#addute

[bored-dusk]

★The reveal★

Ships: GuitarSpear (Adam x Lute)

★After all this time waiting, Adam finally felt ready to share his relationship with the people of heaven, Lute had always waited for him, she had always been the more patient of the duo, yet that never made her stop loving him.

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It wasn't exactly very easy to hide this sort of serious relationship from all the other angels, especially since everyone in heaven knew Adam as a 'never gong to be in love again angel' and his assistant Lute as a person that seemed to never fall into that concept that they called love. It was obvious to the duo that they had to hide their relationship since it would impact their heavily built up reputation, being in love would be very distracting from their work as the top exorcists in heaven and just overall wouldn't be fun to explain if anyone did find out.

In the past there were a couple of close calls where someone had almost walked in on them when they were doing something that they weren't supposed to be doing at that time, since their schedules were almost always very full, they had to sometimes sneak off from that task to meet up with eachother, it was sometimes difficult since most or their tasks didn't have them anywhere close to eachother, Lute thought her role would offer otherwise, thinking they would be around eachother at all times yet they both managed, luckily they managed to not raise any suspicions by quickly breaking up their small kisses or small affections like hugs or anything lovingly like.

Even if they were caught doing something that was slightly lovey-dovey it would still ruin their heavily built up reputation, if the word got round that they were being affectionate with eachother then things would become slightly harder. Everyone always viewed the pair as dangerous and terrifying exorcists who wouldn't be stopped by anything, even going as far as leaving their own trusty comrades behind to continue the extermination or battle.

To everyone in heaven and hell it seemed like they could never fall in love with eachother, or anyone in general, it looked like It was never going to happen between the duo, yet the two main characters of the exorcist army still found a way to some how helplessly fall in love with each other even though they both knew about the consequences that would leave a huge and terrible scar on their reputation if they weren't extremely careful around people and their surroundings.

However not all relationships can be kept secret, so it was finally that time when the oldest of the relationship, Adam finally felt ready to open up to the world --or heaven in this context-- about their relationship, Lute always said that she'd be ready to tell other people no matter those consequences or problems or even all the hate that they might recive, she had always waited for Adam to also be ready. She had always been the more patient person of the duo, after all, Adam had the patience of a small annoying kid, which is something that Lute jokingly called him in the first couple of months of their relationship.

It was also quite funny with how they both hooked up with eachother, Lute had the biggest and a slightly obvious crush on her boss, yet he was the one who initiated the kiss by pinning her up against the wall as he slowly kissed her, slightly scared of that chance of rejection even though he knew fully well how obsessed Lute was with him. With her returning and continuing that lovely kiss they both knew exactly what they were getting themselves into.

The older angel casually walked down the lengthy yet very pretty hallway, which were built with long paper white walls with yellow and gold tints just to get to one of the multiple training room, where Lute was currently located, she was training up some of the slightly weaker angels to become more on par with the other exorcists on the team so they could do more damage in exterminations.

Once Adam arrived to the very open training room, he quicky noticed that the couple of angels that Lute was training were already extremely exhausted with Lute staring at them all smug like, of course, Lutes training is more stricter and harder but it isn't as difficult as Adam's, which is why most people picked to train with Lute even though she was harder to battle with, having much more swifter movements and better protective gear made it harder, yet it was a higher chance of not dying by a single attack.

Adam made his way down to where Lute was currently standing as she watched the other angels catch their lengthy breaths from her training, it didn't long until the other angels and Lute noticed Adam walking over towards them. Two of the three angels looked back at their trainer only to see that she was just as confused as they were. After all Adam wasn't supposed to be anywhere in this area right now, infact, he was supposed to be on the other side of the building.

It wasn't very often when Adam showed his  smug face to the training areas, so this was definitely uncalled for. Typically he would be elsewhere doing work or something else that was very important, yet it was never the same, its always different for Adam, his work could never stick to being the same for at least two days for him. Once he made his way into Lute's personal area he stared down at her and his assistant returned the favour with a very confused look on her seemingly masked face, she was very confused about Adam and what he was currently doing, they hadn't planned to sneak off from their duty at this hour, had they? But even if they did, Adam wouldn't go out of his was to get her. This was very out of the ordinary from anything that he has ever done before. 

The three other angels just stared in confusion and somewhat shock at what was unfolding right in front them, they had quickly noticed that Adam had a genuine smile on his face as he looked at his dear assistant, a genuine smile on Adam was insanely rare, he would always wear a fake smile whenever and wherever he went out, or even around his own exorsists it was also very rare, unless he was delivered thrilling news then it would almost never happen. What exactly was happening between them? that was the one and only thought that was running through their heads as the two angels had a random staring at each other.

They didn't share any words, it seemed like time was going extremely slowly, a couple seconds felt like entire hours to Lute. She had no clue what the hell Adam was trying to do but it definitely wasn't funny in any way. Surprisingly, Adam didn't take much time to do anything else, he swiftly engulfed Lute in a gentle hug while keeping that adorable smile on his face, the shock came just as quick as it left, it only took a couple of seconds for her to process everything, but she knew fully well what this was signalling. He was ready.

She returned the hug and lifted her self up to her tip toes to deliver a small kiss on his cheek, most of the time Lute didnt like being this short but Adam found it utterly adorable. Adam's genuine smile became even bigger and brighter, the both of them shared a deep and loving kiss before they broke apart, they ended the warm hug. The duo both sticked to just holding eachothers hands as they shared a low talk between themselves.

The three angels couldn't be bothered with listening, their thoughts were filled with absolute confusion as they just watched whatever had just played out Infront of them, they had just been a whiteness to whatever that was, one of the angels realized that she could use this to her own advantage, spread a rumour and wait for a chance to become the next head exterminator. The other two had much more different and supporting thoughts with their newly open relationship. It had been a while since Adam had been in a relationship and it seemed like this one would last for an eternity.

[the---hermit]

I have never heard about self-study semester, how does that work? Like, do you still have to attend lectures by professors at your university or get assignments? Or do you get to choose what you'd study and all? Also, how would you be graded? I am really curious about this system, as it sounds really great.

Hello anon! So, it's not really an official thing, I just called that because it's the easiest way to exaplin what will happen for me this semester. I'll try to exaplain as well as I can but if I am not super clear do let me know and I'll try again. So, firstly here we don't really have assignments at all, you just study your materials, attend classes and then take a big exam at the end in which you are graded. To take an exam you usually have two options, you either attend lectures and study the material (which varies but it's usually one or two books plus addutional stuff like articles or sources depending on the class), or you can take exams as someone who has not attended lectures. This means that you will be studying the regular materials plus some additional stuff (usually it's a couple of books but again it changes depending on the class, what it's about and how big the exam is in terms of academic credit). So basically since this semester I don't have lectures for classes I am interested in attening, I will instead self study all the materials and additional stuff to then take those exams as someone who didn't attend lectures. Which is why I am referring to this semester as a self study semester, since I will be working on things at home by myself.

Again I hope I explained things well enough, but if you want to ask more stuff my inbox is always open!

[thestudentfarmer]

🥳🥳🥳🥳

The cucumbers are starting to come in, ive picked 8 that are about 11-13 inch long with more to come :)

The front side pics only today, since the back is weirdly sparse at the moment.

Guranteed there will be a few hidden ones ive missed too. This is 3 or 4 plants, a couple died before taking off almost overnight so I'm not entirely sure.

These are a striped variety of armenian cucumbers, I like them because~~~~~

🌱once they get going they are very prolific producers on few plants.

🌱Fruit can be 12+ inches long and I've found some as thick as a watermelon once (was not tasty. The chickens loved it tho!) Bigger than 1.5 inch wide tends to start getting seedy.

🌱They can get some whacky shapes.

🌱If established and given a watering 2x a day for about 10-15 (early morning, sunset/dusk) before heat hits heavy, they will generally continue producing long after most other plants have finished. For my area that's about 3 days of sustained 105+*f. These cukes kept producing right through the summer with little stuttering.

🌱Did I mention they produce a lot? I'm not kidding, we grew I think 6 plants the very first grow (other varieties have done very poorly) and got over 200lbs of cucumbers. It felt very much like the zuchinni grow season joke. We had enough for us, The chickens and regular gifts to at least 5 other households with plenty extra to gift to coworkers and classmates. 😂

🌱They are pretty set em and forget them, trellising them this year is something new im trying so I can work out ways to produce more food on a urban sized lot.

🌱personal notes, no cucumber urps :D so if ya suffer from them, this could be a variety to try.

I've tried a few other varieties (pickling, lemon, straight 8s, english) and not been as successfully as these have been. At this time their gonna be the ones we grow from now on. I'll try others, but like said just haven't had luck with them.

They either grow too slow, weak and sickly or the 2 times we got fruit they were waaaay to bitter.

These seeds came from a packet at one of local libraries seed library. I'll be trying to figure out how to save the seed this year to return some back (which is all they ask folks to do, is return seed if possible) if it's viable.

I'll be for sure bringing some nasturtium and hollyhock seeds in the next time I'm up since both produced well this time :)

I don't wanna endorse any one seed page specifically at this time for addutional grow info, Since I like to get seeds from local or regional growers (small business's or gardeners and hobbiest most preffered), thankfully there's at least a Wikipedia page with some interesting info and an edu page too :)

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Armenian_cucumber

https://extension.usu.edu/yardandgarden/research/cucumber-in-the-garden

That's it for today :)

🌱🌱Happy Homesteading and Gardening 🌱🌱

6.15.2024

[sla-mori]

Addut Amas by Luis Sh

[missvintage5000]

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[cccdynapro]

Favorite (Most Impactful) Books

In 2014, Heather McKim Gauthier challenged me to name 10 books that have had a definite impact on my life. This took a little reflection. Aside from the Bible, I had picked the 10 most influential books on my life. And then in addutional conversations, I realized that I had to expand the list. There was no way that I could hold it to just 10 books that had real impact on my life. So I expanded it…

[kirlias452]

How about Addut? (Pretty much a pun of the work Adult lol)

me n my brother have been trying to come up with a name for that small green father guy,,, we’ve been debating on something sophisticated yet dumb enough…

[adoniseverywheremen]

Addut Amas by Luis Sh

[androfiles]

Addut Amas by Diego Ene – PNPPLZINE

[aadmelioraa]

Aethelred for the character thing!

Ohhhh thank you for giving me an excuse to talk about my secret garbage fave that I am apparently obssessed with. 

How I feel about this character: I like him, actually? Like, not as a person, he’s clearly an abusive piece of shit. But as a character he’s really fun to watch. @wildwren mentioned to me that Toby Regbo in an interview compared his character to the falcon he keeps around: basically he thinks he’s some fearsome competant badass but everyone around him is like “ok time to go to bed buddy, put your lil hood on, we’ve got shit to do” and I think that is both accurate and hilarious (I have not listened to the interview yet but I will).  

All the people I ship romantically with this character: I found Eardwulf an interesting prospect at one point in s4. Ummmmmm also lowkey, Aldhelm. I have some headcanons about them. And I do enjoy writing Aethelred with Aethelflaed becuase I find the conflict between them interesting. I am writing a slow burn Aethelflaed x Aldhelm fic rn but the first quarter of it is an enemies to lovers back to enemies plot with Aethelred and now I can’t stop writing them having hate sex, apparently. So, I don’t ship them ship them, but also I enjoy the possiblities for alternate universe dynamics between them (I have more ideas involving them and Aldhelm that will have an audience of 2 people but that I really enjoy). 

My non-romantic OTP for this character: Threeway with respecting women and impulse control. 

My unpopular opinion about this character: He’s interesting and enjoyable *shrugs.* Also, his last scene with Aethelflaed, the deathbed scene, was really touching (mostly due to her reactions, which are complex obviously, but also the way he supports her decision re Aelfwynn) but the level of self awareness he displays reveals that both 1. he was aware of how monstrous his treatment of her was and 2. he could have chosen to be a very different person/husband/leader and that in itself is its own tragedy. 

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon: I guess this is less to do with him than the family dynamics but it would have been interesting to get more resolution on the Aelfwynn parentage question (I hope she gets some kind of actual arc in s5). I don’t know if we ever even saw them interact? Also I absolutely live for the tension between him and Aldhelm as Aldhelm gradually shifts his allegiance to Aethelflaed, I would have taken an enture season’s worth of addutional content of that alone. If you can’t tell, I am extremely intrigued by the three of them in any combination. 

Give me a character and I’ll break their ass down

[anarmorofwords]

you know what? let me add one more thing

I would actually argue that Cordelia's decision was not only perfectly in character and had lots of build-up, it was also foreshadowed.

Yes, I mean her earlier trip with Matthew to find Wayland. There are so many parallels between those moments.

Both cases are obviously tied to the Cortana/WaylandLilith thing, and each time Cordelia struggles with feeling unworthy and guilty, which she doesn't want to/can't share with James or her family - though as we know she really should have listened to Alastair :'))

But! that first decision actually shows part of the reason why she didn't seek his help this time - she was too scared to admit to what she perceives as her weakness/failure, and preferred to fix it herself; and now she can't really fix it, but she again is too proud to admit to her family that she needs help - overachiever/golden child syndrome much?

As a result she seeks out Matthew ( the first time it's partly because he had access to the car, but it's also clear she trusts him with her problems, whereas she didn't allow herself to share them with James or her family ( see: her fearing their judgement etc.) ), and in the end Matthew takes her on a trip somewhere, granting her a taste of fun and freedom in the process.

seriously Paris is the Wayland trip 2.0 :')

Why Cordelia going to Matthew's and leaving for Paris made perfect sense

I've been thinking about this a lot, and I know it's a hot topic in the fandom. When I initially read ChoI, I was very on board with this - yes, it wouldn't help them and was reckless and selfish and all that, but story-wise and character arc wise, it was a decision I enjoyed.

After some time in the fandom I sort of changed my mind, focusing strongly on the negative consequences and Sona/Alastair.

Not so long ago, I was whining with Lela @alastair-esfandiyar-carstairs1 about the "If he hurts you, come back home" quote and the lost potential there. You know I live for Carstairs siblings content.

And to be fair, I'm still mad about that.

But just as making all the good decisions wouldn't make for very compelling storytelling, judging these poor dumbasses' choices too harshly makes little sense to me, especially when we're dissecting their actions while forgetting the circumstances, the emotions, and the fact that these characters aren't aware of all the things readers are aware of.

And thinking about Cordelia's pov, it's actually pretty clear to me why she would go to Matthew of all people, and why she did leave for Paris.

We're talking about how selfish it was to leave her heavily pregnant mother and brother who's been through so much and would really use her support, and when you put it this way, it sure sucks.

But it's not at all the way Cordelia sees this.

At the end of ChoI it's clear just how heavily she's crushed by being Lilith's paladin. That's her main focus, something that occupies - haunts - her thoughts all the time. She's not only ashamed, she's scared. She's scared she will hurt people (she already got dangerously close to that once), and she wants to save her family from possible negative repercussions. So she's not abandoning her family - she's removing herself from their vicinity, to make sure they won't become casualties of her mistake.

Obviously that's not her one and only motivation. She's a 17 year old girl whose heart has just been broken, which, frankly, would have been reason enough. But then there's also things she's been through before that - from the complicated marriage (that she's awfully young for), the constant threat of a serial killer, and her father's tragic death.

Then there's her seeking comfort from Matthew instead of Alastair, and the more I thought about it, the more it made sense, too. I used to think "home" should be her first instinct, where she heads immediately, because that's the most natural thing. And her home is obviously her family, her brother.

Except... her relationship with Alastair is still a little shaky and unsure, and regardless of their efforts, they still aren't particularly close when it comes to sharing their feelings with each other.

Moreover, when it comes to the marriage/James... Cordelia doesn't want to dissapoint her mother - being a good daughter, upholding/saving family's reputation and overall living up to the "golden child" title is basically one of her main drivers throughout the series. And in her eyes, the truth behind her marriage to James is a big failure in all those areas. Add cheating to that? She thinks admitting that to Sona would break her mother's heart and also cause her shame, which she wants to avoid. I think she's partly ashamed of admitting all that to Alastair, too. We know she likes making her brother proud, and he warned her against being with James, which she didn't listen to. And if her pride wouldn't be wounded enough by that, there's also the fact that she still loves James. I think she fears Alastair would judge her for that. And if there's anything that might keep you from seeking comfort from the people you love, it's the fear of facing their dissaproval and causing them pain.

Matthew, however, is someone whose presence allows her to feel free and comfortable, and be herself, with no expectations attached. Most importantly though, he's the only person who already knows everything - not only about the nature of the marriage, but about Cordelia's true feelings for James, too. And he feels for her, understands her, and offers support with no judgement or pity. Like him or not, Matthew's been a steady friend - perhaps the closest one - to her for the past four months.

Now, to get back to the Paladin point once again, Matthew is someone who's also made a terrible mistake, which consequences still haunt him. Someone who considers himself a monster - and although Cordelia doesn't agree with that, that means he will understand her own guilt and terror. I don't know about you, but I personally sometimes forget just how horrifying the whole Lilith ordeal must have been to Cordelia - while she almost killed her best friend. That's awful, traumatising, and absolutely a valid reason for her to be slightly out of it.

Lastly, a small but not insignificant thing that might have also played into her decision, in my opinion - this girl deserves a break, goddamit. Through lonely, uneventful childhood, to the stressful time she spent trying to salvage family's reputation, constantly keeping herself in check and plotting, and finally to an emotionally draining marriage she's never had a chance to let go and have fun and feel free. We see the longing for that clearly during her car journey with Matthew - the longing to escape the weigh she herself - and others - have put on her shoulders. She wants to just breathe for a moment, instead of being a golden child, a respectable heiress of a famous family, a perfect wife.

So in a way, she is running away from her mistakes, responsibilities, and consequences, but doesn't she have every right to do that?

disclaimer: this is mostly my attempt at organizing my own thoughts on the matter, and, in case it's not obvious, everyone's totally allowed to disagree and have their own opinions; as long as you keep it civil, we can discuss that, or just agree to disagree and keep on scrolling

[charincharge]

Hey,

I need my wise auntie to help me.

[Spoilers for acotar if someone hasnt read it yet]

So what term would you use to describe Mor sexuality? I am not totally sure what is right. I saw that she is sometimes described as gay, but I dont think that really fits?

I remember she said she preffers females, but finds pleasure in both? I am not sure if something addutional was said.

Thanks 😘

I think she’s bisexual. If I had to break it down further than that, I’d say she’s probably homoromantic and bisexual (which means that she only forms romantic relationship with women, but has sex with either). But, bisexual works!

[r0meo]

Addut Amas by Diego Ene – PNPPLZINE

[irondaddy-scretary]

A yang thing I doodle

Outfits

Here are limited to color so ...mmm.i feel we should aslo try different colors to for here

Mabye some red

Or abit more purple

Give her short hair mabye too

Doesn't matter what change

She still a firy girl with a addute

(Phone)

[tarthserjaime]

Yes yes yes

And the selflessness of it, the pure love and act of loving, didn't need a reciprocation in that scene imo. Think about it. If they had followed through in 15x20 as the narrative demanded, imagine how much more dramatically satisfying to have that question be hanging in the balance, bittersweetly, because OF COURSE dean loves him back just look at how he's mourned him.

So that lingering question floats along in the air like cottonwood fluff during the finale, say even if the dreaded (damning) dean's death scene still happens for sam-centric reasons, it was just missing that other bookend. The pair of scenes to fulfill what cas started, even if it got cut down to just a "hello dean" offscreen and dean's visible reaction. Anything. Instead they left it an unmatched, a hanging thread, unsatisfying and illogical, and that's why we as fans "need" a reciprocation here. Because we know we can't look for it anywhere else, since they closed all those doors with the suffocating bros-only regression of the finale.

That said, if there was a "me too" in the original scene, it wasn't in the script but adlibbed by jensen as dean sat alone, devastated, in shock, weeping on the floor in that final scene. I can see dean whispering it to the empty room because it's dean and unlikely to have processed what he needed to in order to say it to cas in n those precious seconds between "I love you" and black goo. Because wouldn't we have loved the angst??? The "oh no! He couldn't say it to cas's face in time, how tragic" if there had been even just one mini glimpse of a reunion scene in the finale??

Anyway, that's my two cents. I think the script didn't show it because it was jensen understanding dean, like the folded up trenchcoat, like cradling cas's face in previous moments (notably filmed when he himself was the director). It would have been tragic, organic, and eventually delicious to have dean be moments too late in saying it . . . if only there had been a reunion in the finale.

Of course there wasn't, and they didn't, and they stripped out any shreds of deep emotion from the scene (on dean's coverage at least) in order to effectively close the door on that and make it seem as one-sided as possible to leave room for the homophobes and conservative walker audience to act exactly as they have been, dismissing the entire thing and rejecting any possibility if romantic attachment between two men.

castiel seeing dean and how beautiful he is in that moment and beginning to put a plan together is really an indescribably heartwrenching thing. he says himself that knowing he loves dean and never getting to have him is a thought that has made him sad and he couldn’t imagine how he could ever be truly happy without it. but then he really looks at dean and sees him, crushed and defeated and wrapped up in his own self-loathing and he thinks. oh. oh, this is enough. loving him has always been enough, and being able to tell him to his face that he’s beautiful and selfless and good, that his anger doesn’t define him, that castiel has always seen him and known the truth of who he is... being able to give that to dean, to give back the love that dean has already given him, that is going to make him so happy. it’s going to be the happiest moment of his life. that’s messed up.

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