#actually ima wait for the song to end before going to sleep

[minsungii]

goodnight <3

[vstranslations]

Kvi Baba - Tear Wave - Lyrics

song (spotify) Japanese/Romaji/English lyrics under the cut

傷つくことにただ 時間をかけすぎてた 残されてきたのさ 泳げはしな��海の中

誰も救えないね どこかで見た最低な男にもなってく 母親も泣いてる 望みはもうないね それでもまだもがいてる 首の皮一枚で涙の波の上で

いくつの時を経て いくつの傷を負って いくつの星が落ちても

汚れた手で涙を掻き分けて 醜さを含めても風とゆけ 誰の為でない独り言も 誰かの孤独を埋めるのなら Singin' my heart 嘘はないもう Singin' my heart 醜さも 一つの美しさへと変わりゆく ここで君といれるなら

抱きしめて欲しかった 嘘だとしてもいいから 何故こうなってしまったんだろう (分からずのまま)

日が経つのを待ってる 時が癒すんだって そうでも思ってないと おかしくもなってく 夜空に満たされず 朝焼けを強請ってる 眠りもしないで涙の波の上で

いくつの時を経て いくつの傷を負って いくつの星が落ちても

汚れた手で涙を掻き分けて 醜さを含めても風とゆけ 誰の為でない独り言も 誰かの孤独を埋めるのなら Singin' my heart 嘘はないもう Singin' my heart 醜さも 一つの美しさへと変わりゆく ここで君といれるなら

唾が甘苦い 僕も君も愛がない訳ではない 事には変わりないが 今は空回りだけれど 明日は分からない 一つ信じたい 神は希望を持つことは禁じない

汚れた手で涙を... 汚れた手で涙を掻き分けて 醜さを含めても風とゆけ 誰の為でない独り言も 誰かの孤独を埋めるのなら Singin' my heart 嘘はないもう Singin' my heart 醜さも 一つの美しさへと変わりゆく ここで君といれるなら

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Kizutsuku koto ni tada jikan o kake sugiteta nokosarete kita no sa oyoge wa shinai umi no naka

Daremo sukuenai ne dokoka de mita saiteina otoko ni mo natteku hahaoya mo naiteru Nozomi wa mou nai ne sore demo mada mogaiteru kubi no kawa ichimai de namida no nami no ue de

Ikutsu no toki o hete ikutsu no kizu o otte ikutsu no hoshi ga ochite mo

Kegareta te de namida o kaki wakete minikusa o fukumete mo kaze to yuke dare no tame de nai hitori goto mo dareka no kodoku o umeru no nara Singin' my heart uso wa nai mou Singin' my heart minikusa mo hitotsu no utsukushisa e to kawari yuku koko de kimi to ireru nara

Dakishimete hoshikatta uso da toshite mo ii kara naze kou natte shimattan darou wakarazu no mama

Hi ga tatsu no o matteru toki ga iyasunda tte sou demo omottenai to okashiku mo natteku yozora ni mitasarezu asayake o nedatteru nemuri mo shinai de namida no nami no ue de

Ikutsu no toki o hete ikutsu no kizu o otte ikutsu no koshi ga ochite mo

Kegareta te de namida o kaki wakete minikusa o fukumete mo kaze to yuke dare no tame de nai hitori goto mo dareka no kodoku o umeru no nara Singin' my heart uso wa nai mou Singin' my heart minikusa mo hitotsu no utsukushisa e to kawari yuku koko de kimi to ireru nara

Tsuba ga amanigai boku mo kimi mo ai ga nai wake de wa nai koto ni wa kawari nai ga ima wa karamawari dakeredo asu wa wakaranai hitotsu shinjitai kami wa kibou o motsu koto wa kinjinai

Kegareta te de namida o… Kegareta te de namida o kaki wakete minikusa o fukumete mo kaze to yuke dare no tame de nai hitori goto mo dareka no kodoku o umeru no nara Singin' my heart uso wa nai mou Singin' my heart minikusa mo hitotsu no utsukushisa e to kawari yuku koko de kimi to ireru nara

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It took me far too long to feel like I was hurting I was left stranded in this ocean, unable to swim out of it

No one can save me I’m turning into the worst kind of guy, one I’ve seen before My mom would cry if she knew I have no more earthly desires, but yet I still try to claw my way back With this shred of hope, I keep myself afloat on the tear waves

No matter how much time passes, or how many scars I have to bear, or how many stars have to fall…

I push away the tears with my dirtied hands I try to accept my ugliness, but let it blow away with the wind If these words meant for no one but me can help someone feel less lonely, then I’ll be Singin' my heart; I’m not lying anymore Singin' my heart; even the ugly parts, too Changing them into a single point of beauty As long as I can stay here with you…

I wanted you to hold me even if you didn’t actually care about me Why did things end up this way? (Still ignorant of everything)

I just wait for each day to pass by If you don’t believe in the idea that time will heal you, you’ll start going mad Left unfulfilled by the night sky, I beg the morning sun for what I need I can’t even sleep, I just keep floating on the tear waves

No matter how much time passes, or how many scars I have to bear, or how many stars have to fall…

I push away the tears with my dirtied hands I try to accept my ugliness, but let it blow away with the wind If these words meant for no one but me can help someone feel less lonely, then I’ll be Singin' my heart; I’m not lying anymore Singin' my heart; even the ugly parts, too Changing them into a single point of beauty As long as I can stay here with you…

My mouth tastes bittersweet It’s not like you and I don’t have any love in our hearts That fact isn’t changed, but we’re just going in circles right now - though who knows about tomorrow I wanna believe in this one thing The gods don’t forbid us from having hope

I push away the tears… I push away the tears with my dirtied hands I try to accept my ugliness, but let it blow away with the wind If these words meant for no one but me can help someone feel less lonely, then I’ll be Singin' my heart; I’m not lying anymore Singin' my heart; even the ugly parts, too Changing them into a single point of beauty As long as I can stay here with you…

[aclosetfan]

For the Salty asks: 1, 3, 5 and 6?

Thanks so much for playing along! Ima be real with you 2 out of the 4 questions you asked really opened up a can of worms for me, and I’m so sorry. I put the less stressful ones first, and the other two are under the cut! Anyway, these were super fun to answer, but plz don’t hate me for it!! 😂😂

for anyone wondering, here’s the ask list: Salty Asks List 

3. Have you ever unfollowed someone over a fandom opinion?

lmao yeah. It’s petty, but honestly, people’s personal morals really bleed through into their fandom opinions, and I’m not willing to put up with any unnecessary hate, especially in environments that are supposed to be fun. I’ve even blocked a few people. In the ppg fandom specifically, I’ve blocked a person who, I guess, thought it was necessary to try to gate-keep with racist/sexist/etc. terminology and ideologies, and I truly don’t have time for that 🤷‍♀️ (a lot of people probs know who I’m vaguing, but if you don’t, you’re lucky)

I can’t say I’ve ever unfollowed anyone for any innocent/not-in-conflict-with-my-morals fandom opinions. Usually, if I don’t agree with something, I just keep scrolling because lol whatever. Everyone’s entitled to their own opinion.

but ngl I have unfollowed people who just get annoying 😬😬 lol

6. Has fandom ever made you enjoy a pairing you previously hated?*

I went into this fandom without having too many preferences, so I didn’t have a pairing that I’ve previously hated!

I guess I could say that while I never really hated them, the color-mixing and color-clashing ships weren’t ever on my radar until I came across the fandom content. Now, I really like them! Particularly, Brick and Bubbles!

1. What OTPs in your fandom(s) do you just not get?*

Before anyone gets pissed off at me, before you get into my answer for this question, I’d like to really stress that you’ve got to go into it with absolutely zero fanon context. Like, erase all your headcanons from your mind. I’m dead serious. Because I literally DO NOT get why ANY rrbxppg ship would realistically work ever.

Okay, canonically, these six little funky science experiments were dead set on ending each other. The boys were absolutely horrible to the girls. And the girls literally KILL the boys. I know in fairytale romances, nothing stops love, but bruh, it’s hard to come back from murder 😂 And yeah, I know Clipsville showed the girls and the boys together as older teenagers, and they weren’t trying to kill each other, but that was an obvious gag. In the documentary, it was revealed that that particular “clip” was made because a bunch of people wanted the boys and girls to interact again, and CN gave into the demand. (also, lol I know it super embarrassing, but I did watch the documentary. I just really like Craig McCracken) I just don’t think that realistically a canon pairing between the two sets of triplets would ever be considered a healthy relationship. 

Also, ethically, I just—okay listen, I go back and forth with this allllll the time, but the ppgxrrb ships make me confront the “Would I sleep with my clone?” question way too often. Depending on my self-esteem, the answer changes each time. Like sometimes I’m like fuck yeah I would! Other times I’m like, ew, no, I’d have to consider my clone as a twin! I know counterparts aren’t technically clones, BUT the boys really do come across as identical to the girls in the show. The only difference really is their moral alignment (I’m nixing any gender argument). So, I’m like, omg, can I honestly pair these six together in any way??? Are they too close to each other genetically in some sense for this to be morally right??? Like if you ship Brick and Buttercup together, would that just essentially be shipping Brick and Butch/Blossom and Buttercup together in some messed up way??? Is Brick just Blossom, and Blossom just Brick?? Is it better just to ship color-matching instead of mixing???  

On top of all of that, wouldn’t the boys and girls be pseudo cousins since Mojo was the Professor’s lab monkey? Technically, in canon, Mojo ends up being both sets of triplets “creator,” so could the rrb and the ppg be considered siblings of some sort? Some of you are probably like, wow, calm down. Stop thinking about it. They’re science experiments. It’s not so deep. Which I get, but I can’t stop, so let me hit you with something ten times worse: should the girls (or the boys) actually be considered biological siblings? Does sugar, spice, and everything nice make you genetically related? Nothing put in the stirring pot was organic—just a bunch of chemicals. If you ship the boys and girls together this could be a good thing! BUT, but, could some sick fuck use this information to somehow justify shipping siblings (ppgxppg or rrbxrrb) together??? This is a literal nightmare to think about!!

All in all, I can’t think about these pairings too much without getting caught up in the logistics of their existence even if they’re fictional lmaoooo! If it wasn’t for the fandom, I wouldn’t ship them together at all. I just think it’s amazing that the ships took off like they did lol, because their literal (fictional) existence is just one giant mind fuck for me. Anyway, I ship them at the end of the day, but tbh I do it with a bit of a guilty conscience. Is it morally correct to ship clone-like counterparts? Or should counterparts be treated like twins? Does it even fucking matter at the end of the day, it’s just fiction? I don’t know the right answer. But I do know the pairings don’t make sense. 

Aside from the ppgxrrb, I don’t think there are many other BIG fandom wide pairings. Still, I just want to say that I don’t get why people ship Ace and Buttercup together. The pairing sounds off a few major alarms in my head for obvious reasons. There’s also a bunch of crack ships that involve crossovers with other cartoons. Generally, I don’t mind them, but it seems popular to ship Aku (from Samurai Jack) and Blossom together. And I’m real sorry to those devoted shippers, but again I do NOT get it. I see a lot of romantic fan art depicting romantic situations with Blossom still drawn as a child, and like I get Aku is an immortal demon, so “age is just a number,” but again, BIG ALARMS go off in my head.

5. Has fandom ever ruined a pairing for you?*

🙃 🙃 Kind of don’t want to answer this, but I will anyway because only a few people actually read my blog lolol, so lol, yep! And it’s the reds. Don’t shoot me lol. When I was in middle school, I got into this fandom, forgot about it, and then came back when I was hit by a round of nostalgia. I’m finishing up college now, and I can confidentially say that the fanon content for the reds hasn’t changed one bit. Or the demand for it.

I tended to find that a lot of red content follows many archetypes that I’m just not into. Their stories can get a real cringey, real fast. Blossom is always written like this “perfect, except she’s not (but she really is)” character. Like she’s the girl you WISH you could be, but she’s also going through a shit ton of stuff that no person IRL would be able to handle without having a mental breakdown. And sometimes, in some stories, Blossom does have a mental breakdown, but in a sexy way, so she’s still perfect. Generally, there’s still something problematic about Blossom that makes it easy for a reader to relate to her on some level, unlike the way people write Bubbles. And then there’s Brick, who’s broody, hyper-possessive or jealous, and hot figuratively and literally (gotta love the fire/ice trope). He’s the only boy—no! Wait!—the only person who could ever possibly outwit Blossom, and he is just so undeniably attracted to Blossom. They’re the smart power couple that should honestly just hook-up in Chapter One to save everybody time, but they don’t. Nah, they’ve got to survive at least two love triangles before they even consider admitting they’re attracted to each other.  

And don’t get me wrong, none of that’s bad, but there are a million fanfics that go through the same song and dance with these two. And it’s kind of easy to tell when someone’s hardcore projecting onto Blossom because the type of person they’re personally attracted to is the way they write Brick. And I’m not knocking anyone self-projecting onto characters, sometimes people got to do that to give themselves a fun mental break, but bro, I don’t want to read about it. For one, smart broody assholes aren’t my type. Maybe when I was in middle school, but not anymore. And two, it’s just not interesting to me, which is a real shame since the reds are a majority of the fanon content.

Maybe if I found more red stories where the plot isn’t character-driven but plot-driven, so I see the romance between these two characters in a context where it’s not the main focus of the story, it would solve my issue with the pairing. I haven’t found many fics like that, though.

I can’t really think of any reds fic where I’m like ey, this aint bad unless it has a “major character death” tag attached to it lmao (which are always plot driven stories). However, in all honesty, since I’ve stayed away from red content for a while now, I don’t know the current state of things. Maybe there’s been a load more development for these two, or people have broken away from the same plotlines, but I’m too busy to check. I do browse people’s fic rec lists from time to time, but it sort of feels like everyone just puts the same fics on their lists and moves on.

And before someone’s like, “well, you can say all this about the greens or the blues,” just know I’m fully aware. The greens make me cringe too because there’s a shit ton of possessive and abusive storylines filling their story tags. And what makes me super uncomfortable is how people make Buttercup hit Butch or call him derogatory names, oftentimes unprompted. I don’t know why people make Buttercup such an unlikeable and overly aggressive person. I also don’t get why they make Butch some perverted idiot, but to each their own, I guess? Still, I see these green-character patterns most often in red-focused stories, which is another reason why I avoid them. I’ve found a lot of green-focused content that strays from the abusive tropes I try to avoid. Considerably less than I’d like, but the greens are typically the b-plot pairing, so that’s to be expected. Personally, I’d really like to see more content with the greens finding some kind of inner peace, and recently, I’ve seen a few fics that have tried to tackle this concept.

And lol, if you’ve read some of my posts before, you already know that I think the blues are an underdeveloped fanon pairing. The fandom can’t ruin that pairing for me because it never does anything substantial with it.  

Anyway, at the end of the day, I’m just personally not into the way the reds are popularly written, but I get why people are and that’s good with me. 

[all-the-kpop-imagines]

All About Luv Drabbles- She’s The One

Here’s the next installment of the All About Luv drabble series. Enjoy, Luvs. -Admin JiA

Shownu smiled fondly to himself as he watched the video you had sent. He was sitting in the green room, backstage, waiting for the rest of the boys to get done changing, so they could head out, and the messages from you were the only thing getting him through this tour. He was completely entranced in watching your face as you sang along to Ready or Not, stopping every now and then to giggle at yourself. He knew you would eventually start laughing too hard to sing, and give up, wishing him a good performance before the video cut off, having watched it at least ten times since you’d sent it, but each time a smile was pasted onto his face. “Hey Man, you wanna grab some food?”  Jooheon walked up, and Shownu shook his head. “Nah, I’m not hungry. And I want to make a phone call when we get back.” He never took his eyes off the screen, and Jooheon looked over his shoulder with a raised eyebrow. “You? Not Hungry? You okay?” Shownu finally put the phone down and looked at him. “ I can’t eat, I can’t sleep..I can’t wait any longer. I’ve got to tell her.” Shownu stood and headed for the door, phone already pressed to his ear, as Jooheon shook his head. 

Wonho sat in the studio, scribbling furiously, as he worked on another song, when Shownu knocked on his door. “Hey, we’re going to go shopping. You coming?” Wonho shook his head. “No, I wanna finish this song tonight. I’ve got an inspiration streak going and I need to get it all out on paper.” He smiled at his leader. “You go ahead. Bring me back some coffee though.” He told him, before turning back to his computer, no longer paying attention to the older man stepping into the room. “Dude, you’re constantly writing. Take a break.” Wonho shook his head with a smile. “ I like writing. And like I said, I’ve got good inspiration. I’m good.” Shownu looked over his shoulder. “Another love song? For her?” His voice was quiet, and a small smile sat on his face, as he watched his friend turn sheepish. “How many is that now?” Wonho pursed his lips. “I could write a million songs, but I know it’s not enough. She doesn’t even know its about her.” He smiled again, as he turned to look up at his friend. “But this time, I’m going to tell her.” Shownu nodded. “Alright, I’ll bring you coffee. And next time, bring her with us.” 

Kihyun grumbled as he dabbed at his shirt in the kitchen, frustrated at himself. “What happened?” Hyungwon casually walked past him, in search of another drink, as laughter rang out from the living room. “I spilt on myself.” Kihyun admitted quietly. All he wanted was to be able to interact with you, without doing something weird or clumsy, and he’d been doing so well. But then, you had made a comment that had him stuttering for an answer, and his brilliant brain had decided that was the time to take a drink, only to completely miss his mouth and spill it all down his shirt. So, now, he was hiding away in here, hoping he could clean up, and that you didn’t think he was an idiot. Not that he’d be surprised if you did, with all the times he’d made an idiot of himself in front  of you. Any other person, he could be confident, and smart around, but you made him someone completely different - it was like his brain stopped working with you near. “Let me guess. You were talking to her again, and got flustered.”He could hear the smirk in Hyungwon’s voice, and he couldn’t blame the other boy. “What can I say? I think she’s the one. She’s got me all messed up.”

Minhyuk stood across from you, chewing on his lip. “Min, I want to believe you, but everyone breaks promises...” He hated how hesitant you were, he just wanted to make you understand how much he loved you. He knew you had been through heart break, and he didn’t blame you, especially not since he knew how hard it could be for you two to be together. He searched for the right words, wanting to express it to you without it sounding like he was saying the same things you’d always heard. “You know I’m not the type of guy to make you a promise without rolling down my sleeve so you can see my heart on it. I will bare all of myself to you, and I will wait if I have to.” He would let you take as long as you needed, because he was sure you were the one for him. He could be patient, he just wanted to help you understand. He took your hands, and squeezed them softly, with a smile. “Just, think about it, okay? No rush.” 

Hyungwon watched you from across the room, as you hugged and congratulated Changkyun and Jooheon on their intro stage. He admired the way you made sure to show all your friends, and all his members just how important they were, and how you could always find the right words to say. He knew you would come and congratulate him on the win last, always making sure to give him as much affection as you could while in public spaces, and knowing once his arms wrapped around you he wouldn’t let go. It was a tradition, the same way you’d been comforting, congratualting, and just being there for all of them, since they started, before you two had even begun dating. Everything about you drew him in further, and he never doubted you were the one for him. Wonho joined him, offering him a bottle of water, which he turned down, showing him that you had already made sure he had one- another of the little habits you had that made him feel loved. “So, did you finally figure out how you’re going to do it?” The shorter boy asked, seeing where his eyes were. “ Ima buy a rose- a dozen roses. Fly her on a one day trip to Paris.” He smiled as he saw you approaching, his mind flipping back to the ring in his beside drawer for only a second before wrapping his arms around you. 

Jooheon smiled softly as he talked to Changkyun, telling him how you had helped him work through what was frustrating him over the last week. He was trying to be better about it, about thinking calmly when stuff was bugging him, and you had been such a great resource, he was thankful for your support and comfort. You’d never been afraid to call him out when he needed to hear it, or to hold him up when he was struggling, or to defend him if he needed. You’d always been able to help him make sense of his thoughts and feelings, and you had never shied away from the truth, making sure he knew you still loved him no matter what, but not willing to lie to spare him, and now more than ever he appreciated your ability to remain rational, even when he wasn’t. “She really knows how to think, and she always owns it. It’s like she always knows what to say. I don’t know how she does it.” They both laughed a bit. “I’m glad. Because I’d probably have just told you to punch the dude.” Changkyun admitted. 

Changkyun sighed, laying on the couch in the hotel, wishing he were just home already. He was growing more and more sulky as the end of the tour drew closer. He was far too anxious, wanting to curl up next to you again, and so the dwindling number of performances left did not comfort him, but instead only left him feeling more frustrated. Right now, the time zone difference was adding to that frustration, as it was making it especially hard to talk to you, given you had to sleep when he was awake, and he had to sleep when you were. “I know man. We’ve only got a couple shows left. Soon you’ll be home, and all of us can rest, and then maybe we can all have a movie night again.”Minhyuk tried to comfort him, not realising that the reminder that there were still performances left actually did the opposite and left him frustrated. “I know. But, I think about her face very time I wake up, at night I want to ask how her day was.” He sighed again, as he sat up. “ But right now I can’t, because of the time difference. It’s making it that much harder.” He admitted, and Minhyuk glanced at the clock, and then his phone. “Well, right now you might be able to catch her before she leaves for work.” He offered. 

[lordseochangbin]

sunshine- han jisung

.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。.

even in a noisy city, do whatever you want, sit in the sunshine and close your eyes, look at me for a second

a/n: hi guys!! this is fluff <33 levanter came out :O what’s your fav song on the album? mine is sunshine hehe but they’re all bops !!

.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。.

ever since their concert had ended, jisung along chan and changbin have been working inside of the la studio. it was their second day and they realized their hotel room was a waste considering the three of them were practically living in the small space.

“come on jisung, changbin! lets just go to the room we can’t stay here the whole week” Chan suggested, nudging jisungs shoulder

changbin got up, his expression exhausted and his eye bags dropping low. “yeah i think it’s time we get a little rest, the couch isn’t that comfortable”

“ok we’re both going, how about you jisung?” the hyung asked his younger.

jisung looked up from his little notebook filled with scribbles and words for future songs. “nahh ima finish this one song, a little worried about how the music will play out” jisung replied, rubbing his sleepy eyes. after a little protesting, chan allowed jisung to stay the night alone- only under a cared for supervision however.

there you were, walking down the lobby with three folders and an empty stomach. you weren’t able to leave because of the crowd outside and it was tiring trying to push them out of the way to get inside your own workplace.

you knew there were these boys from some kpop band recording, but you didn’t realize how good looking they were until you saw two of them walking towards you, their eyes glowing as they saw your name tag.

“hey..” the blonde boy said, “y/n? one of my mates upstairs, his names jisung, he’s gonna pull an all nighter here again. do you think someone can stay with him?”

your eyes furrowed in confusion, what kind of guy would stay up to work on songs? none of the company’s original artists have done this before.

“hmm, no one usually stays this late” you watched as the elder looked at the other boy with jet black hair, both of them looking exhausted from the rough nights.

“is it okay if i stay?” you offered, a smile forming on both the boys faces as they nodded in agreement. “that would be awesome!! by the way, im chan and this is changbin. the boy upstairs is jisung” the boy introduced. 

a few seconds passed before chan could eagerly take out his wallet and hand a hundred dollar bill.

“here, take this in case he gets hungry!! it’s for you two” the boy smiled before leaving you in awe at who could be waiting upstairs.

.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。.

you remained downstairs until the last person left, noticing that the elevators never budged and there was no sign of anyone in the building. it was only after awhile that you realized jisung was still here. curious of what kind of guy he would he’d be to work so late, you made your way to the elevator and minutes later at the front of their studio door.

*knock knock* “anyone in there?”

you heard the immediate bass of music stop inside the room before the door knob could click open. the boy took his swivel chair and returned back to his place in front of the mixing table. “you’re jisung right? your friends-”

“my friends asked you to watch me huh?” he turned his chair to face you, “no need, I am perfectly fine, y/n” he winked before you could hear a small grumble from what seemed to be jisung.

his face was priceless, his cheeks turning pink as he covered his jummy (j+tummy) with his hands in embarrassment.

“are you sure about that?” you said, a laugh quickly escaping your lips.

“okay, okay. in my defense i haven’t eaten anything since yesterday night”

“yesterday night? are you crazy? let’s order something to eat”

jisung turned his chair back to his laptop, “no worries y/n, I’ve got this”

you walked up to jisung, nudging his shoulder. “please” you pouted with a baby-like tone. “i’m really hungry, like im starving.”

after a few trials of begging, jisung finally complied making you two argue over a restaurant.

“come on! chinese or japanese jisung make up your mind!”

“but both of these looks so good” he was staring into the picture reviews of each restaurant with squirrel-like eyes in amazement.

“i swear to god…”

.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。.

you went downstairs to grab the food, stuffing the noodles into your face in seconds. both you and jisung were starving and you couldn’t help but notice the way he stuffed his food in his cheeks. it was adorable, almost as if you could hear *nom nom* coming from his mouth in a pretty baby voice. it made your blood rush to your cheeks now painted rose red from all the blushing.

jisung quickly finished his dinner, turning back to the laptop as he brushed his hair through his fingers. “ok back to work!” he exclaimed.

“are you kidding me?” you said, now standing in between him and his desk. “youve been working for three days, can’t you just rest?” you protested

“y/n...” he whispered, taking your hand in his in a sarcastic matter. you weren’t caring for jisung, if anyone was in this situation you tell them they’re crazy. sleeping is much needed in your opinion. “im actually fine. chan hyung can do it, i can to”

“that’s great!” you exclaimed sarcastically, “but you’re in Los Angeles, LA for pete’s sake! isnt there anything you wanna do here?! youve been in this room since you finished your concert or whatever you’re here for” jisung looked at you with a sense of gratefulness in his eyes.

it was as if he’d never met someone so caring, someone that could read his inner thoughts. it was 5am, way past bed time and you had stayed here for him. eating dinner as late as you possibly could and napping on the uncomfortable couch with blankets that you brought with you.

“im sorry y/n” he shook his head in disappointment, “we just need one more song for our upcoming album and there’s so much going on in my head that i can’t even process it”

“maybe you just need a break.” you suggested, “you’re seriously suffering from tmt (too many thoughts aka an skz song for those who don’t know lmfao)”

“tnt?” he replied back as if he misheard, “yeah i must be seriously mindblown” jisung leaning back against his chair to hold himself back from laughing so hard

“are you serious? that was funny to you?” you replied, chuckling on your own as the boy failed to stop his laughter.

“im sorry im sorry i couldn’t help it. and to answer yes, theyre are some things i want to do in la”

you felt a sudden cling to heart. even knowing jisung for a few hours he already seemed to mean something to you and you’d do anything he asked.

“like...” you eyebrows rose in curiousity

“the sunrise. i really wanna see the sunrise”

“really?!” you jumped in excitement, running over to grab your blankets. “it’s 6:15 let’s go!! it’s close to time”

.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。.

when jisung remained in his seat you grabbed his hand, dragging him to the company buildings rooftop. his hand still in yours, you laid out the blankets on the floor as he sat down next to you. “sorry, i only have one” you apologized as jisung shivered from the cold. you sat closer to him, wrapping the blanket around you two as you slowly put his hoodie on.

your heart beat ran as fast as a rocket, speeding as jisung rested his head on his shoulder. for the remaining minutes before the sun rose the two of you settled on some random discussion about music, realizing you two had the same taste.

“look, the suns rising” you whispered into jisungs ear.

jisung’s eyes could only glow in amazement. the sunrise was beautiful, just like the girl next to him he thought.

and the unfamiliar place jisung felt he didn’t belong in started to feel like home. even at night when all you could hear was the la traffic, all you could see was the hollywood sign, and all you could feel was the chilled wind- he found a home in you. his thoughts flew out the window like a paper airplane, in exchange they let in the bright warmth feeling of love in itself. when it was dark out, you were here for jisung, staring right into his eyes as he cleared his mind. you were the reason why his pupils didn’t dilate in the dark, the reason why he stayed warm in the cold, the reason why he grew during all the seasons— you were, his sunshine.

.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。.

bitches be writing soft imagines for jisung before finals week. that’s me. im bitches. i really am growing a soft spot for jisung. ty for writing a song i could relate to so much.

[makayla-angelic]

Frozen 2: Movie Review

Tonight, on this lovely November 23rd, 2019 evening, I got my turn to see Frozen 2, with my friend Brianna. The movie started at 6:00 pm and I was a bit surprised to see that the theater wasn’t jam packed with people, but considering it was later in the day, I figured that most people had taken their children, (or just gone themselves) much earlier. There were a lot of previews, and holy moly did they go on forever. But at last, the theater went dark, and with my popcorn almost gone, the film began.

Animation

I thought I might start in the area that really caught my attention first. The animation was crisp, clear, and lovely, everything flowed smoothly. I didn’t see anything that looked “out of the ordinary.” The colors meshed together well, and the Enchanted Forest, and Atohallan was beautiful. The characters faces; you could tell they’ve grown a bit older, especially with the new outfits and hair and all, and you can see all the little details, which I found impressive. Animation takes a lot of time and patience. I miss 2D hand-drawn so much.

Animation rating: 10/10

Music

The soundtrack to me was alright, I feel like I definitely liked the first film’s soundtrack better. Into The Unknown was beautiful, and The Next Right Thing was heartbreaking. I guess Lost In The Woods and When I Am Older were alright, but to me, they felt a bit “unnecessary?” And the songs they kind of hit you one after another like bricks to the face. Part of me was thinking, “wow, this is one song after another!” I know Frozen IS a musical, but I feel like they could have toned it down a bit with how frequent the songs were between each scene. I REALLY enjoyed Vuelie in the film though. It’s such a beautiful piece, and I thought the variations that played throughout the sequel, and the Northuldra tribe singing it was amazing. I’m glad the soundtrack came through in terms of this musical piece. Another I noticed too was the choice of musical instruments. I believe what sounded like some type of flute when they arrived at the mist, and the Lost In The Woods song with that electric guitar in the very beginning, which I thought was “new” and kind of unexpected if that makes any sense.

Soundtrack rating: 7.7/10

Plot

Alright, now here’s where all of you are probably going to rip into me. The storyline was...just there. And rushed. Everything moved fast and seemed just kind of “thrown in”. It starts off with Adgar telling little Elsa and Anna about the enchanted forest and why no one can get in or out and that flows fine, but once we get to present day everything kind of feels like it was played in fast forward and skipped some things. One minute were at the Fall Festival, then were at the Charades scene, next Elsa’s hearing voices and awakens the spirits, then suddenly the gang’s in a sled in their new outfits and arriving at the mist. Woah, woah, woah! Why so sudden and soon with everything? It all happens so quick, and why do they not show them getting dressed in their new outfits? I mean, I was thinking there would at least be a scene of them walking out from behind the wardrobe or closet and all commenting on each other’s new outfits. Even Kristoff’s first attempt at the proposal which I found funny seemed like a quick two-second thing. And I caught the “adult” joke in the film; Anna looks at Kristoff and with a suggestive smirk on her face, asks him what he’d like to do.

 Now, for all you people who think dirty-minded from time to time like I do, if Anna was perhaps suggesting that Kristoff “fondle” her while Elsa and Olaf are in the back sleeping, then that’s a bit messed up, and I’m sure Sven doesn’t want to witness that either. Anyways...from there on, meeting the Northuldra people was nice, but even there, the characters we met, I felt like we should have been given more time to learn and understand them. With characters such as Honeymaren and Ryder it felt like they barely had their place and the snippets and teasers we got before and hyped them up a bit more than what they were actually shown. I also thought that perhaps a “bit more” would happen in between before the gang actually arrives at the Enchanted Forest. I thought Elsa using her ice powers to conjure up the memories was pretty sweet, and the scene with them discovering their parents ship and learning the truth was emotional at its best, next to The Next Right Thing scene. I did find Kristoff still trying to propose to Anna funny, despite the circumstances that were before them. The battle with the Nokk was quick and seemed a bit lack-luster. I was kind of expecting a longer battle, but it felt like Elsa tamed him too quickly and when Elsa created reins to throw on him he’s all like “Kay.” And Elsa rides off on him and they are best friends already. Again Atohallan was beautiful and while I was not expecting Elsa to “die” via freezing I knew something would happen to her. Also, not gonna lie, I wasn’t expecting that King Runeard twist, so some points go there. Elsa becomes the fifth spirit and is re-born the true Snow Queen, Anna lures the Jotnarr to the dam to break it, the spirits release everyone, Elsa stops the tidal flood from hitting Arendelle, and Anna and Elsa re-unite, at least for a little bit, because guess what? Elsa’s staying in the Enchanted Forest, alone and free, away from her beloved sister, while Anna and Kristoff become queen and king. *sigh* This ain’t it. I’m sorry but six years to work on this and 50 re-writes yet this is what happens at the end of this fast-paces story? A separation? Isn’t that kind of going against what the first film was about?

Overall, I would say the plot isn’t terrible terrible but it definitely lacks that umph factor the first movie had. It moved way too fast and at times just seemed very thrown together. And anyway, this sequel was supposed to be a totally different story than what we got now, but it got changed because certain writers listened to the wrong people and Ima just leave it at that. For those that know where I stand within the fandom and have browsed through my blog and/or follow me know exactly what I mean, and feel the same way I do.

Plot rating: 6/10

Characters

I enjoy how Elsa, Anna, Elsa, Olaf, Kristoff, and Sven have grown up physically and changed their appearances and such, but one thing that bothers me is that Elsa and Kristoff still don’t seem to interact that much, and at times to me act like they don’t give two flying monkeys about each other. So at the end when Kristoff runs up to Elsa and hugs her tight, I kind of half-went “Oh so he does care?” Anna is definitely different than how she was in the first film, but she is still a bit anxious and takes things out of context, like I can sometimes. For a second when Kristoff was in the sled and the woods trying to propose to her again and Anna started freaking out wondering if something bad was going to happen to them or Elsa I thought, “Okay, who peeked inside my brain and stole a bit of my personality?” Lol. Elsa is beautiful as always, inside and out, and so is Anna, but I loved Elsa’s sass in the beginning of the Into The Unknown scene. Olaf is still funny, perhaps maybe a tad bit more annoying, but maybe it’s just me. And Sven was well, Sven. Again, I wish we could learn a bit more about Mattias, Yelena, Honeymaren, Ryder. They all just seemed “there.” Hopefully if there’s more Frozen stuff coming or even a potential third film in the coming decade of the 2020′s, there will be exploration and interaction with these characters, and even some adventures with the Northuldra tribe. (Now I’m imagining a spin-off series with Honeymaren and Ryder, brother-sister adventures.)

Character rating: 7.8/10

Final Take

The film just felt...off. It almost felt the equivalent of waking up on the day a project is due for class and you bust the whole thing out in 2 hours before you got to go. You did what you were supposed to do, but the teacher can tell you waited until the last minute, and he/she grades it just like that. Again, I know other people in the fandom are probably going to rip into me, but this is honestly how everything came off to me. Everyone likes and does not like certain things, everybody interprets things in life differently, and for me, I like the first film better. It also hits home a little more personally for me too, because of the message it sends out, which also can be interpreted in many different ways too. After a long time of waiting and being excited since the first news of a Frozen sequel came out only to just feel some type of way once the whole is done and over with after all the hype is mildly depressing and infuriating; especially since the sequel was supposed to be something different than what it is now, and again, Ima leave it at that. 

If whether you’re a person who stands or does not stand where I stand within the fandom and know what I’m getting at, I still encourage you to remain civil and please do not send any angry messages to the creators or anybody else, it’s not the polite or mature thing to do. Having an opinion doesn’t justify rude responses, because at the end of the day, we all have our own feelings. I’m not going to hate you if enjoyed Frozen 2 100% but I will hate any troll messages that anybody might send because I didn’t rate this film the rating you wanted. Alas, I do hope there’s more Frozen in the future to come, for all of us to enjoy together. 

-Makayla <3

[queer-starling]

Flower ask: also all of them. you get to suffer with me >:3€

oh darlin’ we’re in it now huh

Alisons: Sexuality?

homogay

Amaranth: Pronouns/Gender?

she/they | all gender will be shot on sight

Amaryllis: Birthday?

sept 23rd

Anemone: Favorite flower?

monkshood

Angelonia: Favorite t.v. show?

stranger things or ghost adventures

Arum-Lily: What’s the farthest you’d go for a stranger?

like? distance? a couple miles probably

Aster: What’s one of your favorite quotes?

“We are such stuff as dreams are made on, and our little lifeIs rounded with a sleep.” William Shakespeare, The Tempest

Aubrieta: Favorite drink?

wild cherry capri sun

Baby’s Breath: Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

ima change that to ‘kiss the last person u thought abt kissing’ bc YES

Balsam Fir: Have you ever been in love?

*jenna marbles voice* hell yeah!!

Baneberries: Favorite song?

waiting for the end - linkin park 

Basket of Gold: Describe your family.

chaos

Beebalm: Do you have a best friend? Who is it?

i have too many to list !!! brandi, kasey, you, liz, ivy, nick , just to name a few!!

Begonia: Favorite color?

blue uwu

Bellflower: Favorite animal?

foxes !! and opossums

Bergenia: Are you a morning or night person?

night time babey

Black-Eyed Susan: If you could be any animal for a day, what would it be?

either a fox or an opossum or a raven, i think

Bloodroots: When you were a kid, what did you want to be when you grew up?

i wanted to be a vet !!!

Bluemink: What are your thoughts on children?

theyre ok as long as theyre not screaming and/or mine

Blazing Stars: What are you afraid of? Is there a reason why?

i don’t liike vomit bc. nastey (trauma i think) and i don’t like old ppl well. i dunno why? they’re just so old and fragile and helpless and sometimes they’re really mean and idk i think it’s like something to do w death or something LMAO idk. also i just hate the idea of becoming old and having to rely on other people ?? hhh

Borage: Give a random fact about your childhood.

i was bullied a lot

Bugleherb: How would you spend your last day on Earth?  

realistically? probably playing dead by daylight with my girlfriend ADFSGRHYUTR

Buttercup: Relationship Status?

happily taken 

Camelia: If you could visit anywhere, where would you want to go?

ireland, scotland, alaska, greece

Candytufts: When do you feel most loved?

whenever my friends or family tells me they love me but esp when u text me goodmorning or when we say our goodnights sorry im gay haha

Canna: Do you have any tattoos?  

i have. uuuuhh 6

Canterbury Bells: Do you have any piercings?  

no!!! i want some tho :(

California Poppy: Height?  

i think im like. 5′5 or something? give or take an inch ?

Cardinal Flower: Do you believe in ghosts?

oh absolutely. my house is haunted as we speak

Carnation: What are you currently wearing?  

bmth hoodie and pajama pants w foxes all over them. i just woke up lol

Catnip: Have you ever slept with a nightlight?

yeah i always keep one on in the bathroom

Chives: Who was the last person you hugged?  

my sister bc she came home from college yesterday

Chrysanthemum: Who’s the last person you kissed?

ask me in like. a little over a month from now ;)

Cock’s Comb: Favorite font?

FONT??? the animal crossing font

Columbine: Are you tired?

oh absolutely

Common Boneset: What are you looking forward to?

thanksgiving, christmas, seeing my gf, magfest

Coneflower: Dream job?

idk if it’s a job but i just wanna own like. a ranch that takes in all sorts of animals and takes care of them

Crane’s-Bill: Introvert or extrovert?

introvert 

Crocus: Have you ever been in love?

ooooh yeah

Crown Imperial: What’s the farthest you would go for someone you care about?

i mean. depends on what they want/need. distance wise? i’d travel the known universe for u  

Cyclamen: Did you have a favorite stuffed animal as a child? What was it?

he was a plaid teddy bear his name was Stanley!!!! i miss him :( but now i have Little Moon God as my favourite stuffed animal 

Daffodil: What’s your zodiac sign?

Libro

Dahlia: Have you done anything worth remembering?

Working in Yellowstone is something I’ll never forget

Daisy: What do you feel is your greatest accomplishment?

well. hmm. i was gonna say flying to yellowstone but maybe driving to north carolina by myself bc driving long distances alone to places i haven’t been before gives me hella anxiety (i’m better now)

Daylily: What would you do if your parents didn’t like your partner(s)? 

i don’t pay rent in this house to listen to their opinions lmao. 

Dendrobium: Who is the last person that you said “I love you” to?

you, i think, when we said goodnight last night!!! EDIT: you this morning!!

False Goat’s Beard: What is something you are good at?

being bad at dead by daylight

Foxgloves: What’s something you’re bad at?

dead by daylight

Freesia: What are three good things that have happened in the past month?

(little over a month now but uhhh) GOT A UH ......GIRL.....FRIEND ...... GOT TO VISIT GIRLFRIEND ........ and got the windshield finally replaced in my car 

Garden Cosmos: How was your day today?

i dont know! so far ive laid in bed now im at my computer answering this. not too bad. my shift is only 4 hours today. 

Gardenia: Are you happy with where you’re at in your life?

for the most part, i’m pretty content, yeah

Gladiolus: What is something you hope to do in the next year or two?

MOVE OUT 

Glory-of-the-Snow: What are ten things that make you happy/you’re grateful to have in your life?

my friends, my mom, my sisters, my girlfriend, my bastard dog

Heliotropium: What helps you calm down when you feel stressed?

metal   

Hellebore: How do you show affection?

what does this mean. physically, i’m very affectionate, i just. don’t show it alot bc anxiety/i overthink. that and i constantly tell ppl i love them and what they mean to me 

Hoary Stock: What are you proudest of?

whoever is reading this

Hollyhock: Describe your ideal day.

wake up next 2 a cute girl. take way too long to get up. go climb mountain w cute girl. vibe on mountain w cute girl. go to waffle house 2gether. gome home and vibe. play video games or watch a movies/tv w cute girl.  

Hyacinth: What do you like to do in your free time?  

i like to make art or play bideo jame

Hydrangea: How long have you known your best friend? How did you meet them?

oh gosh i dunno. the ones i’ve known the longest are kasey and brandi, and i’ve known them both around/over a decade i think. we met in middle/highschool!

Irises: Who can you talk to about (almost) everything?

you, ivy, liz

Laceleaf: How many friends do you have?

so many 

Lantanas: What’s the best compliment you’ve ever received?

idk man but i remember when you said u had a crush on me and then i posted a selfie and u were like ‘OH NO SHE’S CUTE” and like ??? idk i think that was definitely the first compliment to ever shock me LMAO 

Larkspur: What do you think of yourself?

6.9/10

Lavender: What’s your favorite thing about yourself?

my tattoos

Leather Flower: What’s your least favorite thing about yourself? 

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kGGViLwHEUk

Lilac: What’s something you liked to do as a child?

i liked to play zombies ate my neighbors on the sega genesis !!!!

Lily: Who was your best friend when you were a kid?

eliza !!!! we lost touch a few years after i moved away :(

Lily of the Incas: What is something you still feel guilty for?

ima be real everything makes me feel guilty

Lily of the Nile: What is something you feel guilty for that you shouldn’t feel guilty about?  

aaaaaa the whole abi/moon incident 

Lupine: What does your name mean? Why is that your name?

my name is fox. it means i like foxes

Marigold: Where did you grow up? Tell us about it.

northern virginia babey !!!! that place fucking sucks!!! but everyone who lives up there thinks they’re hot shit. 

Morning Glory: What was your bedroom like growing up?

i had a bunkbed and i think the walls were pink 

Mugworts: What was it like for you as a teenager? Did you enjoy your teenage years?  

😬 i’m just gonna say i’m much happier now and i’m coping with life and shit a lot better  

Norwegian Angelica: Tell us about your mom.

she’s sweet and funny and i love her so much!! she always does the Most for everyone, sometimes to the point where she isn’t concerned abt herself and i see where i get it from. but yeah my mom is great, my dad doesn’t deserve her 

Onions: Tell about your dad.  

source of a lot of trauma and why i have so many issues regarding men. i don’t wanna talk about him anymore LOL he doesn’t deserve the attention

Orchid: Tell about your grandparents.

my dad’s mom is becoming senile and i think she’s racist and queerphobic. my mom’s parents disowned her a few years ago so we don’t talk to them anymore 

Pansy: What was your most memorable birthday? What made it be so memorable?

i dunno. i don’t try to remember my birthdays. whenever i can go to busch gardens for my birthday i usually have a lot of fun there. 

Peony: What was your first job?

if you don’t wanna count working w my mom as a florist, target was my first job back in 2016. i found my name tag the other day , actually

Petunia: If you’re in a relationship, how did you meet your partner(s)? If you’re not in a relationship, how did you meet your crush/how do you hope to meet your future partner(s), if you want any?

WELL, i know you followed me on here first. and then twitter?? but we didn’t really start talking until stranger things 3 came out (thank u stranger things) PHYSICALLY, we didn’t meet until fursonacon (haha. i remember when u texted me that u got to the hotel and i came down to help n i saw u unloading yr car and it was then that my brain was like OH NOOOOOOOO and my heart was like OH YEEEEAAAAAAAH) 

Pincushion: How do you deal with pain?

physical, mental, or emotional? i play a video game or listen to loud music

Pink: Where is home?[

somewhere in appalachia i can feel it in my stupid soul 

Plantain Lilies: If you could go back in time, what is one thing you would stop/change? 

idk man i’m pretty content w where i’m at now so 

Prairie Gentian: Who is someone you look up to? Describe them.

chester bennington 

Primrose: Describe your ideal life.

i have a waife and we have many great pets and we live in a log cabin in the mountains or in a nice victorian in a small town or something IDK but we’re happy and that’s all that matters 

Rhodendron: What is something you used to believe in as a child?

God

Ricinus: Who’s the most important in your life?

my mom, me best friends, my girlfriend

Rose: What’s your favorite sound?

my girlfriend’s laugh because it’s THE cutest shit and then when she giggles??? oh my heart 

Rosemallows: What’s your favorite memory?

oct 23rd, 2005, we brought Fat Boy Zack home !!!!

Sage: What’s your least favorite memory?

July 22nd, 2016. i was 2200 miles away

Snapdragon: At this moment, what do you want?  

to be holding my girlfriend >:(

St. John’s Wort: Is it easy or difficult for you to express how you feel about things?

hhhhhhhhhheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Sunflower: What is something you don’t want to imagine life without?

those i hold dear

Sweet Pea: How much sleep did you get last night?

enough, i guess? 

Tickseed: What’s your main reason to get up every morning?

my girlfriend

Touch-Me-Not: How do you feel about your current job?

it’s fucking BORING and TOO EASY and they don’t pay me ENOUGH but i can get away with so much shit there so ima still go, ima still go 

Transvaal Daisy: What’s your favorite item of clothing?

all of the flannels currently in my possession

Tropical White Morning Glory: Describe your aesthetic.  

mountains, woods, forests, cabins, autumn, cryptic, occult, victorian, edwardian

Tulip: What would be the best present to get you?

if someone gets me a gift i’m legally required to execute them

Vervain: What’s stressing you out most right now?

this 40hr workweek i got coming up 

Wisteria: How many books have you read in the past few months? What were they called?

i have not read in So Long

Wolf’s Bane: Where do you want to be in life this time next year?

Moved out away from here lol, we’ll see

Yarrow: Do you know what vore is?

:/

Zinnia: Give a random fact about yourself.

i’m a furry

that was SO LONG im sorry i also put you through that but THANK YOU ENJOY READING ILU

[survivor-tierradelfuego]

Ep. 13: “I just want to bury my head in a mountain of blankets and sleep.” -  Sarah

Najwah

Well, that was shit. I feel as though I really tried to get Amy to vote with us but Pedro wanted to get her out so everyone just decided to write her name down too. Also, she basically used my name as a decoy too. And I used Maddison as a decoy too so she could flush Olivia's idol. It worked. I had my superidol at the ready too. I feel like this game is just going to get more insane from here on out. We are so little people in the game. So close and yet I'm content with just being here. In the final seven. This feels good. I'm glad Pedro is with us and I wish we had gotten him on board a while back. We haven't told anyone else about our idol and superidol yet. I wonder if Amy really gave Pedro the fake idol lmao that would be hilarious. Anyway. I'm just going to carry on playing I guess. Amy had crazy big plans and I loved them but I felt like her allegiance to Maddison ruined our common goal. I wish she'd just been on board with us voting Maddison like she wanted to when we voted Grae out. That's when it all started. That's when we were causing waves in the game without anyone even knowing. Sigh. I wish things could have been different. 

Olivia A

So it looks like Maddison and I got Pedro to agree to work with us!! This is very very exciting. We can get Aimee to flip easily (even though she does keep going back on that promise) and have a majority. Assuming it goes as planned, Maddison and I will then have our pick of who to go to the final 3 with (Aimee or Pedro). I have felt 100% solid with Maddison from day 1 and we have made every single decision together. I don’t wanna be at the final 3 with anyone but her.

Aimee

All Maddison had to do was play her idol on Amy and Cody would of went home. Maddison was scared that Old Hanuha was lying to me again and that those 3 were voting Maddison and Pedro and I would be left out and vote Amy. I wanted to put Cody’s down but I knew it would of been rocks, four versus four vote.

Dang I wish I would of known about the idol sooner so I could of had Old Hanuha put the votes on Maddison and get Cody out that way. It would’ve been such a huge game move for me and Maddison that would have looked super great for the jury, and if Cody left this game would be wide open again. Also it would’ve been believable that Pedro ratted the vote out to Maddison instead of me so I could’ve hid behind that too and old Hanuha never would’ve known I told Maddison the vote. But I get it and Maddison was nervous it was her. We still have an opportunity to flip this on the next vote too. It just requires Pedro and the personal connection I have with him to flip with me. He will have to put personal things aside with Maddison and Olivia if he wants to be more than fourth or fifth in this game. He knows the best he can get here is fifth with them....he even told me this straight up. I wish I didn’t have to flip because I love these people but I know that Cody Najwah and Sarah are a final 3. And I’ve been wronged so many times before that it would be a nice little treat for Ben and everyone else hahahaha. Actually Sarah flipping would be great for her own game too but I’m not sure if she is really going to do that or just is waiting for the right moment to maybe flip with me and Pedro as well. It’s interesting with Sarah because it’s almost like we are both staring at each other waiting for the other to say we wanna flip. Wonder if we are thinking the same thing and maybe planning the same moves. Wouldn’t surprise me, Casanova 👑 has a really similar game to mine, even if it’s portrayed differently.

Aimee

Also, after listening to that podcast. WHOS THE TOP PISCES NOW, ZACK! https://64.media.tumblr.com/ce6ed38bc4ad9c69ee92e5e764c19e5e/tumblr_njj8unqiGl1sqbiv1o5_400.gifv

Sarah

From three days ago but I just got it to upload.... https://youtu.be/w5g35793Bkc

Sarah

From last night... https://youtu.be/IBPzYsGfIRU  Najwah I had a brain fart at the end of that game and I said something so ridiculous. I just want to bury my head in a mountain of blankets and sleep. 💀💀 What a fun game though I enjoyed it! But... Embarrassed for life. 

Aimee

https://rainbowkarolina.tumblr.com/post/616209748381122560/ I wore my jacket looking fancy for this immunity challenge. Too bad my mood was shit. Oh well. Congrats Cody!! 🥳🥳🥳 https://64.media.tumblr.com/b1324cd7cf8c621547f61c8cb20d5fda/eaeee04a03e6c254-72/s540x810/eaf80576f97d63015f9a99cffb28fe7b46e888cb.gifv

Najwah

No ones ever going to see that video again so let's write a better confession. Here's the thing, I am playing for fun at this point. After hearing and having time to listen to Zack's podcast, I realised how intense I was initially too. How I'd do anything to win. Whether it was stay up until 6am, avoid my job, accidentally stay without food, stay in bed, not call my parents for weeks, blindsiding James just to get to merge. I no longer feel stressed and angry. One thing I liked about Zack's podcast segment was that I have a whole new perspective on a lot of things right now. I'm here, in the fucking top 7. Never thought that would ever happen. I have made friends and gained so much from this. At some point in this game you get to a crossroads and you have to decide who you are. Are you a vicious blindsiding, backstabbing bitch or do you want to see your people WIN more than anything. Tonight Cody won immunity. He fucking deserved it. I'm so happy he can go spend time with his nieces and nephews and not worry about being a target. Me? Oh I'm burning to use my damn superidol so that I can at least try to win ONE immunity.

Everyone in the game right now has won individual immunity except Pedro and I. Which is funny bc I always thought of Pedro as a challenge beast. I miss Amy. I don't like not seeing her in this game. I've been thinking about how we left things all day. Why did she want me to vote her? Why did she trick me about the vote or was that just her protecting me? Either way, we played the same game at each other as our last play. The double decoy. I don't know if I mentioned this yesterday, but Amy wanted to vote Olivia out so that we could form a 4 person alliance with Pedro and Maddison. I've never spoken to Maddison ever. And Pedro is a loose cannon. I don't see how that would have ever worked. And she said our first play would be to get the strong players out: Cody, Sarah.. Like? In my opinion Maddison is the strongest player in the game. If Maddison were at the end, I wouldn't hesitate voting her in a heart beat. I didn't get how she wanted. To hide behind Maddison forever and not take control of her own game. I didn't get that she wanted Maddison out but whenever it came down to it, she would hesitate to get her out? She's told me every one of Maddison and Olivias advantages and idols etc. She's spilled so much tea while I've never told her anything negative about the people I'm working with because I didn't want them out? Ugh. I guess some day I'll ask her. If this were a real game of survivor perhaps I'd take Sarah or Aimee out, like I'd flip on them for a million bucks maybe coz they're strong players but as long as this is an online game ima be cheering everyone on bc this game is long and tough and we have been through things together, ya know? 

Olivia A

Just talked to Aimee about flipping to work with Maddison, Pedro, and me. She said she’s in for now but still wants to talk to og hanuha people and see their plan for this tribal. She still said that she realizes if she doesn’t flip all of our games (including hers) are done. So even thought she hasn’t given full agreement, I think we’re all solid on this. We are planning to vote Sarah out. I think this will completely turn the game around. I don’t wanna think too far ahead but I’m starting to see my trajectory to FTC pretty clearly. Don’t wanna speak too soon though so if I get voted out don’t hold this against me lol.

Pedro A

trying to break the trio...have a bad feeling about this tribal ....working with maddison and olivia isnt the best....i hope they dont lie AGAIN....at this point..if i get out....they are next...so its kinda dumb to vote....BUT IF I LOSE....i will scream ALELUIAAAAAAAAAAAAAA...cause damn im exhausted 

Aimee

This song is dedicated to Cody and his immunity win!!!!!🙌💚🖤 https://youtu.be/weRHyjj34ZE Sharika - Whenever, Wherever Our humor knows no distance 😻🌵🌈💞 😅I’m trying my damnedest to get Maddison and I as far to the end of this game as possible. So sorry about the confessional about me wanting the idol to work to get you out. https://64.media.tumblr.com/562258ad5eb14f6498ceff24aa8392e7/984582d2a107588c-d2/s540x810/1b6cf1576e95c3672122cfb7887ffd5a644d87da.gifv So I hope no hard feelings! I love that we can laugh over pop divas, gay culture and just life in general. 😂 We are gonna tear up the city as soon as we can hang out in person. I hope Texas and Ohio is ready for this! Olivia A

Pedro being so paranoid about Aimee’s commitment is getting frustrating. Since we brought this plan to him we’ve told him she’s 100% in she’s been talking about flipping forever and he still gets so nervous. I understand the paranoia bc it’s a big move but I wish he would listen to what we’re telling him and trust our intuition. That doesn’t really matter though bc tonight we are voting Sarah and it’s going to work! :) Oh also Maddison and I keep saving up coins to buy things that end up being nothing it’s getting really frustrating but oh well!

Pedro A

Sarrah says she wants to vote maddison...and now aimee..is trying to get me to vote...with maddison and olivia who want to take out sarah.....(i already know about the plan, i made the plan lmao)......somehow i feel like im the one GOING HOME TONIGHT

Maddison

I’m putting trust in someone that I never wanted to have to trust. Pedro, here’s to you bud.

Aimee

https://kasugano.tumblr.com/post/154832341580 Well I figured I would try! I will do everything in my power to keep Maddison here on Skype survivor island. https://rainbowkarolina.tumblr.com/post/612534208936755200/ I just keep losing one close friend after another in this game. I’ve honestly become numb to it at this point. I just see that light at the end of the tunnel. 2 weeks just 2 more weeks. I don’t plan on going to jury. I’m just so excited to finally reconnect with my people at the end. I’ll keep fighting like I’ve been doing since day 1. I feel like Maddison being voted out just kicked me into overdrive. The adrenaline is here and I’m ready for what’s to come next. This lady is strong and a fighter. https://rainbowkarolina.tumblr.com/post/613061232697753600/

Cody A

https://youtu.be/S8iY2_ho8-Y

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Best Lyrics of Reputation and my commentary

Ready for It:

He can be my jailer, Burton to this Taylor - My 1950s loving ass is just here for this Burton to this Taylor shit, cause their an OTP

Every love I’ve known in comparison is a faliure - Also a reference in my mind to Burton-Taylor love.

End Game:

I wanna be your A-Team - Just here for the early Ed Sheeran reference ;)

I’ve got some big enemies - idk i like the drama what the hell

Ooo you and me would be a big conversation - Media

I got a reputation that don’t precede me - opposite of the line that taylor cut from gorgeous

I don’t wanna just be another ex love that you don’t wanna see - <3

I don’t wanna miss you like the other girls do - hmmm... i really don’t feel joe vibes listening to this?

I just wanna be drinking on the beach with you all over me - This makes me think of the pics of Tom & Taylor on the beach

I got issues and chips on both of my shoulders - Ed’s singing always gets me and I like the chip on the shoulder trope

The truth is it’s easier to ignore it believe me - Love it

Even when we argue we don’t do it for long - Sounds like me with my friends <3

You understand the good and bad end up in the song - now that sounds like Joe

(Side note if it is all about Joe like she ‘claims’, seems odd but whatever, betcha that Calvin & Tom are so fucking thankful that Joe’s got her so loved up that she can’t even give a shit about their asses and how she thinks they may have wronged her)

All my flaws, paranoias, and insecurities - reference to the image built of Taylor

After the storm something was born - <3

Four words on the tip of my tongue - ???? Four words?

You and me we got big reputations - ... can’t be joe cause when they started dating everyone was legit like Joe who????

And I bury hatchets, but I keep maps of where I put them - i’d rather it be like about putting them in peoples backs, but i like this too, like she keeps maps of where she puts them after their buried, cause she’ll happily dig them up again if your wrong her, ie Kanye drama

My reputation precedes me - there it is again

I swear I don’t love the drama, it loves me - Love this line <3

Your handprints in my soul - <3

I Did Something Bad

I never trust a narcissist but they love me, so I play them like a violin, and I make it look oh so easy - I love it idk

Cause for every lie I tell them they tell me three - wtf love it 

This is how the world works, now all he thinks about is me - LOVE

If a man talks shit then I owe him nothing - reference to kanye’s i made that bitch famous lyrics? and i love it

I don’t regret it one bit cause he had it coming - this song has drilled into the vindictive, slice your throat open side of me??? pls stop

They say I did something bad - <3

And i love the techno sound of it like tear it up

I never trust a playboy but they love me - ;)

So I fly them all around the world and let them think they saved me - ? Taylor who this about?

They never see it coming - ;) devilish

You gotta leave before you get left - heart ripping feel the power

He says don’t throw away a good thing  - idk im torn whether I like this line or not???

If he drops my name then I owe him nothing - Kanye, Calvin, a ton of ppl? 

And if he spends me change then he had it coming - I love the had it coming line makes me think of Cellblock Tango

They’re burning all the witches even if you aren’t one - Strong line

They got their pitchfork and proof, their receipts and reasons - Receipts -_-

Light me up - I love whenever that term is used

The little bubblier tune change towards the end is magic too

Don’t Blame Me -

 How this is not a Jack Antoff produced tune is beyond me it sounds so much like Waiting Game, whatever the tune is magic

Don’t blame me love made me crazy, and if it doesn’t you ain’t doing it right - I love the passion filled love story goes back to my love of Burton-Taylor, also reminds me of that thread of That’s the Way I Loved You

I’ve been breaking hearts a long time - Love it

They say she’s gone too far this time - this is powerful

And I’m just gonna call you mine, I’m insane but I’m your baby - Playing on the medias stereotype, getting a bit old 

Echoes, love you name inside my mind, halo, hiding my obsession - It’s a good lyric especially the name inside my mind

And baby, for you, I would fall from grace, just to touch your face - I wrote a similar line in a song earlier today before I heard this similar feeling runs deep

If you walk away, I'd beg you on my knees to stay - playing on the damsel in distress vibe again, also getting a bit old

Delicate

This ain’t for the best, my reputations never been worse - I love the my reputations never been worse line <3

Oh damn, never seen that color blue - Love it

Is it cool that I said all that, Is it chill that you're in my head? 'Cause I know that it's delicate - Fresh love, and I like it cause I get

Is it too soon to do this yet? 'Cause I know that it's delicate - I feel like this is about writing a song about someone, like is it too soon to write a song about this yet, not in a bad way!!!

Do the girls back home touch you like I do? - Sexy line, hot

Echoes of your footsteps on the stairs - Line reminds me of ‘ Sounded like footsteps on my stairs’ from If This Was a Movie. Also reminds me of All Too Well and the ‘down the stairs you were there I remember it all too well’ cause you know I’ll look for any reason to mention the power song

Stay here, honey, I don't wanna share - ??? what’s this about

Sometimes I wonder when you sleep, are you ever dreaming of me? - <3

Sometimes when I look into your eyes, I pretend you're mine, all the damn time -  LOVE IT

Look What You Made Me Do

I’ve fallen out of love with the beat but it is still lit

But I got smarter I got harder in the nick of time - It’s strong and give me power

Honey I rose up from the dead I do it all time - See above

I got a list of names and yours is in red underlined, I check it once, then I check it twice - See above, also it’s vicious and I live for it

Maybe I got mine, but you'll all get yours - Kitty got claws

I don't trust nobody and nobody trusts me - Makes me grin with evil intentions

I’m sorry, the old Taylor can't come to the phone right now" "Why?" "Oh, 'cause she's dead!" - Maniacal laughter like Yzma as the cat in Emperorers New Groove

Below the lines that I’m not here for anymore

You ask me for a place to sleep,locked me out and threw a feast - idk? just eye roll?

The world moves on, another day, another drama, drama, but not for me, not for me, all I think about is karma - again just done with it

So it Goes...

I'm yours to keep and I'm yours to lose - Cool 

You know I'm not a bad girl, but I do bad things with you - ;)

Met you in a bar, All eyes on me, your illusion is, All eyes on us - Makes me think of This is What You Came For, so I’m thinking this is a Calvin dig, for him being a intimidated by her success

I make all your grey days clear and wear you like a necklace - This whole song I’m like idek if this is good or not, this is my least fav song on the album

I'm so chill, but you make me jealous - Girl we’re cool, but when have you ever been chill, and you’ve always been jelly?

Come here, dressed in black now - Oooh reputation era, bad ass taylor coming in, having her emo dressing in all black phase coming in XD

Scratches down your back now - Rawr sexy

Gorgeous

You should take it as a compliment that I got drunk and made fun of the way you talk - Making fun of Joe’s British accent ;)

And I got a boyfriend he’s older than us he’s in the club doing I don’t know what - Tom? Calvin??? Who knows.

Whiskey on ice, sunset and vine, you’ve ruined my life by not being mine - I get it 

You’re so gorgeous, I can’t say anything to your face, cause look at your face - Again I feel it

You should take it as a compliment that I’m talking to everyone here but you - Agreed

If you got a girlfriend, I’m jealous of her, but if you’re single it’s actually worse - Honestly yes, cause if you got a girlfriend, Ima be good cause I’m a Jackie not a Marilyn, but if you don’t omg I’m sorry I can’t stop it

You’re so gorgeous it actually hurts - Yep

Ocean blue eyes looking in mine, I feel like I might sink and drown and die - I’m sinking drowning and dying all at once

Like Joe isn’t really attractive to me but I’m glad she’s happy and wrote this bop cause I feel it in my soul

Getaway Car

The robo voice can go thank you

It was the best of times the worst of crimes - Love it already

I struck a match and blew your mind, but I didn’t mean it, and you didn’t see it - <3

The tires were black, the lies were white, and shades of gray in candle light - WHY DO I ENJOY THIS?

I wanted to leave him, but I needed a reason - IS JOE THE REASON? Okay love, but also come on if you wanna leave him, leave him for you!

X marks the spot where we fell apart, he poisoned the well, I was lying to myself - I love it so much and the beat??!?

I knew from the first old fashioned we were cursed, we never had a shot, shot, shot in the dark - Honestly can’t tell if this is her being like been on Joe for the longest time wanted to kick all the boys to curb moment I saw him shit, or whether it’s just her telling one of her made up love stories tied to the truth??? Like this is just about Bonnie and Clyde sorta and she’s just tying it to this.

You were driving the get away car, we were flying but we never get far - BOP BOP BOP

Don't pretend it's such a mystery think about the place where you first met me-And where exactly is that Taylor we’d all like to know, WHERE, WHEN, AND HOW DID YOU REALLY MEET JOE EXPLAIN

We're ridin' in a getaway car there were sirens in the beat of your heart - <3

Shoulda know I'd be the first to leave - Love

While he was runnin' after us, I was screamin', "go, go, go!" - LOVE LOVE LOVE

But with three of us, honey, it's a side show and a circus ain't a love story and now we're both sorry - Getting all kinds of era refs here

It hit you like a shotgun shot in the heart - Dead

I'm in a getaway car,I left you in a motel bar, put the money in the bag and I stole the keys that was the last time you ever saw me - This whole line is killer and I love it

King of My Heart

I'm perfectly fine, I live on my own,I made up my mind, I'm better off bein' alone - Love it

We met a few weeks ago - Idk but I like this single line

So prove to me I'm your American Queen and you move to me like I'm a Motown beat - I get American Boy vibes from this

Cause all the boys and their expensive cars, with their Range Rovers and their Jaguars, never took me quite where you do - All I can think about is Harry’s Range Rover, and Tom in the Jaguar commercials, and lol jaggywires 

Late in the night, the city's asleep your love is a secret I’m hoping, dreaming, dying to keep - sound of my heart beat

Change my priorities - sweet

Overall song is just eh - second least av

Dancing with Our Hands Tied 

That beginning piano is magic

I, I loved you in secret first sight, yeah, we love without reason - <3

Oh, 25 years old, Oh, how were you to know and my, my love had been frozen - </3

Deep blue, but you painted me golden - powerful

You said there was nothing in the world that could stop it, I had a bad feeling - Strong, and heartbreaking

People started talking, putting us through our paces,I knew there was no one in the world who could take it - SEE ABOVE

I hate the chourus 

I, I loved you in spite of, deep fears that the world would divide us - Beautiful

I'm a mess, but I'm the mess that you wanted - Darling

Swaying as the room burned down, I'd hold you as the water rushes in - All about the idc, and lets keep going even as havoc wreaks 

Third least fav maybe?

Dress

Golden Tattoo - ????

All of this silence and patience, panic, and anticipation, my hands are shaking from holding back from you - Darling and sexy at the same time also come on Taylor just jump his bones!

I don't want you like a best friend - Did anyone not know this?

Only bought this dress on you could take it off, take it off, carve your name into my bedpost - Sexy, also still hear carve you name into my nipples XD

And if I get burned, at least we were electrified - Cool, but if you get burned you’re gonna be pissed

Nights back when you met me your buzzcut, and my hair bleed - Hair bleeds??

Even in my worst times, you could see the best of me - <3

Flash back to my mistakes,my rebounds, my earthquakes - Pain

Even in my worst nights, you saw the truth of me - <3

Don’t like the high pitch of the song, everyone built it up so it fell flat 

Fourth least fav maybe???

This Is Why We Can’t Have Nice Things

Feeling so Gatsby for that whole year - BOP

So why'd you have to rain on my parade? -  BOP

This is why we can’t have nice things, cause you break them, I have to take them away - !!!!!

It was so nice being friends again, there I was, giving you a second chance, but then you stabbed my back - KANYE KANYE KANYE

And therein lies the issue, friends don't try to trick you, get you on the phone and mind-twist you, and so I took an axe to a mended fence - HOT HOT HOT, I really want an axe to swing

But I'm not the only friend you've lost lately, if only you weren't so shady - grinning cuz Jay-Z

Here's a toast to my real friends,they don't care about that he-said-she-said - POWERFUL, makes me think of Taylor’s You Belong With Me Shirt in LWYMMD

And here's to my baby he ain't reading what they call me lately - Getting a lil tired of this her BABY, all songs are about Joe, JOE, JOE, JOE okay we get it, glad you happy, calm down 

And here's to my momma had to listen to all this drama - My favorite part idk why

And here's to you cause forgiveness is a nice thing to do haha, I can't even say it with a straight face - ;) I it’s funny, idek how to feel cuz im like oh god but also HYSTARICAL??

Not for the siren sounds, but also it’s lit and a secret fav?

Call it What You Want

THIS SONG IS MY BABY!!

My castle crumbled overnight, I brought a knife to a gunfight - <3

They took the crown but it’s alright - </3

All the liars are calling me one, nobodies heard from me for months - 0.0

I’m doing better than I ever was - Happy for her

My babies fit like a daydream, walking with his head down, I’m the one he’s walking to - <3 :) love it, and she used the British term fit XD

My babies fly like a jetstream, high above the whole scene, loves me like I’m brand new - Beautiful

All my flowers grew back as thorns, windows boarded up after the storm -  The afterward to Clean

He built a fire just to keep me warm - Bonfire imagery gets me

They fade to nothing when I look at him - <3

And I know I make the same mistakes everytime, bridges burn, I never learn - POWERFUL ADMITTING IT

At least I did one thing right - <3

I’m laughing with my lover making forts under covers - <3 :)

Trust him like a brother - TRUST TRUST TRUST GETS ME

I want to wear his initial on chain round my neck, not because he owns me, but cause he really knows me - UGH I LOVE LOVE LOVE IT

Which is more than they can say - <3

I recall late November, holding my breath slowly I said, you don’t need to save me, but would you runaway with me, yes - <3 LOVE LIKE THIS IS KILLING ME

New Years Day

Her voice is so sweet and dewey here and I love it, but everyone hyped it up and so it fell a lil flat on me imagery is great tho

Don’t read the last page, but I stay when you’re lost and I’m scared and you’re turning away - <3 <3 <3

I want your midnights - <3

You squeeze my hand three times in the back of the taxi - Eh it’s okay, sweet???

I can tell it’s gonna be a long road - LONG GOOD ROAD

If you strike out and you’re crawling home - Strong supportive

When it’s hard or it’s wrong or we’re making mistakes - AGAIN SUPPORTIVE LOVE

Hold on to the memories, they will hold onto you - Strong strong strong anything with the word memories gets me everytime

Please don’t ever become a stranger whose laugh I could recognize anywhere - CRYING HERE

You and me forevermore - I hope <3

[artisticestheticreads]

ያ ድምጹ (That Voice)

  The next day in her apartment’s lab, Anika was looking at the blended blood sample of her last victims through a magnify glass and took some notes. “No trace of any diseases found. This is good for feeding. The others will be happy.” She took off her white lab coat and gloves placing them on the counter before leaving the room. Anika played her stereo to hear Nina Simone’s ‘Sinnerman’. She let her hair down out of its ponytail to massage her scalp as she moved around her apartment to the instruments that surrounded her in the room. She wore small biker shorts with an over sized white crop top. She moved her hips and arms to the sway of Ms. Simone’s vocals, singing every word.

“Don't you see I need you, rock? Good Lord, Lord All on that day So I run to the river It was bleedin', I run to the sea It was bleedin', I run to the sea It was bleedin', all on that day So I run to the river It was boilin', I run to the sea It was boilin', I run to the sea It was boilin', all on that day.”

     Anika imagined herself as she was there when she performed this song live back in 1965 when her mother was still alive. Queen Kamili loved this song and whenever the ladies heard it, they couldn’t help but move. They always ended up doing their tribe’s dance moves. Anika moved around in such a full force as she imagined the last few minutes she had with her mother. She felt her soul become stronger within every move like she did whenever she was with her mother. When the song came to an end, she felt tears draining from her eyes, looked into the mirror across from her and saw the gold tears fall. She tossed her hair out of her face and sat on her knees looking at her reflection. 

  She heard a cough and when she turned, she saw her third eldest sister, Princess Eshe Maraki of Season Beginning’s. She wore her fluffy afro with pride, a bedazzled sequin top with a purple strapless bra , bangles up her arm, matching hoops and a purple fluorite stone around her neck with low ride cuffed jeans and matching stiletto boots. “Hello, beautiful baby sister. Why must you cry whenever you hear that tune?” Anika stood on shaky legs but Eshe caught her. “Why are you here, Eshe” she asked as Eshe wiped her tears away. “I am here to visit you, love. I see you are still not over our Queen’s death.” 

“How can I be over it when I am the reason she is gone?” She held Anika’s head onto her lap and started to twirl the braids in her hair. “Dear Anika, none of us all saw this coming and besides you were no where near the scene of the crime. You did nothing wrong.” Anika tried to get up but Eshe pushed her back down. “Listen, Anika. Our women have only one rule and that is never blame ourselves or others for the death of our people. We have to stay strong in our mother’s memory. I know you and I are not close as yourself and Zoya but trust me when I say that you are not to blame. The attack was fast and before we could stop it, it was all over with. Mother is back in her tomb at peace with our Goddess Genat.”

“She was not supposed to die, Eshe. We are im-mortal for a reason. We do not die like the human beings.” Eshe let out a small chuckle and said “this is true but things happen all for a good reason even if they started out terrible. The tribe in question will be punished soon once we find them. Do not worry and once we find the heart and a cure, you will be our queen. You will wear that crown with pride and joy like our mother wants and imagined for you.” Anika closed her eyes and took in her sister’s sweet scent. It was true they weren’t close but when they made up, there were already sweet memories. Eshe was traveling the world so much she barely checked on her sisters. She honestly blamed her mother’s death on her because she was not there to stop it. As her sweet sister fell sleep in her lap, she watched her and caressed her cheek. Eshe lied her head back looking up to the ceiling with gold tears of her own. “inē it’ebik’ishalehu ina k’alihini it’ebik’alehu, ihiti ānīka (I promise our queen that I will protect you and I shall keep my promise, sister Anika.)”, she said as she soon drifted off as well, all to Nina Simones’ ‘Don’t Let Me Be Misunderstood’.

    In his apartment across town, Malcolm looked at his house phone that was staring him the face. He sat on the couch and just staring at white phone like it owed him money. It had been a whole three days since he met ‘Anne’ but he still didn’t call her. He was scared. Of what he didn’t know why but he just knew he shouldn’t. What if she was busy? What if she wasn’t really feeling him like that? He had called plenty of females, all the time actually so why was he being such a wimp, he thought. His train of thought was interrupted when the phone rung. He got up and answered.

“Hello?”

      “What’s up, nigga? You called her yet?” It was Shane of course. Mal took the cordless phone to his couch. “Shane, why and how are you always in my fucking business?” Shane rolled his eyes as he watched Martin reruns. “Da fuck you waiting for, Mal? It ain’t like she gonna call ya ass. She don’t even have your number.” Malcolm thought about it but maybe too hard because he felt he was brain was about to strain. He placed two fingers on his forehead moving them clockwise. “Shane, you my dogg but I don’t need no lecture from you, my nigga. Ima call when I am ready. I’ll call you later.”. He hung up and felt something, like a certain urge. He looked at the phone number he copied on a sheet of paper as soon as he got home and picked up the phone dialed the numbers. “13235558794″ he said and held the phone to his ear leaning on the couch. He waited for the dial tone and it kept ringing he was about to give up but then he heard…

“Hello”, Anika answered as she rubbed the sleep out of her eyes. He thought she even sound more beautiful like she did in person. She looked around to see that Eshe was gone and so were the containers. She repeated. “Hello? Is anyone there?” He cleared his throat and said “is Anne there?” Her voice eased to his eardrums. “Yeah. Hi, Mal. How’s it going’?” He smiled and leaned his head back relieved. “Good. Were you sleep?”

She yawned and said “yeah but it’s okay.” 

“Sorry I haven’t called. I’ve been hella busy.” She laughed and said “it’s coo, Malcolm. I figured as much. I’ve had my hands tied, too. So, how you been though?” He became more relaxed and said “I was stressed but now I ain’t anymore. But, what about you?” She lied in bed now and said “nothing much. School and stuff.”

    He was quiet for a little, trying to think of what to say next. “So, what you got goin’ on for the rest of the week?” She took a breath and said “nothing much. What about you?”

“Same as you. You not hanging with you friends.?”

    She had to come up with a lie and fast. “Oh, they actually went back home to Texas. They were only visiting, remember.” He smiled and asked “I know this is sudden but would you like to hang out today or tomorrow? I would uh..” He cleared his throat and said “I would really like to see you again.” She looked around in a very paranoid state of mind and asked “why you wanna see me?” He chuckled nervously and said “well, I would like us to be friends and I was always raised that to be a friend, we should build a connection.” The last time she did something like this, her sisters found out and had to take him out; he ended up being take out. But for some, something told her to say …

“Okay. Tomorrow will be fine.”

He smiled. “Great and where would you like to meet?”

“You know where Fox Hills is at?”

“Yes, of course. What time?”

“Noon.”

   He leaned in and said “cool, I’ll see you then.” She nodded and hung up slowly, dropping the phone. Anika sat there in bed thinking out loud. “What in all of Ethiopia am I doing? I must be foolish to think that this will end well. So, why am I fine with this? I am the leader of a royal tribe for mother’s sake. I can not go. I must not.”

    She lied on the cold golden floor in a sacred temple somewhere in deep Ethiopia but she wore a white gown that hugged her figure and her hair in two braids and matching afro puffs. She wore a gold head piece on her forehead as as she sat up to take in her surroundings. The walls were a white marble and the ceiling was high with a gold chandelier. “lijē, inikwani dehina met’achihu (My child, welcome home.)”, she heard a sweet woman’s voice but saw no one around. “selami. yeti nehi (Hello. Where are you?)”, she asked but no answer. She walked around the room that suddenly faded in as she saw furniture fading in. A king sized bed with black silk sheets with millions of golden throw pillows. There was also a vanity table and a huge wardrobe with two matching lions on each side of the bed. She looked in the mirror to see her mother in a shimmery gold and white gown with a crown that resembled Queen Nefertiti's crown but white and gold. Anika turned to her and felt tears drop down. “nigisiti imayē? (My Queen Mother?)”

  “le’inē minimi iniba, lijē. inē lezele’ālemi wisit’i bebētemenihi wisit’i nenyi. inē huligīzē izīhi inoralehu. inē beberikata sewochi dehina nenyi. (No tears for me, my child. I am in our palace for all of eternity. I will always be here. I am safe and loved by many.)”, Queen Kamili opened her arms to her beloved daughter with a warm smile. Anika ran to her arms with so much emotion she couldn’t think right. “imayē, bet’ami āzenishalehu. (Mother, I miss you dearly.)”, she said not wanting to let go. The queen gave a light laugh and held her closer. “Ah, Anika my love. You have a lot to learn. I am amazed that you have not visited me earlier. (ānī, fik’irē. bizu yemīmaruti negeri ālewoti. k’edemi biyē silaligobenyehubinyi desitenya nenyi)”, Kamili said as she rubbed her child’s back.

     Anika looked at her with baffled eyes. “What do you mean, mother?” Queen smiled and said “follow me, dear Anika.” They left the royal palace and walked to a secluded ocean where the water was clear and aqua and the rocks were a magenta shade caused by the sunset. “Our people were the first to be on earth ever. The bible say that there was an “Adam and Eve”. No, there was Adam, Eve, Amani and Fassil, Yonas and Nyala but we were separate for a purpose. You see, there is their God and we have our Goddess, Genat. Genat created our kind on the other side of the world because their God couldn’t handle our power. He hated the idea of beings more powerful than him.”, Queen Kamili stated as the dug their toes in the warm toffee sand.    Anika said “so, mother. We were able to populate with the male species?” Kamili smiled and said “yes, but only beings like us. Strong, resourceful, and highly intelligent. We used to be guarded by the royal family, the Sahle tribe. They were are protectors and partners before the Serwit tribe. But we had our difference in 1708 due to some issue we do not wish to discuss.” Anika looked on the water with her arms in front then to her mother. “Mother, why am I here?”    Kamili looked at her daughter with caring eyes. “the man, you will befriend. He is a good man. He is not like the others we have fed to our kind. Someone I like for you. You need to relax a little, my child. That young man is something special.” Anika turned to her mother and asked “what about the others? What would they think of this issue?” Kamili held Anika’s shoulders and said “ānite merīhi nehi. inesu melikami yihonalu. (You are their leader. They will be fine.)” She smiled and Anika hugged her again. “inē ānichīni iwedachiḫwalehu. (I love you, mother.)” “lijēni iwedachiḫwalehu. kuratenya ina gezhī ādirigenyi. (I love you, my child. Make me proud and rule.) 

    Anika woke up the next day to realize it was all a dream. Her eyes looked to the sun and she thought of what her mother said and smiled. “Maybe I should give him a chance. As a friend of course.”, she said aloud then saw the time on her clock. It was eleven am and she had to meet Malcolm across Los Angeles at Fox Hills mall. “For the love Genat” she yelled as she ran to the shower then looked inside her closet for something to wear; a paid of Adidas biker shorts, plain red turtleneck crop top, and red converse with a red & black flannel. She wore her hair in high ponytail with two braids out, grabbed her keys and was on her way.

[Elevators (Me & You) by OutKast plays]

   She pulled into the crowded parking lot and parked in a spot by the food court. She realized that they never said where to actually meet but when she looked up, Malcolm sat at a nearby table. He wore a pair of red sweats with a black sweater and black Kswiss. He saw her and smiled with a lip bite. He stood as he approached her and said “hey, hope you don’t mind but I just came from class.” She nodded and said “it’s okay. I literally just threw anything on.” He looked her up and down. “You like fly to me, Annie”, he gave a warm smile and she felt hers coming in slowly. They began walking through the mall looking at all the customers running around. “So, Annie. I wanted to actually apologize for not calling. It’s been really busy lately” he said with his arms crossed, looking down at her.

     She waved him off and said “it’s fine, Mal. Really. I’ve been busy, too.” He looked down at her, watching her with close eyes again. He watched her lips move as they talked every sweet word. Her eyes were like dark chocolate covered orbs that had a shine to them. Her skin was smooth as if it was touched by A God them self; any God. Her body was a vision that he would to take in all of eternity. She was overall a piece of art and he couldn’t help but just stare. She looked up at him and smiled. “You aight up there”, she asked him. He nodded and chuckled. “Yeah, I’m fine. So, do you have any relatives?” She looked at him then ahead.

“Yeah, I’m the baby of seven women.”

“Whoa. So, no brothers.”

    She shook her head. “Nope, what about you?” He smiled and said “I’m actually the youngest of a bunch of men. Just imagine the fights.” He laughed as she looked at him. He was a very handsome man with amazing dark skin, a smile that can make anyone do anything. His arms were tone but not too overbearing. His eyes were like the dark sands that surrounded her royal Ethiopian palace. ‘Why am I thinking like this’ she thought to herself. ‘He is of the human male species and I am an immortal princess who is two hundred years old and also feeds off his brothers’. He looked at her and asked “are you okay, Annie?” She looked at him and said “I’m fine. Just hungry.”

“Well, since we just walkin’ around, let’s hit Denny’s then.”

   She smiled and nodded. “We can meet up there.” He nodded once and said “I’ll see ya there. Right down the street, aight?” She smiled. “Okay, Mal.” They walked away each other slowly and surely. He got in his car and couldn’t help but smile as he made his way to Denny’s. He pulled into the parking lot and as he waited his brother called.

“This Mal”, Malcolm said. His brother let out a deep breath and said “hello, Malcolm.”

“Hey, Sal. How’s it going?”

  Sal was in his loft in New York city. He was also an attorney; probably the best damned one in all of his law firm. “How is Los Angeles treating you”, he asked his baby brother as he entered his lavish loft. He slipped out his gray tailored coat and placed it on the coat rack before settling in his wooden lounge chair. “It’s cool out here. How is New York , big bro?”

“Fine. Same old. Same old. Have you talk to the other brothers?”

“Nah, why what’s up?”

   Sal loosened his tie and said “we will be all going to T’s place for our monthly family gathering. Dad’s wishes before he passed.” Malcolm totally forgot about it until now. His brothers liked to visit him more than anything due to their father’s death. He was scarred after the fact and went through a tough battle with depression. They usually liked to talk about his progress in person but Malcolm never could face him because it felt like they were secretly judging him. “Oh yeah. Okay then. Just lettin’ you know now. I am fine. I am stable.” Sal poured a cup of whiskey into his chilled glass at his kitchen counter. “Yes, I know but it was our father’s wish since you are the last of us. So, we will be there and discuss whatever.” Sal sipped the whiskey and said “aaaah. Smooth. Little brother, we are doing this because we care about your well being. You must stay strong for all of us. We are a team.” Malcolm felt a tear and wiped it with his thumb. “I know, man. I know.”

   He turned his head to see Annie’s car pull up to a nearby spot. “Hey, Sal. I’m gonna call when I get back, man.” They said their goodbyes and Mal hopped out to stand by Annie’s door; she smiled and opened her door. They walked in side by side and went to sit at table with two chairs across from each other. He ordered them two chocolate milkshakes and as Anika watched the waitress walk away, she turned back to see Malcolm looking at her. “What”, she asked with a chuckle. He smiled at her and said “nothing. I just feel like, we met before. Is that weird?” She looked into his face still trying to read his mind but she couldn’t. “No, it ain’t. Why do think we met before?”

“Not sure but I feel like maybe in the past we did.” She took a deep breath and felt as if she needed to change the subject. “So, Malcolm. How was your classes today?” The waitress came back with their milkshakes and asked “are you ready to order?” She looked from her menu then at the rose quartz stone on her chain then at the name tag; Idna . “Uh, yes. I’ll just take a cheeseburger with no tomato.”

“I’ll have the same.”

   The waiter took the menus and at went to the back. She excused herself to go to the ladies room but before she did, she saw Idna the older white woman go inside. Anika walked in and said “really, sister Ife.” Ife transformed back into herself and smiled. “I’m sorry. I couldn’t help myself and besides, he is kinda cute.” Anika rolled her eyes then asked “how on Genat’s green earth did you know we were here?” Ife looked to the stall, pointed but when Princess Anika went to go open it, no one was inside. When she turned, she saw Chereka standing right behind her as she screamed. “Damn it, warrior Che. Will you please stop that? If I was a human, that would have killed me.” Chereka laughed and apologized. “Any who. Why are with that, young man”, Chereka asked her with a raised brow. Anika walked around her and asked “who is the leader of this tribe, again?” Ife said “you are, Princess Anika.”

“Exactly. So I should not have to explain, my self sister. Anyways, have you heard from the other sisters?”

“Yes, sister Faizah is in Hawaii and have took over two hundred men in the past two years for feeding. Sister Jamila is in Florida and had sent back fifty while sisters Kia and Eshe are back in Brooklyn, New York taking rappers out. And sister Zoya is back home tending to the sick.”

  Anika nodded and smiled. “Very good, sister. Let them all know they can rest for now. We have plenty to feed off of for years to come. We need our women to socialize more to seem the less suspicious. You two go back to Texas and have fun.” They heard a toilet flush and a woman walked out to see them with her terrified eyes. Ife transformed back into Idna and looked at Anika as Chereka guarded the door. Ife and Anika’s eyes glowed gold as they lifted their right hands and they said “yetewededikewini yesemachiwini negeri ātirisa. irisiwo bedehina yinoruwotali (Forget what you have heard, dear woman. For you are safe)”. The woman’s mind was completely cleared as Chereka pretended she was going to the stall. Anika said in her hood voice “that skirt is nice as hell, giiiirl”. The woman thanked her as she swung her hair and left. Anika looked to her sister and asked “ihiti āyi’īni be’āfi meficha k’wanik’wa kemenagerachini befīti megenyeti ālichalinimi (You could not check the room before we spoke  in their native tongue, Sister Ife?)”. Ife looked to her sister and smiled; Anika patted her shoulder and left back to the table.

  Malcolm sat there, patiently waiting while tapping his fingers along the table. “Is everything okay”, he thought to himself. He was starting to think more. “I have never been this protective before so why am I now? What is so different.” He felt something behind him and turned to see Annie walking back. She sat and their milkshakes finally came. She took the straw out, placed it inside hers and swirled the straw around before taking a sip. “I have to her hear talk”, he thought. “Annie, what do you like doing besides being at home?” She looked up at him and said “I like reading. I have a tall bookcase back at my place filled with books. I’ve been reading a lot of books since I was little.”

“For almost two hundred years now” she said to herself in her head.

  “What do you like reading? Anything in particular?”

She smiled after taking another sip. “I, uh, really like fantasy, poetry, science fiction, anything that will make me want to stay up for hours in my pajamas and just read all day. What about you?” Malcolm sipped his and said “I like to paint and sculpt. I also am a photographer. I just take randoms pictures of certain areas around LA.”  She was so interested in him. It was like he was not at all like the other men she had dealt with. He was … different; the food came and they ate. “So, how long have you been into art for?”

“Since I was younger. My father was  also into and taught me a few things.”

   “What about your mother?” Malcolm looked at her, away then back at her and said “I never knew my mother. My father remarried a lot so my brothers and I have different moms. I heard she passed when she gave birth to me.” Anika looked up at him with saddened eyes; she felt awful for bringing this up to him. “I, I’m sorry, Mal. I didn’t-”. He held up his left hand and said “it’s okay, Annie. You just asked a question and I decided to be honest with the answer. We good. Don’t trip.” He smiled and she returned a small one. “So, Annie. I was thinkin’ if you would like to go hang out sometimes. We can go to the beach or something. You can read and I can just take photos all day.”

  “When will you like to go” she asked with a smile. “Are you free tomorrow afternoon? I have a pretty tight schedule for next week but I would really like to sew you again”, that smile he gave her tugged at her heart strings. She felt like the world was in that smile and she couldn’t help but say..

“I’m down. Wanna meet there?”

“I was thinking. I can pick you up. We can get to know each other more.”

   She didn’t usually let humans near her home but for some reason, she was fine with him coming to her. What was happening? “Sure. Call me tomorrow and I’ll give you the address.” They sat with smiles on their faces and eventually ended up back home. Anika kicked her shoes off and looked upon her bookcase to see what to read; her heart chose “Romeo and Juliet.” She made a cup of tea, sat in the middle of her bed with legs crossed and opened to Scene II; Capulet’s Garden.

“Juliet. Well, do not swear: although I joy in thee, I have no joy of this contract to-night; It is too rash, too unadvis’d, too sudden; Too like the lightning, which doth cease to be Ere one can say It lightens. Sweet, good night! This bud of love, by summer’s ripening breath, May prove a beauteous flower when next we meet. Good night, good night! as sweet repose and rest Come to thy heart as that within my breast!”

  She continued to read as her eyes became heavy and looked to her clock that was eight pm, now was midnight. She placed her finished cup and bookmarked novel on her bed side table and lied her head on her pillow until her eyes had shut into a deep slumber.

    Her eyes opened to a stream of pink and blue shaded water beneath her feet. She wore the same garment from the last she saw her mother. Queen Kamili was picking her child’s afro puffs with a golden pick. “widē lijē. zarēwinu irefiti newoti (My sweet child. Have you enjoyed your rest today)?” Anika smiled up to her mother and said “āwo, nigisiti. āmeseginalehu (Yes, I have. Thank you, Queen Mother.)” Queen Kamili said “be’irigit’i yihi liji be’irigit’i yeteleye newi, negeri gini t’atiwoni belayu layi mech’emeri āyichilimi (This child is indeed different but I can not seem to put my finger on it.)”. They sat as she continued to put an ancient oil in Anika’s hair.

  “li‘iliti ānīka, yezīhi gosa merī talak’i neshi ina ānite lezelalemi inidemitalifi āwik’alehu. āhuni mayeti ichilalehu. bek’iribu, ānite ina lēlochu inidegena yemebazati ina hizibochachini ke’inya gari inidegena līnoruti yichilalu. inēni inidefet’erinyi lēlochini desitenya tihonalehi. ye’irisiwo wibeti ina t͟s’ega irisiwo kemīyawik’uti belayi lēlochini yanesasutali. (Princess Anika, you are a great leader of this tribe and I know you will lead for all of eternity. I can see it now. Soon, you and the others will be able to reproduce again and our people may live again along with us. You will make others happy like you have made me. Your beauty and grace will inspire others more than you know.)”, Kamili said as she rested her hands on her child’s chin. Anika looked at her mother and fell into her hands; feeling safe and wanted in her warm touch.

    Meanwhile at Malcolm’s, he was in a pair of his painter jeans and shirtless with his feet on a plastic tarp covering the whole floor underneath him. He seem to not be tired as he began working on a new piece; too eager for what God knows what. He stood in front of canvas that started from the top of his ceiling to the floor. He stared at the beginning of his new creation and thought that even though it was not nearly done, he knew it will be beautiful once finished. He looked into the painting and smiled at what he knew will be breathtaking.

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[sixspeed]

WEEK 5

weekend recap

saturday

went on a hike/adventure with cindy, went to sabercat creek hiking place (secret garden) took a shortcut down, ended up taking a longer time than if we actually just went down the normal way.

she’s scared of plants and fungi??

aaron’s grandpa died, he was kind of sad

sunday

did some guitar research. a bit too much.

went to mt, we are learning ch 10 but we’re on ch11, that’s weird

tried to do math hw at night, failed

talked to aaron, the dude asked me if he should move on? and honestly yeah i think so. for him it still kind of hurts? and he said he wanted to balance it, to talk to me. it doesn’t hurt for me at all? also talked about what we wanted from a relationship, what we want to get out of it. i don’t think i want one or need one lmao.

monday

learned that “5 minute” was omitted from the syllabus and we have 5 min quizzes that are 25% ha HA

25 quizzes, 30 participation, ends 2 weeks before APs

kind of sad that my grade is stuck where it is now.

got into uminn!

maybe try plan? i like todoist though. cons: todoist premium ends eventually :(

struggled to turn in grad night forms but did it !!

KBrO4 = kay bro!

https://www.amazon.com/Yamaha-FS800-Concert-Acoustic-Limited/dp/B01GRO2D3E/ref=sr_1_4?ie=UTF8&qid=1548746874&sr=8-4&keywords=yamaha+fs800

https://www.amazon.com/ChromaCast-Acoustic-Guitar-6-Pocket-Sampler/dp/B00A716FB0/ref=sr_1_2?ie=UTF8&qid=1548746211&sr=8-2&keywords=chromacast%2Bcase&th=1

tuesday

song of today: nights like this

joined squat and squad yesterday — saw ronuk and kristine! i have 9 friends in there and i guess we’ll just never…talk about it.

was going to read chem textbook but just did lab calculations. will do them today during read or 5th per.

probably spent too much time looking up guitars, found a cool guitarist named yvette

maybe switch to plan?

in my brain, my cringe moment with joon always comes up, with that document i sent to him about rice and culture. more fondly however, i think of my conversation with walter. i probably need to get more in tune with things and not cry? every time. lmao.

i also don’t like talking to aaron about like extracurricular stuff? like great, his harvard interviewer really loved him. i shouldn’t seek someone out just because they’re going to a good school. also the kid is doing usabo chem only, and physics and maybe i should start studying for usabo!!

also maybe i should exercise.

today we thought there was going to be a five minute quiz but there really wasn’t.

so i think i have to fix my life now… how should i go about doing it?

wednesday

took awhile to wake up today. i was supposed to wake up early and study for 5 min quiz, but i didn’t.

lazy day.

i messed up on my quiz though, i forgot improper integrals and also the domain restriction!

*** you don’t need to add restrictions if they don’t ask for it!

it was easy though, probably need to review and get good since it’s 25% of grade :(

i completed HG Count during lunch though!

fry is absent today. we had the same sub during econ, he was kind of a yikes. we went to get our gov books and i bumped into prey who took an interesting picture of me!

when is a trig sub necessary?

after school: i binged stevie and ally videos and im SAD and i also want a girlfriend :(

also i’ve been lw seeing random gay couples around ????????????????

like HOW do you do that what th e fuck

OK how much time do i waste on the internet looking at gay stuff? ?????????????

niki is getting laid off :(

also i was checking my MIT portal and then bam i get an interview request

thursday

sooooo i failed a trig quiz. i also got a 99/100 on my cs final! :)

without me was playing near the A wing. tiffany wants to go somewhere out of state?

FUCK I didn’t write my applicant update. i had the excuse of waiting for grades to update. my lit grade finalized and ima sad boi.

friday

for keynote on tuesday ig: go to terminal and enter

Mac/Linux: nc towel.blinkenlights.nl 23

Windows:

pkgmgr /iu:"TelnetClient"

Restart command prompt

Telnet Towel.blinkenlights.nl

FRQs to do

2016 Q2

** 2016 Q3

2015 Q5 C13

2014 Q1

2014 Q7 Rate, Half-ilfe

2013 Q3 Rate

2013 Q2 moles

keep your head up keep your heart strong - lil bev’s fave song

????????? went to sleep early

[hoothootmotherfluffers]

Hello I would like a matchup please (Haikyuu!! or Voltron). Ima libra, female, INFP, 163cm & puertorrican. Im lowkey the mom friend, some what of an ass, yet super loyal, insecure, shy upon first meetings after I tend to and react depending on who the person is. I like to write, sleep, sweets, cars, sing and dance (though im not tht good at it). Not much of a talker unless is something of intrest. Not very good at sports but if motivated Ill try. Plus a hardworker when motivated.

Sorry bothering um idk if this is important but my hair sorta looks like Keith’s, brown eyes and dark brown almost black hair. My fav subjects are English and History, uh Im studying to become an English teacher. Im very strong for my size and have miny bara arms accordings to my friends. When mad Im like Daichi and my voice drops a couple of octives (dont know is thts the term) but yeah my voice changes, Im sometimes clingy too. I hope thts all. Sorry again and thank you very much

not bothering at all!! honestly, the more info the better haha. thanks for waiting!! i went ahead and did both!

for haikyuu, i ship you with…….Kai Nobuyuki!

-you and kai would make a fantastic team parents duo! your mom friend attitude compliments his rational way of handling things as vice captain, and while he’s not much of a joker himself, he thinks you’re funny when you’re being an ass!

-kai would LOVE loyalty in a relationship, and thinks it’s one of the most important things. he’s drawn to quieter people, and your shyness would be super cute! after the two of you open up to each other, conversations would be a lot more readily coming, and he’d be a quiet balance to the way you tend to ramble when you’re talking about something you’re interested in. (it’s okay, he thinks it’s super adorable.)

-can you say swole couple? your mini bara arms plus his actual bara arms would make everyone swoon. you two regularly win cutest couple contests whenever you flex. tank top tuesdays are 100% a thing. the two of you talk about cars pretty often, and even though he swears it never happens, he’ll sing along to your favorite songs in the car just to hear you laugh.

-as a pretty level headed person, he’s not really one to make you mad, but he recognizes when others make it happen. as soon as he hears the change in your voice he goes into defense mode, trying to defuse the situation. (it always ends with him teasing you after. he lowkey thinks it’s kind of hot.)

-Kai would be the perfect person to motivate you!! he’s incredibly dedicated, and as vice captain, has had plenty of practice giving speeches to pick people up. between the two of you, you could get anything done!

for voltron, i ship you with………Keith Kogane!

-you and keith would be a force to be reckoned with when the two of you get going! while both of you can come off as quiet and insecure, when you set your minds to something, you can’t be stopped! you spend a lot of quiet moments together talking about anything and everything, and both of you infodump on the other pretty often.

-mullet squad mullet squad mullet squad (neither of you have actual mullets but lance refuses to let it drop)

-Keith loves your writing! he thinks you’re incredibly talented, and the stories especially are his favorites. if you ever send them to him, he saves them all, and reads them whenever he’s feeling lonely or homesick because they make him think of you, and you make him think home.

-english wasn’t his best subject, but he loves listening to you talk about it! he thinks you’d make an incredible teacher and admires you for doing it (especially when he thinks about how some of the students might act like him or lance. you’re very very brave.) he knows you’ll do amazing and regularly tells you so whenever you’re studying.

-clingyness would be a new thing for keith, but he’d love it once you started. he regularly finds himself checking for texts from you, for hugs, reaching out to find you right beside him–he loves it. it really grounds him in a way he hasn’t had before, and it makes him all the more sure that you’re the one for him! your relationship would be solid (even with your quips and arguments) because of how dedicated you both are, and you can rely on each other even when the going gets rough.

thank you so much for waiting, hope you liked it!! -mod chimi

[shepcrds-blog]

h O LY SHIT FAM!! WE DID IT!! id like to think me mum & yeezus crust himself for givin me the strength to send in my app cause all i wanted to do was cRY ... i lit was sweatin out anxiety beads but this group was too LIT to pass up ur all so wonderful i wanna d*e ... but hey hi hello im sammi!! my heart is beatin like 134343434 times a min ima pass tf out pce!! say nice things abt me @ my funeral xoxo anYDAMNWAY ... lemme tell u a bit abt shep & also abt his character carter just ~~warning~~ dis shit long winded af & boring as hell so ... enjoy :))

˗ˏˋ THE BLURB ˎˊ˗

( SHEPARD DANVERS, MUSE L, MALE ) —— he looks way too much like harry styles but, he actually plays CARTER HAYES on the netflix series, university ! when asked in an interview what song described him best, shepard said what’s the matter by milo greene. that must be because he comes off as detached and inhibited but is reallyambitious and supportive and is known as the benevolent around hollywood. ( jade eyes constantly dilate with temptation as neon signs flash around him, urging him to just step a little further out of his comfort zone. desire, need, want; he feels it all. he has to do it but, wait, his slender fingers wrap around the necklace splayed across his chest and just one touch of the silver cross sends him crashing back to earth. the reasons he can’t pass go aren’t exactly complicated but this game of monopoly is unforgiving. it’s a brutal tug of war between sinners and saints and he’s teetering on the edge; he’s afraid of dying because he hasn’t yet lived. )

˗ˏˋ ABOUT SHEPARD ˎˊ˗

shepard grey danvers was born on january 5th, 1996 in austin, texas to a very conservative family who upheld traditional ideals and values

his father was a well respected doctor who expected his sons to follow in his footsteps in some form or another

his mother was a homemaker who stayed home and looked after the children as well as did all of the cooking, cleaning, etc

both parents held firm beliefs that everyone had a role to play in the world and not working towards your full potential was a complete disservice to god

in order to instill their own beliefs into their four children, it was a requirement for all of them to attend church every wednesday and sunday, no exceptions

and it wasn’t like they had horrible lives because, they didn’t. their parents were overbearing, sure, but they had a lot more than others. they had a roof over their heads, food on the table, and hope for their futures

shep has an older brother ( samuel ) and two younger sisters ( elizabeth and joanna)

his brother is twenty nine, an engineer, and married with two kids and one on the way. he’s definitely leading the picture perfect life that their parents forced upon them

his younger sisters are thirteen and six, respectively, so they’re still living at home and going to school

however, shep ended up taking a different approach to the path that was set forth for him because instead of going to a university in his home state, he instead got accepted into stanford and made the move to california at only eighteen

it was something that his parents were both proud of and inherently hated because how were they suppose to make sure their son kept on track if he was so far away

that didn’t matter much to shep though and he moved without a second thought (truth be told he never felt like he belonged in texas anyway )

he’s currently in his third year at stanford working on getting his phd in neuroscience

his parents don’t help him at all with money ( and he doesn’t expect them to ) so, very early on, he realized that he would have to get a job

lucky for him, california was piled to the brim with opportunities that he could take advantage of that paid decently and wouldn’t take too much time away from his studies

that was originally how he got wrapped up in the acting world. he would mostly “audition” to be an extra in tv shows, movies, etc and get paid around three hundred for each … it was easy money for him

from there, his agent began getting contacted by people who wanted to cast shep in guest starring roles or small cameos and since they paid more he began agreeing

that opened up entirely new opportunities and he did it for a while before starting to get overwhelmed with the workload and his college work

that was when he decided to just go back to doing smaller gigs for a while which turned into him only essentially starring in music videos which didn’t pay nearly enough for him to be able to pay his half of the rent

( drug tw ) his roommate could see that he was pretty much drowning so he introduced him to the life of drugs and his drug of choice was cocaine. being a neuroscience major, shep knew right from the jump what kind of side effects came along with it and how dangerous it could be, but he was struggling so he forced every instinct telling him not to do it to the back of his mind

the high he got from doing it gave him a sense of euphoria, a burst of energy, self confidence, and he required less sleep which meant he could get more done … it was like a godsend

he promised himself that he wouldn’t let it get out of control, that he wouldn’t get addicted, but it slowly started becoming more and more of an essential

with the drug, he was not only able to fly through his coursework but he could even take on better acting jobs on the side

this was how he ended up auditioning for a popular show on netflix titled university. according to the casting call, it was only a guest starring role anyway so it wouldn’t be much different from other jobs ( however, he also doesn’t realize that these things are very flexible and some people who have started out as guest stars ended up being on a show for multiple seasons )

getting the role was incredibly exciting for him because the character was vastly different than him and he enjoyed playing those types of parts

the schedule for the show though is the most grueling he’s ever dealt with so having to juggle that on top of going to school is really starting to wear down on him which, in turn, has only upped his drug use

he refuses to quit though because he’s developed a love for acting and he genuinely enjoys doing it … if he wasn’t so afraid of what his parents might do then he would drop out of college and just act full time but, alas, he knows that getting his phd is top priority

˗ˏˋ TIDBITS ABOUT SHEPARD ˎˊ˗

he’s left handed

his favorite director is the late stanley kubrick

he’s only had one serious girlfriend

one of his major goals in life is to own a dog ( his roommate has one )

he wants to start his own charity organization

obsessed with 80′s synth pop … yeah idk either fam :))

he’s usually clean cut and sports a short hairstyle ( think present!harry ) but for the show they had him grow his hair out a little longer ( think 2013!harry and 2014!harry )

he absolutely despises having long hair because he can’t do shit with it … luckily for him they tend to hide his locks under snapbacks and beanies in the show

he only has one tattoo which is a cross on his hand in the area between his thumb and index finger

he made a promise to his mother that he would remain celibate until he got married so he’s a virgin

however, he struggles with temptation daily and is actually worried that he may not be strong enough to hold up his end of the deal ( or maybe he just doesn’t want to )

he’s generally a kind and caring person, but he can be an absolute little shit at times

he even teeters on being a pushover with some people and the complete opposite with others … he isn’t afraid to stand up for himself at all but he also won’t blatantly be an asshole

he’s awful at all sports except for golf ( if that’s even considered a sport?? idk ) like … is he twenty one or seventy one??? no one knows

he absolutely DESPISES peanut butter like even the thought alone makes him gag

he also curses like a sailor … seriously has the worst potty mouth ever

˗ˏˋ ABOUT CARTER ˎˊ˗

he was originally born in russia as aleksandr vitalyevich tchernev-volkov but was later adopted out of the country at the age of eight to a family of six in the states ( with him being the only one not biologically theirs )

deciding to give the child a fresh start, they legally changed his name to carter lee hayes and began homeschooling him while going through the process of teaching him how to speak english

when he was ten, he had made enough progress to begin going to school and officially started on his new path

he seemed to make friends easily because, perhaps, the kids were just fascinated with someone from a different country or maybe it was because he held a certain type of aura that drew others in

he wasn’t the smartest but he did excel in sports, playing everything from baseball to football and all that was in between. however, he truly shined the brightest in basketball and it was through that in which he got a scholarship to college

it was bittersweet though because while he was happy, he was also sad to be parting ways with his best friend jonas

he looked up to him in a lot of ways after all … the dude had everything that carter wanted for himself and he had welcomed him with open arms immediately

which made the fact that he had slept with jonas’ girlfriend on prom night about a million times worse because … how could someone do that to their best friend? someone that they considered a brother??

the answer was actually simple: abigail took too much valuable time away from carter and jonas’ friendship

finding out that they would be going to the same college together made carter roll his eyes so hard that he was surprised they didn’t just fall right out of his head

so, his solution? sleep with abigail and tear their relationship apart for good. that wasn’t exactly what happened though because jonas never found out and it quickly became apparent that his friend could very well blame carter and end their friendship without explanation

that fact alone was what kept him from telling the other and just moving on with his life

at the end of his senior year though, carter ended up tearing his rotator cuff and he immediately felt as though his life was falling apart

he fell down a rabbit hole during the summer of drugs, sex, and alcohol and developed an addiction to prescription pain meds

once college started up, he told himself that he would pull it together but he just couldn’t and his reliance on the prescription pills ended up costing him his basketball scholarship

he had nothing; no best friend, no sport to occupy himself with, and no scholarship

deciding that he truly had nothing left to lose, he dropped out of college and had his parents pull some strings with people over at usc believing fully that it would help set their son back on the right track with having jonas back in his life

however, that isn’t really the reason why he wanted to go. no, his reason was simple: if he couldn’t have what he wanted then no one else could either. no matter if that meant ruining jonas and abigail’s relationship and potentially his and jonas’ as well

˗ˏˋ TIDBITS ABOUT CARTER ˎˊ˗

he’s right handed

his favorite color is orange

he’s obsessed with bacon cheeseburgers from wendy’s

he used the money he was saving for a car on his sixteenth birthday to pay for front row tickets at a beyonce concert

he’s usually always seen sporting a snapback or beanie

he’s fluent in russian

he has no idea what happened to his birth parents or why he was put up for adoption in the first place

the only thing he really has from his biological family is a watch which he wears all the time even though it stopped working a long time ago

he loves when it rains while the sun is still shining … he finds that there’s just something calming about it

he won the spelling bee when he was in the fifth grade

he’s very competitive and tends to make even the simplest things into a game of winning or losing

he has a very selfish mindset where he tends to look out for himself above everyone else

used to have his nose pierced but he got rid of it after almost having it torn out during a playoff game

˗ˏˋ COMMON GROUND BETWEEN ACTOR AND CHARACTER ˎˊ˗

both felt more or less like the “black sheep” of their family

both are hiding a drug problem that they fully believe they have control over

both have an intense craving to be in love rather than constantly falling for every pretty little thing around them

& i think thats it??? i also have like muse posts for both on my blog plus teaser posters for carter & just ... all kinds of random shit if u wanted to check it out ig ... but anYWAY if u wanna plot then just give this a like & ill shoot u a mssg?? im srsly so excited to be here!!! & im more than 10000% sure ima be plottin w/ everybody anyway so expect a mssg regardless

[bambaooo]

eventful weekend..not surrounded around partying lol

i just noticed that most of the time i say its an eventful weekend its mostly because its a weekend based around parties and drinking..but not this time. just a little drinking thought..lol

but it all started on friday, left work a little early at 3 cause i had a haircut at 430

ive said this before but im hella thankful for my barber, might sound weird but hes turned into a pretty good friend

afterwards went back home and packed all my shit for the meet and to sleep at vb

drove down to the beach, it was an actually a pretty ez drive which i was a little surprised

but first went to the gym to get the rack heights and then i spent the next hour trying to find kevin in VB

ended up going to the gym owners house cause we were crashing there

i never noticed how weird it is to hang out gym bros when they arnt your main hommies lol

now i realize how douchey we sound when we get our crew together lol

ended up sleeping on the couch with kevin lol

only got like 3-4 hours of sleep before i had to head to the gym for weigh ins

weighed in and started eating

i was so glad that i wasnt like struggling to make weight, 

but like the meet went pretty well

went 3/3 for squat and bench 

i wish i tried for a higher weight on squats but its cool

i hit a PR for bench for thats cool 2

but for deads i still dont know what happened, only got my 3rd attempt

i was supposed to hit 50 lbs higher for my last one but i fucked up

but hey i still stayed in the meet and got a total

i totaled at 1215 i think, but i was still content with it all

after my last deadlift, a shit ton of emotions rushed to my head.

i legit almost cried in the warm up area.

like ima put this in my meet recap on IG but i guess ill say it here to cause it dont matter

but like ive been waiting 2 years of this shit, 

July 2016 - bombed out of the meet by failing squats

Oct 2016 - spent 3 nights in the hospital one week before my meet

April 2017 - house fire, had to drop out

like ive been through so much shit these past 2 years even in between all the bad shit.

like i dont even know how to express how i felt, but i almost cried out of happiness

after my last lift kevin gave me a hug and it was hard to not cry right then, i sound like a bitch about it it.

i remember kevins first meet, he actually broke down out of happiness, and i thought he was over reacting and shit, but now i know how he felt

not many people that dont lift will understand this shit, i went through all that shit, trained my ass off, and now im here

but oh man, what an experience.

i cant wait for the videos to come out

but afterwards went to get alohas with Erika

1, i cant beleive it took my all this time to eat alohas, that shit is bomb af

2, its always nice to hangout/catch up with Erika.

she always reminds me of how much ive grown as a person, reminds me how reckless af i was in the early years of college lol

but afterwards i went back to RVA

the drive wasnt that bad again, kinda surprised

no one was in rva to hang out with to get food so i just went to get food by myself

went to mean bird, which is prtty good.

and then just chilled and went to sleep

today, i woke up and had to get ready to meet up with the fam in sperryville

before i left i recorded a quick cover that i learned the night before i think its a song that im going to add to my general songs to sing because i ts within my range and ez to sing lol

but after drive to sperryville

it was nice to see my mom, my aunt and to meet some of my cali fam that i havnt seen/havnt met before

i didnt know i had cousins that were my age which is kinda dope

we talked, ate, and drank beers

it was cool to see how similar/different cali and VA life are so different.

but i deff want to make a trip back to cali to chill with em one day

i got a little drunk so i stuck around in sperryville for another hour while my family left

got to catch up with my god parents, which is nice cause they always gas me up and makes me feel good about myself lol

but yeah and then i drove back to RVA ain the fucking rain

fuck precipitation of all sorts

lol

but yeah that was my weekend pretty much

back to normal life, like really normal lol

idk what to do in the gym tomorrow but i want to go to the gym

but yeah first full week of work in a long time 

idk what ima do with my life now since EDC and my meet were my main events for this summer

but ill figure it out

im tired tho

gnight tumblr,

until the next