#actually that isn't a picture of myself

[inkskinned]

they want to talk about mental illness and acceptance and how everyone is a little ocd it's cute and quirky and their "intrusive thoughts" are about cutting their hair off and you say yours are about taking a razorblade to your eye and they say ew can you not and everyone is a little adhd sometimes! except if you're late it's a personality flaw and it's because you are careless and cruel (and someone else with adhd mentions they can be on time, so why can't you?) and it's not an eating disorder if it's girl dinner! it's not mania if it's girl math! what do you mean you blew all of your savings on nonrefundable plane tickets for a plane you didn't even end up taking. what do you mean that you are afraid of eating. get over it. they roll their little lips up into a sneer. can you not, like, trauma dump?

they love it on them they like to wear pieces of your suffering like jewels so that it hangs off their tongue in rapiers. they are allowed to arm-chair diagnose and cherrypick their poisons but you can't ever miss too many showers because that's, like, "fuckken gross?" so anyone mean is a narcissist. so anyone with visual tics is clearly faking it and is so cringe. but they get to scream and hit customer service employees because well, i got overwhelmed.

you keep seeing these posts about how people pleasers are "inherently manipulative" and how it's totally unfair behavior. but you are a people pleaser, you have an ingrained fawn response. in the comments, you have typed and deleted the words just because it is technically true does not make it an empathetic or kind reading of the reaction about one million times. it is technically accurate, after all. you think of catholic guilt, how sometimes you feel bad when doing a good deed because the sense of pride you get from acting kind - that pride is a sin. the word "manipulation" is not without bias or stigma attached to it. many people with the fawn response are direct victims of someone who was malignantly manipulative. calling the victims manipulative too is an unfair and unkind reading of the situation. it would be better and more empathetic to say it is safety-seeking or connection-seeking behavior. yes, it can be toxic. no, in general it is not intended to be toxic. there is no reason to make mentally ill people feel worse for what we undergo.

you type why is everyone so quick to turn on someone showing clear signs of trauma but you already know the fucking answer, so what's the point of bothering. you kind of hate those this is what anxiety looks like! infographics because at this point you're so good at white-knuckling through a severe panic attack that people just think you're stoic. even people who know the situation sometimes comment you just don't seem depressed. and you're not a 9 year old white kid so there's no way you're on the spectrum, you're not obsessed with trains and you were never a good mathematician. okay then.

mental illness is trending. in 2012 tumblr said don't romanticize our symptoms but to be fair tiktok didn't exist yet. there's these series of videos where someone pretends to be "the most boring person on earth" and is just being a normal fucking person, which makes your skin crawl, because that probably means you are boring. your friend reads aloud a profile from tinder - no depressed bitches i fucking hate that mental illness crap. your father says that medication never actually works.

you still haven't told your grandmother that you're in therapy. despite everything (and the fact it's helping): you just don't want her to see you differently.

[goobygnarp]

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[selfinflictedgunshotwound]

sorry for only saying this type of shit lately but i kinda wanna drive a car straight into a brick wall at the highest speed possible

[fireflysprincess]

an odd post but I'm just kinda

I feel like fully tapping into clothes I I've wanted to wear for years this past year has definitely made me more confident so I'm having a moment JAJJDJD

[illdothehotvoice]

🫨 this is the only emoji i could think of—

Hi your emoji is so silly and has 3 dots so for some reason I feel that this is the most appropriate item for you djdbdhdbff

Here is my Jakks Pacific Luigi figure.

Yes yes you can find him practically at any super market ever and is your most basic Luigi figure so I don't think I really need to explain much about him (plus there really isn't anything too interesting to discuss). But why am I highlighting him out of everything in my collection? Because! These Jakks Pacific figures are so easy to get and very cheap they make perfect gifts for the Mario enjoyer in your life! So much so that I don't have just one no no. You see...

I have THREE of these bad boys and at this point it's too sweet and funny for me to tell people to stop getting them for me. At this point it's a game to see how many of these can get gifted to me I have not bought a single one myself and it's very sweet.

[laesas]

🎁 Have a piece of a WIP you want to share?

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More fucked up sad boy Kim! Kim is kissing his brothers bodyguard and thinking about his guitar tutee a completely normal amount.

This next kiss is hungry, a clash of lips and teeth that Big, for his part, doesn’t try to soften.  Good. Kim doesn’t want soft. Chay might let WIK kiss him, but would he let Kim kiss him like this? Would he let Kim pin him to the corridor walls, press their bodies flush, lick whisky into his mouth? Would he arch under the press of Kim's hips? Would it matter that it was Kim, not WIK, that needed holding tighter than this? Would Chay hold him anyway despite it? When Porchay said he liked all sides of him, did he know what he was saying? What he was offering? What he was asking for? He barely knew Kim’s first name.  Would Porchay let him use him like this? Could he drive Kim to distraction? Would he let Kim kiss him and kiss him and kiss him until the adrenaline in Kim's veins felt like golden, heady desire, not distress seeping out of the desperate empty chasm of his chest? Would Chay let Kim corrupt him? Could Kim sit back and watch it happen? There's a small solace in the way that the hands settled softly at his waist have calluses on the trigger finger already. In the way that they were never his hands to corrupt.

[greencheekconure27]

Me: "ah yes a nice walk that'll calm me down surely"

Treacherous brains: "See that pretty soft looking grain field? What if you just laid down there and died, wouldn't that be nice?"

Bloody hell.

[ripclaudia]

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[lynxgirlpaws]

>do nothing all day >finally start editing >hear my voice >massive self hatred god I fujcking love this

[wanderingandfound]

Second time in about 48 hours that I have gone into the search mines to bring out a specific pride flag for my blog only to be met with either long or thoughtless posts about how x flag is the most inferior or y flag is the most superior while shitting on other flag designs. Like, I am all for making as many flags as you want — the more the merrier no monopolies here. I would just like for people to keep in mind:

Which communities (including geographical and cultural!!!) specific flags come from and why they were created.

You do not need to be represented by every single stripe for the flag to be applicable to you.

If a flag is featuring a specific identity there's probably a reason for that, I don't care if it's ugly.

Please cite sources and inspiration! Flags represent communities and usually come from community involvement and influence.

Seriously unless a flag was made purposefully to demean or alienate others it's probably fine. You don't have to use it or prefer it and you can be annoyed with it but it doesn't mean it's the end of the world.

[ralseinumberonebiggestsupporter]

gay people from triscript (not even all of them)

[medicinemane]

Now it looks like fuckall, but this is the first time in a long time I've wired any redstone up

Like to be clear, this isn't me making up any redstone, that's all in the door I made and to a lesser extent some shitty bullshit wiring I did in another area; this is just copying redstone from another part of the world that I built there using a tutorial

Just been a long time since I felt like doing even this much with it

Obviously it's not hooked up to a proper button yet, not gonna trigger it with that lovely piston/redstone block set up, especially since it won't even open from this side, it's exit only

...but it's wired up now (it's not worth me making a video of or anything, literally just 3 1x2 hipster doors stacked next to each other

[huntunderironskies]

damn though beastcub has good stuff. a+ reccommendation lol. i have nowhere NEAR the money for suits but /damn/

I used to make fursuits before I got hit by the early-onset arthritis bat so I have a ton of respect for the art form! Also I'm a huge tokusatsu fan so any kind of costumed acting where you're trying to communicate something removed from the human experience fascinates me. One of the things I really love about her work is that she's pretty adventurous and experiments with a loooooot of unusual fabrics and accessories. I think it helps she lives p close to the fashion districts in San Francisco so she can just walk into a store and pick up whatever she wants, but the way she can work with textures and layering is so cool.

For people who are completely lost here's an example of what I've been talking about in the tags WRT quadsuits and suit acting. Yes, there is just one person in there, I have about enough knowledge to draw you a rough diagram of how the internal infrastructure is set up. That kind of movement is really hard to do for the record, even just trying to do a trot that looks natural involves breaking all of the muscle memory you have as a human person and then committing it to memory while you're performing. Also you can only see through a small screen in the neck. These are the exact opposite of practical but if someone who knows how to pull it off is wearing one it's absolutely entrancing.

[judgement-nishiki]

Going through my gallery expecting something that will depress me but instead...

I'm seeing pictures of myself, of my many different hairstyles from the last year, cool clothes and make up, so many drawings, my old bedroom and how it was organized

And man, I actually kind of really like myself and I didn't appreciate it

[gible-love-nibles-archive]

Good morning

[mycannibalromance]

i dont think we talk about how deeply unsettling it is to look at old pictures of yourself enough