#a piece of media making me that emotional

[moms-home]

As an ally, I have never seen any evidence of what you’re talking about.

I personally don’t have a dog in this fight and never will, but you’re being really emotional right now and it feels like you’re making things up to cancel my friends. Consuming this piece of media is the most interesting and progressive thing I do, and I can’t let you take that away from me. I already roll my eyes when I see one of you people in my shows, and this really isn’t helping my biases.

Look, you just have to consider that I work hard and consuming media is my time to escape. I’m already tired of hearing about this thing that I’ve never had to think about before.

[bunnakit]

coming outta left field and talking about something that has nothing to do with me bc i don't have anything better to do with my time right now.

that whole fandom discourse was whack and i'm sorry @lurkingshan and @waitmyturtles had to deal with that. there's def been plenty of posts i haven't liked or haven't agreed with in fandom and you shrimply just have to scroll! there's no need to make a response unless you're coming from a genuine place and can have a respectful discussion. if you're coming from an emotional place you just have to say "people like different things" and move on.

i personally am not mutuals with shan because we have a lot of different opinions about things - this is not a dig at shan, she doesn't follow me either prob for the same reason! i think she articulates her posts incredibly well and comes from a very genuine place. i don't know turtles that well bc i haven't been in the space much these days but based on what i've seen she seems much the same.

media analysis is and should be vast and varied, that's what makes it fun, and not everyone is going to share your opinion and people will always interpret things differently based on past experiences, differences in knowledge, etc. they aren't evil for that.

this is what i think is one of the most important things from shan's post -

You don't owe anyone your presence here, and you don't have to express opinions on everything or respond to tags or asks if you don't have anything to say. Sometimes you might just want to take a break from posting, some things in the discourse might just flow right on by you, sometimes you will not have a firm opinion on a debate. You can post as much or as little as you want. You can suddenly decide you don't want to talk about a show anymore. You can not log into your tumblr for days or weeks at a time. Do you, boo!

to add to this, and i know this won't be a very well received statement, if you're finding yourself having these big emotional responses just because someone didn't like your fav it may be time to take a step back and reevaluate your priorities in fandom. as someone that took a break from fandom and dramas in general i highly recommend taking a second and finding your peace again. humans are emotional by design, it's what makes us great, but if you're getting violently wound up about someone else's opinion of a fictional piece of media created for entertainment purposes i think it's time to take a deep breath.

fictional media is art and people can and should always have different opinions about art. yes, even art featuring your favs.

i left the fandom for a long time because Last Twilight deeply hurt my feelings as a disabled person with an incurable disease - but that's on me. i'm sure many people found the message an uplifting one of hope (as i believe it was intended to be.) my personal experiences caused me to have a different take on it - but again that is because of my personal experiences and does not make my opinion of it right or wrong, it simply is.

tldr: i think it's important to remember that there are no correct opinions in fandom; if there were they wouldn't be opinions but irrefutable facts. you need to get used to seeing opinions and reads that differ from your own and embrace the art of filtering unless you feel capable of having a calm and respectful discussion.

i wanted to share my thoughts as someone completely unassociated with shan and turtles from a place of complete neutrality. if you're going to have a discussion have a discussion, if you're just gonna rag on someone because they didn't mindlessly jerk off your fav keep it to your group chat or something, don't be a tar pit.

this being said, get used to seeing things even if you try to filter! it's not perfect, i've filtered out spare me your mercy bc i haven't seen it yet and want to form my own opinions but things have absolutely come across my radar (either in my own tags, clicking links, etc.) it happens, don't be weird about it.

[swordduels]

Her eyes narrowed as Regalia kept smirking without any sense of fear despite the obvious threat. Circe found it strange how calm she was compared with the earlier panic as their love making had been abruptly interrupted. It didn’t make sense that mortals instilled more fear than someone like Circe who could turn anyone into an animal. Unless all of it had been a ploy to gain sympathy. Though it seemed unlikely with how enthusiastic Regalia had been to pound her into five or ten more orgasms. Maybe this was her way to keep her pride intact and hold her power over Circe. That made more sense. Though a part of her began to wonder how much had been planned out from the start. Some of these happenings seemed too well put together to be accidental. The dead bodies being found around her living quarter, the already existing OnlyFans and her sob story about being homeless. Circe’s nose wrinkled as she looked at the shaking knife before facing Regalia. It wasn’t her own hand trembling but the knife itself. This was not even her own doing since she didn’t actively performing any spells. 

How much of this had been planned out from the start? 

“I always do and you know it, darling.” Her voice was calm but serious before she looked at the knife as it slowly cracked and turned into pure dust before disappearing without a trace. Oh Gods. Regalia had already regained her dangerous abilities thanks to Circe’s aid and the sexual recordings spreading like wildfire. This process was much faster now with social media compared to how wife collections had been like in the olden days. During those times she had used far more violence to force people into subjects. Right now the focus was to squeeze out energy from Circe while tapping into lusting followers. Then what? With Regalia’s thirst for power she wouldn’t be satisfied with sharing an apartment and having a simpler lifestyle.  No. She would likely expand this business and maybe fish for more women  and maybe some men to join in. Circe met her gaze with a sweet smile. “I guess we don’t have to post more videos or sleep together now that you are able to pulverize your enemies again.” She spoke with a sugary voice while her eyes kept storming with emotions as Regalia not so secretly threatened her in turn. It was impossible to stop the followers from flocking or spreading videos but she could in theory step away from it all and let her be. In theory. Regalia would never leave any loose ends and she had always been obsessed with keeping her wives unless they became a nuisance or lost value for any reason.  “It’s called putting up boundaries and I believe it’s time we discuss some ground rules if this is going to work. For starters, is there anything else you’ve done that I need to know regarding crimes that could put me in prison?”

The silence between them was heavy with Circe waiting for a response of some sort. Be it an apology, explanation or agreement to keep some boundaries between them.  Circe crossed her arms while facing her with a stern gaze. The way Regalia touched her own blood before tasting it made her wrinkle her nose. Toying around with blood was something she had not seen before.and seemed uncharacteristic for someone like Regalia.

“Lovely.” She huffed and shook her head while resisting the urge to punch away that wide smirk. “I’m on a sex strike until further notice and you can sleep on the floor.” Most of her anger was on the lower side as she began to prepare plates and utensils. After filling both plates she placed them in different places. One onto the kitchen table for herself. However Regalia would find a steaming plate by the floor in front of her. Circe kept quiet while devouring every piece of egg and bacon while listening to the news report. It was tempting to drop her phone into a glass of water but then she would need to buy a new one. @fallesto

The smirk didn’t falter but her eyes searched Circe’s. The blade was cold against her throat and she felt the slight tremble of the knife as Circe held it steady. The tension in the room was palpable and she knew she had crossed a line. 

She took a step back and leaned away from the counter. “You think you’ve got all the power here, Circe. But you’re wrong. You’re playing with fire.”

And then with a glance at the blade, Circe felt the weight of the knife in her hand and the tremble grew stronger. The blade would become heaver and begin to rust, break, shatter, decay as it shattered not even into shards, nor dust, it was as if it had merely vanished from the world itself as her golden eyes blinked several times.

Her eyes then locked on Circe’s, a hint of something unreadable flickering in their depths. Then, with a casual grace that seemed to mock the gravity of the situation, she touched the crimson line on her throat. Her fingertip came away stained with blood, which she brought to her lips and licked off with a smirk. 

“You’re getting feisty. It’s been a while since someone’s had the nerve to challenge me like this.”

Holding the crimson droplet between her thumb and forefinger, she raised it in the light. The blood looked almost black in the dim kitchen, a stark contrast to the pristine whiteness of her skin. Her eyes grew darker as she contemplated the power she had at her fingertips. This one drop of her blood could be the spark to ignite a firestorm of destruction that would consume the city. It was a power she used, a trump card she kept hidden from everyone, including Circe. That with her blood, she can destroy an entire nation, just one droplet would be enough to slaughter not thousands, but millions with no one able to stop her.

But as she held the droplet there, watching it quiver with every beat of her heart, she felt a strange thrill. The idea of reducing the world to ashes was tempting, but it was a thrill she had always kept in check. Her love for chaos had boundaries, even if they were as elastic as the moral lines she danced around. The room was silent except for the sizzling of the bacon and the distant hum of the city outside. She knew Circe was waiting for a response, expecting her to back down or perhaps even apologize.

“Only because I love you.”

Her smirk grew wider, a silent dare to Circe’s unspoken challenge. She hopped onto the counter with an agility that belied the weight of her decision. The news played on the phone, a mundane backdrop to the tension between them. She licked the blood from her finger with a dramatic flourish, savoring the metallic taste, watching the amusing reactions play across Circe’s face. The news anchor’s voice grew louder as the headline of a missing people cases caught her attention. Something that was of course, linked to her, stealing hearts, murdering and erasing people from existence, her trademarks, besides.

It was a game she enjoyed, just how much Circe tolerates her antics.

[thenextchapterbegins]

everytime my dark urge in game experiences happiness after everything hes tried to refuse to become actually experiecing happiness instead of fear of himself or holding back that tidal wave of evil i sob gently in a corner.

[doomedclockworkdotmp3]

heeyyy gaaanggg

the pose and the background of the album version (left) are based on oingo boingos only a lad album art. not cause i think he has anything to do with it but just cause ive been wantin to draw that pose for like. weeks and i didnt know who to put there. so why not my latest bug man.

[paranormalglass]

i need to yap about mouthwashing and how the community received it bceause its so odd to me

mention of rape under the cut very disorganised cause its just me dumping my thoughts

mouthwashing is a very confronting game where you play for most parts in the perspective of a rapist and if not him then the man who excused and enabled his actions

its very confronting in showing how everyone around anya fails her and how her rape is covered up despite almost the entre tulpar crew being aware of what happened. when anya was talking to curly he said hed talk to jimmy hed figure it out hes excusing jimmys actions even if hes well intentioned he is allowing jimmys assault fall under the radar

when anya and curly are talking before the crash and anya mentions the dead pixel on the screen that curly cant see saying 'itll drive [him] crazy thinking about it' but then almost immediately seems to forget it reads to me as a metaphor for how anya and the abuse she faced was treated. he said he cared and that he would do something about it only to really push it down and move on from it

anyas suicide is the culmination of all the actions of the men around her how they failed her and its a very important part of the game jimmy himself never takes responsibility or accountability for his actions as is a major part of the later game and hes seen to be aggressive to anya throughout the entire game swansea knew yet he never intervened while he may not have been around anya and jimmy he still knew what jimmy did and the fact he did nothing is so heartbreaking and eye opening

the fact that people will take a game like this and then go ignore all the themes and messages to make ship art and content of curly and jimmy makes me so upset. yeah theres always gonna be shippers but theres a time and a place and more often i see peopel upset that it would be a toxic relationship between the two which is why they shouldnt be shipped

theres a time and place for shipping and in mouthwashing i feel like its incredibly obvious that you shouldnt be to each their own or whatever but its so frustrating to me and absolutely soul crushing that anyas struggle and a major point of the plot if not most of it is ignored for the sake of shipping. i can undersatnd that curly and jimmy have a really interesting dynamic and place within the story as foils but theres a time and place

i can relate to anya and i see myself in her which may cause part of my upset and i understand and know i cant control what people do in spaces but its so bizarre to me that people will see a game like mouthwashing about how a woman was failed by the institutions and men around her and make it about shippinh

ive seen a lot of art of curly and anya or even anya and jimmy being shipped which is. a whole other thing. how do you msis the plot that bad genuinely. i feel like you have to play the game with your eyes closed to do that.

tldr i dont understand how a game about the impact of a rape and its cover up is entirely overlooked and ignored to make ship content

[revenantghost]

"I love Trigun so much," I say, even as it makes me sob on the daily

[eosofspades]

okay i meant to make this post forever ago but my personal opinion on why so many people were so dissatisfied with lightfalll (disclaimer: i am not one of these people, i love lightfall SO much), is that lightfall was kind of subjected to a really aggressive marketing campaign.

like, stick with me here, i feel like almost all the lightfall release content (the trailers especially) were so focused on battling the witness, how this battle has been centuries in the making and this is the Second Collapse Finally Finding Us, only for there to be,,, no real resolution. the end was left on such a severe cliffhanger, but not only that, there was NO battle with the witness. the witness didn't even seem to be having a hard time at all with what we WERE throwing at it.

and for narrative reasons *i* am obsessed with this ending; in terms of storytelling i adore practically every creative decision that was made in lightfall, but i think the reason that so many people were so upset about it is because lightfall had such intense marketing and was rooted in the implication that this was the End of Days, only for us to get almost no closure, and instead so many more questions.

(there's also something to be said, i think, about the fact that the people who ARE most upset about this are like, the youtube gamer dudebros who's content is very very often rooted in the aggressive, violence-and-warfare, pvp-centric, no-interest-in-lore approach to destiny, and that the people i've seen primarily ENJOYING the narrative decisions (or at least being understanding about it) are the artists and writers and loremasters of the fandom, but i'm not quite sure,,, how to expand on that point.)

[infizero]

i think one of the things that makes toby fox's writing so great is his ability to tell a compelling narrative AND metanarrative at the same time. undertale isn't JUST about how people play games and the need for completionism, and it isn't JUST the main story that you play through. it's both! and both are equally important.

and i think the same will be true for deltarune. some people tend to think of it as black and white when theorizing, either focusing too much on the meta aspects without taking the actual plot and character arcs into account, or doing the opposite and saying that the meta aspects aren't important and won't end up being relevant to the story. it's both! it's always been both!!!

[hyp3rfixation-h3ll]

alright chat . it's time for "dissecting the inherent tragedy of transformers: botbots and the relationships in them":

toxic doomed yuri edition ( referring to these two ↑ )

(yes, i made this picmix myself 4 this. i have no regrets. also no tl;dr because you guys NEED to read this)

something i want y'all to understand is that it is Not about the idea that spud wasn't loved. he was VERY much loved by everyone, ESPECIALLY burgertron.

the whole point is that he sabotaged himself in the process of ruining someone else's life, someone who valued him and his word above others. he and burgertron BOTH let their ego get in the way of their personal lives, the only difference is that burgertron at least had the dignity to swallow his pride and apologise when it mattered most.

He gave spud a second chance because he loved him. because he recognised that he does deserve redemption, and above all else, he wants spud to know he cares, even if that means he'll never see him again, or they'll never be friends. (Even in light of the "sidekick" comment, i genuinely don't think he held any inherent malice in that statement. even if burgs was an egotist, he still loved him.)

the worst thing burgertron did in their relationship was be unaware, and im sure that despite his ego, he never meant for spud to get hurt. that's why he went out of his way to protect him, when he couldve just stood there and let spud get put on the back of a truck to never be seen again. it would have been easy.

but he didn't. he did the hard thing. the Right thing. he stood up for someone who never did the same for him.

Spud Was Loved. Spud Is loved. and sometimes love isn't going to look pretty, or manifest in holding hands and cuddling, and it isn't all rainbows and sunshine. it can hurt. it can be letting go of someone who you hurt by accident, who you never meant to harm, but it happened anyways because you made the fatal mistake of being oblivious.

And that's what Burgertron did. he let Spud go, because he understood they both needed time to heal on their own terms. regardless of if he's mad at him or not, he does still harbor positive feelings for him, and he stood up for him during times he probably shouldn't have. If he ACTUALLY hated spud, he wouldn't have stuck his neck out for him at bot prom. or believe spud when he was lying through his teeth in the games.

And that's what makes them so tragic. perhaps in another world, another life, they'd have been Actual good friends, who truly stuck by each other. maybe things would have been different.

But we'll never know that now, will we?

[walker-lister]

I just have to remind myself sometimes that no matter what anyone else says, the way a piece of media makes me feel and the positive impact it has had on my queer identity is valid, and that tearing myself apart thinking I have to defend it or questioning my own place within queer communities is not at all important when compared to the almost tangible sense of 'rightness' that piece of media helped me to feel about myself.

[cubedmango]

u ever see a piece of fanart that changes the very molecular structure of ur body and leaves u with such devastating emotional damage it renders u completely incapable of speech and all u can do is like it and share it and leave a nice and normal comment that doesnt even capture 1% of how feral u feel and then go back to ur life having to pretend ur even remotely okay after seeing that

[galaxygermdraws]

I don't usually post sona related art, but I just beat the SMRPG remake and it made me just. start crying. Like i was just sobbing my way through the end of the game, and my hope for the future of Mario RPGs has never been brighter. So it made me just. Feel a lot of emotions and I didn't really know how else to capture them.

I'm very happy I got to live during a time when this wonderful game got a remake that will be more readily available for people to play. And I am so happy this game was just as good as I have been told it was. Definitely looking forward to replaying it again.

Uh. Yea. Jus kind of a personal piece I 'spose. Bonus little doodle I drew the day before the remake dropped under the cut

[fatheroffdensen]

at first i felt kinda weird about the 'dethklok hate church' clip bcuz of how theyre portraying toki and it was just surprising is all but i actually think it's a really good thing to be portraying an 'ugly' aspect of trauma and mental health in a more mainstream media and in a way that doesn't glamorize nor shame it. like yes it will be tough for loved ones to deal with but they're still patient and ohh my god i literally cannot fucking wait to see army of the doomstar and how toki's gonna be handled. ohghghr my god. brendon is such a guy.

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

[psalmsofpsychosis]

Me: i'm so uninspired :( i can't write for shit :( :(

Also Me: *casually writes a 5 page essay in 5 minutes on Eastern minimalism vs. Western minimalism after watching Jacob Geller's video essay on Heizer's "City" *