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Liquid Courage
Wonwoo x Classmate!Reader
Requested? Yes!
Genre: fluff, angst if you squint, college au, unrequited love and perhaps a painful amount of pining
Word count: 4.8k
Warnings: mentions of alcohol consumption and being drunk
Jeon Wonwoo would like to think heâs a normal college student. Heâs picked a major that he can tolerate. He goes to class, bleary eyed after all-nighters working on assignments, chugging a seemingly endless stream of coffee. He joins a few clubs to avoid his familyâs nagging that heâll rot in front of the computer playing video games in his free time, though he does enjoy the rot time. He goes out with his roommate and friends regularly for dinner and drinks and parties. But he has a secret, and itâs the totally not normal, totally suffocating, totally obsessive, massive, enormous crush on you, one of his classmates.��
He hit him like a truck the moment he met you in the first day of freshman year, or rather the first day he saw you. Heâd like to think heâs not shallow and doesnât get hung up on looks. A pretty appearance doesnât always equate to a pretty personality, after all. But he was totally enamored by how pretty you were on the first day to the point that he didnât hear much of anything the calculus instructor said. He beats his head against his desk in his dorm later that day as he looks at the syllabus. Heâs got to get it together because thatâs not why heâs here.Â
He thinks heâs starting to get a handle on this (not so) little crush when he remembers that the class he shares with you is a General Education class and itâs very likely that youâll pick a different major than him. His first day of sophomore year, he realizes he was wrong because there you are, sitting in the front row of his Intro to Database Systems class, unmistakably as a student of the engineering department. Itâs in this class that he realizes how screwed he really is.
The first time you meet him in the library for a peer programming project, his heart stops beating when you greet him with a wide smile. He had the same reaction when you were assigned to work together the day before and traded numbers. He gives a small smile, because itâs all he can really manage without giving everything away and gets to work. Later that night, he beats his head against this desk again in his dorm room, because youâre so, so smart on top of everything else. Donât get me wrong, he didnât think you were dumb by any means, far from it. But he wasnât prepared to be corrected gently about a complex concept during your meeting earlier that day and he thinks the crush might just consume him.Â
When his roommate, Mingyu, asks if heâs good, he just excuses it as being a little stressed by the work he has to get done. Never mind that the project with you is no longer on his list because it was done in a single sitting. He picks up another assignment, kind of regretting that he didnât drag it out a little longer, even if his heart might not be able to take it.Â
~
Itâs the first day of the spring semester in his Sophomore year and he arrives early to his Matrix Algebra course. He didnât know youâd be in this one with him, but heâs not totally surprised to see you here since you share a major and seem to be on the same track. But he is surprised to see you here, next to him. You greet him with a big smile and ask if the seat next to him is taken. âOh, no. Go ahead, but donât you want to sit up front?âÂ
You give him a confused smile as you slide into the seat. âWhat makes you say that?â
âYou always sit in the front row,â he says simply, before realizing how it sounds. It sounds an awful lot like he pays a lot of attention to you.Â
You donât acknowledge his words or the way he flushes a little, but you do chuckle as you pull out your laptop. âOh, yeah. I was way overdue for an optometrist appointment, so I couldnât really see the board or screen. Just got a new prescription and new contacts last week, so I can sit back here with you!âÂ
âOh,â he says lamely. âOkay, then.âÂ
You glance at him out of the corner of your eye, face suddenly a little cautious. âThat is, unless youâd like me to sit somewhere else?â
âNo! I mean,â Wonwoo clears his throat awkwardly. âI mean, you can sit here. I donât mind.â
You smile, though thereâs still a tinge of caution to it. âThanks, Wonwoo.â He canât really respond because the instructor is sweeping into the room and getting started right away. Heâs not quite sure what heâd say anyway.Â
~
Heâs absolutely beside himself the whole semester. Not only do you keep sitting next to him, but you seem to go out of your way to talk to him. Itâs mostly about classes, but itâs still the highlight of his day, three times a week. Heâs embarrassingly excited to go to his 8am class with you and itâs starting to get the attention of his roommate.Â
Mingyu peers over his comforter as Wonwoo gets ready for class. He watches his roommate get dressed in more than sweats and a hoodie and fix his hair. The final straw is when he puts on cologne. âWhat class do you have again?â
âMatrix Algebra," Wonwoo says simply.Â
âUh huh. And you need cologne for that?âÂ
âI wear cologne everyday. Whatâs the big deal?â Wonwoo asks, though he doesn't sound like he cares about what the big deal actually is.
âYou donât. Iâve lived with you for a while. This is the first semester youâve hopped out of bed for an 8am, and youâve been doing it early every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. On Tuesday and Thursday, you have a 10am that you roll out of bed for and go to in sweats. Without cologne.â Mingyu adopts a smug expression. âSo who is she?â
âI donât know what youâre talking about, Mingyu,â Wonwoo says evenly. âI gotta go. Iâm going to be late. Donât wait up, I have a project to work on tonight.â
Mingyu glances at the clock when the dorm room door closes behind his roommate. Itâs not even 7:40am yet and it's a five minute walk to class. Interesting.
~
Wonwoo feels like he's getting somewhere. It sounds silly, but heâs kind of getting his hopes up that this little crush isnât totally unrequited. You always choose him for your partner in class and he enjoys meeting you to work on these projects together. Youâve even started branching out, talking about things other than the shared classes you both have. Itâs late and youâre in the library with him, talking about a new book series youâre reading and he doesnât think he could like you anymore than he does now. Heâs asking what you like about it without spoilers when a guy approaches you, putting his hand on your back. You beam up at him and Wonwooâs heart kind of plummets.Â
âHi baby, I was wondering where you got off to. I stopped by your dorm but you werenât there,â the guy says.Â
âOh, I should have told you I had a project to work on,â you say apologetically. âYou werenât worried about me, were you?âÂ
âNo, never,â the guy says lightly, glancing to Wonwoo.Â
You perk up. âOh, this is Wonwoo. Heâs my partner for one of my major courses. Wonwoo, this is my boyfriend, Minghao.â
Wonwoo does his best to be polite, but heâs feeling some type of way about hearing the word âboyfriend' come out of your mouth. He didnât know you were dating anyone, not that it's a crazy thought. He doesnât see you a lot around campus outside of class because you run in different circles socially.Â
Minghao is friendly, making it difficult to hate him. âOh, good. Maybe you both can help me me with my math homework. Iâm an arts major, Iâm not cut out for these gen ed courses. Can I join?â
He considers leaving but it feels rude, so he stays, even helping Minghao here and there. It occurs to him that heâs torturing himself by staying. You and Minghao seem like a good match, the epitome of opposites attract really. Youâre an engineering major and heâs an arts major. Youâre bubbly and outgoing, and heâs a little shy and reserved. But you both are smart and well-read and have a gentle approach to social interactions. Not to mention you both look totally love sick for each other. It makes Wonwoo love sick in a totally different way.
He trudges back to his dorm late, going straight to bed. He skips class the next day, sending you a short text that he doesnât feel well. He doesnât respond when you send him a message back, hoping that he feels better and that youâll send him your notes.
~
Itâs the middle of the fall semester, Junior year, and you and Wonwoo are knee deep in major courses now, most of which you share with each other. Whatever hopes he might have had last semester to avoid you seem totally unreasonable, and he's resigned himself to the unrequited aspect of his friendship with you. And it really does seem like a friendship now. He sees you a lot more now, mostly because you spend hours together every single weekday, both in and between classes. So, he notices something is off when you show up late to your shared Networking class, sneaking in with an apologetic bow to the instructor.Â
âAre you okay?â He whispers automatically, concerned. You give him a passing glance, nodding, but he spots it for the lie that it is, because your eyes are red and youâre wearing your glasses today, instead of contacts. His first thought is allergies, but heâs known you for a while and youâve never seemed to suffer from it much before. He watches you set your phone on Do Not Disturb, but not before he spots dozens of unread messages and calls.Â
He lets you be for the duration of the class and leads you to the cafe on campus as usual afterwards. Itâs a habit this semester because neither of you usually have time to get coffee before your shared 8am. He gestures for you to have a seat while he orders. Another little habit, you both take turns paying on these little trips. When he places your order in front of you, he simply asks if you want to talk about it.Â
He does not expect you to tear up and panic bubbles inside of him fast. âIâm sorry, Iâm being a cry baby about it. Itâs not that serious.â
âUnlikely. Whatâs not that serious?âÂ
You sigh. âMinghao and I have been fighting a lot lately.â
âAbout what?â Wonwoo asks, though it feels like a gut punch to even talk about him. He usually tries to forget he exists. You stare at him and he purses his lips. âWeâre friends, right?â You nod automatically and he ignores the way your lack of hesitation simultaneously elates and stings him. âThen tell me about it. At least venting might help, even if I canât help you fix it.â
You donât look at him for a while and finally say, âHeâs got a bit of a jealous streak. I feel like he doesnât trust me. We fought last night and it was bad.â
âIâm sorry,â he says genuinely âIâm sure you havenât given him any reason not to trust you. Maybe heâs just insecure.â Wonwoo says âmaybeâ but heâs positive thatâs the case. He might be too if he was in Minghaoâs shoes, but heâd never make it your problem. He waves away the thought because heâs not likely to ever be in Minghaoâs shoes.
âMaybe⌠Maybe I should just end it,â you say. Heâs conflicted, because thereâs screaming in his head about the idea of you being single, yet you sound so upset about it.Â
So he says, âIf you feel like thatâs the right thing to do. Iâm here if you need me.â He lets you go about the day, acting a little bit like a zombie. He guides you between classes, shares his notes with you as usual, and guides you to your dorm building when classes are over.Â
~
He certainly does not expect you to actually reach out to him later that night. You call at nearly 10pm and both Wonwoo and Mingyu jump at the sound. Wonwooâs already pulling on a jacket and shoes when he hears you sniffle, asking if heâs up for a walk. He ignores Mingyuâs raised eyebrow on the way out.Â
Youâre sitting on a bench outside of his dorm building when he comes outside. âYou good?â He asks, even though he kind of knows the answer already.Â
âYeah, just needed some air. You werenât busy, were you?â You ask, standing up. Your nose is bright red and he wonders if itâs from crying or the cold, or both.
âNo, just lying around.â He follows your lead, though he can tell youâre walking aimlessly. âWant to talk about it?â You shake your head and he lets you be. He doesnât hear anything about Minghao after that.Â
~
Itâs senior year and there are only a few things that have changed. The first is that neither of you live in the dorms anymore. Wonwoo and Mingyu got an apartment just off campus, and when Wonwoo mentioned that there were other units open in the building, you jumped at the opportunity, citing how totally over communal spaces you were. You move in with one of your friends down the hall. He likes Jeonghan. He seems like a good friend to you, which is the most important thing, really. But selfishly, he likes Jeonghan because the two of you resemble siblings more than anything else and heâs comforted by the seemingly platonic nature of your relationship.Â
The second change is that because of this new proximity and lack of rules around guests, you both are in and out of each otherâs apartments constantly. Those late nights at the library are replaced by late nights at each otherâs kitchen table with laptops and textbooks spread across it. There are also movie nights and video game nights and reading nights and really everything in between.Â
The third change is precisely because of this new proximity. His friends are absolutely onto his little secret. Mingyu smirks and raises an eyebrow every time Wonwoo bails on plans and says heâs busy. âBusy with who?â Mingyu will ask tauntingly. Wonwoo does his best to brush this off, but his friends see right through it, like they do tonight.Â
Youâre sitting across from him at the kitchen table, working on an assignment together, when a lot of noise at his front door makes him groan. You look at him questioningly, and that look only grows when he says heâs sorry for whatâs about to happen. Heâs done everything he can to avoid this moment, but it seems he canât escape it anymore. Mingyuâs met you because youâre here all the time, but the others havenât and theyâre about to.Â
Mingyu barrels into the room with Seungcheol and Vernon on his heels. âOh, sorry, I didnât know you guys were working on anything.â Mingyuâs apology is a total lie because that was the entire reason that Wonwoo bailed on plans with them, but he wonât call him out on it in front of you.Â
âYou must be Y/N, weâve heard a lot about you,â Seungcheol says, introducing himself and Vernon. You glance questioningly still at Wonwoo, but youâre friendly about greeting them back.Â
âWeâll be quiet,â Mingyu promises, leading the others to the living room with a smug look. They arenât quiet in the least, but it doesnât matter because the project is done within an hour. You pack up your things and leave, telling him youâll see him tomorrow. He knows he has to face the music at some point, so he decides to get it over with, joining his friends in the living room.Â
âSo, thatâs Y/N, huh? Sheâs cute,â Seungcheol teases.
âTold you. Heâs down bad,â Mingyu laughs.Â
âI donât know what youâre talking about. Weâre just friends. Weâve had a lot of classes together over the years,â Wonwoo says evenly.Â
âIs she not single?â Vernon asks. While Seungcheol and Mingyu are teasing, Vernon doesnât seem to mean anything by it. Still, Wonwoo would like to pretend that he doesnât feel the way he does and doesnât want the questions.Â
âNo, Iâm pretty sure she is, but it doesnât matter. Weâre just friends.â Okayyyys and Whatever You Says echo behind him as he excuses himself to bed, because heâs decided he actually isnât ready for this conversation. Heâd like to keep living in denial.Â
~
If it was even possible, you integrate even more into his life. It turns out that Jeonghan shares classes with Seungcheol, so now those little ventures with his friends include you and your roommate too. Over time, he sees it for what it is. His friends seem to like yours and Jeonghanâs company, sure, but they actually just like to watch him squirm around you.Â
But heâd never dream of turning down time with you, so he finds himself out at the bar. This one is special because itâs actually half arcade. Heâs been eyeing it since he heard that it opened and no one objects to making it the outing on Saturday night. Everyone grabs a drink upon arrival and starts making their way around each machine. He sticks with you most of the night and doesnât even notice how many coins the two of you have gone through or that your friends have long abandoned this side of the building, opting for the actual bar. They even leave you two after a while to go to another bar down the street.Â
When Mingyu comes home and finds Wonwoo on the couch, he groans. âWhat are you doing here? You were supposed to be out with Y/N! We had a whole plan!âÂ
Wonwoo blinks at his roommate. âWhat do you mean? You guys abandoned us and when we were done with the games we came home.â
âWe abandoned you so you could make a move!â Mingyu cries.Â
Again, Wonwoo blinks. âI wonât be doing that.âÂ
âWhy not?!â Mingyuâs cries are getting louder and perhaps a little more like literal cries.Â
âBecause she doesnât like me like that,â Wonwoo says, but heâs realizes his mistake as soon as itâs out. Mingyuâs already smirking, wails forgotten.
âOh? But you do?âÂ
âGood night, Mingyu,â Wonwoo dismisses, standing up.Â
âDonât worry, weâll work on it for you,â his roommate promises and it sounds vaguely like a threat.Â
âWe?â Wonwoo asked, then he remembers how your shared friends abandoned both of you earlier tonight. âYou know what, never mind. I donât want to know. Good night, Mingyu,â He says, meaning it this time.
~
Itâs Valentineâs Day, but Wonwoo treats it as business as usual. He has classes that are kicking his ass this semester, namely his senior design project, and he hardly thinks about the significance of the day and how heâs painfully single with an unrequited crush. Youâve been swamped too for the same reasons and you agree to meet him at his apartment for dinner and to work on your projects together.Â
Itâs late when you leave and he packs up his things after seeing you out. When he goes to his room to settle in for bed, heâs surprised to see a little heart-shaped box on his desk. Thereâs a little card with his name in your hand writing on it and it makes him stall out. First of all, how did you sneak this in here? Yes, you use his ensuite bathroom while youâre here, but he didnât even see you sneak anything out of your bag. Secondly, why did you get him anything?Â
Heart racing a little, he opens the card. Itâs simple and actually gives no indication of why you did this - just a simple Happy Valentineâs Day, accompanied by a little image of a cat and your name written underneath it. Inside the box is a small selection of chocolates. He feels lame when he sends you a message thanking you for the chocolates, and even lamer when you simply send back, âYouâre welcome!â He doesnât know how to interpret the meaning of this gesture and is sort of afraid to ask, so he leaves it alone.Â
~
Itâs his friends that plant the seed. âItâs almost White Day,â Seungcheol says over lunch. He has a feeling that itâs directed at him, but he stays silent. This is their not-so-subtle way of telling him to do something about your little Valentineâs Day gift last month. He didnât mention it to any of them, but he probably doesnât have to because they probably already know since they keep conspiring to get him to make a move. Wonwooâs caught Jeonghan in on it occasionally too, which might be how they know about your little gift.Â
âI didnât get anything this year,â Vernon says, though he doesnât sound too put out by it. âDid you guys?â
Seungcheol and Mingyu both shake their head. âWhat about you, Wonwoo? Did you get anything?â Mingyu asks slyly.Â
Wonwoo raises an eyebrow, chewing his food. âI did,â he admits shortly.
âOh? And are you going to return the gift?â Vernon asks, sounding hopefully.
âMaybe.â Another short answer.
âI think you should. I think sheâd like it,â Seungcheol says, sounding just as hopeful as Vernon. Wonwoo doesn't ask who âsheâ is, because it feels a little too much like admitting how he feels. So he just shrugs.Â
~
White Day is on a Friday. Wonwoo goes through the day per usual, attending classes and hanging out with you in between. You seem to be in a good mood today, which isnât unusual, but youâre a little twitchy. He gives you a look as you wiggle in your seat for the thousandth time since sitting down at the cafe in the afternoon. âYou good?â
âYeah,â you excuse. âMaybe a little too much caffeine today.âÂ
He doesnât call you out what he thinks might be a lie because as far as he knows youâve only had two cups today, one this morning and the one youâre drinking now. âMaybe you should cut back,â he teases.Â
You give him an entertained look. âYou first, then weâll talk.âÂ
That night, he finds himself at a singleâs mixer with you and your shared friends. One of Seungcheolâs frat friends extended the invitation and he didnât have a good reason to turn it down. He loses you in the crowd quickly and wishes he hadnât. He knows the whole point of this thing is to find someone to date or hook up with, but he has such little interest in the idea that he does his best to dodge any woman that approaches him.Â
He finds you at the kitchen counter, total chaos around you, but you look totally dejected and unaware of it. He pats your back, getting your attention. Thatâs when he realizes that you arenât just dejected, but youâre drunk. âDoing okay?âÂ
You nod, eyes a little unfocused. âAre you having fun?â
He shrugs. âNot particularly. Do you want to dip?â You nod and he realizes just how far gone you are when you stand up, wobbling from side to side. He steadies you, leading you out of the house. âOkay to walk?â You nod again, clinging to his side drunkenly as you two begin walking back. âYou donât normally drink this much, do you?â He asks carefully.Â
âNo,â you admit. âJust felt like it tonight.âÂ
âOkay,â he soothes. âLetâs get you to bed. You look like youâll pass out anytime.â You donât fight him when he leads you into his apartment instead. He knows your apartment is right down the hall, but he doesnât like the idea of leaving you unattended when youâre like this. He hands you some clothes to change into and excuses himself. When he comes back with some water and medicine, youâre tugging the t-shirt into place. He beats back the thought of seeing you in his clothes because now is just not the time. Or rather never.Â
âTake this first,â he commands, handing you the medicine and the water. When youâre done, he holds the comforter up for you to slide under.Â
âAre you staying?â You ask sleepily, setting in immediately.
Wonwoo chuckles. âWell, I live here, so⌠Iâll be on the couch though, if you need me.â
You glare, though thereâs absolutely nothing threatening about it. âNo, just stay here.â You clumsily scoot over, peeling the covers back.Â
He should say no, but heâs totally weak for you and canât think to say no, so he sighs. âLet me change. Iâll be back.â When he comes back, he thinks youâre asleep. Heâs almost dozed off when you speak up again.Â
âSorry you have to take care of me. I didnât mean to overdo it,â you mumble.Â
âItâs fine. Why did you overdo it though? I wasnât under the impression that you really liked drinking all that much,â Wonwoo questions. He doesnât actually expect to get a coherent answer, but itâs worth a try. He didnât like seeing you so dejected earlier tonight. It reminds him of how you were when things with Minghao ended a couple years ago.
âItâs silly,â you mumble. You really sound like youâre barely hanging on to consciousness and he tries to ignore how cute it is.Â
âDoubt it. Try me,â he dares.Â
You huff, eyebrows furrowing. âYou didnât get me anything for White Day.â Wonwooâs jaw drops, but youâre still rambling sleepily, eyes still closed. âI got you the chocolates for Valentineâs Day to tell you that I like you, but you didnât get anything for me for White Day, so you must not return my feelings.â You huff again. âItâs okay.â
âI did though,â he blurts. Your eyes shoot open. You donât look totally present, but you certainly donât look so tired anymore. âI do.â
âYou did? You do?â Your hopeful tone threatens crush him right where he lies.Â
âOf course⌠I just wasnât sure how to give it to you. Youâre a lot braver than I am, it seems,â he chuckles, feeling a little embarrassed. He sits up, opening his bedside drawer, pulling out a little heart-shaped box with a little card on top of it. Your eyes light up at the sight and you clumsily sit up.Â
âYou like me back?â Youâre doing your best to focus on the conversation and the way you add the word âbackâ makes his heart beat out of his chest.
âYeah, for an embarrassingly long time,â Wonwoo admits. You reach for the box and he stops you. âMaybe donât eat it tonight. I donât want you to get sick. Itâll be here tomorrow though.â You pout, but agree, letting him sit the box to the side. âCome on, go to sleep. We can talk about this in the morning. If you remember, that is.â
You follow his command, but heâs surprised that you donât lie back down on your pillow, but rather his chest. Heâs sure you can hear his heart race, but he would never dream of pushing you away. âIâll remember,â you insist stubbornly, but then youâre snoring softly the very next second and Wonwooâs on cloud nine.Â
~
Wonwoo wakes up to the sound of crinkling in the morning. He cracks his eyes open, blindly reaching for his glasses. When theyâre in place, he scoffs at you. Youâre sitting up in bed next to him, picking at the chocolates. âThatâs not breakfast, Y/N.â
You grin. âBut you got them for me!â You look surprisingly alert, like you didnât get absolutely wasted the night before.Â
Wonwoo nods, acquiescent. âI did. So you remember our conversation last night?â
You hum, grinning wider still. âI do. How long is âembarrassingly longâ exactly?â
âA while,â Wonwoo says evasively. âAny plans today?â You shake your head. âGo on a date with me?â
âOkay,â you grin. You pick up a chocolate, handing it to him. âOne for you, one for me.âÂ
He thinks youâre so cute that he canât even be mad that your shared breakfast is chocolate. He actually wouldnât want it any other way.Â
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Gravity Falls: For Your Own Good, Ch. 7
Summary: A few years after moving to Gravity Falls and having his lab built, Stanford Pines happens upon his estranged twin brother, Stanley. He mentally prepared himself to be suffocated by his brothers neediness all over again - what he wasn't prepared for was Stanley walking right past him like he didn't even notice him.
Rating: M for language, violence, and adult implications
Preface: Dialogue only, but some actions will be annotated for clarity. Cross-Posted on AO3 Here
WARNING: TW/ the topic of suicide.
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CH.7
âYou really need to tidy this place up, Stanford. I know you live by yourself, but thatâs no excuse to have papers and books scattered around like a dust devil came through.â
âItâs organized chaos, Fiddleford. I know where everything is.â
âAnd this pile of unwashed laundry?â
âIâll get to it. Washing clothes is a waste of time, and Iâm a busy man.â
âUh huh, and this pile of unopened letters on your counter? What are all of these, Stanford?â
âSeveral of our colleagues started sending me letters en masse.â
âAnd you didnât open or read them?â
âI received so many at once, it must have been an invitation for a convention. I wasn't interested in attending one at the time. Iâll get to them eventually.â
âThese are dated over a year-.â
âEventually.â
âYouâre stubborn as a mule. At least wash your dishes. Youâve been categorizing your notes for the past hour - what are you trying to do?â
âIâm trying to find the definitive event.â
âFor Stan?â
âYes. You said that something extremely traumatic caused the memory loss; if I can identify what event exactly caused this, maybe I can fix this. The problem is, howeverâŚâ
âIs that youâve handled the situation in the most extreme way you could think of?â
âNo. That isnât it- and that isnât true.â
âMhmmm.â
âThe problem is thereâs too much.â
âToo much?â
âTrauma. Heâs offhandedly mentioned terrible things- even when I met him in town, he had three stab wounds and acted like it was no big deal. And the more we ask, the more we prod, thereâs more. The ones we heard were just the ones he was comfortable enough to mention, there has to be worse things he will not or can not speak of. And that thought⌠scares me, Fiddleford. I knew he wasnât doing fantastic, but it wasnât⌠It wasnât supposed to be this bad.â
âThatâs not your fault Stanford - didnât you say he left home? It is sad he was too stubborn to ask you or anyone else in your family for help, but I suppose you two have that in common yeah?â
â...â
âIâll admit that might have been tactless of me- Stanford? Whatâs- Hey! Hey now, itâs okay! Itâs okay- Iâm here for you.â
â...Five.â
âWhatâre you whimpering into your hands, now?â
âFive times. He wrote me a list of people who have tried to kill him in the past. There were thirty names.â
âThatâs terrible, but not entirely surprising from what heâs-.â
âHe listed himself five times.â
(...)
âHow could you be so selfish?â
âIâm a selfish guy, I dunno what you want me to say.â
âWhy do you only ever think of yourself?â
âCanât afford not to. Itâs dog eat dog out there, you know.â
âWill you take this seriously?â
âWill you tell me what youâre upset about this time? I canât read minds, and Iâve known you for four days! Throw me a bone here, PhD.â
âYou tried to- to take your own life?â
âYeah. A couple times. Never succeeded, but thatâs the story of my life.â
âWhy would you do that? Why would you try something like-â
âOkay Iâve had enough of your judgemental bullshit. Iâve been playing along with your âmissing twinâ narrative, the least you could do is not fucking go there. Iâm a homeless criminal on the run all the time. You tell me why you think Iâd want to die sometimes.
Use that big fucking brain of yours for two seconds and think statistics - homeless people kill themselves more than âregularâ people, so do prisoners and convicts. Youâre both? Oooh boy youâre in for a time. You have to fight to survive all of the time, and sometimes⌠sometimes you just get so tired, you want to stop fighting you⌠you just want a break from it all. You want it to just end.â
âStanleyâŚâ
â...â
â...Talk to me. Please. Iâm not trying to judge you, I just want to understand.â
"...Let's say I am this mystery twin-"
"You are."
"I'm being hypothetical here, listen. Let's say I am this mystery twin of yours. Specs was saying he didn't even know you had a twin."
"How did-."
"You pressed the mute button, not deafen; I could still hear you. Anyways, your best friend didn't know you had a twin. So to your own best friend you never mentioned 'me' over what, at least 4 years or however long it took you to get a degree? Or in the years that followed? Not even once?
If I'm your twin, I can't have been that important for you to do all of this. I screwed something up, and you don't want me in your life."
"..."
"I donât know what you're trying to prove here- if youâre going through some guilt or pity or whatever. I'm just some drifter! I donât have anything, and I donât have anyone. You shouldn't be wasting your time like this. I'm not worth any of the time or effort youâve put into this. Even if I was who you think I am. Because that guy? That guy fucked up so badly you didn't think about him for ten years. And I'm just as big of a fuck up."
"Is that... is that what you think about yourself?"
"Stanford, that's all that I know about myself."
*Ford abruptly opens the barred door and walks through the forcefield into the cell*
"Woah woah, I'm not looking for a fight-."
*Ford hugs him, Stan just stands there*
"I wish you called, reached out to me, I-. I wish I reached out."
â...He probably wishes he reached out, too.â
To be continued...
#tw sui talk#tw sui ideation#early amnesia au#ford isnt a mad scientist hes a sad scientist#Sure is convenient that Ford keeps saying that Stan 'left home'#fanfic#fanfiction#cross posted on ao3#stanford pines#ford pines#fiddleford hadron mcgucket#fiddleford mcgucket#stanley pines#stan pines#stangst#anyone notice that Stan called Ford by his actual name#gravity falls#for your own good#mystery trio
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Everlong (Logan Howlett x Fem!Reader)
A/N: This was not a request, just a thought I had and had to get out. "Everlong" by Foo Fighters just scratches my brain in a way very few songs can, and it fits perfectly for this fic. Hope you guys enjoy.
Summary: Logan offers you his bed as a friend, knowing how hard it is for you to fall asleep alone. But after months of sleeping next to him platonically, things finally take a turn...
Warnings: 18+ MINORS DNI!!! SMUT! Thigh riding, Oral (f!receiving), Fingering, Unprotected PIV (wrap it up!), Cockwarming, praise kink, breeding kink (if you squint), cocky!Logan, softdom!Logan, non-sexual intimacy to sexual intimacy, friends to lovers, man-handling, rough sex, afab!reader/f!reader, feelings, fluff, cursing, def some grammatical errors, I think that's it.
Word Count: 4,619 jeeeeeeezzzzz this is DEPRAVED
Sleep was hardâthat is, until you started sleeping in Loganâs bed.Â
It had all started out so innocent. You were sitting on a couch in the study, flicking through the pages of your favorite book. You had just finished your fourth lap around the grounds of the mansion, and you decided you needed a break. The clock on the wall read 2:22 AM, mocking you, reminding you that of all the gifts you have, sleeping would never be one of them.Â
âWhatâre you doing awake?â You jumped at the voice breaking up the silence, but quickly recognized its bassy, deep tone. You turned to face Logan in the doorway.Â
âJust canât sleep,â you answered, shrugging your shoulders. He wore a beater and gray sweatpants, and you struggled against the urge to trail your eyes up and down his body. Youâd be lying if you said you didnât want himâyouâve wanted him for months.Â
Logan crossed his arms against his chest and smiled softly. âCanât sleep either,â he said, taking a step closer. âYou can come up to my room, if you wantâ he offered. âNext time you canât sleep, or you have a nightmare, or you just canât think of anything to do, come find me.â
You smiled at his words, at his kindness, at his willingness to help you. âThank you, Logan,â you whispered.Â
âNo problem, princess.â And then he turned to leave, walking back through the hallway and up the stairs to his room.Â
Youâre still not sure what came over you in those following momentsâstill donât understand where your confidence came fromâbut you forced yourself up from the couch and down the hall, following Loganâs path to his room.Â
He was already inside, already had the door closed, so you knocked. And the door immediately swung open. You swallowed, parting your lips nervously. âLo, do you think I could take you upââ
But he didnât even let you finish. He grabbed your arm and tugged you into the darkness of his room, navigating you carefully to his bed. He laid you down and walked to the other side, climbing in next to you. He brought the covers over your bodies, shuffling under the sheets, settling in, and then everything was silent.Â
You tried to get comfortable. You rolled onto your stomach and waited, eyes shut tight, hoping that sleep would take you under its current. But it didnât. You rolled back onto your side, away from Logan, opening and closing your eyes frustratedly.
âYou okay?â He asked. You could hear Logan inching towards you, his front suddenly pressing against your back.Â
You hummed in affirmation, leaning your back into him. He reached a tentative arm around your waist and pulled you into his chest. âIs this okay?â He husked, his lips at the shell of your ear.Â
âYeah,â you panted into the darkness of his room, taking shallow breaths, your heart beating rapidly in your chest. You could smell him everywhereâon the sheets, the pillowcase, in the air of the room. It was all leather and musk and pine and denim. And there he was, holding you, his thumb drawing soft circles into your slightly exposed midriff. Something about it was overwhelming, but also comforting, as though all your senses were being cradled by him.
He could hear your heart beating, could hear your breath catching in your throat. âRelax,â he whispered. âIâve got you. Go to sleep.â Your eyes fluttered closed, and you focused on Loganâs breathing. It was constant, stable, steadfast. He was so warm, so solid. And soon enough, you found yourself giving in to sleep.Â
You woke up a few hours later, the pale light of the moon still pushing through the curtains. Loganâs legs were tangled with yours, your face pressed into the center of his chest, his arm wrapped around your back, holding you tight. You tried to lift your head to read the clock behind you on the nightstand.
But Logan pulled you back down. âGo back to sleep,â he murmured against the crown of your head. âToo early.âÂ
Thatâs how most nights have been since thenâclimbing into his bed, completely innocently, just to be able to sleep. He holds you all night, keeping you close. And when the sun finally rises, you both get up and head down to the kitchen, watching as Logan brews you a pot of coffee.Â
Itâs shockingly domestic and incredibly intimate. And yet, the two of you have never talked about it. Itâs a silent agreement, one based on pattern, convention, and repetition. These very events have played out more times than you can countâfor months now. It has become so normalized that you donât question it, donât even think about it when you crawl into his bed, and he pulls you into his chest.Â
So, tonight starts out like any other. Your feet pad along the dark, mahogany wood floors, down the dim, quiet hallway, towards Loganâs room. Youâre only wearing a pair of panties and one of Loganâs old t-shirts, the hem falling to the middle of your thighs.Â
You stand in front of his door and knock. You arenât nervous anymoreâarenât anxious as he opens the door. Heâs already shirtless, wearing just his boxersâwhich, however, is something you will never get used to. He smiles, his eyes trailing up and down your body as he steps to the side, inviting you in.Â
You know the drill by nowâyou walk to your side of the bed, lying down and pulling the covers up to your chin. Logan follows suit. You move in silence, but itâs a comfortable silence. Itâs a silence shared by two people who donât have to say a word, donât have to communicate to feel connection. His arms wrap around your body, and he tugs you into his chest.Â
âDidnât see you today,â he mumbles, his lips brushing your forehead. âWish I couldâve.â His fingertips graze up and down your back, your t-shirt hitching up as you get comfortable, revealing your bare legs.Â
âIâm here now,â you whisper, pressing your face into the crook of his neck, smelling him, letting him overtake your senses. He tangles your legs with his.
âIs this my shirt, by the way?â he asks, his hands sliding down to the hem, which is now bunched up above the waistband of your panties.Â
You smile into his neck. âMaybe,â you answer, giggling softly.Â
His fingertips slip just under the t-shirt, tentative and hesitant, waiting for you to push him away, to tell him no. But you donât. âLooks better on you than it does on me,â he husks, his thigh settling between your legs so that youâre straddling it.Â
âTh-thanks,â you stutter, trying to ignore the way he bumps against your core, the way his words make your heart race. You shut your eyes and wrap your arms around his center, letting him engulf you in his warmth. You swallow your feelings down and close your eyes. âNight, Lo,â you mutter. Â
âNight, princess,â he says, his lips against the crown of your head.Â
You listen carefully to his breathing, like you always do, and after a few moments, you find yourself falling asleep.
When you wake up a few hours later, your back is against Loganâs front. His arm keeps you pressed tightly to his chest, his nose nudging against the crook of your neckâyou can feel his breath, warm on your skin. Your legs are intertwined, his knee just inches away from your core.Â
Logan moves in his sleep, his knee bumping against your core now, his nose nuzzling into your neck, his lips brushing against the sensitive skin just under your ear. You take a deep breath, pleasure pulsing between your thighs as Logan moves again, his thigh dragging against you. You canât help the moan that falls from your lips.Â
He moves again, and thatâs when you feel itâhis erection stiff against the curve of your ass. Heat spreads across your chest, up to your neck, your stomach somersaulting as his hips press harder into your ass.
âL-Lo,â you stutter into the darkness of his room. But he doesnât answer. His thigh slides against your core again. You can feel the wetness pooling between your legs, soaking your panties. âLogan,â you choke, moaning louder this time. Â
He hums in response, nuzzling his nose deeper into your neck, his lips pressing against your skinâthe ghost of a kiss. Itâs too muchâyou want to grind down on his thigh, want to feel his cock pressing against your ass, want to feel his hips rutting against yours. You thought maybe this would happen, hoped that one night would lead to something like this, but you never dreamed it would actually come to pass.Â
Loganâs thigh rubs against your heat again, and you mumble his name, your breathing quickening. âFuck,â you groan, involuntarily bucking your hips against Loganâs. His erection drags along your ass.Â
You force yourself to be still as Logan grunts into your neck. âYou awake, pretty girl?â He whispers against your ear.Â
âMhm,â you murmur, trying to play half-asleep. You donât want to let on that you can feel him hard against you, and you pray you arenât soaking through your panties and onto his thigh.Â
You swear you can hear him mumble a soft fuck under his breath. Your thoughts race around your head. Maybe he was awake the whole time. Maybe he felt your hips roll against him. Maybe he can smell the arousal growing between your thighs. You know he can hear your heart hammering against your ribcage.Â
But his arm tightens its grip around your waist, and he pulls you closer, holding you down against his thigh. âWhat were you doing, sweetheart?â He rasps, pressing a true, open-mouthed kiss to your neck. You gasp, a shiver running down your spine.Â
âWh-what do you mean?â You stutter, stumbling around your words as he kisses your neck again, his teeth grazing the sensitive skin just under your ear.Â
He moves his knee, pressing harder into your core, dragging his thigh against your aching heat. You stifle a moan as he repeats the motion. âFelt you riding me, pretty girl,â he huffs, his hands gripping your waist, guiding your hips along his thigh. âSmelt you, too,â he whispers, his lips still at your neck. âCan feel that pretty, wet pussy dripping on me, darlinâ.â
âLogan,â you whine, letting him move your hips back and forth. The pressure feels so good. You need more. âPleaseâŚâ You trail off, grinding down onto him.Â
âMaking a fucking mess of me, arenât you?â He teases, his fingers gripping your hips like iron, so tight he might bruise. âLove watching you get off on me.â His voice is dark and honeyed, smooth like expensive liquor. Your walls clench around nothing as your clit drags along Loganâs thigh and you moan, throwing your head back against his shoulder. âSo sensitive, arenât you?â
âYes,â you pant, letting him pull you back and forth. Youâll take anything you can getâanything heâs willing to give to you. âD-donât stop,â you beg.Â
âFuck,â Logan grunts. âNeed me that bad, huh?â
âY-you have no idea,â you stammer. He bites your pulse point as one of his hands wraps around your front, slipping inside your panties and finding your clit. âOh fuck, Lo,â you whine, the pads of his fingers drawing tight, rapid circles around the bud.Â
âThat feels good, pretty girl?â You can hear the smirk in his voice. He knows exactly what heâs doing to you, and heâs getting off on it. You can feel his erection hard against your ass every time his hips buck into yours. âBet it does, the way youâre soaking my thigh.â
âSo fucking good,â you whimper. But you know you need more. You need him. âLogan, pleaseâŚâ You trail off, the words escaping you as pleasure pulses through your body.Â
âPlease what, darlinâ?â He teases, his fingers pulling out of your panties, his hands gripping your hips again, rolling you against his thigh. Itâs not enough, and you groan at the loss of contact. âUse your words, sweetheart.â
âN-need more,â you croak, dragging yourself along him.Â
âMore what, beautiful?â But you know he knows. You know he wants to hear you beg for it, wants to hear you beg for him.Â
âMore of you,â you choke out.
âYeah?â He chides, slowing the roll of your hips with his iron grip. âMore of me how?â Heâs so goddamn cocky, so unfair.Â
âI-IâŚâ your eyes roll back into your head as he slowly, teasingly drags you up his thigh, pulling you against his erection and holding you there. âHowever you want me,â you whisper, pushing against his cock. âJust want you.â
He suddenly pulls away, his grip on your hips forcing you into the mattress as he rolls on top of you, caging you in, his hands on either side of your head.Â
Loganâs lips crash down onto yours, swallowing you hungrily, his teeth grazing your lower lip and licking away the pain. You part your lips, inviting him inside, tasting his tongue against yours. He slides a hand down your body, stopping at the hem of your shirt and yanking it up. He breaks the kiss to slip the shirt up and over your head, tossing it to the floor. He sits up on his knees, his eyes trailing your body, settling on your bare breasts.Â
âSo fucking beautiful,â Logan praises, lowering down over you, balancing on his forearm as his free hand glides up your side and to your breasts. He palms your flesh, rolling his thumb over your pebbled nipple, pinching lightly. âFuck, youâre perfect.â He traces across the valley of your breasts, his hand massaging the other side.Â
He grinds his hips into yours, his erection nudging against your core. âWanted you so bad, pretty girl,â he pants, pressing another kiss to your lips. His fingertips drag down your body, gripping your hip tightly again. âDreamed of fucking you, of tasting you.â He buries his face into the crook of your neck as he pushes you into the mattress, biting down on your pulse point. âTell me you want this. Tell me you want me.â
You moan as he sucks at your sensitive skin. âWant you, Lo. Need you,â you whine, your arms wrapping around his back, nails digging into his skin. âAlways wanted you.â
He kisses a trail down your neck, to your collarbone, between the valley of your breasts. He slides down your body, peppering light kisses across your stomach, stopping at the hem of your panties. He looks up at you, his face illuminated by the pale, blue moonlight. You can see the desperation in his eyes, the need. He licks his lipsâa man starvedâas his fingers hook into the waistband of your panties.Â
He tugs them down your legs, throwing them to the floor, and settles between your thighs. His face is just inches from your aching heat. Your chest heaves as he brings himself closer, his breath fanning across your cunt. You look down at him and find him staring up at you, watching your every move.Â
âWanna know what you taste like, darlinâ,â he huffs, his palms splaying on your inner thighs, spreading your legs wide open for him. âWant me to make you feel good?â His nails dig into the flesh of your thighs possessively.Â
âY-yes,â you stammer, already arching your back off the mattress. âPlease, Logan.â
He smiles, his eyes still trained on yours as his tongue swipes through your folds, long and slow, all the way up to your clit. âFuck,â he mumbles against your core, flicking your clit, lapping at it twice before starting all over again. He licks another teasing stripe through your folds, landing on your clit and taking the bud between his lips this time. He sucks roughly, releasing your clit and swirling soothing circles around it. âYou taste so perfect. Better than I ever imagined.âÂ
He laves at you, devouring you, his head buried against your cunt. His right hand climbs up your inner thigh, nearing your folds as his teeth graze your clit. Your hips jolt back at the sudden feeling, and Logan is quick to slide his left hand under your thigh. He grips tightly, yanking you back to him, and pressing his face deeper into your cunt. âDonât even think about it, pretty girl. Youâre not going anywhere until Iâm finished with you.âÂ
You moan at his words, his right hand finally working its way up to your folds. His fingertips find your entrance, spreading your slick. âSo fucking wet for me,â he murmurs, prodding your slit. âWant my fingers, darlinâ?â
âYes, Lo, please. Want all ofââ He thrusts two long, thick fingers deep inside you, down to his knuckles. âOh, fuck,â you cry out as he pulls out and slams back in.Â
His tongue swirls around your clit, his teeth grazing the bud every time he takes it between his lips to suck. Itâs overwhelming, overstimulating, the way he laps at you, drinking you in, consuming you. If he could find a way to keep your taste on his tongue all day, he would. If he could slip under your skin to be one with you, to feel your warmth, he would. You know this isnât want. This isnât lust. This isnât some one-off thing. This is need. This is longing.Â
Your eyes roll back into your head as he breathes you in, his tongue working at your clit as his fingers thrust in and out, dragging along your walls, scissoring inside you. âDoing so good for me, sweetheart,â Logan praises, and you clench down around him at the words. He smiles against your cunt. âYou like that, donât you? Like when I tell you just how good of a girl you are.âÂ
Your walls flutter around him again. âI-I do,â you admit, your voice shaky as he fucks into you, hitting that sweet spot inside you with every pump of his fingers.Â
Logan chuckles darkly, the reverberation pulsing against your clit. âThatâs my good girl, giving me what Iâve been waiting for,â he huffs, lapping at you, sucking on your clit like itâs candy. âWouldâve waited forever for you.â
Your muscles contract and release at his words, at the intimate confession. âWouldâve waited forever for y-you too,â you whimper, his fingers still working you open. Youâre so close. Fire burns at the base of your spine, your walls clenching around Loganâs fingers again as his tongue draws tight, rapid circles into your bud.Â
âNo more waiting, beautiful,â Logan grunts, and you know what he meansâhe knows youâre close. âWanna feel you come around my fingers, wanna taste it.â It isnât a request; itâs a command. His fingers plunge deeper, his tongue laving at your clit roughly between sentences. âKnow youâre ready to let go, sweetheart. Donât hold back. Come for me.â
Youâre crashing down, falling, but not into nothingnessâinto Logan, into his warmth, into his touch. Your chest heaves and the room spins. Heat pours from deep at the bottom of your belly, fire spreading up your spine. Nothing has ever felt like this. His name is the only thing you can think, the only thing you can say:Â Logan Logan Logan Logan.Â
His pumps slow down, his fingers dragging gently along your inner walls until he stills inside you and carefully pulls out. His tongue is still lapping at you, still working your overstimulated clit.Â
âLogan,â you whine, your hands finding his head, digging your nails into his scalp. âWant you.â
He smirks against you, knowing full well what heâs doing. âYou have me, darlinâ.â
You groan, half in frustration, half in pleasureâthe tension building back up between your thighs with every flit of Loganâs tongue. âPlease,â you beg, tugging on Loganâs hair. He grunts at the feeling, smiling against your cunt again. âI want you, Logan.â
âGotta be more specific, pretty girl,â he huffs, his face finally separating from your cunt. Your release glistens on his chin, his lower lip. He brings his fingers to his mouth as he waits, wrapping his lips around his fingers and sucking, savoring the taste of you.Â
âWant you inside meâŚâ You trail off, watching as his fingers pop out of his mouth, his tongue darting out along his lower lip, rationing every drop of you he can find. âWant your cock,â you finally choke out.
The corner of Loganâs mouth turns up, his fingers hooking into his boxers and tugging them down. âWanna fuck you so bad, beautiful,â he grunts, his cock springing free, bouncing against his stomach. Heâs so much bigger than you had anticipated. You swallow nervously as he lowers himself down over you, resting on his forearm. âThought about this for so long.â
His hand wraps around the base of his cock, guiding himself to your folds. He swipes through you, spreading your slick, notching against your clit. You moan at the contact, your chest coming flush with Loganâs as your back arches off the mattress. âLogan, please,â you beg. âJust want you. Only ever gonnaââ
He plunges deep inside you, down to the hilt with one thrust. Youâve never felt so fullâhis cock thick and long, splitting you open. His presses a kiss to your lips, swallowing your moans as his tongue darts out, tangling with yours. Heâs still inside you, stretching you out, allowing you to adjust to the size of him. âYou okay, pretty girl?â He asks as his lips part from yours.
âY-yes,â you stammer, your arms wrapping around his back. âFeels good. So big.â
Logan pulls out and thrusts back in, splitting you open again. âFuck,â he groans, his forehead resting against yours. âSo fucking perfect. So tight, so warm. Made for me, darlinâ.â Your eyes flutter open and closed as his free hand slips between your bodies, quickly finding your clit.Â
âLo,â you whine as his fingers draw tight, rapid circles into the bud. He sets his pace, pumping in and out of your cunt with reckless abandon. His hips rock against yours, the sound of skin slapping against skin echoing along the walls of the room.Â
âKnew youâd feel like this,â Logan soothes, flicking your clit as he fucks into you. âKnew youâd feel this good. Wanna be inside you forever, princess.â
His lips find yours again, his teeth tugging on your lower lip and then sucking the pain away. Itâs rushed and frantic, like heâs dying for more, searching for a way to reach deeper inside you, to feel all of you at once.Â
He ruts into you, his hips snapping, his cock hitting that sweet spot inside you with every thrust. He pinches your clit roughly, and your back arches off the mattress, your chest pressing against his.Â
âNo idea how much I wanted youâŚâ You trail off as his cock pounds into you. Heâs still stretching you out, still working you open.Â
Logan moans your name, his cock throbbing at your words. âWanted to fuck you that first night you came in here,â he whispers at the shell of your ear. âWanted you before that too. Knew I needed you the second I saw you.â
The confession rocks through you. You think of all those nights spent next to Logan, all those stolen moments. He wanted youâneeded you the whole time.Â
âLo,â you hiccup, his fingertips swirling your clit, his hips rocking against yours. He sinks deep inside, again and again, pumping in and out. Your walls flutter around his cock, dragging him in deeper.Â
âFuck, pretty girl,â he groans, sliding out and plunging back in. âSqueezing me so good, taking me so well.â
Tears brim in the corners of your eyes at the pure pleasure drumming through your bones. You know youâre close, know youâre almost unraveling underneath him. Logan flicks your clit, drawing hard, rough strokes around the bud. Youâre on fire, and youâre burning for him.Â
âLogan I-IâŚâ You stumble around your words, unable to form a coherent sentence as he pounds into you. Your walls flutter around him again, and his cock twitches inside you at the feeling.Â
He groans, your name on his tongue like a prayer. âI know youâre close, pretty girl.â He throbs inside you, and you know heâs almost there too. âWanna make you come again,â he grunts, pulling out and pumping back in. âKnow you have another one in you, sweetheart.â
Heâs right. You canât hold on much longer, but you want this moment to last. You want to feel his cock dragging along your walls, filling you up, splitting you open. You want his chest flush against yours. You want to feel the way he bites your lip and sucks away the sting he leaves behind. You want it allâall of himâand you donât just want it right now. You donât want this to be a fleeting moment. You want it to be forever.Â
âCome on, beautiful,â Logan pants, his pace faltering, his hips stuttering. He twitches inside you again. âFuck, you feel so good.â He strokes your clit, drawing those quick circles into the bud. âLet go for me. Know you want to,â he breathes, his forehead resting against yours. âIâve got you, sweetheart. Iâm not going anywhere.â
His words overwhelm you, and you let go. Itâs all more forceful this time, more powerful, your body trembling, your eyes rolling into the back of your head as wave after wave of pleasure tears through your body. It feels like blinding, searing heat, spreading like a forest fire.Â
Logan is right behind you, moaning your name, his cock throbbing against your walls. âGonna fill you up, pretty girl,â he husks, his chest heaving. You whisper a soft, pleading yes. âFuck, gonna make you mine,â he moans. His cock throbs again, and then heâs spilling inside you, filling you with his release.Â
His fingers rub gentle strokes into your clit, his cock slowly pumping in and out before stilling inside you. His fingers slip away from your clit, his hand traveling up your body, and rolling you over so that youâre side by side, facing each other. He pulls you into his chest, his cock still deep inside you.Â
Loganâs arms wrap around your back, caressing your bare skin, tracing patterns and shapes with his fingertips. He presses a kiss to the crown of your head as you bury your face into his chest.Â
âWanna stay inside you,â he mumbles against your hair. âWanna keep you close.â
âYou can,â you whisper, your heart hammering. âWanna stay close, too.âÂ
He presses another kiss to your head. âIâm not going anywhere,â Logan soothes, his fingers running up and down your spine. âGonna want you forever.âÂ
You lift your head to look up at him, his eyes immediately meeting yours. âForever?â You ask, but you know itâs a dumb question. You know heâs telling the truth.
He smiles and nods. âWouldâve waited for you forever,â he says, pausing, his throat bobbing as he swallows. âNever felt this way before, pretty girl. Never felt this real, this perfect. Donât wanna let you go.â
âDonât,â you whisper into the darkness of his room. âPlease.â
âI wonât,â he coos, pressing a chaste kiss to your forehead. âI wonât.â
His breathing steadies, and you listen to him like you do every night. Your eyes flutter shut, and you drift off to sleep with Loganâs cock deep inside you.
Forever. You think as your mind goes quiet and sleep drags you under. Forever.Â
Everlong.  Â
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A/N: aaaah im so excited for yall to read this!!! im kinda ashamed to admit this whole idea came from something i heard in an ep of milf manor but lets just move past that lol
WORD COUNT: 9k
WARNING: sexual content, toxic and verbally abusive relationship, cheating (not from Harry or Y/N)
SUMMARY:Â Harry Styles is used to get any woman he wants, everyone knows that. But when his interest shifts towards you, everything changes and he is ready to wait for you for as long as it takes, even when he finds out you're engaged to your asshole boyfriend. Not even that ring on your finger stops him from pining after you.
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You donât have to look up from the drink youâre making to know who just walked into the bar. Itâs like the atmosphere of the whole place shifts instantly whenever Harry Styles appears, a sixth sense always triggers a siren in your head before your eyes could spot him crossing the space between the entrance and the bar.Â
Youâd be lying if you said you felt no excitement every time he shows up, the way your heart starts hammering in your chest is a great tell that he is anything but neutral to you, but youâve been trying your absolute best to keep yourself under control. For one, he is known to be a flirt. Every woman in town knows that Harry loves three things, attention, pretty women and the combination of the previous two. Youâve seen him around with different partners every time, but never with the same twice. You heard the stories, the gossips and the whispers, how he shakes every womanâs world and then leaves, never giving the chance for anyone to even try to tie him down. This is not what you want or deserve.
And for two⌠Youâre taken. Engaged, to be precise.Â
When you spot Harry you instantly hide your hand behind your back, hoping the diamond ring wonât catch his eyes, because you know he would flip.Â
Apparently, his latest fixation has been none other than you. He came into the bar about two months ago for the first time. He sat by the bar and clearly tried to flirt with you all evening, ignoring all the women who were brave enough to go up to him. He remained focused on you and as the evening carried on he became more and more blunt about his intentions with you.Â
âSo, are you coming home with me?â he asked when you walked out at the end of your shift. He was waiting by the back, leaning against his motorcycle. You were never blind, you saw how attractive he was then and you still see it now, but you just shook your head no.
âIâm taken.â
âYou got a boyfriend?â He arched an eyebrow and you nodded. You expected him to give up, but instead, a devilish smirk took over his expression. âItâll be even sweeter when I win you over, Angel.â
You were taken aback by his confidence and you were surprised when he showed up the next day, but got used to his presence quite fast.Â
It became a sort of usual, have him walk in not long after your shift starts, he sits by the bar so he can talk to you, he drinks one or two beers and then asks if he could take you home once youâre done. You decline and then it starts all over again.Â
An unexpected feature of his never dying attempts is that youâve actually got to know each other during those long hours when he sat by the bar and entertained you while you worked and when he drops the cheeky act he is actually someone not just bearable but rather pleasant. Youâd never admit it to him, but you kind of think of him as a friend, youâve shared some things with him about yourself not many know.Â
Like how you found out your boyfriend cheated on you.Â
âYou look stunning, as always, Angel,â he greets you as he takes his usual spot and youâre already pouring his drink.
âAnd youâre being flirty, as always,â you give him a knowing look, but he just smirks. You give him his beer and then move over to another man by the bar.Â
When you return you notice the change in him and you know he saw the ring. As if you could still hide it from him, you cover it with your other hand, even though you did nothing wrong.Â
âWhatâs that?â he asks, though itâs obvious he knows itâs an engagement ring.Â
âHarryâŚâ
âHe proposed to you?â he asks, eyes snapping up to meet your gaze.Â
âYes, he did.â
âAnd you said yes?â He is clearly growing angrier by the second and you worry, because he tends to lose his temper easily. You donât think he would ever hurt you, but he might take his anger out on something or someone else.
âYes, thatâs why Iâm wearing the ring,â you say and try to keep yourself busy, moving the clean glasses in front of you around.Â
âY/N what the fuck?! You canât be fucking serious.â
âI am and itâs none of your business,â you snap at him.
âThe guy cheated on you!â
âWould you stop airing my private life for everyone?â you hiss at him, looking around to see if anyone has heard him.Â
âThen explain to me how you are so stupid that you want to marry a man who doesnât love you?!â
Youâve had enough. Checking if there is anyone waiting to be served you find no one so you walk out from behind the bar and grab Harryâs wrist, pulling him out through the back door to the empty parking lot behind the building.Â
âWho do you think you are? You have no right to talk about me or my relationship like that!â
âY/N, you are making a huge fucking mistake!â
âA mistake would be trusting someone about dating who has never stayed with a woman for longer than a couple of hours! What the fuck do you know about love or marriage when you canât even stay until the morning when you fuck someone?â
It might be petty, bringing up his reputation against him just to invalidate his words, but he brought the worst out of you.Â
âBecause I donât fucking lie to women about what I want! Your man lied right into your face and then only admitted to cheating when he was busted. You think he wouldnât do it again? You think he is not doing it now? Cheaters donât change, Y/N. He doesnât fucking deserve you.â
âAnd you do?â you snap at him as your anger takes over your body. Maybe itâs because he brought up what Jeremy did or maybe itâs because he is lecturing you about something he has no right to stick his nose into. âLet me guess, I should ditch Jeremy and run to you? We fuck, have one great night and then leave me like you leave everyone, is that what I should go for? Is that what I deserve?â
He seems to be at a loss of words and thatâs new. He probably wasnât expecting you to call him out so explicitly, but itâs been building up for a while.Â
âDo me a favor and stop trying to orchestrate my life. Iâm more than capable of making my own decisions. Go and chat up another woman, fuck her so you stop trying to stick your dick inside me.â
You walk past him and straight inside, your rage doesnât die down for a couple of long minutes. You take a few orders and then slowly get back to the workflow and manage to forget about Harry for a bit. When you glance towards his spot you see that his beer is still there, but he never returned. For a second you get uncertain, have you gone too far?Â
No. He deserved it and everything you said was valid. Itâs not your fault he canât take the truth.Â
Two days pass by and you see no trace of Harry. You find yourself looking at his usual seat from time to time and you mistake a few tall brunette guys with him, but he never actually shows up. You tell yourself you should be happy he is out of your hair, but somewhere deep inside you thereâs still some disappointment that you try to push down every time it threatens to bubble up.Â
Sunday comes and it doesnât start off the best. Jeremy is in a mood all morning and he just practically picks a fight over anything you do. Itâs whether what you cook, where you put the scissors or how you forget to lock the backdoor, he overreacts everything and by the time youâre leaving for work youâre a mess from all the fighting youâve had.Â
Being away from him is actually a bit of a relief, but your peace only lasts until he starts texting you and somehow you end up fighting again, this time about the outfit you wore to work. A simple black skirt with a white t-shirt, youâve worn this before and he didnât even notice, but today it seems like the skirt is too short for his taste and the shirt is too see-through.Â
JEREMY: Enjoy the attention of every fucking men in the bar.
JEREMY: Congrats on being a slut.
Youâre angry at him, but youâre also too tired to run around in circles. When he sets his mind on something nothing can change it, so thereâs no use trying to convince him youâre not doing it to get other menâs attention.
You put your phone aside and ignore it for a while, but apparently, that wasnât the right decision. Because the next time you check it you see a bunch of missed calls from Jeremy and another thread of texts.
JEREMY: Answer the fucking phone Y/N.
JEREMY: Are you fucking someone in the toilet?Â
JEREMY: If I find out you fucked someone youâre dead I swear.
Thereâs only twenty minutes left until closing and the bar is almost entirely empty, so you step out to the back and call him.Â
âAre you done fucking?â Thatâs what he says when he finally picks up.Â
âAre you done being an asshole? Iâm not fucking anyone!â
âDonât fucking talk to me like that! I know youâre sucking dicks for tips, donât even try to lie to my fucking face!â
He is vivid, shouting on the other end of the line and itâs making your head throb. Youâre tired and you donât want to deal with his unreasonable jealousy right now. All you want to do is go to sleep, but you know if you go home youâll just continue from here.Â
âIâm not lying, youâre delusional!â
âStop with the fucking lies! Donât fucking come home until you canât admit the shit youâre doing! I will not have a woman lie into my face!â
âWhat the hell are you talking about? You canât tell me not to go home, thatâs my place too!â
âIâm sure you can find a place to sleep if you suck another dick.â
And with that the call ends. Youâre staring at the screen in disbelief for several moments before the tears start rolling down your face. You lean against the brick wall and slide down as you let the sobs bubble from your throat. You try to call him again, but it doesnât even ring.Â
âFuck, fuck, fuck,â you whisper to yourself as you bury your face in your hands.Â
You always kept telling yourself Jeremy has a temper and that he doesnât mean it when he says these nasty things, but every time it happens again it gets harder and harder to believe that you could put up with it. You get that it roots in his jealousy, but he shouldnât act like this with you, you know itâs not normal and yet⌠you still havenât been able to do anything against it.Â
Youâre so buried under your pain that you donât even notice the motorcycle that rolls into the parking lot and stops just a couple of feet away from you. Harryâs voice is what snaps you out of your spiral.
âY/N? What are you doinâHey, what happened?â
He rushes over and kneels in front of you, one hand on your back as the other lifts your head by your chin.Â
âIâm fine,â you breathe out, as if he couldnât see your tear soaked cheeks and bloodshot eyes.Â
âNo, youâre not. What happened? Did someone hurt you?â Seemingly he is trying to find wounds on you, but you shake your head.Â
âItâs just⌠I-I donâtâŚâ You canât get the words out, itâs like your mind is blocked.Â
âCome on, letâs go inside.â
He helps you up and you donât protest when his arms curl around you and he keeps you close to his chest as he walks you inside. He pulls you to the stool he usually takes and makes you sit before walking behind the bar and pouring you a glass of water.Â
âI need to close,â you croak and try to get off the stool, but he stops you.
âIâll take care of it.â
You faintly hear him making the last few people in the bar leave and then the lock turns on the door before he returns and sits beside you.Â
âNow tell me what happened.â
âI donât want to talk,â you breathe out as you close your eyes. When you open them again, Harry is still there looking at you patiently.Â
Then he stands and walks back behind the bar, grabbing a bottle of tequila from the shelf along with two shot glasses.
âAlright. Then letâs drink the pain away.â He pours the liquor into the glasses and then pushes one over to you, holding up the other one. For a second you just blink at him, a warning going off somewhere in the back of your head, but youâre quick to turn it off.Â
Drinking the pain away actually sounds nice right now, since you canât go home until Jeremy is having his episode.Â
So you finally take the shot and you catch a tiny smile from Harry before you both chug down the alcohol. And soon more follows, at least on your side.Â
About thirty minutes and three more shots later youâre definitely drunk. But at least you stopped crying and can actually laugh now, practically on anything Harry says.Â
âOh my God, stop!â you cackle, slapping your hand onto the bartop.
âNo, I swear! I climbed out the window and fell straight into the jacuzzi!â
âDid her father see you?â
âNo, I would be dead by now if he did?â he chuckles.
âI canât believe you were such a playboy even as a teenager!â you keep laughing.Â
âWhat, are you surprised?â he cheekily asks.
âHonestly, not that much,â you snort and reach for the tequila bottle, but Harry pulls it away from you. âHey!â
âMaybe letâs slow down a bit, yeah?â You pout at him, but he just grabs a normal glass from behind the bar, fills it with water and hands it over to you instead.Â
âWhat, youâre not up for a bit of fun?â you grin into the glass, but take a few sips anyway. âI thought thatâs what you wanted.â
âI do want to have fun with you, Y/N. But Iâm also concerned at how fast you downed those shots,â he admits smirking.Â
âAh, how sweet of you, as if you donât just want to take me to bed,â you scoff, but you didnât mean it in a bitter way this time, like before. âIsnât it tiring?â
âWhat is?â
âAh, donât make me say it!â
âI genuinely donât know what youâre talking about, Angel.â
âAngel!â you groan and then let out a sigh. âArenât you tired of running after me? I mean, youâre used to getting your way with women. Honestly, I thought youâd stop by now.â
Harry just stares back at you and it gets intimidating, especially when a smirk curls the corners of his mouth up. Your cheeks already feel quite hot, but now they are burning. You always hated how bothered he could get you despite all your effort to reject him in every possible way.Â
Just when you think heâd ignore what you said forever, he finally speaks up.Â
âWould you believe me if I said itâs because youâre different?â
âOh no, donât give me this bullshit!â you scoff and then just laugh it off. You change position on the stool and try to cover up just how much his words affect you.Â
Because it might have been the corniest thing youâve heard from him, but youâre also just a girl whoâs a hopeless romantic and this is exactly the stuff that can turn you into a giggly mess in a heartbeat.Â
âWhy is it your first instinct that Iâm just bullshitting you, Y/N?â he asks, but he is not at all accusing, more like curious. You purse your lip, but decide not to say anything, just sip on your water. Harry walks out from behind the bar and takes the stool next to yours. âI think you donât know your real worth, Y/N.â
âAnd you do?â you roll your eyes at him teasingly.Â
âI would love to, but as long as you donât let me get closer to you, I can only work with what I see. I know you probably think Iâm just lying to get into your pants, but if thereâs one thing you should know about me is that Iâm always telling the truth. Iâd been lied to before, many times and I know what it does to you, so I would never do the same to you or anyone.â
âIs this your way of buttering me up?â you smirk, but narrow your eyes at him. Your wording makes him laugh.Â
âOf course.â
âAh, you are so smooth, I hate that about you! And I hate how handsome you are.â
Oops. Thatâs definitely the alcohol talking, youâd have never admitted that to him sober. You catch the surprised smirk on his face and you immediately regret opening your mouth.Â
âSo you think Iâm handsome, huh?â
âOh shut up! I can see your head getting big!â You point at him, but he grabs your hand in the air and tugs at you gently, just enough to make you hop off your stool and fall towards him. He catches you by the waist as you end up between his legs, your hands end up on his chest as you try to find your balance.Â
âI would love to hear you say how handsome you find me, but just know, that youâre playing with my self restraint.â
Even despite the shots, you can feel the switch, your breathing becomes shallow and you make the mistake of letting your eyes move down to his lips for a moment. His fingers dig into your waist and though you know you should move your hands, you love how you can feel his warmth under your palms.Â
âDo you want to tell me what happened earlier? Why were you crying?â
âJeremy,â you say in a whisper.Â
âDid he hurt you?â
âJust⌠with his words.â
âThatâs still not okay, donât downplay it. What did he say?â
A small voice in you is telling you not to tell him more, but his undivided attention and care towards you feels so good, itâs something you havenât experienced in a while. Jeremy is different, he is not the soft type and though youâve been telling yourself itâs fine, you canât deny how much youâve been craving this kind of connection with someone.Â
âHe accused me of cheating, that I⌠I suck people off for money.â
Harryâs hands stiffen on your waist, but he stays silent and gives you the chance to talk. You can feel your throat closing up again and your instinct is to close up, but you want to take this weight off your chest in any way possible, so you donât hold yourself back.Â
âIt wasnât the first time he flipped, sometimes he just⌠loses his mind and takes his frustration out, often on me.â
âHas he ever hit you?â Harry asks in a somewhat cool tone, but you can tell he is holding a lot back.Â
âNo,â you shake your head. âBut his words⌠He called me a slut tonight.â
Harry exhales sharply and you see his jaw jumping. Your reasonable self is pounding down the door of the room you shut it into, but you blatantly ignore it as you push closer to him. Itâs your first time being this close to him physically and you want to hate it, you really do, but truth is you feel yourself being pulled towards him and youâre just too tired and weak to fight it.Â
When one of his hands moves to cup your cheek youâre ready to give in. You part your lips and give him an unmistakable look and you expect him to take advantage of the moment, but he surprises you by turning his head to the side with a heavy sigh.
âIs it not what you want?â you ask quietly, trying your best to ignore just how rejected youâre feeling all of a sudden.Â
âYou know it is,â he replies, turning back to face you. âI want you more than anything.â
âThen what are you waiting for?â
He shakes his head and your stomach sinks. You try to pull away, but he keeps you caged against him.Â
âHey, look at me.â His hand captures your chin to make you look at him, but you keep your gaze away from him. âY/N, look at me,â he pleads again and you give in at last.Â
His thumb slowly runs across your bottom lip, making it tremble from the intimacy of his touch.Â
âThis is all Iâve wanted since I first saw you and itâs taking everything in me not to take it. But I know you and I know that you would regret it. I would never put you in a situation that could hurt you.â
You hate how right he is, how well he knows you.Â
âSo considerate, respecting the⌠bro code and everything,â you huff, hoping to break this weird mood thatâs lingering around the two of you now. Harryâs head falls back as he laughs. Then he grabs your hand that has your engagement ring on and with a confident move he takes it off, throwing it over his shoulder and you just watch with your mouth hanging open.
âI give zero fucks about the bro code, especially if itâs about that asshole you call your fiancĂŠ.â
âDid you justââ
âWhat I do care about is,â he continues, âyou. And how you feel.â
Your mind is racing but also blank at the same time. You just stare back at him, eyes drooping as the alcohol is starting to wear you out.Â
âSo what, youâre just gonna wait around, hoping I will wake up one day and leave Jeremy for you?â you ask jokingly, but his answer comes in a serious manner.
âExactly.â
There are a couple of seconds when the two of you are just staring back at each other and you swear you can see the universe in his green eyes, the past, the present and a future together and as much as it scares you, it also starts a fire somewhere deep in your chest.Â
âCan youâum, can you give me a ride to my sisterâs place?â Clearing your throat you pull away and this time he lets you.Â
âSure.â
You sit on his motorcycle behind him, arms wrapped around his torso tight as you watch the night lights pass by, blinking lazily, his scent filling your nose every time you press your cheek against his back. When he stops in front of your sisterâs apartmentâs building you almost ask him to just drive for a bit more, but you force yourself to let go of him and climb off the motorcycle.Â
âThanks for⌠everything, I guess,â you awkwardly say while he is still sitting on the bike.Â
âTake an Advil before you go to bed.â
âOkay, stop babying me,â you laugh and he finally breaks into a smirk. âI guess Iâll see you around?â
Itâs a simple question, but the obvious hidden question is right there, out in the open. Itâs your way of asking if heâll be returning to the bar despite the fight you had a few days ago.Â
âOf course. Keep my seat open.â
Nodding youâre about to turn around and walk inside, but he calls after you.
âY/N?â You look over your shoulder, waiting for him to continue. He opens his mouth, then closes before actually speaking up. âYou donât have to believe that my interest in you is genuine. I will gladly prove it to you any way possible, but⌠Maybe you should look at Jeremy with the same criticism as well.â
You have no idea what to say so you just nod and then keep walking until youâre inside the building, but you stay leaning against the door until you hear his motorcycle roar up and fade into the night.Â
Youâd love to say that after the night with Harry at the bar everything changed, but thatâs not true. The next day you went back home, Jeremy calmed down by then, you had a fight nonetheless, which ended up with some makeup sex, but your head was somewhere else.
Or with somebody else.
Then it all went back to the same usual. Harry was there at the bar the next time you were working and luckily he didnât bring up anything that happened that night. Not what you said about Jeremy, not that you practically admitted being attracted to him and not that you gave him the green light which he rejected. Itâs all locked up in a box and put aside.Â
However you can feel a slight change in yourself. Harryâs words did stick with you and have been on repeat ever since.Â
Maybe you should look at Jeremy with the same criticism as well.
You and Jeremy have been together for over three years and moved in together a year ago. You canât really remember a time you havenât been with him. You do know that he is not perfect and the shit he pulls sometimesâŚÂ
Youâve thought of leaving him before. It did occur to you that maybe youâd be better off without him when he flipped in the past and turned crazy out of the blue. But every time it happened, he went back to his sweet old self, the one you fell in love with.Â
But are you still in love with him?
One day, about a week later Harry waltzes into the bar, but he is not looking his usual, confident self.Â
âOkay, hear me out before you say no,â he starts as he takes his spot while youâre drying off some glasses. âI know you might find it hard to believe, but I have friends.â
âWe are off to a great start,â you chuckle.
âMy best mate, Mitch, he lives two hours away so we donât meet that often, but he is in town this weekend.â
âGood for him,â you smile, curious about what will come out of it.
âAnd we were talking about what we should do and all that and I made a mistake. He suggested this club we could check out and said we should meet there at nine but I asked him to make it ten thirty, because on thursdays you finish work at ten.â
Your hand stops mid-motion and you put the glass down, giving him a curious look as you tilt your head to the side.Â
âObviously he wanted to know who you were and I swear I told him we have nothing going on, but he is just so stubborn, he didnât let it go until I promised I would ask if you wanted to come with us. So here I am, I asked, you can just ignore it and tell me to fuck off. I know you probably wouldnât want to spend the night in a random club with me and my friend and his wife, so if you justââ
âIâll go with you.â
Your reply surprises him the most of course, but yourself as well, though you donât let it show. You spoke before you could think it through and not that it was said out loud and you canât take it back⌠You donât really mind it at all, to be honest.Â
âAre you trying to mess with me right now?â he asks, leaning closer, examining you with a narrow-eyed look.Â
âNo. I havenât gone out in forever actually, so I would love to.â
He stares back at you for a long moment, looking for any sign that might tell him youâre just joking, but when he sees none, he decides itâs better to just accept it.Â
âOkay. Okay, then⌠Iâll, umm⌠Iâll pick you up after work?â
âSure.âÂ
âOkay.â
âOkay,â you say after him, feeling entertained that you could surprise the always so confident Harry Styles. âSo tell me about this friend of yours. Is he hotter than you?â
His expression changes in an instant, the cockiness returns and there is the man you know andâŚ
âHe wishes,â Harry laughs. âI met him through work.â
The apartment is silent when you arrive home that night. Jeremy is working the night shift so you have the place for yourself until he comes home at around four in the morning. The bed is unmade in the bedroom, the plates he used during the day are in the sink and the hamper is full of his clothes. Itâs all waiting for you to get everything done even though you work just as much as he does. It wasnât always like this, you remember the honeymoon phase when he would cook for you and then clean up after, when he would bring you flowers for no particular reason.
When he would actually act like someone who loves you.Â
With a heavy sigh you get to work even though you just finished. When the dishes are done and the washing machine is loaded you finally sink into the couch and just sit in silence for a bit. Right until a buzzing sound interrupts your peace. Only then you notice that Jeremy left his phone on the coffee table.Â
Grabbing it you check the screen and see that one of his buddies is calling. The name flashes and you wait for it to stop. When he does, you just keep holding the phone, staring at your own reflection in the black screen.Â
Jeremy never lets his phone out of his hands, he takes it with him into the bathroom and he is always on it. Tapping on the screen the device comes to life and asks for a password. He never felt comfortable using face ID or his finger print, so he only uses a password to lock it. What he doesnât know is that youâve seen him type it out so many times that you actually figured out what it is.Â
No, itâs not your name or the date you met. Itâs his favorite line of his favorite movie.Â
I am Ironman.
Before you could think twice, you type it in, no space, capital I in Ironman and then the phone unlocks. A rush of excitement washes over you as you open the messages in an instant and start scrolling through them.Â
Texts from his dad, from his boss, from his friends and texts fromâŚ
Andrea.
And Penelope.
And Bella.
And Riley.
Unmistakable messages, photos and even voice memos. Itâs all there and you just keep scrolling and reading and it feels like it never ends. When you get to the end of one thread you find another. Itâs not just one woman, but about a dozen. Not even you can turn a blind eye over it this time.
But surprisingly, you donât feel like you want to scream or cry or punch the wall. Instead, you just put the phone back where it was, walk into the bedroom, grab a bag and start packing some stuff youâll need for the next few days. When youâre done you walk into the kitchen, grab a paper and leave him a note.Â
You have two days to move out. Take your shit and move to Andrea or Penelope or Bella or any of your bitches. Goodbye.Â
Then you take the ring off your finger, place it next to the paper and walk out.
Harry wasnât sure what he expected to see when he arrived to pick you up after your shift. He thinks youâre the most beautiful woman he has ever seen even when youâre wearing a stained shirt after a long day, so it really doesnât matter to him what you wear.
But when you step out through the back door in your skin tight black dress thatâs top sheer enough to tease him with a peek of your black bra underneath.Â
âAre you gonna just stand there and stare or are we gonna get going?â
He opens his mouth to say something, but then he just shakes his head with a laugh as you finally reach him by his bike.Â
âLetâs get going.â
You hit it off with Mitch and his wife Sarah instantly. Itâs like youâve always known each other and you canât tell if it pisses Harry off or he just likes to be the victim every time the three of you make a joke at his expense.Â
Even though itâs a Thursday night, the club is pretty busy, but not the kind that makes you want to crawl out of your skin, because someone is always touching you wherever you go. Harry however stays close to you no matter what, like a guard dog, watching your every move.Â
Itâs giving you butterflies. Especially because he is doing all this even though he doesnât know about your little secret you will share with him, but youâre waiting for the perfect moment.Â
You start off in a booth, having a few drinks, talking and having fun and when the DJ starts playing songs that are just too irresistible you and Sarah drag the men to the dance floor. They try to protest, but it doesnât last long. As gruff as Mitch can look, itâs obvious he is whipped for his wife and would do anything Sarah asks him.Â
And Harry⌠Well, the moment he sees you moving to the beat he practically glues himself to you. Though dancing is not your biggest strength, you can definitely follow the rhythm and move your body in a way thatâs appealing to the male gaze.Â
You can tell Harry is trying to keep his cool, but the more he holds himself back, the more you push his buttons. Touching him while dancing, moving in a way that obviously makes him struggle, pressing up against him and then you pull out the big guns when you start grinding on him, when you have your backside pushed against his front. His hand on your stomach twitches when your ass meets his crotch in a not-at-all innocent way and you hear his groan even over the loud music.Â
âYouâre playing a dangerous game, Y/N,â he speaks into your ear, his hot breath sending goosebumps down your spine. You turn your head and your lips almost brush against his as you look at him innocently.
âNot having fun, Harry?â
âYouâre teasing me.â
âDo you not like it?â You turn around to face him easier, but press your front against his to keep the physical contact on the same level.Â
âY/N, youâre⌠taking it too far,â he warns you, but it just urges you to keep pushing his boundaries. Youâre enjoying this way more than you probably should but you are giving yourself the satisfaction this one time. Youâre not afraid of asking for his forgiveness later, because you have a feeling he will gladly give it.Â
âAm I doing something wrong?â
âNo, but I might if you donât stop.â
âDonât stop what?â
âActing like⌠youâre trying to seduce me.â
âI canât do that? Why?â It finally brings him to the point where you wanted him to be.
âBecause youâre engaged and Iâmââ he snaps, but you donât let him finish.
âExcept Iâm not.â
You both have stopped moving in the middle of the dancing crowd and Harry is staring at you as if he just saw a ghost. Slowly, you raise up your hand and show him your naked fingers. Reaching up he grabs your hand as if he had to physically touch your ring finger to make sure the ring is not there anymore.Â
âI ended things with Jeremy and he moved out. Iâm single.â
His gaze keeps flicking back and forth between your eyes as he just keeps staring at you, it seems like you broke him and he forgot how to function, but then his expression changes and you read it perfectly.Â
Itâs not enough for him that you and Jeremy broke up. He wants you to give him the green light.
You look down at his lips and think of all the times you fantasized about kissing them and the guilt you felt every time, but now itâs nowhere, pure desire took its place and youâre ready to give in.Â
You move a hand to the back of his neck and push yourself up, making that first move, but Harry is quick to take over from there. He moves fast as his lips crash down on yours, finally kissing you with the heat of his months long pining and never dying persistence.Â
Youâve had your fair share of passionate moments in your life before, but nothing compares to the way Harry practically devours you, heâs demanding, dominant and rough, but the more he takes from you the more youâre willing to give until he has everything in you. His hands are holding your face firmly, tilting your head in the perfect angle for him to greedily kiss you until your lips are numb and youâre gasping for air. And when you canât keep up with his hunger his mouth moves down to your neck, kissing, biting and sucking shamelessly as if you werenât on a dancefloor at a club. He has one hand move from the back of your neck into your hair, giving it a gentle tug while his other hand makes its way down your body, your ribs, your waist and then it stops on your ass, squeezing it without remorse, earning a moan from you that just riles him up even more.Â
For a split second youâre convinced he is about to fuck you right then and there in front of all those people. But to your surprise he pulls back, his hand wraps around your wrist and he starts pulling you out of the crowd. At the side he finds Mitch and Sarah dancing and he leans close to his ear. You donât hear what he says, but judging from the smirk and the way Mitch nods, he didnât try to sugarcoat anything.Â
You donât even get to say goodbye properly, Harry lets go of your wrist, but his arm is quick to curl around your waist as he leads you towards the exit. The cool night air feels refreshing after the heat inside the club, but you donât get to enjoy the change, Harry is eagerly pulling you towards his motorbike and when you reach it he pushes you against it before kissing you hard again. Your ass is pressed against the seat and for a moment you think itâs about to fall over along with you, but it stays steady while Harry is having his way with you. Then he just simply pulls back and helps you up, making sure youâre holding onto him tightly.Â
âThis will be the longest ten minutes of my life,â he says, making you laugh as he starts the motor and moments later youâre speeding down the streets.Â
It really is an excruciating ten minutes until you arrive at your place, especially because you keep squeezing your thighs against his, giving him a rather hard time and every time you have to stop at a red light, Harryâs hands are quick to find your naked legs, roaming them shamelessly until he has to hold the handles again and focus on the road.Â
As soon as he parks in front of the building and you get off the bike, he is back to focusing all his attention on you, so itâs a challenge to even make it up to your apartment. His hands are mapping up every inch of your body and he takes every chance to kiss you on the lips, neck or shoulder, making it almost impossible for you to even open the front door, but at last you manage and he is quick to shut the door and then push you up against it.Â
But he is not kissing you this time, instead he looks at you with such passion and tenderness at the same time, it makes your whole body shiver.Â
âTell me no at any point, okay?â
âOkay,â you whisper as a sudden nervousness washes over you. You are not nearly as experienced as he is and sex with Jeremy had been more about his quick relief rather than something you both could enjoy the same amount.Â
âHey, we donât have to do anything tonight. Holding you is more than I even hoped for tonight,â he admits with a chuckle and he gives you a short, soft kiss.Â
âI want to. I just⌠Iâm afraid I wonât be⌠good enough.â
Youâre nervously fidgeting with the neck of his shirt while his hands are plastered to the door behind you either side of you, keeping you caged in with his body.Â
âAngel, you had me running after you for two months and the past weeks felt like the longest foreplay of my life,â he chuckles. âI should be the one being nervous about coming in ten seconds.â
You canât help but crack a smile at his words and he did ease your nerves a bit, but youâre still worried. With one hand he caresses the side of your face so softly, you almost question if he is the same man who was groping your ass not long ago in a packed club.Â
âI doubt you could ever not be good enough for anyone but especially for me.â
Your inside melts and there are no words that could describe the way he is making you feel. But instead of talking, you push yourself against him and kiss him, urging yourself to overcome your insecurities so he doesnât regret choosing you.Â
You manage to hype yourself up so well that when you reach your bedroom you pull away and make him stop at the edge of the bed as you stand just a few feet away from him. His eyes roam up and down your body with such hunger you have never seen from a man before and it gives you that last boost to step your game up.Â
With slow, teasing movements you start to pull your dress up, revealing more and more from your legs, than your underwear and when the fabric is bunched up around your waist you cross your arms, grab the hem and pull it up and over your head before dropping to the floor, all while Harry is eating you up with his eyes, sitting there with the smuggest smirk on his face as he watches you like he is in a movie theater.Â
âFucking perfect. Come here,â he holds a hand out that you take and he pulls you between his legs, placing your hands to his shoulders as his palms slide to the back of your thighs. He places a few open mouthed kisses to the swell of your breasts before his hands squeeze your thighs, urging you to move your legs and make you straddle him. As you climb to his lap he captures your lips in a toe curling kiss and he catches you by surprise when he flips the two of you over and throws you into the mattress.Â
He straightens up but just enough to get rid of his shirt, revealing even more tattoos you havenât seen and a toned chest with abs youâre already burning to touch, kiss or lick. Or all of these above. He comes back down on top of you, his lips return to yours while his hand easily slides underneath you, unclasping your bra and seconds later he is throwing it across the room before his mouth starts moving down your neck, collarbones and then to your chest. You rake your fingers through his hair as his tongue swirls around your nipple and you gasp when he gently bites and tugs on it, flashing you a cheeky smirk when he looks up at you before he keeps moving down on your body. When he reaches your underwear he takes the elastic between his teeth and tugs on it then lets it go so it snaps back against your skin, making you gasp and give him a protesting look, but it just makes him chuckle.Â
âWhat? Donât tell me you didnât wear it for me,â he mumbles against the lacy fabric, skimming it with his lips.Â
âI did, but not to have you play with it,â you breathe out, however you quite like how playful he can get even in such a heated moment. This is a side of him youâve gotten to get just a glimpse of but youâre getting the full ride now.Â
âAlright. Next time then,â he shrugs and hooking his fingers into the elastic he tugs it down as you lift your hips up and soon it joins the rest of your clothes on the floor, leaving you fully naked in front of him. But before you could worry about your looks, his mouth is already on your throbbing clit, making you forget about your whole existence.Â
He turns you into a whiny mess with his lips and tongue in just seconds and when he adds his fingers into the equation all you can do is repeat his name like a prayer to all powers above. Youâve never experienced anything like this, not that anyone youâd been with did it the way Harry is. Before you could even process whatâs happening youâre coming on his face and he is licking up every drop of it in every possible sense.Â
Your body already feels like jelly when he moves back up and he kisses you with your own taste still on his tongue, but he is not even nearly done with you.Â
He kneels up and unbuttons his pants and then pushes them down along with his boxer briefs so now youâre looking at just how good enough he is finding you. You canât take your eyes off his erection, itâs big, rock hard and the tip is glistening from the precum. Itâs like the sight has turned on something inside you, because before you could have a second thought youâre moving until youâre on your knees as well, hands wrapping on his cock. Harry moans at your touch and a triumphant smile stretches across your lips as you lean down and donât stop until your lips are wrapped around the head.Â
He sits back onto his heels, eyes glued to you as you struggle to push further and further down his length every time your head bobs down. Youâre far from taking his whole cock, but every time you go down again and again he keeps praising you.Â
âFuck, Y/N, you feel so good.â
âLook at that mouth, taking my cock so well.â
âThatâs it Angel, you make me feel so fucking good.â
You donât stop until your jaw is sore and when you finally come up he doesnât hesitate to kiss you hard, pushing you back onto the mattress as he lands on top of you again.Â
Half blindly, you reach towards the nightstand and into the drawer, grabbing a condom and handing it over to him. Youâd love to be the one to roll it onto his cock, but your hands are starting to shake from how much you want to feel him inside you already.Â
Once the condom is on he lowers his hips between your legs and you feel his length wedge between your drenched folds. He moves his hips back and forth a few times, coating his length in your arousal before reaching down between your bodies and grabbing himself by the base.Â
âAs much as I want to take you in every possible pose, I meant that I might not last long,â he chuckles as the head is already teasing your center. âBut I wonât stop until you come again. And Iâll have all my fantasies played out next time.â
Next time. These two words make your heart jump, knowing that he is planning to have a next time and youâre still thinking about that when he finally thrusts forward and into you, filling you up inch by inch until his whole length is buried inside you.Â
He stills for a few seconds, maybe to let you get used to his size or maybe to regulate himself enough to last longer, you donât know for sure. But then his lips capture yours again and he starts moving. His hips are rocking back and forth in a steady rhythm and when you hook your legs around his waist he picks his pace up and his thrusts become a bit rougher than before, but itâs just what you needed.Â
Your second orgasm is already building up in the pit of your stomach and you claw at his back as he buries his face into the crook of your neck, his moans getting muffled by your heated skin. You feel his muscles flex on his back and you can tell he is close, but he is fighting to hold back for you.
He lifts his head and rests his forehead against yours, keeping his rhythm steady and you see the struggle in his eyes.Â
âIâm close,â you breathe out and he nods with an almost torturous look. âLet it go, Harry, I want to feel you come.â
âNot until youââ
âThatâs what I need,â you urge him and he moans before he thrusts forward harder than before, he stays still for a moment, gasping for air as he pulls back and slams into you again, riding out his own orgasm that quickly triggers yours.Â
Seeing him fall apart because of you is all you needed.Â
He keeps moving for a while, but his thrusts become sloppier until they come to a halt. His whole weight is pushing against your body as your hands are lazily dancing up and down his sweaty back. You feel his heart hammering against your chest and listen to how his breathing slowly steadies before he rolls off of you. Moving with him you curl up against him, your head resting on his chest.Â
Then, out of the blue he lets out a soft chuckle. Curiously you lift your head to look at him questioningly.Â
âI think I need an award for lasting that long,â he comments and you laugh with him until his hand cradles your face and he pulls you up for a soft, lazy kiss.Â
A siren wakes you up that passes by the bedroom window. You grimace with your eyes still closed as you roll from one side to the other, your hand reaching out, searching for Harryâs body, like you did during the night, but this time all you find is the empty mattress beside you.
It instantly sets off a siren in your head as well.Â
Sitting up you look at the rumpled sheets on the right side of the bed, but Harry is still not there. Your stomach drops as you crawl out of bed and grab a shirt and a pair of panties to put on quickly before walking out of the bedroom, hoping you might find him in the kitchen making breakfast, but when all you find is your own mess from the day before, panic takes over.
There wonât be next time. That was just an empty promise, he left you just like he left everyone else. How could you even think that you were different?
Tears are dwelling in your eyes as you wrap your arms around you, but then you hear the front door open and you turn around to find Harry walking in, balancing two coffees in one hand and a paper bag in the other.
âHey, youâre up! I went to get us breakfast, because I didnât find much in your fridge andâY/N, are you crying?â
âNo,â you shake your head, but then a sob bubbles from your throat. Harry places the cups and the bag to the side table and rushes over to you in panic.Â
âWhat happened? Talk to me,â he pleads, but you just shake your head, embarrassed that you instantly assumed the worst of him.Â
It takes only a couple of seconds for Harry to put the puzzle pieces together as well.
âYou thought I left,â he says.Â
âI got scared for a moment when I didnât find you.â
He doesnât try to play it off or play the victim. He pulls you into a tight hug and gently sways until you calm down. When he pulls back and looks you in the eyes all you see in his gaze is determination.Â
âRemember what I told you the night when I dropped you off at your sisterâs place?â
âThat I should look at Jeremy with criticism.â
âBefore that.â You remain silent because you canât recall what else was said that night. âI said that I will gladly prove to you that my interest in you is genuine.â
Oh, yeah. You remember that.
âThe proving starts now. I will do anything to earn your trust.â
âEven if it takes a long time?â you ask, biting into your bottom lip. He smiles warmly at you.
âEven if it takes forever.â
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hi my love!! how are you?đŠˇ
i saw your requests are open and i wanted to ask for more jealous!aaron if youâre up for it! maybe one of the girls (probably jj or penelope) set up reader on a date and they are talking about it on the jet ride home from a case. sheâs not too sure about it but wants to give it a chanceâŚrossi and derek are hyping her up too maybe! and our man aaron is just watching thinking heâs lost his chance but little does he know sheâs only going to try and get him out of her mind.
wishful thinking
these kinda plots >>> đ cw; bau!reader, sooo much mutual pining (they're both idiots), a touch of jealous!aaron, slight angst wc; 1k
part two
You weren't being too subtle.
As the others were settling down, getting situated for the ride home, your priorities laid elsewhere; admiring Aaron and the handsome, beautiful, handsome features he possessed.
The way his cowlicks were tousled gently over his forehead, just begging to swept back. His chiseled jawline, one your hand yearned to span across. His enviously long eyelashes. His lips-
Penelope suddenly sitting next to you pulled you from your trance, causing you to jump. It had been one of those rare instances she was needed in the field, offering her specialities on sight rather than stationed back in Quantico.
The expression she bared was rather eager, complete with a pair of googly eyes.
You laughed shakily, a faint blush creeping onto your cheeks - hoping your longing stare hadn't actually gone noticed, "May I help you?"
"So," Her grin widened, "are you excited!?"
You grimaced slightly as your mood instantly deflated. You uneasily crossed a leg over the other, "I don't know."
"Excited for what?" Morgan inputted from above; headphones in hand, twirling the headband in a circle around his index finger.
You offered a sigh in response, so Penelope took the initiative to answer for you.
"You know James Cameron? From Homeland Security?"
"Yeah, what about him?"
"He's expressed quite the interest in our fellow crime fighter." Penelope's excited grin turned back towards yourself, also nudging you with an elbow. "And so I've honorably claimed the role of Cupid and someone," More wistful eyes pointed at you, "has a date Saturday night."
"He's a catch." JJ expressed enthusiastically, dramatizing a swoon as she sat across from the two of you. "Tall, dark, handsome."
"I can vouch I've heard nothing but good things about him." Morgan teasingly ruffled the hair on the top of your head, "Way to go kid."
You offered a meek smile, squirming ever so slightly in your seat. It took everything in you to not let your gaze drift back elsewhere. "Thanks but... I'm not so sure I want to go."
"What's not to be sure about? He's smokin', successful. It'll be good for you, too. When's the last time you put yourself out there?" JJ pointed out, arching an eyebrow in emphasis.
You shrugged, your chin landing in your palm.
Clearly you couldn't go into the specifics; the truth being you had your eyes on someone else. A particular boss you all shared, sitting just a few feet away.
The whole dating scene, you've been hesitant due to said feelings. The only reason you had truly considered going out - was to get Aaron out of your mind. You've spent countless, sleepless nights thinking about him, picking apart every little interaction; the way he looked at you after you had a breakthrough at a profile, admirable enough to make you want to burst at the seams. Walking alongside him, hands centimeters apart, softly grazing his skin. The concern he showed following an unfortunate brawl with an unsub - he had almost reached out to cradle your face. But, all of which could have been entirely figments of your imagination. Wishful thinking.
But regardless, they had given you the slightest amount of hope. Which is why you waited, but you couldn't do so forever; the probability of you and him - highly unlikely.
You had two choices; to continue holding out for the impossible, or to pursue the realistic.
You peered over at Aaron, consumed entirely by the file in his lap. It didn't appear he was paying attention, and that stung. All things considered.
The truth is, he was, and disliking every single bit of it. While it looked as if he were working, he was merely scribbling on a scrap piece of paper, enough to wear it down and produce a hole; silently brooding and anxiously waiting to hear where the conversation went. The more it carried on, however, the more jealousy burned in the middle of his chest. The two of you were close, you understood him like no one else, but that itself was the issue.
He feared if you got too close, if you really, really knew him, he would damage you somehow. Or worse, you'd end up similarly to Haley - unsatisfied and yearning to leave him behind. And so, he had refrained from being proactive.
In addition, right now, part of him didn't know what hurt more; the fact you were going on a date with someone who wasn't him, or the fact that you hadn't mentioned it.
"I say go for it." Dave offered, "Trust me. I am an expert, after all."
Emily bust out laughing, "Okay."
"What do you think?" You asked over their laughter, your voice detrimentally small. "Hotch?"
Aaron's head lifted, his eyes immediately latching onto yours. It kept circling in his head; You missed your chance. You're missing your chance.
Despite the ongoing internal conflict, one he could resolve in a few simple words, he panicked.
"I don't see a reason not to." He rushed out, your heart plummeting into your stomach at his words. "Of course, don't do anything you're not comfortable with. But there's no harm in seeing if there's a connection."
Even as he spoke, he didn't sound like himself - as if someone else were doing the talking. Extremely feigned, forced. Speaking from his mind rather than his heart.
"Okay," You bit your lip, looking directly at him as you spoke. "I will."
As the others switched topics, your eyes stayed with Aaron's. A silent exchange drifted between the two of you, Spencer's current tangent seemingly miles away. Hurt, betrayal, a touch of something else too.
You exhaled deeply, turning to look out your window.
Whatever it was, it didn't matter now. Did it?
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i know beyond was a good movie as any to put AOS on pause but if i dont get a forth movie in the next few years im going to start smashing things
#PARAMOUNT STOP CANCELING THE FUCKING MOVIE OH MY GOD#after everything pine said about how he wants the next one to be and all that its like im Tearing at the walls here#HE WOULD BE SERVING ST:V KIRK VIBES I KNOW THIS IN MY HEART COME ON PLEASE IM BEGGING#its NOT funny anymore theyve canceled it so many times now its unreal hey come on Please#if they release one next year it would be in time for the AOS 15th anniversary have you considered THAT#posts brought to you be me watching beyond again
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eavesdroppin.' - where atsumu can't help but hear about your crush on him.
(700wc) â____, please, for the love of god, shut up about him, if you talk about his piss blonde head again i will deflate the volleyball the team signed and stomp all over it,â akaashi complains, shooting you a very tired and very defeated look.Â
âno- but you donât get it! heâs just soâŚheâs so dreamy,â you sigh, unknowingly smiling at the mere mention of his achievements, âand confident in his serves. do you see the way heâs been ranked number one for such a long time now?â you bury your face into your hands, so absolutely enamored with the black jackals setter that you donât know what to do with yourself.Â
âiâve heard the whole spiel about this so many times already,â your friend gives up on trying to see from your point of view if youâre going to keep hiding the crush that every knew atsumu reciprocated already.Â
âbut you have to tell me how i can get closer to him!â you almost whine, shaking your friend back and forth. âif i canât even become friends with him and weâre literally friendâs with bo? âkaashi, that looks horrible for me.âÂ
âuh huh. and when did i care?âÂ
âyouâre such a bad friend. canât even help me score a date with a man iâm hopelessly pining over.â
âyouâre right about the down bad part,â akaashi deadpans, sighing and flipping through his most recent release of zomâbish. âiâve said this already- just take him here, to onigiri miya.âÂ
âbut heâs used to that! I canât have him see his brother with me!â you gesture discretely at the kitchen, where osamu was busying himself with orders.
your friend rolls his eyes and looks up at you. âwhatâs so bad with him seeing you and his brother?âÂ
âI..âthe words die on your tongue, no excuses left to give. âit would be bad. for me. because likeâheâs already been there a billion times and probably tried everything on that goddamn menu!âÂ
atsumu nodded to himself from where he sat. he did know the whole menu.
âhow about this,â your friend starts, and you get your hopes up because akaashi keiji has always been a genius plan-maker. âyou ask him out first.â
okay, maybe not.Â
akaashi continues,âhow about you ask him out instead of telling me about how excited he is on court and how good his sets look and how perfect he is at everything and see how things go from there.â you shake your head furiously, immediately rejecting his offer, and the man grumbles, thinking back to high-school, âyou never played against him in court, thatâs probably why you like him so much.â
âhe was good in high school. a bit more reckless. but still good.â you remember. âyou have to help me.â you pause. âgive me a reason not to like him.âÂ
âheâs egotistical.â akaashi responds immediately.Â
âheâs not! heâs competent,â you replace without missing a beat, âso he has a right to think heâs good at volleyball when he really is one of the best.âÂ
âheâs dramatic.âÂ
âitâs more like a good dramatic. like, i wouldnât want to be around a brick wall all day.âÂ
âthen ask him out.â
âokay," you blurt.
akaashi almost sighs in relief. âyou will?âÂ
you wince at the sudden predicament you found yourself in, but after hearing how happy akaashi was, you figured it wouldn't hurt.
âonly if you promise to send me the next chapter of zomâbish to me. early.â the manga artist groans. itâs almost like he knew that you were going to do something at a price.Â
âokay, fine. ask him out. right now.âÂ
ânot-not right now!â you defend, eyes widening in horror.
he shrugs, and tells you, âright now, or iâm telling you about your ridiculous and unimportant feelings for him.âÂ
âtheyâre not ridiculous! or unimportant!â
âuh huh.â he agrees unconvincingly, âwhatever, iâm leaving. next time, be more careful about where you talk about him.âÂ
you frown, confused as you pocket the bill he places on the table, and you continue to stay confused when he turns around to seat behind him. âall yours, miya.âÂ
your heart drops six feet under when atsumu turns to grins at you, taking your friendâs abandoned seat as he peels off his sunglasses and hat.Â
âi heard everythinâ, yaâknow," and the setter leans over to put his white cap on your head, running a hand through his hair. "couldn't help eavesdroppin.' "
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singlehandedly might revive my insanity for atsumu can you tell i like confident men lol...
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World/Insured Part 3
Stanford Pines x Sibling!Reader/Stanley Pines x Sibling!Reader
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âś âCan we talk about [Name]?â Ford suddenly brings up one day. The waves of tourists have been moderately slow for the day, allowing Stan and Ford to kick back and relax for once. And in the midst of sitting down on the couch, his mind dwelled over to the thought of you. Stan let out a long sigh as he sat down, pitt cola in hand. Stan was trying to break free from his alcohol addiction, Ford noted. âSure, what do you want to talk about?â The causality held in Stanâs words made Ford uneasy. He was so unnaturally calm with his words, at least the last time he brought you up, he can sense the agitation in his words, but he couldnât find any dripping anger from him now. Mustering up all the courage he had left, he asked; âHow were they?â He felt his mouth run dry. Out of everything he couldâve asked, he asked that? All the questions he had were out the window and off into the woods, leaving him scrambling for words. Taking a sip from his soda, he said, âDo you want to know how they felt immediately after they left with me?â Ford nods. âWell, being fifteen and a rage of hormones, they pretty much hated you.â Stanâs eyes glance over to Ford whose face could visibly read hurt. âIâm just kidding!â Stan cackled, shoving Ford. âThey were ripped apart. I remember they told me how they felt everything and nothing at the same time, real poetic than one.â He takes another sip. âThey missed you so much while I hated your guts. I couldnât think of you without seeing red and they couldnât think of you without crying.â He swirled the drink in the can, looking down to his shuffling feet. âWhat did you guys do to survive?âÂ
âś âI enrolled them into a high school. I didnât want them to be stupid like me, ya know? And while they were in highschool, I started my business which earned us money to get by.â Stan told him. âWould you even call what you did a business?â Ford said with his eyebrow raised. âHey!â Stan rolled his eyes, placing the can of soda down on the floor. âOnce we got banned from a few states, [Name] put their foot down and encouraged me to get a job. And guess what, I landed a pretty good job! My history of stealing peoples money was long gone, until now,â Stan quietly said the last part. âAnd we were living pretty comfortably. I got us a nice house, a good car and [Name] graduated highschool and they got a job as manager of some sort, canât really remember.â Stan scratched his chin idly. âThey were on their way to move out and take their business elsewhere when you decided to show your face.â Stan cleared his throat, looking at Ford. âThey talked about you a lot.â He softly added. âI saw how they lit up when they saw me for the first time. They looked so much older.â Ford said. âI mean, yeah, thatâs what happens when you miss, like, 10 years of their life.â Ford ignored Stanâs comments and mulled over his thoughts. After a moment, he spoke up. âThank you for talking about them, Stan.â Stan shot him a smile. âOf course, talking about them wasnât as bad as I thought it was going to be.â Since then, Stan would share stories of you whenever Ford asked, ranging from embarrassing ones, to oneâs where it was a little harder for Stan to tell. But in the end, it brought them closer together and kept the memory of you alive.Â
âś Much to Fordâs dismay, the whole shack was rearranged to be a tourist trap. By day, they were busy ripping people of their money and by night, they buried themselves in their work, fixing what they could while simultaneously searching for the second book. And before they knew it, they were in their late 50âs. Adjusting his fez, he smiles at himself through the mirror. âStan!â Ford bursts through his room, starling Stan. âGeez, Ford! A little warning next time?â Ford stammers over to him. âNo time for that!â He huffs out. âThe book! I-I canât find it!â Stanâs face falls. âWhat?! What happened to it?â Ford opened his mouth to answer when Soos yelled out; âMr. Pines!â Stan curses to himself, that must be the kids. âDo you have any idea where it could be?â Stan asks. Out of all the days something couldâve gone wrong, why today? âI think maybe the gnomes took it?â Stan was ready to scream again when Soos called for them again. âI want you to go and look for the book.â Stan insisted, pointing a finger at him. âIâm not coming with you to get Dipper and Mabel?â Ford gasped out, his hand slapping on his chest. âNo! Because you lost the book!â Stan pointed an accusatory finger at him. âI lost the book? It was probably a gnome who took it!â Ford defended. âHow are you so sure that a gnome even took it?â Ford scratched the back of his neck nervously. âThey may or may not have knocked me out just a few moments ago.â Stan was so ready to deck him in the face when Soos came into the room. âMr. Pines!â He pointed outside. âThe kids are here!â âWe know that, Soos.â The twins spat out. âBut thereâs this wolf mailman dude, and I really donât trust him and heâs probably like eating the kids right now at the bus stop!â Soos rambled out. While Stan carried an unimpressed face, Fordâs face twisted to one of horror. âWe need to pick them up now!â Unfortunately for Stan, both Soos and Ford have a rising suspicion that the mailman is a wolf in a human disguise. But the man was just hairy! Ford pulled Stan along and got inside his car. Starting up the car, Stan let out an exhausted sigh. âHow did puny little gnomes knock you out?â He asked, backing out of his parking spot and onto the road. âI was busy reading when they knocked me out cold! I donât think they intended to steal the journal, when I was waking back up they realized and grabbed the nearest object possible and ran out of there.â Stan sighed, tapping his finger on the wheel. âI really canât believe you sometimes.â He mutters. âIt wasnât my fault, Stanley!âÂ
âś Coming to a complete stop, Ford rolled down the windows, a large smile on his face when his eyes landed on his favorite great nieces. âGrunkle Ford!â They cheer, equally large smiles on their faces. âHey, hey!â Stan watched as they stumbled into the car with their bulky backpacks skidding against the roof. âWhereâs my love?â Stan exclaimed. âRight here, Grunkle Stan.â Mable giggled, wrapping her arms around Stanâs neck and nuzzling her face into his shoulder. âThatâs more like it,â Stan grinned, gingerly patting her back. âNow whereâs the sweaty one? Iâm missing one!â Dipper sighed, a playful roll to his eyes. âIâm right here,â Mable pulled away from Stan and swiftly latched herself to Ford. âCâmon, give your old grunkle some sugar.â Dipper cringed. âDonât ever say that again, Grunke Stan.â He said, hugging Stan. âI say what I want, kid! We live in a free country for a reason.â The drive home was full of conversation, the twins telling their grunkleâs stories from school and their home life. Stan and Ford made the conscious effort to comment and react to everything they said, if not Mable would make sure they did by repeating what they said over and over again. When the Mystery Shack came into view, they both shoved their face against the window, marveling at the shack. âIs this what Grunkle Stan is always talking about when we call him?â Mableâs hot breath fogged up the window. âYup. And now you guys get to see it.â Ford gestured to the shack, smiling proudly. He had soon come to love the shack he and Stan worked on, he will never admit that out loud though. Parking in his usual spot, he turns to the kids. âGet yourself settled in, alright?â They wasted no time jumping out of the car and scampering off into the shack. âAnd donât touch anything!â A jar crashing onto the floor was heard in the distance. âThey donât listen, do they?â Stan shook his head. âAlright, poindexter, what are we going to do about the book?â He started, looking at Ford who pulled at his turtle neck anxiously. âWe have to wait till tonight to look for it.â Tonight came and they were too wrapped up with the twins that they couldnât go out and search for the third book. Their schedules became so busy that a week had passed and they still were waiting to find an empty slot in their schedules to find the book but it never came.
âś âGrunkles! Grunkles!â Mable came running at them at full speed. âWoah there, kiddo!â Ford swooped Mable up from the floor. âYou almost bumped into me.â He laughed, putting her back down on the ground. âThat was the plan.â She giggled. âBut I have something to ask!â She shoved her hand inside the pocket of her skirt. She pulled out a photo, a very specific photo that Stan had kept in his room. She pointed at the person in the middle. âWho is this?â She asks. âMable!â Dipper rushed to the living room. Bending over, he hoisted himself up by propping his arms on his knees. He wheezed out, his eyes locking onto the tense scene in front of him. âDid she already ask about the photo?â Silence was his response. Breaking out of his trance, Stan swiped the photo out of Mableâs hands. âWhere did you find this?â Stanâs eyes flickered between the photo and Mable. âIn your room.â A flash of emotions went through Stanâs face. Why was Mable in his room? Why did she pick this photo out of all the things in his room? He spiraled. He wasnât expecting to speak of you to someone who had no idea of your existence. Stanâs heart crumpled into a pathetic ball. The twins had never met you. Ford took notice of Stanâs unnaturally quiet nature. âKids, why donât you go to your rooms?â Ford said, kneeling down to their height. âBut why?â Mable whined, pouting. âBecause we need to decide if we are ready to tell you, okay?â Ford gave a knowing look to Dipper who understood that this wasnât an easy topic. Dipper told something to Mable and with a worried look, she dejectedly followed him up to their room. âStan?â He looks over to Stan who was shakily pulling out a packet of cigarettes. âI thought you quit, Stanley?â Ford watched sadly as he walked inside the kitchen and searched for a lighter, when he did he pocketed it and walked back out. âItâs either I drink or I smoke.â Stan said, heading towards the porch. Ford followed after him, shutting the door behind him. âYou want one?â Stan offered the pack and he debated for a moment before denying his request. Stan brought the cigar to his lips. He cupped his hand around the cigar as he lit it up with his lighter. Taking a deep drag of the smoke, he allowed himself to relax, welcoming the familiar feeling of the smoke filling his lungs. âWe donât have to tell them if you donât want to.â Ford spoke, watching the puff of gray smog lighty cover his vision momentarily. âI donât think we have a choice here.â Stan takes another long drag from the cigarette. âWe can tell them weâre not ready yet.â Ford reasons. âI think itâs time they should know about [Name].â Stan stares at the late afternoon sky. âIt was just all so sudden and I didnât know how to react. It all went downhill from there.â Stan twiddled his cigarette between his fingers. âYou donât have to explain yourself, Stanley. I know how you feel.â A comfortable silence blanketed the both of them warmly. âDo you ever wonder what [Name] would think about the twins?â Ford breaks the silence, glancing at Stan from the corner of his eye. Stan wistfully smiled, stubbing out his cigarette on the floor. â[Name] would have loved the twins.âÂ
âś Stan looked between the twins. âSo, whaddya wanna know?â He asks. âWho are they!â Mable shouted. âThey are our younger sibling.â Ford said. Mableâs face exploded into shock. âWe have a secret Great Aunt/Grunkle?â Mable couldnât believe what she was hearing. âWhere are they?â Dipper questioned. âTheyâre somewhere,â Stan said with a strained voice. âWhere is somewhere?â Mable cocked her head to the side. âTheyâre out exploring the world.â Ford horribly lied. Mable frowned. âYou can tell us if theyâre dead, Grunkles. You donât have to hide it from us.â Stan took a harsh deep breath in. âThey arenât dead, pumpkin. We just have no idea where theyâre at.â Mable nodded her head in understanding. âDid you guys fall out?â Dipper asked with a tiny frown. âYeah. A terrible fight broke out and they left.â Ford gazed at the photo of the three of them when they were young, clueless of the world and just happy to be surrounded by one another. âIâm so sorry.â Mableâs excitement was no longer there and was replaced by sadness for her poor Grunkleâs. âItâs okay, dear. No need to apologize.â Ford assured Mable with a smile. â[Name] is a wonderful person,â This was the first time Stan had talked about you in a present tense and he couldnât tell if he liked that or not. âI hope one day you get to meet them.â
âś Unbeknownst to the two older twins, Dipper had found journal three when Stan instructed him to go out and put out signs in the woods. But they didnât find out that Dipper had it until he had shown the book to Ford and Stan after the events that had followed them the past few days. âGideon nearly destroyed the whole town trying to find it!â Dipper said. Stan pretended to feign interest as he skimmed through the pages. âI donât know what it means, or who wrote it, but after all weâve been through,â He looks at Mable and smiles, directing attention to his Grunkleâs who were trying their hardest to hide their actual feelings. âMaybe you guys should finally know about it too.â He grinned. âIâm glad you showed us this, Dipper.â Stan shut the book closed. âUhm, Grunkle Stan. Why does Grunkle Ford look like heâs about to crap himself?â Mable looked concerned for her Grunkle. Everyone turned their attention to Ford who weakly smiled at them. âExcuse him. Heâs still shakenââ Ford yanked Stan by the sleeve and pulled him out of the twins room. âWe need to go to the lab now!â Ford whispered. âI know that, Stanford! But at least let us pretend we donât give a ratsass for this book!â He whispered back. âWeâll be back!â Ford awkwardly excused him and Stan. The twins heard their Grunkle speedily walk down the stairs. âDo you think Iâm ever going to get that book back?â Mable shrugged.Â
âś Placing the books right next to each other, Ford flipped to the pages containing the blueprints. He connected the books together, showing the full plan of the portal. Stan read the instructions and swung over to the controls, he flipped the exact switches that were told to be switched. The lights around the portal flickered on. âOh my god!â Ford laughed out in surprise. âIs this actually going to work?â Stan and Ford rush over to the portal. Their hearts thrumming against their chest. Together, they pulled the lever. With a click, it moved to the other side and the portal hummed. Zaps of electricity emitted from the portal as it powered back on. A rush of wind blew by Stan and Ford as the portal swirled to life. Ford shook his head in disbelief. âCanât believe we did it, huh?â Stan says with a smile. âI thought we were never going to get this portal turned on.â Stan claps his back. âWell, believe it!âÂ
âś Ford was so sure they werenât going to get caught. He was so absolutely sure. The plan he made to steal the nuclear waste was perfect, there was no room for error. But it seemed like the universe had other plans. He never imagined himself getting pinned to a cop car with cuffs around his wrists. This was more of a Stanley thing, and yet here he is, getting arrested. âThis is all just a big misunderstanding!â Ford cried out, his cheek squished against the hood of the cop car. âGuys, canât I give you some money?â Stan approached them with his hands in his pockets. They all watched him nervously, guns aimed and men ready to tackle him down. âGrunkle Stan, maybe you shouldnât!â Mable grabs Stanâs hand and pulls him back. âYou guys got the wrong guy, my brother is innocent!â Stan argues. âOh, weâve been watching your family all summer and we have seen some pretty disturbing things. Whoever you think your brother is, he is not what he seems.â They shove Ford into a car. âGuys!â Ford calls, the door slamming shut on him. Stan watches as they drive off with Ford, his head spinning. âAs for you guys, we were removing you off the property.â The guy with a mustache said, directing them to another cop car that was beside them. âNo, you canât!â Stan felt helpless. He just wants you back, why is this so difficult? The chaos spiraled into madness and suddenly, Stan was in the lab, begging the kids to not turn off the portal. âThisâll end the world, Grunkle Stan. Why canât you see that?â Dipper had his hands hovering dangerously close to the button. âJust listen to me, kid. Itâll make sense later, just donât press the button.â He walked towards them but was soon taken off his feet. âBrace yourselves!â They all rise up, twirling and thrashing around the room. âT-Minus, thirty five seconds.â The robotic voice said. Dipper had grabbed onto a beam and told Mable to reach for the button. Using the cable wrapped on her foot, she inched herself close to the button. âMable, wait, wait!â Stan pushed him off the wall and tried reaching towards her. Soos dove straight for Stan and wrapped himself around him, apologizing to him. âSoos, whatâre you doing?!â Dipper followed what Soos did and yelled at Mable to turn it off.Â
âś âStop!â Everyone looked around and they all gasped when their eyes landed on Ford. âMabel, donât listen to Dipper. Listen to me,â Ford pushed himself toward the nearest beam. He coiled his arm around it, securing himself. âDo you trust me and Stan, Mable?â Ford firmly asked, his eyes locked with Mabel. âI do!â She desperately said. âThen trust us when we tell you to not push the button.â Mabel looked to Dipper who was widely shaking his head. âOkay,â She raises her hands above her head. âI trust you guys.â She let herself float up, away from the button. âMable, noâ!â A white flash envelops them whole.Â
âś They all roughly made contact with the floor. With a groan, Stan rubbed his head, his head lifting up towards the portal. The portal flickered with wandering electricity. Ford held his breath, eyes fixed on the portal as he waited. A black figure barreled out of the portal, their head whipping towards it. âClose the portal!â You yelled, your hand wrapping around a gun that was hoisted in their waist. You turned their attention back to Stan and Ford. âClose the portal!â You repeated louder this time. In the distance, they all heard a loud distorted guttural grumble. Ford got up from his feet and rushed over to the control panel, flicking all the switches down. âSwitch the lever off!â Switching the gun to your other hand, you aimed it at the portal and with your free hand, you pulled the lever. Before whatever monster was chasing you could catch up, the portal sputtered close. You held your chest, catching your breath. The rush of adrenaline you felt passed and you were immediately struck with pain. âThank you.â You whisper, clutching your side. You think you can manage and to prove it, you take one wobbly step forward. You tried to take another but you collapsed to your knees, blood splattering on the floor below you. â[Name]!â Stan yelled, he darted towards you. âStanley?â You croaked out. You blinked in surprise. âIs that really you?â Your question falls on deaf ears as Stan yells for medical supplies. Ford comes rushing to your side, inspecting the upper half of your body. âStanfordâs here too?â You felt your body teeter from side to side. âIs Mom and Dad gonna pop up?â You joke, your body crashing onto Ford. â[Name], canâŚ.hearâŚ?â Stanâs voice fades in and out. âWhat did you say?â Your eyes squint at Stan. âHere, GrunkleâŚâ You could hear a high pitched voice and you go to look for it but your vision has gone hazy. âTheyâre slippingâŚout ofâŚâ You really wished you understood what they were saying. And without even realizing, your eyes closed on you.Â
âś You feel a warmth tickle your face causing you to stir awake. âOh my gosh, it worked!â A voice spoke. âMable!â A prepubescent voice filled your ears. âWhat is with all this talking?â You sleepily grumbled out, peeling your eyes open to see two tween kids staring right at you with big wondrous eyes. âHi, Iâm Mable! Iâm your great niece.â She introduced herself. âGreat niece?â You groggily got up. âWhere am I?â You ask, blinking as your vision comes back to you. âYouâre in the Mystery Shack!â She tells you with a chipper attitude. âMystery Shack?â You look down to see that your original outfit you wore was now discarded somewhere and instead wore a large baggy white tee and heart pajama pants. âWhat am I wearing?â You pinched at your clothes. âKids!â A gruff voice was heard behind the doors. âOh shoot!â Mable looked around the room. âWhere do we hide?â Dipper whispered, his eyes darting under the bed. âGo under the bed!â Dipper said, diving straight under. âPlease donât tell Grunkle Stan that weâre here!â She pleaded. âUhm, yeah?â She beamed and hid right under the bed. In an instant, the door was pushed open and your eyes locked on your brothers. Your brain processed it for a moment, wait⌠âStanley, Stanford?!â A gasp leaves Ford. âWhy are you awake! Youâre supposed to be resting.â Ford scolded. You didnât pay attention to Fordâs scolding, wrapped up in the moment of seeing your twin brothers living and breathing right in front of you. âAre you guys real?â You try to blink away the tears that were obstructing your view. âOf course we are silly.â Stan laughed, sitting down on the bed right next to you and wrapping you in a side hug. âStanâŚâ You cried. You had spent countless nights, shouldering the knowledge that you werenât going to see your brothers ever again. That haunted you every single day from the moment you woke up to the minute you went to sleep. Here you are, proven wrong for once in your life. And it feels so good to be held by Stan again, feels so good to have a familiar feeling wash into your senses again. âHow?â You ask, peeling yourself away from Stanâs shoulder, wiping the tears away. âWe just kept trying and trying.â Ford told you, a somber smile on his lips. âOh, Ford. Come here!â You grab his wrist and tug him into the bed. The action caused you to drag and flop all of them on the bed with you. Tearful laughter erupts in the room. âI apologize for the scare earlier,â You say, your hand pressing against your side. âDonât apologize. It wasnât your fault.â Stan said. âNo, really.â You begin to unwrap the gauze around your waist, ignoring Ford and Stanâs protest. âI heal quickly.â You point to your already sealed up gash. The only thing left to prove that you were injured was the thin scar that spread across. Ford gawks in awe. âYou need to tell me an in depth story detailing every single thing you have been doing for the past thirty years.â Ford said with so much seriousness you laughed. âBu-but you passed out. Ford said it was from blood loss!âÂ
âś âI only passed out because my body needs to shut down momentarily to heal up my wounds.â You tell him matter of factly. âOh, great. Now we have another snobby nerd.â Stan joked. âOh, stop it! You are too, considering you fixed the portal alongside with Mr. Branic over here.â You jabbed a thumb over to Ford who yelled out, âHey!â in offense. âHello family!â Mable popped out from under the bed. The three of you screamed loudly in fear, clutching each other. âWoah, didnât mean to scare you guys!â She helped Dipper out from under the bed. âI just wanted to say that you guys are so adorable!â She squealed, pouncing onto the bed. âI canât believe I have a Great Aunt/Grunkle who has traveled throughout dimensions. Isnât that so cool?â She kicked her feet in excitement. âWhat kinds of monsters did you see out there?â Dipper asked, climbing onto the bed and settling himself between you, Ford and Stan. âA lot.â You respond with a smile. âI never caught your brother's name.â You say, booping Dipperâs nose. âHis name is Dipper!â Mable pulls him close to her, cheek to cheek. âWeâre twins.â She mentioned. âSo it runs in the family, huh?â You elbow the two sets of other twins you had the misfortune to partially grow up with. âGuess so,â Stan smiled. âLetâs play a get to know each other game.â Mable offered. Everyone surprisingly agreed. âOkay, letâs start with Great Aunt/Grunkle [Name]. Tell us about yourself.â The rest of the afternoon was spent catching up with the family and when the game was over, the twins had left, leaving you with Stan and Ford. âThank you guys for not giving up on me.â You say into the hug. âWeâre family! How could we ever abandon you?â Ford replies. An awkward cough emitted from you and Stan looked off to the side. âOh.â The last thirty years had been rough, for you and the twins, but it was nice knowing that it ended with the three of you once again reunited at last.Â
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When Love is Left Unspoken
max verstappen x reader
she isn't you i'd be insane not to love you
request from @formulaal
Pt. 2 here
"Alright, one more question from the chat," you said into your mic, scanning for a good one. One caught your eye, and you began reading it aloud before realizing it would reveal something from your past. âWould you choose a guy over your best friend?â
Laughing humorlessly, you looked into the camera with a tight smile. âAnyone whoâs been here for a while knows how relevant that question is to my life. But my answer hasnât changed: if youâre choosing a romantic partner over your best friend, you can get fucked. Thanks for tuning in, everyone. See you around.â
Logging off, you grabbed your water bottle and headed to the kitchen to refill it. Checking your phone, you smiled at the stats from the streamâ10k of your fans tuning in tonight was a big turnout. Youâd gone viral on BookTok back in 2020, and now, your book podcast had a solid following. Normally, BookTok didnât bring huge numbers, but thanks to your former best friend, your popularity had skyrocketed. As grateful as you were, his part in your success irritated you now.
Then a notification popped up on your screen, and you rolled your eyes.
MV: Nice stream.
You: Fuck off
MV: Glad Iâm still living rent-free in your head.
You: Glad you got permission to text me.
You threw your phone down on the counter, boiling inside. Nobody got under your skin like he could, especially after 20 years of knowing exactly how to do it. Growing up, it hadnât always been this way. At 10, youâd moved with your family to the Netherlands, right next door to the Verstappens. Max quickly became your best friend, your weekends spent watching him kart. Never in your wildest dreams did you imagine things would end like this.
You met Kelly in 2018 at a race Max invited you to. Right away, you got weird vibes. She looked at Max like a toy she had to have. It was creepy, especially given the nine-year age gap. By 2019, they were dating, and she made it clear she didnât like you, refusing to acknowledge your existence. That led to rocky times between you and Max; he always had excuses to avoid seeing you. When you were together, he seemed tense, as if being watched.
Everything fell apart in Australia 2021.
Flashback
Max invited you to the first race of the 2021 season, though you almost didnât go. It felt obligatory, as if he invited you just because youâd never missed an opening race. You hadnât seen him all winter, just exchanging quick holiday texts. Walking into the paddock, you felt a strange sense of finality, like this might be the last one.
Spotting Carmen outside Mercedes, you walked over and hugged her. As you stepped back, she looked worried.
âWhatâs up?â
She hesitated. âI thought you should know, Kellyâs been saying some nasty things about you around the paddock. No one believes her, but⌠I wanted you to know.â
âWhat is she saying?â you asked, heart sinking.
âSheâs calling you pathetic, saying youâre still pining over your childhood crush and using Max to become an influencer,â she said softly, looking at you with sympathy.
âYouâre joking,â you said, anger simmering. She shook her head.
âCan I be real with you?â She asked, and you nodded. âI love you and George loves you and honestly, everyone does. But I will accept not seeing you here anymore if you finally realize that Max is not being a good friend to you. And he hasnât been for a long time.â
Eyes filling with tears, you let her words sink in. She was right, but admitting it was brutal. Maybe staying around him was just self-inflicted pain.
You found Max later, pulling him aside.
âI only have a few minutes, so make it quick,â he said, barely looking at you. Seeing him like this, you realized that the man in front of you wasnât your best friend anymore.
âYour girlfriendâs telling people Iâm a pathetic loser here to use you for fame,â you said, voice flat.
âI donât believe that,â he mumbled, avoiding your eyes.
âReally?â you laughed bitterly. âYou donât believe that from your girlfriendâthe one whoâs disliked me since day one?â
âSeems like you have something to say, Y/N. Just say it,â he replied, finally looking at you.
âThere was a time in my life where I couldnât imagine what it would be like to live without you. But now Iâm living it. Have the past ten years been nothing to you? All it took was an older woman to bat her eyelashes at you and that was it?â
He opened his mouth, but you cut him off.
âIâm not going to stand here and tell you that we had a good run and that I wish you the best. Fuck you. Fuck you for choosing her over me and fuck you for even letting it have to be a choice. I hate you.â
End of Flashback
That was the last time you had spoken to him. There were no texts or calls after that; his life just went on like normal while you felt like you were dying inside. You had thrown yourself into your work after that and now had over a million followers and subscribers to your podcast. Youâd stayed friends with Carmen but hadnât returned to a race since that day. You had tried to block the memory of that day from your mind, but when you were low, one thing always resurfaced in your mind. Kelly was right about you pining after your childhood crush. You had been in love with Max back then. How could you not be?
Then Carmen invited you to the Austin GP, and after much persuasion, you finally agreed. Thanks to your online following, you flew down with her, officially a Mercedes guest. Wearing Mercedes colors felt like poetic justice.
When you entered the paddock, a wave of nostalgia and sadness hit you. But it disappeared as you saw familiar faces youâd missed over the years.
"Y/N!" Alex called, arms open. Hugging him, you sighed, realizing how much youâd missed everyone. âIâm glad youâre back.â
âMe too,â you admitted before greeting Lily, who gushed over your podcast and joked about being a guest. As you laughed with her, you noticed Alex subtly trying to block your view. Looking over, you saw Max walking by. He did a double take, but you turned back to Lily, ignoring his stare.
Later, as you waited for a coffee, you overheard Checoâs wife and Fernandoâs girlfriend chatting.
âI heard Max and Kelly broke up,â Melissa said.
âOh yeah, itâs been a few months,â Carola replied, shrugging. âApparently, he was in love with someone else the whole time.â
You smirked. So Kelly finally experienced what it felt like to be second choice.
The race came and went, and you successfully avoided Max the entire weekend. You didnât even think about the possibility of running into him when you accepted Carmenâs invitation to go out that night. George had actually wanted to go out, so you found yourself at a little country bar that night with what seemed to be the whole grid. You felt Maxâs gaze the second you walked in, and you were doing a hell of a job ignoring him. Charles was trying to talk to him, looking confused between the two of you, but you didnât care.
Ordering another gin and tonic you felt him come up next to you and you refused to look over.
âPut hers on mine,â Max said, handing over his card. You tried to leave, but he held out an arm to stop you.
âNo âthank youâ?â he teased, eyes intense.
You glared. âYou can have it, then.â
âStop being difficult,â he said, rolling his eyes. âYou look good.â
âCanât say the same about you,â you shot back, and his expression darkened.
He sighed. âCan we talk?â
âI said everything I needed to say three years ago. Have a good night.â
This time he let you go and you made your way back to Carmen who was looking at you with a raised eyebrow.
âYou okay?â She asked, and you nodded.
A little while later, you were sitting at a table talking with Charles with Max hovering close by.
âMax, come sit down,â Charles slurred, and at this point, you were too tipsy to put up a fight about it. âMax is my best friend, ya know?â
âAh yeah?â You asked head tilting. âThose words donât mean much coming from him.â
Charles giggled, too drunk to understand what you meant and Max clenched his jaw looking at you.
âInsult me all you want schatje, as long as youâre talking to me Iâll take it,â he said and you didnât say anything, just stared at him trying to figure out his angle.
âIs this the girl Kelly broke up with you over?â Charles asked and Max whipped his head towards him. âYou always had a thing for her, so I told Alex that was my guess.â
Maxâs face fell, and you froze. Shock turned into anger as you got up and stormed out. You felt Max following and soon he was in front of you, blocking your path.
âCome on,â he urged, leading you to a nearby park.
âMax, I donât want to talk,â you said firmly, pulling away.
âI donât care,â he replied, frustrated. âTell me what I need to do to fix this.â
You laughed bitterly. âCrawling back because you got dumped? Itâs too late.â
âItâs not like that.â
âYou made your choice three years ago. Now live with it.â
âYou want to know why we broke up?â
âI donât really give a fuck,â you replied before turning to walk away.
âShe isnât you!â He yelled. Your legs stopped moving as your mind reeled.
Whirling on him you got into his face, âYou donât get to fucking say that to me. Not after all this time. Not after what you put me through. Not after you chose her over me. I was there the whole time Max. Me! I was there! Itâs not my fault you didnât realize that till I was gone.âÂ
âI realized it long before then,â he said softly, and you took a couple of deep breaths, trying to calm yourself. Tears were starting to fall, and you looked everywhere but him.Â
âThen why?â You whispered, voice cracking.Â
âBecause I wasnât good enough for you,â he said laughing sadly to himself. âThe pressure was starting to cave in back then and I didnât want you to see that. I didnât want to burden you.â
âYou were my best friend Max,â you said exasperated. âI would have done anything for you.âÂ
âItâs easy to see that now,â he said. âBut then you were so full of life and starting your little videos that I didnât want to disappoint you. She understood what I was going through, but I never stopped loving you.âÂ
âThen why did you still push me away?âÂ
âI had to do that so that I could try and move on. She knew and she hated that there wasnât anything she could do to change how I felt about you. I knew what she was saying about you in the paddock, and I knew why she was saying it.âÂ
His words hit you like a ton of bricks, and it felt like heartbreak all over again. âYou knew and you let it happen. You are the worst person Iâve ever known Max Verstappen.â
He was crying now too and the two of you stood staring at one another not saying anything.Â
âI would be insane not to love you,â he said softly and it made you cry harder. âSo I will do whatever it takes for however long to make up for what I did.âÂ
He let you go again and you left him there, crying silently as you walked back to the hotel. So many emotions going through your mind paired with confusing feelings.Â
Happiness for your 15-year-old self that has wanted to hear those words for so long.Â
Sadness for your 21-year-old self reliving those memories.Â
And anger at your 24-year-old self for considering letting him make it up to you.Â
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â â â ཞ ŕź 20/20 VISION
lalala! ethan landry x okokok! reader
#SYNOPSISâ based off of see you again by tyler the creater & kali uchis; you have no gag reflex, ethan tells a sex joke, and ethan takes a leap of faith.
#CONTAINSâ best friends to lovers, mutual pining, jealousy, emetophobia, fluff
#AUTHORSNOTEâ i've been wanting to write fluff lately so.. here you go xx
your unofficial designated spot in the carpenter sisters' apartment was their armchair in their living room.
you had a list of reasons why; one, it meant more space. you could stretch your legs, not worry about feeling someone's feet near your legs, and you could have your own blanket. all somewhat selfish reasons, but you loved your space. two, it had the perfect angle towards the t.v. that gave you the best spot in the living room to watch it without worrying about discomfort.
which was why you would've been mildly perturbed that someone was standing between you and the t.v. the only difference was that it wasn't just someone; it was someone who rambled too often, who had no sense of personal space while also being hyper aware of it, and who was a flurry of random facts (which wouldn't help him at all, unless someone held a gun to his head and told him to name and point at every countryâs capital in the world).
"i've done it," ethan announced to you, his signature toothy smile seemingly more victorious as he looked down at where you were snuggled up on the couch. his well manicured nails (he asked you to do them once, and who were you to deny your best friend?) held his laptop, the screen facing his chest.
"aren't you supposed to be studying?" you asked him with a small tilt of your head, glancing at where the rest of the group was. finals week was beating everyone up, and you could briefly see mindy and chad chugging a redbull at the same time while tara timed them, before you turned back to your best friend.
"i gave up."
"you need to study."
"you gave up, too!" ethan looked down at the huge blanket that you hogged for yourself, not even thinking twice before he was climbing in next to you.
"owâ ethan!" you groaned, feeling him step on your leg.
"'scuse me!" ethan forced himself under the blanket you were snuggled under, making you share your beloved armchair with him before he sighed contentedly. "this is comfortable! maybe i should share this seat with you more often!" he said with a bright grin, making you sigh reluctantly. "i mean if you don't want to then it's fine too!" ethan added hurriedly with wide eyes.
"i was just saying that i wouldn't mind sharing with you because usually you sit aloneâ which i know you prefer, you've told me so many times and i get it! i really do! but i wouldn't mind sitting with you to keep you company because i really like being with youâ around you. your presence. yeah, that." ethan rambled, finishing his string of words with a sheepish smile, cheeks flaring a bit red. "i'm sorry for rambling." he added quietly.
your usually tired eyes softened at that. he had always been insecure of how much he talked, you knew that better than anyone. "i've told you before, e, i don't mind. i like listening to you," you hummed, a downturned smile on your lips. "i like your presence too. and i guess i don't mind sharing my seat with you."
ethan's cheeks flared red at your casual words. you had a way of speaking so calmly, as though all your words were chosen well. in a way, he was a bit jealous.
"you had something to tell me, yeah?" you asked him softly, bringing him back on track.
"oh, right!" ethan showed you his laptop, setting it up on your legs. it was a notion list, color coordinated and everything, with an entire list of shows and movies you remember only briefly mentioning to him. "i made this listâ"
"just now? instead of studying?"
"yes! so basically, it has a section where we can rate it after we watch it, and it's all organized by what we want to watch the most and what we need to finish!" ethan scrolled down the list, practically buzzing with excitement (and the cold brew he drank earlier).
"see? i know that i have a whole essay to do but i can do it laterâ" ethan said, waving it off with his hand. "because i know you said you would do it but i got impatient and did it instead! and lookâ" he showed you the wide variety of colors for every row. "they're color coordinated! and here's how i think the rating system should goâ"
you had watched ethan talk the entire time he rambled, your usually tired and indifferent eyes softening when you listened to him speak. he talked fastâ too fast for some people, but you liked that about himâbut the way he rambled showed how passionate he was about different topics, because ethan only rambled when he cared.
it showed how much he appreciated what he was talking about. and ever time his cadence picked up and his words became jumbled and he began interrupting himself, you could see how ethan's brown eyes would shine with excitement. you could see how he began incorporating his hands to his words, how his lips tilted up when he talked.
you were so engrossed in ethan's explanation of the movie and t.v. show list that you failed to notice your friends staring at you from the dining table.
"they are disgustingly cute," tara said with a sigh.
"and disgustingly oblivious," mindy grumbled, clicking her pen over and over. "with how smart the both of them are, i'm surprised they haven't picked up on the clues." she turned to chad, who was sulking after losing the redbull chugging competition against her. "have you asked ethan about it yet? you're our in on this, chad!"
chad groaned as mindy nudged him with her shoulder. "i did. he didn't even respond. it's crazy how he can avoid conversations, you know."
you didn't like parties. not as much as your friends didâ you were usually the designated driver or the friend that was always sober enough to take care of their friends, which you didn't mind. it was the socializing part that you minded.
you socialized okay, but you often just ended up listening to other people rather than talking. listening was more your style, but you were only a little awkward when it came to talking to complete (and possibly intoxicated) strangers at parties. you stuck with your group of friends and very rarely strayed away.
but ethan was the designated sober friend this time around, so maybe that would change.
three loud knocks to your dorm room made you go and open it, coming eye to eye with ethan. "you're walking me there?" you asked with a knowing smile, making the boy nod eagerly.
"yup! chad's walking with tara and mindy's going with anika, so that leaves you and me." ethan grinned at you teasingly. "why, you're getting tired of me already?"
"no," you hummed, closing your dorm room behind you as the both of you began to walk down the hall. "you're really not drinking tonight, huh?"
"nope!" ethan replied, popping the 'p'. "after i threw up all over sam that one time we drank at the apartment, and then i threw up on you right after, i told myself that i'd hold back on it."
you wrinkled your nose at the memory. "how responsible of you."
"i know, right?" ethan said with a proud smile. "but because i threw up on you that time, i give you full permission to throw up on me this time."
"i'm not gonna be that drunk."
that was a lie.
to say that your friends were shocked to see you become a more extraverted person after drinking would be an understatement. they were used to you observing the group and contributing to conversations with sarcastic comments, dry humor, and dark jokes that are often made much too soon. so to see you take a shot with tara and squeal happily with her (true friend solidarity; she was as drunk as you were) was completely out of the ordinary.
"i'm gonna go find chad!" tara yelled over the music, making you nod happily and watch her leave. adrenaline and excitement began to thrum through your body stronger, and your first thought was to share it with your favorite person. you began to walk around, searching for ethan, before you bumped into a chest.
"oh, shit! i'm so sorry," the guy laughed, making you send him an apologetic smile.
"it's okay!" you said, taking in his black hair and his brown eyes (that only reminded you of ethan). "i'm y/n!"
the guy smiled at you, offering his hand out. "jaden!" he seemed to be as intoxicated as you were, his steps wobbling slightly as you shook his hand. "do you, uh, wanna dance?"
"hey, where's y/n?" ethan asked tara as she passed him, making her look back towards the drinks table.
"she should just be around where the drinks are.." tara's voice trailed off when her eyes landed on you not too far away. your arms were around a guy's neckâ was that jaden from her philosophy lecture? âas you swayed with him to the music. you seemed to be having a good time, the alcohol making you lighthearted as you sang with whatever song was playing through the speakers. "there she is!"
when ethan saw you, his heart fell. you looked so beautiful under the multicolored lights, your hair perfectly styled and your clothes fitting you perfectly as you danced with someone who wasn't him. your smileâ your genuine one, ethan noted with his chest aching, the one that made your eyes crinkle and your smile lopsided âwas pointed towards someone who wasn't him.
jealousy brewed in his chest along with the heartache, ethan's jaw clenching as he stared at you and the random guy. but he didn't step in. he didn't pull you away and declare his feelings for you, because at the end of the night, you were happy. content as you danced with someone who wasn't ethan at all.
chad came up next to tara, his arm over her shoulders as he steadied her. "hey man, where's y/n?" he asked, still fairly sober than everyone as he had only taken one shot.
"she's doing fine," ethan said, his voice monotone as he continued staring at you. it was unfair how beautiful you looked while you unknowingly broke his heart with every laugh and every flirtatious smile you sent towards your dance partner.
"what?" chad looked in the direction ethan was staring, his face falling when he saw you and jaden. easily connecting the dots, he looked at ethan empathetically. "fuck. dude, i'm sorry."
"it's okay, really," ethan said with a tight lipped smile. but he couldn't keep his eyes off of you and him, the fact that you looked so happy pulling at his chest because he wanted you to be happy with him. he wanted you to look at him the way you looked at that random stranger.
and finally, as you did a twirl into jadenâs arms, you made eye contact with ethan. oblivious to the way his jaw clenched and his eyes lost the spark they usually had, you gently pulled yourself out of jaden's arms. your steps were wobbly, and you nearly crashed into ethan's chest when you finally walked up to him. ethan's arms went to steady you easily.
"ethan, i feel like throwing up," you murmured, and ethan nodded in understanding, worry taking over his jealousy.
"okay, let's get you to the bathroom, okay?" ethan said softly, pulling you close to him as he guided you to the bathroom. he knocked on the door, thankful no one responded, before he opened it for you. he locked the door behind the both of you as you made a beeline for the toilet, grabbing the side of it as you readied yourself to throw up.
but nothing came out.
âgo on!â ethan encouraged you, motioning to the toilet. but instead, you looked up at him warily.
âdo i have to?â
âyes?â ethan gaped at you, motioning to the toilet again. âjust go ahead! nothing to fear!â
âi donât want to.â
âcâmon, y/n, why not?â ethan whined, making you groan as you stopped yourself from throwing up yet again.
âi have emetophobia, asshole,â you muttered, gently pushing his arm. âfear of throwing up? and,â you messily pushed some of your hair away from your face. âi have no gag reflex.â
âwhat the hell?â ethan crinkled his nose, blushing furiously as he looked at you in shock. you were honest, sure but never this honest. âi couldâve gone my whole life without knowing that.â
âare you sure?â
âwhat?â ethan said quickly, eyes wider than ever as he stared at you as you snorted in amusement. âyouâre kidding.â
âmaybe.â
âmaybe?â he swallowed thickly, shutting his eyes and pinching his nose bridge. âoh god, you definitely have to throw up now.â
âwatch this.â you took two of your fingers and stuffed them all the way to the back of your throat, smiling triumphantly as you showed ethan your lack of a gag reflex.
ethan could only watch in horror and exasperation. ây/n, i didnât need proof. i already believed you.â he took some squares of toilet paper before offering it to you.
âi told you so,â you hummed, pulling your saliva covered finger out of your mouth and wiping them on the toilet paper. there was a beat of silence before ethan coughed, his cheeks and ears still burning red.
âcan i make a joke?â
âof course you can.â
âitâs a, uh,â ethan cleared his throat, avoiding your intent gaze, âsex joke.â
âeven better.â you situated yourself next to the toilet, still very much feeling like you were gonna hurl at any given moment.
ethan sat next to you, clearing his throat again. âi know one way we can test your gag reflex,â he stated, almost ashamed at his own joke.
you chuckled at that, the horrible joke making a you sway a bit with laughter before the sudden motion sickness got to you. without another word, you threw up into the toilet. all thanks to ethanâs horrible sex joke.
he immediately reached over to move some of your hair. you continued retching into the toilet, his hand rubbing soothing circles on your back. "i hate drinking," you grumbled as you laid your forehead on your arm, eyes watery from throwing up. immediately as you got the words out, you threw up again.
"i know, i know.. but i know you're gonna end up drinking again," ethan teased softly, making your back heave as you managed a laugh, only for it to be interrupted by you throwing up again. "it's okay, let it all out." he couldnât help the small laugh that escaped his lips. âi canât believe a sex joke made you throw up.â
and you almost laughed again if you didnât throw up even more.
the sound of the party died into the background as ethan sat next to you on the ground. your head was laying on your arm, which was on the toilet seat. you were still intoxicated, and the world was still spinning, but you could see the obvious turmoil on ethan's face. you poked his arm. "what's wrong?"
"what?" ethan said, snapping out of his daze to send you a tight lipped smile. "nothing's wrong."
"liar."
"i'm not!"
"i know you better than that, e," you murmured, half lidded eyes staring at him. you had thrown up most of your alcohol, and while you were still inebriated, you felt a lot more clear headed than earlier. âwhat's wrong?"
ethan looked at you, eyes flashing with hurt as he pictured you again dancing with someone else. "do you really want to know?" he asked you, and you nodded. even while drunk, you opted to listen.
"you looked beautiful when you were dancing," ethan began, managing a soft smile, "i don't think i've ever seen you like that. it's not a bad thing or a good thing, but it's a new thing, y'know?" he sighed. "you dance really well, i'm surprised you haven't told me," a genuine smile appeared on his face when he heard you laugh quietly. "and your laugh.. i swear i would listen to it over whatever horrible music is playing right now."
ethan looked at you, taking in your obviously roughed up and intoxicated form. but somehow, even with slightly messy hair and most of your make-up rubbed off and with your breath smelling only a little bit like puke, you still looked beautiful. it was enough to make someone who talked as much as him to go quiet in awe.
"but when you laughed, and when you smiled,â ethan said slowly, taking in heavy breaths with every word. fear thrummed through his body, mingling with the nervousness as he twiddled with his fingers anxiously. to continue on would be to admit everything. to admit how he felt, the thoughts he had been having about you, everything. and to admit it to you would be to risk losing a friendship and one of the most important people in his life.
â.. you werenât smiling or laughing at me. and i hated that.â
confusion spread over your face before realization hit your eyes. âoh.â and oh, it suddenly all made sense. why ethan was so bothered, why you were so willing to listen to one person speak for forever as long as it was them, why even as you danced with another, something was off because he wasnât ethan. he wasnât your best friend.
âyou donât have to say anything,â ethan mumbled, completely misinterpreting your realization for rejection. his eyes watered slightly as he avoided your gaze. âitâs been going on for a while now, and i get it if you donât feel the same! i really do, itâs just,â he sighed shakily, âi donât want to lose youââ
âethanââ
âi was completely willing to just shut up about how i felt as long as that meant i could still have you in my life, y/n,â ethan said, looking into your eyes earnestly. âand i thought i could keep it under wraps but i have to tell you at least once becauseââ
âi love you.â
âwhat?â ethan blinked, making you smile, your head still resting on your arm.
âi love you, ethan.â
a toothy smile spread over his face at that, his shoulders relaxing as he searched your face for any doubt. âare youâ are you sure?â
âi wouldnât say it if i wasnât,â you murmured softly as you raised your head, making ethan laugh in relief.
âholy shitâ i love you too.â ethan said, leaning forward, only for you to stop him.
âe, i might throw up on you if you kiss me.â
âdo you think i care?â
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Part One Twelve
Steve wanted everything to be ready and set up for when Eddie got back; Hopper was going to drop him over later in the afternoon.
It didnât work out like that at all; Steveâs parents left earlier than they said they would. He got Eddieâs things out of the closet, and then was heading to the garage to get the tent, really, truly intending to use this time to get everything right for when Eddie comes back.
Steve lasted twenty minutes in the empty house before he couldnât take any more. He just missed Eddie too much. He was too excited to see him, to bring him home, way too excited to wait hours.
Especially since every moment now felt so precious, so finite.
So he thought fuck it, slipped on his sneakers and picked up his car keys and headed to the store. He definitely needed fresh groceries ready for Eddie to come home.
Itâs a fairly good thing his mother never actually cooks; she might have had questions about all the peas in the freezer. As it is Steve has to rotate between stores, he's started saying, âIâm doing this green juice diet thing,â every time he gets a strange look when he pays. Even that would only fly so far before people started looking at him like he was really weird; itâs not like Hawkins is a big place, thereâs not exactly a lot of options.
From the store, Steve heads to the cabin, only to find Eddie sitting on the stoop, his bag ready next to him. He grins so big when Steve pulls up.
Hopper comes out with a steaming mug cupped in his hands and an unlit cigarette sagging between his lips, âyouâre as bad as each other, I told him not until four, heâs been packed since half nine. Couldnât stop him.â
Steve kneels on the step below Eddie so they can give each other a proper hug; he feels Eddieâs chest expand in a massive sigh, and then Eddie relaxes fully against him. Steve can relate; he feels the same.
âSorry Hop,â Steve says absently.
Hopper makes a noncomittal noise, and Steve hears the rasp of his lighter, âall his things are clean, did a load of laundry last night.â
Steve stands, but finds Eddieâs holding his hand and Steve kind of doesnât want to ever let go of him anyway, so it kind of works out.
âThanks so much Hopper, I canât tell you how much I appreciate you doing this.â
Hopper leans on the porch rail, âjust laundry, kid.â
âYou know what I mean, youâve, you know, looked after him and I-â
âHopper,â Eddie says, causing them both to look, âthank you,â and Eddie presents Hopper with a pine cone. It has strands of long grass haphazardly tied to it, little flowers and a couple of smalls leaves. Steve doesnât look at Hopperâs face; he knows he will laugh if he does.
âErrr...youâre welcome.â
Steve thinks Hopper accepts his gift with grace.
The plan is to spend the whole afternoon on the couch watching movies. Eddie puts his things away; moves things around, spends an hour generally reacquainting himself with the place, Steve asks him if he wants the tent put back today, but Eddie shakes his head, clearly not worried about it. He also doesnât want to get his shiny things back either; Steve offers to go into his parents room with him but again, Eddie seems disinterested.
He just seems to need to check where everything is before he finally settles, snuggling right up to Steve and settling his head on Steveâs chest, half cradled between Steveâs legs.
Steve knows Eddieâs missed him, Steve has missed him, too.
They donât even pretend that night. Thereâs no talk of nightmares, or dark TV, or bad dreams. Thereâs no excuses about how itâs cold, or talk about Eddie sleeping on the couch; they brush their teeth together, and then Eddie gets into Steveâs bed before Steve does.
Steve sleeps with Eddieâs tail wrapped between and around his legs, and tries not to dwell on how much itâs going to hurt when itâs gone.
Steve walks through the door of Family Video, arms in the air, triumphant, âayyyyyyyy!â
Robin mimics him from behind the counter, throwing her arms up too, âayyyyyy...what are we doing?!â
âCelebrating, obviously,â Steve gets his ass up on the counter and shimmies around, dropping down on the other side, âweâre back together. The dream team.â
âThe dynamic duo?â
âThe perfect pair.â
âThe...top twins?â
âThatâs weak Steve.â
âI know, I couldnât come up with anything good that begins with âTâ and I wanted to keep this going. Thanks by the way, I think we have two shifts together this week. I do not want to know what you had to do to get that-â
âGross,â Robin slaps him in the chest with a half eaten red vine.
The bell over the door tinkles, a whole brood of excited kids coming in, looking for Christmas movies, Steve directs the mom to the right section. Itâs not long before more come in, âwhat the hell is going on?â Steve gripes about all the little kids absolutely ruining the displays.
âLast day of school, everyone's out for Christmas,â Robin tells him as she rings someone up.
âNo way,â Steve looks at the calendar pinned to the cupboard door behind the counter, âOh. It is.â
âYep Dingus, not long now, got all your gifts?â
âShit Rob, I donât have any gifts-â
âTerrific!â
âNo itâs-â
âNo no, terrific! With a âTâ!â
âOh...yeah, I suppose that was the obvious option.â
Steve gets home late, these closing shifts really starting to get to him, thinking about what the hell he should get Eddie for Christmas. He has no idea how long the whole...transformation thingâŚmight take. Or how long until it happens. This might be the only Christmas Eddie ever has andâŚSteveâs going to do his best to make it amazing.
Tomorrow heâs going to drive out and pick up a real tree, get all the decorations down from the attic; Eddie likes shiny things, he should like it. Steve feels better with a plan of action, he always has.
âEddie,â Steve calls as he closes the front door, stripping off his jacket and gloves. His ears are freezing, he should wear a hat really, but that would be a bit of a crime with his hair.
Steve can smell something; coffee heâs pretty sure, and something cooking, âStee.â
âHey Buddy, what are you doing,â Steve finds Eddie on a kitchen chair in front of the stove.
âStee nine and a half.â
âYeah, yeah I did say that buddy.â
Eddieâs carefully stirring soup on the stove top; thereâs a bowl ready, next to a plate of crackers and randomly shaped cut up lumps of cheese. Well, more like hacked up lumps of cheese, but still.
Steve watches, heart sort of in his mouth, as Eddie carefully, tongue poking out in concentration, lifts the pot and pours the steaming soup into the bowl. He does it slowly, but perfectly fine, âStee hot, ow.â
âIâll let it cool down I...just thank you buddy, thank you so much.â
Thereâs a dirty knife and the empty soup can in the sink, but otherwise Eddieâs tidied up after himself. This must have taken so much effort; Eddie would have to move the chair every time he needed to reach something. Steve canât help it, he dips, giving Eddie a soft kiss on the cheek.
Part Fourteen
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curiosity gets the best of eddie when he finds your hitachi (18+ only)
perv!eddie munson x fem!reader, eddie has a bilbo baggins 'why shouldn't i?' moment, male masturbation, prostate stimulation, imaginary bj and p in v, unrequited love, he's gross and pathetic and lovesick (don't use your friend's sex toys w/o their permission), no beta this is not that serious
Eddie could qualify for the Olympics with the amount of hoops heâs jumping through.
He gets it. Laying naked in your friendâs bed as you debate whether or not to use their sex toy is not a good look. But itâs not like that, okay?Â
Listen.
First of all, he did not break in. Heâs staying at your apartment to watch your cat while youâre out of town. Him lounging in your bed isnât weird, it's expected.
He wasnât snooping, either. He was searching. After spending the day hunched over a Ford Taurus, his aching back was demanding he find that bottle of ibuprofen you kept on your nightstand. And when it wasn't in its usual spot, the only logical next step was for Eddie to check your nightstand's drawer. And he did find the ibuprofen, thank you very much. He just also found something else.Â
It was hard not to notice. Not just because Hitachi wands are bulky, but because it was sitting right there in the open. No clothes or knick-knacks to hide it, just...there. And he knows what it is. He's seen enough porn to know when he's face to face with a Hitachi.
See? He's not some creep who can't control his crush. He wasn't looking for your sex toy, it found him.
And he tried to forget about it. Really. Slammed the drawer closed so so quickly he almost smashed his fingers. He even took a long, ice cold shower to keep himself from chubbing up. Thought about anything and everything except for his recent discoveryâ car transmissions, his next DnD campaign, Wrestlemania, Wayne's mug collection, anything to get his mind off of you. Which is easier said than done when heâs using your soap to scrub away the car grime and shame.
It's no wonder his cock remains semi-hard for the rest of the evening. He discovered his crushâs vibrator. Who moves on from that? Like, are you really pining over your friend if you aren't hyperfixating on their sex toy?
Besides, Eddie is a naturally curious person. Heâs seen his fair share of porn and all the actors seem to have a grand olâ time when there's a Hitachi between their legs. He wouldnât mind trying one himself, but theyâre expensive. Sure, heâs got a stable job at Thacher Tire, but heâs not in a tax bracket where he can drop $100 on casual curiosity.Â
But nowâŚ
Itâs a once in a lifetime opportunity, he reasons, thumb ghosting over the power button in debate. That logic is how he ends up in his current position â naked in your bed with his cock resting against his tummy as he inspects your wand.
Itâs heavier than he imagined, the noticeable weight only rivaled by the angel on his shoulder yelling at him to put it back. But it's your toy. He's had a crush on your longer than he'd like to admit. And no matter how many times Steve pushes him to ask you out, he's certain you don't feel the same. You're just friends, and this might be his only opportunity to know you on a more intimate level.
A fucked up, kinda gross and intrusive opportunity, but still. Beggars can't be choosers.
And right now, Eddie can't help thinking how it's oh so very interesting that you left your wand out in the first place. You knew heâd be staying at your place, sleeping in your bed. There was a chance heâd stumble across it. You could have made an effort to hide it, but you didn't. You left it there for anyone to see, for Eddie to see.Â
Did you want him to find it? Did you want him to think of you using it?
Because if that was your plan, it's sure as hell working. His last functioning brain cell work to conjure up various images of you laid out in the very spot he is now in, pleasuring yourself until your whole body shakes and your thighs are drenched.
Wait, could you squirt?
The women in porn usually squirt. Even the men come so hard it hits the ceiling. He shifts in your bed, imaging the pretty green sheets beneath him soaked with your juices as he brings the wand closer to his face.
The buttons are a little faded and there are some tiny scratches, but no major signs of use. The wand is clean, and obviously cared for. Which now has Eddie thinking how long you've had it. How often do you use it? Enough to make the plastic smell like you? He wondersâŚ
Smashing his nose against the plastic, he inhales until his lungs balloon out. The smell of plastic hit him first, following by a muted scent that tickles his nostrils. Natural musk and sweat.
Jesus H. Christ, he is smelling you.Â
He canât bite back the low rumble from escaping, groaning as if he's being tortured. His cock twitches against his tummy, a fat pearl of precum budding at the tip. Thereâs no turning back now. Not when he kitten licks the bulbous head picturing your cunt in its place. He thinks of how good you'd taste, how wet and shiny you'd be as he dips into your hole.
Fuck it. Itâs a one time thing. You wonât be home for another two days. The only potential witness to his debauchery is your cat, and theyâre too distracted with a catnip toy in your living room.
âNo one will know, they wonât,â He tells himself, taking one final sniff before grabbing a hold of his cock. He might not be able to step foot into your bedroom ever again, and there's a chance he won't be able to look you in the eyes, but, hey, thatâs a problem for future Eddie.
It takes him a second to find a comfortable position, eventually settling to hold the wand perpendicular to his cock as he leans back against the headboard.
Just once to know what it feels like, he thinks. There is about a centimeter of space between the wand and his cock, but it's still close enough to make his breath hitch when he pushes down on the power button.
âFuck!â
His stomach seizes, muscles tightening so violently he all but sits up. Jerking the wand away from him, he tries to compose himself as the toy makes his entire arm shake. Itâs embarrassingly loud even on the lowest setting, but holy shit is it powerful. It hadnât even touched him, but Eddie still shook in shocked bliss. He and an ex occasionally messed around with a mini pocket vibrator, but this. This is otherworldly.
And perhaps now would be a good place to stop. He's tried it, knows it could raise the dead. Pack it in, Munson. Put it back where you found it. Right?
Right.
Except his lack of self-control has doubled in size and devoured the last crumb of common sense he possessed. He's already started, might as well finish. He's already corrupted your friendship, at least let him get an orgasm out of it.
This time he lets the wand kiss his cock to send brutal ripples across his throbbing erection. With motorized tremors traveling all the way down to his balls, he imagines you on your knees, working his pants and boxers down so you could take out his cock. You bring him towards your mouth, stopping mere centimeters away, much like he had done with the wand. Your hot breath is fanning out against the underside of his cock as you say, âYou have such a pretty cock, Eddie. Can I kiss it?â
âYâyeah. Go on, sweetheart.â
As Imaginary You kisses the tip, he pulls the wand back just enough to dull the pulsing. He pretends the sensation is your mouth, kissing all the way around his tip. Down and around until your lips shine with his precum.
His groans are barely audible above the loud buzzing. He keeps his cock still, letting the wand trace the path of a particularly thick vein as he pretends it's your tongue. He imagines stroking the back of your head, coaxing you to take him into your mouth.
âDoinâ so good, sweetheart. Look so pretty with your mouth full of my cock. D'you know that?âÂ
You move your head in a disjointed nod, tears puddling in the corners of your eyes as the warmth of your mouth envelopes him. His fist tightens around his cock at the thought of you moaning with your mouth stuffed of him.
âGo on, you can take a little more.âÂ
It's not the vibrator that is shooting sparks of arousal through his cock, it's you and your moans. He ruminates on his fantasy, imagines you kissing and sucking like he's your favorite flavor of ice cream. Slowly moving the wand up and down until heâs built up the courage to take the wand lower.
The closer he gets to his balls, the more his cock leaks until it looks like he dumped on a bottle of lube on his crotch. He thinks of you grinding against the floor, his cock thrusting in and out of your mouth, until the vibrating head is nestled in the space between his cock and his balls. In his mind, you match his desperation by grinding against his boot, shining it with your slick.
Eddie teeters on the edge of release, panting like heâs run a marathon, his cock now an angry shade of purple. He's not gonna last for long. A fucking toy has reduced him to a virgin whose just watched Fast Times at Ridgemont High for the first time.
Shit. Now he's thinking about tits.
Your tits. He's never seen them, but he does remember all those hot, summer days spent cooling off at Lover's Lake. He can work with that. If there is anything DnD and tonight have proven, it's that heâs got a damn good imagination.
His broken whimpers match the way his thoughts slowly break off into disconnected clips as he hurtles himself closer to release. Your boobs cushioning his face. Him sucking bruises into your skin. Him notching himself at your entrance. You squirming so much he has to hold your hips down.
âCome on, Eddie. Need it, need you. Iâve been good.â
Heâs drooling at the thought of your pussy, pulsing and warm and so fucking inviting as he sinks into your heat. Youâre moaning too, whining his name as if you crave him as much as he craves you.
âOhmygod, I feel you. Feel so good.â
âThere you go, taking me so good. Wanted this for so long you donât even know.â
The loud buzzing eggs him on, making his hips buck with little grace. He's not doing it for the extra stimulation, but as a visceral response to the heightened passion of the moment. It's everything working in tandem â the wand, his fantasies, and the piece of him that wishes this could become a reality. He canât sit still, not when pleasure is this good.
The waves of dizzying pleasure carry him closer to oblivion, just a bit more and he'll be there.
Eddie's next move is consequential. Letting go of his cock, he moves to cups his heavy balls, tugging them up just enough to push the wand head into the space below his balls. The noise he makes is wild, animalistic in the way his vocal cords constrict, as the fierce vibrations spread all the way to his asshole. The feeling sinks into his flesh, radiating through his taint to shale his prostate.
He recalls every instance when you called his name, the soundtrack to his fantasy. He feels the phantom pressure of your heels digging into his lower back. You keep him locked in place, as if he would have left you.
"Eddie, please! Come inside me. Wâwant your cum."
He does his best to imagine what it would be like to pump you full, to feel you pulse around him, to smell his cologne mix with your sweat, to see his release dripping out of you. He needs it, needs you. The hand holding the wand went numb ages ago, but he still manages to extend a finger to turn up the intensity.
From there, it's a combustion of stars. Groaning, body shaking with little remorse, Eddie spills his seed in thick ropes. He's levitating off the bed, he has to be with how intense this orgasm is. All he can do to soothe himself is call your name until he is reduced to the cum covering his abdomen.
He can't remember when or how he turned off the wand, but itâs now on the floor. Quietude falls over your tiny apartment, and somehow it's more deafening than the motorized buzzing. It hits him like a heavy gust of wind, blowing in a profound sense of shame for what he just did.
Fuck. Did he� Did that actually happen?
âOh God,â He groans. Yeah, he really did that. His embarrassment is hot like fire and as rough as brimstone. He knows he needs to clean up and hide the evidence of his perversion, but he lays paralyzed at the inevitable consequences of his actions. Eddie is a mess, both physically and mentally.
Messy Munson, that's his new name.
Or maybe it's not that bad, he thinks. Maybe it just seems like that. He dares himself to look down at his spent cock andâ
Jesus H. Christ, he didn't know one person could produce that much cum.
His abdomen is flooded, there is cum pooled in his belly button, and the thatch of pubic hair is glued together from his seed. And of course, it couldn't just stay in it's place, it's had to drip down to soil your sheets.
Throwing his head back into your pillow, he shuts his eyes as if the sight pains him. He did this and he's got to fix it. There is absolutely no way that you can find out about this. As he stands on shaky, Bambi legs, he starts a mental checklist:
Take another shower
Wash your sheets
Resist the urge to do it again
Clean your wand and place it back exactly as it was
Forget about your Hitachi (like, actually forget this time)
Figure out how to act like nothing ever happened
Do NOT do it again
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Out Of Bounds (M) - sim jaeyun
PAIRINGS: jake x female reader, afab reader
SYNOPSIS: in which jake is your little brothers best friend that knows absolutely no boundaries when it comes to you.
GENRE: smut, pwp.
CONTENT: jake is super whiny, one-sided pining, reader is slightly older, overuse of the word ânoonaâ, jake def has a thing for older women, mentions of drinking, masturbation (m), mentions non consensual groping, mentions of verbal threats.
jake is everything but a pleasure to be around. endless flirting, groping, threats aimed at your boyfriend, and other unspeakable things. all done where no one can hear you beg him to just leave you alone, just this once. or hear him grumble about how much he likes you, and wonât stop.
jake is like your brother too, just a little bit more annoying. although his actions can be a bit much, you know heâs a kind hearted boy deep down with pure intentions. even if his actions can be a bit much. itâs nothing you canât handle.
your never bring this up to your brother either. never would you deny him of a friend just because he has a very insatiable desire for you. boys will be boys! your friends say their siblings friends develop little crushes on them too. but jakeâs feelings and wants for you are not little.
so, itâs no surprise that he calls you late at night after a night of drinking with your younger brother. overcome by the feeling of needing to hear his best friends older sister. just to settle him. thatâs it.
your phone rings next to your pillow, pulling you from your slumber. it takes a minute for you to roll over, sighing when you pick up your phone and see âsim jakeâ written across the screen.
âhmm? what is it?â
you know heâs been drinking. thatâs why you donât hesitate to answer. âJustâŚthinking about my noona.â his noona. youâre always referred to that way. his voice is slow and slurred, hinting at just how much heâs drank by now. âare you drunk?â
you have to say you're flattered. extremely. to be on his mind even when heâs drunk and has likely been around plenty of drunk women says a lot. âa lil- little bit..." you hear an exhale come through the speaker, and another noise follow. "jake, how much did you drink? do you need me to come get you?" youâre sitting up out of your bed, ready to throw on clothes and leave just incase he does need you. thereâs a short pause before you hear his voice again.
âCan you- fuck... can you say my name again?" he sounds out of breath, and you can faintly hear some very suspicious sounds coming from the other end. those words mark a new boundary thatâs been broken. adding to the multitude of broken boundaries. "what are you doing?" his tone sounded very suggestive, and it makes you stop, pressing your phone closer to your ear. "Thinkin' about you, noona..." he responds, and this time, he moans. "Jake..." you donât mean to feed into him. not all all. you're just utterly shocked and at a loss for words. but most of all, worried about this would affect your relationship with him. "oh, fuck.â he's shameless in the way he moans, loud and whiny, begging you to say more. "tell me, noona..." he starts, moaning directly into your ear... "y-your panties...what color are they?"
âtheyâreâŚred..â
"ahhh, shit." you can hear him struggle with himself like he's imagining you in red panties , likely doing something lewd. "today...in the kitchen. did you like it? when I touched you?" âtouchedâ is too sweet of a word to describe what he did to you. groped, manhandled, fondled, is better. overpowering you when you tried to push his hands away from your chest, beg him to stop before your brother sees. tell him he must learn how to control himself.
âyou cant...touch me like that...it isnât right.â those are words youâve said to him a million times before. words that go through one ear and out the other without a second thought. "cant help it. fuck, fuck, i'm so close! keep talking, please noona!" you can hear him increase speed in whatever he's doing, which, sounds exactly like he's jerking off.
"you're so pretty, too pretty, noona..." he rambles on in his fit of pleasure. telling you how much he wants to kiss you, and fuck you between very loud moans. "wish I could cum in you instead...agh! I gotta have you...gotta make you mine." his words bring heat to your cheeks despite the vulgarity of it all. "Jake..." you start, the other seemingly seconds apart from coming undone. "yes? yes, yes, noona!" he pants over the phone, whining and struggling to hold himself back from cumming before you get to respond. "maybe one day." those words from you are all it takes, a "fuck i'm gonna cum! i'm cumming! fuck!" being yelled into the speaker as he releases every pent up emotion he has for you in the form of one intense orgasm.
sim jaeyun, is way Out Of Bounds.
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fall back together | ln
the one where your ex-boyfriend invites you to spend a few days with him, but you two still have feelings for each other.
lando norris x fem!reader
word count: ~2.5k
warnings: pining, the tiniest bit of fluff i believe, language, smut, oral (f recieving), p in v, unprotected sex (wrap it before you tap it), cockwarming
note: ehhh i don't really know how to feel about this but i wanted to post something, once again not proofread! also i have a looooong flight later this week so pls send in some requests so i can entertain myself during it! <3
you and lando had dated for a little over two years when you decided to call it quits. it wasn't messy; you two had mutually decided to stay as friends. and for the few months that you had been just that, it had worked well so far.
that's why lando had decided to invite you over for the monaco grand prix, insisting that you should spend a few days prior with him so you two could catch up and spend some time together.
as friends, of course.
it took him a few days to convince you, but you finally agreed. and that's why you found yourself walking down the corridor that led to his apartment, suitcase in hand. you could hear his giggles already from the other side of the hall, the sound bringing a smile to your face.
as you opened the door with the keys that he had insisted you should keep after breaking up, for emergencies (even when you lived in a total different country), you heard him talking.
"hey, chat!" you heard him say. you should've guessed he would use his days at home to stream like he used to. "guess who's here!"
you smiled as you walked to the room he was in. the fans had always loved you; you saw the edits they made of your relationship, how everyone used to lose their minds over the way you two looked at each other when you decided to make an appearance on one of his streams.
utterly in love.
and of course, you saw how everyone couldn't believe it when he had announced the end of your relationship.
it's not like any of you had expected it either, but you knew it was for the best or the relationship would consume one of you. but you were happy you had managed to make a friendship work, not really wanting to lose lando. and of course, his fans were excited to see you again.
he turned his chair around as you entered the room, his smile widening as soon as he saw you. you walked his way, happily waving at the camera. normally, he would grab your waist and pull you into his lap.
but this time he didn't.
so you stood there, right next to his chair. and as much as you knew that was how things were, it didn't fell completely right to you.
"i think i'm gonna head to bed," you interrupted after a few minutes in which you talked with him and with the viewers, answering a few questions just like you used to do before everything went down.
but after a long flight and a taxi ride to his house, you felt exhausted and all you wanted was to lie down and call it a day.
lando reached to mute his mic before he could answer you, turning to look at your face as he spoke.
"take my bed, i'll sleep in the spare room," he said. you were certain that the fans would try to decipher what you were saying later, but you didn't really care.
you thought about what he was proposing. it would feel weird, sleeping in his bed without him, so you weren't really convinced about it. and he must had seen it in your face, because before you could say anything, he added:
"come on, y/n". you're tired and the spare bed isn't even made," he looked at you with soft, pleading eyes.
you knew he still wanted the best for you, so you sighed in defeat and accepted his offer with a nod of your head.
after saying goodbye to the chat, you left the room to get ready for bed. as you went through your daily night routine in the bathroom, you noticed how everything you had left there behore the break-up was still in its place.
it looked like you had never left.
you tried not to think too much about it, there could be multiple reasons why he had decided to keep all your stuff. he definitely had moved on, right? it had been months since you two ended things.
you brushed it off, not really wanting it to get to your head and then walked to his room. everything was just like you remembered. damn, he even kept some pictures of you on his wall.
with your pajamas on, you climbed into his bed and covered your body with the soft sheets, the smell of him quickly washing all over you.
you rolled around with a sigh, the bed feeling way too big now that he wasn't next to you to wrap hismself around you. you were unable to sleep as your mind filled with all the nights spent in that exact same mattress between laughs, kisses and endless conversations.
you missed the feeling of his arms around your waist, the sound of his snores and the warmth of his body enveloping you every night.
with your mind racing with all the memories that wouldn't leave your brain, you realized it had been hours since you got in bed when you checked the time on your phone. the house was completely silent by that moment, so you figured lando was already asleep.
you sighed and got up, wandering to the kitchen silentely to not wake him up, with the intention of making yourself a tea that would hopefully help you sleep.
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sat on the counter, you contemplated the city lights with a warm mug of tea in your hands. the only light that illuminated the kitchen was te one that came out of your room. lando's room.
you were lost in your own thoughts, so you didn't notice his figure walking towards you.
"is that seat taken?" his voice made you jump a little in surprise, swearing under your breath as you turned to look at him, simply shaking your head in response. "sorry, didn't mean to startle you," he added with a chuckle, sitting on the stool right next to you.
you didn't really know what to say, so silence fell between you two while you just stared at each other. despite of it being dark, you could appreciate his messy curls, the spark on his eyes and the sly smile that beautifully decorated his lips.
"can't slep?" his voice was low and tender as he brokw the silence.
"bed feels too big."
at your answer, he just nodded. he kept quiet for a few seconds, pensive, and you could see that he was wondering wheter what he was about to say was appropriate or not.
"you know, as much as it hurts... i'm happy that you're moving on," he finally broke the silence, his words hitting you like a truck.
"i'm not... what do you mean?" you asked in confussion, but your mind was more focused on the fact that the possibility of you moving on hurt him.
"i've seen the pictures."
despite of the sadness that his whisper hid, you knew he wasn't mad at you. he had always said that he wanted you to be happy, whether it was with or without him.
silly of him to think that anyone else could ever make you as happy as he once did.
"just a friend," you mumbled, knowing that he was talking about the guy in your latest posts. but he was nothing more than a friend to you, not even close. "not really my type," you joked, earning a little smile from his lips.
once again, the silence felt deafening as he didn't give you an answer. your nerves were starting to kick in and so, in an attempt to try and make it feel less awkward between you two, you gazed back to the window.
"do you ever miss me?" he whispered again seconds later, the simple question making you freeze.
the answer was easy: yes, like crazy. but you couldn't just say that.
as he waited for you to reply, you felt his eyes on you, curious about what you would answer. and you swore he could hear your heart racing in your chest.
"sometimes, yeah," you finally decided to give him the truth.
or part of it, because confessing that it hadn't been a day in which he didn't cross your mind at least twice a day made you feel too exposed and vulnerable.
you halted when you felt his hand creeping up your legs slowly, stopping when he reached your thigh.
"i miss you, too," his murmur sent you a shiver down your spine, and he was looking up at you from where he was sitting, with puppy eyes.
you knew damn well what those words meant, and you felt your heart breaking at your own answer.
" i don't think it's a good idea, lan," you murmured, not able to hold his gaze for long.
"i know", he uttered, and you felt him sigh, but his hand stayed in your leg. "i'm sorry."
when you heard his simple apology, you closed yout eyes and tried to keep your tears from falling down your cheeks, but you failed miserably.
you knew he was apologizing for not being his best self during the last weeks of your relationship. at first, you had tried to convince yourself it only was a rough patch, but it was burning you down.
and, when you asked him for some time, he agreed. he knew he hadn't been the best boyfriend to you during that time, and he hated seeing you suffer because of him. so he ultimately decided to set you free.
"i'll never take you for granted again," he whispered, his hands cupping your cheeks and wiping the tears that fell down your face.
you hadn't noticed that he had stoop up from the stool and positioned himself between your legs, but having him so close again made your heart feel warm. and you looked down, knowing that if your eyes met his green orbits you'd throw yourself back right into his arms.
"lan..."
"i swear, y/n," he interrupted you; you could see his eyes were also watery, tears threatening to come out as well, but he held them back as he kept talking. "i know i fucked up, but it won't happen again."
closing your eyes, you sighed. your fingers softly wrapped around his wrist as you kept silently crying.
"please," his whisper made you sob, wanting nothing more than to go back in time and never let go of him. "i promise."
as you took in his words, your hand slid to his neck and he rested his forehead against yours. your breaths were mixing together and you nodded your head slightly, giving him your final answer with that small gesture.
before you could think about it, his lips were on yours. soft, just as you remembered, and you could taste both your tears on his lips. he kissed you slowly, tenderly, as if he didn't want you to slip out of his fingers again.
and you knew he didn't.
"i've missed this," he sighed in between kisses, pulling you a little closer, his arms now wrapped around your waist. "i've missed you, baby."
at the sweet pet name that you never thought you'd be hearing from his lips again, you exhaled with a smile.
"want to join me in bed?" you asked in a whisper, your fingers softly brushing against the skin of his neck. you wanted nothing more than to sleep next to him again, so close that one would think you two were literally attached at the hip.
"you're inviting me to my bed?" he chuckled as his arms went lower on your body, pulling you closer and picking you up from the counter.
"our bed," you corrected him with a giggle of your own.
he planted a soft kiss on your lips and walked you back to his room, wrapped in his arms. he lied you down on the mattress gently, keeping his body over yours. your gazes locked for a few seconds before his lips attacked yours hungrily, the tenderness of the previous interactions now long gone.
your hands roamed all over each other's bodies, clothes soon flying everywhere as both your breaths got heavier.
he started trailing small, wet kisses down your breasts and torso, his hands carefully pulling your underwear down your legs. he spread your open for him and positioned himself between your thighs, looking up at you from the edge of the bed.
you slightly nodded, giving him permission to go on. a long sigh left your lips as soon as you felt his lips pressing a soft kiss on your sensitive bud, and your fingers instinctively got lost in his curls, urging him closer.
"you're so gorgeous, baby," he mumbled, his hot breath against your slick making you moan softly.
you felt his tongue flatten against you and he started licking your cunt as if he was starving. a smug expression plastered on his face when your back arched as his lips found your clit again and he sucked, fingers tugging on his hair.
"fuck, lando..." you stuttered, your legs closing around his head as you felt the knot on your lower stomach about to snap. a small groan escaped his lips, his hands gripping around your thighs, surely leaving small bruises on your smooth skin.
soon, the warmth of his tongue on your pussy felt too overwhelming and your orgasm didn't take long to wash over you, leaving you a moaning mess under his touch.
as you came down from your climax, he got rid of his boxers and hovered over you again, his lips finding yours once more. as you tasted yourself on his tongue, you hummed contently into the kiss, your fingers finding their wait to his curls again.
"you alright, love?" he gently asked, taking a minute to look into your eyes.
"need you inside of me," you panted, your legs hooking at each side of his body as you pulled him closer.
he locked his lips with yours as he teased your folds with his cock, both of you moaning into the other's mouth at the friction. he positioned himself at your entrance and slowly pushed inside of you, letting you adjust to his size.
"so fucking tight for me, baby," his voice sounded breathless as he started thrusting into you without a hurry.
he took it slow, his movements almost lazy but deep.
and god, did it feel good.
you held each other tightly as he kept that slow pace that you two seemed to be enjoying. he reveled in the way your sweet moans filled the room and your nails drew crescent moons on his shoulders, your face contorting in pleasure as he stretched you out deliciously.
feeling your second orgasm starting to build up, your pussy clamped down on him, drawing him even deeper inside of you; which resulted in a low grunt from his lips.
"baby, i'm gonna... fuck..." you whimpered, unable to even form a proper sentence as the pressure in your lower stomach increased again.
"look at me, love," he groaned, and you did as he had asked.
with your gazes locked in each other's, it only took the two of you a few strokes to come undone, your eyes rolled to the back of your head as you felt him cumming inside of you and leaving you weak under his body.
he collapsed on top of you, a little winded as he left a sweet kiss on your lips before moving to lay down on the mattres, pulling you with him.
"i love you," he uttered, his arms wrapped tightly around your body as he kept his cock buried deep inside of you.
"i love you, lan," you mumbled, your face finding the spot between his jaw and his shoulder as you caught your breath, feeling yourself slowly drifting off to sleep with your nose nuzzled on his neck.
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The Ol Switcharoo (pt5)
Stan x reader / ford x reader
Summary: you are forced to question the life you've lived for 30 years.
Warning: none
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"I'm feeling little over dressed for the occasion." You said stepping into the kitchen wearing one of your best outfits for the date Mable had prepared for you and Stanford.
Stanford stood in the kitchen with a smile. "Are you kidding!? Look at'cha, you're stunning!" Stanford said you smiled as he reached out a hand and guided you to the table, pulling out your seat before pushing you in and sitting down himself.
Mable insisted your first date be at home, Dipper and Soos dressed to a T in fancy waiter outfits the table set with the nicest/ least stained tablecloth in the house. And Mable in a chef hat.
"I promise to take out out somewhere real nice." Stanford whispered as Mable scooped whatever she had on the stove onto plates. You chuckled in response before Dipper and soos presented you with the meals.
Your eyes widened. You looked at Stanford mouthing a thank you for the real date dinner in advance. Stanford managed to get you away from Mable and Into the car for some real food.
"Most fancy places are closed for the night. The best I can offer is burgers." He said, driving down the quiet road. "I love Mable, but anything is better than that." You both laughed. Eventually, you had your food as he pulled up to the lake, and you both sat and ate. Talking Like two teenagers on a first date.
For the following weeks, you found your rooms were now shared, and mornings and evening were greeted with quick kisses. It was a new routine you found yourselves falling into. Mable noted that stan was "a lot less grunkler" since the change. Even when everything was crazy it still worked.
After everything in your lives had finally calmed down, after saving the shack, repairing it, a Zombie apocalypse. You found the house was silent with what felt like the first night of peaceful sleep.
"Well, well, well, if it isn't Y/n! I have been trying to reach you for a while!"
The voice that pulled you from your sleep boomed loud enough to startle you awake. You sat up in bed seeing the world around you was greyscaled Stanford fast asleep next to you and a familiar glowing freak above you.
His single eye staring down at you.
"Wh...will?..what are you doing here?"
You asked, sitting up as you did the world around, turned up right, causing you to slide straight out of bed into a chair. "Relax, we're in your dream, and the names BILL though I can't say I blame you, I was a complete and total secret but trust me y/n I know all about you."
You stared at him squinting, you where far to tired to understand what he was saying to you right now.
"What do you want?"
"A truce, I came to apologize for breaking into stans mind and almost killing shooting star and pine tree. And to warn you."
"Warn me?"
"Something big is coming something that will change your life! And I want you to know I'm on your side."
"On my side? Bill, I don't understand what you are talking about!"
"Trust me, you will, and when you do, you'll want a friend to be there for you, I'm offering myself for when everything you know changes. By the way, how well do you really know that stan?" He asked, pointing to Stanford asleep in bed.
"That stan?" You turned back, but as you did, you shot up in bed, clutching a piece of paper, breathing heavy. You looked down at the paper that looked like it had been torn out of something.
"Contact me, BFF!" Was scribbled across the top, and twoard the bottom was a cipher and some sort of incantation. You still fought to catch your breath. Your hand moved to shake Stanford awake, but your hand fell straight through the air and hit the empty space of your mattress.
"Stanford?"
That was a couple of weeks ago. You had folded up the page and tucked it under your mattress, trying to forget about the whole thing.
But every know and then you would get this hotrible feeling, you started to look at stanford weird and did your best to shake off the feeling. Luckily, Stanford had promised to take you out to dinner just the two of you. He told you he had something important to tell you.
"Aaahh, what if he asks you to marry him!?" Mable said excitedly from behind you as you had let her brush your hair. "I highly doubt that. You said clipping your last earring into place.
"Dipper! Doesn't y/n look beautiful! Grunkle stans going to ask her to marry him!" You rolled your eyes and looked at dippers worried face in the mirror.
"What's wrong?" You asked, turning around and crouching to his level. "Y/n There's something important I want to share with you I wanted to come to you first but I went against my better judgment and told stan first now i know you where the right choice."
"Of course you know you can tell me anything, dipper."
"OK you know about how strange and unusual gravity falls is." You nodded thinking to every monster, dinosaur, and ghost you had encountered with the twins even recalling some of the stuff from when you were young. Then the feeling set in again.
"Something big is coming something that will change your life as you know it!"
Rang out in your head. You wondered if what Dipper was about to tell you had anything to do with this. "Ah, c'mon dipdip can't this wait till after y/n and stan get home?" Mable asked, appearing from behind you now covered in makeup. Dipper rubbed his arm. "I guess..."
"Are you sure, Dipper? I can listen." He nodded. "OK, I'll see you in a few hours, ok?" You said ruffling his head. "Call if anything happens.
That was an hour ago already. You sat nervously at the restaurant Stanford promised to meet you at after he finished a few things up at the shack.
You tapped your glass and counted cars as they drove past the window you were sat by and looked at the gifted (more like lifted since it was a stolen antique store in portland) watch on your wrist and saw how late it was getting.
You sighed, resting your head on the table, watching the water droplets race down your glass. And you watched as the glass went up as the hair that fell around your face go cup as well. You pushed yourself up only to find yourself lifting out of the chair into the air before crashing back into your booth.
You paused only for a moment, trying to wrap your head around what that might have been, then ran to call the Pines family.
There was no answer for a long time you hung up and refilled several times before giving up. You grabbed your things and raced to the shack only being stopped by the same phenomenon as before.
Was this part of what Bill was trying to tell you about? Where are Stanford and the kids ok? So many thoughts raced through your head as you ran as fast as you could home.
"WHY would they call him unnamed!?"
"Unless stan isn't really stan"
The two kids looked up at the large painting of their great uncle on the wall behind them in horror.
"But there has to be some explanation as to why he would have all these fake ID'S and why that news paper says he's dead." Mable said trying to rationalize as Dipper continued to pull things from the box
"What about Y/n!? Is y/n even y/n!? What if she's in on this!?"
"In on what?" You asked pushing open the door.
The kids both screamed at your appearance.
"Are you kids ok!? Where is your grunkle and...what is all this?" You asked stepping further into the room to get a better look at what they had laid out on the floor in front of them.
In a different universe, Stanford Pines was an honest man. In a different universe, he didn't lie or cheat. He showed up to his date on time, there was no weird gravital anomalies interrupting your day.
You thought about this alternate reality as you stood over the fake IDs, news paper clipping, pass ports, the screen from the shack security cameras glow portraying a man you only assumed to be Stanford pines carrying gallons worth if toxic waste into the gift shop.
"What is this?"
You asked staring down at it afraid to move. "Is this why there are government vehicles surrounding this place?"
"You mean you don't know why stand has all this?" Dipper asked.
You shook your head.
In another universe, Stanford agreed to visit your family, even to just get away with you. In that same universe, he never changed, you where still hunting monsters and doing science stuff. In that same universe, you move out of the shack into a lovely home you share together, you teach together, and you live a beautiful and adventurous life. And he was still your Frodsy.
You didn't realize, but there was a ringing in your ear that tuned out the two children as they talked. All you could do is let time pass as your brain tried to work out yet another explanation.
Then Mable found the code.
"This isn't like any code I've ever seen before." Dipper said.
"The vending machine." You said quietly.
Your body had a mind of its own as you followed the twins to the vending machine in the giftshop.
"How well do you know that stan?"
This had to be what Bill meant by "that stan"
Without thinking, you typed the code into the vending machine as the kids distracted and fought off Soos, Without thinking...
"He swore he blocked this off..." You going down the stairs you hadn't seen in 30 years.
You felt as though you could throw up. Whe. You saw what was going on in the basement, the portal up and running, and with only a few moments to go. "So this is what's been causing problems... this is where he's been going!?" You half shout half say to the room.
You stare down at the desk seeing two familiar red journal. "The journal..." You and Dipper say at the same time.
"You know about these?" You ask in unison again.
"Your grunkle and I wrote them? How do you know about these?"
"When I said I wanted to tell you something." You watched Dipper pull a third journal from his vest.
"Grunkle stan wrote these?" Mable asked when you took the journal from dippers hands opening all of them to reveal the blueprints for the portal that sat in the room adjacent the one you stood in.
"What is it?" Dipper asked, looking at the pages. You glanced up at the timer and suddenly felt yourself fliat back into your body and realization kicked in "We have no time.We need to shut it off now. Kids stay here. Soos come help me. " You moved quickly. "We can help!"
"No! Please just stay safe! If your grunkle gets back, do NOT let him out of this control room!" You ordered them.
You and soos worked quickly enough to turn off the emergency kill switch just like you rememberd doing years ago. You felt a million emotions trickling inside you. Most of all, you felt angry that he would lie about keeping the portal, lie about working on it, and keep you out of it.
You scanned the room as the portal whipped your hair around you finally spotted it.
30 years never felt more wasted than it did in this very moment the moment it took you to walk from the key switch all the way to the shiny red button.
"Y/n Wait!" You frozen looking over at Stanford in the door way as the kids and now soos pushed him back.
"Don't touch that button, please!"
"WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU!"
the kids couldn't hold him any longer, and he pushed past them running to meet you only to stop halfway, noticing you inch closer to the button as a defense. "Please! Just wait! Don't do anything! I can explain!" You watched Mable and Dipper get up. Dipper made eye contact with you as if he were trying to telepathically tell you something. It only took you spotting Mable trying to sneak around you for you to realize.
You stepped forward, pointing an accusing finger at Stanford. "After everything! You lied to me!? For how long!? When were you going to tell me? DONT YOU REMEMBER ALL THE HORRIBLE THINGS THIS THING HAS DONE!?" You asked poking him in the chest with a finger pushing him away from the button where Mable now stood.
"Yes! I wanted to tell you sooner! I was going to tell you today-"
"Today!? That's why you wanted to have dinner." You were getting off track. Before anyone could say anything else, your feet lifted off the ground, and you were in the air. "Now, Mable, press it now!" You heard Dipper yell.
"Mable, wait!" She froze as Stanford dove through the air for her as she gripped onto the pole.
Dipper soos and yourself took onto the task of catching him and pulling him away from her.
"30 YEARS OF NOTHING! STANFORD PINES! I CANT BELIEVE I WAISTED ALL THIS TIME JUST FOR YOU TO PULL A STUNT LIKE THIS!" He watched your angry tears roll down your cheek then up into the air around you.
"It wasnt waited, just hear me out all of you!" He plead as you held him against the wall. He stared you in the eyes a sad look met your furious gaze.
"I wanted to tell you all, your going to hear some bad stuff about me, some of it's true but believe me everything! Even this is for my family for a of you." He said the last part pointedly at you.
"Hit the button mable!" You yelled.
"Don't trust him!" Dipper followed up.
She looked around at everyone when her eyes locked with stanfords you knew what she was going to say
You quickly made a move to push it before her, but Stanford grabbed your hand and held you back. "I'm sorry! Trust me." You stared at him.
"I trust you grunkle stan!"
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Chapter 63 of human Bill Cipher trying to debate his way out of still being the Mystery Shack's prisoner. Soos has found the stolen Journal 4 in Bill's possession and has to decide what to do about it in light of everything else he's learned about Bill lately.
[*you may notice chapter 61 is missing! This plot was done sooner, so I'll be posting chapter 61 sometime after 64. It's not chronological so you're not missing anything!]
Soos stared dumbfounded at the journal with a 4 on the cover that he'd pulled from Bill's hiding place. Ford had lost Journal 4 last fallâhe'd said gnomes had stolen it. How in the world had Bill gotten it?
Soos sat in the attic window seat and flipped through it. The first few pages were Ford's journal entriesâhis observations of the dimensional rips they were glueing shut in Gravity Falls post-Weirdmageddon, a hand-drawn map highlighting various places around the globe he wanted to investigate, a few drawings and observations of paranormal beings he hadn't seen his first time in town, half a sketch of a gnome that ended with a jagged scribble across the page followed by a page that said "Shmebulock" over and over.
And then a page that said, in an unfamiliar handwriting of jagged, narrow gray letters: "CURSED BOOK! If your name is Mabon Mason Pines, STOP READING NOW or ENJOY YOUR HEX!"
Bill had written page after page of some weird code of gray and yellow-green dots and dashes. A few sentences in Englishâevery one of them was a threatening message to Ford. "Everything would have been fantastic if you'd just helped me finish, Fordsy." "You'll regret not siding with me when you had the chance." "You should have known better than to let your idiot brother turn you against me." "Sixer, you're lying to yourself every time you say you never worshiped me, and you know it. You spent the first third of your life running away from the god you were raised with and the second third chasing after me. Don't waste your last third denying it. YOU'RE MINE." A small, worrying diagram of what looked like the interdimensional portal. And a sticker.
Wait, hold on.
A sticker. One of Mabel's. The rest of the page was the same as the others, the two-tone dots and dashes, except for the sticker, and an arrow drawn from one paragraph to the sticker.
A yellow smiley, its round edges filled in with black marker to make a triangle, over the words "Good job!"
Soos stared at the sticker.
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A couple of weeks ago, Melody had texted to let Soos know that there was a mess in the upstairs bathroom, and the kids said they'd been fighting a werewolf ghost.
When Soos had gotten home the next morning, Melody had pulled him aside and quietly told him she hadn't wanted to worry him and the Stans, but she did not think it was a werewolf ghost.
When Soos saw the bathroom, he didn't think it was a werewolf ghost either.
It was a scene from a horror movie. Menacing magical sigils painted all over the walls in blood and toothpaste, Bill's zodiac painted on one mirror, the other mirror broken, glass and water all over the floor. It looked like the site of a really wet demon summoning. This contained none of the hallmarks of ghostly or werewolfish activity. Why would Bill do this?
Soos was kind of reluctant to ask Bill. Bill still sorta scared him sometimes. Sure, he looked like a lost 18-year-old, but Soos knew what teens were like in a fight. So he asked Mabel instead.
Mabel pursed her lips uncomfortably. "Ask Dipper."
So Soos asked Dipper.
Dipper winced and. "Promise you won't get mad."
Soos considered that. "Yeah, I guess that's a fair deal."
Dipper confessed that Bill got accidentally locked in the upstairs bathroom for like a whole day, because he and Mabel didn't hear him yelling. Not because they were out of the house when they shouldn't have been. They were just... somewhere else in the house. Doing something loud. For the whole day.
While Bill was trapped alone.
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Soos had vented to Abuelita about cleaning the bathroom. Like sure, he got Bill was annoyed about being stuck, but that seemed excessive.
Abuelita had made the observation that sometimes people in profoundly bleak and oppressive situations would just... destroy whatever was around them. Like punching a hole in the wall or snapping a pencil when you were angry, but much more so. Not because they wanted their surroundings to be destroyed, but because that was the last and only thing they had power over, and they needed to feel like they were in control of something. Even if that thing was merely changing their environment from ordered to chaotic.
Bill didn't have control over very much. He probably hadn't since he died. Soos didn't know what kind of space triangle afterlife Bill had been in before he showed up as Toga Lady, but it couldn't have been great if he'd come straight back here.
Soos could remember the one time weeks ago he'd let Bill into the bathroom to shower and forgotten to come back and let him out. How Bill had screamed so all the Mystery Shack's tourists could hear; how he'd seethed in Soos's face, how he'd said he'd rather blow their collective cover and throw them all on the mercy of the town's law enforcement than remain locked in the bathroom a second longer than they'd agreed upon. Soos had thought Bill was just impatient and hotheaded.
Standing in the bathroom, looking at the material evidence of Bill's claustrophobic terrorâthe broken glass, the spilled bloodâhe wondered.
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The same day, he had felt a breeze in the gift shop and found the trap doors to the roof left open. He'd climbed up, shut them, and in between tours he'd visited his office to check yesterday's security tapes.Â
He saw Wendy coming into the shack to hang out the morning before. That was fine. Soos had discovered she did that from time to time on days the shack was closed, but she wasn't doing anything bad and she hadn't brought it up yet, so Soos didn't bring it up either. Maybe she just needed a private place to hang. Teen stuff. He was just glad Wendy felt that safe at the Mystery Shack. Maybe she'd just gone up to hang out on the roof and forgot to shut the trap doors...
And then, right there on screen, Soos saw Bill letting himself into the gift shop, through the door, which he shouldn't be able to open. A chill shot up Soos's back. The door curse was their only real means of containing Bill. If he could use doors now, he was out, there was no way they could trap him without doing something crazy like locking him in the bunker and hoping he didn't kill himself.
Or could he use doors? Soos thought back to the frantic messages on the bathroom wall, written in Bill's own bloodâhis desperation over being unable to escape. Maybe he could use doors but not doorknobs. That was okay, maybe?
On tape, he saw Wendy run into Bill. He saw Wendy take Bill onto the roof. Out in the open air, where he could just... do whatever. But he didn't do whatever. Soos fast-forwarded the tape until Wendy and Bill came back down, and Bill simply returned to the living room.
He'd had the perfect opportunity to shove Wendy off the roof or escape. He didn't take it.
If all Bill was using his new door skills for was ducking into the gift shop and hanging out on the roof with Wendy, Soos thought maybe it would be kinda mean to take that away from him. There weren't a lot of other places Bill could go in the shack. (Soos kept seeing the blood on the bathroom wall. He kept trying to imagine what kind of helplessness would drive someone that far.) Maybe Bill needed the open air.
So Soos had put the security tape on his desk, not sure what to do about it.
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A couple of day after that, while Soos was restocking the gift shop in between waves of tourists, he'd seen Wendy reading an oddly dull-looking booklet instead of one of her usual magazines. He tilted his head to glance at the cover. The Oregon state driving manual. "Aw dude, gonna get your learner's permit?"
"Think so," Wendy said. "Don't tell my dad."
Soos remembered Wendy groaning about her dad wrangling her into doing errands if she ever got her license. "Your secret is safe with me."
"Thanks."
"What made you change your mind? You were totally against getting a license a week ago."
"It's probably those stupid Gleeful Auto commercials that have been worming into my dreams." Wendy laughed. "I'm just waking up in the morning like, neeeed caaar."
"Oh yeah! Heh, funny coincidence, Melody says she had a dream like that too. Sometimes she gets these like, dreams about monsters watching her in bed? But one time, the monster was Bud Gleeful, whispering in her ear about a big car sale. She totally woke up laughing!"
"Ha! Annoying car commercials should be banned, man. Why do we need to be told multiple times a day to spend thousands of dollars?"
"You make a salient point."
They fell silent for a moment as Wendy read a couple more paragraphs. Then she said, "That, plus... I was talking to Goldie the other day."
Soos looked up from the t-shirt he'd been putting on a clothes hanger. "Oh. Yeah?"
"About where we wanna go when we get out of town."
"Huh." Very casually, Soos asked, "What did Goldie say?"
"He wants to go on some big vacation. Like a world cruise or something, I dunno."
"Huh." Soos wondered if that was true. He tried to imagine Bill Cipher as a tourist. Floating triangle in a Hawaiian shirt with a camera hanging from a strap and a fanny pack. What kind of places would he even visit? Soos bet he wanted to visit the pyramids. Heh. (Was that stereotyping? Maybe that was stereotyping.)
"And I told him I'm moving to Portland for college."
"Oh, hey, I didn't know you were thinking about college."
"I... actually, never told anybody else before," Wendy said. "I've been thinking about it for years, but part of me felt like it's just a fantasy? But Goldie said when he got out of high school, he did the same thingâmoved to another town, made a new group of friends, all that. And... I don't know, actually talking to him out loud about it just... made it feel real, you know? So I thought, if I'm gonna move to Portland, I should probably start planning for it. Starting with how I'm getting there." She held up the driving manual.
Soos nodded slowly. "Huh. Yeah. That's a pretty mature way to look at it."
And that was what Bill was talking to Wendy about on the roof? Just... listening to a teen vent and helping her figure out her future?
And so, Soos took the security tape off his desk and put it in a drawer.
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A few days later, Soos had heard the downstairs bathroom sink running for several minutes, assumed someone had forgotten to turn it off, and went to turn it off himselfâand had caught Bill, in the dark, half undressed, washing himself in the sink.
After Soos had backed out and profusely apologized, he'd asked, "Butâhow come you're washing in the sink? I can let you in the upstairs bathroom if you needâ"
"Worry about your own grooming habits and leave mine alone," Bill snapped. "As long as I don't smell, what do you humans care how I do it. Soap is soap and water is water."
It took Soos several days to realize he didn't think Bill had had a shower since he got locked in the bathroom. And nobody had noticed, because Bill made sure nobody noticed, because he'd been keeping himself clean in the bathroom he couldn't get locked in.
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Dipper would go all summer without showering if he could get away with it; Stan showered like once a week and had constant old man smell; Abuelita also showered weekly and had a more refined old lady smell; Soos didn't know when Ford showered, but he'd never caught him doing it and Ford always smelled weirdly like burned hair. Soos showered almost daily during tourist seasonâthat Mr. Mystery suit was hotâbut outside that might go three days at a time. Mabel showered near daily.
From what Soos had observed, Bill was showering like, at least twice a week. He didn't know how often Bill cleaned himself in the sink in between.
That meant he was showering more often than two-thirds of the house.
Yet he was the only one in the house living under the threat of being thrown in the tub at 3 a.m. if someone decided he hadn't bathed enough for their tastes.
The reason Bill had refused to shower during his first week of imprisonment was so he could use the condition of his body as a bargaining chipâwith no physical possessions in the world, his own body was the only bargaining chip he hadâto try to buy a little more dignity. In return, his captors had taken more dignity away. They permitted Bill less autonomy over how to take care of his body than the household's children had.
Dipper had never gotten forced into a bathroom he couldn't let himself out of.
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The day after the eclipse, Ford had pulled Soos aside and said quietly, "Soos, as soon as you have some timeâcould you repair the door to the kids' room? Before the end of the day? The latch has been broken since the tooth fairy's attack."
"Uh, sure, I can probably do that," Soos said. "How come?" The latch had been broken for a couple weeks, and the Pines hadn't been worried about it before.
"Right now, the door can swing freely with just a push," Ford said. "I think Bill's figured out how to use that to get in. Which is worrisome, since he shouldn't be able to use any doors..."
"O-oh." Soos thought about the swinging door into the gift shop. "Yeah, uh... sounds bad. Byyy the wayâhow'd you figure out he knows how to use the door?"
"Dipper says Bill somehow got in and out of the room last night," Ford said. "Mabel fell asleep in the living room and Bill carried her upstairs. I really don't like the thought of Bill being able to get his hands on the kids while they're asleep and defenseless."
Ford was mad at Bill for tucking a kid into bed? That was the big red flag? "No problem! I'll fix the door right after work."
The next time Soos visited his office, he took the security tape out of his drawer, rewound it, stuck it back into the tape recorder, and let that day's security camera footage overwrite and erase the evidence of Bill's visit to the gift shop.
####
And now, today, carrying Journal 4 in both hands, Soos trudged downstairs, trying to figure out what to do with it. He had to return it to Ford, obviouslyâbut Bill and the Stans were already in the middle of a discussion that sounded a lot more like an argument. Flinging a stolen journal into the middle of the proceedings would just make it worse. Maybe he should wait until they were finished and everyone had cooled down a littleâ?
While Soos was upstairs, the discussion had apparently moved into the kitchen. He hovered awkwardly at the bottom of the stairs, watching.
"What do you mean, you need kitchen access," Stan was asking, "you already have kitchen access. It's never been off-limits! Even after you peed in the sink!"
"It's not kitchen access if I need to ask someone else for permission to eat anything but snacks."Â
"No one's making you ask for permission! You can take what you want!"
"Okay, fine. So what can I eat?" Bill gestures at the shelves. "Go on. List anything you can think of. Anything."
Stan grimaced, and glanced at Ford to see if he was willing to walk into the obvious trap first.
Ford looked at the nearby shelves. "Cereal."
"One point for Stanford Pines! Cereal! So am I supposed to eat dry cereal for every single meal, orâ?"
"No, of course not."
"All right, then what else?"
"Brown meat," Stan said. "We've got plenty of brown meat. It's good for you!"
"You didn't give me can opener rights," Bill said.
"Huh."
"So no brown meat," Bill said. "No canned soup, no canned chili, no canned fruit, no canned vegetablesâ"
Ford cut in, "Some of the cans have pull tabs, you don't need a can opener for those."
"Terrific observation! As soon as you realized I could open those cans myself, you moved them all under the counter because you thought I'd use the sharp edges as weapons!"
"It's... possible to open cans without a can opener, I did it sometimes while roughing it in other dimensionsâ"
"Yeah, wearing off the metal rim with a rock, right? Lemme just go outside and grab a rockâoh wait." Bill crossed his arms.
Ford sighed, and turned to Stan to suggest something else.
Stan surveyed the available supplies, spotted the bread, and said, "You could make sandwiches!"
"With what filling?"
"Uh..." Stan kept looking.
Meats and cheeses, of course, were kept in the fridge. Along with jelly, condiments, most vegetables... tuna or spam weren't options, they were canned... "Hey, we leave out some meats that don't need refrigeration. Sausages and stuff."
"Right, right. The ones that don't need refrigeration because they're wrapped in plastic you need a knife to cut," Bill said. "Sometimes I bite the plastic open with my teeth and rip off chunks of sausage with my fingernails, that's always fun! Then you put the leftovers in the fridge, and I'm out of luck until we buy another sausage."
"You could put... peanut butter on your sandwiches?" Ford tried. "Peanut butter's nutritious."
Bill fixed him with a hard look. "For the past five weeks, every time I've gotten a meal without asking someone else to help feed me like a baby, I've had nothing but peanut butter and banana sandwiches, peanut butter and jerky sandwiches, peanut butter and raisin sandwiches, and peanut butter and potato chip sandwiches. And we're out of bananas, jerky, and raisins." He pointed at the tortillas. "Once I decided to get creative and made myself a cold peanut butter quesadilla! I can't even add spices, because guess where the breakable glass spice jars are kept?"
"Pasta," Ford tried. "We could keep the pasta out."
"Oh, wow, that'd be great! I just love pasta! But I can't open the microwave and I can't turn on the stove! How do I heat the water, Stanford?"
Ford frowned. "Hm."
"I can cook, you knowânot that any of you bothered to ask! It might not suit your tastes, but it suits mine! I wouldn't need your help to eat if you didn't make me need help! I am sick to deathâ" his voice went thick and took on an uncharacteristic waver, "âof having to beg to... eat." He cleared his throat, squeezed his eyes shut, and rubbed his eyelids with one hand. "Sh-shouldn't evenâneed to eat." He clenched his jaw to keep it from trembling.
Stan and Ford exchanged a guilty look. Stan said, "You don't have to begâ I mean, we know the, uh... position you're in..."
Bill was silent for a moment as he tried to get a tough face back on. His voice came out as a rough whisperâtoo thick to get any louder without breaking. "I had to negotiate to get burnt eggs."
Ford winced.
Soos was dumbfounded.
When had Bill had to negotiate for food? He could all too easily understand how it might have happenedâBill was an annoying guy, sometimes they had to pull out dumb bargains to get him to do stuff. But bargaining for food should never be on that list. Meeting Bill's basic nutritional needs couldn't be dependent on whether he was annoying that day. If it was, he'd starve.
It sounded like he was starving. Right under Soos's roof. He hadn't even noticed.
He thought about the piles of junk food trash upstairs and the bag of chips Bill had hurled across the room.
Ford said, "We'll... discuss it."
"We'll figure something out," Stan said. "I mean it."
Bill nodded silently. Head down, without uncovering his eyes, he hurried out of the kitchen and toward the stairs.
He nearly bumped into Soos's chest without noticing him. Soos backed up a step, tucking Journal 4 under his arm. "Whoa, hey!"
Bill froze, head jerking up. "You."Â His voice was thick and his glare was watery and poisonous. "Don't you have anything better to do than eavesdrop?" He tried to elbow past Soos, smacking his leg with his umbrella. "Move."
Soos realized uneasily that Bill's face looked a little slimmer than it had when he'd arrived.
He stepped in Bill's way. "Can't go upstairs right now. Attic's being cleaned."
"I didn't ask you to clean!"
"I'm not cleaning for you, dawg. It's just gotta be cleaned."
"Fine! Whatever!" Bill veered around the staircase and stomped down the hall, muttering, "Can't decide when I eat, can't decide when I shower, why should I get to choose when my hovel's swept..."
Soos's leg hurt where Bill had smacked it. (Bill couldn't even control whether or not he cried; all he had control over was making someone else hurt.)
In the kitchen, Stan murmured, "Didn't even realize we don't keep anything decent out on the counters. They're so crowded..."
"Chip bags take up a lot of space." Ford sighed. "I assumed he'd get a serving with everyone else whenever Mrs. Ramirez cooks."
"He does, but she only does dinners. And he'll only eat it if he watched her cook it. I've seen him get lunch with Mabel, but I don't know what he does when she's not..." Stan spotted Soos on the stairs. He tiredly called, "Soos? You need something?"
"Uhhh..." Soos hid the journal behind his back. "Nope! I just thought I'd come downstairs! For no reason." He awkwardly walked up the stairs backwards, journal still tucked behind him. "Andâand now I'm going up again." He stopped at the landing and scooted sideways up the next flight of stairs. "See ya."
He pressed the journal to his chest and returned to the attic.
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When Soos and Abuelita moved into the shack, the first thing Soos had done was turn Ford's ground-floor study into a bedroom for Abuelita. Because she was a little old lady, and not quite as steady as she used to be, so Soos didn't want her constantly going up and down the stairsâbecause falling once, just ONCE, could send her to the hospital or worse. That was how serious it was! You don't mess around with that!
Bill tripped and fell on the stairs so often that they could use it to tell when he was awake. And nobody had thought to offer him a cane? Did anybody even ask if he was alright?
When Bill first arrived and tried to murder everyone, naturally, he came out of it pretty banged up and bruised. That was to be expected. It was self-defense. They'd gotten used to seeing Bill with scrapes on his arms and legs, rope burns around his ankles, and the angry purple-black bruises of chain links over his arms. But in all the weeks since then, Soos hadn't seen Bill bruise-free once. Bruises on his shins and arms, scrapes on his elbows and knees. Soos had seen him with a four-inch burn on his forearm. Bill had brushed it off.
In Bill's first few days in the shack, he'd resorted to peeing in the kitchen sink because nobody had bothered to give a guy who couldn't open doors a way to use the bathroom. And they were the reason he couldn't open doors in the first place!
He threw up in the living room in the middle of the night and went upstairs to sleep on couch cushions on the floor and nobody had talked about it.
He burned off all his hair and was so upset about it that he stole Soos's zodiac blanket and hid under it for half a week, and everyone but Mabel just ignored him.
In less than a month in the Mystery Shack, Bill had lost a tooth.
He had been dragged out of the house during a weird weather phenomenon while terrified out of his mind. Soos had seen Bill cowering on the ground in fear, Ford looming over him, grabbing him by the collar and snarling in rage. Bill had been pleading with everyone in hearing range not to make him go, and had come back in such a state of shock he could hardly walk.Â
And yet, he'd protected the whole town from getting hurt in zero gravityâand he'd brought a pet for Soos.
They'd tried to execute Bill two days later.
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Soos sat in the window seat, flipping through the remaining filled-in pages in Journal 4. The last few pages were packed with stickers. A cat that said PURRFECT! A smiling fish that said A REEL PAL! Bill had started a little collection of pizza slice stickers for some reason. A couple of holographic rainbows, a smiling scratch-and-sniff sun. (Apparently, the sun smelled like lemons and oranges. Astronomy facts!)
Soos reached the current page. Bill was using several pieces of paperâregular printer paper and notebook paper, folded in halfâlike a bookmark. Soos unfolded them. A list of animals ranked by fuzziness. (Soos was satisfied that he'd been placed under the "smooth and squishy" category, but wondered whether he should be bothered by the fact that he shared the category with pigs and slugs.) A drawing of Bill riding a looping rocket ship and waving a fishbowl helmet above him. A drawing of a blue house with a couple of kids and a pig in the window. Several drawings of shape people kinda like Bill: a pink heart person labeled "Me in Flatworld,"Â a stern-looking red stop sign wearing sunglasses labeled "Bill's parole officer," Bill dancing, the pink heart protecting Bill from some villainous-looking shapesâall clearly Mabel's art.
Several notebook pages in someone else's handwriting detailing names, addresses, and contact information, with statements Soos couldn't make sense ofâas if maybe someone had been asking somebody else questions and writing down their answers. He thought the questions might be about how some people had reacted to the end of Weirdmageddon. He got the impression the people being discussed had known that Weirdmageddon was coming. He got the impression they were disappointed it hadn't happened. There were several questions at the end: How will we rendes-vouz? (Whoever was writing didn't know how to spell rendezvous, but to be fair Soos wasn't 100% sure either.) What supplies do you need? What are your interim orders?
Soos stared at the notebook papers.
He flipped back through the journal again, looking at each page more closely.
Sometimes the two-tone dot-and-dash segments had a stray human word: a few characters he recognized from his Teach Yourself Japanese workbooks, sometimes words Soos thought might be Arabic but honestly he didn't have a clue. At one point he listed half a dozen human names that Soos didn't recognize. The most common character was a stretched-out letter M (Mabel?), followed by a 6 knocked on its side (Sixer?).
The dot-and-dash segments had occasional amateurish illustrations. Sometimes they were human stick figures; sometimes the stick figures' heads had symbols off of Bill's zodiac wheel. He saw Stan's fish symbol, Gideon's star symbol, and Mabel's shooting star symbol. Ford's stick figures were the only ones with hands; Bill consistently gave them six fingers. The doodles were like particularly esoteric cave drawings; they were so bad that Soos couldn't tell what most of them were supposed to illustrate.
Except for one featuring Bill (as a triangle) and Mabel and some other inscrutable figures in a really awesome car with flames on the side, its coolness limited only by the fact that it was all in gray and yellow-green crayon. When Soos had been in high school, there had always been a couple of kids who didn't know how to draw anything except expensive cars or name-brand sports shoes, but they drew them in extreme realistic detail. Apparently, Bill was that kind of artist. Nothing but stick figures and the sickest crayon car Soos had ever seen.
It didn't do anything to dispel Soos's impression of Bill as a lost alien 18-year-old.
On one page, in sloppy lines of handwriting that meandered drunkenly up and down the paper, Bill had written, "I don't get why you won't give me a second shot. I asked you to join my gang. I serenaded you in a pyramid. I got a fantastic makeover. I offered you godhood. I showed you my dimension. I didn't torture you until I had to. I even made you a skin couch! I know how much you've always wanted a leather furniture set! I've given you everything from chicken zombification magic to jelly beans, what does it take? What am I missing?"
Soos reread Bill's other messages to Ford. All that "you'll regret not siding with me" junk wasn't threats. It was the impotent rage of a socially inept teenager who didn't understand his own creepiness had driven his friends away. It was the whiny moan of some guy going "Why doesn't she like me anymore" about an ex-girlfriend who had told him five times she didn't like him anymore because he didn't listen to her. Like that guy Wendy dated last summer. So like, a jerk, but not a terrifying world-ending monster jerk, just an annoying creep jerk. A regular jerk. A human jerk.
Soos stood, gave one last look at this journalâclearly stolen, definitely a violation of Bill's "no writing materials" restriction, completely stuffed full of mysterious messages to outsiders and some kind of weird alien code that could say anything at all and might have been super dangerousâand he slid it back into the ripped seam in the attic seat cushion where he'd found it.
He finished vacuuming up the potato chips Bill had flung across the room, thinking about how offended Bill had been that Soos had given him any food except what he'd asked for, remembering what Abuelita had said about people who destroy the things around them when they feel like that's the last and only thing they still have power over.
Enough was enough.
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(Hope y'all enjoyed! Next week we may interrupt our regularly-scheduled programming to post a TBOB-based chapter I'm inserting early into the ficâit depends on if I get it done by next Friday. In the meantime, I'm looking forward to hearing y'all's thoughts on this chapter!)
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