#a swap au would be pretty fun to explore but thats like . writing a whole as different story kind of

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EDGY ASK MEME: 24, 23, 10, 9

answering for moratorium cast in general bc these r some tasty questions (warning: it gets so long . i love to yap)

9) Do you have a specific lyric or quote which you associate with your OC? i JUST answered this one today on discord teehee .

mor: lyric: literally all of me and the devil. sorry. cheating. just all of it. quote: “a mother is like god in the eyes of a child” (the crow) or "the people in the mirrors. they see it all! what's really going on." (silent hill origins)

cernunnos: lyric: “call me a seed of evil, but whats that mean if im convinced within your mind?” (cant be erased by jt machinima) quote: “the only me is me. are you sure the only you is you?” (PT) or “they say when you meet somebody that looks just like you, you die.” (i forget the source)

fenris: lyric: “the dreams in which im dying are the best ive ever had” (mad world tears for fears) or “could these sensations make me feel the pleasures of a normal man” (disorder by joy division) quote: "i guess i really don't care if it's dangerous or not. i’m going to town either way." (silent hill 2) or "i don't like mirrors. it's almost like there's an unknown world right on the other side, and the person staring at me isn't really me, just an imitator." (silent hill 3) 10) What's an AU that would be interesting to explore with your OC? i think an AU where fenris and cernunnos switch places – so fenris being a copy of cernunnos and cernunnos being a reality bender – would be pretty interesting. i've thought about it occasionally, and things would definitely be similar but play out completely differently. for example port rosnu would have been the result of unchecked anger and trauma rather than a desperate need to forget and repress trauma, and fenris would probably be a copy of what cernunnos perceives as the "weak" parts of themself rather than the "bad", which they would embrace rather than reject as a defense mechanism, and his motives for bringing cernunnos back to port rosnu would be completely different. but going into a swap au between these two would be going down a HUUUGGEE rabbit hole that i won't go into here LOL. but its interesting, if i had the time and people were interested i'd definitely go further into it ............... also a bendy and the ink machine au 23) What emotion is the hardest for your OC to process? How about express? for fenris, his is grief, especially the idea of moving through it. facing his grief is terrifying because the memories he has are too painful and the idea of letting go means acknowledging they exist. mor's creation wasn't really to escape his grief, but it became a fairly convenient way to do it. his way of expressing that grief is . well . how his life has basically become as frozen as he is in the night his parents died. because of his inability to face his grief, he can never move forward in his life. fenris cannot enjoy the present when he's stuck in the past, and because of that, he can't change. grief is the epitome of change, as so often, grief is when something disappears from your life, and part of the process of moving past it is accepting the change and adapting to it. this is his entire character arc. there's a reason why his tarot card is the death card, both reversed and upright cernunnos' hardest emotion to process is fear. it makes them feel weak, so they try to be feared. they're like a cornered animal biting and clawing to stay safe, and it's not a coincidence the mask they wear is that of a prey animal. it's intimidating, they wear it to be less human, since twisting the innocence often ascribed to a deer into something scary and monsterous is a common horror trope, but it's still a prey animal, it had to die for cernunnos to have its skull in the first place. something hunted it, cornered it, and killed it, something cernunnos tries to imitate but does a poor job at it despite what it may seem. lastly mor's is love. she feels incredibly guilty for the abuse fenris' mother inflicted on him. she wants to atone for it because she genuinely does love him. but mor isn't human. she's what he wished his mother was, but she's also what he felt she was, terrifying, controlling, and someone who continues to haunt his life years after she died. she's like a monster in the closet for him. mor's form of love is kind of twisted as a result, she loves fenris, she wants to do good by him and show him the love she feels he deserves, but she's also profoundly selfish. she loves him, but in a way that leads her to make the exact same mistakes that his mother did that she swore not to repeat 24) What is an alternative life path your OC might have gone down? How different would their life be if they'd made those decisions?

this is a very interesting question to answer for moratorium, and the characters in it in general. i've always said that a key part of fenris' life (listing him specifically, since he's the source of literally everything that happens in moratorium) is that everything that happens was inevitable. even if things didn't happen the way they did, he would ultimately end up right back where it ends in some way or another. say fenris did not kill his parents at 15 in a house fire he accidentally caused. say the fight that triggered it never happened. say they lived and their lives continued as normal. eventually, he would've snapped. fenris could never fully relate or be indoctrinated into his parent's radical, conservative beliefs on society, and the amount of neglect and abuse he experienced never would have changed, because his parents were incapable of change. his mother always believed she was right, and constantly fabricated her own reality to have more and more reasons to convince herself that her worldview is right and that she can never be wrong in anything she does. and his father had no backbone to argue despite the hints that he too was miserable and followed along with whatever she wanted. their home was an echo chamber of resentment, a family of people constantly pushing and pulling at each other and bound together by the very idea that they're family, so they have to stand by each other even as they do nothing but hurt each other, and they're all so bound up by their bitterness that they repress that none of them will ever stick up for themselves and explicitly say something needs to change. so, eventually he would have snapped and probably pulled the trigger himself, so to speak. fenris probably would've ended up killing his parents, and this time it would have been intentional, or one of them probably would've ended up killing the other. their lives were one big boiling pot constantly waiting for the time it inevitably boiled over and once it did it would never have been pretty. so, as much as the idea of alternative paths that could potentially change their lives is interesting, the only change that could possibly happen is his parents not dying on the night they did, meaning he was never orphaned and never got the chance to escape the echo chamber and be exposed to the "normal world" that made him realize how abnormal his was. but they would have died eventually. eventually someone was going to snap because the way they were living their lives was unsustainable. thing's would have happened the same way, just differently

[cattlearts]

rating warhammer 40k fanfic tropes

‘fix-it’ fics - awful. shit tier. this is because a startling amount of fans believe the thing that ‘went wrong’ was the emperor being put on life support, and that a ‘fixed’ universe would be a giant genocidal empire. 

shipping fics - a weird amount of incest. there’s obviously the whole ‘astartes being like monks and calling each other brother’ thing, but beyond that there’s a lot of people that write about the primarchs fucking. 

crossover fics - either pretty good (culture explores 40k) or really fucking bad (all the star wars vs 40k fics). this is because the previously mentioned startling amount of fans write wank about how badass and unbeatable the imperium is which becomes pretty obvious fash propaganda.

‘alternate heresy’ fics - i have never read one that i actually liked. often become weirdly bloated with little to no character. 

planet swap fics - basically nurture vs nature character explorations? can veer into replacing the primarchs with ocs but thats fun too, so i like them a lot. good fanfiction.

toyhammer aus - oh to be online in the early 2010s, writing about all your plastic armies coming to life, bringing with them all their insane bullshit. incredibly nostalgic to read, but sometimes stained with 2010s humor and attitudes.

canon divergence fics - weirdly good. ‘vulkan ascendant’ manages to be an excellent demonstration of the evil of the imperium, and a deep condemnation of the emperor as a leader, a person and a father. ‘everqueen’ is also good, for mostly the same reasons

[aceyanaheim]

What are your Kaiba thoughts for the Send Me a Character ask?

hmm

I’m guessing you mean Seto Kaiba but..imma do all 3 because i can.

Seto Kaiba

First impression

What a BAMF!

( I was a child and very tiny and kinda fairly very bullied and Seto was...well he broke into his own house and jumped out a window. And he could fight. I was sold. I wanted to be like him.) I also sided with him over Yugi on most things...including friendship and speeches.

Impression now

Maaaaaaaaac freakin dork ass curt ass dramatic af  child with anger issues and trauma someone help him someone help him Now.

I also ( obviously) now side with Yugi over Seto on the whole friendship deal. (But I get Seto’s reaction on an almost instinctive level and still love him a lot.)

( Like..dont get it wrong. I poke fun at him because of how much he reminds of me as a kid but...I adore him and I’ll defend him from near anyone. Okay no I won’t because im a coward who goes into fight-or-flight at the mere thought of char-disc-0urse but like still 

I love the kid.  Him good child. Deserves all the happiness and good fortune. I want to see him grow up healthypng.)

Favorite moment

hmm. I haven’t seen him since the show was new so its foggy but..Imma say any time he either shares screen time with Mokuba or snarks at Joey. ( at Joey specifically because oh lord “Mokuba make sure Wheeler’s late” still sends me into a laughing spell. ( mind you I adore Joey too but  uh..yeah. Snarking Seto is best Seto)

Idea for a story

Right now the one I have is a crossover with xmen where Laura Kinney becomes his and Mokuba’s bodyguard. It has ended up becoming 3 separate verses because i couldn’t decide between comic!book Laura and Logan!Laura and also at what time in both their stories I wanted them because I am the opposite of competent and know no hubris.

It’s eking along kinda slow-like tho. Because writing Seto’s hard for me. I feel like a lot of people have done it better already. So I don’t know that it’ll get done.

Also I don’t know how to keep her from killing Pegasus.

I also had an idea for him and Tea becoming friends in like therapy or something but that never kicked off. Although it’s worth mentioning I’d like to explore the concept of what it would take for them to get along.

Unpopular opinion

He’s a good person I guess? I’ve heard that’s unpopular but haven’t seen it. He deserves a shot at a happy life. He’s a good person? He has never ( to my knowledge) been unkind to Mokuba and even if he was being angry in one moment in your life isn’t some kinda morality indicator especially when it comes to children. Especially traumatized to high heaven children who just keep getting traumatized so no Mokuba didn’t “deserve a better brother” or w/e both Seto and Mokuba deserved better period and can people just enjoy the show which is about forgiveness and friendship anyways good golly. 

I mean..yeah I guess I got a few.

 Another one that I think might be unpopular but I don’t know due to not really publicizing it is that Seto and Yugi....actually aren’t that different at the core? Like if you took Seto away from a lot of the Tragic Backstory stuff he might end up..not exactly like Yugi but not that different either. They’d have a lot in common.

Favorite relationship

Him and Mokuba. Hands down.

Favorite headcanon

Ohshoot do i even have one hm. This ask covers a lot of the headcanons I have for him..but I guess my favorite is him liking children followed by the one that he does math equations and formulas when he’s bored.

I also share a lot of the ones @iced-blood has posted due to most of my exposure to the character coming from his fic after I stopped watching the show so a lot of his headcanons are up there too.

Mokuba Kaiba

First impression

He’s adorable. Protect him.

Impression now

He’s adorable and tiny. Protect him.

Favorite moment

Either him in the beginning of the Noah arc since we get to see him know how to operate the computers in KC or when he’s telling Alistair off in Awaken The Dragons

Basically any time he’s not getting captured again for the plot tho.

Idea for a story

I have a couple drabbles based on @kintatsujo‘s age swap AU...and her In The Back Of My Brain AU, alot of her AUS give me ideas actually ( which of course id ask for permission before pursuing)  but nothing concrete.

Oh and the xmen crossover mentioned above.  Mokuba’s a fair share of that since in one of them Laura’s his bodyguard rather than Seto’s. ( in another Gozaburo gets Laura as protection for Seto while still being abusive and they both shake him off. Like I said it’s..it’s splintered into a lot)

Unpopular opinion

I..don’t think I have any? I don’t really know what opinions are popular tbqh. I guess if anything i saw here is then that.

Favorite relationship

Him and Seto. 

Favorite headcanon

His hair’s a liability I speak from experience.

I guess I’m a fan of the shared headcanon that Mokuba wears heelys. I like the idea that he’s not a genius like his brother and maybe he doesn’t get HIgh HIGH grades and maybe that’s okay ( as someone who has a complex relationship with academics I guess thats something I wish i saw more often yknow) because he’s smart in different ways.

I like the idea of Mokuba being athletically inclined like skate boarding or parkour or being involved in some sport at school I mean he roped climbed out a window in his intro episode so its not that outlandish.

I actually don’t have that many headcanons for this kid. I should fix that.

Noah Kaiba

First impression

Yikes. What  a freakin loon. ( first episode) Oh no..he’s lonely and abandoned. Oh no oh no oh no. ( later episodes in the arc) Okay but he’s still a mean dude ( when he turns ppl to stone) Oh no...he died...and he turned around at the last minute WHAT DO YOU MEAN I DONT GET TO SEE HIM AGAIN. ( at the end)

( yeah Noah took kid!Me through the freakin wringer)

Impression now

He was a child. And his father left him to rot. 

He deserved so much better. 

I love him. I cry and screech about him needing things monthly and sometimes weekly. 

Favorite moment

When he turned around to fight Gozaburo. Also the scenes where you see Mokuba getting to him.

Idea for a story

I guess-no I know a lot of people have done it better but I like the idea of a canondivergence where he’s spared and/or rescued by Seto.

I also like the idea of crossovers with shows like Digimon or Code Lyoko where you have digital worlds.

I just don’t want to be alone and i want him to have nice things okay. That’s..that’s all i want..from life.

Unpopular opinion

Probs that he was an actual smol child and got a raw deal and Deserved Better. ( tm) ( you’ll find thats..my beat with a lot of characters ^-^:) 

Favorite relationship

He...doesnt have any? In fics where he gets brought back like Paved With Good Intentions ( specifically Blue Eyes Violet Eyes) I like seeing his relationships with the other Kaibas. But as far as Canon goes...yeah there’s none.

Favorite headcanon

He’s very tactile. He liked running his hands through his dog’s fur and it always got to him that digitized it..wasn’t the same.

Following that he used to be very physically affectionate before Gozaburo started discouraging it.

Following that if he was to be brought out of the digital place/rescued I think he’d be pretty clingy. I mean because of the tactile thing and because..he’d need to reassure himself the world around him is real.  

If he had been allowed to live he’d probably think he didn’t deserve it/that he has to Atone for the stuff he’s done.

His whole world was his father and even when he hated him he loved him. He wanted nothing more than to be held by him again. That’s why the abandonment stung so much, there’s nothing like hating and being hurt by someone you love...and still having a part of you love them. A part of him still wonders what he did to get left behind. That’s a big part of what drove him to the deep end.

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