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I fear acespec!mark is growing on me
in my head mark was like hooking up with a girl one day in college or something
And he's mildly disinterested, he likes her as a person but the minute they surpass anything but gentle kissing and cuddling he’s like “oh brother 🥱”
she's all
and he's like "wow it's really warm in here can we open a window or something"
and this lass (fed up of his antics) is like "Are you gay?"
Mark's like "what!!!! what makes you say that!!!"
"Just every time I try to do this with you you don't seem to care
and marks like "nooooo im not gay ❌ just.. tired 🥱”
in HIS head mark is like "oh my god! im gay that's why I don't like sexing it with girls! problem solved!" until he's in bed with a man
and his sentiments are largely unchanged he's in bed like "woah this is crazy! did I leave my keys in my car?"
eventually he comes to the realisation that he just isn't that into sex
he’s not opposed to it per se, it’s just not something that’ll cross his mind organically
#sfth#sfth aj#shoot from the hip#sfthposting#shootimpro#clarissa's diy wedding#cdiyw#acespec mark#also someone in the discord suggested that mark has DID#and that really interests me
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my friend (who is literally aroace) just told me that it doesn’t count to be ace as a highschooler bc most people aren’t having s3x much anyway..
like, what??
they’re literally ace as well. how is it any different for me to know that i’m ace them for them?
#sorry about the censoring#i just don’t wanna be marked as mature content again#ace#acespec#aroace#ace vent#only kind of related#but i think i might be on the aro spectrum#i’m not sure tho
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Canon Acespecs 272/?: Will Ben[] (Noah Thomas) Everything Now season 1 (2023) part 5/ 15
#will ben#everything now#everything now netflix#noah thomas#nocticola art#canon aspec list#asexual#acespec#i marked him as acespec because he does talk about needing a connection like a demi#but later he's still apprehensive about having sex with his boyfriend#ace day
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that's what I've been curious about!! like what the FUCK is a celebrity crush? is it just your fav actor/singer/whatever or is it more than that? does crush imply that you want to have something romantic with them? like kiss, date, etc? im so confused. because i clearly have my favs among celebrities but i just appreciate them deeply and admire them and their craft.
the same goes for people in my life. i had some kind of a crush on literally three people and the only thing i did was stare at them. from a distance. and my thoughts were "you're so funny and pretty and your hair looks gorgeous and your style is cool". but i never wanted to do anything physical with them, maybe hug if they initiated it, and just spend time together. that's it. and it makes me wonder.... i didn't want to kiss them because I've never kissed anyone and i don't know what it feels like? or because i just didn't want to kiss them and that's fine? imean obviously it's fine but is it my case?
as for fictional characters, i don't think i have a crush on anyone either. because in my head "crush" is hugely linked with romantic attraction, which i don't feel for my fav character. like i want to wrap jing yuan in a blanket like a burrito, plant a kiss on his forehead and tuck him into bed so he can sleep an ungodly amount of hours. but do i want to date him? what for, why? again, because i don't know what romantic attraction feels like, i don't know the answer to these kinds of questions. because... what if i were in a relationship once, maybe i would want to date my fav characters. I'm just so confused. i just want to date someone so i can free myself from this fucking misery.
i have sort of labeled myself as asexual, and i was confident in it for literally two days. until i told my sibling. it wasn't a full coming out as i didn't explicitly state "hey!! im asexual". but the entire conversation made me uncomfortable and i started having doubts. which i didn't expect at all, given the fact that my sibling is queer as hell. even thou my friend supported me and tried to cheer me up, I'm still disappointed and i wish i never told anyone my thoughts.
i really want to say with confidence that it's also me in that picture or i can partially relate, but i can't. and it sucks
dear allo people,
do yall actually want to like.. kiss the people you like? like when you have a crush on a celebrity or fictional character do you actually wanna date them? or is that just an original experience for my friend (i think she may like spencer reid a lil bit too much)
sincerely, someone who's really fucking confused about matters that don't concern me
^ actually me
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in this universe
if you can understand that sex and romance aren’t essential to the human experience, you can understand that friends and platonic feelings aren’t either.
#aplatonic#aplspec#arospec#acespec#guys just...#you don't have to understand it#but please try to be accepting of people#alright?#also please put question marks after your questions
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BSD lgbtq+ headcanons for pride month :3
ADA
fukuzawa - never gave labels much thought, he/him
ranpo - gay asexual demiromantic, he/him
yosano - lesbian demisexual demigirl, she/her
kunikida - bisexual trans guy, he/him
dazai - bisexual aspec transmasc agender, he/they
atsushi - bisexual transmasc, he/him (he/they is also okay)
junichiro - mlm trans guy, he/him
naomi - wlw transfem, she/they
kyouka - questioning, ace, she/they
kenji - never gave labels much thought either, he/they
katai - mlm demispec, he/him (he/they is cool too)
kirako - wlw, she/her
PM
hirotsu - peepaw doesn't really care, he/him
kouyou - lesbian trans woman, she/her
chuuya - gay trans guy acespec, he/him
ryuunosuke - gay transmasc aspec, he/they
gin - wlw nonbinary/genderfluid, she/he/they
tachihara - bisexual asexual trans guy, he/him
higuchi - bisexual, she/her
kaji - aromantic demiboy, he/it/they
Q - doesn't care, nonbinary, they/them
ace - unlabelled, he/him
karma - unlabelled, he/they
verlaine - gay, he/him
rimbaud - gay nonbinary, he/they/she
oda - greyromantic, he/him
+ The Flags
doc - gay, he/they
lippman - gay arospec, he/him
albatross - bisexual demigender, he/they/xe
pianoman - gay demisexual, he/him
iceman - aspec, he/him
The Guild
francis - trying his best (derogatory /lh), he/him
poe - gay asexual demiromantic, he/they
margaret - wlw aspec, she/her
louise - wlw transfem, she/they
lucy - bisexual, she/her
mark - unlabelled, he/him
james - questioning mlm, he/him
nathaniel - aspec, he/him
john - bisexual demiromantic, he/him
herman - gay demisexual, he/him
lovecraft - ???, ??? (yeah, good luck)
Hunting Dogs
fukuchi - aspec, he/him
jouno - gay, he/him
teruko - wlw, she/they
tecchou - gay, he/they
DOA
fyodor - gay aspec agender, he/they
gogol - gay, he/it/they + neopronouns + xenogenders
sigma - questioning, any pronouns (he/they/she)
bram - unlabelled, never gave it much thought, he/him, #girldad
Special Division
taneda - aromantic, he/him
ango - mlm ace, he/him
mizuki - bisexual, she/her
yachiyo - lesbian, she/her
aoki - mlm, he/him
Rats in The House of The Dead
mushitaro - mlm aspec, he/him
alexander - unlabelled, he/it
goncharov - doesn't care, he/him
extra
agatha - wlw arospec, she/her
natsume - unlabelled, he/they
sasaki - bisexual greyromantic, she/her
#bsd#bungo stray dogs#headcanons#bsd headcanons#bsd hcs#hcs#bungo stray dogs hcs#bungo stray dogs headcanons#oda sakunosuke#ango sakaguchi#mizuki tsujimura#edgar allan poe#ranpo edogawa#dazai osamu#nakahara chuuya#bsd chuuya#bsd dazai#bsd yosano#bsd kunikida#bsd verlaine#bsd fyodor#fyodor dostoevsky#nikolai gogol#sigma bsd#bsd sigma#bsd bram stoker#bsd aya#(mentioned very briefly in the post! ;3)#i didnt inclue mori on purpose. idgaf#bungo gay dogs
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NO MINORS + AGELESS BLOGS + UNTITLED/UNUSEDBLOGS

Used to be @lover-puppy
Hiya! Im Dizzy ♡ I'm 24 years old. agender + acespec. I game a lot and love weed♡ Im demisexual but have pretty large libido spikes cause hormones. This is my purely NSFT account, so if you wanna know me more personally, you'll have to dm me or send asks.
Tag 🍺💕 is @drunk0nheat
Tag 🐮🍃 is @ur-pet-hucow
Kinks I post:
• Pet play (mainly puppy play)
• Bondage
• Breeding
• Impact play/marks
• Intox
• Power exchange/dynamics
• Somno
• Kidnapping
• Dumbification (NOT BIMBOFICATION THEY ARE DIFF)
• Exhibition(specifically being shared by people)
• Overstimulation
• Primal play
#lover puppy speak!#nonbinary nsft#t4t puppy#t4t ns/fw#t4t kink#t4t sub#intox kink#weed intox#bd/sm puppy#nsft puppy#pup pl4y#puppy pl4y#puppy pl@y#🐮🍃#🍺💕
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Pairing: Makoto Tachibana x Acespec!Reader; 2.9k
Tags: Angst, Suggestive (?) Hurt/Comfort, Fluff (?)
Notes and Warnings: reader is feminine-coded but i tried to make ‘em gn, internalised (and external) aphobia (a lot), suggestive themes/open discussions about sexuality and sexual activity, reader is basically Going Through It and so is ya girl, happy ending so don’t worry, Makoto Tachibana basically being the green flag to end all green flags
Summary: You find Makoto Tachibana so easy to love, and why not? He’s the best boyfriend anyone could ever have. The problem is, you’re starting to worry you might not be able to love him the right way.
Banner made by me (Canva & Unsplash), divider credits @anonimusunnoaniswriting
A/N: don’t mind me, just processing many complicated feelings about my sexuality.
In the four and a half months you’ve dated Makoto, you have found him easy to love.
His smile is brighter than the sun. The way he holds your hand with such tenderness warms your heart. He’s not the best texter, but you can’t help smiling at his attempts to use exclamation marks when he messages you first thing in the morning. He likes to try his hand at crane games when you’re out on dates, and even snagged a fluffy bunny keychain for you once.
When he kisses you, he always checks first to see if you want it, whether verbally or otherwise. He holds you close and carefully, but not as though you’re a fragile being. He admires your goals and supports you as you chase your dreams.
Why, then, does something still feel off?
Why do you feel as though your love for him, which has come so easily since the day he confessed to you, is not quite right?
You lie on his bed, staring at the open book in your hands. It’s obvious what’s wrong, even if Makoto is too gentlemanly to say it.
And it’ll be a cold day in hell before you open your mouth about it either.
Makoto calling your name softly breaks into your thoughts, and you turn to stare at him. “Everything okay?” he asks, seated at the low table. “You’ve been staring at that page for the last twenty minutes.”
“I’m fine. Nothing to worry about.” You smile, hoping he doesn’t see how strained it is. But this is Makoto - if he can read people like Haru and Sousuke, he will unfortunately be able to read you.
If Makoto does sense something wrong, he doesn’t say. Instead, he returns to his work. “You know,” he tells you, not looking up from his tablet, “we both have some free time coming up in August. Let’s go on a holiday together.”
You turn and watch him. He hasn’t been to the barber in some time; strands of his light brown hair fall in front of his brilliant green eyes as he watches videos of the swimmers he coaches and makes notes on their performance at the recent tournament. “Where should we go?” you ask.
“The seaside?” he suggests. “Or maybe the mountains, since it’ll get really hot in summer.”
“Mountains sound nice.” You hum, setting your book aside. “It’ll be good to get away from the heat for a bit.”
“It will,” Makoto agrees. He finally looks up from his work and smiles at you, the sight bringing you peace. It’s hard to be stressed when you’re with him.
But there’s still something you can’t shake from the back of your mind. The feeling that you’re missing something important in your love and care for him. The feeling that you’re loving him the wrong way.
When you meet your friends who have partners, the way they talk about relationships leaves you in the dust. You have all been raised in the same language, been educated in the same language for well over a decade. And yet, when they speak of touch and heat in the body, it’s as though they’re speaking a completely different language that you’ve never heard of in your entire life.
You read the great poets of the world, and no matter where they come from, they talk of the same things. It’s not just love talk - it’s something else. You read about tongues and flames and silken sheets and none of it makes any sense.
When you see couples at parties or in dark corners near Shinjuku, the gazes and touches seem so normal for them. Why isn’t it like that for you?
Why isn’t your relationship with Makoto normal like everyone else’s? Why do you have to be like this?
So when Makoto taps at the tablet screen a few days later and says “Let’s spend a couple of days here,” your blood runs cold, because you know what it means for a couple to stay overnight in the same room. And you don’t know if you can give Makoto what he probably wants. What everyone wants from someone they’ve been dating for almost five months. Six months by the time you two reach the resort.
He says something else, but you don’t hear, your heart pounding in your ears. Makoto’s never pushed you for anything in this relationship, but he surely has needs. They all do. Does he need you in that way too?
If you say no, he won’t do anything. But what if it’s always a no? What if you never feel that…that desire that comes so naturally to everyone else? What if you can never give him what he wants? What they all want?
Makoto is so easy to love, but something must be wrong with you because despite being so wonderful, so handsome, so perfect…he is so hard to desire.
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Even so, you do look forward to the rest of the trip. It’ll be good to get away from the city and how hot the place gets in August. Plus, the two of you haven’t had much time to spend together lately thanks to work and stuff. The occasional day off at his apartment or yours is getting rarer by the week. So a two-night retreat to the mountains is something you both need for a million reasons.
Your lodgings have the most amazing view of the nearby lake and mountains, and there’s a stone bench that’s perfect for sitting together and watching the sunset.
Makoto handled the bookings, so you examine the framed photos in the lobby while he gets the room keys. Hopefully the beds are at least separate, because cuddling on Makoto’s bed (or yours) for a few hours is not the same as sleeping in the same bed with him all night.
It would be nice to wake up in Makoto’s arms, though.
He calls your name in that soft voice you’ve come to love so deeply. He’s always so gentle with you, even when you’re not touching. You walk with him down the hallway till you reach the room. Maybe it’ll be okay. Maybe you can just make it work somehow. You love Makoto a lot, after all. You don’t mind doing something that’s probably not your cup of tea if it’s with him—
“Here’s your key. I’m just next door.”
You blink, staring at the keychains in his hand. Keychains.
“We-we’ve got separate rooms?” You blurt out.
“We do.” He tilts his head. “I said I’d get us single rooms, remember?”
“You did?” You can’t help the relief in your voice.
“Of course I did; I wasn’t going to…” he trails off, and something occurs to him. “Ah.”
It’s the only time he’s given you a smile that sad. The sight breaks your heart, and a part of you wonders if you messed up. Does he know? Does he suspect?
You’re not sure if you want to know the answer.
“Would you mind if I came into your room for a bit?” Makoto asks. “I think there’s something we need to talk about.”
****
The two of you drop your bags in a corner of the small lodge room. There’s one bed, a table and chair, and a door leading to the bathroom, with a sliding door opening to reveal the balcony with its gorgeous view of snowcapped peaks in the distance.
Makoto sits on the bed and pats the space next to him on the mattress. You join him there, hesitant to go closer. What will he say?
In the moments before he speaks, you watch him closely. In the old photos and videos, Makoto still towers over almost everyone else, but he’s always holding back. He would get embarrassed quite easily, and rarely assert himself in a way that matched his stature. But adulthood has given him the confidence he needs to express himself clearly, and he actively works to become a rock everyone can rely on for support, without burning himself out too much..
Makoto watches you too, and takes your hand in both of his. “I know something’s troubling you,” he says, meeting your eyes. “It’s been bothering you for a while, hasn’t it? That’s why you were so nervous when we got here.” He pauses. “And I think I know what it is.”
Your stomach lurches. This is it. This is the end of the best love you’ve ever had…
“I’m sorry,” you blurt out. “I thought I could handle it, and I don’t think I’d really mind if it’s you because I really love you and I’m okay with trying different things as long as you’re here, but I keep thinking about it and trying to make myself more okay with it because it’s supposed to be a normal part of relationships and everyone else is okay with it too, but nothing works because it doesn’t make any sense no matter how hard I try….”
Your eyes burn with tears that you can barely hold back. How do you explain to your boyfriend that you can’t feel any desire for him without making it sound like an insult? That you love him with all your heart, but you don’t know if you’re able to feel something for him that would make you eager to have sex with him. That you might never be able to have sex with him because you don’t understand how desire and sexual attraction is supposed to work no matter how hard you try, and it’s not his fault; it’s you who’s the problem. “I’m-I’m sorry,” you finish. “If you…if you want to end things here, I won’t hold it against you.”
“End things?” Makoto repeats incredulously. “Why on earth would I do that?”
When you don’t answer, he says it for you. “Is it because you think us not having sex means our relationship isn’t a real one?”
That’s what everyone says. People annul marriages if they’re not consummated. If you don’t have sex, you’re immature and missing out. You’re a prude, and not understanding sexual attraction just means you’re childish and need to grow up.
The language of desire has always eluded you. Back in high school and college, you just assumed - as did others - that you were a late bloomer. But you’re in your mid-twenties and the only person that’s ever made you feel like you understand desire is that one guitarist who used to perform in skimpy outfits that revealed his thighs. And even then that’s a celebrity crush or whatever. When it comes to the people around you, when it comes to your boyfriend whom you love so much, you still don’t know what it means to truly want someone like that.
“I’m sorry,” you repeat. “Something’s wrong with me.”
“Why would you ever say that?” The pain in Makoto’s voice is too much to bear, and you drop your head.
“I can’t love you the right way, I can’t give you what you need…”
You don’t know what to expect after you admit your deepest fears, your dark secret, but when he presses his lips to your forehead, you freeze.
“I’m the one who should be sorry,” he says. “I made you feel like you couldn’t talk about this to me. I love you so much, and I want you to be able to tell me anything. Especially if it’s about us.”
You’re about to stop his apology, but he continues. “And if I ever made you feel like you had to have sex with me just to prove you love me, I’m sorry about that too.”
“There’s…there’s nothing to apologise for,” you mumble, still avoiding his gaze. Those green eyes can see right through you, and you don’t think this is the time for that. “You didn’t do anything.”
Makoto’s not done, though. “I want you to know that I will never push you to do anything you don’t want to. I promise. Sex is not some magic potion that makes relationships perfect, and not having it doesn’t mean there’s anything wrong with what we have together. Or anything missing, for that matter.”
Finally, you glance up. His eyes are brimming with worry, but he strokes your hair with a steady hand. “It feels like something’s not right,” you admit, letting a single tear trickle down your cheek. “Everyone else handles it just fine. I’m the only one who can’t feel that way. Something must be wrong with me, with the way I love you—”
“Nothing is wrong with you,” Makoto says firmly. But on seeing your face, he eases up. Before continuing, he lies down on the bed and extends an arm, inviting you closer.
You’ve cuddled up with him so many times before; why are you hesitating now?
Slowly, you lean against him, letting him wrap that arm around you, holding you close. He hums for a moment before saying, “There’s no such thing as a right way to love someone. We all express our feelings in different ways. I don’t need you to show me your desire to know how much you love me. And I think you already know how much I love you. I don’t need desire or sex to prove it.”
He turns on his side to look down at you, the love in his eyes almost bringing you to tears again. “Like I said, I don’t need sex to feel how much you love me. I feel it when you send me photos of the cats in your neighbourhood. When you held my hand and squeezed it during that typhoon. When you buy an extra chocolate cake from the pastry shop.”
Makoto strokes your cheek. “And remember: there’s nothing wrong with not feeling what you say everyone else feels. There’s nothing wrong with you.”
You bury your face in his chest. A part of you wants to believe him, to believe that you’re just fine the way you are. But it’s so hard.
“Remember,” he says quietly. “I will never force you to do something you don’t want. If you say no, then that’s it.”
“What if I always say no?” You voice the deepest fears in your heart, the possibility that you might never end up saying yes.
He kisses the top of your head. “Then you always say no, and that’s what we follow. I promise, I won’t push you into anything or guilt you into saying yes. If you do say yes, I want you to say it without worrying about me. And if you never say yes, then I want you to say it without feeling guilty. I can look after myself, don’t worry.”
You didn’t expect to have such a frank conversation with Makoto, but hearing those words - “I don’t need sex to feel how much you love me,” “There’s nothing wrong with you,” “I won’t push you into anything or guilt you into saying yes,” - has the world looking so much clearer, no longer clouded by the shadows that have plagued you all along.
Truth be told, you don’t know what the future holds. You don’t know if you’ll ever reach a point that’ll make you want to say yes, to want Makoto in the way everyone says is normal. You don’t know if you'll always end up saying no.
But in this moment, you can be sure of one thing:
You’ll always be safe in Makoto’s arms.
When he kisses you, it’s hesitant in a way it hasn’t been for a long time. He cups your cheek and brushes his lips against yours. Eyes closed, you feel the strands of hair he still has to cut tickle your skin, and the hardness of his chest beneath your palms.
And underneath that, you can feel his rapid heartbeat, like he’s still a boy experiencing the giddiness of love for the first time.
He needs some coaxing from you to deepen the kiss the way he likes to when he kisses you, taking things slow as he revels in your touch and taste. He pulls you so close it’s almost as though the two of you are one: your fingers interlocked behind his back, his legs entangled with yours. He whispers something against your lips that you don’t quite catch, but a part of you knows what he’s saying even then.
Makoto loves you. And when he loves someone, he does it with every fibre of his being, all the way down to his soul.
And you love him the same way.
****
Much later, you fiddle with the deck of cards he brought along. “Do you want to play something?” Makoto asks.
“Maybe,” you muse, humming, legs tangled with his.
He smiles as you shuffle the cards, your hands occupied. So there’s absolutely nothing you can do when he tickles your neck. And your sides. And your tummy.
You squeal at the touch and roll away, laughing. “Makoto!” you scold him. “Don't make me fall off the bed!”
“Sorry, sorry,” he says, but he’s laughing too.
A few cards slip out of the deck and land on the mattress. You pick them up, and see that one of the cards is face-up.
It’s the ace of hearts. It’s always been your favourite card, but you could never explain why. When you were a very small child, you used to make the deck into a royal court and pretend that the ace of hearts was a princess who rode horses to far-off lands and never married a prince, unlike the other cards. Even when her parents, the king and queen of hearts, scolded her, she always had a happy ending in your stories and games. There was nothing wrong with her. She just experienced the world differently.
Funny how things can come full circle over twenty years.
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got tired of my current pinned and no one really uses about pages anymore... quick lil thing instead.
call me nova! in my 20s, ambivalent about having pronouns ( but she is I guess the most frequent one ), disabled goth furry and artist.
my blog is marked 18+ for occasional suggestive content, and general comfort with an older audience. I'm acespec, but I'm also a nsfw artist alongside sfw. you can find most of my art on bsky * or fa.
if you wanna support me and maybe get some art from it, I have a few avenues for that, including pretty damn cheap ones.
I love making friends, but operate on vampire rules — just make some indication you wanna talk to me and I'm almost always onboard. you can even message me a chicken emoji for a picture of my flock!
and lastly— I block very freely. usually nothing personal, and I'm typically not against the idea of unblocking if you ask kindly. still up to my discretion though.
see you around! 🦇
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This year marks one decade since I first realized I'm aromantic. In that decade, I've gone on such a journey with my aromantic identity. I've passed through many arospec labels before eventually settling into just straight up aromantic. I considered myself a romo and partnering aro for many years before discovering I'm nonpartnering and nonamorous. I discovered that I'm loveless and aplatonic and found great comfort and joy in those things. I passed through several acespec labels before realizing I'm actually alloaro. I've run two different aspec centered blogs. I coined an aro related label. And I've participated in and adored our caring, vibrant, and diverse aromantic community. I'm so happy and proud to be aro and to share spaces with so many other incredible aros. Being aromantic is a gift, and I wouldn't trade it for the world.
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You lost me at "I love you".
An exploration of my experience with love, romance, and media.
Today, I read the last chapter of the Rain World fanfiction "Seeking You, Stunning Me". It's a good read if you like two gay supercomputers discovering each other and themselves through anonymous chats.
The thing is, despite the ship showcased in the fanfiction being one of my personal faves (platonic or romantic), when the two of them inevitably admitted their feelings to one another, I just... I don't know. It was strange to read them say "I love you" to each other, or give each other a "kiss" (not literally because, well, supercomputers), or describe themselves as "girlfriends". And the pining for each other in the previous chapters just felt... disingenuous?
I will reiterate that I am not disparaging the author in any way over this. Their fic was just the one that got me thinking about this.
And, well... thinking about it, if the explicitly romantic stuff was taken out, if it was just about their blossoming friendship or the romance was left vague... I dunno, would I be less conflicted? Would I have an easier time reading it? Maybe?
There's the same problem with other fanfiction with romantic stuff. I'm fine with the physical affection, the chemistry between two people, but as soon as they say "I love you" that first, definitive time? I just... feel myself disengage, or become a bit uncomfortable. Not enough for me to stop reading, but...
I've... only been in one serious romantic relationship in my life. With a childhood friend, back in high school. He had been dropping hints for a while, but I didn't really register it until he asked me out point blank. I wanted to at least try it. The thing is, my feelings about him never really changed. No romantic spark or 'aha' moment. I tried to be a good partner, but he moved away and we just started talking less and less, until he ultimately pulled the plug on the relationship, feeling like I wasn't meeting his needs. We parted ways respectfully, and though there were a few hiccups, we have both moved on with our lives. I am a bit sad that I lost him as a friend, but from what I can tell he's living out his best life. He's found someone else to love, and for that I'm happy for him.
I kinda wish that romantic relationships weren't so emphasized in media. Simultaneously, I understand the need, especially for queer relationships. I'm a bit wary of this for my own fanfiction, where I'll eventually explore the relationship between the same two characters that were the main subject of SY;SM. I don't want people to feel baited if I don't explicitly say their relationship is or isn't romantic. Right now the relationship is marked as platonic on AO3, but if it does go in a more romantic-y direction, yet I don't call it as such, I'm... worried for how that'll look.
I suppose that's a flaw in AO3 tagging. There are only two options; platonic or romantic. I understand the need to have separate tags, but they are... quite cut and dry. Not a lot of room for nuance.
I don't know where I'm going with this to be honest. Just my experience being an acespec and arospec person, I guess.
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INTRODUCTION
this is my 18+ sideblog, meaning minors will be blocked. if you somehow know my main, no you don't
ABOUT ME:
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he/it/fang/they/whatever
eng + pl
transmasc nonbinary, pre-everything
bisexual, acespec
autistic
ok with both masc and fem terms
sub unless I get in a mood
pleeeease send asks
just a stray kitten looking for an owner to bite and cuddle
I am small and pathetic. also possibly cold
most posts are queued
you can call me Desmo, or any pet name honestly
I don't check this blog very often - sorry!
yes:
praise
rope/shibari
medical/examination/experimentation
marking
spanking/slapping
toys
temperature play
boots (extra points for cowboy boots)
monsters (esp vampires)
petplay
body worship
faux sympathy
intox
androids/cyborgs/wireplay
blood
light SM (lowkey I'm a pussy)
edging
overstim
ovipo
voice kink
maybe:
piss
hypno
exhibitionism
hard no:
detrans
fauxcest/incest
feederism/anything weight related
verbal degradation
extreme degradation
raceplay
DNI:
obvious criteria such as racists/homophobes/TERFs/misogynists etc
under 18 (obviously)
loli/shota
cishet men (sorry!)
ed/sh blogs
#desmo asks for askbox answers
#desmo pics for photos
#desmo thoughts for textposts
private messages PSA
If we're mutuals you can pretty much be sure I'll respond to your DM. Otherwise, don't DM me unless you actually want to talk to me. If you have no interest in me beyond what role I can play in your sexual fantasy, stick to asks (that's what they're there for! if you want to tell me how you'd bend me over and fuck my ass, that's the place to do it. no need to message me privately lol). my DMs are for conversations and I'm not interested in conversing with someone that doesn't really care about what I have to say, nor am I interested in maintaining contact with someone who has nothing to offer except for kink talk. It's just too much for my social battery to handle. sorry! Also, if I'm not responding to a message, feel free to send another DM but don't ask "why aren't you answering??" - I haven't answered cause I haven't answered
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oh this is fun


Here's the blank version for the person who asked
#question mark cause like. i *am* ace?#demi ace#acespec#demigray#graydemi#txt#tw aphobia#tw grayphobia
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I'm doing an updated/new lgbtq+ hcs again this year :D
This year I'm organizing the characters by their family and not their generation bc I think that's more enjoyable. (Except Dood will be joining the Oak's in their family group for this list bc I can do that)
Not every character will have a hc as some of them I just don't have any for in this case. If I don't and they're an npc, I probably won't include them.
And i will be ordering the hcs by gender hc and then sexuality hc and then pronouns, and if the character is also polyamorous that'll be added after pronouns. If I have any xenogender hcs for any of them, I'll add them :D (same goes for Neopronouns)
I'm only going to do s1 and s2, bc i don't exactly have a feel on the s3 characters yet. Next year I'll make them their own post :P
Just a reminder to have a happy pride and I hope you have a great day/afternoon/night or whatever time it is for you
Also this will all be under a cut bc I know it will get long!!! There are so many characters
Close-Foster-Swifts
Meryl Streep - Cisgender & Bisexual, He/Him
Bill Close - Cisgender & Bisexual, He/Him
Christine Close - Cisgender & CompHet Lesbian, She/Her
Dee Snyder - Agender & Pansexual, She/They/It
Glenn Close - TFem Genderfluid & Pansexual, Any/All
Jodie Foster - TFem Bigender & Biromantic AceSpec, He/She/It/Fang, Polyamorous
Zhao Dae - TMasc Agender & Bisexual AroSpec, They/He/It/Fang/Blood, Polyamorous
Morgan Freeman - Trans Woman & Sapphic, She/They
Nicky Freeman - TMasc Nonbinary & Biromantic AceSpec, They/He
Cassandra Swift - Trans Female & Pansexual, She/They
Taylor Swift - TMasc Nonbinary (Catboygender) & Bisexual AroAlloSpec, They/He/Fang/Meow
Hermie Unworthy - TNeu Genderfluid & Questioning, Mirror Pronouns/Any/All (Pref to They/He)
Oak-Swallows-Garicas
Hildy Russet - Cisgender & ???, She/Her
Barry Oak - Cisgender & Bisexual, He/Him
Autumn Oak - Cisgender & Panromantic Ace, She/They
Henry Oak-Garcia - TMasc & Bisexual, He/They, Polyamorous
Mercedes Oak-Garcia - TFem & Pansexual, She/They, Polyamorous
Dood - TNeu Nonbinary (Starobservic) & AroAce, Mirror Pronouns
Sparrow Oak-Swallows-Garcia - TFem & AroAceSpec, She/They
Lark Oak-Garcia - Agender & AroSpec Bisexual, It/He
Rebecca Oak-Swallows-Garica - Cisgender & Bicurious, She/Her
Hero Oak-Swallows-Garica - Nonbinary (Astralgender, Alienic, Spacegender, Starthing & Moonthing) & Lesbian, They/She/Star
Normal Oak-Swallows-Garcia - TMasc & Gay, He/They
Stampler-Marlowes
Stud Stampler - Cisgender & Bicurious, He/Him
Willy Stampler - Cisgender & Bisexual (But like heavily repressed), He/Him
Ron Stampler - Cisgender & Panromantic AceSpec, He/Him
Samantha Stephen-Stampler - Cisgender & Pansexual
Terry Jr Marlowe-Stampler - TFem Nonbinary & Pansexual, She/He/They/Vamp
Veronica Marlowe-Stampler - Cisgender & Bisexual, She/They
Scary Marlowe - TFem Nonbinary & Biromantic AceSpec, They/She/Vamp/Fang
Li-Wilsons
Robert Wilson - CisHet Ally, He/Him
Frank Wilson - CisHet Ally, He/Him
Daryl Wilson - Cisgender & Bicurious, He/Him
Carol Wilson - Cisgender & Sapphic, She/Her
Grant Li-Wilson - Cisgender & Gay, He/Him
Marco Li-Wilson - Cisgender & Gay, He/Him
Lincoln Li-Wilson - TFem & Biromantic Ace, She/He
Any Likely Family Members
Scam Likely - Pangender & Bisexual, Any/All + Scam
Well Actually - Agender (Botgender) & Bicurious, They/He/Bot
Scam Actually - Agender & Bisexual, Any/All + Bot/Scam
Mark Likely - Bigender & Bisexual, She/He
The Library - Agender (Librarygender) & AroAce, He/Book
Others
Erica Drippins - Cisgender & Sapphic, She/Her
Margarita Pizza - TFem & Sapphic, She/They
#dndads#dungeons and daddies#dndaddies#dndads s2#dungeons and daddies season 2#IM NOT TAGGING EVERY CHARACTER FUCK THAT#happy pride!!
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Current SMG Aspec headcanons dump
UD:
Aro Sam
Gray-Aro + Ace Ashley
Arospec Josh
TQ:
Gray-AroAce Emma
Demi-Ace Abi
Aro Ryan
AroAce Kaitlyn
AroAce Laura
Acespec Max
LH:
Gray-Ace Angela
Arospec Taylor
Ace Andrew/Anthony
HOA:
Gray-AroAce Salim
TDIM:
Demi-Aro Erin
Ace Kate
Gray-Ace Mark
TCoFS:
Ace Linda
Aro Madi
#just wanted something to refer to on these because i'm v forgetful#and thought i might as well post it#supermassive games#aspec
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WE'RE SO BACK (pkmn-blue -> nikkori-kori-kori-kori-koriandaa)
wowzers i finally made a pinned post!! hooray!!! Info under the cut ^_^
link to my favorite video on the whole internet + second fav
## About Me!!
My name is Sumi, but you can also call me Selene!! (Juli is only for mutuals ^_^) My birthday is February 9, and im bi acespec + nonbinary (xe/they/shi)!
My main interests right now are stardew valley, pokemon/pokespe, vocaloid, and persona 3-5. I also really like genshin, prsk, and wayyyy more stuff. I speak both english and spanish (🇲🇽), though im not too good at writing as I am speaking
Uhh for dni it’s the usual stuff but I block SUPER freely so if I don’t like you you’ll know lmao. Just be nice and we can all be friends!!
ALSO if we’re mutuals know that I love and care for all of you you’re all so cool and amazing ^_^!!!
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## Other Blogs!!
This blog is my main, but i have a few others you should totally check out ooohh:
@lovisu - editing blog!!
@virtual-idol - resource blog for editing stuff
@princess-fischl - where I save a ton of layouts, graphics, stamps etc
@cybernetic-girl - where i save stuff i wanna use on pastes
@lovipix - saving specifically just pixels bc OH my god theres so many
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## Tags!!
I tag nearly everything cuz I LOVE sorting stuff, but I have a bunch of random tags so here’s a list of those:
☆ juli.txt - my talking tag! ☆ sumicore - info and stuff about me, some are just silly fun things and others are actual like. facts about me lmao. basically any polls cuz i rant in the tags for those ☆ the world is beautiful and I want to live!!! - hopecore stuff?? idk but there’s 3 exclamation marks ☆ images - vaguely aesthetic images but also just pictures I like ☆ queue? queue!! - self explanatory, all the art I have queued is there (99.999% of the things in the queue are fanart lmao) ☆ hall of fame - my most favoritest posts ever ever forever ☆ teammates - pokemon I’ve used on my playthroughs! they mean the world 2 me ^_^ ☆ words - quotes and poems and stories I’ve liked ☆ creatures - all sorts of animals cause I don’t wanna tag all that
If there’s anything specific you need tagged, let me know!! For eye strain stuff, I tag everything as bright colors.
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Umm I think that’s everything lol I’ll add stuff if need be
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