didn’t believe us?” She asks slowly

He sighs and shuts the cabinet door, well the damage is done now so...

“Yeah,” he says and sits back at the table. “She didn’t really believe we were a couple.”

“Like...the whole time?”

He nods and rubs the back of his neck, “Yeah. She was really suspicious of us.”

“How do you know that?”

“She said so.”

“Where was I?” She asks

“It was when you went back in to use the bathroom, she called us out on it.”

Joy blinks and he can see she’s thinking back to the yogurt shop.

“So while I was inside she told you she didn’t believe us?”

“Yes,” he nods and fiddles with the box of cookies.

“Oh...” her eyes grow wide and her mouth falls open as she gasps. “Oh! Is that why you kissed me? To convince her?”

His cheeks are burning and he won’t look at her. “Yeah...kind of.”

“Oh...oh,” she says again but the second time there’s a shift in her tone. She sounds almost sad...is that disappointment he’s hearing? Did she think he kissed her for any other reason besides they’re little game? Why would she think that he’d just kiss her like that, they were still playing this game after all.

Unless...did she want him to kiss her? Could it be possible she’s been having the same feelings for him as he has about her? No, no he’s reading waaay to much into this.

“Is the hot chocolate good?” He asks to try and change the subject.

“Hm?” she blinks and looks up at him, “Oh yeah yeah it’s perfect.” She smiles.

He nods and looks at his watch, “Geez it’s getting really late.”

“Yeah I’m getting kind of sleepy,” she says and sips her drink.

He nods, “Well why don’t we--”

“Did it convince her?” She cuts him off and looks at him. “The kiss I mean.”

He quirks his brows before clearing his throat, “Oh yeah, yeah didn’t you see her face?” He chuckles.

She grins, “Well good then we accomplished our goal.”

“Yes we did,” he says and puts his hand on top of hers.

There’s a moment of silence before she yawns and he smiles.

“When are you leaving to go home?” He asks

“Monday is my flight back home, how about you?”

“I was gonna fly out like Wednesday or something, but I could get it to fly out Monday with you.” He says and his heart warms at the bright smile she gives him.

“I’d like that Cassie.”

He nods, “Well I’ll order the ticket tomorrow, but we don’t have any reason to get up early so we can sleep in late.”

“Good I need some uninterrupted sleep,” she says and yawns again.

He nods agreeing, “Well you can take my bed I’ll sleep on the couch.” He says downing the hot chocolate which he immediately regrets feeling the scorching liquid burn his throat.

She scrunches her eyebrows, “Uhnt-uh no way hosa, you didn’t get to sleep in your bed last night. I’ll take a turn on the couch.”

“But you slept on the couch last night,” he says as she finishes her drink.

She chews her bottom lip and fishes in the box of cookies pulling out a hand full.

“We’re at a stand still then Casanova.”

He chuckles, “It looks that way J-bird.” He takes the mugs to the sink and rinses them out.

She hums loudly as she munches on the cookies. “Well I’m supposed to be your girlfriend right?”

“Indeed,” he nods and turns to look at her.

“And we’re in college right?”

“Also true.”

An odd grin spreads on her face and he notes the light pink color her cheeks flush to. “So wouldn’t it be strange if one of us slept out on the couch instead of sharing your bed?”

He pauses for a moment before a grin of his own pulls at his lips, “I suppose so.”

Joy’s grin turns playful as she slowly stands up, “So in that case...” she glances at him before she takes off towards the bedroom with him at her heels.

The two chase each other into his bedroom giggling like little kids. When he enters the room he sees Joy sitting on her knees on his bed smiling back at him. He’s taken back at the image before him and he stops short as he watches Joy looking around his room. Why had he chased her in here? 

“Hey when did you get this?” Joy asks picking up a random dress shirt off the floor. “I’ve never seen you wear this before.”

He shrugs, “Eh Moman insisted I had to go to the spring fling last semester and she sent me that with a new vest and tie ordering me to go and have fun. Oh, and demanding I send pictures as evidence that I went.”

“Wow it’s a really nice color,” she smiles and smirks at him. “I thought I was your fashion go-to.”

He chuckles, “Well I can’t rely on only you for help with style. I mean you’re not the only woman in my life.”

She glances at his desk, “I can see that.” She says taking the Calculus III textbook off of his desk. “I see you leave all of your women out for the world to see.” She says in a mock serious tone.

He chuckles and plays along and dramatically winces, “I’d hope you’d never find out at least not like this.”

She breaks character for a moment and giggles. She turn the book so it hangs open like a calendar. She scrunches her face up and tilts her head. He chuckles and walks up behind her, wrapping his arms around her middle and resting his chin on her shoulder.

“I’m disappointed,” she huffs.

“Come now you know I’ve always been a numbers man. It’s my one weakness.” He hums, “Hey now that’s a sexy integral.” He says as they stare at the double integral problem he has been working on solving a few days ago.

“She looks nothing like me,” Joy scoffs and pouts. “Should I be jealous?” She asks innocently which makes him smile.

He shakes his head, “Not at all Jo-jo not to worry.” He buries his face into her neck, “You’re the only one I need.” He says and before he can stop himself he kisses her neck lightly.

They both freeze. Her body filled with tension in his grip and they both stand there as if time itself had ceased to exist.

Alright time out! What just happened!? Ok, this is too much. Weren’t they just supposed to be playing this game? You know, pretending? Somewhere along the way something shifted and now...now this doesn’t feel fake...this feels real. Oh god, how he wants this to be real! He could say something. Maybe she feels the same way. There was always the possibility that she did, after all this was all her idea. But of course there’s also the possibility that she doesn’t feel the same as him. God that would destroy their friendship! No he can’t risk it. So he’ll do what he’s done for years...swallow his feelings and change the subject.

And he does just that.

He clears his throat and takes a step back from Joy as she closes the textbook and opts to instead play with the little curl by her ear--a nervous tick she’s had since childhood.

“Anyways, um, I think I’m gonna go shower before bed.” He says and runs his hand through his hair, the burning in his ears a huge clue that he’s blushing. She doesn’t turn to face him fully. She turns just enough to glance back at him over her shoulder.

“Alright you do you Cassie,” she says quietly and he can see her cheeks are bright red to match his.

Before he can say anything about this little fact he quickly grabs some boxers and shorts off the floor along with a towel before he darts out of the room and into the bathroom. He leans against the door and tilts his head back letting out a heavy sigh. God, what’s wrong with him!? Why can’t he just forget about all this mush and see her for who she is...his best friend and nothing more.

He looks at the mirror and blinks to see the residue of the steam from Joy’s shower. But in the steam he can see little streaks where someone has drawn on the mirror. There’s a little cat, a flower, a heart, a goofy looking face, and the words San Fransisco written on the mirror. He laughs and shakes his head, he forgot Joy likes to do that after a shower. She’s always drawing constantly, she uses anything as a canvas--and much like him, drawing on the mirror after a steamy shower is one of her many adorable quirks.

He sighs and strips down to shower. His mind won’t stop analyzing everything that happened today. From the beginning of the day to just now he can’t help but feel there was some truth in their fake relationship. At least from his side there was. He huffs and scrubs the suds out of his hair as he replays their kiss in his head. Him snatching Joy into his arms and catching her soooo off guard. The passion he dumped into the kiss and how he secretly wished it had been a kiss for real and not one because of some silly game they were playing.

As he scrubs the dirt from his chest he replays it again and this time he sees something he didn’t before. Although he did catch her by surprise she did gather herself quite quickly. And though he at the time was so focused on pouring every ounce of his being into that single kiss he did register something else. At some point in the kiss Joy had puckered her lips. She had kissed him back!

He stops and stares at the wall as the water continues to rain down on him. He was so preoccupied with Autumn and Nathan and proving that Joy was the love of his life, he missed that very tiny but enormously important fact! She hadn’t pushed him away, she had pulled closer to him. She had pushed back and kissed him, not as hard as he did her but nonetheless. She had closed her eyes! And most importantly...she had enjoyed it! The little noise she made, the dazed look in her eyes, how giggly and bubbly she became after it, the tone she had when she found out why he had kissed her. Heck, even just now when he kissed her neck how she blushed and started playing with that little curl was proof that he made her nervous! They were all signs that she hadn’t been disgusted with it, but rather she enjoyed it...maybe even hoped it would have continued?

But then that means...there’s a chance she loves him back! Wait did he just say love? Yeah he did, he does, he is in love with Joy. He has been for a long time but he’s never actually said it. And there’s a good chance she loves him back!

The smile that sits on his face is so wide it could tear his face in half, as he trips out of the shower and proceeds to clumsily pulls on his boxers, shorts, and t-shirt. It’s a chance, an encouraging chance, and that’s all he needs. He just needed some kind of clue that she felt the same way.

He rips open the door and sprints into the bedroom ready to pour out his heart and confess his love for her hoping for the absolutely best outcome. But he’s stopped short when he sees she’s laying on the bed curled up under his blanket...sound asleep.

He deflates a little as sighs. Well that’s probably for the best, what had he planned to do anyways? Sweep her into his arms and dive in for another kiss? That could have ended badly. No, no he can’t just do is going off of a hunch. No he needs solid evidence.

An idea pops into his head.

He could do a little experiment. He was a science and numbers man after all, he could collect data all day tomorrow while their together. Anything no matter how big or how small, anything that could possibly be a sign that she loves him back he’ll keep track of. And if he reaches one hundred percent he’ll know for sure and then he can confess to her how he’s been drowning in these feelings since high school. Yeah, yeah that’s what he’ll do.

He yawns and looks at the bed. Honestly that bed is way too small for even him, there’s no way they both will fit. So he turns out the lights and opts to sleep in his chair seeing there was next to no room on the floor for him to sleep. But the chair is squeaky and uncomfortable, even with his feet propped up on the desk he can’t get into a primal position to sleep. There’s a twinge of pain in his lower back that shoots up into his neck and he knows there is no way he’ll be able to sleep here.

He sighs and walks back over to the bed, seeing that Joy is laying near the edge of the bed he could just slip in behind her. Careful not to wake her, he crawls from the foot of the bed up to slide under the blanket. He pressed his back into the wall and really he’ll have to sleep on his side, with her here there is no room for tossing and turning. But he’s not complaining, after all this is much more comfortable than the old office chair. She’s basically laying right against him and he’s really not sure what to do with his arms. He opts for sticking one under his head and resting the other on his hip. As soon as he stops moving Joy decides to take a turn and flips around in her sleep to face him.

She instinctual cuddles into him, craving the warmth his body gives off. He feels her one hand grip the front of his t-shirt and nuzzles her head into his chest before she sighs contently. He smiles and decides the hell with it and wraps his arm around her--which is way more comfortable than holding stiff at his side. The scent of strawberries is strong as it emanates off of her hair and he’s finding strawberry is becoming his new favorite smell. He tightens his grip around her waist holding her close to him and doesn’t miss the tiny little quirk of her lips forming a small sleepy content smile. As his eyes drift closed he has one final thought in his mind.

Five percent.

[obligatoryyap]

So um I can’t believe how much I’ve changed over the past two years???? This is nuts???

I think if I placed these pictures in a rough timeline it would be this: (1) September 2015- (2) October 2015- (3) Late October 2015- (4) February 2016 (that was on my birthday actually :’D)- (5) May 2016- (6) June 2016- (7) July 2016- (8) July 2017-(9) October 2017- (10) Five minutes ago :’D

I’m getting all nostalgic and feelsy omg, most of these pictures of me were taken at times when I was either not out to my family (in the first picture I identified as Demigirl wowie wow only my OG followers will remember that one :’D) and out to friends or was basically closeted after I got a bad reaction from my mother when I told her to not use she/her pronouns for me anymore. Since then so so much has changed, I left university, struggled like hell to get a job, struggled with mental health, has massive insecurities over me being out, started the road to medically transitioning with the GIC. The last three pictures are the kind of ‘look at me now’ statement here. I still struggle with poor mental health and self esteem, I was in a rly good relationship but recently broken up with, my family situation is worse than it’s ever been. BUT I’m out to everyone except my workplace, I have the greatest friends in the world, I’m still in that QPR I formed almost accidentally with the most wonderful perfect human in the world (@motojirou-kajii I love you to the moon and back and I always will 💕🌕) I have all my thoughts ready to legally change my name in a year’s time (I have to wait because travel plans and VISAs will need to be in my birth name :’) ) and in a couple of months time I will be actually starting HRT. If id’ve told that 2016 me all this they would have either laughed at me or cried over how impossible it is that my social situation is at it’s best.

This was essentially to show my pals that wowie wow I’ve changed for the better but I guess I do have a message within this: there will always be something that gets better. I’ve been struggling with absolute shot mental health these past two years but the changes I made to my appearance made me feel somewhat better about my appearance, every little change helped me lose some of that dysphoria and now I’m at a point where I feel pretty okay with my physical self even if I need hormones to alleviate that extra dysphoria that comes with my not very deep voice :’)

Never lose faith Trans Pals, changes may take a while but they will happen, you got this ❤️

[tianfcn]

transcript from OTL’s recent vlive ( from marcus ):

--- “wow, oh wow !! it’s been almost 3 years since our debut and we’ve all been through quite the roller coaster,haven’t we ??” ( discordant cheers from other members ) “right, so as a thank you to our beautiful AEIN, we decided to revisit our roots to give you a repackage of our VERY first debut album but this time, it’s not the newly debuted OTL singing the songs, it’s US !!” ( theo commenting on how that didn’t make sense ) “i mean, you get to listen it to be sung by a more EXPERIENCED us. we’ve remastered some tracks, added new tracks and well, though it doesn’t seem much, i’m sure this makes some AEIN very emotional, especially those that followed us since our debut." ( a brief pause as marcus clears his throat, obviously emotional ) “without our wonderful, beautiful AEIN, we’d never had made it to our THIRD anniversary so we, OTL...your one true love, are ever grateful and indebted.” ( asher gives marcus a pointed stare that makes it sound bad ), “so i hope you, all of you...old aein and new aein will continue to show us your support !!”

the vlive ends after confetti being thrown and a cake being brought in as the group sings an off-key version of happy birthday ( just for laughter ), more interaction with fan comments...

“UNTIL NOW, IT HAS BEEN YOUR ONE TRUE LOVE, OTL !! SEE YOU ALL NEXT TIME !!”

tracklist

1) intro; wowie !! 2) i like you 3) can be better 4) almost famous 5) sorry 6) dance dance 7) feel so good 8) baby 9) crazy sexy cool 10) outro; thank you