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#david dastmalchian#unus annus#jack delroy#ethan nestor#markiplier#i usually don't mix up two of my interests like this#but it was too obvious not to#i think david would've liked unus annus#giving how it's all about accepting death and whatnot#who knows maybe he watched it
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Anakin: FINE, Iāll search for it with my dainty little handsā¦
Lionel: ⦠your hands are NOT dainty. Youāve got the most bony, calloused hands from fuckin fightin droids and white-knucklin on your lightsaber- Force help PadmĆ© if you ever try fingering.
Anakin: *bursts out laughing*
Lionel: that is a DEATH SENTENCE.
#star wars#star wars au#incorrect star wars quotes#suggestive#star wars oc#anakin skywalker#lionel saabem#padme amidala#anidala#source: unus annus#anakin definitely has the boniest most calloused hands#i will not accept criticism
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CW/TW: Due to the nature of Unus Annus this blog could have themes about death, mortality, surreal and possibly disturbing topics. I will do my best to use proper warnings when needed.
. Annus is a God-like character, but limited by time, he can be pretty forward and emotionless but also very silly at times. It depends on the moment.Ā
. This is a Roleplay Blog. I accept all formats of roleplay, including narrative, and asterisks. Feel free to send a starter for me to respond to!
. I reserve the right to refuse to respond, I might explain why I wonāt, I might not. That is up to my decision
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Chaos emerges: RP
Shouts from the Spiral: Asks
White Roses: Aesthetics and things for Annus
Laughing through the Pain: Silly goofy things!!
Ticking Clocks: Music Annus enjoys
The Final Countdown: Angst/ Sad things
Sentimental Moments: Reblogs/posts/discussions related to Unus Annus as a whole
Reflections of Time: Unus Annus Fanart!
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Aight everyone my Markiplier brainrot is all-consuming and I have an idea for a Hee-Hoo x reader fic where heās a cryptid:
- Camp Unus Annus was founded by a Mark Iplier and Ethan Crank
- Founded in 2020, itās been going strong for four years until⦠the incident.
- During a hiking trip, Mark led some of the campers a bit too far out into the woods and everyone got lost.
- Mark told them to stay in place while he wandered around the woods calling for help.
- He was gone all day and, eventually, the campers were found by Ethan.
- After getting them back to safety, Ethan searched for Mark, but he was never found (or was he?)
- A year later, You (yes, you!) are a new counselor at Camp Unus Annus!
- There are strange rumors of Markās ghost haunting the camp, but even stranger rumors of a Bigfoot-like creature in the woods, nicknamed āHee-Hooā by the campers.
- Fed up by everyoneās fear, you organize a camp-out in the woods with some of your campers that are particularly scared, in an effort to show them that thereās nothing to be afraid of.
- That night, you hear footsteps walking around your tent⦠even though everyone is sleeping safely inside the tent.
- You investigate, grabbing your gear (including your tactical shovel) and heading out into the woods.
- Itās a quiet night, yet you hear twigs snapping in the distance. You follow the noise silently, attempting to sneak up on whatever it is is walking away from you.
- Suddenly, you trip on a branch and fall flat on your face. You hear a grunt as you fall, not from you, but from something else.
- As your heart thuds, you frantically try to stand yourself up, but the forest floor is cluttered and youāre only drawing more attention to yourself.
- Whatever it is is running at you now. You can hear itās heavy breathing. Youāre losing time.
- In a moment of clarity, you grab your flashlight, switching it on and pointing it in front of you.
- To your surprise, you see⦠a human face. Itās dirty, with an overgrown hair and beard, but itās certainly human.
- At the light, the person freezes, as if itās been stunned.
- You stare at each other in silence for a moment. Whoever this person was, they have a feral glint on their eyes, so why arenāt they attacking?
- Possibly, you think, it doesnāt see you as a threat, as youāre so low to the ground.
- Slowly, untangling yourself from the leaves and vines around you, you stay low, and the person watches.
- Eventually, you say something.
- āā¦Heeeeeeey there, guy.ā
- That was ridiculously stupid.
- The personās expression scrunches up, looking confused. Does it not know English?
- Itās still squinting in the beam of the flashlight, so you turn it off. A peace offering. You guess it accepts it, as itās still not attacking you.
- You slowly stand, the arm holding your flashlight still out. The human lets out what sounds like a growl.
- āHey, itās okay, Iām not gonna hurt you.ā
- You canāt tell in the light of the moon, but you could swear that itās staring into your eyes.
- Your heart swells with compassion for whoever this was. You want to help him, to give him something. Then, it hits you.
- You reach into your bag and pull out a plastic bag of snacks. The only one you could grab before you left was Takis, but you figure itās fine.
- You offer it to the human and its eyes widen in recognition.
- It snatches the bag from your hand and pops it, sloppily devouring the treats inside.
- Or⦠wait, is it just licking it?
- You know what, whatever, itās distracted and you need to get back to your campers.
- As it eats, you sneak away, internally coming up with a plan to tell your boss, Ethan, that a feral man is roaming on his campground.
- And you have a thought.
- He kinda looks like that Mark guyā¦
#heehoo#markiplier heehoo#Markiplier#markiplier ego#markiplier egos#Markiplier ego x reader#markiplier fanfiction#in space with markiplier#a heist with markiplier#memento mori#unus annus
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Ego Families
While most of the egos consider themselves to be family with egos from their creator, many of them split into much smaller family groups.
Septics
Henrik is the resident father and head of Septic House, with Marvin as his second in command.
Henrik and Jackie consider themselves father and son.
If asked, both Chase and Anti will call each other āmy annoying as shit brotherā. They share a room because there was nowhere else to put Antiās computer.
Everyone calls Robbie ālittle brotherā, but Robbie is closest with JJ.
All the Septics learned BSL for JJ and Robbie greatly benefited from that.
Marvin is the resident cat and oldest brother. They look like BB in cat form.
Ipliers
While Dark and Wilford are in charge of the entire estate, their smaller family consists of Artie(KOTS), and Engie (who is technically more Damienās kid but defaulted to Dark).
Host found a family in Doc after moving into the Manor with Author. Eric was later added to the family when he showed up.
Actor considers all of the egos that he ācreatedā to be his children. (Yancy, Magnum, Murdock, Illinois)
Murdock and Yancy are brothers, who later gained a larger family when Murdock started dating Bim, who had at that point practically adopted Yan.
All of the androids consider themselves to be family, with the Googles calling themselves brothers. Bing doesnāt consider the Googles brothers, but calls them family.
The Jims are clones and have a strange telepathic field they tend to communicate through wordlessly. They call each other brothers and would definitely accept more members if any more Jims are created.
While Annus ācreatedā a fair amount of egos, the only one he considers his kid is Elliot, and Gothan by association. (But only because Elliot decided that Annus was his dad). He spends most of his time with Unus.
Illinois and Camper share the cabin in the woods that once belonged to Author and Host. The duo take care of HeeHoo when needed and spend a fair amount of time with Mermark.
Dave and Mike ended up gravitating towards each other due to their jobsā similarities and hours, becoming good friends. Dave later ended up looking at the Convict and telling Mike āthat oneās ours nowā which suited Vic just fine as they arenāt a super social person. Engie is an honorary part of the family due to being Vicās best friend.
Cranks
Most of the Cranks see each other more as friends or partners, aside from the few siblings.
Mrs Thompson and Father E are the heads of house and resident parents of Crank House.
Mad Mike and Heapass are twin brothers, and their younger brother is Challenge McGee.
Unus, like Annus, has technically ācreatedā multiple egos, but doesnāt really call them family, spending most of his time with Annus, and Elliot and Gothan by association, instead.
Merthan and Gooz spend most of their time with Mermark and will occasionally check up on Mel.
Blank and Eef tend to keep to themselves. Blank often haunts Eefās monitors.
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three yearsāļø
I still remember the moment my screen went black and the channel was simply gone. Iāve always had trouble with endings. Iāve never known how to deal with them. but unus annus taught me about acceptance. about living in the joy of the moment. endings are still hard, but they are inevitable. and there is so much beauty in things that will not last forever.
memento moriš¤š¤
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i know that this is something that probably doesnt need discussion and im sure everyone's felt this way when they played the game but
after my first playthrough it felt as if i dont deserve to play it again (even if i could reset everything and go back or whatever) but how can i do that when seeing leshy get thanos'd away felt like i was watching my dad succumb to an illness. I CANT JUST PLAY THE GAME as if nothing ever happened????
its like unus annus all over again, i cant get back what i lost or replay the game. the game files are still with me like an urn still full of ashes
maybe its just me. or maybe its when i played along with their games for the last time and accepted that it really was the last time.
maybe its maybelline
#inscryption#silly funky roguelike deck buider#no its not balatro#i suddenly remembered this is one of my favorite games
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Hello friends!!šš»
Welcome to my blog!
I created this page as a way to share some of my own drawings and fanart with the other nerds of tumblr (donāt deny it weāre all nerds here!)
But I figure I should lay out some of my interests so that if youāre here, maybe youāll find we have some things in common!!
ā¬ļøThings Iām a Fan of!!ā¬ļø
YouTube
Markiplier
Dan & Phil
Jacksepticeye
Game Theory/Matpat
Unus Annus (rip)
Thomas Sanders
Various other gaming YouTubers
Iām always open to new suggestions!
Tv Shows
Psychš
Dr Who (currently watching, started at the 2005 reboot, Iām at the 10th doctor rn - David Tennant lets goooooo)
Supernatural
Sherlock
The Office
Julie and the Phantoms (rip season 2š)
My Hero Academia (first anime Iāve ever watched! Just started last year)
Phineas and Ferb (look, itās a kids show but it SLAPS I will not accept arguments on this)
Gravity Falls (same note as p&f)
Brooklyn 99
Avatar the Last Airbender
Parks & Rec
Superstore (currently watching!)
Hazbin Hotel*** (Iām putting this here because I loved the YouTube pilot and I have full intentions of actually watching the show now that itās out, but havenāt actually done it yetš)
~Might add more later because Iāve seen plenty of shows, but these are some of my favorites!~
Movies/Franchises
Harry Potter (before you get mad, I have read all seven books and am also a fan of them!! But I donāt read enough anymore to make a books section⦠Iām sorry)
Star Wars
Marvel
Disney/Pixar
Music/Broadway
Panic! At the Disco
My Chemical Romance
Fall Out Boy
Hamilton
Six
Beetlejuice
Wicked
Jekyll & Hyde
I typically say Pop Rock is my taste in music, but Iām open to listening to a lot!
Feel free to say hi if you share any of these interests!!
I know this isnāt it, thereās probably a ton of things I like that Iāve neglected to mention, but have you ever tried to list every thing you like?? Itās surprisingly hard!!
Iām always open to suggestions and recommendations! (even if it takes me years to actually take the suggestion⦠oops)
Anyways, hope you enjoy the art!!!š©·
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Hi, not sure if anyone is bothered but I'm going on hiatus after October
(Unless I wanna make another unus annus piece for the 4th desthiversary)
I've fallen into a spiral of making illustrations as quickly as possible just so I can throw them onto social media platforms and get upset when it never does well.
I fell into this feeling of I HAVE to be posting online or I won't get commissions or print sales and I'll fail as an artist. Which ignores the fact I'm in uni for concept art which will get me a job at a studio anyway so why I'm focusing so much on the online shop business so much I don't know. Social media is just very addicting in that way, because someone like me who's never been that accepted socially has a chance to be liked by random comments and a number next to a heart icon. It's kind of depressing the more I think about it. My life has started revolving around this where I'm drawing and drawing and drawing to the point where I don't even have time to do studies anymore because all my energy is going towards pieces I can post. I feel like Sisyphus the way I'm trying so hard just to have every single one of my posts flop no matter where or how I post it. It's making me feel like I'm not good enough and I'm worthless.
So I need to step away.
I'm already approaching being halfway done with linktober so I'll have that finished, then I'm walking away. I should anyway because by then I'll have too much uni work to worry about socials.
I don't think I'm a big enough account for anyone to care so I don't feel bad about taking a break.
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Chapter 7 of Timeās Arrow, āI love everybody because I love you! // But I'm a chemical compound, You're just the gun in my mouthā is here!
Memento mori. Unus Annus. /ref
PLEASE READ THE WARNINGS AND PROCEED WITH CAUTION. THIS CHAPTER IS ROUGH.
Details below! (Format is funky because I am on mobile rn. Will be fixed later!)
- The lyrics for this chapterās title are from āStrawberry Blondeā by Mitski and āGrossā by Penelope Scott! The first part is for the majority of the chapter, as it reflects how happy and filled with love Beej is feeling. The other one is for the last scene. :)
- āI wanna remember this moment.ā āEvery detail. I donāt wanna forget a single one.ā - this is inspired by a similar scene in āParks and Recā, one of my favorite shows!! Specifically the scene where Ben proposed to Leslie.
- ā āHm?ā Beetlejuice titled their head a little, then pursed their lips as the words processed in their slow, stuttering mind.ā - Auditory processing disorder my beloathed. It takes a sec for the info to hit the brain!
- ā āLike, worse than āSpiralā.ā Beetlejuice gasped, placing a hand on his chest. ⦠āOkay. Now I gotta know. Whatās worse than āSpiralā?ā ā - āSpiralā is the worst of the Saw movies. I will die on this hill. Beetlejuice saw this as the high insult it is.
- ā.. I know Iām regaining some weight, but-ā - THE RETURN OF THE KING.
- āIāll have to go back to school. No more online-only.ā - Ash straight up lied to the school and said she went with her parents and sister to Massachusetts so she could do all her schooling online.
- ā⦠wanna watch āRenfieldā?ā - āRenfieldā is spectacular. Amazing. Showstopping. But someone in Beejās particular situation should not be watching it for reasons that would be spoilers for that wonderful movie. Go watch it!!!
- The whole dinner cheek kiss thing was planned by Barbara and Adam! They made sure Beetlejuice was okay with telling others first, but he wasnāt sure how to, so they took matters into their own hands!
- ā āI always wondered about you three,ā he heard Charles say. He almost thought he heard a twinge of fondness to his voice, but he was certain he must be imagining things. āGood for you all.ā ā - Poly ally. He saw their slow burn romance from a million miles away and decided to let them all sort it out on their own. And yes it WAS FONDNESS. Beetlejuice just wonāt accept it yet.
- Delia is trying to figure out what prescription glasses to get Beetlejuice on her own, with the help of the Internet! Itās very tough when he doesnāt cooperate.
- āWeāve read two books together now.ā ⦠āOr do I just have āThe Great Gatsbyā and āFrankensteinā memorized?ā - Beetlejuice read āFrankensteinā, like Lydia suggested! They loved it.
- Yes that is an actual passage from āThe Great Gatsbyā. No I am not sorry. Yes it is extremely thematically relevant.
- āThey reached up to scratch at an itch on their scalp, clacking their teeth.ā - they scratched it like a dog does. They always do!
- The second passage Beetlejuice quotes is from āSir Gawain and the Green Knightā. It is one of his (and my own, I almost named myself Gawain) favorite old tales. He has referenced it before, and it comes up quite a few times again! Even later in this chapter. ;) (And yes it is extremely thematically relevant. Sorry not sorry I am hiding the foreshadowing and themes in other stories..)
- ā Delia grinned wide, exchanging some sort of glance with Barbara. āItās not too much?ā The demon lightly shook their head. āSplendid!ā ā - I wonder what this is about?
- āI say itās too bold of a departure, if you ask me.ā - This is a reference to Beetlejuiceās first line in the musical! Also a jab at myself. LoopJuice is perhaps too bold a departure from the original source materialā¦
- āImages of kisses pressed to their temple, their cheek, their jaw, memories of sweet words, gentle little pleads and promises flashed through their mind. Pink rose in their chest, warmth burned in their cheeks. They inevitably gave in, of course.ā - EASILY WON OVER BY KISSES AND PETS. What a fool! /hj
- āThey think perhaps this is the closest theyāve ever felt to being happy. Not just slightly sardonic or glibly nihilistic, but happy. Like real people do.ā - Part of this is a reference to the last scene in āBoJack Horsemanā, since that show influenced how I write quite a bit. And the last part is a reference to āLike Real People Doā by Hozier, which is on my Beetlands playlist!
- āNo, perhaps this was normal, he decided.ā - It is not. There are two reasons! 1. Beejās permanent frostbite damage making him more susceptible to cold 2. Cyrus is straight up lurking here. He is nearby and watching him.
- āIt scratched at the back of his mind like a wild hound begging to be let in the house, asking for shelter from the storm. Only to savage the homeās inhabitants. Where had it come from? What storm was it hiding from? Fuck. Where the hell is my head right now?ā - Self roast. Sometimes I go too crazy with the poetic descriptionsā¦
- āBeetlejuice briefly wondered if the cold could drive a demon mad. He thought maybe heād read about it happening to breathers before.ā - This is a real thing! Heās specifically thinking about the Donner Party.
- āLess and less of you will be left each day, slowly siphoning out until you are empty.ā - sorry not sorry, another āThe Fall of the House of Usherā show reference. Mike Flanagan is my bestie.
- ā āYour time.ā Beetlejuice clenched their jaw as his words rippled through their mind. Darling, I only want your time. They gasped in shuddering breaths, their ears going back. Give me your time. Fuck.ā - took him a while, but he finally caught the obvious loophole! Far too late, unfortunately.
- āAh, what was that wonderful phrase from the inane little story you enjoyed so much said?ā Cyrusā grin widened impossibly. āOne year hence.ā - He is referencing āThe Green Knightā! This is what the Green Knight says to Gawain to let him know his fate is sealed. Also, note the difference between Barbara showing interest in one of his favorite stories, while Cyrus belittles it.
#loopjuice#beetlejuice fanfic#beetlejuice#beetlejuice the musical#lawrence beetlejuice shoggoth#timeās arrow#lydia deetz#beetlands#beetlelands#barbara maitland#adam maitland#ash swallows#cyrus the demon#charles deetz#delia deetz#loopjuice chapter#loopjuice extras
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Struggling with acceptance
Ever since I've learned i most definitely have autism (therapist suspects as well as the raasd test saying i have a 99% chance) I can't fully say I do despite all of that because I have not gone through an assessment,,,
HOWEVER..it makes a lot of sense to me, I've always felt out of place, knew i wasn't just depressed, and i hated myself for being weird and not "getting" things. My whole life, I've never fit in with anyone, family, friends, even now, i don't fit in with my coworkers and I cant for the life of me figure out how to socialize. There were so many indicators, bad at reading social situations, admitting to mirroring my friends because I didn't know how to behave so I used their personality to fit in. 8th grade, I said that when I was in 8th grade. I knew something was up but i didn't know. Now I'm 19, barely figuring out this possible chance. I relate to the diagnosis, I relate to people with autism, especially people with AUDHD, I finally figured it out, with the help of my therapist.
But despite all that I still sit here confused. Am i faking this? Am i overreacting? Am I imitating those with autism? My boyfriend was the first one to say it, I denied and denied. How could I?? Adhd maybe but...autism? I'm not stereotypically autistic so i couldn't. I could make eye contact, I could act normal totally! (Wrong)
Eye contact? I could, but not normal amounts, too much staring or focusing on the staring or looking away when I get nervous, but that just means I'm a nervous person right? Who knows
"I don't do routines, I get bored and drop them" Counter point-- I do have routines, not in the way that I thought people with autism have them, I would wake up at a certain time just to watch Unus Annus post. Every. Single. Day. Hell, I love routines, but I can't commit to them...suspecting Audhd is the source maybe
"I don't have hyperfixations nor special interests" Brother what is this whole Twenty One Pilots obsession you've had since 6th grade...abnormally enjoyed it but didn't have money to "prove" yourself. Brother what is that WHOLE collection of TMNT merchandise...BROTHER.
"I don't stim!...Well that one I admit.." Yes, You stimmed a lot. Nervous? Stimmed. Excited? Extreme stimming. The only reason I stopped was because a classmate made fun of me for doing so...so I stopped. But it manifested into smaller things, leg shaking, fidgeting with my fingers,,, "normal" ways. But ever since I've accepted myself its been so freeing to stim, i still get embarrassed but, oh well :P
The point is, there is so much things indicating me having autism yet i can't physically admit it because it's not an official diagnosis. I'm very much aware of self-diagnosis, and I'm not against it what-so-ever, I just don't trust my sense of judgement
I guess--help?
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accepting that the wad livestream is my unus annus
#the before and after are mine tho sorry#ive got the slit and some of the best before bits#lexis thoughts
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about me
General info:
You can call me April (or any nickname you can think of)
23 years old, bi, & from California, USA
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Not a nsfw blog, but will occasionally reblog suggestive jokes
Original posts are tagged #personally random
Writing/fanfic is tagged #the logince rebel writes
Terfs, blank blogs, and generally shitty people will be blocked on sight
Minors may interact, but please keep in mind what I may post/reblog
Always open to making tumblr friends! Feel free to either dm or send me an ask if you'd like
Writing prompts/requests are always accepted & I'm also open to collaborations! You can contact me through asks or dms with any questions about either one
Blog header gif made by me
Fandoms you'll see content of on my blog include (but are not limited to):
Mob Psycho 100
Gravity Falls
Dan and Phil (saw them on tour 10/17/2024!)
It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia
Ace Attorney
Pacific Rim
The Amazing World of Gumball
Splatoon
Markiplier
CrankGameplays/Ethan Nestor
Unus Annus
Thomas Sanders/Sanders Sides (more for the nostalgia now)
Monster High
Animal Crossing
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Discord: applebottomyeets
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ao3: lala_the_rebel (link in my blog description)
This post will be updated as needed over time. Please leave a like if you've read through it :)
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Oml I missed the Unus Annus merch drop and I've always been big sadge that I couldn't get anything, I shall happily accept lol
Attention. Nate's final form is going to be just him standing in link's front yard like š§āāļø @liquid-geodes
Screw creator clash, I'll pay per view this fight any day
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my personal thoughts and experiences from Unus Annus, be warned this is long...
i apologize now if this is messy I am trying to get my thoughts in order so this is probably going to be ramble-y... One Year. There is so much that can change in one year and so many opportunities that pass us by and almost just as many regrets. And I am so glad I didn't let Unus Annus pass me by, even though it almost did. When i think of the past year I can't say that this was the year that I hope for but I definitely think this was the year I needed A a former friend of mine (who is a a HUGE Markiplier fan) tried to show me Unus Annus back in December. I think they showed me a couple videos but the one that stood out to me was the Escape Room video (probably for the fact that I was high, and thought Eef was very cute and very funny, but that's besides the point). I enjoyed the videos they showed me but a never really got into the channel and didn't watch anymore Unus Annus videos with them. I regret not watching more with them. At the time I knew who Markiplier was, I had watch his FNAF videos when I was younger and was subscribed. But I had no idea who Mark Fischbach as a person. And I had no idea who Crankgameplays or who Ethan Nestor was. I wasn't emotionally invested with them so I didn't really watch. A few months went by I was no longer in speaking terms with the friends who showed me the channel, the pandemic hit, I graduated college, i moved back home, i was unemployed, and incredibly lost. With graduating in May and being home all the time I spent more time on youtube. I don't remember how, but I ended back on Unus Annus again. And by July I was hooked. Not only did I began binge watching Unus Annus but I was also subscribed to Ethan, watched both his and markās videos, and become part of the different communities. As I am reflecting back on this time I can see how the message of Unus Annus, and Ā by extension Mark and Ethan, started to influence me and help me for the better. Cause I was, and still am, struggling with my mental health. While I don't want to give them all the credit, the idea of only having so much time and questioning myself on whether or not I wanted to be a passive on looker in my own life, lead me to discover just how unhappy i was. I decided to therapy and getting the help I needed. And while I am still not 100% and that the reminder that life is slipping us by and I feel like I wasting it still stresses me out and causes me anxiety. I have to remind myself that I am making progress, and while this isn't ideal, this is the best I can do at the moment. It also helps looking at both Ethan and Mark. Mark, who was around my current age, when he decided he was going to make something of himself, reminds me that it is never too late to give yourself a happy life. And Ethan, only a year older than me, is living his out his dreams currently, but that took him 8 years to get here. Ethan, who has a very similar personality to me (in fact i think our myer-briggs is the same) also reminds me that I don't have to hide the loud and silly parts of my personality and that I can find people who will accept the different parts of me and want to help me succeed. One of my favorite aspects of the show would be where they would say "Memento Mori. We will see you tomorrow." I think liked that so much because it was a concrete promise in a year of unpredictability. Because I knew for certain, that no matter what happened, I would see them tomorrow. And while we might no longer see them tomorrow when the channel ends. It still feels like a promise, because even with the channel gone, the world still turns and there is a still a tomorrow. A tomorrow where Ethan and Mark still upload on their channels. A tomorrow, even as time marches on, we will remember Unus Annus and how much it had an impact on our lives. Because one thing is for sure, we aren't all the same people we were a year before. We grew and changed and Unus Annus helped shaped a year of our lives. So while we wonāt not be able to "see them tomorrow" in the future. The impact of the channel will be seen in the future by the millions of people that it had an impact on. Even in this last few months I have seen some positive changes in my own life. While I am normally a lurker in the different fandoms I am a part of. I stepped out of my comfort zone and started to interact and create more for the Unus Annus community than I had before. And I did this because of the idea of "why not, we only have a limited time" and I wanted to make my mark. While I still struggle to interact with other blogs outside a random response or anon message, I was still able to find some people in this fandom to follow and appreciate. Thank you toĀ @johanna7290 , @heistshenanigans , @lady-raziel , @tiny-crecherĀ , simpgameplays and so many more blogs who helped make my experience in this community even better by not just taking any moment for granted, andĀ really made the most of this year. Thank you as well to the blogs who have interacted with me on posts, sent anons, or even followed me. Thank you to the artist, the writers, the meme maker, the gif creators, the video editor, and the theorists for making this year even more unforgettable.Ā
Ā Finally to Ethan (Ā @crankgameplays), Mark (@markiplier), Amy, Evan, and all the editors and guests of the channel, thank you. Thank you for giving me something to look forward to everyday. Thank you for making something so full of love, humor, and friendship. Thank you for the laughs and the good times in a year where they were hard to come by. Thank you for the hidden codes and lore that kept us all on our toes. Thank you for challenging yourselves to go further beyond, and encouraging us to do the same. Thank you for introducing me to a community full of hilarious, smart, and caring individuals. Thank you guys for being authentic to yourselves.Ā Thank you for all the memories.Ā Thank you for all the merch.Ā Thank you for giving us a year. Unus AnnusĀ Memento Mori ~Lexi
#unus annus#crankgameplays#markiplier#ethan nestor#mark fischbach#accepting unus annus#if you read through this entire thing then i love you and we are friends now#i dont make the rules#anyway#i cried several times while writing this#ill probably have to read this to my therapist#because this is the first time i have written out my feelings#cause i hate it#but#i wanted to express my feelings#i hpe eef and mark get to see this#but if they read this during the live stream i will kms#also i am sorry to the blogs a tagged#you dont have to read through all of this#i just wanted to so how much i love you all
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#Crying not necessarily in a sad way but just like. A mix of multiple feelings#Grief??? Acceptance??? Catharsis??? It's not clear but neither are the memories of Unus Annus that you can't reinforce#Unus Annus#UA#Been a while since I used those tags :")#markiplier#crankgameplays
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